#author is GAY

[madeofmosaic]

all snakes tangle up

a.k.a. i wrote a poem about... a few topics in one

"you know I never mean it", you say, you always say that.

you're crying, even if I didn’t feel the tears running down my collarbone, I would still know.

because that's just how you are. you lash out, get angry and yell at me. you occasionally punch the wall or break my wine glasses. I stopped offering to clear the blood off of your knuckles after a few time this happened.

I also stopped buying new wine glasses and hid the rest, away from your angry, harsh and calloused hands. now your hands wrap around my thin neck instead of delicate glass.

after that you go away, sometimes you go for a cigarette, or you visit the pub down the street. I always wonder what you do when I can’t smell none of it on you.

I always wonder what went south, where did we go so wrong.

I wonder what goes through your mind when you see blinding red behind your eyelids and on your hand.

I ponder what you do when you don’t come home to me for the night, and only come back when the sun start to rise above the sleeping city.

but without a beat, you still crawl back to me. crying, begging and apologizing.

“I’m sorry” you say, hugging me from behind, burying your head in the crook of my neck. your eyelashes gently sweep over my shoulder and I can feel the tears that are stinging your eyes. how I wish I could swipe them away and make it all okay.

“you know I never mean it” you’re crying. your tears fall to my collarbones and pool at the dip of it. I don’t pay attention to it or you any more.

sometimes I wish I could cry with you, hold you in my arms like I always used to. that was then, and now is now, so I don’t share my tears with you.

“please don’t leave. you’re all I have left, I could never live without you.” half-truth, half lie. perhaps I’m the last person on earth that still cradles your face, but you would never struggle without me.

you would find another girl. a prettier one, a naiver one, a more forgiving one and forget about me. you wouldn’t hold me when I call out your name and beg you to come back, the same way I do with you.

perhaps if I keep you wrapped around my fingers tight enough, you won’t leave me. right?

I stay wrapped around your fingers, too, just tight enough so I don’t choke in your hold.

we will stay just this way.

her body between my soft hands.

and my throat in her fists.

[impishtubist]

I've never been explicit about this because I'm a Fandom Old, and back in the day it was simply understood that anything on the Internet was fair game to do with what you wish, but: if you see a story of mine out there and you like it, download it. Fuck if I care. Keep it for yourself, distribute it to friends, print copies for yourself and your friends, mail it to people, I don't give a shit. As long as you're not exchanging money, I couldn't care less. And tbh you should be doing this with all fanfics you love - print them, save them, put them on a flash drive or a hard drive or share them with friends, whatever. Fanfic authors these days are really fucking precious about their fics, but honestly we're probably going to start seeing queer art being disappeared (especially in the US under the next president) so do whatever you can to archive the things you love to read. Even if that means just printing them out and sticking them in a binder for yourself to read as a bedtime story.

[catcheroflies]

jegulus my loves. they find each other every life time.

[time-to-write-and-suffer]

I love how on Tumblr, "media literacy" has become "Um, just because someone writes about this doesn't mean they're endorsing this. I hate all these media puritans ruining everything."

I'm sad to inform you that knowing when and whether an author is endorsing something, implying something, saying something, is also part of media literacy. Knowing when they are doing this and when they're not is part of media literacy. Assuming that no author has ever endorsed a bad thing is how you fall for proper gander. It's not media literacy to always assume that nobody ever has agreed with the morally reprehensible ideas in their work.

Sometimes, authors are endorsing something, and you need to be aware when that happens, and you also need to be aware when you're doing it as an author. All media isn't horny dubcon fanfic where you and the author know it's problematic IRL but you get off to it in the privacy of your brain. Sometimes very smart people can convince you of something that'll hurt others in the real world. Sometimes very dumb people will romanticize something without realizing they're doing it and you'll be caught up in it without realizing that you are.

Being aware of this is also media literacy. Being aware of the narrative tools used to affect your thinking is media literacy. Deciding on your own whether you agree with an author or not is media literacy. Enjoying characters doing bad things and allowing authors to create flawed or cruel characters for the sake of a story is perfectly fine, but it is not the same as being media literate. Being smug about how you never think an author has bad intentions tells me you're edgy, not that you're media literate. You can't use one rule to apply to all media. That's not how media literacy works. Sorry! Sorry! Sorry! Aheem heem. Anyway.

[angry-kid-with-no-money]

"Nora doesn't know anything about the things she writes about" "aftg is terrible queer rep" "the queer characters in aftg are so problematic"

Idk guys maybe the book series abt problematic ppl set in 2006 and written in the mid 2010s shouldn't be expected to hold up against scrutiny of what we consider to be moral and correct now, in 2024

Idk tho, idk

[artemis-pendragon]

Imagine you're some religious guy who agrees to let an angel inhabit your body for a holy purpose and it all goes great except your wife thinks you're insane and threatens to take your daughter and leave but this is IMPORTANT so you let the angel in anyway. But then BUT THEN. it turns out the angel's mission is to pull Some Guy out of Hell and the fucking angel is gay and insane and rebels against Heaven because he wants to kiss this guy from literal Hell on the mouth so so so bad. Also many years later he does use your now thankfully empty human body (you got killed by Lucifer during the fight to stop the apocalypse btw) to fuck nasty with the guy he rescued because again, he's gay and insane. Every day Jimmy Novak wakes up

[stayuntilthefoglifts]

"But must it always be a tragedy? Maybe suns are meant to love boys who fall into seas." I KNOW it's supposed to be a quote about Icarus, but it's so Jegulus coded I can not stop thinking about it.

[companionquest]

alone at the end of the world

post I made that inspired this ^^

[vyhonella]

hi I'm alive here my new hyperfixation (help)

[joeyhazell-art]

Kicking off pride month with some delicious dungeon lesbians 💖🧡 I’ve been sucked into this anime and I have no regrets.

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[postpendulum]

Damian's new classmate was what most people would deem as strange, Damian however could not see him as anything other than suspicious. Daniel Knight had joined in the midst of the school year, claiming to have moved here with his father Fredric Knight (first area of suspicion, a parent willingly moving both them and their child to Gotham) for a new start following his fathers divorce. The boy was reclusive when not spoken to directly, however he would not stop talking when a topic of his interest would come up. After searching further into his past (as he does with all his classmates) Damian found a relatively normal past, the only outstanding things being a noticeable drop in grades at the beginnings of freshman year relating to an undisclosed accident resulting in lichtenberg scarring starting from Daniels palm, and presumably up his arm being hidden by his sleeve. Apparently this accident left Daniel with irregular tremors and, every once in a blue moon, seizures. Damian had thought about taking this suspicious blockage of information to Tim or the Bat Computer to be bypassed, however the idea of sharing Daniel this cases existence with the rest of his family for some unexplained reason bothered him greatly, so Damian has come to the decision to figure out Knight’s true intentions on his own.

Meanwhile Danny’s just trying to live his new, semi-normal life in peace. After a reveal gone wrong results in some good old vivisection, Jazz Sam and Tucker recruit the help of Clockwork to find Danny a new home, where he can heal from both the physical and mental wounds. Clockwork ends up dumping Danny into the DC universe alongside Fright Knight, who was insistent on going with him, feeling responsible in helping to protect his young prince now since he feels he failed the first time. So with a bit of spacetime razzle dazzle, Tucker messing with stuff he probably shouldn't have messed with and a very tearful goodbye with promises to check in every day, Danny goes off to start his new life as Daniel Knight. It was going ok so far, he took half the year to himself, focusing on healing. Also so Frighty could adjust to the whole pretending to be human thing. Danny doesn't have any friends yet, and to be honest hasn't made the effort to make any (Jazz would be disappointed if she knew that), but there's this one boy in Danny's class who might be even weirder than him. Danny can feel Damian's eyes on him, knows how he follows him around without a sound (Danny really shouldn't be able to tell, he only knows because he isn't fully human(and in a weird way, Danny thinks that's kinda cool)), and whenever they do make eye contact Danny can see and feel the boy fluster and shy away.

Maybe he just needs a friend too.

[until-the-house-shakes]

Autistic Regulus freaking out because he can’t find his headphones, everything is too much, and none of his clothes feels right

And then there’s James. Offering his noise canceling headphones, bringing them both into a private room, and offering Reg his own sweater (which he knows is Reg’ favorite)

[honeybadger-who-gives-a-shit]

Not enough people are talking about Mr. Loverman on bbc. This show has:

Two elderly black men in love

Tale about internalized homophobia

Caribbean culture in England and in Antigua

Family dynamics and intergenerational relations

Great acting

A touching story

Is based on a book (I haven't read it yet, but I heard great things)

I won't tell you more because I don't want to spoil it.

Granted, it's not a perfect show, but it is sweet and you should definitely give it a try.

[catcheroflies]

i did NOT need to see this thanks.

[reallybadblackoutpoems]

allegory of the cave (380 bc.) - plato

“socrates: now consider the following. barkbarkbark”

[erraticprocrastinator]

Nothing feels more amazing as a fanfic writer than finding the fandom, the pairing, the trope, that reawakens not only your love of writing, but also the joy that comes with just being hopelessly and unapologetically invested in something.