#aumour

[littleshopofhorrors-confessions]

sooooooo obsessed with t4t seymour/audrey.........why is there basically no content for them I GUESS I'LL DO IT MYSELF (unless you have recs?? 👀👀)

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[lordtemn]

Lady Aumours, a birch Easter egger chicken with Amanita polypores. (the little critters at her feet)

Should there ever be an unread arcane book you’d best believe she’s the first to get her hands on it.

[tampire]

“Certainly you knew of these things, did you not?”

[tyrilstarfury]

OK like Aerin acting all surprised when the gang rolled up to kick his ass... Like bitch you deadass left the door wide open... we even had time to shop for new aumour, weapons and shit... Villians 🙄

[eira-kuso]

I can help! Krillin is off model, the design of Freeza's golden form is wrong, Cell's thing in his head is bended, Vegeta aumour's is the wrong color, Piccolo is wih his weighted clothing, but not his weighted hat, and Trunks' hair color is wrong, i think. And Gohan's hair design is from his ssj2 form, but he never uses that form with his weighted clothes.

Hope i helped

Tell me what's wrong here

I can't

I don't know enough about dragonball

[claennis]

30.7.17 Matching designer items with mommy-out-in-town outfit. (Items ft. Gucci tote handbag, Frederique Constant limited ed. watch designed by Shu Qi, sweet aumour automatic)

[littleshopofhorrors-confessions]

Ngl Seymour is so lesbian coded actually, Also Audrey x Seymour walked so Harley Quinn x Poison Ivy from DC comics could RUN

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[littleshopofhorrors-confessions]

*Guy who's only watched Little Shop of Horrors voice* Damn Huskerdust really reminds me of Seymour x Audrey

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[littleshopofhorrors-confessions]

i have nothing against seymorin shippers or anyone who doesn’t like arthorin, but i’m kind of annoyed by the people who post things like “arthorin isn’t even that good anymore”, or something along those lines.

it’s fine to ship something new and different but you can’t just say that a perfectly good ship that many people still love (me included) is “out” or “boring” or. really anything like that, just because you found something you think is cooler. many moons ago we were all RAVING for arthorin, we used to love arthorin :(

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[littleshopofhorrors-confessions]

the ship name seymorin implies that seymour tops 😈😈

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[tampire]

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OM Work Week 2: Reflection on “We Are All ONE”

“Know One, know all.”

I really like to think and say that “we are all one,” because I truly believe that we are, in fact, all ONE. (Quotes to aid in my explanation from The Katha Upanishad)

But what does that mean to me? 

It means that myself, you, every person, every animal, every plant, everything are all one. There is no difference between you or I or a cow or an apple tree or a whale or whatever, we are all the same deep down. It is common to see ourselves as separate. When we see ourselves as separate from other humans and when we see ourselves as separate or better than other animals we create suffering by thinking we are separate.

“The eternal Self slays not, nor is ever slain. Hidden in the heart of every creature exists the Self, subtler than the subtlest, greater than the greatest.”

What does it mean to be one? 

It means that I am made of energy, love, stardust, Self, Brahman (“the hidden Self in everyone”), the Universal Mind, whatever you want to call it, and you are made of the same thing. Your Self is no different from my Self. Your Self is Brahman and my Self is Brahman. Deep down to our cores we are all one.

“It is but few who hear about the Self. Fewer still dedicate their lives to its realization.”

It is Ego and separation that lead us into believing that we are separate and that we have an “individual soul” that is separate from each other; this is the concept of Atman. But in fact Atman and Brahman are the same thing: an experience of Love. The problem is that some don’t notice this oneness that prevails.

“The truth of the Self cannot come through one who has not realized that (s)he is the Self. The intellect cannot reveal the Self, beyond its duality of subject and object. Those who see themselves in all and all in them help others through spiritual osmosis to realize the Self themselves.”

How do I see others as one with myself?

To see others as one with myself I have to first be able to see them as myself (in their mistakes and triumphs), and see myself in them and then realize that we are in fact one. In a few sessions with Sufey we have done “eye gazing” which is basically sitting still facing someone and looking directly into their eyes for an extended period of time. At first we giggled, then once we moved past the tears-rolling-down-face-my-cheeks-hurt laughing the real lesson began. The last time I did eye gazing I experienced something I never had before. I will share some of my journal entry directly following: “I almost got lost in the universe in her eyes. We are all one. I nearly got lost. But it was good. My eyes started to lose focus. She was in a fuzz, halo where all I saw was her eye. Then when I closed my eyes I saw this glow. I saw the Self. Or at least what it looked like right now to me. A beautiful glow. Her aura around her body. Both found around her body when my eyes were open surrounding her physical body and then her Self aura with my eyes closed.” (Some of you may be thinking that this is an exaggeration, but hey the proof is in the ink, I guess you could say. This is just my experience.) Yes, it sounds strange at first to think about looking into another persons eyes for more than 2 seconds, but it can be a powerful experience. When you truly LOOK not just at someone, but deep into their eyes, into their soul you will see that we are all the same, all united, all one.

“The wise, realizing through meditation the timeless Self, beyond all perception, hidden in the cave of the heart, leave pain and pleasure far behind. Those who know they are neither body nor mind but the immemorial Self, the divine principle of existence, find the source all joy and live in joy abiding.”

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AUMour: YTT Week Two

Hello! So although it’s been more than one week since my last post, I am finally getting around to writing about my second week of YTT (had a week of no class hidden in there). These past two weeks have been a bit of a rollercoaster. I had  my last few days of rest and relaxation before starting a new job last week and have been working non-stop since then. Having no class last weekend was relaxing, but I also missed it and my YTT tribe very much. I missed their shining faces, words of wisdom and encouragement and most of all their love. They inspire me to be the best version of myself I can be and I may have forgotten that a few times during my busy work days.

What is this new job you speak of? Well, good question avid reader. I am working at a tree seedling nursery in town, which basically means I stand in one spot for almost my whole 7 hour shift (my body is thanking me ... not, bring on the asana). I hunch over a conveyor belt separating out good trees from bad trees, bunch them in groups of 15 or 20 depending on the seed-lot and then do that over and over again until it’s time to switch to the end of the conveyor belt and wrap up those little bundles of poke into plastic wrap. Then after 3 rounds of grading and wrapping I get to put these bundled beauties in boxes and stack em up (40 lb boxes onto pallets). This rotation of 15 minutes per task lasts 2/3 of my day with the last 1/3 made up of loading blocks of trees into the pin extractor (pushes the trees out of the blocks and onto the conveyor belt) off a large wagon, feed blocks into a block washer and stack them up, build boxes for the trees to be put in, frantically clean up, load tree blocks out of the greenhouses and onto wagons.

In my dreams and when I close my eyes I see these things rushing down a conveyor belt to their imminent trash can death if I don’t stack em neatly, cut out the doubles and remove the cull before the next row of 30 is dumped.

Aside from the physical strains (ouch my back and hips) I have also noticed that it’s mentally straining. Who wants 7 hours a day to run free with their thoughts? But don’t get distracted or you’ll zone out and lose a bundle to the trash. This has been my biggest challenge, probably, and has either been my triumph or pitfall. Days where I have let my mind go into the rabbit hole of whatever thoughts my brain can conjure have left me exhausted, in a horrible mood and in bed before 8pm (yes, really that early) and other days have allowed me to remain positive, practice and begin my OM work at 8pm (although I would love to be sleeping).

At YTT this weekend we discussed many topics, of which my following OM work will be about, but one of the takeaways I found important was to be asking myself “How do I accept / love / forgive more?” and to always have love as my intention. I also re-watched The Secret the other day and have remembered the importance of our thoughts. Our thoughts become things and if our thoughts can be on love and peace and if our intentions behind our resulting actions are of love then all will be well.

I have been trying to apply this to my new work life. I work with some real characters (think: people who come out of the wood works once a year to work a seasonal 7 week position where you don’t really have to talk to anyone - there’s one guy on my team who hasn’t spoken a word even when asked questions, we’re waiting to hear him talk, hopes aren’t high). I also have waaaay too much time to let my brain run free. I have been trying to have love as my intention in all things I do generally, with how I interact with my (sometimes difficult) coworkers and with my thoughts.

I know this wasn’t really about my YTT, but hey this is my blog so I’ll write what I please. A Bhagavad Gita quote to ease your woes:

“When you know no peace, how can you know joy?”

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OM Work Week 1: Reflection on Verse from the Katha Upanishad & How it Relates to My Own Life

I had a difficult time picking just one as there were many verses that resonated with me. I will briefly talk about each that I have chosen. (Prepare for an essay…)

“Far apart are wisdom and ignorance. The first leads one to Self-realization; the second makes one more and more estranged from one’s real Self.”  pg 75

 I think this is important, as a lot of people are content at this point in their existence to remain ignorant. Ignorant to a lot of things. This is very unhelpful in aiding them along a positive, helpful and healthful life path. I used to be ignorant to a lot of things, and once I had opened my eyes I realized that each time I overcame an ignorance (and I still have a lot to go) I felt like I was becoming closer and closer to my true Self. Living a life that lead me closer and closer down the path I knew was right. I think ignorance is a defense mechanism that humans use. It is easier to remain ignorant than to put in the work and effort involved in gaining wisdom, involved in taking steps towards Self-realization. I think a lot of people are willfully ignorant, where they know that something is happening, but because it’s too difficult to deal with the thing, or too much work to make a change regarding that thing, they ignore any incoming knowledge on the subject and choose blissful ignorance. I do not, however, think that ignorance is bliss. I believe that understanding and wisdom are, in fact, bliss. Only once you have gained knowledge and understanding can you find yourself closer to your true Self. By allowing yourself to let go of ignorance and see things for what they truly are, and by gaining wisdom, you become closer to your true Self. 

“Those who see themselves in all and all in them help others through spiritual osmosis to realize the Self themselves.” pg 76

This is very relevant to my life recently as I had an experience that frustrated me, because I felt like I was the only one in a group of people who was on a spiritual path, on a path to better myself to my true Self. I was having a hard time seeing others as one with myself and all others when they didn’t appear to be anywhere near myself on a level of understanding. They appeared ignorant, to me. It took me a while (and a very long journal entry) to work through this and I came to the conclusion that because of many circumstances people can get stuck in their ways, not know the damage they are doing (to themselves, and to others), they aren’t yet ready to make changes (Ego is holding them back), they are insecure (possibly for good reasons) about standing up or expressing a desire to make changes in their life, or a number of other reasons. I also came to the realization, as I will talk about in a bit, that everyone is at a different place in their journey. Some might be lifetimes ahead or behind others on their journey to Self-realization. I came to realize that instead of being bothered by this difference between myself and other people, I should take these experiences as an opportunity to try my best to share what I do know to those around me. To let my light shine on others. Who knows who might be impacted by it? Who will catch spark? I would like to live my life as the best version of myself, to exude that lightness all the time, to always be brightening other people’s days and lives. And that is exactly the way to inspire others, by living by example. Maybe a fragment of my light will be the spark to start a fire or be the tipping point for someone to begin a life of self-betterment and to find their true Self. If I can see the Love in everyone, that Universal Mind, that Soul, that Light and acknowledge it and speak to it as well as the personality it is contained in, I can maybe allow them some glimpse of that Love in themselves and maybe eventually in others. If I can be the lightest version of myself and constantly exude Love, then through some form of spiritual osmosis I can help others to realize that Self in themselves.

“That which is the source of the sun and of every power in the cosmos, beyond which their is neither going nor coming, is the Self indeed. For this Self is supreme! What is here is also there; what is there, also here. Who sees multiplicity but not the one indivisible Self must wander on and on from death to death.” pg 85 

The other morning I woke up to the most beautiful sunrise shining through my window and onto my face. I thought to myself that this is a blessing; this is a perfect and beautiful expression of Love from the Universe! That same energy that powers the sun and causes all life on earth is the same energy and source that powers me, and you and everyone and everything. This is the Self, Love, Light, whatever. This Whatever is supreme, it is in everything and is everything. Those who cannot see this Self are unable to achieve that end goal, that realization of who you really are and realization of that Self. If you don’t get to understanding, by necessity you will come back from death to death, wandering on and on. This isn’t a fulfilling way to live. This is why I need to understand that others are at a different place in their journey to the Self - the journey that all of us are on even if we don’t know it yet. That realization (both the realization that we are on a journey and the end goal realization) may be lifetimes away. This unsatisfying cycle of existing, from death to death, may be broken or cracked by the light I am able to shed on someone.

 “If one fails to realize Brahman in this life before the physical sheath is shed, he must again put on a body in the world of embodied creatures.” pg 90

 This is exactly what one can avoid through realization of the Self. If one fails to realize the Self, before this human, crazy, Lisa life is over, Me - I - must be put back into a new body in this strange and ever changing world. I shall fall into this pattern again and again, from death to death until I am able to find that Self. A new body, devoid of the knowledge I gained in this life, or at least unaware of it until someone new shines a light, or cracks my ignorance and I am able to again (who knows how many times I have lived and gotten this far, close to this, or even farther) find that wisdom. 

“They say yoga is this complete stillness in which one enters the unitive state, never to become separate again.” pg 91

Finally, I believe this is exactly why I have taken such a liking to Yoga and believe that this YTT and Yoga life journey are so right for me. This unitive state is taking the form of a Yoga Tribe, a unity with the Earth and Mother Earth, and a unitive state with myself and the Self. I have a long way to go, but I believe that this is the beginning of something AMAZING. I feel like something has cracked, my hard, external layers are falling and crumbling away and my petals are opening and blooming so that the light can finally come in. I believe that this is how one ought to feel, and I believe that I can feel 100x better than now, by remaining focused on this path. I believe that, although the hard work and dedication need to be put in on a day-to-day basis, that if one commits themselves to this complete unitive state, this path of yoga, that we can never really become separate again. I can never become separate from the animals on this planet and therefore I will never harm or consume them. I can never become separate from the environment and perfect Earth (not perfect in its current condition, but perfection in its abilities, nourishment, shelter, beauty, etc.) and therefore I try my best every day to leave the least impact, and strive to make as many improvements as I can. I am one with the animals. I am one with this Earth. And now my next hurdle is becoming one with the Self. I can never go back on my oneness with animals and the Earth, and I believe the same about oneness with the Self. I am on the right road, and never want to step off this path and unity (already becoming one, never to become separate again).

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OM Work Week 1: Reflection on 8 Major Paths of Yoga

Bhakti Yoga - the path of love, devotion, surrender

Hatha Yoga - the path of integrating body with spirit

Jnana Yogga - the path of knowledge and wisdom

Karma Yoga - the path of selfless service (seva)

Kundalini Yoga - the path of awakening and raising the dormant Kundalini energy at the base of the spine to fully activate the chakras and create a clear channel between the earth and heaven

Mantra Yoga - the path of chanting a mantra (or mantras) until the power of the mantra is fully activated, granting the chanter the power of the mantra and/or erasing the samskaras (mental tendencies)

Raja Yoga - the royal path

Tantra Yoga - the path of ritual

As far as physical practice I deeply resonate with Hatha Yoga. I identify strongly with the harmonization of mind-body connection. With regard to the way in which I wish to live my life I strongly resonate with Karma Yoga. I wish to live my life in more a karmic way.

I resonate with Hatha Yoga because I strongly believe that one needs to find balance in life. Through its balance of the yin-yang flow of life and harmonizing the body (through asana, mudra and bandha) the mind (through drshti, focus and intention) and the spirit (through pranayama, play and meditation). This “Forceful Yoga” I believe offers the best of both worlds, while not focusing too strongly on the body, nor focusing too strongly on the spiritual or mental aspects of Yoga. I believe that in order to find your true Self, the body, mind and spirit all need to be worked.

I also strongly resonate with Karma Yoga for its emphasis on selfless service. I think it’s important to approach life in a way that you are giving all you have, doing the right thing, because it’s the right thing without expecting anything in return. I believe people should be passionate about things that matter, working to better the lives of humans, animals and the planet. This relates strongly to my own life, because as a Vegan I believe that humans have the responsibility to act in such a way that betters the lives of animals (millions of animals beaten and slaughtered for human consumption, in my opinion completely unnecessarily), the Earth (animal agriculture being the #1 contributor to climate change, CO2 emission, species extinction, deforestation, etc.), and our own health (very serious human health implications associated with animal product consumption including increased risk of cancer, cardiovascular disease, diabetes, etc.). I believe that I should live my life in such a way that I am working on behalf of all humanity, sentient beings and for all life everywhere. I believe strongly that an attitude of gratitude and standing up for those who are voiceless or oppressed is the right thing to do (not only with regards to Veganism, but also all People including but not limited to women’s and LGBTQ+ rights), without any ulterior motives associated with these actions.

 I think that in all things balance is key and therefore I understand that all the paths of Yoga have validity. With regard to the other 6 paths I can also say that I like Jnana Yoga, because I think it’s important to be questioning society’s programming, and to unravel our own programming and that I like how Bhakti Yoga is the path of love, devotion and surrender, because truly all thing start and end with Love.

“The attitude of gratitude is the highest yoga” - Yogi Bhajan

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OM Work Week 1: Reflection on Beginner’s Mind

“In the beginner’s mind, there are many possibilities. In the expert’s, there is only one.”

To me this means that as a beginner you come with an empty cup, you don’t assume much about anything, and you come at life and experiences with an open mind, ready to fill up with and receive knowledge. As an expert you think you know everything already, you think you know of the “one” way to do things. Once you have settled into your ways, in thought or action patterns, you have less room to grow. You don’t try new things; you don’t see all the possibilities that life has to offer. You may be arrogant in your knowledge and oversee a brand new possibility or opportunity that happens to fall outside of your “only one” possibility. 

So as a beginner you approach things as a child might, you try everything in any way possible, but once you’ve grown you try less. As a child you aren’t worried about failing, you just keep trying, but as an adult you have already done some failing and find things that work for you. This may be a good thing as each and every time you do something, you don’t have to fail again in the same way, as you have learned your lesson, but this should not hinder you from branching out and trying things even if you think there is a possibility of failing. 

As a beginner you may be open to new ways of doing things, there are many possibilities. As a beginner you aren’t looking for the perfect way, you are just looking for your OWN way, while exploring without any preconceived notions or rules. The important thing to take away from this is that everyone should try to see beyond their parameters, see beyond the “rules” about how to do something. They should approach life, and everything in life with a beginners mind in order to see all the possibilities that life has to offer. If you approach life with the expert’s mind, you may never allow yourself to learn anything new if you are so intently focused on the “only one” right way of doing things. 

This relates to my life, because I am trying to use this beginner’s mind to approach this YTT! I have some ideas about what I do know, and through the lessons so far I have realized that I know more than I thought I originally did about certain topics. The lesson here is to not hold too strongly to what you think you know and allow yourself to be a beginner. Allow yourself to be a student and see what you can learn from each encounter and every situation. Everyone has something to offer you and a lesson to teach you. If you think someone has nothing to offer you, then you will never learn anything new. It is important to feel adequate as beginner. Being the expert isn’t always what it’s cracked up to be, especially if you lose the ability to see possibilities all around you in everything you do. For me to allow myself to have that empty cup and admit that “I don’t know anything” or that “I don’t know this thing in particular” gives me freedom to see all possibilities and learn without judgment.