#Unsent

[viceandmature]

Overkill breaks the damage limit in Final Fantasy X and King of Fighters AllStar

[redheadprincess22]

You’re not the one he wants. Move on

[theloulouge]

[taxman-talkman]

🕯️

[ inner thoughts meme from Here. ]

Every time we talk privately, I feel like I'm going to be sick. I'm so fucking scared of you. I have to keep retyping shit over and over and over again just to talk to you. I shake so bad whenever you talk to me. But I keep talking because you have answers and I need to know what the fuck is happening. I don't know what's going on. I need to know.

But I'm so fucking scared of you. I'm so scared. I never want you to know that. But you're going to know the type of person I am. I'm so mad at you because you're like "oh you're my friend Vesser" and I'm like this and I'm not. I. You're just going to find out. The Tenno are supposed to be good. I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop. I'm waiting to go back to the box. I'm waiting to fuck up again.

And I can feel it on the back of my neck. Like you're looking at me. You think you like me and I wanna just yell at you. I'm bad. I'm a bad person. I'm going to fuck everything up. I'm going to get worse. I'm going to be bad. It's going to be bad.

I don't think you're my friend. I think you want something from me and I'm scared because I'm not smart enough to know what it is. I'm too fucking exhausted all the time to figure it out and I feel like such a fucking baby because you're nice to me most of the time and I don't know what it is. I'm just scared. I don't know why I'm scared. But I just know you're not in my corner. No one is. No one should be. No one can be.

So I just sit here and I fucking shake and I get mad and I get upset and I get scared and I'm such a fucking baby for it. Maybe I can buy myself more time but I know. I know it's not gonna be enough. I'm sorry I'm such a fuck up. You weren't as good a judge of character as you thought you were.

[deviacon]

Breakdown

Skin of ash and voice of smoke

Her fiery soul now has awoke

Sultry allure of her avatar worn

Does not betray her soul's true form

Of resilience incarnate, burning bright

The hope in me it does ignite

That a kindred spirit I might find

To share the madness in my mind

Will she see in me the same?

Dare I reach out for the flame?

[phie04]

whatever you do don’t read the unsent project when you’re sad

[random-xpressions]

Read please my unsent letters too that were too shy to leave my desk...

Random Xpressions

[alpha--arietis]

how much person meat can get into a product after an industrial accident until you’re considered a cannibal btw go go go

[hunger--endured]

one of those funny things that they don’t teach you about in school is when it comes to grief and guilt, you’ll always thing you’re doing it wrong

honestly gauss should be alive instead of me. he would have handled this situation a lot better than i have. he would have never let this happen. he wouldn’t have upset everyone so much. and yes maybe i’m living with the idealized version of him in his head. this version of him where he’s alive and makes no mistakes and is just as perfect and great as i saw him as when we were kids but also. also

also. like. that is the last thing i remember him as. that’s it. after that point, there isn’t gauss anymore. i do everything wrong. it’s all my fault. and i can handle the consequences but i kind of just wish everyone would give up on me so i wouldn’t feel like i’m just disappointing them constantly.

dissel still looks at me like she’s so upset. and i keep thinking about what arrioe said. “when are you going to leave me to.” i don’t mean to be this way. i regret everything ive ever done

[fearhims3lf]

[pm, in Spanish] Please come help me sleep again. I miss you so much [no message sent]

[no message received]

[holy-market]

Yes he’s a huge loser. And you all love him.

[bittersweet-t3aya]

Even though I’m the one who stayed until I broke, I want to get so drunk that I call you up and tell you every sick, desperate, and doe-eyed thing that I never got the chance to tell you before.

[taxman-talkman]

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One day. Maybe soon. You’re going to realize how horrible of a person I am. I’ve been kind of putting it off because I like having friends who didn’t have to see me at my absolute worst. Who didn’t have to be snapped at, who didn’t have to watch me swallow my pride and relearn how to walk with new prosthetics. Who don’t have to deal with the worst parts of me all the time. You’re forgiving and you’re kind but you’re not that forgiving. I know there’s a line somewhere and I don’t know what it’s going to take to cross it for you but I know I will. I know I will. Eventually. I will.

There’s never been someone who has had it so bad and who has come out of it trying to be. Nothing like. What they wanted us to be like. You got dealt a shit hand in life again and again and again and you’re still. You don’t want to hurt anyone. And you’re not. Mad. And I want you to be mad because the shit that’s happened to you isn’t fair. And the only way that I can think to. I don’t know, deal with that is to be mad. And I guess I worry that maybe you don’t think it was so bad or maybe that. It’s okay that it happened to someone as “low of a station” as you and I don’t want that. I want you to treat yourself like a person and I want you to be mad. Or at least. Something. It wasn’t fair. It’s not fair.

I think about the line that I’m going to cross with you a lot. I watch it. From where I am. I can’t see it but I always look at the next shitty thing that’s going to come fumbling out of my fucking mouth. I don’t expect you to love what I say every single time. I know it’ll happen. You’re my best friend but I know it’ll happen. I had it so good compared to you and I turned out like this.

I don’t have enough time left to make it up to you. For how I am. I’m going to say shitty things and there won’t be enough time for me to. Take it back or. To apologize or anything. You’re going to go on and I’m really, really not.

I’m scared that I’m going to cross that line and you’re just going to accept it. I’m going to step clear over that line and you’re going to act like it’s normal. Or I’m going to step over that line and you’re going to. I don’t. Know how to do this. I don’t know how you do it. How you’re not mad all the time. How you’re not just. I want you to know that you’re a person and that you get to be mad and frustrated at how things are, how they were, how you were treated.

How you are now scares me a little. I want Florix to be Florix. Not Infestation but, yourself. And I’m. I don’t want you to lose more of yourself. I want you to be yourself. I want it to be you. I want Florix, my friend. My best friend. And I can’t tell you. I don’t know how you live day in and day out with that. I’ve lost so much of myself, I nearly lost my fucking mind in shelving and I don’t know how you do it. How you feel yourself being pulled apart, pulled thin over many different places all at once. Aren’t you afraid that it isn’t you anymore? I want it to be you. I don’t want to lose you. I was scared. I know what I said. I can’t apologize.

When the time comes when I inevitably fuck this all up and I’m stumbling over myself to apologize or take it back or whatever it is that I stupidly try to come up with, I hope you pick yourself. I was ruined by what happened to me and you’ve managed to come out of it. A better man than I ever could. So I hope you pick yourself.

Good luck.

[betweenthings2]

girl. the unsent project one goes hard you are so creative

Thank you so much!! 💚💚 I'm really excited about it--I've wanted to do something with the Unsent Project from a long time. Originally, I was just going to use if for one-shot prompts, but I think letters will be so much more interesting and way more fun for me to write. It's going to have chapters and I think it's going to be fictional!George's POV with a letter and his reaction or recollection of whatever fictional!Matty wrote about. The fic itself will be immediately post rehab, so they're unsent letters. I was going to do emails, back and forth, but that was the wrong vibe. I hope we all feel good about vaguely epistolary fic because I will not be dissuaded from writing this.

[mortemoppetere]

[pm] [deleted: Do you] [deleted: Would you kill me?] [deleted: You think I'm a monster, right?] [deleted: I don't hurt people. I especially don't hurt Wynne] [deleted: I'm a monster. You] [deleted: I'm sorry] [deleted: Please don't kill me. I'll do anything to convince you. I --]

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[theloulouge]