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wherever you go (a joel miller's ff) - chapter 1
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pairing: outbreak!2003!joel x f!reader.
summary: itâs september 29th, 2003, and joel cannot wrap his head around the fact that sarah is truly gone. as heâs about to put an end to his own sufferingâŚ
warnings: mdni. suicide attempt, suicidal thoughts, deathwish. loss of a daughter / family members. please do NOT read if this is triggering for you. swear words. reader is female, no description given. no mention of age. no use of y/n.
a/n: this is my very first attempt at writing tlou fan fiction. please be nice >: one-shot (maybe?). mainly joelâs pov but then changes to readerâs pov. this is by no means lore-accurate. also this is my interpretation of how joel lost his hearing in his right ear and got the scar on his right temple â he did imply he tried to end his life after sarahâs death so this is how i imagine it happened. finally, this is not proofread and english is not my mother tongue, so please excuse any mistakes you might spot. enjoy! (or not? cry with me pls).
w/c: ~1.3k.
Had life been any different, Joel would probably not be in this position.
He had lost everything he held dear. His very reason for living. He could not wrap his head around the fact that Sarah was gone. Truly gone. He could still feel the mud under his fingernails â his vain attempt to undo the work Tommy had put into digging Sarahâs grave.
It still felt unreal. His baby girl was six feet under, just a few yards away from him. But in his mind, he was still hugging her closely against his chest, feeling her warmth. Tommy had tried to console him, but there were no words in any human language that could sooth his broken heart, so his brother left to run the perimeter and give him some space.
The last few days were like a whirlpool of pain and tears â agony filling up his lungs, constricting his throat. Joel could not remember the last time he had cried, but he had done so many times in the last seventy-two hours. He could not contain his own emotion any longer. Such torment was too overwhelming. A father was not supposed to bury his own daughter.
It was thanks to his brother that he had been able to put his Sarah to rest. After hell broke loose in Austin and that damn official had shot at them, Joel could not bring himself to recall what had happened afterwards. From what Tommy had told him, they ran for as long as they could â Joel still holding onto Sarahâs lifeless body. His brother was able to secure a vehicle and they drove out of the city to avoid any more unwanted encounters.
That was how they got to Sam Houston National Forest. Under normal circumstances, they would have gotten there in under three hours, but it took them almost three days. Sarah loved that nature reserve. They would vacation nearby in the summertime when Joelâs schedule was clear of contracting jobs. Sarah, always full of life, would push her dad down the hiking trail, giggling, teasing him and his old knees.
Paralysed by fear, pain and guilt, Joel had only been able to watch as Tommy put a shovel to the ground and started digging. He only snapped out of his stupor when his brother murmured something as he kneeled before him to take Sarah away from his arms. Joel could not comprehend what Tommy was doing until the younger Miller put Sarah in the hole. That was when he had completely lost it.
It had been hours and Joel had not moved yet. His back against a pine tree, hands on his lap. His eyes fixated on his daughterâs tomb. Tommy had fashioned a cross with wood branches to mark the grave, wildflowers surrounding it despite being September. The contrast between the blooming wildlife and Sarahâs burial pit was gut-wrenching. So much that Joel had to close his eyes to stop them from watering once more.
Tommy had assured him this dreadful feeling would lessen with time â maybe even go away. Joel had just looked at him blankly in disbelief. He very much doubted it. There was no way he could feel his heart beating again when it had been ripped out of his chest. Emptiness eating him up, nothingness taking over his soul, dread engulfing his senses. There was no coming back from this.
Truthfully, he could not see the point anymore. The world was ending anyway, why postpone the inevitable? Joel was sure that he would only burden Tommy â in this state of mind, he was not going to be able to protect anyone, let alone his brother. In fact, he would just guide him to his death, the same way he had led Sarah to hers.
Joel opened his eyes and looked down. Tommy had left a gun on the ground to his right while he patrolled the surrounding area, in case he was interrupted and in need of protecting himself. What he was thinking about doing could be considered as âprotecting himselfâ â from his own thoughts, his own breathtaking pain.
His right hand wrapped around the grip of the gun while his index finger slid towards the trigger. As Joel put the gun to his right temple, his eyes locked on the makeshift wooden cross. He hoped he could be reunited with Sarah in Heaven, God knew he had tried his best in this life and had still failed. It was not enough. He was not enough.
Joel took a deep breath, eyes closed, and pulled the trigger.
Houston was in shambles. You just barely escaped that godforsaken city and made it to the closest nature reserve you could think of. It was the best idea, you thought, as people would be scarce in the midst of nature. So, you walked and walked, until you came across two men who had set up camp off the main trail. You kept to the shadows, not knowing if you should trust them or not.
The youngest one left a few minutes after your arrival, so you adjusted your position in order to not be seen. From there, you could have a better look at the older guy, who seemed rather defeated, sat on the ground, his back resting against a tree. His eyes bare, his face completely blank. You assumed his crushed expression was because of the events of the last few days.
Or, at least, that was what you thought until you spotted the improvised grave in front of him.
Tears welled up, gathering at the rims of your eyelids. You knew that feeling damn too well. Not only the outbreak, but life had also taken some very important people from you. The feeling of loss â you perfectly understood how hard it could hit.
But you could not reminisce about old times, not now, when your own life was hanging by a thread. You were alone in this world, and you knew how fucking dangerous that would be for a woman. Human nature scared you more than some goddamn virus.
So you were lingering. You saw those two men, and you pondered your options. Something was telling you that you could trust them â if you could trust anyone while the world was ending.
You came closer, making sure you did not make a noise. That was when you saw the raw emotion painted on his worn-out face. There was something about him that drew you in. His gloomy look spoke of hurt, but also danger.
And then you also saw his hand holding a gun to his temple.
You just acted â without any concern for your own safety.
âNO!â, a painful shriek left your mouth as you ran towards him, your knees skidding through the dirt as you stopped by his side.
You wrapped both of your hands around his wrist, trying to pull the gun away from him, when the shot went off with a loud bang. It grazed the skin on his temple and blood started to pool on the fresh wound.
âOh, shitâ, you said breathlessly, pressing the palm of your hand against the gash to stop the bleeding.
His brown eyes focused on you, a mixture of shock and disappointment.
After what felt like an eternity losing yourself in those irises, he mumbled:
âWhy?â
You tried to talk, but the words would not leave your tongue.
âIâŚâ, you started to explain yourself, but was quickly interrupted.
âWhat the heck was that?!â
You looked up and spotted the second man, the one you saw walking away a few minutes earlier, running towards you â rifle on hand, pointing at you.
Blood rushed out of your face. Was that how you were going to die after all?
âTommy, waitââ
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Insanely normal Freudian slip
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self insert x canon will always hold a special place in my heart
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Hi... Please take my art. Thank you! [runs away]
[I also drew Dogwarts ponies as the elements of harmony :]
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Our Little Secret
Summary - Joel Miller deals with disgusting, intrusive thoughts about the girl next door who smells like vanilla and uses cherry chapstick.
Pairing - dbf!Joel Miller/Reader
Warnings - explicit sexual content MDNI, kinda perv!Joel, age gap, no cordyceps outbreak AU, reader's in high school but is eighteen, dom/sub undertones, seduction, underage drinking, body worship, unprotected sex, reader is called 'jailbaitâ by Tommy, oral sex, breeding kink if you squint, praise & degradation
WC: 11k
[crossposted to AO3]
Joel Miller told himself he wasnât a pervert. He just wasnât. Double glancing at a pretty, young girl didnât make him one of those guys â it just made him a man, right?
Never mind the fact that your father was one of his closest friends or the fact that you lived just next door, embodying half of the very typical scandalous, small-town affair. Never mind your eighteen year age difference. Never mind those obscene images that sometimes invaded his brain. Joel had heard the term once. He thinks Sarah might have told him about it from that science documentary she watchedâthose sordid images were called intrusive thoughts, right? Involuntary, unavoidable, unwanted.
It wasnât only him who stared in your direction a little longer than necessary, anyway. The very first time heâd seen you, Joel and Tommy had been in the driveway doing an oil change on the truck. You and your dad had just moved in, Joel had introduced himself the day prior and helped haul a bed frame through the front room. Your dad had mentioned he had a daughter, but Joel had expected to see a girl closer to Sarahâs age.Â
He hadnât expected to see you, wearing those tight blue jeans and that tiny tank top that left very little to the imagination. The straps were thin and the fabric billowy, and when you shifted the box beneath your arm from one hand to the other, the pretty pink fabric of your bra was out in the open for all eyes to see. Your hair had been pulled into a ponytail at the crown of your head, swishing back and forth with each step. It made Joel wonder about how soft the long strands were, how they would feel between his fingers, how they would look splayed out atop a pillowcase â intrusive thoughts.
Tommy was quick to abandon his tools and cross the front yard to greet your father, offering you what seemed like an innocent helping hand. Joel thinks his younger brother has no self control, but he leaves the truck too. Only to introduce himself, though. Definitely not to get a closer look.Â
Your voice is sweet, he thinks. It slides through him like a hot knife through butter. And when you laugh at Tommyâs awkward attempt at conversation, that sound stabs him in the chest because itâs so girlish. So young and youthful and airy. That pink lace is still poking out of the side of your shirt, even though Tommy now carries the box, and Joel strains himself trying to keep his eyes above your chin.Â
âAnd you must be Mr. Miller,â you say, sticking your tiny hand out to him.
He knows itâs a bad idea, but he doesnât want to be rude, so he takes your hand in his and shakes it gently. Your skin is soft, nails painted red and manicured and he wonders what other parts of you are this soft, wonders if red has always been his favorite color, wonders what it would look like wrapped around â âJust Joel,â he tells you, clearing those damn intrusive thoughts as quickly as they appear.Â
âJoel,â you repeat, tasting his name on your pink tongue and giving him a sweet smile. âThere's two more boxes. Wanna help me grab them?â
Heâs careful not to answer too fast, afraid of sounding too eager. But he agrees, and you lead him to the open truck bed, and as you bend over to grab the smaller box his hands flex at his sides. He thinks you must be doing this on purpose. Right? Torturing him, sticking your ass out, silently begging him to look. But he doesn't. Instead, Joel picks up the larger box and notices the scent of vanilla radiating off your skin. This is almost worse because his mouth begins to water.Â
âMy dad said you have a daughter,â you say.Â
âYeah. Sarah. Sheâs younger than you, though.â
âThatâs okay. Does she like cake? I have to bake one for my home ec final and could use a taste tester if sheâs not busy.â
It really puts things into perspective, and heâs glad for it. Finals. School. High school. âIâll ask her,â Joel says.Â
You lead everyone inside and direct all three men to take the boxes to the living room where you begin unpacking. You sit on the floor as you sift through the boxes, legs tucked underneath you, and Joel has to force a smile when you look up at him through your lashes. You say thank you, Joel from your knees and he feels something very, very wrong stir inside him.Â
Tommy follows him back outside, and on the way back to their truck his voice is high pitched in mockery as he says, âThank you, Joel! Youâre so handsome , Joel! Let me repay you with my body, Joel!â
He just laughs it off, but as he continues with the oil change beneath the hood an uncomfortable silence settles between him.Â
Eventually, Tommy shakes his head and snorts. âThat girl is nothing but fucking jailbait, man.â
He sees you quite a few times after that, because your dad works in construction, too. Joel drinks the same kind of beer, and your dad has a pool table in your garageâŚso, naturally, they become the best of friends and very quickly at that. Tommy joins the party too, and within months they become an inseparable trio.
Itâs during one of these nights when the three of them were standing in the garage with the door wide open, music playing from the speakers in your dadâs truck when those intrusive thoughts plague him again. Tommyâs losing at pool, drunk before the sunâs fully set, and your dad is laughing at something heâs saying.
Youâre walking home from practice and stop suddenly at the end of the driveway. Joel can see you, but he doesnât think Tommy or your dad can. The truck is in the way, but heâs in the perfect position. He stares a little too long, but he canât help it. Youâre wearing your cheer uniform, and your midriff is exposed, and your long legs are so fucking appetizing that his tongue sticks to the roof of his mouth. Your skirt is rolled up at the waist, making the fabric shorter than itâs supposed to be, making it sluttier than itâs supposed to be.
When you notice him staring, you shoot him a sinful little smile and raise your finger to your lips. A secret, Joel realizes. You want him to keep something a secret, and somehow it feels intimate, having something between the two of you. He watches you unroll the hem of your skirt and pull at the ends so it covers more of your legs. You turn in a semicircle, and he licks his lips, and when you look at him again you raise your hands in question.Â
He gives you a discreet thumbs up, and when you make your way up the driveway you give him the prettiest smile and say, âHey, Joel! Nice to see you!â
Tommy gives him shit for it later, but heâs too distracted at the sight of you in that uniform to even remember Joel exists.Â
âYouâre late,â your dad chastises. âPractice was over at five today. Itâs almost six.â
âTook the scenic route,â you reply easily, and Joel can hear the playful tone in your voice that lets everyone in the room know of your insincerity.Â
You walk past them, backpack slung over one arm, but before you disappear inside you wink at him over your shoulder.Â
âGet ready, Joel,â your dad tells him with an exasperated sigh. âTeenage girls are hell.â
And Joel is inclined to agree. Even more so when heâs laying in bed that night, wondering about all the things you couldâve been getting up to in that hour it took you to get home. The school was a short, ten minute walk from your house. And even if you truly did take the scenic route home, it wouldnât have taken you an entire hour to arrive.Â
So, what were you getting up to? Joel didnât think you had a boyfriend. At least, not one you ever brought home. But not having a boyfriend didnât mean anything. Not in this day and age. And Joel knew the mind of a teenage boy. He had been one, once upon a time, and knew without a doubt the lengths a boy your age would go to spend an hour alone with you. He thought about all of the things he was doing at eighteen, and his brain ran wild with those ideas.
After hours of laying there, unable to find sleep, Joel Miller took out his phone and opened a private search tab. It had been a long time since heâd done this, and heâd tried not to â truly, he had spent every minute since heâd closed his bedroom door trying to get the images out of his head. But it was like an itch he needed to scratch, becoming more and more irritating the longer he put it off. So, he typed cheerleader into the black and orange search bar and promised himself it was the one and only time heâd ever do this.Â
He just needed to get it out of his system. That was all.
(If he was honest, Joel knew as soon as the thought crossed his mind that it wasnât true. Even when he scrolled through the videos to find a girl who looked strikingly similar to you. Even when he turned his volume all the way down, and reached into his sweatpants with his free hand. Even when he squeezed his eyes shut and thought of that rolled up skirt and that pretty pink lace, pornographic images long forgotten in favor of the ones youâd supplied. Even when a few quick tugs was all it took to shoot thick ropes of cum across his belly. Even when he cleared his search history, cleaned himself up, and rolled over to sleepâŚeven then, he knew it would not be enough to get you out of his head.)
The next day, Joel saw you leaving for school and couldnât bear to look in your eyes. He couldnât stop thinking about what heâd done and feeling shameful, feeling like the very sordid man he knew himself not to be. He wasnât a pervert, but heâd certainly felt like one that day.
You waved your hand and beamed like you did every morning. But Joel didnât wave back. Oblivious to his atrocities, you played your hand at concern. âYou okay?â
âFine.â
âYou donâtâŚÂ seem fine. Is there anything I can do to help?â
Godâyour voice, full of kindness and sweet summery grace, was better than the audio in any porno heâd ever seen. âI said Iâm fine.â
Thankfully, you took the hint and scurried off, not dissimilar to a wounded animal. Guilt immediately choked him. But, pushing you away is what heâs supposed to do. So he doesnât change his mind.Â
At least, not at first.
He spends the entire summer going out of his way to avoid you. He offered to host guys nights at his house on the weekends instead of your dad's garage. He left for work five minutes earlier than normal to avoid having to hear you say good morning, Joel! and wave at him with those pretty red nails and smile at him with your pretty white teeth.
But once summer starts, you and Sarah begin spending way too much time together. And at first, it makes him nervous. You make him nervous. He doesnât want to make small talk. He doesn't want to see you in your uniform. He doesnât want to look at you at all, actually.
It works out in his favor though, Joel thinks, because you and Sarah have the same taste in movies, and she thinks you're the coolest thing thatâs ever existed, and so whenever Joel and Tommy are in your garage, youâre at Joelâs house with Sarah. So he doesnât have to be on edge, wondering if heâd turn the corner and youâd be standing there smelling like vanilla and wearing pink lace.Â
But then youâre hosting a high school graduation party a few short months after you move in. And your dad invites Joel and Tommy to the party in your backyard. In fact, he practically begs them to come and keep him company. And Joel canât say no, because what excuse would he have? Sarah would never let him skip it, anyway. And so his avoidance comes to an end, and he finds himself standing in your backyard with a glass bottle in his hands, watching people congratulate you and your accomplishments all day long. Straight Aâs in all those AP classes you took, your dad tells him proudly, clicking his tongs together over the grill. Joel knows youâre a smart girl, he doesnât need to know your grades to see that you have your head on straight, but he also knows youâre a far cry from the timid little girl your father believes you to be. Joel can see it in you.Â
Still, youâre far smarter than he is, because while Tommy drones on and on about a project heâs got going on at home, all Joel can notice is the pretty sundress youâre wearing. Itâs pink, like the lace that sometimes still haunts him. It clings to you at the top, molding sinfully against your chest, and flows out at the bottom, cutting off at your midthigh.
Itâs too short, Joel thinks. Way too short to be wearing around so many male classmates. Around your dadâs friends. Tommy likes younger girls, you know. And JoelâŚJoelâs turning away from you and swallowing whatâs left of his beer. He clinks the empty glass against Tommyâs and asks, âYou need another?â
Your dad is the one who answers. âHow about a shot of whiskey? The cabinet above the sink.â
Joel thinks it's a fantastic idea. He gets stopped by Mr. Adler on the way inside, who asks what the celebration is. He talks for far longer than heâd like, and by the time he gets to the kitchen, Joel really needs something stronger than beer.Â
Except, when he steps into the room, he freezes the moment he sees you standing there. Your head whips in his direction, eyes wide as if youâve been caught. Itâs only as he tears his attention away from you and notices the two red solo cups on the counter and the bottle of tequila in your hands, perched over them, that he realizes what heâd just walked in on.Â
Your cheeks are pink, the same hue as your dress, and you quickly try to explain it away. âJoel! Hey! This isnâtâŚIâm not likeâyou know, itâs just a celebration andâŚIâll be nineteen soon andâI mean, itâs just a little .â
He raises his eyebrows, unsure of how to navigate this terrain. On the one hand, he feels the need to discipline you somehow. To turn this into a lesson of sorts, to let you know how the age of legal alcohol consumption is twenty one for a reason, that being drunk in a social setting like this is dangerous, especially for a girl like you.
But on the other hand, Joel knows heâs not responsible for you. Heâs not your father, and heâs not going to be the one to give you the speech about underage drinking. Heâd been far younger than eighteen-almost-nineteen the first time heâd gotten drunk. And you were rightâŚthis was a celebration.Â
The war in his brain seemed to dim what little common sense he had because Joel found himself standing behind you with almost no room to spare. The sweet scent of vanilla filled the space. Youâd curled your hair, and the ends tickled the inside of his arm. Soft. So, so soft he could die. He puts his big hand on your bare shoulder, and reaches above you into the cabinet, finding the half empty bottle of whiskey. His fingers twitch with the urge to squeeze your supple flesh. Christ. Itâs just a fucking shoulder, Joel, he tells himself. âItâs your party,â he says. âI wonât tell.â
It feels wrong just to say it to you. I wonât tell. Perverted thing to say, Joel thinks. You spin around to face him, and suddenly your breasts are brushing his chest, and Joel canât breathe. âThank you,â you whisper, taking your bottom lip between your teeth and sending him into his fucking grave.Â
Itâs then, as he stares down at you and you stare up at him all sweet and innocent-like, that Joel finally admits to himself that avoidance has done absolutely fucking nothing to put out the fire you started. He clears his throat. âYeah, yeahâitâs, uhmâŚitâs no problem. Have fun.â
He turns to leave, but then your arms are around his neck and he canât smell anything but vanilla and he can feel your tits pressing into him, can feel you everywhere. But Joel isnât a mean man, so what can he do but hug you back? If someone walked in, theyâd think it was a fatherly embrace. Proud. Protective, even.Â
But they wouldnât know that all Joel could think about is the way your skin felt under his calloused hands. Or the way your soft hair tickled his cheek as he laid it against the top of your head. Or the way your hips were nestled right between his thighsâand you were so warm andâ
Intrusive thoughts.
âYouâre the best, Joel,â you say, eyes bright and cheery. Heâs relieved when you pull away, but also a little bit empty. He watches you pour a shot into each red solo cup. âYou know, Iâve never tried whiskey. It seems so, likeâŚÂ manly .â You giggle, and itâs music to his ears but Joel begins to wonder if maybe this isnât your first time stealing from the tequila bottle tonight.Â
âItâs definitely not the best tasting thing in the world,â he says. âGets the job done, though.â
To put the tequila away, you have to stand on the tips of your toes. It elongates your entire body as you stretch upwards, and he canât bring himself to stop staring at the curve of your hips. âYou have to be drunk to hang out with me or something?â
The question surprises him.��Yes, he thinks. Yes, he does need to be inebriated to hang out with you because otherwise his sober mind never lets him forget the way you look all dolled up. But he doesnât say that. Instead, Joel laughs quietly and says, âIâm here for your old man. You think he wants to be the lone adult in this sea of kids?â
He says it as a joke and is thankful you find humor in it. âIâm not a kid, Joel,â you remind him. âIâm a woman now. Is my company really so bad?â You tilt your head, pushing your bottom lip into the tiniest little pout.Â
Joel needs to stop staring at your mouth. He knows it, because the urge rises in him to bite that lip, to surge forward and taste your tongue for remnants of tequila. The idea alone sends a bolt of white-hot desire straight to his dick. âNo, noâŚsânot like that,â he says. Heâs too focused on your face and the gleam in your pretty eyes to notice youâve unscrewed the top of the whiskey bottle.Â
You pour a shot into an empty solo cup and hold it up between the two of you. âIâm scared,â you admit sheepishly. âIs it gross?â
The wrinkle in your nose is the cutest thing heâs ever seen, and the sight forces his lips into a small smile. âI donât think so,â he says. âBut you might.â
âBecause Iâm a kid ?â You scoff, but shake your head and smile at him all the same. âWomen mature faster than men, you know. Which means when I make my decisions, I know what Iâm signing myself up for.âÂ
âOh, is that so?â He remembers being this cocky as a teenager. He thinks maybe youâve been spending too much time around Tommy and his defiant attitude is rubbing off on you. Joel offers a challengeâif youâre just so mature. âDrink up, then.â
He watches every microscopic movement as you lick your lips and lift the cup to your mouth. Itâs a beautiful sight, watching you tilt your head back and swallow the tiniest bit. And when you pass the remaining liquid to him, your expression is fashioned from steel. Nonchalant, blank.Â
But he sees it, sees the way your hands twitch at your sides, sees the way your jaw feathers as you clench your teeth. He canât help but chuckle at your persistence. Joel turns the cup in his hands and puts his mouth right where you did.Â
Itâs almost like kissing, he thinks. Having his mouth where yours was seconds ago feels good. Better than he thought it would. And he can taste cherry-flavored chapstick before he can taste the whiskey, and he wonders when the last time was when heâd had a shot because it goes straight to his head and makes him feel drunk. Or maybe itâs just the wide smile that stretches across your face.Â
âThatâs awful,â you confess. âIâll stick to tequila, I think.â
âTequilaâs worse,â he says with a shake of his head. Tequila makes Joel feel your age, makes him forget the word consequences, makes him buzz with energy.Â
âNo way,â you say. âThe taste isnât nearly as strong.â
While that may be true, it wasnât about the taste at all and he doesnât really know how to explain it. âTequila encourages people to make bad decisions.â
Your eyes widen in surprise. âBad decisions,â you echo contemplatively. âSounds like a great time.â You take both of your tequila filled cups in hand and press a kiss to his cheek. âThanks for always keeping my secrets,â you whisper.Â
Joel has to stand in the kitchen an extra few minutes after you leave because he still feels the ghost of your lips on his skin and doesnât know how to act. Eventually, though, he finds the courage to face his brother and your father. He stays for the remainder of the party and helps your dad clean up the yard after everyone filters out.Â
Itâs a relief when heâs finally in his own bed that night. He tries to resist thinking of you. Truly, he does â but itâs no use, and heâs alone in his bed, and this time he doesnât even reach for his phone when he touches himself.Â
And itâs good. So good that he tries to draw it out. He tries his damndest to make it last. But his efforts become futile in just minutes, because he can feel your soft lips, can taste cherry chapstick, and heâs right thereâright fucking thereâwhen his bedroom door creaks open.Â
âJoel?â
For a second, heâs convinced himself heâs gone crazy. Heâs well and truly lost it now, and his fantasies have grown into hallucinations at this point. Youâve driven him batshit insane. But his eyes focus in the dark, and he realizes his mind isnât playing tricks on him at all. âWhat are you doing here?â
You take it as an invitation, and he desperately wishes you wouldnât. He can still feel the buzz from the beer and whiskey, and his cock is hard beneath the sheets, and his brain is filled with images of you, and youâre in nothing but spandex shorts and a loose tank top, and when you sit on the side of his bed you lay your hand on his knee for balance and Joelâs hands shake.Â
âHow did you even get in?â
âI used the key under the mat,â you confess. âI need your help.â Your voice is so mousy and soft, and it pulls him back to his senses.Â
âWhatâs wrong?â
âYou were right,â you tell him. âI made a bad tequila decision and now Iâm sad.âÂ
Joel doesnât know what to say. You couldnât possibly still be tipsy, he thinks. Itâs been hours since he saw you in the kitchen, but he supposes you very well couldâve gone back after everyone left. Either way, youâd come to him to fix it, and even knowing the right thing would be to call your dad, he was still high on the second secret you two shared. So, Joel sighs and puts his hand on yours. âWhat did you do?â
âI snuck a boy into my room,â you say.
Joelâs jaw clenches. Anger rises in his chest, crawls up his throat, and chokes him. A million things cross his mindâfirst, what the hell did he do to you? Did he hurt you? Joel would find the boy and break his fucking jaw. Did he touch you? Maybe heâd break the boy's hands instead. Or, worse, did he touch you when you didnât want him to? The thought alone has his heart beating so fast he thinks he might die. Slowly, quietly, he asks, âWhat happened?â
âNothing,â you sigh. And it isnât one of those teenage girl nothings, itâs sincere. You climb over him to the other side of the mattress, and Joel thinks he should stop you but the sight of you in his bed is so fucking pretty that he canât bring himself to. âThatâs the problem. I wanted him to fuck me.â
The words give him pause. Everything freezes.Â
âBut he didnât want to,â you say. âEven though we were flirting all day.â You turn on your side, hands beneath your head. âI donât get it. Is it because Iâm not pretty?â
He canât stop the snort that leaves him at that. Joel canât believe youâd wonder about it for even a second.
âDo you think Iâm pretty, Joel?â
If thereâs anything in the world he hates, itâs this. He wonders a little if maybe youâre antagonizing him. Itâs a yes or no question, isnât it? So why does saying yes feel soâŚÂ heavy? Weighted? He decides it best to keep the conversation directed away from his personal opinion on the matter. âOf course youâre pretty, baby.â
Baby? God. Maybe he has lost his fucking mind.
But it seems to bring you so much joy he doesnât have it in him to regret it. You wrap your small hands around his bicep, and he can feel the heat in your touch, and itâs like heâs burning from the inside out. And when you turn a little more and bring your leg across his hips, Joel canât breathe.Â
He wonders if you can tell how hard he is, wonders how heâs supposed to push you away when you just keep withering away his resolve. If he hasnât lost his mind yet, heâs about to. âIs it okay if I sleep with you tonight?â
The words hit him like a freight train. But after a second, he realizes that you actually mean sleep âand he knows itâs a bad idea still because heâs having those intrusive thoughts once more. But he canât say no. So instead he says, âI donât think your dad would be comfortable with that.â
âIâll tell him I had a sleepover with Sarah,â you quickly supplied. âI donât want to be alone.â
He doesnât either. But Joel knows he should be. And if not alone, certainly not with you. And yet, he says nothing. Not yes or no, just nothing.Â
âCan I tell you a secret?â
âSure.â
âI think about you all the time,â you say. âI thought you were mad at me for a while. That made me sad, too.â
It made his chest ache to think he had caused you any harm. But it was for the best, wasnât it? You probably just saw him as someone to seek comfort in, and he saw you as something entirely different. He was no good. Definitely not for you.Â
A few minutes pass, and he thinks youâve fallen asleep, but then you kiss his cheek again in the same spot as this afternoon and say, âThank you, Joel.â And he feels so wrong. He feels awful, and selfish, and greedy, and desperate, and perverted.
He thinks thatâs the end of it. But then you kiss his jaw, and this time itâs an open mouthed kiss that leaves wetness on his skin. Joel shivers.Â
You kiss his neck, and his cock throbs inches from your thigh. He should stop this. He knows that. Joel isnât a stupid manâheâs just a bad man. He doesnât stop you when you climb into his lap. He doesnât stop you when your tongue darts out between your lips as you kiss his collarbone. He doesnât stop you when your kisses grow heated and heavy.
And when you kiss his lips, he doesnât stop himself from kissing you back. He doesnât stop himself from threading his fingers through your silky hair to pull you in deeper. He doesnât stop himself from biting that bottom lip and sucking off the cherry flavor. He doesnât stop himself from slipping his tongue into your mouth, or from lifting his hips just a little bit, pushing himself against you. The friction pulls a low groan from somewhere in the back of his throat, and Joel knows he won't be able to ever stop himself now.Â
You take the small movement as your cue to unleash yourself and roll your hips against his even harder. He can feel the wet heat radiating from you even through the spandex shorts, can feel his benevolence fading into the ether. You let out a breathless moan when you roll your hips again, and again, and again. And he curses, muscles tight, and feels a confession on the tip of his tongue. Joel wants you to say it, just once â wants to hear his name in your mouth shrouded in lust. Heâs imagined it so many times, but he wants to hear it.Â
But then you pull away abruptly. âJoel?â
You sound mousy again, and he feels suddenly ice cold. âYeah?â
âI think Iâm gonna be sick.â
He holds your hair away from your face for the remainder of the night as you vomit up the rest of the tequila in your stomach. You apologize over and over again and greedily drink up the water he brings you.Â
Normally, Joel would hate this. But itâs you, and something feels good about taking care of you. About making sure youâre safe, making sure you feel pretty even with sweat coating your pallid skin.
You fall asleep sometime in the middle of the night, and Joel carries you to his bed. He doesnât climb in next to you. He canât because he already feels bad enough for allowing a drunk eighteen year old girl into his bed. Itâs his turn to feel nauseous. Shame smothers him, and guilt, and mortificationâŚJoel knows he should feel regret, too. But he doesnât.Â
Sometime before sunrise, he nods off with his head resting against the bedside table. He doesnât hear you leave, but when he wakes an hour later youâve vacated the room.Â
He wonders if you remember how you ended up in his bed, if you remember how eager he was to taste your mouth, if you remember anything at all. He hopes not, because that would mean a conversation he was not equipped to handle.Â
When he trudges down to the kitchen, Joel stops upon the sight before him. Sarah sits at the kitchen table beside Tommy, whoâs sitting across from your dad. And then thereâs youâstanding in the kitchen with a spatula in your hand and two still-wet braids in your hair.
It isnât the fact that youâre in his kitchen, making pancakes for everyone, padding barefoot on the tile that makes him anxious. No one in the room can read his thoughts. They wouldnât know how much it pleases him to see it. They wouldnât know how he thinks he could get used to this, but knows he canât.
NoâŚno, itâs the fact that youâre wearing his flannel that makes him anxious. Your father wears flannels on occasionâŚbut this one is so plainly Joelâs that he wonders why your dad is sitting there laughing at something Sarah said instead of killing Joel with his bare hands. He swallows thickly and pours himself a cup of coffee.Â
âGood morning,â you say cheerily, as if last night hadnât happened. He thinks youâve forgotten, or maybe just decided not to ever mention it again.
It was only a lapse in judgment, after all, wasnât it? Just a split second where you and Joel both lost all sense. It didnât mean anything. It couldnât. âMorning,â he responds.Â
You ask him to help carry one of the heaping plates of fluffy pancakes to the table. When he reaches for the taller one, your hand brushes against his and Joel nearly jumps out of his skin at the contact. But then youâre holding your pinky out to him expectantly, and whisper, âOur little secret.âÂ
The vanilla scent is gone, Joel notices. You smell like irish spring instead. Realization dawns on him that you must have showered while he was asleepâ and used his body wash. Thereâs something about that little tidbit of information that sits with him. He likes it, he thinks. He likes smelling himself all over you, likes that something possessed you to use his things without asking. Something inside of him shifts, somethingâŚÂ intense.Â
He knows he shouldnât, but Joel winds his pinky finger around yours anyway. It feels so good to have yet another thing between the two of you. Something of yours that belongs only to him. It makes him feel giddy as if he wasnât running on a single sip of coffee and an hour of sleep.
The remainder of the summer goes on without incident. You donât end up in Joelâs bed again, though you never once leave his intrusive thoughts. He sees you sometimes, tanning in the backyard. He has a perfect view from his bedroom window, and he wonders if maybe you wear those tiny bikini tops for his benefit. But he never asks, even during the few moments you have alone, and is content to pine after you but not touch for the rest of his painfully sorry life.Â
He works. You taunt him. He plays pool in your garage. You come home late in too little clothes and smelling of vanilla scented tequila. Joel says nothing, though. He listens and agrees with your dad that since graduating youâve become a little wild . A littleâŚÂ defiant. They dance around the word bad, but Joel knows the truth. Knows that more than anything, you need a little bit of discipline.Â
Youâre not his to correct, though. So he doesnât. He certainly enjoys watching you, however. He watches you sneak out through your window one night when heâs sitting on the porch. You press your finger to your lips, creating another secret between the two of you. He walks into the kitchen one night to find you filling a vodka bottle with water. Joel says nothingâbut after grabbing another beer heâs got a smile on his lips he canât seem to shake.Â
Heâs mowing the grass in the backyard one sunny afternoon, and he catches a glimpse of something he shouldnât. Joel holds a lot of your secrets close these days, but this one isâŚdifferent.Â
Through your bedroom window, he can see you changing. The curtain is wide open, and youâre wearing nothing but that same pink bra he first saw you in, matching panties, and those knee high socks you used to wear with your cheer uniform. Heâs not sure if youâre getting out of your clothes or into ones more comfortable, but he knows he canât look away. His mouth is dry, and all the blood in his head rushes south. He thinks youâre beautiful. He wants to touch you so badly itâs overwhelming. The supple curves of your hips, the soft tendrils of your hair down your back, the swell of your breastsâ God, youâre the sexiest thing heâs ever seen.Â
And then you pick something up from the floor, and Joel realizes a second later that youâre putting on his flannel. The one you stole at the beginning of the summer. Do you wear it often? Do you always wear it alone, half naked in your bedroom? His lips part and his breath catches in his throat. Heâs not there. Heâs just standing in his backyard, ruining this patch of grassâŚbut a part of him is. Something of his is there, with you, touching you, and somehow it sets him on fire.Â
Especially when he watches you climb into bed. He wonât watch you sleep, he decides. He might have intrusive thoughts and secrets and uncontrollable fantasies, but heâs not a creep.Â
Except you donât go to sleep, so Joel continues to watch. He watches you run red painted fingers over your bare skin, between your breasts, over your belly, and back up. You do it again, slower this time, and Joelâs cock strains in his jeans. He watches you slip your hand beneath the band of your panties. He canât see any details from this far away, but his breathing synchronizes with the speed of your fingers.
Suddenly, he remembers youâre still in his flannel. Realizes that you put it on to touch yourself. Pressure builds in his cock, and he finally admits that yeahâ maybe heâs a little bit of a perv. But only for youâthereâs something about you that drives him fucking insane.Â
He stands there and watches you touch yourself until you finish. He revels in the small arch of your back, in the tremble of your legs, in the way your chest heaves with each ragged breath on the come down. He wants to clean you up with his fucking tongue.Â
Joel doesnât finish mowing the lawn that night.
When you go off to college, he canât deny what a massive relief it is. You move across Texas to some campus far away, and the distance makes him feel like he can breathe easily again. He stops having so many disgusting, intrusive thoughts. He stops feeling guilty every time he plays pool with your dad because those secrets he kept for you were ones that donât truly matter. Not when youâre nowhere to be found, anyway.Â
As the year stretches on, Joel realizes that heâd been wrong all along. He wasnât a pervert. You are a seductress. Even Tommy jokes about the obvious schoolgirl crush you had and admits one night when itâs just the two brothers that if you had thrown yourself at him, he wouldnât have been able to resist you so easily as Joel had.
Itâs not him thatâs in the wrong. Itâs you. You and your soft hair. You and your pretty smile. You and your red nails. You and your pink lace. You and your soft voice. You, you, you.Â
For several years, those intrusive thoughts haven't plagued him. Not until your junior year of college, when some problem with campus housing surfaces and youâre forced to stay at home for a few days. Your dad is excited about it and forces the four of you to go out to dinner together to catch up.Â
He sees you for the first time in so long, and you look so different but somehow even prettier. Youâre wearing a short white dress, and Sarah tells you you look like an angel, and Joel silently agrees. You have a tattoo on the inside of your wrist. Itâs the tiniest little image of two hands with their pinkies wrapped around one another, and he thinks itâs so fitting for a girl with so many secrets.Â
Every time you look at him during dinner, Joel shifts in his seat. He isnât very hungry. Not for food, anyway. Heâs a little floored when you proudly present your shiny, brand new ID to the waitress and order a fruity pink drink called a Paloma. You explain that it has tequila in it, and share a subtle glance across the table, and Joel feels his insides warm as if he was the one drinking a cocktail instead.Â
He drowns himself in work the entire week. He cannotâ cannot afford to find himself back in his old ways. Youâre a woman now. A fully grown woman, who no longer needs validation from older men. He knows you're not interested. He knows this time, this time, it really is Joel whoâs the problem. Avoidance, surprisingly, works.Â
Until you knock on the door one night with a DVD in your hand. âIs Sarah home? I found my old copy of Evil Dead. She said she missed having movie nights.â
Joel shakes his head. âNo, uhmâshe spent the night with a friend. Sorry.â
âOh,â you deflate. âThatâs okay, I get it. Sheâs older now. ItâsâŚâ
âWeird,â he finishes.Â
You laugh softly, and the sound brings a smile to his face. âYeah, really weird,â you agree. âI just hope sheâs nothing like me.â
âWhyâs that?â Your eyes darken, and Joel asks himself why heâs attempting to make conversation at all. Itâs dangerous. He knows this.Â
âYou know,â you say purposefully. âAll those secrets? There were definitely more.â
For a reason he canât pinpoint, it makes him a little annoyed. He knew it the whole timeâof course,  he knew there were more secrets than just the ones he was privy to. But a part of him wanted to know you better than anyone else. And maybe he did, for a second, but that second was long gone now. It was probably over moments after it began. âYeah, wellâŚthatâs different.â
âHow so? Sheâs only a little younger than I was when I met you.â
Itâs an accusation. Joel can feel it. He can feel the anger seeping through your fake sweetness, too. But he doesnât understand it. He didnât do anything wrong. âYouâre not my daughter. Thatâs whatâs different.â
You roll your eyes, and his hands twitch with the urge to grab you by the jaw. âGod, Joelâyouâre such a pussy. Do you know that?â
Your words startle him. A crease forms between his brows, and he takes another step out of the doorway. â Excuse me ?â
âJust say it! Say what you so desperately want to say. I can take it. Say it.â
The words come out slow and deadly, sounding far meaner than intended. âSay what?âÂ
âTell me itâs different because Iâm a slut. Itâs okay, Joel. Itâs just the two of us now. Go ahead. Admit it.â
His jaw ticks.Â
âWhat, you think Iâm dumb? You think I donât hear you laugh at Tommyâs jokes when I walk out of a room? You think I didnât know you guys called me jailbait for years?â You laugh cynically, arms crossed over your chest, and Joel thinks heâs never seen you so angry. So heated.Â
So hot.
He grabs your elbow and yanks you close. âHave you lost your fucking mind?â
Your face is inches from his, and he can smell vanilla and cherry and something happens. Something familiar and unique to you. Something disgusting. âAnd you know what the worst part of it all is?â
The worst part is that heâs twice your age. The worst part is that heâs known you since you were in high school. The worst part is that heâs friends with your father. The worst part is that youâre friends with his daughter. The worst part is that those perverted thoughts were never involuntary. They were never unavoidable. They were never unwanted. They were never intrusive.Â
âYou like it,â you say with a smirk. âYou like that I dress up in short skirts for you, and you like it when I climb in your bed when someone else leaves me unsatisfied. I almost finished that day, did you know?â
â Jesusâfuck âdonâtââ
âYou barely touched me but I was so close just sitting in your lap. You like that I put on your clothes and touch myself in front of my window, hoping youâll see. You like that Iâm a slut for you, Joel Miller. Admit it. Itâs okay. Itâll be our little secret .â
He pulls you into the house and slams the front door closed. His blood boils beneath his skin. He should have slammed it in your face, he thinks. But youâre here nowâtrapped inside with him. Or maybe heâs trapped inside with you.Â
The pleased smile on your face is his undoing. His breath comes fast, and he knows if he moves an inch there will never be any going back from this. So he doesnât move. His limbs are frozen and his eyes are fixed on yours.
After a couple of tense filled seconds, your smile falters. Joel sees it. He hears the slight change in your voice too, as you confess, âI want you to touch me so badly.â
Fuck. Fuck, fuck, fuck âJoel holds your face in his hands and slams his mouth to yours. You taste just the same; cherry sweet and delicious. Itâs his favorite flavor, he thinks. Better than any forbidden fruit. Your tongue is so soft against his and impossibly more greedy. You invade his mouth, his soul, his heart.Â
It happens so fast, and so easily. Your arms loop around his neck and Joel pulls you flush against him and grips the back of your thighs. He lifts you up and you wrap your legs around his waist, hips already rolling against him like some feral thing inside of you is desperately clawing to get out. His cock has never been this hard, Joel knows. And he knowsâhe knows that he could cum just like this. Touching you, tasting you, feeling your softness. Itâs enough.Â
Still, he wants more. He wants to see you fall apart. He wants to reach inside your chest and make you feel what he feels, make you feel tortured the way heâs been for years.Â
Joel walks to the sofa and sits with his legs spread wide. Youâre still kissing him with everything you have, and itâs a clash of tongues and lips and teeth that he loves so much itâs an effort to thread his fingers into the hair at the nape of your neck and pull you away, but he does it. Youâre both panting, and you let out a whimper at the loss of contact. His cock is throbbing, straining behind his jeans. âPut your money where your mouth is, baby,â he says breathlessly. âYou wanna act like a slut for me, be a slut for me.â
He fists your dress in his hands and pulls it up and over your head, tossing it to the floor. And then itâs just you, sitting in Joelâs lap, wearing nothing but pink, lace panties and a pair of strappy white heels. Youâre so pretty, and heâs always known itâbut seeing you up close has him weak. He canât keep himself from touching you, from running his hands over your hips and living the fantasy heâs existed in for what feels like forever.Â
Once he starts, Joel canât stop. He runs his calloused palms over your belly, your ribs, allowing his thumbs to ghost across the underside of your breasts. He moves slowly, meticulously, enjoying every moment. And when you hook your thumbs in the band of your panties with the intention to remove them, he places his hands over yours. âHell no,â he says. âYou think you can tell me you almost finished in my lap that night and get away with it?âÂ
âBut, Iââ
âNuh-uh. Prove it.â
Hesitantly, you tilt your hips against his. He wishes he was in only sweatpants the way he was that night because his jeans are keeping the feeling of your wetness away from him this time. But he can see itâthe baby pink fabric is darker at the apex, and as you grind your hips against his Joel realizes youâre creating a mess on his clothes, too.Â
He understands. He really, really does. He feels it, too. Joel understands how desperate and needy you are. And because heâs just so understanding, he grants you a little reprieve. He leans forward and takes your nipple into his mouth. Heâs real sweet about it too, giving you the same tender treatment your mouth gave him that night in his room. He licks the hardened peak softly, swirling his tongue, and you let out the prettiest moan heâs ever heard. The pace of your hips picks up, rolling against the bulge in his jeans faster.Â
âOh, god,â you whimper. Your breath catches, and he can hear your heart beating rapidly behind your ribcage. He peppers kisses across your sternum and inhales deeply, sucking in a breath thatâs nothing but you and holding it in his lungs. He kisses your other nipple and pinches the one wet with his spit between his thumb and forefinger.Â
He sucks your nipple into his mouth and groans when you fist your hands in his hair. You sound so pretty, he thinksâand he leans back on the couch to admire just how pretty you look. He canât catch his breath, but he doesnât mind.
Your pace falters the slightest bit, and your chest is heaving a little slower now. He sinks lower into the couch and thrusts his hips up into youâonce, twice, and your legs are shaking. âAww,â he coos. âYouâre so sensitive, baby. Look at you.â
Too lost in your own bliss, Joel decides to help you, to teach you. He grabs your chin and forces it down, forces your attention to where your bodies are joined.
âI told you to look,â he repeats. Joel turns his fingers in the waistband of your panties and pulls them taught, creating even more pressure against your clit. The pink fabric immediately becomes darker, sopping up some of the mess youâve created on top of him, and Joel intends to make good on his wish to clean you up with his tongue. But not yetânot when you still have something to prove. âYou gonna cum just like that? Hm?â
You nod frantically, your attention flickering between his dark eyes and your panties clutched between his thick fingers. â Yes,â you tell him, legs trembling. Your pace is quick, and each roll of your hips becomes shorter and shorter. And with Joel moving underneath you it only takes seconds more before you combust. âOh, fuckâfuckâIâm coming, Iâm comingâ!â
âThatâs it,â he says, and you feel the deep timbre of his voice skitter across your skin like embers. âThere you go. Youâre being such a good slut for me, hm?â
When your orgasm finally fizzles out, you fall limply forward and Joel is there to catch you, like he always has been, like he silently vows he always will be. He rubs soothing circles against your spine and presses sweet kisses into your hair, waiting patiently as you try and regain what little composure you have left.Â
You lift your head from the crook of his neck, and your eyes are glossy and your bottom lip is swollen and your cheeks are flushed with a rosy hue, and Joel thinks youâve never been more beautiful. But then you slide from his lap to the floor in one fluid movement, and he realizes that this is the prettiest youâve ever been; on your knees before him, eyes bright with anticipation and excitement. You place your hands on top of his strong thighs, look up at him through your lashes and ask softly, âCan I suck your dick, Joel?â
He has to squeeze his eyes shut. He has to because his cock is so fucking hard and your voice is so sweet and filthy he canât handle it. He breathes in slowly through his nose and says, âOf course you can, baby.â
Without a moment's hesitation, you unbuckle his belt. The metal clinks in your fingers, and Joelâs heart is racing when you unbutton his jeans and hook your thumbs through the loops to tug them down. His cock snaps against his belly, and you lick your pink lips.
You take it in your hands, and Joel aches when you swipe your tongue over the tip, tasting the salty sweetness of his precum. He canât believe this is really happening, that youâre really here, running your sweet, sweet tongue over every inch of his cock. Youâre tasting him, savoring him, and Joel wonders if it pleases you to see him all bent out of shape like this.Â
He prides himself on his masculinity. Heâs always been a strong man, one who handles his shit on his own. Maybe itâs the Texas in him, but Joelâs always had traditional values. Heâs always been the provider, the protectorâheâs always been the one in charge. But when you wrap your lips around him and ease his cock into your hot, wet mouth, heâs at your complete mercy.Â
â Fuck,â he hisses, hands going to your hair. He tangles the silky strands between his fingers, and you hollow out our cheeks, creating a suction that has him groaning. He feels each pass of your lips down his spine, pressure forming low in his belly. âJust like that, pretty girl.â
You wrap your hand around the base and stroke the length you canât fit into your mouth, and his grip in your hair tightens. Your nails are painted redâand the look of them wrapped around his cock is far better than heâd ever been able to imagine in his head. Itâs so good that he doesnât want to stop, he wants to cum just like this. He wants to expend himself at the back of your throat and watch his cum leak out of your mouth.
But Joel doesnât get too far ahead of himself. There are other things, filthier things he wants to do to you than fill your mouth up. You let out a whiny groan as if sucking him off is somehow more pleasurable for you than it is for him. Itâs the sexiest thing heâs ever seen, and the vibrations nearly send him over the edge, but Joel rips your head back to prolong this precious time with you.Â
Your eyes are glassy, makeup smeared, lips swollen. You give him a beaming smile and Joel huffs a breath. âDid I do a good job?â
â Yes, baby,â he says. âYou did so well. Câmere, stand up.â You do as told, even though your legs are wobbly, and Joel lifts your foot into his lap. He unbuckles the straps of your heel, takes it off and sets it aside. He presses a kiss to the inside of your thigh and repeats the action with the other one, and then proceeds to pull your panties down your legs. He helps you out of the pink lace, and he knows he shouldnât but he just canât help himself and shoves them between the couch cushions, where he hopes youâll forget about them.
He presses his mouth to your hip bone, an open mouthed kiss that leaves goosebumps in its wake as he does the same to your other side. âThat feels so good,â you tell him.
Joel keeps peppering wet kisses across your belly, below your navel, over your pubic bone. Your thighs are pressed together, and youâre shifting on your feet in anticipation, and Joel can see the shiny wetness coating your pussy. He reaches between your legs and so gently slides his middle finger teasingly over your slit. It comes away sticky and wet, and he canât resist the urge to lick the digit clean. Itâs heady and sweet, and he feels drunker than whiskey or tequila has ever made him. âOh, sweetheart,â he says, forehead falling against your abdomen. âWhat are you doing to me?â
âItâs okay,â you tell him. âI want you so bad, Joel. Please touch me.â Your hands are in his hair, stroking the unruly curls and lightly pulling.
The word please in your mouth sounds so fucking cute, so needy and desperate. What is he supposed to do? How is he supposed to be a good man when you exist? He canât, Joel knows. So long as youâre nearâheâll never be a good man. Only a bad one. Only a perverse one. He hooks his arm around your leg and lifts it over his shoulder, keeping his other hand wrapped around your waist for balance, and lets himself taste you fully, to drink from the source.Â
And Jesus Christ, Joel loses it. He laps at your pussy, swallowing you up. He cleans up the mess you made in his lap, relishing in the decadence. He could do this for hours, he thinks. Could swirl his tongue around your swollen clit, could suck it between his lips, and kiss it softly for the rest of his life. He breathes in slowly, taking your scent deep into his lungs, and wonders why heâd ever want to come up for air. Your moans are music to his ears.
He dares a glance up at you to watch your expression when he reaches beneath you and slips a finger easily into your dripping pussy.Â
Your head falls back, your mouth falls open, and Joel falls in love.Â
The noises you make are obscene as you grind against his face, but not nearly as much as the sounds heâs making from between your legs. Heâs groaning with your clit in his mouth and youâre creating a puddle in his palm, and itâs so sloppy and disgusting and he fucking loves it.Â
Joel silently admits that you were right; that he loves your obscenities. He loves your secrets. He loves your defiance. He loves your depravity.Â
He loves that youâre such a fucking slut.Â
âOh, godâ Joelâ!â
He pulls away because if youâre going to moan out his name again itâs going to be because of his cock. He stands abruptly, keeping one hand at the small of your back, and holds your jaw. With your face tilted up towards him, he smirks as he watches tears form in your eyes. âWhatâs wrong, baby?â
âWhy did you stop?â Your voice is so whiny, so hopeless and frantic that it makes his cock twitch. âYou were about to make me cum,â you say.
He kisses you hard, and you moan into his mouth, and Joel runs out of patience. He lifts you up and lays your back flat against the couch. Heâs hovering over you, and his cock is just inches from the place itâs wept to be inside for so many years. Joel rolls it against you, gasping at the feel of your pussy on the underside of his cock. Youâre so wet, and he doesnât know how heâs supposed to last long enough for this to be good for you.Â
But heâs determined. â Joel,â you beg breathlessly, bucking your hips to try and find just the right angle where he slips inside.
âYeah, baby?â He tilts his head slightly, watching as your eyes flicker back and forth between his hips and his predatory grin.Â
âYouâre being mean,â you say. âStop teasing me. Just put it in, Joel, I need it so bad.â
He kisses your forehead. âSâthat right?â
âYes!â
Itâs impossible, he thinks, to hold back his laugh. âYouâre so fucking cute, baby,â he says. âSay please.â
â Please! Please, please pleâ!â
Joel lets out a ragged breath as he pushes into you. Finally, he thinks. Finally, finally, finally. âFuck.â
Itâs so much better than he ever imagined. He sinks in deep until your hips are flush, and even then he pushes your knee back to open you up and get impossibly deeper.Â
âOh my god,â you whimper, and Joel kisses you to swallow up the beautiful sound.Â
You take him like you were made for his cock. And maybe you were, because Joel had never known it could be this fucking good. He knows itâll never be this good again. âYouâre taking it like such a good slut, baby,â he whispers into your ear, tongue sliding up your neck. He pulls his hips back and snaps them forward, the sudden change in force ripping a cry from your throat. âShhh, itâs okay. You can take it.â
With your arms and legs wrapped around him, Joel fucks you slow. Real slow, real deepâheâs touching parts of you you didnât even know existed. You feel so full and pressure coils around your spine.Â
âFeels good, doesnât it?â
âYes, yes yesâ mmmâ!â
He sets a steady pace, hitting that soft spot inside of you every time. He reaches between your bodies and swipes this thumb over your clit. âSay thank you, baby.â
You look right into his eyes, warm and dark and full of devotion. You say, â Thank you, Joel,â and you suddenly remember the same memory he does of that first day.Â
He remembers how pretty you looked on your knees, and you remember how you spent that whole night in your bed touching yourself to him.Â
And now itâs happened, itâs finally happened, and his cock is buried deep inside of you and his thumb is pressing hard against your clit and before he realizes it, your pussy is squeezing him as you cum.Â
Tremors rock through your body, legs shaking and red painted fingernails clawing at his back. He keeps his same steady pace and says, âGive it to me, baby. Good fucking girl, being such a good little slut for me. Thatâs it. Give it to me. There you go.â
Even when your muscles loosen, you keep your limbs wound around him tight. Like even though youâve finished and heâs seconds away from following you there, you still want him as close as possible. It makes him feel tender. âI want you to cum inside me,â you say, and Joelâs cock spasms in your tight pussy. âCum in me, Joel, please âfill me up.â
He shouldnât, he really fucking shouldnât, but he already is, and stars blur his vision. Joel fights through the blindness though, and squeezes your cheeks in his hand. âLook at me,â he orders, and looking at your face makes him cum even harder. You take his thumb into your mouth, soft tongue circling it. And Joel bottoms out inside of you, has the best orgasm of his entire fucking life inside of a girl half his age, but cannot bring himself to regret a single second.
The weight of him over you is heavy but comforting. Itâs perfect, and helps you catch your breath. Joel is panting, and you smell like vanilla and irish spring and cherry chapstick and when his eyes close, he wonders if heâs died and gone to heaven.Â
Your fingers are stroking his spine lazily when the fear creeps in. Do you regret it? Now that itâs out of your system, do you wish youâd never have done it? Never have taunted him, never had let him keep all those secrets, never have come over tonight? The Evil Dead DVD sits on the floor by the front door, abandoned.Â
There couldnât have been much tequila in your mixed drink. You didnât taste like alcohol at all. But still, youâd had someâdo you feel like maybe he took advantage of you?Â
Joel is afraid to look at you. Heâs afraid to open his mouth, to ask if youâre alright, to apologize, to beg for your forgiveness.Â
But then you ask him softly, âIs it okay if I sleep with you tonight?â
He hears the echo of those words, and wonders if you do, too. You wince as he finally sits up and pulls himself out of you. He knows he should say no, but he canât. Instead, he asks, âWill you make pancakes in the morning?â
The sound of your girlish laughter greets him and calms his fears for now. âAnything you want.â
Joel stops at the bathroom on the way to his bed and cleans the sticky mess from between your legs. Itâs then as he realizes how many unhinged decisions heâd made tonight. He doesnât know if youâve slept with other people without protection, doesnât know if youâre on birth control, doesnât know if youâd be willing to take a contraceptive pill in the morning if youâre not, doesnât know anything. The distance, while easier, has taken so much of you from him. And the realization leaves Joel cold.Â
Youâre so young, and heâs so much older than youâŚif the worst happened, would it even be the worst? Do you even want kids?Â
A new fantasy emerges in his brain. The first one since admitting to himself that itâs a little more than just an intrusive thought. Youâre standing on the back porch with a beaming smile, hand over your eyes to block out the bright summer sun while he mows the lawn. Youâre in a pretty pink sundress, and your belly is swollen with Joelâs baby, and his knees buckle as he leads you to his bedroom.Â
You climb in beside him, and he holds you under the blankets a little tighter than you hold him. Emotion chokes him. Joel swallows it down. But then you ask, âWhatâs wrong?â
âI want to keep you,â he confesses. âI want to keep you forever.â
For a moment, itâs quiet. He wonders if maybe you think heâs going to say more, but he doesnât. He doesnât know what else to say. He doesnât have anything else to say.Â
âSo do it,â you whisper.Â
âBut I canât.â
âYou can,â you tell him with a sigh. âYou can, Joel. Thatâs the real secret.â
The words reverberate through him. They clang around in his brain and leave him with something akin to elation. You kiss his jaw, and Joel thinks maybe you might be right. Maybe he will keep you.Â
But for tonight, having you here pressed against him with the promise of pancakes in the morning is enough.
[PART TWO]
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Have A Good Night
Pairing: Joel Miller x f!reader
Summary: Every week like clockwork, the same devastatingly handsome man comes into the grocery store where you work to buy flowers. It's not until he asks you out when you realize the flowers aren't for his wife or girlfriend.
Warnings: no outbreak AU, language, flirting, alcohol and food consumption, smut (18+ MDNI), protected piv sex, size kink, shy!joel, fluff, mutual pining, cringy/embarrassing crush interactions
WC: 7.9K
Written for @morallyinept's Flora & Fauna Challenge (masterlist here)
dividers by the one and only @saradika-graphics
It was never roses that he bought. That should have been your first clue.
Every Friday he came through your checkout lane with a beautiful flower arrangement. Sometimes it was lilies, sometimes it was daffodils, but never roses.
He hardly spared you a glance when he slid his card through the machine. Occasionally he would comment about the weather or how busy the store was, but he rarely ever made eye contact.
It wasn't unusual and it didn't offend you. Most customers had other things on their minds and they preferred to get in and out of the store as quickly as possible. But this particular customer, the one with dark hair and eyes, broad shoulders and patchy beard always caught your eye. It was the best part of your week. You never had the nerve to say anything to him, but your friend Andy noticed the way you always got nervous when you saw him standing in line, how your demeanor shifted and your hands shook just a little bit.
He's not wearing a ring, Andy pointed out one day as you counted your drawer. You rolled your eyes.
That doesn't mean anything, you replied. Why else would he be buying flowers?
Then one day, as you scanned your handsome stranger's flowers, you noticed a few of the daisies were wilting.
"Do you want to pick out a different bouquet?" you had mustered up the courage to ask. The store was quiet, no one was lined up behind him. There was a big football game that night and it kept most people at home.
His eyes snapped up to yours and he froze like a deer in the headlights. You raised your eyebrows, waiting for an answer while trying to think if you said something stupid to warrant such a delayed reaction. "A few of these flowers are already dying. See?" You tilted the bouquet in his direction so he could see the flowers with the petals that were turning brown.
"Oh," he finally said, then nodded his head. "Y-yeah, thanks. D'you mind if I just-" he jutted his thumb over his shoulder.
"It's no big deal, I'll wait."
He gave you a crooked grin and disappeared back into the store. The florist department wasn't far from the registers but it was enough time for Andy to lock eyes with you from customer service and give you a look. You rolled your eyes at him and turned back around just as the hot flower guy was returning with a new selection.
"Thanks," he said again once you handed him his receipt. He didn't make a move to leave.
"Don't mention it," you replied, feeling Andy's stupid grin burning into the back of your head the longer hot flower guy stood there.
"Have you worked here long?" he asked after a brief silence that was bordering on uncomfortable. You blinked, taken aback at the random question and tried to ignore your heart fluttering excitedly in your chest.
"Um, just over four years," you replied. His beautiful dark eyes drifted over your face as he nodded and swallowed before looking back down at his flowers.
"You work most Fridays?"
You could feel your cheeks warming up and you wished the ground would open up and swallow you whole. How can someone be embarrassed for being embarrassed? Jesus, you were such a mess.
"Yep," you said, tucking a stray piece of hair behind your ear and praying he didn't notice how flushed you were.
He rubbed the back of his neck and shifted his weight. If you weren't so absorbed in your own uneasiness you might have noticed he was acting just as uncomfortable as you.
When he opened his mouth to say something else, a middle aged woman pushed her cart up behind him and began to unload her groceries onto the belt. He glanced quickly over his shoulder and nervously swiped his palm over his mouth.
"Have a good night," he told you abruptly, and before you had a chance to reply he was halfway to the front door.
The following week was busier and you lost track of time. Typically, as your shift dragged on, you began to anticipate his arrival but on that particular day, you were distracted. Andy ended up having to help out on another register, it was so busy.
"You wanna come out with us tonight?" Andy asked you over his shoulder. He was closing down the extra register while you were finishing up with a young mom who had her hands full wrangling her toddler away from the candy.
"Uh, yeah, sure," you agreed absentmindedly, lifting the last paper bag into the cart. You tapped a key on your register so she could slide her card through the reader and looked over at Andy. "Where are you guys going?"
"Murray's," he replied immediately, his focus still on counting the coins in the drawer. You rolled your eyes and grinned.
"Why am I not surprised?"
It was well known Andy harbored a huge crush on a bartender there and he had been trying to work up the courage for months to ask for her number.
"Thank you, have a good night," you told the young woman, handing over her receipt with a smile. When you glanced up to greet your next customer, you felt your heart skip a beat when you were met with those dark brown eyes you had grown so enamored with.
"It must be later than I thought," you said, without even thinking twice. Surprise passed over his beautiful features as you scanned his flowers and then your nerves finally caught up with you. "I-I mean, you usually come in around the same time every week," you explained hurriedly. Andy was smirking at you from behind hot flower guy's broad shoulder and you made a mental note to punch him later.
"I didn't realize you noticed," he replied after he cleared his throat.
Oh, you idiot. You could tell you made him uncomfortable with your comment and you just prayed he didn't figure out you had been lusting after him all these months with the little observation you made.
"You always pick out the best flower arrangements, it's hard not to," Andy piped up. Relief flooded your veins for the save. Maybe you should rethink that punch. "Must be one lucky girl," he added with a mischievous wink in your direction before picking up the drawer and walking towards the office, leaving just the two of you with Andy's loaded comment hanging heavy in the air.
He took his time pulling his credit card out of his wallet, wracking his brain for something to say. His cheeks dusted with pink the longer he took to formulate a sentence.
"So... Murray's, huh?" he asked, cringing inwardly at the stupid question as he swiped his card.
You blinked, confused at the change in topic until it clicked. "Oh, yeah. He drags a bunch of us out after work sometimes because he's got a thing for a girl who works there." You gave the man behind hot flower guy a smile as he unloaded his groceries on the belt.
Your handsome stranger froze, his hand still holding the receipt midair while the gears turned in his head.
"So, you two aren't-"
"Oh, sorry, excuse me," the customer behind him mumbled when he accidentally bumped into him with his cart.
"Have a good night," you told him with a sweet smile, then quickly turned away, hoping your hair would hide your embarrassment.
"I am not playing darts with her! Don't you remember last time? She almost took my eye out!"
"Oh, shut the fuck up!" you laughed, shoving Courtney, another co-worker of yours, in the shoulder. There were only five of you that night, Courtney being the only other girl in your group, but you were fine with that. Over the past few years you all bonded over the shared trauma of nasty customers and terrible management to the point where you were like family, and nights where you blew off steam only brought you closer together.
"Anyone need anything? I'm heading up," Andy shouted over the live band.
"Didn't you just get a water a minute ago?" you teased, knowing full well he was looking for an excuse to talk to the bartender.
"What can I say? I'm thirsty," Andy replied with a smirk before pushing his way through the crowd to get to the bar.
"When the hell's he just gonna ask her out? We've been coming here for months," Courtney said, turning away from the bar to look at you. You took a sip from your mixed drink and shrugged.
"Probably for the best. You know if he makes things weird then we'll need to find a new spot to hang out."
She giggled and winced when the band began to sing Journey off-key. "God, these guys are... not it."
"I think it's the owner's way of making us drink more!" James shouted from across the table, the four of you dissolving into laughter. He had a good point because your drink was nearly empty.
"Why didn't you just have Andy get you one?" Courtney asked when you slid down from your barstool.
"If I did, there was, like, a one percent chance he would bring it back to me within the hour," you told her, nodding towards Andy setting up shop against the bar, his eyes trailing after the cute bartender.
It took several minutes but you were finally able to wedge yourself between other patrons and secure a refill of your drink, but when you turned around to walk back to your table you nearly ran right into someone's chest.
"Oh! Sorry, I - " your eyes widened when you tilted your head up to find those familiar brown eyes staring down at you. "It-it's you!" you finally said as the shock began to wear off. He gave you a lopsided grin and nodded.
"Joel," he offered, sticking his hand out. Joel. Joel. Joel. You rolled his name around in your head like a ping pong ball. It suited him.
You took his hand, his long fingers dwarfing yours. "I'm-"
Then he cut you off and said your name and once again, you struggled to keep the shock from your face. "Your nametag," he explained, letting your hand go and gesturing towards his own chest where a nametag would sit. "I remember."
"Yeah," you said breathlessly with a smile. You glanced around the room while people shoved past you to get to the bar. "What are you doing here?"
His smile faltered a bit and he rubbed the back of his neck. "I don't live too far. Had the night to myself so I came out with my brother. He's over there," Joel pointed to the opposite corner of the bar but it was impossible to see him through all the people.
"Oh, cool," you nodded and took a sip from your glass. His eyes drifted to your lips, getting lost in the way they puckered around the straw. "Do you guys come here a lot?"
He chuckled and dropped his chin shyly to his chest before shaking his head. "No, um," he cleared his throat and looked back up at you. "Was hopin' I would run into you, actually."
"Me?" you squeaked and your heart began to race. He nodded and grinned.
"Yeah. Wondered if maybe you'd-"
A huge, burly man who definitely had too much to drink shouldered past you, accidentally shoving you into Joel's chest. His arms immediately wrapped around your ribs to steady you and somehow you didn't spill anything on his clothes.
"God, I'm sorry," you mumbled, his scent making you dizzy. You always had a register between you. Never before had you been that close, noticing he smelled like he had just gotten out of the shower and it was instantly overwhelming.
"It's alright," he said, his arms still loosely wrapped around your midsection. "But I gotta get this out before I lose my nerve, darlin'."
Darlin'. Your brows furrowed and before you could reply, he spoke. "I wondered if you wanted to go out on a date sometime? Maybe a movie or somethin'? I know you work alotta nights but I -"
"You want to go out with me?" you asked in disbelief. He looked at you like you had two heads.
"'Course I do. Wasn't it obvious?" he could feel the heat creeping up his neck.
"No! I thought... nevermind, it doesn't matter," you told him, a smile pulling across your lips. "Yes, I would love to. God, if you only knew-" you stopped yourself by slapping your hand over your mouth and he quirked a playful eyebrow at you but he was too excited that you agreed to go out with him to ask you to finish your thought. He handed you his phone as you shakily typed in your number, hoping your trembling fingers didn't mess it up before giving it back to him.
"I'm gonna text you tomorrow, set somethin' up, yeah?" he asked and you nodded numbly, your mind reeling as you tried to process everything that was happening. He grinned and slid his phone back into his pocket. "Have a good night," he said, the familiar phrase making you smile before disappearing into the crowd.
"Um, who the hell was that?" Courtney questioned the second you arrived back at your table.
"I need a fucking shot first and then I'll tell you, holy shit," you said, taking a deep breath to calm your nerves with no success. She laughed and got you each tequila shots, then you spent the rest of the night telling her all about Joel the hot flower guy.
The next morning, you paid for your crimes. Your head throbbed and your mouth was dry as sand as you stumbled into your bathroom to scoop water from the faucet, desperately trying to quench your thirst. You weren't normally a huge drinker, but after your run-in with Joel, you were so nervous that you found yourself tossing back a few extra drinks than normal. Fortunately, you didn't work until late afternoon, so after you fumbled around your cupboards for some crackers, you fell back into bed. Your eyes widened when you saw a missed text from an unsaved number an hour ago.
Hey, it's Joel. It was great running into you last night. I was thinking we could go to dinner this week, if you're still up for it. What nights are you free?
"Shit," you muttered, running a hand anxiously through your hair. Now that you were sober, the prospect of seeing hot flower guy outside of work made you inexplicably nervous.
You must have typed out and deleted fifteen responses before going with I would love to! I'm free Sunday, Monday and Wednesday nights. Or we could do something after I get out of work, we close at nine.
Did you sound too desperate? You chewed on your fingernail as you read your sent text over and over, then shrugged and put your phone down. Too late now, anyway.
It took a while to get his response, but to be fair, you didn't reply to him for an hour.
I can make Sunday work.
Sunday? As in, tomorrow?
"Oh, fuck," you groaned, fully not expecting him to set something up so quickly. You needed time to mentally prepare, but of course you agreed, then quickly texted Courtney, begging for her help on what to wear and how to do your hair.
Yay!! We can talk about it at work tonight!
After you ironed out a time and restaurant with Joel, you popped two pain relievers and chugged some water, hoping to get rid of your hangover before work.
"Okay, so where's he taking you?" Courtney asked excitedly as you stocked cereal together.
"This Italian place on Westwood. Here, I looked it up," you said, pulling out your phone and showing her the menu. "Have you been there before? What do I wear?"
She squinted at your screen and shook her head. "I haven't been there but we can figure this out. It doesn't look that fancy, but you should probably wear a dress or skirt."
"Ooo, do you finally have yourself a date?" Andy asked from halfway down the aisle, clearly overhearing part of your conversation. "Hot flower guy is going to be so disappointed."
You laughed and pocketed your phone. "It's with hot flower guy," you said triumphantly. Andy's eyes bugged out of his head, confused, until you and Courtney explained what happened the night before when he was busy staring at the bartender.
"You should have told me last night! So I guess that means he really is single."
You paused and cocked your head to the side, realizing all of the sudden you still didn't know why he bought flowers every Friday.
"Uh, yeah, I guess so," you replied, turning your attention back to the cereal. Andy and Courtney exchanged worried glances behind your back.
"I'm sure he's not stupid enough to buy flowers from you for another woman every week and then ask you out," Courtney said, glaring at Andy. He cleared his throat and nodded.
"Y-yeah, I mean, maybe they're for a grave or something."
You both turned to him and gave him an incredulous look.
"Hey, I'm just trying to help," he said, throwing up his hands and walking away. You bit your lip and glanced at Courtney.
"Don't worry about it. There's tons of reasons why guys would buy flowers weekly... maybe he just likes to have fresh flowers in the house. Maybe they're for his mom!"
"Yeah, good point. I bet they're for his mom," you agreed, feeling a little better as you ripped open the next cardboard box full of cereal boxes.
When you woke on Sunday morning, you were already nervous. You could have sworn your heart was slamming in your chest from the moment you opened your eyes, already overthinking your date with Joel.
You spent the afternoon texting Courtney pictures of outfits you hauled out of your closet and tossed on your bed, then decided you needed to try them on for her to get the full effect. You were sitting on your bed, wearing a light blue sundress, the last outfit you had tried on as you gathered your pictures. Your thumb quickly tapped all of the photos of you modeling your options and typed out what one looks the best? then hit send.
As you were unzipping your dress and sliding it down your legs, you heard your phone ping from your bed. You hung up the dress and pulled your sweats back on before reaching for your phone, hesitating when you saw Joel's name pop up. You felt a pit in your stomach, worried that he came to his senses and was asking to cancel, so you sat down on the bed before sliding your thumb over the screen to open his text.
You look great in everything, but I really like the pink one.
Your palms instantly broke out into a sweat and you felt lightheaded.
"Oh no, oh no, oh no," you mumbled, scrolling up in your text chain before cursing and throwing yourself into your pillows to scream. In your rush to send your text, you accidentally sent the pictures to Joel instead of Courtney. You waited until you got your bearings and tried to convince yourself it wasn't really that bad, that it definitely could have been worse, before replying.
Ha, sorry. I meant to send those to a friend, but if you like the pink one, then I guess that answers my question
You stared down at your phone, anxiously waiting for his answer, which didn't take very long at all.
You could wear a paper sack and you would still look beautiful.
The grin that stretched across your face was massive. He was probably just sweet talking you and trying to make you feel better about making such a stupid mistake, but damn, it worked.
Looking forward to tonight :) you said in response, then bit your lip and flung yourself backwards on your bed. Your eyes drifted to the light pink dress hanging in your closet and you smiled.
As it turned out, the Italian restaurant was owned by Joel's brother, Tommy. You met the younger man at the host stand when you walked in the door. He had a huge grin plastered across his face and although you were an only child, you could still tell when someone was itching to tease their sibling. Tommy's eyes flickered back and forth between you and Joel, silently communicating with his brother as you introduced yourself. You managed to catch Joel shooting Tommy a warning glare before nervously resting his hand on your lower back and guiding you through the restaurant to an empty booth in the back.
"Have I told you how beautiful you look?" Joel asked, his dark eyes sparkling even under the dim mood lighting. You giggled and shyly looked down at your lap.
"A couple times."
Joel smiled warmly and leaned forward, his eyes trailing over the soft curves of your jaw and the way your plush lips stretched when he made you smile.
Before the food arrived, you learned a little more about him. He worked in construction, doing mostly residential but some commercial property work. He was trying to go into business for himself, which he told you was difficult but he already had years of experience and contacts in the area. He preferred to do most jobs himself or with as little help as possible because he only trusted his own work, but sometimes he did hire Tommy for a job to help his brother earn extra money.
"And in return, he lets me eat here for free," Joel finished, wiping the small smudge of red sauce from the corner of his mouth.
"That sounds like a win-win," you joked, and Joel chuckled.
"Tell me 'bout yourself. You said you been workin' at the store for four years?"
"Yeah," you nodded, pushing your empty plate to the side. "It's just meant to be temporary. I'm going to community college three days a week. Trying to get my degree so I can get a job with normal hours."
Joel hummed and leaned back in the booth. "What'dya wanna do?"
You shrugged. "I'm not sure, really. Hoping I figure that out as I go. I just know being a cashier for the rest of my life isn't for me, you know?"
"Yeah, sure," he agreed. "I could ask 'round if you want. Maybe some place is hirin' a receptionist or somethin'?"
"Oh, it's okay," you waved him off with a smile. "I appreciate it, though."
Afterwards, he took you for ice cream. You sat together outside the ice cream stand on a bench. The temperature outside was perfect and the place was mobbed. Kids ran around playing tag while other families gathered around picnic tables, laughing and telling each other about their days while you tried not to stare at Joel licking his ice cream and fantasizing about what that would look like between your legs.
"I wouldn't've pegged you for a strawberry girl," he said, nodding towards your rapidly melting ice cream.
"It reminds me of when I was a kid. My grandma liked to take me out for ice cream when she babysat me and strawberry was her favorite."
He smiled, listening to you talk about your family, getting a brief glimpse into your life, leaving him wanting more.
You thought everything was going so well. The date went perfectly. There wasn't as much awkwardness as you originally thought there would be and Joel was very easy to talk to. So when he dropped you off at your door and you invited him inside, you were surprised and somewhat hurt when he declined after a quick glance at his watch. He only kissed your cheek before telling you have a good night and backing out of your driveway, leaving you confused and a little self-conscious.
"He's probably just a gentleman," Courtney assured you the following day, "wants to take things slow and all that."
And you agreed. Once you had time to process everything, that seemed like exactly what it was, and you began to feel better.
But then Joel took you on a second date, and then a third, and he still hadn't tried to kiss you or make a move whatsoever.
"Maybe he's just rusty," Courtney offered after the fourth date and still finding yourself being shot down. "He wouldn't keep going out with you if he didn't like you."
Once again, Courtney made sense and you agreed he just liked to take things slower than you were used to.
But on your fifth date, where he took you to a baseball game, you misjudged the size of the beers they sold and you found yourself tipsier than you expected. Joel seemed really into the game but turned his focus on you whenever you searched for it, which, as the night wore on and the alcohol buzzed in your veins, became more and more frequent. You would ask him questions about how the game was played, even though your father watched baseball your whole life, just so you could listen to him talk. You looped your arm through his when the game was over and you both shuffled out of the stadium with a whole herd of drunk fans, back out into the parking lot. You tightly held onto his bicep, the feeling of his muscles under you fingertips more intoxicating than the beer, as he escorted you to his truck.
On the drive back to your place, you could feel your confidence building. Maybe he's just shy and doesn't know how to make a move. Maybe he just needs a clearer sign. Maybe he's waiting for you to make a move.
So, when he walked you to your door and he leaned in to kiss your cheek, you turned your face at the last second and locked your lips with his.
You could feel his surprise when your lips met. He froze and stopped breathing as he tried to figure out what to do, so you decided to make things easier for him and draped your arms around his neck, pulling him closer and massaging your lips over his, urging him to reciprocate.
And finally, his hands flew up to your waist and tugged you against him. His mouth began to move and he crowded you up against your door. When your back made contact with the wood and his large palms squeezed gently at your hips, you moaned into his mouth. You had been dying for this for weeks and you would be damned it you were going to let it stop too soon.
Without even asking this time, you reached behind you and fumbled with your doorknob, twisting it blindly without breaking the kiss so you could both stumble inside. He kicked the door shut behind him, tongue licking at the seam of your lips while he brought one of his hands up to cup the back of your head. You granted him access, parting your lips and tangling your tongues together as he continued to walk you backwards. He opened his eyes and glanced around the dark living room quickly before pulling away and whispering one word: bedroom?
The way he said it made your knees weak and your heart flutter excitedly in your chest. You pulled him down for one more kiss before grabbing his hand and practically dragging him down the hall. About halfway to your room, his lips latched onto the crook of your neck and you slowed down, closing your eyes and twisting around in his arms so you could kiss him again. He pinned you against the wall with a groan, his thumb and forefinger clutching your jaw, prying it open so he could devour you. You hooked one leg over his hips and he let go of your jaw so he could grab the backs of your thighs and haul you off the ground.
You tugged at his hair impatiently, then gasped when he ground himself against your core, your body jolting in his arms and knocking a canvas print off the wall.
"Shit," he muttered, barely sparing the picture a glance before peeling you off the wall and carrying you towards your bedroom with your ankles hooked together at his lower back. You giggled against his mouth then squealed when he tossed you onto your bed. His hands glided underneath your dress and up your legs, slipping his fingers around the the waistband of your panties and tugging them down, pausing once he got to your knees. He blinked a few times like he was snapping out of a stupor and glanced up at you.
"Is this okay?"
"God, yes," you said, reaching behind you to tug at your zipper. You tried to shrug off your dress but his lips found yours and you quickly got distracted. You nibbled at his bottom lip while simultaneously tugging at the hem of his shirt, pushing it up over his soft stomach and stopping at his broad shoulders. He broke away just long enough to lean back and toss the shirt over his head and he was back on top of you before you could even drink him in.
You dragged your mouth over his chin, biting and nipping as you went. He groaned as you left open mouthed kisses across his jaw, his prickly beard tickling your tongue. "My dress," you whispered against his cheek before mouthing at the skin there, "take it off."
His palms slid over your shoulders, pushing the straps of your dress down while you wiggled a bit, helping move the fabric down your body. You arched your back so he could pull your dress all the way off, his breath getting caught in this throat when your nipples brushed against his bare chest.
He couldn't resist. When your dress was discarded on the floor, he sat back between your legs to admire your naked body, completely transfixed. Too much time had passed without him saying anything and you grew self-conscious, so you slowly began to cross your arms over your chest, but he stopped you.
"No," he rasped with a shake of his head. "You're so beautiful, just wanna look at you another minute."
Your cheeks flared with heat but you dropped your hands and gazed up at him, watching his eyes flicker excitedly over your body, memorizing every curve and freckle he could find. Out of the corner of your eye, you noticed a twitch in his pants and you glanced down at the outline of his cock through his jeans. You bit your lip and he followed your gaze, palming his erection briefly before undoing his pants.
"Oh," you whispered to yourself when you saw his cock spring free. He wrapped his hand around his thick shaft and glanced up at you as he crawled back up the mattress on his knees. "You're big," you added, unable to look away. He blushed but didn't reply. Instead, he leaned forward and kissed you, this time slower. You shuddered in anticipation when you felt the tip of his leaking cock brush against your pussy and he froze.
"Shit, wait," he grumbled, sitting back on his heels before reaching for his wallet, which was still stuffed inside his jeans. You figured out the problem and leaned over to your nightstand, fishing around in the drawer until you found a condom and held it out for him. He looked relieved when he saw the little foil square and tossed his wallet back onto the ground before ripping open the condom and rolling it on.
"Sorry. It's... been a while. Wasn't exactly prepared," he explained, rubbing the back of his neck awkwardly. The endearing confession just made you want him even more.
"It's okay, come here," you murmured, reaching your arms out for him. He grinned and fell down onto his elbows, kissing you slow and deep. When you felt him rest his tip at your entrance, you tensed up.
"Relax," he whispered in your ear. You slid your eyes shut and snaked your arms around his shoulders, gasping sharply when he pressed forward. When he sunk his teeth into your shoulder, your eyes rolled to the back of your head, the pain mixing with the pleasure in a way that made you dizzy.
"Oh, fuck, Joel," you whimpered when he bottomed out, your body stretching around his girth, the sting setting your nerves on fire.
He groaned against your neck and began to rock his hips steadily, making sure to not go too fast. He could tell you were still getting adjusted but it had just been so fucking long and he liked you so much, it was difficult to hold back. He could feel the sweat collecting between his shoulder blades as he focused all his energy on going slow, and when he felt your thighs relax around his waist and your back arch underneath him, he sighed with relief.
"More," you moaned, pressing your body against his, trying to get as close as possible. He growled and dipped his mouth down to capture one of your nipples, swirling his tongue around the sensitive bud, releasing it with a wet pop and reveling in the sweet noises you made for him.
He wanted to tell you everything. He wanted to tell you how much he thought about you, how long he wanted to ask you out, how he wanted to know everything about you, how nervous you made him with just a simple glance. But he didn't say any of that. It had been so long since he had gone on a date that he wasn't even sure what women liked anymore. So he remained silent, focusing on not coming too soon while paying close attention to your cues, memorizing what you liked based on the breathy whines in his ear and the way your fingers clutched frantically at his hair. You, however, took his silence to mean he wasn't enjoying himself and you really, really didn't want that, so you pushed gently on his shoulder, drawing his attention.
"Let's switch," you murmured, and he gave you a quizzical look. "Why don't you lay back and let me do some of the work?" you explained, nipping playfully at his jaw.
When his head settled into your pillows, watching with heavy lidded eyes as you straddled him before catching his gaze and slowly sinking down, taking every inch of his cock with a low moan, he thought for sure it would be the death of him. You looked so beautiful all spread out and full of him that he had to squeeze his eyes shut so he wouldn't come just looking at you.
Then you started riding him and his eyes flew open, his chest heaving as he watched your tits bounce and your head tip back in ecstasy and he knew he was done for.
"Wait," he rasped, grabbing your waist and stilling your hips. You stopped, swollen lips parted as you panted for air and looked down at him.
"What's wrong?"
"N-nothin'," he stammered, taking a few deep breaths in before chuckling. "I'm just... I need a minute, is all."
You could see the red beginning to stain his cheeks and the look of embarrassment flicker across his face, melting your heart. Leaning down, you cupped his jaw and kissed him tenderly.
"Is that why you've been so quiet?" you asked softly, leaning back so you could look into his eyes but still holding his cheek in the palm of your hand. He nodded, his fingers gently wrapping around your wrist.
"I'm sorry. I haven't been with anyone in years and I've been tryin' to take things slow with you but I think all the buildup just made it worse." You grinned and took his other hand.
"Don't be sorry. I think it's hot," you whispered, pulling his free hand down between your bodies. He splayed his hand out across your lower abdomen and you took his thumb between your fingers, pulling it down so it made direct contact with your clit. You sucked in a sharp breath when you felt the pressure and a slow smile spread across his face when he realized what you were doing.
"Yeah? Why's it hot?" he asked, drawing slow circles over your clit and watching your jaw fall open and your eyes flutter shut. Both your hands dropped to his chest, holding yourself up.
"Because," you began, then bit your lip and moaned when he picked up the pace. "Because it's l-like you c-can't control yourself. Like y-you need me so badly, you can't hold back." You knew it sounded pathetic but you didn't care. His touch was intoxicating and you needed more.
"I can't," he admitted, his eyes glued to your face, taking pride in how good he made you feel. "I can't control myself. Wanted you for so long. Been thinkin' about this for months."
You gasped and your eyes snapped open, locking onto his. "Me, too. I never thought, shit, never thought you noticed me."
"Are you kiddin' me? I noticed you the first day." Now that the truth was out there, the words wouldn't stop coming. "You were wearin' a yellow shirt and I saw these perfect fuckin' tits when you bent over. Went home that night and-"
He stopped himself, wondering if he was going too far, but you dug your fingers into his chest and urged him to continue, desperately gasping for air as his thumb applied more pressure.
"Say it," you whispered. His cock pulsed angrily inside you, begging for release.
"Went home and fucked my fist thinkin' 'bout you."
You groaned loudly and leaned back, grabbing your breasts and playing with your nipples. "Fuck, I'm close, Joel."
"Yeah? Can you ride me, baby? Wanna come with you," he begged, his voice strained. Immediately, you resumed bouncing on his cock, letting go of your tits so you could brace yourself on his chest once again.
He watched in awe as you gasped and squeezed your eyes shut, stilling for just a moment, pulsing around his length as you came, his name and curses tumbling from your lips.
He couldn't hold back any longer.
He grabbed your hips with both hands and slammed up into you, grunting louder and louder each time. And it didn't take long. You had barely recovered from your own orgasm before he groaned, his eyes trained on where you were connected, thrusting as deep as he could go while his cock throbbed inside you.
"Fuck," he whispered, his head falling back limply onto your pillow. You slumped forward and buried your face against his neck, each of you trying to regulate your breathing.
"That was..." you began, trailing off when you realized your brain was still a pile of mush.
"Better than I ever imagined," Joel finished for you, wrapping his arms around your ribs.
Regrettably, he eventually pulled out, making you both wince. You rolled over onto your back and watched as he made his way to the bathroom to dispose of the condom. If you had any energy left, you might have shot off a quick text to Courtney, but you were barely coherent by the time he slipped back into your bed.
You didn't even need to ask if he was staying the night. He pulled you into his arms, his chest pressed up against your back when you fell asleep, completely at ease.
It could have been the beer or the sex, but you didn't hear his phone go off in the middle of the night. You didn't feel him slip his arm out from under you so he could answer the call in your living room, and you definitely didn't hear him quickly dress and leave.
It was finally Friday and you were moments away from calling off from work. The thought of facing him again made your stomach roll and your head swim.
You hadn't heard from Joel since he left in the middle of the night after you slept together, days ago. You foolishly texted and called him multiple times, but he never answered. Eventually, you got the message.
Countless hours were spent crying, then more were spent stalking around your place angrily, and a mixture of the two happened at work when either Courtney or Andy asked you about hot flower guy.
They eventually learned not to ask.
As badly as you wanted to call off, you dragged yourself into work. Andy offered to take over the registers so you could hide in the aisles stocking shelves during the hour Joel typically showed up, and you shamefully took him up on it. But when it was close to closing time and you made your way back to the front, Andy shrugged his shoulders.
"He never came."
You had a moment where you worried that something happened to him and you considered texting him just one more time, but when you got into your car that night and opened your text chain to a long list of unanswered texts, you changed your mind.
However, the next morning you awoke to a handful of texts from Joel. At first, your heart raced in your chest, but then your anger crept up and you had half a mind to just delete them. After you had some coffee and a chance to think clearly, your curiosity won and you opened the texts.
I'm so sorry
Something came up
Can you call me back?
Please let me explain
Your fingers hovered over your screen as you debated on what to say. Then you decided to leave the messages unanswered. At least for a little while. If he left you hanging for almost a week, he could wait a few hours, right?
What you didn't expect, however, was for him to show up at the store on a Saturday. He only ever came on Friday evenings. You were cashing out a customer, zoning out a bit, grateful for the distraction. When you reached for the receipt, your eyes locked with his and your pulse began to race. He was holding a bouquet of white roses and looking at you with a guilty expression. Your fingers froze around the paper momentarily until the little old lady in front of him cleared her throat and you blinked, snapping out of it and handing her the receipt with an apologetic smile.
"Hey," he said, but you kept your gaze trained down at the scanner.
"Hi."
Your hands shook as you scanned his flowers, doing your best to get the interaction over with as quickly as possible. Out of the corner of your eye, you saw Andy at customer service notice Joel in line, watching from a distance in case you needed rescuing.
"You didn't respond to my texts," he said quietly. You shrugged.
"I've been busy," was all you said, tapping the button on the register for credit.
After he paid, you handed him his receipt and forced yourself to look at him. You could see in his eyes he looked exhausted and run down and despite how upset you were, you felt bad. But you felt even worse after he pocketed the receipt and handed you the flowers.
"They're for you."
"Oh," you said, surprised, as you looked down at the roses. "T-thank you."
Joel looked over his shoulder when a young couple began to unload their groceries on the belt. You panicked, not sure what to do or say, and then you felt a tap on your shoulder.
"Why don't you take your break?" Andy offered, "I'll cover."
You gave him a shaky smile, both of you knowing full well you already had your break. "Yeah, okay." Glancing over at Joel, you tilted your head towards the front door and he nodded.
"I'm so sorry I left without sayin' anythin'," he began when you sat down together on a bench outside the store. "There was an emergency and I had to go."
"You could have texted me or left a note," you said sadly, looking down at the flowers clutched in your hands.
"I know, and I was gonna, but my damn phone died and I was in the hospital for days. I was outta town, couldn't leave, I even wore the same clothes the whole time," he rubbed his face and sighed. "And once we got back home, I wanted to explain in person what happened."
"We?" you questioned. He dropped his chin to his chest and nodded solemnly.
"I have a daughter," he confessed, and your jaw dropped in surprise.
"W-what?" you whispered softly, "why didn't you tell me, Joel?"
His eyebrows pinched together, still avoiding your gaze.
"I don't know. In the past, women haven't exactly been thrilled findin' out I come with baggage and I guess I was bein' selfish." He finally looked up and you could see the pain behind his eyes. "I was tryin' to find the right way to tell you but I was so scared of losin' you."
You shook your head in disbelief. "It doesn't bother me at all that you have a daughter, Joel," you told him, "it bothers me that you lied."
He inched forward on the bench and put his hand on your knee. "I know. I'm so sorry. It was stupid. If you gimme another chance, I promise I'll never lie to you again."
Your chest tightened and you had to look away. He was so sincere, you could feel your resolve crumbling. After a moment, you dragged your eyes back up to him and you could swear he looked like he was on the verge of tears.
"Is she okay?"
He blinked rapidly for a moment, surprised by your question, then nodded.
"Yeah. She's okay now. She had appendicitis. She was with her mom last week. She lives an hour outside Austin and I just went right there from your place. Scared the shit outta me," he finished with a dry chuckle. Then something clicked.
"Your daughter..."
"Sarah."
"Sarah," you repeated. "The flowers you bought every week. Were they for her?"
He smiled shyly and nodded. "Yeah. She gets nervous goin' to her mom's still. The situation is a little rocky so I always get her flowers. Whether she's goin' there or comin' back. They make her smile," he said with a little shrug, and your heart melted.
"That's... that's really sweet," you said, looking down once again at the roses he bought you. He watched you closely for a moment then sat back on the bench, scratching his chin and trying to read your mind. Everything was out in the open now. He should have listened to Tommy and just told you the truth from the first date, but he couldn't remember the last time he ever felt so strongly about someone else before.
Just when he was about to leave, wanting to give you your space to think things over, you spoke again.
"So when are you free next?"
Joel exhaled in relief, then laughed. "Tomorrow?"
You bit your lip and nodded, then leaned forward and cupped his jaw, giving him a chaste kiss on the corner of his mouth.
"It's a date," you whispered before standing up. He watched you from the bench as you walked towards the front doors. At the last moment you turned around, the white roses clutched against your chest, and called out, "have a good night."
He grinned.
"Have a good night."
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JOEL MILLER FIC RECS
âž 18+ minors DNI, read at your own risk! â˝
an appreciation to all my favourite writers out there you deserve all the love <3
Series
â Something To Fight For by @auteurdelabre | After a disastrous blind date you decide to stay away from the miserable Joel Miller forever...
â I Know Who You Are by @punkshort | A fall on patrol causes you to lose your long-term memory, forgetting the identities of your friends and loved ones. You have to learn all over again how to survive in a post-apocalyptic world, and you learn things about yourself along the way.
â The One You Need by @loliwrites | When you move into town hellbent on keeping everyone at armâs length, your neighbour Joel finds his way into your life.
â By The Grit Of Sandpaper by @penvisions | An offhand comment from you inspires Joel to branch out and create helpful kitchen wares. And it seems everyone has been gifted one from him, except for you. It makes you rethink the casual friendship you had developed...
â I Wanna Be Your Lover by @shellshocklove | Miserable after losing your job, your friend drags you out to a club to dance away your sadness. on the dancefloor, you meet a handsome stranger, who then whisks you away into his fantasy world as his assistant for his porn career. what happens when the lines get blurred?
â If The Door Wasn't Shut by @heartpascal | months of travelling with Joel and Ellie come crashing down on you, the fear is suffocating.
â Stay In Bed by @psychedelic-ink | After your grandfatherâs passing, you find yourself moving into his home in Texas. You meet the Millers; Tommy, his older brother Joel and his daughter Sarah. With time, you and Tommy become close friends and Sarah visits you often. But JoelâŚJoel keeps his distance.
â That's A Real Fucking Legacy by @wyn-n-tonic | When Tommy disappears in search of a better life with a promise to come back for you, his years of absence and the grief it leaves behind drives you and his brother closer together until the man you're sharing a bed and starting a family with is Joel Miller and not the one you always thought it would be.
One-Shots
â No Time To Die by @davosmymaster | The main difficulty of being Joelâs closest friend is not falling in love with him, but you still do. Those feelings are buried until you join him on a mission to trade supplies with Bill and Frank. With your life now hanging by a thread, Joel is determined to get you to safety, but the clock is ticking faster than he can run.
â White Lies by @poeticpascal | Joel would do anything for you. He does anything for you. And he makes sure you don't know a thing.
â Saying Thanks by @vivwritescrappythings | Joel is your grumpy patrol partner who doesnât even talk to you in the streets of Jackson. But one night a man grabs your arm at the Tipsy Bison, and Joelâs decided he doesnât like it.
â Soft & Sweet by @cavillscurls | You share your first kiss with the last man you ever expected: your older, grouchy, overly protective patrol partner, Joel Miller.
â Who We Are by @gracieheartspedro | Being stuck on the road with an older guy you've been crushing on for ages won't be so bad, right? wrong. because he's been pining after you, too. and one of you will have to give in eventually.
â Warm Me Up by @tightjeansjavi | While on patrol, you and Joel find yourselves caught in a treacherous snowstorm.
â Love In the Time Of Cordyceps by @sameheart-sameblood | When the world ends, you promise you'll never love again. Joel Miller makes that rule hard to stick to.
â Puppy Love by @absurdthirst | You always follow Joel Miller around, you've got his back. You're in love with him. Putting up with Tess's nickname of puppy dog, you don't realize that Joel feels for you until the end.
â Light The Flame by @yeollie-plz | Your mom moves the two of you back to Texas and attempts to reignite an old flame. What will happen when she learns his candle now burns for you?
â Best I Ever Had by @endlessthxxghts | Someone tries to hit on you on your night out with Joel, insulting your man in the process, and oh you don't like that. You blow off some steam in more ways than one.
â Make A Move On Me by @freelancearsonist | You've been teasing Joel every day since he started remodelling construction on your house. He finally works up the courage to do something about it - but not in the way you expect him to.
â Fire Walk by @motherofagony | A chance encounter at a motel has you crossing paths with a stranger in a blue t-shirt.
â Cry Baby by @psychedelic-ink | bodies have been dropping left and right in the most brutal ways in Jackson. As the relentless wave of deaths continues, your mind becomes increasingly restless. however, you find a sense of comfort and solace in the presence of Joel. who might be hiding secrets of his own.
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Rotten | cowboy!joel x f!reader
Summary: Sharing land with Joel Miller has always been infuriating, but when your bad attitude finally gets his attention...things get messy. Rating: 18+ Explicit MDNI Word Count: 5.2k Warnings: No-Outbreak AU, banter and arguing, explicit language, brat taming, semi dark!joel, dubcon elements, degrading, choking, rough spanking, hair pulling, face slapping, throat fucking, touch of dacryphilia, rope/bondage, rough unprotected piv sex, hint of a subspace moment, orgasm denial, squirting, creampie, no aftercare because joel is an old, grumpy asshole A/N: Y'all probably wouldn't believe me if I told you Apple by Charlie XCX inspired this random fic...but anyway, this one goes out to my sweet bb angel @lotusbxtch <3 thank you for always being my partner in crime in the late hours of the evening ilysm
Part II
Masterlist | Ko-Fi
The Texas sun beat down on your skin as you rode through the acres of landâyour landâ stretching out before you. Passed down from generation to generation, this entire pasture of fields and wild barley was yours. After both of your parents died during a freak accident, you inherited the land and dealt with upkeep and farm animals as if it were your life. And it was your life. Every inch of this farmland was yours, no matter what anyone said.Â
You pressed your heels into the side of your horse, Mac, and urged him further down through the tall grass. The summer hadnât been kind to the fields, the grass yellowing in most places, but what would you do about it? Tell the sun to stop shining? All you could do was take care of the land and ensure nothing went wrong. The animals were taken care of, the wild wheat still grew strong in the outskirts past your tiny farm home, and you had enough money to put dinner on the table for yourself at the end of your night.Â
No trouble at all.Â
What was trouble, though, was Joel Miller riding his ass right down the edge of your land. The sun cast him in a dark silhouette as he rode closer, his broad body sitting tall on the back of his horse. You held back the reigns, shushing Mac gently as you slowed him to a trot, keeping a healthy distance from the insufferable man trespassing onto your fields.Â
âThink yâgot yourself a bit lost out here, Miller,â you hollered.Â
Joel removed the black cowboy hat from his head; the grey hairs streaking through his curls shimmered in the sunlight as he swiped an arm over his sweaty forehead. Every inch of his skin was sunkissed and tan from hours under the sun, his greying beard patchy and well-kept despite his rugged exterior. If he werenât such an asshole, maybe youâd even consider him attractive, but your irritation with him ran deeper than any other emotion.Â
Staring up at you under thick brows, Joel quirked an amused grin and shrugged.Â
âAinât lost at all, darlinâ. Sâmy land out here.â
You steered Mac forward, keeping yourself parallel with Joelâs body. You werenât intimidated by any man, let alone Joel Miller. He may have a few decades on you, but that didnât matter. The Miller family had always been a problem. For generations, they feuded with your family over acres of land that stretched across the horizon, never agreeing on who owned what. Before Joel, his father had caused an uproar in your family, and now he just had to continue causing problems. Would you ever rid yourself of this man and his family?
âI suggest yâtake your ass home âfore I make you leave,â you warned.Â
The wind kicked around you, fanning your hair down around your shoulders. Joel caught how your hair flared under your cowboy hat, and a hint of mischief sparkled inside his dark brown eyes. He was a fucking nuisance and still on your fucking land.Â
âCareful now, darlinâ. Those are some mighty big fightinâ words.â
You straightened your spine, holding firm on the reigns to keep yourself anchored. Mac huffed impatiently as if he knew how sour your mood was turning. The longer you kept yourself around Joel, the quicker your anger grew. The sun would set soon, and you still had miles to cover before you made it home; you wouldnât entertain an old cowboy all night, even if he were staring at you like you were a wild horse to be tamed.Â
âThis is the last time Iâm tellinâ you to stay off my land, Joel. I mean it.â
Joel chuckled lightly as if your words meant nothing. He placed his hat back over the matted curls on his head and began riding past you. You glared over your shoulder, watching his body travel further into the horizon and away from the rolling fields of your land.Â
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The summer wasnât getting any easier. The sun grew brighter each day, and the air thickened with humidity, making it nearly impossible to continue wearing anything restrictive. With no one else around to pester you, you paraded around the stables in a tight top, a pair of daisy dukes, and your usual worn leather boots. The fewer clothes, the betterâeven if that meant getting bit up by a few mosquitoes here and there.Â
You were deep into cleaning Macâs stall when you heard the sound of hoofs pounding against the dirt ground outside the stables. Your body went rigid; you knew who it was without looking. Who else would it be out here? The horse in the distance bristled as its rider dropped to the ground, his heavy footfall nearing you as you exited the stall with a towel slung over your shoulder.Â
Joel stood tall in the entrance, his broad frame sucking in all of the light as he walked closer. He wore an old denim button-up, and the sleeves pushed up his tan forearms, exposing the thickly corded muscles that ran down to his hands. Without a cowboy hat resting over his eyes, you could see how rich and dark they were as they stared you down. Despite hating him, your body reacted on its own accord. You clenched your thighs, trying to quell the ache growing inside your core. Leaning against the stall, you narrowed your eyes, watching Joel stalking closer. His steps were confidentâcasually, evenâas if he owned the damn place.Â
âNot sure why yâthink itâs okay to come waltzinâ in here,â you scowled, folding your arms over your chest.Â
âAinât you just a ray of sunshine,â Joel smirked.Â
âFuck off, old man,â you snapped, rolling your eyes.Â
âWhat was that, darlin?âÂ
Joel stepped forward, and you mimicked his movements, drawing yourself closer to him. Even with his height towering over you, you were unphased. This man wouldnât get the best of you.Â
âOh, sorry. Should I be speakinâ louder? Ainât sure if yâgot your hearing aids in.â
âNo, I heard yâjust fine. Just wanna hear you say it again.â
The toe of your boot tapped against his as you glared up at him. With a smug grin stretching across your face, you repeated your retort.Â
âFuck off. Old man.â
Joelâs body tensed, his eyes narrowed as he considered your words. You werenât backing down; he was on your property and, quite frankly, pissing you off. He could bitch and moan all he wanted about how this land was his birthright, but he was wrong. Your parents settled the matter generations ago and never once faltered against the Millers. That wouldnât change now. Youâd uphold their wishes and continue fighting for what was yours.Â
âYâgotta damn nasty mouth on such a tiny body. Ainât your parents teach you some manners?â Joel questioned.Â
âThey taught me enough, but it ainât gonna stop me from tellinâ you off. So, get the hell off my property,â you demanded.Â
You glanced down, noticing Joelâs hands clenched into fists at his sides. It was amusing seeing him all riled up. Who knew he had that kind of spark in him? You wondered just how far you could push him until he snapped.Â
âAinât you just spoiled rotten. Is that what it is? Yâthink everythinâ is yours âcause your mommy and daddy said so?â
His voice was taunting, a litany of rhetorical questions to which he didnât care to know the answer. Whatever you said, it wouldnât matter because his mind was made up. Stubborn old man.
âI donât think everythinâ is mine. I know it is,â you objected. âSo, move your old ass back to your side of the pasture and get out of my face.â
Joel crowded your body, walking you back towards the stall door until your body pressed into the wood. You lifted your chin defiantly, watching his eyes clouded with rage.Â
âSpoiled lilâ brat. Should teach you a lesson for the way youâre speakinâ to me,â Joel growled.Â
Letâs see how far we can take this, you thought.Â
âWhatcha gonna do? Spank me?â You laughed, gracing him with a rueful smile.Â
Placing his hands above you on the door, Joel caged you between his body. You had nowhere to run; truthfully, you didnât want to run. The incessant ache between your legs was swelling, your underwear practically soaked with the burning anticipation coursing through your veins.Â
âKeep runninâ your mouth, darlinâ. Sâonly gonna make things worse for you.â
âI ainât scared of you, Joel.â
âYou damn well should be,â he warned.Â
Joelâs hand shot out to grab the base of your neck, yanking you a breath away from his lips. The rich scent of whiskey wafted off his lips as he held you close, his fingers tightening around your throat. You rolled your tongue across your bottom lip, an invitation for whatever threat he had. You could take it.Â
âYâthink itâs cute actinâ this way? Think youâre just tough shit, and no one will put you in your place, hmm?â Joel whispered.Â
âYou gonna be the one to do it, Joel?â You challenged.Â
Joel used his grip on your throat to spin you toward the door, your cheek smashing into the wood as he pinned you against it. The instant sting of his palm radiated through the denim of your shorts, the heat of his hand melting into your skin. You yelped in pain, dragging your nails over the wood that strained against the press of your body. His hand smoothed over the curve of your ass before delivering another jarring smack.Â
âFuck!â You cried, biting back tears.Â
âSpoiled.â Smack. âFuckinâ.â Smack. âBrat.â Smack. Smack.Â
âJoel, please!â You begged.Â
You werenât sure if you were begging for more or begging for him to stop. Either way, he was unrelenting, his handprint leaving welts on your skin. Joelâs grip on your throat tightened, restricting your breathing as he dug his fingers into the supple skin of your ass. ProddingâŚsmoothingâŚspanking. A continuous, viscous cycle you were weak against. Every bite of his hand on your body intensified the throbbing between your legs, your clit swelling with need. Repeating slaps against your other cheek forced tears down your face, their path leading down your neck and onto Joelâs warm hand.Â
âYou cryinâ, darlinâ?â Joel taunted. âGonna beg me to stop?â
âPleaseââ You choked out, your words garbled and strained.Â
Joelâs lips touched your ear, his breath fanning over your skin in waves.Â
âMâfraid I canât. Not tilâ yâlearn your lesson.â
You twisted your head around, your tired eyes connecting with his. There wasnât a hint of brown in his irises as his pupils swallowed them whole, an unsatisfied look washing over his features. He wasnât done, and neither were you.Â
âFuck you,â you snarled.Â
Joel tilted his head, his graying mustache twitching as his lips curved into a smile. An unmistakable hint of desire masked his expression, keeping you reeled in and wanting more. If he could keep going, then so could you.Â
âYou just ainât backinâ down, huh?â Joel questioned.Â
You wagged your head back and forth, his fingers squeezing against your windpipes. Joelâs hand coasted up your waist, tugging at the belt loop on your shorts until your body spun to face his. Even with tears streaming down your cheeks, you grinned at him, clearly unbothered by the onslaught of pain he had inflicted.Â
âThat all yâgot, old man?â You lipped off.Â
âCall me old man one more time, darlinâ,â Joel warned his face inches from yours.Â
âOld. Man.â You punctuated each word through gritted teeth.
Joel cupped your sex through your jeans, no doubt feeling the arousal seeping through the denim fabric. A rouge whimper fell off your lips, and you bit back any more sounds to give away the desperation rolling through your veins.
âFuckinâ brat,â he exhaled, but there was a lightness in his voice.
You were both giving into some carnal need, electrifying the humid air around you. You chased his mouth, wanting to lap up every threat on his whiskey-drenched tongue. Joel pulled back, your lips connecting with nothing as you arched forward. With a slight pout, you huffed in annoyance.Â
âLook whoâs actinâ all desperate now. Just begginâ for this old man to fuck you.â
âBetcha canât even get it up in the first place,â you grumbled.Â
Joelâs hand connected with your cheek, a rough slap sending your face to the side. Dammit, if that wasnât the hottest thing heâd done. The sting of his palm sent a wave of pleasure rolling through your stomach, a burning need just aching to come undone. Thick fingers gripped your jaw, wagging your face side to side.Â
âIâve heard enough of that bratty mouth,â Joel said decisively.Â
His hands brushed over your collarbone, grasping your shoulders and shoving you to your knees. Your legs hit the straw-covered ground with a soft thud, your skin scraping against the dry hay. He wasted no time undoing his large belt buckle, working his cock out of the confines of his jeans, and your mouth went dry at the sight of him. Joel was hung like a fucking horse, his length thick and no short of any girth. Precum dribbled down off the tip, the sticky mess enticing you to move closer. Staring up at him through your lashes, you waited for his next move. He might have you on your knees, but youâd have his cock, and that was power in itself.Â
âMake use of that mouth and suck,â he commanded.Â
You lapped at the precum, his cock twitching against every flick of your tongue. You explored his length, dragging your tongue along the veins running down the underside of his cock. Joel gripped the hair at the crown of your head, guiding your mouth over the tip and down his length. Your nose brushed against the bushy hair at the base, his musky scent flooding your sensesâit was intoxicating.Â
âThere we go,â Joel hummed, his voice gravely and strained. âSo fuckinâ full of me yâcanât talk back.â
His name came out muffled as you tried to speak, your tongue flatted against the base of his cock. He pushed his cock a centimeter further, the tip knocking against the back of your throat. You gagged around him, your hands slapping against his thick thighs.Â
âI donât wanna hear yâsay a damn word,â Joel growled. âYouâre gonna take my fuckinâ cock down your throat and choke on it.â
You clawed at his thighs as tears sprung along your waterline, threatening to spill over the longer he kept himself inside your mouth. His fingers tightened around tiny strands of your hair, anchoring you to his cock as he thrusted himself deeper. You tried to protest and pull away, but his grip on you was unforgiving.Â
âPlease,â you garbled, spit rolling down your chin.Â
âStill actinâ like a spoiled fuckinâ brat, ainât you? Think yâcan get whatever you want?â
He granted you an inch to breathe, pulling you halfway off his cock. You inhaled sharply through your nose, trying to latch onto any control. Joel used his grip on your hair to slide your mouth up and down his length, the sound of your lips around his the only noise aside from his labored breathing. You tapped on his thigh twice, hoping heâd relent and give you a reprieve.Â
âReal fuckinâ cute,â he laughed. âStruggle all yâwant, darlinâ. I ainât stoppinâ.â
The tears flowed freely now, mixing with the saliva pooling down your jaw as you worked him deeper down your throat. Every strained attempt to beg him to stop fell on deaf ears; his cock only pushed further down until you had no choice but to sit there completely disarmed and helpless. The scratches left on his thighs didnât phase him at all, nor did your whimpers as you tried to swallow a breath around him.Â
âKeep cryinâ, darlinâ. Just makes you look prettier when Iâm ruininâ you,â Joel muttered.Â
As your nose pressed against the hair at his navel, Joelâs hand brushed over your cheek, collecting a rogue tear on his thumb. Through blurred eyes and running mascara, you blinked up at him right as he tasted the tear pooling on the pad of his fingertip.Â
âDelicious,â he hummed.
A dangerous grin split across his face, his hips jerking forward one last time before he wrenched you free from his cock. You coughed violently, the air wooshing back into your lungs with each heaving breath. You swiped the back of your hand across your mouth, wiping off the saliva coating your chin and jaw.Â
âYou fuckinâ asshole,â you choked out.Â
Crouching down, Joel met you at eye level, his eyes soulless and dark. You shivered under his heavy gaze and flinched away from his face as he crowded you.Â
âHowâs that attitude of yours now?â He questioned.Â
You reeled back, sending a glob of spit across the bridge of his nose. Joel scrunched his eyes together, jaw clenched as he wiped away your spit. You bared your teeth at him, still refusing to back down. Joel straightened to his full height, working at shoving his cock back in his jeans. Youâd be lying if you said you werenât a bit disappointed; you hated him but wanted more.Â
âGuess I ainât been rough enough,â Joel grumbled, walking down the stable.Â
You watched as he picked a bundle of lead rope off the hook near Macâs stall, weighing it between his hands. A jolt of panic ran through your veins as you saw his eyes light up in mischief. You were so fucked. You half-considered running, but where was the fun in that? Joel would only chase you down, and even that sounded delicious. There was no use in fighting it now; you were in it for the long haul.Â
âNow,â he started, his steps slow as he walked back toward your kneeling body. âIâm gonna give you two options. Yâeither walk your ass outside like a good girl, or I drag you out by your hair. Whatâs it gonna be, darlinâ?â
âIâll walk,â you snapped, rising to your feet.Â
Your knees ached with each step as you walked into the blinding daylight outside the stables. Gnats swarmed around your face as you stood idle by the entrance, glancing over your shoulder at Joel stalking behind you. The rope swung beside his body as he carried it in his hand, the lingering threat lying within the coarse fibers that wound together. His head jerked over to the tie rack beside the barn, his eyes trained on the vacant stall before the expanse of your land.Â
âCâmon, brat.â
He waltzed in front of you, guiding you to the empty platform with a stern look gracing his features. Without a single word, Joel yanked your wrists together, his deft fingers working at knotting the rope around your skin. The fraying pieces bit into your skin, rubbing and burning the longer he twisted it in loops around your hands. He gave the rope a good tug, humming in satisfaction once the binding was tight enough. Guiding your arms upwards, he clipped the lead to the metal loop on one side of the tie rack, keeping your body suspended awkwardly as your wrists ached from the restraint. You refused to say a word, too frustrated even to protest his actions. If you thought you were helpless before, you were utterly powerless now. It was just you, Joel, and the empty stretch of land that went on for miles.Â
Joel pressed his body against your back, the warmth of his touch ignited heat within your core all over again. You squirmed as his hands roamed over your curves, his fingers tracing the outline of your breasts under your sweat-covered shirt. He pinched at your nipples, finding their pebbled indentation hidden within your bra. A desperate whine left your lips as you swayed against the pull of the rope, your feet slipping against the ground.Â
âSee all that land out there,â Joel whispered, his teeth nipping at your earlobe. âThatâs all mine, darlinâ, and Iâm gonna make sure you remember that by the time Iâm through with you.â
âTyinâ me up and fuckinâ me ainât gonna change my mind,â you scoffed.Â
âGuess Iâm just gonna have to fuck some sense into you.â
Joelâs hands worked down your body, making quick work of undoing your shorts and shoving them down to your boots. The hot, sticky summer air breezed over your bare skin, hardly helping to soothe the painful ache between your thighs. Thick, calloused fingers massaged the skin of your hips, kneading your supple curves as you writhed against his touch. You could beg him for more, and oh god, did you want to. You wanted to cave and relinquish everything just to quell the burning pleasure inside your body, but you wouldnât beg. Not for Joel Miller or any other man.Â
Joel swiped a finger through your drenched folds, tutting at your pliancy. The brief touch alone was enough to spark stars behind your eyes, your breath growing shallow.
âWell, would yaâ look at that,â Joel tutted. âYouâre soakinâ my fingers, darlinâ.â
You refused to say a word, too afraid youâd succumb to your own devices. You wouldnât ask him to fuck you, but Jesus Christ, you fucking needed it. Every fiber of your being cried for release, and if it meant you had to be tied up and fucked in front of the yellow fields in front of you, then thatâs what youâd do.Â
âIâll give you one last chance,â Joel offered. âSay this land is mine and Iâll let you go.â
You glanced over your shoulder at him, no doubt a mess after being on your knees before him. There was a cruelty in his eyes that alarmed you, but you were too focused on what you needed, even to feel afraid.Â
âThis is my land,â you stated, your chin held high. âSâmy familyâs land and itâs gonna stay that way âtil Iâm in my grave.â
âWrong fuckinâ answer.â
Joel knocked your legs apart, the denim of his jeans dragging against your slick arousal. There was a moment where there was absolutely nothing, a vacancy of sound or touch that deprived your senses. Maybe you were teetering on the edge of delirium, too far gone to know what he was doing behind you, but then you felt everything. The thick head of his cock brushed against your entrance, rubbing between your silken folds in tantalizing strokes. That was the only warning he gave before pushing himself deeper, splitting you open inch by inch. You cried out as your body worked to stretch around his length, and your vision blackened as the sharp pain of the sensation jolted through your veins.Â
âFuck!â You screamed.Â
The adjustment to his size was agonizing despite how wet you were. Nothing could have prepared you for the way Joel broke you open, nor was there anything that could have prepared you for how brutal he would become. Thrust after thrust, he assaulted you, completely breaking you and molding you to his cock. The pull of the rope burnt the skin of your wrists as he took you harder, your body lurching against the restraints with each snap of his hips. Joel tugged your body backward, shifting your legs until you were forced to bend at the waist. Words wouldnât form on your lips, and you dissolved into a heap of wailing cries as he plunged deeper into you.Â
âWhereâs all that loudmouthinâ now?â Joel grunted, his fingers bruising your hips. âSo fuckinâ cock drunk yâcanât even speak?â
Your silence only drove him crazier, his speed quickening mercilessly. The ache inside your core was all-consuming, a burning wildfire inside your stomach. You dropped your head between your shoulders and dug your nails into your palms, keeping yourself grounded.Â
âJoel,â you gasped. âPlease.â
You failed in your attempts not to beg this man, throwing everything to the wayside as you succumbed to the pulsing ache between your legs.Â
âShut up, brat,â he snapped.Â
âJoel!â You sobbed. âIâm gonnaâfuckâplease. I need toâtoâŚâ
The words turned to ash on your tongue as he snaked a hand around your body, his fingers drawing circles over your swollen clit. You yelped at the roughness of his fingers, the sensation alone nearly causing your legs to buckle beneath you. If it werenât for the ropes holding you firmly in place, you would have fallen to the ground.Â
âPoor thing,â he crooned in your ear. âYâwanna cum? Is that what you want?â
Another drive of his hips. Another draw of his fingers. Tormenting movements that kept you on the edge of ecstasy and suffering. Your arousal pooled down your inner thighs, mixing with the sticky sweat that clung to every inch of your skin.Â
âI need it, Joel,â you gasped. âChrist, please!â
âYâgonna change your mind?â
âNâ.â
Joel pinched your clit between his fingers, and your words drowned out under a helpless wail falling from your lips. He pulled you back by your hair, winding it around his fist as he drew his lips down your neck. The sweltering touch of his mouth on your skin and his rough fingers on your sensitive bud were enough to topple you closer to the edge. The furnace igniting inside your stomach wouldnât stop any time soon, but you still wouldnât give up. He was always going to be wrong, and youâd rather die than give him the satisfaction.Â
âSay it, darlinâ. Say the words, and yâcan cum all over my cock.â
âNever,â you panted. âNever gonnaâ.â
He pistoned into you, his cock spearing deeper and deeper, completely paralyzing you. Sobs wracked through your body as you took every thrust, and your mind began to float off into a blissed-out haze that drowned out the noise behind you.Â
âGonna own all this fuckinâ land,â Joel gritted out. âOwn it just like I own this fuckinâ pussy.â
Please. Please. You werenât sure if you repeated the words inside your mind or aloud; either way, Joel only huffed a laugh and continued with his repetitive assaults on your body. Your orgasm began barreling toward you, your core fluttering around him as it sparked beneath your skin. Everything inside you tensed up, and your jaw went slack with an outward cry as you slipped under the rapid release coursing inside your body.Â
âOh fuck!â You sobbed. âFuck⌠fuck⌠fuck!â
Your sex clenched around Joel so hard he choked on a breath, his body rigid against yours as you spasmed beneath his hold. Hot, wet streams of your orgasm drenched his cock as he tore through your orgasm with shallow thrusts. Jole rammed into you over and over again until another wave of pleasure slammed into your body.Â
âFuckinâ brat,â he hissed. âNever said yâcould cum, did I?â
His hand vanished from your waist and returned to the welted skin of your ass with a resounding smack. There wasnât enough air in your lungs to cry out, nor any more tears to shed. You hung against the ropes, limp and pliant, as he took you with abandon.Â
With another snap of his hips against yours, Joel spilled into you, his release filling you to the brim as he released a carnal groan. You could barely lift your head to look back at him as he untangled his fingers from your hair and pulled away.Â
Every atom inside your body was pulsing with overstimulation, your ass welted and bruised, and your throat raw from screaming. The constant thrum of your heartbeat in your ears smothered the sound of Joelâs belt buckle clanging together, the warmth of his body far removed from yours as you stood on tired legs. Moments passed without a single touch, and you wondered if Joel would leave you there tied to the rack and dripping with cum.Â
âThink yâlearned your lesson now?â He asked, his voice sounding far away.Â
All you could do was wag your head in protest, your eyes pinned down to the floor, fixated on the pool of saliva that had fallen from your lips. Joel appeared beside you, his grey hair dissolved and face red from exertion. He worked at unclasping the rope from the hook, unbinding your wrists until your arms fell limp to your sides. Your body was weightless without the stability of the rope, and you fell forward, anticipating the impact against the cement. Joel was quicker, though, winding a strong arm around your front and holding you up.Â
âEasy now, darlinâ,â he whispered softly. âEasy.â
Your fingers wrapped around his arm, clinging to anything to escape the impending collapse of your entire body. Your boots scruffed against the cement of the stall, kicking dust into the air around you. With his arm still braced around your chest, he used the other to guide your shorts back up your legs and onto your hips. You hissed as the denim rubbed against your ass, the swell of your skin still prickling with pain no matter how brief the touch was.Â
âCan yâstand on your own?â He asked.Â
âMhmm,â you mumbled.
âAttagirl.â
Yet as he released your body, you staggered forward, grasping onto the tie rack for support. Joel waited until you found your balance and offered a hand. You were hesitant but relented silently. He took your wrists in one large hand and began massaging at the reddened skin, working out any tension left from the rope. You stared blankly at him, watching a crease burrow between his eyebrows. You still hated him, right? Right? Something so minimal shouldnât make your heart pound against your chest, but there you were, speechless as you watched this rough man touch your skin with a tenderness he had yet shown.Â
âSuns goinâ down soon,â he muttered, nodding to the sky.Â
You peered over your shoulder, surprised to see the sun dipping over the horizon. You hadnât noticed the pinky hue of the sunset while he fucked you, but now you stared at it in wonderment.Â
âGuess it is,â you sighed. âYâshould get your ass off my property âfore it gets too late.â
Joel snorted, glancing up at you through thick lashes. In the dwindling sunlight, his eyes had dissolved from onyx back into a glistening amber color, the flecks of rich brown dancing as he looked at you.Â
âStubborn lilâ thing,â he huffed.Â
He dropped your hands and straightened to his full height. Perspiration coated his button-up, staining it in dark spots as excess beats of sweat still rolled down his muscular neck. You tamed the flyaways of your hair, trying to minimize the obscenity of your look the longer he stood before you. It was no use after what he had done.Â
âYâainât changinâ your mind, huh?â
âNope,â you shook your head.Â
Joel rolled his eyes and shoved a hand into his front pocket. Leaning close, he brought his other hand to your face, tucking a loose strand of hair behind your ear, letting his fingers brush over your cheek before pulling away.Â
âGuess Iâll just come back tomorrow and try again.â
âYâcome back here tomorrow, and Iâll shoot you dead, Miller.â
He cracked a grin and began to retreat toward his horse beside the stable. You stood motionless as he mounted the brown mare, slipping the reigns between his hands. Joel gave you a farewell wave before taking off across the flowing fields, his broad figure dissolving into the sunset. You slumped against the wall of the stables, letting your body fall to the ground. A smile slid across your face, taking in the open land before you.Â
You didnât give up. It was all still yours.
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dirty old man - the doctorâs office
When the doctor steps out, Joel wastes no time pulling you onto his face, turning the check-up into a filthy game of control and desire.
Warnings: MDNI, 18+, age gap, caretaker f!reader, Joel is a perverted old man (imagined age 60-70), reader in her 20s, DDLG dynamic, daddy kink, exhibitionism, oral (female receiving), public setting (doctorâs office), risk of being caught, degradation, size difference, explicit sexual content, perverted/dirty talk.
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The sterile smell of the doctor's office felt like the most routine part of your dayâa place you and Joel had visited plenty of times for his regular check-ups.
But underneath the fluorescent lights and the ordinary medical examination, there was a palpable tension, one that had nothing to do with Joel's health and everything to do with the dynamic youâd built together.
Joel lay back on the examination table, his shirt off as the doctor began his usual routine, prodding and listening to his chest, but Joel's attention was far from the doctorâs hands.
âGotta say, Joel,â the doctor began, flipping through his notes. âYour physical condition has improved since your last few visits. I can tell you're in much better shapeâmore flexibility, blood pressureâs stabilizing. Whatever routine you've been following, itâs working wonders.â
Joelâs eyes darted over to you, and that familiar, mischievous smirk curled at the edges of his mouth.
âWell, doc,â he drawled slowly, âthatâs all thanks to my new caretaker here.â His eyes locked onto yours, the look in them full of filthy innuendo. âSheâs been keepin' me on my toes.â
Your face flushed instantly, heat rushing to your cheeks as the doctor glanced over at you, completely unaware of the real reason behind Joelâs improved health.
You gave a nervous, awkward laugh, trying to hide the growing embarrassment bubbling up inside you.
"Yeah, well... I try to help as much as I can," you stammered, your voice shaky under the weight of Joelâs smoldering gaze.
The doctor smiled, oblivious, and nodded. "Well, it shows. Youâve done a great job," he said. âItâs rare for someone Joelâs age to make such improvements so quickly. Whatever you're doing, keep it up.â
You forced a smile, trying to maintain professionalism, but Joelâs smirk was growing, his eyes gleaming with that dark satisfaction, fully enjoying the way you squirmed.
"Yeah," Joel muttered, his voice low and teasing. "Sheâs been real good to me, doc. Keeps me movinâ, keeps me... motivated." His eyes lingered on you as he said it, making your heart pound even harder.
You bit your lip, trying to avoid eye contact, but the flush on your cheeks deepened. You knew exactly what Joel was hinting at, and so did he.
The doctor was completely unaware of the layers behind Joelâs words, but you could feel the tension building between you, the silent promises in Joel's gaze making it impossible for you to focus.
âWell, whatever it is, itâs clearly working,â the doctor continued, glancing down at his clipboard. âYour heart rateâs better, blood pressure is steady, and your muscle tone has improved. Honestly Joel, for your age, youâre in remarkable shape.â
Joel chuckled low in his throat, the sound sending a ripple of heat through your body.
The doctor glanced at his clipboard, then gave Joel a brief smile. âIâll need to step out for a moment to check something with the nurse,â he said casually, already turning toward the door.
As soon as the doctor stepped out, the door clicking shut behind him, Joel wasted no time. His hand shot out, grabbing your wrist with that familiar possessive grip.
His smirk was wicked, curling at the corners of his lips as he yanked you closer, pulling you between his legs.
âCome here,â he growled, his voice low and rough, already thick with need. His eyes raked over your body, his hands sliding up your thighs, pushing your skirt up with rough urgency.
âNo fuckin' panties, just like I told ya. Good girl. Now get up here and sit that sweet pussy on my face.â
Your breath hitched, and you glanced nervously at the door, your heart racing.
âJoel⌠weâre in a doctorâs office,â you whispered, trying to sound logical, but the heat between your legs was already giving you away.
âDonât give a damn,â he muttered, his hands tightening on your hips, pulling you closer until you were standing right in front of him. âIâve been thinkinâ about your cunt all fuckin' day. Now, Iâm gonna have it.â
The way he talked to youâfilthy, raw, unapologetically possessiveâset your body alight with anticipation.
You hesitated for just a moment longer before finally giving in, climbing up onto the examination table. Your hands shook slightly as you straddled his chest, your bare folds hovering over his face, already slick with arousal.
âFuckin' look at you,â Joel growled as he pulled you down, his breath hot against your dripping core.
âYouâre so wet, baby. This pussyâs fuckin' soaked for me.â He slid his hands around your hips, gripping them tight as he positioned you just where he wanted you.
âI wanna see every part of you, darlinâ. Spread those legs nice and wide for me.â
Your legs trembled as you obeyed, spreading yourself open for him, your wet, swollen clit exposed to his hungry eyes. He groaned, his breath ragged with lust as he looked at you, his lips parting slightly.
âGoddamn, baby,â he muttered, his voice thick and rough. âLook at how swollen that little clit is. Youâve been waitin' for this, havenât ya?â
Without waiting for a response, Joelâs tongue flicked out, the first slow, deliberate stroke dragging over your clit.
You gasped, your fingers gripping the edge of the exam table as your body jolted with pleasure. He wasnât gentleâhis mouth latched onto you, sucking hard, his tongue swirling over your clit with rough, practiced strokes.
âFuck,â you whimpered, your voice shaky as you tried to stay quiet.
The obscene sounds of his mouth on you filled the small room, wet and slick, and you had to bite your lip to keep from moaning too loudly.
Joel groaned against you, the vibrations sending a shiver through your entire body. âThis fuckin' pussy,â he growled between licks, his words muffled as he sucked your clit into his mouth, his tongue lapping greedily over you.
âTastes so goddamn good. I could fuckin' drown in it.â
You moaned softly, your thighs trembling as his tongue flicked over your swollen clit again, faster this time, more insistent. He sucked hard, drawing your sensitive bud into his mouth, then flicked his tongue over it in rapid, merciless strokes.
You could feel your pulse pounding between your legs, your body already trembling with the need to come.
âFuck, Joel⌠we have toââ you gasped, but he cut you off with a growl, his hands tightening on your hips as he pulled you down harder onto his face.
âShut the fuck up and ride my face,â he growled, his voice thick with need. âI donât care if weâre in a fuckinâ doctorâs office. Iâm gonna make you come all over my mouth.â
You could barely think straight. The filthy heat of his words, the way his mouth moved on you, the overwhelming pleasure coursing through your bodyâit was too much.
Your hips started to rock against him, grinding down on his face as his tongue slid in and out of you, his rough hands guiding your movements.
âThatâs it, baby,â Joel muttered between licks, his voice thick with hunger as his tongue dragged slowly up and down your folds, swirling around your swollen clit before dipping back down to tease your entrance.
âFuck my face. Show me how much you need it. How much you love when daddy eats this sweet little cunt.â
His hands gripped your hips tightly, pulling you down even harder against his mouth. His tongue was everywhereâmessy, desperate, like he couldnât get enough.
He flicked your clit with his tongue again, but then he shifted lower, dragging his tongue along your slit, tasting every inch of you. The heat between your legs was unbearable, and Joel could feel how badly you wanted it, how soaked you already were.
He groaned, the sound vibrating through you as his face pressed further into your slick heat, his nose brushing your clit as his tongue explored every part of you.
He wasn't satisfied with just lickingâhe wanted to bury himself in you, use his whole face to make you come. And thatâs exactly what he did.
âFuck, you taste so good,â he growled, his breath hot against your sensitive skin.
His tongue moved lower, teasing the edges of your entrance before plunging inside, fucking you with slow, deep strokes.
You moaned loudly, your hands gripping the sides of the exam table as your hips rocked against his face. Joelâs grip on your hips tightened, keeping you in place as he lapped at your pussy like a man starved.
But it wasnât enough for him. He wanted more. He pulled his tongue out of your hole, dragging it back up to your clit, where he sucked hard before letting go, only to press his entire face against your folds, rubbing it all over your pussy.
His nose nudged your clit, his lips sucking at your wetness, and his tongue slipping everywhereâflicking your clit, sliding between your folds, teasing your hole again and again.
He was relentless, his whole face working against you, his stubble rubbing against your sensitive skin, adding a rough, delicious friction.
You gasped, your body trembling from the intensity of it, and Joel only groaned louder, his tongue darting in and out of your hole before sliding back up to your clit, flicking it in rapid strokes.
âYou love this, donât ya?â he rasped, his voice muffled as he pressed his mouth back to your pussy, his tongue swirling over your clit, his nose bumping against it as he ground his face into you.
âLove when daddy uses his whole fuckinâ face on this pretty little cunt. Youâre fuckinâ dripping for me, baby. Iâm gonna make you come all over my face.â
Your breath hitched, your hips bucking against him, the pressure building inside you as his face moved everywhereâtongue fucking you deep one second, then sucking on your clit the next. He loved every part of you, and he made sure you knew it.
His mouth, his nose, his whole face was slick with your arousal as he devoured you, using everything he had to make you come.
Joel pulled his tongue out of your hole, dragging it up your slit again, swirling it around your clit before pressing his mouth down hard.
He sucked, his lips closing tightly around your clit as he flicked his tongue over it in quick, teasing strokes. You whimpered, your body trembling as you tried to stay quiet, but it was impossible with how good he was making you feel.
âFuck, JoelâŚâ you gasped, your voice shaking as the pleasure grew, every nerve in your body on fire from the way his mouth moved over you, claiming you. âIâm gonnaââ
âDo it,â he growled, his voice low and commanding, his tongue never stopping. âCome on my fuckinâ face, baby. I want it all. I wanna taste every drop.â
His words sent a shiver through you, and with one final flick of his tongue over your clit, you came hard.
Your thighs clenched around his head as your orgasm crashed through you, and Joel groaned in satisfaction, his hands holding you firmly in place as he continued licking, drinking in every bit of your release.
âThatâs it, good girl,â he muttered, his lips still pressed to your pussy, his tongue slowly dragging through your folds, savoring the taste of you. âYou come so fuckinâ sweet for me.â
Your body trembled, your breath coming in short, ragged gasps, but Joel wasnât done.
His hands slid up your thighs, squeezing them gently as his mouth moved over you again, slower this time, but just as hungry.
He rubbed his whole face into your slick folds, his nose brushing your clit while his tongue teased your entrance. He wanted to make you come again, and he was determined to get it.
âFuck, I could eat you all day,â he groaned, pulling back just long enough to look up at you with dark, lust-filled eyes before diving back in, his tongue sliding deep inside you again.
He fucked you with his tongue, his nose pressing against your clit, his mouth wet and messy as he devoured you, completely lost in the taste of you.
âYouâre mine,â he growled between licks, his voice low and possessive as he slid his tongue out of you, flicking it over your clit again.
âThis pussy is fuckinâ mine.â
You were barely holding on, your body trembling as another orgasm built inside you, the sensation of his face rubbing against your wet heat sending you over the edge.
Joel could feel itâcould feel the way your body tightened, the way your breath hitched, and he sucked your clit into his mouth again, his tongue swirling over it in quick, dirty strokes.
"Come again," Joel growled, his voice dark and full of filthy satisfaction. "Come all over my fuckin' face again, baby. Donât hold back."
You couldnât. The pleasure hit you like a tidal wave, and you came again, harder this time, your hips grinding down onto his face as your body shook with the intensity of it.
Joel groaned beneath you, his tongue still lapping at your pussy, his whole face drenched in your slick as he continued fucking you with his mouth until you couldnât take it anymore.
"Look at you," he rasped, his voice hoarse but smug, pulling back just enough to smirk up at you. His face was soaked, his lips shiny with your release, and the sight of him like thatâdark eyes, glistening mouthâmade your stomach tighten all over again.
"Canât fuckinâ get enough, can ya? Rubbing that sweet little pussy all over an old manâs face."
His words dripped with possessiveness, but there was a teasing warmth behind them. Joel wasnât disgusted by how much you needed himâno, he was fucking proud.
Proud of how you responded to him, how desperate and soaked you became under his tongue.
You whimpered softly, still trembling, the shame and arousal mixing together in a heady cocktail of need.
"Joel, weâre gonna get caught," you murmured, your breath still shaky.
He chuckled, low and dirty, his hands never leaving your hips as he kept you pinned down.
"Let âem catch us," he growled, his voice rough with lust. "Let âem see how fuckinâ perfect you look sittinâ on daddyâs face. Maybe theyâll wanna take a fuckin' pictureâshow everyone how much this sweet young thing needs me.â
Your breath hitched at his words, the risk, the dirtiness of it all making your heart race.
You were already drenched, but hearing him talk like thatâpushing the boundary between pleasure and dangerâmade you even wetter, your body responding before your mind could catch up.
âTheyâd love to see you like this, wouldnât they?â Joel muttered, his tongue darting out to swipe at your swollen folds, sending a fresh jolt of pleasure through your already sensitive body.
"Bet theyâd be jealous. Bet theyâd wanna taste you too, but youâre mine, hm, baby?"
You nodded, your voice catching in your throat as his hands squeezed your hips, forcing you to grind harder against his mouth.
His nose brushed your clit, sending sparks of pleasure through your body as his tongue teased your entrance again, slipping in and out with slow, deliberate strokes.
"Youâre all mine," Joel groaned, his words muffled as he pressed his face deeper into your wetness.
âFuckinâ made for daddy, pretty one. Look how fuckin' soaked you are, baby. Ridin' this old manâs face like you need it to breathe."
Your whole body shuddered as his tongue pushed deeper inside you, fucking you with slow, sensual strokes.
He wasnât just eating you outâhe was worshiping you, using every part of his face to drive you crazy.
His nose bumped against your clit as he flicked his tongue in and out of your tight entrance, his lips wrapping around your folds, sucking and licking like he couldnât get enough of you.
"God, Joel..." you gasped, your hips moving of their own accord, grinding against him, desperate for more.
The idea of someone walking in, seeing you like thisâspread wide, riding Joelâs face while he devoured youâit sent a thrill through you that made your heart race even faster.
"That's it," he muttered, his voice rough and dirty as his hands guided your movements.
"You like this, sweet girl? You love letting daddy take care of you, love how I make you feel. Doesnât matter where we areâyouâll always be fuckin' mine."
But Joel wasnât finished. His hands stayed firmly on your hips, his mouth still teasing your swollen, oversensitive clit with slow, lazy licks, as if he couldnât bear to let you go.
"Joel, I..." you whimpered, your voice weak and breathless. "I canâtâ"
"You can and you fuckin' will," he growled, his voice low and dangerous. "One more, baby. Come one more time for daddy. Show me how much you love ridin' this old manâs face.â
His filthy words sent another shock of heat straight to your core, and before you could stop yourself, you were grinding harder, your slick pussy rubbing all over his face.
Joel groaned, the sound vibrating through you as he sucked your clit into his mouth, flicking his tongue over it in quick, tight circles that had you seeing stars.
âGood girl,â he murmured between licks, his voice full of pride and lust.
âYouâre so fuckin' perfect, baby. So tight, so full of energy for me. Daddy loves it when you let me eat this pussy like itâs the last thing Iâll ever taste.â
His tongue flicked over your clit faster, his hands keeping you steady as your thighs trembled around his head.
You were so close again, the pressure building inside you, threatening to overwhelm you. Joelâs mouth moved with expert precision, teasing, sucking, lickingâhis entire face covered in your slick, his stubble rubbing against your sensitive skin in the most delicious way.
"Come for me again," Joel growled, his tone shifting to something more commanding. "I wanna feel it. I wanna taste it all. Donât fuckin' hold back, baby."
You moaned, your hips rocking harder against his mouth as the pleasure built higher, higher, until you couldnât take it anymore.
The tension snapped, and your third orgasm crashed through you, even harder than the last. Your thighs squeezed around Joelâs head, your hands gripping the edges of the exam table for support as your body shook with the intensity of your release.
Joel groaned beneath you, his tongue still working over your clit, licking up every last drop as you came all over his face.
His grip on your hips was unrelenting, making sure you couldnât move, couldnât escape the pleasure he was giving you.
âFuck, thatâs it,â Joel muttered, his voice thick with satisfaction. âYou come so fuckinâ pretty for me, baby. Just like that. Give daddy everything.â
You collapsed forward, your breath coming in short, ragged gasps, your body trembling as the last waves of your orgasm pulsed through you.
Joel groaned beneath you, drinking in every last drop of your release, his hands gripping you tightly as he licked you through your climax, his tongue unrelenting.
âGoddamn,â he muttered, finally pulling back, his face a mess of your slick, his eyes dark with satisfaction. âYouâre fuckinâ perfect, baby. We ainât done, though. When we get home, Iâm gonna fuck you so hard youâll be beggin' for more."
Your body trembled, still coming down from the intensity of your orgasms, but the look in Joelâs eyes told you he wasnât lying.
He wiped his mouth with the back of his hand, a smirk playing on his wet, glistening lips as he watched you try to gather yourself.
But before either of you could speak, there was a sudden knock on the door.
Your heart leaped into your throat, and you scrambled off Joelâs chest, yanking your skirt down as quickly as possible.
Panic coursed through you as you hurried to adjust yourself, smoothing your hair, trying to catch your breath.
Joel, of course, was far too amused. He wiped his face lazily, still leaning back on the exam table, that smug smirk never leaving his face as you frantically tried to make it look like nothing had happened.
His eyes twinkled with mischief as he glanced at the door, clearly not concerned in the slightest.
"Come in," Joel called out casually, his voice hoarse but steady, as if he hadnât just been buried between your legs moments ago.
The doctor walked back in, clipboard in hand, giving Joel a quick glance. "Sorry about the wait, Mr. Miller," he said, then paused as he noticed Joelâs flushed face, the sheen of wetness still visible despite his attempt to wipe it away.
The doctor blinked, clearly taken aback but too polite to say anything directly.
"Must be gettin' hot in here, huh?" the doctor remarked with a chuckle, trying to laugh off the awkwardness.
"This age, itâs making us all feel a bit warmer, huh? Happens to the best of us."
Joel, the devilish smirk never leaving his face, tilted his head slightly, catching your eye for just a second before replying, "Oh, you could say that, doc. It definitely gets me feelinâ... hotter than usual."
His tone was thick with double meaning, so much so that you had to suppress a smile.
The doctor, oblivious to the real reason behind Joelâs flustered state, simply nodded and made some notes on his clipboard.
"Well, letâs make sure everythingâs looking good. Just a quick check-up, and youâll be out of here."
Joel shot you a look as the doctor moved to his side, leaning in to examine him.
His eyes twinkled with filthy satisfaction, his lips twitching as though he was barely holding back another comment.
"Yeah," Joel said quietly, just loud enough for you to hear. "Feelinâ better already."
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outage ŕź joel miller one shot (18+)
-> pairing: no-outbreak joel miller au x female curvy reader
-> word count: 4.3k
-> summary: after a citywide power outage, you're left to deal with the scorching texas heat. until, the well-respected neighborhood dilf â joel miller â lends you a more than generous hand.
-> warnings/tags: sarah is 10/11 so joel had her a bit older, power outage, texas heat, yes this is a warning because its not a joke, reader has a cat!!!, age gap (reader is 24, joel is late 40s), curvy/mid/plus size reader, brief fatphobia, reader has self-image/parent issues + is a lonely gal, fluff, SMUT (18+), unprotected piv, creampie, oral + fingering (f!recieving), squirting, body worship, brief ass play, daddy kink, big ole tits, spanking, spit kink, praise kink, a bit of belly bulge, cockwarming, pet names galore (darlin, sweetheart, baby, _ girl), joel has a huge dick (not canon!)
-> a/n: hi hi! i have been so anxious to begin writing again and currently have some wips that i am just not confident with. so when i saw the lovely @hellishjoel post her #hotdilfsummerchallenge, i was positive i wanted to join in! such a pleasure to be involved in this â thank you kylee for creating such a fun way for this community to get involved! as a curvier woman, i wanted reader to reflect that. because... joel miller is a handsy mf and loves to just grab himself some wide hips, thick thighs and phat tits <3 but ofc, this is can be for various body types. please please please, leave your thoughts and even constructive criticism! <3 DILF NEIGHBOR JOEL, YOU WILL ALWAYS BE FAMOUS!!!!
Youâve got to be fucking kidding me.Â
You release a groan of annoyance as the visual of your TV, coffee table lamp and humming of the refrigerator all flicker off into silence. The frills on your throw-blanket settle, as the ceiling fan no longer produces the small gusts of wind that have caused you to be rather chilly on this hot, humid and rainy summer night.Â
When you made the courageous decision of moving across the country for a new teaching opportunity in Austin â you were never informed on the true brutality summertime unleashed onto Texas residents. More-so, you really had nothing to do but be caged up in the comfortable AC of your home. Youâve been here for roughly 14 months and the only "friends" youâve made have been the 28 fourth graders you had the pleasure of teaching last school year. Tragic.Â
Your coworkers, did not handle your arrival pleasantly. Young, beautiful, freshly-educated and determined. Thatâs what your grandmother referred to you as when you called her sobbing after your first week. Informing her that the seasoned teachers wonât even bat an eye at you, and when they do itâs a look of disgust. Whispering amongst one another. Like you were in middle school again, trying to befriend the popular girls.Â
âI was foolish to think things could be different for me down here, so stupid of me.â
âNow listen to me, you are the most intelligent woman I know. More than anyone in this family. Bullies like that, it stems from an unknown jealousy and overbearing insecurity. Donât let a few sour grapes ruin this outstanding career for you. Your students adore you already, and so do I. Just continue to be yourself and if that isnât enough for them, so be it.â
Your grandmother always knew how to make you feel better. She had been instilling your own sense of confidence since you were a little girl. The only adult in your life to do so. If only her words were enough. Your coworkers just never let up. After overhearing them gossip about you during lunch break, you gave up your attempts indefinitely.Â
âShe really thinks she deserves a place here?â
âLook at her back rolls in that shirtâŚâ
âShe really needs to put that sandwich down.â
âWhy is she so quiet? Itâs freaky, honestly. No wonder sheâs always alone.â
Youâre not a stranger to being alone. You practically have been your entire life. Your parents never really bothered to form a genuine relationship with you, always so focused on your younger sister. She was the prettier, thinner, more impressive version of you. You have only had one best friend throughout your long 24 years on this earth. She was smarter than you and moved away from the timid small town you shared in Northern Maine, choosing an out-of-state university. So, being alone was a familiarity. You have made peace with it. But being lonely â thatâs a whole other ball-park.Â
The booming thwack of thunder startles you from your thoughts. Your sweet calico boy leaps from your warm lap and scurries under the dining table â tail puffed in fear. âMilo... itâs okay,â you whisper. He just gleams at you with his jet-black saucer eyes. Even you donât believe your own words. You are not used to storms like this, and you didnât really prepare. You read some articles online about stocking up: having plently of batteries, candles, non-perishable foods. Yet, you didnât do any of that.Â
Rubbing away the moisture from your damp upper lip â the heat inside your home already becoming unbearable. Deciding on a whim, you can head to a nearby hotel for the night. Unsure how long you will be without power and donât wish to succumb yourself or your cat to the searing temperatures of the night.Â
The rain has slowed down, as you feel the soft patter on your umbrella. Throwing your purse and water bottle in the front seat, you begin to dread unpacking all this stuff when you get to the hotel. Bags, cat litter, cage â scrutinizing yourself mentally and deciding you better fucking prepare for the next storm.Â
âWhere ya headinâ sweetheart?â
Your heart jumps at the deep smooth Southern voice that fills your thoughts at night. When your hands would find their way in between your quivering legs. Throughout the day. Pretty much all the time.
Joel Miller is the only person in this town that has ever filled the lonely void you can never seem to fill. When you moved to the quiet suburban street, he was the first to come greet you as you struggled to pull your mattress out of the U-Haul. Immediately lending a hand, and proceeding to lug all of your remaining boxes, furniture, miscellaneous items into your new home.Â
âPretty lady like you, shouldnât have to lift a single finger.â He remarked when you you blushed and assured him you could handle the rest, not wanting to be a burden. Even though the sweat dripping down your back was apparent and 5 minutes prior you had no idea how youâd be able to unpack the remainder of the truck. He then assured you â there was no way in hell you were being a burden. Words that were a rarity.Â
Later that afternoon, he invited you for dinner at his home. You met his lovely daughter, Sarah. Where everyone learned that you were her new school teacher. What were the odds?Â
Following that, seeing Joel was frequent. From parent-teacher conferences, backyard barbecues for the neighborhood, or even small intimate dinners with Sarah at each others homes. Sarah would even spend the night at yours on occasion. When Joel had a late night at the construction site, or when she just needed some girl time. You adored that little girl, and vice versa.Â
You also adored the fuck out of Joel.Â
So when you looked up at his porch, finding him in nothing but a pair of plaid pajama pants.. your throat went dry. His tanned skin gleamed softly from the street light â little speckled freckles adorned his waist in various spots. And that darkish grey hair on his chest and fat of his lower tummy that flowed underneath his pants. Your brain fuzzy at the thought of your face pressed against it as you swallow his cock.Â
But you were not a fool. Joel would never express an attraction towards you. A man like that? He deserved the perfect woman.Â
âDarlinâ?â He speaks again, a bit louder. Disturbing your wandering thoughts.Â
âI- I was gonna head to a hotel for the night, my house is too hot already. And I donât want Milo to be uncomfortable.âÂ
Joelâs eyes wander down your body as you explain â the plush jiggle of your tits in that small tank. Nearly spilling out. Slightly damp from the rain or humidity. The chub of your tummy spills slightly from your leggings. A sight that makes his cock swell unbearingly. An act that occurs more often than not when he sees you or even thinks of you for the countless minutes of his day.Â
âNo way. Not gonna let ya drive in this weather. Plus, most hotels nearby are gonna be overbooked. I got the generator up nâ working, got the spare room too. Your stayinâ over.âÂ
âNo! No, Joel. I canât.â
âNâ why not?â His hands have found his way to his hips, popping a knee out and giving you that classic dad glare. Not angry, but confused as to why youâre even protesting when heâs already decided.Â
âI donât want to intrude and I have Milo. You and Sarah are allergic.â
âSarah left yesterday to stay with her mom in California for the rest of the summer. Besides, Milo loves me. I can handle a runny nose as long as I know the two of ya are safe.âÂ
To this, your stomach nearly flips inward on itself. Youâve never been alone with Joel in his home. Not for this long. The few times youâve come over to help him with dinner before Sarah got home from soccer practice, have always been excruciating. Staring at him without worry. Watching his muscles flex through his t-shirts. Big hands chopping vegetables and plating food. His hand lightly touching your waist when scooting by.Â
Thereâs no possible way you can survive a night in Joelâs home.Â
But, heâs already grabbing his umbrella and walking over to you. He grabs your stuff from the car and tells you to go grab Milo. So, you do.
Joel slips on a t-shirt after he put your stuff in the spare room, disappointedly enough. You nearly told him to keep it off, but held your tongue. You made yourself comfortable at the island barstool as you typed up some early lesson plans, Milo at your feet.Â
He patters over to Joel who is now leaning against the counter, brushing against his leg. He then leaps onto the granite and purrs against Joelâs arm.Â
âPsst! Milo get do-â you beg, embarrassment coloring your cheeks.Â
âSâ okay, sweetheart. Heâs not botherinâ me,â Joel attempts to settle your nerves. Petting Miloâs soft fur and scratching under his chin, that special spot all cats love. âCan I get you anythinâ to drink?â He nods towards the coffee heâs brewing.Â
âCoffee would be nice, thank you.â You beam at him. Joelâs heart skips a beat every time your cheeks puff up ever so slightly when you smile at him. Itâs something he swears is the most endearing thing about you. Of course, heâs only ever shared that with his daughter. Who begs her father to just take her favorite teacher on a date already.Â
Joel grabs some sugar and oat milk from the fridge, your favorite. He learned from the few breakfasts you guys had shared. A bit of sugar and a nice gulp of milk softens the dark roast color in the mug, he slides it over to you as he grabs his plain black coffee.Â
âYou remembered!â You giggle slightly at the Number 1 Dad title that adorns the mug, taking a sip. You moan at the taste, exactly how you like it.Â
âOf course I did, darlinâ.â You almost hate how easily those pet names roll of his tongue. You summed it up as his southern hospitality, figured he calls any woman those special names. âSo, you ready for this new school year?â
An icky feeling settles in your stomach. The thought of returning to the painful and toxic work environment you can only escape when youâre with your students.
âNot without my Sarah girl,â you swiftly change the subject towards the one person he can talk hours about.
He smiles proudly at her name.Â
âYa know, she still all mad that you wouldnât flunk her so she could have another year with ya.â Both your laughs quickly fill the empty house.Â
âWell, even if I tried to, that girl is too smart for her own good. She should skip a grade in my opinion.â You state, and youâre truthful at that. Sarah Miller is as intelligent as she is quick-witted.Â
âYeah, she gets it from me.â At that you roll your eyes playfully. Typing something up before closing your computer and taking another sip of coffee. âAlthough I love boastinâ over her, I guess I meant are you excited to go back? They treat ya good there?âÂ
Joel watches the color drain from your soft skin. Realizing he touched somewhere that might be too personal. Too raw. âMâ sorry sweetheart, shouldnât have asked.â
âNo- no uh, youâre fine. Um, honestly? No. Iâm not excited. The staff there arenât exactly the kindest bunch.â You confess, slight unease crawling over you.Â
Joelâs eyes scrunch in confusion. Mind blank on how the kindest soul he knows, could be surrounded by complete opposite. âWhatcha mean?â
You sigh letting the anxiousness settle a bit before speaking again, âthey hate me. I donât even know why, really? I have tried my hardest to get them to accept me but nothing seems to work. Whether itâs jabs at my appearance, teaching style, theyâre never satisfied.â Your eyes are burning slightly, havenât confessed this burden you constantly carry to anyone. âIf it wasnât for your daughter and my class, and⌠you.. well, I think I wouldnât have made it through. I try to be strong, I try to be everything that people expect from me but itâs just so hard, Joel.â At that, the fat tears begin to stream down your face.
Joel was frozen in shock. Or maybe anger. Protectiveness. He wanted to hurt the people who made you feel like this. The least deserving of any pain. He sets his mug down and snatches you in his embrace. Holding your head with his hand, stroking your back with the other. He lets you sob almost uncontrollably into his firm chest.Â
âI just hate being so alone.â You whisper, clutching onto him. You canât even be embarrassed anymore, youâre so overthrown by his scent, his comfort. Comfort youâve not felt in so so long.Â
Joel kisses your temple softly, "promise you're not alone, sweet girl." He nudges your head to look up at his own sorrowful expression. His thumb running over your full lips, a bit swollen from your teeth biting down on them in an attempt to muffle your sobs. "So beautiful." He murmurs as he leans down to place a kiss on your left cheek, his lips skim over yours before he places another on your right.
Joel just barely hears the whimper from the back of your throat when that feather light skim happened. He leans back half an inch, staring into your glossy eyes. "Tell me not to, and I'll let you go upstairs and get some rest. Tell me, sweetheart."
It feels like a whole minute passes by. The soft patter of the rain, the smell of coffee beans from each others breath, the same slow breathing that overwhelms the little space between you both.
Desperation.
Your fingers tighten on his shirt, "don't let me go upstairs, Joel."
Joel smashes his mouth into yours, his guttural groan flying into your soft whimpers. The softness Joel expressed a moment ago is long gone. This kiss is messy, teeth-clanking, tongue inside your mouth. Like he wants to devour you from the outside in. He releases your lip with a pop.
He threads his thick fingers through the base of your hair and yanks it back gently, tongue on your neck. Biting the skin there. "You're so soft, baby. Just need me to mark ya up, is that right?"
You nod as hard as you can despite his harsh grip on your locks.
"I need you to use your words, sweet girl. Let me know what you're thinkin'."
"Everything you do is okay. I want more. I need it all. Please."
"Oh baby, cm'ere," he wraps your lavish thighs around his waist and hoists you into his arms. Easily. Like you're just the most delicate thing he's ever held.
As he walks to his bedroom, you smile into his neck. Arms wrapped over his shoulders, hand rubbing ever so softly at his greying curls. You bite at the skin under his ear and he gives your ass a huge squeeze. Groaning at how his big hands barely hold all the meat there. He couldn't wait to touch and gnaw at this body he loved.
At the foot of his bed, he taps your leg as if telling you to get down. You stand in front of his massive overbearing figure, staring up at him lustfully. You grab the bottom of your compression tank top and pull it over your head, revealing your unsupported chest. Your heavy tits fall a bit.
"My god," Joel falls to his knees in front of you, face nearly level with your pebbled nipples. Both his hands grab a fistful of each, rolling them in his palm. Your sweet noises fill the room and he swears he might've just came in his pajama pants right there. He takes his teeth and bite at the fat above your leggings, licking and sucking at a sensitive part of you. Literally and figuratively.
Joel abandons your chest to yank your leggings and panties down in one move, coming face-to-face with your prickly oozing pussy. He can't restrain himself much longer, spinning you around he pushes you down into his mattress.
He spreads your ass open with both hands, the chub of your lips open ever so slightly as the slick between them strings together.
"Perfect cunt." That's when you feel the chill of liquid spat right onto your puckered hole, dripping down to your clit. He leans in, tongue catching the tangy mixture of your slick and his saliva, right on your throbbing clit.
You screech into the sheets, so turned on from his actions. As he licks up to dip his tongue into your hole, one hand that's holding you open sneaks up your back, to your neck and yanks your head up.
"Nu-uh, let me hear you, baby girl." He demands as he pauses to throw his shirt off as fast as possible â not wanting to leave your cunt for too long without the warmth of his mouth.
He sloppily makes out with your cunt as it clenches and unclenches under his tongue, his beard prickling at your skin. Like he wants your scent all over him for as long as possible.
"Ohh daddy, more more," you whisper hazily, hand reaching back to grab his head desperate to have him as deep as possible.
Joel stops as he processes your choice of title. "What was that, darlin'?"
You freeze at his serious tone. Just now realizing what you've called the man. "Oh my god, I'm s-" Joel grabs your wrist and pins it against your lower back â thick middle and ring finger hooking into you with no warning. Your wetness aiding in the rapid slide of them.
He spits on your puckered hole again and abandons your wrist to land a harsh smack against your ass.
"Only dirty girls say that word, baby. Are you daddy's dirty girl?" He edges you on as he spanks you again on the opposite side. Hard. Unsparing. A side of Joel you've never seen. And oh, does it make you feel that coil tightening within you.
"Mmmm yes yes 'm your dirty girl, daddy!" You groan loudly, eyes swelling with fresh tears. But not tears of pain from earlier, pleasure.
Joel's fingers fuck into you harder, thumb now rubbing at your clit as he leans forward to prod his tongue at your asshole. "Cum for me, my nasty sweet girl. Drench my face. Let me taste you even more." He halts his fingers knuckle deep, hooked inside your cunt as he presses into that spot on repeat. Like he's stroking it out of you.
That's all it takes for you to silently scream as you squirt all over his lower beard covered face and your thick inner thighs, that nearly squish his head from how hard you're coming. Joel just keeps himself situated, never letting up. Allowing you to completely let go and rut back into him, telling him you need more.
"Thaaat's it, my good fuckin' girl.â He praises as he kisses your cunt and ass, he leans over your face capturing your lips in a kiss so messy and depraved. âOpen that mouth.â Spitting roughly onto your tongue with a groan as you taste your sweetness that he knows he will forever be addicted to. No chance of recovery.
He ruts his thick bulge into your ass as you whine needly.
"Really want you to fuck my face, now." You beg, hand reaching down to grope him through his loose pjs.
"Mmmmm," he murmurs as his hips keep rutting into you. "Tonight is about you, baby. M' gonna stuff your tight cunt so fuckin' deep you'll feel it in your throat, don't worry." And with that promise, he releases himself, throbbing cock slapping against his lower tummy. You flip onto your back just to see it and your eyes widen at the sight before you.
You always knew it was huge just from perception, but god. It's thicker than your wrist, and looks like it would prod into your cervix. Painful even. Joel senses the worry on your face as he pushes your legs back against your chest. Admiring the way your stomach folds into itself, soft roll after roll. And the thickness of your inner thighs lays heavy. He just wants to get down and feast on you again but he might die if he doesn't feel you wrapped around him.
"You're in charge here, sweetheart. Understood?" He explains as he rubs his fat cock head up and down your swollen slit â notching on your opening with every downward stroke.
You nod slowly, peeking down at the monster between your legs once more. He squeezes your ankle, subtly reminding you to vocalize.
"Yes daddy, I understand."
"Good." And with that, he pushes into your fluttering hole. Your eyes roll back immediately, head thumping onto the soft duvet. He pushes in deeper, barely halfway in and he sees your feet and eyes scrunch a bit. It almost feels like he could rip you apart. Maybe it's because you haven't been fucked in a hot minute â or maybe it's just that Joel is so fucking hung. More than any guy you've slept with.
âDeep breath for me, sweetheart.â He soothes you, as soon as he sees your chest fall â he slams the rest of the way in. Hips flush with the back of your thighs. Cock fully sheathed in your warm soaked cunt. Heavy brimming balls pressed against your little puckered hole. âYou feel so damn good. Dripping for me.â Joelâs eyes close at the feeling of you hugging him so tight. He suddenly forgets the feeling of any other woman heâs pleased. Utterly devoted to you from here on out.
When he pulls out all the way to his fat tip â it notches on your opening. Like he has to put in that extra effort to fully remove himself from you. But he doesnât, and starts fucking into you fully. Never half way, never pulling completely out.. but always making sure he reaches the end of you.
âDa- daddy oh, harder please.â You plead, squeezing his forearm at the overwhelming feel of him nudging your cervix with every thrust.
That confirmation of pleasure is all Joel needs to push your legs back even more â ankles by your head â and began a brutal relentless pace. Grabbing a fistful of your jiggling tit and messy hair, he pulls your head up so you can watch how he ruins you for anyone else.
âYa see that, see how swollen your gettinâ already?â Joel questions as he holds your head perfectly to observe the slight lifted pudge on your tummy. Paired with the way his coarse hair rubs against your swelled clit â itâs a drool worthy sight.
âCusâ your so big, Joel.â You sigh, eyes fluttering from the primal force heâs using on your body.
A smug grin flicks across his face at the view. Mind consumed by the most perfect woman. Eyebrows turning inward, the little lines between them deepening as you try to comprehend all the emotions in this moment. Removing his hand from your head, he finds your clit and swipes it upward. Over and over. Leaning down, he sucks as much of your breast into his mouth as humanely possible. Tongue flicking the pebbled area, coercing your orgasm from you. âCum with me, baby.â His muffled command shoots straight to your filled core.
As he feels you spasm around his thickness, he stills balls deep. âThere it is, babyâŚâ Spilling his cum inside your warmth. Plugging you, keeping you full of him. Joel relaxes his body against yours, finding your mouth to kiss you gently. Sweaty foreheads against one another. Joel goes to push off of you, his comforting body heat about to be ripped away.
"No! Wanna feel you longer, please."
Your protest makes Joel's heart surge. "Of course, sweet girl." Wrapping his large arms around you, he flips you both so that your soft plush body lays above him. The new angle makes his spent cock nudge a bit deeper, you both moan at the faint squelch of his cum overflowing your cunt. "You're so perfect," he mutters.
Smiling into his full chest, you leave a swift kiss. "So are you. Thank you for this. For.. everything."
Joel's hands finds your back as he begins gentle strokes onto your supple skin, his head resting atop your own. "Thank you, darlin'. I want you to understand something, you might just be the finest thing that ever happened to Sarah and I. Y'know, she didn't really want to see her mom. Never had the best relationship with her. She just wanted to spend the remainder of the summer havin' ya over everyday to swim and all. That girl admires you more than anyone."
Eyes foggy, you shift to gaze up at him. "And what does her father think?"
Joel pauses briefly, rich brown orbs beaming into yours. "Think she's damn right. She didn't want me to tell you this, but she left so I could have some alone time with you â take ya out. Scolded me sayin' by the time she's back, we better be together." He laughs at the thought, you join him. Picturing that 4'9 ball of fire lecturing her father on the rules of dating.
"So, you're asking me out Miller?" You question with a heavy hopeful heart.
"Should've done it forever ago, darlin'." He confesses, placing a delicate kiss on your temple.
And with that, you place your head back onto the warm chest of the man you've craved your entire life. Realizing, ever since that day where he first greeted you with that sultry gentleman voice â you were never truly alone.
thank you truly for reading! let me know your thoughts below or in asks!! reblogs are greatly appreciated <3
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im sure you've answered this somewhere before but why does X wear his helmet? ik you've said he's not a hybrid which i assume just means he's human, so is it just that he doesnt like showing his face? or is it plot or backstory related? -starr
Whoâs to say!! Seems to be a mystery to the other hermitsâŚ
(shoutout to @kiwinatorwafflesâs baldsuma comic, i couldnât not make a cheeky reference to it hehe :] )
#dbhc sillies#dbhc#dbhc art#dbhc xisuma#xisuma#xisumavoid#hermitcraft#hermitcraft au#dbhc grian#dbhc cleo#dbhc hypno#dbhc mumbo#dbhc scar#dbhc doc#dbhc joel#dbhc impulse#dbhc keralis#keralis#FIRST TIME DRAWING KERALIS BTW#HE IS SO FUN HEHE#dbhc bdubs#dbhc etho#art escapades#dbhc ask#ask#starr anon#important to note. keralis cleo and doc are the only people who have seen x with his helmet off. they just like to gaslight the others <333#anon
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Lil comic based on @applestruda and @hopepetal's Boatem Knights AU cus I think about it alot
#i love this au so much kdfjhsjfh#boatem knights au#joel smallishbeans#smallishbeans#smallishbeans fanart#lizzie ldshadowlady#ldshadowlady#ldshadowlady fanart
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Never made it as a wise man
(joel miller x f!reader)
Description: Joel solves your car troubles for free, and you try to return the favor with a homecooked meal. When you accidentally interrupt his jerkoff session, you take a chance and help him out.
Note: yâall are out here answering godâs toughest questions, like what if emotionally unavailable Joel was loved unconditionally? or what if Joel was the Mothman?, and I deeply appreciate that.Â
However, today, I am here to answer a question that nobody askedâ What if Joel was a divorced dad rock kinda guy?Â
You know, like, listening to Nickelback on an old-school boombox in his garage, or unironically singing Creed on the way to work, or bonding with Ellie over Papa Roach? And also, (inspired by a genius) what if he was a little bit pathetic?Â
Anyway, I present to you: divorced dad rock dilf, Joel, ta-da! (my humble submission for @hellishjoelâs hot dilf summer challenge) obvs dedicated to: @auteurdelabre
ao3: read here | masterlist: here | part 1.5 here
Tags/warnings: AU no outbreak divorced Joel x f!reader, Sarah is not mentioned, but Ellie is your adult coworker, reader is clueless about cars and so am I, gratuitous smut and horny thoughts, implied jorkinâ joel but no witnesses, hand job, fingering, premature ejaculation, touch starved kinda loserish but hot divorced dilf joel, heâs a real tiddy guy in this one and idk why it just happened, pwp, is it a crackfic? maybe, but i meant it wholeheartedly so idk Â
WC: 4.2k
You pull onto the long driveway, hoping to see Joelâs truck. You forgot to text first to see if he would be around, but he did tell you to come by if you ever needed anything. You mostly just hope heâll be willing to accept your gift.Â
Last week, heâd helped you out by fixing your car. He told you what the issue was, but he might as well have been speaking another language when he described it. You had already brought coffee and a plate of cookies to your coworker Ellie to thank her for dragging you to Joelâs to ask for help. Being in a new town was hard enough, but you had no idea how you would handle the price for diagnostics, let alone whatever the repair wouldâve cost. You tried to offer Joel the cash you had as a thanks, but he wouldnât accept it. You tried to argue with him, but Ellie told you it wasnât worth arguing with him. He wouldnât budge. Instead, he had offered to change your oil for you, making you feel even more indebted to him.Â
At first, the most you got out of Ellie for intel on Joel was that he was the one responsible for you having to listen to âOne Last Breathâ and âLips of an Angelâ at ungodly early hours. Ellie claimed that her music taste was deeply influenced by Joel, and somehow, Ellie is always in charge of the music at work. When you rolled your eyes calling it divorced dad rock, she let it slip that you were right about that.Â
That explains a lot when you remember the brief time you spent in his house and shop. The house was clean inside but not tidy. Stray beer bottles and travel mugs dotted the counter and coffee table. But the shop had all the Divorced Dad Barbie accessories.Â
The project car and crates of assorted parts. The beer fridge and the plastic lawn chairs in the corner for bullshitting with whoever stopped by. The boombox on the workbench with the stack of CDs. And the fading calendar from another decade with the naked woman kneeling on the beach.Â
You hadnât been able to stop your eyes from darting to her sultry expression and swimsuit model-perfect breasts when Joel had been explaining what he was going to do to your car. You wondered if the heat burning in your cheeks had given you away, but he didnât notice then. Ellie sure did, though, and she had rolled her eyes at you, noting it had been up so long she even forgot it was there.Â
Luckily, Ellie didnât notice your eyes lingering on Joelâs body. You werenât trying to be a creep, but the way his arm flexed when he opened the hood of your car gave you some feral brand of intrusive thoughts. The ratty band t-shirt and the faded jeans were working for him, too, or at least they were doing something for you. Time slowed when your eyes trailed over his arms and down the muscles of his broad back. He just seemed so⌠solid. You finally understood what your friends back home meant when they said they wanted to climb a man like a tree. You had jumped a little when Ellie slammed the fridge behind you and shouted at Joel about how he canât just live in the shop drinking shitty beer and eating beef jerky. She had grabbed your arm to drag you to the house for an iced tea while he worked.Â
Her comment sparked your idea. You figured Joel must be a utilitarian type. He probably lives on frozen pizzasâor even worse, those Hungry-Man frozen TV dinnersâinstead of making himself something fresh. Maybe heâs one of those guys who got really into smoking meats instead. Either way, you hope the lasagna you made from scratch and the other tray of cookies will be an acceptable thank you for his help. He canât refuse it if you already made it, right?Â
You pull up next to a truck, assuming itâs his, and that heâs home. Before you grab the tray, you pause to check your reflection and adjust your breasts in your white tank top, making sure your cleavage pokes out as temptingly as possible.Â
You check yourself in the mirror with a look. Why does it matter what you look like? Itâs not like youâre trying to fuck your only (almost) friendâs dad, right? Although she calls him by his first name, not Dad, so maybe thereâs like a loophole or something if sheâs adopted. You think about the calendar model and her perfect tits hanging on the wall over his tools. It canât hurt to just do a little harmless flirting, right? Maybe you arenât even his type anyway.Â
After knocking on the door a couple of times, you frown, wondering if heâs not home. On the way back to your car, with your head hung in defeat, your ears perk up at the sound of something clanging in the shop. Of course!Â
You skitter back to the front porch to leave your goods by the door and head for the shop to find that divorced DILFâJoel, you mean. Itâs sweltering out, and sweat is beading on your chest after only a few minutes in the heat. The closer you get, the more easily you can make out the sound of his little CD player blasting another brooding, raspy ballad sung by a white man with a troubled love life.Â
The garage door is shut, so you knock on the door on the side of the building. You wait a minute before testing your luck and opening the door yourself. Assessing the shop, you donât see your man, sorry, Joel, at first glance. The music blasts, and the calendar model gives you the same impish smirk through her false lashes and a layer of dust, but thereâs no Joel. The evidence clearly dictates that heâs in here somewhere, as his tools are strung around his project, the lights are on, and a beer with a sweating label sits on the edge of the workbench.Â
You arenât trying to be sneaky. You didnât think to holler and announce your presence over the music. Plus, you didnât fully get your bearings the last time you were here. Now, you can pick up a few more details as your eyes absorb everything they can about anything that gives you a hint about who this guy is.Â
The guy thatâs been haunting your dreams for a week. Last week, when you walked back to the shop with Ellie to check on your car, you nearly tripped, watching Joel wipe the sweat off his face with the bottom of his shirt. You had just caught a glimpse of the trail of hair disappearing under his jeans, but it was enough to replay in your mind every night as you created your little scenarios to carry you off to sleep.Â
The scent memory was somehow worse. It was so easy to transport yourself back in time with the thought of the sweaty musk and the grease or oil smeared on his fingers. It shouldnât turn you on, right?Â
You remember thinking he seemed so knowledgeable when describing the issue. You had no idea what he was talking about, but his low voice and patience were enough to tell you he could talk you through anything.Â
You notice a few other details as you enter his sacred space today. The woodworking projects, the band posters, and the pictures with Ellie and other family members tacked to the wall over another workbench.Â
Still, no Joel, however.Â
You circle the partially disassembled project truck and see a door to another room. It would be the office if the shop were a professional business. Thereâs a window along the wall, but instead of a boss watching an employee, itâs you hoping to see that brawny man and his dark curls.Â
As you step closer, you nearly squeal. There he is. Well, at least, you can see the broad shoulders and back youâve been picturing above you in bed. You practically skip to the door. Itâs already open a crack, and you give it a knock, calling his name as it swings open from the force of your rapping knuckles.  Â
The next moment is a blur.Â
âShit, fuck, hold on!â Joel shouts gruffly as he slams the door in your face. But you already heard it. The phony wailing noises that came from the busted speaker on his phone.Â
You still face the closed door, trying to process the interaction before he wrenches the door back open. Heâs breathing rapidly, chest rising and falling, as he looks at you with wide eyes that quickly narrow.Â
âWhat are you doing here?â he barks.Â
Your hands fall to your sides, and you start to step back, ready to turn and run.Â
He catches your fear and tries to adjust, but youâre faster.Â
âSorry,â you mumble as you turn and try to dash away. Joelâs quick, too, though, and he grabs your wrist.Â
âHey, wait,â he loosens his grip when you spin back towards him, âI just didnât hear you cominâ. Wasnât expecting you.âÂ
âSorry,â you repeat, stuttering as you continue, âI-I just, uh, just wanted to say thanks for your help last week.â You stare at the floor. Unsure why youâre embarrassed, you feel so small after he saw your face and practically shouted at you.Â
âAll right,â he rumbles. Youâre too busy staring at the crack in the concrete floor to notice how his eyes are glued to your exposed skin. Or to see the blotchy red flush that crawls up his neck and toward his face.Â
But your brain starts to catch up. Joel mightâve snapped at you, but youâre the one that caught him in the act. You donât lift your head, but your eyes trail over his stained and faded jeans until youâre studying his crotch.Â
Bingo. Itâs almost too easy. You can make out the outline of his erection tucked up in his waistband. Even more glaring evidence is the open fly. You wish you had caught what he was watching. How does he like it? What does he search for when he wants to jerk off in the back office on a hot Saturday afternoon?Â
He clears his throat, and you snap your attention to his face. âWas there somethinâ you needed?â He asks.Â
âYes.â You tell him youâve got a lasagna that should get into a fridge before it reheats in the sun. He follows you toward the front door and into the house, not missing how your hips sway as you lead.Â
Once the tray is shoved into the fridge, nestled between some takeout containers, he turns to thank you. âYou didnât need to do all that,â he gruffs over the cookies and homemade meal.Â
You step back to lean against the counter, littered with mail and more coffee cups, and let yourself check him out up close. His faded Creed t-shirt has holes around the neck. Heâs got that same sweaty man musk going on, and you wish you knew why that stirred your arousal, but your pussy lacks logic.Â
âI know, I know,â you reply, âbut you really saved my ass with the car, and I wanted to do something for you. You know, some way to pay you back?âÂ
âAll right, well, thanks,â he trails off. He doesnât seem to know what else to say. Maybe you should be on your way already, but heâs not ushering you out the door.Â
This time, you do catch when his eyes drop to your chest. Thereâs no way youâre imagining the tension between you as you stand in his kitchen while he stares at your barely clothed tits, right? Fuck it. Youâre gonna go for it.Â
You take a step towards him. âI wasnât sure if it was really enough,â your voice is soft and tempting, and your sweet perfume wafts towards him like a lust potion. Joel swallows thickly as you approach.
He knows you mustâve put it together, but he tried to delude himself. Maybe you couldnât hear the theatrical screams of the woman he was watching get railed before he slammed the door in your face. He hopes all you heard was Chad Kroegerâs voice screaming, âThis time I'm mistaken
For handin' you a heart worth breakin'â from the stereo.. on the other side of the shop.Â
âYou worked so hard,â you continued with one final step, and now youâre nearly toe-to-toe in front of him. âThere has to be something else I could do.â Youâre so close to him. He forgets to respond. It takes all his power to keep his eyes on your face.Â
You have a wild urge to taste the sweat on his neck, but you keep your tongue to yourself. He hasnât made any move to encourage you, but he hasnât stopped you yet either, so you figure itâs worth taking a risk.Â
âMaybe youâve got a problem I could help you with.â You go for it, reaching your hand out to palm at the bulge in his jeans.Â
Again, too many things happen at once. Joel snaps out a âWhat?â in disbelief. His hand circles your wrist tightly. His hips jerk, involuntarily bucking into your palm. Your glossy lips part into an âoâ shape at the size of his not-quite-hard cock. And now youâre both locked into this position like statues.Â
His fingers stay firmly wrapped around your wrist, but he doesnât pull you away. Your fingers squeeze over his jeans, and your eyes flash wide as you can feel his cock twitch and stiffen at your touch. The touch that rapidly overrides your better judgment, drowning you in want. Your clit twitches itself in response, your nipples strain under your thin tank top, and your eyelids feel heavy immediately.Â
âWhat are you doing?â His voice crackles like he hadnât just used it. You slide your hand to pop the button on his jeans, and he releases your wrist as you flip it to slip your fingers under the waistband of his boxers in search of his cock.Â
âLet me help,â you say in more of a whispered tone. The searing heat between Joelâs legs makes you salivate. Your fingers graze coarse curls before you acquire your target, wrapping your palm and fingers around his thick shaft. His size has your cunt throbbing in your shorts.Â
Joelâs eyes are squeezed shut. He looks nearly in pain. You pull your hand back out to let the pool of saliva on your tongue drip into your palm.Â
âJesus,â he breathes out, watching your lewd maneuver. âYou wanna help?â He repeats your plea in the form of a question, a little dumbfounded. Heâs trying to figure out whatâs happening right now.Â
âI do,â you answer in a honeyed voice as you dig your hand back into his pants. Heâs unable to respond with words as you swirl your palm over the head of his cock, mixing saliva and precome, but his body eggs you on. He bucks into your fist, and you work quickly, pumping his throbbing length. The slick noises are muffled by the layers of clothing, but the grunts that catch in his throat shoot piping-hot desire straight into your core.Â
He looks a little desperate, eyes slammed shut again, jaw slack, arms hanging uselessly at his side. And for god knows why, the entire scene pulls a moan from your lips. The sweet sound snaps Joel back to attention. His hands shoot straight to your breasts, cupping them gently to feel them bounce against the motion of your arm wrestling with his jeans to keep stroking his cock.Â
Theyâre so close to spilling over your tank top on their own. Joel canât resist tugging the thin material until they spill over the top. The sight alone nearly has him coming in his pants. But then you moan so loudly when he squeezes them both and pinches at your nipples, and he really canât stop.Â
âFuck, fuck, wait,â he spits out, but itâs too late. His hips jerk erratically, thrusting into your slick fist, and heâs coming. It coats your hand and wrist and makes an absolute mess. You relax your grip when his whole body seems to shudder and gently remove your hand. He tries to choke his groan of frustration before it surfaces, but he immediately pauses his shame spiral when he sees you suck your come-coated fingers one by one.Â
âGod, thatâs so fucking hot,â you tell him. At the same time, heâs muttering curses at the sight of you. Youâre feeling a little giddy that all it took was your hand and showing your tits to have Joel losing control and spilling his load for you. It has your mouth curling into an impish grin.Â
Heâs got the sight of you half topless in his kitchen, licking your fingers, looking awfully proud of yourself, etching into his memory. Before the blood can return to his brain, he grabs you tightly by the ribs and walks you backward towards the counter. He lifts you onto it and wrenches open your shorts, yanking at them as you lift your hips so he can slide them off of you and drop them onto the kitchen floor.Â
Yes! Yes! Yes! The horny little goblins in your brain shriek and chant, incited by the rough and impulsive way Joel gropes at you. Itâs barbaric, and that delights you.Â
Sitting on the counter, you give him such perfect access to put his mouth on your breasts that he forgets what he was going to say. He mouths at each of them wetly, his beard tickling you as heâs busy sucking marks into your delicate skin. He sucks and bites at your strained nipples until your loud whines turn into a sharp gasp, and he pulls back.Â
The heavy-lidded look on your face has him diving back in for more, and you groan and arch into his touch. You rake your fingers into the curls at the back of his neck and tug at him. He grunts and moans into your skin, and it drives you wild. You need to feel him closer.Â
You grab the worn cotton on his shoulders until he lets you slip the shirt over his head and drop it onto the counter next to you. It gives you the briefest moment to take in the sight of his built chest and shoulders and softer midsection with that trail of hair you had memorized. You need to taste the salt on his skin.Â
Spreading your legs wider, he slots his hips against yours at the edge of the counter, and you run your tongue along his neck. You slide one of your hands down the smooth golden skin of his shoulder, and the other nestles back in his messy curls as his mouth finds yours.Â
He tastes like cheap coffee and the peppermint nicotine gum parked above his teeth along the left side of his mouth. You know itâs wrong that you canât get enough. But you're helpless when he pulls your bottom lip between his teeth, and you mindlessly roll your hips, seeking any relief.Â
Heâs grumbling in your ear about how it seems like you need help now, but you couldnât care less about the words coming out of his mouth. His deep voice alone could get you off. You let out an uninhibited whine at the thought.Â
âJesus Christ,â he pulls back. His head hangs, staring at the floor. He shakes it in what you assume is disbelief. You donât want to wait for him to think any further. You grab his hand, pulling it between your legs.
âReally, fucking, hot.â You echo your earlier declaration. Doing your best to sound assertive. You figure at least your soaked panties will prove your point.Â
âFuck,â he stifles a groan. Youâre so wet it coats his fingertips through the thin material. He nudges his fingers into you, over your panties, and you whimper for him. The fabric sticks to you and makes an obscene sound as he toys with you for only seconds. âOh, you do need my help. Hm?âÂ
You nod, spreading your legs wider for Joel to have access. He scoffs at you, displayed eagerly atop his kitchen counter. âJust desperate for me, arenât ya?â
You snap your legs back shut with a glare.Â
âNo way,â you press, jabbing a finger into his chest, âyou donât get to laugh at me like Iâm a slut for you when you just came in your pants for me.âÂ
His nostrils flare, and blotchy red patches creep up his neck again. You arenât sure what kind of bear youâve just, quite literally, poked.Â
âBut you are, arenât you?â He challenges. âYou came all this way in this excuse for a shirt, just for me.âÂ
He wedges his hand back between your closed thighs, and you relax just enough to let him work his way back to your core. Your breathing gives you away when it hitches and stutters as he traces his fingers along the hem of the fabric between your legs. You let your legs fall a little wider apart, and he sinks a finger beneath the hem and right inside of you to the knuckle.Â
A whiny noise rolls in the back of your throat.Â
âShh,â he sinks a second finger inside of you, and your muscles spasm and contract, âthatâs better, hmm?â He slowly pulls his fingers almost all the way out and then plunges them back in. He repeats this, and your core tenses as you writhe for him.Â
âYou need more?âÂ
âYes.âÂ
âYeah, you do.â He adds a third finger, and the slight stretch makes you hum.Â
âYou just need to be filled up, hm?â He teases you. Awfully confident now for a guy you just caught watching porn on his phone in a grimy back office in the middle of the afternoon.Â
But your noises and impatient movements spur him on. His sticky cock is filling out his jeans again. He nearly drools at the thought of the wet walls of your cunt, currently wrapped around his fingers, sliding over his cock instead. He knows you want it, too.
âDonât you?â He asks like you could read his mind.
âHm?â You hum absently. Empty headed. Youâre still taken by the entire pulpy, messy scene.Â
Reveling in the vulnerability of being spread open on his cluttered counter as youâre both half-dressed and panting in the otherâs hot breath. Any semblance of the lightness of your mood is quickly replaced with a blinding need. His fingers work into you, making obscene sounds, and then you add your own fingers. Circling your swollen clit just as he lets you in on his vision.Â
âYou wanna bounce on my lap. Fill this pussy with my cock.âÂ
âYes,â you hiss as you hover at the edge.Â
âYeah, thatâs it,â he watches your fingers working deftly over your swollen clit. The encouragement tips you over. Your body jolts erratically as you contract around his fingers, and bright sparks of pleasure course through you.Â
âYeah, youâre gonna ride me like fuckinâ champ,â he decides. You pull at his wrist when you start to feel overwhelmed, and he slides his wet fingers over your soft inner thigh. Heâs ready to grab you and carry you to the couch when both of your heads snap to attention at the sound of a door slamming in the driveway.Â
âShit,â he grumbles, looking for the clock on the stove before he remembers itâs definitely not set to the right time. You move nimbly, shimmying into your shorts, snapping your straps back over your shoulder, and brushing your hair out of your face.Â
âHey, wait,â he calls for you, but youâre on the move.Â
âLet me know when I can pick up the baking dish,â you call over your shoulder. Luckily, Joelâs next guest seemed to know him better. They were off to search the shop first, so you didnât collide with anyone before you got to your car. Joel stayed locked in the kitchen, catching his breath while you started to pull away. He didnât see that you stole his dirty Creed shirt off the counter before you skipped out the door.Â
When you grab it later to wear to bed, a naughty little smile tugs at the corners of your lips. When you pull the worn fabric to your nose to inhale deeply, you wonder if itâs one of those weird pheromone matches or something because youâre sure the sweaty man musk should be wrinkling your nose.Â
Instead, it makes you think of his big arms and chest filling out the shirt. And how his shoulder and back muscles ripple under his sun-bronzed skin. What theyâd look like coated in a sheen of salty sweat as he railed you, bent over his workbench, under the watchful eye of the calendar model and her flirty smize.Â
The image has you interrupting your own scenarios-before-bed time. Maybe Joel needs a model from this decade. You giggle, bunching up the t-shirt to snap a tasteful shot of some underboob cleavage, with the faded Creed logo on full display.Â
You send it off with no context, figuring itâs self-explanatory. Itâs less than a minute before your phone buzzes, and you feel the intoxicating rush rip through your body before you pick it up to see just the heading on your lockscreen:Â
Joel
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