#at this point i cant tell if my sense of humor is that bad or if ive genuinely started to like the look

[skeletalheartattack]

List 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the askbox for the last 10 people who liked or reblogged something from you! get to know your mutuals and followers

1. my friends - i don't know where i'd be without any of the people i've met in life. they've all changed me in ways that better myself as a person. anytime i can make them laugh or smile especially makes me genuinely happy.

2. creating art and maps - i don't make a whole lot of either these days, but there's a general kind of happiness i get in creating something. i'd love to get back into creating maps in Source again at some point. truthfully, i got a little nostalgic the other night looking back on some SFM renders i helped work on back in 2020. seeing them reminded me of how much i genuinely love posing characters in 3D, and it makes me sad that i don't do much of it since.

3. my ocs - Boe, Ruce, and Gelato are all fun characters for me to think about and write up details for. had been reminded of that fact while writing up details for Gelato recently. Boe, i feel like im always kinda stuck trying to figure out more of his lore details, but that's kind of symbolic to me in how i definitely feel his life feels very... stand-still-ish given he lives in limbo. some day, i'd love to finally figure out more details regarding his life.

4. zarbon from dbz - i feel kinda silly, including him on this list, but whenever i do catch myself feeling really lonely, thinking about him helps. it's definitely the reason why Gelato wears arm warmers for emotional support, even if in canon i don't imagine he'd even know who Zarbon is... maybe.

5. my memory - i wouldn't say i have photographic memory, but i tend to fascinate myself with how much stuff i'm able to remember from my life, early on and such. finding things and seeing they were atleast 80% accurate to what i remember continues to surprise me. i always hear about how your memories growing up aren't as accurate later on in life, but i constantly find myself remembering stuff pretty well. i'll get some details wrong, like confusing morning for night in a memory or two, but what's important to me is that i took note of it being dark. it's not something that makes me happy in a boastful kind of way... it's something that makes me happy in more fascination than anything else... if that makes sense.

[the-s1lly-corner]

Can you do a Crp x Reader who can't cook for shit but is really really trying? Like the food they serve looks good but tastes super bad

-From your local shit cook

Various crps x reader who cant cook

bro i made a cake for my birthday and its so good im becoming diabolical.. not really a cake person but this one turned out good!! cinnamon swirl cake w/ brown sugar cinnamon frosting my beloeved characters: laughing jack, ticci toby, slenderman, jeff the killer notes: reader is gn, they cant cook either, the only one who can semi cook is toby and slender but we dive into that in a minute cws: none

SLENDERMAN

the only reason he knows how to cook is through observing; be it watching you or watching others in the past... hes no expert but he seems to have more luck in the kitchen than you do

no need to worry about giving him something that tastes bad, he doesnt need to eat human food- assuming his body even accepts it- and i wouldnt be surprised if his perception of taste was a little different compared to human tastes

doesnt make you feel bad about your cooking, will keep an eye from the corner of the room to see what you could be messing up... perhaps you were messing up measurements, or using the wrong ingredients? sugar and salt is an infamous mix up, it wouldnt be surprising if there were other things that got mistaken for something else

assuming eating human food doesnt make him ill, he will humor you and eat whatever you give him.. its his way of showing support!

TICCI TOBY

can "cook" but in the sense that he knows how to microwave something and follow the instructions, or spice up a bowl of noodles or some other pre packaged goods

despite not being much better than you, he still finds it hard to conceal his face when he tastes something that... probably shouldnt taste like that... he may even instinctively say something out of surprise before backtracking- he may not have much of a filter but hes doing his best to protect your feelings

might force himself to eat through the rest of the portion, may even give some push back if you tell him he doesnt need to finish it if he doesnt like it

theres an effort but keeping his face neutral is hard

LAUGHING JACK

cant cook at all, probably the type to light water on fire and stand there in awe wondering just HOW he managed to pull that off... on top of that, he doesnt need to eat.. so he never really picked up on the skill

eats whatever you make him, not very phased by the flavors the dish may give him simply because this man has likely put everything in his mouth at least once at some point... so unless you make a new thing hes never come across before, hes not going to give much of a negative reaction

he might try to make you feel better by telling you that your cooking isnt the worst hes had, he used to steal food from homes he was lurking in as a joke... theres... definitely worse cooks than you out there

offers to be in the kitchen with you, though that will more than likely end in absolute chaos regardless of if what ends up being made is edible

JEFF THE KILLER

cant cook either, like toby he can only really microwave stuff and make the bare minimum to keep himself going... does not go out of his way to make things better

that being said hes not all that much of a picky eater so theres a good chance hes going to eat most of anything you put in front of him... so theres that! there are a few dishes hes rejected, though, whether verbally or physically (in the form of his body just... ejecting the food. whether in the form of vomit or simply dropping it before he has the chance to swallow.. depends on how bad your cooking is)

if its something you want to get better at he lightly offers to learn to cook with you, his tone comes off as him just saying it to get you to pipe down... but he doesnt fight back or leave when you commit to the idea and get him to join you in the kitchen

[wolfertinger]

https://www.tumblr.com/wolfertinger/784178253254590464/we-cant-say-transmisandry-because-omg-misandry

As the person they’re complaining about, don’t be a fucking idiot. This is bad faith 100%. “You care more about someone saying a cringe word!” Yeah it’s just a word. A word that upholds an idea based on misogyny. An idea you’re reinforcing.

“Oh why does it matter, we have bigger things to focus on!” Yeah, why does it matter that the trans women who have issues with Salem and Wis’ behavior feel safe to speak out here? Fuck them, who cares, right?

If I start saying I’m oppressed for being white we all know that’s some bullshit to shut down. If I complain that Salem is being racist against white people everyone here has enough sense to agree that’s a fucking stupid thing because oppression doesn’t work that way. But suddenly when it’s trans women, it’s just too much work to expend I guess :-(. Grow the fuck up, I can care about more than one thing and acting like my being rightfully upset about people making up an axis of oppression that doesn’t exist to talk over women and EVERYONE humoring it is just me being hysterical and irrational doesn’t do anything but prove me right here.

Yeah, Wis and Salem (namely Wis) seem to have a deep hatred for trans men and both of them are going to bat for trans women who do terrible shit. They claim this is because they’re trans women, but think critically about it for a moment and it’s less to do with any of that and more to do with protecting their own interest. And, considering Salem also has a MASSIVE problem hypersexualizing trans women, trying to argue that it’s only trans men getting bullshit from Wisalem is just pure nonsense. Like, the constant treatment of trans women as a fetish and just a dick and boobs is actually a huge issue that Salem gleefully contributes to, but let’s just ignore that because it doesn’t prove my point that this woman is just being an uptight bitch!

But, sure, it’s just these irrational trans women playing oppression Olympics for asking for some basic fucking respect in a space that claims it cares about that sort of thing. If you’re not gonna respect trans women I thought you’d at least give a shit about not wanting to provide some fuel for Wis’ “they just hate trans women” fire but I guess not.

ok. i will say, after giving you the chance to respond. i will not be platforming any more about this discussion, as it is not the place, nor do i feel particularly qualified, to be telling either side that their concerns are, or aren't valid.

i can see both sides. and neither one wants to come together. i have seen just as many trans men being awful, misogynistic and transphobic, as i have trans women. hell. salem and wis themselves show a perfect example, of certain toxic personalities. wis is a particular flavor of transfem, that holds other transfems like her above all, talks down about "afabs" as "lying skanks and dumb bitches", refers to trans men as "boydykes", says they only transition to be mras. salem is a particular flavor of transmasc, who often tries sorting other trans men into easy categories, of just "masc (fully transitioned)" or "fem(non-transitioning or gnc)", and fetishizes the bodies and transitions of transfeminine people for his own gender aesthetics, literally having said a transfems body was "transition goals" in the past. being trans does not magically grant people the "right" ideology, or values, i have seen far too many trans people that are clearly ex-conservative, internalized the values, and never moved on from it. do not even get me started, on the way people treat nb, nonpassing, gnc and intersex people, that do not perform gender the way THEY want.

again. i wanted to give you the opportunity to respond. but i ask any anons after this, do not bring up back and forth arguments in my page, please.

[joerangernation]

Ranger friendgroup headcanons;;;;

ranger + sara: hero vs villan dynamic,

"what will you do sara- you either save the school or catch your greatest enemy!"

"...my greatest enemy? .....Shin???"

"What- no- me!"

But seriously i feel like joe is the only reason they hang out with eachother, that and sara wants to keep a close eye on the guy who likes to blow shit up. I feel like sara would be infinitely annoyed that the school does nothing about rangers constant skipping and disregard for rules, but then again, i think that might make her reflect on her own family status and how it may have factored into her sucess. Ranger would also be extremely jealous because of all the shit sara is good at, like math, socializing, sports, ect.

anzu-

I think anzu and ranger could easily be pranking buddies- like rainbowdash and pinkie pie. They also probably both keep up to date on slang so the conversations are like. "Oh she thought she ate that one" "she didnt even pick up the fork" "period"

Ranmaru-

Ranmaru is the punching bag of the friend group, not just for ranger. I feel like its so easy to make fun of ranmaru. I feel like whenever ranger isnt being a complete dick, tho, they would find they share alot of views on humanity. I can only imagine how they figured out the other was a Will Wood fan.

Kugie-

Ranger and kugue very much match eachother energy, theyre both a bit mean with their humor i feel. I do think kugie is a bit *smarter* which means she'll think of her insults quick, while rangers take a while to come up with so he quickly runs out of new ones. Also rangers speech impediment doesnt help. But they also both have sorta grown similar ways of dealing with the fact that. They're very clockable. Theyre both the kind of kids that get called slurs by randoms in the hallway. I like to think eventually theyd get to a point were theyre like "someone just called them a f*ggot???? Only im allowed to call them that!"

Joe-

Before dating:

I like to imagine joerangers meet cute would be after joe uses the wrong charger on his school laptop or accidently puts the brightness so low he cant tell the computer is on and seeks rangers help at the student-ran help desk. I feel like joe would like rangers looks immediately, specifically his fashion sense. Joe would end up feeling bad after figuring out ranger has 0 friends, ect, and try and introduce him to everyone else. Ranger appreciates these efforts but ultimately has trouble admitting how much it means to him. Joe and ranger would play videogames alot. Joes mom also would really like ranger (despite her misgendering him at first). I feel like ranger would also insist on giving joe money and things like that, which embarrasses joe alot. (Since ranger has never had money problems)

While dating:

Pretty much still the same but more flirting, and ranger would probably beg joe to hang out with him more, basically just being a clingy boyfriend. Ranger fucking SUCKS at masking his autism but he feels really comforted by joes presence, and isnt as worried about joe judging him. Theyd also volunteer at the animal shelter together!!!

[pumpkinsy0]

So ummmm idk what this is doing in ur inbox(sorry) but me n former bestie having an event. He practically ignores me for some onion lookin cant even tho their only sense of humor is yelling slurs and having a bad haircut and general style. Thennnnnnn bestie acts like nothing at all is wrong when his behavior has changed sm bc of this person. I'm tryna hold on to what we DO have left bc ik at heart he is good person but is like brainwashed. buuuuut. this weekend he trashed my room(didn't offer to clean up) didn't eat the cookies I made JUST for him that took 3 hours to make, or any of the food my parents bought him and then snooped thru all my things. And a lil while back this person got mad at me for reminding him Abt the time I threw a gummy worm at him and said I was "disrespecting a boundary." and I KNOOOOW all this behavior can be traced back to one person(the evil one). Anyways sorry for this Im evil and bored

heyyy anon!!! its all ok idc what anons send me in my inbox we r all friends here

BUT tbh from this situation, what i can tell u is that u rlly shouldnt be holding on the way u r. if theres one thing about life, u gotta learn to respect u and ur time, space n all that FIRST no matter who the person is, its ur life!!! cant be living it just for someone else, other wise if that person changes ur gonna get urself in a deeper mess!!

ur friend hanging out w that person is definitely weird theres no way around it, but i dont think ur friend is BAD either, just going down the wrong path. HOWEVER COMMA!!! there comes a point where some of the blame DOES go on that friend. cleaning up after urself, respecting others time, and importantly SPACE is BASIC human decency everyone should learned already and ur friend aint exactly getting it. THAT being announced, i would say u should pull back from that friend just a bit. dont take this as a “this is ur get back at them, meahahahah revennggeeee” or “drop them, cold turkey abandon em” (unless u feel like u have to do that idk 100% the situation) nooooo u pulling away from them is supposed to show that ur respecting urself!!! if that friend speaks up that means they care about u, if they still continue to act the way they r, it may be best to leave them in the past

if ur friend is easily influenced and willing to disrespect u over someone else that fast, they werent a friend meant to last, i fear

LIKE I SAID I GET U HAD GOOD TIMES W THEM, but moving on is just a part of life, not everything can stay forever so its best to let life just take its course, yknow??? u only get one life, RESPECT URSELF!!!! I BEG!!!! the oast was fun but we cant all stay in it forever, trying to play tug of war w the other person and ur bff is just stupid and immature and make everything go on longer, plus not rlly fair to ur friend, theyre not something to win over

wishing u the best of luck🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽

[idontmindifuforgetme]

hi! a post u reblogged keeps coming back to me, (the one that starts: "there really are some people who never take accountability for their actions ... and you cant change that.") and idk i just wonder how you can tell if that's actually the case or if the other person really -does- deserve to devalue you/some part of you (not speaking of you directly here, lol) and pushing back against them makes -you- the manipulative one....

i keep feeling like saying "i am __ (insert whtv, like being trans, or changing how i look) and you can't change that" is something i shouldnt do out of respect/not copying others but idk! u seem way wiser than me people wise, so that's why i ask lol

feel free to ignore this sorry, i usually hate rambling in people's inboxes and won't in the future, but my brain feels like it's on fire a little lol

Hey babe 💕 I understand where you’re coming from. I’m interpreting your words very loosely here, in the sense that by “devaluing a part of you” you just mean someone does deserve to call you out for shitty behavior. Obviously no one actually deserves to devalue you, which is an entirely different concept from calling you out. I’m pretty sure that’s what you meant, but it’s a distinction I felt is necessary anyway bc some wording in this post is giving me people pleaser haha—and I was totally there at several points, so I get the resistance to embracing this idea.

The answer to your question comes down to self-awareness. I’ve been a self-aware person my whole life—and a people-pleasing one at that. I’ve never really had a problem copping to my mistakes; in fact, I did that so excessively that I would even find myself being “the bigger person” in situations I had no business being the bigger person in. I’d literally be walking all over my own self and dignity just to appease somebody else. I guess I’m just a person who started from 0 and had to go up in terms of self-confidence lmao, so my root problem was that I had to stop myself from going “this person deserves to put me down/paint me as the bad person” in situations where I was not the bad person. Obviously if you’re someone who’s starting from 100% and has to go down to 50% to meet someone in the middle, you have the opposite issue to mine. You have too much pride to apologize, you really struggle to hold yourself accountable, you will cut people off rather than just hash things out. I was never that person.

You kind of need to be extremely honest w yourself to discern which one you are, bc I’ve seen people who suffer too much ego and yet hide themselves behind these saccharine affirmations (“I’m just not for everyone” “I’m misunderstood” “I’m just I’m just I’m just”) but it’s a bandaid on the actual problem, which is a problem within themselves they need to address. They can’t admit that they have an “ugly” flaw, so they cope by self-victimizing instead. Self-victimization can also be a form of sanitization (“I wasn’t cruel to this person; they’re just too sensitive and they don’t get my sense of humor”), which is yet another way of making something you did more “socially digestible” as opposed to coming to terms w it for what it is: genuinely shitty behavior. Luckily I don’t think I’ve ever had that flaw. Like I have an ego just like every other human being, but I’d say it takes me way less than other people to get over it and own up.

I don’t wanna paint myself as a saint btw bc my people pleasing isn’t all rooted in selflessness. Obviously it has its own selfish aspects. It can stem from insecurity, it can stem from an inferiority complex, it can stem from wanting desperately to belong, and it can even stem wanting control. For instance, believing you’re the problem in every situation gives you a false sense of control over it (“if I could just fix my behavior, this problem would be fixed too; if the other person is the problem, then I can’t fix this problem, bc it’s harder to control this person than it is to control myself. Therefore it’s easier for me to be the problem so this can be resolved faster”). I’ve had to face the uglier sides of me head on, but it’s okay!! It’s literally okay. It’s okay to quietly work through this stuff. It’s okay not to be born perfect. I know we’re living in an age of extreme sanitization rn, but I assure you it’s okay to learn to live no matter what anyone says. I dislike it when people make it seem like these visceral issues of theirs are all just a byproduct of positive aspects (“I’m just too selfless” “im just too kind!”), bc while that can be partially true, it’s usually not the entire story. And that’s okay. It becomes a problem when you don’t actively work to change for the better.

As for your second paragraph, I’m not sure what the point is? If someone is trans and someone else isn’t respecting that, they’re well within their right to assert it. This is a pretty different scenario from the one I was mentioning in that post. Hope this helps elucidate things a little bit x

[leorawright]

Ok Im very excited Ive been wanting to request again for months but I work the whole day on Fridays :') but im back to request another mashup cause things have changed since the last one!

i would like to request a TF2 mashup (preferably romantic) with any of the main mercs (might exclude pyro unless you want to make it platonic).

Some stuff about me:

Im a hetersexual cis woman who wants to be a freelance artist, either in illustration or in character design! Right now Im studying illustration and its really fun to learn new techniques! I do get insecure from time to time with my art, but Im very determined to learn what I can and just have fun making art

Personality wise, Im very stoic and serious-looking, keeping to myself most of the time, but once i get comfortable I cant stop talking, like sometimes I have to remind myself to tone it down a little heheh

Once I get into something like a tv show or other series, Im very focused on it and think about it non-stop. For example, Ive been into Seinfeld for almost a year now to the point where one afternoon I spent an hour planning what a Seinfeld video game would look like, yknow, because I could. Sometimes I think about not being as involved in my interests as much as I do, but at the same time thats what makes me happy and drives my creativity, yknow?

Ive also been developing some stories of my own! Im no writer myself, but I love creating storylines and developing them further, whether they're original concepts or based on tf2 or something

As for what Im looking for in a partner, I want someone who can make me laugh. I admire someone who can talk so openly to other people but still be gentle and comforting with me even though Im not a very extroverted person. I want someone who admires my creativity and can listen to me when Im saying something, whether its something serious or not. I want someone who can share in some of my interests, and even when he doesnt he can still appreciate my enthusiam and not say something along the lines of "you're still talking about this?", yknow? Whenever I feel at my worst, I want him to just whisper sweet nothings, without having to try to 'fix' my problems immediately, just letting me slowly feel my emotions and junk. Im pretty much rambling on at this point but basically i just need the bare minimum like opening the door for me to fall in love with someone heh

I have a bit more confidence after attending art school, and Im trying to socialize more, but its still a little draining sometimes, but its still worth it in the end I think!

Uhhhhhhhhhh idk what else to put, this is mostly the bare minimum but I hope you're doing well! Take care and have a good day!

I have the perfect person...

Demoman!

He has the strangest sense of humor but whenever he's able to make you laugh, he absolutely lights up

If you're having a bad day, you bet Demo will do everything in his power to comfort you, whether it's listening to you talk or just telling you terrible jokes until you feel better

Or if you're having one of those days where you just need to cry, Demo will lay beside you and whisper about whatever until you fall asleep

Whenever you talk about your interests, he pays as much attention as possible so you know he's interested

Also, he praises your art so much and loves watching you draw, he thinks it's mesmerizing

[imaginationsublime]

2/18/2025

falling out of grace with life. I've lost hope. Before I use to lead w my heart. after being hurt so often or putting in trust in people who only broke it, I've lead to intellectualizing. found 4 points.

explaining negative events: I don't necessarily justify peoples behavior. I'm understanding to a certain extent. I explain things that bother me and not always will those things be constructive. I try to steer clear from victimization.

Distracting myself: I do that when I need a breather. I try not to do this during times of friction, I feel like getting to the bottom of it serves better. things tend to get forgotten or swept under the rug if too much distraction does its job. I process my feelings. I think its healthy to do so. I identify that I have a lot of hurt that is unresolved. Grew up with out much care or affection and being logical or intellectual seems to problem solve some things not all things.

Focusing on task: As years progressed and others hadnt found importance in working emotions like I was, I learned to use the phrase it is what it is. As Whitney Houston said, its not RIGHT but its OK. If im being honest, growing up I've always felt too much and it seemed hindering. It seemed like I gave my attention and heart to those undeserving or those with bad intentions. So currently I deal with my emotions but Im guarded with others. I've lost trust.

Talking about feelings in an emotionless way: I wouldn't say that's realistically me. I am capable of being vulnerable I don't think kindness is a weakness. Empathy and compassion are human essentials.

I suppose its a trauma response. Similar to dark humor. I can identify that I don't neglect my emotions. no matter how much I wish I could I cant. sometimes I feel like giving into the darkness would mean I would be successful, I'd be a social figure. It just wouldn't be true to my core persona. I care too much and that can also be hindering. I'm going through a villain era. I have a darkness that I also don't negate. I believe with some things its very an eye for an eye, I know it makes the world go blind but sometimes people have to learn the hard way. use other senses.

I'm just very unsatisfied with society, with the quality of people I come across. one of my rules is do not mess with the innocent. protect. I've learned how to fight back. I use to not understand the harshness, the unfairness on who the afterlife takes first, in times of fear i use to freeze. take the beatings. I never really ever had the response of flight. I always stayed a constant. stuck around. I would want someone to stick around too.

how do I engage in self care and emotional well being? I take time to really feel what I feel. whether its good or bad. I sing. I hang out w friends, my dog. I spend time out in nature. sometimes that heals a present hurt. sometimes it feels ok. I do recreational activities. I paint, I go for walks. I take a bath and I do activities that make me happy. at least for the time being. I am very grateful about things. I'm just angry after being sad. I'm so very angry. I do practice gratitude. have a mantra where I'm exhaling and inhaling. breathing exercises.

so u say this. and I identify to a certain extent. I feel like I'm still presently continuing a balance. So idk what I am doing wrong. My friends sometimes joke and tell me I have serial killer tendencies. Everyone is capable of it right? we all know there is always a bigger predator. should we do a necessary evil to help a bigger scheme?

I am in touch with my spirit animal. Only once has it manifested in my dream angry. The other times its a bit comforting to know it hasn't left. Its not as bold as before. its felt what I've felt and lets me lead. I miss my wolf being there more upfront. I recognize that I'm an intense individual. I think that is because I've always been in touch with my emotions. somewhere along life... I've been identifying with the villain. I don't have bad intentions. I feel very misunderstood. in the back of my mind, I think that the possibility of doing bad, is getting closer. if u cant beat em, join em. even if that means losing ur spark. I don't want to lose myself. I've always been so sure of that part.

I called my friend after our session. I got tired of being the one who is always reaching out. calling. making time for others and not getting the reciprocated care im looking for. given many opportunities and time. I passively not angrily told him that It was making me feel bad and that i hate pretending when things are not right. I told him we can still talk but I wont be reaching out any longer..

[meetthegofer]

beep beep (who got the keys to the jeep!) it's more fossey lore tweaks 🙂‍↕️ this time with more focus on their early time in mann co + how they went from computer specialist to CS + gofer

so i think fosseys employment at mann co/tf industries starts on more irregular/remote terms, being that xe starts out only being called in once a week for regular computer maintenance and number readings/the like [since this IS the 60s after all], and being home the rest of the week unless theres an emergency, in which case he's on call + will come in to help out. during her free time shes a massive shut-in, spending most of their time reading, writing and drawing [and watching tv, once they scrounge up the money for one]. im a pretty big shut-in myself most of the time and over the past year or so ive become pretty aware of just how strong my social anxiety tends to be, so i want to like. reflect this in fossey since they Are still meant to represent me at least on some level. they're afraid of the prospect of being alive around other people, and after suffocating in their old family life, they don't really know How to be around people without being scared for a while. that's a big part of why they took the computer job in the first place, since it's easier to predict the reactions of a machine than those of a person

the inciting incident that marks the beginning of the end of this shut-in lifestyle is largely inspired by look back; for a bit of context here, in some supplemental materials we've seen scout submit personal ads and the like to newspapers before, and he's also shown to have a penchant for drawing, so i think it would be funny if he did little comic strips every once in a while. nothing super crazy, it would just be like how some local newspapers will publish art/comments from readers in the area, and since scout Works For Mann Co he has a bit of an edge in there. similarly, since fossey spends so much time writing + drawing i think they would probably submit some short stories to the newspaper as well. ironically enough since scout has trouble with reading so i dont think he'd actually Read their work, but he'd see their name and be like "why is that familiar wtf" until one day pauling asks him to drop off some paperwork at their apartment, at which point they have a little "oh its YOU" moment

if we're being real, because i have a shitty sense of humor, fossey would be a fan of his comics and probably tell him as much [dangerous move. inflating this mans ego is a BAD idea], which scout would hang onto for a bit because Hoooly shit i have a fan. guys did you know this. did you hear. di

after this interaction fossey submits a drawing to the local newspaper in place of a short story one week, since theyre much more because about sharing their artwork but that interaction with scout inspired them a little bit. and luckily for them, about takes notice of this change since he cant read. and he IMMEDIATELY runs back to see their apartment like "YOU DIDNT TELL ME YOU COULD DRAW. we're going to go get food now and youre gonna spill the beans on your whooole creative process". this interaction + following instances of scout dragging them out of the apartment to just hang out would eventually give fossey the courage to try and leave their apartment on their own more often, starting with just doing more work; after being assured by miss pauling that they dont need to really Talk to anyone and they can just do their paperwork alone so long as they find a good spot to do so, its totally fine for fossey to come in and do some extra work on days they otherwise wouldn't be working [OBVIOUSLY THIS LEADS TO THEM LIKE, BEING SCHEDULED MORE NOT A WORKPLACE VIOLATION THING (though i wouldnt put that past mann co tbh)]. this then turns into "well shit but i need an office though", and then later becomes the reasoning for the calikiwi meetcute [aka fossey has to ask to do their paperwork in his camper one day because their usual spot was too noisy]. in addition scouts pattern of helping them come out of their shell slowly evolves into an annoying pattern of him randomly dragging them away from work to do stupid shit if he thinks they've been holed up in their office for too long. however since he's the one they've spent the most time with by this point they are also emboldened enough to tell him to fuck off now. so it all shakes out 👍

[solarswonderland]

pre-midlife crisis

genre: fluff

pairing: bf!sunghoon x gn!reader

wc: 0.5k

summary: a boring day

warnings: cursing, uno, attempted (cringe) humor

masterlist

“i’m telling you, there is no R, you lose.”

“are you kidding me? i’m sure you could add something!” sunghoon complained.

“i already added a belt, 5 earrings, a fanny pack, and an extra arm. what more do you want from me?” you deadpan at your boyfriend.

he sighed in defeat.

“i don’t like hangman anymore.”

“because you lose?” you asked him, stifling your laughter.

“shut up...” he mumbles, grabbing a slice of pizza.

“ok what about we play a different game, like…” you dug through your closet. “...scrabble?” 

“another word game? it's like you want me to be miserable!” sunghoon whined, stuffing his face into a pillow. 

“ok, ok…what about rock-paper-scissors?” you asked him, grabbing a cheeto from the bowl next to you.

“basic ass bitch.” he mumbled with his head still stuffed in the pillow. 

you threw a cheeto at him, “then you choose the game! don’t attack me cause youre bad at everything.” 

“bad at everything? wanna have a dance battle?” he raised his eyebrows in question, with a smirk on his face.

“i can barely walk straight, i am not dancing.”

“i can teach you.”

“so that i embarrass myself and you laugh at my misery? no, thank you.” you shudder.

“i swear i wont laugh. just let me teach you!” he said, dramatically falling at your feet.

you sighed. “alright then, but one wrong move and you're dead.” 

“no no- put your leg here then- NO not there- put it here then kick forward and dro- NO YOURE GOING TO KILL YOURSELF-”

you plopped on the floor and lay down, breathing rapidly.

“i suck at dancing.”

“you really fucking do..” he deadpans at you, earning a slap on his head.

“youre the one that decided future perfect was a good beginner’s song.” 

“...fair enough”

“so, now what?” you look at him from the floor. 

he dug into his backpack and pulled out a deck of cards. 

“what do you think about uno?” he asked.

“that never ends well...” you said hesitatingly.

“let's find out then…” he replied, shuffling the cards.

sunghoon places a colour change wild card.

“i change the colour to red!” he said.

you smiled.

“thank you, and sorry hoon.”

you placed a red +2 card.

sunghoon looked at you in defeat before placing a +4 card on top.

“hey you cant do that!” you complained.

“my game, my rules.” he said smugly.

“literally no one plays the game like that…”

“but i do!”

“it makes no sense! just pick two goddamn cards.” you said.

he huffed. “fine”

he picked up two cards.

you placed your last second card.

“uno!”

sunghoon looked at you as if you had just kidnapped his dog.

“+4???? ARE YOU TRYING TO BREAK OUR RELATIONSHIP???” 

“no, im literally just better at this game than you are.”

“i give up.” he said, sulkingly throwing his cards in the air before lying on the floor, defeated.

just then, niki walked into the room.

“yo whats up with him?” he asked, pointing at sunghoon.

“hes going through a midlife crisis.” sunghoon’s head snapped up.

“its a PRE midlife crisis, thank you very much.”

© solarswonderland 2024

[malewifesband]

more beefs:

-addendum to the sameyness: it was really difficult for me to gauge how old anyone was, except the REALLY old people bc muir would hammer home all their creaking decrepit joints every time they were mentioned. everyone else couldve been anywhere from 15 to 45. the two characters i got a sense of being solidly middle-aged died early in the book so they barely count

-i did really enjoy dulcineas character and thought she was interesting and engaging. she brought out a very chivalrous side to gideon and allowed her to express that selfless side of herself that she often barred harrow from bc harrow was mistreating her. that sense of agelessness worked in her favor and made me both like and distrust her

-off that last point, i did not need gideon to have a special relationship with harrow for her to sacrifice herself. we already saw that shes a selfless person who would risk death to save a stranger really early on. i do not buy the devotion angle and the story doesnt even benefit from it. let harrow pine uselessly in her own misery until she can treat her well, especially if gideon dies(?) anyway

-all the dialogue is a nauseating blend of jane austen and millenial internet humor. i know about the lore, okay? i can write a book entiewy wike dis and say it's the lore that the world is run by baby overlords and it would still be off-putting and not terribly entertaining. the lore is a bad posthoc excuse for this novel even if later novels are better

-there were so many characters we spent no time with at all yet im supposed to feel something for them when they died. part of this goes back to sameyness yet again but its hard to feel anything for the death of Random Woman Who Cried In Chapter One when i learn she died well after the halfway point. like sure ok seems pretty fucked up the dude who talked like a broken automaton bombed that lady and her Doughy Son. i dont really know any of those guys tho

-im so tired of skinny people and skinny fetishes. skinny people are at risk of various health conditions because of their dangerous weights but all we ever do is fetishize their sick, disgusting bodies.... smh. if i read about one more tiny birdboned wrist ever in my life im gonna start snapping them

-gideon was tell-dont-show horny. the horniest she actually gets whatsoever is her fixation on dulcinea and again its far more chivalrous than horny. shes not thinking about bedding her down or scopin tits when she shouldnt be, we just get told she has dirty magazines and she's definitely a dirty dog. she makes multiple "that's what she said" jokes, which do not count, and in fact put negative points in her horny charts

-dave strider is there and shes the main character. this doesnt have to be a bad thing but here it really is. very little separates gideon from fanon dave #3

-the characters appeared to believe that the Houses were personality types and would be like "oh thats so 3rd house of you 🙄" and never once did i get a sense for what on earth they meant

-i can tell the worldbuilding is very thorough and deep. unfortunately muir has erected a barbed wire fence around the pool and will not let me in even to splash around for a minute so im just staring at it, wondering what the hell is going on while i watch these losers kill each other in it. and theyre shouting memes as they die. and half the time theyre under the water so i cant even see them

-some necromancy is ok while other kinds are socially unacceptable but i dont get to know why. because if i try to climb the fence i will be gutted

i did finally read gideon the ninth and i have many thoughts on it as a piece of art but in sum: i didnt like it for precisely all the reasons i thought i wouldnt but reading it added a lot more reasons i dont like it onto the pile, all of them to do with execution of the piece

[yukipri]

hi i hate to be a bother but i love your fic but i cant get more than a dozen or so chapters in bc i keep getting horrible anxiety about how the "present" time is ready to explode and i cant read longfic if it ends badly, could you say if the "present" time has a good resolution? no pressure at all, if you dont want to do that ill just wait for the return to the "present" and get the spoilers from my friends reading it

Thanks for liking my fic! Even if you're only able to get through part of it ^ ^;

So, hmm. I'm going to do my best to answer your question. I hope you understand that I don't feel comfortable (or frankly, capable) of telling you how the fic ends, as we are very very far away from that still (plus, I'm writing the fic for a reason!).

I can say that I personally do not consider the present "ready to explode" in any way. It is, in my opinion, the calmest time that the clones have ever experienced in the short, 13 years of their existence. Sure there's a lot going on, but for the very first time, they are in control of their own fate, and mostly have the upper hand. Is Sidious still out there? Yes. But Sidious is just as confused as, well, Obi-Wan right now, and he is actively on the run, which is more than can be said of any point we've seen of him in canon. Are there other threats too? Of course, but again, for once the clones are able to choose how to act without hiding. If anything, it's post-explosion, the explosion being the Override.

Why do the clones feel so in control? Well, that has to do a lot with the actual mechanics and process of the Override, which we are piecing together in the past.

It's true that Obi-Wan is a bit alarmed and very confused because he doesn't know what's going on. But he'll be alright, because the clones are, again, very calm and in control, and he'll take his cues from them. One of his purposes in the present is to be the audience lens through which new developments are revealed, but most of these things are not new or alarming to the clones, and they are the ones this all primarily affects. Will the clones tell Obi-Wan everything immediately? Of course not. But again, one of the purposes of writing this story non-chronologically and going into the past is so that you, the reader, can understand what's going on, and when the clones choose to share something with Obi-Wan, know the full context of that. Either way, Obi-Wan is a side character and not the primary focus in this story!

While there will be developments and action in the present eventually, right now it's far more a time of reflection, at least for the clones. There is going to be a lot of coming to terms with the past, personal reflection on identity, culture, freedom, the Republic, and the future of their new home. There is going to be more exploration of their life, and lots of politics and what it means to run a people that is no longer under subjugation. There is going to be following up on stuff from the war. There is going to be a significant amount of angst. However, nothing will "explode" for a very, very long time—we don't yet have enough context for that.

In comparison, I consider much of the "past" to be lighter, because sure it covers the war which is dark, but it's also familiar to us via canon media, except there's now the undercurrent of knowledge of all these networks and safety measures that exist, as well as new tools that Jango is actively working on. So it's bad, but we know it's not as bad. There's also just a lot more humor, since everybody (especially Jango) is still figuring things out! In the present, we kinda see the polished version after they become pros ^ ^;

We should be returning to the present in a few chapters (no clue how long those chapters will take), but a fair warning that it will be written with the assumption that you have read all previous chapters. Skipping all of the past will probably mean that a lot of it won't make sense, and I'm sorry, but I won't apologize for that, nor will I explain it when it's explained in the fic! The past bits do exist for a reason! And not just the events, but the thought processes that the characters had in the past will affect their present.

Likewise, we won't just stay in the present once we're back; after a while, we'll return to the past again, and probably eventually jump back to the present, etc. That's just how this story works.

Again, I'd rather not comment too much on the actual ending but, I do not consider this story a tragedy. It's not as simple as a fix-it either, and there's plenty of angst along the way, but I don't think you need to worry about it being a horrible conclusion.

I hope this answers your question! And I hope I didn't spoil myself too badly. Everything above that is not yet written is subject to change, because I do not want to limit my writing to what I said in an ask response, but I think this is a decent idea of what to expect.

I'm not here to tell you how (or even if!) to read my story, but yeah, the past is essential, because the present would not exist without it.

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[fictionfixations]

YHS Taurtis [EP 54] Thoughts

I started watching YHS because I wanted to know what happened, and honestly my curiosity got the best of me but I did still know how dark it went.

Annnnnd then it turns out that, oh. There's more than just the warnings. I mean really, no matter how in-depth you get about how bad it gets, some things will still get someone off guard.

I just.. Guys original Taurtis.. It's awful. I didn't think this was how it would go. I mean I knew Grian would be pretending to be Taurtis because of Sam (how loud Sam gets when he yells when Grian says he isn't Taurtis is painful, kudos to any headphone users who didn't feel the pain)

but.. them meeting Original Taurtis and the poor guy not remembering anything besides the crash and doctors.. AND THEN SAM ACTING LIKE HE DOESN'T KNOW WHO THAT IS AND STILL ACTING LIKE GRIANS TAURTIS WHEN THAT PERSON IN FRONT OF HIM IS TAURTIS

i cant. its awful. I think I would've preferred Taurtis dead then alive but with basically no memory. Sam's just manipulative as fuck and I hate this so much. Everything else? its 'okay'. I can handle it, I even have a dark sense of humor so some of this is funny.

Sam making Grian pretend to be Taurtis? Uncomfortable, but nothing I can't handle.

THIS? I'm afraid that this is my too much point.

I feel for Grian in this, I can't. It must be so awful seeing someone who he knows so well is Taurtis but can't say anything because he knows Sam will do something about it, and it won't be anything good.

When you know that the reason Taurtis doesn't even remember anything in the first place was because of Sam, and normally I wouldn't play the blame game, but doing THAT is so much worse.

Sam. The character was a little bit bearable before. A little bit annoying and stuff, but fine. And then this happens and it breaks my heart.

I want to cry.

I hate the fact that Sam's been basically using Taurtis' state instead of actually letting him know the truth, and just manipulating him into believing what he says because there's nothing else that tells him 'hey, that isn't true', and Grian can't say anything unless they're alone [or with people who can actually TELL who is who like Chan]

And Sam gets so fucking loud there's no wonder it was traumatizing. Fuck. I usually like watching Antagonist POV but on this one, not so much. I think it'd be more bearable from Grian's POV haha, my heart would shatter if it was Taurtis' because I just can't. He's just so oblivious rn.

I'm getting emotional. Why did no one talk about this part? Is it just me who gets hurt at this part?

[icantbelieveitsnotdeviantart]

I don’t have time to write this au with some wips backed up, so for your entertainment- harpy au Jaskier *animu edition* and the prologue-Witcher who found him in my previous post.

(He is from the Griffon Witcher School which the wiki assures me means he’s good at magic)

Griffon-Witcher has to leave Jaskier, so he’ll need a more permanent illusion while playing in the taverns. Jaskier is extremely dubious.

“Are you sure this little Witcher curse-thing works? Because I don’t think it’s working.”

“Sigh, I think it works, Jaskier”

“But are you SURE? I can’t feel a difference!”

“You know you’re wings won’t actually disappear, right?”

“....Witcher magic is useless!”

[ari-the-rockstar]

"notice how not having a sense of awareness isnt on this list? yes, i experience all three of those traits. no im not a fucking shitty person to random strangers thats just weird. theres this thing called SELF CONTROL that i actually have, ever heard of it? lacking empathy is not a bad thing. "the ability to understand and share the feelings of another", according to the definition. i lack the ability to understand the feelings of other people and i lack the ability to share feelings with someone cause im not a damn spiritual empath. thats not saying im an abusive monster. excessive admiration ooh boy. man wtf do u think im gonna do with that lmao yeah i really need excessive admiration to not want to fucking kill myself but that doesnt mean im gonna go GGRGGGGGG ABRK AKR VBAKRKKK BARKJ and act like a rabid dog if i dont have it. YES i have a sense of entitlement but again wtf am i gonna do with that BARK AT SOMEONE if they dont agree lmao??"

"cause i'm not a damn spiritual empath" nobody is??? low empathy is fine but it's the combination of self-absorbedness which makes it abusive. if you need excessive admiration to not want to kys then...that is a you problem, i'm so sorry<3 it makes sense! someone saying that people with your disorder are abusive is not excessively admiring you. however just because it hurts your feelings doesn't mean it isn't true.

"a, i never said ur abuse is illegitimate lmao what r u on. and yes it SHOULD be rebranded. you wanna know why? if you look up "npd recovery" you fucking get "hOw To ReCoVeR FrOm NaRc AbUsE!!!" and a bunch of shit about porn and how we're demons whos eyes turn black. you say youve done alot of work to overcome them but youre forgetting npd can BARELY recover themselves because of ppl shouting NARC ABUSE!!! everywhere. if you have bpd i realllllyyyyyy dont think u shld be commenting on npd babes im juuussttt saying!! ur not a doctor and npd and bpd dont share the same symptoms!! and literally who tf is using "i was abused too" as an excuse baby bc its not me. u dont see me doing it."

yes you DO say that it is illegitimate. saying narc abuse is not real is LITERALLY saying that my abuse is not real. because it was VERY stereotypical narc abuse. go to r/raisedbynarcissists <3 they will tell you alll about it.

okay but you do realize that narc abuse is a VERY serious problem and maybe you should not be always angry that there are support groups for victims instead of groups to support the people who perpetuate it??? like if you want to recover that's good, but there are a LOT of people who are hurting and if something is not for you just scroll. if you aren't abusive then it shouldn't make you feel bad?

bpd and npd are two cluster b disorders hunny, pwNPD seem to usually just whine about how the world is sooo mean to them rather than ACTUALLY try and recover. i see more about "npd is so sexy and hot" than "how to get better from npd." and fyi LOTS of people use the "i was abused too excuse," i said it earlier so u couldn't pull it on me.

"oh noooo 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 person wi-with bpd is joking about their traits !!! 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 person w-w-w-w-w-w-with npd is making coping jokes!!! 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 o-o-o-oh no scary npd borderline monster isnt having panic attacks 🥺🥺 on their blog 🥺🥺🥺 every 30 seconds 🥺🥺🥺🥺 and is actually using humor to cope!!! wahahahahhahahwaahahhhh i cant handle people who cope differently than me 🥺🥺🥺🥺 you joking about your disorder means y-you cant have it!!!!!! 🥺🥺🥺🥺"

girl what. this is just embarrassing. there's a difference between coping and romanticizing. your WHOLE blog is romanticizing. at some point you gotta do some dirty work and get better.

yeah, you will feel like a shit a little bit. yeah, you will realize that you probably did or said some awful things. if you so badly want to see those "recovery" things then actually put in the work!! you just want to whine and whine forever.

"bb i dont know what ur on but ur objectively wrong and i wanted u to see lmfao. if u say something online it is public. it is PUBLIC. its not private its PUBLIC, i have the right to ss it and i hope u know that<3"

bestie idk where you're coming from but the ENTIRE idea of "npd is good and hot actually" is a very new take. like, 2-5 years old new. the idea of narcissism being ABUSIVE has been around since longer than u or i was alive. if you say something online it is public too <333 i never said anything about it? lmao i just found it funny you singled me out among everyone because you care soo much. cope harder <3

there is no fucking way 💀💀💀

okay lets just !!! ignore ALLLL of my other symptoms because im not abusive i dont have npd sorry guys npd diagnosis cancelled i dont have it anymore sorry guys because this one person on the internet said so

[fruggo]

Hi hi can I req Danny, Leon and Steve with a male s/o who's a real goofy guy? Cracks jokes during chases, just can't take things too seriously, laid back and chill guy who prioritizes having fun

absolutely, thanks for requesting!! :D this is cute haha. i hope you like it!

danny, leon, and steve with goofy m!s/o

𝐃𝐀𝐍𝐍𝐘 𝐉𝐎𝐇𝐍𝐒𝐎𝐍

danny would consider himself a pretty fun guy, though perhaps his idea of fun would not be the same as a normal person's. so i wouldn't take his word for it if i were you.

honestly? he thinks you're the shit. he genuinely likes your bad dad jokes great puns, will banter back and forth with you, and he might even give you the hatch instead of a mori. although he would love to have your picture, it can wait until the next trial. or the next if he still doesn't feel like it. who knows?

he likes that you're not too serious about everything. since danny is the entity's golden boy, he never has to worry about anything! he likes it here! and it's cool that someone else has a similar mindset about things. although he might have misunderstood "making the best of the situation and just being a goofy person" for "liking it here". you never really clarified which one it was, and why should he ask?

when danny finds out that you act basically the same way with all the killers, cracking jokes and laughing things off in chases, he gets all pouty. he thought he was special. well, looks like you're getting that mori now.

he still likes you though, and he gives you even more special attention now in the form of tunneling and camping! he means well <3 (no he doesn't he is a little bitch and a loser)

but then he hears stories from the other killers about you, and is pleased to find that you are significantly more fun with him, and, dare i say, flirty!

but he still wants to tunnel and camp you.

when you realize what he's doing, you don't get mad about it. what's the point? in fact you think it's really funny.

the first time danny proximity-camped you, you found it rewarding to just talk and talk and talk until he finally talked back. it took a while, but he did finally respond.

you would just say dumb shit, and then you would say more dumb shit, and then it got annoying and danny had to tell you to shut up. and then you would just dramatically whisper something like "okay, pissbaby."

and danny thought maybe he should be angry with you, but he just wasn't. he couldn't be mad at you, because even if he was, you wouldn't care. you weren't scared of him.

so when he finally left and you got unhooked, he tunneled you obviously. it makes sense, okay?

"wow, am i that handsome and gorgeous and attractive?" you monologued while smashing a pallet onto danny's head. "i'm really just so irresistible that you want to tunnel me? honestly, danny, i'm flattered. i'm touched."

danny couldn't remember since when you were on a first name basis, but he let it slide. just because maybe he thinks you are that handsome and gorgeous and attractive.

dude danny is kinda fucked up but like. he's funny. and charming. and he also let you take off his mask once, and so now you know he's also hot. he has a few things going for him as long as you ignore the part where he chases you with a knife.

𝐋𝐄𝐎𝐍 𝐊𝐄𝐍𝐍𝐄𝐃𝐘

leon, our favorite rookie :D he's so cute!!! sorry im gushing i just cant resist i love him !!

and you love him too, so much. that's why you accidentally distract him during trials by goofing off and almost getting him killed

it's out of love. leon knows that. you don't really mean to.

while leon's doing a generator, you are probably somewhere nearby trying to find something even remotely interesting to do. and that might involve climbing a tree, then falling out of the tree. but it wasnt your fault! you swore the crows were attacking you, they didn't want you up in that tree because they knew you were just so cool up there and the Entity couldn't have somebody being better and hotter and funnier than itself so high in the sky.

leon could only smile and shake his head, inspecting you for the wounds you inevitably had. when you said you were fine, he was very skeptical, because your version of fine was never the same as his.

the killer knew where you were now because of your very loud "FUCK!" as the crows supposedly attacked you and forced you out of the tree, so you immediately put on your game face and got ready to command some attention.

leon said no, you were not in the right headspace to get chased. you only shrugged at him, slapped his ass, and ran towards the killer yelling, "HEY YOU WANNA HEAR AN AGGIE JOKE?"

leon was used to this by now, and he found it rather endearing. you were an enigma to him, really. how you could be so laid back about this whole murder-die-sacrifice thing was beyond him, but it was refreshing. he liked your enthusiasm.

since he had just come from raccoon city, he was still in his "i have to do the right thing and save everybody because it's my duty" kind of mood. you made sure to lighten up that burden and remind him that it's okay to chill sometimes, and he can't save everybody, especially not here. if you were in a particularly bad trial, you always made sure to get him to crack a smile.

likewise, leon wasn't always too jazzed about your "funny guy gets killed so the team can live" complex. he knew you didn't care, or at least you said you didn't, but he still hated that you constantly sacrificed yourself and acted like it was no big deal. to him, it was. he hated going back to the campfire alone and waiting forever for you to show up again; he cared about you and it hurt to see you sacrifice yourself so much even if he knew you would return.

leon didn't have a stick up his ass or anything--he had his fair share of humorous moments (i mean have you seen infinite darkness ashdjshdf that man just wants love and food). he just wants to save everybody, you included. it's frustrating to come to terms with the fact that he can't.

he loves it when he can hear you yelling at the killer mid-chase from afar, be it a pun or a swear or both. you've even influenced him to crack his own jokes while being chased sometimes--it comes out more often if he's being tunneled. if you ever happened to see him do it, you would wipe a fake tear from your face and start clapping. you were very proud of your rookie.

𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐕𝐄 𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐓𝐎𝐍

the killers hated you and steve, and i mean like despised you

you were so chill. and for what???? why do you have chill???? nobody else has chill, what makes you think you deserve to have chill????

they could never make you angry and that made them super angry

you and steve would quip back and forth between chases, sometimes going so far as to pretend the killer is not there and talk about something like what kind of cheese you missed eating the most. let me tell you, that did not make the trickster happy.

he was a star!! a star, and here you two little shits were, ignoring him to talk about cheese. honestly, the audacity.

you and steve ran to the killer shack with the trickster on your heels, still talking about cheese. how the conversation had gone on this long was a mystery, and it continued to be a mystery while the two of you shared a chase in the shack.

steve was very happy to have found someone to share his sentiments with. everybody was so serious all the time, and while he was similar to leon with his altruistic streaks, he was slightly less responsible and occasionally enjoyed doing dumb stunts just for shits and giggles.

you can bet that whenever you are in a trial together, it's a competition to see who can hold the killer's attention longer. your teammates don't mind--all they have to do is complete gens, so their job is fairly easy. and it's always entertaining to catch sight of one of you sprinting with a new flashlight in your hand to go annoy the crap out of the killer.

there's no question that steve would die for you a hundred times over, and you would do the same for him. you didn't see it as a very big deal--you didn't see anything here as a very big deal. steve was the only important thing you had, really, and you cared for him a lot. saving him? kapeesh. no sweat.

scenario: steve is being chased, you throw yourself in front of him, the killer has noed, you are hooked, you give him a thumbs up as you die, he flips you off because why the fuck would you die for him what is wrong with you he's supposed to die for you and you know that?? why would you do that???? great, now steve gets to escape and it's all your fault.

you would simply smile. he was so cute sometimes.