#at least i'm self-aware

[subjectfirebrand]

positivity post: i'm dancing in my room this morning.

dancing like a fool. but a happy one nonetheless. :)

ariana grande's 'yes, and?' is such a bop of a song, oh my goodness.

[schreckensbleiches-nervenbuendel]

Am I falling out of love? Or am I just stupid? I'm so fucking confused and I don't like this feeling. What am I supposed to do? Think about my complicated feelings?? Talk to you about them??? Find a solution???? Pfff please

[cosmicdreamgrl]

thinking about how this whole trip is going to be me languishing in my hotel room because i have too much on my mind and my heart is where it always is, halfway around the world. sigh.

[longingpolaris]

local lesbian is sad about her parasocial relationship with five men

[zackmartin]

i can see why my psychiatrist keeps insisting that i go to therapy

[muh-tay-uh]

Selfishly I don’t want Kelsea getting super famous because I’ve made being a fan of hers an actual part of my identity so I kind of feel legit offended when people don’t like her as though they don’t like me

[charlesemersonwinchesteriii]

if Crozier had a nickel for every time someone close to him kept a mortal wound secret from him he'd have two nickels which isn't a lot but it's definitely enough to give him some very specific trauma for the rest of his life

[ultravioletbrit]

“taste” - Jegulus microfic - @into-the-jeggyverse - 688 words

“holiday movies” - 25 Days of Jegumas - Day 9 - @noblehouseofgay

“I’m not saying they’re cinematic master pieces, I’m saying they can be annoyingly captivating.” James flops down on the couch.

“I think what you’re saying is that you have terrible taste in holiday movies.” Regulus sits down beside him.  

“It’s not like I purposefully watch them.” Regulus gives James a skeptical look. “Oh, come on. You’ve never been flicking through channels and stayed on one of those movies just a little too long?” James holds his hand up indicating ‘a little’ with his thumb and forefinger.   

“No…” Regulus bats his hand away but he’s also avoiding eye contact.

“See!” James calls him out. “There’s something about them that draws you in, just for a minute.”

“Maybe I stay on the channel just to see how ridiculous it is?” Regulus poorly defends himself.

“Sure…”  

“They’re always so over-the-top predictable.” Regulus rolls his eyes. “The jaded guy that hates Christmas happens to be the only one that can ‘save Christmas’. Spoiler alert, he saves Christmas.” Regulus mocks.    

James chuckles. “Or the over-worked city girl who comes back to her hometown and remembers the ‘true meaning of Christmas.’”

Regulus is quiet for a moment, then in a much softer voice he says, “Or the childhood best friends who realize they actually have feelings for each other.”  

James turns to look at Regulus and he’s looking down at his lap, fidgeting with his fingers. “Yeah, that one’s the worst.” He whispers and turns to fully face Regulus. “It’s so unrealistic. How could they not know?”

Regulus hums and he’s so quiet that James wouldn’t hear him if they weren’t sitting so close. “How could they know each other for so long and never see what’s right in front of them?” Regulus keeps looking down for a moment before his lifts his head and makes eye contact with James.  

James smiles softly and holds eye contact for a minute. “And there’s always that moment where they make eye contact, and everything clicks.” James slightly leans towards Regulus.  

Regulus nervously bites his bottom lip for an excruciatingly long moment but never breaks eye contact. “And they think… maybe this is what they’ve been missing all along.” He whispers weakly, hesitantly.   

James’ smile grows just a little but he’s also cautious as he lifts his hand. “Then one of them does something that might be a little too affectionate.” He tucks a curl behind Regulus’s ear and his hand lingers on his cheek. “Just to test the waters, nervous the other character might not feel the same way.” He lets his fingers settle on Regulus’ neck as he brushes his thumb over his cheekbone.  

Regulus leans into his hand and James can see so many different emotions flash in his eyes. He closes them and takes a deep breath and when he opens his eyes, they’re fierce and vulnerable at the same time. “And the moment gets really intense, because you know they feel the same, but they’re also sort of terrified. Because if they cross that line, everything could change.”   

James nods in understanding, but his smile is still growing, and he moves even closer to Regulus. “But what if they realize everything’s supposed to change.” He whispers and it’s barely a breath, a secret just for them. “What if everything starts to make sense and they realize… they realize they’ve actually been in love this whole time… or at least one of them has.”

Regulus’ finally lets his smile grow as he leans closer to James when he whispers. “I think they probably both have.”

James beams and Regulus bites his bottom lip trying to hide his own growing smile. They gaze into each other’s eyes for several moments, letting years of emotions pass between them.  

Eventually, James breathes the smallest chuckle. “Then they stare at each other for a really long time, and you want scream, ‘just kiss already’, because you know it’s going to happen.”  

“But it’s just so cliché.” Regulus rolls his eyes fondly as he leans in.

“Yeah, things like that never happen in real life.” James' lips brush against Regulus’

“Never.” Regulus closes the last sliver of space and finally presses his lips to James’.   

[transmascutena]

the fact that he spends all his time grooming kids into believing they're mature enough to consent and then turns around to condescend to them about how young and stupid they are and how they actually don't understand anything makes my fucking blood boil. i need to kill him

[alicornze7]

A cheesy (& late) Valentines special

Baby’s first post on Tumblr yippee Y’know looking at this ten years from now will probably make me cringe so hard that I'll cease to exist

[sciderman]

Every day I mourn the fact that I was in fact born in the middle of Britney's prime

[elbdot]

So, you and white haired boys, huh?

Oh don't even get me sTARTED...

Somehow they just keep getting worse and worse EACH TIME, I DON'T KNOW H O W

[the-music-maniac]

Is it bad that a part of me wants to see Kuina (who beat Zoro at fighting over 2000 times, training to be the greatest swordswoman, acutely aware of what people say about her gender and how it impedes her dream) meet Sanji (refuses to fight a woman just because they're a woman), just to see what type of trainwreck ensues. I feel like it would either be awful or absolutely hilarious.

[horsemeatluvr23]

why are you people allergic to drawing fat characters.... mcyt artist found making fat person into a twink fork found in kitchen

[muninnhuginn]

Lu Guang is such a contradiction of a character and I don't mean that in a bad way at all. He talks down on superstitions and yet is somewhat superstitious himself. He wants to control dives down to the second and yet doesn't provide cxs with necessary info despite that making the dives harder to control. He always tells cxs not to change the past and yet he himself is attempting to change cxs's death. He doesn't believe in his own quest and yet he does it anyway.

That contradiction between what he says and what he does. The knowing what's 'right' but not being able to bring himself to follow through because for all he portrays himself as this logical being he is far more emotional than he would like others to know. Than he would like *himself* to know even. So long as he can wrap his justifications up in some superficial logic, he doesn't have to address the emotional tides beneath his actions. But some part of him still knows.

[wakeupmaddie]

tw BOYS

um anyways so this is the same boy as yesteday n we played sdv and it was kinda nice.. ok this sounds so mean but like i would date him if he wasn't unattractive and if he had future aspirations..

me personally i think it's important to find someone physically attractive and uhm, i don't find him that. i feel kinda bad bc i feel like i'm leading him on but it's not like i'm being flirty or anything - he js likes me cos idk.

anyways yesterday i was just feeling a bit unwell n he was playing fucking valorant n i was like 'oh r u mad at me' idk why i thought he was mad but it was prob bc i've been not responding as much cos idk what to say and he gets really upset (not in a toxic way but in a sulky sort of way, like he gets very anxious) when i don't respond because he doesn't have many friends.

idk how to explain our relationship but it's very like - he'll be very needy 70% of the time and then 30% of the time i'll be a bit needy but then he'll be nonchalant when i'm needy and then i'm nonchalant when he's needy????? idk its more like 80/20 actually. i'm not as reliant on him as he is to me. it's like kainess

anyways he has a very soothing voice and i don't know why i just wrote allat. like this was very kind of him. this is our message from last night

LIKE EWWWW I SOUND SO FUCKING NEEDY I WANNA DIE.

pde relationship lowkey based off of him except i'm highkey suna and he's highkey yn.

like i've genuinely been so mean to him in terms of ghosting him and then coming back and acting like nothing's wrong and he dgaf. like he'll be upset but after i console him for 20 mins we'll be really good friends.

ok this sounds so fucking bad but when we were 18 he confessed to me AND I GHOSTED HIM AFTER LEAVING HIM ON SEEN. and then 9 months later (i could've had a baby in that time) i js messaged him out of the blue and we became friends again.

okay let me explain it's connection to pde

akaashi and yn texting for the first time in a long time was basically his and i's messages after that period

this is ss from pde. THIS IS LITERALLY OUR EXACT CONVERSATION BUT I WONT BE ABLE TO GET IT BC I DELETED OUR CHAT ON INSTA UGH.

but i think overall suna x yn was based off of my relationship with this boy and not in the toxic cheating way but in how reliant yn is on suna even thou he kinda ignores her but then they switch up? idk how else to explain this.