#astraea is literally the best

[dusollstdiesirae]

tagging my partners major accounts in my pin bc i love them so much

[cadaverre]

⋆⁺｡˚⋆˙‧₊☾ welcome ☽₊‧˙⋆˚｡⁺⋆

about me

you can call me juno or astraea

im a cancer sun, libra moon and sagittarius rising

my pronouns are they/she (and my pronoun page is here)

i'm a proud bisexual (i am very sapphic lol)

im taken (you can hear about my love via the “them tag <33")

i am a minor (i won't immediately block people 18+ but if you're creepy i will <3)

australian!! also a bunch of different places, none really interesting

this blog is for me to dump thoughts, interact with people and just have a good time :)

i play the drums and im currently in two bands! i also love playing guitar and one of my 2024 goals is to get better at playing!!

currently listening -> 🍁☕️🎸 nyc

currently reading -> the odyssey translated by emily wilson

currently watching -> doctor who and rewatching gilmore girls

things i like

i love: literature, the arts, queer culture, astronomy, feminism (no terfs allowed!!!!), fruit flavoured drinks, flared pants, converse, dark red, nail polish, eyeliner, burgundy lipgloss, tank tops, tote bags, brie (always dreaming of cheese), pinterest, spotify, my headphones, the ocean, my grandparents house (im there rn i love it), spring+winter, very specific shades of pink and green, black <3, folklore and 1989 girl, fiddling around on the guitar, fantasising about being a famous musician, finding new music, snow, picking silly little outfits,

books: osemanverse, the hunger games, books by rhiannon wilde, tim te maro's subterranean heartsick blues, all the best liars, books by octavia butler (specifically parable of the sower and parable of the talents), the last true poets of the sea, acotar, the weight of the stars, the seven husbands of evelyn hugo, the picture of dorian grey, house of hollow, howls moving castle, harry potter (mainly marauders, FUCK JKR), i kissed shara wheeler, red white and royal blue, song of achilles

movies + tv shows: dont look up, little women (2019), scream (i like most of them but 1996 is my fav by far), ladybird, barbie (2023), some of the mcu (thor and guardians of the galaxy <33), spiderverse (itsv is my love), gilmore girls, stranger things, loki, heartstopper, arcane, scott pilgrim takes off, she ra

musicians/bands: boygenius, taylor swift, lovejoy, glaive, brakence, paramore, ricky jamaraz, melanie martinez, lana del rey, ashnikko, girl in red, billie eilish, doja cat, big thief, adrienne lenker, ethel cain, mitski, remi wolf, cigarettes after sex, ericdoa, tv girl, clairo, the neighbourhood, bon iver, deftones (getting into them just a little), maneskin, courtney barnett, poppy

my favourite colours are black, dark red, burgundy, denim blue, sage green, soft pink, glaucous blue, golden yellow (i love colour theory so all colours are beautiful in their own context but here are my favs to wear/see)

i really want to get into more poetry so if you have any recs lmk!!

i have recently begun practising some very simple witchcraft, so feel free to talk to me about that and i would love to learn more!!

i love learning about astrology and use my birth chart frequently

i write very, very infrequently and think of more stories than i even start to plot lmao.

i draw way more than i write and will occasionally post some!! its not good by any means but its fun ig

talk to me + dni

my asks and dms are open!! feel free to talk to me about anything and everything!! i love talking!!

i love my mutuals so much so if ur my mutual *looks you dead in your eyes* i love you

my discord is the same @ as here, i literally just got it today so idrk how it works but feel free to add me there <33 but please lmk if you do if your username is different

if we’re very close you can ask for my insta!!

i rarely follow people without an intro post/descriptive enough bio (with name, age group, pronouns) so if you want to be mutuals please have one!! if not just shoot me an ask about who you are and what you like so we can be friends <33

dni: rude, racist, homophobic, transphobic, zionist, terfs, sexist, ableist, antisemitic people

tags

#juno.txt -> ramblings, original posts

#asks -> asks ive answered

#ask bait -> hehehe send me asks <3

#tag games -> tag games ive participated in

#beautiful mutuals -> interactions with my beautiful mutuals!

#spotify -> my music obsession dw im fine fhdklfhdal

#them tag <33 -> posts that remind me of my wonderful bf <3

links + sideblogs

spotify

pinterest

@likeasugarcubeinateacup -> my notes app poetry

@slowrotburiedinthepark -> a random sideblog i post art and occasional web weaving on

@stabbingstarsthroughmyback -> my writing sideblog (ask me about my wip!!)

stunning dividers by @chachachannah :))

here is a totally beautiful and amazing moodboard by @svnflowermoon that always makes me so fhadkfhakd

last updated: jan 19th 2024

[bitchesofostwick]

7, 14, and 26 for Ellinor please!

yesss thank you astraea!

7. if they had to choose one person most important to them, who would that be? her twin brother, avery! sorry cullen, but avery is kind of her day one...literally... he's her brother and her best friend. she had to live for fourteen years without him in her life before they could be reunited. she never wants to lose him again. everything she's done was for him.

14. who are they closest to from their family? haha that has to be avery again. but i will say, she's grown so much closer to her sister lyssa over the course of the inquisition. she went from hating her guts for being a complicit bystander when avery was taken to the circle to forgiving her and treating her as a friend, sister, and confidante by the events of trespasser. it was an arc meant to reflect cullen's life experiences as well, albeit with different circumstances, but it's important to me and to the story. and also the rest of the trevelyans literally suck.

26. do they get a happy ending? me when someone asks if emilia gets a happy ending: idk! i hope so! lol! me when someone asks if ellinor gets a happy ending: if ellinor doesn't get a happy ending i will literally [redacted] [redacted] [redacted]. (the answer is yes, so help me god. but she has to go through some shit to get there. shameless plug for my trespasser fic lol.)

canon DA worldstate asks // ask box

[pruesgaultier]

started writing a clarissa x fem oc story because there’s a severe shortage of them and i really wanna post about it but i’m trying to finish at LEAST the first 3 parts before i post but i’m literally soooo excited about it therefore i’m still going to tell you all about it and hopefully i post sometime this month !

i headcanon clarissa as a lesbian so keep that in mind

also, it needs to be known that i know absolutely nothing about the books. i tried to read them but sophie is soooo fucking insufferable i don’t even think i made it to chapter 3, so anything i know is from the wikia page or whatever i remember about once upon a time…

her name is astraea vivienne ryder (more specifically, dovey-ryder or ryder-dovey bc they’re married but i can’t decide which one i like).

she’s black, — darkskin — tall about 5’10, 5’11. she has long black braids with curly ends and she wears white and orange. she also wears thick gold arm bands (as a nod to dovey) and other gold jewelry.

shes a lesbian. she’s occasionally wears suits. her favorite flower is the orange lily. her nails are sharp, but not long, and usually painted white or gold. she doesn’t wear white to balls because it feels to wedding like.

— clarissa’s nicknames for her are my star and vivi. her nicknames for clarissa are mon coeur (my heart in french) and mon âme (my soul in french)

— astraea and clarissa are about a year apart in age but graduated (they graduate in sge right?! i mean it is school…) at the same time.

— clarissa fell first; astraea fell harder. clarissa confessed first. astraea proposed first. in the school, they were roommates and of course roommates !

— i wrote her as a fairy godmother cause i think clarissa being with another fairy godmother is cute plus, i needed a reason for her to be gone and then come back and her being away in a story made sense.

— i haven’t decided if i have want to keep her as one. kinda wanted her to be a witch, but the name astraea comes from a greek goddess and im like “hm…maybe?” so yea kinda stuck on what she is exactly.

— she mainly teaches history however, she’s knowledgeable in many subjects and occasionally teaches different classes

— her other nicknames are rae (by emma and lesso) and lady a (by students she likes). everyone else calls her professor ryder.

— astraea and lesso are best friends... surprisingly. their friendship started because of a prank war between the two (lesso was pleasantly surprised that an ever was capable of such things). they then decided to help each other prank the others’ school. so astraea pranked the nevers and lesso pranked the evers…

— astraea and emma are really close friends. emma was often subjected to astraea’s many, many rants about how much she was in love with clarissa.

[mysterybooks-world]

Say hello to Vox's friend

I settled on this idea instead of My original idea

When I was thinking about Vox's friend OC I was thinking of making a young man with a Venetian Mask

Like a mix between Joker and Kaitou Kid

Joker from: (Persona Records) and Kaitou Kid from (Detective Conan)

a True gentleman More than Alastor and Valentino

And he sang a song Did I Mention (From "Descendants") Dove Cameron - Boyfriend

But I changed my mind or I can put him in another au

I was thinking about her appearance As you can see she is between stars and plants witch.

Because Sinners have their own appearance in different shapes and sizes And a different design

As for her store or Shop is (Antique store) aka (MystiKraft) Not only Antique store It is the place of everything, without Anything related to sex and drugs.

From the outside it is like a small store but from the inside it is big

she is like wandering merchant, She sells things and items

What is special about her store?

Her store Like pocket dimensions can go anywhere to other Rings of Hell & heaven & earth

You could say something similar to (Howl's Moving Castle)

No one can enter the store without her permission.

Anything that happens inside the store, no one can use magic to see it inside Or use magic to enter. Even Lucifer and Seven Deadly Sins & Angels, they magic doesn't work in a store.

(My mind whispering: A perfect place for someone to hide If you get my meaning)

Her powers are like a witch's -she can mess with reality -has the power to mess with time Like stopping time or turning it back

-her tail is like fire, but it does not sting If she want to, Sometimes, her tail becomes like a street lamp

Back story: She was there from the beginning, anomaly, She's just there seeing it all, She saw everything The fight God & angels and Roo aka ROOT OF ALL EVIL. And you know the rest of the story.

She was interested in humanity But she did not interfere in many people's lives, only telling them her advice and wisdom. and She listens to their stories. She loved playing the role wandering merchant.

she appeared in front of humans At different ages Sometimes she is an adult, a teenager, an old woman or a child,

And one day, years ago, When she was child, she met child Vox, They became friends, They began to grow together from children to teenagers then Adults,

when Vox died and fell into hell, His friend was already there, she Guide him to her store and she offered him sweet tea, After he calmed his nerves and realized that he was dead and in hell, After she told him everything About hell, and she Give him some stuff and money, Both of them went their separate ways, Sometimes Vox would visit her,

My OC: Wait a minute I think I forgot to tell him I'm not human and She smiles OH well I'll let him figure this out for himself, Plus His reaction will be funny

And here the story begins Like I mentioned in my poster before

was returning from his back from his supposed date with Valentino But Valentino didn't show up and forgot about their date, He is busy with Angel Dust.

When Vox was passing by a store. He stopped where he was and stepped back, This store wasn't here when he walked in this morning, But when he read the shop sign (MystiKraft) Vox realized who the shop owner was And he entered the place, Vox meets his best friend again

I feel like this is a song for them

she sing (Flying Solo) from Julie and the Phantoms

So Vox spends time with her again.

now the important thing What name should I choose for her? There are four names with their meaning of Flowers and stars

First name: Aster: Greek in origin, this uncommon name's literal meaning is 'star.' Aster flowers, which bear brightly-colored, star-shaped blooms, are the official flower of September and according to myth, are the tears of the Goddess Astraea, also known as Virgo — September's ruling constellation.

Second name Calla: comes from Greek roots, is a type of lily, and means “beautiful.” With Latin origins, this name means “starflower.” This name is inspired by the relaxing flowering herb commonly found in teas

Third name Calytrix. 'Calytrix' has a Latin origin and the meaning of the name is 'star flower'

Fourth name Ahana. This pretty Japanese name means “sky flower.” Anan. This one has Hebrew roots, too, and means “cloud” or “vapor.

I was thinking about choosing Aster or Calytrix.

What do you guys think? Which one of names suits her the most?

[mizutoyama]

My first official encounter with Gaunt was him getting hella mad about Astraea coming from the Undercroft (understandable) and then threatening her with how his dad is close to the headmaster and will use that against her if need be (he malfoyed before Malfoy 😆 (and yes, I know he doesn’t even like his family)). Not the best first official impression. I understand where he’s coming from, but he’s literally using that weak-ass threat on someone who has defeated a full troll (and more, but he’s not aware of the other stuff she survived which excludes falling from platforms… platforms are dangerous. Astraea beat Sebastian in their first duel by bombarding him with the basic spell until he fell off the duelling platform. Platforms: Sebastian & Astraea’s worst enemy 🥰).

[endlessly-cursed]

hp women appreciation week, day two; favourite women that are not mine

agata della rovere; she's such an interesting and multi-layered and complex woman, I was besotted with her the moment I saw her @potionboy3

gaia alden; I know she remains a mystery but she's my emmie's descendant and i'm also in love with the concept of her and olympia (make them a couple challenge!!!) @cursed-herbalist

verna malinda; the first character of gryff that I met and I fell for. She's brave, tragic, heroic, and like me, one useless lesbian. I love her and she remains in my loml list @gaygryffindorgal

astraea mckenzie; she's beauty, she's grace, she's my baby and bestest girl of the founder's era. I fell in love with her and she remains a fav of this era ♥ @magicallymalted

ava campbell: reading book two of tpr made me fall for ava quickly: reckless, badass, with a strong sense of justice and one of the strongest characters of the saga, ava is a well-developed and written character and i can't wait to dive into her stuff @lifeofkaze

ophelia burke; she's such an interesting character, and the true embodiment of abba's 'money money money'. She's cunning, smart and knows how to play the game, and i can't wait to see the last part of symphony @the-al-chemist

brianna o'rourke; she's an underrated baby, someone i highly relate to and her character alone without her li is so interesting and fun to read! A comfort character of mine @unfortunate-arrow

virginia scott; another underrated b!tch, she's literally what i aspire to be someday, not to mention an instant crush and fav, she deserves to be in this list @slytherindisaster

adelia selwyn; a crush of mine before i came into the fandom (and later inspired me to join it!) Her beauty matches her intellect and she's one of the most all-time iconic women of the era. This legend is worthy to be here @thatravenpuffwitch

siobhan llewellyn; ofc shiv should be here!!! she was another of the inspos to join here and one of the first ocs i interacted, as well as her owners. She's badass, with a soft side, funny and witty, same goes for her owner 🤍 @kc-and-co

odette bellerose; yet another underrated baby, she's literally living my dream: live in marseille in a big ass mansion in late victorian england. she's such a complex and interesting character, she deserves to be here @kathrynalicemc

miriam cairncross; of our brokencross universe, miriam was the first lady i was introduced to and she was an instant fav!! She always shows that she's not just eli's wife and is interesting in her own right. She deserves to be here as well @cursebreakerfarrier

mathilde coventry; a recent one, she's such a badass as well! Poisoning her way through everything and ofc her special relationship with my bruna is one of the best girls out there @camillejeaneshphm

abbi bennett; ofc i had to put my wife here! She's one of the best characters, and alongside roxie, is a fav of mine. I'm forever thankful that you chose her to be ernest's wife 💜 @mjs-oc-corner

[taomyou]

The Romance of Reimbursements - Chapter 19

Pairing: Levi Ackerman x Reader Status: COMPLETED Summary: There’s a guy you see every Friday on bus 143, and you think he’s pretty hot. It wouldn’t hurt to tell your best friend about him, would it? or, you and Levi take the same bus home from work every Friday, and you fall in love slowly, clumsily, and with all the time in the world to fold as many paper stars as your heart desires. Word Count: 7.4k Tags: slow burn, friends to lovers, modern au, office au, fluff, romance, meet-cute, matchmaking (A/N: this fic is entirely available on ao3 here if you would like to read it there instead!) Chapter Navigation Accompanying Playlist

the end of spring

“I’m literally sitting right here, at least wait until you actually meet them to look them up!”

Hange groans next to you, taking their phone and smacking your shoulder with it. “You’re no fun! You told me their names, so I’m entitled to stalking them online and learning everything about them.”

You sigh, looking out towards the empty chairs, lined up neatly at the front of the room. “I told you their names so you could help me make their posters.”

“And that was your mistake! But okay, I’ll wait ‘til after I meet them,” they concede, leaning back into their seat.

Today, you and Hange are seated in one of Sina University’s many ceremonial halls for the interns’ graduation ceremony.

Actually, you’re “at home” with “a cold,” but nobody from work has to know that isn’t where you really are.

Originally, you were planning to go alone, but you had an extra ticket and decided that cheering for the unsuspecting trio of Mikasa, Eren, and Armin would be too fun to do alone, so you asked Hange to come with you, as well as help with making posters and money leis earlier in the week.

After yesterday’s successful office party (which you painstakingly had to interact with Erwin to plan for), you got a good night’s rest, got breakfast with Hange at the ripe time of 8 in the morning, and the two of you were off to go scream in the ears of the poor souls who’d be sitting near you. 

Speaking of Erwin, after your, for lack of a better word, “conversation” with him last Monday, you’ve steered clear of the man.

Thankfully, he doesn’t make it that difficult. He comes over to your office occasionally to ask about the parties, but he doesn’t dare talk about anything else. Other than that, he’s been gone from the office almost entirely, apparently on the finance floor handling business up there.

Things are a bit different when it comes to avoiding him while you’re out with your friends, though. You sincerely don’t want to think about work drama when you’re spending time with everyone, but seeing Erwin makes it that much harder to have fun.

You’re cordial enough, but he gets the message that you’re not open to talking to him, and he engineers conversation so that you don’t have to. On that front, you’re glad he’s socially capable of making that happen.

It’s not necessarily anger that you harbor towards him right now—just disappointment. Perhaps there’s a sense of betrayal as well, considering you’ve really started to think of him as a good friend, but you suppose you can’t really fault him for doing his job.

You’ll forgive him eventually, but for right now, you just need time to cool off and forget that conversation ever happened in the first place.

Suddenly, a voice shatters through your looming thoughts of Erwin and work.

“Astraea?”

You look around frantically to find who the voice belongs to, but Hange seems to find them first and points in their direction.

“Oh, hi Sasha! Did you want to sit with us?”

“Fuck yeah I do!”

You move aside the tote bag full of gifts and posters that you have on the seat next to you to let Sasha sit down next to you. She does and sets down the large tote bag she has, and Hange shoots her a wave from where they are.

“Nice to meet ya, I’m Hange!”

Sasha returns the gesture with a smile. “Nice meeting you, too! Name’s Sasha!”

“Are you here for Mikasa and the others?” You ask.

She nods exuberantly. “Yep! Our other friends couldn’t make it, so I’m here on behalf of all of us,” she beams. “Are those for them?” Sasha asks, pointing at the large bag you just moved.

“Yeah, just a little something for each of them. I assume you brought stuff for them too?”

She grins and goes to grab a candy lei from her tote bag, handing it to you and Hange so you can get a closer look at it.

“One of my coworkers at the bakery taught me how to make them with the supplies we had in storage,” she says. “I made a bunch, you guys can have that one.”

“Really?” Hange asks. “Thanks!”

Sasha nods. “Sure!” She moves to take out another one for herself. “I was actually going to just eat them all myself, but sharing one won’t hurt.”

You and Hange laugh before thanking Sasha again, and the three of you get to untying the ribbons on the lei, getting to the candy inside.

You sit back and let Hange and Sasha get acquainted for a while (which apparently entails oversharing embarrassing details about themselves and the graduating trio), and after a good hour, the hall fills itself up with other guests for the ceremony. The two silence themselves when the ceremonial music comes in through the speakers, and you all prepare yourselves for the boring speeches that come before the actual cheering.

✰

“Eren! It’s rude to count money right after you get it!” His mom scolds him, coming up next to him to hold onto his arm for the photo.

“It’s okay, I really don’t mind,” you laugh. “Okay, smile!”

After giving them their gifts, you, Hange, and Sasha have been tasked with taking pictures for each of them and their families. Hange, ever the energetic, opts to take photos for Armin because they “want the challenge” of getting to learn about the most introverted-looking third of the trio, and Sasha takes care of Mikasa’s.

Which then leaves you with Eren, and as much as the little shit annoys you at work, he’s a good kid, so you’re happy to be capturing the moment for him.

After taking a few more pictures of him and the rest of his family, his mom forces you to swap and takes the camera from you.

When you go to stand next to him, he drapes an arm over your shoulder. “So, how much is on it?” Eren asks quietly.

You snort. “Wouldn’t you like to know?”

You both shut up when Eren’s mom shushes you for the picture, and eventually Mikasa and Armin migrate over to the two of you for a group photo.

After a bit more back-and-forth where everyone gets caught up on the plans for the rest of the day, everyone seems good to go.

By now, the families have left to go back to their cars and make their way over to the restaurants where each person is meant to have lunch. You’re tasked with dropping off Mikasa, Eren, and Armin after they’ve picked up their diplomas, and Sasha decides to tag along to keep talking to Hange.

The group of you six head over to the hall distributing the certificates, and after a surprisingly short wait, the three come back to the main hallway, their diplomas in large manila envelopes.

“Alright, are we ready to head out?”

“One of our friends has his art up at a showcase on the undergrad campus right now, so we were thinking about stopping by before leaving,” says Mikasa. “Is that okay?”

“Sure, I don’t mind,” you shrug.

“Oh, is he a student there?” Hange asks.

Armin nods. “We’re all the same age, but he and his boyfriend took a few gap years to travel so they’re still doing undergrad.”

“Ooh, sounds fun! I took a gap year to travel too,” they reminisce. “Do you guys wanna hear about it?”

The group of them all nod (with varying levels of enthusiasm), and having heard the stories already, you linger on the side, watching as Hange animatedly begins their story.

Then, from seemingly out of nowhere, you feel a tap at your shoulder.

When you turn around, you see Levi.

“Levi? What’re you doing here?”

He deadpans. “I work here.”

“In the law department?” You tease. “What a multifaceted man you are.”

“No, idiot,” he groans. “You mentioned not taking the bus this week to watch your coworkers graduate here, and I thought I’d stop by to give you your tea.”

Eren clears his throat behind you, and you turn to look at him now.

“Hey, we’re gonna go ahead without you,” he says.

You blink. “Am I not allowed to come with you guys?”

Eren looks back to the group, all of whom look back and forth between you and him, and then he looks back at you.

“Hange said you parked in the parking garage here, and we don’t want to have to walk all the way back.”

“We could just drive over to the undergrad campus from here, I don’t mind—”

“There’s no parking next to the exhibit,” Armin cuts in. “Don’t worry, we’ll find a way back to the car eventually. Our relatives are probably waiting on us anyway, so we’ll be quick.”

“You sure you don’t want me to go with you?”

Hange pushes Eren aside and stands proudly in his place. “Worry not, dear friend! I will watch over them!”

“That’s even worse than leaving them unattended,” Levi says plainly.

Hange sticks out their tongue at him before turning on their heels, draping their arms over the two nearest people (who happen to be Eren and Armin), and walking off in an unknown direction. Sasha follows them closely behind, but Mikasa lingers behind a bit.

“Don’t worry about us, I’ll text you when we’re done,” she says. Before she leaves, she gives you a quick hug and brings up her hand to cover the space where her mouth meets your ear. “Have fun with your boyfriend.”

And then she’s off, running after the group in heels and leaving you a flustered mess.

Of course that’s what’s going on. Leave Hange unattended for three fucking seconds, and suddenly everyone has a master’s degree in matchmaking.

You clear your throat, trying to hide your embarrassment behind your hand, and turn back to look at Levi.

He unloops one of his backpack straps to get the small tin out, and he hands it to you.

“That was fucking weird, but here.”

You awkwardly laugh, taking it from him. “Thank you, Levi, but you could’ve waited until next week. It wouldn’t have made a difference.”

He huffs, shrugging his backpack back on. “I’ve already gotten the date wrong before, I’m not fucking up our schedule again.”

“It wasn’t even your turn when you forgot,” you remind him. “Even if it was, I wasn’t going to be mad or anything.”

“Yeah, right,” he scoffs. “How was the ceremony? I never thought watching paint dry would be fun until I went to Erwin’s graduation.”

“It wasn’t so bad,” you chuckle, readjusting the tote bag on your shoulder. “It definitely helps when you know what the speakers are talking about, but Sasha and Hange managed to stay awake.”

He rolls his eyes. “That’s because they ate all the fucking candy in their leis, they were practically just wearing plastics sheets around their necks.”

“I probably would’ve too,” you muse. Looking past him and down the hallway, you think back to what the group said.

Even if most of it was a farce, you’d still have to go get them.

“Well, I better get to my car. Only a matter of time before they spam call me to come get them.”

Levi nods, reorienting himself to face the same direction as you. “Where’d you park?”

“At the lot next to the stadium.”

“Want some company?”

You raise a brow. “I didn’t know there was a bus stop near the law school?”

“There isn’t.”

“Then wouldn’t it be inconvenient for you to walk me?”

He turns back to you and deadpans. “No.”

It definitely does sound very inconvenient, but… you can’t find it in yourself to reject the offer.

If you did like him, your heart would probably be doing somersaults right now.

But you don’t like him, so you feel that warm fuzzy feeling at the pit of your stomach instead.

“I wouldn’t mind the company, then.”

He tilts his head towards the lot. “Lead the way.”

You smile at him before walking ahead, and once you’re out the doors and making your route clear enough, your paces sync up with one another and you’re walking side-by-side.

“So, how was work this week?” You ask, seeing as you won’t be taking the bus with him.

“It was fine, nothing happened,” he answers. “The students are too checked-out to bother me with any questions, and it’s the same for my coworkers. I finished presenting the coursework already, so it’s just been review during lecture. I didn’t have to meet any clients this week either, so nothing there.”

You smile, happy to hear there was nothing for him to feel bad about. “That’s good, then. Doesn’t sound too exhausting.”

“Yeah, it’s a nice break,” he says. There’s an upcoming crosswalk, so he pushes the button and you both wait until it signals for you to go.

“If I get run over, do you think the university would pay off the rest of my student debt?” You joke.

He groans, and you both step back onto the sidewalk. “You don’t even go here.”

“Oh c’mon, that was funny.”

“You are so painfully unfunny,” he says. “Hit me with the ‘shrimp fried rice’ joke, will you?”

You laugh, covering your smile with your hand. “Don’t worry, I have it on standby for when I need it.”

“Of course you do,” he sighs. “How was your week?”

“It was fun, we had a party yesterday to celebrate our interns getting return offers,” you reply. “There was a lady who came in to get her fifth divorce settled with us, too.”

Levi cringes. “Fifth?”

You nod. “Each time she comes back, she brings gifts for us. I think she gave me a watch last time. She’s nice, though, so we don’t really know why she’s been through so many marriages.”

“What’d she get you this time?”

“A snow globe. Apparently she got it from her latest ex-husband on their honeymoon.”

You and him both start to climb the stairs of the parking garage, having just gotten there.

“What a joy,” he grimaces. “Anything else?”

“Nope.”

You hold off on bringing up that whole “Erwin putting you through hell for the sake of the office” thing because you’re sure that Levi would beat him to a pulp, but you appreciate the sentiment behind that, even if it’ll never actually happen.

“Did you not have work today? I heard from my coworkers that the ceremony started at 11.”

You smile, tipping your head back. “I called out ‘sick.’ I should be okay, my friend texted me earlier and said I didn’t have that much to do today anyway.”

“How irresponsible,” he teases.

You find your car after a bit of searching the lanes, and you dig your keys out of your bag. You hear your phone ring, and you pick it up without checking who it is.

“Hi! Can you come get us?” Hange.

“Yeah, I just got to my car. Where are you?”

“Hey guys, where are we?” A pause. “Mitras Hall!”

“I have no idea where that is, but sure,” you laugh, clicking your car open. Levi opens the trunks for you and takes the tote bag off your hands, and you thank him with a nod.

“Aren’t you still with Levi? He probably knows where it is.”

You tap his shoulder after he’s closed your trunk. “Do you know where Mitras Hall is?” He nods. “Okay, I’m on my way.”

“Thanks! See you soon!” Hange says before hanging up.

You put your hands together in a prayer position and smile apologetically at Levi. “I’m so sorry, but could you help me find where that is?”

He rolls his eyes but starts to head over to open your passenger-side door. “I wasn’t going to just let you get lost, idiot.”

You grin and hop in quickly into the driver’s seat, putting your keys into the ignition. “Thank you, Levi.”

Thankfully, the drive isn’t too far, and it works out that Mitras Hall is right next to where the bus station is. When you get there, the group seems well acquainted with Hange, laughing and talking loudly. Sasha’s absent from the group, but you assume she’s gone back to her car already.

You apologize to Levi and tell him that there’s no space for him to fit in your car when you have to take everyone else back to their families, but he tells you that it’s no problem before flicking your forehead and heading out for the bus stop.

When your friends slide into your car, they’re all stuck in a fit of giggles. Even Armin, who’s usually the most reserved of the trio, seems ready to piss his pants from the laughter that bubbles from his throat.

“What’s so funny?”

Hange’s in your passenger seat, and they pat your shoulder reassuringly through their laughter. “Oh, man, you’ll never get to know!”

You groan and put your car into drive. “I hate all of you.”

“You definitely don’t, but sure,” Eren stutters out, the shit-eating grin on his face taunting you in the car’s mirror.

You roll your eyes. “Yeah, yeah. We’re dropping off Armin first, right?”

“Yes, please,” he says, having calmed down now.

“Will you tell me what’s going on?”

He smiles timidly. “I’m sorry, but I can’t.”

✰

In the end, you never did get to learn what was so funny.

After dropping everyone off, you and Hange went back to your apartment for a nap before going out for dinner. You spent the weekend doing the paperwork you missed on Friday, and the following workweek is still busy.

Obviously less-so than in the last couple of months, but it’s still a lot.

Your only reprieve from the high-speed is on Wednesday when you take the hour-long drive over to a luxury tea store to get Levi’s blend for the week. You already know he likes it anyway, so there won’t be any wasted effort.

You figured that him walking you back to your car after graduation was worth the little extra bit of thought, so when you get on the bus on the 16th of June, you hand him the canister proudly.

“Thank you, but I’ve already tried this.”

“I know,” you smile fondly, taking the seat next to him. “It’s been a while, though, and I never got an actual ranking for it.”

He tilts the ever-familiar canister and glances at the labels before putting it in the front zip of his backpack. “You could’ve just asked. It’s a 10.”

Your eyes light up. “Really?”

He looks away and out the window, towards the new foliage that lines the route for bus 143. “This and that first earl grey blend you gave me are the only 10s.”

You smile fondly at him, letting the warmth from your heart reach your face.

If you did like him, you imagine that you’d lean over and give him a kiss on the cheek.

Thank goodness you don’t, because just the thought of that ever happening would’ve sent you into a coma.

“I’m glad you like them.”

He nods, bringing up his hand to clear his throat. “So, how was your week?”

You settle further into your seat and join him in looking out to the passing landscape before answering. You retell the events to him, again omitting your aversion to Erwin.

When you mention that you had to make the drive to get the same brand of dandelion root tea from when you first met, he taps his shoulder against yours in silent thanks, and you’re glad he does that instead of scolding you for the extra sentiment.

He answers the question when you bounce it back to him, and before you know it, you have to wave him goodbye when the bus reaches Rose.

Even when you get off the bus two stops later, there’s still a stupid smile that won’t leave your face.

After setting down your briefcase at your dining table, you feel a buzz in your pocket, so you pull your phone out and check the caller ID before swiping to answer.

“Hey Isabel, what’s up?”

“Hi Astraea!” She greets. “Are you busy tomorrow, by any chance?”

“No, I don’t think so.”

“This is kind of embarrassing, but do you think you could come over and help me with my makeup? I’m going out with some friends to celebrate the end of the semester, and I think the way you do yours is super cute, so I wanted to ask.”

You smile, humming happily. The last time you got ready with someone was on Valentine’s Day when Mikasa came over, which was quite some time ago, but it was really fun, all things considered.

“Of course I can! What time do you need me over?”

“We meet up at 7, how long do you think it’d take?”

“Only an hour or so, but we’ll say two so you aren’t late,” you tell her. “Does 5 work?”

“Yup!” She beams. “Thank you so much! Really, I appreciate you.”

“Don’t worry about it at all, I’m happy to help,” you wave her off. “Do you already have makeup, or did you want me to bring some of mine?”

“I have some, but I, uh, don’t really know how to use it.”

You hum to yourself. “That’s alright, we can figure it out.

“Thank you! You’re a lifesaver!”

You shake your head fondly. “You’re welcome, Isabel. See you tomorrow, then?”

“See you soon! Bye-bye!”

“Wait!”

“Yes?”

“Do you think that L—”

Catching yourself, you bite at the inside of your cheek.

Fuck, were you just about to ask if Levi was going to be home?

“Are you good?”

You fiddle with the collar of your shirt. “Yeah, nevermind. I’ll see you later.”

“...Alright!”

You hang up, and you pat your cheeks with the palms of your hands.

What the hell is happening to you?

✰

The next day, you find yourself at Isabel’s front door, purse slung over your shoulder.

Your little slip-up yesterday didn’t bother you for much longer after it happened, having thrown yourself into the particularly taxing process of making cheese danishes to bring over for the house.

You’ll ignore the fact that you feel a bit disappointed when you don’t see Levi’s car parked in their driveway.

When you ring the doorbell, Isabel welcomes you in immediately, giving you a quick hug.

“Hi! Come in, come in!” Isabel ushers.

You take off your shoes while she closes the door behind you. You lift the bag you brought with you. “I brought snacks.”

She lights up and gives you another hug, rocking you back and forth. “Thank you, you didn’t have to!”

She takes them from you and drops them off in the fridge before leading you to her bedroom, which conveniently has a bathroom attached to it, and you go to wash your hands while Isabel looks for something.

When you come back, she’s still looking, but she tips her head towards her bed. “We can sit there!”

“Are you sure? I wouldn’t want to get it dirty.”

She waves you off. “It’s okay, I’m doing laundry later.”

You nod and sit down, getting your makeup bag out of your purse after you’ve found a comfortable position for yourself.

Isabel brings over her backpack, and she puts it on her lap as she goes through with looking for her makeup bag. You recognize it instantly—the bird keychain that hangs off the front pocket.

“Is that the same keychain Levi has?”

She pauses to glance at it before nodding. “I got matching ones for us and Furlan when I was in high school. Cute, huh?”

You think back to when you first “met” Levi and thought the keychain was part of a matching set and smile fondly. You guess, in at least the literal sense of the word, you were right in that assumption.

“Yeah, it’s cute,” you muse.

Isabel finds her makeup bag after a few more moments of searching, and she unzips it proudly. “Alright! What do you need first?”

“Primer, if you have it.”

She pulls out a small tube and brush and holds it out to you. “Does this work?”

You nod and take it from her. “Yeah.”

She smiles and reorients herself so that her face is in better view for you to work with. You’re quick with applying it on her skin, and you twist the lid back on.

“Foundation?”

She hands you a small cushion foundation, and you open the little compartment, bringing up the cushion pad to start applying the product on her face.

“Is it okay if I talk, or does my mouth need to stay shut for this to work?”

You hum, brushing away the hair that’s blocking her face. “It’s okay, just don’t move too much.”

“Yes, ma’am!” She beams. “So, how are you?”

“I’m alright, I don’t have much going on,” you answer. “You?”

“I’m great! I'm just ready to be done with undergrad,” she gushes. “I wish I could invite you, but the stupid school won’t give me more tickets.”

You shake your head, putting the cushion back into its container. “Don’t worry about it, I’ll still be sure to get you a present. Concealer?”

She hands you a small tube and a brush, and you take them before getting to work applying that.

“You don’t have to get me anything!” She whines.

“Of course I do, graduating is a huge milestone,” you gently scold.

“Is it really?” She asks. “I mean, of course it is. I don’t know, maybe it doesn’t feel like it because I took two extra years to get my degree.”

“You did?” Come to think of it, you don’t even know how old she is, but you always figured she was just a couple years younger than you.

She nods. “I could only handle studying part time in the beginning.”

You hum absentmindedly as you apply the product under her eyes. “That doesn’t make it any less of an achievement. You should still be proud of yourself.”

“I am, but it sometimes feels like other people aren’t.”

“Then fuck them, who are they to make you think that way?”

Her smile comes back to her face, and she nods. “Yeah, I guess so. Still, I wish you could come. Levi’s gonna be so grumpy during the ceremony, and having you there would at least buffer that.”

“You think so?”

She nods when you pull away. “Yeah! He’s always in a better mood when you’re around. He likes you a lot.”

Ah, there it is again—that feeling.

“W-well, that’s good to hear,” you stutter out, twisting the cap back onto the concealer. “What color do you want your makeup to be?”

She rubs the back of her neck nervously. “I have no idea, what do you think would look nice?”

You lean back to get a better look at her face. “I think purple would look cute on you, would you be okay with that?”

“Yeah! I don’t have any purple makeup, though.”

You smile, already reaching into your bag. “It’s okay, I brought some.”

She’s quiet for the rest of the time that you do her makeup, probably just relaxing while you lightly apply the products on her skin.

You start putting away all your products, and she opens her eyes when she realizes you’re doing that.

“Are you done?”

“Almost. Do you have any setting spray?”

“What’s that?” She asks sheepishly. “Sorry.”

You wave her off with a smile. “No need to be sorry. You just use it to make sure your makeup stays in place. I brought some with me.”

“Oh, that sounds like it’s useful.”

You go through your makeup bag again to look for it, and then you remember that you put it in your glovebox earlier because it didn’t fit. “I left it in my car, I’ll go get it,” you tell her, stretching before you get up and off the bed. "Want to come with?"

“I can wait!” She hums.

You navigate yourself through the house and to the front door to get your shoes on, and you unlock your car to get the small bottle.

“Astraea? What’re you doing here?”

Turning around to the voice, you see Levi, his arms full with groceries.

“Oh, hi Levi!” You greet. “Isabel asked me to come over and help with her makeup.”

He tips his head towards your car. “Are you leaving?”

“What, that excited to get rid of me?” You tease. “Not yet, I was just getting something from my car.”

“I see.”

You put the small bottle into your pocket and lock your car, and you open the door to the house for Levi.

“Welcome home!” Isabel greets him, taking a bag of groceries and helping him get them in the kitchen.

You try to do the same, but they both give unrelenting protest to the gesture, citing the fact that you’re a guest in their house.

You watch from the countertop while they get the haul into the fridge, humming to yourself as you wait. Your eyes drift to look at the area where Levi keeps his tea, neatly lined up against the wall, where you notice that there’s two canisters of the dandelion root tea.

That’s weird.

If he liked it enough to consider it a 10, then why didn’t he finish the first one you got him?

Maybe he liked it so much that he wanted to save it for special occasions?

Actually, he said he didn’t have anything that wasn’t caffeine-free in the last couple of times you’ve come over, so maybe he just held onto the container so he wouldn’t forget what brand it was?

Who knows?

Isabel waves her hand out in front of you, effectively snapping you out of your thoughts.

“Hello?”

You blink. “Hi, sorry.”

“No problem! Do you have the spray thingy?”

You nod, reaching into your pocket for it. “Yes, yes, it’s right here.”

“Do you need a brush or anything?”

“Nah, just close your eyes.”

She gives you a cheerful thumbs-up and does exactly that. “Yes, ma’am!”

You pop the cap off. “It might feel a bit cold,” you warn her.

You push down on the nozzle, spritzing a small mist onto her face, and you watch as she reflexively cringes.

“Okay, you’re all done,” you tell her, putting the cap back on. “You can go look now.”

“I’m on it!” She beams, and then rushes off to her bathroom.

Levi comes up next to you and leans back on the countertop space. “She looks happy.”

You smile affectionately in the direction she bolted off to. “Yeah." Looking back over at where the teas are, you ask. "How come you still have the other canister of dandelion? I thought you'd have finished it by now."

He follows your gaze, and he looks like a deer caught in headlights.

Before he can answer, Isabel comes back to the kitchen, practically bouncing off the walls, and she rushes over to hug you. You’re a bit knocked off balance, but Levi steadies you before you can fall.

“Thank you, thank you, thank you! I look so cute!”

You hug her back and smile, patting her hair. “You already look cute, but you’re welcome.”

She pulls away to get a look at your face before hugging you again, somehow even tighter this time. 

“Can you teach me how to do it next time?”

You chuckle, trying to reorient yourself so that you can breathe a bit easier. “Of course.”

“Isabel, you’re holding on too tight,” Levi scolds.

“Sorry, sorry,” Isabel sighs happily before letting you go. Levi rolls his eyes, and Isabel skips over to the fridge.

“Do you want one, Levi?” She asks.

“One what?”

You nervously laugh and tap your cheek with your pointer finger. “I brought sweets.”

“Of course you did,” he shakes his head. “Yeah, I’ll have one.”

Levi gets up from the counter to go to get plates for the three of you, and soon, the three of you are eating quietly. Isabel’s extra careful not to smudge her lipstick so she doesn’t scarf it down as fast as she probably would’ve otherwise, but you can tell she still likes it.

Levi banishes you from washing the dishes once again, and you and Isabel go back to her room to pick out an outfit for her. She eventually settles on a cute purple dress to match her makeup, and you wait patiently on her bed as she goes to get changed in her bathroom. The door is thin enough for you to hold a conversation, though, so that’s no issue.

When she comes out, she’s practically light itself. Her smile seems brighter than you’ve ever seen it before, and she spins around in front of the full-length mirror that’s next to the door.

She thanks you again for helping her get ready, and you tell her again that it’s no problem, and that you look forward to when you can come back and teach her how to do her makeup for herself.

When you and her come back to the shared living space, you find Levi at the couch, scrolling on his phone.

“Don’t I look super cool, Levi?” Isabel asks.

He looks up from his phone. “You look like shit.”

She sticks out her tongue at him, but she smiles as she goes to put on her shoes. “You’re just jealous because Astraea spent more time with me today.”

You giggle from behind your hand as you watch their interaction, and Levi just sighs before going back on his phone.

Isabel’s friends come to pick her up shortly after, and she thanks you yet again before she leaves. You yawn and stretch before going over to get your things from Isabel’s room before you leave.

After you put on your shoes, Levi gets up and opens the door for you.

For whatever reason, you don’t want to yet, even though you know you should.

“Thank you for coming over to help her,” says Levi. "She really does look happy."

“It was a lot of fun, I’m glad to help,” you tell him in earnest. “It’s nice to see you, too.”

“I live here,” he says straight-faced.

You chuckle, shaking your head. “Yeah, I know that much.”

“Are you going to her graduation?”

“No, she said she doesn’t have any extra tickets,” you answer. “It’s okay, I’ll still get her a present.”

Levi looks down at the welcome mat you’re standing on, and he clears his throat after a short pause.

“Would you want to come with me to help get her something? I’m not the greatest with gifts.”

Your heart feels like it stops for just a second before it suddenly fills with that now-too-familiar feeling, forcing a shy smile onto your face.

If you liked him, you would've thought it was sweet that he wanted your help with something like that.

Scratch that, you do think it's sweet. That has nothing to do with whether or not you like him.

Now that you think about it, it seems like everything he does is sweet. Maybe not obviously so, but the care he puts behind everything is so endearing.

How ironic that he's the one everyone knows as bitter.

“Yeah, I’d love to.”

"Alright." He looks past you and at your car. "Get home safe, okay?"

"I will," you promise. "You too."

He sighs before shooing you back to your car, and you wave from him through the window before you pull out their driveway.

On your drive back home, you realize your forgot to ask him about what the deal was with the two dandelion canisters still left on his counter.

Oh well, you could just ask next Friday.

✰

Just as you’re packing up, someone knocks on your office door.

“It’s open!”

The door cracks open to reveal Petra, Oluo right behind her. “Erwin told me to come get you.”

You smile bitterly. “Alright, I’ll stop by his office before I leave.”

Petra seems to sense your apprehension well enough and offers you a comforting smile. “It can’t be that bad, right? It’s probably about the party.”

“Right, the party.”

To be honest, you haven’t put much thought towards it lately. Between now and Mikasa, Eren, and Armin’s party, Erwin hasn’t really talked to you about it.

He asks for your opinion every now and again, but there’s no further discussion of what to do or what’s going on. You doubt that him asking if you like one color theme over another is productive in any sort of way, but maybe he’s just that inept at choosing decorations.

You lock up for the day, making sure that you have everything you need for the evening in your briefcase, and start heading over to Erwin’s office. The door is already open, so you go inside and sit down.

Unsurprisingly, it looks quite empty. The only remnant of his presence in the space is the jar of paper stars he’s collected from you over the years. Everything else is what came with the office.

Erwin comes in shortly after you’ve settled in, and he sits at his chair across from where you are. “Thanks for coming in.”

“No problem. Was there something you needed?”

“Do you know what day it is?”

“It’s Wednesday.”

He chuckles. “Sorry, I meant in the calendar year.”

“June 21st,” you tell him. “I’m sorry, how is this important? Surely you didn’t tell me to stop by just to ask me for the date.”

“You’d be correct in that assumption,” he says. He then puts his briefcase on the table, and from it, he pulls out an envelope to slide across the table to you. “I wanted to give you this.”

You take the envelope cautiously. “What is it?”

“See for yourself.”

You shake the contents over to one side of the envelope to avoid damaging it, and you tear on the seam. You pull out a folded piece of paper, and after you unfold it, you see, at the very top in bold letters, Payment Confirmation.

Skimming through the text, you freeze when you see the words Paradis Law Finance Office.

“Erwin, what did you do?”

“I said I’d make it up to you, didn’t I?” You look up to see him smiling softly at you. “It’s not the trillion dollar bonus you asked for, but—”

“Is this a prank? You’re fucking pranking me.”

He laughs. “I assure you I am not.”

“I don’t even know what to say. I know you feel bad, Erwin, but you didn’t have to do this to get me to forgive you. We’re friends, I would’ve forgiven you eventually.”

“What can I do about it now? Ask them for the money back?” He jokes. “I’ve been trying to get the firm to pay it off for a while now, but I figured it was about time I just did it myself.”

“So you paid off… all of it?”

“Part of it. Nile actually offered to help me with some of it, and I took care of the rest.”

You raise a brow. “Nile offered?”

“Why wouldn’t he? You’re his star employee."

You bite back a frown. “Wouldn't that be you? Besides, I’ve only spoken to him maybe 10 times in my entire time working here.”

“Well, I suppose us being friends helps, but no.” He smiles while shaking his head. “He isn’t ignorant to what goes on in the office, he knows you’re good at your job.”

“Right.”

There’s an awkward silence where you both wait for the other to speak, but you don’t want to be here any longer than you have to.

“Well, thank you for this,” you tell him earnestly, raising the form. “Send Nile my thanks as well.”

“He’ll be at the party on Saturday, you can give him your thanks there. That is, if you’re coming?”

“I wasn’t aware it was an optional event.”

“Well, I do hope you come,” Erwin confesses. “Would be a shame if a party you helped organize didn’t have you in attendance.”

You wince. “About that, I really haven’t been as involved in the planning. Sorry.”

“Oh, it’s not a problem. Your input so far has been more than enough, don’t worry about it.”

“If you say so,” you mutter. “Why did you ask me today’s date, anyway?”

He smiles at you, gesturing towards the envelope in your hands. “There’s something else in there.”

There is?

You look inside the envelope again, and inside, there’s a small slip of paper. It seems stuck in the folds of the envelope, so you have to tear a larger rip into it to get it out, but when you get it out, you’re confused.

“‘Cancellation confirmation?’ What’s this for?”

There’s no other details on the slip besides a signature you recognize as Erwin’s, so there earnestly isn’t any assumption to be made about what it’s for.

“Do you know what June 21st is?”

You shake your head. "No."

“It’s the Summer Solstice,” he tells you. “I told you I’d have your parking spot back by the end of spring, and it’s the very last day.”

“But what’s this for?” You ask, referring to the slip from the envelope.

“The firm was paying for your bus fare, so we had to cancel your card now that you’ll be parking here. There's enough left for the rest of the week, but after that, it'll be empty.”

Your bus fare card is being cancelled?

Wait, but then that means that—

“Is there a problem?”

You wave your hands out in front of you, frantic to not raise any issue. “No, no, it’s all good.”

“You’re free to go,” he tells you. “Again, I am so sorry about everything that’s happened.”

Your way down the elevator is a blur. You tell the receptionist to have a good evening, you wait at the bus stop for a couple minutes, and you sit in your usual seat after scanning your fare card.

While you watch as the cityscape pass you by, your head spins, worry coursing through your veins.

You should be happy.

Losing your parking spot was what got you here in the first place—you didn't even want to lose it in the first place. Getting it back was all that you looked forward to for a long time, and you even resented not having it when you had to deal with your whirlwind of anxiety and nerves from seeing Levi every Friday, back before you knew him as you do now.

But instead, you think you want to cry.

Losing your parking spot was what got you here. In this exact seat, instead of your older one across the aisle. Where you spent countless Fridays with Levi, talking about anything and everything to unwind after the long weeks at work. Where you take turns bumping shoulders with each other as thanks. Where you got to know each other, outside of the gaze of everyone else.

Where he first forced you to accept that box citrus blend tea—the first of many teas that would be exchanged between the two of you.

If you don't take the bus anymore, you won't be able to have that anymore—those short thirty minutes of quiet, where it seems like the world only exists to pass you by through the window.

Sure, you could keep funding the fare yourself, but after all the trouble Erwin had to go through to get the spot back for you, you'd be ungrateful not to take it.

And sure, you could still see Levi whenever you wanted. It's not like you need the bus to keep seeing him. Hange will definitely still drag you and him out to events together, and you'll still be “forced” to sit next to him.

But... that wouldn't be the same.

It's routine at this point for you to see each other every Friday. He said it himself—that he didn't want to lose this either.

God, what kind of idiot gets emotional over a fucking parking space?

When you get home, you're surprised to see a text from Levi.

You click on it immediately, and this time, you know you want to cry.

Maybe you actually will.

Levi - 6:37 PM

I'm not taking the bus on Friday, no need to wait up for me

God fucking dammit.

If you did like him, then your heart would feel heavier than the weight of the world.

And that’s exactly how it feels.

✰

Next Chapter

[ripgray-moved]

killjoy :') i truly think you deserve a world of positive energy every single day, but since the dash is full of sweet things today i figured i could throw some extra love at you.

where do i even start with you ?? we joke about having the same brain all the time, but i'm starting to think it may be true ( jeremy kyle, wya i need a dna test ?? ) LMAO. i can't claim to know exactly why we became such fast friends, but i do know that i am and will always be so glad that we did. you're a real treasure.

and don't even get me started on our boys. daryl and peter are something unlike anything else, you know ?? their relationship is so unique and special in ways that no human language can truly explain. we've said it before— it's cosmic. astronomical. i get so excited about replying to our thread every single time because the story that we're crafting together is unlike anything and i love it so much.

and that reminds me. your peter ?? wow. just WOW, killjoy. i can't even express to you how much i adore your portrayal of peter. it's so in depth, and raw, and incredible. i could read / listen to your headcanons and analyses all day long.

i'll pack it in before this gets any longer, but i just wanted you to know how much i love your presence on my dash and in my life.

love, astraea ;') <3

DID Y'ALL KNOW I FUCKING LOVE THIS MOFO?

i'm not good at receiving compliments at all. like seriously, the worst. but i'm truly oh so grateful we met. you've become such a fast friend and yet you feel so fucking normal when it comes to my daily routine, which is incredibly rare for me? ( also wrote 'faily routine' first, which yeah. yeah )

daryl and peter have truly become so special to me? like fr, one of the best ships— of any variety— i've ever had the pleasure of writing while i've been roleplaying? like i'm not exaggerating. how EASY it was to smoosh these two together and have them become a duo and build off of one another? i'm sick. sick and feeble and weepy. i hold them gently in my old woman hand. i bake them into a casserole for my neighbours. i keep them in a little terrarium, like those cool pokemon figures from rement. they literally TRANSCEND romance? friendship? HUMAN CONNECTION? like how am i ever gonna write anything again?

[nerendus]

Okay! Second part!

Storm King — That's my cat. 0/10.

Leechmonger — I should really say no.......normal people would say no......Who would ever want to fuck this thing......... 7/10.

Dirty Colossus — I'm sure deep down, he's a good guy. He's probably just an artifact of his time. But the weird fleshy diaper and fly (?) cannon, really just isn't for me. 2/10.

Maiden Astraea (and Garl Vinland) — Another one of the first characters I ever saw. I love her. She and her weird boyfriend did nothing wrong. Words cannot describe so badly how I want to be kissed by both her and her boyfriend. Filthy Woman merchant can literally just go die, I guess. 100/10.

PENETRATOR — Listen.......walking into his boss arena, seeing my best friend, the fat official, giggle and do his little gayish sway before being brutally impaled by a sword off screen was the sexiest thing to come out of this game. One of my complaints that I haven't mentioned about this remake is that it wasn't as.....weirdly sexual, like the other games, but this scene right here made it all worth it. Literally willing to risk everything just to have his arms around me. 10/10.

False King Allant — DILF! He's so attractive that I'm willing to forgive him for killing my boyfriend Ostrava. Just look at him....he owns my soul. Too bad he isn't the real thing. 9/10.

King Allant — Okay......here me out......I don't know how to make my case but.......... 10/10.

Dateability/Fuckability of every Demon's Souls boss.

Because I have refined tastes, of course, and I am so bored that I have to be doing something.

Phalanx — Literally look at these guys. The sludge polycule is so guarded and paranoid, that they are all shielded and wielding spears to attack anyone coming close to trying to join them. And whilst this will contradict with what I have to say about a certain boss later on, I personally do not find sludge monsters attractive. 3/10.

Tower Knight — Okay, I like big enemies. They usually are very attractive, but I gotta be honest. The man's a little too big for my tastes. If I was 8'10, I would reconsider, but as a measly 5'3 lass, I would not be able to handle the overwhelming stress of going out on a stroll with him in public and everyone pointing and laughing at how short I am. 5/10.

Armor Spider — She is very beautiful, but insectoids usually aren't my thing (Garden of Eyes being the main exception). She's also constantly vomiting flammable blood everywhere, and that's a bit of a turnoff. However, her boss fight has a fun rhythm to it, so if she ever wants to go out dancing, I'm free Friday. 4/10.

Flamelurker — Listen, this guy is attractive. He has this weird, awesome vest jacket that's probably his rock flesh. But fuck him. Playing a melee playthrough and not having magic makes his fight so fucking miserable. At least I read on the wiki to go grab some sticky white stuff to make it not so bad. 2/10.

DRAGON GOD — HIIIIIIIIIIIMMMM!!! He's so strong, and beautiful, and muscular, and has so many eyes. He kept fisting me through the fight which just makes me love him more. I have normal thoughts and feelings about dragons. 100/10.

Fool's Idol — She is one of the first characters I ever saw related to this game, and I just instantly fell in love with her. I have a sinking feeling she'd probably call me slurs, just because Latria is either very right wing or very left wing. Can't be any other way. 10/10.

Maneaters — No. 0/10.

Old Monk — This dude was so cool for the literal five seconds he was on screen. When the boss fight ended, I just kept looking up at the throne like “Okay, c'mon! Where's phase two?” Phase two never came. I never truly got to fight the King in Yellow. 5/10.

Adjudicator — This guy's just silly. Literally, what is he doing in this room. Who's the bird. Nice tongue game, though. 8/10.

Old Hero — YES. HOT MAN. TATOOES! SCARS! PIERCINGS! MUSCLES! THAT FUCKING HAIR CUT! He'd be an amazing lover, I just know it. 10/10.

Sadly, this is the end due to Tumblr's image limit, second part will be reblogged.

[equinoxiansystem]

i understand that younger people can get swept up in discourse about not wanting to step on the toes of disabled people (DID, UDD, OSDD etc systems), but back in the day in the early 90s, the people paving the way and pioneering inclusive plural safe spaces were almost entirely endo systems. every single site about multiplicity from the 90s and 2000s focused very heavily on healthy and non disordered multiplicity and how DID (known as MPD back then) was valid and also a form of multiplicity... just not the ONLY one. they also helped dispell myths about DID, and gave links to accurate information about disordered plurality as well

there were people identifying as naturally and spiritually plural way, way before DID even got the name it has now, it's such a normal phenomenon that has numerous causes. sites like kinhost.org and Astraea's Web were all about discussing plurality without mentioning disorders, without passing judgment.

even so, the spiritual and natural multiplicity communities literally helped me realize i had DID. they gave me access to information about real people with DID like Truddi Chase and The Troops, and helped me research actual medical papers and documents. though a hard read, When Rabbit Howls helped me confirm that I also have DID... and I have only ever seen this book mentioned on sites run by non disordered systems. (lots of TWs for the book BTW please ask me or research before reading.)

we work best together. all system types make a great team. let's keep working together.

[ikemen-trifecta]

Lucifer (OM) x MC Headcanons!!

* When you bring your hand up to caress his face, he’ll promptly bring it up to his lips and kiss the inside of your palm

* If he notices that you’re cold, he’ll grab you by the waist and pull you closer under his coat to warm you up! 💕Not only does he like having you so close to him- but it also gives him a sense of protectiveness!

* Will make tea and bring you snacks without you asking when you’re in the middle of working so hard! If you’re not there at the moment he comes in, for instance, in the bathroom, he’ll leave a little sticky note on the cup that says, “Good work, make sure to take breaks” (the same way you do for him when he overworks himself <3)

* He brings back gifts and souvenirs that remind him of you - as well as the things you like! He’ll remember all of the little things about you💕 Oh? You said you like fuzzy socks? He’ll buy you ones in your favorite color!! That time you told him you’re afraid of getting lost in big crowds? He’ll hold your hand and stay with you the whole time!!

* Likes to listen to music with you! He’s much more familiar with old songs, so he’ll ask you to introduce him to popular ones! He’ll share an earbud with you, too, as you sit side by side and lean your head on his shoulder

* Wraps his wings around you while hugging~ (I swear over Lord Diavolo that he gives the best hugs ever! <3)

* Teases you a lot on purpose~ he can’t help it!! He just finds your reactions and expressions to be so cute!

* HE'S LITERALLY THE TYPE TO INSIST ON BUYING YOU AN OUTFIT HE THINKS YOU LOOK PRETTY IN, NO MATTER THE PRICE TAG

* Or if something catches your eye, he’s already pulling out the black card! And you’re like, “Lucifer!! I don’t need it, it’s fine!” but he wants to spoil you~ “it caught your eye, no? You like it, I’m buying it for you.”

* Lets you sit on his lap while he’s working! If you play with his hair or touch his face at the same time, he’ll blush and question, “what are you doing?” On that same note, he really likes his hair being played with hehe

* Plays piano with you in the music room, and at the end of the song takes your hand in his above the keys and envelops your hand in his big ones~

* Thinks of seeing you as motivation for finishing work! At the end of a long day of dealing with his paperwork and looking after his brothers, he feels like all the stress leaves his body when he sees you 💓 You don’t even have to be doing the same thing~ you guys can even sit together in comfortable silence because just being near each other is enough

* Feeds you if you ask him to~ He’ll oblige to babying you and chuckle, commenting on how much of a happy fool you look like~ and really~ he loves this about you!! How you never lose sight of yourself no matter where you are! He finds that genuine aspect of you to be particularly charming 💕

* Loves dancing with you to his extensive collection of records!! Will lead you and encourage and reassure you if you have trouble! He can’t help but smile when dancing with you - he enjoys spending time with you so much!

* He likes it when he’s laying on his back, and you cuddle into his side and have his head on his chest, and his arm is around you 💕

* Uses pet names like “darling” and “my love” when it’s just the two of you and in more intimate moments!

~ Mod Astraea!! (๑>◡<๑)

[poisonouswritings]

Hey man I was wondering if you could write about the main 4 (and maybe balsam Lucan and saaros) reacting to an mc during their periods where they get a lot of mood swings? Happy, sad, hella horny, all that stuff? As explicit as you're okay with. Ty :)

I can always tell when my period is coming because a day or two before I'm filled with insurmountable rage and hatred whenever anyone speaks around me. Like it's not the actual words it's literally the sound of voices. It might also be a sensory thing idk all I know is it's a warning sign that's never failed.

AFAB GN!Reader, exaggerated mood swings because it's funnier that way, not separated by character, Colored Bullet Rule (Felix, Anisa, Sage, Rime, Saaros, Lucan, Balsam), mentions of NSFW content that I will toss below the cut, I would be more explicit but I don't wanna weird people out?? Idk maybe as I do more NSFW reqs I'll get more brave

You're not feeling great so Anisa takes you out to get ice cream and then a child bumps into you and spills your ice cream and Anisa has to hold you back before you punt the kid

Does anyone else have comfort shows/movies they watch? Let's be real we're on Tumblr y'all totally do. You're trying to explain the plot of one to Lucan and you start crying because you really wanna watch it right now but you can't because, y'know, Astraea. Lucan very quickly makes (really bad) sock puppets and gets Sage and Balsam to help him try and recreate whatever it is you want to watch. They try their best and that's what counts.

So imagine,,, Saaros knows you're on your period (you probably complained about it coming up or whatever) and they went to Azimuth to ask for some future-sight help and Az just kinda grins. Saaros is going into this blind. You spend like ten minutes super happily and excitedly babbling on about something and Saaros thinks Hey Maybe They Can Handle This!!! And you guys are talking and they say something totally innocuous. And then out of literally nowhere you're completely silent and glaring and just generally Pissed™ and they're like Oh. Okay. Uh. And then three minutes later you're hugging their arm and being really clingy and like What Do They Do About This.

You're playing with Stella and messing around as Felix does some experiments,, like you're laughing and having fun right? And then two seconds later you're sprawled out on the ground contemplating your death while Stella walks all over your back and Felix is just getting a little bit of whiplash

You and Sage are out at the bar and at first Sage attributes your mood swings to being drunk! But uh! You throw your still-full drunk at someone who was talking too loudly! And now Sage is having to diffuse a fight (which is very unfamiliar for him) while you're going all Feral Gremlin™ over there.

You and Balsam are fucking around and having a pillow fight and he hits you in the face and you start crying and he's like !!!! Oh Fuck Oh No Oh Shit Are You Okay Fuck Did He Hit You Too Hard Do You Need A Healer Fuck He's So Sorry !!!!!! And anyways it takes like twenty minutes for you to calm down enough to tell him you're fine and the entire time he's freaking out. You tearily call him an asshole and he's like 'I Know I Am I'm Sorry' ;A; someone help him

Rime is having a self-loathing day and at first you're trying to cheer him up but then you get hit by a hard bout of self-loathing and now he's trying to cheer you up and you're both just suffering while trying to help each other.

Saaros is barely speaking because they don't want to upset you but then you take their silence as them being mad at you so you start getting sad and crying and they're just like What The Fuck Do I Do About This Oh Stars Oh God and they're just panicking because Why The Fuck Didn't Azimuth Tell Them How To Handle This

It's because Azimuth thought it would be funnier and they were fuckin right

Sage thinks tickling you will make you laugh!!! Unfortunately he did it in one of your Rage Swings and you kick him in the crotch. Now he's on the floor in pain and you're half trying to help him and half snickering

Someone calls you a 'bitch on the rag' and now you're having to restrain Anisa from getting into a fight. Bonus points if she's on her period at the same time.

No that being said your period syncs up with Anisa's and you guys are just wreaking havoc e v e r y w h e r e because even though your cycles synced up your mood swings very much have not!! Rime makes a joke that makes you cry and Anisa threatens to snap his horns off. Everyone gives you two a wide berth for the next week.

Rime gets you an ice pack (or uses his ice magic) and he's rubbing your back a little because you're in pain and it's in his forgotten nature to help and,, you start crying because you're so overwhelmed with affection for him and he thinks he hurt you somehow and he's trying to figure out what happened and how he can help fix it and you're just curled into a ball and sobbing

Okay so I know I make jokes about 'calling myself out' and whatever but I have to ask, does anyone else get into like,, more intense kinks when they're on their period? Idk how else to describe it

Anyways who would have sex with you while you're on your period? I do agree we should de-stigmatize and de-gross-ify periods but I also think not everyone is gonna be down with having bloody sex. Y'know who would be tho? The Griefers. And probably also Rime.

Okay so we've canonically established that ilephtas are inhumanely warm so all of the Griefers would be like heating pads and that would be really nice :3 very warm and comfy and cuddly. and Rime is an ice pack so that would also be nice :3

That being said I don't think Anisa or Felix would ignore you or anything!

Honestly I'm not sure about Saaros,,, they kinda give me ace vibes so,,,

You're out at the bar with Sage and you guys are flirting and you start to climb onto his lap because You Don't Give A Shit and he has to stop you (and this might be one of those times you guys fuck in an alley I really don't know if either of you could make it back to Fathom sorry). That being said I also think that uh,,, listen I'm a big advocate for Cat!Sage and I think that in the days before (aka during your ovulation) he would subconsciously smell something is up with your hormones or whatever and I think he'd be extra horni during that time so like. Fun.

Lucan would be so soft cause he doesn't wanna hurt you :( and then you tell him to go harder and he's like :( Are You Sure :( and honestly you might have to top because he's just too worried about you to go harder. Also I think he just likes you on top!! Would be willing to do whatever you're in the mood for as long as it doesn't hurt you, because he's also a little worried that you're so horny you're not thinking straight and you might regret it later. That fear probably subsides the longer you're together.

Oh Balsam would have no problem going harder and getting kinky. He is like a bull seeing red (hahahaha i'm so fucking funny). I would recommend you get a safe word!! I would also recommend you have a lot of hydration on hand. But after the kinky sex, I think he'd be really sweet with aftercare!! Carries you to the shower/bath if you need it and smooches you a lot. Tells a lot of dumb jokes and shit too, because he's a nerd like that.

Rime is gonna be somewhere in the middle. He won't indulge all your requests because he knows it'll hurt you after, but he does go along with some of them. I think if you're into dirty talk or degradation he'd definitely go along with that. He just keeps it easy physically speaking. Makes you beg a lot probably. Aww little baby is so desperate huh :( better fucking prove it

What a dick

[storyofmychoices]

Carry Me?

[Troy Hassan x Astraea Callen Masterlist]

Pairing: Troy Hassan x Astraea Callen (F!MC) [Wake the Dead] Word Count: ~350 Rating: General (no warnings) Prompts: @choicesmonthlychallengejune2022

Synopsis: Troy and Astraea head back to the colony after exploring a nearby lake.

A/N: Troy & Astraea being their silly, adorkable selves aka Idiots in Love who don't know it yet. This gorgeous portrait is by the ever-talented @/artbyainna on Instagram.

The azure sky was replaced by strokes of soft oranges, pinks, and purples. A once clear day faded away. Sunset gave way to dusk's descent. 

Astraea's pace slowed with each passing step. The colony didn't seem that far away on their walk to the lake. "Why does the way back from a place always feel at least twice as long?"

"I think it has to do with the excitement of going to that place and the possibilities of the day."

"Ugh," she groaned, nudging him with her elbow. "Carry me?" 

His jovial laughter made her smile. "What a great idea!"

"Really?" Her eyes widened with the hope of some rest. 

"Sure, one of us deserves a break."

"You're the best!" She threw her arms around him. With a quick peck on the cheek, she moved behind him.

Troy quickly grabbed her wrist. In one swift motion, he spun her back around to face him.

Her brows turned down in confusion, a pout filling her lips. "But you said!"

"No, I said one of us deserves a break. I never suggested that it should be you."

Astraea scoffed in amusement. "Wait, you're serious?"

"Why shouldn't I be?" Troy smirked at the idea. "Who climbed that tree to score that delicious fruit you enjoyed ever so much?"

"For the record, I offered to climb it."

"But did you?" He stroked his beard curiously. 

"You're impossible," Astraea lamented.

"More improbable," he countered. 

"Fine."

"Wait, really? I didn't think—" 

"What, you afraid I'll drop you?" A mischievous glint sparked in her eyes.

"Are we talking on accident or on purpose?"

Astraea shrugged playfully. Her lips curled up. "Tick tock, Hassan. Now or never!"

Troy hummed dramatically in consideration. He rested the back of his hand against his forehead. His legs buckled as he pretended to be faint. "My feet are rather tired, and my legs are feeling weak suddenly."

"Imagine that!" She rolled her eyes. Her head shook to the sides. "Let's go, Princess."

"Why, thank you!" With a flick of his wrist, Troy brushed back his imaginary flowing locks fitting of a Disney princess and hopped on her back. 

Thanks for reading. It took way longer to write than I would have liked giving puppy's constant need for attention. I literally wrote a sentence here and there, but I think it all makes sense? Let's hope! Sorry for any typos! I had to proof read in sections.

Tags in a reblog, please let me know if you'd like to be added or removed. 💛

[300iqprower]

Servants with Avenger like/avenger adjacent qualities are the shit.

Assassin Kama (summer Kama doesn't count)

Ashvathama

Marie Antoinette (listennnn, the fact that she's obsessed with love to the point of near insanity needs to be studied)

Caeneus

Amakusa

Like... we need more servants written like that I'm sawri.

I could write another essay [I mean i kind of still did but i meant a literal essay] but to get to the point the reason these servants are so investing is bc the Avenger is just conceptually the best class from a narrative standpoint.

What determines your status as a heroic spirit is your actions in life, and what those actions were determines your class. This applies to extra classes as well such as Shielder, Foreigner, Alter Ego, and Pretender. Avengers are the exception to this. To a lesser extent the Ruler as well, because they're opposite sides of the same coin. Rulers are people who have no wish for the grail because they live for tradition and an ideal of perfect balance. Whether they think the status quo is that ideal balance is irrelevant; Karl and Amakusa prove this. Astraea the impartial god, Qin Shi Huang the cyborg "one true human", Jeanne the inhumanly pure Saint, Even Sherlock who is so inhuman in his rationale that we have the traitor/beast theory, all of these are examples of how the Ruler is marked by an explicit lack of humanity that directly results from them lacking the most human quality there is: Desire. The ability to want something, to strive towards something, to truly care about something for reasons beyond cold logic, is something antithetical to the class itself. It's the entire reason Sieg's existence deconstructs Jeanne's role in Apocrypha.

The Avenger is opposite that - they are pure humanity, pure desire, and whether they desire love, suffering, wealth, chaos, or anything else, they desire it for the same selfish reason: Retribution. It's in the name, avenger. One who seeks vengeance for how they were wronged, as has been detailed before. To be an avenger requires no great deed, in fact the Requiem event states that by claiming King Louis XVII would be an avenger if he was ever summoned because of how he died before achieving anything. There's this gatekeeper mentality from StayNight-only types who claim Avenger is this specific role to be played and that only Angra Mainyu is a true avenger. Those people completely miss the entire point of the class, because they're using the rules the other classes have to judge the Avenger class. The entire point is that the Avenger is unique like that. Every other class is defined by pure action, but the Avenger is defined by pure emotion. To be hateful and angry is not enough to be an avenger, nor is it enough to feel wronged. We have berserkers for the former and to give an example of the latter Vlad being a berserker rather than Avenger or Pretender has merit, even factoring in cases like how Benkei would definitely be a pretender retroactively. No, the Avenger is a class for those who are defined by how the hatred they feel towards a world that wronged them irreparably. No deed need be commemorated, only the pain they felt. And the pain they felt is something that narratively speaking is what will most resonate with us - they are characters with an inherent reason for us to care about them simply because we can imagine the pain they are required to endure just to exist.

....So yeah. There's an explicit reason Avenger and Avenger-adjacent servants are typically the best ones. To quickly go through some of the ones you mentioned though,

It pleases me greatly everyone collectively agrees "Summer Kama doesn't count"

the Wheel Monk is an avenger i dont give a fuck what the game claims.

I'm adding Foxtail Suzuka to this list btw and I fucking hate FGO not letting her have that (or anything at all for that matter)

Marie huh....boy does my friend have a story you'll one day* be interested in. Especially if you also like the idea of PHH Ivan and Avenger Morgan. Though i suppose technically it's not a fate story-

And yes we do need more. of the 17 servants in my grail war fic at least 5 of them qualify as Avenger-adjacent and that's cause they're easily the most fun to write.

[ahjustroza]

I saw a hc post abt how Last Legacy love interests react to MC actually going back to Earth,so can I ask some hcs abt this one? I'm curious of what you come up with!!

I actually made the same request to @lucigucci !!

For this ask, I had to play the entire game once again because I couldn't come up with anything. Hope you'll like it!

MC Going Back to Earth Headcanon

Warning: Sad feelings and pain...

Anisa

Before giving in to her emotions she will make sure to not miss anything important for your return to Earth

She'll check with important magical necessaries for the portal

Check if you have everything you would possibly need

If you ate well

Will check twice everything she prepared for you to take with you to remember her

She will also give you the Orlando postcard

It is important to her but also you two shared many memories together talking about Earth looking at the postcard

She knows when you visit Orlando you will remember her

After she is done with everything

The realization of you actually leaving her will hit her HARD

She knew you for only months but fell for you in a way with no return

You became her breath

The meaning, the cause she wanted to live further

The center of her life

Her priority

Her peace

Her shelter, and safe place

If only she could stay in your arms for a little longer...

If only she could find a way to see you again

The smell your scent while she buried her nose to your neck

To your hair...

She misses you always

Even for a couple of minutes without you within her eyesight makes her feel troubled

She misses you to death before even you leave her...

She will use all her strength to not cry in front of you

But the moment you hugged her and kissed her the last time she broke

She never struggled like this

Never felt hurt like this

The devs mentioned that each character will have multiple endings, so I headcanon two different happy endings in this situation

One is being Anisa letting you go while she stays in Astraea

She knows that she might not be able to fit in

You are people of two different worlds

Quite literally

And it shows

Anisa however will never love again after you

She will refuse every potential partner both in her romantic life or in her bed

She will confess her feelings for you and give you her hair ribbon as well as the most painfully mesmerizing kiss...

The other ending being Anisa leaving Astraea with you.

She is half-human and can tell people that her marks on her face are tattoos on Earth

She will see this as an opportunity to start a new life

Without the guilt of who her parents are and what they have done

Without the danger of magical monsters or assassins tracking her all around

She is smart, a quick learner, and curious about Earth

With your support, she can get used to life on Earth and get a job

I am thirsty for Anisa as a workout or martial art trainer

But I can also see her going to college and finish it quicker than expected to work in a school

Counselor Anisa

You two will travel the world together

No matter the lifestyle you live Anisa is happy

She doesn't need a lot of money

All she needs is you

Also another surprise, she doesn't miss Astraea one bit

You are what she calls home now.

Sage

I am a Sage hoe myself but I can't see him leave Astraea with you

He can't fit in to Earth

He has to be free and living on Earth means he has to follow so many rules that he struggles to understand

Also Sage will absolutely refuse to leave Tulsi behind

There are only two people he actually cares about in this world

You and Tulsi

You two are his family and home

He is a family guy

And oh my god does he want to make his family larger secretly

Sage is a character that struggles with emotional confessions

He is also a good liar

So even tho he wants a future with you

If you want children, raise your children together (adopted/surrogacy/biological/a found family...)

Finally settling down and actually live in a home

Sage will experience the feeling of home with you the first time

He never felt safer and not worried about being vulnerable to someone

Having family dinners, family meetings with auntie Tulsi...

Celebrating anniversaries

Getting yourselves in trouble and moving to a different town

Even though he would fight the gods themselves to have this future with you, he will not tell you to stay

He will not say anything at all

He'll watch you and make sure to prepare everything for your return

And to make sure of your security during the process

You will look into his eyes each passing hour, hoping him to say something

Anything

But he will not

He'll only give you his signature soft half-smile with tired eyes

He will drink the entire day before your depart

Spend the whole night with you

Watch you sleep

Memorize your face

Your body

Will listen to your breathing

He will take everything he can get to never forget you

Also, cry too

Silently

Without you noticing

Tears will fall down to the pillow one by one

He wants to scream and tell you to stay but he can't force you to do anything you don't want

Any word out of his mouth might make you change your mind and do the opposite of what you want to do

You have a family too and you have to see them

A life you have to return to...

So if you don't say that you want to stay he will stay silent forever

If you choose to leave, do give him something to remind him of you

A necklace? Your laser pointer? Your foam sword?

He will carry whatever you give him with him

Always

Until the day he dies

Let's say you gave him a necklace, anyone who knew you will feel the pain in Sage when they see him still wearing the necklace after all those years...

He will never love again. It was a one-time thing.

He will not open up to anyone

He will not let anyone see the real Sage the way you did

He might have bed partners but it is not emotional

He is in pain and will either drink or throw himself somewhere to spend the night without thinking anything

But that can only happen if he is too drunk to remember what happened the night before

If you choose to stay, he will feel relieved

Guilty too but mostly relieved

He will build the future he desires with you

But will also look for ways to make you visit Earth and come back

Felix

I don't think Felix can fit in the Earth either

He grew up as the Arcmage's son and spent all his life studying magic

He can't live in a world where magic doesn't exist

He can't live a lifestyle where he will have to learn everything anew

I just think he is too sensitive for our world.

But unlike Sage and Anisa, Felix will ask you to stay

He'll ask you to stay and live a crazy but full of love life with him

He'll promise to take care of you since he is filthy rich

Then admit his fears of losing another lover

If you decide to leave he will feel betrayed and abandoned at first

He'll cry, then disappear for a while, then appear and tell you that you gave him a lot of hope

And disappear once again

He'll get drunk and then cry loudly too...

After Rime, you taught him how to love again

You made him feel safe and supported

Accepted for who he is...

You taught him how to properly love someone

No toxicity

No lies

No rivalry

He only wants to sleep in a bed in your arms around him not wake up for years

The idea of you leaving him hurts like someone stabs a dagger into his heart

He'll start to believe that this is his cruel destiny

To be the one stays while the other leave

He wants to follow you but he knows he can't live with you on Earth

He couldn't even fit in his own house yet...

Once he cooled down he'll admit how important your life back at home to you

And how it is his fault to steal that life away from you by bringing you to Astraea

He will open the portal for you himself

He is not trusting anyone else for this work

Before you leave he will tell you that he loves you and promise to never forget you

Here comes the pain

But he might fall in love again after you

You will always have a different place in his heart and in his memories though!

Felix did try to bring someone he fell for back from death then fall in love with someone else

I just think he will be more flexible with what life brings in front of him

And get even more depressed with time...

If you accept his offer and choose to stay his eyes will see nothing but you from that day and forward

You are officially his spouse now, no ceremony necessary

You will go on the vacation you both need and deserve then get a house to live together

You two will be the scary power couple

People will talk about you two as "the small necromancer and his spouse- yes the spouse. They are the one that fought the Lord of Shadows and the undead Rime. I also heard they got a relic the moment they stepped on Astraea- I KNOW it is crazy..."

Felix will share everything he owns with you, even his thoughts

He is so open to you that he knows you understand him the best