#ashoka who can read emotions like are you kidding me

[mabsart]

[Star Wars Rebels: Kalluzeb]

Kallus’ Reason for Defecting

[seamstressthepainteater]

I don’t think I really like how The Mandalorian has been MCUified if that makes sense

Like the first season was it’s own thing, Mando went to different places across the galaxy trying to hide some kid he found from remnants of the fallen empire, it was largely its own thing and helped make the Star Wars galaxy seem bigger for me. It also had its own characters that managed to be memorable and interesting. It was a unique take on Star Wars I wanted to see more of.

Then season 2 comes out, and it’s a bit larger scale wise. Mando’s gotta find another Jedi to fulfill his kid’s destiny, which brings him back to going around the galaxy finding leads on one of these Jedi folks. There are a lot of returning characters in this season; most of the surviving season one character show up for at least an episode, Mayfeld gets some damn good characterization as a former imperial after being a one-note asshole in season 1, Ashoka gets an episode to learn more about Grogu and set up her own show, Boba Fett is a looming presence until he actually shows up and fucks shit up, Bo Katan returns with her besties, and even Luke Skywalker is in this bitch. Now I don’t like cameos just for the sake of having them, but the legacy characters at least either have good reason or are done well. Ashoka needs setup for a show, Fett is finally given the chance to be cool as shit, and Bo Katan going from ruler of Mandalore in Rebels to just another pirate gives context to why Gus Fring has the Darksaber (Luke’s just kinda there to be there though). I wouldn’t like to need to watch Clone Wars and Rebels to know what the hell Ashoka, Bo Katan, or the Darksaber are if I didn’t already, but I feel they’re given just enough explanation to make sense without it. And all of it was tied up in an emotional ending with Mando and Grogu that payed off everything set up throughout the season and made the entire thing feel grounded. It was probably the best ending the show could’ve had. This was the last time I would feel this way.

When Book Of Boba Fett was announced at the end of Mando season 2, I was exited. I loved how Boba Fett was handled in Mando and hoped that the show would flesh him out better. It was then that the rug was pulled from under my feet. Like Fredrick Fitzgerald Fazbear coming down upon a poor night guard in the dead of night, I was jumped with the truth of this show. This wasn’t a show about Boba Fett. This was just a season of Mando they shoved Boba Fett on for more runtime.

Theatrics aside, BOBF was just really disappointing to me. The Boba Fett stuff was kinda garbage, they perfected his character in Mando as a brutal goddamn terminator man, then they went back and went “he doesn’t want to be a bounty hunter, he just wants to live peacefully as a crime boss or something” which felt really weird to me. The Flashbacks were also so fucking boring, they could’ve been shorted down to one episode and given more time to Boba. I praised Mando season 2 for both giving legacy characters purpose and explanation so you didn’t need to know what their deal was. But you see, I’m pretty sure Cathleen Kennedy read my complement on that, realized she fucked up by making a story that can stand on its own, used her fucking Disney witch magic to go back in time, and had the guy who worked on the writing for those episodes shot at point blank range because holy shit they fucking shattered the ball with Cad Bane.

The show makes a point of saying that Cad Bane and Boba had a history, and this confused me. They never specified what exactly this history was, so I looked through everything I could get my grubby mits on. I looked through every one of both Bane and Boba’s appearances in Clone Wars, checked comics with Bane, looked through all of the officially released media I thought could be a lead. Then I noticed something about Bane in BOBF, he had a metal plate on his head. This wasn’t much, but I thought it was something, so I went through his animated appearances one more time and noticed he had the same plate in The Bad Batch. This just made me more confused, so I checked around and found it. The “history” the show was referring too. See when they brought back Clone Wars for season 7 they took unfinished arcs and gave them new life, but some were left on the cutting room floor. I said “couldn’t find any officially released material” because what they were alluding too was an unfinished episode, you can even see the part where Bane gets shot in the head. The crux of Bane and Boba’s unfinished business was an unfinished episode that wasn’t even considered canon at that point.

This was my Joker arc.

This show was so lazy, so uncaring about making the story seem complete without supplementary material, that the only thing they did to give the main villain a connection with the hero was a vague allusion to an event that wasn’t even officially released. Could they not have cut some of the boring-ass shit in the desert to flesh out this relationship? Was it too much to ask for this show to get even close to how Mando used it’s legacy characters? Was it too much to ask for competence?

Besides that, I thought that it kinda fucked up the great ending I thought Mando season 2 had. I knew they weren’t gonna be separated for that long, but I would’ve liked them to be apart a bit longer, or have them reunite in their own show. Feel the same way about Mando’s new starfighter, I think it would’ve been less alienating to have him get that in the beginning of season 3

Speaking of season 3, it’s also kinda disappointing. I think the shift from Mando to Bo Katan was disappointing, it’s like what happened to Boba Fett with Mando ironically enough, but it’s still disappointing that in a world where it seems like almost every character is slated for their own show, Bo was shoved into Mando. I also think Gus Fring seems less intimidating, I feel him being a part of this “Shadow Empire” is less threatening than a warlord trying to bring about his own empire. It also has the same problem as BOBF where you need to know stuff beforehand. I don’t think they ever explicitly state Gideon carpet bombed Mandalore, they just kinda said it was cursed. I know it was mentioned in BOBF, but again I shouldn’t need to watch another show to understand what’s going on in this one. I’m not gonna go too long with this one since it’s not over yet, but I’m not sure it’ll fix my problems with this season.

Anyway my biggest takeaway from this is that I hate Book of Boba Fett way more than I first thought.

[rourhksapocolypse]

So, the other day I mentioned to my brother (who is in leave, atm) @deadcatwithaflamethrower 's post about Ashoka being potentially anti semitic, and he just looked at me and asked, "So?"

This may seem insensitive. But it's actually profound.

When I was a kid, this kind of thing was silly. It was stupid. Why should I care that Brad Pitt broke off a "stable?" marriage because of Mr & Mrs Smith? Should I stop enjoying a dumb action movie because a marriage stopped?

A week ago or so, Mom made a fuss about me only wearing an undershirt at work, when that keeps my top shirts clean (and her making a fuss meant one of my only pure white shirts got permanently messy).

Why? Because it is unprofessional, and because, apparently, my corner of Colorado only associates undershirts as wife beaters and "Gay People Clothing". Because Queen wore undershirts without a top shirt.

Am I supposed to be offended by that? Am I supposed to change my ways so they don't think I'm gay? When I'm autistic, probably FIM Asexual, and leaving a social life or friends that aren't family because I drive people away by accident?

...

These thoughts come because of one simple question. "Have I become too 'Woke'?"

The answer, obviously, is yes. Because, as Mom put it, I had three mothers growing up, and only one of those wasn't a sibling. Because everyone, at all times, corrected me to what they thought was right, leaving me unable to form my own opinion, however well meant those controlling tendencies were.

Now, for those offended, those genuinely hurt, I'm gonna quote Xomniac in This Bites! here:

"I can't speak for you. I don't know what You've been through. I don't know your pain, your hardships. I can support you, but to keep the cycle of hatred from flourishing, I can't speak for you. You have to speak up and take action yourselves."

Is Disney hating on Jews with casting a traditionally "Jewish" actor as a greedy Imperial? Or are they just playing on public perception and image, using what's already there to convey the message?

Or is it even purposeful? Because I've hurt a lot of people with word choice and action that I didn't consider would hurt them. And all I can do is look for brightness in these dark times.

As I wrote this I remembered something else from the radio, K-LOVE, specifically. A guy who reads Bible passages and adds context in his little segment, Ruis Balau, once mentioned that he was having dinner conversation with his family and his daughter asked why he was focusing so much on the bad that he wasn't talking about the good in the world anymore.

Because, that was one of his jobs, as a Christian. Or, part of what he's supposed to do, same as me. To acknowledge the bad, yes, but to shed light onto the world with kindness and caring.

Am I falling into the same cycle of focusing on the bad and forgetting about the good?

Are we?

As the American people, are we forgetting the good in the world, and thus only spreading more of the bad?

Are we nitpicking enough, that we forget to appreciate what we have?

I needed to get this out of my head, so I leave my questions here, unanswered.

Goodnight, and get home safe. Hug your families and loved ones, if you have any left. Send love and support, monetary or emotional, to all those who need it in your lives.

Maybe that's me (and yeah, probably).

Maybe that's Flamethrower, who lost one of the last people who cared about her growing up and fears for her children, struggling with politics and money troubles.

Maybe it's someone I know nothing of and whose existence is meaningless to me, but everything to you, dear reader.

I don't know, but love them like a dog to his/her "Best Friend in the Whole Wide World" (tm).

[castiel-kline]

once upon a birthday

Birthdays haven’t always been Jack’s friend, but he’s starting to realize that every May 18th he reaches is a miracle rather than a tragedy.

May 18, 2017.

Jack saw that combination of letters and numbers everywhere on his first day of life. He saw it on the corner of the newspaper on Sheriff Barker’s desk, watched her scribble it on a page of notes she was writing up about him, saw it light up on Clark’s phone when he opened it to show Jack something “cool.” 

It would be a while before he realized that date’s significance.

-

May 18, 2018

Jack was seated around a campfire with the other kids of the rebel camp, staving off their fear of the incoming dark by telling them a story. It was just the plot of Clone Wars, but since it didn’t exist in this universe no one called him out on it. 

Bobby’s voice carried over the sounds of the camp settling down for the night, low but still decipherable. 

“...our supply’ll run out by the 25th. We have to keep moving, get some more.”

Jack never did learn what they were about to run out of, because Mary’s response snared his attention even tighter.

“Remind me what day it is now? I lost track while I was… you know.”

“Right, I get it. It’s May 20th.”

And Jack stopped short in his tale, the realization that he’d been alive more than a year hitting him like a blast from one of Michael’s soldiers. The little girl next to him nudged his elbow and asked if he was okay.

“I’m fine,” he said, smiling gently. “It’s just that my birthday was two days ago. I only realized now.”

“Oh, I’m sorry. We could sing to you now?” All the children nodded their agreement, but Jack shook his head.

“Thanks, but it’s okay. Besides, I need to finish telling you about Ashoka’s rescue mission, right?” They leaned in closer around the fire, and Jack went back to his narrator voice. “Now, she knew it would be a dangerous journey, but…”

That night when Jack was trying to sleep (Mary made him promise to attempt four hours, even though he didn’t really need it) he wondered if birthday celebrations lived up to their reputation. He wondered if his was ever going to be worth celebrating, given all the pain and death that day had brought.

With the new knowledge that he was a year old, Jack dreamed of his mother- wafting through hazy gold memories of a furniture warehouse, Castiel beside her, in the days before Jack was capable of hurting anyone because he couldn’t control his powers. In the days when he still felt safe.

-

May 18, 2019

“How’s it goin’, kiddo? Enjoying the quiet?”

Jack whirled around to face the Empty head on, unwilling to show just how much its appearance had startled him. It didn’t bother him much, per Billie’s instructions, but sometimes it liked to taunt him. Usually it appeared as his mother, sometimes Cas, but today it looked just like him.

“What do you want?” Jack asked, lifting his chin. His doppleganger mirrored the action, before smirking and sauntering closer.

“Oh, calm down. I don’t bite, I’m just delivering a message.”

“A message from who?”

Billie would just deliver a message in person, and no one else could contact him in here. Maybe Cas could-

“Hmm, I don’t know,” it interrupted Jack’s thoughts. “Time? The Universe? Anyway. Happy birthday, sport. Enjoy the official start of your terrible twos.”

With that the Shadow vanished, leaving Jack alone in the dark once again. He sat down and curled his knees to his chest, wishing there was a corner or a wall he could press his back against. He felt exposed and vulnerable in the vastness of the Empty’s nothing, and it was making him uneasy.

He closed his eyes and tried to imagine what his family was up to down on earth. Would they be sad? Too busy fighting Chuck to notice? Were they even alive?

He wished with all his might that they weren’t alone. Alone wasn’t what you should be on somebody’s birthday.

-

May 18, 2020

As endings went, Jack’s was shaping up to be okay. He’d finally had a good birthday- even if it was both impromptu and a few days early. He laid in bed, belly full of his first ever birthday cake, for once not thinking about his upcoming demise.

A soft knock on the door sounded, and Jack sat up in surprise. A glance at his phone confirmed that it was nearing four in the morning, which only thickened his confusion.

“Come in?”

When Cas pushed open the door, Jack smiled.

“You’re back!” he exclaimed, pushing off the blanket and swinging his legs over the side of the bed.

Cas pushed the door to a close behind him and shuffled further into the room. “Sorry, I know it’s late, but I had a feeling you’d still be awake.”

“Is everything okay? Nothing went wrong with talking to the angels, did it?”

“Don’t worry, everything’s fine,” Cas assured him. “The angels are going to keep an eye out for Amara, but that’s not why I wanted to talk to you.”

Jack frowned. Then why…?

“Happy birthday,” Cas said, pulling a gift bag out from behind his back. “I know it’s early, but I heard you celebrated while I was gone. So I picked something up on the way home.”

“Thank you,” Jack breathed, taking the gift and settling it on his lap. His first birthday gift.

Cas took a seat next to him, giving Jack’s arm a gentle nudge.

“You can open it now, if you’d like.”

Jack didn’t need to be told twice. He tore into the tissue paper, eagerly unveiling the surprise it hid from view. At the bottom of the bag was a teddy bear, clad in overalls that smushed down its soft brown fur.

“Your mother always wanted to buy one for you,” explained Castiel. “We placed the order, but it didn’t arrive before…”

“Before.” Jack sighed, throat suddenly tight with emotion.

“If you don’t like it I can take it back-”

“No, Cas, it’s great. I love it. Does it have a name?”

The question didn’t faze Cas in the slightest.

“Well, the official name according to the store is Marvelous Marvin. But I believe it’s customary to name a stuffed animal anything you’d like.”

Hmm. Jack studied the bear’s face for a moment, tilting his head. “Marvin’s good,” he declared. “I like it.”

“I’m glad.” Cas smiled, then stood up. “You should get some rest.”

“Wait!” He hadn’t meant to say anything, but as soon as the word was out he realized he really, really, didn’t want this day to end. “I saved a piece of cake for you. And I’m not tired, so…”

It only took about ten seconds before Cas gave in with a fond shake of his head.

“Okay. Let’s go.”

Jack followed him to the kitchen, Marvin under one arm.

His third birthday, and his first good birthday.

What would almost certainly be his last birthday.

-

May 18, 2021

There were many things in life Jack had learned to think of as little miracles. Some seemed utterly insignificant, like the flowers that managed to grow between cracks in the sidewalk. Saying hello to his mother should have been just as beautiful and commonplace, but to Jack every chance was more wondrous than the sun shining through a storm.

He whispered it now, breathing another miracle into being in two precious little words.

“Hi, mom.”

Kelly looked up from what she’d been reading, face lighting up in joyous surprise. She came forward and swept him up in her arms, and Jack allowed himself a moment to be grateful. In spite of everything, the universe allowed him to have this.

“I didn’t think you’d be back yet,” she said as she pulled away, her hands clasping his. “I mean, you said you had to fix all the parallel universes, and Cas said there’s hundreds of them…”

“I’m not done yet,” he said. “Amara’s still out there, and I’ll have to go back soon, but... I really wanted to spend some time with you today.”

Kelly frowned, concern taking over her features. “Is everything okay? Do you need help, or-?”

“I’m fine,” Jack assured. “It’s -on earth, anyway- it’s May 18th. 2021.”

Realization struck. “It’s your birthday.”

“I wasn’t sure if you’d even want to celebrate, because my being born wasn’t a good day for you, and-”

“Jack, baby.” Kelly put a hand on his cheek, swiping away the tear he hadn’t known was falling. “My death was not your fault. Okay? Of course I want to celebrate your birthday with you.”

“Really?”

“Really. We can call Cas down here, watch some movies, make a cake-”

Kelly was already moving to the kitchen, all ready to start baking.

“Mom, wait. I… I had a birthday cake once,” he told her. “And that was… special. Could we think of something else to do? Just you and me and Cas?”

“Of course, honey. It’s your day. Cookies?”

Jack nodded, and he smiled. Because in that moment it was crystal clear that each year spent growing older, especially those spent with the people that he loved most, were little miracles too.

And he had plenty more birthdays to look forward to.

[triptuckers]

Letting it all out - Din Djarin

Request: no Pairing:  Din Djarin x reader Summary:  the first time Din truly realises he has to let the kid go at some point Warnings: sad Din :(, Mando spoilers if you haven’t seen Chapters 13-16 yet Word count:  2.4K A/N: sad shit! I don’t know what came over me lol. kind of a good ending tho? at least I hope so. reader and Din are married in this one! because I love intimate moments where Din has his helmet off enjoy reading!

Din is always quiet, preferring comfortable silence over small talk. But the past few days he’s been a bit too quiet. He had been quested to deliver the kid to his kind, so a Jedi could train him. 

Of course, it was about what was best for the kid, but you could tell Din wasn’t very fond of the idea of letting the kid go. They’d been through so much together, they cared so much about each other. 

Given that you travelled with the both of them, you care about the kid as well, and you love him very much. But you just know you could never care as much about him as Din does. He’s like a father to the little creature, and you know letting him go is going to be hard for him. 

Some time ago, on a planet you’d never been before, the three of you had actually met a Jedi. You know Jedi knights are rare these days, and you thought you could deliver the kid to the Jedi and Din would have completed his quest. But the Jedi, Ashoka, had told you she couldn’t train him. She did, however, give you the name of a planet where there would be an ancient Jedi temple. She told you the kid would be able to reach out through the force, and another Jedi could come to pick him up, and train him. 

Your meeting with Ashoka had gotten you to where you are now. You’re sitting in the cockpit of the Razor Crest, the kid’s asleep, and Din’s flying the ship. You want to talk about all of it, but you know Din doesn’t. Because talking about it makes it real, and you don’t think Din is ready for that yet.

Still, you have to talk about it eventually. There was a pretty big chance you’d land on the planet with the kid, but leave without him, if a Jedi showed up. You needed to talk about what you’d do after all of it. 

‘Din?’ you say.

He’s quiet, so you continue. ‘We have to talk about what is going to happen after you’ve completed your quest.’ you say. 

You can feel the tension, and Din remains quiet. You’re giving him some time to respond but when he doesn’t, you speak up again.

‘I know it’s hard for you, and you prefer not to talk or think about it. It’s hard for me too, I also care about him. But we’ve got to talk about this. We have to decide what to do after we’ve said our goodbyes.’ you say.

You know he’s listening to you, and you know you’ve touched a nerve. His shoulders tense up and he shifts uncomfortably in his chair. You know all too well he doesn’t like any of this, neither do you, but you’ve got to keep pushing now.

‘Listen, what are we going to do when a Jedi shows up, takes the kid, and takes off? Are we going to just stand around, hoping he’ll say he made a mistake and that the kid can stay with us? We need to have a plan, we can’t just keep heading into situations like this without any plan whatsoever. I know that most of the times you just roll with it, but I need to have at least something I can hold on to.’ you say. 

When he still doesn’t respond, you sigh. You’ll try again in a few hours. For now, you get up and leave the cockpit. You make your way over to the sleeping area, where the kid is peacefully asleep in his little makeshift hammock above what Din calls a bed. 

‘I tried, kid.’ you mumble softly, fully aware of the fact he’s asleep and can’t hear you. ‘I thought enough time had passed for him to think about it, but apparently he still needs time. I just hope he has a plan, because that planet and that temple are getting closer and closer, and he needs to be ready to say goodbye. For your sake, and for his.’

Some time after you’ve fallen asleep, you wake up due to something pushing the bed down. You open your eyes and see Din sitting on the edge of it. His helmet is tilted up and he’s looking at the kid. 

You don’t know how much time has passed since you’d fallen asleep, and you don’t know if Din has already thought about everything that’s going to happen. But you decide he doesn’t need you bugging him again. Right now, he needs a warm embrace, and someone telling him everything is going to be alright. 

‘Hey.’ you say softly and you sit up, rubbing your eyes. Din turns his head so he can look at you. You smile at him and hear him sigh deeply. You’re about to say something, when you hear a sound you haven’t heard in a long time. 

It’s so soft, and if you hadn’t been sitting so close to him, and if you hadn’t known him for quite some time, you wouldn’t have noticed. Din sniffles very softly. You heart breaks at the sound of it. Maybe he did have time to think about it. 

‘Din.’ you say softly. His helmet tips down as he lowers his head. You move closer so you’re sitting right next to him. Slowly, you reach up and put your hands on the sides of his helmets, where his cheeks would be. 

‘May I?’ you say.

You would never take his helmet off without his permission. Though Din got used to you seeing his face, it could still be a very sensitive thing. You respect his choices, which is why you always ask if it’s okay for you to take off his helmet. 

Din nods and you move your hands to slowly take the helmet off. You swallow when you see his tear stained cheeks. You put the helmet next to you and let your eyes roam over his face. 

‘Oh, Din.’ you whisper. 

Besides never taking his helmet off without his permission, you also don’t touch his face without his consent. Sometimes looking at him is enough. But right now, you want nothing more than to hold him close and comfort him. 

The two of you are quiet for a while, both at loss for words. After a while, Din reaches out and takes your hands in his. He closes his eyes and raises your hands to put them on his cheeks. 

You lean in and gently press your forehead against his. Din sighs and you hear him swallow thickly. You pull back and gently tilt his head so you can look him in the eyes.

‘It’s okay, riduur.’ you say. ‘You can’t keep it all in, it’s okay, I’m here for you. Just let it all out.’

Din closes his eyes and you feel fresh tears running over your fingers. He bows his head and you guide him to lay his head on your shoulder as you remove your hands from his face and wrap your arms around him instead. He wraps his arms around your torso and you can tell he’s still holding back.

‘Don’t hold back.’ you say softly. ‘It’s just me.’

Slowly, Din starts to cry more, and his body starts to shake. You try to hold your own tears back as sobs occasionally escape Din’s mouth. He knows he can be vulnerable around you, but actually crying in your arms is something he hasn’t done before. 

You hold him while he cries, letting all of the bottled up emotions go. You’re glad he’s finally letting it all out. He has a habit of keeping everything inside him until it all comes out at once, like what’s going on now. 

Noises coming from the kid’s hammock make you look up. You see his big eyes looking down at you and Din. He looks confused and almost worried at the two of you. You smile up at him.

‘Don’t worry ad'ika, your buir is okay.’ you say softly to the kid. ‘He’ll be okay. Why don’t you go back to sleep, hm?’

The kid looks at you for a while, but he eventually eases back into his hammock and not long after it, he falls asleep. 

You can’t help but to wonder if this really is the right thing to do. Deep down you know it’s the truth, but you wonder if there’s an outcome of this in which you wouldn't separate Din and the kid. It’s hard for all of you, but you concluded a long time ago it’s for the best. And Din also has been quested, he can’t just ignore it. 

While you were briefly talking to the kid, and thinking to yourself, Din grew quiet. When you look down, you see he’s fallen asleep. Exhausted because of all of it. You sigh. It was good for him to let it all out, and now he can finally get some rest. 

Din’s quite a lot bigger than you, and especially now that he’s still wearing his armor he’s heavy. But you still manage to lay him down comfortably on the bed without waking him up. He’s earned a few hours of sleep.

You run your thumb across his cheeks, getting rid of the few tear stains that are still there. You then run a hand softly through his hair and lean down to kiss his forehead. After looking at the kid, who’s also still asleep, you leave the small sleeping area and head back to the cockpit.

It must have been hours later when you go down to check up on Din again. When you get to the little sleeping area, you find the kid happily cooing at you while Din is still asleep. You look at your husband for a while before you move to lift the kid up so you can take him back to the cockpit. 

Once you’re back in the captain’s chair of the Razor Crest, you put the kid in your lap and give him the little metal ball he likes to play with. You watch him play with it as he’s happily babbling away. You sigh softly. He has no idea he’s about to be given away.

What would it be like for him? You always thought he would understand parts of what you and Din were saying, but you don’t think he can fully understand you. The poor kid would probably be confused when you have to leave him behind so he can be trained. You wonder if you get to visit him. You really hope so. You don’t want the kid or Din to become unhappy because they’re not together. 

Still, the kid is happily babbling to himself, not aware of any of your thoughts. Of course, he did see Din upset but he could only understand so much. He understood his buir was upset, but couldn’t possibly know the reason why. If only you could put it out of your mind and go to sleep as the kid could. 

Sudden heavy footsteps startle you, and the kid stops babbling to look up at you.

‘It’s okay.’ you say, and you reach out to stroke one of his ears. ‘That’s probably him. At least he got some rest.’

Several moments later the footsteps grow louder until Din is standing behind you. You look over your shoulder. He has his helmet on again, and you decide not to push it.

‘Hi.’ you say. ‘Went to check up on the both of you and he was already awake. Didn’t want us to wake you.’ 

You get up to put the kid in one chair and sit down in the other one, but Din takes a hold of your wrist and gently tugs you to the captain’s chair. He sits down and silently asks your permission to pull you down to sit in his lap. You sit down and lean back against his chest, leaning the back of your head on his shoulder.

There’s no need to say anything, you know he’s thankful for how you comforted him earlier. And he knows that you know. You sit in a comfortable silence that’s only disrupted by the kid still happily babbling away. 

‘I know I’m going to have to let him go.’ says Din suddenly. 

You shift so you can look at him. You smile encouragingly at him, gesturing him to keep going.

‘It’s just hard.’ he says. ‘I know.’ you say. ‘I’ll miss him too but it really is for the best.’ ‘Yeah.’ sighs Din.

You lean in and press your forehead against his helmet and you close your eyes. 

‘I know it’s hard, I really do.’ you say softly. ‘I just wish we had more time.’ admits Din. 

You pull away so you can look at him again. ‘We just have to make the time we have left together the most wonderful you can imagine. And a proper goodbye. He’ll always have the memories.’ you say. ‘You’ll always have the memories.’

‘I just wanted to be a family.’ says Din. ‘We are.’ you say. ‘Look how far we’ve come. Look far you have come. First you were alone. Then you got the kid, you got me. We’re a clan of three now. I promise you he won’t forget you. And you’ll always be like a father to him.’ 

Din looks over his shoulder at the kid. ‘I’m gonna miss you, kid.’ he says. The kid looks up for a few seconds before the little metal ball in his hands gets all of his attention again. You chuckle. ‘You might want to think about giving him that metal ball as a goodbye present.’ you say. 

Din chuckles at your comment. You smile, because you haven’t heard that sound in a long time.

‘Let’s just get to the temple first.’ he says. You nod and get up from his lap, so you can sit down in the other chair behind him. Din turns around and looks at you.

‘Thank you.’ he says. ‘Really. I don’t think I’d be able to handle this on my own.’ ‘Of course.’ you say. ‘You’d do the same for me, right?’ ‘Yes, of course.’ says Din. ‘I love you, cyar'ika.’

Before you can answer him, the kid babbles loudly, looking at Din with his big eyes. Din chuckles and looks at him.

‘Yeah, kid.’ he says. ‘I love you as well. Very much.’

A/N: If you want to request something, make sure to read my house rules Here’s the list of characters I write for. Everything that I have written can be found on my masterlist. Please don’t repost my work, as I spend much time and effort on it!! Thank you for reading! Much love, Jo

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The Clone Wars S07E09 reaction

“Old Friends Not Forgotten”

Okay I am so exited for this! This is the episode I have been waiting since the first time I saw the announcement Trailer!! I have a few hopes for this Episode, you can read them here

Ashley Eckstein said that she cried when she watched the episode a few days agos, so I got my tissues ready!

Anyway let’s start!

- My computer just died on my while starting the episode, but I fixed it

- I am so scared! I want to see this so bad! But i don’t want it to be over in a few minutes

- Grievous! Long time no see!

- Seriously? That is all the Kanan we get? I mean...I guess I am fine but I kinda expected...more

- Seeing the Jedi on the missions they are going to die on breaks my heart...honestly I almost cry every time I see Plo in a fighter....ohh godddd order 66 is coming

- Trailer shots! (well technically last TV Spot Scenes)

- Did Obi-Wan just save Cody’s life?! OMG my babies! I did nit expect yo cry before Ahsoka arrives.....Ahhh Dave what re you doing to me???

- “Anakin where are you?” I see nothing has changed with you two

- Full Battle, Cody and Obi-Wan have taken cover, Anakin just walkes around like a god with blasters shouting behind him, while talking to Obi-Wan dodgin a blaster and trolling his master hahaha this boy kills 😂😂😂

- “ We already finished our battle so we decided to come and help you with yours” 😂😂😂 also technically you did not anwser his question

- I could quote their whole conversation honestly! I did not expect the episode to be so good before Ahsoka even arrives!!!

- “I know better than to try and stop you” well... I am just gonna leave this here without any comment

- “I have come to surrender” Look at him he can’t even say that without sarcasm 😂

- R2?

- Yes if course it is R2, I would know him anywhere

- The Clones being done with Anakins plan and Rex supporting his General no matter what is giving me life!

- Fly away boys!

- Please tell me Anakin will brag about this later when talking with Ahsoka

- Cody asking Obi-Wan if he play as well like he is is dad 😂😂😂 i can’t this episode is too good already!

- We are five minutes in and watching this has already taken me 20 minuets because I had ti stop to write this 😂

- “Always glad to help my friend” ARE YOU TRYING TO KILL ME HERE???!

- FULCRUM jauskakawhwhkee egejeneejejejehhejejdbwjkshaiwkdwbkwkauiwkjwje

- Ahsoka is coming ahsoka is coming ahsoka is coming ahsoka is coming

- “Are you okay?” Can you see the happiness in his eyes? My heart can’t take it anymore....

- Anakin is so happy! He basically jumps around Obi-Wan

- Parallel to the movie!!!!! Ahsoka stepping out of the ship (you bet I will use that in every video from now on)

- R2! He is so happy to see her as well!!!

- Ahsoka touching R2 Shjskwjjejrejejksjwvwhfducrujdsibseivdyjxdinsty

- How dare you stop him! I needed to hear that!!!

- Look at him! He is so heart broken 😭

- “What where you doing on Oba Diah?” Anakin beeing a concerned father ahsnehekenajksmshualsnsjsksnsbso

- Holy shit! Bo-Katan...that hid right in the feels! (Why are Obi-Wan and Bo-Katans interactions so much more satisfing that Ahsoka and Anakins?)

- Anakin and Ahsoka are alone! ANAKIN AND AHSOKA ARE ALONE!

- They smiled at each other! OMG Ahsoka finally smiled at him!!!

- “I have a surprise for you” it’s the clones, right?

- They called her commander ahnsensjenejwkkdbebsjdmsbsssoslkbisksbeh

- “They have been waiting to see you” i already know this scene but it still kills me!!!

- “Sure thing, commander.” Hahekskiskskwnisownswjkaowkehwosknskslskskakwhsosmehwoskensozlsk

- THE LIGHTSABERS! ITS THE LIGHTSABERS, RIGHT?

- Are you kidding me? She is was so close to opening that box!!!

- I hate this scene! i hate palpatine for doing this!

- OMG Ahsoka is giving Obi-Wan attitude....

- Anakin is so uncomfortable 😂😂😂

- I am so mad at Obi-Wan right now. I mean who’s fault is it that she is not part of the army any more? Yours! Because you and your whole counsel did not belive in her!

- Come on Obi-Wan!

- “May the force be with you” Okay I can forgive you bc I love you but you are really making it hard on me Obi!

- “He doesn’t seem to stay dead” 😂😂😂😂😂😂

- THE LIGHTSABERS!

- “Good thing I thought you otherwise” that is the kind of wholesomeness I have been waiting for!

- Also can we talked about the fact that he had Ahsokas lightsabers with him on a siege! Like he probably carried them with him everywhere after she left and took care if them in case she ever comes back......

- This is the last time they see each other? Good luck? GOOD LUCK? GOOD LUCK????? No hug, no snips, no skyguy, no I am proud of you? JUST GOOD LUCK?????!!!!! ARE YOU KIDDING ME????!!!!! I am crying! I am literally crying!! I am not okay guys....

- Will we see the battle of couresant?

- No it is just Ahsokas fleet.

- How is half of the 501st this much? 😂

- It kinda looked like Ahsoka has a crush on Bo-Katan for a second 😂 but honestly I would not be against it

- This girl just reminded me so much of sabine from the back 😂

- Ursa!

- “Don’t need one” Rex smile.... I missed these two together so much!

- “Race you to the surface” she is so Anakins Padawn!

- I missed seeing her fight with lightsabers... I am so gay...

- “Thanks commander” I smiling so hard right now

- I think they just killed the Sabine lookalike 😂

- “Beat you” Anakin energy

- “Some things never change” 😭

- Commander Rex 😭

- Bo-Katan sounds so worried about her! That is kinda cute

- Ahsoka is walking straight into a trap but I have felt some many different emotions watching this that I simply don’t have the ability to worry about anything right know 😂

- I am so happy right now that neither Rex or Jesse have followed her into the tunnels...

- MAUL!

- “I was hoping for Kenobi. Why are you here?” Does he know her?

Okay so in conclusion: I am not okay. Not at all. And I am not satisfied! But I also I loved this episode so much!!!! I think I will watch it again today without pausing it.

So if you excuse me I will finish my Anakin & Ashoka video know and then probably cry for a few hours...

[fictionsthings]

Anakin for the character meme?

First of all: *insert incoherent screeching*

Second: This is a lot and I apologize (especially if it doesn't make sense.)

How I feel about this character: Ok, I have a lot of feelings about Ani and they're not all coherent so bear with me. I love him so much but he makes me so sad. Anakin is such a tragic character. So much shit happens to him.

Age 9: Freed from slavery (which is good) and taken from his mother, who is still enslaved (not good AT ALL). He is thrust into a new environment with a bunch of strangers, the majority of whom are hostile towards him. (*coughTheJediCouncilcough*)(HE'S NINE, YOU ASSHOLES! OF COURSE HE'S GOING TO BE SCARED!)

Little Ani is so brave. I never would have been able to leave everything and everyone I cared about, even if my mom wanted me to, even if it meant a better future for me. Not to mention that he literally goes in to battle THE NEXT DAY and NO ONE SAYS ANYTHING!

Age 19: Has nightmares about his mother's death which eventually come true when she dies in his arms, and then kills every Tusken Raider he deems responsible for her death (and not just the men. But the women- and the children too.) He then loses his hand to Count Dooku the next day.

Since my grandfather died this year, I find myself tearing up when Shmi dies. Sure, my grandpa and I weren't super close, but I still loved him very much and for weeks after his death, I could hardly bring myself to do anything. I can only imagine what it must have been like to lose a mother and then have to hide the fact that you were even grieving from the majority of the people in your life.

Age 22-23: Has nightmares of Padme dying in childbirth and becomes reasonably terrified of losing her and their child(ren). He goes to Yoda for advice, but unfortunately, Yoda's advice is shit and doesn't help him at all in any way, shape or form. Palpatine uses Anakin's fear to manipulate him and make him come over to the Dark Side, making Anakin think that it's the only way to save Padme, only for Ani to lose everything he ever loved instead. When Anakin first woke up in the Darth Vader suit, one of the first things he asks is "Where is Padme? Is she safe?" When Palpatine said that Padme was dead, Anakin literally destroys almost every thing in the Medcenter in his grief. Palpatine then relied on Anakin's attachments to ensure that he would remain Palpatine's slave apprentice because Palpatine was the only thing Anakin had left. Not only that, but Anakin felt that he was too far gone to redeem himself. (Note that it was Luke's belief in what goodness Anakin had left that helped him return to the Light. More on that later.)(I fucking hate Palpatine. He has literally been manipulating Anakin since he met the kid on Naboo.)

I would like to say that the majority of people I've seen/talked too agree that it was Palpatine who killed Padme. Anakin was supposed to die on that beach on Mustafar. Palpatine wanted Anakin's power leashed to him, so Palpatine saved him by using Padme's life force. It makes sense. Palpatine has known Padme for years. He mentored her in politics. He knows her, and so it would be easy to identify her in the Force and then steal her life, even easier if she is already weakened from emotional (Anakin's fall and use of the Force on her) and physical stress (her pregnancy and labor). The parallels between Anakin's "repairs" and revival and Padme's childbirth and death make it subtle but obvious all at once. (I also want to punch Palpatine's damn teeth in for smiling at Anakin's pain.)

I'm also half convinced that Palpatine planted those nightmares of Padme in Anakin's mind to draw him closer to the Dark Side.

Age 41-42: Finally kills Obi-wan Kenobi and feels so lonely (and maybe sad, I'm not sure) that Yoda can feel his pain all the way from Dagobah and Yoda feels sorry for him. (I would also like to note that Anakin knew to be off the Death Star in ANH because he had a Force Vision and decided not to tell anyone else because everyone else sucked and you can't change my mind.)

If you- a Dark Lord of the Sith- can make Yoda- Grandmaster of the Jedi Order- feel bad for you, then goddamn you must feel awful. (I'm feeling even more sad, wtf? I didn't realize it was possible)

Age 44-45: Finds out that he has a son and that Palpatine lied to him for literally half his life. Think about that. He has spent approximately 22 to 23 years as Darth Vader and he had a son out there. Literally, nothing is more important to Anakin than Family. He is angry that Luke was kept from him and he is vengeful. (In the Darth Vader comics, he goes to the Lars Homestead to punish the people who "stole" Luke, only to find out that they're already dead.) He singlemindedly searches for Luke for years, and then he finally gets to him on Bespin (after he hurt his son's close good friends.) There's the fight, then he literally cuts off his son's hand and THEN he tells Luke that he is his father. (Anakin, I love you, but you have pretty bad timing.) Then Luke literally chooses to fall, choosing the possibility of death over taking his father's hand.

Even if you're a Sith Lord, that has to hurt. Note that Anakin only made the offer to take down the Emporer and rule the galaxy as father and son once. Luke rejected him (which, I'll admit- perfectly reasonable) and I'm not sure why Ani rejected Luke when Luke pretty much offered the same thing in ROTJ, but something happened and I need to find out what. I may tear my heart out in the process, but it's whatever.

Age 46: Emperor Raisin Face keeps on saying that Luke will either join them or die (which granted, Anakin said in ESB, but still) and so Anakin is reasonably desperate to get Luke over to the Dark Side so he doesn't die. Anakin senses Luke going to the Forest Moon of Endor and decides to pop down for a visit when the Emperor says that Luke will go to him. Luke does indeed go to Anakin, and immediately tries to appeal to Anakin's goodness, to his paternal side. Anakin tries to deny him, says that the name Anakin Skywalker "no longer has any meaning" to him and that "I must obey my master" and continues to deliver his own son to the Emperor. During their fight in the throne room, Anakin finds out that he not only has ONE child, but TWO. He then makes the happy mistake of trying to provoke Luke into fighting him. It works and Anakin loses his hand again. And just when he thinks that Luke might kill him, with the Emperor egging him on, Luke tosses his saber away, rejecting the Emperor and saying, "I am a Jedi, like my father before me." When the Emperor attacks Luke with the Force Lightning and Anakin literally crawls back to the Emporer's side, Anakin eventually answers Luke's calls for help and tosses the Emporer down a chasm. Anakin dies just before Luke can get him off the Death Star and after telling telling that he (Luke) was right about him (Anakin) and that Luke already saved him.

Can I just say that the "I must obey my master" line breaks my heart? Because it absolutely shatters it. As I've gotten older and understood more as I've watched these movies, I have cried at this scene and I will cry when I watch it again. That is not just a threat, it is a promise. It breaks my heart. He sounds so defeated. And I always feel so relieved and happy when he comes back to the light.

Moral of the story is: I want to give him a hug and officially adopt him as my son. (Real talk though, if I met him in real life, I would just do my best to not piss him off.)

All the people I ship romantically with this character:

- Padme

That's it.

My non-romantic OTP for this character: I have many.

- Obi-wan and Anakin

- Ashoka and Anakin (I have yet to see Clone Wars but I've seen a lot of fan content)

- Captain Rex and Anakin (I have yet to see Clone Wars but I've seen a lot of fan content)

- Luke and Anakin

My unpopular opinion about this character:

I'm not sure if this counts as an unpopular opinion, but if you didn't notice, I don't call Anakin by Darth Vader in this and that is because he was always Anakin Skywalker, he was just in denial. Also, it doesn't feel right for me to call him Darth Vader. I used to clarify if I meant Vader or Anakin, but at this point it's just... Why seperate the two? They are the same person. I call the suit "Darth Vader", yes, but honestly it's just to clarify when I'm talking about in ROTS because Anakin is "Darth Vader" both in and out of the suit in that movie.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that Anakin can't go back to being the man he was, but he never stopped being Anakin. He changed, yes, drastically even. He went by a different name, yes. But he was still Anakin Skywalker. It just took him awhile to figure that out. (Hence why he wasn't in the Darth Vader suit as a Force Ghost)

One thing I wish would happened / had happened with this character in canon:

I wish that he and Leia had been able to make some sort of peace. Leia doesn't have to forgive him, Force knows she has every right not to, but it would've been nice if she could have made peace with her parentage in canon.

I actually read a fic like that here on tumblr recently. I'll have to see if I can find it for y'all.

Found it! -> x <-

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they were kids that I once knew

Fragmented Star Wars feels time! YAY!

First though. I really don’t understand hating on these films. I never have. I know when things are good, when they aren’t good, and I know when things are entertaining and when I allow my emotions to be shamelessly messed with.

That’s what movies are FOR. 

Also I guess I’ve always felt like Star Wars was over before I was born, honestly. I deeply love it, it’s my whole childhood, I was making stick into lightsabers when I was 5 and I drank up every piece of EU writing I could growing up. But it was also done.

Confession: I didn’t even hate Phantom Menace until I was told I was supposed to. (I thought it was kinda corny sure, but it was fun and there was pod racing! Like I had read that Han Solo grew up doing!)

 I was 13 and The Perfect Thing already existed, was done, and anything that happened after was bonus and good. Because it was more bonus Star Wars. 

This was some of the best Bonus Star Wars, fight me about it. 

Overall: wow felt like a lot crammed in, but it only felt rushed in certain, very obvious places....

...like UH OKAY RIGHT OFF THE BAT, HERE’S PICKLED-PALPATINE! Aight. Might as well be a Giger-inspired Wraith! It was a really good visual.

Hehehe, jars of spare Snokes.

Rey is offically The Avatar, many times over in this film, also do not mind.

I kind of loved the trio bickering? I felt like it was so realistic and family and being frustrated at living stressed and close and always in danger and then....set up the idea of completeness together very well. One thing you can say about JJ re: Trek and the like, he can direct characters who love each other to bicker realistically. As opposed to people who have directed other exhausting monolithic franchises where nobody seems to like each other >.>

And speaking of things I liked in hindsight! I don’t hate how Kylo was handled, after seeing the end. We weren’t forced to accept “HEY HE’S ALL FIXED NOW AND OUR BFF AND HE AND REY ARE GONNA DATE!” Nope. I was resistant the whole movie to it, up until he saw his father, and now I want to watch again and appreciate it, knowing the end.

 Still, fuck that kiss though No not even, not really...as a burst of “we lived and are connected and we saved each other and defeated the darkness in our bloodlines and are grateful to be ALIVE! YOU ARE BEN!″ moment, sure. And then he dies.

 And Leia can pass on. 

LEIA.

;_;

I like how they did that thing.

Finn and Poe continue to be perfect.

Daisy Ridley worked and acted her ASS off this film, I hope even the saltiest ingrate notices that.

At That Scene re: Chewie, my brother pretended to get up to leave, “Welp, guess we’re going to watch Cats, guys.”

Disney continues to be the Evil Overlords making sure there’s plenty of Small Cute Things to make Merch off of. Including the creature who dug around in Threepo’s brains.

And I’m sorry, this movie was some of the best use of C3po + other droids as the comic relief since the original trilogy. Respect the annoying gold and blue eyes of stone. “He’s my very oldest friend!” ;_;

Yeah it was full of squishy feel-good ideals, but I loved that the over-arching theme was “there’s more of us than there are of them”. 

All the Jedi coming to Rey at the end, buuuuuuh. I loved it. As previously stated, cried like baby as soon as I heard Hayden. AND ASHOKA D: 

I....didn’t hate the concept of Rey as Palpatine’s granddaughter? I wish there was more to know, more built up about his son and Rey’s mother. When did he go and procreate? Was it before Mace wrecked his face? These are important questions.

But mainly, even if it might seem really outta the blue, the important thing is Rey chooses who she is. She chooses who her family is, instead of waiting for something that wasn’t ever going to happen anyway. She chooses her name.

And she ends the movie being clutched so, so close by her two most important people.

I ship Rey/Found Family

.....but why the FUCK did they put those cannons on the underside of the destroyers, how did that decision pass through so many edits, just.

[gods-and-punks]

Finally watched Rise of Skywalker! I have opinions! You probably shouldn't read them!

It felt the most "star wars" when the resistance was taking out the fleet of sith star destroyers

Ray, Poe, and Finn are definitely a romantic trio!

Ray, Poe, and Finn also feel like high schoolers out to face their destiny, in the way that early Percy Jackson books have that charm of them being kids. Ray, Poe, and Finn are not kids, so it feels a little like watching doofus adults instead of kids stumbling through coming of age.

Poe is 300% the long suffering bearer of common sense.

Its cute how much Finn loves Ray, but they are both still so juvenile in their emotional development I can't help but not want to ship it, and instead ship them both with maturity first.

I. Hate. Palpatine. Gross stinky man.

I HEARD FREDDY PRINCE JUNIOR. I think i missed Ashoka?? But I didn't hear Ezra!!! FILONI WHERE IS MY BOY???

It was good homage to Carrie Fisher, very good

I didn't hate Raylo? But i also didn't think that was more than a "we survived" kiss.

Also: I'm glad he was redeemed, and giving his life for hers was about the only way he was going to be satisfyingly redeemed.

Ray and Ben were similar, and i really think they had a lot of potential to help each others. I really wanted him to go with her end of Ep. 7, but they had 2 more episodes to go and had already killed off their poser palpatine, so I wasn't suprised when he didn't.

Can you imagine how interesting coming back with Ben Solo would have been? Still carries the Sith lightsaber because, man where are you gonna find a fresh kyber ceystal in this economy? And it becomes to the flavor of Green Lantern: The Animated Series, where Razer the Red Lantern is redeemed, but his power is still fuled by rage and it makes him sick. Would have loved that with Ben.

On that note: RAY WHERE DID YOU GET A NEW KYBER CRYSTAL???

Luke this might be the Rebels fan in me. But I'm lowkey upset that Ray doesn't have a master? And didn't go through trials on screen to earn a Kyber crystal of her own and things like that??

Also, I appreciate that they made Leia a jedi too. I argue that she was a knight, not a master though. And further, the way it happened in the movie felt like a huge RetCon to placate fans. I would have MUCH preferred if she'd taught herself in secret as a sheltered princess, and basically existed as a Gray who didn't so much follow a creed as intuitively understood the Force because she understood herself.

On that note,,,, Ray is not a Jedi Masters and I'll be mad if she is called/treated like one. She is a capable knight, but the semi-religious qualities that Depa taught Kanan and Kanan taught Ezra are completely gone now. Jedi don't kill, Jedi acknowledge their emotions and don't let it rule them. Those things Ray is not good at. I want her to have a teacher, so that someone can impart these things to her.

Ezra should be about Luke's age, assuming no WBW shenanigans. (I assume WBW shenanigans. FILONI ANSWER ME.)

I'm glad its over, I look forward to non-palpatine and non-skywalker stories.

SHOW ME JACEN SYNDULLA!

I don't think I like any ship in 7/8/9. Raylo is like,,,, not a good ship, but it has a dynamic that is juicy with angst and hurt/comfort so like,,,, i enjoy it. But i really don't think any ship is a good ship. WELL MAYBE POE AND THE SPICE RUNNER. But she didn't get a huge amount of characterization so idk.

ALSO: The whole movie ran like they were summarizing a year comic arc, and it wasn't terribly satisfying. Too fast, too convenient.

ALSO RAY YOU LET THE FORCE GHOST OF LI LUKE GIVE YOU EVERYTHING. THAT WAS AS CLASSIC GREEK EXAMPLE OF DEUS EX MACHINA I'VE EVER SEEN. Didn't like it. If they had 10 more minutes or a couple comic chapters, they could have contrived a way to have found her, aka Finn probably feeling it in the force/knowing the girl he loves and then him trying to convince her to come with him.

But whatever, its over and I no longer feel like I'm missing pieces of the sw continuum.