#as we know what happens .... and i fear its the same for dazai

[ninkaku]

someone said jinx + vi can't be happy together in any universe ..... remind you of anyone :/

[gettinshiggywithit]

With that art you reblogged + your requests being open, I have to ask for some PM Boss!Chuuya. Could you write about his reaction to finding out a rival criminal organization ordered a hit on his wife? And like, him being protective of her while his men investigate the situation?

!Know your place!

Scenario:- pm boss!chuuya when his wife has been targeted.

Pairing:- pm.boss!chuuya x fem!reader

Genre:-idk what the first half would be but the last bit is fluff

Type:- oneshot

W/c:-2.25k

A/N:-HIYA ANON! OKAY ITS THREE AM AND I JUST SAW THIS JUST WHEN I WAS GOIN TO SLEEP.AND IT TICKLED MY BRAIN SOO HERE WE GOOOO

Art credits:- @taxolotl

Chuuya nakahara was a ,man of great power and status.all of which had only increased since he had ascended to the position of the head of the port mafia.The mafia in itself was an organization that commanded great fear and respect from both civilians and the government,but since his ascension to the throne,things had only gotten better.the organization ran like clockwork,not that it hadn’t before,but he seemed to bring his own  twist to things.he was also more brutal and ruthless than the previous boss.dazai osamu was a man of great intellect and he too had elevated the mafia from where I once was.but chuuya had something that dazai didn’t.he had a lover, or wife, as those who were closest to him knew.you two had tied the knot shortly before dazai’s passing and although you knew it would be risky,you were determined to make it work.in fact,In your vows,he’d promised to protect you no matter the cost.and you’d promised to love him till the end of time.

You were also a member of the mafia,having joined at the same time he did.you were one of the sheep and had defected when they betrayed him. For even then,you loved chuuya but as you grew,so did your love for the blue eyed ginger,and when you started dating,you were the happiest you’d ever been!needless to say he’d felt the same way you had for almost as long,but the fear of rejection and losing a loved one is a pesky instinct.

four years was how long you’d dated before he proposed at age 21.the ring wasn’t exactly fancy,but it was the one you’d wanted,and although you could’ve rushed the ceremony,you decided to wait.the next year flew by like a blur and soon it was your wedding day,and as you walked down the aisle,you both teared up.

Fast forward to today,he was staring at a memo from one of his subordinates,the one tasked with protecting you and keeping you safe,for while chuuya knew you could take care of yourself,he also knew that in your world, there was no such thing as being too careful.

There had been an attempt on your life. and as he read the memo chuuya felt a sudden chill run down his spine.his worst nightmare….his biggest fear had finally been realised and he hadn’t even known it had.

At first he beat himself up about it,how could he let this slip by?how did he not know???he suddenly felt a sudden wave of disgust as his mind replayed a certain phrase, “dazai wouldn’t have let this happen.” he pushed the thought away and continued to think of how to keep you safe.he’d be damned if he let his insecurities were what out you endanger!

Step 1,get you to a safe location,and while chuuya knew that being by his side would be dangerous,half of him wanted to believe that he was the safest option.but finally he went with the objective solution and sent you off to an overseas safe house,with a unit of the organisation’s best hitmen.assassins and body guards.he knew this was a tad bit extreme yet he wasn’t going to risk it! So later that day,once you were feeling a little less shook up about the attack,you grabbed your to-go bag, and took a private flight to your,hopefully safe, hideout.and even though it pained him to have you so far away.he knew it wouldn’t be for long.

Step 2,figure out who the fuck was responsible.the mafia had many resources,and being the boss allowed chuuya to take full advantage of said resources.so with almost no effort,his informant was able to find out ,who ordered the hit on you,when they did and and who had been assigned to carry out the hit.chuuya thanked the informant,took this information and left to form a plan of action.he first decided to take out the man who had been tasked with the hit.

Did chuuya know this man was probably just following orders and had no actual beef with him or the port mafia?yes.but was he gonna let this bastard get off scot free?? Not a  chance.

He paid the hitman a visit himself,knocking on the door almost harmlessly,before punching the door in when he heard someone else on the other side.

Needless to say the assassin was shook! he watched as chuuya’s subordinates stormed his apartment and had all their guns aimed straight at his head.chuuya then took a few steps forward,his expression one full of rage and hate as he wrapped his hand around he man’s throat,instantly crushing his windpipe with what looked like no effort at all.his face became stoic after that.as he silently left the scene,he stared at his hand and it shook.he hadn’t shouted or screamed like he’d planned to,and it felt,weird.nevertheless,he got into his car and was driven back to the PM HQ.

Next for the the man who had ordered the hit himself.chuuya had found out that the man ordering the hit was a leader of a rival criminal organization,one dazai had managed to eradicate,that had come back from the dead.and apparently they thought attacking the new boss’ significant other would be a good idea…foolish.

(like bro we aren’t even in this universe and even we know that that’s a big no no! tf?! Literally you deserve to get rekt!)

As chuuya read the man’s file he realized just how insignificant he was.no abilities.no special accomplishments.no worth. Nothing that could even compare to the might of the port mafia but still they had chosen a fight? Chuuya didn’t know if he should have been impressed by their ambition or annoyed with their stupidity.perhaps they thought he wouldn’t retaliate.

Well,they were dead wrong.

So the next day,chuuya did a simple thing.

He broke into the man’s home,sat on his couch and waited.once he arrived at his home only to see the literal boss of the port mafia,scarf,fedora and all.the man attempted to run out the door.

Chuuya responded to this by simply throwing his blade at him,effectively pinning him against the door.he took his time sauntering over to the pathetic whimpering excuse of a man and finally said. “so you’re the sack of shit that tried to take out my y/n?” he gave the man a once over.he had a scraggly beard,tacky jewellery and looked absolutely disgusting.it made chuuya sick to his stomach to be in the presence of such a piece of trash,but he wasn’t done yet.

“please! Im sorry! I-I made a mistake I beg of you spare me! I promise not to ever interfere with the port mafia again!!” the man was fully begging now,and honestly it was quite entertaining to see him squirm under both the influence of fear and the pain caused by the knife in his shoulder.  chuuya pretended to contemplate letting the man go before his lips curled into a devious smile. “yeah how about no?” he said before pulling the knife out of his victim’s shoulder,causing him to crumple to the ground.

Next he climbed over the man and began to beat him to a pulp.

First one punch,then another,and another.each one getting heavier and heavier as he added the weight of his ability behind them.he screamed out curses and threats between punches,even straight up insults and just yells.

 The man was dead after about the tenth punch.

well…at least that’s when chuuya realized he was dead.but then again,who wouldn’t be death with a bashed-in skull?

Chuuya then calmly got up off the floor and soon realized he was covered in blood. “crap…..now ill have to send this one back to the cleaners you piece of shit!”he muttered to the corpse as he stepped over it and exited the apartment through the door.

His car was waiting for him when he reached the street and his subordinates made sure no one saw him in his blood-stained state.

Once in the car,he sighed and let out a breath he didn’t know he’d been holding in. he pulled off his bloodied gloves and threw them to the side,picking up his phone to call the leader of the unit protecting you.

“its done.bring her back in four hours”

A “yes sir” was heard on the other side of the line,before it cut off and chuuya was left listeing to the beeps that replaced the team leader’s voice. He lowered the phone and called a different number this time. This one being the mafia’s elite kill squad’s leader’s. he let the phone ring once,twice, then hung up.this was the signal to carry on with the eradication of the rival organization. It would be a massacre,but still,the other organization stood no chance. Chuuya almost felt bad for the members of that organization;for they had to pay for sins they hadn’t even commited,but he supposed simply being a follower of the man who’d wanted you killed was enough of a sin to warrant the punishment they would be dealing with now.

Chuuya got home to your shared apartment and took off his shoes at the door,he looked at the pictures of the two of you that decorated the walls,and each time he saw your radiant smile his heart skipped a beat.

He went to the bathroom and stripped down,getting into the shower to wash off all the blood. He tossed his bloodied clothes in the hamper labeled ‘work-stained’ and chuckled to himself when he saw the label you’d hand written and stuck on there.

After he was done,he got out of the shower and began to towel off his hair,as he was doing this,a little flash of light caught his eye. It was your wedding ring twinkling at him from its place on the counter. Of course he’d left it behind! He wasn’t going to stain something so sacred with the blood of a worthless cretin! No way in hell!

But now that he was all cleaned up,he slipped it back on his ring finger and smiled.once he was ready, he heard a click and knew you were home.

He stepped out of your shared bedroom wearing and oversized tee shirt and some sweatpants only to be tackled by the likes of you!

You wrapped him up in a bear hug and didn’t seem to be showing any signs of letting go.and he was perfectly okay with that. He hugged you back just as tightly from your spot on the floor,simply saying, “I missed you too princess~and im not going anywhere.” you nuzzled into his neck and he held you close. “don’t ever send me away again chuu you know I can take care of myself” you said,pulling back to look him in the eyes from your position on top of him. “I know love but,” he said as he sat up, “you know I couldn’t risk it” “yeah… yeah I know” you said, looking down at the floorboards. “but it really sucked you know?” “oh yeah…it sucked ass.were you okay?did anything happen while you were there?” he said,concern seeping into both his expression and his voice as he gave you a once over,his eyes looking for any sort of scar wound or injury.

You placed your hand on his his cheek and directed his attention back to your face before bringing yourself closer and gently cupping his face. “chuuya,im fine…really.you can relax…” he nodded at that and leaned into your touch. “I know but i-” “ah ah! No buts.”  You interrupted him,“im okay and that’s what matters right? So lets just relax hmm?”

He nodded once again before pulling you in for a kiss. It was soft.yet passionate.clearly making up for lost time and when you both came up for air,your foreheads leaned against eachother, he said it. “I love you y/n and I’ll do anything in my power to keep you safe.” You smiled and nodded at him. “I know chuuya….i know” you said before giving him a quick peck and hoisting yourself up off the floor.

You pulled him up along with you and the two of you made your way to the kitchen to cook up some dinner.

“oh and chuuya? I love you too”                 “I know y/n…I know” he said with a wink. you almost threw a pot at him~

I HOPE YOU LIKED IT ANON! AND PLEASE FEEL FREE TO LMK WHAT YOU THOUGHT ABT IT!DID I DO YOUR IDEA JUSTICE?

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BSD VS LITERATURE: NO LONGER HUMAN

The second entry in my long running series to analyze every single book referenced in Bungou Stray Dogs, to try piece together the author’s intended meaning in referencing the work. 

Osamu Dazai’s ability name comes from the author’s final novel “No Longer Human”, you may have heard of it. The novel contains several events from the author’s real life, but is considered semi-autobiographical because it depicts the life of a fictional character “Yozo” who much like the real life author attempted suicide a total of five times in his life before utlimately succeeding. Many believe the book to be his will as Dazai killed himself shortly after the last part of the book was published. As for the connection to the fictional character, more under the cut. 

1. Disqualified from Being Human

Dazai as a character borrows several traits from Yozo the protagonist of the novel. He has the same habit of clowning and engaging others in a false persona, while it happens mostly offscreen the audience and Dazai’s coworkers are aware of the fact he regularly indulges himself in vices like drinking, having illicit relationships with women (its often referenced he has a long line of exes and women he’s left upset over him) and that he’s also constantly in debt. 

Deeper than those surface level traits though, Dazai shares the same motivation as Yozo for his antics. They are both people who feel utterly alienated from the people around them, unable to connect with their thoughts and feelings and because of that they resort to always engaging them in a false, and comedic facade. They are fundamentally uncomfortable with ever presenting their true selves around others. 

As a child I had absolutely no notion of what others, even members of my own family, might be suffering from or what they were thinking. I was aware of my own unspeakable fears and embarrassments. Before anyone realized it, I had become an accomplished clown, a child who never spoke a single word. No Longer Human. 

Dazai is described as a child in the same way by Oda, who is arguably the character who knows him best. Even with Oda though, and the rest of the Buraiha trio as a whole though they were friends it carries the tragedy that they never were truly honest with one another, Oda never overstepped the clear boundaries between him and Dazai, Ango never let either of them into the secret that he was a government spy all along. Even that friendship which Dazai found comfortable, and was so significant to him he changed his entire life’s past around Oda’s dying words, he still placed an uncilimbable wall between the two of them. 

“I thought you were similiar to Dazai at first, rushing into battle and wishing for death without even considering the value of your own life. But he’s different. He’s sharp witted, with a mind like a steel trap. And he’s just a child - a sobbing child abandoned in the darkness of a world far emptier than the one we’re seeing.”

He was too smart for his own good. That was why he was always alone. The reason why Ango and I were unable to be by his side was that we understood the solitude that surrounded him, and we never stepped inside no matter how close we stood. 

But in that moment I kind of regretted not stepping in and invading that solitude. Bungo Stray Dogs, Volume 2. 

There’s a supposed difference in Yozo, who is a drunken layabout constantly in debt who fails out of college and Dazai the super genius who is apparently one of the smartest members of the cast, but honestly if you peel back the layers of Dazai’s “Superhuman / Godlike Genius” status his and Yozo’s behaviors and treatment of other people is actually pretty similar. 

Here is the secret of No Longer Human that a lot of readers miss in their interpretation. While Yozo can be a sympathetic character, because he’s genuinely miserable in his life, and the way he tells his story is highly relatable to the unhappiness of many readers, Yozo sucks. 

If you look at his actions outside of his self-pitying narration, Yozo is a serial manipulator of people, especially those with a status weaker than him in society (women, and even chidlren) he strings them along often taking money from them until he abandons them. Yozo is considered to be so pretty and likable, people often relate to his misery and give him what he wants without him giving anything in return.

There’s four major women he interacts with in the novel. A married women he gets to pay for his drinks a couple of times, doesn’t see for months, and then commits suicide with her. His reaction to her death is very minimal and he doesn’t even seem to mourn her. Then, he becomes a kept man for a woman with a child for awhile gets her to pay for his drinking habit, has multiple affairs on her while living at their house (or at least it’s implied).He also comes to view the child as an enemy of his. 

“I would like my real Daddy back.”  I felt dizzy with shock. An enemy. Was I Shigeko’s enemy, or was she mine?

No Longer Human.

He abandons them. (Surprise, surprise). Then moves on to marry a seventeen year old girl, specifically because she is a virgin. I probably don’t have to mention the predatory subtext there. 

Yoshiko’s pale face was smiling as she sat there inside the dimly lit shop. What a holy thing uncorrupted virginity is, I thought. I had never slept with a virgin, a girl younger than myself. I’d marry her. [...] I made up my mind on the spot: it was a then-and-there decision, and I did not hesitate to steal the flower. No Longer Human. 

That wife then gets raped and not only does Yozo feel little to no sympathy for her whatsoever, he then proceeds to just leave and abandon her because his image of her as a perfect image is ruined. He even refers to her as a possession he lost far earlier on in the novel. 

Once in a while, it is true I have experienced a vague sense of regret at losing something, but never strongly enough to affirm positively, or to contest with others my rights of possession. This was so true of me that some years later, I even watched in silence when my own wife was violated. No Longer Human.

The last woman he gets involved with only because he has a morphine addiction and he wants to string her along so she can keep supplying him with morphine. If you strip away the thin veneer of Dazai as a master manipulator and superhuman genius, you are just left with his actions which include his constant manipulation of other people (children younger and more vulnerable than him) and even his own allies. He is a user, much in the same way Yozo is. This is just named characters, it’s implied offscreen that Dazai has Yozo’s same habit of burning through relationships and women like jet fuel. 

Of course, there is a tragic reason for Yozo’s behavior it is implied he was violated by a female servant as a child, but that further adds onto the underlying point of the novel that Yozo’s genuinely miserable but he’s also the architect of his own misery. He is a victim who basically continues the cycle of abuse. His two primary methods of interacting with people is either manipulating them / stringing them along, or abandoning them. Even the Dazai who works at the agency keeps Akutagawa his biggest victim wearing the coat that Mori Gave him that represents the cycle of abuse just... wrapped around his little finger because it’s more convenient to use and dispose of him that way. 

Akutagawa’s so insanely devoted to Dazai that he believes being abandoned was just a secret little test and if he performs well than he’ll finally get the carrot that Dazai has been dangling in front of his head for a long time. Dazai’s treatment of Akutagawa as someone to just conveniently use and then dispose of is something that leads to Akutagawa getting himself killed trying to earn that praise. 

Dazai and Yozo have a similiar problem where they are pitiable in the fact they are victims themselves, they have been used in the past and it’s left them feeling alienated and unable to connect with others, but then they jump right into treating others as less than human too. Dazai has this strange paradox where he scolds Dostoevsky for believing in god and seeing himself as an agent of god or some kind of omniscient manipulator and that the real people who make a difference in the world are the people living in the world and struggling in it but Dazai... still doesn’t see himself as one of those people. Dazai’s like “You shouldn’t manipulate people like pieces on a gameboard...” but Dazai still views himself as one of the players sitting and watching things from on high rather than one of the pieces. 

Dazai and Yozo are incapable of seeing themselves as human beings and eternally feel like outsiders when they try to be around others. However, at the same time they give no respect to the humanity or the feelings of other people. They don’t treat others like humans. Which is why they are essentially the architects of their own misery, they are alone because they choose continually over and over to either only engage in other people with lives, or treat relationships as transactional. These flaws of Dazai’s have been toned down since the dark age, but even Detective Agency Dazai still has this habit of looking down on other people. He has good intentions he tries to live by, but also in crisis situations tends to fall back on old habits. 

2. Lover’s Suicide

Finally, there’s two relationships in the book that parallels Dazai’s two most significant relationships in the story. The tragedy of Oda in the dark era, actually mirrors what was Yozo’s most significant suicide attempt in the book. Yozo runs out of money and on a whim attempts to commit suicide with a married woman who had been more or less a longtime but distant acquiantance. 

We threw ourselves into the sea at Kamakura that night. She untied her sash saying she had borrowed it from a friend at the cafe, and left it folded neatly on a rock. I removed my coat and put it in the same spot. We entered the water together. 

She died. I was saved. No Longer Human. 

This event mirrors the defining tragedy of Dazai’s backstory as depicted in the second light novel, and his reason for leaving the mafia. Essentially, Dazai finally becomes close to someone his longtime acquaintance Oda, who unlike him has a reason to live in raising children and dreaming of one day becoming an author. However, by the end of the novel it’s Oda who commits suicide and Dazai who lives. 

“You’re such an idiot, Odasaku. The biggest idiot I know.”  “Yeah.” “You didn’t have to do this. You didn’t have to die.” “I know.” 

Bungo Stray Dogs, Vol. 2

If you want to sprinkle in an additional homosexual subtext what Oda basically does is commit a lover’s suicide with someone else, by choosing to die with Gide. Which means that not only does Dazai survive while Oda dies, but Oda chose to commit a lover’s suicide with someone other than him. 

Then there is Yozo’s acquiantance to longtime friend Horiki. HOriki is his only real significant friend in the novel, but Yozo absolutely despises him. Nothing healthy ever comes from their relationship, he gets Yozo addicted on cigarettes and alcohol, he drags him to secret communist meetings, however Yozo who frequently just abandons people never really gets rid of him. 

Horiki and myself. Despising each other as we did, we were constantly together, thereby degrading ourselves. If that is what the world calls friendship, the relationships between Horiki and myself were undoutably those of friendship. No Longer Human. 

The reason being that Yozo despite loathing Horiki senses that the two of them are alike in nature. There’s also something to be said about Yozo getting along more naturally with someone he hates, rather than the people in his life who constantly attempt to love him. 

Horiki and myself. Though outwardly he appeared to be a human being like the rest, I sometimes felt he was exactly like myself. No Longer Human. 

His relationship with Horiki reflects both the partnership of the double black duo, two individuals who loathe each other but had near perfect cooperation in their teamwork but also the foiling between Chuuya and Dazai. They are both people who do not view themselves as human, Chuuya because of the mystery of his origins as the host of Arahabaki and Dazai because his intelligence leaves him feelings isolated from the world. 

He looked up in the direction of the sudden voice. It was a familiar voice, one that belonged to the person he hated most in this world. 

Your birth itself was a mistake. We’re the same. Is there a really a point to suffering through all that pain for a life that isn’t real?” 

The voice was taunting him. 

[...]

“Screw you Dazi.”

Chuuya wanted nothing more than to slice off the ear the voice was whispering right into. He could see Dazai’s wavering shadow by his side, and he wanted to gauge out his eyes. 

“That’s just proof that you at least somewhat believe what I’m saying. Because deep down inside you’re the same as me.”

Like, they hate each other, but they hate each other for the real person they are deep down on the inside. Which results in him and Chuuya having an entirely antagonistic relationship and yet at the same time Chuuya is the one person that Dazai can’t really bullshit or lie to, because sharing so much in common gives Chuuya some insight into Dazai’s darker tendencies. 

Which results in a relationship where neither of them like each other, and yet both of them are just a little bit obsessed with each other. Despising each other and constantly together. 

So in summary, No Longer Human is a work about a character’s difficulty to form relationships with others because not only do they not see themselves as human they also treat the others around them as lesser than humans. Yozo is a character clearly stuck in that cycle of abuse, whereas Dazai Osamu himself is someone struggling in the story to break that cycle and curb his own manipulative tendencies inside of himself, ironically because of the close relatonship he had formed with the one person he was ever even a little bit honest with Odasaku. 

[originalartblog]

Answering some asks about the dad Murase lives AU under the cut because you are forcing me to think about what I've created (❤)

@inkingkitsune

Murase had to know about N's less-than-savoury work. He was hired as a security guard (thanks to his brother) for a military facility for which he was told to kill any trespassers on sight. And his brother had been legally dead for a decade! But the main difference between the two brothers is that while N will still do horrors in the name of his job, Murase has spent his life after the war trying to help people to atone for what he had to do to survive. I think having to face concrete proof of what his brother did/does, especially without the immediate pressure of war and survival to "justify" his actions, to a kid he's grown somewhat attached to? That would be really hard on him.

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Frankly I had never heard of that theory before, and after considering it, I can't agree with it. The government has expressed barely any interest in Chuuya, N seems to have acted on his own. The PM has so many ability users, and abilities are so unknown to the general public, with or without Chuuya, it was an important move to make, and there was no normal legal way of getting it.

As for Oda... I fear he's going to suffer the same fate. In another post I did wonder if Mori would try to be more careful with Dazai, since we know he was very careful to nurture Chuuya's loyalty and bond to the mafia. But after thinking about it, while Mori felt bitter after Dark Era (please read the light novel), he says he would still do it because the permit was so important to get. Chuuya going away here wasn't his fault, so I see no reason he wouldn't do things especially differently. Maybe he'd feel even more bitter though.

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If Oda dies the same way... it's a fun question. Dazai would leave, Dazai would still refuse to work for the government, so his options are limited. I can't imagine Chuuya leaving at 16, join the ADA, and the mafia not knowing a thing about it? So what would Dazai do? Chuuya left and joined a group and now that group is his only option in Yokohama. If he wants to join them, he'll still have to wait two years for his records to be erased and hidden. And he knows Chuuya is gonna be there, and he knows him!! How frustrating and stressful is that wait going to be?

I'd like Chuuya to be gone when Dazai first joins, so Entrance Exam can still take place in a similar way. Maybe he accompanied Ranpo on his contract out of town? I do wonder if he'd confront Dazai publicly or in private... I'm still not sure how much he told the ADA about his own origins.

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I've decided that Chuuya leaves after the Dragon Head Conflict (after loosing a second set of friends in the same year), because this time, he has someone waiting for him to offer him an out. And this is interesting from a skk point of view. At that point, Dazai has already met both Oda and Ango, and technically, Double Black has made a name of themselves. Chuuya would be leaving at the creation/peak of Double Black, barely giving it enough time to get their name. But all that we know (so far) of what they were up to as teenagers has happened already! And Dazai has met Oda and Ango, he has a support system now! They'll be fine. Well, as fine as their canon counterparts anyway.

This is also funny because their "history" is less than two years of absolute hell, then a 5/6-year gap, and suddenly they're coworkers again.

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Honestly I don't know if Murase would have an opportunity to see it or its repercussions? I doubt he saw Chuuya directly after Verlaine (you know, mafia and all that), and I think Chuuya would be the one to seek him out after the DHC. I truly think you could count the amount of times Corruption was maybe used by Double Black in canon back then on one hand, and in this AU, it's literally only twice. Unless Asagiri planned for another big event and hasn't told us yet, I don't think Chuuya has had to use Corruption again in this AU until Lovecraft.

MAYBE someone would notify Chuuya's dad guardian that his son charge was badly injured, but with Yosano in the room, I doubt it would make it back to him. Same thing with Dead Apple. Murase lives in a blessed world where he knows Chuuya's powerful, but doesn't know the extent of it.

Have a lil' doodle for making it all the way down here! (it's Chuuya's first week or something)

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Just read an amazing fic, and it inspired me to write again!

O.Dazai x gn!reader

I’m sorry in advance

A tug of your finger is all it took. Just one muscle, just one command. One thought of action, and it would be over. It would be truly over.

You stared down at him, his wide hazel eyes as he mentally kicked himself. How could he have not seen this coming?

But then again, how could he ever have imagined this pair of eyes seeking to end his time on this planet. The pair of orbs that he had grown to admire and cherish, the same pair that gazed at him in the wee hours of the morning with so much love, how could they seem so sharp and closed off? How could they look down at him, and only see a mission? Did you manipulate him all throughout? Was your relationship just a mere excuse for this very moment?

He didn’t mind it, actually. If this is how he was to go, he was fine with it. A glamorous end to a man who wished for a glamorous death.

He wondered if he should have actually lived his life when he had the chance, instead of wishing for something that would end his chance of actually being alive.

Wasn’t it ironic? Now that he, a man who longed for death, was at its door, he wanted more time.

But for what?

What would he do if he somehow escaped from this situation? Wouldn’t he go back to his old ways? Back to being the cheery clown who hides behind his mask of nonchalance, someone who only ever opens up to his wavering reflection on his umpteenth glass of whiskey.

Or would he hold you tight and ask you why? Just why you are doing this to him. Why? After so much? After all those memories you had together, after he had finally, finally managed to feel. Just why did you, of all the people on this godforsaken planet, have to betray him?

Maybe he was being delusional, but for a fraction of a second, he saw your resolve waver.

He wouldn’t mind if you put the gun down and played it off as a wild joke. He was ready to believe anything, if it meant for him to have you back. He would happily brainwash himself to think that this never happened, that you never held a gun to his temple.

To his dismay, you cocked the gun.

A shudder escaped your lips as you focused on the man before you.

“Why?”, the handsome brunette that you had spent multiple fortnights with, asked.

“Why, y/n?”, he said, eyeing you with those hypnotising chocolate eyes.

You wondered if you had been living this lie long enough to have started believing in it.

Why did you feel this way? Regret, pain, longing… it was almost as if you didn’t want to complete your mission.

Was it because this charming man had swooned your heart?

“I need to know.”, he said, almost making you drop the gun with his deep voice. A voice that you had grown to seek comfort in.

“You were my mission, Osamu. You always were.”

Dazai scoffed.

“We were more than a bi-product of some mission, y/n”

He pressed his temple into the barrel, almost mocking you for even holding it against him.

“Tell me you felt something too. That it wasn’t just me.”

You opened your mouth to answer him, a hint of fear coursing through your veins at the thought of feeling affection for someone who you were tasked to kill.

“All those nights, when you screamed my name? All those days when you would laugh in my embrace… was that all for nothing, Bella?”

You closed your eyes, clenching your teeth. It was true. You did feel something. You had never felt this way before, but you did with him. You almost craved him. You played it off as something you had to do for the mission, but you secretly enjoyed being with him.

You loved him.

“I… I’m going to be honest.”, you said.

“I love you, Dazai Osamu.”

He smiled gently, glad to have heard the words that he had been longing to hear.

“But my mission is more dear to me than my own life.”

Bang

The silence haunted you. You gasped at him, lying there, lifeless eyes still smirking up at you.

“Osamu?”, you whispered.

You knew what you were doing. You know what you just did.

Then just why were you so mortified? Why did you sink to your knees and scream? Why did you hold his now cold face in your hands and cry?

No matter what you did, the fact will remain; he is gone.

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[k-l-a-w-s]

TW: SU!C!DAL IDEATION [its dazai, cmon]

i think, to some degree, dazais biggest fear is death. we all know how he craves death, but i believe he’s kinda afraid of it at the same time. what dazai wants is control. that’s why HE wants to be the one to kill himself. because if he kills himself, he was the one in control and he chose what happened and no one else got to be in charge of him. in a way, dazai fears vulnerability. so dying by someone else’s hand would mean he had to be vulnerable, and he would absolutely hate that. dazai doesn’t like having people control him. dazai dying because someone else killed him, would be similar to putting him in a position where he didn’t get to make the choices. and dazai loves control. dazai also hates pain, so dying because of someone else would most likely be painful. so dazais biggest fear is technically death, although more specifically it would be dying by someone else’s hand

thank you for coming to my tedtalk-

this is just my opinion tho so if you don’t agree that’s fine-

(would you believe me if i said i’ve read only the most recent chapters and watched the first two episodes all the way through-)

[iwritenarrativesandstuff]

AUGHHH I don't know what happened but an ask got deleted! I am so sorry @doves-fandomstuff, I think you were asking about what might happen next in the Meursault arc and I really enjoyed the ramble you had before but... *sob* it's gone...

Anyways, I'm really hoping we get at least one more chapter before a pov change, since I think it makes little sense to switch back now. See, now that we know Dazai wants the info from Dostoevsky to help the Agency, it'd be a little weird to switch without... actually moving the plot forward at all... idk. I guess we'll see but I really do hope it's not another nine months.

The fun thing about this arc is that

a) it is all these characters at their absolute pettiest (so it's funny as heck)

and b) there are so many characters with their own agendas right now and so many different things they could decide to do

Who's going to move the plot forward? It's hard to say and a lot of things could go right now.

Fyodor: He could manage to escape. He could be killed. He had some reason for picking Chuuya of all people. We still don't know what he intends for the world. I am inclined to think he is only pretending to work for Fukuchi. I honestly think it is far too soon to kill him off.

Dazai: Again, same as above. I don't really think Dazai will die, as his arc is all about finding some reason to live - him dying would seriously detract from that. However, I could see a version of events play out where everyone thinks he's dead. (I know we're tired of the fake out deaths at this point but I think this one could legitimately be interesting...)

Sigma: We have to be building up to something with him. I think Sigma might be the one to get the information somehow, or have an epic moment of some kind. Be great if he was able to transmit info to Atsushi so that Atsushi could finish the arc with that initiative he just found the will for.

Chuuya: Come on. He's got to do something to change things up. Though I've said before how nervous I am about the potential use of Corruption given that Fyodor knows about it... fear...

Gogol: Oh boy. The wildcard of the group. I'm inclined to think he won't stay uninvolved in all this. Will he help Dazai? Fyodor? Mess up both of them? Help both? Who knows?

They've all got different motives here. Fyodor was in the prison for some unknown reason, but it seems he just needs to get out. Perhaps he already accomplished what he came there for. Dazai needs the information from Fyodor to help the Agency, so his job is already a lot harder. Sigma just wants to survive, poor guy, but he's also tired of being used and has just figured out that the Agency and Dazai have a mutually helpful relationship - neither is using the other. I suspect he'll be joining the Agency after. At least I hope so. Chuuya also doesn't want to be controlled. We don't know what he was doing when he got turned, but his priority is to the Mafia and its safety, so he will continue to fight for that. And Gogol wants his freedom above all. I am unsure whether he will continue to seek it through destroying Fyodor and therefore his attachment to him, or whether he will decide he'd be unhappy without him (as with Poe about Ranpo) - but either way is very compelling.

I, personally, hope for a chapter where Chuuya turns on Fyodor in an epic way, which in turn inspires Sigma to take action.

I also really hope for more Gogol focus. I don't talk about him a lot but I really should. He's an excellent character who could really go in many directions at this point in the story, and all would be very, very compelling!

[etrevil]

hey! Do you think that what will happen in meursault will go different than the anime?? Like what happens with soukoku? Whether chuuya is a vamp or not? Or Dazai is alive? Because as far as I remember Fyodor's hand was not injured in the manga like in the anime.....so does this mean something different will take place? So far it has been same...sorry to disturb you, I'm actually very anxious since I love soukoku, Dazai and chuuya very much..

Don't apologize for asking! Now this got my brain cogs turning ahhhhh

Do I think something different will happen? Yeah definitely, firstly because of that good point you brought up about Fyodor's hand, but also because I think Asagiri would do more with the story they currently have than rush it like in the anime. I feel like chapter 110.5 was meant to set suspense, letting the readers think it'll follow the anime but suddenly take a huuuuuge U-turn in something else.

Would absolutely love that actually, no matter how anxious and fearful it makes me.

Now onto the matter of Dazai being alive-

De-Nile is a river in Egypt 🥲

Okay jokes aside I'm seriously grasping onto the fact Dazai was able to speak a few more words after being shot point blank by Chuuya as a HINT he's not yet dead. Very, very, very badly wounded; yes. But not dead, also because I don't think (or wanna think) that Asagiri would end his character off like that.

This can be the same said with Fyodor. Him dying before we even know some of his past? The specifics of his ability? Seems very unlikely, so I'm somewhat convinced he'll be fine and won't have a helicopter accident like his anime counterpart.

Sigma, I wanna talk about him for a moment. I SINCERELY wish Asagiri is going to bring him back soon. I'm semi-believing that he just got knocked out by the overwhelming amount of info he got from Fyodor, cause if he actually did die by C&P, I reckon it'd be a more bloody scene than just his white-eyed stare in that one panel.

Chuuya? In the manga at least, I don't think he's faking the fact he's a vampire. I could believe it in the anime, but with the manga and extra details we have, I'm more inclined to think Chuuya's under the vampirism but he's like, not under its actual control. The scenes where he looked out of breath and where his dark-vampire eyes paled (and his reaction after shooting Dazai, doesn't seem very "hey I'm under mind control I have no free will" of him) have me considering that he's able to override the mind-control effects cause. Seriously tho. Chuuya has a god 24/7 inside of him. Yeah, Arahabaki is probably just a mass of energy and isn't likely to be a voice in Chuuya's head that sasses him, but years handling that sort of mental weight has got to give him an advantage.

-or so I'd like to think. I'm all hypothetical and guessing in my answers btw. Asagiri is writing such a story that so many events can happen that the story itself has its own parallel universe. I can't fathom what they have planned.

Excited for next month tho yeahhhhhh ✨

(also I firmly believe skk has got this in the bag for the simple reason of, the light novels. Shit went down but they got each other 😭)

tl;dr - I do think Asagiri is taking the manga down a different route. Also Sigma lives. And Chuuya's probably an actual vampire but he's not under the mind control thing. Take it with a grain of salt.

[sskk-ao3feed]

the bull and the beast

read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/hiOxLmd by octorose “What game are you playing?” All of Atsushi’s movements are made with the languid grace of a massive predator knowing it’s top dog in the jungle, and has very little to fear. Akutagawa tracks the motions in a corner of his mind, already burning with the desire to run. The predator hasn’t attacked, yet. It’s weak. He has the advantage. Calm, that, Akutagawa tells that part of himself, we’ll get our chance. To Atsushi, he says, “can friends not meet at a restaurant to talk?” “This is a McDonalds.” Atsushi’s voice is flat. “And we aren’t friends.” “Indeed.” Akutagawa eats another chicken nugget. It gives him something to do. He is not sure what to do, now that he is here. He thought—what? What did he think would happen? (After Dazai's funeral, Akutagawa finds himself at a McDonalds, contemplating his life without the man in black in it. Little does he know that Atsushi would do the same, igniting a fight between them. The outcome of said fight may surprise them both, and give them the purpose they hope for). Words: 4275, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English Series: Part 4 of bungo stray dogs acaciapines edition Fandoms: 文豪ストレイドッグ�� | Bungou Stray Dogs Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Categories: Gen, M/M Characters: Akutagawa Ryuunosuke (Bungou Stray Dogs), Nakajima Atsushi (Bungou Stray Dogs), Izumi Kyouka (Bungou Stray Dogs) Relationships: Akutagawa Ryuunosuke & Nakajima Atsushi (Bungou Stray Dogs), Akutagawa Ryuunosuke/Nakajima Atsushi (Bungou Stray Dogs), Izumi Kyouka & Nakajima Atsushi (Bungou Stray Dogs), Akutagawa Gin & Akutagawa Ryuunosuke Additional Tags: Mentioned Akutagawa Gin, Mentioned Dazai Osamu (Bungou Stray Dogs), Alternate Universe - BEAST Light Novel (Bungou Stray Dogs), Post-BEAST Light Novel (Bungou Stray Dogs), Awkward Akutagawa Ryuunosuke (Bungou Stray Dogs), Tiger Nakajima Atsushi (Bungou Stray Dogs), Nakajima Atsushi Needs a Hug (Bungou Stray Dogs), pretty much just. dazai what have you done the post beast fic, me when im trying to move on after this guy that i hate dies and i didnt even get to kill him, this fic may be a parallel to mcdonalds playplace fic but Man. its Serious, by the end you can interpret this as romantic or not its up to you!! read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/hiOxLmd

[pokemonruby]

thoughts about the finale of the bsd anime since it's my favorite manga and the adaptation has consistently let me down and this was definitely no exception. obviously spoilers so don't read ahead if you aren't caught up.

so, to summarize, it was sorely underwhelming. at least from my perspective. there's a strong possibility that this is not canonical since they actually ran out of material to adapt and this could just be an exclusive ending to tie the anime up (even then, it was a laughably poor finale) so its shortcomings may not be reflected at all in the original product, though we'll still have a few months i imagine to see if that is indeed the case. but the writing was so unspeakably clumsy. fyodor is a criminal mastermind, a threat feared by even ranpo, the smartest character in the series. and yet you mean to tell me that he didn't even realize that chuuya was, what - wearing fake teeth and colored contacts? i call bullshit. i still think dazai, in the manga at least, will pull some trick to squeeze himself out of a death sentence and he isn't actually dead since that would be woefully anticlimatic for his character arc, but i want him to be backed into a corner as well. i want them to back each other into a corner instead of giving dazai the advantage the entire way through since that hardly makes for a compelling battle of wits. but that doesn't even mention all the build-up they've done in regards to fyodor's backstory. sigma knows the truth now due to the information exchange. his ability, his motives. but they don't even address that or even address sigma's fate at that. dazai seemed genuine when he swore he would help sigma escape. he specifically told him "i'll leave the rest up to you," which is redundant if he was in control of the situation the entire time. it feels unfinished and counterproductive. and i know that can be blamed on the allotted time they're allowed per episode but man, it's unfortunate. again i'm really praying that the manga pulls through, since it has the freedom to spin this around and give us the answers to the mystery they've been teasing since fyodor's introduction basically and if he does die, which its quite obvious fyodor will eventually since at the end of the day he is the main antagonist, maybe it'll have some more substance to it as opposed to whatever power of friendship bs we were humbly treated to in today's episode.

surprisingly, the best part of the episode for me was everything with fukuzawa and fukuchi. i thought the way they handled that was actually really well done and it paints fukuchi in a more sympathetic light at least, and fukuzawa's reaction to his death was soul-crushing. something something old man yaoi always prevails. also i'm not addressing whatever happened in the epilogue i think that's just for bad apple part 2 or whatever they're cooking up behind the scenes but it certainly came out of left field.

tldr it was not great, and i'm holding out for asagiri in the coming months with the manga, but if it indeed turns out the same way as it did in the anime... hmm.

[bungoustraypups]

from @mixxdpunch

i will say something that these tags made me think about and that ive also thought about before. this has to do with two main things: mori never getting the chance to be saved/brought into the light like the others we've seen leave the darkness, and mori's PTSD:

fukuchi was hailed as a war hero because the government propped him up as one, which was fucked up and ultimately led to uh. stares at the current arc/end of season 5. yeah.

fukuzawa's role during the war was largely unknown outside of the government due to him being an assassin, but fukuzawa also got an opportunity mori didn't.

a running theme in bsd is being brought out of the darkness and into the light by someone else. we see it happen to dazai through oda, to atsushi through dazai, to kyouka through atsushi, and arguably, to ranpo and fukuzawa through each other and with natsume's help when starting the agency, as well as to yosano through ranpo (and fukuzawa but it was ranpo who specifically extended that hand to her, literally and metaphorically)

in stormbringer, murase attempts to do that with chuuya, but is killed before he can, and chuuya ultimately ends up deciding that his family and home are with the port mafia, even when he's offered the chance to leave (by mori himself, no less, which given what i'm about to say, harms me with beams and it'll harm you too once you think about it after this)

kouyou tried leaving the PM during the reign of the old boss with the guy she was in love with, but they failed and he was killed, which left kouyou traumatized and unwilling to ever try again. notably, mori also offers her the opportunity to leave, specifically because of kyouka, which she declines in favor of staying in the mafia to help him, because she supports and notably likes him (btw, anyone who denies that kouyou likes mori or insists she only likes him because he's not as bad as the former boss and not because she trusts his leadership/him... i'm not sure what series you're reading/watching but i think we're not consuming the same series)

but there is a similarity between mori and fukuchi that i feel isn't often discussed, but exists nonetheless:

neither of them were ever offered the opportunity to step into the light

though both of them reacted differently and took different paths because of this (fukuchi played the role of a "hero" while ultimately plotting to enact a plan he not only knew would destroy that image, but also would prevent anyone else from bearing witness to the horrors of war, which changed him as a person and thus made his greatest fear come true, and mori turns himself into a villain in the eyes of those outside of his organization and plays the role accordingly, ignoring and snubbing his own feelings in favor of doing what must be done for the greater good, even when that harms him immensely, and often doing things which intentionally reinforce that outside image of him as an evil villain in order to maintain the balance which keeps the city he loves from falling into chaos and ruin, while suffering the loneliness his position and its image brings to him), that much is clear in the narrative

mori never got the option to be saved. no one ever extended that hand from the darkness into the light to him. the single exception to this is in BEAST, where he's forced out of the mafia, and is ultimately able to live a better life; arguably, the life he's probably wanted to live for a very long time, but was unable to due to, you know, not being offered or given the chance

after the war, we know he became an underground doctor and met natsume, though we're not sure the order of those things. however, we can probably assume that mori and fukuzawa met natsume around the same time given that they both know him when they meet, and we know that fukuzawa met natsume a year after meeting ranpo, and his and mori's partnership lasts for a year after that. we also know fukuzawa is already in the process of forming the agency when he meets mori, and is only guarding him because natsume told him to. this means that two parts of the tripartite agreement - the agency and the government - were already in place. the last piece was the port mafia. we also know mori is dedicated to the greater good of the people around him, since we see this mentality reflected both during his war days and as the boss of the port mafia (and even before that). so that means when natsume presented him with the choice of joining the tripartite plan, the only spot left was as the boss of the port mafia. surely natsume had to know that mori would accept the position, given how he wanted to protect the city and was suffering, as everyone else was, from the unrest brought on by the old boss's reign

given how bloody the old boss's reign was, you have to wonder if mori truly felt like the war ever ended. in fact, during his fight with fukuzawa, he says this:

i don't think mori feels this way at current time in the manga given that yokohama is now relatively stable, but back then, he definitely had the mind of a man who was still in the war. similar to fukuchi (and also gide, for that matter), who never truly left the battlefield behind due to his role as a hunting dog, mori also went from one war to another: the great war, to the war in yokohama

this, by the way, is what i mean when i say mori has PTSD. fukuchi also has a similar form of it, though his is still directly linked to military service, and mori's was continued by virtue of him getting involved in a life of crime, but it's a similar thing nonetheless. PTSD manifests in many ways, and most notably for the two of them, theirs means they went to war and even though their bodies came back, their minds never really left. it makes you wonder if mori has moments where even he doesn't realize that he's not on the battlefield anymore

do you think during the scene after kyuu is taken hostage and the guild uses their ability to wreak havoc on the city, where mori's looking at the bodies of over 100 of his men in bodybags, do you wonder if he felt a nauseating sense of deja vu that he had to ignore. do you think part of his regret and guilt in that scene comes from his past. because i do. i think about it a lot

asagiri what did you mean when you had mori say dazai reminded him of himself right after dazai talked extensively abt how mori shouldve let him kill himself after he took over the PM. what did you mean by that. why did you have a whole scene of mori miserably folding the gifted business permit into a paper airplane and tossing it off his desk after dazai left at the end of dark era. why did you have mori look so crushed when dazai said he burned the coat he gave him in the guild war arc. dont run away i just wanna talk

more importantly. asagiri why do fukuzawa and mori still have each others phone numbers saved. how frequently do they talk to each other. why was their first instinct upon seeing each other in dead apple to help the other defeat their ability bc they knew they couldnt do it on their own bc they knew they had what the other one was missing that was necessary to do it. more importantly how did they realize that so quickly. what did you mean when you let harukawa draw mori like that in the cannibalism scene where hes standing over fukuzawa about to kill him saying "what a shame" why does he look so devastated. asagiri. ASAGIRI OPEN UP

[victoria1676]

Sagau Brainrot: Reader having the same abilities as Nakajima Atsushi from Bungou Stray Dogs

(Reader is Female here unfortunately so i apologize for those who want it non-binary or gender neutral TwT)

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Heyo its been a while

Its 2am in the night time but i was lucky to finish this yet i am very tired especially i just finished midterms and still have to make 7 assignments due next week ugh DX

Anyways please enjoy this brainrot that I tried my best to expand it 😭 I'll work on my other brainrots soon and my story as well when i have the time but currently im very packed this month ugh TwT

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So like I haven't watched Bungou stray dogs in long time and im avoiding Season 4 due to the fact i have already read the manga and knows that Season 4 is the darkest arc including i guess there is a chance season 5 will also be dark if i remember the manga correctly 🤔

Have I read the Beast AU or read it?

N OT U N D E R M Y W A T C H

My personal reason is that i was able to get a summary out of it and since that summary made me cry and learn what happened to Beast Dazai I cried the fact i loved him so much and that au was painful 😭😭

But anyways this is my personal opinion however if you want to read Beast AU Bungou Stray dogs I recommend that you guys prepare tissues cause the angst of that au is very sad but if you able to handle then props to you UwU but i can say is that the au is very interesting and I don't mind you guys reading it UwU However you must read the Original Bungou Stray Dogs since Beast Au is the parallel universe of it. The manga is currently still on going but the Anime is out by 3 seasons and season 4 currently coming out soon.

So yeah lets go to my Brainrot UwU

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Warnings: Mentions of Abuse

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So this won't have the creator au thing this time unfortunately but it is more like I want to go back to the original concept of what sagau a.k.a self-aware as I am referring to the self-aware au were no god reader but just a regular reader who plays the game and is not aware the charas are self-aware and they are all fond with her whether it is platonic, romantic, possessive or obsessed with her.

As I mentioned reader has the abilities of Atsushi from Bungou stray dogs and has the same past as him however it's a bit different for the reader as her past is something I came up a bit sad about but not something excruciating to add since we all know how Atsushi's past is like especially you can see the worst of it in the manga 😭

Beast Beneath the Moonlight will not be an ability since the reader is not from the BSD world but this ability is something like a curse that the reader has to go through in tough times and has resented having it because if she wasn't born with it then she would have never been given up by her parents to the orphanage or thrown to such pain of being thrown back to the orphanages after all her previous foster parents deemed her a "Freak" or "Monster" and so on but they very physically hurt her since the reader was a very like a normal kid a first glance only these parents got the taste of fear seeing her curse.

Luckily around the age of 12, she finally got herself adopted by a person who is a writer and was one of the people who was like her, having a strange curse or rather an ability. It took time for the reader to get used to her new father and slowly trust him as he did not even react badly to seeing her transformation except he decided to help with her powers. Now grown up and able to live a normal life and keep a secret of her powers, the reader found herself loving a certain fantasy game called Genshin Impact that was recommended by her friends.

The game was very amazing and Reader loved it so much and also ignored the huge negative side of the game and tried to enjoy the lore and exploration.

Only she found herself Isekai out of nowhere.

There are endless possibilities about how Reader will appear in Genshin and I had to revise this many times LMAO

So like I decided she has been in the wilderness for like a week and there have been rumors spreading to all Teyvat of a strange dangerous Beast that usually prowls or appears at night time either running around or scaring away Treasure hoarders and sometimes the Fatui. And I guess it is up to you guys who would find her first OwO!

I feel like everyone would be fascinated with Reader’s transformation and I am sure there have been times reader suddenly gets cats attracted to them causing poor Venti to sneeze so much due to how many cats are near reader XD

Reader be getting along with Diona or any cat-like hybrid. As someone commented, the reader is like them, in which the reader fires back at them saying "I'M A TIGER NOT A CAT!"

But honestly people would find the reader 's abilities very fascinating.

And then they realize the reader could heal her wounds after some panic, getting stabbed or injured and trying to take her to a healer but instead her wounds healed rapidly.

I also imagine readers have similarities with Atsushi but personality wise it's up to you guys how you imagine a reader's personality is like with having the same Abilities like Atsushi.

But yeah what do you guys think? XD

This will have part 2 soon but a different version.

Part 2 will mainly be a cult au where the reader does not control the charas in the modern world but the reader is born in Genshin and is still a god but I guess it's still a sagau but a bit different since cult au and sagau are similar yet different I guess 🤔

The reason why I sound a bit excited in Part 2 of this brain rot? Because reader will be in the Fatui 

But she will be someone who is usually in the shadows doing most dirty work and is always near Tsaritsa like a Shadow UwU

I won't spoil much but you can ask me more of this brain rot if you like XD

So goodnight! ^^

[videogamelover99]

random but I want to know how skk’s dynamics developed and grew in that AU where they both fled the PM and hid together. So bad. Its consuming my mind.

Asagiri really did a what if and left us here.

Bruh, I have a whole PLOT in my head because what needs to happen for this to be in-character???

Somehow, Dazai asked Chuuya to come with him. Somehow, Chuuya agreed?? What kind of pitch would Dazai need to make for that to happen???

If they left the PM at the same time, what did they do those two years Dazai was under the radar? They had to be with each other 24/7. How did they not kill each other. Then did they just both show up to talk to Taneda? Did Taneda look at them and go "ah yes the most feared criminal duo in all of Japan wanting to be the Good Guys lemme write a reccomendation for them this is hilarious".

Did they have sepparate exams? Did the Azure Messenger arc still happen? Did Chuuya see Kunikida's "must save everyone no matter what" attitude and was like "yikes been there dude don't do that". Does Kunikida still end up as Dazai's new partner? Are they a trio? Does Atsushi in the future look at the two of them and go "hey how come you guys aren't partners" only for skk to give him the loudest silence ever before ranting about to horrible that would be and "I can't stand that guy what makes you think we can work together?!"

If they stuck around each other for so long and did not kill each other in the end it means they're best friends now, right? There is no other option, you don't walk away from your new criminal "family" with a guy and still pretend like you don't like him. You don't invite a guy to leave a criminal organization for you and not have to confront that he means the world to you. The CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT that needed to happen.

...Do they meet Dostoyevsky together while in exile?

Does Chuuya still get to see his parents?

[kyouka-supremacy]

please talk more about chuuaku

Brain empty no thoughts only chuuaku. It's so good!!! It's hard to pin down one reason why I like them, but I'm just... Very attracted by how realistic the ship feels. Allow me to elaborate: they're very different. They're not different as in “we perfectly complement each other”, they're not different in “we're opposite but we're actually the same and no one gets you like I do”. They're just different. They do NOT understand each other. They have different backgrounds and different experiences and different personalities. They didn't hate each other on sight, for a while they just kind of existed in the same environment. And that's so appealing for me!! It's so good because that's... Something that actually happens. That's part of their charm for me, because people in real life don't really come in perfect sets of oddly specific complimentary designs or 21 cm of height difference or suspiciously resembling mythical enemy creatures from eastern mythology; but people do happen to work at the same work place, maybe to start hanging out more, maybe to start falling for each other. I just find it very sweet! About that, I really like the aspect that since they don't understand reach other, there's the compelling necessity to getting to know each other. I feel like that isn't something that's there with s/kk and ss/kk: with those pairs it's usually this weird mix of hate at first sight and understanding each other like no one else does. With chuuaku, Akutagawa and Chuuya are just different: that means for them there needs to be an actual, mutual effort to understand the other. I like to think about them eventually going through a phase of the kind “I realize this person isn't what I initially thought of them. As it turns out, the idea I had of them was so far from reality, I could as well have never known them at all. Suddenly, for reasons I can't explain, I feel like I want to get to know them”; and it's SO compelling. The growing closer!! The growing together. Like where the other ships are just pushing each other's buttons all the time and usually bringing out the worst out of each other, I feel like Akutagawa and Chuuya could really bring the best out of each other. It's not the constant angst of getting together and breaking up s/kk have going on (which I understand has its own appeal!), but sometimes it's nice when a person can unequivocally be your safe place, you know? Instead of constant mistrust and doubt and fear of being left, just. a person you can fully trust they will always have your back. Having found each other in a world that has made both of them suffer so much so long, and being happy together? Finding happiness together? Idk, I just find it really sweet. At this point, I'm pretty much the “what your favorite x ship says about you” girl going “You just want the best for Akutagawa and Chuuya, and really, who doesn't?”, but isn't that true?? They deserve each other, they deserve a break after everything the world threw at them.

But then again, it's not just a matter of what I want for them, I truly believe they're compatible! Just not in the “soulmates perfectly crafted to be together” way, but in a more realistic way, which again is arguably even more appealing? It's the “Soulmates aren't found, they're made. People meet, they get a good feeling, and then they get to work building a relationship” thing. I like the graduality of the whole thing. I like the falling in love slowly and unintentionally. In my headcanon, Akutagawa and Chuuya weren't in good terms for a very long time, up to at least when Dazai left. I like to think they didn't know each other past their own reputations - I doubt they had many occasions to interact - and just kinda vaguely disliked each other: on Akutagawa's end lied a slightly stronger dislike, given he most definitely didn't like Chuuya as someone who constantly insulted and disrespected Dazai-san and someone Dazai himself wasn't in appearance very fond of (to be fair, there's probably quite a few things in the world 16 or something y/o Akutagawa didn't deeply hate or was angry at) (also, now that I think about it, young Akutagawa was probably jealous of how close Dazai and Chuuya were, as well as of Chuuya being Dazai's partner). On Chuuya's side, I can imagine him not really disliking Akutagawa, but probably being sorta pissed at him for how frequently he made a mess in his missions, his whole kill-kill main-maim attitude, plus lowkey disapproving the whole Dazai idolization thing. Meaning there's so much space for growth starting from there, and that's so appealing, especially after Dazai left the pm! They probably both felt lost and betrayed for their own reasons at that point, and if I don't think they mourned together in the immediate aftermath (though the concept is sweet on its own), I think that has the potential of having brought the two of them closer. Like *this* is the first time when, unexpectedly, they suddenly started understanding each other; because they were going through the same pain. In a way or the other, Dazai was a very close person to both of them who also hurt them beyond words; the moment he left, they were to each other the only person that could understand what they were going through.

But there's potential even besides that tbh? I just want... Akutagawa and Chuuya who are changed and matured some time after Dazai left, and happen to spend time with each other because of a mission or something (will probably get more chances to work together after Akutagawa was promoted. Idk. indulge me on this), and both realizing they're actually so different from the idealized version they had made of each other. And that actually the other isn't so bad after all. And that actually spending more time with them would be nice. And that actually they would like to learn more about the other. I come back to the very initial point, everything about them has the potential to have such a natural and realistic development (as much as a bsd ship can be natural and realistic), and sorry for being a basic broke 21 y/o student but tbh there's literally nothing more romantic than having a stable job and falling in love on the work place with someone who also has a stable job and having no financial trouble and also coming home to the person you love like. Idk about you but that's literally the dream, don't you ever want a break from the endless s/kk angst or ss/kk being a literal tragedy?

And besides everything, their personalities truly DO feel compatible to me!! And really it's not the “we're so compatible we keep clashing with each other”, it's the “we actually work well together”. I'm thinking about Chuuya doing most of the speaking and Akutagawa being a good listener even if he doesn't talk a lot. Chuuya actually enjoying Akutagawa's silent company: Chuuya liking how, compared to most people he interacts with at the pm, Akutagawa's not really afraid to speak his mind, and the few times he talks he WILL be blunt; Chuuya cherishes that. I'm thinking about Akutagawa learning to love and to be loved through Chuuya. I'm thinking about them being the only safe place for each other, this stable island in a world that has hurt them so much they know won't betray them. I'm thinking about them talking about pm matters at home and having this loving and domestic life both of them oh so deserve. I'm thinking about their eyes imperceptibly lighting up and their respective days being made whenever they stumble across each other at work. I'm thinking about THEM

(Side note, but I need domestic chuuaku with Akutagawa complaining about Atsushi– you know, the usual “I hate that Jinko so much, he's so incredibly stupid and unbelievably hypocrite, annoying and weak”, the usual Akutagawa being unable to stop talking about Atsushi 24/7 EXCEPT THIS TIME HE'S ACTUALLY HONEST and not tsunderely complaining about him like he would realistically do in every other universe. A weird universe where Akutagawa is GENUINELY pissed at Atsushi and it's not... Really hate anymore and more of huge annoyance towards this dude you keep having to work with. Akutagawa complaining to Chuuya over dinner in the lines of “Dazai paired me up again with Jinko” “What a bitch” because no more existential dread, THAT'S the kind of light-hearted daily issues I want them both to have.)

And like for chuuaku to exist automatically implies such a big character development for Akutagawa one can't help but love!! Like all Akutagawa ships are inherently beautiful and perfect for their added value of bring to the picture Akutagawa, the most cruel and ruthles and especially emotionless character, being able to feel love. It's just a bonus win from the start lmao. But I feel chuuaku additionally must involve an Akutagawa who's grown and healed past his several mentor complexes which is... A lot, and it's very heartwarming? Akutagawa dating Chuuya, who is superior to him in hierarchy and most likely in fight power, but doing so peacefully because he's long let go of his fixations over demonstrations of power / his perception of power being an indicator of your value as a human being. AND and also Akutagawa dating his ex-mentor's most despised person, letting go of his obsession with Dazai and belief that Dazai is infallible and never wrong: in a way, Akutagawa finally and resolutelly disowning Dazai as his mentor– and without replacing him with a new one, because he doesn't need to be guided anymore, because he's master of his own fate!! Overall Akutagawa becoming a calmer, more loving, more mature person. Good for him. That's also why I can see them getting together only after some time– because the ship speaks of a big growth in their characters, a growth they can go through together, and that is undeniably fun to explore. It would also be nice if Chuuya fell first and Akutagawa second, for a change. I mean, Chuuya seems at least a little more conscious of his own feelings, while Akutagawa definitely took years, years, to get over his twisted feelings for Dazai. And Chuuya's feelings for Dazai are just as complex as Akutagawa's, but seriously I think part of him must have been happy to finally let Dazai go, even if that hurt; because Dazai definitely hurt Chuuya a lot, but I feel like at least Chuuya was more conscious about how much it damaged him compared to Akutagawa. And that's such a juicy aspect, navigating through their own feelings for Dazai alone and together.

But seriously most of everything it's the whole feeling of being SAFE of the ship. I think I use that word a lot when talking about chuuaku, but it's literally all it's about for me. It's knowing you can rely on someone. It's knowing there's someone who will always protect you (I mean, they're two of the most powerful pm operatives, they're bound to feel safe with each other). But it's also the knowing the other would never betray them like they've been betrayed in the past!! There's this specific certainty to this ship that the other person would never abandon them I feel other ships (s/kk and ss/kk) could hardly have, and it's so unspeakably nice. I want them both to feel protect and safe, and it's the kind of final happiness and domesticity only them can give each other. And it's GREAT.

Tl; dr: Chuuaku has so much to offer and it's so different compared to the classic s/kk / ss/kk dynamics and although I get it's not everyone's cup of tea it is MY cup of tea and I WILL proceed to stan them untill I die.

[xo-cuteplosion-xo]

“Feelings don’t make you weak, they make you human.”

Ahhh, it’s been so long since I’ve done anything here! Forgive me if I’m a little rusty in the x reader department|

Dazai & Chuuya X Reader who struggles with emotion.

“Feelings don’t make you weak, they make you human.”

Words: (956: Dazai-521 Chuuya-435)

Dazai

Moonlit skies, fireworks, and parties, sweet things most people enjoy. So why, when you look into the mirror, do you see indifference? Should these things make you feel happy? What was it like to feel happy? Were you happy and didn’t know? With each passing day, sitting side by side with coworkers and friends, the weight of your mask continued to grow. A smile here, a tear there, all too easy to seem normal and alright. Who said you needed to feel to be complete? Feelings made people act out, and that involved pain.

The first real overwhelming emotion you could recognize came to you in a breakdown. It was a sense of overwhelming stress and confusion. Unable to hold it together anymore, you simply resorted to sharp breathing and tears. How did somebody deal with this onslaught of pain normally? Was this a normal reaction?

Caught up within your mind, you missed the entrance of a brunette. You did not realize his presence until you were hugged from behind. “Your crying…” If anybody understood it would be him. He whose mind was in shambles and struggling to keep together on its own. He who had lived in the darkness and sunk into the stench of death, letting go of almost all his emotions until he truly was no longer human. He had recognized your mask the first day his eyes met yours. How could he not? He wore one, feigning happiness, a diversion from the question, “are you alright?”.

Your hand lifted mindlessly to touch your cheek, surprised at the feeling that slipped over your fingers. Damp and cool, an unfamiliar sensation. “I guess I am?”

Dazai took a few steps away from you. His mind is working on ways to comfort you. A person so similar to himself that at times, he was scared to face you in fear of having to face himself and his darker corners. “Did something happen?” he’d tried this body of water carefully, as if at any word he might find something bite him.

“No? I just hurt…” the sound of your twisted voice, the confusion glimmering within your eyes truly worried him. If you did not know what was wrong, how could he, who struggled in the same way, help? “Dazai… is it okay… to feel like this when I’ve never… been able to feel normally before?”

The brunette took a step forward, hesitant at first, but his eyes softened. Whenever he was with you... he felt things he’d long since lost within the past. “Y/n, It’s okay.” His words were tender and soft as he held your cheek in his palm. Letting you lean into the touch. As if you’d never truly felt wanted like this, your body leaned against his hand. Your own hand coming up to cup his. Slowly, the aching pain died down. When you’d expected to feel that numb, disinterested feeling, your heart surprised you again.

Your chest was warm, lighter, enough that you felt you could smile. “We can learn to be human, together,” Dazai whispered, his words soothing over any residual feeling of hurt.

~

Chuuya:

Today had been rough, the betrayal of a man who had been trusted left your empty chest aching. Curled up against yourself, hands holding your legs as you rocked yourself. What was this pain? The normally cool and collected numbness had left, leaving you with this ache. Feelings were a weakness, they made things difficult. Yet, you were feeling something, whether you could recognize what it was, did not matter.

With your eyes shut tightly and your mind making up thousands of excuses to compensate for the feeling, you didn’t register the company sliding into your room. You did not fight back when you were easily lifted onto the bed. “Oi, since when do you cry?” Ah, perhaps that was insensitive?

The loud voice of a familiar friend grabbed your attention. Your head tilting up and eyes focusing on him. It took a moment to register what he said before you touched your cheek. When was the last time you’d cried?

The sight was foreign to Chuuya, so used to your dead expression he needed a moment to collect himself. You had never cracked an expression similar to emotion before. The only expression he’d ever seen you wear were the masks. The only expressions he’d seen without a mask were the empty, lifeless expressions you had naturally. “Sorry Chuuya, I’m not usually this week.”

Weak? When had feeling something been considered a weakness? Sure it could get in the way of actions, but it kept people from becoming machines. His own feelings could cause problems, but it helped him keep himself sane. Feeling was no weakness. If you could learn to recognize and deal with your emotions, you could easily make them an advantage for yourself. “Y/n, who told you emotions made you weak?” On a night like tonight, he knew the reason why you felt the way you did. Though you may not see it, he could tell how much a certain suicidal maniac's betrayal hurt you.

You tilted your head as if confused by his words, unsure what he was trying to get at. “Emotions are a nuisance, those that feel end up hurt.” Chuuya gripped onto your shoulders, looking you in the eyes sternly as he clicked his tongue.

“Emotions do not make you weak, they make you human. Are you stupid? I thought you had some brains in that head of yours Y/n!” His brows pulled together, but he wasn’t angry. You could see that, and your eyes reflected an emotion similar to joy. His insults kindled your heart, inflicted the start of emotions you could hopefully learn to recognize.

~

[ranpoismyblorbo]

HI I HAVE A BSD THEORY DO YOU WANNA KNOW WHAT IT IS @akuutaguava @glittercrashhh @panic-at-the-gender @boombboi @11nolongerhuman @elvearryn @chuuy-a @akutacowa @flower-of-darkness @adultkiddo @prued-crime @ginnyweasley16 @existential-dread-in-the-am @lillybet-the-overlord @saintsprotecttheghoul @thebgcharacter @rirk-ke @yukiko-otaku @its-a-journal-of-ideals @jas-sea @tainted--sorrow @dusted-star @snow-bloss0m @qu-ilinn @mrsdazais-blog @bungoustraypups @noticemeakusenpai @the-walls-have-many-ears @galacticfairytheweeb @jessbeinme15 @alexanderthepatrochillestrash @confusedinsominiac yes i tagged the entire discord server that I were showing up in that suggestions bar thingy and what about it well too bad if you don't you're getting it

Special credits to @fruitpunchsamurai16 for making it devolve into angst WHICH IT INITIALLY WAS NOT-majorly-

Ok so one ADA member is to be switched over to the PM on exchange for their help as per the deal Mori and Fukuzawa made and everyone except Yosano is up for the taking yes??

Now the OBVIOUS pick is Dazai. Because duh Mori has literally been obsessed with getting him back for ages. But i feel like a. It's too obvious and b. Mori wouldn't want to get Dazai to his side like this because he knows there's a full chance Dazai will find some way to betray WHILE upholding the deal. So he's out for now and in regards to this theory.

Next some might think Atsushi because MC right?? But that's a clear and resounding no cuz while Atsushi HAS been important in the general ongoings in Yokohama and been central to the conflicts, he HIMSELF possesses no real value for Mori and no power or ability that he can exploit because Atsushi isn't the strongest one out there in the first place (not consistently anyways) and he doesn't have any fears Mori can exploit and manipulate him with as he doesn't particularly FEAR his own death like yea he would PREFER to live but he's willing to die to save others and then there's the ADA but he [Atsushi] knows they can hold their own so yeah Atsushi's out as well.

Some might think Kyouka is an option and again no because she already betrayed them once on her own and Mori again cannot exploit her enough and doesn't particularly have a use for her since he already has the same-ish ability in his possession through Kouyou.

Now we're in likely to happen scenarios.

The next most viable is Kunikida for obvious reasons if you think about it. He's an important member of the Agency, the second in command, the one who keeps them all organised and functional on a day to day basis and an important pillar that supports Fukuzawa and the entire ADA. If taken away it would be a huge blow to all of them and just yeah it would be bad.

Now the next one (which this entire theory centered around originally) is one that would seem random but just hear me out ok.

NAOMI. Think about it, Tanizaki has a very powerful ability specially as a stealth operative and its an amazing weapon in fights as well. If Naomi was taken Tanizaki would protest it, he'd stand up against the President and he would most likely even try to infiltrate the Port Mafia HQ to get her and run away but obviously he would get caught if he tried that (as Yuki @fruitpunchsamurai16 pointed out yes he took out the Black Lizard on his own but in all fairness the Agency takes them out routinely it's part of both parties' daily schedules at this point and also Chuuya would mop the floor with him regardless of whether his ability is at an all time best but whatever.) And as we all know Tanizaki would rain hellfire on earth to protect Naomi so after all the rebelling eventually the end result would be him willing to do anything to protect Naomi and there you go ONE SHINY PORT MAFIA SPY IN THE ARMED DETECTIVE AGENCY!!!!!

Anyways this was SUPPOSED to be it but Yuki tried to get back at me and suggested what if Fukuzawa gets picked (which is also possible) so everything now is copied from whatsapp:

Yuki: Fine I'll do it myself. Fukuzawa's skill is invaluable to make him the leader of a squad, maybe of strong but unpredictable ability users, because he can make it so they can control their abilities. He's also a great leader and a capable swordsman, a good tactician, and inspires loyalty. Plus he's the kind of guy who'd stick to his word, so if Mori made him join he wouldn't do anything to escape the agreement, even if he's reluctant. And imagine the horror of the ada having to fight against their collective dad. And obviously m*ri would have a blast making one of his greatest enemies work for him.

Me *sad and kinda mad for the angst*: (you wanna play this game-) Hey and imagine Natsume (Natsuma??) sensei seeing Fukuzawa in this state and lamenting ever taking those two under his wing and bringing them together. And Fukuzawa having to regress to his White Wolf days and assassinate people again. And Mori having a blast. And then eventually imagine Fukuzawa having to go up against the ADA and while it would be heartbreaking for everyone, imagine the Ranpo and Fukuzawa encounter and despite Ranpo and everyone wanting to believe he's still good Mori has made him do so much he's started to like dissociate or something to cope. So the person they see isn't the same President they knew. And then there's a lot of angst.

So yeah there y'all go i also have a short but sad Dazai backstory theory but yeah