#as much as i love dubbing on cazador

[fangsandfeels]

It just occurred to me...

...that nothing was really stopping Cazador from Ascending aside from his lack of brain cells.

If the chamberlain guy was afraid that he'd become a replacement in the ritual to the point he tried to fake his suicide (and overdid it), it probably was technically possible.

The kidnapped victims weren't connected with their kidnappers through blood - none of the Cazador's spawns bit them. Cazador did. Cazador easily became a replacement for Astarion in the Ascension ritual - which meant there were no specific requirements for the sacrificial lamb aside from the runes on their skin.

So, technically, Cazador didn't need to catch Astarion to continue the ritual. He could have easily Turned any other person into a spawn, carved the runes, and proceeded with his plan. Only one piece of the contract was missing and it was rather easy to replace.

But he just had to be a little bitch about it. He just couldn't let it go even for a moment. He had to show who's The Boss. He had to Make a Point.

He spent tendays, months coping and seething over his bruised ego, refusing to proceed with the Ritual before Astarion came back -- and in his self-obsessed mind Astarion had no choice to come back because the opposite would be an insult to his Vampire Lord status.

The Ascension was literally at his fingertips. He could have Ascended, walked out into the sunlight, and used all that newly gained power to find Astarion himself.

But did he do that? Noo.

He chose to stomp off to his bitching corner and make an Astarion-shaped salt mine in his diary.

[meanbossart]

Okay but I would love to hear your thoughts on the other spawn

Twirling my hair shifty-eyeing to the side OKAAAYYYYY WELL IF YOU INSIST 🛀

(This is a continuation of this post where I go into some detail about my thoughts on Dalyria, Violet, and Leon ((or "Leonard" as I apparently dubbed him as by mistake))

Let me start with the one I love the most after my sweet well-meaning-child-murdering-doctor Dalyria: Pale Petras.

First of all, just look at this fucking guy. What a goober.

I pretty explicitly go off-canon when it comes to my theories about Petras. According to him, he has been with Cazador for a hundred years - I find that very, very difficult to believe. Whether I would scrap that line entirely or just tack it as hyperbole is irrelevant - though he does seem to have a knack for the dramatics, or at least he tries to.

Petras immediately strikes me as a newcomer in the group. He's the most lively out of the spawn we chat with and seems to still retain what is a pretty strong, bold personality. He's antagonizing towards Astarion and pretty much sides with Cazador up until his life is on the line - and, most interestingly to me, his immediate reaction after being freed if you instruct them to lead the spawn into the Underdark seems to be one of fear and reluctance, unlike Dalyria who almost immediately takes the responsibility upon herself and seems warm towards Astarion and the player for what they've done.

Abusive relationships don't start abusive. If you've ever been friends with someone who's hooked up with a known serial abuser, chances are that you have had to sit through their attempts at justifying their behavior as foretold by previous partners - "oh, they just weren't a good match", "they both enabled abuse towards each other", "his ex was just crazy, man." This honeymoon period can last anywhere from a few weeks, to several years - until said friend inevitably finds themselves in the exact same cycle that said ex escaped from.

That's Petras. Petras is fresh meat. He's compliant. He's gullible. As a human in a world where you're surrounded by races that live up to several hundreds of years, he's attributed power to longevity - he loves being a spawn. He loves knowing that he will never lose his youthful looks and that his newly-acquired "curse" makes him desirable in it's own, odd way. He thinks this gig is easy - go out, get laid, get fed, rinse and repeat. Sure, sometimes there's a misunderstanding and he gets his joints broken or nails ripped out, but whatever! They grow back! To a vampire with powers of regeneration, dismemberment and scalping might as well be equivalent to ten belt-smacks to the backside just like his father used to give him as a child. Plus, it's never really his fault - If Master knew the truth, he would never set his goons on him at all!

And Oh, he adores Cazador. Not as a friend, a lover, or even a family member - but an aspiration. He sincerely believes that through hard work and resilience he can one day also have his status and fortune. And it shouldn't even be hard to stand out among this angsty little crew - what are they so bent out of shape about, anyway If they spent less time moping and more time working, maybe they wouldn't have such a tough time. Especially -

Astarion.

While it is likely incidental, I find it very ironic that Petras was put in Astarion's early-access outfit. And much less accidental than that: his mannerism and word-choice are a blatant imitation of Astarion's behavior. The flair, the flirting, the flattering and the abrasiveness; I've heard it theorized that this must be how all of the spawn act - I disagree. Petras is the only one we see exhibit that type of demeanor. I think he actively models himself after Astarion because as thick as he might be, he did catch onto the fact that his master has a particular interest in the white-haired elf.

And, of course, Petras hates Astarion for it. He sees him as someone who could have had it all, but gave up on it in favor of being bitter, angry, and naively wistful over his lost life. He has the looks, he has the charm, he had his master's favor, they go out and Petras watches men and women alike swoon over him and laugh at his shitty jokes, to then return home with a long-faced, bratty little shit-head of a toddler-man who would never even understand what the paralyzing loom of mortality is like in the first place - an ungrateful, nepotistic bastard whose had it all handed over to him by daddy, who was loved and fed and given a well-paid job fresh off his teens - but now he has to put a little work in. Now he has to do things that he might find unpleasant. And all he fucking does is whine about it.

Astarion is the personification of everything Petras ever wanted to be before being turned into a spawn, and he accidentally wears it on his sleeve day in and day out. I have no doubt that Astarion is blatantly aware of that fact and it makes his skin crawl - but Dalyria tells him that Petras is too young. Too new. Cut him some slack.

And frankly, I don't think he's evil, either. He strikes me as naive and star-striken. I don't know how long he's been with the Szarrs for, but certainly the light in his eyes would eventually fade over time and he would have had all the zest beaten out of him, same as the others. But, for now - he just doesn't know his own luck.

Admittedly, I have much less to say about Yousen and Aurelia. We don't hear as much as a word out of Yousen, but I've chosen to read the silence of and about his character as indicative that, maybe, he was able to hold onto his sanity and honor the best out of all of them. He had to do what he had to do to survive, but he did it while attempting to withhold any standards allowed to him for his own peace of mind - I like to imagine he had a lot of sincere empathy for all of the spawn, and, while they were never close, him and Astarion exchanged sincere words about their situation a few times during their stay at the palace; just enough to remind the elf that he wasn't alone, but never so much that Yousen would intrude into his space, or add strain to his already fragile state of mind.

And Aurelia... She strikes me as so young and already so beaten. I'd wager that what was once a sweet tiefling girl is now a terrified animal who does absolutely whatever she can to avoid pain and punishment - the snitch of the group, the reluctant ass-kisser, the one who desperately clings to any relief in whatever form it may come - be her master's approval or the shoulder of a sibling she has damned to the kennel more than once out of fear for her own life. Everybody has been hurt, betrayed, and irritated by her - but she's just so god damn pitiful that they can't push her away forever. While she would live, I believe she would have the hardest time adapting to freedom after Violet - just completely dependent on others and burdened by what she's had to do.

[theszarrpalace]

Acts Of Service

Summary: Far down in the dungeons of his palace, that's where Cazador keeps you, paying you a visit when the vampire lord feels the boredom seeping in again.

Pairing: Cazador Szarr x afab!spawn!Reader

Word Count: -1.8k

Content Warnings: Dead Dove Do Not Eat 18+!, Heavy Dub-Con/Non-Con, Degradation, Mocking, Humiliation, Oral (M Receiving), Deepthroating, Breath Play, Use Of A Collar And A Muzzle, Mentions Of Suicide Attempts

A/N: I gave in to the Cazador brain rot.

Tagging: @vampiric-hunger @zagamn

Every once in a while you still dreamt of soft duvet covers, how safe and comforting the cozy fabric felt against your cheeks that were adorned by a smile that reached up to your eyes as you snuggled your face deeper into the cushions underneath. Those dreams caught up to you here and there again, leaving you sore and yearning after opening up your glaring red eyes to nothing but darkness again. They made you forget just how sharp the pain in your neck jolted down all along your spine when you moved your head heavy with that gnarly iron muzzle now covering your mouth. Pale, chapped lips hiding a set of fangs you never wanted or ever asked for.

The eerily crack emitting from your neck echoed back from the desolate chamber walls you involuntarily called your home as you tried to stretch yourself as much as you possibly could. The sudden snap was accompanied by a rustle of chains as soon as you tried to stand upright, not only did the bulky muzzle weighed you down but also the sturdy bond of metal reaching from the collar wrapping around your neck right into the black stone wall behind you. With a pained groan rolling over your tongue, your knees buckled down again and you slumped back down on your behind, the unforgiving marble tiles reminding you where you are and why your captor wouldn't even let you stand up straight anymore.

Oh, how much you’d love to go back to your dream, to forget all about this for a handful of hours again but no, this kind of brief elation wouldn't be granted to you until you’d pass out from pure exhaustion anew.

In a meager, barely audible form of protest, you huffed out into the darkness surrounding you.

“Now, now… why that attitude?” The harsh clicking of a tongue shot right through the dark to get into your head, aimed to set you off.

A cold rush ran down the somewhat hunched curve of your back. You didn’t hear him coming, didn't even feel him bring so unnervingly close to you at all.

“Would be a newly discovered whim of yours to suddenly care, Cazador.” Your voice was raspy and raw just like your painfully dry throat as you answered, your eyes searching his and finding them shortly after.

A pair of barely even half-lidded, dangerously red glowing irises hovering above you, staring down at you without any warmth in them.

“You're quite bitter today, no? Don't forget that you brought it all upon yourself.” The leathery clacking of heels indicated him taking a step closer towards you, “If it wouldn't have been for you trying to hang yourself with that chain I didn't have to shorten it so much, dear.”

You didn't need to see the arrogantly self-righteous grin on Cazador's face to know it was most definitely there, you heard it instead.

“You leave me no other option than to keep you all chained and muzzled up if you behave in such heinous ways.” His sly tone trickled from his lips like poisonous honey, nothing but a mockery of shallow compassion filling you with even more fury.

“I needn't risk you hurting yourself so foolishly.” Juxtaposed to his words, Cazador flicked his index finger at your collarbone, its pointy nail sharp enough to cut through the first layers of your skin at ease.

The cold sting of sudden pain made you flinch away from him and the back of your head quickly met with the wall behind you as there simply wasn't a getting away from Cazador.

“I was hoping that you may have learned to behave yourself after my last visit. Sat on your actions for a little while.”, His fingers trailed upwards, away from the small incision and along your neck until they reached the heavy iron cast following the edge of your jaws, “I'm inclined to give you another chance, to take that gnarly muzzle off your pretty face and see if you obey me now, hm?”

Disgust crept up inside of you and hit the back of your throat like caustic bile. His voice was so distastefully sweet, uttering words so rotten that you couldn't help yourself but to turn your face away. Of course, it was to no real avail as Cazador yanked it right back, harshly enough for your neck to crack anew.

“Looks like you need a little more motivation, no? You shall have it.”, He continued whilst his hand unbuckled the broad leather straps keeping the muzzle pressed to your skin, “I'm in a generous mood tonight, dear. If you behave like an obedient spawn of mine, I'll take you upstairs and feed you well. You must be famished by now.”

His twisted proposal tickled not only your attention but also the nauseating hunger sitting in your aching, cramping stomach.

“Food?” You mumbled, almost groaning in relief as the heavy iron was lifted from your head.

However, the feeling of elation was fleeting quickly as your captor palm clasped around your jaw almost immediately.

“Oh yes.”, He confirmed, his fingers squeezing your sunken, almost boney cheeks, “But dare and bite me again and I'll part your head by the jaw until you look like a pathetic crippled ghoul, understood?”

Through the firm grasp of Cazador's hand, you could hardly answer back so you just nodded.

“Wonderful. See? Wasn't so hard after all.” He quipped, his mocking tone making you regret your compliance instantly.

You tried to soothe yourself with the fact that there wouldn't have been another way around it anyhow, with or without resistance, you would’ve had to endure him regardless. Repeating it in your mind over and over again didn't help much at all but it kept you busy enough to not snap your mouth shut as you sensed Cazador's fingers forcing themselves past the dry skin of your lips.

“Look at you, good girl, open up for me.” He demanded not only with his voice but with his slender digits pushing down onto your tongue as well.

Letting your jaw go slack to his ministrations was painful after not moving it in what probably had been weeks already, causing a poorly choked-back whine to escape.

“Oh, I know, I felt that little tearing there too.” The vampire towering above you cooed, one of his hands lazily exploring the inside of your mouth whereas the other found itself busy with unlacing his leg garments.

Your senses followed the sound of thin leather ribbons being pulled apart to loosen the fabric’s fit around his waist and you knew what was about to happen, vivid memories from the last encounter worked themselves to the forefront of your thoughts. You'd just have to push through this time, no acting up, no swift moment of rebellion and you'd get fed… finally.

“Just so much as a flinch and you can bid your food ration farewell.”, Cazador menacingly reminded you as he pulled his now saliva-covered fingers from your lips, “Now keep that mouth of yours open just like so.”

The flat of your tongue, practically hanging out of your mouth, didn't remain vacant for long. In the very moment you tried to swallow the pooling spit at the end of it, the muscles of your throat halted, interrupted by Cazador's cold to the touch yet throbbing cock being pushed so far down past your lips that you nearly gagged. Immediately tears started forming in the corners of your eyes as you forced yourself to remain still and for your on-edge muscles to relax.

“So much better than last time.” It wasn't really a praise at all but rather a factual conclusion Cazador stated bluntly whilst guiding his entire girth further down your throat without ever giving you so much as a second to adjust.

Not only was it uncomfortable but borderline painful as well. For day's, your throat had been nothing but endlessly dry and sore with the lack of necessary hydration. Reminding yourself to stay calm, you tried to breath through it, to take every firm snap of Cazador's hips against your aching face one deep breath at a time but you found yourself struggling with not pathetically choking on his length.

The entire interaction, this forced encounter, had nothing to do with any sort of amicable connection and much less eroticism. You weren't even sure if you'd title this as sex at all. A malevolent and vile display of forcibly taken power suited it much rather and for a moment you caught yourself wondering if even Cazador himself gained any real physical pleasure from this. Sure, you very much felt the swollen girth of his cock filling out your mouth to the point where your jaw hung sore but this couldn't be it, could it? A cold dick against an equally cold tongue. No warmth or, gods forbid, love found in this transaction of humiliating obedience for maybe a chalice of blood.

That was his poison, the thing that got him off good and nicely; control.

“Huh? Don't you dream off now!” Apparently he had noticed you drifting away with your thoughts and before you could feel your lungs filling with a shaky breath of air anew, Cazador pinched your nostrils shut, causing your throat to tightly clench around him almost immediately.

His scolding laughter mixed with the wet gurgling sounds emitting from your mouth, your throat contracting in a spasm between breathless coughs and choked-out tries to gasp for oxygen.

“Fucking gods!” It shot past Cazador's lips in a low hiss as he shoved his lower torso against your face to the point where his tightening balls pressed against your chin.

You heard him groaning out in a guttural rumble that clawed its way from the very depths of his chest just as well as you felt him unloading himself beneath the cramping base of your tongue. The amalgamation of spurting out cum on the spittle you dreaded of choking upon went right down your throat without even leaving the faint idea of an aftertaste and by the time he withdrew himself from your brutalized mouth you had started seeing stats behind fluttering lids.

Tucking himself back in, Cazador gave your heavily coughing and almost dry-heaving form a swift kick with the metal tip of his boot.

“Get yourself together, dear, I'm not carrying you upstairs.”

[ltleflrt]

@clownsecret hells yeah I'll tell you ALL about it 😆

In response to this post - I'm making my own post because this leans into dark-fic territory, and I don't want to put that on your post if it's something you're not interested in and don't want to see in your post notes. General Warning for dub-con and violence and the really kinky stuff. Featuring Dom!Raphael and sub!Astarion.

The Kinks:

-BDSM, which comes with real contracts, which could be under-negotiated due to desperation, or meticulously negotiated but Raphael will still find a way to make it hurt worse than expected through language loopholes and fine print.

-And speaking of BDSM, SO MUCH SADISM. I am a huge fan of sadist/non-masochist pairings, omg so hot. Pain play of all sorts! Crying! No comfort! Someone's going to need a healer when it's done, but the orgasms were still fan-fucking-tastic! Unless no orgasms were allowed, which is also it's own kind of fun lol

-Wing kink! Imagine Raphael's victim ahem I mean his lover finding out that his wings are sensitive in a sexy way. His lover using that against him. Distracting him from all the dirtybadwrong things he had planned for the scene.

-Tail sex! See above. Plus double penetration, fucking his vict-LOVER I MEAN LOVER with his tail and not his dick, holding limbs in place with his tail so that both his hands are free. It can be used for bondage!

-Gentle, intimate sex as a reward for good behavior. YUM.

Now imagine all of that with Astarion! I am a massive fan of whump porn, and Astarion would add an extra layer to that kind of fun because he's already been through fucking hell with Cazador. This is exactly the kind of stuff he was trying to escape! And now he has to sign a contract agreeing to put up with it!

So you'd have to come up with a reason for him to put himself in that position. Raphael's not just going to snatch him up and start tormenting him. He's going to offer a deal that Astarion will have to agree to voluntarily. Maybe Tav was a dickbag and wouldn't help him with Cazador. Maybe he trades his service for a way to walk in the sun again. Something where he's so desperate that he'll turn to a devil for help even though he said he wouldn't do something so stupid in Act 1 and 2 of the game.

So Astarion signs a contract. He was a magistrate, so he might negotiate the fuck out of the contract, but not have enough leverage to get certain clauses he wants, so he has to give up some protections he tries to build into the contract for himself. And he's like "I can put myself through hell on purpose in exchange for this thing I want desperately. It's only temporary, not forever."

Then there's different ways he can act under contract. Maybe he's not able to turn off the sass, and he pisses Raphael off constantly, getting himself punished all the time. Raphael falls in love with Astarion's inability to just fucking behave, something that made Cazador just punish him more, but makes Raphael start easing off because otherwise he risks breaking his side of the bargain because there's really no taming Astarion and oops Raphael actually doesn't want him tamed anymore.

Or maybe Astarion locks himself down, reigning in the sass and the rebellion, because he knows how to avoid punishment, and unlike Cazador, Raphael can't punish him without reason. He tones his personality down so much that Raphael is disappointed in his behavior because he didn't want a sex doll, he wanted a challenge. He wants Astarion to fight back and risk failing to hold up his end of the bargain. So he starts going gentle, which confuses Astarion. Neither of them know how to handle this change in dynamic, and oh no now they're having conversations instead of sex.

And I don't want Astarion to fix Raphael. I want Raphael to make Astarion worse. Encourage his bloodthirsty side, cheer on his competitive nature, let him be a sneaky little bastard, motivate him to start participating in the politics of Hell. Oh, it turns out Astarion is good at infernal contracts? Let's amend our contract so that Astarion can trade working with his mind instead of working with his body.

And bonus if Haarlep and/or Korilla haaaate Astarion because he's getting all of Raphael's attention, and they're jealous.

This is exactly the kind of unhealthy fucked up dynamic that I LIVE FOR. (Which is really funny because all my writing is fluffy af lol)

[httplvki]

long Astarion analysis / ramble / self-projection

(disclaimer: this mostly focuses on the sexual abuse he went through and how it affected him) risen from the dead just to yap about astarion cuz of how much he’s a bit too relatable

Maybe I'm self-projecting on Astarion, but it's so relatable on how he manipulates Tav at the start because he wants protection and safety, which resorts to him having sex with Tav so the connection will be there with them. He believes that the only way to get Tav to stay by his side is to give up his body because it has become a habit of his to use his body for sex after 200 years of using it to seduce other people for his master. He “abandons” his boundaries and his own worth to have someone stay by his side, which hits a bit too close to home.

He sexualizes himself for the person and agrees on anything sexual because he believes that it will make Tav (in this context) happy, so they won't leave him if he just keeps presenting himself on a dinner plate. Especially in the scene where Tav wants to sleep with another member of the party and he says something along the lines of "It's not because we haven't done IT in a while, right?", where he's worried that Tav was leaving him because they haven't had sex together in a while, meaning that he believes that one of the only ways to keep someone by his side is to satisfy their lust. He believed that sex and his body were one of the only features that he had that he was able to use to keep others around and not leave him. He’s vulnerable when it comes to himself because he can’t think of himself as anything more than just a means to an end, which is why he needs Tav to be able to give him the reassurance that they will back him up and stand up for him whenever he needs.

We could also assume that he was sexually assaulted by the fools or villains (lowly criminals most of the time) that became Astarion's victims. Because almost 99% (assumption) of the time where he has had sex with victims, it was all dub-con (dubious consent where consent is unclear or not stated) at best because of how it was all forced onto him by Cazador. He needed to “entertain” them even if he himself didn’t want to, making it already not very consensual. With needing to seduce anything with a pulse almost non-stop, he is still very flirty with Tav even after romancing them, which I personally would like to headcanon that he could be a hypersexual, and he hates it because it makes him feel disgusting from the reminders of all the bad sexual experiences he had. (Just to clarify this is what I assume / hc)

After 200 years, he's used to saying sweet nothings to others to satisfy them, thinking it will work on everyone because it has after all the years of being a slave to Cazador. For instance in Act I when he said “I love you” to Tav, but it was just a lie, and even he admits it himself when Tav sees through his act. It’s all an act for his own needs and the other person's satisfaction and happiness. However, he comes across a hurdle if you play as Karlach and romance Astarion; he isn’t able to have sex with her because of her condition. He gets frustrated because he has never done anything else to manipulate someone other than sleeping with them; he doesn’t know what to do because it is out of his control.

The difference between choosing Karlach or Tav to romance Astarion is the level of control that he feels he has. If Tav refuses to sleep with him, he gets upset because he feels like he has done something wrong, and it means you won’t be able to trust him, which equals Tav is not going to fulfill what Astarion needs: safety and protection. He loses control in this situation because of the other person's own opinions and actions, which is a no-go for Astarion. Compared to using Karlach to romance him, he gets upset because he can’t sleep with her because of her condition, but he can understand that reason. He doesn’t take it to heart because it’s understandable to both parties, so in the end, Karlach and Astarion just talk and then fall asleep together. (I very much prefer Karlachs one because I wish we could do the same with Tav where we don’t have to sleep with him)

This is why I also believe that one of the other reasons why he wants power (that excludes taking over, Cazador, and his going through with his revenge) is to feel that he has some other power that he can have rather than only having his body as a source of "power" or “strength" that could manipulate other people.

Further discussion about Astarion and manipulation, he “manipulates'' Tav in the scene where he wants power after killing Cazador; he says, “You want what's best for me, surely?” Even after being romanced by Tav. he believes that ascending and taking part in the ritual will heal him from everything and become powerful, but in reality, he would just continue the cycle of abuse for another centuries on end. He loves Tav, but manipulation is already second nature to him when he WANTS something; it's just like breathing air to him because of how normal it is, and it will take a while for that habit to devolve after his traumatic years of needing to manipulate others to stay alive, almost just like Cazador where he will do anything and manipulate anyone or anything to get what HE wants. Furthermore, being manipulated by Cazador has caused a long-lasting effect on Astarion, where manipulation tactics are passed down and used.

Astarion was treated like a doll, controlled with strings to keep using his body to lure victims in, while he didn’t have any bodily autonomy to say no or to stop it. For example, later on in Act II-III, if you don't respect his boundary after he confesses to you, and you still WANT to have sex with him, later on in the cutscene where he and Tav are in bed together, he sits up, and his look shows that his mind is in another plane. He felt devastated, disappointed, and betrayed even because of how you treated him like a doll for seduction and sex, just like how Cazador used Astarion to seduce his victims. He later breaks it up with Tav once he realizes the feeling of being able to say no and have his own bodily autonomy.

[lynnlovesthestars]

Do you do scenarios or headcanons? If so, how many characters can we request for scenarios or headcanons? Would you do the same prompt with different characters? Can we request for male reader, female reader, gender neutral reader, etc? Are there any topics you won't do like rape, suicide, etc? Do you do poly ships x reader? Would you mind if we request for Alternate Universes or Aus like AU where the character lives happily? Would you mind if the request is suggestive, implied sex, or mentioned sex but no explicit sex if it's from anon or ageless accounts? For Baldur's Gate 3 requests, would you mind if we don't specify the race/class to leave it ambiguous or if we ask specify the race/class like human/healer? Thank you in advance!

Hi`~ I'll answer to one at a time so I won't get confused I hope you don't mind<3

1 "Do you do scenarios or headcanons?"

Yes I do, although I have posted only one or two up to now, I actually enjoy writing them very much, in fact I got a whole folder of snippets just waiting till I find more stuff to put them with!

2 Would you do the same prompt with different characters?

Absolutely, I firmly believe that the same prompt can develop totally different with diffrent characters, so if you are interested in a past prompt or you have one that you'd like to see with multiple characters, let me know<3

3 Can we request for male reader, female reader, gender neutral reader, etc?

Yup, I am genderfluid and I have no problem writing for any gender, ofc if you request smut make sure to let me know if the pronouns match the genitals n or not, I'll gladly take care of that.

On this note my main oc in dnd- bg3 is canonically genderfluid, both in the concept of gender identity and physical, so again, everyone here is welcome<3

4 Are there any topics you won't do like rape, suicide, etc?

It's not the topic the problem, but rather the connotations that might make me skip a particular request.

The only hard no's are minor characters in suggestive/ smut content, and bestiality. As far as other things I have wrote a lot of dark fics revolving around self-harm and suicide/attempts- and mental illnesses in general- and they don't bother me.

Rape/ non-con and dub-con are a particular topic for me, so i can write them, but I won't romanticize rape/ non-con. I will not write the main love interest as abuser, i can't stomach the idea of putting a perpetrator with his victim- so sorry for u cazador pals that ship him w astarion, or gale x mystra enjoyers (though i can write abt cazador n mystra, just not with their victims)- while dub-con usually doesn't bother me much. Of course i can go in more or less depth in the topics so if you have a tolerance limit, please let me know and I'll tone it up or down depending on that, but if i don't get any note on that, ill make sure to properly tag the pieces as the dddne post said.

5 Do you do poly ships x reader?

Absolutely, I have one poly piece that is being beta-read about wyll and gale x reader, and I'm eager to share it with you all cause 1. it was a lovely request i got, 2. i just love writing poly romances

6 Would you mind if we request for Alternate Universes or Aus like AU where the character lives happily?

I love au's, as I mentioned Lynn- my oc-, he has been the center of so many au pieces i wrote for bg3 as i was in rest the past two weeks, so feel free to ask!

Today I feel like oversharing so there are my ultimate favourite au's: guardian angel, soulmates, best friends to lovers, royalty, forbidden romance, one bed stranded, moden-fantasy, isekai, coffee shop, bookstores.. but there's so many more omg

7 Would you mind if the request is suggestive, implied sex, or mentioned sex but no explicit sex if it's from anon or ageless accounts?

It's a bit of a grey area, if you don't feel comfortable sending an ask with your main where you have your age displayed, you can dm me the request and I'll take care of it however you like it, but if it's through asks I'll stop at the implied to be safe, thank you for asking though i appreciate it:)

8 For Baldur's Gate 3 requests, would you mind if we don't specify the race/class to leave it ambiguous or if we ask specify the race/class like human/healer?

Of course, you are free to tell me as much or as little as you want when you send me a request, i'll do my best to respect your preferences whether you don't want descriptions of the tav at all, or you want something more detailed, you are free to request.

I've been thinking about opening some limited requests to write about ppl tavs- since i've been asked by quite a few people- but I don't know how to approach it specifically, but keep an eye open in case i open a few of them and you want to drop your commission<3

Thank you so much for your questions and your kindness, I always appreciate your openness, as a veteran in the fandoms environment, we all know how some might be less polite, so seeing even just the kindness of asking what's my preferences always warms up my heart.

lots of love, can't wait to see what lovely ideas you have in store for my asks!<3

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New World (one-shot #1)

A/N: Karra is my Dark urge Tav (Check her out here https://www.tumblr.com/marvelgurl789fanfics/733491072755466240/my-dark-urge-tav-karra-a-63-drow-with-ascended?source=share) these one-shots with Karra and Astarion are going to connect but you do not need to read them all for them to make sense. feel free to leave ideas of what you would like to see and username, so I can give credit for the idea. sorry the beginning of this one going to be long setting up my head cannon world.

Karra Info:

Hight: 6'3"

Weight: 200 lbs.

Race: Drow

Class: Fighter (Campion)

Description: she is a bigger built women with a muscular frame. Her right eye is violet, and her left is a deep red. Her skin is a medium gray with a slight purple tint to it. her hair is a wave light gray that goes to her mid back.

Rated: M (+18 Smut/ will make cut when it starts if you want to skip)

Masterlist:

-NEW WORLD-

Five years after Karra became the Absolute in the name of her father and his beloved Consort. Times he hated he didn't have control over her because of the damn tadpole she still possessed, but at other times it made life even more amusing. But here they were in their palace they had their thralls build right outside Baldur's Gate. Gods know he wasn't going to stay in that Bastard Cazador's horror house, in fact once they took control, he had the whole place torn down. he wanted no trace that Cazador ever existed.

Here Astarion was sitting on a nice plush chair in his office that Karra dubbed his throne, Scratch was laying asleep at his feet. Astarion was lost in thought of all that happened since he was taken on the Nautiloid. They had five companions that have become very useful in the end even when He and Karra got their happy ending. Lae'zel and Wyll were worthy generals in their thrall army. Gale was very smart even if annoying but he made enchanted bottles so he could keep blood and not have it spoil, along with many other useful items. Then there was Shadowheart she was good at taking care of the more political side of their rule when he didn't feel like attending to it himself. There used to be another a tall red tiefling he forgot her name; she burned up the day they took control. (A/N: for the record I love Karlach)

With a heavy sigh Astarion got up from his chair careful not to wake the dog, as blood thirsty as his Bhaal-babe was she had a soft spot for the dog. He would never admit it, but he had a soft spot for the creature as well. He walked down the luxurious hall of his home. Thralls bowed their heads as he passed by, he made his way to the stairs at the end of the hall that led under their palace to Karra's playroom that he had gifted her a little selfishly. he loved spilling blood as much as the next but it's just a crime to get blood on the nice, polished marble floors. Once he was at the iron door at the bottom of the stairs, he could hear the screaming of Karra newest victim that the door was barely muffling. He opened the door the strong smell of blood filled his nose, yes with the ascension his untamable hunger was gone but the smell could still make his stomach growl.

His eyes landed on the beauty coved in blood who only wore an oversized shirt that barely covered her panties. Ever since Karra embraced her true nature, she barely like wearing any clothes and while Astarion loved the view he rather not have others seeing what's his. Here she was she was straddling a poor human woman under her as she drank all the blood from the women that wasn't pouring out of the many cuts on the women body, the women's screams quieted down as the light of life left her eyes. Once the body went completely limp Karra ripped her fangs out of the flesh with a gleeful giggle looking down at lifeless body under her. Astarion gave her a moment longer to enjoy her kill, he did love to see her so happy in her element.

"Darling, you seem to be enjoying yourself" Astarion finally spoke to notify her of his presents. Karra turned her head to the voice of her love with a crazed blood lust look on her blood-soaked face. "Yes, I have been, have you come down to play with me?" Karra asked as she stood and approached Astarion standing a whole head taller than him. "I would my love, but it looks as if you already broken all your toys I have gotten you" Astarion said looking at the human corpse and the pile of flesh and bones in the corner of the stone room that he couldn't make out what it once was after her fun.

"I'm sure we could find a new toy somewhere in the palace" Karra purred wrapping her blood covered hands around his neck as she pressed herself against him. while he hated that his nice silk clothes were now stained with blood but at the moment he couldn't seem to care with her looking at him with her lustful eyes. "Or we could play another game, pet" Astarion said while he gently pushed her back until the back of her thighs hit the stone slab table that she would sometime tie her toys down on while she played.

Karra sat on the edge of the table like Astarion wanted, he stood between her thighs with her on the table they were now face to face. Astarion ran his hands up her waist slowly lifting her blood-soaked shirt so he could feel her cool skin, leaning into her lips but before their lips met he tilted her head and lightly licking the blood off her cheek. Karra growled slight frustration of being denied a kiss. Astarion smirked at her reaction while he finished licking her cheek clean, then giving her what she wanted and met her lips in a heated kiss. His tongue pushed through her lips with no resistance and met hers, earning a pleased hum from the drow. she was so strong, and many feared her looming presents, but with a simple kiss he could have her puddy in his hand it made him feel so powerful to have this woman who could destroy worlds wanting him.

her hands gently pulled at the hairs at the back of his neck causing him to growl into the kiss while their tongues fought for dominance. Karra knew she would submit to Astarion in the end but she still like to play with him, she knew Astarion loved the playful fights she always put up too it always made thing more exciting. Astarion broke the kiss much too soon for Karra's liking but didn't get a chance to complain as she felt his lips at her neck lightly nipping her skin but not breaking it. She felt a familiar shiver of delight as she felt his teeth teasing her skin. "I do love when you're being a good girl my pet" Astarion cooed in her neck nipping a bit harder but still refusing to break the skin. "please" Karra wined at his teasing wanting nothing more than to feel the delicious pain of his fangs in her neck.

-Smut skip if you would like-

"Please what, my sweet darling" Astarion teased once more. "Bite me" Karra said quietly, Astarion would usually play he didn't hear her but she was being so good for him he let it slide this time. his fangs bit into her neck where he left his mark when he turned her and gave her his gift of eternal life. He was slightly worried her blood would lose its flavor once her turned her but if anything it made it all the more addictive. Karra moaned as he drank from her, one of Astarion hands moved up to grope her breast causing her to let out another wanting moan. With much reluctance he released her neck with a light hum leaving his lips. "you're always so sweet my darling" Astarion said pulling the ruined shirt over her head tossing it off to the side.

His fingers played with the hem of panties slowly pulling them from her, Karra lifted her hips making the job of stripping her easier. Once she was bare before him, he took a step back to admire his pretty pet, his hands gently holding her thigh open where he once stood so he could see all of her. Karra leaned back on the table putting all her weight on her elbows as she looked longingly at him. "I want to see you too" she purred. Astarion smiled unbuttoning his silk doublet slowly loving how her eyes burned hungrily at him, once upon a time someone looking at him like that would have made him sick, but with Karra his blood thirsty love he never wanted her to stop looking at him with that lustful look of hunger only he could satisfy. Throwing the doublet to the ground it was already ruined with blood, his undershirt quickly followed suit. Stepping back between her tights kicking off his leather shoes as he did. Astarion pulled her hips to meet his, she could feel his excitement through his perfectly tailored pants.

"I want you now" Karra purred now laying flat on the table arching her back with want for her love the only man that could handle her and her urges even encouraged her urges. "Easy pet you will get what you want, you just have to keep being a good girl for me" Astarion told her as he leaned down on her his words agents her breast, Astarion took the dark gray bud into his mouth suckling on it a bit roughly the way he knew she liked while his hand played with other. Karra moaned from the affection he was giving her body and she hugged him close to her body as she purred for him. Astarion moved to her other bud giving it the same attention as she grinded her hips against his, his pants now soaked with her want making him groan loving how her body so easily reacts to his touch.

His hands moving to her hips holding her down making her release a groan of frustration, kissing down her body getting closer to her core where she needed him the most but pulling away before granting her wish with a teasing look on his face. unlacing his pants looking at the lust crazed drow before him, discarding the rest of his clothes. "you ready my love?" Astarion asked lining himself up with her soaked core. With a nod and a whimper from Karra, Astarion entered her with a pleased sigh from both. she always felt so amazing wrapped around him, as soon as he bottomed out he started trusting slowly too slowly for Karra liking and he knew it. "More please" Karra panted bucking her hips to his to encourage him but his teasingly slow thrust didn't stop. "Beg" Astarion simple ordered her with a devilish smile on his face, Karra hated to beg if she wanted something she would just take it who would stop her but under this beautiful elf she would give anything if he would just give her what she needed what her urge craved from him. "please, please Astarion faster. harder." Karra cried wiggling her hips to his again to get her point across.

"you are perfect my love" Astarion purred in her pointed ear, giving her just want she wanted thrusting into her hard and fast holding onto her hips as leverage. Karra hands moved to hold onto his forearms to ground herself losing herself in him, cries of pleasure and his name leaving her lips mixing with his low grunts. Karra began to feel the knot in her core staring to snap. "close please" left her lips as her head fell to the table. "let go my pet" Astarion said as he moved to lick and nip at her collar bone, at his words Karra let her release take her sending bolts of lighting down her spine feeling it in her toes and finger tips. her quivering core sent Astarion to his peak shortly after her filling her with his seed, pulling his softened member out of her picking his undershirt from the floor and slipping it on his tired drow and putting his messy pants back on.

-Smut end-

lifting Karra in his arms and started carrying her to their bedroom. it could be almost comical him carrying this large drow woman, and it would be imposable if it wasn't from his vampiric strength. Karra wrapped her arms around his neck and buried her face into his chest sleepily. "Don't get too comfortable you need to take a bath and clean off the blood before you can touch our bed" Astarion said as he reached to top of the stairs. "but I'm sleepy" Karra mumbled nuzzling her face into his chest. "I know my love but I think you ruined enough expensive silk today, but you can rest in the tub as I clean you up" Astarion said earning a happy hum from the drow.

[cyberbun]

Did you watch the Chainsaw Man latam dub?

It was alright, I can tell why it went viral in non-spanish speaking circles, but there's a lot of things about it that annoy me. The vocal performances are all top notch, the script is mostly fine, but there's a few quirks of recent spanish anime dubs that really bugged me the whole time.

Namely, the fact that they try to match lip flaps way too much, which breaks... up dialogue... unnnaturally, sometimes. Secondly, and this is worse to me, for whatever reason spanish dubs refuse to translate terminology that's in English - so for example, "Devil Hunter" is still "Devil Hunter" in Spanish. This just sounds unnatural and it really takes you out of the show; there's literally no reason why, in a version of the story where these characters are speaking this language, they wouldn't say "cazador de demonios" or something to that effect (if this was the 90s, they'd probably shorten it to "cazademonios" or something like that, because they did not give a shit back then and it ruled).

This wouldn't be so bad once you got used to it except for how the voice actors really stumble trying to fluently say something in spanish with random english jargon thrown in - meaning not only do you have an unnatural mid-sentence language swap, it stands out more when they pronounce words like "devil" as "deevil" or "hunter" as "hah-nter".

I'm in Love with the Villainess, the only other show I bothered to watch the spanish dub for recently, was even worse about this, because not a single word of their magic jargon got translated - so names of spells or just terms like "dual caster" or "quad caster" get slurred a lot. In this case it's slightly more justifiable since the story takes place in a lifesim/rpg type game, so it sounds a little less unnatural to have random english terminology thrown in, but it just didn't work in the end.

Anyways yeah Denji's VA going offscript whenever he isn't onscreen to throw out a mexican swear word or two was really funny.

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Yuki Kajiura is the John Williams of Anime

Yuki Kajiura is the John Williams of Anime 

There are a lot of potential candidates for the title of all time best director or best actor in Hollywood. But I think few would dispute that the all greatest composer of Film Scores is John Williams. Between Jaws, Star Wars, Superman, Indiana Jones, Jurassic Park and Harry Potter, he's made most of the most Iconic film scores of all time.  Harry Potter is the only of those franchises I haven't seen, but I still recognize the Music when I hear it. Who are the top composers of other mediums?  Back when G4 still existed and still had more then just one show about Video Games.  I watched a half hour biography they did of the main Composer of the Final Fantasy series.  He seems like a good candidate, but to me the most personally Iconic video game music is definitely the music form Nintendo first party titles. But I think easily the John Williams of Anime is Yuki Kajiura. She did Noir, my favorite Anime, largely the reason I got into anime.   It's soundtrack is still the only Anime soundtrack I've ever bought on CD.  And to this day it holds up, I can put that Music on my not quite an IPod and goes weeks listening to no Music other then it. After that she's done it's sister series, Madlax and El Cazador de la Bruja.  Puella Magi Madoka Magica, Fate/Zero and Sword Art Online.  And many others I still haven't watched yet, some indentI intend to try soon.  There is some where her Music is the only nice thing some people have to say about it, not unlike how Prequel haters feel about their Music. Can any other Anime composer compete?  Lots of Anime have memorable opening and closing themes, but nothing epic in terms of score.  Death Note's score is memorable mostly for how obviously it's going for an Omen vibe, and that's fine, it works great for what Death Note was doing.  And you've got lots of Anime where the characters are making Music in the show.  Evangelion is an anime who's most disappointing quality was it's music, I love that Bohemian Rhapsody AMV because I feel it tells the story musically far better.  The music of Fate/Stay Night: Unlimited Blade Works does as well as it does largely because it's following Fate/Zero's lead, knowing Yuki will be back for the Heaven's Feel movie has me even more excited for it, it's too bad the Dub probably won't get a theatrical release. The only Anime who's score can compete with Yuki Kajiura scores is Revolutionary Girl Utena.  And it had two composers, the Duel Themes were done by a different composer then the rest.  And neither had done anything else I'm currently familiar with, partly because not much else that is considered a must watch. So for the time being I feel there is little competition for Yuki Kajiura as the best Anime Composer.