#as if he needs to be close to fight lol
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I am once again reiterating that Leo could and should be a figure skater because what are ice skates if not twin blades? What is dual blade swordsmanship if not a dance-like performance? Using the skates as blades themselves could let Leo make portals be his ice rink no? I rest my case. â¸ď¸
#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt leo#rottmnt headcanons#rise leo#would also like to add that he loves glam rock and unicorns! and whatâs something glam rock unicorns and figure skating share#thatâs right â¨glitter babyâ¨#(his glam rock look unironically fits right in with figure skater attire ngl)#I also mentioned his incredible ability to hold a pose before which helps him here#plus his fighting style in general can easilyyy incorporate figure skating elements#I am this đ close to animating a quick gif to show what I mean by those ice skate portals#and I do specify figure skating over hockey because 1) hockey is CASEYâS thing đ¤ and 2) hockey just. doesnât fit Leo? not enough â¨pizzazzâ¨#episode where the A-plot is Casey Sr showing her love for hockey and ending up playing a life or death game against yokai#she brings Raph in for help (since I like Casey & Raph friendship) and he gets the rest of the fam to help fill out the team#Casey Jr is especially excited but heâs never actually played hockey before#Leo tries to join and immediately accidentally makes a portal with his skates when he tries twirling to show off#the gang wins the match and the ep ends with Leo finally making it back completely beat up from accidental portals#the gang: wow we won! haha letâs go get hot chocolate itâs cold in here#leo: *desperately twirling over an active volcano* THIS IS THE OPPOSITE PLACE TO BE RIGHT NOW#actually to extrapolate on this more I really adore the idea of the boysâ abilities needing to be retrained as they grow#because their powers have the opportunity to grow#Mikey just randomly floating off and needing to be tethered down until he gets the hang of it lol#and stuff like that
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Promises promises (Patreon)
#Doodles#SCII#Helix#Max Vyer#Dexter Favin#The kisses yearning......it has returned.........#They're just so cute I can't help it hweh#Kisses on the cheek are harder to refute than on the mouth haha - just for a second! Just to be close! Just to show how much âĽ#He wanted to fight about it but it's not like there's anything he can say that he Also doesn't want#Forever <3 Promise#And then they can't fulfill that promise wehh#More kisses ⪠Ostensibly for practice because I can always use the practice - I just like them together!!#I love when Max is just plastered against him and Dex holds him so carefully haha - he /is/ stronger than Max but still#Max sticks to him so much#Dresses! Probably drag/cross dressing but mm?#On top of ZEX wearing a dress that one time(?) presumably because gendered human fashion doesn't cross the translation barrier#I've been thinking about the Helix duo as ladies off and on too hmm#I keep going back and forth on Ladyverse!Helix like - with the Vargases it's easy? How their designs are different and The Implicationsâ˘#So much to think about - and it's not like L!Helix lacks that by any means! But everyone's already so pretty so there's that lol#Max is androgynous and Dexter is beautiful like they'd just look like themselves lol#Presumably there'd be Some physical differences but I really wonder by how much! And how they'd be expected to act or grow into#For now it's just appreciating the pretties <3 Because they are they're so pretty! However they are they're beautiful <3#Dex's dress is fun hehe ⪠He Could wear it covering his leg but a brief pose that lets it peek out isn't so bad hehehe#Max is very much giving Junior Prom haha <3 He's too cute#Honestly I just really really needed to see him in that front/collar/spaghetti straps style it's so cute and I feel like it suits him#I'm not sure what it is exactly but the fabric falling forward on his chest is just - correct?? It Feels Correct#And last one of an idea I haven't been able to shake since starting on plush Max as a project haha#I Want to give him a whole closet of clothes but I also don't want him to be naked for long! And what's the easiest type of clothing to make#Imagining him in a pretty white or light yellow sundress.......swishing and twirling and being cute and happy........ahhh...........#He deserves to feel the prettiest and sparkliest and specialest because he is âĽ
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Quick! Your OCs are being dragged to the dancefloor by a friend - how do they react? Does the amount of people around influence that reaction? Or the kind of music played maybe?
GHFNFJDJFHB!? What a fun question omfg
Chuu has a vice grip on the sofa sheâs sitting on if thereâs more than 5 people at a party lmao. Sheâs not gettin up. N o p e. (Can sometimes be lured out onto the dance floor with a Waltzing number, but will rarely stay for longer than 2 songs before sheâs found a way to slither out of being an active party participant. Sheâd rather chill and eat snacks and watch OTHER people look silly on the dance floor.)
Tuesday is ecstatic to be invited to the dance floor- but he only really knows how to do the stuffy Ishgardian Ball Dance when he first gets invited out to a party lmfao. The amount of people present doesnât really impact his willingness to come out to the dance floor, but once he learns more ways to dance or even how to just, âfeel itâ and make it up as he goes he gets much more excited about dancing to upbeat or quicker songs. He is Very good at not stepping on Toes :) (almost as if somebody didnât want to deal with smushed toesâŚ. đ¤)
Tangy is so zazzed to dance. She isâŚ. Not the best at ballroom dancing or like, whatever you wanna call a couples dance, so. Watch your toes! It doesnât matter how many people are there but being the center of attention can be kinda daunting :â> sheâd rather dance to more upbeat music than slow dances so sheâll probs bow out for drinks and a snack during those to take a breather sjfjdkfs ⌠pls also imagine her doing classic âdadâ dance moves or something from the Peanuts x3 [cut cos itâs Long đŤ˘]
âŚ.. đ¤ Ishi will gladly dance with a friend (or friends!) at smaller gatherings- and even invite others out to the floor x3 but at bigger more official events? Sheâs probably grateful for the excuse to step away from whatever Politically Charged Chat sheâs been roped into regarding allied tribes or intercity relations. (She isnât trained in dance, but will readily learn and follow somebody elseâs lead â˘vâ˘)
Mochiie is someone whoâs reluctant to take an invite to the dance floor no matter how many people are present if thereâs already people dancing and thereâs not much space. Heâs uh⌠conscious of his tail. (Poor guy sent a lalafellin couple sprawling once when he got tangled up in his feet, so he tries to be Overly Cautious now)
đ Colette will indulge a friend in a dance, and relies more on being able to lift/twirl/dip her dance partner for flair - itâs an All-Eyes-On-Them situation. If Eorzean weapons didnât have a habit of cracking under the pressure sheâd probably be a tank. She prefers music with dramatic flair, to match her flashy dancing style. She laughs a lot more when itâs a Smaller group, thereâs less performance pressures 𤧠(I should REALLY pose her dancing with Setsuna at some point⌠Iâll have to bug my partner for some files x3)
đ¤đ¤đ¤ Levraut was the hardest for me to figure out. Heâs classically trained in Ishgardian Dance? But he hates it. He thinks the whole thing looks silly, and heâs not so into huge parties (since theyâre usually hosted by The Rich And Influential And Expect A Certain Class Of People yk) ⌠heâd be a hilarious âsexy lampâ for someone to dance with though⌠I think it would take him some time to feel comfortable dancing in the center of everything but he wouldnât mind kinda grooving in place around the edges.
Until heâs 5 cups in. And then you have to haul him off the dance floor before he makes more of a fool of himself than he currently is, and tries to start a fight with the Violinist, because it quote âsounds like youâre killing the cat what made the strings all over againâ (regardless of if thatâs true or not; a drunken Lev craves Rowdy Brawling and will Incite It)
⌠𤨠I think thatâs everyone if only because I donât have a solid idea what the Trio would be like in a Party situation
#sorry this took so long to answer I got home took a fat nap and then joined the fc to play the fun game LOL#we were Gwiber hunting OwO#ALSO TY FOR THE QUESTIONNNN#Ishi and Kizuna dancing is ridiculous and needs a wide berth. lmfao. Kizuna ALSO has big tail syndrome#Iâm constantly wrestling what music in Eorzea is like btw like thereâs electric guitar???? in game??#thereâs definitely the means to make electronic music ? I know venues have DJâs but#Iâm losing my mind thinking about Venues with that heavy modern club scene being âcanonâ#tho I guess the LoporritsâŚ. đ¤đ¤đ¤đ¤đ¤đ¤đ¤đ¤#adventurers are just Built Different.#lev would show up to big fancy parties in order to investigate where the WoL(s) were last spotted or like the state of affairs or chasing#a lead but heâs not one to go for purely pleasure =v= would rather drink and sing badly in a tavern with 5-10 other people#and then get thrown out and threatened with being banned for dancing on tabletops and kissing someone elseâs Date#I came really close to trying to figure out Gifs again so I could gif Tangy doing a goofy dance but I got SO sleepy so it might just be#a later gorilla to fight @v@
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Is it just me or is âThe Blueâ by Gracie Abrams SO Elriel coded?đđĽš
#Elriel#Azriel Shadowsinger#Elain Archeron#the blue#Gracie Abrams#You'd talk about your dad He used to get so angry He'd scare you and your brother 'Til you felt you needed saving#I know I'd let you in On all my bad decisions You'd make them feel less terrible The second that you'd listen#I wonder if you know If you can tell I'm losing I'm going down without a fight I don't know how you do it#I wont forget the feeling Of staying up with you Despite the space between us Ive never felt this close to someone what if your my weakness?#You came out of the blue like that I never could've seen you coming I think you're everything I've wanted#Maasverse#good riddance#ACOTAR#fangirl problems#songs that remind me of ships#songs that remind me of characters#I pulled another Michael Scott making myself cry over a tagline for a movie idea I made lol#ACOTAR ships#ACOTAR 5&1/2
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Persona romance routes are all pretty bad but damn they really hit rock bottom with p3p femc route like the misogyny is very blatant and itâs almost hilarious like look at the Shinjiro romance. When you do his social link heâs like very clearly respectful of Kotone as a leader and explicitly says stuff like "oh yeah youâre clearly the best fighter we have, I donât really know much about fighting like you do, I hope Iâm not dragging you down, youâre doing a good job as leader just remember to take care of yourself, everyone looks up to you I know you can rely on them" etc. like he has faith in her leading abilities. But then when you romance him heâs like got dialogue like "bwah bluh i gotta look after you because youâre a GIRL and you need to stick by me, a big strong MAN so you donât get hurt" and "donât wear that revealing outfit in front of other guys đş" and itâs like. Does he respect her or not and also like it doesnât make sense for him to look down on her for being a girl cuz he literally has never not been led by a girl leader during his time in sees and Mitsuru in particular really has her shit together when it comes to being responsible and a good fighter and sheâs always known the most about Tartarus
Itâs also like. Idk maybe its just me Iâm not a girl so FUCK IF I KNOW but to me the appeal of romancing Shinji is the fact that heâs sweet and sensitive and gentle and has respect for you despite the fact that he acts all scary. Thatâs like, what made me like this character in the first place. But the writers seem to think what women want is for a BIG STRONG MAN to protect them because they are just DELICATE WOMEN who are inferior in every way itâs like. Shut upppp thanks
#persona#persona 3#shinjiro aragaki#this is soooooooo obviously not the only romance route that sucks in this game yall know which one im referring to đ¤¨#and i actually tend to think of the shinji romance as the best one in the series cuz at least his confession scene is the only unique one#that really highlights who he is as a character and goes with the story#but ughh just idk its so annoying how the writers cant decide if hes sexist or not its really weird and its like#really shows how poorly the writers think of women playing their game its like all the romance options are trash and then your boyfriend is#sexist to you and its so clearly done in a way thats supposed to be romantic which is. ew#like idk if my partner was like talking about how i need to stay close to them because im a weak girl and they are strong man#especially when im literally the leader of the team and have been doing perfectly fine thus far and am clearly the strongest here#id simply run him over with a bulldozer#and its like this will all the guys in this game its like girl shut up and eat glass#meanwhile when youre a male protagonist your gf will kiss your ass to the point its infuriating#and their character arcs can never be too grand cuz then they might not wanna fuck you if they realize they have worth#uh sorry my brain is all over the place basically i hate persona romances lol and i hate how they wrote shinji in his#like dammit i dont want him cuz hes gonna protect me like a man i want him cuz he isnt great at fighting and prefers cooking and puppy dogs#and has respect for me and trusts my judgement and asks me to talk about my life and interests and smiles sweetly#but god forbid a woman in this series be respected i guess
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i think ive settled on laios being a knight of breath and kabru being a rogue of blood...... i think......
#unfortunately this means they are johnkat which. Hm.#is actually really fucking funny. Think back to the first johnkat conversations from karkats perspective bro is obsessed.#Karkat. Kabru. Karbru.#however... im thinking kabru should be a rogue because he constantly builds bonds in others to make the story succeed#but he doesnt get close himself....#i feel i dont need to explain his aspect lol i was thinking he could be mind but ultimately his character is driven by his bonds with other#hes driven by his feelings regarding the loss of his context#i think laios being breath is also fairly obvious but: he cuts his ties with his context eagerly even thoguh it probably brings him more#suffering than he would have went thru otherwise#he succeeds due to his lack of connection to established meanings (social conventions long term goals etc)#but hes a knight cause they are always harmed by their swoard#despite the success they find in it#like obvvv freedom and disconnection and novel experiences come naturally to him... but he left falin and regrets it.... he is disconnected#from people and monsters.... yet by Le Honor of Le Swoard he is bound to melini....#tee hee i think this is fun to play with..... i lurrrrve foils#laios is prospit kabru is... derse maybe. idk hes a gemini LOL#laios trollsona being a blue blood is interesting. guy who shirked nobility#kabru being yellow.... well. some silly little telepathy powers aint never hurt no bodayayy#omg milsiril is a leo... multiclass fighting corp that she ran away from now adopts lower castes ahhhhhh kabru gets WEIRD tastes of nobilit#its all coming together....
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slowly chugging away at animating a grogu fight scene because i support his right to fight like an old republic jedi
#star wars#grogu#adult grogu#he likes to jump; has the raw power to teach himself force choke; and has a whole lot of time to practice#i firmly believe he can reinvent the super acrobatic three-swings-in-one-somersault old republic fighting style#and the destroy-an-entire-mountain style of wrecking everything on the battlefield#no wonder there arent many old republic ruins left#the jedi and sith threw all the walls at each other wherever they fought#rewatching the cinematic trailers lol#imagine 80yr old grogu doing a dual-wielding triple-somersault directly into kylo ren's face#and then uprooting every solid object within three feet and chucking it at kylo#after kylo is buried under a mountain of rubble do a backflip that slices four knights of ren in half with one swing#i imagine he would do the darth treya thing w the lightsabers for extra range given that his arms are like six inches long#keep the saber(s) in hand for close attacks and then when he's farther away throw them and force-control them#for extra points if he's wearing a helmet just headbutt the nearest sith#or fully-armored football tackle like jace in that one trailer with malgus#and he definitely needs to do the Frog Hunting Pounce#redbean art
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there is something about how ive given talon all my death woes, as well as one that would only apply to a long living being like him. Something about how he doesn't form bonds anymore because non vampires don't Stay. Something about how ive inserted myself into an world with him and I myself will also leave him behind one day. (Though i guess he'll go with me, but there's also a chance that whenever It Happens he'll still be around in the minds of some as an idea...)
#talkys#im fighting off another death rumination panic attack at yet another funeral#too many in the past few years#he was actually born in the wake (lol...) of my spiral into unhealthy death fixation and rumination#which he also has as a part of his whole being#he came back to my brain at such a good time... i really need him rn#anyway. funeral slideshows always make me cry#and then i have nowhere to look bc the Body is in the room with us#i keep feeling dread. all ive been experiencing is the d**ths 𧿠of people ive not been close to#and just remembering they were People leaves me crying until i cant see#idk if ill make it through any death of an immediate family member once it comes (đ§żđ§żđ§ż)#sorry i made this post to distract me but it didnt matter#it doesnt help that he looked so much like my dad....#OK IVE CALMED DOWN A LITTLE FOR NEOW đ
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me: hmm yeh i kinda get the criticism of this female character, she's not overly complex or interesting but she's Cool so that's basically why people like her which is fine
me 3 seconds later when i hear others shit talking her: actually fuck that, she IS complex AND interesting and i will defend her with my LIFE
#this is about sam until dawn btw pfft#watched a (mostly p good) review of the remake and agreed with everything#until they were like 'eh i dont think she'd make a good protag for the potential sequel cos she's not as interesting as the others'#like excuse me but You Are Wrong lol#like i dont think she's the most interesting character to ever interesting#BUT i think that there is a lot of depth to her!!!#she keeps a cool head and acts like a badass leader with loads of bravado but we see several times where she doesnt stand up to people#like she was hannah's best friend but let the prank go ahead despite knowing about it#& lets mike shoot emily if u chose to...#also the bit in the interviews where she's talking about how she thought she and josh were close#and she''s sad he didnt open up to her only for the interviewer to try and get HER to open up which immediately makes her shut down#like that's interesting!!! it shows how she puts on a facade as a defence mechanism just like josh did#which is why it makes so much sense seeing how she could have spiralled in the extra scene#and as much as i dont rly think we need a sequel... she is literally the only person that makes sense to focus on from the original game lo#also this person had the audacity to claim that mike shouldve been the protag like dont get me wrong i love mike#but he is enjoyable because he's funny and resourceful NOT because he's actually interesting fight me#ok i'm done lol#should i put this in my#personal#tag for shits and giggles lol?
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#grief rant in the tags time#losing your life partner at 25 is just. jesus christ#iâve been most worried for kate with everything and i hope she has a good support system around her#also teardrops hits so different now. the way it ends so abruptly is so poignant#and midnight????#thatâs the song that i had playing on loop when i met my ex and used to listen to it to cheer me up#itâs been a bit different since we broke up but it still made me smile and remember that life can feel good again#itâs just too bittersweet to feel anything even close to how it used to#his voice is so beautiful :( so strong :(((#he was so fucking talented dude and obviously this is just an assumption#but i really do feel like he WANTED to be better#again the thing of like. no amount of money can truly buy you out of your struggles#sure it gives you more of a fighting chance to access different forms of help that are out of reach for low income people#but itâs such another stark reminder that iâd learned myself that like. the kind of help that most addicts/bd2 people need#pretty much just doesnât exist#makes recovery for myself feel scarier#iâd been feeling that since i got out of rehab in 2022 and this just reignites that all over again#iâm sorry the world did this to you liam. and iâm sorry you couldnât get the help you needed#youâre so loved#i donât love everything you did but that doesnât mean youâre not still loved#ANYWAY GOD DAMN IT#hopefully therapy helps today lol#rowyn rambles
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I have thought about this so much, because Viktor being spotlighted so frequently in the trial scene is just so interesting. I think part of it is partly just foreshadowing that This Character Is Going To Be Important, of course, but I do think thereâs more.
Thereâs a couple really great ways you can read their early pre-journal-stealing-Viktor interactions, but I think my favorite is just⌠ego.
Itâs one thing that the arcane versions of Jayce and Viktor very much have in common with their League counterparts (if you see them as separate). We definitely see bits if Jayceâs ego throughout the show, from the way he is fine with playing along with Heimerâs advice in the trial until they start calling him an incompetent failure of a scientist, to the bits of preening and social prowess he shows as he gets rebranded as the Man of Progress. A lot of Jayceâs character conflict stems from the fact he knows he is right about Hextech/magic, but he either cannot get other people to see that, or he cannot reconcile his own vision with Hextechâs place in the real world.
However, Viktor is just as confident and egotistical as Jayce.
This is a man who beat the odds of his birth and absolutely believes he is one of the smartestâ if not the smartestâ in the room at all times. This is a man who is happy to work on illegal, experimental projects because he knows he is smart enough to figure it out. Heâs even confident enough to do it twice in the show, once with Hextech and once with Shimmer! I think Arcane Viktor is certainly tempered with a lot of empathy and a clear drive for survival as opposed to his League counterpart, but he is just as concerned with Legacy and scientific success as Jayce, Heimerdinger, and Singed areâ itâs just that they view that success in different ways.
(Iâd like to add that I personally prefer to think of Jayce and Viktor in Arcane as a proto-League version of themselves, with the League lore that currently exists.)
So my favorite way to read the scenes where Viktor gets Jayce arrested is simply that itâs not about Jayce in particular, but that Viktor simply thinks heâs a better scientist. Viktor came from very little and already succeeded âbeyond his beginningsâ, he knows he is consistently smarter than most of the graduates in the Academy, and he already has some beliefs on how Heimerdinger himself is wrong. He will happily go on to challenge Mel and the ideas of power and law in Piltover repeatedly. So itâs not about Jayce, but about the fact that Jayce is yet another scientist who got in over his experimental pay grade, and Viktor gets to watch another rich Piltovan university student realize they arenât actually all that great. He did have a presupposed image of Jayce, even if it wasnât about Jayce Talis in particularâ though it could have been, because we know from Jayceâs Journal in the league client event circa 2021 that Jayce was failing most of his classes because he was obsessively working on Hextech, and that Heimerdinger was worried about him. Maybe Viktor even knew that before he walked into Jayceâs ruined apartment.
Jayce failed. Publicly and catastrophically. Viktor would never.
And I think it isnât until he hears what Jayce was trying to do that Viktor realizes how alike he and Jayce are. He wasnât some failing rich kid who got in over his head; heâs a sponsored student willing to push the boundaries of experimental and illegal science and magic in the name of progress. Itâs easy for Viktor to switch to needing to work with this man because he realizes Jayce isnât stupid, that Jayce has very similar goals to Viktor right now, and that Jayce is also every bit as insane as Viktor is in his pursuit of progress. Suddenly Viktor realizes he may not be the smartest in the room, just like Jayce realizes he might not be the only one smart enough and ballsy enough to create Hextech. They match each other, and continue to match each other, in brilliance, drive, and ego for the better part of a decade. Even in League, they met at an Academy party and bonded over the fact that they hated being there and how they were both so much smarter than anyone else in the room.
Obviously we donât know how they will fall apart in Arcane S2 (I have so many theories but we will see soon enough). But in League, their egos are also a massive part of why they fall out, but continue to be almost single-mindedly obsessed with the other person for the rest of their lives. They are the only person who matched each otherâs intellect, goals, and drive for years, and even though Piltover and Zaun are filled with brilliant people, they never really care about anyone else besides their old partner. I think a big part of that is that each of them, respectively, believes the other hurt their own pride and ego in an unforgivable way, so they are going to spend the rest of their life making it the other personâs problem.
Hi why did Viktor seem almost glad that Jayce was being arrested and put on trial in ep 2?
LikeâŚhe has this haughty, kind of contemptuous attitude towards Jayce throughout the episode until after the trialâwhen he realizes that Jayceâs research on magic may be something worth looking into.
But BEFORE that, when Jayceâs apartment is being searched, everything about Viktorâs demeanor seems to indicate that heâs putting Jayce below himself. When Jayce expresses distress about the situation, Viktor responds with sarcasm or nonchalance: âI believe someone should have said that earlier.â and then when prompted he introduces himself not as a person, but by describing his position: âIâm assistant to the dean of the Academy, who it may serve you to remember is also head of the Council.â
He seems glad to hand Jayce over to the enforcers and does so with a SMILE, and later in the episode when Jayce walks into the Council room for his trial, thereâs this lingering shot of Viktor smirking at him as he passes!! And itâs 1000% on purposeâViktorâs the only character besides Jayce (in a crowd of people, mind you!) whoâs fully lit up in that shot.
Itâs like the writers wanted to clearly convey that Viktor had a âyouâre getting what you deserveâ mentality towards Jayce, which is odd considering Viktorâs characterization after the trial is nothing but amicable towards Jayce throughout the rest of Act 1 before it turns into fondness over the rest of the season.
SoâŚif this haughty attitude towards Jayce was put there on purpose and not just as an introduction to the smartass counterpart to Jayceâs optimistic charm, then why does Viktor have such contempt for Jayce if they donât even know each other?
see this is why we need a novelization or at very least the published script because i wanna know what these characters were thinking
#character analysis#arcane thoughts#sir e speaks#I think Jayceâs ego in both arcane and league present in a more obvious and outward vanity along with his bold approach to his work#but Viktorâs character is also so reliant on Needing To Be Right#especially in league where he is so adamant that he is The Most Correct Scientist Ever that he chops off parts of his body to prove it#likeâŚ#Jayce is more outward about it but I think Viktor is more brazen with it when you really look at him#and for both of them I like to see their ego / vanity / pride as both a virtue and a flaw#itâs what sets them apart from all the others#its also what causes most of their problems in society and with each other#league Jayce grows into ego manifesting as self deprication so he just comes off as a brilliant asshole#but kinda marketed in the hot celebrity way in Piltover I think#whereas Viktor grows into his ego making him insular and standoffish and a little insane#he doesnât like being around other people because theyâre too dumb and too close minded#but I think itâs very integral to both of their characters that they both believe they are the smartest in the room at all times#and they probably are#and so many of their fights later are just a big dick (brain) measuring contest over who was more right after all#ALSO in your tags you said that we were maybe being led to believe Viktor would steal Jayceâs work#and I really do think we were!!!!#I think he was being set up to be a possible villain and then it was like âPLOT TWIST heâs actually greatâ#and then season 2 will be like JUST KIDDING LOL#Iâd love a parallel of Jayce (or someone else) stealing Viktorâs work like in lore but I donât think that particular plot line will happen#anyway I love them so much and the more flawed they are the better imo#what if you were narrative partners but also foils and also in love but also divorced#viktor league of legends#jayce league of legends#this could all probably be explained so much better but itâs 6 am and Iâm tired
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â๨ŕ§ËâĄË ࣪ when farmerâs!daughter!readerâs father goes out of town to visit some family, her and cowboy!rafe canât keep their hands to themselves any longer.
warnings: reader is a little bit on the shy side, flirty banter, use of petnames, implied age gap (rafe is 7-10 years older), hint of jealous!rafe, reader refers to her father as âdaddyâ, mentions of sneaking around, slowburn (kinda?), lotsss of sexual tension, fluff, mutual pining, oral (f. receiving), fingering, finger sucking, unprotected sex, dirty talk, breeding kink, cream pie, squirting, multiple orgasms
a/n: based loosely off of the moodboard + headcanons i wrote here <3 saddle up because this is a long one lol
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âyou gonna keep staring at me or are you gonna help me out here?â rafe grunted, a hint of a smile playing on his lips as he watched you blink away from his form. you looked up from his shirtless figure, his skin glistening with sweat as butterflies fluttered in your chest. âwhat do you need?â you chirped, blinking rapidly as if to shake away the thoughts of pressing wet kisses to his waistline. âa cold glass of water sounds good right now.â you obliged, rafe watching as you went up the porch stairs in your cute little boots, his eyes falling down to your backside. âfuck.â he muttered to himself.
if he knew heâd have to fight the urge to touch his bossâs pretty daughter, he wouldâve hesitated in taking the job. eight months had felt like an eternity when you pranced around the farm in the prettiest dresses and shortest daisy duke shorts heâs ever seen. you came back with a glass of water, taking a sip before handing it to him. expecting rafe to turn the glass around to take a drink from the other side of the rim, your cheeks heated when he placed his mouth on the same spot your lips were on just moments ago. âthanks, sweetheart.â rafe shot you a wink, his charm making you look away shyly.
you plopped down on a nearby tree stump, a pout taking over your features as you looked at the empty driveway. your father had only been gone for a few hours, not nearly making a dent in the five days heâll be away. âyou donât have to worry about him, yâknow? heâs a strong man.â rafe decided he needed a break from being hunched over under the hood of his truck, his chest rising and falling as he took a seat on the bed of fluffy grass next to you. âi know..â you muttered, âitâs justâ heâs so much older now, i worry about him.â you looked down at rafe, his eyes already trained on you.
rafe nodded. âthat man can survive anything. wasnât he in his truck when a tornado came and swept him off the ground?â you gasped, a laugh escaping your lips. âhe told you that story?!â you squealed excitedly, your reaction making rafe melt into a puddle of nothing. you were too cute. âdid he also tell you the part where that didnât really happen? him and his buddy just got real close to it.â rafeâs face morphed into one of pure shock. âhe lied?!â you threw your head back in laughter, a snort following shortly after. it was rafeâs turn to laugh, the sound unfamiliar to his ears.
âoh my god, excuse me. i canât believe i just did that!â you clasped a hand over your mouth, embarrassment creeping up onto your face. the man next to you waved you off. âwhy would he lie about that?â rafe leaned back on his hands, giving you a full view of his chiseled abs. sighing dreamily, you shrugged. âheâs a drama queen sometimes, he likes the theatrics.â realizing that you just swooned over his muscles, rafe cleared his throat before getting back to work. he respected your father too much to give in to his filthy desires, or so he hoped.
swallowing the lump of rejection in your throat, you made your way inside where you decided to watch him from your bedroom window instead. your infatuation with this man only grew by the day, and it was becoming really hard to hide your adoration for him. all the times he slipped you a little wink when your father wasnât looking, the playing of footsies under the table while your father ranted about the economy, the lingering stares and touches.. you werenât crazy, you had every right to believe this man was interested in you in some way, shape, or form.
apart of you wanted to believe that rafe was trying to maintain in being a gentleman towards you, but thereâs nothing you wanted more than for him to hold off all kind of honor and respect for you while he takes you however he wants. you daydreamed about being fucked in a headlock by him, along with being put into twenty other positions. letting out a sigh, you fell back on your bed, fiddling with the ribbon that was tied to the belt loop of your shorts. how on earth were you going to go about these next few days all alone with him?
night time rolled around, and rafe had just come inside for a shower. âare you hungry?â you watched as he rolled his shoulders back, cracking his neck to release some pressure of todayâs labor. âyeah, but iâll help myself. donât worry about it, âsugar.â he groaned before shutting the bathroom door behind him. you knew he wouldnât, days like this always ended in rafe knocking out as soon as he hit his bed, empty stomach or not. the only thing rafe could think about as the hot water pattered against his back, was how you were in the same house as him in nothing but a night dress.
he wondered if youâd let him hike it up your thighs.. if youâd allow him to slip his fingers underneath the soft material. so badly, he wanted to see your face twist in pleasure underneath him, he ached to see that day. rafe let out a shuddering breath, swallowing thickly as lewd images of you ran through his head. he imagined your hands trailing down his torso, those cherry red painted fingers of yours wrapped tightly around his cock. you had this man questioning everything he ever knew about being a gentlman. rafe rubbed the sides of his face, his eyes screwing shut as he attempted to get all inappropriate thoughts about you out of his head.
he remembered seeing you for the first time all those months ago. you were wearing a red gingham dress, your hair styled so pretty and neat. he knew immediately that he was in trouble when you flashed him that million dollar smile when your father introduced you two. it wasnât long before both of you started flirting with each other, even going as far as touching each other when you didnât have to. rafe would âhelpâ you up on your horse, his hands planted on the globes of your ass as he hoisted you onto the saddle. he swore he died and came back to life whenever youâd place a hand on him every time he made you laugh.
slowly but surely, you two were getting more bolder with your moves. while rafe was ogling your goodies more often than not, you started leaving your curtains open whenever youâd change, knowing he could see you from the view of his window. pinching the bridge of his nose, rafe quickly hurried up in the shower, feeling the need to relieve himself in his own space where he knew youâd be far away from. after washing away all the dirt and grime, he felt clean as he dried himself off, only for his peace to come crashing down when he realized he didnât bring an extra change of clothes with him.
with no other choice but to walk out of the bathroom with nothing but a towel wrapped around his waist, he tried to sneak pass you in the kitchen and out the back door, but of course he wasnât so lucky. âi know you said you would make yourself something, butââ you turned around with a loaded dinner plate in your hand, the dish nearly slipping out of your grip when you saw the tall cowboy standing awkwardly with his hands on his hips.
your eyes trailed down his stomach, the sight of his happy trail making you swallow thickly. rafe took note of this, his heart beating in his chest as you averted your gaze elsewhere. âuhm, well i made you this.. i know itâs one of your favorites..â you placed the plate of steak and mashed potatoes on the table, turning around as you took your bottom lip between your teeth. this was absolute torture. âit looks amazing, iâll just get some clothes on and be right back.â he held onto the towel, jogging to his place where he slipped on a pair of pajama pants and a dingy white t-shirt.
âyou didnât have to do this,â rafe took a seat at the table, his jaw ticking when you bent over the counter to grab a couple of drinking glasses, âthank you.â at this point he didnât know if he was thanking you for the food, or the perfect view of your ass. âwater?â you looked at him from over your shoulder, your cheeks heating when you saw his eyes shoot away from your backside. âa beer please.â you smiled at his answer. you shouldâve known heâd pick that out after a full day of work. grabbing a bottle from the fridge, you handed it to him, his fingers brushing yours as you took a seat across from him.
âmy dad makes it a lot better than i do, soââ rafe was quick to cut you off, a moan leaving his lips as he chewed. âthis is.. damn!â you giggled, shaking your head. âitâs great, darlinâ. truly.â he nodded approvingly, flashing you a thumbs up. you smiled that smile of yours before tasting it yourself. despite all the tension between you two, you could always count on each other to talk the otherâs ear off. âwait. so youâre telling me that youâre actually from an island? why on earth would you live out in the middle of nowhere when you had the beach in your backyard?â you asked incredulously.
rafe took a swig from his beer, a bittersweet laugh leaving his lips. âi got into a âlotta bad shit over there. i was on some bad shit,â he sighed, âbeing out here brings me peace.. even if iâm breaking my back everyday.â you listened closely, giving him your full attention as he told you more about the place he was from. you learned that he used to be a filthy rich boy with a house bigger than you could ever imagine. rafe smiled softly, a solemn expression taking over his features. âitâs very nice. but i wouldnât go back.â he leaned back in his chair.
you tilted your head at him, both of your plates empty. âno? how come?â you leaned forward, your cleavage peeking out of your neckline. eyes flickering down to your chest, rafe seemed to get flustered when he felt your foot trail up his leg. âwell,â he zeroed in on your lips, âi see myself settling down out here, âhavin some little ones.â your breath hitched, a smidge of jealousy now residing in your gut. as if he could read your mind, he caught your foot under the table, his thumb stroking your ankle. âold habits seem to die hard, huh?â rafe laughed.
pushing away the jealousy, you nodded, feeling a new profound sense of confidence with the way he was looking at you right now. âyeah, i guess i forgot weâre here all by ourselves.. âdonât really have to hide from anyone..â you yawned, your head falling back on your chair as your night gown rode up your thighs. just a few inches higher, and rafe would finally see what heâs been fantasizing about all this time. âyeah..â he crossed his arms, his biceps looking especially good right now. you two stayed quiet, just looking at each other as if everything was threatening to rise to the surface.
do something! you thought to yourself, hoping rafe could magically hear you and grab you from across the table. instead, he looked away, letting go of your foot before scooting out from the table. âdinner was really good, but i better head off to bed, now.â he didnât let you say anything before he left in a haste. what. the. fuck. you got up, watching him curse to himself from the kitchen window. you couldnât help but feel defeated. rafe was always the one pulling away from you, no matter how close you two got, he always left you high and dry.
once you cleaned everything up, and you were left lying by yourself in your bed, you decided everything would change. if he pulled away from you, surely you should do the same.
you woke up the next morning to the sound of rafeâs truck engine roaring to life. rubbing your eyes, you shielded your face from the morning sun, deciding to get your day started as soon as possible. within an hour, you were stepping outside, walking over to where rafe was smiling brightly behind the steering wheel. âi got it working, sweetheart! should we go for a ride?â damn him, he knew how much you loved to be passenger princess in his two seater-beater. you cleared your throat, already hating yourself as you said no. âi donât think so.. i got a lot of stuff to do today.â
rafe watched you go back in the house, his jaw ticking in response. the only thing you had to do today was sit and look pretty. not to mention, for as long as rafe has been here, you never, ever, rejected going on a little drive with him. thatâs how he immediately knew something wasnât right, and heâd bet all of his money that it had something to do with last night. taking the keys out of the ignition, rafe decided that if you werenât going to go for a ride with him, then he wasnât going either. considering he did everything he needed to do yesterday, rafe settled for going inside to tidy up his place.
you walked around the house aimlessly, a book in your hand as you kept glancing outside to see if you could spot rafe anywhere. you didnât. letting out a groan, you looked at the clock on the wall. it was already half past noon. you debated on whether or not you should take him some lunch, your leg bouncing as you tried to weigh out your options here. on one hand, you could bring rafe lunch, try to talk some stuff out, and on the other hand, you could just leave things be like you promised yourself you would. you knew rafe wasnât stupid, surely heâd catch on to you soon.
just as you decided against bothering him, there was a knock at the front door. eyebrows knitting in confusion, you opened the door to see your childhood best friend, wyatt. âwyatt!â you squealed, throwing your arms around him as he pulled you close to him by your waist. âoh my, lord! when did you come back from the city?!â you welcomed him in, motioning for him to come inside. âi just finished my second semester, so iâll be in town for a while. i drove out here just last night, âdecided to surprise my folks.â he smiled, his expression softening once you urged him to take a seat at the kitchen table.
âi didnât see your old manâs truck out front..â he sat down, taking his hat off and placing it on the table. âoh, yeah.. heâs out of town visiting my aunt.â you leaned back on the counter, your eyes flickering at his hair. he looked so much different now. âwow, youâre uhâ you look really good.â you complimented. âyeah, iâm not lanky anymore,â wyatt laughed, âyou look gorgeous as always, though.â his gaze ran down your dress, the sight of your bare thighs making him clear his throat. âwell, i didnât just want to come by and say hi, i actually wanted to ask you somethingââ
rafe barged in before wyatt could finish his sentence.
âwhoâs this?â he stared between you two, the jealousy in his blue eyes very, very evident. you smiled innocently as wyatt got up, extending a hand for rafe to shake. âhello, sir. iâm an old friend of y/nâs here, âwas just coming to visit her.â rafe looked down at wyattâs palm, keeping both of his hands tucked in his pockets. âwell, you two might wanna hurry this up, y/nâs father doesnât know about any visitors coming to his home.â rafe walked around him, opening the fridge for a beer. âdaddy isnât home though, isnât he?â you spoke up, in which rafe turned around. âwhat was that?â he asked.
you two were glaring at each other now. âmy dad isnât here,â you repeated, âand besides, he knows wyatt. âthinks of him as a son, right?â rafeâs grip on his beer bottle tightened, a smile playing on his lips when he glanced over at your friend. âyeah.â wyatt nodded. rafe was seeing red, he couldnât stand to look at you and wyatt standing so close to each other any longer. turning around, rafe listened in as wyatt asked to take you out to dinner. âaw, i would love to! what time should i be ready?ârafe shut his eyes momentarily. you said yes to wyatt too fast for his liking. âhow does eight oâclock sound?â
you hummed, nodding excitedly as wyatt made his way to the front door. âalright, itâs a date then. see âya!â you waved at him until his truck disappeared down the dirt road. walking back into the kitchen, rafe was staring you down as you acted like you didnât just agree to go on a date in front of him. âwhat do you think youâre playing at?â he narrowed his eyes at you. âif youâre acting out because of last nightââ you cut him off. âdonât talk about me âacting outâ when youâre the one who decided to run back to your little shed when i was giving you an open opportunity.â you cut in.
âan open opportunity to do what?â rafeâs voice was firm as he stepped closer to you, his beer long forgotten on the counter as he gripped your arm. you failed miserably at trying not to look down at his lips. âit doesnât even matter now. you obviously donât want it,â you softened, âdonât want me..â rafe couldnât believe his ears. you were all that this man thought about. he woke up thinking of what pretty outfit you would wear for the day, and went to sleep wishing you were by his side. âdonât want you?â he repeated, loosening his grip on your skin. âyou just have no fucking clue.â rafe stepped back.
âyouâre the only thing that i want.â he laughed bitterly, shaking his head as he made his way outside to the back house. you stared at him in shock. all this time you wondered if something was wrong with you because he never made a real move to pursue you, but now all of a sudden after you agree to go on a date he wants to express how he feels? and has the nerve to walk off right after? fuck that. you pushed the back door open, the old wood slamming back against the house as rafe spun around on his heels. âso why do you walk away from me?!â you shouted, both of your chests rising and falling.
âwhat are you talking about?â you stepped down the stairs, shoving rafe in the chest. âwhy do you leave every time things start to go somewhere?â his eyes bore into yours, âiâm sick of this game of cat and mouse. have you ever thought that maybe i want you too?â those were the words rafe needed to hear before he cupped your face and dragged you off your feet. his lips were soft against your own, his calloused hands pulling you close to him as your arms wrapped around his neck. he groaned at the taste of you, his tongue slipping in your mouth before you could process what was happening.
rafe kissed you hard and slow, as if to savor you before he led you two to his place, the door barely shutting before he had you pinned to his neatly made bed. âiâve wanted you the moment your father introduced us, thatâs the truth.â he slotted himself between your thighs, cupping your tits through your dress. you moaned, his hips grinding against your clothed cunt. âwhy would you wait all this time then?â you whimpered when he started pressing kisses to the curve of your neck, his calloused hands feeling you up as they roamed your soft flesh. âwell for starters, i have a lot of respect for your pops..â
you sighed, completely forgetting about the old man. âand?â rafe pulled the straps of your dress down until the material pooled at your waist. leaning back on his heels, rafe marveled at the sight of your bare chest, your tits looking more perfect than he imagined. â..and right now, all the respect i have is going out the door.â you cried out when he leaned down, his lips wrapping around a sensitive bud while he used his other hand to snake beneath the waistband of your panties. you blinked up at the ceiling, your hips bucking when you felt his rough fingers stroke your clit.
âthat feels so good, ray.â you keened, the weight of his body providing you a sense of safety and comfort. rafe felt like he was under a spell. with your sweet voice in his ear, and his fingers working to get you soaked and ready for him, he couldnât wait to taste you any longer. pulling away from you, rafe slid your dress and underwears off in one swift motion, a shiver running down your spine when he slowly spread your thighs apart. âyouâre fuckinâ gorgeous.â he licked his lips, glancing up at your heated face. your heart bloomed in your chest, your hand finding his cheek.
âplease. iâve wanted this for eight months.â you confessed, your words sending rafe into overdrive. without another thought, rafe took your thighs and placed them on his shoulders, delving into your wetness with a groan. instinctively, your back arched up from his bed, your hands flying to rest on top of his own. you squeezed his fingers, a string of babbles falling from your lips as rafeâs tongue flicked against your sensitive bundle of nerves. rafe watched as you pulled your bottom lip between your teeth, your eyebrows knitting together as pure bliss etched itself onto your face.
âyou okay?â rafe pressed a wet kiss to your inner thigh, wanting to make sure it wasnât too much for you before continuing. âmhmm, yes!â you looked down, the image of rafeâs chin, lips, and even the tip of his nose glistening with your slick was now forever ingrained in your brain. smiling to himself, rafe got back to work, but this time with his fingers prodding at your entrance. âmight be a bit uncomfortable at first, but i promise itâll feel so good, baby.â you nodded, putting all your trust in him before you felt the delicious stretch of his digits inside your cunt.
âfuck!â you squealed, your thighs threatening to snap shut around his head. rafe curled his digits, your eyes screwing shut as he continuously pressed that soft spot inside of you. rafe didnât stop his skillful movements on your clit, an unfamiliar feeling starting to swirl in your core. rafe cursed at the wet sounds emitting from your pussy, his cock hard and aching to get inside of you already. you gasped when he kept suckling on your sensitive bud, your stomach caving in when he pressed a hand to your tummy. before you could think, white hot pleasure blinded your vision, your entire body jolting as the first wave of your orgasm washed over you.
rafe felt the way you pulsed around his digits, wishing so badly that it was his cock instead. eyes flickering up to your face, he groaned when he saw the way your face twisted in pure bliss, your legs shaking as you felt the sudden urge to pull away from him. ârafe, wait!â you cried out, a sob ripping itself from your throat when a stream of wetness suddenly soaked rafeâs chin, your decadence streaming down his neck as he moaned against your cunt. you stared down at him with wide eyes, your mouth parting in suprise when he slipped his digits in his mouth.
âi- i donât know what that was!â you gasped, cheeks heating in embarrassment. licking a final stripe up your folds, rafe smiled as he shook his head. âyou just squirted, baby, get used to it.â his length rested on top of your tummy, hot and heavy, as he threaded his fingers with yours. âgonna fuck you until youâre carrying my baby..â your heart swelled, recalling his words from last night. âwere you talking about me? when you said you wanted little ones..â rafe looked into your eyes, the sincerity in his gaze making you feel warm and fuzzy inside. âyouâre the only woman i envision. future and present.â
cupping his face softly, you brought his lips down to meet your own, the head of his cock slipping into your entrance. you let out a shuddering breath, nodding slowly as he pushed the rest of his length inside your greedy walls. you swore you died and went to heaven when he starting rocking into you, both of you moaning in unison. ârafe?â you whimpered, gazing up at him with teary eyes, âshitâ yeah, sweetheart?â the man on top of you thumbed your chin, a concerned expression taking over his features. you could tell rafe was holding back with the way he was hesitating with every thrust.
âharder, please.â you asked sweetly, rafe obliging without another thought. soon, you were a crying mess, your eyes barely staying open as rafe put you in a mating press. he was already reaching new depths in regular missionary, so when he placed your legs over his shoulders and caged you between his arms, you were hysterical as his tip kissed your cervix. âoh, god!â you screamed, your nails digging into rafeâs skin as he fucked you stupid. âcanât..â you shook your head, the feeling of his cock filling you to the hilt was increasingly becoming too much to handle.
"yes you can, sugar. look how good you're taking it all.." rafe cradled your head, making you look down at where you two were connected. you moaned at the sight, his cock shining with your slick. rafe kept his hands beneath your head, kissing you softly as his pubic bone began hitting your clit. âmâgonna make you the prettiest mommy this town has ever seen, just watch.â he chuckled, his forehead falling in the curve of your neck. you ran your fingers across his buzzed scalp, the word âpromise?â lingering on your tongue. âis that what you want? âwant me to breed you until youâre all pretty and round?â
you cried out, rafeâs hips stuttering as he felt his climax creeping up on him. âyes, yes, yesââ you repeated yourself like a broken record, rafeâs name falling from your lips like a mantra. âoh, fuck!â he cursed, teeth grazing your flesh as he spilled into you, your second orgasm making you squeeze around him like a vice. rafe stilled, making sure to keep stroking your clit so he could draw out your high for as long as possible. slipping his thumb in your mouth, you shamelessly sucked on the digit as you trembled beneath him, his hot load filling you up.
you two stayed panting against each otherâs mouths until your highs subsided, a light sheen of sweat coating both of your skinâs. pulling out with a grunt, rafe rolled over, pulling you with him so he could spoon you. letting out a sigh, you reveled in the warm sun streaming through his window, the light casting off of your face and illuminating the walls. âthat was worth the wait, donât you think?â if it wasnât for the feeling of your limbs being jelly, you wouldâve turned around and landed a playful smack to his chest. instead, you hummed, your eyes heavy with sleep. âweâre not keeping this from my father, rafe.â
your voice was hoarse as you spoke. âno. no, weâre not.â he kissed your shoulder. âyou should probably give that guy wayne a call, âtell him youâre not going on that date after all.â you giggled, a shiver going down your spine as his large palm rubbed circles into your back. âwyatt, rafe. his name is wyatt. i only told him yes to rile you up.â you teased. rafe knew that, but it still pissed him off nonetheless. âiâll cancel in a minute, âsir.â you used wyattâs formalities towards rafe earlier against him, earning you a light pinch to your side. âthat asshole. âreally called me sir as if iâm that old.â he shook his head, waiting for you to disagree.
âwell..â you trailed off, bursting into laughter when he attacked you with sloppy kisses.
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Kingdom of Ash Chapter 64
Chapter; Highlights
Hours later, Yrene was still shaking.
At the disaster they'd narrowly avoided, at the deaths she'd witnessed before that wave had struck, at the power of the queen on the plain. The power of the prince who had prevented the ensuing steam from boiling alive any caught in its path.
Yrene had thrown herself back into healing during the chaos since. Had left the royals and their commanders to oversee the aftermath, and had returned to the Great Hall. Healers drifted onto the battlefield, searching for those in need of help.
All of them, every single person in the keep or the skies or on the battlefield, kept glancing toward the now-empty gap between two mountain peaks. Toward the flooded, decimated city, and the demarcation line between life and death. Water and debris had destroyed most of Anielle, the former now trickling toward the Silver Lake.
A vision of what would have been left of them, were it not for Aelin Galathynius.
She'd been asked to inspect the queen when she'd been carried in to a private chamber by Prince Rowan, the two of them borne off the plain by Nesryn. Yrene hadn't been able to stop her hands from shaking as she'd hovered them over Aelin's unconscious body.
There had been no sign of harm beyond a few already-healing cuts and slices from the battle itself.
Nothing at all beyond a sleeping, tired woman.
Who held the might of a god within her veins.
Yrene had then inspected Prince Rowan, who looked in far worse shape, a sizable gash snaking down his thigh. But he'd waved her off, claiming he'd come too near a burnout, and just needed to rest as well.
So Yrene had left them, only to tend to another.
â
To Lorcan, whose injuries ... Yrene had needed to summon Hafiza to help her with some of it. To lend her power, since Yrene's had been so depleted.
The unconscious warrior, who had apparently tumbled right off Farasha as he and Elide had passed through the gates, didn't so much as stir while they worked on him.
That had been hours ago. Days ago, it felt.
Yes, she needed to rest.
But a horn, clear and bright, blared from outside.
Everyone halted-then rushed to the windows. Yrene's smile grew as she, too, found a place to peek out over the battlefield.
To where the rest of the khagan's army, Prince Kashin at its front, marched toward them.
Thank the gods. Everyone in the hall muttered similar words.
From the keep, an answering horn sang its welcome.
Not just one army had been spared here today, Yrene realized as she turned back to the water station. If that wave had reached Kashin.
âŚ
Lucky. They had all been so, so very lucky.
Yet Yrene wondered how long that luck would last.
If it would see them through the brutal march northward, and to the walls of Orynth itself.
Lorcan let out a low groan as he surfaced from the warm, heavy embrace of darkness.
"You are one lucky bastard."
Too soon. Too damn soon after hovering near death to hear Fenrys's drawl.
Fenrys's smirk was a slash of white.
"You've been out for a day. I drew the short stick and had to look after you."
A lie. For whatever reason, Fenrys had chosen to be here.
Lorcan thumped his head back on the pillow. "Elide." Her name was a rasp on his tongue.
The last he remembered, they'd ridden through the gates, Aelin Galathynius's unholy power spent. Then oblivion had swept in.
"Helping with the healing in the Great Hall," Fenrys said, stretching out his legs before him.
Lorcan closed his eyes, something tight in his chest easing.
"Well, since you're not dead," Fenrys began, but Lorcan was already asleep.
Lorcan awoke later. Hours, days, he didn't know.
The candle was still burning on the narrow windowsill, down to its base. Hours, then.
He didn't care. Not when the dim light revealed the delicate woman lying facedown on the end of his cot, the lower half of her body still on the wooden chair where Fenrys had been. Her arms cradled her head, one outstretched toward him. Reaching for his hand, mere inches from hers.
Elide.
Her dark hair spilled across the blanket, across his shins, veiling much of her face.
Wincing at the lingering ache in his body, Lorcan stretched his arm just enough to touch her fingers. They were cold, their tips so much smaller than his. They contracted, pulling away as she sucked in a sharp, awakening breath.
Lorcan savored every feature as she grimaced at a crick in her neck. But her eyes settled on him. She went still as she found him staring at her, awake and utterly in awe of the woman who had ridden through hell to find him ...
Tired. She looked spent, yet her chin remained unbowed.
Lorcan had no words. He'd given her everything on the back of that horse anyway.
But Elide asked, "How do you feel?" Aching. Exhausted. Yet finding her sitting at his bedside... "Alive," he said, and meant it.
Her face remained unreadable, even as her eyes dipped to his body. The blanket had slid down enough to reveal most of his torso, though it still hid the scarred-over wound in his abdomen. Yet he'd never felt so keenly naked.
It was an effort to keep his breathing steady beneath her sharp-eyed gaze. "Yrene said you would have died, if they hadn't gotten to you when they did."
"I would have died," he said, voice like gravel, "if you hadn't braved hell to find me." Her gaze lifted to his. "I made you a promise."
"So you said."
Was that a hint of color stealing across her pale cheeks? But she didn't balk. "You said some interesting things, too."
Lorcan tried to sit up, but his body gave a burst of pain in protest.
Elide explained, "Yrene warned that though the wounds are healed, some soreness will linger."
Lorcan gritted his teeth around the sharp stab in his back, his stomach. He managed to get onto his elbows, and deemed that progress enough. "It's been a while since I was so gravely injured. I'd forgotten what an inconvenience it is."
A faint smile tugged on her mouth.
His heart halted. The first smile she had given him in months and months. Since that day on the ship, when he'd touched her hand as they'd swayed in their hammocks.
Her smile faded, but the color on her cheeks lingered. "Did you mean it? What you said." He held her stare. Let some inner wall within him come crumbling down. Only for her. For this sharp-eyed, cunning little liar who had slipped through every defense and ironclad rule he'd ever made for himself. He let her see that in his face. Let her see all of it, as no one had ever done before. "Yes."
Her mouth tightened, but not in displeasure.
So Lorcan said softly, "I meant every word." His heart thundered, so wildly it was a wonder she couldn't hear it. "And I will until the day I fade into the Afterworld."
Lorcan didn't breathe as Elide gently reached out her hand. And interlaced their fingers. "I love you," she whispered.
He was glad he was lying down. The words would have knocked him to his knees. Even now, he was half inclined to bow before her, the true owner of his ancient, wicked heart.
"I have loved you," she went on, "from the moment you came to fight for me against Vernon and the ilken." The light in her eyes stole his breath. "And when I heard you were somewhere on that battlefield, the only thing I wanted was to be able to tell you that. It was the only thing that mattered."
Once, he might have scoffed. Declared that far bigger things mattered, in this war especially. And yet the hand grasping his ... He'd never known anything more precious.
Lorcan ran his thumb over the back of her hand. "I am sorry, Elide. For all of it."
"I know," she said softly, and no regret or hurt dimmed her face. Only clear, unwavering calm shone there. The face of the mighty lady she was growing into, and had already become, and who would rule Perranth with wisdom in one hand and compassion in the other.
They stared at each other for minutes. For a blessed eternity.
Then Elide untangled their hands and rose. "I should return to help Yrene."
Lorcan caught her hand again. "Stay."
She arched a dark brow. "I'm only going to the Great Hall."
Lorcan caressed his thumb over the back of her hand once more. "Stay," he breathed.
For a heartbeat, he thought she'd say no, and was prepared to be fine with it, to accept these last few minutes as more of a gift than he'd deserved.
"Say it," she whispered, fingers stilling in his hair. Lorcan opened his eyes, finding her gaze. "I love you."
"Yrene said you might always have this," she said, her hand mercifully falling away.
"Then it will be the scar I treasure most."
Fenrys would laugh until he cried to hear him speak this way, but Lorcan didn't care. To hell with the rest of them.
Another one of those small smiles curved her lips, and Lorcan's hands tightened in the sheets with the effort it took not to taste that smile, to worship it with his own mouth.
But this new, fragile thing humming between them ... He would not risk it for all the world.
Elide, thank the gods, had no such worries.
None at all, it seemed, as she lifted a hand to his cheek and ran her thumb along it. Every breath was an effort of control.
Lorcan held absolutely still as she brought her mouth to his. Brushed her lips across his own.
She pulled back. "Rest, Lorcan. I'll be here again when you wake."
Anything she asked, he'd give her.
Anything at all.
Too shaken by that soft, beautiful kiss to bother with words, he lay back down.
But until then, he wanted her here. Sleeping at his side, where he might watch over her. As she had watched over him.
Elide seemed to read that on his face, and her cheeks reddened further. "Later, then," she breathed, limping to the door.
Lorcan sent a flicker of his power to wrap around her ankle. The limp vanished.
A hand on the knob, she gave him a small, grateful nod. "I missed that."
He heard the unspoken words as she disappeared into the busy hall.
I missed you.
Lorcan allowed himself a rare smile.
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The twins with a mother figure? Those kids are all around saving the world, someone needs to seriously worry about them and make a little fuss lol maybe the mother figure is Stanley or Stanford new wife? I just imagine the twins coming back next summer and boom new mother/aunt
Heartbreak, Heartbreak
Stanford x Reader / Dipper & Mable x Mother!Reader
⌠your stanfords wife whaatt?!
⌠i feel like this is one of my weaker works, i apologize
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⌠mable goes "stop fighting!!" at some point
⌠requests r still deliciously open
ęŁŕ§ Coming back to Gravity Falls was a dream come true for the twins. What they werenât expecting was to see their Great Uncle Ford walk in the Mystery Shack hand in hand with you. Mable was the first to bombard you Grunkle with questions; which stemmed from âOh my god, when did you guys meet?â to âOh my god, oh my god, am I going to have Great Cousins? That sounds weird, doesnât it?â Ford had to calm her down before she got too rowdy with their questions and overwhelm you.Â
ęŁŕ§ Once Mable was calm enough to sit down in the same room with you, without bursting in her seat with excitement, was when Ford broke the news. âMable, Dipper. This is my wife,â He said, wrapping his arms around you, his hand moving up and down your arm in a soothing manner. You introduced yourself to the twins who were more than happy to meet you.Â
ęŁŕ§ âDid our Grunkle by some chance, manage to hypnotize you into dating him with a book?â Dipper asked with an analyzing stare. His lips were puckered, pointer finger and thumb on his chin, tapping it curiously. Not expecting a question as absurd as that, you let out a laugh. Shaking your head, you smiled at Dipper. âNot at all,â You respond, taking Fordâs hand with yours, intertwining your fingers together. âHe just won me over with his nerdy charm.â You say, your eyes locked on Ford. A rush of blood swarmed Fordâs cheeks. A chorus of groans echoed in the shack. Stan appears behind the kids, resting his arms on the top of their chairs. âSee, kids,â He motions over to you and Ford with a swipe of his hand. âThis is what I had to deal with while you guys were gone.â With a sympathetic look, Mable rested her hand on his arm, shaking her head sorrowfully. âIâm so sorry, Grunkle Stan.âÂ
ęŁŕ§ After the initial shock wore off, Dipper and Mable began to grew skeptical of you. What if you were one of Billâs goons disguising yourself as a human? And your goal was to take down their Grunkles and start Weirdmageddon 2?! Rushing up to their room in the attic, they pulled out their trusty 8-ball, the one they used the first day they arrived at Gravity Falls and when they were unsure if they were safe to stay with Grunkle Stan. They both sat down on the floor, 8-ball in Dipperâs hand. âOkay, magic 8-ball!â Mable boomed loudly with a weird amalgamation of a British and French accent. âMable, keep it down.â Dipper shushed. âOops,â Mable giggled. âOkay, magic 8-ball,â She whispered, her head uncomfortably close to the 8-ball. âIs Grunkle Fordâs wife evil?â With a rapid shake, Dipper and Mable peered into the ball. A pyramid accompanied with words appeared. âDonât count on it.â The twins read out loud. âHuhâŚâ Mable slowly nodded her head, eyes squinted in thought. âWell,â Dipper tossed the 8-ball behind him. âThe magic 8-ball never lies.âÂ
ęŁŕ§Â Getting along with the twins wasnât hard. All you had to do was grab your car keys from your purse, jingle them as if they were a bell and wait. Few minutes later, youâd hear their feet stomping down the stairs and a flash of colors swarming the living room. âI heard keys jingle, I heard keys jingle!!â Mableâs eyes darted around the room in search of the keys and when her eyes landed on you, her eyes sparkled with joy and anticipation. âAre you taking us somewhere, Great Aunt [Name]?â You smiled, spinning the keys around your finger. âDepends,â You pretended to think for a moment, just to keep them on their toes. âWhere would you guys like to go?â A laugh escapes you as Dipper and Mable attack you with where they want to go. âAlright, let me tell your Grunkle that Iâm taking you guys out.â Digging through your purse, you fish out your phone. You turned it on and went to your contacts. With a tap, you dialed his number. He picked up almost immediately. âYes, dear?â You could hear his pencil scribbling on a piece of paper. âIâm taking Dipper and Mable out for the day.â You tell him, mouthing to the kids to get in the car. They scampered out of the living room and to the hallway. You could hear the door open and their hushed voices as they made a beeline to your car. âOkay, be safe when youâre driving and call me whenever you can, okay?â You hummed in response. âOf course, Iâll keep you updated on the kids.â You say, walking out of the shack and to your car. âI want updates on how you feel too,â You could feel the love dripping from his tone. âI will, my love.â You blow a kiss into the phone, wishing Ford goodbye. He blows one back and the call ends. Entering the car, you look behind you to see the twins all buckled up and ready for their adventure. âYou guys ready?â âYeah!âÂ
ęŁŕ§ âSo, Dipper, whatâs with those dots on your arm?â You point at the four dots on his arm with a fry. Dipper looked down to his arm. His eyebrows rise in shock. âI-I completely forgot I had these,â Dipperâs thumbs the scars, an uneasy look on his face. Your heart stops in your chest. âIâm so sorry, Dipper. I didnât mean to makeââ Dipperâs hands raise up to his chest, waving them side to side, dismissing your concerns. He assured you that your question didnât make him uncomfortable. âNo, no! Itâs justâŚâ He rubs the back of his neck anxiously. âHe got possessed by a demon!â Mable blurts out, stuffing her face with a greasy burger. âMable!â Dipper whines. âIâm sorry! I couldnât handle you beating around the bush any longer.â She says with a mouthful of chewed up food. You leaned yourself back in the booth, trying to assess what Mable just said. âDipper got possessed?â You repeated in a question. âYeah, I kinda did.â Dipper said with a slight voice crack. âCan I know how?â Disbelief was thick in your tone. You didnât know whether to laugh or walk away in shock. They donât look like theyâre telling a joke? The way Dipper has his head slightly hung low and a tiny frown on his face proved that. But Mable seems as jolly as ever. You fight with yourself, trying to make sense of what happened when Dipper spoke up. âHave you heard of the name Bill Cipher?â Shaking your head no, the twins dove straight into a very long story pertaining to Bill Cipher and how he tormented them throughout summer last year and ultimately led to the world almost ending. âWow,â Was all that you could mutter. You never got your question about Dipperâs scar answered that day.Â
ęŁŕ§ Laying in bed, you eyes drifted over to Ford who was brushing his teeth in the bathroom. âYou wanna know something crazy the twins told me earlier today?â Ford spat out the toothpaste into the sink. âWhat did those knuckleheads tell you?â He said, cupping his hand under the running faucet and filling his hand up with water. âIt was this really crazy story,â You started. Ford nodded, dunking the water in his mouth and sloshing it around. âThey told me about this interdimensional demon named Bill Cipher?--â Ford spit out the water in shock, spraying it everywhere on the mirror. You sat up in surprise. âFord?â You pushed the blankets off of you and walked over to Ford, your hand on his shoulder. âYou okay?â With a forced, âmhm,â he wiped the dripping water from his lips with his forearm. âY-yeah, no. Iâm fine.â He waved you off, nodding his head vigorously, almost as if he was convincing himself that everything was fine. âAre you sure?â Concern laced your voice. Someone whoâs fine wouldnât spit out their water like that at the mention ofâŚBill Cipher? Thatâs when it clicked for you. âYou have history with this demon as well, donât you?â Ford groaned, running his hands down his face. âThose kids canât keep their mouths shut, can they?â He mumbled to himself, his head turning to face you. âWhat else did they tell you?â That night, you spent it horrified with the tales he told you regarding the past summer and his time with Bill. âAnd you never told me this, why?â Ford nervously pushed his glasses up, his eyes looking everywhere but you. âBecause IâŚâ He trailed off. âI donât know,â He stops for a moment, inhaling deeply before continuing. âI didnât want to scare you off. My past...isnât something I could easily tell you without having a second thought.â A frown pulls to your lips. âWere you ever going to tell me?â You ask, your voice frail and quiet. âYes?â His tone was full of uncertainty. You didnât know what to think. One side of you wanted to be mad at him for keeping all of this from you, but on the other hand you felt sympathetic. You knew this wasnât an easy topic to discuss normally. And you could tell it took him a lot of courage to admit a side of him that he wasnât fully ready to reveal. But you were deeply hurt that he kept such secrets from you for a long time. And considering how he responded to your question, you werenât even sure he was going to tell you any time soon. âWhat are you thinking about?â Fordâs voice ripped you out from your thoughts, grounding you back to reality. âIâm thinking about how crazy all of this is. I didnât know. The kids went through so much at a young age. A-and you act like it was nothing, they couldâve died Ford.â Your hand rested on the side of your forehead. âYou also made a deal with a demon? IâŚâ You let out a sigh. âI donât know, Stanford.â Ford cringed at the use of his full name. âI can go, if youâd like me to.â You raised your hand up to stop him. âNo, I donât want you to go. I just need time to process this,â You offer him a weak smile. âThatâs all I need right now my love, just time.âÂ
ęŁŕ§ âYou what?!â Mable and Dipper both screech at the same time. âYeesh, Ford. And I thought I was a screw-up.â Stan chuckled, elbowing Mable to see if that got a rise from her. It did not. âI thought I was protecting her from all of this madness!â Fordâs elbow rested on the dining room table, fingers pinching the bridge of his nose. âGrunkle Stan tried doing the same thing, did you see how that almost ended for us?â Dipper said. âI know, I know.â Ford weakly muttered out. âThen, why did you keep such important details away from her?â Stan argued. âBecause I was trying to protect her!â Ford yelled, slamming his hands on the table. That seemed to get a rise from Stan. âWell, maybe you werenât trying hard enough! Now, look at what you did. You fucked everything up.â He shouted. âOh!â Ford stood up from his chair. âThatâs hilarious coming from you!â Scrambling up the table, Mable slammed her foot down, gaining the attention from Ford and Stan. âFighting isnât going to fix things, guys.â She said, âFord had his reasons, like how you had your reasons for hiding Grunkle Ford from us, Grunkle Stan.â Ford adjusted his sweater, sitting back down on his chair. âNow, Grunkle Ford. What did she tell you?â She asked, turning over to Ford. âShe told me that she needed time.â Sitting crossed-crossed, she nodded her head intently. âThatâs good, right?â In return was silence. âRight, guys?â Both Dipper and Stan agreed. âGreat! Now while we wait, can we apologize to each other for acting so mean and for swearing.â She directed a look to Stan who scoffed.Â
ęŁŕ§Â And wait they did. After a couple of days, Fordâs phone randomly started ringing. Rushing to pick it up, he lifted his phone to see you calling him. He gulped nervously, suddenly second guessing himself. Should he pick up the phone? If he does, what if itâs you telling him that you want a divorce? Or that you need a break, or thatâ âGrunkle Ford!â Dipper snapped his fingers in front of his face. âAnswer!â He pointed to the phone. âI got it!â Mable sang out, swiping her finger to the right. There was a beat of silence. Mable and Dipper anxiously waited for at least you or him to speak. One of them was about to intrude, no longer able to withstand such silence when you spoke up. âMy love?â Your voice was timid. Fordâs heart lunged to his throat. How he missed your voice. âY-Yes?â He mentally punched himself for stuttering like a complete fool in front of you. âCan you open the door for me? Itâs locked.â Without a second thought, Ford practically ran over to the door and whipped it open for you. The twins watched you and him silently talk to each other from a distance. After a few tearful words and hugs, they recoil in disgust when they see Ford swoop you in for a kiss. âOh my eyes!â Mable dramatically exclaimed. âGross.â Dipper made a face in disgust.Â
ęŁŕ§ âIâm still mad at Ford for roping you kids into all that madness.â You tell the kids, mindlessly scrolling on your phone. âDawww, donât you worry about us.â Mable put a hand to her cheek bashfully. âWe can handle it.â You found that hard to believe. âIs Gravity Falls stillâŚcrazy?â You whisper the last part, in case Bill Cipher is listening. Youâve only heard stories of him, but hearing what he has done rooted a new fear in you. âKind of? Thereâs still weird things that happen here, but not as bad as last summer.â Dipper said, jotting down a few notes in his journal. âHow come Iâve never seen anything weird?â You wondered. âBecause youâre too busy making out with Grunkle Ford to notice anything!â Mable chirped, kicking her feet as she drew on colored piece of paper. That elicited a laugh from Dipper and a âWhat!â Ford walked in with an eyebrow raised and breakfast in hand. âI heard I was mentioned in a conversation. Are you guys talking crap about me?â Ford places his food on the table and pulls back a chair. He sits right next to you and before he dives in on his breakfast, he gives you a quick kiss on the lips. âYou wish!â Mable says, flipping her paper on its backside. âI do not.â Ford said quietly. âSo, kids saving the world, huh? That has to count as some kind of child abuse.â You half said seriously, half said jokingly. Ford rolled his eyes. âWhat? Are you gonna arrest me?â You glared at him. âI mightâŚâÂ
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Every day I am in the trenches fighting for my life defending this poor man. He was going through so much and people online demonize him and say he's as bad as his abuser
(I've got a lot of thoughts about this so I'll make sure to separate things to make it easier to look at lol)
Curly is a victim of abuse. Jimmy is his abuser. This is something that I feel a lot of people tend to brush over or don't acknowledge it often.
And I'm not just talking about post-crash. Jimmy's abuse of Curly is there pre-crash too. The party scene where the crew learns about the company going under is a huge example of this. Jimmy verbally abuses him, he gaslights him, he blames him for their (his) misfortune. Jimmy accuses Curly of thinking he's better than everyone (better than him), that he doesn't care about them (about him). That he's going leave them (leave him). Which is not true. Curly tries to explain himself but Jimmy shuts him down and he just takes it.
The fact that he just allows this to happen makes it seem like he's used to this... That this kind of behavior is a recurring thing with Jimmy. And the fact that nobody else tries to defend him or stands up to Jimmy just normalizes it for him. When Anya tells Curly what Jimmy did it catches him off guard. Bc he genuinely didn't think that his friend was capable of that. It wasn't something that was obvious to him. There were absolutely many red flags in the past but they were subtle enough for him to not see them bc he cares for Jimmy, he trusts him. Jimmy's the only one he feels he can open up to, who he can let his guard down with. Jimmy's his home. That's how close they are.
Because of this deep love for his friend and the subtlety of Jimmy's cruelty, he doesn't see the constant verbal and emotional abuse as what it is: abuse. Which is why he finds Jimmy's abuse towards Anya so shocking and jarring.
He isn't a man covering for his rapist friend bc of the 'bro code'. It does look like that from a certain angle and it's understandable why people see it that way but that's not what his character is really about as much as it makes sense otherwise.
He's essentially a battered housewife who's still in love with her husband but is realizing for the first time that the man she loves is a monster. That the man she loves and devoted her life to has been hurting her this whole time and she didn't even realize it. That the man she loves and spent so much of her life caring for has gone and hurt someone else. That he's most likely hurt others before and she's been utterly unaware of it the entire time she defended him and made excuses for him when he wasn't the best or the fairest or the most responsible or when he screwed up yet again solely bc of how much she loved and cared for him.
And Curly barely had any time to process ANY of that before Jimmy decided to try and kill them all to avoid the consequences of his actions. It was ultimately a selfish act even if he thought he wasn't just doing it for himself. Jimmy is selfish and needs to be in control or he loses it. He cares for Curly. He loves him. Curly's done so much for him. Curly's the only one who understands him, who doesn't hate him. Curly's his home. He resents how 'successful' he is but that's only bc he thinks so highly of him. He constantly puts himself down and put Curly on a pedestal and worships him while simultaneously mistreating him.
He treats his best friend like shit, he's awful to him. But he's not aware that this is the case or maybe he's in denial about it. He can't or just refuses to see how he's doing all of what he does for himself in the end. He justifies his attempt to kill them all (to himself and to Curly) by claiming he's doing this for them both. That if they were to get back to earth it would all be Curly's fault, that it'll ruin his life and career... despite the fact he had basically nothing to do with Anya's abuse. Jimmy's shifting the blame on him while acting like he cares for him. Well, he does genuinely care for him but clearly not nearly enough to not mistreat him or use him as a scapegoat for his own guilt.
Jimmy is the rapist, Jimmy is the one who does all of these horrible things. And yet it's highly likely that Curly would just blame all of it on himself bc that's exactly what Jimmy did to him. He's in so deep he can't see the facts of the situation.
It takes abuse victims so long to come to terms with their abuse. It takes time and reflection to see things with an unbiased and healthy perspective. Abuse (especially years of it) isn't just something you can just escape. It consumes you and can twist your reality. Curly had about a week or less to process all of it and then take action in a way that protected his crew and abided by Pony Express' guidelines. Dealing with something this serious in a setting that makes resolving it extremely difficult in a practical sense is already hard.
There were no locks on any of the doors except for medical and the cockpit. They couldn't just kill him. There was nowhere they could detain Jimmy that wouldn't involve corporate potentially penalizing the entire group. They could have used the cryopods but then there'd only be three available for any actual emergency and there were already five crew members and four pods in total. Also, I doubt corporate would be 'okay' with them using the cryopods for anything other than their intended purpose. Hell, even if they were able to make it back to earth without any incidents there's a good chance that corporate would consider the situation 'poor team synergy' and collectively punish the entire crew for Jimmy's actions.
So on top of having to deal with an already difficult situation, Curly has to grapple with the realization that Jimmy a: abused Anya, b: has been abusing him as well (for a very long time too), and c: has probably abused others before Anya and he had no idea about it. He needed to act but he didn't and it doomed all of them.
But it's so unrealistic (maybe even cruel) to put that much pressure on someone, force them through an utterly earth-shattering realization, and then expect them to do the correct/right/responsible thing in that moment. It's a little ironic how people vilify him for that when other characters do the same thing that nobody blames for it.
Anya is the ship's nurse. Curly is the ship's captain. They both have duties and responsibilities on board the Tulpar. She has to keep the crew healthy and safe and is the only one with enough medical knowledge to do so. He has to make sure that everything goes well and goes according to procedure. He's responsible for the crew, the cargo, and even the ship itself. Both positions are integral and require a lot of responsibility to do properly
They're both put through distressing and traumatic situations where due to them being human people with emotions and fears that make them essentially avoid their responsibility/doing what's required of them.
Curly has a freeze response and doesn't act when he should have when it was crucial to have done so. Anya has a fawn response and essentially puts her patient in danger and harm's way. She knew full well what Jimmy was capable of. She experienced it herself and she witnessed it happening to Curly as well. And yet she allows Jimmy to be alone with Curly while being fully aware of how dangerous he is. Which she shouldn't have, that wasn't the 'right' thing to do. Keeping him safe was her responsibility.
But Anya's human. She's going through a lot at the moment. She's terrified of Jimmy and she's trying to appease him so he doesn't hurt her again. It's a natural very understandable thing to do even if it's not the 'right' or 'responsible' thing. They failed each other when they needed each other most and I think that's the most tragic part of it. If anything, all of them failed each other in some way, shape, or form.
So it's incredibly frustrating to see people give Anya so much sympathy and grace for doing something so human yet still 'wrong' but then turn around and give Curly none of that for doing essentially the same thing she does.
I don't know for sure if it's actually because Curly is a man or if it's only part of it or maybe some people just lack that sense of awareness but it's depressing and frustrating as fuck as a male victim of sexual violence and abuse to see this kind of behavior and this much victim blaming towards a character who is undeniably a victim of abuse like I am.
#mouthwashing#mouthwashing game#curly mouthwashing#captain curly#jimmy mouthwashing#anya mouthwashing#jimcurly#jimcurl#jimmy x curly#curly x jimmy#tagging it as a ship bc I imply they have less than platonic feelings toward each other#No guy implies that his boy best friend is his home and he's his unless the two are in love#They love each other#it's an abusive and toxic codependent relationship#but what they feel for each other is genuine#anyway#Typical Mouthwashing trigger/content warnings obviously
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note: a wild rideâŚ. good luck yâall ,, THANKS FOR 1K đť my kitty is happy !!! hauwhahahahaa this part is lengthy so pls take a mfking SEAT. pls lmk what yâall think ,, send in asks 𫵠weâre headed towards the finale đ much wuv !!
warnings: tension/tampo vibes (whats that in english? lol) ,, male masturbation (jk gets himself off as he recalls oc slapping him) ,, jealousy (lots of it. like 90% of this part is filled with it) ,, oc has a hickey ,, angst ,, and a little mwaamwaaaa moment :')
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life sucks.Â
for jungkook, at least.Â
itâs been almost a month since the incident, and youâve done everything in your power to avoid him.
the memory of the fightâthe words exchanged, the way he said your nameâstill lingers in the air between you like smoke, suffocating and inescapable.
at first, jungkook tried.
he texted you the next day and every day after that. his messages were hesitant and apologetic... and each one was left unanswered.
nerd [11:11PM]: ___, can we talk? sent nerd [11:28PM]: please? sent nerd [12:01AM]: iâm sorry. i mean it. sent nerd [12:03AM]: it wasnât even like that. not with her. sent nerd [1:09AM]: ik iâm gonna sound like a total douche no matter what so let me do it please sent nerd [1:15AM]: let me say sorry, let me fuck up, let me make it up to u sent nerd [2:01AM]: i really hate begging sent nerd [2:01AM]: but i really hate u not wanting me even more seen
he did try to call though.
just once.
the ringtone barely lasted before he hung up, realizing how futile it was.
at one point, he showed up at your favorite coffee shop one afternoon. he sat alone by the window with an untouched drink, waiting.Â
his eyes flicked to the door every time it opened, a glimmer of hope lighting his expression for a split second before fading when it wasnât you.
after two hours, he left.
but now, almost four weeks later, jungkook has stopped trying (so hard).
it wasnât a sudden decision, more of a gradual acceptance that whatever connection youâd sharedâwhatever youâd been to each otherâwas slipping through his fingers.
he told himself you needed time, that maybe this space was what you wanted, what you deserved. and so, he gave it to you.
he told himself it wasnât the end.Â
it couldnât be.
he refuses for it to be.Â
this is just⌠complicated.Â
he gets that.
he's a smart guy after all!
but late at night, when the world was quiet and he was left alone with his thoughts, the weight of your absence pressed against his chest like an ache he couldnât soothe. it... burns? it throbs in this aching rhythm that he can't quite figure the melody to.
jungkook thinks about the way you banter with him and how much it makes his day. how closely you sit next to him. how effortlessly you mesmerize himâŚÂ
how you flirted with him for a few days and now he's malfunctioning. how he spent the last month memorizing every detail of those days and can't get over it. he has convinced himself you're into him... Â
like, remember how your fingers would brush his when you handed him something? that meant something, right? or how about the way you looked at him and tilted your head? shit, yeah.
that meant something.
fuck, the way you laugh and throw your head back and he gets a glance at your perfect neckâhow he wants to leave kisses on it. how heâŚÂ
how he had you.Â
for a moment, he really had you.Â
under him, tangled, and messy.Â
how he was so close to your lips.Â
he shouldâve kissed you.Â
he shouldâve locked the fucking door.Â
he shouldâve ran after you even more.Â
but he didnâtâŚ
and now?Â
now you arenât even around.Â
he recalls what taehyung said to him night at the arcade. taehyung's words rub into his wound like salt. it stings. it makes him feel sick to his stomach and he just... get can't stomach it.
âshe isn't gonna stick around forever... especially with all the shit you pullâŚâ
there are no words to describe how incredibly helpless he feels.
if anything, he goes through circles in his mind; completely in disbelief he could fuck up this bad with you.
he hates that he can't think straight. he hates that he can't study properly. he hates that he stopped tutoring and even got in trouble with his profs for letting them down (they really counted on jungkook to help other students out).
he hates that he can't fucking breathe lately.
he can't sleep.
he can't eat.
jungkook hates the growing distance, but more than that, he hates how much it hurts.
he hates how much he wants to fix things even when he doesnât know how. he just knows he wants to. god, fuck itâ
fine.Â
he hates how much he misses you.
but most of all, he hates that he was wrong.Â
it was entirely his fault.Â
jungkook hates it all.
by chance, you and jungkook run into each other.Â
the scene is perfect.
it's the perfect set up to cry over when you get homeâthat is.
the rain starts just as youâre leaving the library, soft at first but quickly turning heavier. you donât expect to see himânot here, not nowâbut there he is, standing under the awning of the cafĂŠ across the street, shaking out his umbrella. the door chimes as you step outside, and he looks up.
for a moment, neither of you move, caught in the heavy stillness of the moment.
jungkook freezes when he sees you.Â
his eyes widen briefly, then soften into something cautious, hesitant. he tucks his hands into the pockets of his hoodie, fingers flexing nervously against the fabric as he steps forward.
âhey,â he says, his voice careful, like heâs offering a truce.
the sound of him makes your heart clench, the warmth in his tone threatening to undo you. but you donât let it show. you nod once, lips pressed into a thin line, and move to step around him.
âwaitââ his hand shoots out, not to grab you, just to stop you. his fingers hover midair, unsure if he even has the right to reach for you anymore. â___, please?â
the rain is falling harder now, pooling on the sidewalk and soaking into the edges of your shoes. you glance at him, taking in the way his hair clings to his forehead, the way his hoodie looks just a little too big on him, like he hasnât been sleeping well or eating much.
âcan you not pretend like this is a coincidence?â you ask quietly, refusing to meet his gaze.Â
he stays silent.Â
it wasnât.Â
truth be told, heâs been waiting outside for almost 45 minutes. he didnât even know if you were at the library today⌠he just had to wait and find out for himself.Â
"do you have an umbrella?" he asks, breaking the silence.Â
"whatâ"
"here."Â
he cuts you off, pushing the umbrella toward you.
you blink, startled, as he places the handle firmly in your hand. your fingers wrap around it instinctively, the metal cool against your palm.
"jungkookâ" you start, your voice faltering.
he shakes his head, stepping back into the rain without a word. the downpour hits him almost instantly, soaking through his hoodie as he shoves his hands into his pockets and starts walking away.
you stand there, the umbrella trembling in your grip, watching him go. the rain comes down harder, cascading off the awning above you, but you barely notice. your gaze stays locked on himâon the way his shoulders hunch against the storm, on the slow but steady steps that carry him farther and farther away.
something tightens in your chest.Â
maybe itâs regret or maybe longing⌠but as his figure grows smaller and the storm swallows himâyou feel it.
the warmth of his lingering presence and the chill of it allâ
âof your favourite almost.
a few days later, jungkook finds his umbrella in his bedroom.Â
he takes out his phone to send you a text, prepared to humiliate himself and to beg for a second of your attention. heâd trade all tonightâs focus for a moment of you.
just as he picks the umbrella up, he finds a note.Â
___ told me to give it back to you. she says thanks (whore). ps: she said donât text her. â taehyung
jungkook sighs.Â
does he listen?Â
obviously not.Â
nerd [6:19PM]: donât tell me what to do nerd [6:20PM]: i hate this nerd [6:21PM]: u shouldâve jus kept the umbrella. giving it back to taehyung and telling him to tell me not to text u is sick. seen. nerd [6:22PM]: reply pls seen. nerd [6:26PM]: fine. iâll jus talk to myself nerd [6:31PM]: i miss u sm i jerked off the other night thinking abt the way u slapped me seen nerd [6:33PM]: come on, kitty nerd [6:34PM]: promise to think abt me tn :( nerd [6:35PM]: cos iâm gonna think abt u tn nerd [6:36PM]: ignore me if u want proof typingâŚÂ nerd [6:37PM]: kitty? seen nerd [6:40PM]: fuck. nerd [6:41PM]: how do u get me so fucking hard thru text? maybe i jus miss u too much nerd [6:42PM]: excited for my proof? seen nerd [6:45PM]: ft? seen nerd [6:46PM]: keep seenzoning me and iâll cum typing... seen ___ has notifications silenced
but it's too late.
jungkook meant it.
he's sat on his gaming chair, cock heavy.
his phone is out with that group picture from the arcade (zoomed into you) as lewd thoughts of you fill his mind. jungkook runs his thumb across his tip, hissing at the way it feels over his slit.Â
he flicks his wrists, gripping his dick with just enough pressure to grow the hardness. itâs already stiff and he can feel the need to cumâbut he just canât.
he canât without thinking of you.Â
so, his eyes flutter shut as his memories of you replay in his mind.Â
from the way your lips winced when he ate you outâto the way that mini skirt looked on you that day. he thinks about the way you say his name; in any and every way. angry, teasingly, and desperately⌠he thinks about how pretty it sounds rolling off your tongue.Â
how pretty you looked under him.
how good you smelt when he kissed your neck.Â
how close you sat next to himâfingertips lingering... god, what he would do to be close to you again.Â
jungkook thinks about the slap.Â
how hard your palms hit his cheek and how angry you looked at him. despite the negativity surrounding the situationâhe canât help it.Â
you looked so hot.Â
it just⌠gets to him.Â
before he knows it, his hand is covered in his sticky cum.Â
heâs a loserâa nerd in your words.Â
he always has been⌠and here he is; jerking himself off to the pretty girl he lost his chance with.
the night is supposed to be nothing special.Â
for jungkook, itâs just another event for his precious marine conservation clubâa fundraiser, a schmooze-fest for potential investors, and a chance to hand out awards to appease the donors. sure, heâs getting an award, but it doesnât feel like much.
the room buzzes with polite conversation and clinking glasses. jungkook adjusts his tie for the hundredth time, barely paying attention to the speeches and presentations. he stands off to the side with the other club members, blending into the background until his name is called.
âjeon jungkook, for outstanding contributions to marine conservation and innovation. mr. jeon has been working towards innovative chemical solutions for marine conservation, focusing on sustainable practices to protect endangered species like dolphins, and developing eco-friendly alternatives to reduce their environmental impact.â
the applause is polite but hearty.
jungkook steps onto the stage, the spotlight hitting him square in the face. as he accepts the plaque, his gaze instinctively sweeps over the audienceâand then it stops.
youâre here.
sitting with the guys, casually chatting like you belong there, like you havenât been avoiding him for a month and a half (at this point).
his heart trips over itself.Â
heâs not even sure if itâs relief or panic or something else entirely, but it rattles him. he forces his attention back to the microphone, holding the plaque in his slightly sweaty hands.
âuh, thank you,â he begins, his voice steady enough, though his pulse is anything but. âour clubâs mission has always been to protect and preserve marine life through education, community projects, and outreach. with this awardâŚâ
his eyes flick back to you.Â
youâre laughing at something taehyung just said, your smile bright, your whole demeanor light and carefree.
ââŚwe want to focus onâŚâ
he falters, the words slipping from his mind as his gaze lingers on you.
ââŚwe want to focus on⌠f-focusâŚâ
a ripple of laughter spreads through the audience. someone whistles playfully. he blinks, startled back into the moment.
ââŚfocus on sustainable practices and expanding our projects,â he finishes, clearing his throat as heat rises to his cheeks.
youâre laughing too, your head tilted slightly as you join the others. it should make him feel worse, but somehow, seeing you like thatâsmiling, presentâgrounds him.
he powers through the rest of the speech, keeping his gaze firmly away from where youâre sitting. when itâs over, he accepts the handshake from the host and makes his way offstage, barely registering the applause.
as soon as the ceremony ends, jungkook doesnât even think.Â
he weaves through the crowd, ignoring congratulatory pats on the back and comments from investors, his eyes scanning for you.
how did you know about tonight?
wait.Â
shit.
heâs been texting you every day with random ass updates. of course you know. heâs yapped about it⌠but why? why did you come? donât you hate his guts?
you're here so... maybe you don't hate him as much as he has convinced himself you do.
jungkook finds you near the back with the friend group, holding a glass of champagne and listening to hoseok animatedly retell a story.
âcongratulations,â you say lightly, lifting your glass in a mock toast. your words are casual, but there's an edge to them, a distance you've kept between the two of you for far too long.
his chest tightens at the awkwardness of your tone, but he nods, his hands slipping into his pockets. the space between you feels impossibly wide now, though only a few feet separate you.
âthanks,â he says, his voice quieter than he intended. â... thanks for coming.â
his gaze flickers to yours for a second before dropping to the floor, and he shifts, a little uncertain, taking a half-step closer.
hesitantly, you inch back.Â
his presence is suddenly overwhelming, more than youâre ready for.
âyeah⌠of course,â you murmur, unsure how to navigate the new dynamic between you two. the tension is thick, but there's something else there too. an unspoken history. âwhat are friends for, you know?â
he hates that.Â
friends.Â
yeah fucking right.
jungkook tries to break the tension.
he takes a risk.
he takes a small step forward, hoping you donât move. this is the closest heâs gotten to you in over a monthâhe needs this. itâs like euphoria in his veinsâbeing with you again.
he needs this.
âhow have you been?â he asks, the question coming out softer than he anticipated. jungkook scratches the back of his neck and continues. âa-are you coming to the afterparty?â
your lips part, a pause hanging between you.
you donât want to admit how much youâve missed this. how much youâve missed him.
but the words slip out, more natural than you expect.
âyeah,â you say, giving him a brief but warm look. âiâll be there.â
for a moment, your eyes lock, and something shifts.Â
itâs like youâve both forgotten all the walls, the space between you collapsing. he can feel his heart rate quicken, like his knees might give out, but he forces himself to stay grounded, to act nonchalant.
âcool,â he says, trying to brush off the sudden rush of emotions. âiâll.. iâll be there too.â he smiles, but itâs the kind of smile that doesnât quite reach his eyesânot yet, anyway.
âi sure hope so,â you laugh. âitâs your party, nerd.â
nerd.Â
holy shit.Â
never has he ever felt so relieved to hear you call him that.Â
as heâs about to say more, taehyung appears out of nowhere, slapping his arm and giving him a congratulatory squeeze.Â
âhey, man, nice speech. well deserved,â taehyung says, grinning like an idiot. âwhat did you want to focus on, again?â
you laugh while jungkook rolls his eyes. he shoves taehyung playfully.Â
suddenly, you canât help but feel the awkwardness settle back in, like somethingâs shifted again. you feel a pang in your chest as you turn toward the other people nearby, the ones you've been socializing with before jungkook showed up. the buzz of the conversation pulls you away, and you focus on the group, hoping to escape the overwhelming emotions that jungkookâs presence stirs.
jungkook watches you go, his eyes lingering as you slip away from the conversation.Â
he canât help it.Â
youâre in his head again.
he looks over at taehyung, catching his eye.Â
âhyung, is she coming to the dinner before the afterparty?â he asks, trying to sound casual. his voice betrays him, cracking with just the faintest hint of hope.
taehyung raises an eyebrow, taking a sip of his drink.Â
âyeah. excited?â
âno.â
taehyung scoffs. âsay that again but take away the lying.â
âfuck off.â
â___âs a good friend, man,â taehyung chuckles, redirecting the conversation. âyouâre lucky. you just might be back in her good graces.â
jungkookâs heart skips a beat.Â
âreally?â he asks, trying not to sound too eager.
taehyung grins, leaning in a little.Â
âyeah, but... sheâs bringing her little boyfriend with her.â
youâre doing what?
jungkook feels the need to rub his eyes or something.
was taehyung shitting on him? boyfriend? when did this happen? no fucking way.Â
jungkook refuses to believe it.Â
⌠yet, the words hit jungkook like a punch to the gut. his breath catches, and his stomach tightens.Â
"what?" his voice is barely a whisper, the weight of it settling in.Â
"she didn't tell you?"
"we haven't been talking."
"rightfully so."
fuck.Â
no.Â
he doesnât want to believe it, but the hurt is already seeping through.
taehyung shrugs, oblivious to the internal storm brewing in jungkook.Â
âshit, well... yeah, sheâs been seeing him for a while. dunno if theyâre officially together, but⌠guess sheâs really moving on. good for her, right? i mean, now you can really focus on just being her friend.â
the air stills.Â
the reality of it all comes crashing down. jungkookâs heart sinks, his chest tightening in that all-too-familiar ache.Â
that's why youâve been busy...Â
youâve been moving on.
his fingers curl into fists, the anger bubbling up before he can suppress it. but he doesnât say anything, doesnât let his emotions spill out in front of taehyung, even though every part of him is screaming.Â
âyeah,â he forces a smile. âi guess.â
as the night goes on, jungkook canât shake the feeling that heâs lost something he canât get back. something thatâs slipping further away with every step you take, every laugh you share with someone else. and no matter how much he wants to fight for it, heâs afraid itâs already too late.
jungkook doesnât want to go to dinner anymore.
he has no appetite.
jungkook is already at the dinner when you arrive.Â
his mood is off, grumpy but with an undercurrent of sadness that he canât quite shake. heâs forcing a smile when people congratulate him for the award, but itâs clear itâs not reaching his eyes. the nightâs just been a blur of congratulations and polite smiles, but all he can think about who will walk in with you.Â
does he know him?
is he gonna be some super cool prince charming?
does he know that jungkook was eating you out just a month ago?Â
all valid questionsâŚ
however, you arrive a little late, and immediately his gaze searches for you in the crowd. when he sees you, his heart lurches. he spots you talking to someone, and the knot in his stomach tightens.
you make your way to the table, your eyes scanning it before you stop. for a moment, you arenât sure where to sit. usually, you sit next to jungkook⌠but the spot is occupied by jimin.Â
not by choice.
jungkook had saved the spot for you⌠you just came too late and he didnât have it in him to tell jimin to move. but, jimin catches the milli-second exchanged look you have with jungkook and immediately shifts.Â
âoh,â jimin begins. âshit, i forgot⌠didnât know you were gonna show up so lateââ
you chuckle, shaking your head. âitâs fine weâre gonna sit on the other side! by the way,â you pause and push the guy you came with forward. âthis is do-hwan. heâs a biochem major and we have a few electives together⌠um, what else?âÂ
biochem?
serisouly?
do you have a thing for nerds or something? bro doesn't even look the part. he should be majoring in physics or something even more lame.
jungkook's thoughts cut short when he hears you giggling.
âhi,â do-hwan says with a grins at everyone. then, he turns and extends his hand to jungkook. âjungkook? shit, man. congrats on the award.â
he chuckles, giving jungkook a playful look. âorganic chem, huh? i guess someone has to study the pretty side of chemistry.âÂ
what the fuck does that mean?
jungkookâs ears turn red.Â
âyeah,â he grumbles under his breath. ânice to meet you too.â
with that, you and do-hwan make your way to the other side of the table. jungkook watches, his gaze hardening as you take a seat beside him.
heâs trying his best to stay calm and to not show itânot show how absolutely fucking mad this entire thing is.
this is ridiculous!Â
his chest tightens painfully at the sight of you sitting with him. his fingers curl into his glass as he watches you laugh and chat with others, inserting do-hwan like youâre some proud girlfriend.Â
you've probably known do-hwan like 10 seconds.
and jungkook canât help it! every word you exchange with do-hwan makes him feel like heâs being crushed from the inside out.Â
heâs trying to focus on the conversation happening around him, but his mind keeps wandering, drifting to you.
he watches as you lean in to talk to do-hwan, the way your eyes light up when you laugh at something he says. itâs the same laugh, the same warmth in your smile, but somehow it feels so much farther away from him nowâlike a memory that heâs trying to hold onto but canât quite grasp.
he forces himself to look at the group again, but his gaze keeps slipping back to you. every word you exchange with do-hwan makes his chest tighten.
it's like heâs suffocating, and he canât tear his eyes away. the way he moves so casually, his hand brushing against yours as he reaches for his drink.Â
itâs too much.
itâs too familiar.
and then, as you turn your head to respond to someone else, he sees it.
just a flash of itâright there on your neck.Â
a small hickey, barely visible, but it might as well be a brand. his heart stops for a beat. the sight burns in his chest, and before he can stop himself, his breath catches in his throat.
his stomach churns violently, a rush of heat flooding his veins. everything feels like itâs collapsing inward. the noise around him fades, and all he can hear is the pounding of his own heartbeat. the world shrinks, and the weight of the jealousy hits him like a truck.
he canât stay here.Â
not like this.Â
not with this tightness in his chest, not with the ache in his stomach. the room feels like itâs closing in on him, and he knowsâhe knows he has to get out.
without a word, he stands abruptly, pushing his chair back. his heart races as he excuses himself from the table, slipping away into the hallway outside the main dining area.
the rest of the table doesnât seem to notice his sudden departure, but your friends quickly start murmuring, and one of them nudges you.Â
"you should probably go check on him," taehyung says, giving you an almost knowing look. âi told you not to bring him.â
you hesitate for a second, then stand, glancing at do-hwan.
âitâs not do-hwan's fault.â
taehyung rolls his eyes at you.Â
âyouâre playing it kinda mean tonight though,â he tells you. âjungkookâs been miserable. sure he deserves to be dragged through mud for whatever happened and for whatever he said, but this? on his night? i donât know ___âŚâ
you gulp.
maybe taehyung is right.
but you didnât intend for it to be like this. you genuinely brought a friend youâve been spending time with! and, sure⌠yeah. youâve been kissing him for a few weeks now, but so what? jungkook has probably been fucking every student heâs been tutoring so why the fuck does this matter?
â___âŚâ taehyung urges you.Â
âyeah, yeah⌠iâm going.âÂ
you wave taehyung off as you get up from your seat. you excuse yourself and let do-hwan know youâll be right back.
you find jungkook outside.Â
he stands with his back pressed against the cool metal of his car, arms crossed loosely over his chest. you notice that his posture is stiff... like heâs trying to keep himself grounded, but his shoulders still carry the weight of what heâs just seen.
his jaw clenches every so often, like heâs holding something back, but when his muscles tense, itâs almost as if the anger or hurt inside him is too much to contain.
as you walk towards him and he notices you. he runs a hand through his hair, tugging at the ends, clearly agitated. he lets out a slow, shaky breath, his eyes cast down toward the ground as if trying to collect his thoughts. he shakes his head slightly, as if to shake off the frustration that has settled in his chest, but it doesnât seem to help.Â
then, he looks up at the sky, his gaze distant, unfocused, lost in the swirl of thoughts that seem to chase him in circles. his arms drop to his sides for a moment, his fingers flexing and unflexing like heâs trying to release the tension that has built up in his body.
after a long pause, he lets out a frustrated sigh, raking his hand through his hair again, this time pushing it back as he exhales sharply.
his whole stance is restless.
itâs like he canât quite settle his thoughts or his body, caught between what he feels and the reality of whatâs happening.Â
heâs trapped in his own head, unable to escape the weight of the situation.
by now, youâre next to him.
are you here to set him free?
âso⌠have the dolphins ever thanked you for your hard work?â you ask, trying to break both the silence and tension with your light tone. âyou do so much for them⌠ungrateful little bratsâyou know theyâre psychos right? they bullyââ
he doesnât turn around.Â
âwhatâs on your neck?â he asks. âdid your boyfriend do that?â
your chest hurts at his words. âheâs not... heâs not my boyfriend.â you swallow, trying to keep your voice steady. âheâs just a friend.â
thereâs a long pause, and when he finally turns to face you, his eyes are a mixture of frustration and hurt.Â
âthe same kind of friend i am to you?â
heâs trying to sound nonchalant, but thereâs a tremor in his voice.
you shake your head, not knowing how to explain, not knowing how to make him understand.
âyou know what? i didnât come here to make you feel like thisâŚâ your voice cracks slightly. âi didnât... i donât want to hurt you. i didnât want to come.â
he scoffs bitterly.
âmaybe you shouldnât have.â
his words sting, but you canât back down.Â
âwhat do you want me to do?â you ask, frustrated. âif i didnât show up, youâd be upset and blow up my phone. now that iâm here, youâre still upsetââ
âand this is how you chose to show up?â jungkook raises his voice, turning to you. he steps forward, towering over you. he brings his hands to your hair, pushing it back and leaning in to look at your hickey properly.Â
he squints.Â
âare you proud of this?â he hisses. âfucking bug bite bullshit.â
âstopââ you snap, cutting him off now. âdonâtââ
âokay. sorry, fuck..."
a beat.
"___, i miss you,â he breathes. âi just⌠shit. can you stay still for a second?â
thereâs a long silence between you two, the air thick with things unsaid. jungkook looks like heâs about to say something, but his mouth closes, his frustration evident in the way he grits his teeth.Â
instead, he just breathes you in.Â
for the first time in a month and a half; jungkook can breathe.
then, he steps away and sighs.Â
âthink iâm gonna head home first. i⌠i need some space or something,â jungkook tells you. âlet them know for me?â
ây-yeah. sure.â
âokay,â jungkook nods. âiâll see you later.â
âsee you.â
for the first time in a while, jungkook offers you a smile and you return it.Â
short and sweetâhe takes it.Â
he leaves and thinks about it the entire drive home.
when you arrive at the party, youâre still reeling from the brief exchange with jungkook.Â
your thoughts are completely a tangled mess.Â
from the words he didnât say to the way his eyes held that edge of something unspokenâit all lingers in your mind like an unsolved puzzle. you thought you had it all figured outâŚ
that you could be fine.
that you could move onâbut now, after that moment, youâre not so sure anymore.Â
your heart races in a way that you canât explain. why does it feel like youâre standing on the edge of somethingâsomething big, something scaryâand yet, you're not sure if you want to fall or pull back?
your mind keeps returning to the way he looked at you, like he was caught between wanting to say everything and nothing at all. itâs not a feeling you can shake off easily.
itâs heavier than you thought it would be.
at the party, you try your best to focus on the people around you. do-hwan is by your side, chatting casually with a few people, most of them strangers to you. some faces are familiarâpeople from jungkookâs marine conservation club, and others... just people.Â
you make your rounds, greeting them politely, exchanging pleasantries, but your thoughts are still drifting back to him. to jungkook. the air is thick with anticipation, and no matter how much you try to focus on the conversations happening around you, your mind keeps wandering.
and then, there he is.
jungkook is standing by the drink table, his posture relaxed but not at ease.Â
his gaze flicks to you for a moment, a brief flicker of somethingâmaybe surprise, maybe something moreâbefore he meets your eyes. thereâs a tense, palpable moment of silence.
heâs holding a red cup in one hand, his fingers wrapped loosely around it. his other hand rests in his pocket, but his stance is still too rigid... too guarded.
itâs like heâs waiting for something to happen, for you to do something.
he doesnât smile.Â
he just nods at you.Â
a small, deliberate movement that somehow feels too formal, too distant.
no words.
just acknowledgment.
you feel the knot tighten in your stomach, the nervous energy in your chest quickening. itâs the simplest thing, but it feels loaded with so much more.
you canât look away.Â
something inside you is aching to go over, to close the space between you, to ask if everythingâs okay, to say somethingâbut you're frozen. the tension in the air between you is thick enough to suffocate.
you swallow hard, trying to calm the unease building in your chest, but it's no use.
the silence stretches out, heavy and thick, as you stand there, caught between the desire to run or to take a step closer, not sure if you're brave enough for either.
you take a step back, trying to break eye contact, when suddenly, someone bumps into you from behind. you stumble forward, your feet catching on the edge of a rug, and you let out a startled breath as you lose your balance.
before you can fully fall, a strong hand grips your wrist, pulling you back against something solid. your breath catches as you feel the warmth of someoneâs body close to you.
itâs jungkook.
without a word, his other hand slides around your waist, steadying you, his fingers briefly pressing against the fabric of your shirt. the contact is brief but grounding, like the world, slows for a moment, just the two of you, suspended in time.
he doesnât say anything, doesnât offer the usual reassuring words.Â
his grip is firm, and steady, but he doesnât linger. as quickly as it happens, he pulls away, his hand leaving your waist just as the tension between you starts to build.
you open your mouth to say something, maybe a thank you, but before the words leave your lips, heâs already moving away, stepping back with that familiar, unreadable expression.
you stand there.Â
youâre frozen for a beat longer than necessary. your chest tight as you try to catch your breath⌠his sudden departure stings more than you care to admit. thereâs no time for you to process what just happened, what that touch meantâor didn't meanâbefore he vanishes back into the crowd.
fuck.
the night only gets louder as more people flood into the house.Â
the music thrums through the walls, bass-heavy and relentless, blending with the clatter of cups and the hum of overlapping conversations.
you weave through the crowd, the heat of so many bodies pressed together almost suffocating. your heart racesânot from the chaos around you but from the weight of the unspoken tension thatâs followed you since you walked in.
you couldnât bring yourself to drink, though do-hwan had handed you a cup earlier.Â
itâs long forgotten somewhere, left behind on a table. youâre too afraid of what a single drink might loosen in youâafraid of saying or doing something youâre not ready for.
you donât want to make worse what already feels so broken.
âhey.â do-hwanâs voice cuts through the noise, his hand resting lightly on your arm. he pulls you aside to a quieter corner of the room, away from the crush of people. âyou okay?â
you nod, a small, uncertain smile tugging at your lips. âyeah. just... a little overwhelmed, i guess.â
he watches you closely, his expression softening as if heâs trying to read between the lines. âyou sure? youâve been kind of quiet tonight.â
âiâm fine, really.â
âyou donât have to be,â he says, and itâs the way he says itâgentle, almost understandingâthat makes you crack a real smile. âpretty sure jungkook hates me. pretty sure heâs killed me 10 times in his head in the past hour or so⌠and he knows all the organic chem shit to make it a really clean murder, you know? â
you let out a weak laugh, but it doesnât quite reach your eyes.Â
he grins at the sight, his confidence blooming as he leans in closer, his shoulder brushing against yours.Â
âthere it is,â he says playfully. âi was starting to think you didnât know how to smile anymore.â
you laugh softly despite yourself, and his grin widens.Â
do-hwan then dips his head lower as he talks, his voice dropping slightly, as if the two of you are sharing a secret. itâs intimate in a way that makes your cheeks flush, his proximity unnerving. his eyes flick to yours, and he leans in just a little more.
across the room, jungkook sees everything.Â
is it hot in here?
because fuck, heâs burning up.
actually, the entire house is on fire in his mind.Â
heâs been watching you for most of the night, though he pretends not to be.
the way do-hwan hovers near you, the way you laugh at something he saysâit feels like a punch to the chest. every small interaction between you two is a reminder of what heâs lost, of what he couldâve had if heâd been braver, better.
his grip on his cup tightens, his knuckles white against the red plastic. he canât hear what youâre saying, but he doesnât need to. the way do-hwan leans closer, the way his hand brushes your armâitâs enough to make jealousy coil hot and bitter in jungkookâs stomach. it burns through him, unbearable, as he watches do-hwan dip his head lower, his lips so close to yours.
and then something inside him snaps.
fuck it.Â
before he knows it, heâs moving through the crowd, his feet carrying him faster than his mind can keep up. his hand reaches out, fingers wrapping firmly around your wrist just as do-hwanâs face nears yours. you barely have time to process the sudden motion before youâre being yanked back, stumbling slightly into jungkookâs chest.
âwhat the hell?â do-hwan says, his tone sharp, but jungkook doesnât even look at him. his focus is entirely on you, his jaw tight and eyes dark with something unreadable.
your breath catches, your heart hammering in your chest as you look up at him, startled.Â
âjungkookââ
he doesnât let you finish.Â
his hand wraps firmly around your wrist, and before you can process whatâs happening, heâs pulling you away. his grip is steady but not rough, a silent insistence that leaves no room for argument.
âjungkook, waitââ you try again, glancing back at do-hwan, whose confused expression barely registers in the rush of your heartbeat.
jungkook doesnât look back, his jaw tight and his steps purposeful as he weaves through the crowd, his hand never leaving yours. the air around you feels heavy, the muffled music and chatter blurring into white noise as he leads you up the stairs.
your pulse thrums in your ears as he pushes open a door and pulls you inside, closing it behind you with a quiet but final click. the sudden silence of the room contrasts sharply with the chaos outside, and for a moment, you can only stare at him, your chest rising and falling as you catch your breath.
he finally lets go of your wrist, his hand lingering for a split second longer than necessary before he steps back. his gaze is dark, unreadable, but the tension radiating off him is palpable. the weight of the moment presses down on you, thick and suffocating, as you wait for him to speak.
a moment passes.
then, another.
and another.
and another.
and thenâ
âdump him.âÂ
you clearly your throat.
âcanât dump him. heâs not my boyfriendââ
âyou and your fucking situationships.â
you gulp.
you hate the way he says it.
situationship⌠fuck him.
the room feels smaller than it is, the air thick with the weight of the moment. jungkookâs jaw ticks as he stares at you, the sharpness in his voice cutting through the silence.
âyouâre⌠fucking with me, right?â he spits out, his tone teetering between disbelief and frustration. âyou canât be fucking real right now. you were justââ
âi was just what?â you snap, your glare matching his. âno fair, jungkook. i got to hear you fuck some girl, but you donât want to watch me kissââ
âdid i ask you to?â he cuts in, his voice rising.
âno,â you huff, crossing your arms. âbut what are you asking from me right now? huh? jungkook⌠i donât understand youââ
âwhat do you think iâm asking?â his voice lowers, but the intensity behind it doesnât waver. he steps closer, his presence almost suffocating. âyouâre always trying to act like this doesnât matter. like i donât matter.â
âmaybe it doesnât,â you challenge, even though the words taste bitter on your tongue.
jungkook laughs, but itâs humorless, sharp.Â
âyeah, sure. thatâs why you still give a fuck about me fuckingââ
you snap. âdonât tell me her name.â
âwhat?â jungkook grumbles. âis that it? you get to parade around, yelling his fucking name and announcing it to the entire fucking world but i donât get to tell you about the girl that came onto me for months? do-hwan biochem this, do-hwan thatâdo-hwan kiss me! is that it?"
"jungkookâ"
"fuck, ___... listen to me, okay? let me tell you what i've been rehearsing for the past month and a half.... the girl i declined over and over again and fucked a total of 3 times because i was thinking with my dick is done. okay? if youâre trying to tell me that i fucked upâfine. yeah. i fucked up. but i meant it when i said itâs not what it looked like. ___, it wasn't like that. she spread shit about me being a good tutor and twisted it. how the fuck do you think i feel about myself? how the fuck do you think i feel about you seeing it differentlyâseeing me differently?â
your throat tightens, and you look away, desperate for a moment to compose yourself.Â
âjungkookââ
âtell me how to fix it,â he cries, his frustration spilling over. âtell me what you want, because iâll do it. iâll stop tutoring if thatâs what you want. fuck, i already did to be honest with you.â
you glance up at him, startled.
âwhy? thatâs not going to change anything.â
âbut i have to tryâŚâ his voice cracks, and he runs a hand through his hair, his exasperation evident. âiâll give up anythingâwhatever it takes. just tell me what you need, and iâll do it. want me to stop wearing ugly ass shirts? fine. want me to stop saving the dolphins you hate so muchââ
âi donât hate dolphinsââ
âyouâre scared of them.â
your eyes soften.Â
âhowâd you knowââ
âitâs obvious,â jungkook breathes. âthe same way itâs obvious youâre scared of this.â
this...
what even is this?
the silence that follows is deafening. you donât say anything, and the tension between you stretches taut, threatening to snap. his chest rises and falls heavily, his eyes searching yours, desperate for something youâre not sure you can give him.
he takes another step closer, his proximity making it impossible to think straight.
âsay something,â he pleads, his voice barely above a whisper now.
but you canât.
you donât trust your voice, donât trust yourself not to break under the weight of it all. so you stay quiet, the space between you charged with everything unsaid.
the weight of unsaid words and unresolved feelings pressing down on both of you. you take a step back, trying to create some space to breathe, but jungkook mirrors you, closing the distance effortlessly.
then, you look around his room for some kind of break⌠but it backfires as your eyes meet a plushie, laying on his bed.
hello kitty.
âwhatâs that?â you ask a little shyly.
jungkook turns his head, feeling a little embarrassed at what youâve seen.
âwhat do you think it is?â jungkook asks gently. "___... i... i can't do it. i'm sorry, i can't..."
"can't what?"
"i can't want you," he confesses. "i can't want you when i need you that bad."
he points at the plushie and sighs. "fuck, do you know how stupid that fucking claw machine made me feel? i spent like 1 or 2â"
"hours?" your eyes widen.
he shakes his head. "hundred."
hundred.
you stay silent.
"i'm sorry, ___... for everything. i'm a shithead. i'm mean and inconsiderate. i'm a waste of timeâi know... but i want you to know that... everything about my life feels so weird without you in it. the past month and half has been absolute hell. it's like... if you're not around, all i do is think about you and it fucks with me. i wonder what you're eating, who you're with, and what you're going to do next... i get excited when you seenzone me. i feel like i can finally breathe when you're near. i don't know what you did and what fucking pavlov doggy shit experiment you did on meâbut fuck. woof woof. whatever you want, ___. seriously."
then, you do what you fear.
you give in.
âhow am i supposed to trust you,â you start, your voice shaky but firm, âwhen youâre not even a good friend? youâre always so mean to me, jungkook. think about it⌠when have we ever been good friends?â
he scoffs, the corner of his mouth twisting into a bitter smile.Â
âmaybe itâs because i donât want to be your friend.â
the words hit you like a slap, your breath catching in your throat.Â
âwhat if i want you to be?âÂ
his eyes search yours, as if trying to figure out if youâre serious.Â
âreally?â he asks, his voice dropping lower, softer.
âreally.â
his gaze flickers down to your lips, then back to your eyes, and his voice drops even lower, a dangerous edge creeping into it.Â
you can feel it⌠you can feel it about to happen.Â
âeven when iâm about to do this?â
before you can process his words, his hand moves to your waist, fingers curling around you in a way that sends a shiver down your spine. he pulls you closer, the heat of his touch searing through the fabric of your clothes.
his lips find yours in a kiss thatâs as sudden as it is inevitable.Â
itâs not gentleâitâs firm, deliberate, and entirely consuming. his other hand comes up to cradle your jaw, tilting your head just enough to deepen the kiss. your hands instinctively reach for his shoulders, gripping him as if to steady yourself against the storm heâs unleashing.
when he finally pulls back, his forehead rests against yours, both of you breathing hard. the air between you feels different nowâheavier, laden with something you canât quite name but canât deny.
when jungkook finally pulls away, the world feels quieter, as though itâs holding its breath. his hand slides up, brushing a loose strand of hair from your face, and he looks at you softly, his dark eyes searching yours. the tender gesture sends a fresh wave of confusionâand longingâcoursing through you.
âbad friend,â you scold him in a whisper.
his lips twitch, a soft laugh escaping him as his thumb grazes your cheek.
âdonât do that,â he says, his voice low, almost pleading.Â
you raise a brow at him. "do what?"
"donât friendzone me.â
âwhy not?âÂ
âi just kissed you.â
âso?â
âso?â he mimics, his tone teasing, but thereâs a sharpness in his voice that makes you squirm. his arms tighten around your waist, pulling you impossibly closer.Â
âkitty,â he murmurs, his voice dropping to a rough whisper, âiâm gonna be impossible to get rid of now."
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