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skunkes · 1 year ago

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there is something about how ive given talon all my death woes, as well as one that would only apply to a long living being like him. Something about how he doesn't form bonds anymore because non vampires don't Stay. Something about how ive inserted myself into an world with him and I myself will also leave him behind one day. (Though i guess he'll go with me, but there's also a chance that whenever It Happens he'll still be around in the minds of some as an idea...)

#talkys #im fighting off another death rumination panic attack at yet another funeral #too many in the past few years #he was actually born in the wake (lol...) of my spiral into unhealthy death fixation and rumination #which he also has as a part of his whole being #he came back to my brain at such a good time... i really need him rn #anyway. funeral slideshows always make me cry #and then i have nowhere to look bc the Body is in the room with us #i keep feeling dread. all ive been experiencing is the d**ths 🧿 of people ive not been close to #and just remembering they were People leaves me crying until i cant see #idk if ill make it through any death of an immediate family member once it comes (🧿🧿🧿)#sorry i made this post to distract me but it didnt matter #it doesnt help that he looked so much like my dad....#OK IVE CALMED DOWN A LITTLE FOR NEOW 👍

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