#as an insomniac im self projecting

[alecgsaltwood]

I have this headcanon of the nephilim being nocturnal beings by nature due to their line of work hence their nicknames being "Shadowhunters" and whenever they are seen out in the day by other downworlders they never help their own case or image because 9 out of 10 times they were probably on call and pulled out of bed to deal with an issue at 11am after only 3 hours of sleep and were equally grumpy and the sun hurt their eyes.

And when Magnus and Alec started dating, even though Magnus was a morning person, he adapted to having a little raccoon slinking into their bedroom in the early hours of the morning and not long after bought blackout curtains and spelled the room to be noise cancelling (multi-beneficial) as to not disturb his sleeping partner once he had gotten up and ready for the day.

But it also led to a lot of morning cuddles, the fruit basket in the kitchen consistently being filled with unlimited oranges, and clients seeing a tattooed man half awake with bed hair sipping on coffee in the living room at 4 in the afternoon on their way out of the loft.

[sparepartshere]

KARASUNO QUEER (AND DISABILITY??) HEADCANONS WOO

Daichi - starting off strong with my literal fave. Trans FTM and He/Him (WOO) because I self project, and bisexual male-lean because bisexual daichi is *chefs kiss* Transmale daichi is very important to me.

Has asthma, uses an inhaler (that suga covered in stickers the moment he saw it). Also has problems with his knee joints, especially his left, and often has to use a stick outside of school (but I do love a hc of amputee daichi using a prosthetic leg knee-below on his left.) Oh and he has some form of AuDHD probably (never been tested) oh and insomnia

Suga - not sure for this guy because I don’t actually know. Probably Nonbinary or Genderfluid, He/him pronouns but probably doesn’t care, likely fw They/Them too Also gay/likes boys/boy kisser mwah

has a condition that made his hair loose colour at a really young age, used to be hazel-y brown. used to be insecure about it.

Asahi - *foaming at the mouth* love this guy a normal amount. Either a cis guy or demi, maybe agender. Frankly i love almost every asahi gender hc. (Transfem asahi i love you but sadly dont hc) Pansexual. Likes the person, gender is just…there ig.

Anxiety Disorder, self esteem issues, depression, :((

Noya - transmasc, he/they pronouns. frankly uses anything but she most days. bisexual. has kissed ryuu behind the gym before.

ADHD.

Tanaka - cis male, probably, but i LOVE transmale tanaka tbf. also bisexual. Kissing Noya made him realise some things. Had claimed to be the token straight for a while. Has also kissed Yamamoto

ADHD again

Ennoshita - A STRAIGHT! nope. Bro is the bisexual guy who everyone thinks is an ally. he’s only such an ‘ally’ cause hating the gays would be hating himself He/him, cis male.

Has issues with his shoulder joints, nothing bad, they just hurt alot

Narita - Cis guy tbf, he/him, also gay as balls. had a FAT crush on daichi for a while. (same bb)

Celiac disease. Not too fussed by that, though does miss pastries (not really a disability but ehh)

Kinoshita - kisses boys. not too fond of labels, bro fucks with most pronouns, and he will wear a skirt. Has practiced kissing with Narita. Probably poly too (i need poly rep)

lactose intolerant (you bet your biscuits he ignores that) (ik this is another food allergy)

Kageyama - gay but didn’t realise it forEVER (*talking about hinata to miwa* “dude you’re gay?” “what the fuck is that” *cue one explanation later* “…oh shit.”) He/him pronouns but poor bb doesn’t understand much.

Dyslexia, Anger Issues, mild Anxiety

Hinata - He/him, probably trans FTM, tried some neopronouns for a while a didn’t hate them. Pansexual too. Look me in the eyes and tell me he would care about the gender of his lover. Exactly, you can’t.

ADHD part three, Dyscalculia

Tsukki!!! - my og self-projection. (*screaming*) Trans FTM, He/him pronouns STRICTLY (feels dysphoric otherwise). Gay as hell bro. Has kissed Tadashi before for ‘practice’.

Autistic, (probably AuDHD tbf), hypermobile, insomniac

Tadashi - AMAB, nonbinary, pansexual. Simple. Had a phase where he used a ton of specific and often unknown labels. Comfortable with his identity now.

General Anxiety Disorder.

Yachi - lesbian. Tell me she isnt. no im not listening to your argument. cis girl, she/her, but will respect your pronouns till the day she dies and beyond.

Social Anxiety.

Kiyoko - Also a lesbian. Had a boyfriend in middleschool that was so horrible she took one look at women and never looked back (definitely not a self projection…heh…) also she/her but isn’t fussed with they.

Didn’t learn to speak as a child until quite late on in her childhood. Not a disability but yk

Takeda - TRANS FTM RAH i love tranny ittetsu im sorry. i just love my ftm rep, and him. He/him pronouns because they feel affirming to him. always has period stuff stocked up in his bag for his trans and female students (*sobs*)

Autism. WOO

Ukai - He/him, cis male (though i do fw a ftm hc of him occasionally). He claimed to ‘not gaf’ about the whole ‘LGTQB-whatever-the-fuck bis’,’ cause it didn’t affect him. (since meeting ittetsu and coaching a team of fruitbowls and transformers, he’s secretly memorised as much as he can)

Claims he doesn’t but needs hearing aids. (He had to get them before his grandfather did and never once had had a moment of peace about it from Ukai senior.)

:)

[k1rameki]

THE TIME HAS COME EVERYONE. ITS TIME TO TALK ABOUT MY EXTENSIVE LIST OF TABI HEADCANONS (hcs are under the cut plus this also counts as a little debrief of his human design bc jesus christ i put so much effort into making this man's design it went through a LOT of trial and error before settling on what i got now considering ive gradually made him less and less "human")

also quick thing b4 i proceed – please please PLEASE ask before making things w my tabi design bc ive seen a rlly cool papercraft made w/o my knowledge and that was kinda sucky so ya thats around it (other than the basics of no nsfw and such)

APPEARANCE HCS

first and foremost — hes half japanese because i remember his aside counterpart being japanese iirc and i thought that was really cool and wanted to implement that into my own little hc (also he speaks like a dozen languages bc of another thing i'll go into detail with in a bit

so many different facial features, scarring (theres a very elaborate reason for this tbh), moles, freckles, etc all bc why not?? (freckles is primarily bc of my bestie crow and now im obsessed)

lashes bc why not, give every man a pair of lashes i think theyre pretty

PIERCINGS. so many piercings. this is primarily because i am a very firm believer that tabi gets piercings done because he wants to feel human again so he finds comfort in decorating himself as much as possible for that reason and also the aesthetic

broken horn bc of the mod events, damage beyond repair and whatnot

HE HAS LONG HAIR BC I SAID SO ‼️‼️ i figured considering he's been invisible for so long he never really knew what to do when it came to cutting his hair, so eventually it grew out to around his waist, and he kept that hairstyle ever since (he prefers wearing his hair in a ponytail or smth bc sensory issues when it comes to hair touching his skin)

a lot of tater's hcs infected my brain hehehehehe especially the tail and his hands still being what they were when they were cursed (also. paw beans. /vpos)

HES TRANS ‼️‼️ hes also very dumb and has very little regard for his health and forgets to take his binder off a lot (trust me he gets scolded a lot for that)

GENERAL HCS

hes autistic and has adhd — the autism hc i lowkey stole from crow but the adhd hc ive had for a long long while now — one of his lifelong special interests is performing arts and musicals

chronic insomniac — sleep? never heard of her

plays like 5 different instruments but primarily specialises in piano and guitar

safe food is anything sweet or chocolatey — he has a massive sweet tooth and is obsessed w cookies and pastries in particular which ayana baked for him a lot (ill prolly make a whole other post for her in the near future but guys. pastry chef aya. hear me out)

an absolute boss at board games, especially monopoly, and he constantly loves screwing everyone over

extremely hyperfixated on pokemon and owns a bajillion folders filled with cards worth a buttload of money, and a dozen plushies + figurines (projecting bc pokemon is one of my hyperfixes dont judge me) his fav gen is absolutely johto

his eyesight is pretty bad but like. not bad enough for him to be needing glasses (unlike a certain someone cough cough agoti)

speaking of said certain someone, he and agoti do each other's hair a lot simply because its really fun and provides some stimulation, and also because it helps tabi practice with self care and such

VERY SENSITIVE TO SOUND AND TEXTURES, often times he will probably start crying if something sounds or feels wrong

sometimes he forgets certain words in english and has to resort to using what theyre called in russian

has the goofiest sounding laugh ever and i will die on this hill. when you get tabi cackling he will start rolling on the floor and making the most UNGODLY sounds

can speak like 6 languages fluently and a dozen others in simple conversation (NERD ALERT)

he sucks so hard at writing essays but is (for some reason) really good at maths

despite being the more serious one among his group of friends, tabis a dumbass and does a lot more stupid things than one would expect

[battleangel]

Decoding The Matrix Part 1: Im a Slave & I am a Master...

Your bored, disaffected, lifeless, listless, numb, dead inside, miserable barely existing in corporate, college & high school self…

Every day a boring drag, every day mindnumbing hell.

Just as these systems are DESIGNED to be & to do.

Schools are indoctrination centers & corporate America is mental slavery & drudgery & a prison for your mind…

You're miserable because these systems — education indoctrination brainwashing grooming conditioning centers aka “school” including ofcourse corporate Americas farm & feeder systems aka high school & college —

& the corporate I retail I academia I non-profit I food service customer service I call center I hourly salaried tipped plantations…

Are literally designed to mindbreak you in every single way, indoctrinate you, control you, numb you, enervate you, assault & attack your energy & psyche, depress you, shut you down, cause disordered, compulsive & addictive behavior — bingeing, restricting,  obsessing, dysmorphic, insomniac — anxiety, panic, dread, existentialist terror, loss of identity, suppression of the self, mindlessness, killing your own dreams…

Putting a human CONSCIOUSNESS on a schedule…

Forcing you by DESIGN to dream, fantasize, daydream, mindless escapism, mindless self indulgence, mindless self hate, anything to get away from the job or college or high school aka in AmeriKKKas capitalist hellscape your LIFE that you HATE by DESIGN because they want to fucking BREAK you!

BREAK your MIND, break your SPIRIT, drain your SOUL…

Zombified corporate zombie drone mindless fuck…

Because in Americas capitalist citadel HELL WHAT we DO is WHO we ARE — 

Its our entire identity in the capitalist imperialist American west…

And we’re still on the payroll…

They set this up by design then they feed your own trauma back to you in the form of Applw TVs “Severance” WHEN YOU ARE IN FACT LIVING & BEING SUBJECTED TO THIS TRAUMA EVERY DAY OF BEING FORCED TO SPLIT YOUR REAL SELF FROM YOUR WORK SELF AS CAPITALISM IS DESIGNED TO MINDBREAK YOUR FUCKING ASS!

YOU DO THIS TO YOURSELF EVERY DAY WITHOUT THE RIDICULOUS TROPEY SCIFI ABSURD CONVENTION OF ACTUAL SURGERY….

YOU ARE FORCED TO SPLIT YOURSELF IN ORDER TO WASTE THE MAJORITY OF YOUR LIFE AWAY IN AN OFFICE JOB CORPORATE JOB CUBICLE JOB 9 TO 5 JOB W-2 JOB MANDATED SCHEDULE JOB JOB WITH A SUPERVISOR JOB JOB THAT TREATS YOU LIKE A MACHINE JOB THAT PURPOSELY SEVERS YOU FROM THE REAL YOU!

NOT YOUR “HUMAN” SELF IN A HUMAN SUIT!

THATS JUST A PROJECTION .. YOUR CURRENT HUMAN SELF IS A 3D PROJECTION OF YOUR HIGHER CONSCIOUSNESS SELF IN THE ASTRAL PLANE — YOUR ACTUAL SELF — THIS IS JUST A TEMPORARY EXPERIENCE — SO CALLED LIFE — YOU HAVE BEEN ON A JOURNEY FOR AN ETERNITY THROUGH TIMELESS COUNTLESS AGES AS YOUR HIGHER CONSCIOUSNESS SELF —

YOU HAVE SIMPLY STOPPED OFF ON EARTH BUT YOUR TRUE SELF IS PROJECTING YOUR HUMAN SELF ON OUR 3D REALM.

YOUR TRUE SELF RESIDES IN THE ASTRAL REALM AS YOUR HIGHER CONSCIOUSNESS SELF — A CRYSTALLIZED LIGHT BEING RESIDES IN THE DREAMSCAPE.

THE DREAMSCAPE IS YOUR MIND, YOUR IMAGINATION, YOUR LIMITLESSNESS….

THEY WANT YOU TO FORGET!

THEY DISTRACT & NUMB YOU!

THEY BREAK YOU DOWN!

THEY MIND BREAK YOU!

THEY BREAK YOUR MIND!

WAKE YOUR SELF UP!

What happens after David Aames jumps in Vanilla Sky?

The entire movie is a dream! 

David is dreaming all of this!

How else do you explain a snowman randomly appearing in the elevator with the Life Extension employees?

Davids patient# in Vanilla Sky is PLEASANT DREAMS.

Wake up — your entire life is a dream.

When David jumped off the building and ended everything — everything was beginning — instead of killing himself — he broke himself out of the dream & entered another one.

The end was beginning and the beginning was ending.

Will you ever wake yourself up? 

“You too can split yourself!”

This is Severance’s seductive & alluring promise to its millions of traumatized corporate American capitalist on the plantation dehumanized corporatized commodified commoditized traumatized viewers vicariously living through the characters on the show without realizing that…

They are LITERALLY psychically splitting themselves EVERY SINGLE DAY OF THEIR LIVES THAT THEY REPORT IN TO WORK.

How else to get a human being to treat themselves as a machine?

Instead of a surgery to split “work” you at work and “real” you outside of work…

You know…

You? 

Y O U?

The person youre suppressing every day of your life so you can get through hours & hours of Slacks, Teams, meetings, emails, Zoom calls, IMs, FYIs, Please advise, cc, bcc, demands, requests, threats, backhanded compliments, passive aggressive insults, ass kissing, dick sucking & fucking for clout, scrambling over peoples backs…

The corporate grind.

Where you spend the majority of your LIFE.

Getting harvested by the creators of the Matrix.

The dark entities that put a grid on our planet millennia ago to suppress humanity’s consciousness to ensure we never elevate our consciousness and us and the planet ascend beyond the current dark low vibrational frequency of 3D living and ascend to 10D ascended actualized higher consciousness astral plane dreamscape existence. Until then, the dark entities entrap humanity in meaningless jobs, drudgery, soul sucking soul crushing work, numbing our existence, suppressing the self, siphoning & harvesting our energy, causing divisions, tensions, causing our wars, our genocides, our atrocities, our economic collapses, our plane crashes, our agendas, our scripts, our false flag events, our mass shootings, our lunatics, our hypocrites, our Tales from the Crypt, our concentration camps, our prison complexes, our poisonings presented as medicine, our mass graves, our mass burials, our killing fields, our Roman shields…

YOU — the ACTUAL SOUL & CONSCIOUSNESS BEING SUPPRESSED IN OUR 3D PHYSICAL REALM CAPITALIST HELLSCAPE!

ACTUAL YOU with YOUR hobbies, loves, desires, interests, wanderlust, creativity, ideas, lust, hopes, dreams, fantasies, personality, sexuality, intellectualism, esotericism, eroticism, meditative thoughts, spirituality, identity, identities, experiences, memories, energy,  L O V E . . . 

You know — an actual fucking HUMAN CONSCIOUSNESS & A SOUL . . . !

Ghost in the machine…

That the current Matrix program has forced into WORKER I STUDENT I SLAVE . . . 

[peculiar-shardscape]

honestly tho, can you list all the aus that you had made? its ok if you dont im just curious how many had you done.

- ❖

You say this like I can remember them at the top of my head (I cannot)

Uhhh I also have a LOT of scrapped ones too but the Not scrapped ones are

AF2:

-Invertedverse (everything is inverted and Stratosfear is an asshole)

-Walk Beyond Insanity (prepoint storyline, i am Not using the prepoint names though out of spite but basically Ulipse finds out they can use dark magic, runs away from maytown, comes back years later and all hell breaks loose)

-Future/Past (Stratosfear fucked shit up and everyone has to go and fix it, timelines are fucked but who cares at this point)

-Insomniac (los animales)

-Dreams and Memories (MY FIRST EVER MADE ROBLOX AU ACTUALLY, basically af2 but you travel through Memories of the Points and also Sterneedle is there)

-Dreamcatcher!AU (on edge about this one because an exfriend associated with this one SUPER heavily /neg. but erm. Asshole oc Detelle fucks shit up, everyone's symbols can turn into cool weapons and also Detelle should kill themse-)

-PROJECT FUSION (fusions. lots of fusions. technically not an AU but I like fusions. A lot.)

SPR:

-Colourdrained (Octave goes batshit)

-That one Antagonist Aaron au that i never gave a name (self explanatory)

-Substantial Consequences (i literally NEVER spoke of this EVER but 1x and Sphara has this fucked up goop in a jar that was too dangerous so they hid it away but years later 1x accidentally lets fucked up goop out and shit goes wrong)

-Spiral Out of Control (One of my favs, kind of hard to explain though... Magic and ... Racism. Yeah)

Bonus crossover is Fight or Flight which is a crossover of AF and SPR (It's kind of like. tied into my Game Changer species that I made but basically everyones forced in a team game and they need to survive and shit. everyone has a partner and if One partner dies, the other is eliminated, also they share pain so if one gets punched in the stomach, the other feels that punch too. Shit's cool. Game Changer guy is actually a dad)

PHIGHTING:

-Colorverse (My dumbass didnt know what colors meant so basically every class is a species and everyone is in colored teams and I have a whole entire google slide about it)

-COLORBARS but that's also Colorverse so idk (Copybox goes apeshit and everyone gets brainwashed)

-That one apocalyptic AU that I literally never touched ever again (los animales but violent but also they like people who have some sort of physical "deformation" (broken horns, missing limbs etc))

If anyone wants anymore lore on certain aus, feel free to ask. im ill

[autocann1bal]

part eight of my playlist analysis!!

part 1 <;- part 2 <- part 3 <- part 4 <- part 5 &lt;- part 6 <- part 7 <- SOUPPP

be nice to me - the front bottoms 'i try to write you poems, but the words they dont make sense' TELL ME LOCKWOOD DIDNT TRY TO WRITE LUCY POETRY BC HE THOUGHT IT WOULD BE ROMANTIC THEN THREW IT OUT BC HE THOUGH IT WAS BAD. TRY TO TELL ME. TRY I DARE YOU. (it was actually really really good hes just incredibly hard on himself.)

absolutely smitten - dodie hehehehehe fluffy fluff softest fluff toothrotting fluff ow ow ow

my body's made of crushed little stars - mitski you cannot tell me this isnt on lucys breakdown playlist.

i hear a symphony - cody fry lockwood sings it to lucy methinks.

i was an island - john-allison weiss GRRRRRRRRG IK YOU THINK IM GONNA SAY ITS LOCKWOOD BUT ABSOLUTELY YOU ARE RIGHT HAHAHAH. 'but i lowered my sword when you held me and swore youd stay, stay, stay' LOCKWOOD.  kill the director - the wombats this playlist is so lockwood-centric can you tell. hes never really felt anything like what hes felt for lucy before and hes just ??????>@!? and confused and is probably ranting to george about it or something and george is just laughing eating crackers or smth like "haha stupid loverboy." ykwim? - yot club lucy, laying awake in her attic room, wondering how the hell she got here and why shes staying. shes ruined the dynamic they had, hasnt she? shes the only girl in the house she does everything differently. she should leave. (she should Not). arsonists lullaby - hozier surprisingly, this is a lucy song!! its what she felt like having such a strong talent in such a small town and feeling like itd get to her one day. a burning hill - mitski another lucy breakdown song. she likes mitski. its kinda funny tho cuz yk. lockwood and his white button-downs. wet cigarettes - strawberry milk cult lockwood and lucy are avoiding eachother yet again, because theyre. them. but they keep passing eachother in the kitchen and other places in the house, stealing glances and all that. this song just has that vibe. sober haha jk unless - hospital bracelet l. lockwood song :(. affection - scruffpuppie feels like a lucy song and i cant explain why it just does. april to death - flower face god i literally cannot explain it for them specifically but this song goes in every character playlist i make. im so emotionally attached to it. breezeblocks - alt-j ok ik this is. a little bit of a weird one. but i dont care!! i love it!!! i live for slightly insane lockwood and you will too /threat (/j) bug bear - chloe moriondo despite lucy being so powerful talent wise, she never did great in school. stolen dance - milky chance DO I EVEN HAVE TO EXPLAAAAAAAAAIN its so soft dancing at night vibes dude. i love it sm. theyre just swaying together in the kitchen. alternatively, case montage of them by eachothers side pick your poison. black sheep - the evil exes (there are a million versions of this song gimme a break) just. mmm luce vibes dont ask why i will not be able to answer. can you feel my heart - bring me the horizon yall remember that one edit from 2020 where average looking anime boy #44658 jumped out a building? lockwood wants that. (its ok me too lockwood) (no but fr this is another weird emotional attachment song but it could probably work for some sort of lockwood breakdown. wait actually it could cuz 'im scared to get close/i hate being alone' ok i understand now thank you brain.) daddy issues - the neighborhood I believe ive briefly discussed my lockwood with daddy issues hc. do i rememebr his canon relationship with his dad? no!! am i projecting?? yes!! i cant handle change - roar self explanatory. hes not good at change, shes not good at change, they both suck at it but theyre working through it together. ill sleep when im dead - set it off lockwood insomniac agenda (its not even an agenda its canon atp) achilles come down - gang of youths you guys dont want me to go in depth with this one. strawberry mentos - leanna firestone hehehdfbjngbfdg fluffy fluffy fluff fluffle so fluffy so sweet so cute so owie i love them. fool - cavetown eepy reading vibes in the library mixed with a teeeeny tiny bit of crying on lucys part. why shes crying is up for interpretation. beorge gush - strawberry milk cult this ones for the l&co ot3 mfs. its all of them. odnt ask why it just is. them vibes christ we're so close to being done PART 9 HERE WE GOO

[sunstar121]

wow, I just realised how much I self-project onto characters I love

[aislingeu]

hello!! i’m kq ( aka kelsey quinn! ) i’m twenty five, livin in the est, usin she / her pronouns!! much like the good buddy who turned me on to this rp, i don’t know a ton about percy jackson!! but mythology was one of the few subjects that held my attention in school, so i hoe i have a good handle on it! :D for now, i manage a comic book store from thursdays - sundays, so i’m scarce those times but i’m usually on discord!!

⟨ ABIGAIL COWEN. CIS FEMALE. SHE / HER ⟩ though the mist might prevent some from seeing it, AISLING DUNN is actually a descendant of H Y P N O S. it’s still a question of whether or not the TWENTY-THREE year old PAINTING MAJOR from DUBLIN, IRELAND has taken after their godly parent completely, but the demigod is still known to be quite CLEVER & COARSE.

this got way longer than i intended im so sorry... 

𝐁𝐀𝐂𝐊𝐆𝐑𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐃

she was born on march 12th, 1997 to a pair of irish musicians ( conor and dierdre dunn ) and, unwittingly, one greek god ( hypnos ) in dublin, ireland. her parents met and married shortly after her conception and neither of them suspected that conor wasn’t aisling’s father, until she was claimed.

as an only child, her parents didn’t have much to compare her too in terms of overall strangeness. for years, they wrote off her abilities as kids just sayin’ the darndest things. they remained blissfully unaware of the impact of their daughter’s words, rolling their eyes fondly, when she told them about the man in the cave, who came to her in dreams. they smiled and laughed, when she strangers at the supermarket that she thought erwin was a fine name to give a teddy bear, no matter what anyone else said. how were they to know that she was unearthing the fond childhood memories that passersby had almost forgotten? 

when she enrolled in primary school, they realized that she was... strange, if not special. she was recognized as a bit of a space case, often staring at nothing in particular, while her teacher droned on. her worksheets were seldom turned in complete. instead, aisling began gifting poorly drawn family portraits on the blank sides of her papers, likenesses plucked from the memories she explored when her mind wandered, in class.

eventually, after her skill had developed and people stopped writing off the stick figures as ‘coincidentally accurate’, people began to truly take notice. they speculated that she was a medium, silently communing with the dead and painting their pictures as she did. how else could she know what her art teacher’s late father looked like? and what color tie he always liked to wear? she had to be a psychic. recipients of her art were always so focused on their perception of the little girl with the gift of sight that they hardly even realized what she had tweaked, brightening up their darkest memories, just so they wouldn’t have to hurt anymore. she hardly even realized, herself.

without a reason to believe otherwise, she told the man in her dreams that she was a psychic, but he knew differently. he told her that that wasn’t so. she was special, yes, but not in the ways that the world thought her to be. hypnos let her in on the secret he’d been keeping for the past twelve years and, just like that, aisling could make sense of herself. once she knew the truth, she chased sleep. she spent as much time as she could, communicating with the one person who understood who she was. he saw her hunger for belonging and pointed her in the direction of the camp nearest to her hometown.

after a summer away, she came home faced with a challenge in morality that she’d never considered, as a child. she came home to a world where she could no longer fit. her party tricks had lost their luster the moment she realized that true value of a memory, however sad, was worth far more than the cheap smiles that her alterations had afforded. with that realization, her art took a darker turn. unable to shift the memories she saw into the light, they haunted her. she now saw their fears and heartbreaks for what they were: unchangeable. and, now, they lived within her, too. putting them to paper was the only way to get them out. but, pieces like those weren’t the kind that could be sent home to mom and dad. pieces like those were the kind that got her meetings with guidance counselors and haunted, fleeting looks from those whose memories she’d never meant to disturb. after a year of that, aisling went back to camp, full time.

once she was a year round resident of the camp, she found herself more comfortable around people who understood; there was nothing she had to hide, among those who were like her. each one of them was fighting an uphill battle of their own. they didn’t have to hide it. even if she never allowed herself to get too close, aisling never felt all that far away, at camp.

at eonia, aisling spends most of her days painting, sleeping, or working. raised by a pair of mortal musicians, finding a job at fireside records felt like a natural progression. where her godly parent thrives in silence, she finds her comfort in noise. it’s easier to block out the things she doesn’t need to see when there’s something immediate for her to focus on. at the other end of that spectrum, aisling finds her mind most open in visual arts club, trying to keep her other creative skills sharp, while she keeps her primary focus on painting. in search of inspiration, her mind reaches out in tendrils, dipping into another’s until she finds something she can work with. she only needs to leave the room before they’ve realized what she’s borrowed. 

𝐏𝐄𝐑𝐒𝐎𝐍𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐓𝐘

aisling is a naturally empathetic person, always wishing she could do more to help those around her. unfortunately, she knows that she can’t always honor that instinct. her abilities and self-imposed limitations have left her with a hardened exterior that isn’t easy to break through. those who pass through her walls see a softer side: a steadfast friend, always there to put a peaceful end to their sleepless nights or calm their worst nightmares, with a gentle run of her fingers through their hair. but sometimes, she’ll wall herself away from even those she’s closest to after she finds herself in the middle of a particularly harrowing memory. because of this, maintaining close bonds for long is a difficult thing. given her propensity for accidentally rifling through the fondest and most fearsome parts of peoples’ pasts, she’s been known cut them out of her life when she sees something that she has the urge to alter.

𝐀𝐁𝐈𝐋𝐈𝐓𝐈𝐄𝐒

MEMORY RETRIEVAL — for as long as she could remember, aisling knew things that she shouldn’t. at first, her parents just dismissed her gift as imagination and observation combining in a perfect, creepy storm. it wasn’t until she started attending school, picked up her finger paints, and started to draw out moments from the pasts of strangers that people started to truly take notice. sloppy scenes from the librarian’s wedding day graduated into well sketched portraits of her bus driver’s dalmatians. she liked to take those happy moments, immortalize them in art, and hand them off to the owners of the memories. she liked to make people smile. sometimes, she took that a step further. too young to see the value in sadness, aisling would tweak the memories that were harder to bear; even if she couldn’t bring someone happiness in the present, she hoped she could bring them comfort in the future. it wasn’t until she was claimed that aisling saw the flaws in her intervention. it wasn’t until she was taught the consequences that she knew she had to stop. although the memories came to her unbidden, they didn’t belong to her and she had no right to change them. instead of focusing on the alteration of memories, aisling opted to try to learn how to shut them out. like her other powers, though, there’s a direct correlation between her emotional state and her ability to keep a wall up. when she’s feeling something strongly or hasn’t gotten enough sleep, she sees things that she doesn’t mean to.

HYPNOKINESIS — you are getting very sleepy… what proved to be a fun tool at sleepovers had more practical applications than aisling knew possible. the skill of inducing sleep was easy enough to come by and influencing dreams was as simple as altering memories. and while ( without intending to ) she’d been known to cause visions when tensions ran high, refining those visions into ones that took the shapes she wanted them to took practice. even more difficult than that was learning to astral project, but that became a necessity, coming hand-in-hand with building her mental walls. when the uninvited memories start to weigh on her, she’s learned that it’s best to remove herself from the immediate vicinity. even if she’s only technically leaving in her head. 

OTHER ABILITIES — ( levitation ) a skill she only possesses in sleep, predominantly when her dreams are eliciting strong emotions. ( seeing the gods in dreams ) this is how she formed and maintained a relationship with her father, despite her parents being unaware of their daughter’s godly lineage. on occasion, she’ll encounter gods that she’s less familiar with and, in most of those cases, she’s been known to force herself awake.

𝐖𝐀𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐃 𝐂𝐎𝐍𝐍𝐄𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒

there are so many cool, fun things runnin through my brain right now!! i think it would be lovely for her to have forged a friendship with an insomniac or maybe someone prone to nightmares that she could help! and those fun customer service relationships with record store regulars!! or maybe a former friend or significant other, who aisling left behind? maybe even altering their memory slightly, if the parting of ways was ugly! who knows! the possibilities are endless!! and i’m always up to hearing other peoples’ ideas because the Sweet Lord knows i am not the most imaginative person in any given room!!!

thank u for reading ilu!!! 

[princess-of-the-corner]

Kwamis are their animals au) Kim becomes Aladdin and Xuppu basically becomes Abu- Longg finds himself on the Couffaine boat a lot because.. well.. you know why. Sass is either a smol snake or BIG ASS BOA CONSTRICTOR that likes cuddles— Nathaniel being chased by chickens is a funny thought but I suppose that’s a more animals follow their holders thing

Im imagining Nathaniel being the "insomniac artist" type (hello self-projection my old friend), and as soon as he goes to sleep Orikko starts crowing at the sunrise.

[edengarden]

HI! may i please have a male haikyuu matchup?

ok so i’m female, my personality type is infp and i am a libra. these always look so fun but i screw them up so imma hope i don’t this time. overall i’m a carefree person! i’m just trying to make my way around the world one way or another and i honestly could care less about what the future holds for me. i liek to think of myself as a kind person but idk. i try to help others before i help myself, i value others feelings and actions a lot more than my own even if i don’t show it and have a cold exterior. i am a super energetic person and i love to just live life i guess? i’m such a hard worker, everything i do and achieve was buit up from my hard work. when i am determined in something, i’m more determined than ever whether it’s out of spite or pure enjoyment i’m determined. i’m an independent person where if it’s not for enjoyment i want to do it on my own, i don’t want anyone’s help. all my schoolwork is doen alone and i try to avoid group projects to a max.

ok for flaws since i’m sure this part will be easier NAKSK: i’m going to get straight to the point i’m honestly a bitch. i have lots of self pity and i hate it. i’m a naive person who needs to look more for the consequences of what i’m about to do, i’m impulsive. im short tempered and get pissed way too easily over the smallest things. im such a narcissist sometimes and the somedays i see myself as the worst person in the world. im an insomniac who barely sleeps but i got that energy so- i’m only paranoid of one thing, i have to lock the door each night and check it at least three times before i can go to bed. but that doesn’t stop me from watching dateline HELL NO AHH I LOVE TRUE CRIME AGHH

i’m currently in college studying to be a forensic psychologist honestly have no clue why i picked that at all but i’m so interested in it. i play lacrosse and if i’m being honest, i started in middle school when i got pissed at a kid so i did it out of pure sprite. more so because i like the physical contact in the sport where i can shove a kid and the refs could care less. i love mentos, pumpkin pie, and plants. more specifically flowers i got a whole garden in my room and boy do i love it. I ALSO LOVE RATS!! i own four rats and i love them so very much rats get a bad rep and i’m sick of it dammit.

hmmmm i love classic rock! my favorite song is either win by david bowie or paint it black by the rolling stones. though i do love any classical music specifically played on the piano and in minor gives me those i’m boutta get killed vibes but to a bop. the first one piece opening slaps too tho don’t get me started

i lovelovelove studying i can speak 4 languages and i love chemistry to a max, i can recite the whole periodic table and i take pride in it. i am fascinated with how the human brain works and why we do things. i can play multiple instruments but primarily i play the piano and the double bass!!

my name is arsen (it’s russian my parents aren’t psychopaths i swear) and i’ve been told i fit it but i don’t know how to take that information SJSK i like to think i’m a fun person.

fun facts because i don’t know what to add: after five redbulls and somehow not cardiac arrest i ran a half marathon out of pure spite towards my friend who told me i needed to get off by ass

i love to read lots!

i convinced my friend off of impulse to take a backpack trip across the us and then go to vegas and damn that was fun

i am on a mission to achieve the guinness world record for lowest limbo

i can walk on my big toes and as well walk like a chameleon on my finger tips and toes

when i lived in russia i joined a roller derby team and KICKED ASS i love roller derby so much smh

i lived in russia and i love the cold sososososo much

ive been cliff diving, bungee jumping, sky diving with my dad, and scuba diving! i’ve been paragliding and it’s the best thing ever!!

like i saïd, i’m trying to live life! i try not to live in fear and when things get rough remember to enjoy the little moments and make the best of what we have.

my first job was at a cemetery and it taught me so much, i loved that job.

in a partner i look for someone who is determined, a hardworker and is dedicated to a relationship. someone who shares aspects of my personality or the complete opposite that i can just vent to. i want someone who can laugh with me and that i can cry against when i need to. i want someone who i can just live life with and be proud of, and at the end of the day cuddle under the stars.

am i supposed to put appearance, i don’t know? i have medium length black hair that’s pretty wavy and black bangs that grow out towards my sides sort of like curtain bangs i don’t know how to explain oops it’s pretty thin but i think i pull it off well! (self confidence for the win 😤✋) i have light green eyes and a very cheeky smile which is my favorite part of me! i have a very athletic build and big ass thighs oops. my legs are longg and i’m 5’9 so i’m pretty tall. my skin is pretty clear and i’m very pale.

thank you very much for your time and i hope you have a good day!

:)))

AHAHA JOINING A SPORT OUT OF PURE SPITE THATS SO FUNNYYY

Do you,, do you kin Bakugou by any chance? You should kin Bakugou, you give me Bakugou vibes

I’m matching you up with Asahi!

He’s like,, your total opposite but that’s what you need I think!! Doing things out of spite is okay but only to a certain extent; he’d make sure you wouldn’t get yourself hurt.

Also you being so bold?? It inspires him, and I think you’d rub off on him in a way that he starts so assert himself a bit more (WE STAN PROGRESS). Aside from your Uncontrollable Anger™️, you’re such a well-rounded person and he’s so shocked by it. He admires it so much, and to be yours?? To be so close to you and see you in action and KNOW what makes you tick feels like a blessing to him.

I see Asahi as someone who’s never done something extreme, so when you encourage him to go skydiving, or even paragliding with him, he’s so fucking scared, but he sees the bright smile on your face and he knows you’ve done it before so if you’re so excited to do it again, it can’t be that bad right?? Long story short you push him outside his comfort zone and since you’re with him while it happens, it’s really not that bad. Boy gets super proud of himself after and you’re proud too and getting your praise and approval is so nice for him.

You’re also,, lowkey his attack dog? Nishinoya jokes about it a lot (“ooh don’t piss off Asahi too much he’ll set Arsen after you dude”). The team loves you, but they know not to fuck with you or Asahi lmao. ALSO YOURE HIS GREATEST MOTIVATOR. If buddy needs encouragement, your way of delivering it is so straight forward, almost SHOCKING and it gets the job done.

Songs!!!

- Money, Pink Floyd

- In the Lap of the Gods, Queen

- 12 Études, Op. 25, no. 11, in A Minor. Lento- Allegro “Winter Wind”, Frédéric Chopin (if this doesn’t exude your energy dude, nothing does)

- Joe the Lion, David Bowie

[exoforce]

Heya! I'd like to know why you picked them! Of course, you don't have to go through them all, but I really enjoy character stuff!

:o thank you so much, im very excited!! this is going to be a very long post, so it’ll all be under the cut.

SOUNDS:

engine starting, stalling: because of hana and daehyun working on the hoverbike when they were younger, and i feel like that couldn’t have been the only engine-related project they worked on together. there must’ve been a lot of trial and error on their projects.

the rattle of death: she IS a war hero, and she comes close to death so frequently. she’s seen so much death in (what i headcanon to be) only a year of service, and it’ll forever haunt her.

alarm blaring: the alarm blaring every morning whether or not she slept so she had to rush to get ready for team training and conditioning. they had to train often and during early mornings, but hana is horrible at waking up on her own.

siren call: sirens go off during emergencies, and at this point she is VERY familiar with dangerous emergencies.

loud laughter at midnight: she and the team are a bunch of insomniacs and are often up late at night hanging out and playing games together. 

music turned up at the limit: she likes music a lot and requires a lot of stimulation at once. 

laboured breathing / a groan of pain: she’s no stranger to sustaining injuries during combat. she can hear her teammates’ labored breaths over comms sometimes as well.

bubblegum bursting: this one is fairly self-explanatory. bubblegum is kinda her thing.

water splashing: all the times she’s fought over an angry ocean, or worse: fallen into it.

VISUALS: 

sleeping at a desk: she often fell asleep at her computer desk because she’d play games late into the night to avoid having to sleep. never works.

coffee any time: more like energy drinks, but she drinks them a LOT. it does not help her insomnia, but it does help during long streams.

circles under your eyes: sleep = nightmares = not fun, so she doesn’t sleep a lot. plus concealer can hide things if nobody gets close enough to see what’s underneath!

bedhead: she has HORRIBLE bedhead if she gets a good night’s sleep.

too many tabs to find the music: she has a lot of tabs open constantly. like, at least 10 at a time. what if she needs that one tab in a couple of days?? no she can’t just bookmark it.

strained smiles: a lot of her idol career is based on pretending everything is alright, even when that couldn’t be further from the truth. sometimes she’ll give her teammates strained smiles to try and fool them. they don’t understand why she still tries; they can see right through it.

heart on your sleeve: if she had the time for romance, she’s one to easily get a crush.

too young to be so old: she’s had to grow up faster than others her age in the face of the war and handle a lot of stress. she’s too young to die, and yet that’s something she faces everyday. there’s no more time to be young and dumb, the fate of her country is on her shoulders.

bloody knuckles: sparring during training can get rough, especially when it gets competitive. in desperate times during a battle with the gwishin, she’ll attempt to punch them as a minor distraction. that never happens with the biggest one that emerges from the ocean every month or so.

SCENTS:

the scents were a bit more random, less tied to specific events in her life. that’s admittedly because i, the mun, have a very very weak sense of smell and i dont have any memories myself associated with certain smells. strawberries and cream specifically seem to fit d.va’s aesthetic and how much she enjoys sweets, apples is another scent i chose because she likes fruit.

[glitchzap]

ty ty ty for the tag!! (rubs hands) i've never done self-ship stuff but here we go >:) and since op never really said that it's only in hq fandom, im adding diff fandoms! sorry if it's super long, i like rambling

LANCHITA — lance x ennoshita

man, i'm really soft for this guy. like- really FCITHEKCJSIGN i can see us being playful with each other in little ways. we'd have study dates!! we'd both be doing homework while leaning on each other 🥺 i'm a person who's too shy to actually kiss in public (became a thing since same-sex (at least looks like) relationships arent allowed) so he pulls me aside just to give kisses on the hand or cheek DHSJFNSIFJEI we'd have soft pet names too like darling, honey, my love gjjdjfjdjcjd im a Simp 😳 anyway, there would also be cooking dates!! oh my god just imagining the domestic vibe 😩😩 i also tend to hide my problems (despite saying that i'm open), but i can see chikara easily seeing right through me so he'd just pull me aside to talk 🥺 there'd be days where either he or i can't get out of bed, so we just stay on the bed, pressed against each other, basking in each other's presence until the other feels better (other than getting up to make food, drink water, etc) man even just being his friend would be a dream

SUGAWALANCE - lance x sugawara

chaotic mom duo. don't change my mind. CJSJGJJSNGJE we'd both be giving daichi headaches and asahi heart attacks ✌️✌️✌️ we'd have baking dates rather than cooking dates because of how chaotic and childish we can be 😩 tossing flour on each other's hair, icing on our noses, the domestic baking life 😌 we'd be helping each other with school work bc Fuck Being A Third Year yk HAHAHAHAHA we'd both fucking gossip (chismosa duo? chismosa duo) about anything we hear HAHAHAHA i'd also help suga through his insecurities about not being the main setter anymore and still cheer for him!! nicknames consist of bitch, asshole, bastard, but also sweetheart, darling, loml, etc 😌💕 would 100% kick my ass if he ever hears me insult myself and would go pouty if i still felt the same and would say sweet things fjdnnfndncnd i love him

TETSULANCE - lance x kuroo (i'm not naming us klance 😭😭)

CHEMISTRY? CHEMISTRY. THERE'D BE SO MANY CHEMISTRY PUNS BETWEEN US OH MY GOD. "what do you do when a chemist dies?" "you barium 👉👉" "atta boy" HAHAHAHAHA i bet kuroo would take me to lab dates 🥺🥺 man i'd gladly let him teach me chemistry fhsjfjsjd anyway, i'd drag his ass to thise cliche hilltops and watch the sunrise/sunset and watch the stars 🥺 nicknames would be so fucking kinky you wouldn't believe. kitten, daddy, captain, baby doll. it's for shits and giggles but 👀 HAHAHAHA ANYWAY i can see this man rambling about chemistry or just- science in general!! i'd totally listen to him ramble, even if he was repeating stuff and even if i don't understand 😔💕 i bet he'd also listen to me ramble about anything?? i'd see a plushie omw home and i'd squeal abt it to kuroo like 🥺🥺🥺 WE'D FLIRT WITH EACH OTHER A LOT, EVEN IF WE WEREN'T IN A RELATIONSHIP my god, like??? we'd have pick-up line battles HAHAHAHA "do i know you? 'cause you look like my next boyfriend" "oh you must've mistaken me for someone else because i'm your husband" "what the FUCK tetsu you can't just one-up me like that you ASSHOLE" man i never realized how much chemistry kuroo and i had 😳

HITOMAS - lance x shinsou (yikes, irl last name but oh well y'all won't find me 😩)

i can see this ship being that "we were both partners for a project and whoops looks like i fell" trope 😩✌️ we're both insomniacs (well, i have a hard time falling asleep at night) so we just call each other and talk about random stuff. we go on cat cafe dates and fall asleep in said cafe surrounded by cats 🥺 i bet he isn't big on nicknames, so it'd just come down to simple ones like love or kitten 😌 it would take both of us a while to completely open up to each other, but i know that i'll persist >:) catch us in the kitchen being cryptids and making coffee and cooking pasta at 3 am ✌️ no way am i going to be in the heroes course, but i'd still hype him up when he joined it 🥺 i'd be so proud and i wouldn't ve afraid to show it 💕 i can see he isn't that big on pda, so our way of pda would be entwining pinkies and lingering touches

KAMILANCEY - lance x denki (last one i promise)

i see this as a more platonic ship tbh!! we'd be pick-up lines galore HAHAHAHAHA i bet i could help him sleep better even with electricity running through his veins by singing to him 👉👈 we'd be really hyper, rambling at each other with dumb grins on our faces like "DUDE THERE WAS THIS CUTE CHICK I SAW AND SHE'S SO PRETTY" "I SAW THIS CUTE CAT PLUSHIE OH MY GOD SHOULD I GET IT" "FUCK YEAH DUDE ANYWAY THIS CHICK" "WHAT CLASS IS SHE 👀" "SHES IN-" so on and so fourth 😌👌 i'd also be his hypeman and wingman because no way am i leaving my bro 😩 we'd watch disney movies and drama shows just to be entertained 👌 i'd 100% help him study since i probably have a better study habit than he does (sorry, denks) we're totally those bros b4 hoes kind of duo SJJFNDJGJDJNGJS i want a friend like denki 🥺

tagging anyone who wants to do this!! pls i know some of you really want to plsplspls HAHAHAHAHHAHA

self-ship things!

—a tag game! talk about one random headcanon you have for some of your favorite self-ships!

NEXII - nishinoya x dexii

every day after practice we go and get popsicles from a local stand. every day. sometimes it’s with the team, sometimes it’s just me and him, but we do it every day. we end up wasting a lot of money because we get multiple and giggle when our tongues turn blue (we take stupid selfies of it and post it on snap)

TANEXII - tanaka x dexii

friday nights i go to his house and we paint each other’s nails. he’s actually really good at it (because of saeko) and we end up having a lot of fun hehe. at first he wanted to stick with black because it made him Cool™️ but once we got more to it he started wearing other colors. he showed up to practice monday with hot pink nails <3

DEXZUMI - iwaizumi x dexii

we have really long nightly facetime calls. these happen pretty often, like twice every week. it’s usually me talking about random things and him occasionally inserting a offhand comment about it, but sometimes we just quietly do other things while we facetime each other. these end up taking hours and he keeps on scolding me to go to sleep but he’s the one who falls asleep first lol

tagging: @sophiawithstars @sunarashi @kageyuji @hajiimes @sugakuns @akaagiis @1tsnoya @omigogames @kozu-mei @wanderynn or anyone else who would like to do it! (sorry for tags lol)