My mother told me that I was always an angry child- always had a short fuse and anger was always the first to show on my face.
She named me Martina, female counterpart of Martinus, Son of Mars, because the first emotion I expressed when I came out of her was anger.
I was a mumbling mess, not knowing what I was saying. Well, obviously, I was just a babe, but it was all clear to her that I was angry. I was already angry even before my mother first held me in her arms.
She laughs about it, and I laugh with her, but silently, I wonder, "What if I was made to be born mad?"
Because I'm now nineteen- still young, but it took me my whole life learning how to tame the feeling. Anger makes me feel sick, disgusting, vile, and I'm still working on it. It’s been 19 years but why am I still so angry?
It always ends with me in regret when I realize the consequences of how far I allow my feelings to materialize. It manifests in the people in my life- the same people who have shown me what it's like to be soft and gentle, warm and kind, content and alive.
I hate how anger makes me feel.
I start to feel it in my heart,
and then in my throat,
and then it wells up into my eyes,
and then I catch my cheeks stained with tears.
It taints not only my mind and my soul but also my eyes- these very eyes that have seen so much love poured on to me by these people.
I guess I'm just a violent dog that doesn't know why it bites- just does.
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Origin: Greek Mythology
Symbol: The Ram
Quality: Cardinal
Element: Fire
Colour: Red, Blood Red, Midnight Black, Armor Silver
Metal: Iron, Steel, Bronze, Brass, Copper, Silver, Gold, Lead, Mercury
Crystal: Bloodstone, Red Jasper, Carnelian, Red Agate, Hematite, Black Obsidian, Pyrite, Garnet, Ruby, Red Tiger's Eye, Red Calcite, Mahogany Obsidian, Red Aventurine, Fire Agate
Fruits: Cherries, pomegranates, strawberries, raspberries, red apples, watermelon, passionfruit, dragonfruit, cranberries, guava, tomato, fig, plum, apricot, red currants, currants
Vegetables: Red bell peppers, chili peppers, beets, radishes, tomatoes, carrots, red cabbage, red onions, red potatoes, red kale, red Swiss chard, red lettuce, red spinach, red mustard greens, red beans
Flower: Tulip, poppy, red rose, hollyhock, anemone, amaryllis, geranium, carnation, sweet pea, marigold, hibiscus, dahlia, daisy, gladiolus, ranunculus, red camellia
Herb: Basil, cayenne pepper, ginger, garlic, nettle, thistle, coriander, lemongrass, mustard, pink peppercorn, wormwood, vervain, calendula, rue, dragon's blood resin
Animal: Ram, wolf, hawk, eagle, shark, badger, lynx, vulture, crocodile, warthog, scorpion, bull, cobra, panther, hyena
Number: 1
Day: Tuesday
Season: Spring
Time of day: Sunrise
Anatomy: Head, face, eyes, muscles
Key word: Courage
Key phrase: "I am a warrior of the spirit."
Moon phase: Full Moon
Musical note: D
Tarot: The Emperor
Tool: Spear
Spell type: Protection
Offerings:Red wine or blood-red wine to symbolize vitality and bravery.
Freshly sharpened weapons or replicas as a symbol of warfare.
Spicy foods, as Ares was associated with the heat of battle.
Olive oil, a symbol of peace and victory.
Red roses or other red flowers to represent passion and strength.
Frankincense incense to purify and honor the deity.
Ares figurines or statues for his representation.
Honey, as it was believed to be an offering to appease the gods.
Pomegranates, a symbol of fertility and life force.
Bay leaves, which were associated with victory in ancient Greece.
Offerings of meat, such as lamb or goat, to represent strength.
Myrrh resin, often used in ancient rituals and associated with deities.
Red candles to invoke the fiery aspect of Ares.
A spearhead or other warrior-related artifacts.
A prayer or poem expressing your admiration and respect for Ares.
Signs:A sudden surge of courage or confidence when facing challenges.
Dreams or visions of battle or warlike scenes.
Finding or receiving gifts related to warfare, such as a weapon or armor.
Seeing red objects or colors more frequently, as red is often associated with Ares.
Feeling a strong connection to historical or mythological warriors and heroes.
Increased interest in martial arts, combat sports, or military history.
Hearing or encountering stories, songs, or poems related to war and valor.
A feeling of inner strength and determination during tough times.
Noticing signs of conflict resolution or justice happening around you.
Repeated encounters with symbols of Ares, such as his name or imagery.
Birds of prey, like hawks or eagles, appearing more frequently in your vicinity.
Feeling a call to stand up for a just cause or protect those in need.
A strong desire to learn about ancient Greek culture and mythology.
A sense of honor and duty becoming more prominent in your life.
Meeting individuals who share a similar interest in Ares or warrior-like qualities.
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