#are these two really 'there's only one bed'-ing im crying

[lostandbackagain]

they're just like me fr

[vanillaxoshi]

Ok the convo between Cahaya and Tok just had me crying….Ik Cahaya accepts the circle of life and death but uk it still hurts

Hey just a request can you actually tell the scenario when the brothers arrive and they see all the arrangement and a cutely sleeping Cahaya, atleast their thoughts and how overwhelmed they would be when Tok tells them that he had worked hard for their birthday and slept being tired!

It would be so cute and sweet!!!

Context

Note: this is before they went to databot

8:00 in the morning

eyes slowly open, he wonders, why is he in his room? wasnt he downstairs? when is today? he firstly took his glasses which also happens to be at the desk beside him, he sat up

he finally checked the time on his phone and realized

yesterday was their birthday. they didnt arrive that time.

all he could do was sigh and look blankly at his phone. he wonders if they're here now, if not maybe he should check up on them with the watch, if it could even reach them. He doesnt see Api, Air, nor Daun in their beds, he wouldve noticed immediately, they share the same room after all

he stood up and decide to check Petir, Tanah and Angin's room

they weren't there either.

well that checks out, they're not here-

He faces Daun, just as he was about to go down stairs

"Daun?" he spoke out with mild disbelief "i was just about to wake you up" Daun says smiling

Cahaya furrowed his eyebrows a bit, confused but relieved, all of a sudden Daun hugged him

"Thanks for preparing that huge feast for us, and dont worry we havent ate a single bite! we were waiting for you!" Daun told him, letting go of the hug he tackled him with

"you were waiting for us after all, its only right we wait for you to eat all together!!" Ruffling his hair, Daun chuckles

"Thanks little brother" He says with a warm smile

"dont call me that." Cahaya softly says

Daun chuckles again, pulling Cahaya downstairs

As Cahaya finally regained his footing from being pulled down to the kitchen, He sees his brothers prepping up the table, the cake in the middle has had the Candles rearranged, the plates and food lined up.

he was then, greeted with more bearhugs, this time from Api, Angin and Tanah. "HEY STOP IM BEINGSQUISHED HERE!!"

"Haha sorry, thats just a big thank you for all of this" Angin laughed

"aww you still have your heart despite all that darkness in it" Api teased

"sorry we didnt come earlier and celebrated on our actual birthdate, but we'll make up for it right now, wha'd you say we blow the candles now?" Tanah calmly spoke out

"i got the camera ready!!" Ochobot cheered out

"I've got the lighter" tok Aba said as he came in the room

"OH! Atok let me do it!!" Api exclaims point ing at himself while approaching the old man, but before Atok could reply tanah had already grabbed Api by his shirt and pulled the flailing Api away

Cahaya let out a snort watching the entire scenario

he was called by Daun to sit down by the cake, he smiled brightly running up to him.

the candles are lit each by color, as every year, the way they blew their candles are one by one

"one!" Petir shouted before blowing his yellow Candle

"two!" Angin shouted before blowing his purple Candle

"three!" Tanah shouted before blowing his brown Candle

"four!" Api shouted before blowing his red Candle

"Five!" Air shouted before blowing his blue Candle

"six!" Daun shouted before blowing his green Candle

"seven!" Cahaya shouted before blowing his white Candle

After that they shout altogether"HAPPY BIRTHDAY" before they would start eating.

Cahaya smiled brightly, he enjoys everything about this. It lofted his entire spirit from yesterday

It might not be their actual birthdate but, theyre here, as long as theyre here. Hes fine.

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"We havent really spending that much time with you lately." Petir spoke up walking towards the glasses wearing boy

"you think?" replied Cahaya

"sorry" Cahaya was caught off guard by that reply, usually, Petir would be mad by his snarky remarks or tone

"we'll make it up to you, i heard there would be a mission we would be involved in. After some thinking, and talking with tanah, We'll let you be involved in missions, physically." Petir spoke in such a soft spoken way, when he looked at Cahaya, he saw what he expected, what he wont admit he missed,

A big bright smile and glowing eyes that reminded him of the boy who would always love to share everything with them

"Really??" Cahaya says in full ecstasy

Petir nodded, Cahaya immediately hugged Petir, Petir could only so return it back. "I promise you." Petir says

As they let go, Petir kept the conversation going "since your the 'informant' of tapops or smth... Can you tell me something about tapops? Spill their dark secrets to me." He knugged the boy with his elbow as he continues to kid around

"sorry, Even to family members thats classified!" Cahaya teased as he ate his cake

"oh really, shame." Petir chuckled as he replied

"what about space?"

"really?"

"go ahead"

"Well, did you know space is above or below negative 400 Fahrenheit?"

"that's cold"

"according to some information Tapops had recorded, some froze almost immediately just by stepping out to space unprotected"

"mhm"

"well by our earth recordings, it is negative 400 degrees Fahrenheit, but i think the tempeture is written differently in a book from Tapops, i dont know what it is so i guess i'll have to research more about it"

The conversation went out long, through all of Cahaya's ramblings, Petir never once looked bored, infact he stops Cahaya time to time by asking questions, and Cahaya would happily answer them

The conversation would only fully stop once Atok called the brothers in to create a video to send to their father

"HI ABA!!!"

"We turned 15 yesterday!!!"

"we were late and a bunch but Cahaya fixed up something for all of us!!"

"wish your here aba!!"

They continued for the next hour or so talking about anything to the video, sadly the video had reached its limit and they had to stop. The rest of the day was calm relaxation few events, like kokotiam coming in with presents and the septuplets opening them up with little banters and teasing

They all decided to sleep together in the living room that night, they slept peacefully

[lordoftablecloths]

vent post i guess i dont know i just wanted to write stuff down instead of just go ing to bed and crying over it you can just scroll past it

im fine im sane im noramal im so unbleiveably cringe ,, the only person i have irl- fuck, or even online for that matter- to show the dumbass things i write is my silly little dumbass younger brother who doesn;t understand what im trying to get at and i guess its not his fault, i seriously doubt he's spent unhealthy amounts of time making various short scenerios in his head about charcters he came up with and eventually trying to give them a story and write little things about them in google docs because where else am i supposed to put this and its just ,, he doesnt know wht im trying to do and i dont know how to explain it to him because the "history" i gess behind it is so fucking complicated by now that these characters arent even the same characters as they were when i originally created them, other than some physical attributes and their names and he just knows them as the random cringe shit i made up in middle school but so many years have passed by now that these stupid fuckers whose only purpose to serve is to make me stop remembering that i exist and ive gotten too attatched to them because who else was i supposed to get attatched to when i was going through an identity crisis at the time- and, quite frankly, still fucking am- and it was so much easier to pretend i dont exist and just project my flaws and insecurities and underlying subconcsious thoughts into these charactes that no one knows about except me and oh god im just created a long ass vent post on tumblr that no one's going to read and no one understands the story behind fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck whatever ill go ahead and post this unfinished thing because no one's going to get it either way ill probably delete it later if it doesnt get buried under reblogs

dont think too much about this i just got sad because my brother was giving me a bunch of criticism on an outline of a story i was working on- which is fair, i need to take criticism- but he only knows the characters in it as their semi-formed cringe versions so i chickened out half way and now i feel bad because i was really proud of this thing for the whopping span of like one day before i decided to show it to another human person instead of letting it rot away inside of me like i usually do and now i feel bad about my writing skills

im trying so hard to just take his words with a grain of salt because this kid does not have nearly as much experience with writing as i do, but i feel like im copying too many of my inspirations (DnD, generic fantasy story about defeating evil creature, silly tropes, etc,,) which sucks because that was just like the first two pages of the outline and theres nine fucking pages and like the second half of it was what i put the most effort into and i felt like the ideas were really origianl but i could make myself let him naturally get to that part of the outline because i was starting to feel really bad and wieerd and oh god he is looking at ideas i havent ever expressed to another human person even though i am very familaiar with because i came up with them and they havebeen in my head for at least a year or two by now and have been haunting me ever since so instead of skipping ahead to the parts that were really good in my opinion but would have made no sense without context i just told him to piss off i gues s

i dont know. i feel dumb. i feel stupid. ive put so much effort into this stuff and the concept that ive been wasting my time feels like too heavy of a weight to handle. god none of this porbobably nmakes any sense ,,,,,,,,, i guess this is why i feel miserable when the fanart and shitpost memes i post get a comically larger audience and attention than the art relating to my silly goofy ocs, because these stupid fucking characters are all thats keeping me going . call me cringe, but is it still cringe if the concept that maybe i too can be around people that love me and instead of having to like me in spite of my faults love me for them keeps me from fucking killing myself is it still cringe?

if a tree falls in a forest and no one's around, does its fall even make a sound? (shit piss fuck sorry i dont remember the original quote and all i can remember is tha t one line from that one musical i dont remember what it was)

if an autistic moron that cant even talk to a cashier without having a panic attack makes a universe full of fictional characters of his own cfreation then an alternate universe, then several alternate universes, then a spin off from that original universe and etc etc but its all just on google fucking docs and no where else except deleted excerpts from a dead wattpad account, did he ever even create anything at all?

its pointless. its all so fucking pointless. its a waste of time. why do i do this at all. its so fucking pointless. it makes no fucking sense. you cant just make a story with characters in it, then make a fucking fantasy au of that universe with the same characters but with different designs and wildly different personalities and then make a whole fucking complicated lore-filled story about the fantasy au version while the original universe's story is still left mostly unfinished like forget about a first draft of the text i havent even finished the first ddraft of the outline yet buckarooooooo

okay fuck you guys thats all i want to tell you im going to go pretend to myself to try to go to sleep and then cry now

[maybe-sixth-times-the-charm]

hi, baby.

this week, we had our first real fight in quite some time. (a few weeks ago, i remember crying on the phone, trying to catch my breath, and you begging for us to stop fighting because those were the only kind of relationships you'd seen growing up and you didn't want to be one of them. i decided uss din that i wasn't going to fight with you. we were going to be the good kind of relationship and then we didn't fight for days. you and i both let some things go. it felt nice to be doing something right :)) right now, i don't care about what the fight this week was about, who said what, i genuinely don't. i just care about me lying in bed, looking at my phone buzzing with texts about you and your dream of that rainbow glass necklace on the beach and me and you pspsps-ing me and telling me that you're sorry and that you love me - and i just care about how i sobbed into my pillow for a good 6 minutes before picking up the phone to text.

it's scary, loving someone so much that the notion of not losing them is enough to make you break down.

anyways, i don't want this post to be all sad. let's talk about some more sweet things this last week off the top of my head? you told me that you missed me in the mornings when i didn't spam you and that made my day so much. you told me that the reason you loved me was because of how much I cared and your voice broke and you had tears in your eyes and I wanted to kiss them away so so much. you told me that all i had to do for u to love me was exist (which, honestly, i have genuinely felt sometimes, it's so sweet 😭)

love, for me, baby, is different than love is for you. you say that you're too secure in not losing me, and i love the candidness, but i say that i love wooing you every single day, reminding you of why you love me and the fact that I love you in every single way. it's because im secure in not losing you that i can give it my all and love you with all i have.

(i have tried to tone it down thooodasa recently, but yeah. it's not going away anywhere.)

and so maybe that's why we fight, don't we? because I'm the kind of idiot who needs appreciation when i do something nice - Not because I did it to get appreciated, but just because if I don't get it, I'm going to assume ke you didn't like it, and I'll stop. Like, I'll start these elaborate gestures of love because i want to do it but I can't keep going unless I feel like you want me to do it. and then if I see ke I should stop - i won't want to stop, because fuck it, i should get to express love however much i want if I have it inside me, right? and then i erupt. i erupt and then u erupt and then we're stuck in a tangle of sadness and misunderstandings because love, for us, is so different.

i try to understand your ways, i really do. and I'm glad for every single time you've tried to understand mine. I'm so so glad for every time you've made me feel loved. and i know it seems like I'm high maintenance sometimes, but oh, I don't think so at all. I think all I am is a sucker and a whore for feeling loved, and sometimes, baby, you can do it just with the way you look at me.

i miss touching your face for no reason.

i miss your shoulder.

fuck, i miss you.

we're far from two people who'd be "destined" to be together. we have different interests, different ambitions, and different conceptions to express love.

and yet. there's no one else I'd rather spend my college life obsessing over repeatedly, and repeatedly, and repeatedly.

yours,

in trying to understand the chronicles of us in written format ahahah, and loving you harder with each passing day,

mahima

ps. i prommy aage waale will be more pyaare, less contemplative :p

pps. thank u for doing this journal thingy with me. thank u for what u wrote. thank u for giving me something I can come back and read and cry over. thank you for entertaining another of my weirdass ideas. thank you for loving me enough to make me all andar se melty about it

[ao3writers-pls-love-me]

some chaotic Solangelo headcanons im thriving

Will "hi" and Nico "greeting" when encountering monsters

"is this coffee?", "no, Will. that's tea", "oh", "wtf are you guys talking abt thats clearly milk???"

Will menacingly stands outside of Nico's cabin, trying to ask for a date at 2:00PM

they exchange the most cheesiest letters for each other on random days and it's usually Nico's heart-felt, romantic, hit with the feels "i love you to death" and Will's short, wholesome, what is this language "you're my little pogchamp". on days, both of them read it, and on days, they are fucking done. they can never talk to each other for weeks without cringing crying yelling and dying

Nico doesn’t swear. He's the "language"-ing guy. Especially to Will

"oh sh—", "language", "—sh-shard-borne dingus! i breaky my fingy!"

Will curses a lot but with Nico he just switches it with Shakespearian insults, "Will you're a bitch", "hey! how dare you—", "oh no Nico! it's ok—", "fuck you too Nico!", "now listen here, you ubiquitous cloven-hoved special little chucklefucker, you are a, excuse me Nico, a nostalgic milk-livered wanger who would fuck maggots with his onion-eyed boner, how dare you rat bastard says those words to my loveliest significant other!", "oh that's definitely not gonna get a language from me, you go and drop those bars babe" , "WHAT THE ACTUAL FUC—???"

Nico beating up Ares kids with his bare hands and they love him for it

Will treating Ares kids like, everyday (mainly because of Nico) and they love him for it

Nico talks a lot, about things, he would go full on presentations to Will about, extremely stupid stuffs like, how cats don't eat shoes and are better than dogs but dogs give you cuddles and laugh in barks so i am conflicted and now you have to be in this crisis with me, tesoro

Nico gives Will head pats and kisses

Will gives Nico hugs and embarrassments (and kisses)

they wear each other's pajamas and enjoy their friends and siblings's horrifying faces at 6:30 in the morning

*body slamming the door* "you two ARE having the papapa!", "really Will? why didnt you tell me? i could have put down my ugly stuffed blobfish plush"

They are both needy at ungodly hours

Will is whiny when he wants affection "Nicoooooooooo..."

then there's Nico when in need of literally any kinds of comfort just, cling, onto Will's body for the rest of the day, whoever try to remove him will get their hands bit off

there are days where they put stickers on each other faces and arms and hair and be fabulous

Nico makes GODS-TIER coffees and Will could die for them

Will "sorry" and Nico "apologies/forgive me" when fighting monsters

but actually Will gives them the finger and destroys them with one of his martial-art chokes

they will both scream, at the top of their lungs, when watching scary and horror movies

that's gonna be my headcanons, they are both shit at jump-scares and gory movies. they have to hug each other and cuddle for hours with two enormous blankets and often hide in Will's bed and watch a list of Disney series marathons after one "The Conjuring"

but they still love horror movies

dudes literally gone through wars and somehow get scared by a possessed doll

Nico lowkey adores Will's dad puns

"aight, what do you call a baby ghost?", "Will, please no—", "a little boo", "*snorts* g-gods darnit..."

Nico's his little boo

(fuck why did i do that—)

when Nico's sad, he will look up to Will and his boyfriend will smile, brightly, "hi there, wookie" and Nico will chuckle, saying "hey there, cara mio" and they will hold hand, with Nico trying his hardest not to imitate Will's sweetest giggles

their relationship is at the peak where Will says something and Nico gasps at him, then continues with the "is that a Star War reference?"

it is also at the peak where someone mocks Will with, "an apple a day keep the doctor away" and Nico calmly counters with, "only if you aim it well enough" and throw an apple at that person then broke their nose

. Kayla, dramatically points to Austin: Why did the mattress...

. Austin, dramatically points to Nico:...Go to the doctor?

. Nico, sighs, "dramatically" points to the sun:...why?

. Apollo, dramatically appears, points to the ground: Because!

. Will, dramatically slides in, biting his lips: It had spring fever

. Nico:

Then the Apollo cabin cheer and fetch out their instruments, attempt to do a whole orchestra passionately

[sunlit-squid]

(simping softness prompts) could i get some “hey, everything's gonna be fine. stay where you are, i'm on my way” or “holy crap, i thought you were dead! never do that to me again!” if you are feeling so inclined? sorry im just in love w ur writing

For those who don't know, my ask box is open. Send me a simping softness prompt, and I'll write a short sbsp ficlet for you. ✰

i'm gonna do "hey, everything's gonna be fine ...", but don't you worry. i will also be doing "holy crap ..." at some point, since someone else requested it.

anyway, thanks for the prompt, and for the kind words! while we're here, i should also say that @wowthwtslame is doing a similar ficlet challenge. their writing is wonderful, so definitely check them out!

also tagging @azumeowth, who requested the same prompt!

ficlet under the cut. thanks again!

The call came in -- loudly -- at around 2 in the morning.

When Squidward rolled over to check his shell phone, the dull blue screen read, simply, “SpongeBrat”, accompanied by a vomit emoji. Sighing, the octopus put his phone on silent and went back to bed. Surely whatever it was the sponge wanted to blabber about could wait until tomorrow. After a decent night’s sleep.

Unfortunately, sleep was hard to come by. Despite having switched his phone to silent, the device’s small blue screen continued to light up repeatedly, like a small, pathetic rave. Every few seconds, the small blue light cast peculiar shadows on the walls of Squidward’s bedroom. Eventually, after thirty minutes of tossing and turning, the cephalopod grabbed his phone to shove it inside the nightstand -- when he caught a glimpse of the screen itself.

43 missed calls. 37 unread text messages. All from “SpongeBrat” Squarepants.

The phone rang again. This time, Squidward picked up.

“Spongebob, do you have any idea what time it is?” snapped Squidward, despite the uncomfortable, worried feeling growing in his stomach. “No? Well, I’ll tell you -- it is two-forty-seven --”

“I-I know, Squidward,” came a small, shaking Spongebob-voice. “I just -- I didn’t know what to do.”

Squidward paused. Well, that was … not the regular Spongebob volume. Or tone. Or pitch.

“Squ -- Squidward?” came the sponge’s soft, sad voice once more. The frycook’s voice was barely audible. There was some sort of loud, constant whooshing happening on the other end, not to mention a weird crackling noise, which made it very difficult to hear. Squidward sighed, wiping a tentacle across his eyes.

“I’m here,” said Squidward. “What’s this about, Spongebob?”

Silence. Then, crying -- and not Spongebob’s usual loud, obnoxious crying. This crying was quiet and gentle, barely decipherable against the loud whooshing on the other end of the line. Squidward sat up then, pressing the phone close to his ear.

“Sponge,” said Squidward, panic rising in his chest. “Sponge, what’s wrong?”

Spongebob sobbed something indiscernible. Then, he stammered, “I’m -- I’m hurt, Squidward. I’m hurt, and … I’m lost.”

Something funny exploded in Squidward’s chest. Before he knew it, the octopus was out of bed, scrambling for his jacket and keys. Gripping his shell phone tight, Squidward asked, “Where are you? What’s going on, Spongebob?”

On the other end of the line, Spongebob snuffled. “I got on the wrong bus,” he explained, in a shaky, uneven voice. “I -- I’m in a place called ‘Deviltown’ now, and the current is so strong, and the signal is pretty bad --” There was that distorted, crackling sound again -- followed by a few more broken whimpers.

Squidward sighed, feeling his hearts crack with every little sob. “Hey, everything’s going to be fine,” he said, stepping out the door and into the cool Bikini Bottom night. “Stay where you are. I’m on my way.”

-0-

Deviltown, it turned out, was several hours away from Bikini Bottom. Squidward’s shell phone indicated the drive not only went straight, but downward -- which was certainly a problem. Oceanic towns grew more and more dangerous the deeper you went, and Deviltown was apparently thousands of nautical leagues under the sea. Wherever Spongebob was, even the sun couldn’t reach him.

Undeterred, Squidward set off on his journey. His boat was constantly maintained, so the cephalopod was certain it could handle the perilous road ahead.

For the first hour or so, the drive was uneventful -- peaceful, even. The streets were smooth and well taken care of, which was good considering the massive tax hike this past year. Squidward even put on some Kelpy G, which certainly helped to soothe his nerves.

Later on, however, the drive got worse. The once well-maintained roads gave way to rickety rocks and slippery sand, with only a few sporadic road signs to get by. Moonlight became sparse, and by the time Squidward reached a vertical road, he had his brights all the way up -- and was still struggling to see.

A nearby rickety sign read “Deviltown, 10 nautical miles downward.” Peering down into the deep abyss, Squidward gulped. Despite his headlights, he still couldn’t see a thing -- just a vast expanse of open blackness.

A tight feeling wound itself around Squidward’s chest. He thought about backing up, turning around, and going straight home. This was ridiculous. Why was he out here, in the wee hours of the morning, chasing after SpongeBrat Squarepants, of all people? The boy had other friends. Certainly one of them would be willing to retrieve him.

Squidward’s tentacle hovered just over the gear stick. That’s when he saw it: in his passenger seat lay Spongebob’s wrinkled little jacket. The sponge must have left it behind the other day, when Squidward (begrudgingly) drove them both home from work.

Squidward’s chest felt hollow, suddenly. He thought of how many times he’d seen Spongebob in that exact jacket over the years.

He thought of never seeing him in that jacket ever again.

Groaning, the octopus switched gears from “Drive” to “Drive, But Downward”, and puttered his way into the deep and black abyss.

-0-

The journey into the inky black was, bar none, one of the creepiest things Squidward had ever experienced. He told himself, repeatedly, that if he just stared straight ahead and focused on the task at hand, then everything would be fine. Still, hearing creepy noises in the darkness (and being unable to see where they came from) was severely unsettling.

After what felt like forever, the vertical road became horizontal once again, and Squidward finally drove into Deviltown. Luckily, the town had the decency to set up some lamp posts, possibly for out-of-towners like Squidward who were unused to the darkness. Still, the lamp posts were few and far between, and there was nobody out and about, giving Deviltown a fittingly creepy vibe nonetheless.

Tense, cold, and worried, Squidward drove further into town, squinting for Spongebob’s bright yellow body. Surely the boy couldn’t be that hard to spot -- he was likely the only vibrant thing down here. Surely --

Oh. Oh, no.

Squidward brought his boat careening to a stop. Clambering out of it, the octopus made his way over to a rickety wooden bus stop, with a flickering lamp post just overhead. On a bench nearby was none other than Spongebob Squarepants: cold, alone, and unconscious. For a moment, a horrible thought passed through Squidward’s head -- is he dead? -- before he saw the sponge’s chest rise and fall, taking slow and steady breaths.

Breathing a huge sigh of relief, Squidward looked up and down the street. No one in sight.

Gently, the octopus leaned down and shook Spongebob lightly. “Hey,” said Squidward, awkwardly. “What are you doing asleep all the way out here? We have work tomorrow, you know.”

Spongebob stirred. In the dim light, Squidward realized the sponge really was hurt -- his usually spiffy shirt and tie were ripped straight down the middle. Beyond the fabric, the sponge’s chest was badly torn up, too, and for some reason, he had not regenerated yet.

Squidward swallowed. “Spongebob?”

The sponge stirred once more. This time, his eyes opened -- and he smiled, weakly. “Squidward,” he slurred, happily. He tried to laugh, then winced, clutching at his stomach and chest. “Squidward, it’s you … you came … ”

“Of course I came,” muttered Squidward, before he could stop himself. “I -- you … ugh, I hate you.”

Scooping up Spongebob, Squidward gently carried him over to the boat, positioning him carefully in the passenger’s seat. The sponge fussed a little about being buckled in, but otherwise, seemed too out of it to complain properly. Taking a deep breath, Squidward got back behind the wheel and started the engine.

“Heheh,” chuckled Spongebob as the boat roared to life. “Vroom-vroom.”

Squidward rolled his eyes and began turning the boat around, back towards Bikini Bottom. “We’re going home now,” he said, with a sigh. “You need to see a doctor for … whatever it was that happened to you.”

Spongebob simply nodded, then fell to his side, leaning all of his body weight on Squidward as he drove. The octopus felt warmth rising to his cheeks, and for once felt grateful for the murky blackness of the ocean void.

Spongebob was mumbling something.

“What is it?” said Squidward. “Are you okay?”

“I …uh … love you, Squidward,” said Spongebob, in a very loopy voice. “I love your big nose, and your paintings, and I wanna … get married, someday. Okay? Can we get married, someday?”

Squidward’s entire face was bright red now. It took everything in him not to just veer in a random direction and crash the entire damn boat. Taking a deep breath, the octopus collected himself. Spongebob was just severely injured, and loopy as a result. He didn’t really mean any of this.

Squidward decided to play along. “Yeah,” he said. “Yeah, we can get married.”

“Mm,” said Spongebob, chuckling softly. “Can I -- can I wear a dress?”

“Sure,” said Squidward. “Whatever you want.”

“And you’ll … and you’ll kiss me?”

“Mhm,” mumbled Squidward.

“And I can … listen to you play the clarinet around the house … and, and paint with you … and watch your soaps with … you … ”

Squidward looked over. The sponge had fallen asleep, and was snoring loudly. Which was … good. Very good. Excellent, even. That way, they couldn’t talk about marriage or love or any of that absolute nonsense. Now they could just drive forward in sweet silence.

Still, Squidward found himself dwelling over Spongebob’s words far more than he would have liked.

About an hour into the drive home, the octopus glanced over at the sponge, still fast asleep beside him. Fixing his gaze forward, Squidward took a deep breath, clutching the steering wheel in a tight death-grip.

“Spongebob, I …,” Squidward began, shakily. “I love you. I love you, I love you.”

Squidward found that once he started saying it, he couldn’t stop. The words felt good in his mouth, like a massive weight had finally been lifted off his chest.

“I love everything about you,” said Squidward, his three hearts exploding inside his chest. “Your annoying laugh, your stupid singing, all of it. I want to read with you, and garden with you.”

Squidward hesitated, his words floating out into the open water.

“I love you,” said Squidward, one last time. “And I … I don’t know what to do about it. Maybe I’m a coward. I’m sorry.”

Squidward looked over. Spongebob was still fast asleep, snoring away against his arm -- but the smallest of smiles had appeared on his face.

-0-

Squidward woke up in the hospital, seated in a chair next to Spongebob’s hospital bed. The poriferan was wide awake, watching an episode of Mermaid Man and Barnacle Boy on the hospital television. Of course.

The sponge turned. “Squidward!” he exclaimed, his voice loud and back to normal. “You’re awake!”

“Unfortunately,” muttered the octopus. “How are you feeling?”

“Great!” chirped Spongebob. “Better than ever, actually -- but the doc says I should stick around for a little while, just in case.”

Squidward glanced down. Sure enough, Spongebob’s chest had almost fully regenerated. Thank Neptune. When they arrived at the Bikini Bottom General Hospital early that morning, Spongebob was still in rough shape. The doctor said Spongebob most likely had a run-in with a deep-sea predator, and the attack was too quick and too constant for the poriferan to regenerate. Not to mention there were several lacerations to his vital organs.

Still, sponges were pretty sturdy folk -- and all Spongebob really needed was a long rest in a controlled environment.

Squidward breathed a huge sigh of relief. “Great,” he said, awkwardly. “I, uh. Pay attention next time you get on the bus, alright? So I don’t have to come running after you.”

Spongebob laughed. “Okey-doke.”

The two then sat together in silence for an uncomfortable amount of time. All the while, Squidward wondered if perhaps his stupid, impulsive, not-really-a-love-confession-confession had actually gotten through to Spongebob. His hearts twisted up at just the thought.

“Hey, Squidward?”

The octopus looked up, and was very surprised to find splotches of red decorating the sponge’s cheeks.

“What?” said Squidward.

“My, uh, sea flowers have been dying lately,” said the sponge, scratching the back of his head awkwardly. “Maybe you could come by and we could share some gardening tips?”

A brilliant red blush planted itself on Squidward’s face. Then, he cleared his throat, and folded his arms across his chest. “Only if we get to watch a soap afterwards.”

Spongebob grinned. “Deal.”

Squidward found himself grinning, too, despite himself. “Deal.”

References:

“Deviltown” is loosely based off of the Devil Sea, near the Japanese coast.

I will likely be compiling these ficlets into one combined fic on ao3. I originally wasn't going to, but I definitely didn't expect so many requests. So keep an eye out for that, at some point.

[haleigh-sloth]

now im curious about ur near death by cow experience

It was Thanksgiving 2014 and my family and I went to my grandparents' house for the holiday. They owned about 400 acres of land and there was a separate 400 acres of land behind them that belonged to their neighbors. THAT is where the cows were.

My mom, brother, aunt (and her 3 month old baby), and I all got bored and we went for a walk down into the woods, and it was a pretty far walk back there.

Basically what happened was we passed one giant herd of cows and they weren't bothered by us because the cows are used to people walking all up in their space. We walked further back into the woods and came upon the creek back there where the momma cows and their babies were. Big mistake.

We saw the creek and said "alright it's time to turn around". So we started walking, and at this point ALL of the cows were staring us down. And this is exactly how this went down:

I look over my shoulder and see one cow slowly walking behind us. No biggie.

I look over my shoulder again and see like, five or six cows walking toward us. I tell my mom and aunt that we should probably walk a little faster.

I turn around again, and ALL OF THE COWS WERE RUNNING AT US. I'm talking lion king antelope stampede style running at us.

So naturally we freaked out and ran into a cow pen that had three gates, and the only way for the cows to get to the other side of the pen was to run through the woods surrounding the area. So we closed one gate and thought we were in the clear and could walk out the other side, but then suddenly we hear loud crackling sounds and we see the tops of small trees dropping and DISAPPEARING because these angry cows were stampeding through the woods on a quest to kill us. Taking trees down in the process. So we end up closing the other two gates to the cow pen and--we are stuck. And these cows just surrounded the cow pen and stared us down and it was terrifying. You will not win a staring contest with a cow. And to make it worse they started moo-ing and that first herd of cows we passed up without a problem started coming this way, so basically they were calling for reinforcements.

We were freaking OUT. My 3 month old cousin didn't give a fuck because, he was 3 months old. My aunt was a little nervous but more worried about keeping her kid from crying. My brother climbed a tree that was in the cow pen to avoid death by hamburger. I was panicking and my mom was trying to get a hold of someone at the farm lmao.

We called my grandma and it felt like hours but honestly it was only like 20-30 minutes of waiting. We see her driving up the hill in her truck with a shot gun hanging out the window and she was laughing her ass off. We rode in the bed of the truck back to the farm and when we arrived everyone was laughing really really hard at us.

It was honestly terrifying like I thought we weren't gonna make it out alive lmao but now we all just laugh. And I am skeptical around cows now. I keep my distance when they're in the vicinity lol.

[btsslowburnfic]

BTBY Chapter 13

Series Summary: For Namjoon, the moment he set his sights on being the #1 rapper, he pushed the symbol to the side and hated it. Love should be chosen, not forced on you. He didn’t believe in fate and this mark on his wrist was a big “fuck you” to all that.

Chapter Summary: Where the fuck is Ben?

Previous Chapter here 

Namjoon wakes up with a start as he feels something kicking his foot. He looks up to see Xavier holding a tray of coffee. He rubs his face with his palm and shakes his head. “Hey.”

“Sorry, I tried just saying your name but it wasn’t working. Coffee?” He asks and holds out one of the cups.

“Yes, thanks.” He takes the cup and looks over to see you’re still sleeping.

“Any updates?” Xavier asks as he sits two coffee cups on the side table. 

“No. They brought a doctor in to show her the skull xrays and then she passed out. Anything on your end?”

Xavier takes a deep breathe in, sitting on the window ledge. “Yeah, I went to their apartment. I have a key because you know, best friend,” he gestures to himself. He pauses and looks over at your sleeping form to make sure that you are really out of it before he proceeds. He lowers his volume slightly and looks over ta Namjoon. “And Ben is nowhere to be found. The shower was wet though so he definitely went home and showered. Their car is gone and he’s ghosting me, Gina, and Joe.” 

“Wow. What a dick.”

“Yeah, well Ben and I aren’t on the best of terms anyway so yes, I agree with you a million percent. I just don’t know what I’m going to say to [y/n] when she wakes up asking about it.” He sips his coffee and then gets his phone out.

Namjoon takes out his phone to check any messages he may have gotten in his sleep. He has several from the other members and their manager. 

[Tae]: ok. I’ll fly out tonight. Are you feeling better now that she’s awake?

[Manager Sejin]: That’s fine. We understand.  Just lay low and we’ll sort it. I booked the hotel for the rest of the week. Lmk if you need longer.

[Jin]: Im gOiNg To GeT My SOulMarK rEmOvEd -_- 

[JHOOOOOOPE]: Are you feeling better now? Tae says you are staying there for a while. BE NICE.

[JIMINISSI]: We miss you. Take care.

Namjoon sends replies to everyone except Jin. And then scrolls through social media.  

“I’m ordering non-hospital food. Do you want anything?” Xavier asks, breaking the silence.

“No. I’m fine. Thanks. I think I’ll head over to the hotel and nap if you’re going to stay here?” He says getting up out of the chair.

“Yeah. I’ll be here until around 2 and then Rafael is going to stop by. Just wait a minute, I’m going to ask the nurse if [y/n] can eat food from out or not.” Xavier says not waiting for an answer as he exits the room.

Namjoon walks over to your bed and covers your foot that you’ve kicked out from under the sheet. The pressure cuffs are still on your legs, preventing blood clots. He feels guilty once again that he had been so selfish when you were lying here with so many tubes and devices stuck to you. He decided last night he will make it up to you. Somehow. As much as he can in the next few days.

He walks over to the hospital table and takes out the small memo pad and writes down his phone number with a note.  “I’ll be back this afternoon. If you need something before then: xxxxxxxxxx” He puts it on your bedside table underneath the coffee cup.

Xavier walks back in. “Two breakfast burritos on their way. Yesss.” He says, satisfied with his breakfast order. “Did anyone say how long she might have to stay here?” 

“No. I think she’s getting her legs evaluated today.” Namjoon responds as he packs up hs phone charger and puts his trash into the small bin.

“Thanks for coming RM. And more importantly for staying. I know you didn’t really want any of this,” Xavier gestures to the whole area. 

“Call me Namjoon. And how long have you known about…” he pauses not sure how to word it. “Me and [y/n] being soulmates?”

Xavier laughs, “Uh since day one. Best friend, remember?” he says dryly. He looks towards the door, making sure the three of you are the only ones in the room. “I also know about your extracurricular activities.”

Namjoon feels his face grow a little red. 

“Your secret is safe with me.” Xavier pauses for a moment. “So. When are you flying out?”

“I think I’ll stay for the rest of the week. I’m still not really up to performing yet, and also I want to stay and make sure she gets better.” 

Xavier raises his eyebrows at this but doesn’t say anything. “Ok. Well then I guess I’ll see you around then?”

“Yeah, see you,” Namjoon responds as he leaves the room to go see Tae before the younger man flies out.

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You wake up to sunlight streaming into your room. Fuck your head still hurt. But your arms feel much less stiff today, you noticed as you slowly started to wake up more. You blink the sleep out of your eyes and smelled coffee. YEsssss you thought. It had been forever. Well maybe a week. And you were unconscious for a lot of it, but you were still excited. You wiggle your body into a more seated position and use the bed remote to raise you. You saw the coffee cup next to your bed and reached for it, and also saw a note with a coffee ring. You pick it up and read it. Namjoon’s number? Wow, you think as you took out your phone and added the contact. 

“Hey babe,” you hear Xavier’s voice and look over towards the doorway. He’s holding a bag of food and is once again your favorite person in the world.

“Hey. Sorry for yelling at you yesterday.” You say. You felt super embarrassed as you remember all the yelling and crying you did yesterday.

“No worries. You got hit by a car. I freak out when they get my coffee order wrong,” Xavier commiserates as he walks closer. “The nurse said you can have real food. Do you want some?”

“Yes. Absolutely.” you respond immediately, your stomach growling and aching. You had eaten a few crackers yesterday but didn’t want to push your luck. Today though, you were ravenous. Xavier walks closer and tosses a burrito onto your lap. HE is dreading the question he  knows you are going to ask him so he stalls.

“I talked to Namjoon a bit this morning. He seems a lot nicer.”

You are chewing your burrito as you nod your head, “Yeah. I guess so. He was nicer to me yesterday too. Weird. And, he gave me his number.” You hold up the piece of paper.

“Honey that’s nothing, I’ve been texting him for days.” Xavier teases you as he bites his burrito.

You laugh, covering your mouth full of food. “Such a brat. Thanks for the food.”

“Of course,” he responds.

You check your phone to see if you have any messages from Ben. Nothing.

[Y/N]: Are you ok? I’m worried about you.

You send the message off. “Have you heard from Ben?” You ask Xavier. You can tell by his shift in body posture that he hasn’t.

“No.”

There’s more to it….”Did you go to the apartment?”

“I did. He had been there and showered, but he was gone by the time got there.”

You feel knots in your stomach. “What if he’s been in an accident or something?”

Xavier can’t help but feel annoyed. If Ben would just answer his fucking phone you two wouldn’t be here worrying about his stupid ass. 

“He probably just needed to clear his head or something. If we haven’t heard from him in a while we can call jails and hospitals.” Xavier says nonchalantly.

You felt nauseous at the thought of your fiance being in either one of those places. You put your burrito down, suddenly unable to finish it. 

“You gotta eat [y/n] even when your boyfriend sucks.” Xavier says flippantly.

You pout. “Fiance. And he could be in trouble Even if he’s busy sorting shit out in his head, it’s a lot to take in that your partner has a soulmate and didn't tell you.”

Xavier rolls his eyes, “ Yeah. Except he should be here with you, talking it through. And supporting you, you just got out of a fucking coma.”

You sigh. You and Ben’s relationship had become a point of contention between you and Xavier over the past few months. Ben had been distant while you were on your summer tour, rarely responding to your texts and almost never facetime-ing you. When you complained about it, he had called you clingy. Xavier sent you a million memes on gaslighting and toxic behavior until you got annoyed with him and told him to stop. You lowered your expectations of Ben. After all, you were the one who had decided to spend your summer traveling around the country. You were lucky to be with someone so understanding of your schedule. At least that’s what you tell yourself.

And then he didn’t pick you guys up at the airport. He forgot. Even though you reminded him several times and forwarded him the flight confirmation. The two of you waited at the airport for two hours just in case he remembered before Xavier angrily called Joe who arrived after 20 minutes. 

“See [y/n]? This is what a good boyfriend looks like.” He snidely commented to you as he walked around and hugged and kissed Joe.

“You can’t control what anyone else does babe. You can only control your reaction to it. You eating that burrito or not isn’t going to make Ben appear, but it will help you feel better.”

“Yeah,” you say and pick it back up, taking small bites to make Xavier happy. 

The rest of the morning passes quickly after that, with various doctors and nurses coming in and out, checking the screens, reading off blood counts, cognitive checks, and examining your legs. You tell Xavier to get his butt back to work, promising him that you will take care of yourself.

A cheerful woman pops in with a walker. “Hello! I’m Mandy and I’m one of the physical therapists here. We’re going to see how your legs are doing. Is that alright?” 

You nod your head. “Yeah. I’ll be glad to get these things off,” you gesture to the cuffs.

“Yes, hopefully you’ll be able to bear weight and we can work on lessening the cuff time.” She walks over and gently removes the pressure cuffs off your legs. “Now it’s been a week since you’ve usd your legs so we’re going to take it nice and slow. We don’t want you falling.”

“Ok,” you say and swing your legs over the side of the bed and gently slide down, allowing your feet to touch the hospital floor. You can tell they don’t quite feel normal, like they belong to someone else.

“Let’s just start with this. You’re going to use this and stand. Ok?” She places the aluminum walker in front of you. You nod your head and grip both sides of the frame. Holy shit she wasn’t kidding. Just standing there your body feels so heavy and foreign to you. 

“Good. Good. Just stand there for a few more seconds and then we’ll have you sit down and do that a few more times.” She makes a few notes on her tablet. 

You stand there for a few more seconds and then you see Namjoon in the doorway. “Hey,” you greet him as you take a seat on the bed.

Mandy turns and casually looks over at the doorway. And then looks again, clearly missing how hot he was the first time. You notice her eyes widen a bit as she makes eye contact with her tablet. You get second hand embarrassment and blush as well. 

“Can I come in or is this a bad time?” he asks.

Mandy clears her throat, “It’s fine with me, it’s up to you.” She says to you. “Stand up again please.”

“Sure, come in. But no making fun of me.” You say as you stand up again. You feel your joints starting to loosen up a bit this time.

“I don’t know if I can comply with those terms.” He says from the doorway. You admire how his solid frame takes up so much of the space there. 

“Yeah, well just remember if I fall it hurts you, so encouragement is encouraged.”

He laughs, “Encouragement is encouraged? Wow. And English is your first language.”

You smirk. “Go sit down and read a book or something.” 

You continue with your standing exercises for a few more minutes.

“Ok that’s all for right now, we don’t want to wear you out. Keep doing that a few times every hour and we can keep the cuffs off during the day.” She smiles at you reassuringly. “I’ll be back at 4 and we are going to do work with therabands. I’ll see you then.” 

“Great, thank you.” you respond as she leaves the walker and exits the room. “Ughhh that was so tiring.” You complain as you swing your legs back into bed and place them under the covers.

“Hey, it’s way better than yesterday.” Namjoon says from his chair by the window. 

“True. How are you feeling today?” 

“A lot better. I grabbed a nap and shower at the hotel and talked to the team.”

“When do you fly out?” 

“Trying to get rid of me so quickly?” He asks, feigning insult.

You roll your eyes, “I feel like you have a very important day job that you should get back to.”

Namjoon smiles, “I’ll leave in a week. I guess less if you kick me out.”

“No, I like having you here. You know other than the constant insults, your eye candy factor helps balance it out” You tease him and he laughs You hear a noise from the doorway. You recognize it instantly. It’s Ben clearing his throat.

“Sorry. Am I interrupting something?” NEXT CHAPTER

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[noahhernandez]

2/9/2015 v. 8/11/2020

1:Talk about the first time you watched your favorite movie. My favorite movie is Scream, and it started when I saw the midnight premier of Scream 4 with my dad back when I was in 8th grade, then Scream 1 came on AMC late on night and I just really like it

I still think Scream is one of my favorites, but Halloween has jumped up there just because I am obsessed with all things horror really lol. I started to love Halloween because of the new trilogy.

2:Talk about your first kiss. It’s really not that interesting but really like embarrassing. It was with my first boyfriend and I had just turned 15 and we were at the school just walking around and we went into the band hall and I was like ok im leaving and he was like wait and we kissed and i was like o

the same ! 

3:Talk about the person you’ve had the most intense romantic feelings for. I never really have had intense feelings for anyone. I d k

One my exes- I mean we were dating for awhile so that’s pretty intense to me. 

4:Talk about the thing you regret most so far. I regret… Nothing really I mean, I have done really bad things in my life, but i don’t regret them

I regret failing like 2 semesters of college lmao and almost dropping out. If i didn’t then I would 1- would have been done earlier and 2- would have already completed a year of grad school but IDK also another is wasting lots of money in 2017-2018

5:Talk about the best birthday you’ve had. The best birthday I’ve had was.. Idk This year was was nice I saw Iggy Azalea in concert, then I celebrated my friends’ birthday then mine and it was just everyone got to get together so ya this year my 18th

For my 21st birthday I went to Portland, Oregon and spent the weekend there and it was pretty and my first time there so it was nice despite what I think about PDX now. I don’t even know what I was doing for my 19 and 20th birthday lol. 

6:Talk about the worst birthday you’ve had. My 17th birthday because I was stuck 2 hours away from home with a bunch of nerds doing a band competition 

That is still probably my worst birthday. I forget to mention that I was gone literally from like 7am to midnight. They werent a bunch of loser nerds, they were my friends, but I still wish I was just at home lol. 

7:Talk about your biggest insecurity. I am skinny, but not fit. If I eat anything I get this like stomach and it makes me so sad. and ever since I got a job I work odd hours and I eat a lot of fast food and I’ve gained 10 pounds in 2 years and I guess i’m insecure about my weight

I am still insecure about my weight, and I probably weight like 5 pounds more than I did when I made this post 5 1/2 years ago. 

8:Talk about the thing you are most proud of. We have band banquets for band, and I only went my sophomore and junior year, and seniors give out awards to underclassmen that are just jokes really, and both years 4 different seniors gave me an award for being the biggest gossip in the entire band and I was proud of that lol

Well since then I have graduated both high school and college. I am proud that I finished college !! A BS in Psych. Proud of myself that I got promoted (in 2017) at my job; i’m proud of myself that I have my own apartment, and blah blah basically just doing regular adult shit. 

9:Talk about little things on your body that you like the most. I like my nose because of how perfectly fixed it is. I also really like my freckles/moles/dark marks idk what they are exactly, but they’re on my face and they look great

I still feel the same way about this, maybe add my eyebrows- they’re not like clean and nice they’re just expression markers on my face that i love.

10:Talk about the biggest fight you’ve ever had. I got into a fight with my old friend Angelica and that was almost 4 months ago and we used to be best friends and now we never talk.

When Janett didn’t talk to me all summer of 2019 because I told our other friend Angel something

11:Talk about the best dream you’ve ever had. I cant remember one 12:Talk about the worst dream you’ve ever had. I can’t remember one

13:Talk about the first time you had sex/how you imagine your first time. The closest thing i’ve had to like sex was being locked in a back of an SUV with a stranger drunk as fuck and naked and its embarrassing

Just awkward and nothing to which I expected. 

14:Talk about a vacation. When I was 16, the high school band took a trip to Hawaii, and all my friends were in band so it was great. We did a lot of things, we toured Pearl Harbor and even played a few patriotic songs on the USS Miss. and our hotel was on Wakiki beach. I went snorkeling in some beautiful water and shit and idk just walked all around Hawaii having a great time omg we got on stage at the Hard Rock Cafe and sang with German people i miss it

Hm that was fun. But I.. went to NY with my ex and that was pretty cool because I literally love New York, and I went to NOLA two years ago (today actually) and got miserably drunk so that was fun too 

15:Talk about the time you were most content in life. Probably just in the middle of junior year when everything and everyone was going with the flow

I feel like 2016 was a very content year because I remember nothing about it. 

16:Talk about the best party you’ve ever been to. Idk which one to talk about the one where I had a lot of fun and risked my life or the one where there was a lot of drama stirred up and drank myself to sadness. 

I haven’t really been to a party? I have gone out and had good times. Really anytime my friends and I go out I am having a good time 

17:Talk about someone you want to be friends with. I am already friends with people I want to be friends with

18:Talk about something that happened in elementary school. I kissed a boy on the back of the head and i told I just fell onto his head

Let me think of another one. Back in like fourth grade my friend was in a wheel chair and his backpack was falling from the back and I was trying to grab it and i was only 3 feet tall i couldnt see over or wasnt paying attention and i crashed him right into the bookshelves at the library. 

19:Talk about something that happened in middle school. A girl was mad at me because idk why lol and she pushed me in the hall way and I fucking flew across that hall on the floor and hit the wall she’s pregnant now

When I was in 5th grade (which is considered middle school in my district) I was standing on the play ground and someone threw a stick at my head and it knocked me the fuck out and I was bleeding from my temple.

20:Talk about something that happened in high school. In Jr. Year I was pulling into the parking lot but I was texting and I accidentally put half my car on grass area near the side walk luckily it was 7am and only one person saw me do it lol

One summer going into our senior year we had a party at Michelle’s house. First of all we were very drunk and Coby’s parents were like we are coming over and we cleaned TF UP so fast and sat on the couch and turned on I Know What You Did Last Summer and his parents were like interesting and and left and then we continued to drink anyways- we started playing truth or dare and my friend Angelica was like I dare u to kiss Anthony (someone I had liked prior) and he wouldnt and we started attacking him and calling him homophobic and hitting him with pillows lmao- him and I are still friend-ish

21:Talk about a time you had to turn someone down. I can’t think of something right now.

Literally anyone on grindr.

22:Talk about your worst fear. I’m afraid of having no career and being stuck doing something I hate and living paycheck to paycheck

Yeah, I’m scared of that still but I.. think just like being broke and jobless. RN with the pandemic we aren’t really working and still getting gov’t assistance, so.  IDK being a real real adult scares me a lot. 

23:Talk about a time someone turned you down. I can’t think of a time :)

One time in like 2016 maybe idk - this dude told me to come over and he lived far like not that far maybe 25 minutes lol far for me anyways I got to his apartment and there was a gate code and i asked him what it was and he didnt answer and it was like 2-3am and nobody was coming in or out and so i was like damn this sucks lmao

24:Talk about something someone told you that meant a lot. Nothing really has meant a lot to me. Everyone tells me the same thing over and over again and its so surface level

I still can’t think of anything but I’m sure the friends I have met since this and my friends Faith, Michelle, Peter, and Alisa have said something supportive that meant a lot to me. 

25:Talk about an ex-best friend. Angelica Ramirez. She was my best friend for only 3 years, but together we went through A LOT of shit. We started out senior year just fine, but she lied about a few things and made a lot of us feel like crap in October. I won’t lie, I do miss her. We have too many memories to just forget, too many funny stories and great adventures. She helped me with too much, and sometimes I think about how I cut her out of my life and I mad a bad choice. But only time can heal things and I have moved on and truly found people that won’t make me mad every 30 seconds. 

Brianna Pajak, I don’t remember anything about her except she was poor and we stopped being friends because she always wanted to fight and be annoying. 

26:Talk about things you do when you’re sick. Lay on bed on my computer and watch TV

I normally just suffer and cry about wishing I was healthy again.

27:Talk about your favorite part of someone else’s body. Their…!!>>>??? 

I must have nice hands and ur nose must be nice too! so nose and hands. lol

28:Talk about your fetishes. none

yeah I don’t have any lol not that I can think of. 

29:Talk about what turns you on. Idk i really like kissing and touching and this is awkward. 

30:Talk about what turns you off. bad breath by

that and ugly/rough hands, acne sorry i know it is natural but, shorter than me lol, white people, long hair on guys, and thats about it i think hm i am single yes 

31:Talk about what you think death is like. I think its like idk its scary tho

um idk i dont like thinking about death because i literally want to cry when i think about it. 

32:Talk about a place you remember from your childhood. I remember being in trees a lot

My step grandma’s a lot because my parents were working and she would watch us. She passed away about a month ago :( 

33:Talk about what you do when you are sad. I usually only tell one person and that person is Alisa and I cry sometimes to her and expect her to make things better and she does thank u

I be doing the same thing, I text someone and that person could really be anyone but it happened the other day and I texted Bri and she was very helpful. 

34:Talk about the worst physical pain you’ve endured. I have no idea, I’ve never broken pulled strained twisted fractures or anything i have no life

I still haven’t done any of that stuff to my body. I also have burn scars but I did not feel those when it was happening. I would just say i guess my wisdom teeth coming in because I did not get them removed. I have 3 out lol.

35:Talk about things you wish you could stop doing. Pushing potential love interests away 

I have had some ‘love interests’ since this post, but it’s been about a year now since and I kind of push away the opportunity of getting close to someone. I also need to stop being a bitch sometimes. 

36:Talk about your guilty pleasures. eating 

I would say idk eating was a stupid answer. 

37:Talk about someone you thought you were in love with. never

I was in love and i didn’t ‘think’ I was in love. I don’t know what you mean by talk about them, they were my partner but we broke up hehe.

38:Talk about songs that remind you of certain people. Fireflies by Owl City reminds me of my 7th grade crush Fancy by Iggy Azalea reminds me of my two friends Michelle and Alisa idk anything else

um Idk. i rly cant think  39:Talk about things you wish you’d known earlier. I wish I would have known that

That it’s okay to tell people you’re struggling lol . That is okay to fail sometimes (school).  40:Talk about the end of something in your life. everything is just about to start

When I ended how to get away with murder I wish I never did I love that show with all my heart. 

[danurso]

Bleiss: *walks in* hey there darling.

Jaune: hey, what's up?

Bleiss: *grins pulling out a pair of handcuffs* tell me darling, do you wanna play the rape game?

Jaune: . . . . . . . . .yes.

Bleiss: that's the spi- wait what?

Jaune: i said yes.

Bleiss: you're supposed to say no!

Jaune: why?

Bleiss: cause i can't rape you if you're willing.

Jaune: really? *chuckles* sorry then.

Bleiss: *pouts and crosses her arms, turning her back to him*

Jaune: *gets up* come on, are you going to get angry with me? don't you wanna play the rape game?

Bleiss: no.

Jaune: *grins* that's the spirit.

Bleiss: wait, wha-

Jaune: *grabs her and pins her down on the bed, handcuffing her hands on the bed frame* so? Ready to start?

Bleiss: *blushing* you tricked me darling.

Jaune: i know. But what's the matter my fallen angel? Your face is all red, it's not like you at all.

Bleiss: . . .

Jaune: *gets down, whispering on her ear* could it be that you like to be tied and pinned down like this?

Bleiss: *blushes more but gives him a defiant smile* just wait for it darling, when i get out of here i'll get even.

Jaune: bold of you to assume i'll let you get away. Don't forget this game only ends when i say it ends. *takes off his shirt*

Bleiss: *with her eyes glued on him and giving him a hungry look* oh dear, what am i going to do now? I am only an innocent and defenceless girl, i can't do anything to stop this handsome and sexy man from having his way with me.

Jaune: good thing you're already aware of that, and don't even try and cry for help, your treatment is only going to get rougher if you do.

Bleiss: *grins* then i'm going to scream a lot.

Jaune: then i'll have stuff something between your lips before you can scream, either that or i can stuff your other lips in a way that you won't be able to think about a single coherent words, even less cry out for help.

Bleiss: *shivers, biting her lower lip* oh my, i can't decide which one of the two is better.

Jaune: don't worry about that, the only one who makes the decisions here is me.

Bleiss: oh right, i forgot. *with an sarcastic and sultrily tone* Just whatever you decide to do, please just don't fuck my brains out as hard as you can darling, and please don't make my mind a total mess only able to think about you and all the pleasure you're giving me.

Jaune: *grins and raises an eyebrow* you don't want that?

Bleiss: absolutely not.

Jaune: then i'm sorry my fallen angel, bit that's exactly what's going to happen.

Bleiss: *rubbing her legs together with a grin and heart shaped iris* and i can't do anything to avoid it?

Jaune: no.

Bleiss: oh no, what am i going to do now? Isn't there anyone out there who can save me?

Ruby: *kicks door open* don't worry bleiss!! Im here to save you!!!

Bleiss: what!?

Ruby: *charges at jaune*

Jaune: ruby wait! We're just-

Ruby: *knocks jaune out*

Bleiss: darling!

Ruby: *phew* good thing i was passing by the corridor and heard you asking for help.

Bleiss: *with a shadow over her eyes* i. . .i. . .i. . .

Ruby: calm down, its okay now. here, give me a sec *breaks the chain with her scythe* i never thought jaune could do something like that, i thought he loved you.

Bleiss: *mumbling* i. . .na. . .ing. . .ill. . .u.

Ruby: what? Bleiss, i can't hear you.

Bleiss: i said *aura explodes in a red inferno* I'M GONNA FUCKING KILL YOU!!!!!

Ruby: *terrified* W-WHAT!? BLEISS!!! WAIT!!!

---

Yang: *walking to her dorm with blake* . . .and like, he was so cheesy about everything, do you get it?

Blake: i think ido. . .why is JNPR dorm room open?

Yang: dunno, you think there's something wrong?

Blake: let's check it and find out.

Yang/Blake: *get in front of JNPR's room*

Jaune: *unconscious*

Bleiss: *furiously choking ruby* WHY THE FUCK DID YOU HAD TO INTERRUPT US ON THE BEST PART YOU DAMN DOG!!!

Ruby: sorry!! *chokes* i didn't- *chokes* knew!!

Yang: nope, nothing out of the common.

Blake: are we going to see that movie now?

Yang: yup, just try not to get scared okay? *gets into her dorm* 

Blake: good luck with that *follows her in*

Ruby: *getting purple* someone! *chokes* help me!

[hey-hamlet]

BNHA AU Ideas : All Traitors

Also on AO3!

TL;DR:  Who is the UA traitor? Trick question, its all of 1A, Aizawa, Present Mic and All Might!

Its also a mess. 

All Traitors AU

Who is the traitor in UA? Trick question, its everyone.

every member of 1A

plus mic and aizawa

everyone thinks they are the only traitor and all for one (afo) is having the time of his  life

just popping popcorn like "yess,,,, my children,,, "

kirishima: “bakugou,,,,i have something 2 confess,,,i’m the traitor,,,i couldn’t keep it from u any longer”

bakugou: “,,,” 

the villains attack under orders not to hurt the traitor so every battle is just play fighting

bakugo in a slap fight with kurogiri

dabi and todoroki are actually duking it out because they’re the most invalid siblings-

nomu and izuku are just having fun

kami has popcorn on a stick trying to pop it on the fire

nomu is like abig dog and it only likes izuku

it getts realy territorial when other people even look at izuku

shigiraki: izuku what are you doing

izuku, hugging the nomu: hes big and warm and a very nice boy

shigaraki having war flashbacks to the time he found the nomu playin g fetch with father: “no that thing is a demon”

eventually the whole class realises they are all traitors n just have loads of fun with it

aizawa and mic are their gay villain dads too thanks

mic, on voice call with every member of 1a and aizawa during a meeting: “there’s,,,,a traitor in ua,,,,”

aizawa ugly snorts

nezu raises an eyebrow

aizawa, sweating: "my kids are too dumb to be traitors,,"

mic, quietly: "you got that right"

the villains sneak into ua with the most ridiculous costumes

shigaraki just shows up to say hello to izuku in like a hoodie and a fake mustache

izuku, pretending to swoon: "oh no!!! a villain!!! im very scared!!"

nedzu: “we had a security breach this morning. shigaraki tomura was sighted on school grounds”

aizawa, sweating: “ur a fool and a coward shigaraki doesn’t have facial hair”

nezu, who does not care abot the lives of humans: “fair enough”

vlad king: “aizawa ur class is full of villain magnets !!! they’re going to get us all killed!!”

aizawa: *insert ‘then perish’ meme*

kami is a lot smarter than he pretends to be but hes still a massive meme lord

1A begs to kill monoma cause hes so annoying

"please aizawa just him im beggging u"

they hear that one girl talking shit abt izuku and it’s just

“aizawa pls no one will miss them they mean n o t h i n g”

all might has been a villain the whole time

One for all (ofa) never rebelled

ofa's job is to take out other villain organisations n keep everything running smoothly

afo's actual goal is mostly just quirk decriminalization and the removal of a government run commercial hero industry

he wants to stay shadow ruler of japan but its no big deal honestly

so each ofa wielder gets to pick their successor to take their place as afo's public face

they have a class pet, it’s a rabbit

the rabbit was a gift from afo, its has a strength quirk and an imortallity quirk

he gives immortality quirks to the whole ass class because eternal little demons

izuku just laying in bed because he said “thanks you too” to the waiter who served him at mcdonald’s and he wants to sleep until everyone who witnessed it is dead

bakugo just storming into the room "ive seen you do so much dumb shit and you arent outliving me, so get the fuck up"

immortal gay dads aizawa and mic

aizawa just groaning "mic please its going to take 200 years for these kids to become adults, its not too late to kill me"

immmortal eri and koda

just these two little kids following izuku around like ducklings also thanks

“izuku said it was m y turn to walk the nomu >:((((“

team dads AFO and allmight

izuku is afo's favourite

bakugou in tears: “gee izuku,,,how come your our dads’ favourite:((“

“bc im not a piece of shit kacchan fuck u”

afo and allmight being really good friends thanks

nana was "killed" by afo (she died of old age happy w friends)

that whole fight afo is trying so hard not to laugh as all might spews ketchup onto him on national tv

the "rescue attempt" was something magne and spinner thought would be funny, afo and allmight dad-ing up, reminding the kids to be careful as they stage an illegal rescue attempt

the rescue squad use it as a way to strengthen their quirks

magne being a good big sis thank you

bakugou is magne’s favourite

compress n tokoyami are best buds, compress calls him his lil bro

no one likes moonfish

they arent allowed to murder until they can drink

if you cant legally create life, you can’t take it away" "dadmight thats gross" "tough shit"

bkg turns 18 first

his birthday is just gonna be a murder party huh

izuku gives him a drugged pro hero for his birthday in a box

"happy birthday kacchan! i got you backdraft!"

bakugo, crying: "this is the best gift youve ever given me,,,"

also joint bakugo/izuku present to todoroki on his birthday is just endeavour. he not even drugged he’s just hog tied on the floor

dabi just asking him to wait so he can grab some snacks

double agent hawks content 

hawks aligning himself with the villains bc he’s been pushed by society to be a hero since day one and this is the only thing he feels he has a choice in

izuku looking at him like "opposite but same"

hawks would murder for izuku

nighteye villain!!!

they never lost contact, it was all staged

nighteye is a good weird uncle that gives the best Christmas presents

[nullvoid868]

Arafef: kisses in the snow

The chilly December wind blew through the alpine forest, as giant footsteps crunched through the snow. The 156 foot tall redblood smiled gently as she cradled her seadweller matesprite Feferi in her palm.

Feferi: Aradia im glubbing FR-EEZING!!!! Why did you want to go on a date in the middle of now)(ere 38T!

Aradia: don’t you think it's gorgeous out here? the ice covered trees, the snow in your hair?

Feferi: It’s absolutely beautiful glub, but my fins are turning into icicles!!!

Aradia: hmmm... do you think some kisses would warm you up 0u0 ?

Feferi: Yes, I t)(ink that would do just the trick! 38D

Aradia slowly moved her palm up to her face, careful not to jostle her tiny lover. With Aradia's palm flush with her lips, Feferi ran forward to embrace them, as Aradia's fingers cupped around her to protect her from falling. Feferi realized that Aradia's lips were unbelievably soft as she pressed her face and hands into them. It felt like falling into a warm, freshly made bed after a long day out in the cold, and laying your head on an incredibly plush pillow. Aradia puckered her lips around Feferi's head for an even more intense kiss. Feferi's cheeks were flushed with fuchsia as she buried her face deeper between aradia's lips. As Feferi was savoring her kiss from Aradia, Aradia accidentally ended up savoring Feferi. She carelessly allowed her tongue to pass between her lips, unintentionally giving Feferi's face a small lick.

Feferi: )(e)(e, look out Aradia, you got my face all covered in saliva! 38P

Under normal kissing circumstances, getting some small tongue kisses might be expected, but things are very different when that tongue is roughly the size of a bus. Still, Feferi seemed to take it in stride, and the way she chuckled and smiled made aradia suspect that she enjoyed it. Despite this Aradia was careful to not let her tongue slip again, despite the fact that she really wanted to. As much as she didnt want to admit it to herself, Fef tasted absolutely delicious. We all know the typical 4 flavors foods come in- salty, sour, sweet, and bitter. But Feferi was best described by a flavor often forgotten, umami- the flavor of mushrooms, tomatoes, and seafood. Umami detecting tastebuds cover a larger section of the tongue than all other flavors combined, making umami one of the most powerful flavors as a result. With Aradia introduced to Feferi's delicious umami flavor she couldn't help but crave another taste of her small matesprite. Her mouth flooded with saliva as her mind flooded with thoughts of getting another lick. However, Aradia feared indulging her cravings could frighten her girlfriend. She held herself back, though her cheeks still flushed as deep red as her feelings for Feferi. After Feferi enjoyed her giant kiss a bit longer she pulled back, sat down on Aradia's massive palm, and gave her a big smile. Aradia smiled back, and the two silently communicated their love for each other as they gazed into each other's eyes. The red blooded giantess began strolling through the snow once again, leaving footprints the size of a small house behind her. Aradia gently cupped Feferi to her chest in a loving embrace. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ As Aradia strolled through the alpine landscape, she desperately tried to push the thought of how delectable Feferi was out of her head. Deep down, aradia was terrified of scaring her lover. Even though being god tier meant she could swallow Feferi and cough her up later without causing her any harm, Aradia knew she would never forgive herself if she frightened Feferi. When Aradia first met her other friends in person in SGRUB all those years ago, and they discovered the secret of her size, many of them became afraid of her, even if they tried not to show it. Aradia could recount by memory every night she stayed up crying after that, fearing that her friends thought that she was a monster. Until the fateful night on the meteor that feferi found her sobbing in her room. The sound of Aradia's cries had apparently traveled through the vents of the meteor and reached Feferi's ears. Feferi had consoled Aradia, showed her that she wasn't afraid of her, that she didn't think she was a monster! The friendship between Aradia and Feferi deepened over those three years on the meteor and blossomed into a matespriteship. When they finally arrived on Earth-c they promised each other they would spend the rest of their lives together, but Aradia often feared that she would make a careless mistake and Feferi would think she was a monster just like Aradia thought all the others did.

Aradia held Feferi a little closer to her chest as these thoughts passed through her head. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ After roughly 30 minutes of walking through the winter landscape Feferi called out to Aradia.

Feferi: Aradia, i'm cold again!! 38I

Aradia: how? I've been holding you to my chest for the past half hour!

Feferi: Ok, i'll admit, it's warm. But I want WARMER, glub!

Aradia: would some more kisses interest you?

Feferi: T)(at sounds nice...

Feferi: But I think i )(ave a better idea, glub!

Aradia Awaited Feferi's idea but only received a plethora of eyebrow wiggles. She stared at fef for a few minutes confused until fef opened her mouth and pointed in. The eyebrow wiggles intensified.

Aradia: uh.. wha..i..um

Feferi: Oh come on, don't bother playing coy, i know you liked it when you got a taste of me earlier, and )(onestly who could blame you? 38P

Aradia's heart was pounding out of her chest, and yet she really didn't know why. Feferi had just told her that WANTED to indulge her craving, but Aradia still felt scared and embarrassed.

Feferi: Aradia, I know already. You've been jittery and blus)(ing constantly since you got that lick! Also, giving you a better taste would double as a nice way to keep warm and cozy!

Aradia: i...i.. alright

Aradia: you caught me, you taste delicious and i've been craving another taste since when I gave you kisses earlier.

Aradia: i... was just really afraid of scaring you.

Feferi: Aradia! you don't have to worry about stuff like that! Were both god tier and you know i am afraid of glubing NOT)(ing!!!

Aradia: i know, .. i just get so nervous.

Feferi: Aradia, i will always trust you, there is no reason to be nervous!!

Aradia:.. thank you, that.. that means a lot to me.

Aradia: alright, are you sure about this?

Feferi: YEA)(!!!!

Aradia brought her palm up to her lips once again, and opened wide. Feferi stood before her lovers gargantuan maw, as fearless as ever. Aradia slowly outstretched her tongue, giving Feferi a massive lick in the process. As saliva coated fef's face she laughed and gave Aradia a gleeful smile.

Truth be told, fef was enjoying this just as much as Aradia. Earlier that day when Aradia had licked her on accident Fef had realized how soft and warm Aradia's tongue was, and wondered what it would be like inside her mouth. She was absolutely loving this.

Aradia lowered her tongue onto her palm to allow Feferi to climb on. The tiny seadweller stepped onto her lovers outstretched tongue and laid down on it, sinking into the warm grey muscle. Feferi gently massaged Aradia's tongue as she rested her head onto it.

Aradia was in heaven.

She gently pulled her tongue back into her mouth, curling it up a bit to cradle feferi.

For Feferi, if getting those kisses earlier was like falling into bed, being pulled into Aradia's mouth was like climbing under the deliciously cozy sheets. The tongue was so plush and warm, saliva soaked her entire body, and Aradia's throat slowly pulsed as her warm breath swept through her mouth. With feferi entirely inside her mouth, Aradia closed her teeth together with a click, sealing Fef in the darkness of the expansive maw. But Feferi's seadweller eyes allowed her to see perfectly in the dark.

Aradia began to gently slosh Feferi around inside her mouth, savoring her delicious umami flavor. Occasionally Fef would give her tongue a massage and it was one of the best feelings in the world.

Inside the mouth Feferi was extremely relaxed despite being slohed around and tasted. It was like a full body massage, working out all the tension within her muscles. After a while the sloshing stopped and Aradia opened her mouth, a gust of cold winter air mingled with her warm, steamy breath.

Aradia: are you ready to be swallowed?

Feferi: Go a)(ead!

Aradia clicked her mouth closed once again, and Feferi shuffled around and dangled her legs into Aradia's throat, her head brushing against the uvula. Aradia's tongue rose up like a massive wave, pushing fef deeper into the throat. Aradia gulped a few times until fef slipped fully into her throat and the muscles of her escoughgas began to pull her down. The giantess traced the bulge Fef made on the way down with her finger.

Inside Aradia’s esophagus, the seadweller received an even more intense massage as she descended deeper into Aradia's body. After a while she arrived at the sphincter which opened to drop her into the stomach.

To Fef, Aradia's stomach was like a massive aquarium. Due to the conjunction of her unique biology and being godteir, Aradia's stomach contained only warm water. Feferi swam around playfully, jumping in and out of the water like a dolphin before getting tired and drifting off to sleep in the back float position.

With Feferi safe inside her stomach Aradia sat down on a nearby rock ledge and patted her stomach. She could feel Feferi playfully swimming around inside her. Aradia closed her eyes and fell asleep, satiated with the knowledge that Feferi would always love and trust her.

[nomadicbeard]

Hi! I saw on one of your posts you said that you used to be a stucky shipper. I actually started off as a stony shipper but then absolutely fell in love with stucky but I like both . I was just wondering what made you "jump ship" on stucky lol. Sorry if this comes across as annoying or anything im just curious!

Hey! As you can see a couple of people have asked me this over the last couple of weeks and I’m really lazy and haven’t got around to responding yet, but the people deserve an answer so here we go. Before we start a quick disclaimer: I’ll only be talking about the ships themselves, not the communities or any of the discourse surrounding them. This is not a ship-bashing of any kind and please do not take it as such, it’s just my own personal experience surrounding these characters and these relationships. 

 Buckle your seatbelts kids, this is a long one.

I first got into Marvel c. 2015. I’m European so I’d never really watched any marvel movies before that, I watched Age of Ultron on a plane and remember being vaguely aware the Steve/Tony was a thing (what is pretty interesting is that to this day I have no clue where that knowledge came from) but was mostly just excited by the superhero stuff. I then got home and watched The Winter Soldier and fell in love. I love the Winter Soldier, it’s probably still one of my favourite marvel movies (it got kicked out of its top spot by Black Panther last year unfortunately) and to me no other marvel movie could hold a torch to it at the time. So I came onto tumblr, searched up The Winter Soldier and was just inundated with Stucky stuff, as expected. I rolled with it, got invested just from constant exposure (it was also around the height of the Stucky ship) and as far as I was concerned, that was that. I was super into Stucky for almost six months and was pretty much your average shipper, I didn’t understand stevetony, loved Steve Rogers, was close to creating a Stucky sideblog wit some ridiculous pun as my username, I was gone over this ship.

Then one day, I sat down and read the man on the bridge by boopboop on ao3. You’ve almost definitely heard of it, but it was the most popular fic in the Steve/Bucky tag on ao3 at the time (for some reason I had just never got around to reading it until then, it was long and I didn’t have the stamina I have now). It was your pretty standard Stucky fic, Steve gets Bucky back, they have to deal with his trauma which results in Steve and Bucky declaring their long lost love for each other etc. etc. What was different about this fic, was that it was all told from Tony’s point of view, and since Steve and Tony were on the same team at that point, their dynamic was a huge part of the fic. And I found myself falling completely in love with Steve and Tony’s dynamic. I went back to the fic for this post (and god it is a good fic) and pulled up the first couple of chapters and instantly just found so many instances of that dynamic

(grade A stevetony arguing over each other’s safety with a side of flirting from Tony)

(Idk why but the image of Steve and Tony not going to sleep, but rather staying up and brewing coffee together was such a vivid one when I first read this fic, I still remember it to this day. )

(Tony picking Steve flowers while trying to desperately play off that he didn’t aka. Tony caring while trying desperately not to care)

(Everyone knowing that Steve would definitely come to Tony, apart from Tony himself.)

Now obviously, this is a stucky fic and I went into it knowing this, but I found when Steve and Bucky finally got together I felt honestly a bit bored, a bit cheated. I had no idea why at the time. I remember very clearly x-ing out of the fic at the end and feeling really uneasy, I came onto tumblr, went straight back into the Stucky tag and all was well.

When I next went back onto ao3, I started out with a couple of oneshots in the Stucky tag, but for some reason it wasn’t working for me anymore. I remember sitting there, a little bored, not at all invested in this relationship and just missing something. I figured I was probably missing Tony’s presence in the fic and so filtered in Tony Stark’s character tag. I read a few of those and all was well but I realised the same thing was happening as had happened in man on the bridge, the moment that Steve and Bucky got together, the fic lost something for me. Desperate at this point, and a little annoyed at myself I conducted an experiment and went into the Steve/Tony tag on Ao3 and as they say, the rest is history. If you go onto older posts on my main blog there’s a pretty drastic, almost overnight shift c. January 2016. I have to admit, I expected Civil War to be a conversion so I enjoyed stevetony without consequence for five months, while still labelling myself as a Stucky shipper because I expected to be pulled back to Stucky after civil war, the reality was that somehow I came out of civil war shipping stevetony harder than ever before. From there, I spent two years reading my way through the stevetony tag on ao3 and finally set up this blog in 2018, with a really obscure reference as my username and it’s been stevetony til I die ever since.

I just couldn’t read Stucky anymore. That’s what I mean when I say on this blog that stevetony has ruined me for every other ship, because it has. Steve and Tony’s firecracker dynamic pulled me away from what was fast on its way to becoming my favourite ship in 2015, all because they had a bit of banter on the side in a fic. It’s kind of depressing really, the sort of hold that Steve and Tony’s dynamic has over me, 

It’s strange you say you fell in love with Stucky, I fell absolutely out of love with it. I have thought a lot about how I ended up falling into stevetony and why I was so drawn to them instead of Stucky in the first place and I think it all comes down the the story itself. To me, Steve and Bucky’s relationship carries much more weight as a friendship, I still have no doubt that Bucky is one of if not the most important person in Steve’s life, but having that be a lifelong friendship is way more powerful and impactful to me, (especially since what I know I misconstrued to be Steve’s obsession with Bucky is actually Steve’s obsession over the past. I’m not saying Bucky isn’t dear to Steve and he does want to obviously rescue him, but looking back on it there’s more to Steve’s obsession with Bucky than just love, it’s a fear of change and it’s him desperately trying to hold onto a past that’s gone.)

Conversely, I feel like adding a romantic element to Steve and Tony’s relationship enriches the story being told, if you look at something like civil war (either MCU or 616 tbh) in the context of Tony being desperately in love with Steve, it makes a lot more sense, especially with things like The Confession in 616 or the stuff brought up in that strange conversation in the conference room in the MCU. There’s lines from Steve like “I’m home/you gave me a home” or even straight up “he loved you” and his tormented behaviour throughout infinity war and endgame that just really makes you wonder, not to mention lines from others like “you two still gazing into each other’s eyes/sounds like both of you got into bed with the wrong people” and they did have to share a bed at Clint’s farm after all lol. The tragedy of their story is heightened if you look at it through the context of them being absolutely in love with each other, just never having actually got around to telling it to each other’s faces. This tragedy is heavily implied in The Oath/The Confession in 616 when they confess their deepest darkest secrets to the other’s comatose/dead bodies, and apparently it’s always been that they love the other person. Actually you could easily introduce a romantic element by making relatively few changes to the MCU, but that’s a post for another time (I have a long and comprehensive list in my notes app on how little you actually need to change to make that happen, it’s literally the matter of a few lines of dialogue and one major story change at the end of IM3, an interesting thought exercise to say the least).

Finally, there’s a quote that came up on my dash the day I made that fateful venture into the ao3 stevetony tag, “your soulmate isn’t someone who comes peacefully into your life. It is someone who makes you question things, changed your reality, somebody that marks a before and after in your life. It is not the human being everyone idealized, but an ordinary person, who managed to revolutionize your world in a second” to this day, it resonates so strongly with me about stevetony. It’s everything I love about this ship just compressed into a quote. 

So yeah it was basically a bunch of happy coincidences, but thank god it happened. As a writer, stevetony has taught me so much about character and dynamic, stuff that is honestly invaluable. When you have long fics that basically detail the day by day life of Steve and Tony post-civil war in rural Italy and consists of them sleeping, crying and working through their repressed feelings (looking at you @silkspectred ), it is the characters and their unique dynamic that drive the entirety of the story. Steve and Tony, in the hands of a compelling writer, can keep me hooked over a frankly embarrassing number of words. I still have a bit of a special place for Stucky in my heart really, it did start me out in marvel after all and it was one of my first ever ships, but your first love is only so good until you meet your true love, not to get all sappy but stevetony has completely destroyed my ability to ship anything else. I might get a bit flirtatious with some other ships, like sambucky (I still love Bucky, and I love Sam!), or the riverdale ships (beronica and jarchie or bust), or even the game of thrones crack ships (daensa til the day we die), but I’ll always come back to stevetony.

So yeah this escalated into a far longer post than I intended to make but I’ve never really spelled out on this blog how or why I ended up jumping Stucky to Stony when I know it’s usually the other way around. I guess it just comes down to stevetony catching me out when I least expected it, and never having let go of me since. 

[mattmurdocks-leftbuttcheek]

True Family (P.P. x Reader)

I honestly don’t know what this is so enjoy, I guess. I HAVEN’T EDITED THIS, OOPS. I still have some prompts and stuff but I’ve been really busy bc there was a death in my family and I have been home alone and couldn’t sleep. This is kinda how I reacted when I found out my dad died so it’s like based on that month of my life. PLEASE GIVE ME FEEDBACK. IM A LONELY BITCH WHO WANTS ATTENTION. :))))

Warnings: death, suicide, readers mom being a bitch??

Word count: what feels really small is 2.1k

Everyone grieves differently. Some cry, some scream, and others… they just sit there, no reaction. That’s how Y/n reacted to her father’s death. She sat there while her siblings cried, tears falling down her mother’s face. After sitting on the couch for a few minutes listening to her siblings and mother cry together, she got up silently and walked to her room.

Y/n felt empty. She felt like laying there and crying but nothing happened. She sat on her bed, looking at her phone, wondering if Peter was busy. She sat there for what felt like eternity until a knock at her door made her jump. After a few moments, her door opened just enough to show her mother’s wet and red face. She sniffled and sat on Y/n’s bed beside her, as if she was waiting for Y/n to suddenly break down in tears. “Are you okay?”

Y/n sat there, silent. Her mouth felt glued shut. Then something snapped in her. Y/n got up abruptly, startling her mother as she grabbed her jacket and her bag, heading to the front door of their apartment. Her sister that was younger than her by two years stepped up from the couch, sniffling as she hugged herself. “Where are you going?”

Y/n just looked at her with empty eyes. Her sister knew where she was going.

Peter’s.

The air outside was just cool enough to leave you with chill bumps. Y/n had her jacket but she didn’t have the energy to slip it on. She walked the familiar streets and turns until she was in front of Peter’s apartment. She just stood there, her hand poised in a fist, just an inch away from the wood. Instead, she took out her phone and texted Peter.

Can you open the door?

He saw the notification. And just seconds later he opened the door. “Y/n? What’s wrong.”

Y/n’s throat felt as if she had swallowed sandpaper. She opened her mouth to say something but was stopped by Peter’s aggressive hug that made her feel as if the news she had gotten was known to Peter too. He lead her to sit on the couch and asked her questions. What happened? Why aren’t you talking? Did someone hurt you?

It got to the point that Peter had gotten May from her bedroom. Telling her that Y/n wouldn’t talk but he knew something was up. May sat beside Y/n and looked at her. She looked like she wanted to punch a wall and take a very long nap at the same time. Y/n noticed May’s presence and looked up. She opened her mouth, but this time she could barely get the words out. “My… Dad…”

May’s face knew what she was saying and took her into her arms and sat there.

Peter looked confused. Then realization hit him. Y/n’s parents had been separated, her father was an alcoholic with diabetes that had to go to dialysis. After hearing the pain in Y/n’s voice, he went to the kitchen and got her a glass of water. She took it greedily, like she hadn’t eaten anything all day.

Peter just sat on the other side of Y/n, knowing the feeling that was. After losing his own parents, he didn’t want to talk either, but he did cry. Y/n sat up straight and looked at Peter with empty eyes and fell sideways on him, knocking him down onto the couch, she wrapped her arms around his waist and just held him. Hoping that the warmth of him would thaw the aching ice forming in her chest. He held her, stroking her hair as she just laid there, hugging him with her head on his chest.

They fell asleep, waking up to Y/n’s phone buzzing. Her mother was calling her. She sat up, rubbing her eyes and answered the phone. “What?”

“Where are you?” Her mother’s frantic voice was loud over the phone.

Y/n’s throat was dry. “I’m at Peter’s. I’m staying the night.”

Her mother was saying something along the lines of ‘you need to be home and grieve with us. You’re making us look like we aren’t a family’.

Y/n spoke up abruptly. “We haven’t been a family since you made Dad move out. Since you made the decision that you could take care of three teenagers by yourself while you’re in school. I said I’m staying at Peter’s for the night. Now it may be a week.” She hung up the phone and stood up. “She makes me so mad.”

Peter stood beside her, taking her hand. “You know May will let you stay for as long as you need, right?”

Y/n nodded, looking down at his hand, his fingers intertwined with hers. As if reading her mind, Peter led Y/n to his room. Rummaging through his dresser for some clothes she could sleep in. He handed her a worn shirt and sweatpants to wear. She took them gratefully, a smile gracing her lips. “Thanks, Peter.”

They both had school the next day. Y/n hoped it would go smoothly, meaning that flash wouldn’t be a jerk to her and that no one would mention what had happened today. As Y/n changed in Peter’s bathroom, she looked herself over. She looked pale, as if she hadn’t seen the sun in a week, her eyes were dark, empty. Her hair was a birds nest on the top of her head, not as neat as it should be. She felt as she looked. Cold and empty.

Peter knocked on the door and Y/n opened it. “Do I really look this bad?”

Peter looked at her like she grew an extra head. “Look like what?”

“Like I’ve been held prisoner. I look like I haven’t seen the sun in days. My hair is a complete mess.”

Peter shushed her and put a hand on her shoulder. “Y/n you look like you always do.” He said, looking into her eyes. “You look beautiful despite the fact that your dad died today and you feel like shit.”

Y/n smiled. She felt like laughing was a bad thing to do at the moment. So she just smiled and leaned forward and kissed Peter on the cheek. “Thank’s Peter.”

She crawled under the covers on his bed and waited for him. But her smile faded as she looked at her phone. The screen lit up, showing a notification from FaceBook (like anyone really uses it). Her mom had tagged her in a post.

‘I’m sorry to share the news that my ex-husband has passed away. My girls and I are devastated. The funeral will be arranged soon. Please pray for my family’

Y/n scoffed. “Peter, have you read this?”

Peter looked up and took the phone out of her hand. “Y/n, I know she is getting annoying, but you need to ignore it. She is grieving in her own way. Just let her.”

Y/n pushed her head into the pillow and groaned. “She may be grieving but still, you don’t just post something like that publicly.”

Peter just sighed. “Just try to go to sleep, Y/n. Everything will be fine.” He hugged her under the covers, rubbing her arms to help her go to sleep. “We can go to your apartment tomorrow and get clothes for you to stay if you need to.”

Y/n nodded, sleep taking over her, her eyes getting heavy.

It felt like everyone was staring at her. She walked the halls of school with Peter beside her, his hand on her lower back, hovering as if he was worried she was going to collapse. She heard Flash talking and prepared herself for the worst. Peter rubbed her back, sensing her tension.

“Hey, Y/n,” Flash said loudly,”I’m sorry about your dad.”

Y/n just stared at him, waiting for him to say something else. And he did. He said the worst thing possible that would send her into another spiralling depression.

“I heard that he committed suicide. Did he get that from you?” Everyone made an ‘ooh’-ing noise. Anger welled up in Y/n, acting as its own person, not her. She grabbed Flash by the front of his shirt and pulled him towards her. She felt Peter try to grab her by her bag but he was a second too late. He was currently watching his best friend threaten on of the most popular kids in school.

Y/n balled up Flash’s shirt in her fist and held him up to her face. “If you ever, ever say anything along those lines again, you won’t be able to have kids or even try. What I did did not happen to my father. You will have bad things happen to you, Eugene.” Y/n dropped Flash, making him stumble. “I’ll be sure of it.” She made her way to the doors that led outside.

After he stared at her wide-eyed for a moment, Peter followed her, not sure what exactly happened. He looked around outside, finding Y/n sitting around the corner of the building.

“Hey,” he said softly, sitting down beside her.”What was he talking about?”

Y/n wiped her eyes, breathing in deeply. “Do you remember three years ago when I went to  Norway? To meet my aunt?”

Peter nodded, remembering that was the longest month of his life.

“Peter,” Y/n turned to him, her eyes red from crying.”I didn’t really go to Norway.” She took Peter’s hand and started tracing the lines of his palm, trying to concentrate on something to keep her here and not in the past. “I-I couldn’t take the pressure at school and from my mom,” she started, “I took over a hundred pills and laid there in my bed. I wanted to end the pain and end the expectations. I couldn’t handle my life anymore. I wrote notes and hid them in case I changed my mind. I didn’t want them to find the notes until after it happened, when the police would go through my belongings to find why. When I started throwing up, I called my dad and told him what happened. He rushed me to the hospital and I was stabilized. I spent that month in a psychiatric hospital in Boston.”

“Y/n,”

“I’m not done. My mom only told one person. Flash’s dad. Then she fabricated that I went to Norway to visit my aunt to learn more about a different country. I spent an entire month in a nuthouse with crazy people. I’m not crazy, and I wasn’t at the time. I just wanted to go home, but they wouldn’t let me leave until they saw that I was doing better. The food there was making everyone gain weight and I was scared that I would gain too. I didn’t eat but once every two days. I drank water and soda to keep my calorie intake alive.”

Peter looked at her, remembering when she came back. She looked thin and scared. Her clothes more baggy than ever, her skin sickly pale, her collarbones poking out from under her sweaters. He remembered being scared for her health.

“That’s why Flash said what he said.” Y/n wiped her tears away, “I will castrate him myself if he says anything like that again.”

Peter laughed, taking Y/n’s hand in his. “Y/n, just promise me one thing.”

Y/n smiled. “Anything for you.”

Peter looked into Y/n’s eyes. His brown ones staring into her e/c ones. “If you ever feel that way again, please talk to me. No matter how small the problem is, you can talk to me. I need you to stay alive.”

Y/n nodded, keeping eye-contact.

They both stood up, dusting themselves off as they walked back into the school. Peter stopped Y/n before they reached the doors. “And one more thing.”

Y/n nodded, waiting for his last request.

“Be my girlfriend.”

Y/n smiled, "Of course I will, now you can be my true family."

Peter hugged her tightly. "I will always be your true family."

[darthbagel2332]

Rules: answer the questions in a new post and tag 10 followers you want to know better

I was tagged by the lovely @kielisjustfine I never thought I’d get tagged in one of these on here but thank you!!

1. Named after anyone?

Not my actual name, no, but my middle name, Valeria, was my great grandmother’s name. My username here I stole from my sister because I thought it was cool

2. Last time you cried?

Last weekend I was attacked my a moth when I was trying to go to bed and I started crying because I was pms-ing and I really hate moths. I cry over a lot of things though

3. Do you have kids?

No im like 12 No I’m only 16 and I’m also a lesbian and you can’t legally adopt until you're 25 apparently? I just looked that up, huh

4. Do you use sarcasm a lot?

Yes. My mother hates it

5. What’s the first thing you notice about people?

How tall they are usually

6. What’s your eye color?

Brown

7. Scary movie or happy ending? 

Uhhh I don't like this question. I’m not a huge fan of scary movies but I also like crying over movies and I hate most comedies (romcoms included) so I’m not sure about some happy endings? Idk

8. Where were you born?

Reno, Nevada

9. What are your hobbies?

I read a lot and I write some as well. My girlfriend and I are trying to make a podcast together

10. Do you have any hobbies?

I have two (2) dogs

11. What sports have you played?

When I was little I played soccer and I used to swim. I don’t know if it counts because a lot of people don’t really view it as a sport but I danced as well

12. How tall are you?

5′8″

13. Favorite subject in school?

History. Partially because I think my current history teacher is literally the best but also I think its super interesting and I remember it pretty well.

14. Dream job?

I’m not super sure yet. I’d like to be an author one day but I’m bad at coming up with ideas. More recently I’ve been thinking about becoming a teacher one day? Again, thats largely because my history teacher is great and I look up to him

I’ll only tag a couple people (most of my followers are bots so): @bluethisisforyou I think you might’ve been my first mutual ever  @cmpqznkplsltrndstvn ;) @fanaticalparadox and @whats-an-absurdly-long-username because I know you’re technically not following me but you reblog more of my stuff that my gf does so

[new-to-this123]

Flash Through Life With: Montgomery De La Cruz

As per requeseted

Can you do one of Montgomery x reader age up when season 2 never happened and monty asks reader to marry him and whatnot then they have kids and like a really sweet happy ending. Thank you 💓

I Hope you like this.. i really got into it and it took me like 3 days to write. 

Montgomery X Reader

Warning: None

Word count: 2890

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Wednesday October 1 2014

Oh my god!!! You will never guess what happened today!!!! I'm no longer single!!!! 15 and I finally have a boyfriend… I hope it lasts forever!!!!

****flashback****

You were standing at your locker putting your books away when you felt a tap on your shoulder. You turned around and saw the face of one of your best friends

“hey handsome” you looking into your best friends big brown eyes

“hello beautiful” he smiled

“Rosies after school? Me you and couple.milkshakes?” he asked

“you know me so well Montgomery!” you smiled

“that's only because I've known you like my whole life!”

You went on with your day going through all your classes. The final bell rang. You were at your locker putting away your books when Monty showed up.

“ready Freddy?” he smiled

“ready” you laughed walking towards his jeep. You sat in Rosies and ordered your milkshakes. You and monty talked about your day until they showed up. As you took a sip of your milkshake monty asked you a question you weren't sure you understood right.

“wanna be a couple?”

“what?” you answered wide eyed

“I like you, I want to be your boyfriend!”

You stared at your best friend now sure how to answer.

“so is that a yes or no?” he asked with a smile

“yes oh my god yes!”

Monty got out the booth and came and sat next to you. He grabbed your chin and lifted your head up and softly kissed your lips.

****end flashback****

Wednesday April 1 2015

OH MY GOD!!!!!! MONTY THE MONTGOMERY DE LA CRUZ TOLD ME HE LOVED ME!!!!! OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!

****Flashback****

Monty was coming over for a sleepover. It wasn't the first time he slept over, but this time was different. You had been dating for six months now and you were ready to lose your virginity to him. When he came over, he had no plans on having sex, since he respected that you wanted to wait. When you told him you were ready he was very nervous. He was gentle and very kind to you. He took it slow and made it feel special. You were how cuddled in bed wrapped up in his arms. He kissed your forehead.

“you know, I've never felt anything like this before. You make me want to be a better person.”

“awe thanks Monty. And ya Im new to these feelings everything is just so new.”

“I love you Y/N”

You smiled “I love you too Monty”

You leaned in and kissed his lips.

****end flashback****

Wednesday June 27 2018

BEST DAY OF MY LIFE!!!!!!!!! Four years with my best friend and WERE ENGAGED!!!!!!!!!!! HE ASKED ME AT PROM!!!! how cute is that!!!!!!!

****Flashback****

“honey Monty's here” your mom yelled at you from the bottom of the stairs.

“coming” you yelled walking out of your room in your Cinderella dress. As you got the the top of the stairs you saw your parents talking with monty. Monty looked up and saw you and his jaw dropped.

“wow babe you're beautiful!!” he exclaimed as you walked down the stairs.

“Thank you, you're looking pretty handsome yourself!” you smiled with blushy cheeks.

He put his hands on your waist and pulled you into a kiss.

“you guys are so cute! Let me take a picture” your mom said taking her phone out.

You and monty posed for a good ten minutes in the house, outside, where ever your mom wanted. A limousine drove up and all your friends came out!

“oh my gawd you two are too cute!!!!!!” Jessica yelled getting out the limo.

“everyone get together” your mom yelled holding her phone. You all posed for your mom and headed out to the prom.

You danced and hung out with your friends all night. Parents met up with their children later on in the evening for the banquet supper. After supper, principal Bolan came up on stage to announce the prom king and queen. He said a big speech congratulating all of the seniors.

“and finally the moment you've all been waiting for, for the class of 2018 prom king and queen are

Montgomery De La Cruz and

Y/N Y/L/N”

Everyone cheered and clapped. Your parents got up and started taking pictures of you and monty on stage with your crowns. Monty grabbed the mic from principal Bolan

“hey guys. Thanks for voting us your prom king and queen! Now I know today is suppose to be about all of us and all but there's something I've been wanting to do for a while now. And you all know we've been a couple for the last four years.” the whole crowd started woo-ing and clapping “y/n has made me a better person all around. I mean I've been scouted by the MLB, I graduated and I've managed to keep her happy for 4 years” he turned to face you “I love you so much Y/N and honestly I don't know what Id do without you.” he got down on one knee pulling out a ring and the whole room went silent “will you marry me? And be my forever?”

You looked at him on his knee and started crying. “yes yes YES” you said as he stood up and jumped into his arms!

“and your parents were so in on this” monty laughed as he out the ring on your finger.

****End flashback****

Wednesday July 24 2019

THE MOST MAGICAL DAY OF MY LIFE TOOOOOOODAAAAAAY!!! IM OFFICIALLY MRS. DE LA CRUZ!!!!! AAAAAAHAAH

****flashback****

You were standing in your room looking at yourself.

“mom I'm so nervous” you said

“you'll be fine love.” she replied calmly.

“look at you!!!” Jessica said coming into your room in her bridesmaids dress. “you look like an angel!”

you laughed and finished your makeup.

You could hear the wedding March song play as your bridesmaids made their way down the aisle. It was finally your turn. Arms locked with both your parents, you made your way down the aisle crying happy tears. The minute monty saw you he started crying. You slowly walked up the aisle your dad letting you go In Front of Monty. You both stared at each other crying.

The priest went on with the ceremony talking

“Monty do you take Y/N to be your wife?”

“I do”

“Y/N do you take Monty to be your husband”

“I do”

You both put your rings on each other.

“you may now kiss the bride”

With that Monty wrapped his arms around you and kissed you!

“ITS OFFICIAL!!!! NOW SHES MINE BITCHES” monty yelled as he picked you up.and carried you away.

****end flashback****

Wednesday April 29 2020

After 12 hours of labor our babies have arrived!!! Jefferey Harris De La Cruz, named after my brother and dad and Jeremy Montgomery De La Cruz, because we both loved the name Jeremy and Monty begged to give our son his name.for middle name.

****flashback****

As soon as you guys got back from your honeymoon monty had to return to baseball. It saddened you but you were both enjoying the fact that he had been scouted by the mlb and was given the chance to do what he dreamed of!

You had been feeling nauseous for about two month or so before it clicked that you hadn't had your period in almost two month.

You drove to the store and bought a pregnancy test. It came out positive. You were so excited. You called up Monty.

“hey Mrs. De La Cruz how's it's going?”.your husband laughed

“I have great news for you!”

“so do I!!! We're in town for the next bit.. I'm coming home tonight!!”

“oh my god no way!!! OK well I'll go clean up a bit and make us supper”

”no no no you called to tell me.something”.

“I'll see you tonight and tell you then. I love you”

You cleaned the house up and made Monty's favorite supper, steak and potatoes. You had everything set up and ready to eat when he walked in. You both sat enjoyed your supper. when came time for dessert you had something special for.him. you walked towards him with a.box.

“these are for you babe” you said handing him the box. Opened it and started crying right away. You had made chocolate brownies and In the box you wrote “eat up mommy doesn't wanna be the only one with a belly”.

“oh my god Y/N are you serious??” he asked looking at you, happy tears in his eyes

“yes I am! I'm pregnant”

Monty never missed a doctors appointment. And was always there even if he had to fly from where he was.to fly back that night he never wanted to miss a thing. And when you found out you were having twins he was ecstatic!!!

“twin boys.two mini mes in the house.. You'll never get bored now baby! Running around little Jefferey and Jeremy”

“Jefferey and Jeremy?” you questioned

“well I figured out first son should be named after your brother. And Jeremy just sounds nice with Jeff. So Ya!”

You had tears in your eyes. “you know you're the best right!!!”

“That's not all how.about Jeremy Montgomery!” you looked at him and laughed.

“what??? It's gotta nice ring to it!! Please baby”

“fine fine Jefferey Harris and Jeremy Montgomery!” he picked you up and hugged you tight.

****end falshback****

Wednesday February 17 2021

They say people lose their sex drives once they hit adulthood. I call bullshit. I mean we're still young were both 22 but still. After having the twins Monty had to leave almost right away and didn't come home for close to a month. When he came.home we decided to have sex. Like any couple. And that's how I ended up here again 😂 ten months between having children. Today we welcomed Hannah Y/N De La Cruz.

Wednesday September 3 2025

Today my boys started kindergarten!!! They're getting so old… Oh my god. I cried so hard… still am.

****Flashback****

You were at the store  school supply shopping with the Jefferey and Jeremy. They looked like Montgomery. Spitting image of him. But they were so different. One wanted red everything the other wanted blue everything. If Jefferey chose something Jeremy chose something different. Which made it fun and easy to tell all their things apart. They got home and were so excited.

“daddy”

“daddy guess what colour I am???”

“Hmmm Jeff you're blue and Jeremy you're red.”

The boys looked at each other.

“wow he's good!” Jeff said to Jeremy

The next day you all drove to school that morning to drop them off. You hugged yoir boys goodbye and started to cry as they walked towards the doors.

“oh baby it's OK they'll be fine” Monty said reassuringly

“I'm gonna miss them so much monty” you cried hugging him

“mommy you still have me!!” Hannah smiled showing off her teeth.

“I love you guys!” you said hugging your daughter and husband.

**** end flashback****

Wednesday September 2 2026

Now my house will forever be quiet. And lonesome. My baby girl started school. What will I do with myself now???? In this big house, with no one. 😭😭😭

****flashback****

“Hannah honey let's go school supply shopping for tomorrow.” you yelled up the stairs

“NO I wanna go with daddy!!!!” she was angry.

“Hannah daddy's not home he's working.”

“I want daddy!!!”

“how about I take you and we video chat him after?”

“can we video chat him while we're there?”

“deal now let's go your brothers are already in the car.”

You got the store and video chatted Monty.

Hannah had to have his approval on everything before she could decide if she wanted it. It was so cute. This little one had Monty wrapped around her finger since the day she was born.

Everyone went to bed early that night. When you woke up you could smell food. You panicked and hurried downstairs.

“what's going on” you asked expecting to see your boys getting Into trouble.

“you didn't think I was gonna a miss my princess first day of school did you??” Monty asked as he set the table up for breakfast.

You could hear footsteps running down the stairs.

“DADDY” all three of them yelled as they jumped on Monty.

You all are together as a family and went off to school.

You cried as you said your goodbues to your baby.

“the house is going to be so quiet without her.” you cried as Monty and you made your way back to the car.

“it's OK babe” he said hugging you

“you're never around and the kids are all In school full time.. I'll have the house to myself.. It's so big and quiet.”

“invite Jessica over have Day parties” he laughed.

“I wish I had you” you cried.

Monty hugged you tightly

****end flashback****

Wednesday October 4 2034

What an emotional day!!! My hubby retired from the mlb at 35!!!! He's considered a little old. 😂😂 but he played for years!!!! Now I get him all the time In our empty house!!! :)

****Flashback****

“baby I've decided something” Monty said to you making you sit down on your leather couch.

“what?”

“after this season of baseball, I'm gonna retire. Ive been gone for so long, I missed so much of our children's life, I know I can never makeup for it, but I'd like to start making memories with them While I can”

Monty played his season. One of his best seasons yet. And the team through him a huge party. He got a bunch of fan mail begging him not to retire.  But his mind was pretty made up. He even made a public announcement.

“I have chosen to retire from baseball because my children, aged 14 and 13, have gone all their life seeing me only part time. Or watching me on TV. I need to be a constant in their lives. I need to make as many memories as I can with them. And my wife, she needs me. She's been my number one supporter since forever! Now it's my turn to support her. She needs her partner in crime back. She can't parent by herself anymore. I need to be there for my family. And yes baseball will always hold a special place in my heart. I mean both my sons play baseball and they have since they could walk. So I won't be away from it. But I need.to be with my family. Thank you everyone for all your support throughout the years.”

****end flashback****

Wednesday June 23 2038

My boys have graduated!!!!!!! How have the years passed by so fast. It's not fair just yesterday they were little babies and today they are taking their girlfriends to prom. I'm a.crying mess as per usual.

****flashback****

“Jefferey, Jeremy, you're going to be late” Monty yelled from the bottom of the stairs.

“coming” Jefferey yelled

“calm down it's only prom” Jeremy yelled

Both boys walked down the stairs together. Jeff had chosen a black suit and a blue tie. Jeremy had chosen a black suit and a red tie. After all these years they always refused to be identical, they would always wear something in their favorite colour so people could.tell them apart.

Standing in from of you, you look at your two boys who were a mix of your brother and husband. You were so proud of the men they were becoming. They had both been accepted into Harvard for criminal justice.

There girlfriends arrived with their parents.

The couples posed alone and together, before taking off in the limo you and monty had rented for.them.

****end flashback****

WeDnesday june 29 2039

My baby has officially graduated from high school. Want will I do come.september and they're all gone?! My life has always revolved around them… now all I have is.monty… no babies. :(

****flashback****

Hannah walked Down the stairs in your graduation dress. She looked.just like you.

“oh my god. You look just like your mom the day we graduated. You're so beautiful!” Monty said tears in his eyes as he hugged his little.girl.

“oh dad! You're so emotional!!” she laughed

Hannahs girlfriends had all arrived. None of them wanted to go with boys. They wanted to go as best friends. The girls posed for the cameras for at least an hour before heading out for the night.

“I can't believe she's.leaving us for university” Monty said watching the limo drive off.

“she'll be with her brothers she'll be OK.” you laughed.

“three lawyers. How did we.manahe to let that happen?” monty joked.

****emd flashback****

Wednesday January 11 2040

Oh boy we just came.back from our first kidless vacation since our Honeymoon!!!! What a blast we had.. All inclusive for the win. We partied so much, I almost felt like a teenager again. Although monty and I ate pretty sure now that it's just him and I, Well be doing this kinda thing more.often I missed.traveling with him, alone. I think my life is about to take an even better turn!!  And I couldn't be happier.