#appreciate my bullshittery

[viarocker]

babygirl numbertaker photoshoot

(click for better quality) this i based off a very pookie drawing by @innerzake

and then just straight up bullshit (mostly recreating silly things i found on pinterest lmfaooo)

sadly none of these are canon, but maybe like one of them can be if i uwu hard enough (or get onyx to bring it up - iykyk lmao)

[ink--theory]

oh wow,,, uh,,, thanks for the 800+ follows guys! ^^;

[seakicker]

tell us whenever you piss idc i just like seeing your posts ❤️

*KISSES YOU FOREVER* this blog is both my writing dump and my personal diary im more than happy to just get on here and be like "Hey everyone. Eating mcdonalds"

[catreginae]

okay i really really want to start reading your vampire wars thing because first of all, im OBSESSED with the concept, and second, it just seems cool as hell, but i’ve been unable to read recently so i haven’t had a chance to get to it. ITS ON MY LIST THO 🙌🙌🙌

BUT I STILL WANNA KNOW ABOUT HIM HE SEEMS SO COOL. I don’t wanna ask annoying questions cos I feel like most of the one’s I have are things you’ve probably already answered haha, BUT TELL ME ABOUT UR SPECIAL GUY. Is there anything in particular you just really really wanna talk about? Any little details you’re really proud of that you want people to notice? Can he turn into a particularly fluffy little bat? If so would bat Wars appreciate head pats? Is there a specific vampire lore that inspired this?

-crazylittlejester

Sorry this took so long! This is the first ask I got after asking for them but it's the last I got to!

I think people realized these things but I’m going to talk about them anyway!

Warriors has bad self-esteem. He’s super protective of the others. He has the ability to regenerate, so it’s hard to hurt him in a way that actually matters. He can pretty much bounce back from anything. Anyway, all three of these aspects of Warriors feed into each other. He doesn’t care about what happens to him because he can regenerate. The pain is worth it if the others are safe. He thinks keeping the others safe by taking the really bad hits is how he’s earning his keep in the group because he has a hard time accepting that they actually like him for who he is. The others are working on it!

This boy is a pacer. When he’s restless and antsy, or hopped up on blood, he just starts pacing. He cannot help it.

Warriors is actually the sleepiest in the chain and beats even Sky. I headcanon Sky with sleep apnea (because of projection) but Warriors ends up sleeping the most because being half-vampire is actually really hard on his body. I like it imagine that sleep is the glue that keeps his Hylian half and vampire half together to make one mostly functional person. This is why he can pretty much fall asleep immediately if he’s injured but also had some blood.

The fluffy bat thing is a plan but hasn’t happened yet. It’s not a vampire thing in this AU (it is a nod to it at least?) nor is it his shadow crystal form. It’s wizzrobe bullshittery that he actually saw some use in so he begged Lana for some way to have regular access to a bat form. It’s probably some sort of jewellery. I wrote a very small snippet about Four throwing a tiny bat Warriors into the air to help him figure out lift. Of course, he’s a vampire bat because they can run on the ground and I think that’s pretty neat. Go look up a zoo feeding them blood, they just run on the ground and take little sippies out of a bowl.

And finally, the inspiration for this AU is a movie from the 80s called The Lost Boys. It inspired his appearance a little bit (he’s got the same yellow and red eyes). Lore wise, some of the abilities made it over but I used a lot of different inspirations for this AU and of course, I had to try to remix it fit Zelda too. The Lost Boys is the first inspiration though because I was in that rabbit hole when I wrote the first chapter.

[yourneighborhoodneighbor]

this is now just a masterpost to my fics

comments and reblogs appreciated (and visits to ao3 too!) :)

ummm, yeah, have a nice time (it got long so it's under a cut now)

AFTG:

fear has nothing AO3 - neil panic and h/c, oneshot

poppy seed roll AO3 - twinyard bonding, oneshot

fear, joy, everything - pixie hollow-esque andreil, multichap, has BB amazing art!

The Sweetest Dream Would Never Do - andreil fluff, multichap, has RBB art!

Always Come Home (To You) - andreil, met as children, multichap

Mers and Naps - mer!neil, andreil fluff, oneshot, inspired by art

Sorrys and Strawberries - cat hybrid!neil, fluff, oneshot

Running towards - oneshot, neil on the run ficlet

The Lord's Cats - oneshot, plotless fluff, with cat hybrids! ichirou + perfect court (and aaron)

If You Run, I Will Follow - multichap, wolfblood au, andreil. has BB art!

BNHA:

black cat and his kittens ch2, ch3, ch4, ch5, ch6, ch7, ch8, ch9, ch10 AO3 - vigilante everyone, dadzawa, multichap, incomplete

we're all hitchhiking in this car AO3 - dabihawks roadtrip au, oneshot

the fire triangle AO3 - bakusquad atla au, bnha, oneshot-

green friends and tired dads - oneshot, dadzawa, tsu&izu friendship

bonus unposted draft! - villain aizawa taking care of HIS kids

DPxDC:

super cool ghost ice mega slide AO3 bonus unrelated snow LBM drawing - fun in the snow, danny cass and duke, oneshot

and you're always free to begin again ch2, ch3, ch4, ch5, AO3 - twin danny and damian, multichap, incomplete

of clones and time bullshittery - complete multichap, danny&tim clonery, co-authored with Bewitched_Forest

+Who are these people in your house?! -There's people in my house?! (on tumblr as well)- feral detective tim is baffled and excited by weird amity park, oneshot

Danny's Winter Holiday - oneshot, the batfam tries to make danny happy

The Danny Test - part one of a series (i hope), oneshot, jack and bruce are long lost twins

Ten Broken Ornaments - oneshot, LBM shenanigans

The Bat and the Parental Mad Scientists - oneshot, the fentons ask batman for help in getting back their children

Wing Ficlets - three short stories, one DC, one DPxDC, one DP

A New Pup - multichap, cute omegaverse with O!bruce and pup!danny. technically wip but it's plotless, so

Brothers In Pranks - co-written with art-lokiitama, wip, crack treated seriously, danny&damian shenanigans

Clark's Favourite Pod - one-shot, mer!au, batfam

DP:

kool aid AO3 - crack oneshot

Stars (Dream a Little Dream) - vivisection, oneshot, mega gore warning!! part of EI, so it has amazing art and audio (again, extra gore warning!)

Danny and the (mini)Phantoms - funny and creepy shenanigans, oneshot, part of EI so it has amazing art!

12 Marshmallows - humorous, one-shot how many marshmallows is too many?

The Dog at the Park - oneshot, protective cujo pov

Baby yetis need their naps - oneshot, baby yeti danny + frostdad fluff

MCU:

cuddles? cuddles AO3 - dad!bucky and son!peter, oneshot

tags for browsing: my fics: fics i've written my art: art i've made fic rec whateverday: my fic recs fanwork, random fanstuff: includes both my fics and my art (if i remember to tag them as such), my fic recs, but also fanworks from others (for example if i reblog something) second one has non-fanwork fandom stuff. idk pal, sometimes i'm tired and forget to tag stuff

[link count 13/08/24: 72 (just for me to remember)]

[itsyagurlchip]

alright-

those who have writing requests- i see you and i am willing to do them (NO MATTER THE CHALLENGE 😼❗❗)

but

due to recent events of absolute bullshittery and lack of good choices, i think i need a week or so to recharge n stuff.

so, please dont get disappointed if you see shitposts sliding across my page (thats what its mostly made of afterall.)

thank you all for the requests and ideas, i appreciate them all 😋❤️❤️

@snipersiniora you are a wonder and i am inspecting you with my enlarged eyes rn

[zoology]

does anyone know what sort of resources there are for for low income dog owners? do many cities or animal shelters provide supplies to those who need it? the situation with my neighbors' dog is getting ridiculous. he ran up behind my brother while he was mowing the lawn and scared the hell out of him, they both could have been injured. i worry that dog is going to get hit by a car in front of the neighbor kids. he's unneutered and very rowdy and when they don't have him wandering the neighborhood doing god knows what he's chained to a tree branch in this blistering heat wave. he's gotten in a scrap with my dog before when we were coming home from a walk. i worry about that dog and the kids, they don't need the trauma of someone telling them that their dog is responsible for a bite and is going to be put down and they CERTAINLY don't need the trauma of their pet being hit by a car. i believe someone has called animal control on them before and i fear that if i or someone else make a call the dog and family will be heavily discriminated against seeing as how the puppy is a pit bull and the family don't speak much english.

our neighborhood here at my dad's house is a ghetto, i don't say that pejoratively or as an exaggeration, it's one of the poorest neighborhoods in town and has been subject to a lot of bullshittery by the city. i doubt the neighbors next door have many resources to spare for the dog. i'd like to help them create a safer and more stable environment for the dog, and that's kind of hard to do considering they don't have a fenced yard. normally i would call animal control regardless but i just can't do it in this situation. the kids really love their dog. i know i'm making the wrong decision but i'm weak.

would anyone happen to know of some resources i can point them towards? obviously i can't really give away my exact city but if you know that resources for low income pet owners are provided in your area, i would really appreciate some information so that i can try and look up analogous programs in my city

[an-architect-of-words]

Thinking about the characters from The Secret History and Ninth House/Hell Bent meeting. Here are my guesses.

- Immediately, Mercy would wholeheartedly hate Bunny.

- Tripp would like Bunny and protect him from Mercy’s attempts at maiming him. Tripp and Bunny would bond over jokes and sports. Because Tripp is honest about his parents cutting him off, Bunny wouldn’t usually try to extort him but would like talking to him about his wealthy childhood.

- Tripp is the ONLY member of the Lethe crew who would like Bunny. Darlington would find him slovenly (also Bunny would make fun of him for attending Knights of Columbus picnics as a kid). And Bunny would make racist and/or sexist comments to the others, so they don’t fraternize with him. Dawes could perhaps tolerate him because she’s into caring for people and cooking for them and appreciates when people need her for things. However, her tolerance all hinges on if Bunny says nice things about her food. If he praises it, she would excuse him here and there. If he’s a douche canoe about it, she will loathe him.

- Alex and Richard understand each other on the grounds of both being California kids who moved to out east to the university life to escape their garbage situations. Alex, here and there, gets annoyed at Richard for being too dramatic.

- Francis and Mercy would get along, just based on a major vibe I have. Their fashion is different but they appreciate the other’s eye for style and like each other’s attitude. However, due to her having been drugged and taken advantage of before, Mercy would be severely perturbed if she learned how Francis seduces inebriated people. She’d also correct him for classicist comments and he’d actually apologize because he likes her too much to ruin their friendship.

- Francis would be amiable with Dawes and Darlington. He’d not like Tripp very much. Turner and Alex wouldn’t like Francis. They’d both find him just so spoiled.

- Turner would take one look at the Greek kids and be like “Oh HELL no.” He’d immediately sense they did something screwed up, and he would be the one to try to get to the bottom of it. Let’s be real, Turner would have solved the case in TSH. Had he interrogated them, he would have seen past Henry and Charles’s bullshittery.

- Dawes would ADORE Charles. Just full on love him. They’d have a brief spat over him trying to help her cook, but then he understands that that’s just her thing, and he always says please and thank you and smiles at her— and she’s an absolute sucker for that. She’d fall for everything.

- Similarly, Dawes would get drawn in by Henry’s gentlemanliness and like cooking for him. But she’d also be intimidated by him. She doesn’t really talk to him because he makes her anxious.

- Dawes and Camilla would not really vibe, but stay fairly cordial especially around the rest of the group.

- I think Alex would shift opinions on Henry a few times before firmly disliking him. She’d find him snooty then kind of level with him (since he’s actually kind or nice and good with lower classes supposedly?) but then she’d pick up on the truth of his insanity and be SO no-patience with it. In fact, she’d rage at Richard for excusing the Greek class so much.

- Tripp would hit on Camilla then get beaten within an inch of his life.

- Henry, Richard, Francis, and the twins would be annoyed by Tripp but also handle him well and be able to joke a lot about him. They call him “Diet Bunny” behind his back.

- Darlington and Henry would be close at first. They both value proper etiquette and academics. They practice talking to each other in all their languages, and Henry is impressed by how many Darlington knows. They are delighted when they can quote things and have the other immediately know the reference. They’d have a late night heart-to-heart about their ideals, fascination with magic, and desires to find the greater things in this life. But, at some point or another, Darlington would start to question Henry and realize there’s so much evil in him. This creates a distance that Henry is disappointed by.

- Richard looks up SO MUCH to Darlington, and Darlington proceeds to be somewhat of an actually good influence on him.

- Camilla, Alex, Mercy, and Dawes would all go out for a girls’ night because they feel like they have to. It gets off to an awkward start, but then they find they have a lot to talk about and enjoy the outing. But Camilla remains a little too aloof for them to get really close.

- Tripp would somewhat respect Richard for making it so well without the support of his parents or their money. He asks for tips.

- Darlington would be initially kind of attracted to Camilla but, like with Henry, he starts to sense bad things about her. His experience with Camilla ends up only making him find Alex even more genuine and like her more.

[baizhoobies]

congrats on 200 followers! ^o^

here’s my submission for the matchup event :3

i’m 22 my pronouns are she/they and i’m bi so gender doesn’t matter, i would like to choose genshin impact and bungo stray dogs as my fandoms!

about me: my mbti is ENFP, i’m a sagittarius sun, my lunar zodiac is a dragon, i’ve played violin for over a decade and have a deep love for all types of music (and i sing a lil too!), i’m a textiles major who likes to sew and cosplay, aaaaaand i have a love for history (especially the 1800s) :D

sorry if these were too random haha

I match you up with . . . ♡

˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚ ❀ Bram Stoker | Bungo Stray Dogs

Okay, hear me out. You guys are like sun and moon. Bram has been surrounded by nothing but bullshittery with the Decay of Angels, so having someone like an ENFP around him, would honestly be refreshing. As much as he is a sleepy head, he would appreciate your energy. Sagittarius suns are known to be extroverts, lively and enthusiastic - as much as he is the opposite of that, I feel like you’d balance each other out.

A big big reason why I paired you with Bram is for your musical talents. Its no secret that Bram’s weakness is music, so the fact that you not only can play the violin, but also a singer, makes him swoon. He would get you to either play the violin or sing right next to his coffin - either to put him to sleep or to simply hear you play.

As you are a huge fan of history, particularly the 1800s, Bram would be a perfect muse for you as he literally lived through it! Any questions you have regarding that era, Bram would answer. He may find it a little curious as to why you are interested, but he would answer honestly and to the best of his ability.

Please for the love of God, sew his coat up. Its literally in tatters and something tells me that he refuses to get rid of it. Something about ‘too much history’ behind it. So if you offer to sew it up, he may be hesitant, and maybe even refuse at first. But if he sees your talents first hand, he may let you. And when you do, he is smitten; he’s soooooo going to walk as if he’s on the catwalk, hair flipping and everything.

˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚ ❀ Yun Jin | Genshin Impact

So unlike Bram, you guys match with similar energies. Although she is dignified on the stage, she is very friendly and extroverted with the right people. The main reason why I paired you with Yun Jin is definitely for your musical talents.

So imagine this, she asks you to play the violin at one of her performances! Though of course her style is primarily traditional, she would adore to have her significant other there with her, and performing with her. Speaking of history, if her opera performances are historical based, the two of you can talk about the history to your hearts content!

As you mentioned your singing talents, imaging song rehearsals together. Yun Jin would encourage you to sing along with her, or to simply hear you sing. I can see her watching you proudly, rose tinted glasses and all. If ever you had any performances of your own, either singing or violin playing, she would absolutely pay top money to watch you.

SEW HER AN OUTFIT!! My goodness she would love it. For her performances, she would love to wear anything and everything that you sew her. Yun Jin would admire the fabrics you use, the artistry that went into creating the garment, and would be smitten with any little details you would include. She comes across as someone who might enjoy cosplaying too, no canon reasoning behind it, I just get that vibe!

A/N: Thank you for your submission! ♡ also, I made sure to look on a few websites regarding ages - all characters I include in my matchups are over 18 :)

[wormfunkie]

the art brain stage by stage funk

so yes I'm back on my bullshit. so i noticed for longer than a week on and off the feeling of not liking my art again and looking at it and feeling shitty about it. now i still feel like I'm in this state of mind of study. but i suspect that prehapes this is where things start to go a screw. from study enthusiasm to the art block crud. where as before I found myself egar to learn more, now i more so just feel like I'm somehow behind on my art.

(specifically i think the lack of backgrounds in my stuff bugs me)

first things first, I took a step back and looked at my overalls life situation to see if there was something that could have possibly triggered this. I can only think of one thing, something I failed to do. Well the thing is life is full of mistakes and fucks ups though i am trying to learn not to be so critical of myself when these things happen because its not productive and most of the time its just mean inner demon head thoughts.

so now I am left wondering if prehapes this is what happens that causes the marination stage to occur? I have fun I draw alot and then suddenly I look at my stuff and hate it. But maybe it is prehapes the natural bullshittery that seems to appear before me over the course of my life - maybe when I am in the study phase those type of things sort of manifest their way into my head and cause more had brain funk gunk.

strangely enough after having a sort of conversation with myself in my head about this my conclusion was ultimately the same as the decision I believe I made before. To step back into my own life and take in the world around me. This sort of observation type of mindset.

I still feel the want to draw, and I still very much would like to continue with that motivation. But this seems to be the point where things go haywire for me. If anyone has experience with this or knows what I'm talking about advice is much appreciated 🤙

[salty-an-disco]

Week 2 dashing

Sucker

Hello my dashing and heroic companion

Heroic? You consider me heroic

Hmm hm a real hero, and one I especially need now for something very important.

Oh what is it?

See that Apple over there? I seriously appreciate it if you could get it for me.

Really. Appreciate. It.

Y-yeah?

A pie is then lands onto opportunist face (it’s blueberry)

HEY I SAID STAY AWAY FROM DASHING TEN TIMES ALREADY!

Uh that’s my cue to leave! Toodles…hero

THATS RIGHT YOU BETTER SCRAM! Ugg the nerve of that guy right?

Hehe! he called me hero!

Dashing!

bold of you to assume any of the Hero variants would fall for Oppy's bullshittery. /lh They all collectively hate that guy and give him the stinky eye whenever they can (except Ribbons. he's too busy dissociating)

Either way, lmao, this is so fun!!

[loud-shimo-screes]

https://gofund.me/b68f3c31

Hey-o, normally I wouldn't do this but given this is the second time I woke up scared as hell about money and life bullshittery (there's a LOT going on right now that's hard to deal with for me) I'm starting a gofundme. This is half need, half precaution because I don't want to be terrified about about mistakes. This is my first time living on my own and going to school so its been... a little shakey in terms if figuring stuff out.

I don't currently have financial aid for school this term and if my appeal form doesn't go through I won't be able to afford school out of pocket. My current job requires me to be a student but its pretty much my dream job as I'm working and learning about media tools and equipment so it'll help my later career. I'll likely have to quit both if I can't afford it and go back to job hunting which... spooks me a lot.

I really want to either have a cushion for mistakes or be able to fund outright if my appeal doesn't go through so trying this. Any help is GREATLY appreciated, and thank you.

I also have commissions for art open over on @leapofthekoi if you're at all interested in that. Thank you again and bless. Reblogs are also deeply appreciated.

[operaofsocks]

hi i'm tox and i like billdip. (he/him, 28 years old, queer as hell)

i tend to keep most of my fandom bullshittery to my main, @prismatoxic, but billdip is special to me in a way that just made this make sense. plus i have a lot to say about my fic writing for it that seems better kept to a specific audience.

speaking of fics--my magnum opus, so to speak, is Long Road to Hell, a bill redemption chapterfic that i've been working on since 2016. yes i'm still updating it. i promise! it's technically a slow burn, though once the romance actually starts it goes from 0 to 60 very fast. i can also assure you that bill does not turn into an uwu smol bean baby, and in fact i've tried really hard to make him believably start to alter his thoughts and actions while remaining kind of an abrasive bully. dunno if i always succeed, but i am trying.

it also does deal in bits and pieces of bill's backstory, so. come summer 2024 alex hirsch is most likely going to outdate just about everything i've written. maybe i can have the fic finished by then :')

i'm a dead dove enjoyer and dipper being underage or being manipulated by bill isn't something that bothers me (in fact, i welcome both). i also like humanoid bills just as much as his real form; i love seeing the different designs people come up with, and i think they all have merit, so don't come at me with that cringe culture shit. cringe is dead, i killed it myself.

i roleplay billdip from time to time with a heavy preference for playing bill. i'm always down to meet new people to do that with but if you're under 18, no. do not try. i am not interested. i also like talking to gf/billdip fans in general but the same rule applies. no i don't care that gravity falls is a cartoon. i'm not barging into your space by liking it and i'd appreciate you staying the fuck out of mine.

all that said... i also draw sometimes, so you might see some of that as well. my humanoid bill is a tall goblin man and i love him dearly.

[goingknowherewastaken]

NGL I'm internally thriving rn 😆

Excuse me as I take a moment to gush about these! They're a slightly early birthday present from my fiance and I have been wanting these since they were first revealed!

The ColourPop/fan bullshittery surrounding the launch of this collection (as entertaining and frustrating as it was) aside, these are delightful! The Bells lip oil, despite showing up as a deep burgundy (the most classic colored one they had for the collection), is a very nice sheer red tint on the lips that isn't sticky like a gloss - I definitely have been understanding the lip oil hype lately. And the eyeshadow palette...oh my god. After purging all of my shadow palettes last year I do not have one that has any blues or greens so I'm rather pleased by the assortment of shades they picked. They're desaturated and more muted so they're not super bold and in your face which I appreciate right now. And the packaging - *chef's kiss*!!!

I had seen one review a lady did after the launch and she just kept repeating how she didn't know where you would wear these products because of the shades picked and I'm baffled by that. They're not that out there for shades and can be extremely wearable day to day or day to night or going out in general. It all just depends on your preference for colors.

[raw-law]

!!!!! I adore you two, really. I always love educating people and having discussions with them but I do not wish to come across as arrogant just because I'm so honest (which most people cannot deal with). Both of you really deserve every ounce of my appreciation, even if the subject may still be a bit more foreign to you Light. I do not view it as a flaw, the fact that you're willing to expand your horizon on this (and everything else, really) makes it very easy to talk to you and I really like how you express yourself even when there's something you don't particularly agree with, or relate to. Very delighted at how polite you are. I absolutely agree with you, our expectations and preferences towards romantic partners do mesh. Out of the romance oriented questions you replied to occasionally I could get behind your replies a lot, seeing as you hold a standard of non dependancy and realism. True respect is sacred to me, and I like how the more someone mentally challenges you, the more respect you open up with towards that person. Very relatable and I cherish the position I'm at in your eyes. Now, Ryuzaki on the other hand.. Let me tell you, people have called me stoic all my life, but this right here? You really managed to get a wholehearted laugh out of me. I do sincerely hope you managed to get some sleep, but I have to admit I am heavily entertained by your way of gaining knowledge. I, too, like to sacrifice my precious sleep for it hahaha. Though what a shame.. What a shame it is to hear a smart man like you degrade himself like that. I'm not liking that and I truly believe you should put yourself on this pedestal as well so let me mirror some of the praise I have been kindly receiving from you boys. You are not slow by all means, nor are you incoherent. I can follow perfectly fine, there is no bullshittery to put up with.. Your natural curiosity is nothing to be ashamed of, it should be admired. I'm certainly not suffering from your rambling, I was in fact looking forward to this reply and you surely did not disappoint. Trust me, it would be nothing but a pleasure to me to be bombarded by your questions even in the middle of the night haha. Sorry, now it's my turn to sound a bit shallow haha I'm just a bit flustered. Every time I press send I start doubting myself because I fear I might seem like a total weirdo and creep and every single time you welcome my words so greatly, both of you. It always hurt me when people painted you as some ugly rotting creature, Ryuzaki, because I am certainly not failing to notice how charming you are. Naturally, even, since you're not really trying at all. I understand how people are drawn in by Light's effortless elegance but I think you are bright too, Ryuzaki. Very much so actually. I greatly appreciate the warmth in the way you interact with me.

Anyway, sensual is the word I was looking for. In the past, my partners have always used that term when referring to me. I want to tell you two something a bit contradicting yet not short of amusing; I already had this opinion before this happened, but around.. Four or five years ago, I was in a relationship with someone who deeply fascinated me. A very busy person who majored in psychology along with a job in security and a large social media presence with a big audience on the side, quite a bit older than me as well. We got acquainted through our shared interests and while getting to know each other, they slowly but surely revealed their fragility to me. I was obviously more than honored, but back then I wasn't as confident as I am today and everything was a tad bit intimidating to me. My life was vastly different to theirs, so I wasn't sure about being able to take care of them but since they held such mental strength, I figured it would not be much of an issue. Until, one day, they told me something that was alien to me - they told me that they haven't shed a single tear in years. Through laughter. Casually, just like that. With their busy life and blows of fate, I kept on asking myself how that was possible and eventually realized it was repression that held their tears in. Something about that was so cruel to me that it made me instantly tell them "I want to change that." in a way that would be beneficial for them. Mind you, me personally I would break if I couldn't shed my precious tears. I like to cry and I like to cry often, I cry when I listen to sad music or when I watch sad movies. I cry out of anger, sadness, and joy. I would never be ashamed of that. I figured it must be torturous to not be able to, literally, let your emotions flow out of you like that, especially since crying releases well needed endorphins. I wasn't sure how to approach it because really, how do you say "hey, want me to make you cry?" without sounding like an asshole? It was almost comical, especially with me being younger. I didn't want them to shed tears of sadness, so this was when I tended to eroticism. After getting their consent, I began to strategically pinpoint their most harmless of weaknesses, expanding into those that rooted deeply. They were woven into knots and with them and me having a rather long distance between us, it usually ended up in me rambling on the phone, building up into something more erotic day by day. It goes without saying there was an insane amount of trust involved, someone recognizing your weaknesses like that can be insanely harmful and dangerous, I chose my every word carefully and yet if I made it sound too weak, I knew I couldn't reach anything. Sometimes, they were so relaxed that they just fell asleep. This was a huge compliment to me, proved their trust and just reassured me I was the only one who could do this for them. Not once did we have sex, believe me when I say I have never physically touched them and yet one day it happened, they cried and they cried hard. It was cathartic and sexually gratifying for the both of us. This was when I realized how erotically capable I am.

I apologize for the length of this ask, but I figured this story might be highly interesting to someone who's not well versed on this matter. And yes Light, whether you're a mass murderer or not is not to be questioned in the slightest. It's a fact, as Ryuzaki said. Not insulting you, the burden you carry must be heavy if that's the path you chose for yourself. I won't pick sides. I wish to remain neutral and realistic.

-🩶

L:

wow.. i'm honestly not sure if i can make a response that lives up to everything you've shared here. but.... shit. i'll try, hahah.

i'm glad you found my sleep deprived prattling amusing, though light definitely did make it more coherent than it originally was, so thank him for that part if anything, hah. your compliments are also highly flattering. i'm not.. really used to praise that's not in regards to my work..? so this is certainly new. i'm not sure what's the uh.. socially right way to accept such remarks? but i do highly appreciate them. it's just.. very new, hahah. and you say i have charm.

i'm also glad that you can feel comfortable asking and answering with what you please. i wouldn't want to foster an environment that makes you feel like a creep, or a weirdo.. or question what you're doing here (it may be a reference but it is true, i assure you). plus, i just like learning about people, so lengthy responses are always welcome. as much as i like taunting light with stupid questions, i very much enjoy discussions like this as well.

and the story... that's the main part that i'm not sure i can match up to.

it's beautiful. really. i'm not sure what else i can say. i honestly didn't think relationships like that could really.. exist..? but in the sense of that kind of deep emotional intimacy, especially in the form of erotica. or maybe it's just a subconscious mentality of not believing i could personally achieve that... i'm not sure. either way, it's an incredibly touching story. i doubt i'll forget it. thank you again for the response, even though i feel like "thank you" is too weak of a phrase to describe how much i like this story.

Light:

I'll...try my best to answer your ask, sorry for the long wait...I've just been thinking of a better way to answer you.

First of all, I'm glad that you're writing to ask. Don't worry about seeming like a 'creep' or a 'weirdo', we're always interested to learn more---especially when the subject is interesting, like in this case.

And....I must say this. Your story is beautiful. Honestly, that's why I've been waiting on this reply for so long---I'm not very sure how to adequately respond to what you've told to both of us. I guess I can say that, because of it, I understand now that eroticism can...make people feel emotions they haven't felt in months, years, possibly even decades. And, honestly, that's just so...amazing? If that's the right word, because words seem to be unfortunately failing me here. I suppose I'll just enjoy your story in silence. Just know that I deeply enjoyed it, and, well...I can say that you've helped my understanding of the subject come a long, long way since the start.

Thank you. And you're right: it is highly interesting. I'd absolutely love to hear more of this, though my response is heavily inadequate...

[ventrue-in-control]

eavesdrop (velkin)

No you're misunderstanding. He's just going through his edgy phase. let him explore a bit of the vampire bullshittery. he'll get over it. theres more to life than blood and destruction and all that other bullshit. he's nice I swear.

like yeah he's a cunt. and he's cunty. but his heart is in the right place. we used to argue like all the time. and at the time I didn't appreciated it. but now? I think he cared and didnt want to see me loose myself. I hope I can be that for him too. I just. well. he was good at that kinda stuff. Im not. Im not good with people I think? idk nat. just be nice to him alright? and to his ghoul. man. I wish I could talk to his ghoul and ask if he's alright but velkin is unfortunately smart and wouldnt allow any ghoul to spill any info about himself. he's frustratingly paranoid. I just wanna make sure my friends alright ergghhhh