#apparently I hate myself
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I think sometimes I just put myself in situations to create angst and then never talk about them, it's a strange and unusual form of torture. Maybe I need to go back to therapy after all. I should sleep.
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am I on my forth relisten of the finale in like 8 hours? maybe
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Started playing genshin on my phone yesterday, why did noone tell me its ripoff zelda with more characters
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i pity people who say “yeah it’s nice to see these two characters as friends but their relationship becomes so much more meaningful if you see them as romantic.” how has the dredges of the amanormative world poisoned you this bad? have you never had a friend or wanted a friend who changed your life for the better? or if you do i feel bad for them because of so obviously little you value them
#and my friend xy whom i stole some lines of this rant from#aphobia#amanormativity#kiwi’s aspec posting#aromantic#APPARENTLY MY TAG RANT PICKED UP THE SHIP???? i’m so sorry for all the people who thought i was hating on it#i’ll have you know i made a post about qpr ze / li nk (TRYING NOT TO TAG IT BY ACCIDENT) so yeah i do like the ship myself#i just don���t like it when people say it can Only be romantic
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the callum / runaan dynamic is so funny bc like. out of nowhere your daughter has a boyfriend who happens to be the most wildcard character you imagine she could find - human (mind you you're currently in the process of unlearning all your racial prejudices), magical, and a government official in addition to all of his other Emo Personal Lore - and they're the most beautifully devoted but also most painfully public affection-displaying couple you've ever seen and the guy also kind of freed your soul from purgatory plus you love and trust your daughter so basically you just kind of have to Deal With It. yet it would seem he's determined to make that as difficult as possible because he is the biggest fucking dork you have ever met in your life and it seems you are the only person who is bothered by this because your husband is amused, your daughter thinks he is the greatest thing to ever happen, and the dumbass himself attempts to show you some respect but also apparently refuses to stop being cringe so now you must continue on with your life while this loser teenager does your daughter in the room next to yours every night and you can't do anything about it because oh yeah you killed his father
#like he's just There#like rayla's just like “oh yeah he lives here now” and YOU CAN'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT#because they are in no place to be disapproving of rayla over anything#and again of course he is so good to her and he makes her so happy and you can't deny they are in unfathomable amounts of love#so yeah ok you have to tolerate him but you'd think he'd act like someone who is living with his girlfriend's parents whom he just met#and yeah he does try to suck up but he's also acting a fool every day of his life and is apparently not looking to change that#and he is not AT ALL shy with your child and will suck her face off any chance he gets#and rayla is so smart and strong and capable that you know she knows exactly what she's doing#and-#i cannot fucking say this enough#-you just have to *DEAL WITH IT.*#rayllum#moonfam#runaan#tdp runaan#callum#tdp callum#rayla#tdp rayla#tdp s7#tdp spoilers#tdp#the dragon prince#continuethesaga#giveusthesaga#tdp fav tag#self fav tag i hate myself
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Cobra Kai 4.10 What do you say we team up again?
#cobra kai#lawrusso#ckedit#cobrakaiedit#efedits#daniel larusso#johnny lawrence#ralph macchio#william zabka#this is part of an ENORMOUS gifset i made because i like torturing myself apparently#also made myself lose it a little bit giffing this johnny. what is this face. what is this what are you doing.#i can't look at him for long my eyes start glowing red#billy zabka..........billy billy billy fucking zabka when i catch you..............#ps one of my favourite gifs ive ever made#WARNING these gifs will look orange and saturated as fuck on mobile i don't know how to fix that i guess tumblr mobile hates me
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beep beep im a sheep
speeddraw below the cut (audio warning)
song: "Cult of Dionysis" by The Orion Experience
#before anybody says anything i have never played cotl in my entire life and i dont plan to. but. crow showed me some narilamb art#and i. well.. HMMMMM kinda fruity if i do say so myself..#also i wanted to play around with the lambs design and had fun basing their outfit a little on crusader armor. mostly the cloth in the fron#i dont think id last 10 minutes playing cotl. partly because i suck at strategy games and not hugely drawn to roguelike games#and partly because i think i would cry real tears if i had to sacrifice someone despite fully knowing theyre nonsentient npc characters#i must admit i think the world and gameplay mechanics are interesting.. havent watched any playthroughs but ive been skimming thru the#wiki pages. kindareminds me of binding of Isaac but i dont have the patience for those kinds of games sadly#also apparently u guys are getting a sex update so i feel like ill be in full blast of whatever comes out of that#i might draw god of death lamb because i kind of have an idea of what their horns would look like. but im gonna hate drawing an outfit ugh#noooo dont usurp god and reap destruction for generations to come youre so sexy haha#cotl#cult of the lamb#cotl lamb#cotl lambert#cotl fanart#my art#myart#videos#speeddraw#progress art
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#perfect cell#dragon ball#dbz#my art#2024#going back to my roots#ngl I drew this solely cos APPARENTLY he's gonna be in the fortnite store soon#Guys I'm on my knees BEGGING for this#I don't post dbz stuff anymore but Cell is genuinely my favorite fictional character ever. My 1#my one true love#If he actually ends up being in the store soon I just can see myself wasting so much money on emotes for him.#jfc I hate this game ghhhhhhh!!!
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remember when i had that dream where you [Y/N] have a sleepover with tumblr sexyman tony and sketchbook where you guys just end up in a polyamorous relationship ??? well . i tried to find a fanfic that would even slightly line up with the description. even if it was only vaguely
but uhhh ....
there were none . so i had to do it myself
#have i ever told you how fucking scared i am of tumblr sexyman tony and paige ?#actually . im not scared of them – but seeing them just makes me go into a fight or flight state#i hate my nine year old self for being obsessed with them . and i think they'd hate current me for being obsessed with digitaltime#so . really . i think we're even#can you tell which one i hate less ? [hint : it's not the blue twink]#anyway . im doing this more for you – the people who follow my account – than i am for myself#i tried to make it believable for the 2014 era of padlock but like i dunno how good or bad of a job i did (~_~;)#i hope they all get obliterated ; blown up to smithereens#dhmis#dhmis art#dhmis fanfic#dhmis tony#tony the talking clock#dhmis sketchbook#dhmis paige#paige the sketchbook#dhmis padlock#apparently there are no tony x reader or paige x reader tags on tumblr . so whoops#x reader fanfiction#x reader fic#for the first time in my life . i hope one of my posts / fanfics absolutely flops#my fanfiction#archive of our own#pls ignore#its not finished btw#and i don't know when ill be updating it#shrug
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What a good thing we lose? What a bad thing we knew ♬
#majima land#roo medici#mingyue majima#naomi butler#ohh I so freaking hate myself for this.#me: i hate love triangle!-#-also me: unintentionally doing a love triangle in sims#like guys. in my defense THEY did it themselves#mingyue started crushing hard on roo when he went with her on that mt.komorebi festival (literally her hometown)#naomi LITERALLY FLIRTED WITH ROO the first time they met- she already saw him very attractive oh lord#till then roo & naomi really had close bonding I won’t lie#mingyue is the shy type apparently she always runs away even tho shes crushin on roo n thinks hes very attractive#AND FREAKING ROO LIKS THEM BOTH EQUALLY OMG-#plz mr. equal man stop playing w my heart and choose for me. like- plz#and the worst part??? I CANT CHOOSE EITHER.#sims 4#ts4#simblr
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#a doodley#refusing to draw myself accurately bc i dont wanna be more depressed but making up for it by still adding cheye features#like my face stains and how i only grow lots of chin hair on one side#idk what the face stains are called i thot it was tear stains like on white dogs but#apparently thats just a bit of brown jutting past the edges of your eyes...mines just like slightly grayer stains going round the cheeks#also i was trying to do that simple shading style but i cant do ittt i like the hatching#and im so bad at shading i hates it
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Sneak peak into me absolutely losing my mind with flying Q. I hate everything.
#i've been doodling them for weeks now and finally decided to try a proper kiss#with a hovering Q#because apparently I hate myself#it's very awkwardly cutesy#looking back I should've just put his head higher#welp it is what it is#hope I will finish this#q star trek#jean luc picard#qcard#picard x q#star trek tng#my art unfortunately
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I wanted to share this informative little comic for International (Working) Women's Day:
#international working women's day#international women's day#eleri harris#herstory#worker's rights#herstory blogging#lesfem blogging#women's art#i couldn't find any good posts in a brief tag search.. apparently must do everything myself on women's day smh#i hate seeing lame corporate meaningless soundbytes when this is actually us working women's labor rights day#some of the dates in the comic may be a bit off... will have to check again later
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#I struggled so hard today#and for no apparent fucking reason#I struggled with something at work that I've done for the first time while also constantly task switching#and I STILL NOTICED MY MISTAKE#but the fact that I made a mistake in the first place is fucking killing me#I feel like I will be executed for it#it makes my skin crawl#and to know that I'll have to go up to another human being who I respect deeply and be like hey I made a mistake please don't hate me#is the first fucking thing#BUT IT DOESN'T NEED TO BE#part of science is noticing your own mistakes so why is this so terrible to me#I know upbringing bla#yes I was raised to believe that among all other things I'm smart#and I have had this proven to me over and over and over growing up#so when I actually struggle with something I can no longer be smart therefore I am nothing#utterly worthless#and nobody even meant me any harm by telling me I was smart#this is such a STUPID FUCKING problem to have#uh I was told I'm smart#bitch what#yes being yelled at from 10 through 28 by my father for completely unpredictable reasons did not help with me thinking this is terrible#BUT STILL#get your shit together#see and even now I'm beating myself up for struggling with something#URGH#I just want peace and not existential dread whenever I make a mistake that is definitely my fault#personal#so and if you've actually made it till down here I'm giving you a big hug#we'll make it somehow
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Voretober 2024
2. Thrill
#mallow's art#voretober#voretober2024#my first thought was a rollercoaster because i hate myself apparently#never drawing one of those again
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when agatha blamed rio for a power that rio didn’t ask for and couldn’t control, shutting her out and pushing her away and making her the villain, she really did become her mother
#my brain hates me apparently#bc it came up with this and now i don’t know what to do with myself#agatha all along#agatha harkness#rio vidal#agathario#evanora harkness
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