#anywaysss thats all for today

[boowhumps]

Whumptober 2023

Day 2

(@whumptober)

By - B.W

⚠TW⚠

~ Swearing

~ Mentions of Possession

~ Mentions of Scars

~ Mentions of Death

Enjoy!

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The urge.

The feeling.

It coursed through my veins with force.

A searing pain.

Left behind from old wounds reopened.

It was inevitable.

Time seemed to stop as I walked unconsciously, led only by vengeance. It spoke to me, sweet words laced with venom.

It promised revenge..

peace..

purpose..

power..

That was all I needed.

"..C̵͉͋̔͞l̙͖̑̾ͣo̯̱̊͊͢s̠҉͍͊ͅẹ̿͋̒̕r̴̨̦͕̝.. L̸̖̽̌͂ẹ̿͋̒̕t̲̂̓ͩ̑ ỉ͔͖̜͌t̲̂̓ͩ̑ l̙͖̑̾ͣẹ̿͋̒̕ā̤̓̍͘ḑ̴̞͛̒ y҉̃̀̋̑o̯̱̊͊͢ư̡͕̭̇.. D̶͔̭̪̻o̯̱̊͊͢ṇ̤͛̒̍'t̲̂̓ͩ̑ s̠҉͍͊ͅḣ̖̻͛̓y҉̃̀̋̑ ā̤̓̍͘w̦̺̐̐͟ā̤̓̍͘y҉̃̀̋̑ ṇ̤͛̒̍o̯̱̊͊͢w̦̺̐̐͟.." It spoke in a low voice.

"Why would I.? I've come this far already.." I mumble in response.

"..t̲̂̓ͩ̑ḣ̖̻͛̓ā̤̓̍͘t̲̂̓ͩ̑ ỉ͔͖̜͌s̠҉͍͊ͅ w̦̺̐̐͟ḣ̖̻͛̓y҉̃̀̋̑ y҉̃̀̋̑o̯̱̊͊͢ư̡͕̭̇ w̦̺̐̐͟ẹ̿͋̒̕r̴̨̦͕̝ẹ̿͋̒̕ c͕͗ͤ̕̕ḣ̖̻͛̓o̯̱̊͊͢s̠҉͍͊ͅẹ̿͋̒̕ṇ̤͛̒̍.. A̷͙ͭͫ̕ṇ̤͛̒̍ ư̡͕̭̇ṇ̤͛̒̍l̙͖̑̾ͣỉ͔͖̜͌t̲̂̓ͩ̑ s̠҉͍͊ͅo̯̱̊͊͢ư̡͕̭̇l̙͖̑̾ͣ.. t̲̂̓ͩ̑ā̤̓̍͘r̴̨̦͕̝ṇ̤͛̒̍ỉ͔͖̜͌s̠҉͍͊ͅḣ̖̻͛̓ẹ̿͋̒̕ḑ̴̞͛̒ by҉̃̀̋̑ t̲̂̓ͩ̑ḣ̖̻͛̓o̯̱̊͊͢s̠҉͍͊ͅẹ̿͋̒̕ y҉̃̀̋̑o̯̱̊͊͢ư̡͕̭̇ t̲̂̓ͩ̑r̴̨̦͕̝ư̡͕̭̇s̠҉͍͊ͅt̲̂̓ͩ̑ẹ̿͋̒̕ḑ̴̞͛̒.. y҉̃̀̋̑o̯̱̊͊͢ư̡͕̭̇ ā̤̓̍͘r̴̨̦͕̝ẹ̿͋̒̕ p̞̈͑̚͞ẹ̿͋̒̕r̴̨̦͕̝f̵͖̜̉ͅẹ̿͋̒̕c͕͗ͤ̕̕t̲̂̓ͩ̑.." It responds with a mixture of different laughs.

I sigh as I continue to get closer to the jewel. Once it's in my view, something inside of me ignites.

"..t̲̂̓ͩ̑ḣ̖̻͛̓ā̤̓̍͘t̲̂̓ͩ̑'s̠҉͍͊ͅ r̴̨̦͕̝ỉ͔͖̜͌ĝ̽̓̀͑ḣ̖̻͛̓t̲̂̓ͩ̑.. f̵͖̜̉ͅẹ̿͋̒̕ẹ̿͋̒̕l̙͖̑̾ͣ ỉ͔͖̜͌t̲̂̓ͩ̑.. ỉ͔͖̜͌t̲̂̓ͩ̑'s̠҉͍͊ͅ c͕͗ͤ̕̕ā̤̓̍͘l̙͖̑̾ͣl̙͖̑̾ͣỉ͔͖̜͌ṇ̤͛̒̍ĝ̽̓̀͑ t̲̂̓ͩ̑o̯̱̊͊͢ y҉̃̀̋̑o̯̱̊͊͢ư̡͕̭̇.. l̙͖̑̾ͣỉ͔͖̜͌s̠҉͍͊ͅt̲̂̓ͩ̑ẹ̿͋̒̕ṇ̤͛̒̍ c͕͗ͤ̕̕l̙͖̑̾ͣo̯̱̊͊͢s̠҉͍͊ͅẹ̿͋̒̕l̙͖̑̾ͣy҉̃̀̋̑.. ā̤̓̍͘ṇ̤͛̒̍ḑ̴̞͛̒ w̦̺̐̐͟ẹ̿͋̒̕ s̠҉͍͊ͅḣ̖̻͛̓ā̤̓̍͘l̙͖̑̾ͣl̙͖̑̾ͣ bẹ̿͋̒̕ o̯̱̊͊͢ṇ̤͛̒̍ẹ̿͋̒̕.." It says, lingering behind me.

My breath gets caught in my throat. A burning feeling makes its way through my body. It tracks through everything scar, reminding me of my failures.

"..F̘͍͖ͫ͘ẹ̿͋̒̕ẹ̿͋̒̕l̙͖̑̾ͣ t̲̂̓ͩ̑ḣ̖̻͛̓ẹ̿͋̒̕ p̞̈͑̚͞ā̤̓̍͘ỉ͔͖̜͌ṇ̤͛̒̍.. t̲̂̓ͩ̑ḣ̖̻͛̓ẹ̿͋̒̕ p̞̈͑̚͞ư̡͕̭̇l̙͖̑̾ͣl̙͖̑̾ͣ.. t̲̂̓ͩ̑ḣ̖̻͛̓ẹ̿͋̒̕ p̞̈͑̚͞r̴̨̦͕̝o̯̱̊͊͢p̞̈͑̚͞ḣ̖̻͛̓ẹ̿͋̒̕c͕͗ͤ̕̕y҉̃̀̋̑ w̦̺̐̐͟ỉ͔͖̜͌l̙͖̑̾ͣl̙͖̑̾ͣ bẹ̿͋̒̕ ḿ̬̏ͤͅẹ̿͋̒̕t̲̂̓ͩ̑.. t̲̂̓ͩ̑ḣ̖̻͛̓ẹ̿͋̒̕ v͒̄ͭ̏̇ẹ̿͋̒̕s̠҉͍͊ͅs̠҉͍͊ͅẹ̿͋̒̕l̙͖̑̾ͣ ṇ̤͛̒̍ẹ̿͋̒̕ẹ̿͋̒̕ḑ̴̞͛̒s̠҉͍͊ͅ ā̤̓̍͘ ḣ̖̻͛̓o̯̱̊͊͢s̠҉͍͊ͅt̲̂̓ͩ̑.. ỉ͔͖̜͌t̲̂̓ͩ̑ ṇ̤͛̒̍ẹ̿͋̒̕ẹ̿͋̒̕ḑ̴̞͛̒s̠҉͍͊ͅ y҉̃̀̋̑o̯̱̊͊͢ư̡͕̭̇.." It trails on, eyes glowing.

Ämñê§ïå..~

The jewel called me, whispering a melody that could not be ignored.

I stepped closer, hand extended out, just reaching for it..

"..ĝ̽̓̀͑o̯̱̊͊͢ o̯̱̊͊͢ṇ̤͛̒̍.. r̴̨̦͕̝ẹ̿͋̒̕ā̤̓̍͘c͕͗ͤ̕̕ḣ̖̻͛̓ f̵͖̜̉ͅo̯̱̊͊͢r̴̨̦͕̝ ỉ͔͖̜͌t̲̂̓ͩ̑.. l̙͖̑̾ͣẹ̿͋̒̕t̲̂̓ͩ̑ ỉ͔͖̜͌t̲̂̓ͩ̑ ỉ͔͖̜͌ṇ̤͛̒̍.." It whispers. "..ḑ̴̞͛̒o̯̱̊͊͢ ṇ̤͛̒̍o̯̱̊͊͢t̲̂̓ͩ̑ f̵͖̜̉ͅẹ̿͋̒̕ā̤̓̍͘r̴̨̦͕̝ ỉ͔͖̜͌t̲̂̓ͩ̑.. ỉ͔͖̜͌t̲̂̓ͩ̑ w̦̺̐̐͟o̯̱̊͊͢ṇ̤͛̒̍'t̲̂̓ͩ̑ ḣ̖̻͛̓ư̡͕̭̇r̴̨̦͕̝t̲̂̓ͩ̑ y҉̃̀̋̑o̯̱̊͊͢ư̡͕̭̇..

The jewel is in arms reach now, it floats in front of me, glowing brightly as the melody continues.

Ämñê§ïå..~

It floats slowly in the palm of my hand, glowing dimly.

"..why me.?" I mumbles, staring at the jewel.

"..ỉ͔͖̜͌t̲̂̓ͩ̑ ṇ̤͛̒̍ẹ̿͋̒̕ẹ̿͋̒̕ḑ̴̞͛̒s̠҉͍͊ͅ ā̤̓̍͘ v͒̄ͭ̏̇ẹ̿͋̒̕s̠҉͍͊ͅs̠҉͍͊ͅẹ̿͋̒̕l̙͖̑̾ͣ.. y҉̃̀̋̑o̯̱̊͊͢ư̡͕̭̇ ā̤̓̍͘r̴̨̦͕̝ẹ̿͋̒̕ p̞̈͑̚͞ẹ̿͋̒̕r̴̨̦͕̝f̵͖̜̉ͅẹ̿͋̒̕c͕͕͗ͤ͗ͤ̕̕̕̕t̲̲̂̓ͩ̑̂̓ͩ̑.. ā̤̓̍͘ bā̤̓̍͘l̙͖̑̾ͣā̤̓̍͘ṇ̤͛̒̍c͕͗ͤ̕̕ẹ̿͋̒̕ o̯̱̊͊͢f̵͖̜̉ͅ ĝ̽̓̀͑o̯̱̊͊͢o̯̱̊͊͢ḑ̴̞͛̒ ā̤̓̍͘ṇ̤͛̒̍ḑ̴̞͛̒ bā̤̓̍͘ḑ̴̞͛̒.. y҉̃̀̋̑o̯̱̊͊͢ư̡͕̭̇ ḿ̬̏ͤͅư̡͕̭̇s̠҉͍͊ͅt̲̂̓ͩ̑ bẹ̿͋̒̕ o̯̱̊͊͢ṇ̤͛̒̍ẹ̿͋̒̕.." It replies sternly. "..y҉̃̀̋̑o̯̱̊͊͢ư̡͕̭̇ ḿ̬̏ͤͅư̡͕̭̇s̠҉͍͊ͅt̲̂̓ͩ̑ ā̤̓̍͘c͕͕͗ͤ͗ͤ̕̕̕̕c͕͕͗ͤ͗ͤ̕̕̕̕ẹ̿͋̒̕p̞̈͑̚͞t̲̂̓ͩ̑ ỉ͔͖̜͌t̲̂̓ͩ̑.."

I inhale sharply. "..okay.. how do I.. let it in.?" I ask slowly, my hand shaking slightly.

"..c͕͗ͤ̕̕l̙͖̑̾ͣo̯̱̊͊͢s̠҉͍͊ͅẹ̿͋̒̕ y҉̃̀̋̑o̯̱̊͊͢ư̡͕̭̇r̴̨̦͕̝ ẹ̿͋̒̕y҉̃̀̋̑ẹ̿͋̒̕s̠҉͍͊ͅ.. br̴̨̦͕̝ẹ̿͋̒̕ā̤̓̍͘t̲̂̓ͩ̑ḣ̖̻͛̓ẹ̿͋̒̕.. ā̤̓̍͘ṇ̤͛̒̍ḑ̴̞͛̒ ỉ͔͖̜͌t̲̂̓ͩ̑ w̦̺̐̐͟ỉ͔͖̜͌l̙͖̑̾ͣl̙͖̑̾ͣ s̠҉͍͊ͅp̞̈͑̚͞ẹ̿͋̒̕ā̤̓̍͘ḳ̯͍̑ͦ t̲̂̓ͩ̑o̯̱̊͊͢.y҉̃̀̋̑o̯̱̊͊͢ư̡͕̭̇.." It says before vanishing.

I stand alone, feeling waves of anxiety crash over me. I slowly close my eyes, taking a deep breath.

Slowly, my hand stops shaking, and my body eases.

Ämñê§ï̈å̊.. l阮êñ †ð mê..

Wê årê mêåñ† †ð ßê ðñê..

Öþêñ ɏðµr §ðµl †ð mê..

†hêɏ Ððñ'† ¢årê åß𵆠ɏðµ.. ñð† lïkê Ì Ðð..

Ɏðµ mµ§†ñ'† ßê å£råïÐ.. Ì ��ñ̃lɏ wï§h †ð hêlþ..

..†hï§ wïll ðñ̃lɏ hµr† £ðr å mðmêñ†..

My eyes remain shit, hearing the voice in my head speak. Slowly, the burning I previously felt returns, but stronger. My hands begin to tremble uncontrollably. I don't dare to open my eyes. Not yet..

The jewel rises up, and it flashes a bright light through the room. Small, thin, ribbon-like strings break out from it, and they wrap themselves around me.

They tighten around my arms.. my legs.. my neck.. They attach to me like a puppet.

My eyes snap open, and I stare at the jewel, unable to break contact from it.

It speaks again.

Ämñê§ïå.. Ì §êñ§ê måñɏ êmð†ï̈ðñ§ ïñ ɏðµ..

£êår.. Äñgêr.. §åÐñꧧ.. ñµmßñꧧ..

Lê† †hð§ê £êêlïñg§ gð ñðw..

Rï§ê µþ, Ämñê§ïå..

§þrêåÐ ɏðµr wïñg§..

ÄñÐ ðþêñ µþ ɏðµr mï̈ñ̃Ð †ð mê..

Ì åm ñð† †hêm, Ämñê§ïå..

Ì wïll ñð† hµr† ɏðµ..

Ì wïll ñð† ßê†råɏ ɏðµ..

Ì wïll ñð† lêåÐ ɏðµ †ð ɏðµr Ðêå†h..

Ì wï̈ll §åvê ɏðµ £rðm †hï§ êñÐlꧧ åµ££êr..

The pain increases, leaving me breathless. I reach my hand towards the jewel, ready to grasp it..

Ɏê§, Ämñê§ïå..

L阮êñ †ð ɏðµr§êl£..

ÄñÐ lê† µ§ ßê ðñê..

The strings tighten, and I feel a crack inside of myself. My body falls forward, stopped only by the strings that hold me up.

The pain becomes unbearable..

It's a flashing ache, like if my mind was being broken in two.

I throw my head back, and I scream.

Memories long forgotten flood my head. Every intricate detail flashes before my very eyes. I watch every moment that led up to this in clarity.

The screams that leave my throat aren't my own. They spill out involuntarily. I lose control, feeling every scar burn as I'm reminded of how it ended up there.

Suddenly, it all stops.

My screams cut off midway, leaving my mouth agape.

Tears fall from my eyes, rolling down my face.

I can't remember the last time I felt so.. vulnerable..

The strings unattach themselves from me, letting me crumple to the ground.

I feel the aftershock of the pain running through my body. My heartbeat thumps loudly in my ears. My mind fogs up.

I feel my heart beat slow, until it fades to basically nothingness.

I attempt to blink away the black spots in my vision to no avail. They grow until exhaustion takes over and my eyes shut against my will.

My hair falls in front of my face. A few stray tears leave my eyes as I completely fade away.

The last thing I hear is the slamming of a door opening, and someone shouting my name..

But it's too far away to pay attention to.

Another voice sounds above it, speaking to me as I lose consciousness..

..Lðñg Lïvê Ämñê§ïå..

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[anotherferalrat]

I wish a very merry good night

AND FUCK YOU

To the genshin editors who have been using est ce que tu m'aimes in their edits

ESPECIALLY THE NEUVITHESLEY EDITORS

YALL I CAN'T KEEP CRYING EVERYTIME I GO ON TIKTOK PLS HAVE MERCY PLS-

Shoutout to that kaeluc edit with the same song tho, beautiful content, love them, so sorry the comments roasted u alive bestie😭🫶

[antiwhores]

hear me out - being with newly appointed pro hero bakugou and finding out he's a virgin, slowly introducing him into new things and him, the big bad and scary kastuki bakugou, being a whiny baby in bed 👀

could be a series, could be a drabble, I'm just putting my ideas on the table yk 🤷🏽‍♀️

(just read this over, and it's so vague and not descriptive 💀 clearly there's a reason I don't write myself but anywaysss)

You’re so real for this.

He confesses to his virginity one night during patrol - on accident of course. You’re his sidekick, maybe a little higher in rank then him. You LOVE to tease him. People call you crazy for it since hes always so close to blasting you to hell but you dont care. The angry flush on his face always does it for you.

“You probably pay for prostitutes all the time Bakugou!” He clicks his tongue dismissively at you, “The hell I do.” “Just admit you’re a devious pervert! I already know! You wanna know how I know? The way you stare at me when I-“ “IM A VIRGIN. THERE ARE NO PROSTITUTES.”

Big mistake on his part, the teasing gets worse. Who knew that the great Dynamite would let his secretary bully him?

“Hey Dynamite, ‘bet you haven’t even kissed anyone yet, huh?” You blurt one day through a giggle. These files were getting boring and having to sit in silence for too long made you antsy. He mumbled something under his breath before continuing to highlight passages through his reading glasses.

You questioned him but he ignored you. You hated being ignored.

You got up and walked over to him, spinning his chair towards you and supporting yourself on his thighs. “Am I right then?” You cooed, inches before his face. He groaned, “Do your fucking work and leave me alone before I fire your ass.”

Your face immediately lights up, “Oh my god! You haven’t!” A red bush infects his cheeks when he looks away. He looks embarrassed and humiliated and you start to feel bad. “Shut the fuck up, I have before.”

You wrap yours arms around his neck and pull him in to your chest. “Its okay~.” And in the split of a second, without even thinking, you connect your lips to his. It was quick, just a small peck.

But Bakugou was HOOKED. his face was blushed and his breathing was picking up.

He would never admit this but he does have a thing for you. He thinks about you a lot. A LOT. In ways that he shouldn’t whilst being your boss. He finds himself at night thinking about all of your words. Your teases and your lingering touches.

He thinks that you brainwashed him, you’re definitely lying about your quirk. Your quirk has to be a love plague type.

Thats why he grabbed your face and shoved his tongue in your mouth. Thats also why he shoved you on his lap and held you there just so he could hump you like a feral bunny until he came all over himself.

Its also why he’s texting you at 2 am with his cock in his hand.

Katsuki: Oi

Y/n: Whats up, boss?

How is he supposed to ask to fuck you? But not right away? But he still wants to touch and fuck you? Also he wants nudes.

This is too confusing.

Y/n: Your dick is probably in your hand right now. Isn’t it?

He’s adding telepathy to you quirk file tomorrow.

Y/n: I’ll help you out. *one attachment*

You sent a picture of your bare, soapy titties. He didn’t think that he could get harder in his hands. His slow and sensual strokes turned hard and fast until he came on himself for the second time today.

Damn it, you were going to be the end of him.

After last night, you both would meet up. It was never planned but always just whenever he would drag you into an enclosed space with a huge hard on.

“Fuck, can you… can we…” You had to squint to see his expression through the darkness of the closet. He was red from the neck to the ears and he breathed in deep, unsteady breaths.

You had already jerked him off once today. He was whining, gripping his desk so hard that it started to chip when he was closed to his high.

“Hmm, I don’t think you’re ready.” You cooed.

He balled up his fists and clenched his teeth at that. “Im not a fucking teenager.” “Yeah well you cum like one.”

Before he could rebuttal you got on your knees. He immediately closed his mouth as you began to unbuckle his belt. “Ill give you something close to it since I’m so nice.”

You whip out his cock so fast his breath hitches. He’s a lot bigger than you’ve ever taken before. You look down to hide the intimidated smile.

He was puddy in your hands as soon as you took the first lap up his cock. You felt his hands tangle in your hair when you finally went down. A moan slipped out before he could catch it when you deep throated him.

Up and down, up and down. His moans got more and more verbal until he started to speak.

“Fuck…. Tellin’ me I can’t fuck you, i- haah- can handle it.”

You panties felt soaked from the dirty words turned insults dropping from his lips. “Fuckin’ tease.” “This is the only thing- haah- you’re good for.”

You could tell he was close; his cock constricted and his knees started to buckle. Suddenly, he grabbed your head and started to face fuck you. All you could do was grab onto his thighs like your life depended on it until he was done.

He moaned loud and long before coming in heavy ropes down your throat. His whole body shook and his eyes rolled back into his head. “Fuuuuuck.”

He refused to move until you swallowed all of his cum. You went into a coughing fit as soon as he freed you from his fat cock.

He bent down and looked you in your clouded eyes. His face flushed and panting, “Thanks.” He uttered awkwardly.

[bitbot360]

Howdy hey everyone, hope ya doing well. I've to share all of the admins!....well the first four-

anywaysss, I hope you all enjoy the designs I cooked up! I am really proud of em for the most part. Gonna show off these bad boys from youngest to oldest mkay? cool; starting off things hot with the loveable-

Caine! The Dungeon master! And Bubble! The Gazer!

Caine is the youngest out of all 8 of his siblings!(crazy ik). Much like his canon counterpart, he is a very hyper and overzealous caretaker of everyone is his level! He just likes wizards and stuff :D. Bubble is Bubble and does know your internet history, you depraved monster. Next up we have is-

Ayble! The Office Boss! With Nem

And Sis!

Unlike his younger brother Caine, Ayble is a straight laced worker who's prime objective is to keep everything in order. Although he isn't above being snarky to any of his employee's if they have it coming. Nem typically assigned to making sure everyone is well fed with coffee and fast food, while Sis is busy helping Ayble with the business back end side of things. Next we got-

Seph! The Mad Man! With Cubey, Octa and Tetra.

While both of his younger siblings have some level of order, Seph's main thing is causing disorder and chaos! His level is nonsensical with lil rhyme or reason as to why anything happens the way they do. However, with the help of his three main men, he is able to give the people in his realm SOME sort of "adventure to go on"....it usually isn't safe but where's the fun in that? Last but not least we have-

Fami! The Queen Of Decay! with Binker, Sinker, Dinker and Ralph

Fami is the most *inactive* out of all of her siblings, she is often found wondering her level seemingly with no rhyme or reason to what she does. The lil guys™ are usually the ones who interact with the unlucky ones who landed in her level.

Welp! thats all I got for today...any probably for a lil bit. I wanna say again that I hope you all enjoy the four monkeys! I'll be working on the lore so I can at the very least post a wip masterpost so people will know what the fuck this au is even meant to be lol. Until that happens, my ask are open so if you have any questions lmk! I'll answer what I can :D

[imnooneyouknow]

i felt everything and nothing today

right i need name labels because i dont wanna use names

friend 1: favourite person (hi there :33) i hang out with alotttt

friend 2: one of my bestest friends and my first friend in secondary

friend 3: also a friend of mine. ive started to dislike them a bit

OKAY SO WHAT HAPPENED TODAY so we were in class like first period and friend 2 was like really sick. not really really sick but they were 100% sick enough to be upset. which i absolutely hate when theyre upset, theyre the only one which i could show extremeee empathy towards, like all the times gheyve cried ive either cried or almost cried. anywaysss i asked them if they were alright (which they werent) and so did friend 3. idk but recently i feel like 3 is trying to be even closer to 2 than i am. which i get, theyre both close and match energies, but it just sucks. its like one of the reasons im alive. 3 sent 2 to wellbeing and that also just sucked because i couldnt be there. it made me feel so insignificant to them and so fucking small. i feel like km losing my best friend ir sucks.

later today i tried texting 2 to see how theh were doing and 3 also did and said j copied them. i was really stupid to scream in their ear but i was just in general really mad. then 3 and one of my other friends were talking and stopped when i came over. my friend told them to text them later. i assume they were talking about me.

3 also emphasise and talks alot about how im always with 1 and that i love them more than everyone else. they are my favourite person in the world thats why i seem more attached to them, because i am. but it just seems like thats the only thing they focus about when it comes to me?? they also make jokes about us being gay, and while i love 1 to pieces, i cant see them in any other way than platonic. i dont know how to establish boundaries and say rhat i dont like jokes like that.

anyways about today. for like half of today (since 2 was gone) i was either on the verge of tears, relapsing or dissociating. no one noticed tho. i really really wanted (this is gonna sound rlly bad) an ego boost, i thought that’d make me feel better. i didnt get one but whatever.

so in summary 3 is a better friend to 2 than me and it makes me want to cry and throw things :(

[pkagirl]

WIEIAD :333

breakfast: skipped

lunch: noddles nd a donut (95 + 250 cals)

dinner: skipped

snack: skipped :p

kinda went overboard on the donut today.. it was going so well.. TwT its fine though thank god i dont live in a country where all the food is overly processed lmao, id b fucked if so. walked abt 7k steps today, but ill try to do better tomorrow:,) i just dont know where to put it in my scedule aaaaa!! but ill figure it out

anywaysss if anyone got tips for how to stop cravings id b happy to listen ^^ thats it for todayyyy

[burntblueberrywaffles]

hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii <333 its your amazing (/j) secret santa

soooo, i think i have an idea for your gift but a few more questions obviously will not hurt

(also its taytay's birthday today!! kajjedjkarrjk)

anywaysss, YOUVE NEVER HAD FRUITCAKE WHATTTT its like the best thing in the entire world im offended /lh oh and celebrating wiht family is like the best tradition everrr <33 my favourite movies are horrors and stuff and i absolutely love thriller! my favourite movie is a dead giveaway if youve been on my blog for like 5 seconds lmao so i will not mention it (plus i cant pick one lmao adkfjsdjkfh)

so another question time!! ik youve mentioned you like gracie abrams !! i do too shes like one of my favourite singer ashdjkash soo what is your favourite gracie song?? and i love liv too!! so your favourite liv song?? (and ofc our queen taylor) favourite taylor song?? (idk if ive already asked you taylors fav song ignore it if i have) ik it can be like soooo harddd to chooseee akjdjhhkajdhff so like a song thats been stuck in your head or you have listened to the most for that artist will work too haha

(wow i never shut up lmao)

okay byee <3333

Hellooooo 🥰

For Gracie, my favourite is Difficult!!! Obsessed with it (also I relate a lil too hard RIP 😭) for Olivia rn I’d definitely say Love is embarrassing it’s so good!!

For Taylor I don’t have a single favourite, but like i mentioned the other time I absolutely adore YOYOK, Would’ve Could’ve Should’ve and Wonderland. Others favourite are The last time and Holy Ground. (Rn I absolutely love the 1989 vault tracks as well, but I’m gonna wait until the novelty wears off before I decide if they belong on my list of faves of all time haha) …and I’m gonna shut up now or this is gonna turn into listing way too many Taylor Songs I love LOL

[princess-adronitis]

I cope by being cute 🥰

[valyrou]

Hi, I have a headcanons request if you take them ! Could you write what it would include to date Anakin Skywalker and/or Obi-Wan Kenobi (separated if you make them both please :)) like how they act in the relationship, how protective they are, etc... Thank you <3

THIS PICTURE IS A BLESSING AHHHH

Relationship headcanons

anywaaaays

I love this idea so much!!! THANK YOU

And I’m sooo sorry I might do a Obi wan Kenobi one too, but I just can’t right now. I‘m a little tired since I was working very hard today (I even got a sunburn like Wth?!)

Anakin Skywalker x Reader

My beloved… oh let me tell you….

Anakin in a relationship is OBSESSED with you

He cherishes you, maybe even in a child like way.

He‘d get very jealous and that very easily, so expect him to sneak himself in the conversation you were having

Don‘t try to make him flustered, it would be very hard

It’s not that he doesn’t get flustered, he pretends not to, to tease you or so you try harder to make him flustered

He wants to see and to feel how much you love him (trust issues) so he needs you around a lot, holding his hand, holding him close or a gentle kiss on literally anywhere on his face

You can get his attention if you peck him on his cheek with a kiss. He WILL look at you. Oh boy the Love in his eyes for you is MAD

He loves holding you. He is the big spoon!! But he will let you big spoon him if he‘s feeling particularly down.

He NEVER actually tried very hard to hide something, but if you are a Jedi too, he will hide your relationship with his LIFE. If you two would get caught by someone else than Obi wan, he wouldn’t know what he should do. It would be the end of him.

You are his emotional support, so if you decide to leave him- OH BOY YOU ARE SOOOO DONE.. he would still love you and just wouldn’t really understand why you would break up like that.. BUT THATS ANOTHER STORY WE ARE HERE FOR THE RELATIONSHIP HEADCANONS WHOOPS

He loves you. Like he loves you sooo much it’s something he struggles to put in words so he uses actions to show you. Being close to you, gifting you small things, taking you out for dinner maybe.

Oh and no secrets. He tells you all about him you gotta tell him all about yourself and do not miss a single thing.

Ugh writing this makes me so happy

you are in danger? OH . NO

Like I said before. He is obsessed with you so he leaves whatever he was doing asap to come to your aid.

He would be so stressed and is in general in a rollercoaster of emotions. Is he going to lose you? Will you be okay?? So many unanswered questions

He‘d KILL for you. Which is obviously hella scary, but also a sign of love. But is also shows why Jedi shouldn’t have intimate relationships.

He will inspect every part of your body. EVERY part after he gets you back safe. He is a mess

You‘d have to comfort him while being comforted at the same time.

He‘s just so protective. Even after the incident he will be OVERLY protective and you are going to have a talk with him about that. He will take basic privileges from you like leaving the house alone or something

You will need to tell him that what he does is wrong and that you don’t feel comfortable with him, robbing you of your freedom like that. There will be a lot of talking and maybe.. just maybe you will have to get Obi wan involved in this. But it’s better if not

You will have to pout like A LOT to get him weak and he‘ll realize what he did was actually wrong and he will make it up to you in hugging you tight and holding you close

If you are a Jedi then the bond you two have is strong with the force to, much like Kylo Ren and Rey but more controlled. 

A/n: Okay I think I got a bit too Ooc in the end.. ANYWAYSSS I STILL HOPED YOU LIKED IT <33

[roxyfoxgamer150]

Sorry for not being able to send ask for a long time now lol, my phone is currently broken but I do have my laptop which is fine ig :D

But anywaysss, Ive been playing ponytown for atleast three weeks now and I currently have 13 ponies and two rp discord servers im in, I ve been wanting to create Observer, scrap and Hollow but I dont think it'll look good, but yeahhh. Since its also the weekend I might send more ask, be prepared :)

(But thats all for me have and these pictures of the new ponies I made today lol, but yeah, sorry again for being gone for a while :'D)

"It's okay! We all need breaks from time to time, even from Asks!" Scrappy Mirabel exclaimed.

Solaris peeked from her laptop, "Don't worry, I'm making the three of them in Pony Town, I might experiment whole doing so though, so I'll get off track."

Behind them, Hollow unknowingly showed a white board that said "10/10 on design."

[someone1348]

Alrighty!! This one is for my great friend @sleepy--anon you are the best! So enjoyyyy hehe

People in this: ler!Tommy and Lee!Tubbo (PLATONIC!!)

Tw: mild cursing

Plot!: Tubbo is in a mega lee mood and needs his best friends help

This is so soft pleaseee! Ah!

Clingyduo Surpemecy

Anywaysss! With all that being said enjoyyyy :]

___________~☆°♡°☆°♡°☆~______________

And IM the Clingy one

Tubbo woke up his face already red as a cherry whole body tingling as he became suddenly fully aware of the tiny threads of his clothes tickling him

He curled up trying to contain giggles as his mind raced with the thought of being wrecked and teased till he was nothing but a giggly puddle on the floor.

Days like these were rare for Tubbo but when they came they hit hard and today was one of those days. He lightly squeaked and let out breathy giggles as he tried to get up kicking his legs and covering his face in the process

He needed to be tickled and he needed it now.

He didn't even need to debate on his options, even though there was plenty of great lers around he knew who he wanted to ler him today and he was gonna find him no matter how long it took.

When the bee boy gained his giggly balance he rushed out the door to find his best friend.

"Were is heeeee" Tubbo whined running around the smp. From the grassy hills, tall towers and mineshafts he searched

As he rounded the corner of an abandoned mine he spotted the blonde himself mining away at some coal.

"TOMMY!" Tubbo rammed full charge headbutting his best friends back playfully making the taller of the two to stumble forward droping his pickaxe in the process.

"Tubbo! What the hell man! Warn me next time!" He picked up his pick as tubbo smiled

"I did i shouted 'TOMMY!'"

The blonde narrowed his eyes before laughing a bit at his best friends chaos. He could never be mad at Tubbo.

'Time for step two!'

He wrapped his arms around the boys middle from behind resting his head on his back as the disc lover squirmed a bit to try and look at his best friend

"Whahat are you doing Tubbo" Tommy smiled enjoying how silly and clingy he was acting.

The smaller shrugged "comfy"

"And IM the Clingy one" Tommy joked going back to mining

"HEY! You ARE the Clingy one" Tubbo sticked his tounge out as Tommy smiled and rolled his eyes.

'Dammit thats not working! Step three it is then!'

He got off of Tommy and repeatedly poked him, on his back, cheek, back of his head, arm, to annoy him

"Tommyyyy~, Tommmyy!, Big T, Disc boy, T-man-"

Tommy ignored the brunette's attempts to annoy him, he knew exactly what was going on, he was in a bad lee mood and because he's Tommy he was gonna make the wait oh so worth it.

"Mr inittt~, Tommmyy"

"Yes Tubbo?" Tommy said not even batting an eye at the lee hearing him lightly sigh Tommy smirked.

The said lee gripped onto the back of his best friends classic red and white shirt.

"Tommyyyyyyy" Tubbo whined

"Yes Tubbo?~"

"Tickle me dammit!!"

Tommy's smirk only grew as he turned to face his Tubbo towering over him.

"As you wish big man" He sat on a nearby rock and lifted Tubbo up and into his lap

"Ee!"

"I hahavent even touched you yet!"

"Oh shut up asshole"

Tommy fake gasped "I'm truly offended tubbo, looks like you didn't want my help after all" he teased the brunette who immediately jumped up clinging onto his shirt

"No wait please Tommy! I didn't mean it! I cant! I neeeed ti-AH!!"

"I was just teasing you Tubbs" he said giggling a bit with the lee as he tickled his sides and tubbo came crashing down back onto his lap curling up on himself.

"NAhahAhaAha! TOHOmmyHehe!"

"Yes big man?, what's wrong? You wouldn't happen to be,,,Ticklish would you Tubbo?" He teased him moving passed his ribs to his underarms, Tubbo's arms slammed down as he giggled

"Ihihihim nohohohot tihihi- im nohot that! Thahats for babies!" He said stubbornly provoking wanting more tickles.

"Oh Yeah?~ lets test it then sha'll we"

"Nononono TOMMY WHAIHIHIT HEHEHEHEHE"

Tubbos knees came in curling up as Tommy clawed at his stomach which the boy knew was his death spot.

"A-HEHEHEY AHAHAHAHAHAHA"

He shook his head back and forth the brunette locks flowing over his face as he laughed taking in all the ticklish shocks flowing throughout his body.

"Hmm should i get your giggle buttonnn~ i think im gonna press itttt~" Tommy baby talked the small boy in his lap loving every minute of it.

"NOHOHOHO NO PREEHEHESS!"

"Yes press"

He dipped a finger into his bellybutton wiggling it around as tubbo squealed at a pitch you didn't think was possible.

"EEEE! TAHAHA HAHAHAHA TOMMY!!! HAHAHAHAHA NAHAHA EEHEHE IHIHIHIT TICKLES IT TICKLES HAHAHAHAHA"

"That it does Tubbo! Tickletickletickletickle!" The blonde said as he continued tickling his bellybutton

"TAHAHAHA!" Tubbo said not even getting his name out over the laughter his mind clouded with the ticklish sensations

Tommy laughed lightly with him and stopped giving Tubbo a minute to breathe, giggly breathes flow out of his mouth till he regained himself

"Premisson to do the grand finale?" Tommy asked smiling at Tubbo as tubbo gave him a nod.

Tommy took a big breath in and blew a raspberry over the bee lovers belly button.

"EEEEEE! HAHA-"

The rest of his laughter flew out of him as he uncurled himself and rested for a bit in Tommy's lap.

"You good tubbs? Did i go to far?"

"It was perfect Tommyinnit, thank you"

"Anytime T-bo Anytime you need me im here, for anything not just tickles which i will always happily deliver to you big man" he poked his side as Tubbo giggled

"Tommyyyy"

"I'll finish mining Tommrow come on I'll carry you back and you can stay at my place"

"Sounds good" Tubbo said in his sleepy state his eyes slowly closing as he began drifting off.

Tommy smiled brightly at his Tubbo as his heart squeezed (platonically) at how adorable he was sometimes lifting him up carrying under his legs as tubbo wrapped around his front falling asleep on the blondes shoulder.

"I love you Tubbo, you're the best dont you ever forget it" Tommy said softly to the sleeping man

"I love you too big man!"

"You were awake!?!"

Tubbo evilly laughed

"Barley but i heard ya'"

Tommy growled and blushed from embarrassment

"Oh and tommy, I'll get you back for this"

"What!?! Why? You came to ME for tickles"

"Because i can"

Tommy sighed and laughed a bit

"Go to bed big man, i got you"

"M'night Tommy"

"Night Tubbo, Sleep well"

Tubbo smiled before drifting off to a deep sleep on Tommy's shoulder as the two went off back home.

Today was a good day.

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Hehe this was so fun to write! I hope you all enjoyed it! :] <3

[rengokuneedshugs]

A/N: So i know this isn't a request but i wanted to write something small for our lovely boy Ethan Winters! This is how i imagine a relationship with him i guess 😅also this is kind of like if him and Mia didn't work out after 7 anywaysss enjoy!!!

Ethan Winters Headcanons

In the start of the relationship he would be very awkward

But in a smooth way

He would take you out to dinner for your first date and would refuse to let you pay

It just goes against his moral code to let you pay when he's the one who asked you out

Would awkwardly hug you when brining you home after the first few dates

Once the two of you get a little bit more comfortable he would ask to kiss you

He prefers to ask for things like that if the relationship is still fairly new

But farther down the line he won't ask so much

You don't mind though mostly because it always seems like he knows the perfect time to initiate something

Ethan tends to get clingier once you two have been together long enough

Especially when it comes to cuddles

He loves to have his s/o in his arms whenever he can

It just calms him after a long day

Just laying together as he kisses that one spot below your ear nearing your jawline

He gives amazing hugs you can't change my mind

Ethan loves to lay his head on your thighs as you play with his hair

He nearly falls asleep every time

And if you have long nails

Oh he just melts in your hand like putty

I think thats all for today! as always thank you for reading my requests are open!nAnd remember the Lord loves you have a blessed day/evening/night A/N below spoilers to re8!!!

A/N: i plan on making more headcanons post 8 had he survived but i wanted to separate the two for those who haven't finished 8

[okaywa]

Heyyy, so uhm I would LOOOVE an Oikawa enemies to lovers HC because I think that would be so funny and cute and I couldn’t find anything like that. ❤️❤️ Thank you for reading ❤️❤️

Aww I love the enemies to lover trope!! Hope you like :) 

Oikawa x reader, enemies to lovers 

-Okay I'm convinced that Oikawa starts off on the wrong foot with just about every person he meets 

-Like he’s got that smug act he likes to put on in public that Iwa even says isn't genuine and I think it rubs ppl the wrong way 

-So even before you became the team manager you didn't really like Oikawa just from what you’d seen of him around school 

-He always had a group of girls chasing him and his flippant attitude was aggravating even from afar 

-”Ugh, who does he think he is? Like we get it dude, you have nice hair and you can hit a volleyball but you're still in high school like the rest of us.” You complained after he and his little fanbase had shoved through the halls.

-ANywaysss your parents had been pestering you about getting more involved at school because it would look good on your college resume when you came across the volleyball flyer looking to recruit a manager 

-It seemed easy enough so even though you’d have to deal with Oikawa at least it would just be for club hours, right?

-Wrong 

-Getting hired as manager meant you had to deal with him 24/7 since he was captain and heavily invested in the club

-He made sure you had his number and he was CONSTANTLY texting you about the team and what you could do better so things ran more smoothly 

-Even though some of his suggestions were pretty good he was just so smug about it that it made you want to throw your phone at his face for being right 

-You still wanted to do your job, however,  and even though he was annoying he was much more experienced than you... it didn't make him any less irritating

-”See y/n-chan, I told you that switching up the schedule would be perfect.” 

-The biggest challenge of being manager was restraining your urges to chuck your clipboard at his head, luckily Iwa was always there to hit him upside the head 

-Now Oikawa didn't really hate you as much as he loved watching you slowly lose your cool 

-He found it hilarious that just one little snide comment from him would have you glaring at him the rest of practice 

-Maybe he found it a little annoying that after awhile you no longer needed his help with your duties and now was one of the best managers they'd had 

-The team absolutely loved you and you never reached out to him with questions anymore so now he had to go out of his way to interact with you 

-whether that be following you through the halls during school hours to talk aimlessly about your latest idea for the club with backhanded compliments 

-Orrr during practice always peaking over your shoulder to see what you were doing just to make passive comments like “oh, hmmm, that might work I guess” and “Oh, so you decided on that? Thats... brave” 

-He thought you had a pretty cute grumpy face- 

-wait, WHAT

-Oikawa would definitely catch feelings first and then struggle with trying to get you to see him as anything other than a smug little asshole 

-No matter what he did now, trying to be genuine and compliment you on your work you would always narrow your eyes at him and wait for the second shoe to drop 

-You didn't believe him until after the loss against Karasuno 

-Iwa had sent you off to track him down because the team was ready to leave 

-”He’s probably surrounded by his little fangirls getting treats and doted on for his loss, drag him back by his ear if you have to” 

-You went back into the building, annoyed that Oikawa was holding everyone up and you were only getting more annoyed because he was nowhere to be found 

-Until you happened to turn down one of the off limit halls that had all of the lights off to keep ppl from going down it 

-You heard some scuffling and was that a sniffle? Maybe a kid got lost from their parents

-So you went down the hall fully expecting a lost child and instead found Oikawa sitting on the floor with his face in his hands 

-”Oi-Oikawa?” 

-He nearly jumped out of his skin and wiped hastily at his face, trying to hide the evidence of his tears 

-”Oh, y/n-chan, is everyone ready to leave?” he asked in his usual airy tone, quickly grabbing his bag

-”Umm, yes.” was it even worth it to ask how he was? he would probably slide right back into that carefree persona of his...

-”Erm, Oikawa... are you okay?” 

-He froze, the question catching him off guard. Was he? No, he really wasn't and as you continued talking the hot lump in his throat grew harder and harder to ignore.

-”You played a really good game today, you all deserved to win.” 

-”thanks, Y/N. that means a lot to me,” he turned around with a watery smile, the first genuine one you had ever seen from him. 

-It took your breath away for a second, because for the first time you weren’t seeing the cocky captain that always had a snide remark ready to fire off 

-instead you saw the hard working setter who poured his entire heart and soul into this game, who was harder on himself than anyone around him, who felt he had let everyone down with this loss

-You swallowed, suddenly feeling incredibly awkward as he started to break down again despite his best efforts not to. 

-You knew you had to comfort him somehow so you reached out and grabbed his free hand that was clenched into a fist at his side and gently loosened his fingers. You set your handkerchief is his palm, closed his fingers around it, and gave his hand a pat 

-”the team can wait a few more minutes” 

-Now he was crying freely as he sat back down against the wall so you sat next to him and rubbed his back silently, letting him get it out now so he could act strong in front of his team 

-”thank you, y/n, for finding me,” he said, tilting his head back to rest against the wall, not looking at you

-”Well, Iwa thought you were probably stuck talking to those girls.” 

-He laughed weakly and used your handkerchief to dab at his eyes, “Well I’m glad you found me instead, I really don't feel like having a volleyball lobbed at my head.” 

-You laughed quietly, watching him take a deep, steadying breath before standing up and offering you a hand 

-”Iwa-chan is probably furious, we should head back.” He said, pulling you to your feet when you took his hand. 

-Has he always been this tall? You thought as you looked up at him, not letting go of his hand yet, suddenly aware that wow- he really was good-looking

-No wonder he always had those girls following him...

-“Tooru...” he blinked in surprise at the use of his first name, and both of you flushed when you realized how close you were. 

-You weren't sure who moved first but suddenly his lips were on yours and his large hands were holding your cheeks, even after he pulled away and looked down at you with a soft, incredibly gentle smile.

-“Thank you, y/n-chan, I-” 

-”SHITTYKAWAAAAAAAA!” Iwa’s yell echoed through the halls.

-”Oh no,” Oikawa blanched. “We really have to go.”

[icharchivist]

cries think I made my ask too long so like half of it got deleted bc I typed it right into the askbox. anyways. I come bearing a3 thoughts! at first i was gonna watch the spring/summer and autumn/winter ones and then give my thoughts on both but. turns out i had too many thoughts lol? which i shouldve expected but i actually kind of... got bored by the first two chapters of this event! so i skipped and went to the stranger. and then went back. (1/?)

and then i got to like "tsuzuru and kazunari are having a fight?" and jumped on that like a starving wolf bc helllll yeah! i rly adored kazunari in sardine search, i think he was great! hes just so nice and has good vibes. he and taichi are kind of similar i feel? but i think their respective ages contribute to a lot of difference in their characters. why does it feel like this askbox limit personally wants me dead. (2/?)

anyways! i rly enjoyed the improv scene devolving to a real fight. admittedly i was kinda surprised that the content of that improv wasnt rly too similar to their actual fight? like normally a3 has the story of the play run parallel to like the actual real character drama so i thought the improv might function as the play in this event... it was still good tho. the scene i mean. (3/?)

also i rly liked tenma ragging on them afterwards. like he was mean but. first i adore tenma. second he just felt like. a different meddling type to muku lol? like the vibes he gave me were always like... im going to be a considerate leader and watch out for the ppl under me! therefore im gonna make sure theyre doing fine! aggressively. i think tenmas also just like a friendly person who likes to take care of others in general? like im not saying hes omi or anything but just like. (4/?)

that time he offers his car ride to juza so they can go to school together like hes surprisingly open compared to his initial prickliness. also ive got thoughts abt the tenma juza SSR conversation thing i read. one day ill make a tenma and juza fic and complete a trifecta haha... but thats something for another day! back to the actual story. the way tsuzuru dives right in after kazunari! that was so nice. like its easy to see how much they care abt each other. (5/?)

to the point where like even while theyre fighting theyre like angry but still like fairly quiet bc i think theyre both at least trying to be considerate of each other. ah the moment kazunari didnt respond to tsuzuru trying to talk to him i KNEW he was sick tho. felt proud of myself for calling that one but also the reason i knew is bc i have used the "character being sick during an argument causing them both to make up with each other" trope myself before so uh. like recognizes like haha. (6/?)

anyways the cg there was fuckin beautiful like kazunari looks so sad in the middle bit but then u see his shy smile? like hes sick but hes also like. happy to be there. idk. lovely. i adore kazu i think hes just deeply sweet to other people. tsuzuru telling him "you make everyone around you feel as bright and cheery as the things you design” is so wonderful too (7/?)

now im thinking. ah tsuzuru probably feels quite drained after a script and such (i know i am when i finish any piece--its like the emotions just rush out of me) so i like to think that like yknow. kazunari dropping by his room or whatever helps him set himself back to normal! but also when tsuzurus like oh u left ur magazines here! i suddenly remembered. wait shit kazunari and tsuzuru arent even roommates. wonder how much they bother masumi lmaooo. anyways overall very good story! (8/?)

some more thoughts: itaru and citron were so cute in this event! just like. citron saying itaru winking makes his heart skip a beat and itaru quoting citrons wrong sayings (which. i am also guilty of today i told my brother "we'll jump that bridge when we cross it" so) also i love how yuki is like "thank god i wasnt partnered with that hack" but like. yuki. u could literally just not talk about him. like its so funny to me yuki is like wow i hate tenma but he wont shut up abt him haha (9/?)

i also was a lil taken aback at hearing itaru go "for the lulz" tbh... like it fits him. but im mad it fits him? anywaysss thats all i had for this one! im gonna watch autumn/winter and go say my thoughts on that soon. sorry the ask was so broken up, idk what happened!

OLA FRIEND! Glad to see your thoughts again omg :3c

tho omg the fact tumblr deleted it all + the ask limit was all so evil D: poor friend.

I'm putting my answer under a read more because. Well. *waves hand* it got long.

The non-play events can be perhaps a little harder to get into because unlike the plays events that you start with a clear idea of at least the main plot (re: "they are preparing a play, i know the leads so i know who it will focus on"), non-plays events take a little longer to first set up what event they're participating in, how to prepare for it, and then bring up the conflict and which characters are going to have something to do with said conflict. So i can understand that they're a little harder to get into when we know the plays awaits.

On top of that, the first few events still were a bit tame because since it was early when the app released, i think they didn't go too heavy at once in case some people were still stuck on earlier chapters (esp since especially Winter is hard to unlock)

ANYWAY glad that it sucked you in on the second read :3c

So glad you were invested in that conflict!

Totally agreeing with you about Kazunari, and very good point about Taichi as well! they aren't the Puppy Pair for nothing :'D (Yuki took one look at both of them together and just Knew. His suffering knows no end (lovingly)). But yeah i think they have a lot in common, they both are the really bright and friendly figure, both also started in overcompensating a bit because both wanted to be popular in some ways.

But we do have, on one hand, Kazunari who wanted that rather late in his life while Taichi always thrived for that, the fact Kazunari made friends easily and it's just that he was scared of getting to the next level, while Taichi always struggled with this quest for popularity. In a way too both of them were at least scared to share a part of them, Kazunari worrying to show his thoughts, and Taichi being a spy and all of that... which impacts them really differently considering the guilt it puts on Taichi. And then you add their age into the mix, especially the fact Kazu is the oldest of his troupe and Taichi the youngest of his, it makes them fairly similar all while being fairly different.

both are so interesting to me and i love them bothhh, so it's always nice to see them have focus.

admittedly i was kinda surprised that the content of that improv wasnt rly too similar to their actual fight? like normally a3 has the story of the play run parallel to like the actual real character drama so i thought the improv might function as the play in this event

i love how you are seeing the patterns a3 tends to do it's so neat!

It's true the fight isn't really similar to their actual fight, though i do love that they had "swapped" their personality for the act and ended up insulting each other for theirr swapped personality. Like, Kazunari insulted part of himself in Tsuzuru's character and Tsuzuru did the same?? and then the fight escalated and the way Kazunari broke character hurts bc it's really that Tsuzuru hit where it hurts. But yeah it still wasn't too relevent to their actual fight, though i think the thing is that their fight was as such mostly because they tend to clash often due to their personalities rather than just this singular reason why, so to have the play go more "it's their personalities the problem" kinda hurt lol. But yeah still agreed that it didn't reflect much on the plot itself

I was rereading the improv bit to answer correctly and man since we're going to talk about Tenma next, i just. Love that when Kazunari, breaking character, his eyes sad, tells Tsuzuru "you have no rights talking to me like that..." it then cuts on Tenma being upset. Bc like. Exactly like you say, he wants to look out for the people under him. and like. Kazunari is his friend. A friend he also snapped at once and insulted for being who he was, so he probably could have relived a bit of his fight with Kazunari seeing those two fights; Except that now Kazunari is one of his closest friend and he doesn't like that.

Also like. It was also because he could still hide under the plot of the improv but it's so rare, and it never happened before that point, that Kazunari stands for himself in a "the way you treat me is unfair"? Like again re: his fight with Tenma, when Tenma snapped at him, while Tenma was unfair with him, Kazunari took the blame, called himself annoying and all yaknow?

The fact Kazunari is starting to accept that he can take more place for himself is something the whole Summer Troupe have been trying to help him work on, but especially Tenma. Tenma is always there trying to push Kazunari to say what he means, to express his feelings, to stop hiding.

And for once, Kazunari does that in front of everyone... and it's because he's breaking because of his fight with Tsuzuru.

I think Tenma probably felt it was even more of a reason to get involved like, this is the thing he's been working on with Kazunari about, and now he's being all hurt about it, not on Tenma's watch!

And i totally agree with your take on Tenma! (and would LOVE to read the Tenma and Juza fic once you get to it :3c). I think, Tenma is really caring and is trying to take a place as a caretaker and all, but unlike Omi, he has absolutely no reference for it.

Omi is the eldest of multiple brothers and everything indicates his parents have always been lovely to him. Add to it how he ended up leader of a delinquent crew he was clearly looking after, Omi has a history of taking care of people, of nurturing them, and he knows what he's doing. Meanwhile Tenma grew up on TV sets, mostly surrounded by adults and not by people his age, mostly getting advice from being ordered around by directors i think. And his parents are distant, hyperfocused on their job, not really nursing with him. So Tenma meanwhile really didn't have a family emotional support and was in situation where he couldn't befriend other kids his age. His only reference was probably Igawa (his agent) and i think for a long time he didn't exactly see it, and Igawa remained mostly professional so there was probably the idea of it not being sincere? That Tenma had to grow out of.

So like, they're both extremely nurturing and caring, but my point is that Omi has experiences in it and is at ease with it, while Tenma has been so alone and in places were he had no support system that even if he wants to support others, he still struggles with how to do it because he has no set exemple. And that's his development in the main story arc, to learn from how Izumi shows she cares in order to care back at them all.

Like i mean the way Tenma yelled at them about their mistakes at first feel like he would have picked it up from some directors on TV set yaknow? Probably hearing them say that with no consequences on others actors, seeing it worked, didn't think "that's an abuse of power and the actors probably all think badly of their director for that" but "wow that works", tried it on his troupesmates and realized this is... not how that works. And it's spending time watching how Izumi encourages them that have him fix his way to approach it.

So yeah i got lost too into it but like. I feel you on Tenma i love him so much and i love his development so to see him get pissed and involved there? was really nice. even if he was aggressive about it. He's still learning.

ANYWAY back to Tsuzuru and Kazunari, totally agree with what you say next. They still care a lot about each other and yeah they're at a point where this consideration they have for each other make their anger more quiet than trying to attack one another (Banri could NEVER-). so yeah totally agree with you!

DLKFJDLKF i LOVE the reasoning on "recognizing that Kazunari was sick". Your writer's powers making you see through... *coughs* unlike Tsuzuru....

AND YEAH ALL YOU SAY ABOUT THE CG.. YEAH. Kinda crying thinking about it again now LDKJFLKDJF It's just. Everything about it is so soft and tender. The things Tsuzuru tells Kazunari are soo so sweet sobs. They're just adorable i love those kids. and also i feel you for Kazu he's just that great huh?

The whole set up about Kazu dropping by his room is so so cute! I love it! Like probably the very first time Tsuzuru braces himself because "oh no i'm not in the mood to stand mister hyperenergy himself" but Kazunari quickly adjust his energy so that Tsuzuru can just recharge without being overwhelmed. Yes it would drive Masumi completely nuts. Which i think is a plus for Tsuzuru like, hey, if Masumi gets annoyed once in a while it's a win. But yeah also i think that Tsuzuru and Kazunari should really have the Artistic Soldiarity of Students in Art school Probably Working Until Very Late To Complete Their Projects. Would love if at the end Tsuzuru gave it back yaknow?

but yeah their story was really nice i'm so glad you liked it! :D

oh god yeah Itaru and Citron were SO cute in it too, i also love the comments Citron makes about Itaru's winks. Just there flirting in front of everyone like those two embarrassing friends huh. (probably with Muku being all starry eyes considering he greatly admires both Itaru and Citron and, well, Romance.). And yeah i love how Itaru ends up so much into Citron's rhythm (and this idiom you said? is glorious actually, 10 points for you)

DLKFJDLKF what a call out toward Yuki. "yes i hate Tenma,no i won't shut up about him, also if YOU say you hate Tenma i'm going to stab you with my needles, have a nice fucking day.". I love their dynamics so much aha

And yeah Itaru is there cursing us the whole time with the fact he's the greatest nerd ever and it fits him perfectly. It makes me laugh so hard.

Thank you so much for having shared your thoughts there! it's always a blast to read through them and i dearly enjoyed it! (+ it makes me relive the event a little and it makes me soft!)

I'm so glad you enjoyed it! So glad you had so many thoughts about all of this, what a blast.

thank you for sharing, and looking forward the Autumn/Winter reactions :3c

Take care!

[kpopluvrsblog]

Can i kiss you?

Keonhee fluff

First post🥺

Requested

Here i am in front of my best friends door waiting for it to be opened... how did i get here you may ask? Well we were supposed to be working on a project together in the last few days and it’s due tomorrow. Keonhee hasn’t been answering me and i need to get this art project done so i took it upon myself to get the needed materials and show up to his house. I think the last text he sent was saying he’s busy but do i care?! No. He should’ve answered me then. Finally after 5 minutes the door is swung open to his mother. “Oh hello Y/n !! Long time no see! Im guessing you’re here for keonhee and he’s up in his room, I’ll be right back i have to make some errands.” “Yes of course thank you!” With that short conversation she had already been out the door in a hurry. I made my way up the stairs and since I’ve been here multiple times i know where everything is. As im getting closer to his room i start to feel those butterflies again... what if he doesnt want to see me, what if i look to eager oh my god. Maybeee these past years of being friends i had gotten a tiiiiiiny crush on him. I mean who wouldn’t he is the sweetest guy I’ve ever met. But what i didnt know is that he felt the same. I opened his door and im guessing i scared him because he threw his phone in the air. “Y- y/n what are you... how did-“ “Your mom let me in” i cut him of with as i walked in and put the art supplies and poster on his bed. “ keonhee we have a project that was assigned 3 days ago and its due tomorrow so i dont know why you have been avoiding me but we need to get this done.” I said this as i sat on his bed next to him. “Im sorry okay! It’s just... I... argh i dont know how to say this” he starts fumbling around with the hem of his shirt. I continue to look at him until he makes eye contact with me. “I just dont want to ruin what I’ve built up at these years” he says with a pout. “Keonhee listen, nothing you say can ruin the fact that i love you so unless you hate me-“. “WAIT WHAT” he screams as i almost fall off the bed due to his loudness. He ends up catching me before i fall leading to him being on top of me. I thought he would move but he didn’t... he just stared at me until he spoke up “you love me?!?” “I mean yeah... you didn’t know? Basically everyone could have known that and i thought thats why you were avoiding me” “Y/n I’ve literally been in love with you since the day i met you, it wasn’t my plan to avoid you but its hard to see you and not feel the need to kiss you.” “Who’s stopping you?” “Y/n.... can i kiss you?” “That’s all I’ve ever wanted.” Just at that moment i felt the happiest ive ever been. He slowly came closer until our lips touched. It was a soft passionate kiss combined with strong feelings that have been sealed away.... “I really love you keonhee” i said as i pulled away after what felt like hours and i took deep breaths. “I really love you too y/n.”

Anywaysss this was my first requested post sorry it took so long to make I literally just saw it today. But I hope it was good enough im still getting the hang of everything. And i just wanna say that i got to see keonhee during a hi touch in new york AND HE IS THE CUTEST like awww. But yeah hope y’all like it and sorry for any mistakes!!

[traumatizedmathilda]

just gonna ramble a bit because I need it!!!

I finished my course but part of the final mark is an assessment conversation with the teacher to talk about the result and I could score some more points to eventually pass the class. Which btw I'm not worried about at all since I don't even care if I have to retake, it would just mean more time with him and that's definitely not a bad thing. Anywaysss, I sent an email two weeks which basically was a trauma dump of me talking about how I broke off my relationship with my dad and that I'm mentally very exhausted and didn't know how I would find the energy to pass this course. And I ended up finishing all my deadlines, so that's already a big W. In my reflection report I said something along the lines of not believing my opinion matters and that's why I find it hard to voice my thoughts unless it's a one on one conversations, and he just replied your.opinon.is.valued. and I nearly cried in my lecture so that was just 🫠👍🏻 lovely to say the least. And during the assessment today he had very few questions and for the rest we just talked about the course, he asked me some stuff about how I manage my health issues in combination with a possible job and he was curious to hear which rules I would set if we, aka the whole class, had to do the course all over again, together. And basically it was just very relaxed but also the weirdest moment because he again said that he believes I'm very good at what I do and I've never been validated like that. So when I walked away from the class I had to sit down and just take a moment because thats not at all what I've heard from my family who basically emotionally (and sometimes verbally) abuse me. It's like I'm living a double life, one where i have fun and get appreciated for what I do. And the other is just where I need to be small, shut up and never get cheered on.