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I know weāve all talked this point to death but itās wild to me that the plan is 7 books. Like, a 7 book series is a LOT for plot heavy novel series with just one linear path instead of a massive undertaking for an if. I expect that from a dense fantasy or sci fi series. Something that has a lot of plot to develop and explore. But a romance??
Having plot as a means to an end for romance tropes is fine. I donāt think anyone goes into a romance series for plot, they go for character and dynamics and tropes. But then how do u justify 7 booksā¦
#like I have had my criticisms of the plot since I first played book 1. Iāve always just been here for tea and the character dynamics.#which is fine and fun!#and like coding an if with all these different storylines and options is genuinely incredible and I donāt wanna disrespect the amount of#time and work the author put in. you donāt see me coding one lol#but on that same note: distilling the plot down to fewer books with more tight writing would save sooo much effort and time right?#books 2 and 3 could be so easily combined. they both focus on the trappers. you can do a whole thing where everyone thinks falk is taking#people but he thinks the agency is taking people and gasp! it was all a set up and the auctioneer was manipulating everyone the whole time!#two villains! higher stakes! in one book! less time coding and editing!#idk itās just a bizarre choice to make to me. probably this was planned as an actual novel series before being turned into an if#Iāve heard people say that fs route felt like an afterthought (havenāt played thru it) but thatās probably bc they were designed to be a#bestie character to the mc or something like that. Iāve heard similar criticisms of Nate but again. idk.#anyways. if u read all this ily#ramblings
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If you're not here, then how are you always with me? If I'm not here, then how am I not there with you? ā One of Us, Paruyr Sevak (tr. metamorphesque)
happy belated birthday, tay ā” @misakarose [insp.]
#trigun#trigun stampede#vashwood#tristamp#trigunedit#anime gif#animeedit#anisource#trigunsource#animangahive#fyanimegifs#animangaboys#*gifs#usericybtch#userinahochi#usersophies#tusermalina#userartless#userhanyi#userloidforgers#userdabiluna#i feel like this one warrants a bit more commentary so. when i first read this quote i went. trigun core#but i wasn't sure if it would translate well into a gifset? bc it's more about the abstract doomed narrative of it all ykwim#and while brainstorming for this set i noticed the parallel in the 4-5th gifs. of how they both reach out to the other but are pushed away#how they're both taken aback by it. how they are together but choose to stand alone#and how they both walk away from each other at the end#and i fr let out an evil laugh >:) AKJSDHJA that's when i knew i HAD to make this#also my idea for the little rhombuses was to be a focal point of where the center is. of how far apart they stand#and how when one of them crosses to the other side they are pushed away#so hope it came across well? also went for muted coloring for a somber feel which was a challenge for me. ANYWAYS hope u like it tay ily <3
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some more of my favourite dredge fish!!!
part 1
#these took fucking FOREVERRRRR#really love how these ones came out!!!#cannot wait for the new dlc bro i need to see what new horrors theyāve cooked up#anyways feel free to suggest others for me to draw coz i fucking love doing this shit#anyway#my art#dredge#dredge game#illustration#artists on tumblr#traditional art#fish#my stuff#oc#if u read all this ily :3
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So I know this is like, a month late (forgot to ask when you posted the pic lol), but what's up with Labra? He got like a backstory, lore, or something like that? I'm curious and wanna know more abt him.
drew him again :3c
UHMMM yes i am lore building for him........ i haven't decided everything yet but i know i want him to be a distant cousin species of goji's. everyone's fangoji lore is different but i def imagine him as a part of my personal monsterverse au rather than existing in his own world with no friends haha loser
putting a cut here so i dont spam people's feeds lmao
likeeee for comparison it's probably similar to Crocodylia encompassing crocodiles, alligators, and gharials?? labra is in a similar niche to zilla for me. goji is the largest/apex species of the gojiran order, whereas zilla & labra are smaller and occupy a different niche. Big bruiser lion vs. carcal or lynx type thing.
my hc is that the vast majority of labra's species (pre-mutation art is what they looked like) was wiped out when ghido got into hollow earth. which is also the same time he wiped out most of the divine moths and a couple other species :''(
it ended with ghido iced but it fucked up the hollow earth ecosystem for a while and led to a lot more radiation leakage since he tore the place up real bad. labra was Almost Dead and ended up hibernating to recover by a radiation vent, but he'd laid down in feldspar vein that kinda grew to cover him and turned to labradorite and idk magic radiation nonsense it fused with him and caused him to grow/mutate.
the ghido massacre also caused battra to hibernate/mutate too so it's a Big Event in my silly au world. most of the kaiju that are clearly a result of mutation fuckery (biollante, kessho too) may be related to it as well but i haven't fully fleshed it out yet. it would mostly be based around goji's hyper-regeneration doing the thing where like.. if a big enough chunk of him gets lobbed off and has access to energy it mutates and tries to regenerate and causes a fucked up clone siblings thing idk omg ok i'm in tangent city good god sorry i was supposed to be talking about my gay son
ANYWAYSSSSSS for more general hc/character stuff: >labra is genuinely terrified of ghido and even gets freaked out when he hears wing beats without warning. (mosu beats rodan's ass bcuz he divebombs labra for fun sometimes) >he lives on monster island and ventures down to hollow earth sometimes, but he won't return to his old home because it just reminds him everyone else of his species is gone. (he isn't even his own species anymore bcuz of the mutation. so they're basically extinct.) >he loves swimming and sometimes just lays in the shallows to absorb sunlight. stretches out like a lazy ass cat. cat boy behaviour >he's loyal to goji and doesn't start shit with humans unless they attack first. even then he does his best to steer clear. >mothra likes his dorsal plates and talks with him sometimes (Moth Therapy) they can bond over ghido hating it's a good time >he has a mutually bitch-bother dynamic with rodan where rodan bothers the shit outta him until he manages to grab that turkey and idk sits on him or something. but if rodan really pisses him off he doesn't mind actually throwing hands because he knows goji won't care if he puts the bird in it's place. >he also likes angy, zilla, and bio a lot too.
there's more but i'll stop there for nowwwww
tldr: big gay lizard is traumatized but doing ok ig
#kai talks#labragoji#my son...my boy....#he needs a bf the shipping goblin in my brain demands it#i think angy mainly bcuz their gijinka designs are dope together and ill make the kaiju stuff work later LMAOOO#anyways. if u read all my nonsense lore ily
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Ruthlessness Is Mercy Upon Ourselves
[ID: A Scum Villain Drawing. A young Shen Jiu stands at the forefront, half of his face is shrouded and he is covered in various injuries and blood. With his clothes and hair in various states of stained and disheveled. He is pointing a blood covered sword towards the ground in his right hand and his left hand is clenched into a fist. He is bleeding from his eyes, nose and ears, appearing to be in the midst of a qi deviation. Behind him is a circular doorway that is full of fire and smoke. Blood stains the floor. End ID]
#pov you're a man in qiu manor#svsss#scum villain#shen jiu#shen qingqiu#mxtx#myart#if you know what the caption is referencing ily <3#anyways i think its a very apt mantra for both sj and lbg tbh#both using violence as a way to protect themselves#love when enemies parallel#me reading the sj extras: when i catch you airplane; airplane when i catch u#in other words me :handshake: shen yuan-> being angry about all the things sqh left out#blood
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Katsuki is so fucking sick of hospital rooms. He hates the heavy scent of antiseptic, the too-starchy pillows, the way the bed crackles every time he moves. He hates the white-popcorn walls that heās forced to stare at through the haze of heavy medication. And he fucking despises the plastic tube shoved up his nose with the quiet, but constant, beeping of several machines keeping tabs on his vitals. Everything about it sucks. The only slightly redeeming quality about this particular hospital stay is that he and Izuku are sharing the same room. Apparently, after Katsukiās tantrum the last time they both nearly died, the nurses figured it was best for everyone if Izuku was put directly in Katsukiās line of vision. And so there he is, still knocked out in his hospital bed opposite Katsukiās. Half his head wrapped in gauze, face swollen with purple bruises, heās bandaged just about everywhere, but heās alive. Katsuki is too riddled with pain meds to do much other than stare at him across the room. But at least Izuku is there, hooked up to a heart-monitor, softly proving that heās still breathing. Which gives Katsukiās battered heart some much needed relief.Ā
Izuku still hasnāt woken up, though. Stupid, sleepy bastard. Always fucking sleeping when Katsuki is awake. How the fuck has Katsuki had three surgeries, one of them open-heart surgery, and heās managing to flit in and out of consciousness, but Izuku is still out like a light? Katsuki thought Izuku swore to surpass him. Why the fuck does he think he can fall behind now? Katsuki scowls at Izukuās tuft of fluffy green hair.Ā
Wake up or Iāll kill youĀ , Katsuki vows.
Katsuki knows heās in love with him. He should have known a long time ago really, but having his heart burst put everything into stark clarity. He canāt deny it now. Not even if he wanted to. The next time Katsuki greets death, he will do so without regrets. Thereās so much he needs to make up for; he still has so much atoning left to do. He has to show Izuku he will be better and do right by him. Izuku canāt fucking die before Katsuki has the chance to prove himself. Even if Izuku never loves him back, Katsuki must at least prove that he can be good. That he is worthy of standing at Izukuās side.Ā
Days pass and Izuku still doesnāt wake. Katsukiās pleadings only get more desperate. Usually itās just in his head, but sometimes, when itās late at night and no one else is around, Katsuki will murmur to him aloud.Ā
āYou donāt have to forgive me,ā Katsuki whispers into the oppressive quiet of their hospital room. Only the soft chime of Izukuās heart-monitor answers him. āYou donāt have to be mine. Just wake up. Donāt make me live in a world without you.āĀ
Shadows dance as headlights stream through the curtains shading their window, and for a moment Katsuki thinks maybe--- but no. The car passes and Izuku hasnāt stirred. God fucking dammit. Katsuki doesnāt know why heās surprised: of course Izuku canāt actually hear him. Tears prick at the corners of Katsukiās eyes anyway.Ā
It becomes a nightly ritual. Katsukiās mind is too muddled with medication to make sense most of the time, but at least it gives him something to do. God, he canāt wait until heās off all this shit and actually, you know, move and whatever. His arm was so bent and twisted when he was admitted that they had to implant metal poles to strengthen it, and fuck if it doesnāt feel weird. Recovery Girl comes by every day to heal him, bit by bit so as not to exhaust his limited energy, and thereās a quirk specialist flying out from the states to repair Katsukiās damaged muscle. They have assured him that with time and physical therapy he should get all his mobility back, but it gives Katsuki little comfort. He would cut the whole damn limb off if it meant Izuku would justĀ wake upĀ .Ā
āPlease, for me,ā Katsuki whispers, one night after a particularly exhausting round of visits from his parents, Izukuās mom, and All Might. āJust this one thing. Just wake up. I wonāt ask for anything else, just be okay.āĀ
Katsuki must drift off. The concoction of sleep-aids and pain medications dragging him into unconsciousness against his will. He thinks he might be dreaming when he hears ragged breathing and a soft croaky voice.Ā
āKaā Kāchānā¦ KachāāĀ
Katsuki jolts awake, his heart-rate spiking and his head spinning. He canāt haveā it couldnāt beā
Ā āĀ Kacchanā¦Ā āĀ
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so i decided to log in after not being on here for some time... and the first thing i see is someone replying to my fics and complaining about my writing lmao yuck... if you don't like my writing pls do not read! there is a difference bw helpful advice/criticism and just straight up being mean </3
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grogu is going to be bouncing off the walls with the amount of sweets cobbās gonna buy for him
a bit late, but happy holidays! especially to @exx-bee , who this piece is for >:)
#dincobb#din djarin#cobb vanth#the mandalorian#my art#special thanks to cakes and ziggy for cheering me on and bearing with the griping ily#this took so long and yknow what. my brother didnt ask my why i hadnt made a candy brush until AFTER id finished all the lineart#thanks bro#other things my brother did: accidentally made me stress to hell about whether cobbs gloves and scarf looked okay BECAUSE HE THOUGHT ID MADE#COBBS HAND PURPLE ON PURPOSE#that was a fun evening i was doing the final colour checks and he called cobb an ice giant lookin ass#i love my brother very much he also does lots of art so he helps me hdjfghjf#i also got to design my 2023 watermark for this which was very cool im pleased w it#okay other notes#gradient on dins coat looks crisp#this was the first time i tried doing this kind of lighting and i think it looks fucking great#the candy took. maybe 8 hours#this is the third iteration of cobbs nose#din would have had a fatter ass if i could have made the jean creases work with me#anyway. thanks for reading if u are reading these tags#love u all
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i feel so at peace but at the same time so chaotic and drained
#itās literally been wavessss of emotions lately#life feels weird w no friends or a partner but it is peaceful#iāve been spiraling lately bc iāve been feeling lonely#but i have to keep reminding myself that iāll attract the right people eventually#right now iām focusing on finding myself again and being content w where i am bc ive been so so so hard on myself lately#itās better to have solitude rather than faking my personality around the wrong people#i deserve to be loved for who i am and iāll wait to love the future people that come into my life#things will be okay and i know now that it isnāt time for a relationship#my first wlw crush and i are still flirting and talking everyday but i knowwww i cant get involved bc i still have sm to worry about#i do love her so much but we both have shit we need to figure out and weād probably destroy each other if we decided to fully fall in#iām ranting rn guys but this is the first halloweekend i didnāt go out and i was kinda sad abt it but im also SO glad bc i usually act so#stupid and dumb when i drink impulsively#itās for the best#i donāt drink as much as i used to and that in itself should be something i am proud of#hehe anyways ily all and if you read this entire thing i love u even more#personal
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HEEEEEEEEEEEEE
#HE'S SO. SO. I HAVE NO WORDS.#THANK YOU FOR THIS#the last two specifically UGHH#hayden christensen#celebs#f.ask#i feel like young me would never have expected to be so into a GUY.#A GUY.#and generic White Boy out of all things#like i was only ever into fictional characters and even then it wasn't even like oh i wanna fuck them rather i wanna see them fuck y know?#(my fictional character fucking tendencies are quite a new phenomenon in itself actually :o)#but HIM? oh GOD he makes me crazy#don't look at me. pls i can't......#i am so sorry jelly for making u read my dumbass ramblings adsjasdjasdda ily#but like HIM!!!!!. he makes me feel THINGS. and u gave him to me so i go Crazy#ive never been one to watch stuff bc of actors. and im out here watching a show in 360p for him#anyways thank u again i love him FUCK#higher ground
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The urge to spend a 100$ on merch before getting my paycheck is so strong. I might not survive soldiers
#Priorities! Next month no food challenge#At least I can eat my vinyls and CDs š„°#Man fr I could starve but if Id have some albums#Id be happy#eating my own organs and shit#Okay yes I officially lost it but!#ahiajwineidn the voices#I want to spend money#šāā¬šāā¬šāā¬šāā¬šāā¬šāā¬šāā¬šāā¬šāā¬#Tbh i only eat cheap ass bread anyways so maybe we can do it š»#me tryna convince myself this would be a good idea and i wouldn't die#Mnaiaisns9jwkq but it's motivation? to keep working right?#....... IM ABT TO ORDER STUFF#IDEK WHAT. BUT. THE. VOICES.#like im soo thinking abt buying the mortal vinyl or atsushis vinyll CUZ THEY LOOK SO GOOD.#I DONT HAVE A MF LP PLAYER BUT IMMA BUY ONE AS WELL#aaaaaaaaaš« š« š« š« š« š« #HM. HmmMM. i can get an LP player on facebook market place rightttt that wont be expensive righttttt#oh to not have to pay 30$ for. shipping would be so good#Ahhhhhhhhh. š¾#Gimme money#Actually I don't even have the money! idek how much am i gonna get paid! but im just thinking abt ordering stuff and hoping ill have enough#insanity is my middle name tbh#also i hate how i literally. dont keep track of my money and i always act on impulse š#like man idc how much u pay me i see i have enough imma spend it all#but i should save up to finally move my mf ass away from this great environment i live in#but dang is it hard next to school#getting paid less than minimum wage as a student lowkey. is not fun#But idk what to do cuz i cant skip school to work š so this is shit#n e ways goodnight ily who reads my 3556th diary entry
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good morning my friends the people in my phone. things were crazy for a while but theyre no longer crazy yayyyyyy we are so back
me waking up bright and early at 11:30am
#its storming outside today... zzzzzz.... i hope that means me and bf dont have to go grocery shopping yayyyyyy#tw im about to get personal dont read this if u dont wanna know a lot about meeeeeee but anyways#family was in the hospital and it looked very grim for a while#but luckily he's pulled thru and doing better now. that's why me and bf were gone all weekend#life has been so stressful everyone i love is dying or getting old it's making me existential!!#death is around the corner for us all. that's why i must play on my computer for 16 hours a day#anywayssssssss bye i gotta retake one screenshot ily mwah ā¤
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Wtf did you put on my timeline š
Since the history of Y/N stories, the reader ALWAYS had a backstory. I fail to see how this suddenly makes Y/N a OC. The same goes for gender. Usually in the description or first sentence you would immediately know Y/Nās gender. Itās nice to be inclusive but you canāt force the author to cater to a specific demographic.
I will admit though: I LOATHE when a author enforces a skintone onto Y/N without mentioning it in the beginning. The fact this stuff is rarely tag is pretty annoying. If authors have to tag their fanfic with āPOC!Readerā to point out that reader is meant to have a ethnic background, for the love of god please do the same if the reader is meant to be interpreted as white. Nothing puts me out of a story when I envisioned a character to fit the story only to see them described as āpale, fair skinnedā by the narrator several paragraphs later.
There is a really nice plugin for AO3 where it can replace pronouns and fill in the Y/N slot with an actual name. It would be nice if such a plugin existed for tumblr. Authors wonāt have to give into obligations and those who feel alienated can still enjoy the work.
PLEASEEEEEE AJFHASIUDFHU IF I HAD TO SEE IT YOU GUYS ALL HAVE TO TOO. i am a firm believer of sharing is caring <3
EXACTLY, like especially for authors who do long fics or series, giving reader 0 personality/no background story is next to impossible unless you just want them to like ... be there and take no initiative in the story and just have things happen to them and for them to have no reaction to anything. like even in smut and headcanons, there are going to be little things you can pick out personality-wise, its next to impossible to just have a cardboard cut out reader for any type of fic, much less long fics/series. someone will always disagree with something <- but tee explained this all better in her long rb addition to that post
AND I TOTALLY AGREE! like they had very valid points about physical appearance and properly tagging gender, but i hate the fact that they added all of those valid points in that mess of an argument of why "x reader fics" should have no personality or background, because i felt as if it was totally taking away from that. it's two totally separate issues that they were trying to combine into one big one but just made an even bigger mess out of it.
for real! ao3's tagging system is top tier like i know a lot of people find it confusing but it's so nice to be able to filter any and everything you want or don't want.
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baby, baby
cw: age play
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Water sloshes, splashing onto the cuffs of Danielās jumper even where he has the arms pushed up high past his elbows. Michael is going to kill him for what heās doing to his knees, crouched by the bath, but itās whatever.
Itās nice.
āOkay ba- Maxy,ā he corrects, because it always feels too on the nose to call him ābaby,ā when he's soft like this. Not fucking sinister or anything, just- He doesnāt know if Max would like that, if maybe when theyāre done playing, he would ask Daniel not to. That heād tell Daniel it was weird. āTilt your head back and shut your eyes. Tightly, so I donāt-ā
So I donāt get water in them.
So I donāt hurt you.
Heās got to get Maxās hair wet somehow, Ā if he wants to wash it.
Max doesnāt look happy about the suggestion, looking up from where heās been playing with his ducks.
Daniel brought them for him a few weeks ago. Heād been thinking about the smile that had been on Maxās face, so soft it was almost a secret, when heād turned up at Danielās drivers room in Monaco. Clutched tightly in his two hands, like somebody might try to yank it from them, was a rubber duck, a metal ring protruding from its back.
āHe is very cute, yes? Maybe they will let me keep this little guy,ā heād said, hopeful, but guarded. Like he thought Daniel might tell him he wasnāt allowed.
āWe can smuggle him home, Maxy,ā Daniel had promised, leaning in to kiss him.
Except that later, when Daniel had asked where the duck was, Maxās face fell further as he looked up from where he had been angrily eyeing his third place trophy, to instead just look- Upset.
āHe is gone,ā he said in a very small voice. āOf course, they tidied him away when they came to clean my room. I hope, at least, that they will put him back on the swimming pool with his friends.ā
It was so Max, to worry about the loneliness of a plastic toy, yet to shrug and say in a flat monotone, āit was okay,ā whenever Daniel asked him if he had missed his mum growing up. Naturally, clumsily, and like always, Daniel tried to soothe that lifetime of separation with something stupid.
He brought Max a whole family of ducks.
Heād thought, maybe one, but then he remembered the way Max had said āwith his friends,ā like the idea of a plastic rubber duck being on its own really hurt him, and had picked up a set. Two big ducks, two little ducks.
āLike mum, dad and babies,ā Max had said, a unique mixture of shy and excited that comes when heās- Heās like this. Heād run his fingertips over the smooth, almost fluorescent orange rubber of one of the beaks and whispered an even softer, āthank you, Daniel.ā
Then heād taken them to the bathroom and set them neatly and carefully on edge of the bath while Daniel watched, leaning against the door frame.
In the bath, they always race. The two baby ducks side by side, while mum and dad watch, sat on the rim of the tub. The grandstands, Daniel had jokingly called it the first time, crouched beside the bath just like now, and Max had looked delighted and suddenly it didnāt feel like something Daniel should joke about anymore.
He was still learning, but watching the way Max made sure each baby duck got a kiss from both mum and dad, no matter who won, made him feel like this at least was something he got right.
#lol the song doesn't match the fic at all except for what else was i meant to do#with a house song that just repeats 'baby baby' over and over lol#anyway maybe this fic is abandoned so#i keep going back and forth about it in my head#but if it is i will post everything i did write eventually probably so sorry in advance#anyway:)#hope somebody likes this#fic#max/daniel#cw age play#also thank u lorna for staying up a whole 20 minutes past ur bedtime to read this over for me ily girly
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and cardan. thank u
#lorenzo ily#anyways heās been added to my card#and u may say blythe wasnāt that jason#yes it was but that was yesterday and this is today#anyways for those who donāt know cardan heās a simp first and foremost second off heās a fucking clown#off to keep reading thanks all#Tbt.
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