#anyways this style feels very cathartic for me to do
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Another experiment but I'll be tagging it this time since it's Dandy's World art (if you don't know Rox was fired so I've been playing it again and feel comfortable drawing stuff for it again, Qwel appears to have been heavily manipulated by him going off of her messages she's said in the BlushCrunch server about the situation)
#dandys world#dandy's world#dandys world art#dandy's world art#dandy dandy's world#dandy dandys world#dandicus dancifer#art#fan art#pixel art#i mean i drew it in aseprite so#i think it counts as pixel art#god this style looks so deranged#i love it#i don't know if it's obvious but#the brown stuff is wall#anyways this style feels very cathartic for me to do#i love scribbling <3#i'll draw some mo4 stuff soon#i have a couple of ideas i want to do with kirimi#also i want to have a clean artstyle but#man this is fun#anyways uh#hope you all are doing well
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Honestly, I don't say it often bcs I know how this site is but I really do think for a lot of survivors of abuse, especially abuse that went on for years and years, sometimes the message "it's not your fault, you didn't do anything wrong/to deserve this" while ABSOLUTELY TRUE* isn't actually super helpful. For a lot of us there's a LOT of guilt tied into it, and even if things were truly out of our hands we will not be able to accept that we are truly blameless, at least not at first, and maybe for some of us not ever. So being told "no dw you didn't do anything wrong <3 <3 you're innocent" feels...idk like some toxic positivity style lies. It doesn't make me feel better, because I still do feel like there were things that happened that were my fault, that were in my control, even an ethicist or god or whoever could look me dead in the eyes, weigh all the facts, and assure me of my complete innocence, and I still wouldn't believe it. (Tbh, you have to be ready to forgive yourself and trying to force it early does more harm than good.)
And I occasionally see movies and shows and stuff get roasted all to hell for having the audacity to go with a different message, to offer abused characters not a platitude about how they are innocent and should forgive themselves asap, but instead say "so what if it was your fault? so what if you fucked up? you're still alive, you still have time, your mistakes(or perceived mistakes) don't make you irredeemable scum who deserves to suffer, it's okay that you fucked up, what matters is what you do next, and even if the horrible thing was your fault in one way or another or you did actually hurt people, you still did NOT deserve to be hurt in turn" because people think that is like, admitting that the person in question is at fault when they almost always aren't....but as an actual survior, I'm sorry, you can tell me I'm innocent till the cows come home and I won't believe it. What I need to hear is that even if it was my fault I didn't deserve to be treated that way. I still deserve help. I deserve to keep going. I am not forever stained by my mistakes. I deserve a future free from this pain.
I think before we look at things in this like...grand moral way where we try to make sure we're sending the most Correct and Healthy Message Possible, sometimes it's worth asking if that message is actually the one the people it's about need to hear. I'm sure for some people it is very freeing to be told it's not their fault, but that kind of message does not resonate with me. And I, as well as people like me, deserve to expirience stories about us that are cathartic, that resonate, that make us feel seen, and to not have to see everyone and their mom throw a fit because what helps us is "problematic".
Anyway this has been mulling around in my head for a while and I def have a lot more to say about the way guilt manifests in trauma born of abuse, but yeah I just feel like this is something that should be talked about when we bring up abuse narratives and how well written they are and if they send the Correct Message, because the "Correct Message" is never going to be the same for everyone. And that's true of ANY demographic you could choose to represent!
Like some disabled people might enjoy the "magically healed" trope while others find it offensive. Some trans people like stories where transitioning is easy as drinking a potion or getting a fancy futuristic surgery and some find that that trivializes their struggles. Some queer people want stories where there's just no homophobia at all, others find that a world without it feels fake and patronizing. Some women do want to read stories about how keeping hearth and home is noble and empowering and others want read about women who have other jobs and never have kids or get married. For some of us "you're beautiful no matter what" is lovely and some of us just want to be told being fat and hairy and having acne and scars and shit is normal and fine. Or, like the last post I reblogged says, sometimes "you're not a burden" doesn't hit as well as "being a burden isn't a bad thing". No one type of representation is ever going to work for everyone, and that doesn't mean one type of rep is objectively wrong and the other is objectively right.
So yeah, the next time you find yourself angry because you think a story is sending the wrong message about a marginalized or harmed group, maybe stop for a second to ask yourself if it's actually harmful...or if you're not the person who the story is speaking to, and if there's someone it is talking to who desperately needs to hear what it has to say.
(*Getting ahead of this now: Do not put words in my mouth. I am not saying that any abused person in any way deserved their abuse or was at fault for it happening, that is not up for debate. The fault is always in the hands of the person who chose to hurt them. I'm just saying it's nuanced and complicated and guilt is a huge fucking issue that survivors have to deal with all the time and it's not wrong to acknowledge that some of us are always going to feel like we did something wrong and not be eased by being told otherwise even if the person saying it is 100% correct and/or means well. I do not have time for people who are going to willfully misinterpret me. You will be blocked.)
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Fic authors self rec! When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to at least five other writers. Spread the self-love ❤
thank you for thinking of me as a favorite author you'd want to pass this on to <3
right now, i'd probably say the fics that i'm most pleased with are (not in any order outside of "what was published most recently") -
stuffed with fluff (and blood and bones and rage) in which bingge is forced to watch without doing anything as sy critiques and obsesses over his life, eventually becoming obsessed with sy's own obsession of him. i struggle a lot with lbh POVs, and right now, i think this is the best one i've done, so i'm happy :>
raised by winter winds in which a sy that was half-raised by sj grapples with the past affection he's felt for sj pitted against the knowledge that sj has hurt a lot of people, including sy's new favorite manipulative little shidi, lbh. in the past, i've not really bothered to put much effort into writing sj tbh - i've used him as a convenient plot point in binggeyuan's relationship before, but that's about it. this fic i considered it more seriously, and i think sums up all my feelings about sj as a character quite nicely. i ended up rly liking the overall melancholy tone of this fic too :')
if you don't have your own boyfriend, rented is fine in which bingge reverse transmigrates to chase after the "nice" shizun he met... but doesn't recognize sy for who he is, and the misunderstanding is only made worse when sy mistakes bingge for a cosplayer. neither of them realize the truth of the matter until they've grown to care for each other and choose each other regardless. ik that probably no one wants to hear this, but i don't really like "to love another (and to learn yourself)" much anymore 🙈 it's been years since i wrote it, and since then both my writing style and preferences for how binggeyuan are characterized have shifted fairly dramatically. this rent a bingge fic was really satisfying to write as proof to myself that i can write a "bingge finds his own sy" longfic in a way that i do like, now.
i'll be your boy backstage in which a transmigrated-into-an-NPC shen yuan only finds bingge long after the story is over, and after the ge vs mei extra has happened. bingge latches on to sy quickly, but even after he figures it out, sy has very different expectations for what a relationship might look like. the conversation at the end of this fic where sy tries to work through his asexuality with bingge was very cathartic for me. i'd love to one day do a much longer fic in which bingge, who has been taught his whole life that love is expressed through sex, falls for ace!sy and struggles with it. i think it would have to be bingge's pov to be most impactful, though, so i've been putting it off >.>;;
shallow water weather in which mer!binghe joins mer!shen yuan's pod, and as soon as he knows sy has the capacity to genuinely care for him, skips straight from "unfriendly acquaintance" to "courtship partner." i'm a really big fan of creature AUs in which the characters' behaviors are influenced a lot by creature instincts and behavior, so all the mer behavior in this one is super self indulgent hehe
...it's perhaps not a surprise that most of my self favorites are the most recent ones i've written. every step you take is an improvement, etc etc. anyway, thank you again for thinking of me when you sent this ask in, and i apologize for how long it took me to get to it!
#bit of a long post but it's hard to say “this is a fav of mine” without saying why also djfghjkd#anyway ty for the ask!!#nyoomerr ask
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Obligatory sorry if you're fed up with GO2 asks!
I'm a new fan of the show (like, a few weeks after season 2 came out a friend lent me their Prime acc to binge watch everything) and haven't read the book at all but!
It's like in S1 Crowley and Aziraphale exist in the world and in S2 the world exists for them kind of,, in S1 the point of view shifted almost constantly and at the end the plotlines converged together in a cathartic moment for all of our beloved characters, but in S2 it's just,, present Aziracrow and past Aziracrow,, which is fine, I liked that they showcased the way they were and are with each other but it would've been better if there were less of these moments.
Talking about these, I saw that a lot of people on Tumblr were excited to see Crowley as an angel and it could've been good but. I don't get why Aziraphale HAD to be here, or more like HAD to interact with him and remember/recognize him later, and I'm not really thrilled about the fact that Crowley is implied to be someone important! It just feels like Crowley and Aziraphale aren't equals anymore ; Crowley Always Knows Best he admittedly was someone pretty important in heaven before and he feels more Holier Than Thou than the literal angel he's with?? I get that he Fell so he already knows for sure that Heaven is corrupt but,, I don't know, I feel like Aziraphale lost agency and just Can't Do Anything Right anymore! (And Crowley Can't Do Anything Wrong anymore either??)
I found the flashbacks for ineffable bureaucracy quite adorable but it was all too sudden! It feels the Gabriel mystery just wasn't progressing at all during the season and at the last minute, ta-dahh here's an exposition dumb on what happened, no build-up for the now canon pairing. Not a big fan of amnesia in general but even less when the amnesic character just gets everything back for a dramatic reveal scene, maybe I would have felt like things actually happened in this season if Gabriel was slowly able to access some memories. We could have had the build-up of him and Beelzebub planning on escaping together in the flashbacks! (And I mean, I get that there was the fly and the song but,, It didn't really affect Gabriel/Jim so it doesn't feel,,, enough?)
I was completely indifferent to Maggie and Nina. Also could've worked better as a separate POV from Aziracrow. I just didn't get enough scenes to care for them or feel any chemistry. Nina was already in a relationship, and Maggie was just crushing on her. They didn't really get together at the end but they're involved enough in the idea of them getting together in the future to give Crowley love advice and for Maggie to wait for Nina. I just don't really get it? If the goal was Maggie and Nina getting together, then they needed more time and scenes. If the goal was that they would not get together because Aziraphale and Crowley were trying to force them to be, then why saying that they "only needed a little push," that Maggie is "willing to wait for Nina," why both give love advice to a guy they barely know when they barely know each other too?
Anyways, I really liked the show (and am still eager for a potential S3)! But I feel like Neil Gaiman's writing is missing a similar style to Terry's (though obviously I wouldn't know what his writing is like since I. Haven't read the book nor other books from this/both of these actually authors), and important reoccurring characters besides Aziraphale and Crowley.
Yes, I agree with a lot of your points! And it's very interesting for me to hear that we share a lot of the same opinions although coming from different places -- being an older book fan and being a newer show-only fan. "S1 Crowley and Aziraphale exist in the world and in S2 the world exists for them" is exactly right, and similar to what I complained about not liking them "being the main characters". And I completely agree with that even if we see Angel!Crowley, Aziraphale doesn't have to be there, and also not liking that Crowley was somebody important before. And yeah, I've said it before but the Gabriel mystery and even the Nina/Maggie romance have potential, but ends up falling flat. Thank you for the ask! Apology accepted.
#apology accepted because HO BOY THIS WAS A LONG ASK haha#How could you make me READ /jk jk#ask#long post#good omens season 2#gos2 spoilers#good omens critical#anonymous
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in response to an ask from @justpostsyeet about what Laws and Customs of the Eldar say about sexual assault
under a cut for non graphic discussion of this!
also thank you to @undercat-overdog for helping me find the relevant passage that I literally had memorized but could not find (seriously I spent like an hour reading through Morgoth's Ring and could not find the part I needed, my fault for researching when half asleep but anyways, Undercat saved this post!)
The ask: Hi, hope your having a good day/night (maybe this request doesn't worsen your day). I honestly love your posts and I've a thing that I want to ask to you.
Maybe you has done this before but what do you think the elves view on sexaul assault must be?
And even if it's true what must be the reaction of elves when the a) hear about such news, b) witness such cruelty, c) experiences such awful things themselves .
I know it's a very sensitive topic and I don't want you to feel uncomfortable so, ignore it if you want. I've my own headcanons but I just wanted to know your opinions.
My response: this does not worsen my day! I'm sure you know this from my posts but I write a lot of darker topics and I'm fine discussing this! Indeed, I enjoy discussing darker topics, I can find it very cathartic to write about
Thank you so much for the ask and for thinking of me!
The concept that elves cannot survive sexual assault comes from Laws and Customs of the Eldar, an essay style section of Morgoth's Ring, in the Histories of Middle Earth. In LaCE, as it's often known, Ælfwine, or Elfwine, a pre canon character in The legendarium is credited with the editing of this text as well as other parts of the histories of Middle Earth adding another aspect of meta to it.
LaCE is a controversial essay. Many consider it to be precanon or non canon. Others consider it an in universe philosophical or religious work rather than biological facts or universal standards for the elves. I think this interpretation is probably accurate
The relevant part you're talking about is a footnote in response to this line of LaCE Even when in after days as the history is reveal many of the Eldar in Middle Earth became corrupted and their hearts darkened by the Shadow that lies upon Arda seldom is any tale told of Deeds of lust among them.
The footnote reads ...But among all those evils there is no record of any among the elves that took another spouse by force for this was wholly against their nature and one so forth would have rejected bodily life and passed to Mandos. Guile or trickery in this matter was scarcely possible even if it could be thought that any elf would purpose to use for it; for the Eldar can read in the eyes of another whether they be wed or unwed
I agree with you that it's probably not the case that sexual violence instantly leads to death.
I think it's fun to play around with whether or not LaCE is a, canon or b, strict biological law! Generally I go with it not being so but there is a lot of fascinating ideas that can be explored, if often horrifying ones, treating it like that! (the idea that elves can tell in the eyes of another if they're married or not is FASCINATING even if the idea that such a phenomena would prevent sexual violence is...troublesome...)
On the basis of LaCE not being biological law though, there are a few possibilities for this inclusion (note: these are in universe possibilities, not a complete list of reasons why Tolkien might have included it)
a, an in universe narrator trying to mitigate or cover up the fact that this did indeed occur
b, as in most versions he appears in, Ælfwine is not an elf but a human, this could simply be an idealistic notion or misconception or even misunderstanding or mistranslation
c, sexual violence is a taboo subject in many human cultures, it's certainly not implausible that it was treated similarly the elves. Even if it's not an attempt to cover up actions by well known figures in the history of the Eldar, it could be a denial of cultural traumas or a refusal to reckon with a certain kind of pain
The fact that it specifically reads 'no record of any taking the spouse of another by force' is somewhat strange. Obviously, non married people can be the victims of assault (and people can be victimized by those they're married to; it's worth noting here that Tolkien did seem to realize both, some of the primary, and only, instances of rape in the legendarium are instances of marital rape)
A...generous reading is that it is worded like this because the footnote appears in relevance to the section about marriage and this is meant to discuss specifically how certain trauma affects the marital bond, something that LaCE defines as a spiritual and physical matter.
(Plenty of horror you could potentially explore there; spouses actually feeling the pain and trauma of their partners due to this bond, whether trauma from this kind of violence or other)
What I do think is true is that elves have a stronger connection between body and mind and soul and that severe trauma of any kind can lead to physical consequences up to, including and beyond death of the body. This is of course not unheard of in humans, stress takes a physical toll. But for elves I think this connection is perhaps more profound.
This is not limited to sexual assault and indeed most of the instances we see of this in canon are not related to sexual assault.
It's worth noting that there are some troublesome aspects of Tolkien's wording. Obviously the linking of sexual assault and lust is not entirely accurate. Desire and lust often do not play a role in sexual violence; power and control perhaps being more pertinent. Then of course the fact that it says 'no record of one taking the spouse of another by force' is also questionable as I talked about above.
In conclusion, I think like the rest of LaCE, it makes more sense as the philosophy of one group or individual rather than biological reality.
Finally, I'll note that the two primary examples I can think of in the works of victims of sexual violence who "choose" death or at least leaving body or life in some form or another are not elves but are Aerin, a human, and Arien, a Maia (Arien's example also not being strictly canon), both of whom choose fire. (also I think that whether or not Aerin died is actually ambiguous and is certainly not definite, that being said the idea that she did is a perfectly plausible reading) Also why are their names so similar...
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.50 Caliber 3D Platformer Post #5
(Flashing Lights Warning near the bottom of the post)
UI UI UI UI UI:
I've been working on UI mostly the past couple of weeks. It has been, as usual, both very cool & fun but also hell and evil. To be more specific, I really like designing the visual aspect of UI, but implementing it is always so horribly tedious and boring that it is really hard for me to focus on doing it. Without fail, I always end up getting UI done very slowly because of this. I am really happy with what I've got so far though, and it has brought me one step closer to getting to the point where I can just start hashing out levels.
Making the Health UI:
The health UI was something I was extremely excited about implementing, so I eagerly decided to decide that it was time to make it. Let me step u through the process 4 fun.
For me, it always starts with sketching out something crudely in pen. I've had this sketch done for months now, so it was p cool to see it finally come to life in game.
Next I hopped into blender and began trying to make some kind of cool y2k-era greebled out shape, but making detailed machinery (or details in general) is not my strongsuit, so I ended up with this kinda neat smooth shape that I wasn't entirely happy with. It looked cool, but I really wanted to challenge myself to make something closer to the windows media player skins I was inspired by.
More Specifically, I referenced this Half-Life 2 windows media player skin heavily, and started with a ring that I could build little pieces and wires off of. I hope u can forgive me if I maybe made it too similar lol, but I tried to get creative and put my own spin on it. I think the shapes on the top left are the most similar to my reference, and those are not-so-coincidentally the first bits that I modeled. This is my first time modeling something in this style, and I suspect that I'll get better at it if & when I do it again.
Finally, I slapped some materials on, made a texture for one of the faces I had sketched out, and rendered out a few frames of it gently(ish) flashing. I then went into affinity photo and made little speedometer components to slot into the small circle in the top right and programmed some functionality to it. The plan is to have the face represent the player's current health, so I am going to need to make a few more and then animate it rotating into a different face. But yeah, I am super happy with it, and I think it is lookin p sick!
Other Stuff What I Made:
Other than the health UI, I also added in functionality and UI for completing a level and selecting a level.
I was very much inspired by killer7 for the sequence that plays when you shoot your target, and I am addicted to intense flashing lights, so I included a lot of that. There are already accessibility options to turn that off, so if it's something that could harm u or if you just hate it (coward????!!!11) you can disable them. I've always found intense effects like that very cathartic, so I'm probably gonna include similar visuals in a few different things I make. That being said, I do also always want to make the alternative visuals (when the accessibility options are enabled) to also be cool af and get the point across. The level select screen was also really fun to make, I basically just slapped together some textures of warn-out paper into a little files situation and placed that on top of an abstract background that I made in jwildfire.
Conclusion:
I have honestly really loved working on this so far, but there has been a lot of anxiety about money in my life lately, so I really do hope to get this out in a reasonable time. I feel like I say that a lot about this game, but it is because it's always on my mind unfortunately. I don't want to make it sound like I am making this game entirely for money or w/e though, it is definitely a labor of love. Anyways, I hope to get to a point where I can get some environment art done soon, and I cannot wait to show off whatever this game is gonna look like. Have a nice day every1!
#screenshotsaturday#indiegamedev#gamedev#indiedev#game development#indiegames#y2k#y2k aesthetic#3d platformer#3dplatformer#sniper rifle#windows media player#50 caliber 3d platformer#50 cal
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Hi, Bunny!
I'm so glad you're back! The chapter is phenomenal!
It`s your retired overseas doctor anon as promised back to your siren call (well not so anon anymore, but it felt right)
Notification about you releasing new chapter caught me first thing in a morning, yes I check my phone as soon as I peel my eyes open, it`s been great stat for the day, despite heart palpitations, better than cup of tea for sure
Well, earlier in the comments on AO3 I promised a full-blown blown love letter, so here we go ❤️
First things first — I love you. Your works are breathtaking (all of them), but H&H takes a special place, it was first introduction to you (and we can't ever forget our first😉). I’m gonna tell you a secret, you were the first person/creator/writer I ever sent an ask. I’m not a very social person, but you do something to me, maybe it’s because we are colleagues that I feel such kinship
Speaking of kinship. Maybe it's weird but in the last few chapters I've been relating more to the doctor — Elia, than to our lover girl (jeez I wonder why🙃). Funny thing, my name is kind of similar to the doctors. "Master of her craft.." and everything that comes next regarding Elia is probably my favorite passage from last chapters
In latest chapter I particularly enjoyed Sugu`s “intervention” about life and death, mmmm just chef's kiss! And of course Boys are being their typical selves - rabid dogs, but we love them that way😏 Deranged is Satoru default so all is right in this world. Can`t wait to see more of boys trying to gain our girls trust (I kinda like seeing them suffer😳)
- With all my love, Akvarion✨
AHHHHHH MY BABY 😭🥹
Okay forgive me, i’m going to gush a little (too much). Sit tight, stay awhile.
Akvarion, hi.
I’m Bunny—B, Bun, Bun bun, whatever you want to call me is fine, it is so nice to meet you. It is such an honor for me that you peeled off the anon. I mean, I felt the natural draw to you anyway because we are colleagues. But this is so…I’m emotional about it???
Being your first in any way is a treat. That you felt compelled enough to even reach out or read my delirious work is a love language in and of itself.
Re: Elia, I wholeheartedly agree.
Writing a Surgeon into the story wasn’t the original plan (tbh half of the plot has developed on a whim because my writing style is so deranged, me & Gege are cut from the same cloth i fear). But her character has been so healing. From running the initial trauma code, to the operating, to the delivering good/bad/good news, to extubating her patient in the ICU at 0200, to watching a family/lovers reunion, to giving strict post-op instructions only to have her patient not follow them (LOL, we love our patients anyway) — it has been cathartic. And to have you, a fellow doc, relate to her feels so special.
Our boys are being batshit. This is par for the course 😅 we have to make them work for their forgiveness this time. Being fatally handsome cant always be the cure, right..?
I’m rambling. I can’t help it.
But, I love you to the Sun, Moon, Stars and back 🤍
B.
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It's midnight but the brain worms won't stop so take some more Cryptid angst(but this time writing!) because I love to make my bean suffer
(Tw for implied emotional/verbal child abuse and implied forced (platonic) affection)
Cryptid stared down at the words they had just written. It didn't really matter if they were any good, it was a fucking diary entry. Their diary was already a mess. So much that it hurt to read back through it.
They started it way back when they were still in Wren’s world. Or well they started the first one. They had lost it when they got kidnapped of course, but they got a new one from Bad and Skeppy. A nice leather bound book with a lock, they kept the key in their enderchest. Of course anyone could break the lock or rip it off (thank God Dream never did), but it gave them some feeling of security.
But of course what was more notable was its contents. They had stopped writing in it as much when Dream started getting bad, out of fear he would read it, it wouldn't be the first breach of privacy he made. But from time to time when they got really low they would write pages upon pages of their thoughts, tucked away against rocks in the training arena, the place that embarrassingly felt the safest and most private.
Cryptid didn't read back through those pages. They knew that if they were to, they would probably just be thrust back into that mindset. They already still hid their diary under their floorboards, even though they knew Sam would never touch it, they just got over flinching anytime Sam would touch them, for fear the touch wouldn't leave. They didn't need to go back to that place of contradiction, of rationalizations of why really his actions were ok.
No. They had moved on. They didn't want to claw their skin off when they saw Dream yesterday. Punz’s glance didn't make them want to shrivel up and die, and his glare certainly didn't almost make their anxiety attack turn into a panic attack.
They were fine.
They were fine.
Maybe one day the lies wouldn't sound so fake. Maybe one day they wouldn't hurt anymore. Maybe one day-
They sigh. And close their diary, turning their key in the lock to click it shut.
Maybe one day they wouldn't have to lie to themself.
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I don't even know what the fuck this is I just kinda spewed out 370 words from the brainworms
Writing Cryptid pov is very comfy though, probably cause they have the same thinking style as me lol.
I promise they get to be ok eventually but I love writing them hurt, it's cathartic
But they do get to be ok eventually!!! It's actually very important to me that they get to be ok eventually, gives me more hope and all that shit(my life's actually pretty good right now but like, still)
Anyway yeah, writing I guess.
(Dreaming of death is an au of the fic Penpal by @calamari-minecraft-corner)
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1. When was the first time you had sex with someone?
Oh jeez this was such a disaster. So I’m freshly 18 and my first act as a fresh, naive 18 year old is to download grindr. I get a lot of messages about how hot it is that I’m on the legal side of barely legal but then there’s one message from a nice guy with a nice picture, who we’ll call Prince Charming. We chitty chat and PC wants to go on a date that weekend. I put it in my calendar.
I show up to his place and I realize I’ve been temporally catfished. PC is definitely the guy in the picture, but 24 he was no longer. Being too surprised/inexperienced/polite to say no, I step inside. His apartment was structured somewhat like a plus sign in the weirdest way possible. You enter through a foyer that opens up directly into the kitchen. To the right is the living room/sitting area, to the left is a bedroom and closet, and directly in front is the bathroom and this guy’s bedroom. And seated at a folding table placed squarely in the center of it all was PC’s 50 year old roommate. He’s eating cereal in a bathrobe and undershirt and looks like the most tired man I’ve ever seen. Prince Charming introduces me and I give a very spirited smile and wave. Without blinking he stares me in the eyes and gives the slightest nod. PC says “anyways let’s go to my room” so we do and we sit on the bed.
He tells me about his love of Icelandic culture and music. And I’m like “Oh! I know about Björk!” To which he curtly responds “Its pronounced Björk.” I apologize and he puts on some incredibly sexy music and by that I mean the musical stylings of Björk, Sigur Rós, and múm. We start making out in this drone of electronic avant-garde post-rock and I’m like wow. So this is sex. This sucks. The dicks finally come out and I give him the worst blowjob to not involve teeth ever. I’m so worried about teeth that I really just like opened my mouth wide and breathed on his penis. But sexy 😏. He knows I’m a virgin and says he’ll bottom for me. So yes I did start my career as a top but I’m a changed man now, I promise 😩 My dick is surprisingly hard given how little I was into it and he said “Wait, I have the perfect song for this” and he was both incredibly wrong and incredibly right. He puts on múm’s The Land Between Solar Systems and guides me inside him.
I’m shattered into a million pieces. I just gave up my virginity to someone who tricked me because I didn’t have the backbone to say no. I’m ashamed. This feels kinda good and I like making him moan. I feel sexy. I’m trying to be quiet because I don’t want cereal man to hear. I feel embarrassed. But I’m also trying to pound ass. I’m trying to pound ass to the slowest beatless electronic lullaby I’ve ever heard in my life. Somehow, I feel good. I continue at it while the song pulls me in with its hypnotic soundscapes. Slowly I’m sublimated into its quiet beauty, my senses being drawn into its pace of slow, steady growth and cathartic release. These climaxes ironically pulled me away from my own and I went soft. We gave up and left the room, walking past the old man in the robe. I waved goodbye and he gave me the same nod. The bowl was empty. Standing in front of his apartment, PC asked me if I wanted to take a walk with him into the woods. I said “no thank you :)” and walked away. He blocked me on grindr.
So THAT just happened. Yeah. Don’t do this! But also this is just a crazy memory to me now. I’ve had a respectable amount of sex after this, most of which was much much better. Don’t be too bummed out by awkward sexual encounters, learning what you don’t like can be as helpful as learning what you do. But like stay safe 😮💨
33. What are your favorite foreplay activities?
Choosing an outfit 🤭 I like for foreplay to start well before sex actually happens. When that je ne sais quois is in the air and I know sex is on the table that day, I like to dress for the occasion. Which of my shorts has he said I look hot in recently? What jockstrap would look good with it? And once the look is put together, it’s like Pokémon. Gotta catch his attention! Letting the pants sag so he can see the waistband, sitting on the couch but sexy, straight up grabbing his hands and bringing them down my pants, etc. The look on these boys faces when they know what’s coming ((hint: it’s about to be them)) makes me smile every time 🥰
100. Where is your favorite place to masturbate?
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20 questions for fic writers
1. How many works do you have on ao3?
23, but I have more/older stories on other sites
2. What's your total ao3 word count?
237,183
3. What fandoms do you write for?
Right now, mainly btvs and I have an unfinished Arcane fic dying in my drafts
4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?
Hiraeth (TF)
where the shadow ends (BTVS)
Brother Let Me Be Your Shelter (TUA)
the broken gates of kingdom come (BTVS)
skin like the sky at dusk (LOKI)
5. Do you respond to comments? why or why not?
I used to respond to nearly every single comment but rip I have been letting it slip lately 😭
6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?
Probably I’ll Be Home For Christmas (If Only In My Dreams). It’s a Christmas story about Five Hargreeves stuck in the apocalypse
7. What is the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?
Honestly probably The Art of Dying believe it or not 😂
8. Do you get hate on any fics?
I know for a fact I have gotten hate on fics but I straight up don’t remember it because I delete hate and then forget about it/block it out lmao
9. Do you write smut? if so, what kind?
Nope. The closest I’ve gotten was a non explicit “pan to the fireplace” sort of scene
10. Do you write crossovers? what's the craziest one you've written?
Nope
11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?
Not to my knowledge. Though I have written stories and then seen somebody else post a fic in the same fandom that was eerily similar to a scene I wrote.
12. Have you ever had a fic translated?
I have! I wrote this Jason Todd fic when I was a teenager called Just Another Robin and it’s been translated twice!
13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?
I have not. I’ve thought about it, but I’m probably too much of a weirdo to successfully collaborate with
14. What's your all time favorite ship?
It changes depending on what I’m fixating on tbh 😭
15. What's a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?
There’s like….nobody on this site who knows what I’m talking about but um. I got this fic called Hiraeth a lot of people really like. And I really do want to finish but it’s been so long and I’ve lost the muse/motivation for it. I’m really holding out that one of these days I’ll get a supernatural rush of inspiration and crank out like one final chapter for it
16. What are your writing strengths?
People say I do a good job at writing emotions
17. What are your writing weaknesses?
Honestly probably that I’m too attached to my style and too sensitive about certain critiques. Which is why I’ll probably never want to write professionally because for me it’s more of an artistic expression
18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?
I think it’s good as long as it’s limited and you make sure it’s accurate and the reader knows what is going on anyway. My approach was that it should always be explained clearly later on or be an inconsequential fun little Easter egg for the reader to look up later
19. First fandom you wrote for?
Oh my gosh. My first fic was Supernatural 🫣
20. Favorite fic you've written?
where the shadow ends I think is my magnum opus at this point in my life. It’s novel length. It’s very emotional and important to me and really had a lot of real life feelings poured into it. It was so strangely woven into my life at the time I wrote it. It’s cathartic. It’s real. It’s a piece of my soul put on paper tbh. And that banner…oh my gosh. It was perfect and I’ll cherish it probably for the rest of my life
A runner up would be this multimedia fic I wrote during the pandemic and it was a fic told through a combo of text messages, pictures, videos, and chapter writing. I’m still v proud of it even though it’s very hard to share anywhere because of the format
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i got unbaaaanned here's an ask: can i get a behind the scenes for (one of) your fav/s akekita scene/s you've written, any fic 👀 like, how did the idea come to you, or some fun fact abt the writing process... if you have anything to share ^^
Thank you for this!! I've been dying to have an excuse to talk about this stuff, you have no idea!
This wasn't exactly what you asked, but I thought I'd mention that people who have read my stuff in general point out my use of off-the-wall metaphors/similes. If anyone enjoys my little flair in doing this, I highly recommend reading the works of Peter Beagle! I shamelessly stole the technique from him and made it my own. I recommend starting off with The Last Unicorn (it's a classic for a reason), but any of his older works share a similar style (A Fine and Private Place, Folk of the Air). I'm not sure that I would be a writer today without him.
Anyway...
-Fun fact: Akechi is easier for me to write than Yusuke. I, too, am very angry inside and probably just need a hug lol It's cathartic. Although, two years of studying art in college actually helps with writing Yusuke, because I don't need to look up art terms.
-In Aesopica, the ending was highly inspired by my favorite Tokyo Ghoul fic, in which Kaneki turns the tables on Tsukiyama in the end (huge content warnings for that TG fic btw). I loved how satisfying the circular nature of it was and wanted to try something similar. I knew the ending I wanted to create right from the first chapter.
I cannot remember how I came up with the fruit bowl to both mark the passing of time, and the decay of their relationship. But go past me for coming up with that! My 2017 brain was the real mvp.
This is also my longest fic and you will not see me write anything this long again lol I just don't have it in me. Shout out to long fic writers, I'll have some of whatever you're snacking on.
I also remember this being something of a vent fic. I was sad and wanted to my faves to be sad together. While I do enjoy supportive akekit, where they both grow together, I also love when they just make each other worse.
-Sliced Halves, Light Syrup, please imagine me in the grocery store staring blankly at a can of peaches while concocting an entire fic. Writers are very normal people.
This is also my second most popular akekit fic. Fluff sells, I guess. I prefer my darker stuff tbh!
-After Aesopica, my personal favorite of mine is Psychosomatic. I'm shy about my love of organ-fondling since it's not a common thing to be into (there's not even an official ao3 tag for it lol), so I'm grateful to the person on the kink meme for prompting this. Knowing someone else was interested allowed me to put myself out there and write it. I re-read it not long ago just for fun, and it holds up. It's the intimacy of literally touching the insides of someone, you know?
-I'm scrolling through my akekit fics now and wow! I do not remember some of these? Who wrote these while I wasn't looking??
-Kilroy Was Here was going to be serious angst about Akechi forcibly kissing Yusuke so that he would no longer trust him, because he feels like he doesn't deserve trust, blah, blah... But the idea of Yusuke annoying the crap out of him before they got to that point was so funny to me that I had to run with it. If anyone was wondering about my sense of humor, this fic is it. (I am not funny)
-Born to be Posthumous 69 kudos harr harr... I enjoy this one even if it wasn't as popular as some of my others. I remember being depressed and angry and wanting to take it out on Akechi.
This is getting long now, but it was fun! Thank you again! Hopefully this wasn't too far from you asked! Most of my scenes just come to me as I'm writing with a basic idea in mind, so I just toss them in as I go. A humble chef tossing anything she finds in the fridge right into the soup.
Now that I'm back from my writing hiatus I definitely plan to bring out more akekit when I can!
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Ok so this isn’t going to be a super lo g analysis of your recent chapter so I’m sorry to disappoint in advance 😖 BUT I have been following you since I think chapter 2 or 3 of Only fools (which has been my comfort fic ever since I found it and don’t start me on how many times I’ve read the whole thing over) and I have to say over the past year (I feel like it’s been 5 years and just a month at the same time since I’ve found you 🥹) it has been simply amazing to see you grow as an author and see each and every one of your chapters get more and more detailed and truly absorbing. Honestly seeing you go through this journey of growth has been inspiring for me to the point that I’ve started writing again after loosing interest in it for 3 years. And I just want to thank you for bringing that part of me back to life. I know you don’t know me especially with me being too shy to ever comment about your writing style and me saying all this might be weird but your stories have been with me through a lot and I remember checking on your blog every other day to see if you had updated when I was going through my brothers brain cancer recovery and whenever I saw you had updated he would ask me to sit with him and read the story (even though he has no interest in K-pop) because it helped him remember English (seeing as it’s not our first language) anyways that might’ve been wayyyy too deep and I’m sorry but if my stories impacted someone the same way yours did to me than I would love to hear about it so I took the liberty of doing the same! I will now go back to lurking in the tumbler shadows and supporting you from the comfort of my couch!
oh my god ! this is everything.
firstly, thank you for having been there since only fools , you’ve truly watched me go through it all and everything and thank you for noticing the way i grew into my writing. 🥺
ive been writing all my life but sharing it on a platform like this really helps me just want to be better and get better and learn more about what you like, and what really works for my stories, so this blog has been so helpful for me in order to grow.
im very happy that you began writing again! congratulations! i hope you love it and get back into the routine because its truly so comforting and cathartic to write😭
and lastly, im so sorry to hear about your brother, your family and you having to go through that. that sounds really tough, i cant imagine, and im sorry you had to experience that, and what you said makes me really emotional. i cant even comprehend that my silly little romance stories could help you and him in a time like that.
that’s absolutely insane to think about and its something ill never forget….thank you for sharing that with me, its so brave of you, and i hope i can always be that person for you. everytime i get demotivated or feel like my work doesnt matter, i would think about what you said and push myself to work harder and be better.
please take care, i hope hes doing good too. i love you. <3
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i’m working on a Spicy reply to something & it has me thinking about percy’s relationship with kink. because i think he’s very interested in it, but he’s had limited ability to experiment with it?
i think he has these bold, romantic moments in passing but when it comes to talking about his interest on the subject he gets flustered. that being said, i recently had a conversation with someone about how kink forces you to open up to your partner & learn how to communicate what it is you want & don’t want to try which i think would be sooo cathartic for percy once the ice is broken.
i think he would be a switch. in the beginning of any relationship, he would lean more towards a submissive mindset as he’s learning what his partner likes, how they treat him. a lot of his love language involves reflecting his partner’s desires & i think that would apply in kink too.
he is wildly experimental when it comes to sex, i think but before he opens that door he spends a lot of time & care testing the waters with whoever his partner is. even if they say ‘ i want this, i want you to do this to me ‘ he needs an understanding of how that feels in order to feel comfortable doing it. [ ex: if someone wanted to be spanked,he would want to be spanked first. if someone wanted wax dripped on them, he would need them to do it to him first. he needs a threshold of what something feels like before he is comfortable subjecting someone else to the feeling ]
alot of the appeal of kink to percy, i think, is the inherent intimacy. there being a pre-defined power dynamic is something he would enjoy, with established limits & an enviornment where he’s sure he or his partner can tap out if something isn’t feeling the way they want it too. as someone who is not always receptive to emotional intimacy, there is something deeply fulfilling about trusting someone with their body like that.
also percy is an aftercare king when he doms. again, he is someone who adapts to his partner’s needs but if he is given permission he can be pretty merciless, he loves pushing boundaries. but he knows that with walking this line is the trust & understanding that he needs to ease his partner out of the space he puts them in. he makes them snacks, wraps them in soft blankets, will run a nice bath for them if that’s their style. he puts a lot of care into understanding their partner’s needs.
when percy subs he also likes to be treated pretty mercilessly. he gets flustered pretty easily in the beginning of a relationship & isn’t afraid to lean into his internal butterflies when it serves him. it’s easy to make him blush, easy to make him squirm. he loves being overstimulated bcs a) it feels good & b) his body is sensitive & he has a lot of sensory needs so it is nice to utilize that part of himself for something more enjoyable. that being said, he doesn’t like handcuffs. they feel wrong on his wrists. he likes being tied up / bound but with soft testures. some rope is okay, but it really depends on the context.
though i do think percy has had some one night stands over the years, his experience with sex & relationships is limited. it has been an interest, but it has not been his priority. he’s had kinky sex on occasion but it’s been with the guidance of a more experienced partner... everything else he knows is from reading not only about the concept but also reading smut when he thinks no one is watching. anyways bottom line is i think he would just enjoy kink more with a regular partner. like yes, the handful of nights he’s indulged in over the past have been fun but the intimacy wasn’t quite what they were looking for... if this makes sense? i hope this makes sense
#nsft#i will put it under my percy tag someday when i rb this but i do not want personals finding this#but it IS sinday & i am just thinking#there is nothing super explicity in this it is just rables abt kink in theory / what that means to percy / how he indulges when he does
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gender? i hardly know her
I tell everyone I know that I was aware something was up with my gender in middle school. That I started experimenting with being a boy, and that didn't fit right until I found the term nonbinary and that fit me like a magic glove and everything was rainbows and sparkles and Nyan Cats. It's a very digestible story, albeit false.
It was more that I just ignored being a "girl" for nearly the entirety of middle school, until about 7th grade. I was just doing my own shit, being the trademarked Art Kid™ of my class, keeping myself busy with phone games, and- if you squinted- not feeling out of place at all.
I experimented with the term "agender" and for a while it fit me. I decorated the little locker we got in our homeroom with a handmade magnet of the agender flag. I wasn't going to be like those stories I saw everywhere, hiding my gender like some kind of secret. I thought I was better for doing that, not realizing there's fucking nuance to it and it's impossible to expect that from every queer person.
It was all very surface-level understanding of my queerness anyway. I think I just enjoyed the aesthetics of all that compartmentalization.
All of a sudden you have a bunch of new words to describe yourself with. I'm not [deadname] anymore, I'm Kai, my pronouns are they/them, and I'm a Trans Agender Panromantic Demisexual. Even picking my new name was cathartic- something I chose for myself like a badge of honor. Again- compartmentalization.
Even though I'm not the person I used to define myself as, I think that was probably the first time that I took part in a community like that so fervently. The music I listened to, the games I played, I got to look at content about it online sometimes, but only from the sidelines. Gender was something I could take pieces of and run with in my real life.
In freshman year of high school I saw other trans people in these communities, and I now suddenly had a lot of expectations on how I would look. I expected that I'd wear button up Hawaiian shirts and style my hair in a weird up-do forever. How I felt about all of it is pretty fuzzy. I remember feeling proud when I cut my hair short, happy when I wore a binder and full cover shirt to the beach. I was fully prepared to transition to "basically male" because I really didn't see any nonbinary representation and defaulted to White, Skinny Trans Guys to form the basis of what "androgyny" looked like to me.
(Something something internalized transphobia because I was viewing trans guys not as men, but as a "close enough" to nonbinary? I'm not sure.)
Then I finally saw other nonbinary people on my radar in sophomore year, people who were taking a stand against that norm. I followed that for a bit. I wore dresses and made my eyebrows and eyebags dark and vehemently described my style as "kidcore", followed TikTok trends and browsed depop.
I was also kind of dumbing down my transness to be digestible for myself and everyone else. "I'm just nonbinary- no need to get your panties in a twist. Let's just leave it and forget about it and it's just gonna stay like that forever. they/them, I'm not complicating it."
And then after a while I just kind of fucking gave up. Even if I wanted to make it digestible enough for other people, I should at least have an idea of what my gender means to me, regardless of how convoluted it ends up. Besides, so much of the world will want me dead no matter how much I water my gender down, no matter how "cis" I look.
But it's really long and arduous to explain all of that, so it's pretty clear why I'd rather go with the neat and tidy first option.
#journal#i'll post more on how i actually define my own gender later. this is long enough as is#quipips
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This week I listened to "Wismar" By Rose Avenue
⭐⭐⭐⭐(4 out of 5 stars)
I liked this album a lot! I think it was odd getting back into Indie Rock/Pop since it's been a while since I've listened to this sort of music. Come to think of it it's been since daysormay in early April or Bears in Trees in early May (they don't count because they're British/hj). I think Rose Avenue very much has a sound that they nail and is very different from the other indie rock I've listened to this year. They remind me of Half•Alive but are still distinct in their own way. I like Rose Avenue, I felt like this whole album felt like one long song and everything flowed together into one in a really cool way. I also like that they make music about small-town style relationships/friendships. I am going to say their guitar and instrumentals remind me a lot of James Marriot's album "Are We There Yet?" and I think this is sort of just a sound I tend to gravitate towards.
Anyways, opinion time! (as always, not opinion order, just album order)
This'll be a bit tough since it's 7 songs and the whole album is really cool...
"Head in the Clouds" I think the talking before the song is a great way to transition into the very fast start of this song, I just think it is a neat way to start the song. I think this song tells a story that leave a lot to the listener. The characters are introduced and I think such a great part of indie music is that you don't really always know the exact meaning of every song but you get enough pieces to get an idea and flesh out the story in your head. Anyway, this song has a great composition. I love the use of texture and I love the instrumental 2/3 of the way through the song and how it works its way back to the chorus. I found this song stuck in my head a lot; and I think this song works so well.
"The Devil You Know" is such a cool song. I love how this introduces us more to the characters within this album. I love the fast-paced chorus at the start with the muted drums and loud bass and how quickly it transitions to the next verse and allows the song to build. These guys do a great job of building up within their songs and it sounds great. This one I feel I will keep coming back to a lot over time.
"An Ocean, A River" does a brilliant job wrapping up the album. It is led into by "Aren't You Sick" AMAZINGLY, I love these songs together so much they tickle my brain. I LOVE 1:08-1:20 (the start of the first chorus) Jesus I love cathartic screaming in a song. It works amazingly to build the song up more. The first time I heard it I was blown away. I love the loud choruses on this song and that these guys aren't afraid of the transition from really soft to really loud music. I love the ending instrumental, what an amazing way to end an album.
There's only 7 songs but have some...
Honorable Mentions!!! 🥳🥳🥳
I'm a big fan of "Age Old Drink" the VOCALS Jesus, mwah, brilliant. This song is Dreamlike and a lot of fun. I love the drums on the chorus.
"Aren't You Sick" has Great guitar and drums again, love me some loud music and I think this song does it great. Also as I said above I love how this song leads into "An Ocean, A River".
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Libra placements (especially Libra suns/mars)
Mixed experiences ! This has increased lately and I think I’m hopefully at the end of this arch of attracting Libra suns lol. My mars is in Libra in 12th house so I’ve had a lot of Libras start off especially nice then get passive aggressive and try to push all of my boundaries. I feel like there’s something about that sun in detriment that can make them insecure and prone to overcompensating when underdeveloped. That on top of my mars conjunction to their sun has made Libras be really competitive in a passive aggressive way and when I don’t participate in that (because I don’t do competition) they throw a lot of sneak disses my way and try to pull me into conflict while looking innocent. Disrespectful on the low. If I see the signs I don’t date them and I don’t work with them and I haven’t met a Libra that has been sincerely nice and transparent for the entire trial period I give them lol (for me anyway)
Scorpio moons
I think Scorpio moons have been chill for the most part ! Idk I’ve had some confess really weird things to me but like I usually find them to be grounding and I get where they’re coming from emotionally (I’m a Scorpio rising). Some have opened up to me out of the blue (mostly guys ngl) and that surprised me. But I feel like if there’s resentment there I have a harder time sensing it with this placement, until I see it all at once lol. But overall usually kinder than you’d expect from the stereotypes.
Gemini moons
A lot of people I’ve worked with especially. I usually feel weird about it because my 8th house is in Gemini, so I feel like I’ve gotten along well with a few that start mirroring me and copying me. Copying me freaks me out. Then they usually try to outsmart or out perform me with those same copied moves and I’m like bruh what are you doing? I usually have to peace out after that.
Capricorn suns
Capricorns get other Capricorns lol. World weary together and it can be cathartic. Sometimes they get a little competitive in a passive aggressive way (different than Libra, Capricorns try to pick you apart when they’re underdeveloped), and I don’t vibe with that though.
Sagittarius Suns/Moons
Fun people (my Venus is in Sag) but I find them inherently unreliable in the long term lol. Super fun people to vibe with imo, just can’t like ask them to be consistent for me for 4+ months lmao. If it works on their terms they’ll be around but otherwise nu-uh (not just friends in my experience, bosses and adults in my family historically lmao)
Pisces Suns
Pisces is in my 5th house so I always thought of them as really fun and sweet. Secretly they can be more unreliable than sag suns lol. I feel like they can get stuck in listless sadness sometimes, but I think that’s Neptune’s nature lol.
Cancer Suns
Completely unpredictable on how things will go but I like them usually, I feel like cancers are more fun than we give them credit for. I did have a friend where I could never map how they would respond to things emotionally and it was a confusing time for me. But I feel like a lot of long term connections have been with cancers and each one has been better than the last in terms of like emotional maturity and safety.
Aquarius suns
Mixed bag. As a rule I’ve gotten along with Aquarius suns with water moons the best, I feel like those have been my favorite experiences. In my humble opinion I think the water moon helps soften the inherent detachment Aquariuses have and makes them less cold and alien and more Birds Eye view socially if that makes sense? Otherwise things get weird with both our traditional rulers being in Saturn. I feel like nowadays most Aquarius placements I interact with have been at work and there’s been a lot of competitiveness come up. I’m an artist and I use a very unique coloring method just because I like what effect it has on the art I do and I feel like it goes with my style well. Three times now I’ve had aqua suns that will not hear a word I say about anything but have literally copied my style then brought what they copied to me and say it’s not that hard (they didn’t even copy it right so I was like whatever). Two of them have worked for me even. One literally walked up to me while I was working and was like how do you do that, I want to do that. Confusing for me because I thought aqua suns were supposed to be historically more innovative but I’ve had so many try to crib off my style (artistically, fashion, otherwise) then resent me for it. If they don’t do that then they’re chill people lol.
Scorpio Venus + Cancer Mars
I’m trying to be cool and nice about dudes with Scorpio Venus but also it immediately makes me more sensitive to red flags when I see this in a chart. I don’t like to believe the rumors, but there is usually a weird power dynamic here. And guys with these placements don’t like to date people they’re really attracted to because of the power they “lose” in that dynamic. Very possible to have learned your lessons and be a great boyfriend with this placement. Rare. Like super rare. But possible !
Leo suns
I really liked my Leo suns for a long time, and I still like them well enough but when an underdeveloped one is like “me, me, me” I cannot unhear it and it sort of ruins all the charm all at once for me lol.
Leo moons
Again, I think Leo placements are good ! I just noticed that Leo moons are so rooted to their own perspective that they like lowkey cannot understand outside experiences. They try, by rooting it back to themselves but when it doesn’t click they don’t get it (political discussions have been a nightmare for me and people with this placement lol). This is probably underdeveloped energy.
Capricorn moons
Inherently we get each other. Emotionally lowkey bonding even when it’s over explicit trauma, and understanding that if no one else will get it done we will. But I’m always surprised by how many of them still try to get along with their moms even if she’s like actively hurting them (I don’t ! The ship has sailed for me, Saturn said no for me- but as always to each their own).
Aquarius moons
As a rule even if I have a lot of tough experiences with certain placements I’ll give new people with those placement a chance, because you never know. I can’t do that with aqua moons. It’s not like I shun them in public lol, but I never seriously date them. I feel like underdeveloped ones are naturally detached (fine) but see any budding emotional connections as attachments and can resent you for that (no thanks).
Mercurial Mars (Gemini/Virgo)
Great when they’re taking care of you, and really fun about intimacy and stuff. Terrible to argue with oml. Depending on the house the mars sign is in too it can get really intense. Otherwise I’ve enjoyed how clever they can be.
Is there a particular placement [or placements] that you tend to attract a lot? If so, what has your experience with them been like?
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