#anyways there’s the gender euphoria of the day

[queer-reader-07]

shoutout to the guy in my chem class who i’m in a little study group with who i guess took the time to look at my profile on discord and figured out my pronouns (i didn’t bother announcing them to the group because i didn’t want the hassle)

my guy has only gendered me correctly, both out loud when we’re talking in office hours and in text in the study group group chat.

[piccola-sola-e-triste]

I started a genderfluid calendar where I take note for the genders I've felt as every day. I selected five options that I might change in the future cause I'm not sure they're the ones and they are man, woman, something between the two, agender or multigender. And just ten days in I've already noticed this trend where whenever I don't see any of my friends I tend to select agender at the end of the day. It's not a bad thing, as a matter of fact of all the genders I experience agender is my favourite, because whenever I feel like that I am much less affected by dysphoria, and I also feel less in conflict with societal expectations, because it's pretty netural and that's ok. I don't feel like trying to be socialised as anything really. On the downside tho I don't really feel gender euphoria either. Which often makes me doubt about my agender identity, because it feels more like I am numb to anything rather than agender (I know it's just impostor syndrome but it still makes me a little sad when I think about it). I'm also not sure about the man and woman categories I selected because I rarely feel like just one of the two. Maybe a more appropriate distinction would be transmasc leaning nonbinary and transfem leaning nonbinary. Anyway whenever I feel multigender or transmasc/fem I feel my gender dysphoria eating me alive, but when I'm with the right people it makes me feel ecstatic about life. I guess it's a double the reward double the fall kind of deal.

[unproduciblesmackdown]

(genderly) chill as hell if i was only ever glimpsed / detected like this

[trans-phone-eater]

It's finished!

(You can tell where I've sewn by looking at the seams with white thread)

To get an idea of how much I changed the original piece of clothing, the pants I used to make this skirt looked very similiar to these:

[floatingonarock]

im a high school teacher and im not out at as trans at work for reasons so it always makes me feel extra fem when my students slip up and 'mess up' and refer to me as a woman im just there like im not even trying this is just how fem i am

[rocknrollinbitchforu]

I think listening to me explain my perception of gender would kill a room of conservatives. I was literally just thinking to myself about how I felt masculine today and one of the things that was helpful in me feeling masc was putting my phone in my back pocket. like what? even I'm confused

[bat-the-misfit]

ok i googled and redid the test and now i can say with a little more of certainty that my range goes from A2 to F#5

[robinsnest2111]

the overwhelming happiness I feel when ppl give me nicknames based on my chosen name <333

[non-un-topo]

Those days where you open your drawing program and just want to have a fucking meltdown

[le-panda-chocovore]

My sense of gender identity is so weird... Like, the whole thing about being non-cis but not having a real strong appartenance to any gender is that :

I don't like it when people see me automatically as a girl

I happily identify and present myself as a girl any time.

I guess I just don't want them to speculate about my gender.

[zincbot]

first workout after top surgery had me flying high all day

[skrunksthatwunk]

y'know as a genderfluid lesbian one of the things that's made me hesitate in thinking about going on T is worrying that girls won't like me (in a gay way in a sapphic way) if i have facial hair. but then i remember that goromi exists and it's like oh nevermind it'll just make me a hotter woman AND a happier man. problem solved

[maddogmp3]

i’ve reached a point in my transition that like. i look in the mirror and recognize myself. i look at myself and go “oh!! damn!! thats me!!”

[girl-with-bones]

I get that this doesn't include all genders and all experiences and whatnot but like

E5 is literally exactly my gender. Down to the colour and everything. Like literally thats it

Tag yourself! I'm somewhere between F1 and F2!!

!!!EDIT!!! Plz read before sending hate:

Look, I genuinely get that this graph doesn't have every gender on it. I know that it is labeled weird, I know that female & male and nonbinary/genderqueer & agender are on opposite sides of the chart. I know that this isn't inclusive to xenogenders, bigender, genderfluid, and a bunch of other genders. I know that people are upset about male being blue and female being pink. I know this graph is not inclusive for every gender out there. I really really do. I never claimed that it had all genders. Hell, I didn't even say it was a great graph! This photo is a screenshot of someone's random Twitter post that I found on pinterest and thought was neat. It was my first time seeing a gender graph that was something more besides male and female and it made me excited. I just wanted to share it with others. If it doesn't fit you, just say so. If your gender isn't on there, just say so. If you want to say how it could be improved or critique it's flaws, then by all means please do so! I have enjoyed scrolling through and seeing all the reblogs and people educating me and sharing better graphs. I love the discussions! I love the battleship and bingo jokes/games that have started. But I would really really appreciate if people would stop sending hate and shaming me for a graph I didn't even create. I am really really sorry for anyone I offended or hurt, it was NOT my intention. That is never my intention. I genuinely didn't think this post would even get more than like 5 likes, I was just sharing something that I thought was neat....

[cryptic-rainfall]

so today

cleaned and reorganized the pantry (this is a big one that has been on my list for 6+ months)

cleared some kitchen counter space

fixed my undercut/some other non-daily grooming things

ok I can't think of any more but that was pretty big! I now have the fridge and pantry cleaned and organized! now all that's left in the kitchen is the freezer and implementing those pan organizers for my pots and pans and such. (and cleaning the stove, oops.) And my computer desk has been cleaned this weekend too! progress!

so the goal tomorrow (after work) is to deal with all the clean clothes, and maybe put some things away in the attic space. let's see! (more likely I'm dead tired when I come back tomorrow and it will be a miracle if I even eat a full meal.) this house is still driving me crazy, and I still feel like there's nowhere to truly sit and relax, but when I open the pantry I can take a deep breath.

I wanted to add something else but I thought of it 2 hours ago and considering how antsy I've become, I'm too tired to remember. I need to order that binder tomorrow.

[werewolf-garfield]

Seeing the way other trans ppl on this website talk abt their own genders/experiences makes me wonder if i even have a gender at all. Ppl will post abt how happy transitioning made them and how comfortable they feel now and how happy they are to be trans and their experiences with community and I'm like..????? You guys are having emotions and experiences????? I thought we all experienced gender as a frustration we cant escape and a burden to bear and a goal forever out of reach? No? Just me?