#anyways not enough people talk about season 2 mc angst

[inhuman-obey-me]

Hello! Congratulations of 4000+ followers! Y'all do amazing writing, and its been really cool to see the blog grow overtime

For the event, may I request⚡️with Diavolo and yes on MC! Thank you so much, and I hope y'all have a good day

Thank you so much!! ;//u//; And also thank you for sticking around for so long -- it really does mean a lot! 💕

"What good is this "great power" of mine? Absolutely everything slips through my fingers." - Diavolo/MC

You hadn’t asked for this power. 

No, it was something that had been thrust into your hands, into your very being as the trajectory of your life changed the instant you opened your eyes and found your gaze held by pools of gold in an unknown and dangerous world. It was that one moment that began the unraveling, the revealing of all that you were and to be. 

It seems like such a distant memory now, that first day in the Devildom. 

No, you hadn’t asked for this power, but you didn’t refute it either. You had welcomed it, reveled in it. You had been plunged into a world of magic and monsters, angels and demons, witches and sorcerers – and you, a mere human who had been oblivious to the very real existence of this world in the shadows, were considered to be one of the most powerful mortals among it. 

And yet, as of late, you had been feeling absolutely powerless.

“Love, you’ve barely touched your food.” Diavolo’s gentle voice brings you out of your thoughts, and you look up now to meet those same golden eyes you first held all those years ago. His gaze flickers to your hand, where you’ve been fidgeting with the Ring of Light. The one thing stopping your very existence from ending the world as you knew it.

“Sorry,” You give him an apologetic smile as you lift your fork, letting it slowly sink into one of the vegetables on your plate. “I guess I just have a lot on my mind.” 

“Care to share?” He’s worried. “You know you can tell me anything.” 

“I know.” A sigh, and you set your fork down as you lean back in your chair. You try to find the words, your emotions half-formed on your tongue. “It’s just…with everything going on, I feel rather…useless.” 

“Useless? You?” Diavolo nearly scoffs, leaning forward in bewilderment. “What makes you think that? Surely, we’ve all told you how you’ve done so much for us, for the Three Realms.” 

“Have I, though?” You feel your throat begin to tighten, so you try to force your feelings down. “Everyone says that, and sure, to some extent I’ve played my part. But,” Your fingers tighten around the napkin in your lap. “You all have helped each other. I’ve just been a conduit, and sometimes I…I’ve been more of a problem to solve than a solution.” 

“That’s not true–”

“But it is!” 

Your voice cracks then, and you realize you can’t keep down the swirl of doubt and agony any longer. Before you even feel the tears pricking at the corner of your eyes, you find Diavolo now right beside you, holding your hands in his. 

“My love, you hold more power than you can even begin to imagine.”

“And what of it!” You hastily remove your hands from his grasp, waving to the air around you. “What good is this ‘great power’ of mine?” The tears have escaped, and there’s a pang in your chest. “Absolutely everything slips through my fingers. I’ve barely begun to understand it and…and I don’t even know if I could save the very ones I care about from those that wish them harm.” Your eyes flicker to the ceiling, and you try to blink back the salt that hasn’t already slid down your cheeks. “I’ve come closer to destroying everything with it!” 

The silence that follows your outburst is heavy. Diavolo examines your visage with a somber expression, his lips that so often are curved into a grin now taut and straight. It feels like ages before he finally speaks. 

“It’s a terrible feeling, isn’t it?” You don’t know if you’ve ever heard his voice so low before. He was a demon who could make a whole room shake with his jovial laugh. “There are days where I, too, feel utterly powerless.” 

“You?” Grasping at that napkin again, you bring it up to dry your face. “But–”

“I’m the ruler of the Devildom? One of the most powerful beings in the Three Realms? Yes, my dear. All great power comes with its golden chains, with its obstacles.” With a heavy sigh, Diavolo looks around the lavish dining hall you were both seated in. “A faction of the House of Lords continuously tries to undermine me, scheming behind my back to try and throw me out of my position.” His gaze now falls onto a painting on the distant wall, brushstrokes capturing war and fury. “The Celestial Realm tests my patience, mocking me at times as they play their own games, mainly of semantics.” 

He turns his attention back to you with a sad smile. “They’re all waiting to find a crack, see what will bring me down to my knees. They’ve nearly succeeded at times. Made me feel like I was just a child playing at king. Made me feel that no matter the power I possessed, they could still pull the rug from under me.” 

His hands find yours again, and this time you let them stay. 

“But what I found is that despite it all, despite all the power that I possess, what really puts my feet on solid ground is having those who still stand by my side through it all.” He looks deep into your eyes, and once more you’re captivated by that calming gold.

“And you, darling, have some of the best by yours.”

[ceruleanmage]

Hi!!! So if we're talking about re-main, do you have any theories? Which character do you think will be your favorite, which ones are going to be shipped together, etc... Grant us your wisdom ✨

Sorry I’m getting to this so late!

I’ll admit I haven’t studied into the characters as much as some others have, so my possible wisdom may barely scratch the surface

I shall try my best!

(This is a long post. Sorry about that hdjsksk)

Theories

The only plot theory I have mainly surrounds Minato, our MC. (That feels like a Captain Obvious statement but what I mean is that I don’t know how the whole cast will play in jdksksk)

First off, from the trailer and from the character description, we know that Minato had some kind of incident involving water polo, and given that he was shown in a hospital bed, whatever happened was pretty serious.

In the shot in the trailer, he’s blocked by who I assume are his family and friends/old teammates, so we don’t get to see if he’s sporting some visible injury. But whatever it was, he swore to never play water polo again.

But in the next few shots, we see him with his past team, and he’s ripped as hell. Then the next scene shows him standing in front of a mirror, and it seems like he lost a lot of muscle definition.

I have two theories as to what may have happened (and watch both be wrong lmaooo)

1. He broke a bone and needed surgery to fix it, so that’s why we see him waking up in a hospital. (Because most people don’t go to the hospital for broken bones, you know? Unless it was life threatening or impossible to fix without surgery. This is why I have a second theory, but I’ll get there). As a result of his injury, he had to quit the sport. He vowed to never play it again, so I assume this particular incident haunts him.

2. This one may be WAY off and I have a penchant for bringing in angst, so be ready for that. My second theory is that maybe he nearly drowned while playing the sport in his past. Woah Dramatic I Know but it was my first thought since he’s shown in the hospital. Countering the other theory, most people don’t go to the hospital for a broken bone—and I don’t think your whole family and close friends would be there when you come to.

I think whatever it was possibly put him in a coma, whether it’s some serious injury or losing consciousness underwater. Either of those is enough to make someone reluctant to play the sport again, and avoiding it for a long time will surely cause one to lose muscle mass.

Maybe he developed some kind of fear of water? Though if this is the case, it probably gets resolved pretty early into the season, but I have a feeling whatever this incident is will haunt us again when we get towards the final episodes. Bakuten style.

Now, I have another thing to bring up.

Kawakubo Chinu, the one girl in the trailer, knows about Minato’s past.

Either she was there when it happened or she heard about it/learned about it from one of the other characters, possibly Eitarou since he also knows about Minato’s past.

I assume she’s their age, and even though she’s famous she probably stays with the team a lot. Perhaps she’ll help them train, or she’ll help Minato overcome his past incident.

Favorite Characters

From the brief descriptions we had, I think I’ll have three possible favorite characters.

One is the one kid who admires Minato—Eitarou. See this kid looked so bright and happy and Babey. He’s gonna be like Futaba I just know it. *gently holds*

Another possible favorite will be that one who’s super withdrawn from others, I think his name was Yoshiharu. Idk I just tend to gravitate towards these characters. Kin material methinks /hj

And, the character who will be my all time favorite for the rest of time — drum roll please — Kameyoshi!!!! How could I not. Our beloved tortoise deserves the world. I’ve only had Kameyoshi for a day and a half but if anything happens to him I’ll kill everyone in this room and then myself

Shipping

Shipping is scary to talk about before a show starts but I do have a couple guesses as to who I and many others will probably ship

The first guess is Minato and Eitarou, since Eitarou admires Minato. (Reminds me of Misato and Futaba, and it’s a dynamic I love and can personally relate to hdksks)

Another ship I can see happening is Minato and Jou, since it seems like Minato, Jou, and Eitarou will be the main trio. Jou (and Eitarou) convinces Minato to join the sport again so I can see where people (and possibly myself) will be like !!!! SHIP !!! (Valid, by the way)

(And who needs love triangles when there’s an easy answer? Can’t decide between those two? No problem! All three are in love Thanks For Coming To My Ted Talk) /lh

We also have the one (1) girl character, so I desperately hope she won’t be there just to be ogled at by the boys yknow? Anyway, there will probably be a ship or two people might like her to be in, but since we don’t have a description on her other than that she knows Minato’s past and is famous, imma hold off on possibly guessing who she’ll be shipped with. (Me. She’ll be shipped with me. Kawakubo Chinu I ask for your hand in marriage)

That’s really all I can guess so far! Again I haven’t studied the characters much, but I did rewatch the trailer a bunch of times lmaoo.

The trailer doesn’t give much, or anything really, in the way of rival teams, so I’m not sure how that plays into to the plot or even Minato’s past.

If you read all this, 1) thanks 2) I’m so sorry jdjsns this was a lot

Anyway this is probably very far off the mark so take my theories with a grain of salt!

[love-bokumono-fics]

WIP Wednesday - Trio of Towns

Trio of Towns has no shortage of wonderful works that are in progress. Some of them I know are years in the making and I always look forward to an update.

So here's hoping you find a new story to love!

If you're reading or writing a Trio of Towns WIP that didn't get featured today, please feel more than welcome to drop it in the Submission box and share with the rest of us! (When I only share 10 fics at a time, there's always something that's bound to be missed.)

Two in One - by PineconeTheKitten; WIP, 1/?, 1.3k

Rating: Mature; Archive Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply; Categories: F/M, M/M, Multi

Fandom: Trio of Towns

Relationships: Ford/Wayne, Female Farmer/Ford, Female Farmer/Wayne; Characters: Female Farmer, Ford, Wayne, Dessie, Inari, Witchie

Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Fusion, Magic Revealed, Gods, Goddesses, Spirits

Summary: Ford and Wayne were once two people. Now they aren't. Holly doesn't know what to do. As it turns out, Ward is pretty into Holly, and she into him.

Two Individuals in Love can be Asexual, a Case Study - by chickadeequill; WIP, 1/?, <1k

Rating: General Audiences; Archive Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply; Category: F/M

Fandom: Trio of Towns

Relationship: Farmer/Ford; Characters: Ford, Female Farmer, Wayne

Additional Tags: Asexual Relationship, Romantic Fluff

Summary: After years of painstakingly avoiding romance, the town's eligible and single doctor Ford finds himself facing a simple question: is there room in his life for love? It seems the hardworking farmer just past the crossroads is still single as well, and Ford just can't figure out why she keeps declining advances from the other eligible singles in all three towns.

Watered-Down Ideals - by LemWrites; WIP, 3/?, 4k

Rating: Not Rated; Archive Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply; Categories: M/M, Multi

Fandoms: Trio of Towns

Relationships: Farmer/Ludus; Characters: Original Male Character(s), Frank, Megan, Hector, Colin, Noel | Noelle

Additional Tags: Hurt/Comfort, Angst, Self-Esteem Issues, Slow Burn, Fluff, Self Confidence Issues, ADHD, I gave a farmer adhd and anxiety, this may have more projection then intended

Summary: Join Steve, the newly appointed farmer in the Trio of Towns world, on a journey full of; useless gay pinning, being a disaster, self hatred and more!

Earth and Rebirth - by TheBeckster; WIP, 17/?, 66k

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences; Archive Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply; Categories: Multi, Gen

Fandoms: Trio of Towns

Characters: Holly | Nanami, Frank, Marlena, Wayne, Ford, Lisette, Brad, Carrie, everyone

Additional Tags: Undecided Relationship(s), Additional Tags to Be Added, lots of headcanons, Minor Character Death, Eventual Friends to Lovers, I'm not going to tag every single character, but they will all have a part in the story, Grief/Mourning, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Slow Burn, Pregnancy, Unplanned Pregnancy, New friends and found family, world building, Angst with a Happy Ending, Holly is an extrovert, endgame ship tbd, Cover Art

Summary: Holly considered herself fortunate to be living about as close to the dream as any young twenty-something could. A great family, a loving husband, and well, she'd admit their apartment was awful, but they'd be moving onto bigger and better things soon enough. She truthfully couldn't wish for more. But when an accident rips it all away from her, Holly finds herself seeking a change of scenery. Her Uncle's farm out in the middle of nowhere is the perfect place for her to hide to mourn. A familiar story with a twist or two.

Fire and Dew - by Juliko; WIP, 9/26, 73k

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences; Archive Warning: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings; Category: F/M

Fandoms: Trio of Towns

Relationship: Yuzuki/Original Character(s)

Characters: Original Female Character(s), Yuzuki, Sumomo, Lisette, Colin, Wayne, Brad, Carrie, Shizu, Yaichi, Tatsumi, Omiyo, Umekichi, Lynn, Marlena, Daryl | Darius, Ittetsu, Moriya

Additional Tags: farming, Slice of Life, Drama, Family Drama, Family Issues, Autism, Autism Spectrum, Originally Posted on FanFiction.Net, Original Character(s), Major Original Character(s), Female Character of Color, Friendship, Male-Female Friendship, Friendship/Love, Past Child Abuse, Child Abuse, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Eventual Romance, Romance, Slow Build, Slow Burn, Slow Romance, Humor, Eventual Happy Ending, Comedy, Friends to Lovers, Adoption, Sick Character, Lulukoko characters won't appear in this fic, Falling In Love, Dorks, Ableism, Happy Ending, Romantic Fluff, Break Up, Past Relationship(s), Cows, Chickens, Sheep, Rabbits, Flowers, Stimming, Family Fluff, Bisexual Female Character, Pansexual Character, Lesbian Character, Children, Childhood Memories, Childhood Trauma

Summary: For as long as she could remember, Harper Leigh Maxwell's dream has always been to become a farmer, but her father's job makes it hard to do so, since it involves lots of moving. After graduating from college, she finally decides to take a chance and get her own farm. She's determined to make the most of this opportunity and do what she's wanted. In the process, she makes new friends, learns many new things, and faces many hardships. One of the friends she makes is Yuzuki Fujiwara, a mellow, sweet natured man from the town of Tsuyukusa who doesn't have the best constitution. The two of them form a strong connection that may even end up blossoming into love. But Harper's past might make things complicated, and when it threatens to catch up with her, she may find herself facing the demons from her pre-adoption early childhood. This is the story of two different people, with different interests, passions, and paths in life, walking the same dirt road every day...

Tiny Steps to Big Leaps - by Distracteddiddlin; WIP, 29/?, 28k

Rating: Mature; Archive Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply; Category: Other

Fandom: Trio of Towns

Relationship: Ford/Holly | Nanami; Characters: Ford, Holly | Nanami, Brad, Wayne

Additional Tags: Fluff, Developing Relationship, surprise parenting, rating and tags will update, NB Farmer, Idiots in Love, Wet Dream, Love Confessions, oh it's fucking started now, Mildly Dubious Consent, for like the smallest split second

Summary: Me while writing this months ago: what if I did that that Ford/farmer fic again but with a twist? Basically it's what if Ford accidentally became a single dad after the farmer meets him

Stranded - by TheBeckster; WIP, 2/?, 4k

Rating: General Audiences; Archive Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply; Category: Gen

Fandoms: Trio of Towns

Relationships: Ludus & Siluka, Ludus & Iluka, Iluka & Siluka; Characters: Ludus, Iluka, Siluka, Tototara, Zahau, Caolila

Additional Tags: all aboard the childhood trauma boat!, Pre-Canon, Peril, Wilderness Survival, Mild Blood

Summary: Desperate for an adventure to break up the interminable boredom of a long summer, three kids set to the high seas and get way more adventure than they ever hoped for or wanted. AKA: Let's explore the Lulukoko Trio's shared childhood trauma!

Trio Of Towns - Figuring Out Love - by vampireprincess624; WIP, 6/?, 5k

Rating: General Audiences; Archive Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply; Category: Multi

Fandom: Trio of Towns

Relationship: Ford/Pixie; Characters: Ford, Pixie, Wayne, Brad, Lisette, Carrie, Noelle, Colin, Miranda, Frank, Megan, Hector, Other(s)

Summary: Pixie Fawn is left with a mess she has to sort out after leaving Ludus at their wedding because Ford, who had been away for seven months, appeared as a guest. But how is fixing things with the stubborn doctor more difficult than sorting things out with her ex husband-to-be? Are they destined to be friends or will their stronger feelings for each other lead to love? A lot of Ford/Pixie scenes where they figure out their love for each other. This is Part 3 to my series, Life In The Towns, and I strongly advise you read Part 1 (or at least the last few chapters) before this, but it should still make sense anyway. Hope you enjoy :)

The House That We Built - by CherryQDoodles; WIP, 2/?, 8k

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences; Archive Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings, No Archive Warnings Apply; Category: F/M

Fandom: Trio of Towns

Relationships: Holly | Nanami/Ludus; Characters: Ludus, Original Characters, Lulukoko Villagers, Westown Villagers, Tsuyukusa Villagers

Additional Tags: Slow Burn, story building, Learning from the Past, Tons of fluffy moments, farmlife shenanigans, Festivals, Romance, Dark skinned MC, Other Additional Tags to Be Added

Summary: Nicola knew as soon as she was able to talk that she was very different from the family she was raised in. From her dark skin to her snow white hair she stuck out as the black sheep, but she loved them like they were her blood, and vice versa. But Nicola always dreamed of wanting more: to become a farmer. Growing crops, raising animals and everything in between! She just had to convince her father that she could handle the hard work within two years time. Follow Nicola's journey to becoming the best farmer she dreams of, and her adventures in the Trio of Towns!

Ford's Roses - by thelighthouse33; WIP, 5/?, 3k

Rating: General Audiences; Archive Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply; Category: F/M

Fandom: Trio of Towns

Relationship: Farmer/Ford; Characters: Ford, Female Farmer, Wayne, Megan, Frank, Miranda, Carrie, Brad, Lisette, Noel | Noelle, Colin

Additional Tags: My First Work in This Fandom, better late than never, Ford x Holly, Story of Seasons Trio of Towns, Harvest Moon - Freeform, Gaming

Summary: This is a story of how the doctor of Westown, in charge of The White Capsule Clinic, falls in love with the new farm girl...

[aqvarius]

Top 5 fav hlitf cgs?

thanks for this ask!! ahh it was so hard to narrow it down to 5 but i will try my best (with some bonuses bc... how could i not). i’m not going to include vip room CGs here even tho there are a couple of them that i adore too. also i can’t believe i’m not including the soma coming out of the shower CG that i love enough to have made my icon for a very long time now... but that just goes to show how much i love these ones. 

5. are you bullying my aide?

okay so i’m cheating right off the bat and decided to group these two in one category bc they’re like conceptually the same CG lmao. i made a post before about loving instructors getting furious at people trying to hurt you in the sunset. and the fact that two of my absolute fave LIs of all time get these gorgeous fury CGs makes me infinitely happy alskdfls. the sad thing is that there’s an error in soma’s route so the CG doesn’t actually appear in-game...  anyway you know i love seeing cool love interests get mad so these two CGs are a perfect depiction of that.

4. i’ll take compensation

who doesn’t love this scene and CG!! and the in-game version as well where his eyes are open bc he was surprised. i love it so much. that entire ending was so good, with the mc being the Best Senpai Ever? and she tries to blow his socks off with a kiss but then he just grabs her butt and goes in deeper? we stan a tie-grabbing mc. i only wish there was a CG for that elevator kiss too in the sequel(?). 

3. it reminded me of ugly cat

honestly i love all of goto’s s3 CGs bc they are all just so pretty and i love the one as well where tsugaru is joking about him and usa being a couple and goto gets pissed. but this one is just so... pure and soft???? it’s so rare to see goto all relaxed and smiley and i just love it soooo much. also does anyone else find that his smile in this CG is so similar to chiba’s smiling sprite? ughhh this is so freaking cute i physically can’t look at it for too long otherwise i get overwhelmed with feelings. oh and also that cat is so weird looking lmao

2. please... let me be with you

one of my favourite moments of all time. look how stunned kaga looks (but also... how pretty is he here... and how pretty is she.... season 3 CGs are so top quality). the fact that she’s hopped up on painkillers but they’re just fading off so she’s already starting to feel pain again and kaga is already kind of angsting over everything that happened on the case and then tsugaru is taking her home while kaga can’t even speak to her bc of office rules. and she just runs back to the office by herself even tho she’s already starting to feel the pain in her gunshot wound and just bursts into the office and yanks his cigarette out of his mouth and kisses him? and says even if you don’t want me, i want to be with you. honestly this whole moment is like freaking kdrama level dramatic and romantic and i love it so much. it’s like... the perfect moment combined with the prettiest CG. kaga’s pov of this scene makes it EVEN BETTER because he’s literally smitten with her, like he wants her so badly and then she just magically appears in front of him and kisses the life out of him, just as he was thinking about how much he needs her. right at the moment when he’s feeling the most empty, the most hollow, like his entire career in public safety amounted to nothing, she comes back to him. and then there’s that line of his, where he talks about love so fierce that he can’t breathe around it filling his chest and honestly it gets me every single time (also bc i can relate to that feeling lmao) but basically kaga/mc is my favourite couple and this moment and CG are just like... exactly what i love the most about them as a pair. ALSO i love her hair and that gold pin hahaha i want it. 

1.5 did i or did i not say you were forbidden from acting rashly?

how could i not include this one as a bonus? i’ve been in love with this CG from the very first time i laid eyes on it back in 2018. no context (at the time i think soma’s graduation hadn’t even come out in l365 so we hadn’t even seen his short hair sprite in the intl app), no idea what was even happening in this scene, and yet i was immediately struck by the dangerous look in his eye and that little smile, and also just like... getting to see him in a tshirt and hoodie is so rare? i’m p certain that outfit is just recycled ayumu sprite’s casual clothes. anyway, knowing the context behind this CG makes it 10000x better for me. i wrote this in my unpublished review of soma’s battlefield route but i genuinely believe we’re seeing this CG from his mc’s eyes and that’s what tokito really looked like in that moment - with soma’s face, his hair, his expressions, his hands, his voice. our poor, sweet mc had been suffering for so long to the point where even toru and ayumu noticed that she hadn’t smiled in forever and were trying to cheer her up (and momose too later!!). for me, this CG represents the absolutely heartbreaking sense of delusion that soma’s mc feels in this route, and the way that she keeps trying so hard to project soma onto tokito because of her grief. i genuinely felt like in that moment, she physically saw soma coming to her rescue, like her desires manifest into a delusion. also, this CG comes at an absolutely amazing time bc we had been deprived of seeing soma for like 60% of the route and then we get this CG and suddenly everything is better for a short moment, and then everything goes back to normal and you really get a sense of how upsetting life has been for his mc.

1. come now, love. tell me what you desire

i love this CG. i love it so so so so so much. firstly, i love the look of it. both soma and his mc just look so attractive?? soma’s muscles?? in his shoulders and back especially?! his mc has commented on his shoulderblades and back muscles before which have been honed through kendo practice so i’m very happy to get to see them. the actual text says that the mc is naked but here she’s still wearing a sundress, but she just looks so pretty and like she’s feeling unbelievably good? anyway i scream bc even soma’s hands look good and they still kept that one piece of hair that he has that sticks up lmao what’s gravity anyway? anyway, beyond the sensuality of the image (and also his tongue... and his sweat...), there’s just so much meaning behind it? like yes, it’s very hot and sensual and the dialogue that goes with this scene is unbelievably sexy, but this scene is just super meaningful bc it’s part of their recovery as a couple. they’re on this secret holiday in okinawa and they’re reconnecting after their trauma and idk it’s just so intimate. we really get to see the mc from soma’s eyes and we get to see how he is the only one who can see her weakness behind that strong face of hers, but also how he sees her strength in recovery? the way he describes that scene where she’s in this gorgeous white swimsuit with a sheer coverup and then picks a brown swim float so she can sit atop it on the waves and say “don’t i look like a doughnut?” despite having a literal near-death experience in the sea not too long before honestly had me falling head over heels in love with her, and it really made me understand exactly what he loves about her, and how much he just adores her. anyway this is me gushing over that special story, but what i mean is that the ending of his battlefield in combination with this special story sets up the beginning of soma and his mc’s healing as a couple, and it culminates in this scene. soma is kind of similar to kaga in the sense that they both actually demonstrate their feelings the most honestly through physical means, and here you can just see how palpable the desperation is. they desire each other so intensely and intimately and having this moment for the two of them to share is so significant for their recovery. you can just see how much soma needs to show her that he’s here, he’s really, physically here with her, and he’ll never leave her alone ever again, and he’s so sorry for all the pain she’s had to go through. you can see the way he’s telling her that with his body and with the way he talks to her and is just so himself in bed. there are really parallels between their first night together and this scene (mostly like... him asking her to tell him what she wants lol) and it just makes me so EMOTIONAL. 

YOU THOUGHT THIS WAS THE END? 

no, that was just my top five solo (or li/mc) CGs. i also need to give my top five fave group/multiple character CGs lmao.

in no particular order:

what can i say? it’s just so beautiful, and every single expression and pose is just so suited for each character i’m in love. 

frankly no real reason for this one aside from the fact that we get to see goto and subaru in yukata and subaru always looks soooo freaking good in hlitf CGs and also goto’s hand is on subaru’s chest and you know we ship gobaru in this house

the third anniversary substory CGs are just amazing (you’ll see the full one in a bit and it’s WILD) but honestly i just need everyone to see this one bc it’s just gorgeous. look at ishigami and kaga and look at how inhuman they look, all sweaty and tired from being in panda mascot costumes. kaga with his sleeves rolled up literally has me salivating. look at PRETTY their faces and muscles are... anyway, this CG has me as thirsty as ishigami guzzling that bottle of water.......... 

i said it was in no particular order but i just need to say that this one is my actual favourite bc it has EVERYONE. and look at how gorgeous they all look.... every single one of them with their hair pushed back ;alskdjfalsk WHO??? WHO LET THIS HAPPEN? NAMBA’S GLOVE? KAGA AND GOTO’S MATCHING SCOWLS? THE ANGLE OF SOMA’S HEAD? TSUGARU’S TONGUE? and also the way his legs are positioned?!?!?! also i love swishy hair ayumu and hide with his leg crossed the other way from kaga and also i’ve never seen toru look this attractive it’s very unfair. 

the sheer amount of chaotic energy in this one is just wonderful and i love all the details. you all know namba is DAY DRUNK. goto and toru in that signature headlock position, ayumu being a lil shit and putting wasabi in all the cupcakes and ISHIGAMI AND KAGA FALLING FOR IT AND SUFFERING??? LOOK AT THEIR SUFFERING FACES JUST LOOK. and you just KNOW that soma is going to suffer the same fate oh sweet mercy this is like “famous last pictures” level of good. also they’re all wearing new clothes which i love sooooo much. i wanna see ayumu in that orange sweater more often and also army green shirt kaga with the sleeves rolled up to his forearms with that look on his face. have i ever been more in love? no. 

finally, here’s my ultimate favourite favourite group image of all time! not a CG but it’s the header that i use on the mobile version of my blog:

they’re all looking so happily/fondly over at YOU (hlitf mc who fell asleep) and wondering what you’re dreaming about/saying that you’re dreaming about them. and they all just love and adore you so much. the amount of affection in this one image is unreal and also momose is in it ialskfjsd i just.............. am the SOFTEST for this one. 

anyway sorry that (1) it took so long for me to answer this, bc i had to spend ages thinking about it alongside being busy with life stuff and (2) that i went on for so long and did not pick 5 CGs but rather... 12....... but these are my faves!! thank you so much for the ask! 

[miraculouscontent]

Ask Explosion #9:

Asks answering previous posts:

Sabrina, I have one word of advice for you...

R U N

“Chat, please stop talking.”

“But that’s my thing!”

“YOU JINX EVERYTHING!!”

Ayyyyyy~

Well, it’s something, I suppose?

Answered this here.

It absolutely did. Bless you, kind and hilarious citizien. ;P

I’m torn because... on one hand, I want to give proper mythology and such for like--anything that’d be put into the show, but on the other, I liked the idea that Alix’s brother was just sort of a conspiracy who thought of stupid stuff (which is why I kept the concept for MC Jalil Kubdel).

Zoe did it really well in Scarlet Lady where Alix knew the actual mythology and started blurting it out whenever Jalil got it wrong.

New Asks:

Considering “Ikari Gozen,” I imagine Alya and Kagami don’t get along as well. I agree with basically everyone that Marinette and Kagami not getting along is bad, but Alya and Kagami not really getting along makes more sense and is more tolerable.

Since Alya is Marinette’s “““BFF”““ (supposedly), I could see her kind of being like, “You’re competing with my girl over the same guy,” and keeping Kagami at arm’s length, worried that keeping Kagami close will allow Kagami to be closer to Adrien since Adrien is an extension of their friend group (kinda, sorta, not really, but Marinette calling him a friend so technically--)

You know, Alya trying to be a good friend and help Marinette with Adrien in more subtle ways. It’s the wrong way to go about it but she’s trying.

LUKANETTE IS AMAZING IN TERMS OF PROGRESSION KDJNGJDFG, I ADORE IT. Every episode they share together, we either learn something new about them or see more details on their relationship.

I think I was already all-in before “Silencer,” but man, that episode just sealed it even more. I was like well dang, why does the love square even EXIST???

jfdngjkfdjgfdg

Incredible. Only problem is that the creator doesn’t know how to use it properly.

You mean fourteen year olds aren’t perfect human beings???? :o

(no, but really, that’s me all the time; like, she’s barely a teen!)

He’ll believe it if it’s Chat Noir who’s doing it. If Marinette ever does it though, he’ll be sure to shut it down. ;P

Ugggggh, the worst part is that I have the same exact fear that they really are going to be like yeah Ladybug you silly fool Chat Noir has been with you since the beginning!

I mean, we’re already basically getting that with the New York special; Chat was supposed to protect Paris and then didn’t tell Ladybug that he “had to” leave for New York (and the New York thing is inadvertently Marinette’s fault and parts of the fandom actually did blame her for it even though it was Chat’s choice not to say anything), then Ladybug gets upset with him when she discovers it mid-battle, which leads to Chat being distracted and Cataclysming someone (another thing that Ladybug can be “inadvertently” blamed for), then Chat gives up his miraculous so Ladybug isn’t even allowed to be angry and cue the later line of “I can’t imagine being Ladybug without... him.”

So clearly that’s saying something. Adrien doesn’t get anything close to that level and Marinette is chewed out for not asking him to stay when Nino had already asked him too.

It’s like--Marinette chooses to go after Adrien and then gets either nothing in return, or humiliated by the narrative, and then in the New York special, she decides to do nothing and everything still goes wrong while Alya yells at her for it. The “damned if she does, damned if she don’t,” on display is stunning. The girl tries to confess and it’s like, “no, not allowed, but Chat is allowed to confess.”

I still don’t understand this logic of his overarching plot but also “there’s not much of a timeline.” I think the only solid thing we’ve ever gotten was something about all the episodes in one season coming after all the episodes in a previous one, but there are still things that don’t add up? The only thing the season 3 production order will give is making sure the hero debuts work out (so no Viperion or Pegase before “Party Crasher,” for example).

It’s not really reliable. I mean, like--I’ve been experimenting with timelines for a while, and stuff like “Miraculer” baffles me. It’s basically non-canon with no value whatsoever. All it does is make “Heart Hunter” look even more confusing and treats Marinette even more horribly for not picking Chloe when she explicitly told Chloe that she wasn’t getting it back.

I’m not familiar with that one! Is it any good?

(Okay, I actually was too curious and ended up looking it up; fancy! I couldn’t have guessed that it was a webtoon! I started reading the 1st issue and before I knew it, I was on the 6th! Oops~)

Lila is totally Rashta, 100% agree. The fact that the comments have a nickname of “Trashta” for her, equivalent to Liar Rossi, says as much ;P

Because lessons that involve telling someone that they’re valid and allowed to feel a certain way don’t apply to Marinette. Isn’t it nice? :3

Not that I know of? Though I also don’t look for that kind of thing, so it’s possible that it exists and I just don’t know about it.

Even if it did exist thought, I don’t see a problem with you doing your own regardless. Good luck if you do!

No. No I do not. ;P

GREETINGS FELLOW INTJ!

And yeah, I’m not really capable of not analyzing shows. There are some small exceptions, but they’re usually not full shows in the normal sense. If there’s an ongoing plot, my mind tends to be working at all times.

In terms of Miraculous, Season 1 was harmless enough where I was bothered but pretty quiet about it, but then it just got progressively worse. It really feels like one of those things you can’t unsee when it finally hits you, y’know?

I’m glad I was able to help you get that satisfaction you need (and appreciate Lukanette, of course ;3)!

Non-Miraculous Asks:

(some heavy Puella Magi Madoka Magica salt below)

Wow, this is a really dedicated ask! Nice!

Gonna go point by point here:

1 - Yeah, the whole thing with Homura not “being able” to save everyone... kinda questionable, and I didn’t really buy the arguments they used to explain it away. I think there was this one PSP game or something with Madoka Magica where you could kind of choose what happened (like, there were bad ends where Sayaka didn’t get her soul gem back in time and her body was partially decayed; ick) and I think there’s a good end where Homura saves everyone but--yeah, not canon.

I just don’t care for twisted stories like that unless there is actually a good end on the horizon (and I mean like “Everyone Lives and is Happy” good end). Angst is just so exhausting so the second I saw Mami’s head being bitten I was just like, “Ah, okay, so we’re doing this then.”

2 - Eugh, the sexism thing. It’s so... yeah, and especially this because the whole “girls are emotional” thing, I don’t really care whether or not the show is trying to “subvert” or “explain” anything, it just feels like poor taste and I don’t like it. (I also didn’t know about that Death Note thing because I didn’t watch it, but geez.)

3 - Wow, I’ve been away from the show for so long that I forgot what Mami’s wish was; I thought it was to “not be alone” or something (or maybe not die alone?? I really don’t remember), but either way, the fact that it follows some sort of genie wish logic is just--*sigh*--they’re teenage girls, come on (plus, the “genie wish logic” is really overdone to me anyway).

4 - The other thing about Sayaka is that it’s really predictable that she’d “die so quickly.” Basically everything was pointing to her just being annihilated at some point, and being Madoka’s best friend, it was pretty inevitable that she’d go.

((semi-unrelated, but someone also asked me which character’s name was lied about before episode 3 hit and they wondered if it was Sayaka’s; it was Kyubey’s))

Yikes. Sorry you had to experience that.

Anyway, I guess I’m not experienced enough in multiple fandoms to say for sure? If I was ever in a fandom, I would just blacklist the people/stuff I didn’t like, so I didn’t get to see a tong of “bad things” going on.

+ I try really hard not to generalize fandoms into one thing.

𝓖𝓮𝓷𝓭𝓮𝓻 𝓝𝓸𝓻𝓶𝓼 𝓐𝓻𝓮 𝓢𝓽𝓾𝓹𝓲𝓭 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓑𝓸𝔂𝓼 𝓐𝓻𝓮 𝓐𝓵𝓵𝓸𝔀𝓮𝓭 𝓽𝓸 𝓛𝓲𝓴𝓮 “𝓖𝓲𝓻𝓵𝔂” 𝓣𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓰𝓼

Oof, uhhh, shows, huh? That’s tough.

I think the main ship from Given (Mafuyu and Ritsuka) is really adorable (you might’ve seen the amusing video of their love being mutual before), and while I would’ve said the same thing for the kinda-sorta side ship, it gets--uh... really bad during the movie/rest of the manga, I’ll just say that much.

Mafuyu and Ritsuka though, totally adorable.

Inuyasha kinda? Though Inuyasha and Kagome are definitely not the kind of romantic chemistry that I lean towards (I find “the bickering couple” to be rather exhausting). Plus, Cardcaptor Sakura did the “male tsundere” better than Inuyasha did (though the Clear Card Arc was terrible, at least it’s not canon kinda-sorta? idk it seems like a mix of the anime and manga so...).

After that there’s...

uh

...

hm.

I mean, there’s probably a couple more examples somewhere, but--yeah, I’ve got nothing. Maybe if I thought back to all the generic children shows I watched when I was little (like those old Disney live-action shows; I had no taste when I was younger), there might’ve been something that satisfied kid me but idk.

I don’t remember what post inspired this, but I have no problem answering regardless, ahaha~

My main issue is Aang’s attitude about the whole thing. I’m not saying it was right of Katara to go out and get “revenge via murder” exactly, but I also think that Zuko had the right idea with allowing her to go and face the man who killed her mother so she could get some form of closure (also note that Zuko doesn’t express any sort of opinion when Katara decides not to kill him; he just wanted her to have whatever she thought she needed to heal).

It’s also the episode where Zuko directly confronts Aang on his “violence isn’t the answer” rhetoric which then goes completely ignored as Aang lionturtles his way out of the conflict. Aang is also not confronted on his point of “forgiveness is the first step to healing” (when Katara has a right not to forgive and Aang isn’t challenged outside of Katara commenting on it) and was permitted to ride his high horse when Katara “steals” Appa like, “It's okay, because I forgive you... that give you any ideas?” which is just--

reaaaaaally "holier than thou”-esque when Aang is like, ten, and Katara is a sort of motherly figure to him. The episode even has Sokka praise Aang for how “wise” he is and I groaned through the entire thing.

Another smaller thing is that it sort of makes the air kingdom look way too “perfect” by having Aang be the “source of wisedom,” especially when it’s like “violence isn’t the answer” while all the other airbenders are dead.

[stevesnightmares]

I just watched love, victor and absolutely LOVED it, so I decided to give some of my options on the characters.

Mia:

I enjoyed her character well enough and throughout the first few episodes I really thought I was going to love her, however that wasn't the case. I found her to be extremely boring and bland but mostly she was a character that I've already seen a thousand times before. I couldn't really connect with her because I knew her already, I had seen her already, she was like a thousand different characters. She the rich character who's father is always away and her mother left her, she feels like she always has to pretend is front of other people and can't be herself. She's smart tho, and funny and sweet, everybody loves her, and she has an interest in some type of art. Her dad is going to get married again and either the stepmum is going to be bitch and that's why she hates her or it's going to be a nice woman but she'll be mean towards anyways because of her abandonment issues. And oh no she's going to fall for the poor guy because he's different and somehow they just get eachother. Like, come on!! Tell one thing that is even slightly original about this character? The only difference this time is that Victor is gay. I really enjoyed her throughout the show but now the more I think about her the more I'm just meh and kind of annoyed.

Andrew:

Beat me up but I actually didn't care about him at all. He's again another pre-made character, he's the jock who's mean to everyone but actually, deep down, he's a good guy. Literally NOTHING interesting happened with him or to him. He felt just really flat in my opinion and did nothing for me.

Felix:

I'm actually EXTREMELY surprised by just how much I loved him. Because again, he could easily fall into the category of pre-made characters: the weird best friend who is there for comedic relief and who gets together with the hot girl. But somehow I still loved him, he was funny yes, but he was also a really good person and a great friend. I don't even know why I liked him that much but I did, he was so precious. But you know what, you don't always need a reason, sometimes you just like a character because you do, end of story.

Victor:

I love Victor so much, which is actually, again, really strange, because I don't usually end up loving the main character, the majority of times I either don't care too much about the MC or maybe I even straight up don't like them. But here I am, and I LOVE Victor. I think that the main reason is because I felt an extremely deep connection to him because of his family situation, for the role that he played in his family. I won't get into it but it's something that hit way too close to home. But other than that I genuinely love him. Yes he had flaws, yes had made big mistakes, but I love flowed characters, I love when it's shown that the character does make mistakes, but hopefully in season two we'll see him make amends and learn from them. He's only a 16 y/o, young and extremely confused with a shitty family life trying to find out who he is and trying to fit in at the new school, of course he's gonna mess up. My favourite character of the show.

Derek:

I personally can't agree with his idea that romance and anniversaries and cheesyness is something created by straight people and that queer people don't have to do that. Wether you want something romantic or not depends solely on the two people who are in a relationship, it had nothing to do with sex and sexuality and everything to do with what two people want out of a relationship, it's something that they should've talked about. In general he seems like a shitty boyfriend, if your boyfriend does something nice to you, something that it's obvious he spent time and effort on, you don't just brush him aside and leave cause you want to see a concert. You stay for the night and thank him and the day after you pull him aside and tell him how you feel about that so that you two can decide if you want the same thing out of that relationship.

Lake:

She can feel like a pre-made character too at times, however I still enjoyed her. I don't have any really strong feelings about her, but the feelings I do have are positive.

Benji:

I loved him too. He genuinely seems like a really nice, funny, sweet and romantic guy. I wish we'll get more of him in season 2 because for now we only know him really superficially, so I hope we can get to know more of him, both the good but especial the bad because as of now he's not really well rounded.

Pilar:

I enjoyed her too. She was too much on the teenage angst side for my tastes, that's why I didn't actually love her too much. Hopefully we'll see more of her in season two, hopefully in a setting outside her family, maybe getting more friends.

Isabel and Armando :

I'm sorry but I didn't really like her. Not as a character, I thought the character was great, but as a person. Yes, she had her moments, and yes, I liked her at times, but in general? No ma'am. She is the mother, she is the one who is supposed to make sure that everything runs smoothly, not Victor. He was going through so much and she didn't even notice. Even during his birthday, when he's just supposed to have fun with his friends and relax she still finds a way to make him take care of something. He's just a kid and he has all of this pressure on him, he has to pretend to be fine around his family as not to burden then anymore, he has to mediate between them and make sure that there is no more fighting. They are supposed to take care of him. For god sake he went to bloody new york and they didn't even notice!! I understand having your problems, but they've created such a shitty environment where coming home is actually cause of anxiety instead of comfort.

[the-everlasting-dream]

Xin Teng - Liam x MC [x Drake], TRR AU

Part 2 of Unfathomable

Summary: The day they were supposed to have the funeral

A/N: PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE HEED THE TRIGGER WARNINGS!! We will be going into explicit confronting material about sensitive topics that can be triggering. 

Word Count: 4426

Warnings: Blood, mentions of death, miscarriage, description of injury, angst, grief. 

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 Xinteng 

noun 心疼 Chinese 

The Literal translation of heartache. The particular kind of sadness and pain that comes from witnessing and sharing the pain of people you love.

Liam stood in front of the mirror, adjusting his collar. Today wasn’t going to be easy. 

 Today he had to farewell his best friend of more years than he could count. There was nothing that could have prepared him for it. In his mind, Drake would have always been a part of his future, his best friend, trusted advisor and maybe even a member of the royal council, if he managed to talk him into it. Drake had been such a permanent fixture in his life, it was a core fact that he just knew. They would have been brothers for life, supporting each other until well after they were old and grey, there was no question about it and he had no reason to think otherwise until… now.. 

The reality of it finally seemed to hit him hard as he donned his outfit for the funeral —  a suit, all black — doing up each button seemed to take a colossal effort. His own blue eyes, hollow and stared back at him as he relived the thoughts and feelings of the last few days. The day they switched off the life support would haunt him forever, he knew that. It had been almost a week and he still felt everything so viscerally, almost like he was living it all again. Everything… Holding Elizabeth’s sobbing body as she tried to claw at the doctors... feeling frustration so intense he wanted to scream and never stop... begging and pleading with Drake to come back... feeling his pulse ebb away when he didn’t….

The emptiness was the worst…  emptiness that ate at him, slowly crawling its way under his skin to hollow out everything that could make him feel okay again… He marvelled at the immense impact that one person had, it was almost like Drake’s presence had left a huge hole in his soul that he had no idea how to begin to fill.  Sadness, pain and anger reared their ugly heads again inside him, tussling for which one would gain control over what was left of him. 

God Drake why did you have to-

The door opened abruptly and Liam brushed at the hot tears that has escaped him as his father's reflection appeared in the mirror. He clenched his jaw, willing himself to regain his composure, taking a deep breath before turning to face the other man.   

‘Father.’ His tone was cool. 

 ‘Son,’ Constantine replied in kind, eyes travelling over Liam’s figure ‘I see you’re ready for today… I can only imagine how tough this must be for you.' 

He was dancing around the subject — a subtle shift in his figure was enough to betray his ruse. Liam had to bite his cheek to prevent his face from morphing into disgust at his father’s gall to hide his ulterior motive for their conversation under the false pretence of affection. 

 ‘You’ve obviously come here to say something, Father,’ he replied, his tone measured as the tension between them thickened. ‘Just when I thought you’d come to comfort me on the day of my best friend’s funeral… I suppose I shouldn’t have been so generous with my assumptions.’ 

‘I suppose there’s not point beating around the bush..’ the old man replied, easing himself into the armchair. ‘Have you spoken to Duchess Elizabeth?’ 

 Liam scoffed, adjusting his cufflinks. ‘What do you think?' 

‘Don’t take that smart tone with me, boy,’ Constantine replied, voice restrained with fury. ‘The future of our country is at stake. We do not have the luxury of time. And I will not stand to see it be ruined by your indecision.' 

A deep rage flared up in Liam. 'For Pete’s sake, he was my best friend!’ He roared, not caring if he was heard throughout the palace. 'She’s his lover and today is his funeral. How can you possibly want me to bring up the subject of marriage?' 

'Liam I know its not ideal but we have to think of the future of our country,’ Constantine told him firmly, unperturbed by the outburst. 'Waiting is not a luxury one has as a monarch. The people look to the crown for stability. Duchess Elizabeth is the best insurance of that.’ 

He shut his eyes, swallowing hard, trying to keep his conflicting emotions at bay, like he’d done for all his life. ‘Why does it have to be her Father? Why are you so adamant that I marry her? Olivia, Madeleine, Hana Lee, hell even Kiara Castelsareillan or Penelope Portavira would be perfectly suitable for the role. Why do you insist on Elizabeth?’ 

 His father was already shaking his head. ‘You really want me to list it out for you? Fine. I’m sure I don’t need to reiterate how brash Olivia Nevrakis is, the people will never accept a Nevrakis on the throne, particularly after her parents’ betrayal. As for Lady Hana, there’s no denying she’s talented but the poor girl has no control over her feelings, anyone with eyes could see that she’s incapable of being with a man.’ 

Liam noted the bitterness on his father’s face after voicing that as Constantine continued. ‘If you hadn't made such a public spectacle of ending your engagement with Madeleine, perhaps we could have salvaged something of this mess, but nooo you had to announce it publicly.. Let's face it the other two are addled idiots anyway. Do I need to go on?’ 

He ignored the withering look his father gave him, turning away stubbornly. ‘Why can’t we just call for another season? Surely I-‘

‘Think Liam,’ his father hissed venomously. ‘Our royal court was just attacked in the palace, supposedly the most secure place in the country. The people are shaken, its only a matter of time before they come stampeding to the gates with torches and pitchforks, calling for our heads. We need a solution to this and now. Cordonia needs stability not the king spending their precious funds to pander to his indecision when the perfect candidate seems to exist already. As much as I hate to admit it, your precious duchess holds the people's favour something we desperately need right now after her performance during the social season. To them she represents stability and hope, two things even you have to recognise we are running short on.' 

Though he could understand his underlying reasoning, Liam couldn’t believe the words coming from the man he called his father. Did he seriously expect him to ask the love of his life to marry him on today of all days? How was he to even think of proposing to Elizabeth when Drake was barely in his coffin? 

 'Am I not allowed one day to grieve? To cry? To be a man first then a king?' 

‘Liam, like it or not you are the crown now. Everything you do is reflection of the crown’s intentions.’ Constantine was on his feet now, glaring back at him. 'You took a vow to protect this country and I will not stand by and watch you run it to ruin. If I have to take it into my own hands, so be it.’ 

 Liam narrowed his eyes. ‘Is that a threat?' 

‘I am not afraid to defend my country. By any means necessary.'

Tension crackled in the air around them. Both men stood toe to toe, locked in a standoff pulled to full height, Liam over his father by a few inches who glared back defiantly. His mouth was already opening to reprimand him when — 

 ‘Your Majest-'

‘What?!’ He bellowed at the young footman that opened the door, not taking his eyes off Constantine. ‘Can’t you see I’m occupied!?’ 

‘A-a-apologised Y-your M-majesty, it-its-its-,' The poor boy sputtered in terror unable to speak clearly. 

 ‘Well?’ Liam demanded impatiently, turning his head to zero in on him. 

 ‘I-Its the Duchess!’ The boy finally burst out. ‘She’s locked herself in her room and she won’t come out!’ 

‘This is preposterous! The stupid girl is having a temper tantrum,’ Constantine scoffed Liam spun on his heel, grabbing his father by the collar, rage in every word. ‘Speak one more word about Elizabeth and I’ll have you hanged for treason.’ 

 Ignoring his father’s protest, Liam ran.

-

His feet traced the steps to Elizabeth’s room of their own accord, shoving past staff members, barely acknowledging their grunts of annoyance and cries of surprise at their king dashing through the hallways like the devil himself was on his heels. No, he only had one objective in mind. 

 Elizabeth. Elizabeth. Why the hell was her room so far away?

Rounding the corner, he found himself standing at the locked door to her suite, Mara and the other servants pounding on the barrier. ‘Your Majesty we tried everything. We sent for a lock smith but she’s got something over the door on the inside,’ Mara reported, her hands red raw. ‘We’ve got security ready to scale the outside of the building, to come through the window.’ 

’Tell them to stand down,’ he ordered. ‘I’ll handle this.’   

The bodyguard did not look pleased but nodded once, raising a hand to her earpiece. 

 ‘Elizabeth?’ Liam called out, placing a hand on the door. ‘Its me… Its.. Liam. Are you okay?’ 

There was no response. Liam frowned in confusion. This was highly uncharacteristic of the Elizabeth Richmond he knew. Or maybe he didn’t know her as well as he thought... 

‘Elizabeth, open up,’ his voice was more urgent now, unable to keep his mind from conjuring up the worst images. 

He raked over memories of the past days, trying to find something, anything that would clue him into why she was acting like this. He immediately cursed himself. How could she not be herself given all that had happened? But still he needed to know, he needed to see her with his own two eyes to make sure she was okay. And with every second that ticked by, the conclusions he was jumping to seemed to be worse and worse. 

‘Please. Elizabeth. Its Liam.’ Still nothing.

‘Leave me alone with her,’ Liam ordered before turning back to the door. 'Liz… please… Open up. I just… need to know that you’re okay…’ 

 He rested his head against the door and a faint sob could be heard through the wood. Alarm came flooding back into his face, galvanising him. 

 ‘Elizabeth open up or I’ll break the door down if I have to.’ 

 Liam’s senses tingled, strained to detect some sign, any thing to dissuade him. Receiving none, he sighed in resignation, before aimed a powerful kick at the door to the suite. His blow held so much force it struck the the offending — a chair — that had been holding the door shut and stepping over it, his eyes moved frantically over the unmade bed and seemly empty room. 

 The sound of another sob turned his head towards the closed door of the bathroom and springing it open, found Elizabeth lying in foetal position on the bathroom floor. He immediately moved to drop to his knees beside her before he slipped suddenly. He reflexively flung a hand out to support himself against the toilet bowl. After sufficiently steadying himself, he drew his hand back only to find it covered in… crimson. 

The dart of relief that was forming in his chest immediately vanished as Liam’s blue eyes took in the entire scene where the floor was covered in blood all originating from… Elizabeth's voice was softer than a whisper and coarse than sandpaper as she turned her fractured gaze to his, tears welling in her eyes. 

‘I… I-I… He.. Drake...’ She choked on his name, fresh sobs erupting from her body. Her hand clutched the toilet, leaving a smear of blood in its place before her arm gave out and she collapsed onto the floor, lacking the strength to even hold herself upright. ‘There’s so much blood…’ She croaked brokenly, eyes unfocused as she scanned the scene around her. 'W-why is there so much blood?'

Her words broke Liam out of his frozen stupor. ‘Elizabeth,’ His voice was hoarse as his mind slowly pieced together what had happened. Unable to tears his eyes away from the pool of red seeping out from under her legs, he swallowed hard, staring at his bloodstained hand. ‘You… you were…’   

Pregnant...

She shut her eyes, hissing slightly as the word hung in their air between them. ‘He didn’t know Liam. He… I-He died without knowing I…’ She wouldn’t finish without breaking into tears again and lost for words, Liam gathered her up into his arms as she wept, unable to stop big tears rolling down his face, knowing he only knew a sliver of what she was going through right now. 

On the day of the funeral too… 

His heart went out to her and the unfathomable suffering she was experiencing. He felt so infinitely useless, unable to provide any other comfort so he clutched her closer, as if the tighter he held on the more likely her pain would go away. He was painfully aware that there was nothing he could say or do that would ever be able to rectify what had just happened. So he held her on that bathroom, he held her close as she cried into his new black suit, blood staining both their outfits. Liam’s own emotions had worked up a storm inside him but he pushed them down for her sake. He couldn’t lose it too. Suddenly Elizabeth cried out as if in pain as more fluid began to leak onto the floor and when her skin touched his, the contact burned his skin. She felt scorching hot to the touch despite the shivers that wracked her body.

Liam cursed himself for not realising this sooner and shouted for a maid. 

‘Prepare the motorcade and have them ready to transport the duchess and I to the hospital. And bring Lady Hana here immediately,’ he commanded the girl who’s eyes were as wide as dinner plates at the sight. ‘Breathe a word of this to anyone and I will personally ensure that you live to regret it.’   

She bobbed once in compliance and rushed off. 

 ‘C’mon Elizabeth,’ he encouraged softly after god knows how much time had passed. ‘It’s going to be okay.. Its going to be okay.’

He had no way of knowing if it was going to be okay, he had no idea what would happen next but he couldn’t let her know the panic he was feeling. He shifted her hot body in his arms, worry seeping deeper into him. How long had she been like this? Surely it couldn’t have been good to lie on the bathroom floor - as clean as it may be - in this state. Liam had little medical knowledge but what if she’d caught some bacterial infection or something? She could be at risk for something serious and he had no idea. 

 ‘Someone get the doctor immediately,’ he bellowed, shifting Elizabeth again, her temperature soaring as she attempted to curl closer into herself. 

Through the panic he was feeling, Liam remembered vaguely that his mother had put him under a cold shower when he’d had a fever as a child to lower his temperature. He had no way of knowing if that was medically but he had to try. 

‘C’mon Elizabeth,’ he repeated. ‘I’m going to put you into the shower. We- we… I don’t know what I’m doing..’ Liam ran a bloodstained hand through his hair, not caring for his personal wellbeing, attention solely focused on getting her up and into the shower. 'Let’s get you cleaned up.’ 

Elizabeth made a noise of reluctance but eventually allowed him to lift her to her feet. He had just managed to coax her into the shower when Hana’s voice called out for him. 

 ‘In here,’ he yelled back from under the cold shower where he was holding Elizabeth, still fully clothed as he tried to keep his eyes off the blood that was draining off both of them. Hana appeared in the doorway instantaneously, a gasp escaping her at the sight before her eyes, scanning the mess in the bathroom. For a moment her lower lip wavered and Liam was doubting his decision to have her here before she straightened her posture and stepped into the bathroom, avoiding the puddles of blood and fluid on the ground. 

 ‘Here let me,’ she reached for Elizabeth and Liam was only too glad to ease her into her arms. ‘The doctor is on the way.' 

As Liam was exiting the bathroom to let Hana rinse her, his eyes caught sight of the toilet, where something bobbed in the bloodstained water.. 

This time Liam was unable to control his initial reaction, his stomach turning itself inside out, heaving its contents into the nearest rubbish bin. Swiping the back of his hand over his mouth, he stumbled out of the bathroom, surely leaving red footprints in his wake but in his stupor, he was barely able to think straight. 

 ‘Your Majesty-‘ Bastein and Mara were at the suite door, wide eyed at the blood on his clothes but he waved them off. ‘Where’s that fucking doctor?’ 

‘Right here Your Majesty, apologies for the delay,’ a woman stepped up and Liam couldn’t speak, merely pointing to Elizabeth's room.

‘Your Majesty you don’t look-' 

‘Madeleine!’ Liam bellowed, ignoring all attempts at his own wellbeing. 

The blonde woman materialised at the threshold with her ever enigmatic expression. ‘You called Your Majesty?’ 

‘Postpone the funeral. And clear my schedule for today and tomorrow.’ 

‘What am I your personal assistant?’ She scoffed, clearly unified by his stormy expression. 

‘I am your king,’ Liam growled, authority clear in his tone. ‘You will do as I say.’ The blonde woman nodded once and disappeared and he glanced at the crowd of servants gathered there watching the scene. 

'Breathe a word of this to anyone and I’ll make sure you all pay for it,’ he snarled, registering the fear in their eyes before they scattered. 

 He sank down into a nearby chaise, his head dropping into his hands and Liam wept...

He cried for Elizabeth, for the inexplicable pain she was feeling at losing not one but two people in such a short space of time. He wept for the child who would have been, who would have grown up to be a tiny copy of their father, a strength to their mother and comfort that the man she loved was still with her in some way. He wept for Drake who would never get to have the family he wanted and surely deserved, a life cut short by the sharp and unforgiving knife of fate. Feeling a synonymous sense of shame, Liam wept for himself too, for what he was expected to do for his country at the price of one woman’s happiness and stability.

He did not know how long he sat there, eyes staring blankly at the tiles, brushing off any and all attempt to comfort him until the servants bustled by barely taking notice of their king sitting so still he could have been a statue. His father’s word echoed back to him, about the need for stability and harmony through his marriage to Elizabeth but Liam knew now that he would never be able to ask that of her. The opinions of the people be damned, he thought angrily. They could change and they would. He’d marry someone else Olivia or even Kiara maybe, both who would be fine queens and — 

The door creaked open to reveal the doctor stepping out and Liam immediately stood up, giving her an expectant look. Her expression turned apologetic. 

 ‘As you are aware, Your Majesty Duchess Elizabeth has had a miscarriage. It is difficult to say how far along she was but my best guess would be less than three months.’ 

The words shook him to his core.. Three months ago would have been around the time of the homecoming ball, after he had broken off his engagement to Madeleine, he reasoned. Liam felt his stomach drop, he had no idea Elizabeth and Drake were so involved together at that point, in fact he had no idea of it until he’d seen her at his bedside before what he had suspected finally clicked into place. His stomach twisted into a tighter knot at the next words. 

‘You found her when she was mid way through passing the pregnancy tissue. Fever, chills, severe abdominal and uterine pain are common with a miscarriage like this one. It is hard to say whether she has contracted some kind of infection from sitting unprotected on the floor but I have briefed Lady Hana on the symptoms and she knows to contact a doctor should Her Grace be experiencing this.’ 

 ‘How is she now?’ Liam’s tongue felt thick in his mouth as he fought to swallow the doctor’s words. 

 ‘The rest of the pregnancy tissue should pass out in the next few days and there’s nothing I can do to make that process any faster. It is a matter of time. But for now she needs to rest Your Majesty. I would recommend bedrest for the next day or two and no strenuous activity while her body recovers. I have given her painkillers to help with the pain. She will require an ultrasound to ensure all the pregnancy tissue has been expelled and another checkup in about 4-6 weeks time.' 

He hadn’t realised how tense he was until the doctor placed a hand on his arm in comfort. 

‘It’s a tough thing to recover from but Her Grace has a good support system. She just needs people to be with her to remind her that she doesn’t have to do this alone. None of you do.’ 

 Liam nodded, hearing the doctor’s message. ‘I understand. Can I-can I see her?’ ‘Her Grace is resting but a few minutes wouldn’t hurt,’ the doctor — Dr Jaya Da Silva as her name badge read — smiled sadly, pausing for a moment before speaking again. ‘Go be with her. In times like these, you need hope. You need to give her that hope Your Majesty because in the end that’s all we have. Everyone knows Duchess Elizabeth has a way of pulling through in the end, you just need to remind her of it.’

He nodded once and turned to the room door where two maids with cleaning supplies were exiting. Unbidden his eyes flew to a small black plastic bag one of them was holding and his stomach turned violently, threatening to hurl at the sight of it. 

That was… 

Liam squeezed his eyes shut, wiping his sweaty palms on the front of his blazer — a gesture his stepmother would have surely chastised him for — and took a deep breath, willing the calmness people associated his kingly persona to return. Elizabeth lay on the bed, curled into ball, dark hair tangled across the pillows as Hana tucked her in. She barely acknowledged his presence, her eyes glassy and vacant, fixated loosely on the wall. He winced at the sight, taking in her bloodshot gaze and how her hands hadn’t quite stopped shaking.

‘Elizabeth…’ Her name slipped from his lips, as if it was never really meant for him. His mouth opened and shut a few times, at a loss for words. "How are you feeling?” wouldn’t really cut it in this situation; he could not even begin to understand the pain she must be in. 

 ‘You postponed the funeral,’ she said finally, almost in an accusatory tone. ‘Why?’ 

Liam sighed, running a hand through his hair. ‘Elizabeth... you can’t. You’re in no condition to..’ 

‘I can,’ she retorted, struggling to push herself up on one hand. ‘I can and I will.’ 

‘The doctor ordered bedrest, she said it would take a while for-‘ 

‘I don’t care! Stop. Stop it okay!’ She was in a sitting position now, glaring at him with a venom that he’d never seen before. ‘It needs to go on, I have to… I have to…  I want to see him laid to rest.. I wanna see him one more time before-‘ Her voice gave way to sobs. 

 ‘Elizabeth…You’ve already gone through so much today. You need to rest.’ 

‘I need to see him Liam,’ she was crying again, loud, messy sobs as huge globs of snot flowed out of her nose but she swiped it away with her hand before holding up a menacing finger towards him. ‘Fuck you and your entitled ass for not letting me.’ 

He opened his mouth to reply but she cut him off. ‘Tell them the funeral is back on Liam. Tell them or I’ll never speak to you again.’ 

'If it comes to that, so be it.’ 

She yelled at him, screamed, cursed him with every profanity under the sun, swearing on all she knew to be sacred that she would never forgive him but Liam stood his ground. He dragged his blue eyes to her dark ones, knowing she was in extreme pain and it was just the grief talking. She was already unstable, if he did as she said… who knew if she would ever recover. 

‘Hate me all you want,’ Liam continued in a voice he did not recognise as his own. ‘I’m only doing this for you own good.’ 

‘You fucking bastard!’ she yelled back as she struggled to get to her feet, before giving way to a sharp cry of pain, her hand flying to her abdomen. Hana immediately rushed to her side but Elizabeth swatted her away. ‘Get off me, let me go Hana!' 

The other woman turned her pleading eyes on Liam, begging him to relent so that Elizabeth would be calmed but he stood his ground.

‘So help me Elizabeth if I need to lock you in this room I will.’ 

What was happening to him? He sounded just like his father, placing this innocent woman in even more pain. But Liam had no choice, he had to do what he felt was right. 

 ‘I’m doing this for your own good,’ he replied forlornly as she collapsed back on the bed in exhaustion. Shutting the door behind him, Liam leaned against the wood, closing his eyes as tears rolled down his cheeks, hating himself for what he just did. The sound of her protests filtered to him as the echo of his father’s words sprang to his mind, both battling on his conscience. Elizabeth was already in so much pain. 

How could he burden her with the crown too?

[maxattack-powell]

Winter Break - Game Day (Part II)

Winter Break - Game Day (1-17g PART II)

***This is an original fic that fits in between the Luxury Date special and Book 2/Chapter 1 (1-17g) in my masterlist)***

Masterlist - go here for other chapters and related original fics

Disclaimer: The following are fics (adaptations from actual game chapters AND original works) to Choices: The Freshman and The Sophomore stories. It is a fictional adaptation. I do not work for Pixelberry Studios, the game developer or own the rights to the characters Chris Powell, Nicole or any other IN GAME character. All of the ORIGINAL characters, storylines and events were developed for my adaptation of The Freshman story.

Comments: I enjoyed playing Choices The Freshman… and then I found this awesome group of people and their works - I’ve loved it all, very much so. Deciding that I wanted more interaction than the options allowed, I’ve gone through the first book, chapter by chapter (omg painfully slow) to follow the story (95-99% I’d say) and add to it as I felt would benefit. Now I am doing the same to Book 2 as well.

Basically, I wanted to include certain things that weren’t really full fic worthy, adding more substance to the story. However, I did add some full size fic moments also… some are included in cannon chapters and some are their own full chapters in between. I wanted to see MC and Chris through their freshman year… with more angst, fluff, sweetness, real life and overall detail. So, if you like that pairing then you’ll be satisfied, otherwise sorry James & Kaitlyn fans lol. I even added some parts from Chris’s POV, so that we have a chance to see what he’s thinking, knowing what she experienced.

NSFW moments possible - Mature Readers Only Please

Paring: MC x Chris

POV: ~MC~ or ~Chris~

 CONTINUED FROM HERE...

~Chris~

They pause as they step away from the gate, trying to locate the area they know their friends will be in. Once they find the correct section, they start cutting through the crowd. Not wanting to get separated, Chris reaches for her hand and she quickly wraps hers around his before he gives her a warm smile and a light squeeze.

When they find their group, Ethan notices their arrival within seconds. His eyes lock onto Chris’s first, glancing at their hands, and then up to MC’s eyes, who are currently trained on Chris. Chris sees Ethan give him a knowing smirk and he sends back a look to imply keeping his mouth shut. Ethan holds his hands up innocently, while Chris smirks at him, knowing he's really not the one to worry about. He hears him then, his rowdy raven haired friend who was standing just a few feet away, once again in some type of competition with Logan. This time it looks like hot-dogs.

Ethan walks over to Chris and MC, putting his arm around MC’s shoulders, asking if she’s cold or needs anything while Chris finds Coach Cohen to make sure he knows they have arrived. Luckily for them, splitting up at that moment makes it easier to blend in, not drawing enough attention to some of the others, including Ryan. Once Chris checks in, he pats Ryan and Logan on the shoulders, making his presence known before he finishes his rounds and heads back to Ethan and MC.

The group spends the next 5-6 hours running around the tailgate party. They all had Rookie Pre-Game Tickets for the tailgate party, which meant they had unlimited access to all food and nonalcoholic drinks. There was also live music such as multiple DJs, sports broadcasts running live they could watch and even participate in, and many games to choose from.

The Hartfeld group would split into smaller groups occasionally, some running off to play games or hit up the buffet again. But no matter who was doing what, Chris and MC were together. Chris wouldn't let her get too far from him, and if someone inadvertently split them up, they would quickly find each other, their hands finding one another, making sure it wouldn't happen again.

They along with Ryan, Ethan, Logan and Madison often went together, searching for games to play during the tailgate party. Ryan and Logan would usually become very competitive, no matter what the game was, making the others laugh at their crazy antics. Chris smiles, realizing that he’s missed his two best friends since leaving Cherryfield. He really, really misses them, and he hopes they can find a way to get them to Hartfeld next year.

As the hours pass, he watches as his two old friends become more acquainted with the other members of the team. Ethan finds one of their quieter tackles to talk to, and from what Chris can tell, their conversation ranges from music to their goals in school, and even after. Hearing some on the last subject makes Chris think a little about his future as well. If he will play football forever, meaning going Pro. Or, if he will focus on his school career, needing to decide which direction he wants to go. He knows one thing for sure, as he turns to look at the woman standing next to him, still wrapped in the blanket he put on her earlier and tucked under his arm, gushing about something with Madison.

Chris knows that he wants her to be there, wants to be with her, no matter what happens, no matter where they end up. He wants it to be the two of them. He knows that he's still young, and he's talking about forever with someone who’s the same age, but everything keeps telling him that it's supposed to be this way. He never felt that way with Nicole. The thought makes him relax, knowing he doesn't need to worry. He's going to live a good life and enjoy it.

She must sense something as he looks at her endearingly, turning her head to lock her hazel eyes on his blues. MC flashes him a sweet smile, a faint tint of pink creeping on her cheeks as they both seem to think back to a few hours prior. As she pulls her lip in to fuss with it, he reaches down and grasps her chin, pulling her lips to his briefly, not wanting to draw too much attention but also needing to taste her again. It had been too long since he did last.

~Coach~

The stadium finally opens after a few hours, allowing everyone to enter and get settled in. Coach Tim Cohen collects collects his group and they make their way inside. As they head towards their section midway down the field, he sees something familiar. Or a someone, actually. He pauses and watches her for a moment, the woman he met the night before. He recalls her name as he remembers their conversations late into the morning. She said her name was Alisa, but he wasn't sure if that was real as she had been somewhat aloof when the conversation became more personal.

Now he knows why. He stands there for a moment as his team congregates around him, waiting for direction. That's when she looks up, noticing the cluster of red and black that seems to grow close by. Their eyes meet and she gives him an awkward smile. He doesn't respond, instead turns to his group and tells them where their block of seats should be close by. Everyone scatters and he turns back around, finding her eyes immediately.

He takes a few steps to stand right against the railing, raising his eyebrow as he crosses his arms in front of his chest. Tim’s body language implies his unspoken question.

She lets out a sigh and walks over stand in front of him, looking up at him with her big green eyes from her lower position on the field. “Hello again, Coach Cohen.”

“So, you knew who I was last night when you approached me.” It wasn't a question, but a statement, and it wasn't up for debate. His face was expressionless as his gaze moved around her face.

She gives him a small smile and looks around the immediate area before she speaks. “Yes, I did.”

He nods. “Looking for a story I suppose?”

She smirks and looks away for a second before turning her eyes back up to his. “No, although... getting one from you would greatly help my career.”

She watches his face as he contemplates her words. He’s not sure what her angle is, but he’s curious. “I typically don't talk to anyone when I’m near the field. Even when they seem like an a average fan or something, because they usually turn out to be a reporter digging for dirt.”

Alice shifts her weight on her tall heels as she stands her ground, “That’s not why I approached you last night. But I’m getting the impression that you won't believe anything I say anyway.”

Tim stands there quietly for a moment, trying to determine if she was being genuine. Last night they had talked for quite a while, and even though he didn't know she was a reporter at the time, she seemed like she was being honest and open with him. Now he wasn't sure, but he was curious to find out.

“Is your name actually Alisa?” He cocks his eyebrow as he places his hands on the railing, leaning forward a little.

“Yes. Technically. My name Alisa,is the Russian form of Alice. As in Alice Bell, my on-air name and I cover college sports for NESN.” She holds her hands up, empty palms. “Anything else?”

He holds her gaze, noting how bold she is as she’s clearly not going to tuck tail and run from this situation. “My team and I are here to get them pumped for next season and have a good time. We’re not here for anything else.”

She nods. “Understood. I wasn't planning on it, just FYI.”

He stands back straight and shoves his hands in his pockets. “Thank you.” He pauses as their eyes stay locked. “Good luck tonight, Alisa.”

A small smirk appears on her face, making him fight to stop his own from appearing. He’s not entirely successful though, as the corner of his left side curls slightly as he turns to head back to his team.

~Chris~

The Hartfeld group finds their seats with enough time to get settled, grab whatever they need and be ready by the time the game begins. It’s an exciting game as both teams in the championship had impressive seasons this year. Even the analysts were unsure who was going to win, as there was no clear leader.

Chris grins as he looks around the immediate seats, seeing his friends and teammates ecstatic and having a great time. There was so much energy coursing through everyone that he could feel it himself. MC was even jumping around as insane plays pulled through and absurd interceptions occurred. The teams were good, but there were still moments that were unbelievable during the game, making the fans in the stands anxious and excitable.

He turns to look at MC and lets out a happy chuckle. Her face is almost split in two as she pumps her fist in the air as their favored team makes another touchdown. She turns to him and flashes him her big smile, making his stomach flip. He shakes his head and reaches over, pulling her to his side. She wraps her arms around his waist and leans her head against his chest as he rubs her back.

Ryan and Ethan are on his other side, both almost as energetic as MC was moments before. They are really into the game, yelling at players and referees with the coaches when ridiculous calls are made. When something works out well the guys all share high fives and cheer for the specific players involved. Halftime comes and everyone splits off to take care of whatever they need for a few minutes.

Coach Cohen turns from his spot near his seat and calls to Chris. “Powell! Come over here for a minute.”

Chris gives MC’s hand a squeeze before he leaves her to see what Coach needs. “What’s up Coach?” He looks at him curiously.

“I need you to come with me for a few minutes. There’s someone I want you to talk to.” He starts to walk down the aisle but stops when he sees Chris hesitate and look back at MC, not wanting to leave her alone as their friends were not currently at their seats.

Coach smirks and taps Chris on the shoulder. “What are you doing? Go get her. She can come with.”

Chris immediately relaxes as he turns his head to MC, instantly finding her eyes. He gestures for her to come down to him so she stands and carefully steeps around people as she makes her way towards him. When she gets there Coach nods at her and turns, heading to an undisclosed location.

MC looks at Chris and he wraps his arm around her shoulder before he kisses her on the head. “He said there was someone he wanted me to talk to or something… but I didn't want to leave you alone.”

She scrunches up her nose and wraps her arm around his waist as she kisses him on the cheek, avoiding the bill of his hat. He smirks at her as they follow Coach Cohen. After a few minutes they arrive at a closed door on which Coach knocks. It swings open and the person quickly recognizes Coach Cohen and lets him in.

The person points over towards the side of the room, Chris realizing they are now in one of the stadiums luxury boxes. There are quite a few people moving around, so Chris doesn't immediately see the tall man in the corner, but the tall man sees them and excuses himself from his immediate circle as he heads over. Chris sees Coach Cohen holding out his hand first, then sees Russell Thibbs as he grasps the offered hand and they shake.

“Good to see you again Russell.” His Coach greets the tall running back with ease.

Russell nods. “You too, Coach. How did your season go?”

“Pretty good for inheriting a partial team. They worked hard, good group of guys. Next year will be a whole different story, I’m telling you.” He nods as they end the handshake.

Coach Cohen turns sideways, reaching towards Chris, beckoning him to join them. Chris appears slightly apprehensive but moves with confidence as he walks over, unsure of the reason for his being here. His left hand is still grasping MC’s and as he moves closer. She must feel him tense as he gets closer because she gives his larger hand a soft squeeze that he quickly returns. When he joins their small circle she tucks in a little behind his large arm to not intrude too much as he reaches out with his right hand, firmly grasping Russell's.

“It’s good to see you again, Chris. You had a hell of a year for a freshman.” He gives Chris a warm smile as he shakes the quarterbacks hand with some weight.

“Thank you, sir. It was a little unexpected, but I loved it. I’m thankful that I could step in and help the team out in a time of need.” Chris replies with calm maturity.

“That’s why I brought you here Chris. Russell and I agree, you have a lot of potential.” Coach gives him an even stare.

Chris feels MC squeeze his hand, silently agreeing with them both. He quickly glances to her and tries not to grin.

Russell nods. “We really do. Coach Cohen here knows a good quarterback when he sees one, being one of the best the college circuit has ever seen, and I know a future professional when I see one.”

Chris’s eyes go wide as his mouth opens slightly, clearly surprised at the praise he was receiving. “I… I don't know what to say. Thank you. I was just trying to do the right thing. My Cherryfield High Coach helped me understand what it means to be a good friend, a reliable ball player and a supportive Captain.”

“Exactly. Which brings up another point I wanted to mention to you. With Darren graduating this year, we are not only losing our starting quarterback, but our Team Captain as well.”

Chris remains silent as he watches his coach and waits.

“From what I’ve heard from the guys this season, chances are good that you are going to be voted in. Are you ready for that? I know you were Captain at Cherryfield, but this will be a little different.” Coach Cohen gives him a serious but supportive look.

Thibbs nods his head. “Coach is right. It's going to be a lot of work, take a lot of time, but I personally think you're built to handle it. Like I said, you have the potential to go Pro if you want to. You just need to do the work.”

Chris smiles and nods at them both. “I understand. If I am voted in for Captain, I will not let Hartfeld down.”

Coach nods and smiles at Chris as he pats him on the shoulder.

Russell reaches out to shake Chris’s hand again, “Glad to hear it. I know you’ll do well with it.”

He shifts his gaze to Chris’s left and greets MC. “It’s great to see you again, as well. I apologize for not greeting you sooner. I was on a mission.”

Russell lets out a warm laugh and she smiles while shaking her head softly. “Thank you, but no worries. It was important.”

“I’m glad to see Chris has some serious support. He’s going to need it if he decides to pursue this career. Having a solid personal life and stable family structure is really important in our world. My wife and girls are my foundation. I can already tell that you two make a stable unit together.” He tips his head to them both.

Chris turns to look at MC, who he realizes is already looking at him with a warm smile on her lips. He can't help but grin as he squeezes her hand again with a grin. “I couldn't agree more Mr. Thibbs.”

Russell laughs softly. “Just call me Russell, son. We’re all friends here.”

The three stay with Russell in the box for a while, enjoying the luxuries until the trailing team makes a touchdown, creating an uproar through the crowd. Coach thanks Russell again for his hospitality and motions for Chris and MC to follow him back to their assigned seats. When they arrive, Ryan and Ethan give him a curious look.

He just smiles and shakes his head. “Sorry, had to hang with my new friend Russell Thibbs for a few.”

They both immediately perk up, knowing exactly who he's talking about, Ryan gasps and looks offended. “And you didn't take us with you?!”

“Next time, next time…” Chris smirks at his jealous friend.

They watch the rest of the game on pins and needles. Not because anyone was rooting for a particular team, but because the game was all over the place. It turned out to be one of the most exciting games any of them had ever seen.

Chris pulls MC to stand in front of him with barely enough room for them to fit. He encases her with his muscular arms while she's wrapped the blanket, easily warming her up with his body heat. With her height being close to his, he doesn't have to lean down far to rest his chin on her shoulder, tucking his nose into the crook of her neck. She squirms a little, making Chris take note of the location for future use. He grins into her warming skin as he kisses her neck. He spends the rest of the game with her in his arms.

~Coach~

The game ends with a magical touchdown and the crowd rushes the field, the excitement taking over as strangers hug and cheer. Coach yells to the group, telling them to meet at the bus in 30 minutes before telling them to scram and have a good time. They quickly disburse, some thanking him as the run down the steps as others such as Ryan and Ethan climb over rows of seats to quickly reach the field. He chuckles and shakes his head before taking his time to get on the field.

Once there, he looks around, searching for a particular face. It doesn't take him long to find her, as she's interviewing one of the winning players, her face bright and friendly as he excitedly answers all of her questions.

He waits nearby, interacting with fans when they recognize him, taking selfies and signing random objects as the time passes. When he receives a lull in attention, he turns to glance in her location again, but she's gone. He frowns slightly and crosses his arms, unsure how he missed her leaving.

Coach Cohen shakes his head once, deciding he should head towards the bus so he wouldn't break his own rule. However, before he can take a step he hears someone clear their throat. He freezes, instantly knowing who it was. He turns his head to his left, finding her standing next to him, a small smirk on her face.

“Did you want to do an interview, Coach?” She slowly turns her confident emerald eyes to his.

He shakes his head and laughs through a small smile. “You sure you're a reporter? You look like you should attending the games, not interviewing for them.”

She tries to hide her blushing smile, as professionalism is key. But it's hard to ignore the obvious complement. “Yep, I really am. And thank you for that. It can be a tough world out here… they expect so much from us sometimes. Feels good to know someone noticed.”

She shoots him a joyful smile and he clears his throat. “Ah, well. It’s hard not to notice, to be honest.” A small lopsided smile appears on his face as they both stare out across the field.

Coach Cohen invites her to join him and the group, as they had plans for a late night dinner to end their trip. She eyes him for a moment, making him narrow his eyes as he looks back at her, playfully questioning her hesitation. Alisa laughs and eventually accepts the offer with a smile as they head towards the bus.

~Chris~

Chris is with his friends and MC somewhere in the middle of the joyous crowd. Everyone around them is laughing and cheering, euphoria is everywhere. He can feel the excitement coursing through his own body, as if he had played in the game himself. He glances at the woman in his arms and feels his heart skip a little, her own excitement from the night clearly evident on her face. She catches him staring at her and flashes him a huge grin.

He can’t take it anymore, instantly grabbing both sides of her face before he crushes his lips to hers. She instantly reaches up and hooks her arms around his neck before she tugs him even closer and deepens the kiss. No one notices their affection in the large swirling crowd. When they break apart for air he quickly checks the time.

He pulls back slightly but leaves his arms circled tightly around her waist. “We gotta go if we want to get to the bus on time.”

She nods and they find their friends in the crowd before heading towards the bus. Everyone miraculously makes it back in time, much to Chris’s surprise. As they load up he notices the woman from the previous night sitting near the front, talking to Coach as he stands near the driver.

When they make it to their seats, MC leans over him to look at the pair near the front. “Oh, what's this, I wonder…”

She wiggles her eyebrows at Chris. He laughs and playfully pushes her back to her own seat, receiving a bite on his shoulder in response.

The bus drops everyone off at the predetermined restaurant and they all head inside, their reserved table ready and waiting for them in one of the side rooms. They spend almost two hours there eating, rehashing the game, dreaming about what it would be like to play at nationals and generally having a good time. As everyone waits for their checks, Logan throws out the idea of going back to Envy.

Ryan is quick to support his idea, turning to Ethan and narrowing his eyes. “You're going tonight, Clark.”

Ethan just laughs and shrugs, giving into his friend as he was just as keyed up as everyone else. Chris turns to look at MC, both still seated with his arm around the back of her chair. He gives her a questioning look, checking to see if she was interested. She scrunches up her nose a little, her lips in a playful half frown-half smile. He chuckles and nods, instantly agreeing with her. They haven't been alone since this morning, so now is the perfect time to get some time while everyone else stays out a little while longer.

Once everyone heads outside, Chris lets his friends know he and MC are going back to the hotel, telling them that they are exhausted from their morning run and will catch up with everyone in the morning. Ryan and Ethan don't say a word as they look at each other before simultaneously turning back to Chris, giving him the same ‘Sure, Jan’ look. Chris rolls his eyes and punches Ethan in the shoulder, making him fold slightly at the contact with a painful grimace. Ryan takes a few steps back when Chris turns his gaze to him, making the quarterback smirk.

He pulls her close as they say goodbye to everyone, nodding at Coach after he hears they are going to go back. Chris notices MC yawn a few times as they cross the last block towards their hotel. He studies her face and sees how tired she really is. He stops then, tugging her back when she doesn't immediately notice, more proof of her current state of exhaustion. She looks at him curiously and he gives her a small smile before kissing her softly. It’s a quick kiss and over before she realizes.

Chris turns and takes a knee, glancing over his shoulder. “Hop on.”

She tilts her head. “What? Why…”

“You're about to fall asleep MC. Hurry up and get on before someone thinks you turned my proposal down and I end up on YouTube. I’m serious!” He smirks at her and she laughs before swatting his shoulder and climbing on.

He feels her sigh into his broad shoulders as she snuggles as close as she can, burrowing her face into the side of his neck, her blanket flowing like a cape behind them as he stands. He adjusts his arms under her thighs, giving them a little squeeze, receiving a reciprocal affectionate kiss on the neck. Chris wills his body to calm down as her close proximity makes his heart rate increase, his blood heat and his stomach flip. He manages to contain the strong feelings the last block of the walk and even into the elevator.

MC shifts when she realizes where they are, pointing her boot out, aiming for floor buttons. Chris laughs and guides her pointed toe to the right floor, giving her leg another squeeze. He carries her all the way to her room and she slowly slides down his back when he stops.

He groans at the feeling and turns to face her. “Will you sleep with me tonight? Like seriously, just sleep…” He gives her a bashful smile, hoping she will say yes.

MC playfully taps on her chin, making him sigh and shake his head while he lets out a quiet chuckle. She doesn't say a word as she turns to the door and pulls her room key from her pocket, quickly slipping inside, the door clicking shut behind her. Chris stands there for a moment, somewhat confused. He blinks a few times and runs his hand through his hair before resting it on the back of his neck. Just as he's about to knock, the door swings open. MC stands there with a sleepy smirk, her bag slung over her shoulder.

She passes him and turns to face him once she reaches his door, “Well? You coming, handsome?”

He runs his hand through his hair again, excited and anxious about sleeping with her all night. “My bed?”

She gives him that smirk. “Yep, it's better. Smells like you.”

A huge grin splits his face and he rushes over, scooping her up against his chest as she wraps her legs around him. He spins her around once and she laughs and squeals at the centrifugal force. He holds her up with his arm under one leg, forcing her to tighten her grip with both legs, as he reaches into his pocket for his own room key. He groans at the tight contact and looks into her eyes as he opens the door and walks inside, never looking anywhere else.

They strip down to the basics. Chris in his blue boxer briefs and MC in a tank and underwear. He flips the covers back and slides in, holding up her side so she can jump in. She slides closer and he runs one arm under her, slipping between the pillow and her shoulders. His other arm wraps around her waist, pulling her snugly against him. She sighs and throws her leg over his hip, making him playfully growl at her before he leans in for her lips. They kiss slowly, both starting to feel the exhaustion creep in. It doesn't take long for each to fully fall asleep, both with a content look on their faces as their limbs remain intertwined.

Chris stirs a few hours later as a sharp light cuts into the room from hallway thanks to the now open door. He leans up slightly, his eyes heavy with sleep, only slits as he recognizes Logan. The senior stops dead in his tracks, his eyes searching Chris’s bed. He nods and smiles at Chris before giving him a quick wave and turning back into the hall.

He hears his faint “Hey Mads, MC and I are switching tonight. Cool?” He settles back down and adjusts his grip around her she unconsciously snuggles into his chest. He does the same to the top of her head, burrowing his nose into her sweet smelling hair as the room slips back into darkness.

The bus leaves Penn State University bright and early the next morning. Coach makes sure everyone was up and outside no later than 6 a.m., knowing that many would have to drive some distance after they arrive in Hartfeld later in the day. When he received multiple groans he told them all to get over it, reminding them they could sleep on the bus. That's what many did actually, sleeping all the way through to the midway stop, everyone only waking when it was time to refuel.

Chris and MC were the least tired as they had gone to bed earlier than just about everyone else, so they were awake at least an hour or two before the scheduled stop. They spend the quiet time playing Rummy, and much to Chris’s competitive dismay, MC is good. He tries everything he can think of to beat her. All of his previously victorious tactics fail him left and right. It’s unbelievable.

Instead of getting upset like he usually does when he loses, Chris just smiles. He tries to sneak a peek at her cards occasionally, receiving a swat in return each time as she clutches her cards to her chest. Eventually she takes a short nap before the bus slows and pulls in to a large station. The building was huge, as it was surrounded on all sides with multiple fuel options. There was even a full size restaurant on one side.

Coach Cohen stands first, clapping his hands twice to rouse everyone. “Now's a good time to stretch your legs, take care of business or just breathe some fresh air. Get back on in…” He checks his watch. “15 minutes, tops. It’s going to be a long day, we don't want to make it any longer.”

Everyone slowly stands and stretches, filing out of the bus and heading inside for the next 15 minutes. Chris reaches over to rub his fingers across MC’s cheek as she doesn't wake from the claps like almost everyone else.

“Hey, beautiful… pit stop. Come on.” He stands as she begins to stir and helps her up.

She yawns and gives him a warm smile. “Hello, handsome.”

He grins and spins her around, walking closely behind her with his hands on her hips. Once inside they split and head to the bathrooms. Chris makes it out before her, and starts milling around the aisles in the store. He sees Ethan as he heads over to join him on the snack aisle. They compare the quality of different snacks for a moment before Ryan rushes over with a magazine in his hand.

“Guys. Check this shit out.” He moves closer as they move to each side as he flips through the pages of Men’s Fitness magazine.

When he finally finds the page he was searching for he flattens the magazine and doesn't say a word, yet his eyebrows reach for the sky.

Ethan’s brow furrows as he leans closer. “Is that… Hannah?”

~MC~

As she makes her way towards the front door of the store, MC hears the guys near the end of an aisle and walks over to join them. As she gets closer she begins to hear some of their conversation.

“Is that… Hannah?” Ethan asks with disbelief.

She pauses, instantly curious who Hannah is and how they know her. Specifically how Chris knows her. She stands on her tiptoes to see Chris as he hears the name. A crease forms on his brow before he leans forward to get a better look at the pictures on the page. He studies the images quietly for a moment before straightening back up, a look of indifference on his face. Ryan eagerly flips through the pages, more images appearing over and over.

MC can see the magazine better now as well. Whoever this Hanna is, she's beautiful. Her mind begins to run through past conversations, searching for that name in particular. She remembers many names from hundreds of stories, but Hannah was not at all familiar. That wouldn't bother her too much, except Ryan and Ethan seemed to recognize her well, and Chris was being so quiet.

Not originally intending to eavesdrop, she walks around the end of the aisle and joins them. “Hey, guys.” She smiles and looks at the magazine when she gets closer. “Oh, she's beautiful… who’s that?”

When she raises her eyes she sees them all exchange odd looks. She immediately frowns, confused by their odd behavior.

“Uh…” Ryan begins, turning to Chris for assistance.

Chris just shakes his head at Ryan before he sighs and turns to MC. “She's just someone we went to high-school with.”

Ethan frowns and shuts his eyes, avoiding pushing the conversation further.

Ryan however, is not so in-tune with the current situation, his left eyebrow arching up before he speaks. “Yeah, and she's a model…”

His eyes widen as he finds a particularly interesting photo. Ethan elbows him slightly, bringing his focus back to the present.

When he looks up he sees Ethan’s face, Ryan quickly turns to see Chris and MC as they hold each other's gaze. Neither are looking at the magazine anymore. Picking up on the awkward moment, Ryan puts the magazine down on a random shelf before he and Ethan walk outside without a word.

~Chris~

Chris doesn't see them leave as he holds MC’s curious gaze. She chews on her bottom lip, making him feel a little anxious, knowing she’s thinking something about Hannah.

“You know her from Cherryfield?” MC gives him a small smile, the innocent looking expression implying much, much more.

He takes a deep breath and nods slowly. “Yes, that’s Hannah Foster. She was one of our friends from Cherryfield.”

MC picks up on his word choice immediately. “Was?”

He frowns deeply. “Yeah… she's not exactly friends with any of us now.” Chris feels a painful pressure on his chest for a moment as his mind jumps into the past briefly.

MC steps closer, making his anxiety spike as she softly grabs his hands and holds them in hers. She searches his eyes for a moment until he relaxes a little.

“What happened?” She asks in a quiet voice.

Chris’s mind swirls around like a tornado as old memories collide, even the ones he's tried so hard to lock deep down inside. “Um, remember when I told you how… how bad, everything got after Nicole…”

He pauses and takes a deep breath. Chris can’t believe how horrible this timing is. Here he is, less than 24 hrs out from the best moment of his life with the woman of his dreams standing in front of him, and his past comes barreling through the serenity, threatening to disrupt everything. MC squeezes his hands and he looks up to meet her eyes. He surprisingly finds them warm and understanding, instantly making him feel better, so he continues after looking back down to their hands.

“I did a lot of stupid stuff, you know that.” He glances at her briefly, seeing her nod softly. “She um, ended up in the middle of some of it.”

Chris internally curses. Pissed that he now feels as if he’s lying to MC about Hannah. He never intended to hide this part of his past from her, but there has never been a good time to bring it up. He also feels embarrassed, about his past behavior and actions as they rise to the surface of his mind. He’s tried so hard to move past it, to make it up to her and everyone else he affected when he hit bottom. And now, here it is, a blaring reminder staring at him from a fitness magazine.

He sighs as MC drops his hands, his guts twisting as if being stabbed by a knife. Instead of walking away from him like he fears, she runs her hands around his sides, then up his back, hooking them under his arms and onto his shoulders before she leans her head on his chest, tucking under his chin.

Chris lets the breath he was holding out slowly, almost afraid to move too much as she would turn into dust and blow away. He gently raises his arms and snakes them across her back, one running across her shoulders, the other tightly around her narrow waist as he tilts his head towards her, resting his lips on her hair.

“I will tell you more about it, just… just not right now, okay?” He mumbles into her hair.

She doesn't say a word but she squeezes him close and nods. He can feel the tension in her back, making him frown as he pinches his eyes shut with frustration. The loud bus horn breaks their uncomfortable silence. Chris’s head whips up and looks outside.

He drops his arms from her and grabs her hand. “Shit, Coach is going to chew my ass. Hurry.”

They run through the door and to the bus hand in hand. Chris lets her climb in first before he skips two steps at once. When he stands on the floor of the bus his eyes meet with Coach Cohen’s. Coach arches an eyebrow, almost as if he was going to say something, until he sees Chris’s expression.

His eyes narrow and he instead pats him on the shoulder, “Hurry and take your seat.”

Chris follows MC as they rush to their row. His eyes meet Ethan’s briefly, a small knowing frown across his friends lips. He glances at Ryan to see him staring out the window, his thoughts far away from his current position. Chris shakes his head and runs his hand through his hair, his hand pausing on his neck momentarily as he steps back to the seat with MC. He doesn't look to her face as he sits down, but he can feel her eyes on him.

Chris reaches over and slides his hand into MC’s, threading her fingers through his and giving her a gentle squeeze. She smiles without making eye contact and leans on his shoulder. The four of them remain quiet for most of the trip back to Hartfeld after that. The other passengers on the bus get a little rowdy as time passes, everyone apparently refreshed from their morning nap.

Once they pull into the big parking lot near the Hartfeld quad, Coach stands, thanking them all for an entertaining trip, and for representing Hartfeld with their best behaviors. He says more personal goodbyes as everyone passes on the way out. Chris and MC are the last to rise from their seats. He reaches for and grasps her hand in his as they stand and make their way to the front. Coach Cohen doesn't speak, but nods at Chris before they shake hands briefly.

When they step off the bus Chris hears a familiar short sharp whistle. He turns to see Ethan and Ryan by the Jeep with Ethan pointing at all of their bags, apparently already grabbing them while they were waiting.

~MC~

They walk over and Ethan smiles warmly at MC. He lifts one arm and pulls her into a side hug, making her laugh lightly as he tucks her close, rubbing her arm with his hand. “It was great to meet you in person, MC. Maybe we can hang out again soon. And I need to meet Max, he reminds me of my old dog.”

She nods, shooting him a small smile as they separate. “That would be great.”

MC turns to Ryan who currently leaning against the winch and bull bar on the front of the Jeep. “Hey, Hawk.”

Ryan’s slightly somber expression disappears immediately as he turns to face MC. “Hey, girl. I had a blast. You’re fucking awesome. Promise we will get to dance again soon.” He winks at her playfully.

She laughs and nods. “You've got it. Soon.” He reaches over to her with some speed, catching her off guard slightly as he pulls her close in a fierce hug.

MC pats him on the arm when he finally lets her go, grabbing her bag from the pile before she turns and walks towards Chris who’s standing a few feet away still. She sees Madison under one of the trees and waves, receiving a thumbs up to let her know she’s going to wait. Her eyes swing back to Chris, finding him looking down, his eyes appear to be darker than usual.

“Hey, handsome.” She says in a low voice, making him look up so they lock eyes.

She watches as a small smile appears, slowly growing into a much larger one. “Hey, beautiful.”

~Chris~

He reaches out and pulls her close as he kisses her on the temple before whispering in her ear. “I’m going to miss you. This trip was a double edged sword in a way.” He laughs and she joins him.

“I can agree with that.” She turns her head and looks into his piercing blue eyes, now looking more like their normal lighter color.

They stare at each other for a full minute. Chris finally reaches up and moves a piece of hair away from her face before he leans in, brushing his lips across hers. She sighs and melts a little in his hands as she deepens the kiss. Knowing he has a long trip home, Chris finally breaks the kiss. They are both back to their normal happy selves as they suck in deep breaths and grin sheepishly at each other.

“Man, I’m really going to miss that…” Chris almost whines, the corner of his mouth curling up slightly.

She scoffs at him playfully and pinches his side. “It’s less than a week. Then we will be back here at Hartfeld. I think you’ll be okay.”

Chris dramatically shakes his head, “I really won’t…”

She laughs at him before pulling him in for another deep kiss. “See you soon, Chris. Drive safe.”

He winks at her. “I’ll call you tonight, like usual.”

After a last desperately tight hug, they separate. Chris watches her head back over to Madison before he turns back to the Jeep.

Ryan gives him a snarky look as he approaches. “Sooo….”

Chris doesn't let him finish before he shoves Ryan’s head lightly as he passes his friend. “Shut it.”

Ryan smirks until Ethan passes him as well. “Shotgun.”

“Dammit.” Ryan grumbles as he turns, heading to the back seat for the ride home.

[tayegi]

Hii u lovely creature. First i just wanted to say i love ur work, this last chapter was...quite shocking since well how Jk was talking and reacting towards the OC. Im really not good with theories really and specially if i gotta write them down in english but i was thinking since u said this would have 3 parts that maybe...just maybe was like one part of each of the characters? Like one were we view in detail the feelings of the OC, then JK and the Jimin? Maybe? Idk sorry. Anyway love ur work :)

Anonymous said:Thank you for being able to find the time to write equilibrium, and thank you for being able to find the time to update it as well- and come on tumblr at all tbh. I know it must not seem like it but most of us really really appreciate it. Please don’t feel rushed to update and take as much time as you need. Thank you again for your work.

Anonymous said:hey! thank you SO much for continuing equilibrium. I’m really enjoying the plot and character development. its very interesting and you do a rly good job at weaving all the layers of meaning together. you’re one of my favorite writers 💗 hope ur having a great day!

Anonymous said:(3) I wonder what is it that jimin saw on jungkook as well, I don’t think that just good looks and the fact that he is good at a lot of things are enough to fall in love or accept being in that kind of relationship ¿ or maybe yes or I’m missing something. Anyways I absolutely adore this fic!! I love your detailed descriptions and how you put important little things and hints and how you think of every single word!! Really thank you for sharing it with us! You have created a huge masterpiece.

Anonymous said:(2)The days when jimin went away must have been the best days of his life, and I wonder now with Jungkook away how the dynamics between jimin and the oc would be, especially her. It would be really wow and not wow at the same time if she turned like kook. I doubt because she knows she doesn’t have a “connection” with jimin, and is more than aware that he wants jungkook. But maybe things will change like they did with him.

minsuguk said:(1) It surprises me how the oc feels about jimin, accepting jungkook’s possesiveness and mad terms in order to keep him in that crazy relationship which is the only way she can have a just little bit of jimin. But again, I’m not surprised because it’s kind of what Jungkook felt ¿ I mean he saw something in her, and she saw something in jimin. And jungkook was aware of her and jimins feelings and he proposed being together in order to be with her as well.

Anonymous said:I want to feel bad for all of them, but I feel bad for none of them. That’s a lie I feel slightly bad for o/c but shes doing it to herself because she wants to keep this tiny connection to Jimin and that’s the start of her problem! All in all this is gonna end badly. I knew that necklace was gonna come back and bit her in the ass.

Anonymous said:(part 2) You know how Jungkook is all fucking crazy in denial about having a connection with her could she be in the same denial except (but not crazy) I mean Jimin had to have noticed the reader was always with him in the beginning now they don’t even touch each other its all so fucked up because you cant feel bad for anyone at this point (I am scared for the reader though because how far will jungkook go if she let jimin touch her)

Anonymous said:Jimin CAN’T be oblivious to this whole situation if he was able to hear his name being called when Jungkook was fingering the mc he had to have heard something else. Could he be ignoring this situation to make sure he is able to stay with jk the same way jk and mc are using each other for the same thing? bc if it was obvious that jimin was in love with jk before anything happened did he have to “get through” 1 on 1 with the mc like she did with jungkook (part 1)

Anonymous said:oh dude the relationship in equilibrium is on the verge of becoming a huge trainwreck but i can’t stop reading it cos i want to see how big of a trainwreck it will become. can’t wait til we get to the point where the relationship just swerves off the track and just goes kablooey! rip.

Anonymous said:oh my gosh I absolutely adored reading the new chapter of equilibrium! I’m so amazed that you find the time out of your busy day to write so much! thank you so so much for the new chapter. i’m really curious to see how this story line will progress, and I do wonder what will happen with jimin and y/n over that weekend… hmm anyways thank you again!! this is my first time writing to you aha I’m so nervous and also !! I love you please take care of yourself

Anonymous said:I HATE YOU SM I’m kidding I love you lu 💕💕 I can already feel the angst approaching aghhssh I’m going to die

Anonymous said:The new update has me a bit fearful of jungkook. He seems to be a little bit to possessive-at least to me anyways. I wonder if jimin has noticed the change in jungkook as well? When he said that the oc was the only one who understood him it reminded me of the conversation they had in ch4 about his family not approving of his major. When i read that scene the first time, i kinda got the sense that that was why jungkook liked the oc.

Anonymous said:Shook again from Equilibrium updates @.@ Thanks as always!!

Anonymous said:omggggggg equilibriummmm the tension just keeps building and building up I AM SO READY FOR THE SHIT TO HIT THE FAN

Anonymous said:It’s really interesting because there are elements that show a legitimate fear the OC has when it comes to Jungkook. I can’t wait to see more (well I can obv and I will NO PRESSURE FJDKSKSKS but you know what I mean~). Also thank you for updating so often like. I have barely any work & a shit ton of free time and I still just can’t write so you’re??? Like how??? Thank u sm. 💕

Anonymous said:First of all - thank you for updating. You could throw a sentence of Equilibrium in my way once a year and I’d still cry of happiness. And second - I love this story so much you don’t even know. Their relationship has taken such a sharp turn suddenly and Jungkook’s motives are clearer and clearer while the MC still seems to be sort of oblivious? Ah I have so many speculations but there’s not enough characters in asks haha. Anyways it was amazing once again, thank you!

yaja-time said:Equilibrium is too my favorite writings of your.. probably one of my favorites out of all the fics I’ve ever read. But I love it so much I would wait 10 years for you to update. Shit I’d even be happy if you updated with only using 10 words. I understand you have a life and I for one am very grateful for your writings, because they are amazing. So thank you for writing.

Anonymous said:Poor Equilibrium OC :( Sadly this scenario hits close to home with her and Jungkook. But good job as always Lu! I appreciate the work you do, have me on the edge of my seat!

bluefullmetaltitan said:Lol. I’ve been waiting for you to say that!! Yayayay! I support you 100% cause like, it shouldn’t matter how long it takes. I’m in love with all of your writings!! Thank you!!

Anonymous said:bruh, equilibrium tho. i loves it like i loves you. but for real, its amazing and incredible reading smaller details from earlier chapters come back into play and seeing how everything slowly links together (how you have the willpower to write so much is incredible)

Anonymous said:I loved equilibrium babe it's so good keep up the amazing writing I loved the last chapter it's a very good storyline 👍🏼👍🏼 and please In the equilibrium let her end Up with jimin and more jimin smut please 😂😂 seriously loved it 💋💋

Anonymous said:When I first started reading equilibrium I thought it was about the three of them learning how to function in a polyamorous relationship. But in the first 4 chapters, you revealed the MC's feelings towards Jimin, & then showcased Jungkook and MC alone. Then, when Jungkook got possessive, & you wrote Jimin's and MC's back story, I was like, "she's not seriously trying to romanticize this relationship, is she?" BUT YOU'RE NOT, YOU'RE SHOWCASING LEGIT PROBLEMS IN A REALISTIC STORY. I AM HERE FOR IT

Anonymous said:Im living for Equilibrium rn🔥🔥🔥🔥, your such a good writer. Loving all your works 💖💖

Anonymous said:why do I feel like jungkook semi poisoned jimin so he couldn't go 😫equilibrium is so good rlly got me questioning everything lol

Anonymous said:Hello tayegi, i just want to say, you're the first writer I read in this bts fandom and im so thankful for that. And im so pumped for equilibrium jajajajajaAaaaa 🙏

Anonymous said:I have to be honest I was all for jungkooks protectiveness in early chapters cause I thought it was hella cute but after reading equilibrium chp 11... Im not too sure anymore. Like he actually made me kinda scared and trapped especially during the end (guess that's how good you're writing is). On a positive note, loving this series and I hope all three characters get backlashes for this messed up relationship lmao

Anonymous said:I don't get how anyone can complain about ch11 being "only 3k" like there was so much that happened in that chapter it didn't even feel like it was "short." I'm even amazed you can write such great quality stories despite being a phd student (do these children know what that is???) AND it's like midterm season rn like the quality doesn't drop despite this. And honestly I feel like these chapters have been getting updated pretty frequently these days I feel really spoiled haha

Anonymous said:EQUILIBRIUM IS SOME OF THE BEST WORK I'VE EVER SEEN ON HERE!!! LIKE I WAS AT SCHOOL TODAY AND I READ EVERY SINGLE CHAPTER AND I WAS SO OVERCOME BY WHAT WAS HAPPENING. AND WHEN I FOUND OUT THAT JUNGKOOK WANTED THE READER TO HIMSELF I GOT SO SHOOK!!!! LIKE I KINDA KNEW SOMEHOW THAT HE WANTED HER ALL TO HIMSELF. HE JUST WASN'T GONNA LET JIMIN HAVE HER ANYMORE HUH? BUT I'M SO EXCITED FOR WHAT HAPPENS NEXT!!! *sorry for yelling i was too excited for this series ily~*

Anonymous said:Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa?! There was an Equilibrium update?! *runs to open tab so that it's the first thing I see after class* Bruh, I can't wait to dive in. Thanks for being a thug about all of those comments. Best part about creating works of art/expressing creativity is that you get to make people think, invite them to have an opinion and start conversations. If anything, Equilibrium provokes its readers to have a clear opinion. That's a success in my book. ;) Fighting always! - Happy Reader

yonggukssmolgf said:I love you. I love your blog. I love your writing. I love the equilibrium series. And I just love how you just take your time to update. Like you do things at you own pace and I like that about you. I followed you because you're an amazing person, you love your followers, and you never disappoint with your fics. Thanks for existing and I hope I made your day a little bit happier!🐼😙😀

Anonymous said:Excuse me young lady... yeah I'm talking to you Lu...Yupp.... you're being mad disrespectful, how dare ruin my nights peaceful sleep but updating equilibrium like that... do you not want me to graduate... it's senior year and I'm head deep into my writing... yeah thanks a lot for ruining my life... JK I LOVE YOU 💕

Anonymous said:I just read chapter 11 of Equilibrium and it made me want to CRY! I love the story so far and it's written amazingly well but it's tOYING WITH MY EMOTIONS! I'm super excited for the updates 💙💙💙💙

seokjinniemin said:oml I just finished chapter 11 of Equilibrium and boy howdy am I SHOOK. Equilibrium is by far one of my favorite fanfic series I've ever read! You're such an amazing writer, they way you convey the stress and anxiety of the oc is just phenomenal. And the small details you put into it like damn! I'm so anxious about this and how it's going to progress, especially with the oc and Jimin being alone. I feel like shit is going to hit the fan real soon o_o

Anonymous said:oh my god that new chapter of Equilibrium actually murdered me LMAO. i absolutely LOVE how every detail counts; like all the little small things that readers wouldn't think matter end up mattering the most. i love this series so much and ily Lu!!

Anonymous said:oh my god that new chapter of Equilibrium actually murdered me LMAO. i absolutely LOVE how every detail counts; like all the little small things that readers wouldn't think matter end up mattering the most. i love this series so much and ily Lu!!

Anonymous said:wtffff please ignore that anon i think you've been updating so quickly!! and i love the story sooo much it's so great no matter how lengthy it is. the content is what matters quality >>> quantity i really love it and know you work hard and appreciate it ❤❤

Anonymous said:Sometimes I think people are just plain dumb. Like, wtf, i am happy that you updated such an amazing story! You do not have the obligation to provide anything for us, you do it because you like it. People should be more grateful and learn to respect. Thank you for de update, you are straight up amazing

aichan11 said:I just read Equilibrium 11, it's so good! I sent you a message before, sorry if it was out of line. Just wanted to tell you how much I enjoy your writing :) of course I have my own wishes/hopes about how the 3 people in Equilibrium would turn out but I don't want to risk influencing your writing. I can't wait for the whole balance to just tip over and see what happens. Is that too evil of me? Hahaha

Anonymous said:The new chapter was intense! I wonder what Jeon is hiding.. I feel bad for both Jimin and OC. Poor jiminie doesn't know what that kid is doing, and OC is stuck cos of jjk. I love your work Lu, stay classy ❤️❤️

Anonymous said:ahhhhh!!! another amazing chapter babe!!! Love the dynamic,screwed up characters