#anyways i’m done rambling now lol

[hellsite-hall-of-fame]

TIS A FANFICTION ABOUT MEEEEE AND @hellsite-hall-of-girlfriend AND AAAAAAAHHH!!!!!

[ravenbronze]

Christmas in the Undercroft

Trying something a bit different! And thought I’d get festive with it since it’s December 🎄

[1driedpersimmon]

Scus the //blood I was having feeling and decided the best solution was to dump Sesame in blood

And also Hauchie sweeping him off his feet because oh no

(And Sesame charm for myself hehe, maybe)

[i-may-be-an-emu]

I forgot to post this on tumblr too so here’s a ditch edit I made the other day :D

mild warning for bright colours/light

Audio credit: “Cassiopeia” by bears in trees

Video credit: @shootimpro (Improvised Play #30 - The Unrelenting Aubergine)

(Btw the empty sfth blog is because someone got the url and is saving it for if sfth ever want to join tumblr)

[peachfruitcake]

did you hear about what Martin said about Susan and Linda on the Twitter space he hosted on the 27th? i thought of you instantly when he started talking about them and have been waiting for you to post your thoughts! :-)

HEHE YES IM THE ONE WHO’S QUESTION LED TO THAT!!!!!

Now for those who didn’t listen to that space, Martin said that Linda called her to say goodbye but never specified how it went of course. Besides “hey Susan I’m leaving sorry this is really impacting my mental health” “gaaaaaaaaaaey”/j

This is all a personal headcanon but I like to think that their friendship grew incredibly distant ever since Linda married Felix, Susan probably stopped talking to her altogether for a while and it would leave Linda very confused and upset. They might’ve started talking to eachother again a little bit as the series of events began to approach but only very brief small talk, maybe Linda complaining a little and giving Susan a few life updates and them both talking about stuff they’ve been noticing with others lately (especially Felix’s drinking), but nothing deeper than that.

I see Susan being extremely emotionally closed off to most people except maybe a select few that she knows very closely, so if you were to ask her what’s going on in her life she’d give you a very vaguely watered down version and not what’s actually going on or how she’s really managing herself emotionally.

So basically she used to be more open with Linda, but during that period she sort of just started treating her like a stranger.

So when Linda called her first to tell her that she’s finally leaving, Susan acted how she usually would, keeping it calm, understanding and respectful and wishing her luck, but she won’t really show any more than that. Or that she cried later and felt pretty bad that they couldn’t be so close anymore and that she’ll probably never be able to make up for herself acting so distant for the past many years again.

Of course this all comes from how I view Susan as a character myself though and also the fact that I refuse to pass up the idea that she has feelings for Linda. I like to think that she introduced her to Felix cuz Linda was getting more desperate to find a relationship and Susan was getting weird thoughts so in a panic she shoved her off to him so she could avoid the urges. They’ve been boiling within her since highschool and she always was able to push them aside or excuse them as “she’s just my very close friend I don’t have many close friends so she feels extra special” and as the years went by they began distracting her a lot from her work and were growing stronger and more unavoidable aaand they were really beginning to affect how she’d interact with Linda and you see Susan hates feeling like another has any control over her and Linda just wouldn’t shut up about hooooow badly she wants a relationship and hoooow many dates keep failing and Susan was at the point to where she was starting to get the kind of dreams that make you stare up at the ceiling in horror when you open your eyes in the morning so one day when she overheard Felix speaking about being single and wanting to start looking around, she decided to introduce her to him. Susan allegedly never finds a problem she can’t fix in some way so that was her solution.

They hit it off, Susan’s solution isn’t working for some reason cuz she doesn’t feel any relief at all and in fact feels worse but just sucks it up and just focuses on her work and looks the other way. Linda and Felix get married, Susan feels like throwing up the entire day and now feels somehow even more worse by now and suddenly whenever Linda wants to chat she’s suddenly always “busy” every time. Susan’s often busy anyways but you know yourself when there’s a difference between “shit I’m busy that day, let’s do Sunday instead” and “Sorry I can’t, I’m busy”, “I don’t know when I’ll be available.”

While Linda and Felix were dating, Susan probably assumed that she was just jealous that she couldn’t have a little fun at her age herself. When they got married, Susan told herself that she’s probably so depressed over it cuz it’s making her feel like she’s fallen behind others her age and that maybe she feels bitter that all of these people are moving on and going through these important life stages while she remains behind. Which made no sense otherwise cuz Susan couldn’t give any less of a fuck about starting any sort of family or going out. But that’s what Susan would tell herself that she feels so she wouldn’t have to think about it any further. By the time Susan thinks she’s over whatever it was, she begins having brief talks with Linda occasionally. Not often and still a bit distant, but way better than before.

So yeah can you imagine how shitty and guilty Susan felt that whole time of her weird bitterness toward Linda being in a relationship and not being able to approach her much anymore or how Felix turned out to be such a shitty husband.

If this headcanon is aligned with twf’s canon, she’d probably be dead before she even gets to actually acknowledge and accept her feelings as they are. Such is life though. Not like she could’ve done anything about it.

[itsalmostavengers]

I checked my ao3 stats for the first time in like two years the other day and it fucking blew me away. 2.6 million people have read my stuff over the years. And I’m not saying this to brag I’m saying this because at my most quote-unquote-famous or whatever I was like 17. And so unwell. my confidence was completely non-existent and I truly deeply believed I had nothing worthwhile to provide the world whatsoever. And then I’d post a fic and it would always be this one shining beacon of happiness where for a few days I’d read you guys’ comments and I’d feel like I was worth something. And seeing that figure now - once again at a very very difficult time in my life - is just insane. 2.6 million. That’s an insane number. What. It’s a crazy thing to see with such startling clarity the depths of my mental illness and like. Self-worth issues I guess because to this day when I proof my own works I simply cannot fathom why anyone would be compelled by it. And then that figure is just there giving me some side-eye and I’m like. Huh. So it really IS all in your head then lol.

[mint-termsandconditions]

Random subject,

but I need someone to make a video essay about the bastardization of female characters and the woobification of male characters in media/fandom spaces

because I think it’s a really interesting subject that probably stems from biases that plague our society

from

“He’s such a silly little guy.”

to

Literally calling fictional female characters worse than Hitler or something

Like, I feel like people talk about specific characters but not the topic as a broader subject

I feel like there’s so much to talk about

but I don’t have the elegance, critical thinking skills, the experience, or consume enough media to talk about this

So anyone who’s reading this please, please make a video essay about it

Or make one arguing against it idk

I just need a good video essay to watch while doing homework

[bill-ciphers-nightmare-blog]

If you get out of the Theraprism, will you let Calypso go?

SOUNDS LIKE AN OFFER

[the-first-spinjitzu-master]

3am doodles of some goofy little train faces :)

[dagaan]

Mhm i see you squisheth but do you make her kiss women? 🤨

no need, she does it all by herself

although for a real answer, I suppose I have made her kiss that octopus in a few fics (HHW (and extra), SkH, this I think, others to come… eventually…)

[yourinaudiblename]

I’ve become afraid of death. which is actually improvement for someone who was suicidal but also. scary :(

this is all your faults /pos /pos /pos-

[lavender-temult]

CANON LILIANA ART gosh her design is like. all of the things I enjoy drawing. like seriously all of them. her hair her vest her pants her ripped flowy coat the fabric around her waist and have i mentioned the vest? because i love the vest

[ruinhood]

Thank u, as someone with NPD seeing people equate it (and other cluster Bs) to yanderes is not only insulting because of misinfo and stigma, but also it’s like

You’re having way more fun with this than I am, NPD is not particularly fun to have

right, “it’s fiction! and to compare yanderes to actual people with npd/bpd/aspd is quite ableist since they don’t actually act like that irl” is such a funny statement (I saw actual people saying this) as if plenty don’t already plaster these personality disorder symptoms, amplify it on a character and also make this character some stalker/killer lol. It’s a common theme I’ve seen. Then they wonder why people with bpd and such relate to yanderes, wonder why some feel offended or uncomfortable because it’s glamorization and they already feel demonized enough by the general society who believes they’re evil and manipulative and wish nothing but violence. It’s pretty telling!

[trevisos]

filing these under “lines that make xarrai feel extremely normal” as well.

[smoreal]

When are they gonna completely transform shadow to be ‘friendly’ and/or out of character in any new medium lmaooo

we’ve gotten kind of an asshole sonic and preachy sonic in the past, and silver’s character has changed from serious and reflective to almost skittish and nervous

Shadow’s turn when??

[peapod20001]

I am the nail growth self saboteur!!