#anyways i had more thoughts but ive ranted enough

[ohmytiredheart]

Honestly I feel for Sam but serves him right.

Even if we ignore the potential intermingling of the web or any other other spooky strings that are likely being pulled, there's a lot to unpack here.

I wouldn't say Sam "deserved" it, but Alice tried warning him for months. This is what he gets for sticking his nose in places it didn't belong.

Did I say the same thing about Jon in TMA? Yes and no. Obviously there isn't a story without someone doing something dumb, but I think Jon's situation and Sam's situation are a little different. Jon was an idiot, yes, but he (and everyone else around him) were forced to go in completely blind. He had no idea what he was doing and didn't have any warnings or help at all except from his creepy boss with ulterior motives.

Sam also went in blind, but he was warned several times by several people including the eldritch computer to stop and turn around. He could have avoided this if he just returned Alice's calls or looked at her messages.

But nooooo he had to poke around with his little crushy crush and get himself thrown into a portal to what we can only assume is the TMA universe. Serves him right.

[thedrotter]

not-yet-dead-person

silly comic of a conversation in-game i thought was too funny not to make something proper for instead of a doodle ww

(timelapse + wip images (thus silly process commentary in read more if you like artist commentary :3)

i think the sketch looks silly and goofy and funny so i find it important to share with you the mere presence of the faces i drew on it. i drew it on top of the boxes without staying inside its borders because i find my proportions can get wonky if i draw them cropped in a restricted space. and I feel trapped otherwise and i will draw BAD!!! give me spaceeeee to go wild!!!!

the head circles are there for emotional support

very low res speedpaint because truth is the canvas was much bigger than the space where my comic was placed. i didnt account when exporting my timelapse in 720px that that tiny space would look so pixelated ... but it's able to be percieved, so its okay.

(i will now comment on my process and it is not brief sorry)

usually i would try to clean up my sketches and figure out what goes on top before jumping into linework, but since there are multiple panels and drawings i chose to jump into inking right away for the sake of brevity. i just went in with a brush that uses pen pressure and drew what was needed. i added extra line thickness and contrast in areas around the face because it helps direct your eyes there more easily that way.

according to her equipment rei has a chain belt but i only remembered it existed once I was going to color, and i did not like that discovery... I chose to ignore it to maintain my peace. i already have the color palettes for these characters figured out, and i didnt really want to think about a new element at the moment www I tend to overthink those things a lot so i skipped it

the rest is rather straightforward! not that anything else wasn't, but in here i could turn my brain off and sing. linework and sketching require mumbling so i cannot turn my brain off. just block in the characters with a solid color so i can have a mask (something along those lines,) where the color can stay inside. then just color in !!!

Base colors just had slight cell shading on the skin, and for the hair i airbrush a bit of the skincolor in low opacity near the forehead... I'm not sure what it means, but i can look at the faces easier with it somehow. i like the gentle subtlety it adds even if you cant really tell. it makes things look nice.

background was just me blocking in the color of the wall and floor, shade the wall a bit, then slap a noise and free use wood texture on top. work smarter not harder ! yet it took a bit to make it look stylistically fitting with the characters, and even now i think bottom middle panel looks odd. whatever!!!

for the middle panel i thought itd be funny if the background was a solid silly and colorful one to contrast the next panel's sketchy black one. a contrast to how the word widow is seen. on that note my handwritting is not pointy. i gaslighted my hand into thinking that it was indeed pointy in that moment so i could write "not-yet dead person" in letters that didn't seem cute. my hand did not fall for it but it complied anyway

that's basically it! I'm not sure what else i could say that doesn't feel barebones because it really is that straightforward. if you're curious I used clip studio paint for this. only special brush used was for linework (a brush named Lemon Brush), the rest used were just the default. my computer gets the least credit. it was trying to convince me a 20mb file was going to nuke it all the time and hardly let me save multiple times so i do not appreciate it

[f1owermoon]

sorry i just. need to rant for a second

[mandorinart]

sonic IDW 61 spoilers in the tags

[tealfruit]

this is true but can I also just add that like. how about we go a step further and don't worry if transmasculinity is a choice or not. the whole "gender isn't a choice so we shouldn't punish people for who they are" is a great sentiment to start off with, but what about the people who did choose their gender? do we punish them for making the "wrong" choice, or for having the "wrong" reason? or do we remember that bodily autonomy is a thing and that we have no say over other peoples' identities. and, also, that being a man is completely morally neutral. i s2g people need to get over their whole man-hating and/or bioessentialist mindsets and just let men be dudes in peace. whether they chose to be or not.

Transmasculinity is treated as a choice by everyone outside our specific community and I am sick of it. If transmasculinity was a choice I would choose it again, but it isn’t and it’s been used to try to say something shitty about us over and over. Cishet transphobes say we chose it because we’re mentally ill and taking it out on our bodies. Cis lesbian transphobes say we’re gender traitors responding to misogyny and lesbophobia by giving up womanhood and trying to become straight. Cis gay transphobes say we’re trying to trick gay men into sleeping with women. Trans transandrophobes say we just wanted to move up a rung in the patriarchy and use our male privilege to step on transfems. Consider that I’m literally just some guy trying to live my life without any ulterior motives or whatever.

[claiestve]

𝐠𝐡𝐨𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐧 ꨄ Kayson

˜”* ❝𝙀𝙫𝙚𝙧𝙮 𝙩𝙚𝙖𝙧'𝙨 𝙖 𝙧𝙖𝙞𝙣 𝙥𝙖𝙧𝙖𝙙𝙚 𝙛𝙧𝙤𝙢 𝙝𝙚𝙡𝙡.❞

⎯⎯ ୨ ୧ ⎯⎯

ꜱʏɴᴏᴘꜱɪꜱ: ᴋᴀʏꜱᴏɴ ʙᴇɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴇʀᴇ ꜰᴏʀ ʏᴏᴜ ɴᴏ ᴍᴀᴛᴛᴇʀ ᴡʜᴀᴛ.

⎯୨⎯ " " ⎯୧⎯

You didn’t understand where it came from but were going through it. Your chest would be heavy, your body would be weak, and your eyes would be all teary. It was most likely from the way you had ignored your mental health as you thought you had more important things to focus on. Despite your talent of hiding it all, someone saw right through it. 

Kayson would notice that you were less smiley and more gloomy. You were less talkative, spaced out more, and hid your face more. As much as you assured him everything was fine, he knew how you were. The way you’d pretend everything he saw was a part of his imagination knowing damn well he caught on. 

Mental health wasn’t that important anyway, right? Sure, you were slowly losing yourself, becoming less responsive, and getting more tired but did it matter? You were raised in an environment where there were always bigger things to focus on. It didn’t matter how bad you felt, there was always something worth more attention. That’s how you knew it. Til you met Kayson. 

He’d ask you randomly throughout the day how you were feeling and if you needed a break. In the beginning, you saw it as a distraction just as your parents did. However, you saw how healthy you were when Kayson came along. 

Even so, you didn’t want to worry him. Not worth the time. 

“Babe!” Kayson calls out, waving his arms in front of your face. He looks at you, concerned to which you can only smile briefly. He smiles back but his smile quickly drops as he sees you going back to your blank expression. “Are you okay?”

You try to answer with a nod but you realize it wouldn’t be enough. 

“You’ve been acting strange recently and I feel like you’ve just been… gone.” He looks at you, eyes worried. He reaches his arm out, gesturing for you to lean into him, which you did. “I’m all ears. If you wanna cry, if you wanna rant, or even if you don’t wanna say anything. I’m here, okay?” 

You look up at him with teary eyes. As soon as they make contact with him, you break. Before you know it, your face is damp and red, and you’re sniffing after every breath. 

“Kayson–” 

Your face scrunches up again and you fully fall into him. You finally let go. This was the first time. There were moments you were vulnerable around him, yes. However, this was a completely unfiltered you. 

“I’m so sorry, I didn’t mean to–”

“Don’t. Don’t finish that. You have nothing to be sorry for, okay? You can always come to me, that’s what I’m here for.” Kayson said, smiling. It always amazed you how he was able to be so smiley at a time like this. He would continue to give his all into comforting you while still being the purest soul you knew. 

-ˋˏ✄┈┈┈┈

ive been so so so terrible with my mental health recently (aha ironic!) and it has definitely affected my creativity but i hope this makes up for my absence

[tears-grow-gardens]

TW- ed rant

This is my first ever tumblr post. Normally I'm just a wall flower, sitting quietly in the tumblr corner reading other peoples posts and thoughts hoping to feel less alone in my own mind. I'm not even sure what I want to say but for the past 4 years I have struggled with my eating, some days are really bad and other days it's just like an itch, like I know all the rules, fear and guilt that has stained me but I feel stronger not to let it win. 2-3 years ago I was at my worst, I was in my 3rd year of University, I had lost all hope and drive in my life and I let everything crumble through my fingers, I was failing classes, isolating from everyone, loosing sight of my dreams and what mattered to me. I don't know who was holding the wheel to my life but I felt I had lost control with all of it. I didn't know how to change or help myself, I was so tired of always feeling like a failure to myself and everyone around me. I had been dealing with depression and anxiety for so long and serious case of undiagnosed ADHD and all these feeling felt so permanent, like they would never go away, so I turned to something I felt I could control, which was food. There was nothing I hated more in the world than myself, my body, my face, the way that I believed people saw me. I hated every inch of who I was. I thought that if i could control what went in i would get the results I've always wanted and maybe even get to like the way I look. And the results came, it felt so good to be able to get something right, like for the first time in my life I didn't feel like a complete failure. The feeling of hunger gave me power, how I didn't have to say words to people that I was hurting inside because they could see it from the outside. Wake up, look in the mirror, walk, workout, coffee, walk, coffee, porridge, starve, walk, mirror, bed. This was my life but fortunately or unfortunately I was sniffed out like a rat from one of my house mates who confronted me, it felt like I was standing there naked and exposed with all my secrets written on my skin. After that I felt I had to change, I felt watched and analysed with every move I made. My weight goals put into a box, I tried to make amends with my body and mind but from the years to follow the voices never left my head. Sometimes the voices are merely a whisper and other days the voices are so loud it feels like everyone else can hear them too. Now here I am on tumblr 4 years later writing to say I have relapsed, not that I think I ever recovered but more I was idle with temptation to destroy myself and now I'm back, born again to hack my body to pieces. Ive found myself almost everyday purging in the bathroom, even if its been a normal, healthy meal. I just want to crawl out of my skin and shrink into nothing. I don't want to die and I don't want to live like this but i feel years of rage within me of unnoticed pain that I want to scream to the world and let them know. I have dreams and I want them to exist one day as true but I don't know how I'll ever rid myself of these dark paralysing thoughts. I'm so tired of feeling unloved and lonely, in my 22 years of life I have never known what it is or what it feels like when someone choses to love you. Im so convinced by my own hatred for myself that I believe everyone else sees me the way I do. The toxic thing is, is that I want this for myself, I want the hunger in sanctuary of starving, I want to feel small and fragile and i want people to worry, i want them to say "she's lost weight", while they ponder on how hurt I must be to have lost myself this far.

Anyway enough for one day. idk if anyone reads these long word vomit tumblr posts but thank you if you've read this far and welcome to my fkd up mind.

[teecupangel]

Im curious about what is cannon and fannon in the AC fandom. Ive read many different origins for the scar Desmond has, but most people go with Bill being the one to give it to him. Is this because its cannon from a little known source(similiar to the fact that Altaïr can swim, as seen in the 3ds games, but most people make him unable to swim despite the fact) or is it widely accepted fannon? What about Masyaf castle? Ive read some fics about it being an Abstergo facility with the Templars having opened the Library, while others write it is just been left to time. And ofc cant forget Eagle Vision. Is it a unique ability to Altaïr only? Did his father have it too? Did every novice have to master it before becoming an assassin?

There could be others, but these are the facts that im mostly curious about. Thank you for answering. ^^

So I’m gonna break this into sections so I don’t have to think about scene transition or whatever rambling equivalent that has.

Altaïr Can Swim

We all accept that he can’t swim because that’s funny. However, if we take into consideration how Altaïr can swim as seen in his ‘sequel’, this is pretty much the complete opposite of “Altaïr has never been hit” status that he has in the fandom. They both causes desyncing so if we believe in “Altaïr has never been hit” then it’s not that Altaïr can’t swim, it’s that “Altaïr never slipped or fell into the waters” which actually points more to Altaïr being a badass. But we decided that Altaïr not being able to swim is a much funnier idea and went to town with it XD

Bill Being The Reason Desmond Has His Scar

Okay, so ngl, I also liked to write that Bill is the reason Desmond has a scar, either directly or indirectly (I mostly go for indirectly with another kid being the reason why he has a scar but Bill was there ‘supervising’), mostly because I like the plot point that getting the scar is the thing that finally snaps Desmond and got him to leave the Farm ‘randomly’.

Anyway, the canon/fanon blur a lot in this one as there are enough people that believe Bill made the scar as seen by this post.

My thoughts on that is pretty much summarized in the tags I left in that one:

#wait it's official? #or did we as a fandom just collectively saw how bill treated desmond and went #ah yes he's why desmond has that scar #seriously i hc it and it makes sense narratively for bill to be the reason why desmond has a scar #whether from training or by accident #but i don't remember it being even implied in any games #especially in ac rev where it could have easily been added in

To add to that, I’m talking about AC Revelations specifically because of Desmond’s rant in an early scene where he finally shouts at Bill for being a bad father. That was the perfect time to just drop that bombshell of Bill being the reason why Desmond has his scar but we didn’t get that. That’s the main reason why I don’t think it’s canon that Bill is the reason why Desmond got his scar but there’s 3 more scenes in AC Revelations where he could have talked about it, all of them from Desmond’s memories scenes.

I also talked about how I couldn’t find any evidence of Bill being the reason that Desmond got his scar in this post.

But the summary is I tried looking for any information about it in the books, pamphlet, manuals and references I had (I say ‘had’ because I had to leave them back in my old home after I moved due to space constraints TTATT), only focusing on any mentions of Desmond and Bill

Assassin's Creed Limited Edition Art Book (p40-41)

Assassin's Creed The Complete Visual History (p290 -292) - p291 has the line "... Desmond's father, William, adds an element of family drama..." calling it family drama sounds like an understatement considering how Bill and Desmond act around each other

Assassin's Creed The Essential Guide (p14, 66, 161, 218-219, 236, 238, 240) - this book is so weird. P218 says that Bill and Gavin shared the mentor role after the Great Purge, p237 says that only Bill took the mentor role (but didn't call himself the mentor) after the Great Purge

Assassin's Creed Atlas (p159, 165)

Assassin's Creed Encyclopedia (White Version) (p18, 158-183)

Assassin's Creed Encyclopedia (White Version - JP ver) (p18, 158-183)

Assassin's Creed Encyclopedia (Black Version - JP ver) (p17, 113-127) - The Black Version is an older version, only going as far as AC Revelations + The Fall comics, The White Version has up to 3 + Liberation

No mentions at all about Desmond's relationship with Bill in the following:

That short game manual that's inside the game disc for AC1-AC3 (JP ver)

Assassin's Creed Reference Guide (JP)

Assassin's Creed Perfect Guide (JP)

Assassin's Creed 2 Reference Guide (JP)

Assassin's Creed Archive Book (JP)

In conclusion:

The most I got can be summarized from Assassin's Creed Encyclopedia, p182

"... driven, intelligent but emotionally distant father of Desmond Miles..." " ... technically minded man, fully devoted to the Assassins and their cause, whose passion for politics outweighs his responsibility to his family. While William's wife has always been able to deal with this emotional distance, young Desmond could not. Eventually he grew to feel that his father was more of a drill sergeant than a parent and fled the compound, despite his parents' repeated warnings to never leave."

If Bill did directly or indirectly cause Desmond's scar, I could not find it in the official books I have or even on Desmond's or Bill's AC Wiki page.

Unless someone can point out where it officially states that Bill caused Desmond's scar, I believe the whole "Bill is the reason for Desmond's scar" is AC fandom's own Mandela Effect. Most probably something that started as a headcanon (and for a very good reason) and is commonly used by fanfic writers (including me) which has evolved as a Word of Dante that we, as a collective, have mistaken as a Word of God.

Masyaf’s Current Situation

There’s no official note of the current situation of Masyaf in the modern days and I think Ubisoft would probably not do anything about it narrative-wise… I’d honestly be surprised if they did anything about it if they make an AC1 Remake. Now, it’s a bit nebulous if the Templars did manage to get the library but it should be noted that the last time we see Altaïr’s Apple, Ezio let it stay in the library and the ACR novel gave us:

“The bookshop was used as an outpost for the Assassins, and Ezio stored the Masyaf Keys in the chamber where he had found the first key, underneath the bookshop.”

If the Templars got into the bookshop then they’ll find all the keys and would have everything they needed to get into the library.

However…

The Apple would find itself in the hands of Queen Elizabeth I and Mahatma Gandhi before falling into Templar hands.

As far as I can see, Queen Elizabeth I isn’t a Templar so it’s highly possible that the British Empire did their usual ‘finders keepers’ thing and this wasn’t a nefarious Templar plan. So either Ezio got the Apple out of Masyaf and hid it somewhere else that would later be found by someone (maybe John Dee?) or Ezio… just left it in Masyaf?

I wanna give Ezio the benefit of the doubts and believe that he knew leaving it in Masyaf would be such a bad idea so the Apple was most probably transferred somewhere else.

Which means that Masyaf was completely abandoned by the end of Ezio’s era which Ezio would have believed be something that Altaïr wanted to happen.

I realized now I’m rambling further and further away from the actual topic for this section.

In conclusion: we have no idea if Masyaf is abandoned or occupied by the Templars in modern day. I will also add if it’s occupied by Templars, it might be a secret ‘base’ or it’s affiliated with a non-Abstergo Entertainment section of Abstergo because, as far as I can see, Abstergo Entertainment’s headquarters are based on existing Ubisoft headquarters (ex: Black Flag’s Abstergo Entertainment is in Montreal = Ubisoft Montreal)

Personally, I think that Abstergo would take over Masyaf castle either officially or unofficially as a way to show the Brotherhood how they hold one of the most important locations in their history. That’s the kind of power play the current Inner Sanctum would do.

(It would be funny in a ‘that’s fucked up’ kind of way if Masyaf is an Abstergo secret facility that does experimental work with captured Assassins as guinea pigs which they have done in the Philadelphia facility (Fall comics) and Madrid (AC Movie))

Eagle Vision

It was actually never explicitly stated who had Eagle Vision and who hadn’t but it’s noted that humans, in general, have the capability to unlock Eagle Vision although there are humans who has an easier time unlocking it.

AC1 noted that the Levantine Assassins knew about Altaïr’s Eagle Vision but there’s no evidence to suggest that they have it as well. Most of the time, they just tell Altaïr to use his vision without saying if they have it as well or not.

(it’s just personal preference to write that 12th century Assassins, both in Masyaf and Alamut, would have some form of Eagle Vision to show how much the Brotherhood had ‘fallen’ in the modern day. Canon actually points that only a small number of people can access Eagle Vision)

[mellarkably]

ur so right abt the way that scene between ben and devi was shot because every single moment when we see devi making out with someone (or about to have s*x) is so driven by her “horny side” only, for paxton and des she just wanted to have s*x and get over with it and with ethan she just was on her horny and active rush which is good but the ben/devi scene, yes it was framed with a sense of urgency between them but also so much care and love. the lighting, the touches, the hands, smiling at each other and just everything about it was beautiful.

and call me crazy but i am happy the show didn’t do the typical “devi only has s*x with ben” narrative because i was about sure they wouldn’t have her have s*x with ethan and they did and was surprised because most shows don’t do that. ben and devi lost their virginity together and that’s already special but they didn’t have devi pondering around waiting for ben. she got to experience a little bit of fun and discover her preferences and be comfortable with it (and maybe ben did so too with margot) and then they get to make love to each other and know what it means and the differences in that and now they can start a relationship when there’s some level of experience and they can just explore what they both want.

some shows tend to do the opposite for “romanticism” so i am glad they did not.

OH ANON HOW I LOVE YOU FOR THIS BECAUSE CAN. WE. TALK ABOUT IT!

i already predicted a while ago that the show would have ben and devi make love again but this time it would be much more natural and easy for them:

i agree with you. i think it was important to show benvi's first time as being awkward, and having it pale in comparison to her next time with ethan, who is far more experienced. it allowed devi to have fun (and im assuming its almost certain ben also had sex with margot) while embodying the whole, fun time NOT a long time thing. im sure they both learned a lot about their preferences like you said during those respective relationships.

but going back to what i loved most about 410's sex redo - how it was the ONLY sex scene in the show that wasn't shot like a high school steamy fling type of deal.

of course, there's that big damn kiss that's been building up for four years with more steam needed to be released than pati's rice cooker, BUT, the lighting. the song, the actors' natural chemistry. the tone itself already feels so much more serious than any other romantic scene in the show.

i honestly thought it would end here, so imagine my surprise when they continued - and i think this second part is what sets it apart from all the other intimate scenes in the show.

henna shot. i fucking died. ive talked enough about this on twitter and im sure other people are talking about this but it is just so symbolic for devi as an individual, her relationship with her culture and how she doesn't have to separate that from her romantic endeavours because she is desirable as she is! s1 devi would faint! she absolutely would!

and now this shot, which is what the tags you're referring to were about, has me still going cuckoo bananas like. pulling away to smile at each other. they're literally in fucking love. this is love. this is not the show trying to gain an audience using steamy scenes, or devi being horny - not that there is anything wrong with that either - but she is so visibly content and comfortable and happy and you can see it in her smile. both of their smiles in fact.

that small moment is what makes this scene for me.

anyway sorry for the huge rant. if you couldn't tell already i really love this scene! it was very well done.

[mellohiizz]

Heh.... guess whos back to yap even more.... (its glitchduo anon) if this is too long and you dont want to reply thats totally cool however i saw you were interested in ashs character and i just HAD to assist...

(Everything neg here is about the characters not ccs btw, most of it is /aff anyways :3)

Ok so im assuming you know the general gist of s4 which is kind of all i know about it aside from like one or two vods ive fully watched. You also probably know about swagdoons which are the enemies to lovers (sometimes) of lifesteal and they try to kill each other but kiss afterwards..... they are the yaoi ever but ill try to be less insane about them to keep this rant focused

most of my REAL info about ash is from mid s5 and s6 which is when i started watching streams more than the videos, however i know he tries to portray himself as the big scary villain in s4 but honest to god he was apologizing PROFUSELY for the smallest things that guy is NAWT a truly heartless villain although he is pretty selfish and greedy but. Well:

before getting into his character i thought he like fully hated everyone, would never try to help someone else, was a general asshole etc etc but the more i paid attention to him the more i realized that yeah i guess he is those things but there is at least one person he gives a shit about (squiddo) and by god does he care a LOT about her

he also is pretty pathetic actually.... when his peace thing in s5 didnt work out he immediately went back to trying to be evil and selfish in s6... hmm its almost like he reverts back to hating everyone before they think hes a loser hmmm... its also really funny because this guy can BARELY pvp so he's very all or nothing on his dramatic gestures (eg he cant take over the server with pvp so he does it with the wormhole which imo is 500% more impressive, although i dont know very much about pvp)

despite him being pathetic he is def a force to be reckoned with, hes very idle until provoked and the provokation is usually out of spite and malice but that guy will stop at Nothing to get what he wants once he has a good enough motive (and doesnt have collage work)

he also gives me false god vibes but like... hes sort of AWARE hes a false god but does not want to admit it At All. i think its really interesting that the season after he became god he was made a host for a god (he actually confirms hes possesed by the commisioner/overseer/lifesteallord when he talks as them btw absolutely wild) and i think it would be cool if that was intentionally to like. Humble him. Show him a real god, not just an immortal guy with flying powers

(This is a little more of a headcanon but i think its feasable) i think that since his s5 loss, being his first major loss in any season ever, hes lost a sense of self in lifesteal, sitting in his house thats too big with empty walls and emptier reasoning. not to mention hes teamless and his only ally/friend is squiddo and thats not even official 😭😭

so yeah my guy is Going Through It... someone get this man hot chocolate and a warm blanket or maybe a picnic with his Best and Only Friend 🙁🙁

(Oh yea if you want a general idea of s5 onwards and dont have time for streams or really long cinematic videos i would recommend squiddos videos on it, theyre rarely over 15-20 minutes and there are only seven right now so you can get through them in a few days if you're REALLY crunched for time ^_^)

hello again glitchduo anon!! giggles i kind of know some general lore?? but mostly out of things i see on here about it, or like clips/vods i'm able to watch when i have time? so yeah... ash's character is very interesting to me, and honestly, what you said about him aligned pretty well with what i did see of him, but like... not in lifesteal, but the character he played in spoke's unstable videos. bro was literally begging for attention and alliance, and then turned around and BOOM twist villain jumpscare he's actually evil... he was acting off the whole time (ignoring mapicc, probably because he knew mapicc was harder to manipulate, and being very obnoxious about getting close to spoke in particular), so that checked out (sorry, i can yap about unstable for so long, im so insane about it) but yeah, i really really enjoy watching him do his thing, and i want to study him in a lab like a weird microorganism or something definitely was getting the false god vibes too btw from i did see of him in lifesteal (which was mostly just other people's vods) actually the whole being host of a god sounds so interesting?? that's definitely the first time i heard about something like this and i love everything having to do with possessions and stuff like that definitely one of the top characters i actually want to know more about (second close is minutetech i'd say) and don't worry, i really like reading what you send in, it actually helps a lot and it's very interesting!! the moment i opened my inbox and saw a lot of text i was like "oh yeah i know who this is from" (/hj/aff btw) thank you for taking the time to give me more knowledge i guess :33 !!

[gailsfrog]

A very ridiculously long rant of my SMG4 and Mr. Puzzles Theory's (it's long;-;)

Has anyone ever thought its weird how Smg4 is PERFECTLY NORMAL the Saturday after IGBP!?! like Bro just got done being mentally insane like literally a few days ago and he's just like mentally FINE after all that!?? Nuh Uh- Aint no way- Smg4's probably still coo coo crazy a bit or a lot cuz yalls not gonna be chill after all that far as i know thats not how human minds work. >:/

In SMG4 doesn't meme for one second he's hardcore creepy vibes, ofc more memey ofc which is funny- (Bald Smg4💀) but still sinister none the less :0

then ofc him saying "time to come up with the PERFECT video" in SMG4 simulator then ofc im like NOO :C DOnt gO eVil again and idk do some crazy crap with mr. puzzles and make ur perfect video- amd go all evil- evan tho its cool and eerie-NO :C

Then smg4s really creepy/scarry coocoo cazy vibes in the MEME Factory. Cannon smg4 did actually have an effect on our poor meme boi like bro lost some of his sanity has Mr. Puzzles trauma and now is more antagonistic- which Mr. Puzzles said he makes a good villian Whitch he does in a creepy funny memey way witch is great! and sort of a plot twist cuz smg4 is all cute and bubbly and sweet then he goes all >:000 >:) Creepy and sinister is awsome! it would be cool to see Smg4 as a main antagonest for an arc although we got IGBP so its GREATTT!! AAAAAAAA-

I also sorta feel like Mr. Puzzles is like Smg4 but like: What if smg4 never had any freinds? so he like sorta obsesses and rellys on The TV and makeing entertainment so they dont feel alone or have some sort of purpose. Smg4 and Puzzles are really similar in a way just took a small but major path. Smg4: had freinds his whole life, like a main roll purpose (hes a frickin meme guardian!!!!!! >:D) home and ofc his youtube and whatever chaos happens in this world. Mr Puzzles: never had freinds, probably had crap parents and school bullys, (ISTG HE PRoBably made/re-created little shows with like socks pupets as a kid- AAAA_) anyway- Puzzles sorta just watched TV to comfert him and sorta be his 'freind' in a way which probably ended up inpireing him to proove himself as an actress and become fameous weather to proove the world hes good enough or loved or himself. (Poor Mr.Puzzke wuzzle :'c) So anyway Smg4 and puzzles are like opisites of what they have but similar.

(Mr. Puzzles Headcannon Back story time B) since i wanna type today ;-; ) So ive sotta headcannon mr puzzles childhood suck like- bro had no freinds crappy/neglectfull parents and overall a shit life back then like i sort of immagine his mom being like "shoo im buisy go watch TV or smthn" while on the phone or something idk sad sappy stuff- so little Winston Puzzles (if you have MR theres a first name so puzzles is last name, ITS WINSTON PUZZLES-) aNyWAYy- so puzzles just watched TV ALL. DAY. and probably went to school got bullyed for whatever reason :/ so the beginning basics of the story +Context dElUxE- when mr puzzles got older he bought the showgrounds (whitch in cannon used to be a circus/carnaval) so mr puzzles ran a carnaval place and did some sort of shows + amusement park stuff prbably for like a few years or a couple decades untul money came a problem or went out of buisness, (he still has his face btw lol) so he eventually closed the place and sorta abandoned it and probably the *iNteRnEt* was probably becomeing a thing by now (TV MAN OLDDD-) so he probably doom binges EVERYTHING on youtube in some apartment and works at MC deez or something- idk mOnEyY :/ eventualy yalls probably up at 5am waching Si-fi and stuff with robots get the idea of being a cyborg ither googleing 'hOw tO bE a cYborG EASY" on youtube like a maryos Plane Trip thing AKA Smg4 logic LMAO and probably winging it and then getting his SUppeR fAbulus and Iconic TV head and nows hes probably immortal now :/ (he was probably an old man by the time he finnisghed the body lol not to mention prototypes :/) then he probably did some evil villian laughter shit then downloadded the internet in his brain then eventualy selling the showgrounds to SMG4 and the rest of Puzzlevision continues :/

If yall read all that- WOW :/ its 1am and im typeing esays ;-; anyways this has been cooking in my brain for too long so now its all here now :/

*fades into the distance MEME STYLE B3*

[underforeversgrace]

stars in his eyes

DannyMay2023 Day 24: NASA

title: stars in his eyes

words: 1849

Summary: After two weeks in the GIW's labs, Danny is informed another government agency has taken custody of him. Of all the agencies to hurt him, why did NASA have to be one?

Warnings: Brief Depictions of Torture/Violence, Reference to Prior Dissection

Beta: probably-dead

~~~~~~

Danny bit back a hiss of pained relief as the IV in the crook of his arm was pulled out, doing everything he could to not glare at the scientist in front of him.

“Finally done with me?” He asked, keeping his voice level and hiding the pain that ached from every part of his body. The scientists here had long since proven they’d just laugh if he let on he was in pain.

Scientist N rolled his eyes, testing the restraints keeping Danny bound to the cold table beneath him. His chest was where most of his pain was, the incision now covered by his jumpsuit but there was a burn that blossomed with every breath he drew. He’d been here two weeks and was quickly losing hope he’d ever be saved. Ironically, the drugs they kept him heavily dosed with were the only reason his secret was still safe - he couldn’t shift back to human, the cocktail that had been running into him continuously from that IV successfully suppressing his powers.

“Another agency petitioned for you. You’re their property now.” Scientist N answered, tightening the restraint on Danny’s waist and grinning when Danny failed to hide the grunt of pain as the anti-ecto coated strap dug into his flesh, pressing down on the bottom of the Y incision.

“Fun. Who’s playing mad scientist next?” Danny asked, not catching the quip from slipping out fast enough. Just like every other time he’d sassed or back talked them, hundreds of volts of electricity burned through him, making his entire body spasm and he felt the stitches in his chest pop, cold ectoplasm bleeding down. He vaguely heard N’s laughter over his own screams.

“I’m sorry!” He said as soon as the electricity stopped, his body trembling from the aftereffects of the charge.

“It’s such a shame I won’t get to finish training you,” N said, grabbing Danny’s chin and making the ghost look at him. “Disobedient dogs are the most fun.”

Danny remained silent. He’d quickly come to the conclusion that the only reason he wasn’t gagged was because they enjoyed having a reason to hurt him.

Why did they delight so much in torturing him? Would the next agency hurt him more?

“Anyway, it’s NASA who’ve petitioned for you.” N said, frowning when Danny didn’t rise to the bait. Danny’s still heart fell. NASA, where he’d always wanted to end up, where he’d dreamed of being, were going to own him, do whatever they wanted to him.

This wasn’t how he wanted to join NASA - as government property instead of as a human with dreams of space. Somehow, the knowledge NASA were going to be the next ones to slice into him hurt nearly as much as the slicing itself.

“They’re coming for you in half an hour.” N continued, lamenting the fact he was losing his favorite specimen. “Stupid NASA. But they’re the big name compared to us so what they want, they get. Such bullshit.”

N kept ranting, either unaware or merely uncaring of the pain and sadness Danny was battling with.

Of all the agencies, why NASA? Why the one place he’d always dreamed of ending up?

What had he ever done to deserve this hell?

Danny didn’t try to protest when a mask closed over his nose and mouth, obediently breathing in the gas, used to this routine. He’d always thought he’d fight harder if he were ever caught. But fighting just meant more pain and he always lost and the experiments still happened and they delighted in having additional reasons to hurt him. 

Drowsiness took hold quickly.

“Wonder if you can breathe in space?” Was the last thing Danny heard as darkness took him under.

~~~~~~

Unfamiliar voices hovered at the edge of his hearing as consciousness slowly returned to him, cool air on the bare skin of his chest. He felt the burn - it was the first thing he ever felt anymore - but it didn’t feel any worse than before.

Great. The NASA scientists were like the GIW ones. They wanted him awake during his autopsy. Tears slipped down his face as a full return to reality settled into his mind. Ancients, why did so many people like hurting him? He’d always thought good people were the norm but he was quickly learning there was a lot more bad in the world than he’d ever realized in his naïveté. He didn’t deserve this and no one cared that he didn’t deserve this agony, that he was just a sixteen year old they were hurting.

“This isn’t what we thought we were getting!” Someone male protested. “For God’s sake, just look at him!”

Something about that sentence hurt him deep in his core.

When was the last time he’d been referred to as a he instead of an it?

“He’s breathing.” Another person said sadly. “We were told we were getting a cadaver with life like qualities. Not this. A ghost - a kid.”

“What the hell did those psychos in white do to him?” A third person said, closer to him than the others. A warm hand was placed on his shoulder and he tried to flinch away, his eyes flying open in panic as he realized what he’d done and the hand jerked away.

“I’m sorry!” He obediently insisted, moving to where he’d been, ready for the hand to come back. The Guys in White scientists hadn’t liked it when he tried to pull away from their touch and he didn’t know how severely the NASA ones would hurt him.

“You’re awake.” The person who’d tried to touch him said. The scientist was a middle aged woman and her red hair reminded him a little too much of his mother.

He just nodded.

“Do you have a name?” One of the men asked.

“No.” He answered, the answer that had been drilled into his head by N. Humans had names. Ghosts didn’t. Ghosts were property. He wanted to obey the NASA scientists. The GIW he’d always knew would hurt him, but some part of him still wanted to be good for his new owners. He didn’t want to give this organization he’d always held in such esteem a reason to hurt him too much. “I am Specimen PD764.”

The man who’d remained silent scowled and Danny immediately tensed. He’d said something wrong, hadn’t he? Not even three minutes and he’d already upset the scientists. “What were you called before the Guys in White got you?”

Danny hesitated. Was this a trick question? N had gotten him a few times with similar questions. He just stayed silent. Answering wrong tended to hurt more than not answering at all.

Realizing he wasn’t going to respond, the lady stepped closer to the table. “It’s okay. We’re not going to hurt you.” Because ghosts can’t feel pain. “Can you sit up?”

For the first time, Danny realized he wasn’t shackled down. That’s why he’d been able to jerk so far away when she’d first touched him. “Do you want me to?” He asked.

“Only if you can.” She said, smiling at him encouragingly.

Danny pushed himself up, though he was coated in sweat and breathing through burning lungs by the time he managed to sit. Vertigo made his head spin - he hadn’t been upright since his capture. One of the men hurried beside him when he started to fall, bracing Danny’s back with his arm.

“I’m Ilana.” The lady introduced herself. “What did you go by before you became the Guys in White’s… specimen?” She asked, briefly scowling at the last word.

“I… Phantom. Danny Phantom. It’s what the town called me.” He finally answered. Something was different about these scientists, something that helped take the edge off his fear.

“Does that hurt?” The man not holding him up asked, now at the foot of the table.

“Ghosts can’t feel pain.” He immediately said. He knew that was a crock of crap and that the GIW knew it was. They delighted in his pain too much to believe it was fake.

“Danny.” Ilana said gently. “Is that what those assholes told you? Because getting up clearly hurt you.”

“Yes. It hurts.” Danny said slowly, cautiously. The more they spoke, the more Danny felt the warm bloom of hope under the cold pain of the incision. “Can I go home?” Slipped out before he really thought about it.

“Of course.” Ilana said instantly, the two others mumbling sounds of agreement. “Where is home?”

“Amity Park, Illinois.” Danny answered and tears began to fall from his eyes. Home. They were letting him go and he was going home.

He was sure he had an avalanche of problems to dig his way out of and more explanations than he was ready for, but all he wanted was to go home.

“We’ll leave within the hour.” Ilana assured.

“I can go home?” Danny repeated in disbelief, still not quite believing how different these scientists were from the GIW.

“Yes.” The man at the foot of the table said gruffly. “And I will be having numerous, very, very, strong words with the committee that authorizes their funding. Torturing kids on American soil?”

Ilana nodded. “Don’t worry, between myself and Arnold, we’ll destroy their reputation enough to pull their funding. They won’t bother you again. You’re safe now, Danny.”

“Safe?” Danny was starting to sound like an echo, repeating back words as he struggled to believe them.

“Safe.” Ilana reassured.

All the emotions Danny had kept buried the past three weeks spilled out. Tears mixed with laughter, anger mixed with fear. “Home!” He said again, relief a soft blanket that swathed him in safety. He grinned at Ilana. “I knew NASA was the coolest thing ever.”

“Oh, we are?” Ilana asked playfully, helping him pull the sleeve of his jumpsuit on while the still-unnamed man helped with the other side.

“I want to work for NASA.” He admitted. “Uh, er, uh, wanted to.” He corrected. “Before I died.”

“Well, in that case,” Arnold said, digging into his pocket and pulling out a card, which he handed to Danny. “Call me when you’re feeling better and healed up. A ghost working for NASA? You could accomplish a lot.”

Danny beamed at him in happiness, tucking the business card into his pocket.

As promised, within the hour, Danny was in Ilana’s car and they were making the drive to Amity Park.

To home.

~~~~~~

As soon as he walked into the door of FentonWorks (he’d had Ilana drop him off a few blocks away, he couldn’t walk much further than that), still Phantom as the suppressant hadn’t worn from his system yet, he saw his parents and friends, all looking exhausted and like they’d recently cried.

Sam saw him first. “Danny?”

His name got the others’ attention and all eyes turned to him.

The rest of the day was filled with happy tears and joy as they celebrated his return.

Tomorrow, he’d have a lot to answer for, a lot of healing to start doing. But for today, he was fine just being held and loved.

[dominolemon]

I finished watching Sonic prime season 3 and I gotta say I LOVE IT SO MUCH IM SOBBING RAADDfgzggs THE PLOT WAS GREAT (if they don’t make a season 4 I’ll cry myself to sleep every night)

The only thing I’m kinda sad about is that Shadow didn’t have as much screen time as season 2 cuss I was looking forward to more moments with Sonic and Shadow, but I’ll take what I got any day

Like I don’t ship Sonic and Shadow Iv always been a Sonamy fan but like Sonic prime is definitely for Sonadow shippers, like ZAMN they had no chill with some of the moments for them but I love it.

Another thing I love about the show is Amy, I don’t think Amy gets enough love honestly she’s such a great character, I do think Sonic boom showed her well but this show did it really really good like I loved all of her different versions for each universe, and the fact that they all treated eachother like sisters is the sweetest thing to me.

I do really love Rouge as well I love the fact that she led a lot of the groups and she was a strong character and very interesting and stylized, I love her designs and personality so much and she’s so cool (literally marry me)

Knuckles was also a great character I really like the egg yoke city knuckles but I think my favorite was the pirate one he’s so cool and interesting and his design IS SO COOLL I just love him, and I’m glad that knuckles did help Sonic in the last battle.

Tails has been one of my favorite characters honestly I never would have thought he would be the villain but he made such a good one in my opinion he needed his villain arc honestly and he’s so baby I love him so much, and his reasons for wanting to make his own world is fair, even though what he did wasn’t right he was just broken and needed help and love

Anyway there’s my Sonic prime rant that you didn’t ask for, if I miss spelled anything I’ll over think about it later

(I’m going to go insane about this)

[pizzatowerconfessions]

Ever since i finished up the game, ive always wondered why is that the tower has so many weird decisions when it comes to the structure, building or just decorations inside the tower.

let me elaborate on that a little further; lets first start with the fact that every level you play in the game is tecnically inside the tower (perhaps that is a little obvious but whatever). At first glance, it isnt that really surprising. But what about levels that are like.. huge and look like you're actually outside the tower? like Deep-Dish 9 for example. The structure of the level is already odd enough, but at somepoint in the background, there's a huge planet in the distance and also a space pizzamart, as the game refers it. And if we think about it, that means that the tower must be HUGE, like REALLY HUGE, because how do you fit a (probably way smaller than average) planet? And there is still all the other levels and bosses too! Ill talk about The Noise's battle section because he's stupid and he's probably one of my favorite bosses in the game. Once again, the room is HUGE! Peppino is obviously not allowed to roam around these places as this is a videogame and in this case he needs to fight The Noise but if you look at the background, you'll see that there is a literal building in the background (as well as huge Noise balloons and stuff). I personally believe thats just really nuts because, once again, that shows that the tower is really big!

But back to the important part of this rant, the point is that the tower is really big and has these huge rooms full of stuff with each room having a way different theme than the other. And if we think back to the intro of the game where they sort of explain the history and context behind Peppino being in the tower, i believe its implied that the tower was not there before the events of the game. So, considering the fact that Pizzahead had to build this whole tower by himself, this makes me really wonder why is it that there is so many rooms with really random stuff and everything is built in a really odd way.

Although we do not know fully what is the intention behind the actual tower building, we do know that the tower was probably meant to protect Pizzaface/Pizzahead as he was about to destroy Peppino's Pizzeria. But i then think, why does Pizzahead need a room that's full of bacon and has a menacing pig in the background? Why does Pizzahead need a secret tunnel that leads to a pumpkin grandpa on a chair? Why does Pizzahead even need a pig city in the first place? I could go on and on about this but i guess you get the point.

And at first i thought: "Oh well, all of these levels and other things are just meant to protect Pizzahead and distract Peppino for eternity!" And although i believe that is kinda true, (its never confirmed in the game but i guess its some sort of headcanon?), in the game its confirmed that it doesnt work and if you progress in the game it means that Peppino was strong enough to get through all of the tower's obstacles. But yet, i still think there are some rooms that are just unnecessary and dont even help Pizzahead in anyways (like the bacon room, as i mentioned it earlier if im not wrong).

The closest answer i ever had to these questions was the possibility that Pizzahead was just fascinated with the idea of having a tower, so he just had all sorts of stuff in it because he was messing around and he found it amusing. If this is even true at all, which probably not since it's a headcanon of mine, i still think its pretty funny to think about Pizzahead in this way.

(a quick side note to my rant, i believe that there isn't as much Pizzahead content in the Pizza Tower fandom despite him being one of the main antagonists of the game and it would be nice if people would start making more content about him as i believe he's a really interesting character, despite how little he appears in the game.)

I wanted to clarify that im aware that im probably thinking way too much about this silly pizza game and most things are probably just there because it was funny and its also a goofy videogame. But yet i still find entertaining to overanalyze it and make all sorts of theories because i love this game that much and im sure im not the only one who gets all nerdy over this but yeah you get my point.

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[thesmpisonfire]

i really love your theory about cellbit's serotonin levels because I was thinking these days about the whole sleeper's agent thing and I really think that what they did to him wasn't something huge and noticeable (not for now anyways). they know the islanders are smart, and that's why the federation is good: they don't underestimate their opponents. they couldn't do anything drastic because the islanders, his family, they love and they know cellbit enough and they would notice it right away. but him just being extremely happy about getting engaged? that's believable, that's possible. and maybe the feds don't even have nefarious plans for him (because anything that's too drastic is enough to get even people who are neutral about the whole thing into a conflict with the federation), they just know that he's more help to them when he's not able to help the others.

sorry to rant on ur ask box's ive just been having Thoughts and wanted to share them

YEAH THIS

The fact they wouldn't want also to suspect their friend being so happy. He just got freed from the Federation, Felps is back, he is ENGAGED. Ofc he'd be so happy! This is the best Cellbit has had ever since the start of the server! Why would they sour it with suspicion beyond the ones they already have??

[geminid]

just a bit of a rant about being a fan i guess

the idea for my artbook was smth i put together as long ago as 2018 and actually back then it was intended to be sort of my departure from the FE fandom as a lot of ppl i’d known since the start of the fates fandom in 2016 were also moving on and i wasn’t having the best time in the fandom. In true cringe comedy, I’m still here though, and superbright is becoming a real thing and I’ve thought a lot about it serving its original intended purpose: my last hurrah in this fandom. 

truth is, i still love leokumi. i still have comic ideas and AUs and art concepts i wasnt originally skilled enough to do before but could now. i also rly enjoyed engage and i want to draw more fanwork for it too. and i wish this felt like enough i guess? that i love smth and want to draw it? because it was enough for a long while? but now im just lost because honestly ive had a miserable time in this fandom and all that misery is catching up to me. ive probably gotten worse as a person thanks to fire emblem fandom because i used to actually tweet on main and try to make friends and now all i’m capable of doing is hiding and keeping things to myself. i cant make connections and i can only be quiet because i led myself to believe that this was the only way to protect myself from everyone else (and it rly never worked bc id still regularly get stupid and rude comments on my posts). i cant bring myself to bug people who arent into my ships with my ship content either so i just have to. exist with them i guess. exist quietly. churn out art once in a while i guess. simply being and not much else. 

i want to try to fix this though like. should i take a break? let everyone forget i existed? should i remake my accounts and take the gamble that a lot of my “mutuals-but-not-really-friends-yet-im-trying-tho” won’t follow me to my new account? what do i do with any art i make in the meantime since art is my main hobby and theres no way im not drawing? do i try to leave the fandom even though all of this could happen all over again somewhere else? what would you do in this situation? i cant seem to figure anything out besides that im miserable and i think it sucks that this is the result of what should have been 7 years of my love and dedication for a video game. 

anyway this isnt smth i can burden an individual with so its typed out here to burden everyone equally. did anyone else read the alcry*t forging bonds where leo says he can use brynhildr to turn lcryst to slime. i wish i were reduced to slime. no more neck pain on account of having no neck and i would be cute like those dragon quest guys