#anyways goodnightttt

[chalknpolish]

hellooooooo i churned out 5 and a half pages of research-based history essay in roughly two and a half hours and it's not even terrible! please clap!

[moonisthedoor]

'Gerry dates multiple people' AU where Michael gets a hopeless crush on him but he knows Gerry's dating Jon so he resolves to just be happy for him until one fay he walks in on Gerry and Tim making out and he's like 'wait are you cheating on Jon' and Gerry's like 'no i'm just poly and have several partners' and Michael's like oh. oh 👀

[cottageivy]

i stg if i wake up with as bad of cramps as i had today i will cry

[whisperingn1ghts]

hiii, I love your art (especially your bambibelle art!) I just wanted to let you know that cuz ngl the fandom has become a stressful place for me recently but your art just makes me forget about all that and makes me remember why I loved this fandom in the first place (THE TALENTED ARTISTS!) <333 ty for existing and blessing us with our gorgeous artistic skills

Wait this is like the sweetest message omg. I'm literally so happy that you like my art??? IT ALWAYS MAKES ME SO 🥺🩷🥺🩷 WHENEVER PEOPLE SAY THAT. MAKES ME WANNA TURN INTO BALLOONS AHHH. and honestly you're so real about the fandom caaaauuuseee sometimes I get so stressed and tired as well 😭😭😭 I tend to just distance myself from it because that much stress really isn't worth it. But but I'm so happy and glad that my art makes you forget about it?? LIKE THATS SO SWEET AUGHAUGHH I HUG YOU 🫂🫂🫂✨✨✨ thank you so so so SOOOOOO much for your message I got all 😭💕🫂✨😭💕🫂✨😭💕🫂✨ in the best way possible. Hope you're having a very very lovely day :')

[sevicia]

My mom's started to notice how obedient I am to my sister and it's humiliating. "Why do you let her speak to you like that? You always listen to her instead of me" it's obvious now because that day they thought I was dying I only moved once my sister yelled at me, and I barely remember any of it.

It's humiliating because it's a reflex. It's not like I don't have my own will, it's not like it's weak, it's just that I can't go against her without feeling like I'll be punished for throwing a tantrum. That feeling overrides everything else.

I have no idea what I'd do if my mom ever asked me directly about it, because I know she'd blame her. I guess it started because of her, but that means they'd start fighting like crazy again and my sister would start feeling like our parents don't care about her again. Maybe telling my mom would help me feel better somehow, maybe it'd help start fixing things even though it seems impossible, but the possibility of both her and our dad turning against my sister is more than enough for me to avoid talking about it as much as possible.

There's also the fact that everyone's just gonna call me a coward and a pushover for never being able to stand up to her. I guess that's true, but it's still awful to think about being seen for what I am in such an explicit way.

Frustrating because I know for a fact it's my fault I still feel like this today. I mean, I'm better than I was 1 or 2 years ago, back then I agreed with everything she said and hid anything I thought might make her dislike me because I felt like the scum of the earth every time she got annoyed or called me stupid. I couldn't help bawling my eyes out, which I've never been able to do properly since we've always shared a room, I'm always quiet. I really wish I could just cry like a kid even just once, but I don't think I'll ever be able to.

It's my fault that I'm still like this because changing is on me. It's something no one else can ever do for me, but I'm so deep in it I know I'll die like this. I know other people have had way worse relationships with their siblings when they were kids, and they're nowhere near this level of messed up about it. I don't think "I didn't have it THAT bad" is a valid excuse, but I do think I should've gotten over it already. I just never noticed how sensitive I was because I've always had to be so quiet.

I hate that I'm like this because of something I should've gotten over by now. I hate that I can't tell anyone, but most of all I hate that I can't say it to her face because I love her so much. She's cried while telling me about how sorry she is and how guilty she feels for messing up my childhood like that, so I tell her it's okay. I don't feel okay about it, but I can't ever blame her for any of it since we were both kids. She doesn't know just how much it's affected me, whatever effect she thinks she had on me is not nearly comparable to how I've felt my whole life.

I tell her it's fine. What else am I gonna tell her? I've seen her cry out of guilt. I couldn't live with myself if I ever made her cry like that again. I resent her so much, I can't help it. It's so ugly. I have these moments where I wish she'd just die, that she'd just disappear from my life and my head one day, then I'd be free to act on my own, but thinking that way just makes me hate myself even more. It's just so disgusting, I can't stand it.

I'm going to die feeling like this. It will never leave me. I can't let it go, I don't know what'd happen if I tried. I don't want her to ever worry about anything. The way people treat her sometimes makes me sick. The way she talks to me most of the time makes me wanna vomit.

She loves me, I don't doubt this for a second. If she ever found out I feel like this, she'd call me an idiot for not telling her sooner. I can't stand the thought of that. I hate it when people do that, I don't understand it and I doubt I ever will. I don't understand why it's so important that I report on what I'm feeling whenever someone wants to "help" me, based on their own metrics. It doesn't do any good. If I said any of this out loud, I'd just start crying and make it look like it's the most horrible thing to ever happen to anyone, I just don't see the point. It achieves nothing. Feeling better is not guaranteed, and even if it was it would still amount to nothing.

I hate crying because it just feels so pathetic. I don't think it makes me weak or anything like that, it's just embarrassing to act so dramatic, especially when I'm known to never cry unless it's from laughing or watching a movie or a show or something like that. It's shallow, but I'm also aware of how much more repulsive I look when I cry. I looked in the mirror once while I cried, and the disgust made me stop, wash my face and go back to being a normal person immediately. It was different to how my stomach usually drops when I see my face. It felt like something was actually wrong with my body.

[holyshit]

fine line being 3 years old feels both too long and too short. like on one hand i feel like i came out of the womb singing lights up, on the other hand, what are you talking about, i first listened to that album last week?? what do you mean it’s been years and he’s released another album since??

[fagdykebassboy]

my drummer already has our band name in his ig bio😭 girl we came up with it not five fucking hours ago😭😭😭

[youngestdaughtersyndrome]

#godexists #jesusisreal #havefaith

[dandunn]

ever have one of those days where nothing particularly happens but you feel marginally less Sane at the end of it

[glass-clown]

artists who include a timelapse video in their art posts im kissing u im kissing u im kissing u on the mouth i love seeing ur creative process and how u bring ur art to life im kissing u so hard im slipping a wedding ring on ur finger we will have a summer wedding

[angeltism]

okok actually going to bed now. good night silly lil beings on planet internet. valentin loves you all :3 <3 /p

[fluttershiesworld]

my mom was shocked i wanted to get up and go shopping w her early like yes r you kidding… absolutely… i love clothes i love shopping and i need to get back into a schedule anyways

[lanternlightss]

okay it is 3am now bed time shdkdjd

goodnight, i love you all so much !!!!

if it’s morning or afternoon, may the rest of your day go well, and hopefully tomorrow you’ll see something to brighten the day—a bird with a fun pattern, or a pretty butterfly!

if it’s night, sleep well, and may your dreams be the sweetest <3

[phagodyke]

I am FARRRR too op in elden ring im defeating most of these bosses first attempt. help

[intertexts]

Good Lord.....

[misskamelie]

First impressions so far: the public transports are sooo so so nice and I discovered that here apparently they like? Have a button to warm up the floor in the bathroom?? So the water dries???