#anyways follow for more banger content!!!!!

[endl3sshysteria]

hi i made them cockette cowboys i hope u liek :3

[queenhawke]

can't tell you the jumpscare i got from seeing my own tweet on tumblr

[bookofriivelations]

okay, so basically, 1.1 came out. and when i mean 1.1 i mean the new nightmare mode that's been released in the game. the that's not my neighbor brainrot is so real

that means, new npcs, new mechanics, and the return of my favourite peach doppelganger. most of them have awesome and banger designs (as they should!!!) (i am looking at you anastacha and steven nightmare counterparts !!) and the others are just . they go so hard oh my go

and then i realised we have this mf. this is supposed to be francis's nightmare counterpart and right now he looks. yeah. at first i was in disbelief since it was so unexpected that he looks like this?? what happened???

he reminds me of twilight and the onward trolls had a child with each other and this guy is the child 😭😭😭 but who cares anyway, it's just an npc design :³ his name is yog sothoth btw ^^

this may be not the first fanart of him bit im glad i made a wee little contribution to the community lol

follow me for more content like this! reblogging is highly appreciated!!

(ART MADE BY ME. DO NOT REPOST WITHOUT CREDIT; DO NOT USE ANY OF MY ARTWORK FOR NFTS + AI LEARNING. THE WATERMARK SAYS SO!)

[cricketnationrise]

for the 500 followers fest

23:54

the brownstone

henry

melt by kehlani

are y'all tired of me being like "wow this song is a banger i can't believe i haven't listened to it before" ??? no?

wow this song is a banger i can't believe i haven't listened to it before!

anyway please enjoy possibly the sappiest, softest thing i've ever written

read the rest of the ficlets here

❤️🤍💙❤️🤍💙

11:54pm, the brownstone

Henry tries to enter quietly, on the off-chance that Alex is already asleep—doesn’t want David’s habitual greeting to pull Alex out of mutually much-needed slumber. The muffled strains of Alex’s elle woods my beloved playlist coming down the hall let him know he needn’t have bothered. So he lets his keys clang in the bowl, lets David jump on him with rattling tags, lets his voice carry more than he usually would at almost midnight as he greets his dog.

Henry loves the shelter, loves meeting all the kids, and giving them a space free from unreasonable and unrealistic and unsafe expectations, but even Pez would be running on fumes alone after hour sixteen of an eight hour shift. Unfortunately for Henry, housing emergencies are rarely so obliging as to occur in a respectable nine-to-five window. But Starr is safe now, settled into a room, and even tentatively bonding with her roommate, so Henry can be home.

He makes his way to the second floor den that Alex prefers to study in, huffing out a soft laugh when he hears heavy books closing and the abrupt change of playlists to soft boy hours (gender neutral). He slides open the pocket door and leans against the frame and can’t help the soft smile that takes over his face. At least sixty percent of his tension seems to vanish at the sight of Alex turning towards him, face lighting up with love.

“Weren’t you supposed to stop studying at nine tonight?”

“Well, I was going to stop, but then a certain someone texted to say they didn’t know when they were going to be home and so I had to take drastic measures,” Alex says, finishing packing away his things for class tomorrow.

“David has been spending an inordinate amount of time out on the town,” Henry teases, moving into the room properly, drawn like a magnet toward his boyfriend.

Alex chuckles. “He used to be such a fine, upstanding gentleman, too. Such a shame his behavior’s gone to the dogs.”

“Seems he’s had a bad influence, hanging around with you so often,” Henry says. He steps into Alex’s space and Alex’s arms come up without hesitation. “Hello, love.”

Alex kisses him softly, sweetly. “Glad you’re home, H.” He pulls Henry down onto the couch and Henry wastes no time laying on top of him and curling up on Alex’s chest. He smells like coffee and a hint of cinnamon and the rest of the tension Henry’s been carrying around fades away as Alex strokes along his back. 

Right here, surrounded by Alex on all sides, is Henry’s favorite place in the world. Right here, the public can’t get to him. Right here, he doesn’t have to be a prince, or even a youth shelter director. 

Right here, he can just be Henry.

People always think that Alex never stops talking, but that’s categorically untrue. He talks a lot, certainly, but only when he knows Henry is ready to hear it. The reality is that Alex cares so much and so deeply for Henry, that he’s learned to read Henry’s varied and ever-shifting moods with the smallest cues. Henry’s never been more grateful for Alex’s personalized superpower than tonight, when all he wants to do is rest here with Alex, listening to smooth voices over acoustic guitar and Alex’s heartbeat thudding in time with his own.

Henry sinks into the moment, letting his eyes fall shut in utter contentment. He cherishes every moment he gets with Alex; the novelty of just getting to be with him hasn’t even begun to wear off. Every brush of their fingers sends a spark down his spine. Every time Alex kisses the back of his neck before hip-checking him out of the way in the kitchen is thrilling. Every time he and Alex stroll through Brooklyn with David, hands entwined or around waists or even once in each other’s back pockets, Henry’s hit with a surge of pride. 

But he loves these moments the best—the ones where he can’t tell where he stops and Alex begins. The moments, during or outside of sex, where being this close isn’t close enough for Henry. He wants to invent new ways to be close to someone, just to do them with Alex; wants to be able to crawl inside of Alex and set his watch to the beat of Alex’s heart. Henry wants to share not only his space with Alex, but his breath, his very soul—wants to knit them together so tightly that nothing and no one can unravel the threads connecting their hearts.

Luckily, unbelievingly for Henry—Alex wants the same things.

[foundry-fabrications]

Finally, was starting to think I'd never get anything released! Y'all ready to ROCK?!

Now, just to get this out of the way, I was really hoping to have something else done for y'all by now, that thing being the update to Flesh and Bone I mentioned in my last update post. Mechanically, it's done and has been for a while, and I'm VERY pleased with how it's coming along. However, it's proving to be a frustrating challenge to get it formatted with artwork that doesn't look awful. So, I took a much-needed break to work on something else and it's going on the back burner. It'll be out when it's out.

So what's this new thing I bring before you this day? With my main D&D campaign wrapping up, I've been working on a absolute TON of custom stuff for a new character, so that's taken up a lot of my creative energy. Now that we've had our first session and my work is done, I can pretty it up for y'all!

As one may surmise, I'm playing a heavy metal bard, so I put this together based on a combination of an existing college of metal I found on D&Dwiki and Matt Mercer's college of the maestro. The metalheads among you may have also noticed that yes, each feature and solo are named after metal songs, a lot of bangers too. Having run a combat with it, I'm already really happy with it mechanically and since it's my newest character it will be getting LOTS of playtesting. 

Another thing to mention is the little sidebar at the end. For this campaign I'm playing the 2024 playtest version of the new bard so that's what this was originally built for.  However, since most won't be playing it, I reworked it for the existing bard and added a way to "update" it for the new one for those who want it. For future content I would like to do something similar depending on how extensive the changes are, but we'll see how things shake out.

Anyway, I'm really pleased with how it turned out. A little sparse in the art department, but I think the theme I picked does a lot to carry it. Plus, I genuinely couldn't come up with anything that looked better, so hey, I'm not gonna let perfect be the enemy of done.

Anyway, that's all I got for now. So glad to actually be working on stuff again. Stay safe, don't forget to love each other, and I'll see you again soon.

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[randomperson0k]

i genuinely forgot i can post things on tumblr. oopsie! anyways i just came to this realisation right now so heres stuff

last 3 images are aus for my au / headcanon thing idk what to call that abomination anymore and 1st image is just doodles

i feel bad for the people who followed me for my non tgs stuff and are now being drowned by twinks im so so sorry but im stuck in the deep end i cant escape this hell of my own design [joke]

anyways ignore that follow me for more banger content very very good good job me good job clap clap clap clap SHRIMP ATTACK 💥💥🦐🦐💥🦐💥💥💥💥

i need to stop rambling in my posts

[agustdiv1ne]

honestly? it could've been worse.

lots of things happened in 2023, both good and bad, in real life and on this hellsite. i feel like i've started to hone in on my voice as a writer this year, and my creativity and motivation just seemed to skyrocket for absolutely no reason. it's been fun sharing my work with you guys, and i'm forever grateful for all the love and support i have received <3 furthermore, thank you so so much for 4k followers!!!!! i never thought i would reach such a milestone, so it truly means a lot :')

there's a lot i wish i could have done during 2023 that i didn't end up doing, but i think it is best to focus on what i did accomplish and use that as a stepping stone towards better things. also, there were a lot of times where i didn't feel content with where and who i was. right now, however, i can confidently say that i am happy; i am hoping that happiness will be abundant for everyone in 2024! we all deserve it!!

furthermore, everyone worked hard, so i hope you all give yourself some grace in order to recharge and reset. taking breaks is paramount in maintaining your health and happiness, and i'm glad i learned that it's okay for me to take them lol.

so happy new year everyone! i hope 2024 brings many wonderful things your way, and may we all have a lovely year!! <33

to: @gummygowon 🖤

MAIIII hi ilysm <333 i can't believe we've been friends for 3 years like that's fucking crazy. we have both been THROUGH it over the years but i'm so glad that we've always been able to talk to each other about the crazy shit that happens to both of us 😹 like idk who else i could talk about it with honestly. we are seriously like the same person which is so wild to me but i'm also so grateful for it fr!! i would trust you with my life methinks...also talking about fic ideas with you is so fucking fun. our brainstorming sessions go crazy fr ‼️ ANYWAYS i need to stop being sappy so i love you bitch and we WILL meet up this year or else i will riot!!! happy new year <3

to: @lunalovesstories 🖤

lunaaaa hii!!!! my fellow yeonjun stan, we feel the same pain and suffering whenever he is wilding LOL </3 also i feel like we became close super fast hehe ^^ i'm so glad that we became friends this year and i am forever grateful for you and how kind and supportive and overall amazing you are. becoming moots and friends with you was definitely one of my highlights of 2023!! our daily conversations are something i always look forward to no matter how short or long they are; i truly love talking with you and i hope we can continue to get closer this year :) happy new year! <33

to: @cheolhub 🖤

SAR!!!! ik you haven't been super active as of late so i hope you've been well <3 you are genuinely so cool and i love you sm. i think i screamed when we became moots and then when we started actually talking to each other i screamed even more...embarrassing. well anyways moving on! you are so fucking funny and i love hearing about what you're up to whenever you reappear on disc. you singlehandedly made me reconsider my bias line in svt bc cheol is currently infiltrating it </3 also lmk if you ever need me to fight that girl bc i will do it. no questions asked. seriously though, i hope you're thriving in the year of 2024, happy new year <3

to: @toruro 🖤

mika mika mika hiiiii ^^ you are crazy in the best way tbh, i aspire to be as unhinged as you are...LMAO moving on, you are hella kind and such a fun person to talk to! i love hearing about what you get up to bc it's usually funny af. like. you are just so real. you are such a bright spot on tumblr, please never change because you are amazing and ilysm <3 also your writing is insane. i always start gnawing on my leg when i see that you posted bc i know it's gonna be a banger!!!! you never miss!!!!!!! okay anyways ily again and i hope you have a happy new year <3

to: @prodsh00ky 🖤

hi sam!!!!!!! i hope you've been doing well <3 i know our convos are sporadic af but i always enjoy talking to you and hearing all of your updates! i just think you're so cool and i always get so excited whenever i see you pop up in my messages. i also love talking about writing with you because you understand my pain LOL. i know you're quite busy so i hope everything in your life is going well!! i also hope that 2024 brings you great things because you truly deserve it :) happy new year!!!

to: @koqabear 🖤

sol....my enemy >:( i will not forget all of those assassination attempts that you tried on me throughout 2023. trust me, i won't. JK ANYWAYS HFJHHFDJ you are like the coolest most awesome person on this website to me and i am so grateful that we are friends <3 also grateful that we started talking this year after being moots for a long while. i've always wanted to talk to you tbh so i'm glad i stopped being a weak little bitch and finally did it 😹 i will always go insane over your fics and write like a 2k word essay in response each time, so i hope that doesn't bother you...i will not be stopping though so ig it doesn't matter.......anyways, happy new year!! here's to another year on this hellsite <3

to: @boba-beom 🖤

smiles!!! you are such a ray of light on my dash, i swear i always smile when i see that you've posted. i know we don't talk all that often but i genuinely am so grateful that we are mooties n friends :> you are one of my longest moots, and i am so glad that you have stayed on here as long as you have because idk what i would do without you fr <3 you are so talented and kind and just a wonderful person to be around! happy new year!! may you be happy n healthy this year <33

and to all of my lovely mutuals: @nightlyawnzz @wolfytae-exe @aduh0308 @hyuk4ngel @dearlyjun @takemehye @mazeinthemoon @tyunkus @mixtape-racha @huckleberrykai @naomiarai @hyukalyptus @mapofthemazeinthemirror @taegimood @blackhairedjjun @txtistheloml @heart2beom @majestyjun @fairyofshampgyu @ttyunz @huenation @cherrypeeking @tyungelic @ncteez @peachanonie @hyewka @heartchoi @beom-pyu @petrichor-han @hoshiseon @strawbrinkofdeath @delcakoo @beoms-sugar @minastras @0x11s @hwasdollie @mimziie @baekhvuns @wooyukh @venusiangguk @ah-ga-seven @jimilter @ateezmakemeweep

hello and happy new year!! i hope all of you doing well and that 2024 is treating you well so far :) no matter how much/little we interact, please know that i am so happy to be sharing this space with you ^^ that being said, i hope we can interact more this year!!! (i promise i will try to be less shy,, the keyword here is try) you are all amazing people and i love you all mwahhh <333

🖤 — january

27: give me more (m) — yeonjun ; est. relationship au, pwp

🩶 — february

regrettably empty :(

🤍 — march

23: 10:52 p.m. — soobin ; college au, introverts at a party

🖤 — april

04: frat boy!yeonjun

07: confession — chan ; best friends to lovers au + self-care (m) — seonghwa ; est. relationship au, soft smut

08: corruption (m) — hyunjin ; est. relationship au, corruption kink

11: stormy night (m) — seonghwa ; est. relationship au, hwa vs. your fear of storms (he wins)

13: industry lovers — yeonjun ; strangers to lovers au, idol!reader

16: guitar lesson — beomgyu ; best friends to lovers au

21: 2:54 p.m. — taehyun ; college lab partner au

🩶 — may

09: picnic date with boyfriend!yeonjun

16: brother's best friend (m) — yunho ; the au is the title lmfao + 10:21 p.m. (m) — soobin ; est. relationship au, car sex + early mornings with boyfriend!yeonjun

19: vacationing with boyfriend!yeonjun

27: 8:02 p.m — hueningkai ; jack frost au

28: cowboy!yeonjun (m-ish)

🤍 — june

01: double trouble (m) — hongjoong + seonghwa ; poly au

03: 9:05 p.m. (m) — yeonjun ; plane sex pt.1

06: 9:23 p.m. (m) — yeonjun ; plane sex pt.2

13: the horrors — yeonjun ; est. relationship au, horror actress!reader

23: txt finding out you have an onlyfans (m)

24: late night outing with boyfriend!soobin

26: dry humping (m) — minho ; pwp

🖤 — july

04: meeting odi for the first time with boyfriend!soobin

08: 12:43 a.m. (m) — yeonjun ; best friends to lovers au + best friend!txt finding out you write smut about them online

started my 3k event: love like the movies!! (which is still ongoing. i'm so sorry)

13: 3k event — yeonjun + howl's moving castle (m)

17: 3k event — beomgyu + titanic (m)

24: 3k event — taehyun + twilight (m)

31: 3k event — hueningkai + enchanted

🩶 — august

05: 11:01 p.m. (m) — yeonjun ; rockstar au + 3k event — soobin + the avengers

11: 11:58 p.m. (m) — yeonjun + taehyun ; stoner fratboys au

26: 3k event — taehyun + the proposal (m)

🤍 — september

02: 3k event — beomgyu + the devil wears prada (m)

12: ticket to nowhere (but your heart) (m) — yeonjun ; strangers to lovers au

21: untitled (m) — beomgyu ; college au, tutor!reader

22: untitled (m) — taehyun ; college au, nerd!taehyun

🖤 — october

03: telepathy (m) — beomgyu ; mind reader au

23: 3:13 a.m. (m) — beomgyu ; vampire au

🩶 — november

07: 9:51 p.m. (m) — soobin ; serial killer au

🤍 — december

started my 4k event: finish my 3k event LMAO

🖤 — writing plans

get my 3k (and now 4k?) event done (#1 priority after i finish my current soobin wip)

rings of saturn (tear me apart) (m) — taehyun ; college au, friends to lovers au

going under (m) — taehyun + kai ; surfers!tyunning, summer fling au

and they were roommates! (m) — choi line ; college au, new roommate!reader

cross (m) — yeonjun ; cyberpunk au, cyborg!yeonjun

wait on me — kai ; college au, cafe au

the language of love (and the woes that accompany it) — beomgyu ; soulmate au

love, unabridged — soobin ; single dad au, neighbors to lovers au

adagio (m) — yoongi ; second chance at romance au

art incarnate (m) — namjoon + seokjin ; cursed!seokjin, museum curator!namjoon, love triangle

and many many more..........you will see. this is just a taste >:)

🩶 — goals for this blog + myself

interact with more ppl! and more often!!

write 150k words?? we'll see...

write longer fics!!

plan a collab event ^^ i've always wanted to host one, and i think this year is the year!

that was long as hell (sorry)...anyways! once again, happy new year!! love you all <3

- ashlee

p.s. check out my 2023 fic recs post here :)

[justlarkin]

Mentioning some events that I liked in the midst of beefing with LWs' writers. It's mostly due to very specific things that occur in the events rather than the events themselves to be completely honest with you.

-Casual and fun beach event. Can't go wrong there. Good moments envolving most of the characters. Nomad, Azazel, Kengo, and Oniwaka in particular for me. They deprived me of Azazel content, so this is my only morsel to latch onto. Plus we got SQ Galore, including ones for Mononobe and Lil Salomon.

-The softcore discussion of gender dysphoria was a pleasant surprise and I liked the parallels drawn between MC and Astarte as "trophies". In particular, I liked how this event revealed how much the other guys actually love MC. They were completely indifferent towards Astarte while she was the beloved, which was super weird to her, and when MC switched places with her, they immediately clocked that something was off, but not because they could visually tell MC was obviously not Astarte. They just thought Astarte was more radiant than usual. They were all over MC and giving away their shells because they're MC, not because they were the beloved.

-That scene where Heracles falls into Narcissus' Pond and he comes to the realization that his narcissism and cowardness was what led to Hylas' fate. He thought that a hero of his caliber was too precious to even risk being lost to the naiads, especially not for a guy who was practically beneath him. Heracles put himself before the life of his friend who was willing follow him to hell and back, abandoning him, and he regrets it. The parallels to Hylas' abduction with Heracles' fall as well as dialouge and narration as MC dives after him are an absolute banger. "I knew. I knew you'd come. Not by another's comand but your own free will. Your radiance makes me want to weep. Before you, the thought of the man who failed to follow Hylas makes me want to cry." MC took the leap Heracles never did for Hylas, making them a better person than himself. Such a great moment. Absolutely adored it.

-First of all, exile reveal. Second of all, the reveal that Shiro's crush is more of an all-consuming OBSESSION. Always thinking of them. Always following them whatever path they decide to take. Knowing that they relied on him was his greatest source of happiness. He wanted to help them, to shoulder any and all of their burdens in the hopes that they would eventually feel the same way as him. Shiro was desperately striving for an insane, unhealthy co-dependent relationship where MC validates him by constantly needing him to help them and it's just ?!?!? This came way out of left field.

-Algernon. Algernon. Algernon. I absolutely loved it when he randomly got jealous and tried to change the topic when MC called Yamasachihiko hot. I love that he found someone who could keep up with him, an equal, in MC. I loved that they did a little tapdance routine together while killing the slimes. Oh. And Hombre Tigre. I'm not really a big fan of him. I just really like how interesting his dynamic with Quetzalcoatl is compared to everyone else. Hombre adoring Tezcatlipoca so much that he couldn't even begin to grasp why Quetzalcoatl would leave him behind and envying him for being the one who could consume Tezcatlipoca's thoughts and breaking him in such a manner.

-Sherlock Nomad and Assistant MC, the event we had all been waiting on. Anyways, y'all should know why I liked this event. It's that one scene where they beat Hermes' and he's just sitting on the floor like a pouty little kid when MC grabs his hand and he continues his little tantrum by telling them to let go while doing nothing to stop them. Hermes finally found a friend who could look past all of his lies and accept him with MC and I'm very happy for the bastard.

-That whole chase scene where Balor reveals that he's actually been a twat this entire time and he goes after MC, trying to capture them, is mwah. Love it. Also when Boogeyman triggered that ratfuck, Balor's, PTSD with his sacred artifact just the reveal that Lugh never had a choice in the matter and that Balor caused this fate to be forced upon him, something that he feared for himself in the first place. And the reveal that Balor didn't exactly regret killing his grandson. It was just the fact that Lugh didn't choose to fight him himself.

-The way Vapula was completely indifferent to his golemns until the very end where they're all silently gazing out into the sea after Sand Dragon self-deleted while following orders and are clearly fucked up about what they just witnessed, truly understanding how morbid Sand Dragon's existence was and the inevitability of his death, when MC turns to Vapula and says "Vapula.... We never got to name him" and Vapula just starts BAWLING.

-Oh look. A well executed plot twist. Loved the way that they conveyed Horus and Seth's true bond through how compatible and fluidly their memories were able to work together to fight against the group. Then there's the use of Seth's old memories to reveal that Horus had been on his side the entire time and that he was even the one who let him flee Duat. Also, an expansion on what seemed to be such a simple rule. Being able to control the sand being way more powerful than expected through a technicality.

-This one might actually be my favorite event. No. Not because it's a Fuxi or bird event. Shut your slut mouth. Banger music, great story, great picks for the characters and the dynamics, an exile reveal. Fuxi being so unhinged that he tries to fight literal children and Simurgh playing the straight man to his funny man will always be funny. Also, there was just that one moment where MC went "pull the trigger pussy" while Simurgh held a gun to their head and that's so based of them. Mostly dissapointed we didn't get more Nüwa lore.

[swallowtailed]

palisade 42 (!) part 2/2: the character arcs of it all. also, rule of three.

at a certain point in this episode, i paused it and made the following voice to text note: "it does kind of feel like the third beat here is for brnine to die". (except voice to text rendered "brnine" as "brian".) then i put the episode back on and one second later ali said she had a move that let brnine put themself in peril to protect someone else. at this point i got off the highway and got taco bell because the only alternative was to scream forever and also i thought it would feel right to listen to brnine's death scene in a taco bell parking lot.

anyway, the rule of three. brnine has borne witness to a lot of self-sacrifice—or, well, almost. they weren't there when valence died. they were there with phrygian, until the very end. and then they're in the cockpit with jesset as he tries to throw his life away. there were two outcomes, as i see it, to resolve this arc. brnine could sacrifice themself to save jesset (die to break the cycle of their friends' deaths and essentially pass their torch to jesset), or they could stop jesset from sacrificing himself and survive as well (outright break the cycle of self-sacrifice among millennium break). i would've supported the first option! it's resonant and tragic! but i do think that, once brnine didn't bite it while stopping jesset, it felt more right for them to survive. because that arc is then an arc toward survival, toward staying alive to fight on.

(if brnine were to die in the finale, i would sort of hope that thisbe would also die, because it would be incredible for cori to be the last survivor of the original blue channel crew. not that i want thisbe to die (at all, even a little bit). but just imagine.)

also it was just a very good scene in general. jesset stopping as soon as he felt brnine touch his hand. squished together in the cockpit debating self-sacrifice. also, the little affirmation of thisbe not leaving this time (not like with valence); brnine not leaving without thisbe (not like with valence).

lastly: brnine getting an extra risk slot aboard the blue channel was suddenly heartwrenching. that's the ship valence gave them to escape... and it's not even that they're any safer or stronger on board, they can just survive a little longer. one more breath. i think the only way would be for brnine and the blue channel to go down together.

cori this episode: (deep breath) FUCK YEAHHHHHHHHH. three sets of black wings babey!!! we love to see it. sylvi's line about it—"not content are they with chaining our wings down, they are chaining the wings of the god we're supposed to be worshipping"—absolute banger. i don't think we knew (or maybe i just forgot) that original devotion had wings, but it's a beautiful touch alongside cori's wings. a chained angel under the eye of a dark sun. i'm so excited to see where she goes next. with, now, another grief to bear. (also, hey—is she older than any of her siblings now? since she's been outside the mirage?)

thisbe this episode: nonstop slay. it is so great to see thisbe unleashed. illusion strats as compelling as always. her faith in figure at the very end, her steadiness while brnine and jesset balance on a knife's edge—thisbe is so important. janine remarked that she's underutilizing integrity, but i think this episode really showed that new confidence thisbe has gained with it. i'm really interested to see where that relationship goes. it seems like thisbe is treating integrity like a seedling to nurture. ultimately, i think thisbe might still need to confront her conflation of personhood and use; it works for her, but it's not gonna fly with every divine. also: shrieked with laughter at the return of the concrete hamburger seatbelt. everything that has happened before will happen again, we're going back to the mirage, etc etc. attached to that, though—ebullience being turned into corporate art genuinely feels like a fate worse than death.

i don't know where this leaves us with figure's death, frankly. perennial's grief felt like it paid off their last roll, and we got a brief scene with the crew finding out, but it still doesn't feel resolved to me. i think i'm looking for wherever cori and brnine, in particular, go with this. we'll see. (would be neat if cori went over to perennial.)

now, with all that said, imo the last 90 minutes of this episode were maybe some of the best palisade has been. the weight of the whole divine cycle came to bear on those moments. (it might just be that i'm listening to counterweight right now, but i'm feeling counterweight, too.) i think i'm at a point with this season where i'm genuinely open to whatever ending comes, because there's so much material that it'll resonate forward either way.

and they’re going into the mirage.

[afreakingdork]

Hello! Okay so based on your recent post we know you have no interest in tcest and such but not gonna lie, it also made me wonder why you decided to write the most recent fic, On the Spot. Your biggest strength from what I could tell is character exploration and you have already expounded on Leo's struggles with other methods so I was wondering why you chose to delve into incestous feelings as a product of traumatic experiences in particular in On the Spot? Was it just on a whim or did you have another reason?

I'm just asking because genuinely curious and hold no negative feelings against you, the writer, for writing it. In fact the only reason I read it was because I knew that if it came from your hands, the fic will be (in my eyes at least) always be a guaranteed banger, and I was intrigued at how you'd handle these darker topics in your work, and although I finished it I'm still left a bit confused why you made it.

Ahem. Sorry if my ask made you uncomfortable in anyway by the way, you don't have to answer anything you don't want to of course.

I appreciate your concern, but no, nothing you've written had made me uncomfortable and I'm sure people are curious. My ask box and messages are always open.

The following response is put under the cut not because the content discussed is explicit, but because it is triggering subject matter. Please keep yourselves safe.

I'll continue to be candid as that's my preferred method of living. For those who have read Weak Spot, you'll know there was a crest of Leo's trauma in it where he reveals that he loved (platonically) and still wished Donnie would become part of their family in spite of how many repercussions that brought upon him. Leo's struggles were a topic that @mothmans-left-nipple and I often discussed while I was writing. These messages came to a head around the wedding chapter of Weak Spot and moth mentioned something about how traumatizing the event must be for Leo.

In that moment, I was struck with the entire concept of this new fic. I know you say you believe that Leo's trauma was closed off in Weak Spot, but I never considered it that way. All that happened to Leo was that he became unstuck from where he was frozen in time. None of Leo's feelings about Donnie (again, platonically) are actually dealt with. I have plans to tackle more of Leo and Donnie's interactions going forward in Soft Spot, but overall it felt like a glaring hole in Leo's recovery and moth's comment opened up how traumatic that missed spot was.

The story I then penned delved directly into that darkness and what can happen when trauma is not dealt with. Leo's clinging necessity of spiraling out as he's thrust into this new world that he doesn't know how to navigate quickly becomes a battered thing. He doesn't know how to deal with his emotions and as such he quickly loses control of them. They get warped and malformed until the only way he can view his attachment is through the lens of the past even though no one is there. He's desperate for a modicum of control and release that he's been denied for decades. It manifested in the way it did because of everyone's both reluctance and enabling.

I by no means believe that incest is the only logical way these feelings or this scenario could be dealt with, but for the direction the story took with reader as a prominent character, that was the path that made the most sense in this case. I was very aware of the subject matter i was handling and by no means wanted to make light of it for survivors. My heart goes out to those who have suffered this fate or worse, but that's exactly why I felt strongly about posting this story.

Could it have taken another path?

Yes.

Should it have?

That's not for me to say.

All I can say is i wrote what I did and I stand by that decision.

[eoieopda]

I’m back again actually with one more request 😔😔

Jungkook:

^^^ this is actually the artist whose name I snatched for most of my online personas lolol

The entire album is banger, but this song is what introduced me to him. ^^

🤍🤍🤍

um, i made myself sad? anyways, here’s this! it doesn’t exaaaaactly follow the lyrics, but it’s what my brain conjured when i listened to this. i hope it’s okay 😵‍💫

listen here.

hey, old friend / hope to see you again / someday when the seasons change / i don’t mind a little wait / as long as i can pretend that i’m okay

It’s been exactly a year since you left home.

With 365 days between you and Busan, you’re still waiting for that bittersweet taste to leave your tongue. There’s a small, sad part of you that wants to dive headfirst into that pit of nostalgia in your chest; to swim down, all the way home to that city by the sea. The rest of you accepts reality: when your life calls you elsewhere, you have to pick up the phone.

Unlike a year ago, when you walk into your apartment this time, you’re not struggling to balance more boxes than you should’ve reasonably expected to carry at once. It’s not dark, it’s not empty, and there’s no longer a bare floor creaking under your unanticipated weight. Now, it’s home, filled with all your best-loved belongings.

Well, most of them. Somehow, there’s still an odd box or two tucked away, yet-unpacked.

On the walls hang framed prints of your very first designs: the awkward silhouettes you dreamed up as a kid, and the disproportionate people you’d drawn wearing them. The sketches flow across the wall in chronological order, reminding you how much your skills have improved over the years. At the end of the line, there’s proof in the form of a poster.

Your past self would never believe it, but your persistent inability to draw hands did not preclude you from showcasing your work at Seoul Fashion Week.

With your heels now off your feet and in your hands, you pad down the hall to your bedroom. The second you cross through the doorway, you make a beeline for your closet, flicking on the light switch next to the door before addressing that, too. Shoes returned to their meticulously organized, color-coded rack, you move on to a more daunting task: unzipping yourself from the dress you struggled immensely to zip in the first place.

It takes multiple minutes of twisting, turning, and contorting, but you finally manage to reach the zipper hiding between your shoulder blades. When you finally wiggle free of it, the dress falls into a puddle at your feet. Quickly, you bend to grab it. You promptly hang it in the “to be dry-cleaned” section of your closet, to be swiftly replaced with pajamas.

As you turn to walk back into your bedroom, a cardboard box catches your eye. It sits on the top shelf next to out-of-season outfits in vacuum-sealed bags. Visibly out of place among your artfully curated clothes, it’s a bit worse-for-wear — especially after the four-hour drive from its first home.

It takes less time to stack two hard-top suitcases on top of one another, climb on top of your haphazard pile, and pull the box down than it did to win the fight against your zipper. You waste no time in shooting a glare over your shoulder at the antagonist hanging remorselessly behind you.

Impatient as always, you drop to the floor and sit cross-legged with the box in front of you. Unlike every other box you’d moved with to Seoul, this one isn’t labeled in your chicken-scratch hangul. A little mystery, you open it cautiously as if its contents might bite.

Inside are the little trinkets you’d forgotten you’d kept: theatre ticket stubs, loose bits of confetti you’d saved from various concerts, photo booth picture strips with people you hadn’t seen or spoken much to since you left. Your heart twinges as you take in their faces. All of you had grown up and apart since you sat there, squished together and smiling.

There’s one artifact in particular that makes your heart flip. Sitting at the very bottom of the pile is the cell phone you thought you’d lost — one you apparently packed, but assumed was gone forever. As soon as you got to Seoul, you’d replaced it, but none of your data survived the switch over.

In a flash, you scramble to your feet and scurry out of your closet into your bedroom. It’s entirely unnecessary, but you vault yourself onto your bed and you don’t stop crawling until you get to the nightstand on the other side. Within seconds, you slot your new charger into your old phone. You wait with bated breath for signs of life.

It takes an eternity to finally turn back on, but once it does, your old phone screams at you for the multiple software updates you’d missed over the last year. You ignore those notifications, but there’s one you can’t.

A missed call and a voicemail received at some point during your drive north.

There’s no way to describe the feeling in your chest. Halfway between a thunderclap and an electric shock, it forces out a gasp, nonetheless.

Jeon Jungkook.

You’d gotten into a fight the month before you left, and just like that, years of friendship went up in smoke. He was angry at you for leaving him when he needed you; you’d cried because he didn’t seem to care what you wanted. It was messy and it broke your heart in two.

You never told him precisely why his lack of support stung so fucking bad.

By the time you piled your life into the trunk of your car, neither one of you had apologized for the cruel shit you’d said. His contact information was gone in a few hours’ time, and you never heard from him again.

Or so you thought.

Hey, it’s me. I — uhhh — I know you’re on your way out of town, and that I’m way too fucking late with this, but I can’t let you go like this. I can’t let you go, period. Not — not the way that sounds. I’m not trying to prohibit you from going anywhere. I mean that I — Fuck, I should’ve written out a script or something…. This isn’t going well, is it? Anyways, I miss you. I’ve been missing you this whole fucking month. And I really am happy for you — proud of you. Most of all, I’m sorry for being so fucking selfish. I just — call me when you get there, okay? Call me, and then I’ll know we’re okay. That we can be okay. I, uh… I love you. Drive safe.

[talenlee]

Story Pile: Hokkaido Gals Are Super Adorable!

Chances are if you follow the ongoing anime season release schedule, you might have seen the trailer for Hokkaido Gals Are Super Adorable!, an anime which tells you everything by telling you nothing. If you’re not familiar with the trailer, here’s what you get:

Hokkaido Gals Are Super Adorable! | OFFICIAL TRAILER

Watch this video on YouTube

I thought this anime looked modestly cute but also dumb as hell, but I also thought it was going to be fun to watch and show pictures of these characters wearing clothes in the snow to my Canadian friend and watch their reaction to it. What I wasn’t prepared for was that the opening and closer are bangers, and I wound up watching enough of the anime that I wound up giving enough of a damn to how this nothing plot could possibly resolve itself. Where was it going? What was it going to be about? How could this tourism pamphlet with tits turn its lack of any tension into a story by the end?

But before I go on: Talking about a low-stakes romantic anime like Hokkaido Gals Are Super Adorable! is rarely the kind of place where you have to be overly concerned about Spoilers, but this is an anime where the manga represents a sort of second leg to the story, in which the story gets a bit darker (momentarily), and then becomes a story about watching a slow set of conversations being thoughtfully played out over the course of basically a single year. I enjoyed it but also if I missed half the episodes I wouldn’t have noticed. I can’t not spoil things here.

Also, Content Warning. At its heart, Hokkaido Gals Are Super Adorable! is a fanservice-focused series that centres on the story of a bunch of teenagers. It’s a horny series where you’re going to see boobs and butts and underwear and you’re not going to see sex, but these teenagers sure think about sex and sure think about having sex. For some of you any media that depicts teenagers as sexual beings makes you uncomfortable and I’d say that you’re going to see that, so you shouldn’t. If you’re in the middle space on that kind of thing — like you don’t mind anime being horny for your own reasons, but there are things anime can do to make it worse. Like, in this series, yes, these teenagers are horny for one another, but there’s no point where an adult thirsts over one of them. It’s just teenagers into teenagers, and those teenagers are deliberately doing things to represent and play with being sexy and flirty with one another. You’re not getting nonconsensual peeking in this series, which I think is part of why I feel a lot more comfortable with its Layers Of Horny.

Also, another part of the content warning, but the middle of this story features a sudden dip into parental emotional abuse. It’s really weird, too, because this is a story that you have probably looked at and gone ‘oh I know everything going on here,’ and like, you’re not wrong, but it’s somehow a better made example of what it is.

Jesus christ, what an intro.

Anyway.

This is the pitch, this is the premise. This is an anime about a boy, and he goes to Hokkaido, and there is a Gyaru there. Now if you don’t know what those words mean, here, lemme go. Hokkaido is the northernmost large island of the Japanese archipelago, which has its own distinct kind of Japanese culture, which is based around things like a colder climate, more open space, less intense urbanisation, and less public transport. A Gyaru is a particular kind of fashion style that’s typified by a vision of constructed femininity, fashion as consumption and a fixation on fun and relaxation. It’s kinda a ‘party girl’ aesthetic with a lot of specific signifiers that work aggressively against the common Japanese fashion trends of compliance and blending in. And a boy is a thing that some anime feature, it’s like a girl, but only sometimes.

The main character of this story is Tsubasa Shiki, a Tokyo boy who has arrived in Hokkaido to start school here. Being new in town, he needs every part of Hokkaido culture explained to him whether it’s the local branding of a convenience store, the drink everyone here favours, or the traditions and holidays they have.

The actual protagonist of the story is Minami Fuyuki, a fan of the Gal culture style. While she is kind of a basic pile of components, a pretty girl into fashionable style (with massive tits), she’s friendly and flirty, and not good at school, but also, very interested in what life is like in Tokyo, which she sees in terms of being ‘The Big City.’ That gives her an immediate interest in Shiki, but also, you then find out that she’s just a socially active character, who’s kind to people in general. She’s thoughtful when dealing with her classmates, kind to strangers, respectful to adults and as far as I can tell, she’s pretty much a model youth in the context of where she’s from. She is also very interested in pretty things and presenting with a particular aesthetic, and she doesn’t get good grades, but we learn more about that, too.

Now, this story is broken into three chunks, the first one of which the anime covers, and that is the story of Shiki and Minami becoming friends, and learning about who he is in the context of Hokkaido, and how being from Hokkaido influences the way she sees the world. At the end of that arc, we learn that Minami has decided, inspired by Shiki, to aspire to do more and be better, and she’s going to go to South Korea to study makeup. While it’s unsurprising in almost all ways, the story follows a classic track, does a nice job of it, and then, at the end, after building up the tension that she’s leaving, Shiki works up the strength to run to talk to Minami in the airport, even asking for a lift to the airport from his normally withdrawn father! It’s a big deal! He rushes to the airport, he tells her he’ll miss her and she says

‘Sure, see you in two weeks.’

And you know as far as building a series up to a punchline, that’s pretty good! You get the drama of an airport confession, and the knowledge that the series has somewhere to go from here, and those two thoughts run into one another with the revelation that Shiki just didn’t ask an obvious question (‘for how long?’) and Minami operated on the assumption that he understood she wasn’t going away for good.

The anime ends, essentially, on a soft footnote, where it’s just introduced two characters and promises that hey, they’re going to be important at some point, and shown some things about Shiki as a person (that he’s anxious, afraid of separation, and also that he’s grown out of that somewhat thanks to Minami), and you can read the rest of the manga for where the story goes next.

Mixed in amongst all of this, though, and part of what makes this anime so distinct to its genre, is the way the story pulls up short to go ‘hey, here’s a thing about HOKKAIDO. Did you know we are in HOKKAIDO? here in HOKKAIO, we drink THIS yoghurt drink!’ And while I am making fun it’s pretty interesting the way that this story has the vibe of someone who wants to tell you about a place, but also wants to do that while also showing you a romance between a pair of perfectly cute, nice characters. It’s not seamless, but it works better than I would have expected knowing I was essentially watching an ad. It lives alongside Zombieland Saga in the terms of an anime that advertises something like a place, rather than the usual thing anime advertises, which is buying signifiers of liking that anime.

It’s a fun enough anime, it’s as challenging as a snowcone but it feels like it’s built very competently out of pieces by someone who is trying hard to do something that’s worth your time to look at. It’s someone who wants to infodump at you about Hokkaido life and also wants to draw some tits, and it’s hard for me to feel bad about that as an overall product.

That’s where the anime checks out of the story, give or take some minor notes. It’s also about a third of the way through the manga, which prompted me to wonder where the hell else this manga had to go. As it happens what follows then is a trip into Shiki’s backstory and the discovery that he has separation anxiety and struggles with social connections because his mother has been uhhh, um, protractedly and consistently emotionally abusive to him? For his whole life?

It’s not subtle, it’s not even a little bit subtle, it frames his mother like a horror monster, and her first dialogue with him is about taking his phone away from him because he shouldn’t have access to that kind of thing for fear of it making him ‘indolent.’ She wants him to excel at everything and then criticises him for wasting his time at those things. She gets him a tutor to improve his grades and when he does so, she praises herself for picking a good tutor.

The story literally has Shiki realising she will never give him the love he needs.

I wasn’t really prepared for this pivot. I’ve been so housebroken by mid-tier romantic anime about weenus boys who get the best and most appealing romantic narrative they could imagine dropped in their lap and spend multiple volumes of a manga fumbling it, that when a series presents that to me and says ‘now here’s why this ordinary boy is such a mess’ I’m kinda shocked to see it’s an explanation that makes actual sense instead of a default assumption that being a complete twerp is a relatable norm for any given Japanese boy.

The tension that rides out this second arc is the question of if Shiki is going to remain in Hokkaido (which he does), and what’s involved in that including some reckonings with parents both good and bad. It’s not the kind of conclusion I personally would find satisfying, but what do I think this fluffy romance manga was going to do? Include a lengthy chapter on family court where a child emancipates himself from an abusive parent?

One of the things that this genre holds to itself is the simple idea that all these characters are broadly speaking going to be okay. Nobody is going to be completely ruined by this experience and if people have a misunderstanding, then the solution will be talking about it. That includes the mother who has been emotionally withholding and abusing her son, which in my mind, kinda sucks, and obviously I’d rather an end point where she I dunno, like, I don’t know what fits in the genre. Maybe throw a pie at her or something, whatever.

The third arc of the manga is essentially about Minami and Shiki getting together that is fundamentally a kind of password exchange story. You’re looking at two pieces of information that are both true and known and the only thing impeding the end state of the story is that the two people who know this true thing can meet in a place and time when there’s nothing impeding the exchange of that information. Along the way there are multiple sequences of characters taking their shot at one or the other and it’s a perfectly nice story, but it surprised me to realise two important things that this genre normally has.

Back in the fandom of Ranma 1/2’s height, there was some consideration of the Consolation Character. See, in that story, there was Ryouga Hibiki, a guy who had a crush on one half of the main couple, and Ukyou Kuonji, who had a crush on the other half. Late in the manga, two characters were introduced which nearly obviously perfectly matched up with Ukyou and Ryouga as potential romantic partners, and while one of them is more fun than the other (Konatsu, a crossdressing ninja boy who may actually be a real trans woman in a series that otherwise lacks one, sorry), the fact remains that when Ukyou and Ryouga get left in the lurch by the obvious end goal of the story it was kinda nice to know that they weren’t now restarting at zero with no romantic prospects and nobody to share their common interests.

One of the problems in Hokkaido Gals Are Super Adorable is that of the three girls who all have crushes on Shiki, two of them also have crushes on each other and have never heard of bisexuality, or polyamry. Given the traditional nature of the kinds of families and structures this story includes, it’s not surprising to me that nobody’s going to be sending invites to a google calendar, but it does highlight that this series does require two people to experience heartbreaks, heartbreaks that the story does genuinely show you and treat as real things that aren’t easily ignored, in order to get its core couple together. Which is in a way kinda weird, since those characters were only introduced to the story to be part of that story and not get the boy in the end, meaning that this highway has cul-de-sacs on it that also cry when you leave them.

I really can’t underscore enough how much this series feels like it’s not worth this kind of extravagent consideration. If you saw the trailer and went ‘looks cute, who cares’ you have probably had the more thoughtful and more serious reaction to this than my surprisingly intense need to write about the three arcs of a series that honestly barely has the juice for one. But the characters are sweet, the story is actually well put together – he says, actually, as if it’s fundamentally surprising when a harem romance anime ends well and is well constructed – and I was genuinely surprised by how even for a series that includes ‘look at the characters’ thighs to see the solution to our word jumble’ as a title card, it wound up being full of heart and thought.

And make no mistake this is wish fulfillment high school romance schmaltz, there’s no drama or tension that is not entirely centered on how people feel and what they care about. But there are moments, like when it does a Hakyuu!! riff or when a character is finally introduced after a hundred issues of her only appearing as a background character but also being very able to prove she previously existed, that it demonstrates a degree of quality that this genre normally just figures it doesn’t even need to try at.

There’s a lot of mid stories told in mid manga, but it’s pretty rare to see a mid story told so excellently well.

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[acedearests]

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[the-ark-awaits]

Hello all you may remember me from such bangers as 'show me the proxies in marble hornets' and 'and another thing'

oday um here to talk about how we've fucking regressed as a fandom since creepypasta and marble hornets on ao3 got. presumably merged as a fandom tags bc sorting for exclude crossovers still shows creepypasta fic. in fact doing that just now to confirm this, the very first fic on the list was creepypasta.

so obviously this is a huge pain in the ass for anyone who wants marble hornets fanfic and only marble hornets fanfic. you cant even remove creepypasta fics with exclude crossover, youd have to do it manually with filtering options not everyone knows how to use. and we shouldnt have to yknow? you should be able to go in your fandom tag on ao3 and find only that fandom and crossovers (which should be easily filtered out by exclude crossovers) same as here on tumblr crosstagging is a huge issue but the worst part of it is that the continuous crosstagging in recent years has caused the fandom tags to be merged (not fully as shown by the fact that the numbers for amount of fic in each tag is different) but enough that they're considered the same universe by ao3 which is. blatantly untrue.

creepypasta is a catchall term for internet short stories made by a community, marble hornets is one single webseries online. fuck the creepypasta fandom wouldnt be what it is without huge swaths of shit stolen from marble hornets (like yknow, the pages, the operator symbol, masky and hoodie) but that doesnt mean they are marble hornets fans that doesnt mean theyre making marble hornets content. that would be like saying that since fnaf and batim are kinda similar and the fans have an overlap that means theyre the same and should be tagged the same. they arent, and shouldnt be yknow?

also apologies this isnt the best post im kinda fried rn and im stuck on mobile

that not withstanding its fucking depressing. this did not used to be an issue. thr only fics tagged with both were generally easy to ignore or a real honest to god crossover, but now i swear you look at the mh tag on ao3 and the majority of the recent fics are crosstagged crp fics with giant tag lists that tack up the whole page and tag anyone who is so much as mentioned

and maybe this is a step too far here. but i really think this is bc of tiktok. the people crosstagging posts and fics seem to be the same type to complain avout the 'ao3/tumblr algorithm' not favoring them. but there is no algorithm, just annoyed fans who have to dig for their actual content because people dont have common decency anymore. theres an etiquette you need to follow for shit like this. like how would you feel if like. i dunno. fucking... genshin (just an example of a large fandom or whatever made a character cameo out of like jeff the killer and suddenly all the crp tags were filled with genshin posts not even related to or barely mentioning the character, just ti try and get more clicks?

youd be pretty fucking annoyed having to scroll past all that to find actual creepypasta content huh?

thats the same issue happening here, and honestly i think its a huge issue. for obvious reasons but also bc its so much harder to find mh content now that im sure its incredibly disheartening to be a creator in the fandom rn and foe the past few years. you work and make content for your rather small fandom and its buried under barely related shit, its gonna feel bad yknow? especially when that content gets more clicks bc. frankly theres more creepypasta fans than mh fans just bc of what creepypasta is format wise. its collectively made shortstories. you can like one or two and bc a crp fan, its not like that for mh

this is going kinda off my starting topic but anyways if theres any ao3 tag wrangles following me or who see this.

please for the love of god i beg of you to do anything you can to unmerge those tags i will do anything ill get receipts proving they're separate things please unmerge the tags im dying here

[underratedandoverit]

that scream i hear

651 words

i mean technically its orangekip i guess. belt corruption arc/immortal fears. i just poured this out of me in like twenty minutes so i can cleanse myself up from bad brain before i go to bed. its angst, i guess with a somewhat content ending. if it doesnt make sense i dont care, not all things can be bangers but im gonna post this anyways

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“I hate you!”

Eyes staring up at the dark ceiling, Kip slowly gained control of his body again. His throat felt dry, he could barely move his fingers, the floor underneath his back felt cold. The sensations were all hitting at the same time, almost paralyzing him all over again.

Kip blinked slowly.

“Fuck you!”

He did remember those words, he could hear them echoing around the room in his own voice. Kip had no idea how long had passed since that moment, but he could feel the tension still lingering.

Slowly his hand rose up from the floor, the arm following it, lifting the shaky hand in front of his face. He was barely able to focus on it, watching the little driblets of blood falling from it. They were hitting him directly in the face, but Kip didn’t care. He didn’t remember cutting himself, but the wound looked fresh. Still stinging a little bit too.

“I fucking hate you!”

The hand lowered down on his chest, leaving a bloody hand print behind, no doubt. Kip couldn’t remember how he got here, what had happened. All he could remember was the disappointment in Cassidy’s eyes, his own words screaming at both him and Kip himself, not really being sure who those words were ultimately aimed at.

He could hear the door opening, but Kip didn’t respond. The barely aware blond just laid on the floor, feeling the floorboards shake a little as the footsteps got closer to him. He didn’t respond back to the calls of his name, or look directly at him as Cassidy knelt down, hovering above him.

They both remained silent, Cassidy’s eyes leaving his unresponsive face to track down to the hand on his chest, wincing a little bit at the sight of the blood. He was hesitant to do anything though, having seen Kip already throw himself into a frenzy over his attempt once, leaving some more broken dishes and a couple of bruises behind over a mere touch of his hand. Cassidy’s eyes darted between Kip’s hand in desperate need of care and his blank face a couple of times, finally leaning over some more in order to try to make eye contact.

“Hey.”

Kip blinked, but looked right past him to the ceiling. He wasn’t sure what this state was, but he was exhausted. He just didn’t know why, it all felt very foreign to him. He didn’t remember how he got to the floor, which room this even was, what had happened.

All he could hear were his own words echoing in his mind, radiating with hate.

“We really need to patch you up.”

Cassidy could remember that talking helped. Or at least that was what he had been told a few times in the past, how people had pulled him out of a state similar to this. Not that any of his friends ever recorded him having violent tendencies towards others than himself, but the end result was the same.

Exhaustion. Non-communication. He was going to be stuck here, on the floor, in this state, until someone helped him move along.

“I hate you!”

But did he though…?

Kip’s eyes slowly traveled away from the ceiling, trying their best to focus on the friendly pair of blue eyes looking back at him. The sound that came out of him was barely a whisper, but it was more than enough for Cassidy, as he watched Kip carefully lift the hand up again, pressing it against Cassidy’s chest.

“…Help.”

Cassidy just nodded, offering Kip a soft smile he barely registered, before moving onto the patchwork, clearly having come in prepared for this task. Kip’s eyes traveled back to the ceiling, the almost scarily familiar numbness washing over him as he barely felt Cassidy cleaning up his wounds, as much as it would usually sting.

“I fucking hate you!”

But…

But he didn’t though.

[voltaic-resonance]

So sorry I recognize your art style (I have no one to tell, if that helps, nor do I want to tell anyone because, er >_> they don't need to know I look at the sex from the robot sex game) but I recommend probably making your AO3 work Anonymous. All of your pseuds are linked to your main pseud, which is also a really clear pointer to your main blog, so...

Anyways. Banger sex art. I will now think of using the railcannon like that

LMAO well, that was quick. At least I get to feel good about the recognizable art style.

Thanks for the tip! I will say I don't necessarily mind if people who go looking for that sort of content know who I am- if I really wanted anonymity I'd have to go out of my way to make my art style less recognizable, and that's not really something I'm willing to do. It's less of an anonymity concern and more that I have irl friends who follow my art blog and... while they probably wouldn't be surprised to find I am drawing sex from the robot sex game, they don't really need to see that. Whereas if they go looking down the rabbithole and find these, that's on them.

The reason I'm not putting my usual signature on these is because I do commissions in an unrelated community with a lot of minors, and there've been a handful of occasions in the past of people digging up artists' nsfw art that comes up when their name is searched as some kind of attempted 'proof' that they're a bad/weird person (which is bullshit). There's a difference between people recognizing my art from the fandom vs being publicly put on blast on drama blogs, even if every mature adult thinks it's stupid. So again, if you know, you know; I just don't want to make it immediately obvious for hypothetical assholes who may type my name into Google with ill intent.

Still- I appreciate you looking out for me, and hope you have a great day! c: