#anyways anyways I will pull myself away from my soapbox

[doginprogress]

pls enjoy this ✨super niche✨ dog meme my friend made last year and we recently remembered

[soildmud]

anyways so i want to draw my tadc oc but i’m currently semi-paralysed by some back pains so all i can do is rot in bed and be on my phone so i will simply just ramble about them

so basically my idea for the oc (her name is kelpie. like the mythical creature? yes.) is that she’s a barbie-like doll, and essentially is the dumb blond trope (but she’s not blond!!!! she’s different i swear!!!!). well kind of? she just talks like one but she is smart, and doesn’t like to think about anything distressing. whenever a bad topic comes up, she always has an excuse to leave, like changing outfits cus now it’s 2 o’clock or something, y’know??

she has seen the exit doors plenty of times and has even gone through them and may have possibly seen something, but she pushed it so far back in her mind she doesn’t remember it. before she popped into the circus, she was a gallery curator. she took pride in showing artworks she acquired over the years and educating patrons on the stories and meanings behind each piece. kelpie doesn’t remember any of this, unfortunately.

kelpie’s new form is a representation of loss, specifically the loss of a childhood. as a kid, kelpie was forced to grow up too fast, and never enjoyed the luxury of playing dolls and dress up or pretend. in her new form, however, she can do all of that forever!!!!

kelpie is basically a projection of myself into a shallow character with not much going on currently. (backstory is in the works) also she’s just a self-insert with flavour text LMAOOOO (also an excuse to draw ragatha smooches) (i love u ragatha) (i🩵ragatha) (#1 ragatha fan)

kelpie’s “gimmick” is that she’s like literally a barbie doll so her room looks like the dreamhouse and oftentimes she has a bit where she does a dress up montage for literally no fucking reason and everyone is just standing around like [why does she keep changing???? we’re trying to run away and she’s changing outfits?????]

also all her food is just plastic toys (this is inspired by a bit from legends of avantris’ very own derek hudson) (luv u derek) (my fav) and all her appliances are just cardboard cutouts or painted images on her wall. how does she pull out that plastic merlot??? who knows!!!!!!!!

anyways that’s my soapbox for now, i’ll probably draw her later when i’m not frozen in place with pain 🩵

[anna-justice]

so i was on a retreat for the last 4 days (covid safe), and i tried to keep myself away from all social media while there. getting back onto to everything this morning was crazy.

i know by posting this here i am really preaching to the choir, but i am so frustrated. laroyce’s comment put me over the edge.

1) sophia bush chose to leave CPD. she wasn’t happy and she wanted to move on. she doesn’t deserve to be pulled back into a universe she purposefully left because her once love interest is now with someone else. she’s had four years to make peace with the experience, it’s not fair that people keep drudging up the past.

2) jesse lee soffer and sophia bush dated in real life. i cant imagine how hard this is for tracy, with all the hate...but jesse is having to face the music over a real relationship AND an on screen relationship. half the people that are mad about upstead are jophia fans! jesse and sophia have been broken up a long time and again, we shouldn’t be drudging up the past! in addition to that, i’m sure it has put a strain on jesse and tracy’s friendship (which NO ONE wants). i think the upstead side of the fandom has been great about not shipping trasse, but i cant imagine that they don’t feel like people compare them to jophia.

3) TRACY SPIRIDAKOS IS A BEAUTIFUL PERSON AND IT IS NOT HER FAULT THAT JAY KISSED HAILEY. like even taking a step further to say that hailey admited her feelings, but jay kissed her. JAY kissed HER. if people want to be mad at someone, be mad at him!

okay i’m off my soapbox now. but come on, we love these actors and this fandom. if we want to keep it a happy place to work and thrive, we need to do better.

side note: i’ve followed tv show couples since i was old enough to, and for how (relatively) small the one chicago fandom is, there is SO much controversy over ships (mainly dawsey vs brettsey/linstead vs upstead). i mean this is stelena vs delena level stuff! there’s no need!

anyway, have an amazing day 🥰

[dadzawa-adopt-dabi]

Learn some dam self care Keigo.

Dabi has noticed Keigo getting tired.

"What's the matter? Don't they don't give you Heroes breaks?" He mocks to cover up the sliver of concern.

"Not me." Is the short and bitter response. Its genuine for once.

Dabi puts off the next meeting for a few days to try and give him a break. Spying and working double shifts nearly everyday is obviously leaving the Hero with little time to rest. He’s not worried, really he isn’t, but Keigo may have stumbled a few times last meeting. He caught himself and didn't appear drunk wich leaves exhaustion.

When he messages the hero again it's just to tell him the next meeting time and location. Hopefully the dumb bird has rested up and they can get back to exchanging information.

Dabi ends up running a little late again. Toga wouldn't leave him alone about meeting Hawks and he had to shake her loose before he came to see him.

Keigo is curled into the corner of a sofa and is folded into his wings when Dabi walks into the warehouse.

"No greeting birdy? And after i let you have time off" Dabi notices that Keigo actually dosnt look much better than he had a couple days ago. He makes a note to check social media and see if Hawks had been pulling double shifts the entire time.

"It's fucking cold. Let's just get on with this." Keigo grumbles from inside the cocoon of his wings. He sits himself up straighter but keeps his wings around himself as a makeshift blanket.

It's about 20 minutes into the conversation before Keigo stops talking midsentence. A few moments later he falls forward and Dabi rushes to catch him.

That's it. Its officially intervention time. Keigo is obviously being overworked. He had stopped talking at several points in the meeting, loosing his train of thought or dozing off before jolting himself awake. He's looked him up on his phone while Keigo was struggling to stay awake and Keigo hasn't had a night or day off in weeks. Its past a burnout pace.

So it's not a complete surprise when he finally gives up and falls asleep.

Dabi calls Kuroguri and tells him to pick him up and prepare for a guest as Keigo struggles to wake up again. Keigo is mumbling at him and trying to stand but stumbling, so Dabi walks him straight back into the opening warp gate.

"Your meeting the boss. Oh and I'm kidnapping you until further notice." Dabi casually states and follows after him to see Shigaraki steadying him on the otherside. He had on his gloves he usually used for gaming and was scowling at Dabi already. Kuroguri had warped them right into the living room.

This is going to cause shenanigans and Shig knows it.

"Is he drunk? He can't even stand. What are you doing bringing him here right now?" Shigaraki let Keigo go when he tried to jerk out of his hold.

"I- I'm too- I can't, Dabi?" Keigo mumbled and moves toward Dabi.

"It's fine Keigo. Shig is just concerned. It's fine he's got his gloves on." Dabi muttered to the tired bird and put a hand on his shoulder.

"Is he drunk or what?" Shigaraki hovered nearby.

"Remember how I was saying the Hero commission was pushing him too hard? He's not drunk, just sleep deprived and exhausted. So I kidnapped him"

Shigaraki scratched at his neck.

"Is he always like this? Is there anyone coming to look after him?"

"Not as far as I know. Hey Magne can you start a bath? He's pretty cold." Dabi started leading Keigo down the hallway.

Toga appeared at his elbow and got a good look at Keigo.

"He can use one of my bath bombs. He looks like he needs some self care."

" You can lecture him on self care when he wakes up later." He continued supporting Keigo and was guiding him down the hall to the bath.

" Can you make sure he stays upright in the bath?" Shigaraki asked Shuichi in the corner.

Shuichi hoped up passing his game to Shig to save for him.

"I can bath myself." Keigo insisted and pulled away from Dabi. Waking up a little bit more. He stumbled again and leaned against the wall.

"This really isn't necessary, I appreciate it, but this happens all the time."

Shuichi grabbed his hands and pulled him upright causing a glove to slip off.

"Shouldn't happen at all" muttered a concered Kuroguri from the kitchen as Shuichi made a choked sound.

Keigo snatched his glove back and shoved it on.

"Fuck that's gotta hurt dude, no need to hide those here. I've got mine long. No one cares if I cut them or not bro" Spinner spread his hands out to show Keigo the talons Magne and Toga had painted just a few days ago.

He took Keigo's other hand and tugged off the glove. Keigo's nails revealed as talons clipped short and frayed.

"Dabi can keep watch." Keigo muttered. If this was going to be how he met the rest of the LoV it was better the devil he knew with him while he was vunerable.

Dabi wheezed behind him and coughed to clear his chest.

"Not a good idea" he coughed out.

"No he can not. He would be useless" Shig said while trying not to laugh.

"The hell you all standing around talking for? Let's get bird boi bathed changed and in bed. Not Dabi's bed. They're still not at that point evidently" Magne stated.

"I'm not a child. And I have patrol in 3 hours. I can't just skip." Keigo followed anyways. Sleep sounded so nice and technically he was still spying while he was here.

"Stage one kidnapping and get Kuroguri on a soapbox for Hero treatment and schedules. Got it." Sako grinned.

"You better give me that soapbox. First Shouta now this young man. I've got quite a bit to say to society on how much they demand from heros." Kuroguri appeared to be writing a speech already.

"I'm here so how are you going to fake a kidnapping?" Keigo was really getting tempted by the idea of that rest. Why the hell was the LoV so nice? Maybe if he asked Dabi would dry his feathers off for him?

Too nice. All this sounded too good to be true.

"Magicians never reveal there secrets"

"Wouldnt you like to know feather boi?" Toga cackled as she reappeared with gold and pink bathbombs.

"Keep your secrets then. Also thank you Toga I've been wanting to try these." Fuck it Keigo decided. He was tired and could spy properly when he more rested. This was somehow nothing what he expected the LoV to be and everything Dabi had implied they were for him.

"We are talking about whatever the hell these guys think is going on when I wake up" Keigo took the bathbombs and followed after Shuichi. Only bumping into the wall a few times.

Keigo only nodded off in the bath once and Shuichi threw a rubber duck at him when he did.

"What else does the Hero concil have you hide?" Shuichi asked trying to keep Keigo talking and awake.

"Um I have a 3rd eyelid my visor obscures? My talons are actually my fault at this point. I have to regularly clean and straighten my feathers or use them all up. They are a lot of maintenance but most of its second nature at this point." Keigo stuttered in some parts.

"Eye markings?" That's something Shuichi was actually curious about.

"Not makeup. Most people just assume its eyeliner but I was born with them." Keigo finished rinsing out his hair and held out a hand for a towel.

"Cool. Dabi thought so but I totally thought it was eyeliner."

"How often does Dabi talk about me?" Keigo shrugged into some sweats and a shirt that had a deep v already cut for his wings. That was thoughtful.

"He talks about you a lot."

"Does he like me or something? Do you think he would mind helping me dry out my wings? I dont want to annoy him" Keigo went to leave.

"How are both of you this clueless? You are literally wearing his sweats. Yes he would help you with your wings. we all would if he would challenge us to a pvp for the honor." Shuichi facepalmed.

"They kinda suck though, and make people uncomfortable. My feathers are basically a bunch of knives. Maybe Toga wouldnt mind? She likes knives" He muttered and shuffled towards the room he came into. There had been a couch and he could always use his wings as a blanket. Wet or not he would pass out almost immediately.

"I've never seen Toga and Dabi fight yet and I am not eager to see it now." Shuichi nudged him towards a diffrent room.

"Your rooms over here."

"I have a room?" It was probably because he was so tired but Keigo started crying. They were so nice to him already.

"DABI, your bird is crying. Come fix him." Shuichi yelled towards the main room.

There was some cussing heard and a few seconds later Dabi was beside him.

"Why you crying pretty bird?"

"I'm mostly just tired but you guys have been so nice! I have a own room already and you kidnapped me and my shirt has holes cut and no one minds my talons." Keigo babbles and leans forward until his head is resting on Dabi's shoulder.

"Well yeah, as soon as I started talking about you seriously joining us Shig set you up a room. The sweats and sleep and acceptance is just basic decency. Let's get you in bed." Dabi led him in the rest of the way.

"Wait can you dry my wings? They're wet and gross and Spinner said you wouldn't mind? I promise they won't cut you." Keigo muttered. Dabi would probably say no but he was too tired to detach them all and spin them around until they dried.

"Sure. Go to sleep already birdy."

Keigo finally got to sleep knowing it would be for more than a couple hours. Dabi running his heated hands through his wings was definitely something he was going to ask for again.

Fuck the commission he was staying here. Maybe Toga could give him a face mask next time.

[fantasmalforces]

Character Monologue: Valentina Vespucci

[ This excerpt is being recorded on █/█/20█ from a private consultation between Ms. Vespucci and Dr. Hill lasting from 9:00 AM EST to 11:00 AM EST. ]

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“...I started recording the pieces when I was 8... maybe 9. Rotten habit it was, I knew that. But my father gave me the recorder and said I could use it after he fixed it up. So I did. I started using it. It wasn’t when the fights started— no, they’d been going on for years. But it was when she started blaming the conflicts on me that I did...

You see, when my mother married my father, she stopped working. The power and the status went to her head. I mean, he had enough income to support all of us and then some. So she wanted to become a social elite, a trendsetter. And she wanted to rope me into her scheme. To her, happiness was an afterthought. Being popular and well-recognized was more important. Sure she had good standing in the community, but then again, anyone might when their using their families necks as a soapbox and no one notices because they can’t see past the glittering reputation she’s built up. And when I didn’t want to play along, when I started making her lose balance, she blamed me for dirtying her shoes instead of simply letting her walk all over me.

I should make it clear: I don’t hate my mom for what she did. It feels weird. After everything, I still love her. I loved her up until the moment I watched the light fade from her eyes while she glared at e. I loved her every bit as much as I loved my dad. But I don’t think she’d say the same. My father used to tell me “she loves you, she just doesn’t know how to express it” but the more I think about it, the more it feels like a cold comfort for a child crying about why her mother hates her. I could never believe it, even if I wanted to. And believe me, I wanted to. But I know the truth. The fact is she hated me. I didn’t fit her mold and I was basically a bastard for that fact alone.

The recordings say it all. A lot of them caught her coming in and telling me to my face that it was my fault. It was always my fault. Even in the end when she was on her deathbed, she insisted that it was my fault things ended like this. You can hear me cry in a few while she berates me. I’d ask her what I did to cause this and she’d never answer. And- and I know that after all these years I shouldn’t have these. Right- I should have gotten rid of them a long time ago. Nothing but bad memories and broken dreams in that box of cartridges. But- but a part of me can’t let it go. It wants to search for something, find... something. The cancer that took her, or the faulty machinery that killed my father. The cause of all her problems. The root of all my flaws. The problem within me. The “it”. I guess I keep hoping that if I listen to them over and over again, eventually I’ll find it- I’ll find out what I did wrong. What I did to cause their arguments. I mean, I know I won’t— of course I won’t. Logically, I know that I did nothing to provoke it— at least I don’t think I did. I never disrespected or fought with her. I stayed silent, I let her rant, and then I walked away carrying all her words with me. [Ms. Vespucci seems visibly shaken by this point.]

That hurt. I’ll admit that it did. It ruined me. And even years later, I still find myself trying to pull off all the hurtful words that she stuck to my skin like duct tape. She doesn’t have to be around to beat me down with them anymore. She threw down so many that now she’s got me repeating them to myself out of sheer habit— a habitual need to hear them. Fucked up sense of normalcy. And old habits die hard, because— you know— the most painful part of duct tape isn’t putting it on: it’s pulling it off.

There are days where I don’t want to get up. I hear her voice playing on repeat with not a cartridge in sight, and I start crying anyway. I don’t want to look at my lab or any of my drafts because I’ll start remembering all the times she crumpled them up and threw them out, telling me I’d never be anything. I don’t want to get out of bed because I’ll hear her saying how I’m so useless I shouldn’t even be seen. I don’t want to get out of my pajamas because I’ll look in the mirror and see all the imperfections about myself she highlighted. I don’t even want to open my eyes because I’ll see everything pink that I love so much, and I’ll remember how she called me childish for even thinking of the color. [It is at this point that Ms. Vespucci begins crying.]

She tore me to pieces. I loved her, and she shattered me. Made me cold and brittle and isolated me, and then watched me smash into a million little fractals. And the thing about being made so fragile without ever actual being treated like it, is that sure, you can put yourself back together— and I did. I tried at least. You can pick up the pieces and repair yourself as best you can, but you’ll never whole again. There are some pieces that you’ll just never be able to find. In my case, it was because she had them. She held onto them once she took them from me. And she had sharpened them just so she could cut me down with them at any and every opportunity. Too metaphorical? I’m sorry— I guess I’m just trying to say that yeah... eventually, my interests weren’t enough. Not for her. [Ms. Vespucci seems to have calmed down and is speaking at a leveled volume but she is still very upset.]

She started making comments. Comments turned to criticism. Criticism turned to lectures and berating. Nothing was ever good enough. There was always something I did or said that I should’ve second guessed, that I should have thought about how it would affect her. Grades, relationships, even time spent with my father. It all became a burden on her somehow. How embarrassing would it be to tell her socially elite friends that her daughter wanted to be an engineer or a chemist? Why would I hang out with my childhood friend who clearly comes from the neighborhood over? Why am I just getting high grades instead of perfect ones? And when that wasn’t enough, she went after me directly.

Why did I like pink? That was a color for little babies. What will her friends think when they hear her grown child is still picking baby colors for her clothes and her room? Why would I come out of the house looking like that? I could barely fit into that dress and the bold makeup makeup makes me look like a slut, not that I could actually catch anyone with it. Why do I cry every time she gives me advice? I’m making her look like the bad guy, it’s her fault I’m so emotional. There’s nothing wrong with me. I just can’t handle the truth. I can’t handle the fact that she’s my mother and she knows better, I just have to respect that.

I never understood how or why it got to me— not back then, but it did. It took me years to figure it out but eventually I did.

Your brain is like a machine. It starts off with just one or two cogs, but as you get older, you upgrade it accommodate new functions, new processes. You start feeding it different things, and it gives you different products as a response. It gets different gears you can shift between, different speeds, different specialties. But most importantly, keeping the gears well greased is the most important part. And negativity- well it’s like oil. A couple drops of it now and then to keep you from running the machine into a wall of blind optimism or unrealistic realities is important. But you gotta remember to clean it out now and then. You let it collect over time and eventually things start to get gunked up and sluggish.

See I know a lot of people who try not to let the oil pile up by uh... compartmentalizing it. Stuffing it in a little box and the trying to uh... tuck it away and forget about it. But the problem is, there’s only so much oil you can fit into one box. Sure, you can keep filling it until there’s more oil than could possibly fit in there, and in the end, only you can open it. And of course, you don’t want to. You never do. But all it takes it just one moment where you actually forget it’s there, forget what it is, just one rainy day.And then you open it. And all that oil is going to come out. I’ve found that it’s far easier to wipe a couple of drops that run down your face off in a moment than it is to swipe away the sudden ocean you unleash from months or years of boxing it up it that cascades in rivers down your cheeks and pools around your ankles, your waist, your throat, until you are drowning in it. And let me tell you, being lost in a sea of oil like that, inky and black, so dark that you can’t evn see the light anymore-- if there even is one-- not knowing which direction is which, not knowing which way is up... It is so easy to drown in that. So easy to just give up and sink, because at that point, what is the point?

So I’m telling you right now, take care of that machine. You only get one. And surround yourself with people who will help you take care of it. And if you can’t find that, then at least find some who will throw you a life preserver.

I wish I had...” Attached note from Dr. Hill: 

“I had deduced from our first session that a strained relationship with her mother may be the cause for Valentina’s low self-esteem and self-reported unrealistic expectations both in and out of her business life. However, in light of the conversation recorded in this follow-up visit, and in conjunction with my previous observations, I believe my earlier theory may be correct in asserting that this psychological abuse has caused her to develop certain behavioral patterns correlating with clinical depression and post-traumatic stress disorder (the latter of which appears to be manifesting in consistent, learned patterns of  self-deprecating behavior, as well as exacerbating the symptoms of the former). As such, I am formally diagnosing her with these issues and recommending weekly visits accounting for two to three days. I am also prescribing her sertraline going forward, both as a treatment for her depression, and because I believe the isolation she mentioned may have stunted her social development and led to a deep rooted sense of anxiety towards social interactions. I will need more information before I can confirm this.

As it stands, Valentina has a long way to go. Her formative years were spent conditioning her into a very intensely damaging mindset that has thus far been the foundation of what may as well be every day of her life. This was in no way aided by the fact that it seems to be she had no healthy available coping mechanisms to process her stress through. Medication is only the start, but paired with good routine and therapy, she may be able to finally accept herself and understand that her existence is not inherently flawed. In if not when’ cases such as these, timing is critical, and it seems in her case, we may or may not have missed the window to offer help. Only time will tell, but I hope for the best.”

-- Dr. Hill

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[sugarwaterradio]

Is Snoop Dogg A Former Snitch?

Hey good evening children come on in boss nigga back in the building dedicated to the dumb shit how are you how are you all right Friday night the biracial racist race baiter I think that's what I call myself back in 2002 and 2003 wasn't it the biracial racist race baiter all right I'm on I'm on some bullshit tonight feeling good I had to recharge my battery earlier and I'm excited to be here tonight I'm very excited I'm gonna talk to you about some bullshit it's Friday night we handle the bullshit on Friday as most people do was I'm sipping my cocktail yeah Snoop Dogg snoop do up d-o-double-g Calvin Brodus put the government name out there earlier oh I got the paperwork hold on a second County of Los Angeles Sheriff's Department 1998 Calvin Broadus interview we come up with receipts give me a minute because you know I like to give props where props who do we gonna put some huh we're gonna put some props um I'm sorry somebody just x-men interrupting me put some props where props are due god damn mob James salute big nigger Reggie right Junior I think I met him back in the days Alex Alonzo tgc crew can someone tell me what that stands for tgc crew they're on a YouTube platform called digital soapbox Network yeah that's why I got the paperwork from you no I want to thank them they probably old niggas like me I'm 55 if you new to the show born in 64 I'm as old as dust but um let me just ramble for a second because you know snoop and I have just a little history it's nothing personal I'm not even sure if we ever met I think we met in 1999 when I was hosting the beat suite with buck wild when MTV I'm not a lot of that shit is a blur from back in the days I was drinking heavy back then and I'm just not sure and somewhere around 2015 or was it 14 I forget he was doing some dumb shit up on the Instagram as he does and I started clapping at that bitch nigga oh he's a bitch nigga he says clapping back at me so we went back and forth but that's all it is just back and forth because you know I think he does too much now I have to get some ages here tonight hang on a sec let me just pull one of these windows down because I just my whole reason for even coming at Snoop is because he's a man of a certain age and he's taking shots at Takashi now to cost his a piece of shit this we know snitching on people and a person like snoop who's supposed to be in a great place in his life he's a father he's probably even got kids older than Takashi I forget exactly all his details I don't gonna give a fuck but um it's just it bothers me to see an older person taking shots at the younger generation that's something I try not to do you know this you know I try and avoid all sorts of tension with younger people because they're younger they have to grow they make mistakes and it's not that deep to Miep anyway so he's taking shots at Takashi up on Instagram talking about snitch stands for Matt you know I only put a pardon me I'm sloppy tonight sorry nigga I just want to come home or something some type of crazy shit and I wanted to get at him two days ago and salute to the homie 702 POW and five other people you sent me some videos which I was not even up to speed on beautiful videos oh let me thank him again Maude James Reggie Wright junior Alex Alonzo the tgc crew Reggie Wright junior if I'm saying this correctly he used to be not just the head of security at death row records once upon a time but he was also Suge Knight's business partner he did a lot with contracts payin niggas signing checks he's been going apeshit and ten toes down on snoop snoop Dogg as well so so now they have given me a window back in and I'm gonna take it so here we are tonight talking about Snoop is Snoop Dogg a former snitch again I've got the paperwork that I pulled off of their website I'm gonna let Ronnie read this to you she's calling and shortly uh mo fax will not be available tonight so I make it someone else I took co-host or maybe I'm sorry you know what then are y'all fair give me a second guys since some all over the place like bird shit tonight let me send Dana attacks Dana with the data maybe Dana can call in and we can talk about other Patriots releasing Antonio Brown yeah that fuck niggas out of here yeah doing too much I want to talk about him and other fuckin niggas like him who can't seem to UM to stop all the dumb shit with regards to you know screenshots and just doing a whole lot up on social media the New England Patriots gave him another chance and he fucked it up if you ask me he fucked him yes there's another female that has come forward with regards to some type of you know sexual misconduct claims but if you asked me what made the Patriots say getting the fuck out of here's something with the doctor's office he was in the doctor's office farting and and he was laughing I couldn't watch that stupid ass video and then the doctor was acting like he didn't approve of it and then a Antonio Brown puts out the tweets again to show that the doctor was cool with I mean just just bozo shit anyway it will come to that shortly as well and I think Ronnie's gonna be on the line with me early hang on a second huh there you are Ronnie let me bring him in now slow my dumb ass down hey boss shit Ronnie are you there on a Friday night hey Thor how are you I'm good I'm good I'm just a little extra charged thank you for being available we spoke earlier there's a lot going on so if I'm you know moving too fast to slummy to slow down we have a lot of names to put on the table but I want to focus on Snoop Dogg and the the paperwork that I got from the TG see crew their website with their YouTube channel pardon me the Sheriff's Department an interview with Snoop Dogg yes 1998 yes and he gave up some pretty good information I'm actually looking at the same paperwork from the LA Sheriff's Department and you know he the entire situation happened as a result of him running from a group of people who were about to put hands on him well hang on a second because someone did punch him in the face according to the report and I want you to read this verbatim just start from the top he was punched in his face he ran and and and toward the end make sure that you highlight the part where he he's totally sheriff or sheriff's deputy that Suge Knight is when they killed Tupac please from the top okay so this obviously is written bias and you know official correspondence this is written by the actual department so I'm going to start reading it now and they start off by referring to him as a gangster rap artist so it's a gangster rap artist Calvin Broadus and Delmar Arnaud were arrested by deputies Ron stay between and Jem Pharrell for possession of less than one for possession of less than one ounce of marijuana during an incident at the Universal amphitheater the deputies were working under a private entity contract providing uniformed deputies outside the backstage area of the amphitheater they were assigned to monitor and assist with the universal security officers Manning the metal detectors used to screen anyone entering through the artists entrance yes did you point out this was 1998 Ronnie yes 1998 may 1st May 1st continue yes 1998 the incident began when fortifies male African Americans approached mr. Broaddus that Snoop Dogg he approached them as employees of Death Row Records a company he had just broken away from one of them struck him the feast with his fists mr. Broaddus mr. Arnaud and a third man priest Brooks immediately ran out of the backstage area outside to where they knew the deputies were posted hold on stop right there so so snoop got yapped in his shit and you ran hold ass bang yeah according to any ran he pulled yeah I'm kind of picturing member Jim Jones running the Rutger hang hang on because topo was calling shots slow that shit down now hang on a second um and again I want to put some respect respect on Reggie right Junior's name because I watched three videos of him earlier today and he broke down that particular incident where a snoop got punched in his in his face and Snoop was on another video you know in the studio telling people that he was the guy that punched somebody so clearly the report that snoop gave to the police is the actual document the factual document okay please yeah because this is his version of event so this is what he told the officers happened to him he said he got punched on his face okay so back to the report they ran outside to where they knew the deputies were posted as the three men approached the depth the two deputies mr. Arnaud yelled out he's got a gun DEP the deputies immediately patted all three men for weapons and discovered that both Brodus and Arnaud had a baggie of marijuana in their pocket Jesus now you said the guy named Arnaud who was with Snoop he's the one that told the deputies they got a gun yes yes yes okay continue please yes detect deputies say Bateen requested assistance when he noticed that approximately 60 males had exited the backstage area and were approaching them in varying degrees of hostility approximately 20 deputies assigned to boot the universal substation and the unis that reserve company responded along with 12 Universal Studio armed security officers and off-duty police officers and 30 uniformed American Protective Service officers responded as well because they quickly restored so that they quickly restored warrant order response units from the West Hollywood station arrived also and stood by while the concert crowd exited there were no further incidents directly related to the concert and no one was injured mr. Broaddus was extremely cooperative during the incident and in fact hang on stop stop right there mr. Broaddus aka Snoop Dogg aka Todd aka snoop lion Snoop depent he was extremely what cooperative you said mr. Broaddus was extremely cooperative during the incident and in fact said that he was thankful that the deputies had been there as he felt that the assault was intended as an act of intimidation he told me that he felt that he was in grave danger as a result of leaving Death Row Records and signing with a new label No Limit okay hang on a sec Ivana you stay right there Daniel with the data I see you sit tight I'm coming you shortly folks the phone lines are open cash app in super chat if you can't get through on the phone lines and again I want to thank these guys for pulling the trigger on this they've been doing this for a while especially uh Reggie right jr. so it just it allows me to you know to take a couple of shots at Snoop and it doesn't seem personal I don't just like the guy but again I have problems with older people always taking shots at the younger generation let them make the fucking mistakes that they're making snoop is not a goddamn killer never been a pimp off and on again weed smoke I I just I remember so much about this guy in fact if I can also just say this hang on a sec Ronnie you know just so that some of you newer viewers will know that it's not personal you know ice arrived with the West during the whole East Coast West Coast beef I worked for verbs and records I was a national director in 1990 up until late 1991 I even lived in LA for about six months um and I just loved the production of dr. Dre I guess it was because I was raised on Parliament Funkadelic and I just I appreciate it more you know musical driven hip hop as opposed to the New York stuff so anyway so we're asking the question tonight is Snoop Dogg a former snitch and can you be a former snitch can you be rehabilitated from being a snitch what is the difference between a snitch and a rat oh there's a difference let me go to super Chet in cash a blade gleaming straight blade says star the same way that you always say there's no such thing as a former pimp there's no such thing as a former snitch you might be right sir you might be right hello good evening hallo says star Takashi is a fucking victim they knew him less than a year these niggas are getting what they deserve all of them he isn't snitching he's telling his story Wow taping for the little Mexican early are you okay I'll let you say your piece if you send in cash EPS super Chet I appreciate that gem star good evening gem star says star why do I get the feeling that you have Ronnie on disguising all of this nigga shit in her caucasian voice just to throw your audience for a loop Ronnie gem star says you have a caucasian voice but both of your parents are african-american yes and both of their parents are african-american okay okay we don't all sound the same Jim sorry Thank You gemst Orpheus oops okay hang on a second let me bring in a call or two I want to see if we can flush this out area code six one zero good evening dog a former snitch six one zero hello ah don't mind me beginning I'm just listeners salut okay will you come from sir I met a silly okay okay so you have no opinion with regards to snoop is your Foreman in Jersey is he a real nigga you know gangbanger gang gang back from back in the days I mean on some real shit rap music was about an image it's about an image right real you think about it you know you lose your image you lose your paper so you know you can't blame a nigga like bathroom for trying to by trying to down Takashi using co-sign a rat you lose your bread you lose the ability to sort like this whole Takashi shit Takashi could still get up on the Internet they just single this shit like that right but this torn bag is about you film because the images is defeated so with Snoop he probably finished he can't come out and admit no shit like that are you born and raised in Philly seven how old you born or raised me I'm 23 23 okay so you're given a pass to Snoop Dogg who could quite possibly be you know pump faking perpetrating the fraud and all that all that extra shit you give him a pass listen I'm I'm giving anybody your past who's chasing a bag I at the end of the day if this niggas snoop philly niggas talking real different now sorry sir respectfully are you familiar with the hilltop hustlers i mean a lot of the foundation for rappers in philly came out of the hilltop hustlers he are you serious you're giving the fuck sure to pass like that yeah hey listen anybody who's chasing a day I'll give him the pad let's get him out of here an exam Barris me to Philly so there you code 708 hang on a second I'm silly 708 good evening Snoop Dogg I see a former snitch 708 good evening good evening sir how are you hi sir I just want to really just let you know that you need weed sponsors for the show man mostly your fucking audio no sir no sir yeah no excuse me YouTube is not playing that game that you have sir YouTube's not playing their game I don't want that type of I'm working on a cable television show I'm not a weed head I'm not a burnout but I appreciate you calling yeah I'll talk about Snoop Dogg or what fuck no man I'm calling some other day I have a good one hey man yeah I'm so high man I think a banning all sorts of vaping oils nationwide Ronnie different flavors or something like that they have banned the vape juice in oh honey can you hold on a second four one three hold a second will you say money Oh they've banned it in one state and they're trying to ban it they're considering banning it in New York the administration is also considering a countrywide ban many people are calling it an overreaction because of the amount of injuries it's you know it's very unsafe or 1/3 good evening are you there four one three how you doing tonight how are you sir what's poppin would you not better are you doing Ronnie all right yourself how are you I'm on oh my just one jump right into it office if new dog is a snitch there's no dog as a snitch then how to forgive anybody give em up there anybody can get in when they come to this this is shit like I don't understand where everybody went wrong with all of this snitchin stuff like it's windy since when is it okay to tell on somebody when you and on the crime on a second we're talking about a totally different generation and I'm not trying to you know say that what's going on right now did not develop a manifest from a place where we generation was failed but I'm going back going back to Calvin Broadus who is talking real breezy now on YouTube he's an old nigga he's an old washed silly nigga and if you ask me I mean it was never a gangbanger you know and I know that sounds harsh coming from me you know because I'm an older guy I'm 55 but we're talking about him now just doing the most up on motherfucking Instagram and you got these guys who are official let's not get it fucked up mob James Reggie Wright junior and Alex groans oh they're same snitch liar um okay um well I don't know of any rappers who was like real in the street okay I don't know of it okay so if he if he was telling this because he wasn't real in the street and we'll get the train in that role like all these other dudes okay so I wouldn't put it back then I mean shit why wouldn't mean maybe the TEL to get that in but here's the problem here's the problem since you know I always talk about the old judge older generation trying to lead the newer generation you can't try and change the narrative of truth and and try to romanticize things and live right Reggie right junior pardon me has outright said that Snoop is lying he was there but anybody would know he would know I watched the videos today he was talking about when they gave us new peelers to leave to go sign to No Limit snoop lion talking about Master P he gave him a million to make that record fuck death row so if you ask me Snoop is doing the same shit that Karras one has been doing over the years with regards to Afrika Bambaataa Afrika Bambaataa never unified no fucking gangs he was a rapper yeah a rapper if you go look you go talk to those oh jeez up in the Bronx they'll laugh at you talk about Afrika Bambaataa unified their gangs in and he brought peace bullshit okay um well I'm wondering who would protect this me because for him to be a yeah I don't know you tell me Jim Jones you talk about capo get set what are you talking about Carlos I think when is that when they come to that ass he's gonna tell just like all these other niggas and they even will talk about rat this rat you gonna be the same maybe enough they may tell about you listen all I know is well sir if you asked me Harlem is the home of snitches Alpo Nicky Barnes and all those ho ass niggers I don't cosign awesome Jersey born raised you feel me thank you for the call me thank you oh yes sir okay salute all right hey Ronnie can we go back to you before we take more calls and Dana sit tight I'm coming to you Dana there's a part within this paperwork again that I got from Reggie right Junior and the digital soap box network where Snoop Dogg says that Suge Knight killed Tupac do you know what I'm talking I can read that it's really tiny much of it yeah I was just getting to that next okay so it says it goes on to say mr. Broaddus also said that he felt mr. Arnaud and are not by the way is that Dillinger she said that he felt mr. Arnaud was in danger as he is still under contract to death row records during the discussion I said that I know who killed Tupac Shakur mr. Broaddus responded by saying that it was the man sitting next to Tupac I asked if he met you I asked if he meant Suge Knight he replied affirmative Lee mr. Broaddus also said that he was upset that his bodyguard disappeared and did not assist him Wow okay folks we have paperwork and I'm gonna try and post the paperwork in the link up under the comments after after this show so you can download it yourself or you can just go to oh it is a digital soap box Network all right so I'm gonna bring you some more calls running or what else is it that we need to put on the table right now because you know a lot of these rappers you know they may come from the street at one point but once they make that transition to becoming an entertainer you know shit changes yeah you spoke about a little C's earlier Fat Joe other people you know even earth gaudy and Ja Rule's still insist they have paperwork on 50 cent you know that I saw that training order against them yeah so and then you know we don't have any paperwork but we do have we're you know test T I did get on the stand and regards to his friend that was killed in a shootout so he did identify the guys that were involved that's sort of like a situation where I can understand but when it comes to the situation where he was pretty much caught with an arsenal I just don't understand how you walk away from that not to a few years of time you know they found drums they've all kinds of drugs just assault weapons just you know and you know he was able to escape from that then you had little seeds who took the stand the little Kim is just now forgiving him for for that so it's definitely something you know snitching is a part of the culture but my problem with Snoop Dogg is that it's hypocritical for him to go on the attack and you know talk about Takashi and your name is in paperwork yeah really bothers me hang on a second area code three one three good evening we're talking about snoop d-o-double-g this is a former snitch three one three grieving are you there look here yeah look here okay I have to wrap it have the rep in the same industry snitch okay I don't know I see no paperwork bad but so I just showed you the paperwork you can go to our digital soap box now what can see the paperwork I'm not sitting here I will check it out I'm a check I'm gonna check it out and get giddy back feed baby okay excuse you the fuck up out of here fuck you calling me for area code three four seven evening 347 are you up to speed on mob James Reggie Wright junior and Alex Alonzo three four seven cleaning yeah yeah it was gunstar oh hey how are you sir yeah I was hearing about that you're stupid and snitch okay that's a fact cos you said he's going down this Hall of Fame but this is crazy never ever none like this home anybody so your phone sounds like shitty you know some type of puerto rican bluetooth audio sounds like shit can you get off of it if I hang up on you come on mum yes I mag you tonight I'm holding Aggie yeah you remember me stars come I feel nothing but I oh yeah man you might be a snitch I don't know you good good at fishing over in there but there's a lot of stitches in there in the street okay telling you just hose this whole shit is crazy because the car he took the tape this man the guy's telling on everybody so his own mom everybody this is crazy but su yeah I think I think there's Ben Ben Ben they don't think that about sniffing all these other people though I don't know why I don't bring them up well serve the GGC crew is going to Enzo's down I'm promoting them all night big one Adam brand knows videos we've been in yes female I've seen that mob gene body out of this morning I've seen that shit that's just crazy this thing's just going on our whole bunch of people not just food hey buddy yeah yeah this is crazy man all that was going on now everybody's gonna have to later anyway thanks get him out of here I don't know what's going on well fuck you calling me for I look for somebody who knows what's going on uh hang on a second blade leaning straight blade sends in a super chat score this niggas six nine is telling on more people than then Joe Valachi did are you proud of your son man fuck six nine I said that yesterday no fuck about him like that and and I'm tired of his baby's mother to was just you know just always eating on the camera disgusting mortal 46 good evening uh star 50 is clowning 6 9 - but 50 was a snitch as well okay eight one three boss says Reggie got caught disturbing major opioids across coasts by the feds and still free Ronnie was adopted by some African booty scratcher Ronnie I don't know Reggie uh right Junior's full background I know that at one point they were trying to say that he has something to do with Tupac's murder allegedly do you know anything about his background and how old he is can you find out Bob James looks like a nigga who beat me on some coke back in 87 down on watch blade carrot blade star you were ahead of your time with the start snitching campaign I just found out that lefty Rosenthal from casino was snitching for years yeah guerrillas oglivie googles Oh says snoop would have been this 69 of his generation if we had social media hashtag snoop rat you know for those of you who remember his snoop dog when he had had that court case him and those guys and I forget the details he was praying yeah I remember the picture you know begging Jesus to get him out of it did he tell its what area code nine Tory good evening 908 talking about Snoop Dogg was your former snitch 908 they was going on star steal in the second hey we'll set me how you it was going on yeah Ronnie definitely laid out some good points regarding uh Snoop Dogg basically snitching regarding uh pretty much the death of Tupac the reason why I made a good point that if you watch one of the interviews he did on glad you mean he basically stated that he came and shook had a fall out a long fall out and basically explained out you know they all the baby got along with each other like a couple years later but there's actual article shit can't remember the website which they should actually states and in Rolling Stones where he believes that uh the dog is a rat if I find that also said a stupid ever even had a fight it's all bullshit and what you're talking about if I can just try and zona know this you know somewhere around 2006 I think I think they made up but you know even then snoopers was talking that Oh crazy shit talking about you know his dogs is about to jump on snoopeh name was about to get to the action you know as if he's a motherfucker who'd been bussing guns you know fuck boy ship oh go ahead yeah I mean I don't think he was I don't really believe he was truly about that life because you know when he explains that story of when image to apartments in New York and nas was surrounded him it was I think o Central Park like he'll eat enough to explain that story correctly he doesn't want to tell people I think Reggie Reggie you said his name earlier Reggie White jr. explained the story will want more details yes on black gpo what up the old nigga Chronicles enjoy some that stuff because you know again I'm 55 some of that shit I don't want to remember I I don't want to remember no bum ass niggas and sloppy bitches from the 80s you know just we had our time don't fuckin meet you out to me on Facebook but you know they're giving details like even last word Theo please I mean like I said the season of snitching I mean look at ki fede so on black babies don't know the one thing that resonated with me in that interview is when he got a phone call from Diddy and did he ask them was it us regarding Tupac's desk I chose to do was just Nicki okay you know good to talk to you man all right yes sir have a good one okay why did you find out how old Reggie Wright Jr is it looks familiar I'm looking for a specific age but I do believe he's in his late 40s early 50s out give me a couple more seconds and see if we can find out how old mob James's I think it looks familiar that looks a long time he looks a little younger but you know just these guys are putting some work in folks this is where I'm pointing to for my source tonight the paperwork it's nobody LG do double J you know talent and clapping it to Kashi silly fuck nigga I think this is Dana here dan is that you Dan with the data 973 yes can you hear me how many I can say how's it going hey how's your channel coming let's promote your channel first before we do anything Daniel Daniel YouTube let's go yes everybody please subscribe to the road and on you to have three thousand subs as of this month so that's a good a nice mouth song yes still growing and so subscribe to the road ain't on YouTube and I go live Tuesday 7:00 p.m. okay okay before we talk about Snoop Dogg being a possible rat or a snitch the Patriots have released Antonio Brown you are a sports person yes anything you want to say about this so any inside formation you may have yes oh I love football and so I've been following Antonio Brunel and so he was released today about a patriot and rightfully so but he's doing too much so it was a writer by the name of Robert Clem Coe of sports illustrator and he pinned to expose detailing how is a dozen individuals talking about Antonio Brown past like former client coaches and saying how he ripped them off or degrading them and one woman during our article accused him of sexual misconduct so a few days after the story broke the woman revealed to Clemente Co that she receives a series of text messages from Antonio Brown so basically in her lawyer saying is you know it's basically you know threatening or harassing you know no text messages and and and so with that I guess the Patriots was like listen you know this is just too much a traditionally blast black ass to fuck up at her now if I can just jump in here for a second supposedly some of the text messages that Antonio Brown was sending to this female he included pictures of someone's kids someone's family a home addresses something like that yes no maybe yeah it's always a group chat to where he was telling people in a chat investigate her and he indicated a picture of her children inside of his inside of this group chat and he specifically said to her arm is really sad you will make bullshit story to the world basically calling her broke is she's doing it for money no okay okay hold on a second Dana number nine wants to call in as well and talk about some of these topics Ronnie anything you want to join with regards to the Patriots releasing Antonio Brown we can shift from Snoop Dogg's punk ass for a minute Ronnie I think it's gonna be interesting to see whether or not any team picks him up because you know at this point it's almost like he's alive liability you don't know what he's gonna do next or who's gonna come from his past and say hey he's done XYZ to me or you know whether or not these claims that have surfaced against him have any merit which I don't believe the first one does it doesn't matter it's the optics it's every time they they turn around you're up to you know your name is in the headlines with some some new allegation so and certainly the way that he acted you know with the Raiders and calling the coach out of requests publicly requesting his release he you know recording phone calls any team you know which actually violated the wiretapping laws in California but I don't I don't really see any team picking him up Wow Dana do you think Antonio Brown is finished in the NFL well he's definitely finished this season I don't know if he's if he does not beat both those cases he's completely finished from the NFL so if he does beat the case he will be picked up next year but he's losing out on money because the Patriots are not required to pay him none of the money unless he filed grievances who wants to go to water and also 90 dropped him as an endorsement and he lost an endorsement from 90 so hang on a second there was supposed to have been nine million dollars Garin to some type of signing bonus he didn't get that yes that was that was a bonus but they had that clause that image clause so if you bring any negative attention to the club they do not have to pay you unless they pay it out of goodwill or you follow grievances so they're not obligated to pay him anything they paid on for week two and week three and that's it okay okay all right hang on a second I'm going to superjet firestarter good evening sir he said store I'm snitching on you fuck nigga I was one of the guys at the par in New Jersey where you were raised when you pulled your father's gun on the basketball court we said we sitting your dumb ass down oh thank you man what was that 1979 I can't play basketball some nigga stuffed my shot you know the story in the shit just yeah yo it fucked me at Mets right well I'm got my father's gun I said ah hell no I can't take that scarecrow and the field did I say that right sent to the super chat 69 and Trey Way is at war ain't no rules in war 69 put hits out but shoddy bum ass couldn't deliver the feds could hashtag stuck behind the eight ball all right thank you so much hey Gemini - hey sugar what's poppin hang on a second she says loving this show story you look extra bright tonight salute thank you darling I like I like you your glasses and your uh your whole makeup there Wow are you single what's poppin are you in Atlanta thank you for your cash app you are appreciated hold a sec guys scroller Frank leaving he says snitch means sorry niggas I'm tryin to come home Aloha yet that's what Snoop Dogg had up on his fucking IG page snitch means sorry niggas I'm tryin to come home and again I'm trying not to make this personal because we've never really had a conversation we've never hung out I just think he's too old to be doing all this dumb shit you know one minute he's white boy Todd then he's Snoop lion and he snooped a pimp give me some of his other names Danis new book do you know some of his other names snoop teriyaki oh no lion no client I said that yeah oh you did yeah doctor snoop carpenters Snoopy dis a fucking dog father the dog father there you go yes hey father he used to okay all right okay so Dana um what else with Antonio Brown released from the Patriots uh he's trying to get a new team uh he released a statement he released a statement via social media he said thank you for the opportunity appreciate at PAX now live it oh now he chooses to be quiet yeah I saw that I saw that that wasn't really a statement that was just thanking the Patriots and then Tom Brady put three little hearts you know just I watched his ship and I'm talking about has he released a statement saying I'm you know I'm sorry yadda yadda I'm gonna get past this no that shit no no nothing defiant black man okay I don't you you you have a pending case with the first victim why are you saying anything with text why are you reaching out to these people that's accusing like how dumb can you be I don't think it's a pending case I think it's a lawsuit but but not it's not illegal I'm sorry it's not a um the police are not to my knowledge they're not looking for him just a lawsuit yes yeah you know I definitely like a pending lawsuit case yeah the police are not involved but we still what are you talking about it yeah area code for to for good evening Snoop Dogg you see a form of snitch four to four no yes look there's a businessman life look best listen like the big homies Ben told me about was house no get down let's go down the silver at you got them from ready yeah all the February that you got from Reggie like I've seen that pepper working he was telling for showing that paperwork but the thing with Snoop is that don't nobody highlighted because you got so much money and status it's like I guess not gonna come some Godfather type shit so it's like kind of like what some West Coast JV type shit yeah we talked about it you know you got deal sorry because especially if you want to entertainment bill you know the meaning so ain't nobody gonna put light on it except for niggas ispotter look yeah I suppose despite a local a couple of months ago he was he was going still going hard at niggas now hang on a second do you know the background of Reggie White Junior mob James and Alex Alonso they they got a a podcast is popular and what does tgc crews stand for do you know the stand for I know the whole background the whole like the whole Martha hosted from that area from Louis Park company so I know the whole background of that honest answer Reggie writing all of that shit man he got much to say by help is he's a police officer at the end of the day you know that move but is he a former cop I thought he was a former security chief for death row his father is a former cop right okay no you look I was trying to be a cop too so yeah hang on a second so what does tgc crew stand for what does that stand for you say Katie be cool t GC crew that's the name of their Sheldon podcast oh come on is that the gangster Chronicles is that what that stands for yeah they made it with each other but it ain't nothing really industry significance is going to men I mean sitting there we just tell him inaudible i-i'm sorry no you know I'm a big fan did you see the homey way no with Adam 22 that was just posted today way knows my nigga for real for real lover man yeah academic you know my thing even you know shit about a pop star I think he or academics is a good guy and and I and I liked nadeska but listen man I thank you for the call man salute thank you somebody sent me a link thank you the homey way no from everyday struggle and folks when I say everyday trash I'm not talking about when we know was there way no it was a big fucking help a great guy great businessman great personality great aura you know he used to come in for those who give a shit in the mornings and sometimes I would say to him I still on the lake and he would say well like am i Salaam great human being you know I don't know the guy Adam 22 he's and don't tell them but they spelled my name wrong on that no jumper interview they spelled the STAAR are in a second Dana any thoughts on snoop d-o-double-g den are you a fan of snoop dogg's he's been called the snitch Dana yeah I'm not really a fan of his a party like maybe one or two songs but that actor that was that big casing he did the saw myrtle at the case that they gave me it's that case that they were furniture right say that again I was doing something else what the the case that you're talking about he did a song after he was on found not guilty the song called murder was the case that they gave me it was around that time right I'm following you leader and no but I'm just but what I'm when I'm hearing when I'm noticing what a lot of these rappers that you know had run-ins with the law whether TR sue for whoever none of them never went to jail before they were rappers even though there was someone in the street so that says a lot if you don't have a history of doing time it's for a reason you are more likely to tell because you don't want to go to jail that's thing I used to say I don't want to go but I'm not scared to go nobody's scared to come that's funny running mouth okay okay so the murder case was in 1993 and it looks like this incident was 1998 yeah the murder case as you say was much early but but Snoop talking to the police giving them a statement that came years later yes okay so well I wonder if he snitched on our murder case hmm well he was acquitted he took it to trial yeah and he was acquitted okay okay he was acquitted as well so yeah I don't but I'm just saying but with that years later you know talking who knows but all right so I'm ahead a couple years ahead I'm thinking on the very first month I didn't know about this second incident that happened okay all right so why did you find anybody's age mob James Reggie White jr. Alex Alonso well Reggie White jr. I found an interview where he talked about being a member of the great Street Crips and the peter'll mafia back early 80s so I could speculate as to his age but he's not the type of person that has a Wikipedia page so it's gonna be pretty hard you know other than guesstimating okay hang on a second I'm looking in the live chat my beautiful troll babies anybody know how old mob James is I saw him up on a Vlad TV a few times no okay all right ladies can we switch gears for a minute we'll come back to Snoop Dogg and Antonio Brown Ronnie there's some new controversy going on with hmm and some young girl's hair that appears to be not combed and and once again at H&M I don't even know what HM stands for they are at the center of controversy can you bring us up to speed on this I saw the story I was kind of turned off and I said this looks like some new fashion chic bullshit Ronnie yeah well as you just said you know they are no stranger to controversy if you recall they came under fire back in January 2018 for an ad that featured a black boy and a sweatshirt that made reference to monkeys so now once again they find themselves a new coolest monkey in the jungle to be yeah coolest monkey in the jungle right so now they're you know they're in a little bit of controversy for another ad that features a young black girl now if you're one of the few people who hasn't seen the adding question there are several shots that feature the girl and what some would describe as you know her hair in a natural state so I've seen both sides of the argument play out on online ad nauseam you have some people who feel that H&M used those images to mock and clown the girl and they say that you know there should have been a hairstylist on site to change their hair but on the other side of the argument are the people that feel that there's nothing wrong with the images because it captures her hair in its natural state and so to those people anyone who is complaining about her hair is actually making an attack on her that reinforces Eurocentric standards of beauty okay do you know you have to speed on this door now yes or a clip of it on can you pull it up because I think this is important enough hold it up I'm looking at it yeah I don't I don't see nothing wrong because the other little girls here are a mess however this little black girl they could have found another nephew had a black girl to display because she do have damaged edges they just should have had another nappy headed black girl but all the other girls here on that's two of different backgrounds so I don't think I'm the wrong with this I didn't make it black people raised baby and we need to stop you are Pro black you stand up for the black man even though you know you you've admitting gay porn you're saying this is acceptable yeah I just look if that was my child I want to say okay you'll be use her but let me take the ponytail to make out so little afro or nappy afro as you look a hot mess but again all the other girls here I learned that so no I select before their rates every speeding with this wealthy nothing wrong but she do need her hair done she need a hair treatment Ronnie I don't have any biological daughters that I know of or that I'm claiming but you know and your thoughts on this story AJ and what is H and M stand for ladies that I forget this is a huge clothing chain well you know like Dana I I think I took it upon myself to look further into this and I have to agree with her all of the children and the ad are featuring similar hairstyles and by similar hairstyles I mean it's not styled at all there's no semblance of professional hair care and any of the pictures for any of the kids they're rocking sort of like just out of bed messy hair hairstyle so it looks like that wasn't look they were going for with everyone now while I don't personally go for the messy bedhead look I think it's important for people to make a distinction from a company trying to mock a child from a company that simply just went with a questionable art direction for their ad campaign like Dana said I don't think this is like the a blatant case of racism that you know some people are making it out to be but you know that it doesn't look bad it the hair looks unkept it looks damaged and I think I think they missed the mark with this ad campaign and you know what let me just add that instead of making it a racial thing it should have been me to movement they should I mean it a feminist thing because I think as a woman why are you advertising thin it's okay for girls that have messy here you know like that's the new thing like ginger does not matter with this whole you know non gender conformity thing and to me that's that's how I took it so because I have a problem when you walk outside the house your hair is not done but now you are saying it's okay for little girls it's okay for you not to do your hair to go outside so to mean job you're promoting a negative stereotype of femininity they should have went with their angle I don't have any biological daughters but I think this is a disgrace I'm sorry I think that this is you know trying to adapt to Eurocentric a culture and/or behavior where it does not need to spill over into the upbringing of I'll just say african-american children everything that is acceptable in the in the you know white world is not necessarily beneficial to to black or brown children and I've got a nice I'm not gonna put too much of her business out there but you know she grew up on Martha's Vineyard Island and her father and I took issue with the fact sometimes that she was dressing the same way that some of the little white kids on the islands were dressing and they were dressing very down with dirty jeans dirty sneakers and shit like that and even though I myself was raised in Scotch Plains New Jersey my father one that allowed me to come in the house looking like a fucking you know just a vagabond I'll just say that but I don't like it I'll just say that if that means anything I don't like it at all that your little black girls running around with their hair just not combed at all under the umbrella of white acceptance that's all I'll say give you last week right that's a really that's a really old-school term use vagabond another one is ragamuffins and you know there's nothing wrong with wearing there's nothing wrong with wearing your hair and in its natural state but there is a difference between natural and unkept now as someone who doesn't use chemicals in my hair I consider myself natural but I also would not roll out of bed and walk out the house without sending to my hair natural hair doesn't have to mean messy you know the styles that I was trying to be the most beautiful are what is considered natural have and a twist single leads to its goddess braid there's nothing messy or undone or unkept about those styles so you know she could wear her natural her natural hair I'm not suggesting they should have you know permed her hair or straightened it but they could have done her hair they could have done all of the children's hair what is the point of adjust at this school look and you have on brand new clothes usually when you get home from school your clothes are going to look a little you know Haggard so and host famous for saying cleanliness is next to godliness why people have black people and I'll even go as far I'll even go as far as to say you know young white kids find it cool to have lice and other things of that nature have lice and fucking yeast infections is just like that I'm going someplace else part of me anybody want the last word let's move on from this I'm gonna get back to I just want us new dogs bitches I can't sing or not the little black girl but there's the Indian girl the Asian girl so and you know girls of color so why just the black girl because her he is more King here again to me this looks like you you're trying to conform young girls of BC and it's okay to be unkept and that's wrong I'm not I'm not focusing on that nappy headed black girl you know and it's not the ramen that be here so go cuz all the hairs were nappy but yeah she's not the only one of color so black people need to stop Waters erasing all the time all right hang on a second and let me go to super chat full blast radio good evening sir sends in a donation star a snoop lion is going to be mad at you again he's good he's not gonna threaten you this time he's gonna get the trannys in in the ATL to run down on you hashtag chucko chucko cha cha cha cha cha cha okay thank you sir blade blade says respect to Reggie right for keeping it real and saying that back when he was a cop if nick has made him chase them the billy club was coming out yeah yeah I applied to be a cop four times they said get the fuck out of here we gave you a gun that's that's enough sugar G hey darlin sugar G says let's focus on why Ronnie's statement about the first allegation is boss chick a victim blame her too what is this yeah cuz I don't believe the bitches either what what is she saying she's saying am I you know what Dave Chappelle referred to himself and he said I'm what you call a victim blame her he said what were those little boys wearing well you know anybody looking at this allegation with common sense it's you know the police have looked at it was common sense too and they're not biting on it because it doesn't make any sense so this man sexually assaulted you and you continue to be around him alone you went to a club with him you you were in his house if you're in videos on snapchat whatever you know practically on his lap but this is the man who sexually assaulted you and he masturbated you had no idea he was masturbating and he ejaculated on your bed your back and then you still continue to be around him and ask him for money no not buying it this was an attempt to come up okay okay and I read firestarters hanging this okay he's talking about me and okay back you got that one PA Iowa store checkout PA Lowa shadi what does that rap goes all the way up to the president now and like all the bodyguards or ex cops it's fucked up game game and connected a lot so this is written horribly I knew it again hey Spence scroller store checkout PA Lowa shoddy rap goes all the way up to the president now and like all the bodyguards are ex-cop so what does he mean a rap goes up to the president what President he's talking about Thank You being donation hang on a sec okay 702 POW was poppin homie okay he's one of the guys that sent me the link earlier of mob James & Company the gangster Chronicles point me all right 702 palaces store how the fuck can I forget Spyder Lok double down on snoop snoop Crippin recently on Adam 22 last week I know it's late and you live already but this is too essential as he questions Snoop snoops Crippen as well and if I see this Dana Ronnie despite a little going into ona Snoop Dogg no I did not see that Dan finish up with Yuma take more calls please promote your channel before you go and anything else that you want to mention please Dana yeah well hmmm stands for Hennis and Moritz there's a suite and company and founded in 1947 but uh and you can subscribe to my youtube channel the real thing and I'll be going live again 7:00 p.m. I'm also going to upload a video with Ronnie on it let you know now Ronnie many clips so she yeah she made some really good point so but yeah so look out for that alright I'll be looking take your dinner alright alright Dana with the data on the check-in they bring some other phone calls and hang on a second guys every two to one five I'm sorry nine one seven four nine one seven first evening nine one seven Snoop Dogg is your former snitch nine one seven stop yes stop no doubt about it he's a former snitch mr. so is on pip and he is so his tape so his puffy a lot of these guys are and 6:9 listen I would never mess with him again but this kid was kidnapped he was facing 70 years weren't they even talking about body in this kid right before he got busted so yeah I wouldn't mess with him for it I can't what he's doing as you hear the latest from 6-9 who else's baby dropped come on he's talking now that Claude and Ray didn't die in that fire in prison that they were at a baseball game the products watching thank you / oh wow I think it's that one okay okay listen star especially I mean unfortunately this generation is probably going to accept them back after some time but Snoop snitch so did tests on all these other guys they continue to do it and it's so no like you know amazement that snoop taping all these other guys they're the ones that are put into like you know Hollywood movies now not even independent little reticle movies they're in today you know the studio pictures now the ones are you know 100 million dollar budgets and everything somewhere along the line you know I'm not gonna want to depend but a lot of these people call it Illuminati or whatever right those guys cause a different line they got the money behind them the players behind them whether a soul souls and I like you no joke no joke all them guys will talk this and that something's different with those guys now they got the bread they did what they did and you know that's just the way it is when I hang on a second because you've already said that you understand what Takashi is doing and can I ask how will you okay but you're 46 and you're understanding how a guy is now flipping like a flapjack on Sunday morning on his team your understanding of that yes oh yeah I said I understand what he's doing I didn't say I'm understanding of it and I agree with it or I'm down with it cuz I started you know truth be told I had a situation like that listen started five days before 9/11 I got a 1-2-3 I got caught up in something with five other dudes five of the black dudes by the way and they were you know long story short we were in the cordon everything let's make a long story long how did you get out of this situation how'd you get out who actually was - we did - shit they all they all got a one two three so did I but beef right before that let me explain to you why I wasn't one two three we were all in there I had I was the only one that can afford a lawyer I had one of the mornings I was not no James Dean back then you know I had Barry Scheck I'm gonna wait through that at the DNA evidence in the old education but the judge came in and said there's no fuckin three guys to complete two guys go to child he said you guys better get on the same page and either you guys take a plea or you guys are off on the trial now I was thinking about trial I had the lawyer but the judge also said if you guys want a child your sentence is 12 to 17 and I'm giving you every last ounce of time I can give you max so and now I might you start I knew I was into doing it but when you're looking down the barrel of a 12 to 17 or you can take a 1-2-3 you cooperated sir go ahead you took a deal yes good deal never mind that we she you you were not on trial who with three black guys together you had you had your own lawyer you've already said that you took a deal although but I didn't use it because I didn't use it because it was either everyone takes the same plea or everyone wants to try he wasn't having no separate issue arose a package deal so so the black guys who couldn't afford lawyers and your lawyer that you could afford you said nah I'm gonna side with these with these fucking black losers and I'm gonna take the same deal same deal just because I'm a good guy right there yes another dude because I couldn't give a fuck about those right pictures but the thing was when you're looking at 12 to 17 sorry I - buddy go under coverage that were in court that lot I understand once I seen actually go down to 200 cards that they won't even no one else see when they were testifying I said you know this shit is rigged and I listened but start now we all got to 1 2 3 every single one of them that actually did this shit they were out after one I had to do a full three all right you know I no idea sir just like just like everyone said when we were in there black white it didn't matter they were like unfortunately you the nigger in here and you're like I come on Thank You Man well you don't have a great night thank you sir yeah I don't know it sounds crazy Bonnie what do you think crazy sound all the suspects we can't verify anything though hang on a sec let me go - uh - good evening - David he said star salute to you I was denied also with the police department yeah told me get the fuck out of here we're not giving you a badge give you a gun not a badge shukuchi hey dawn she says star let's get this straight I'm not a Czech boss nigger that nickname comes comes from John Hopkins shorty after certain purchases okay so sir your name is sugar G there fuck okay thank you sir blade blade sends in a super jet says respect to cousin Dominic for clapping back at Stars half moly ass I'm for conning his aunt into leaving her house to him strident calling her she's out right left me the fucking house Cape May New Jersey I can't even talk about that because he's still salty Dominic can't speak about but thank you me I thank you for your cash yep all right Ronnie before I bring in more calls let's go back to Snoop Dogg for a second and what is it that you think with regards to why he claps that you know the younger generation it just bothers me him taking shots at Takashi six nine is it no big deal to you or is he just like you know a hip-hop icon he's a funny guy hahaha well what's your perception Snoop Dogg I think he does I think a lot of his antics are rooted and cloud chasing you know what is the purpose of you jumping on the bandwagon and clowning Takashi's for telling and you were essentially telling you know I feel like a lot of the people that he takes shut shots at are people who aren't gonna take shots back you know Takashi were out he would certainly go back at snoop and you see a lot of people who are taking shots at Takashi now that didn't have anything to say when he was out so to me that's just like crowd chasing however you felt about him you felt about him when he wasn't here it's not just this the fact that he's on the stand so you know he knew has a lot of viral videos he goes at the president he puts on the Aunt Jemima headscarf and I hate that it really bothers me are you saying yeah I mean it's you know he's become a caricature I'm not sure but I think a lot of them he put out was his gospel album we haven't really heard him much you know in terms of music so clowning on Instagram seems to be really all he has these days other than the show with Martha Stewart I don't know if that's still running new episodes okay hold on a sec mr. flowers sends in a super chat mr. terrain direct because I can Williams would like to take you out for drinks do you accept I'm in Atlanta man I I don't know where Derek is nice guy but I'm not trying to get in the middle of all that with there what happened with he and I'm Hassan Campbell Thank You Man for your superjet I miss me super chats hang on a second don't think so all right let's go to every code 7:07 good evening 7:07 Snoop Dogg is here former snitch 707 yep john-boy check that nigga Antonio Brown oh let's go man you know you got to remember and yo Brown came out as a second rounder okay and he play for I believe a Division two which was the Michigan right okay so he went ahead and showed his faith but you got to remember when Pittsburgh got rid of him it was he got rid of us they get they got rid of him to the Oakland Raiders whispers is always perceived as a Siberian football right because when you look at it ended careers a lot of like the Jerry Rice's are the monsters who were sent to the Raiders was fit for that reasoning behind because of this it's great so he got the opportunity to come out of that situation to get the opportunity to go to the New England pages which he was almost there but for my understanding he did get guaranteed money heard the bleacher report which included the one known you guarantee base salary and it had that signing bonus for whatever it was but I think and I thought that was nine million if I'm not mistaken to sign books okay good oh you will you're correct nine million signing bonus paid in two installments in incentives that Brown will not be able to beat obviously now right but I personally want to see the nigga handcuffed in a coarse jumpsuit and I want him out of here and I won't he have to go because enough is enough with these prima donna motherfuckers coming out of the NFL and they got to be made an example of there's no more room for the Michael Irving and these new michael irvin 2.0 okay okay without the cocaine cuz it is not allegedly but now the NFL is going to go ahead and not only put them in the on a pedestal is to make them out of an example because his mistake was calling the GM a cracker and he went ahead upon the information on Twitter so the GM when it turned allegedly put the broad who went ahead and made the allegation because they didn't come out anywhere the Raiders knew that and they were pretending like they were surprised because that's why they brought him in it was the risk and they thought it was just another situation it's a handless second John blaze with everything you've just said do you think that he's out of here think his NFL days over me I was really bothered by him him recording the coach conversation and then posting it I was bothered by that and I was well and the nigga got to go for this simple fact he is his NFL and your question is is it over it is over start and my nigga I'm gonna tell you what Wow his career is over because now the New England Patriots are the Siberia of football there's no longer the race so when there is a person who is on a last leg there's still a four individual team which is the Browns the Raiders analysis New England the wings were boy hit as more as rehab now the example is the example of also think of also think of went there but hittin work their face in the mouth so you see a lot of the players who are now want the particular team where they're given a second chance but then if the fall outcome if it's either with Peter with dogs or it's with whatever it is dealing with domestic violence the NFL got no a very well shit and and and and then go hold up with your time but like I said Ronnie like I said star the nigga gotta go you got me in handcuffs and you got to go period thank you thank you thank you alright alright John blaze on the chicken shed didn't want some in handcuffs what the fuck tranny chaser good evening sends in a super jet star I got a master splinter on the line he ain't do nothing but takes a one-two-three lies he snitched and stole and star where the trannys at no idea hey speaking of trannies running have you spoke to Stacey Gloor as of late do you know her schedule 2 : about certain things uh yes so I did follow up with her to thank her for coming on and having a discussion with us and she said that she is open to having further discussions in the future so ok ok wait some more calls in area code 702 good evening 702 you there good evening I'm gonna tell you why Snoop Dogg is snitch 6 9 if not miss 9 is a snitch of course train 20 way put me on death row and keep the DEA no damn snitch let's go so Snoop Dogg in la la la is spear point blank you got paperwork home if you talking to the police on paperwork bitch Snoop Dogg Smith they got to be on paperwork y'all saw it number 2 6 line they knew the boys the young men go for Brooklyn who's not a gang member he got money put him or to put him in trade they know he's not a gang member so bottom pointed to all excuse and all the other bullshit think what they felt until you knew he wasn't bout that life there's the police come you gonna see if you all know that you know that in the end of course he feeling post was what did you know he told on everybody cuz I'm Sicilian you know that and so PPP if you're his homeboy y'all went on a mission together and if you was able to speak back from the dead and he has opportunity to get off scot-free what you gonna tell PVD to do good point tell them we go through I mean that's like a big nothing nobody start come on hang on a second okay so you're from LA and you know snoop you know the paperwork shows and he was you know talking and cooperating what we got punch yeah he got punched so now does this affect his credibility or does he have too much money now doesn't it there's no peb fuck you money you know not you niggas is on that don't silly gang shit fuck out of here right right I'm a former gang member I'm gonna tell you like this I know I lived in Long Beach for many many years - okay I know that Snoop Dogg is as a teenager he was in his music he was a hang around it wasn't official gangbangers but anyway but no cause it's not gonna be in a you know there's not gonna be no where we gonna get touched you got too much money and all the tools that he brought up in Long Beach like crazy and although you know that's a money you know they still get money with that doing nothing they gonna do them they're gonna use them you don't have no respect the respect was back there now you might get a stupid a stupid youngster or something it's my clipper but Snoop Dogg I believe he's too smart to bring his stuff out in the open like that who would the guys about maybe four years ago they said they made some videos and they said snoop can't come back to Long Beach anymore you know I'm talking about yeah yeah oh they don't know him over there he claimed he got family over there and all that but like I said each trying things like the football league got so basically he's in limbo Toys for Tots giving out turkeys in the hood you know shit like that yeah he just even limbo he might get somebody like like me backing up 39 I think I'm the last generations of silent gang members like somebody like me I want to try to clip him others are storing whazzup you know if I started storing him or do something and get some money apart but I appreciate the honesty so it's just like that so this might be it I don't everybody mad at him they know we don't know if I'm exploring give me Millions I know I think there's more people actually supporting him that then mad at him I think a lot of people are kicking up dust you know of just social media but you know I think he's gonna be okay and he's gonna come out and the music oh yeah I don't see why he can't put out music you know I've been saying ever since you know 50 cent expose Rick Ross as a former CEO that authenticity really matter and music anymore so you know this guy was rapping about movin weight but he's the same guy who was really locking down cell block eight so you know that doesn't matter the fact that he was a part of law enforcement why should it matter that Takashi took the fan you know extreme is nobody nobody cares where's all the real niggas that yes I mean at least I don't understand this is like living in the parallel universe Thank You Cole so thank you salute thank you alright yeah let me go to superjet a personal observation says has anyone noticed that black women get real lazy with their hair and hygiene when they date white men and had the nerve to feel like they're leveling up did you hear that Ronnie any comments yeah I mean I have heard that argument made before that some women straighten their hair or try to conform to your eccentric standards of beauty and and ironically the white men actually prefer black women with their natural hair state so I have heard that I've never pulled a group of white men so I don't know how true that is but I will say that when I see interracial relationships with where the woman is black and the man is white her hair is usually in the natural state have you yourself running dated on the other side or is that too much of a personal question uh yeah no I've not no no okay hey also Ronnie Elvis the chef Rosenberg wants to know what's your cache as you kept on your banner you're not promoting you care chef yeah I'm not I'm not promoting it okay Thank You Elvis the chef Rosenberg but I phone lines and guys if you joined this show late here I'm referencing paperwork that were I found by three credible gentlemen I think that the TG c stands for the gangster Chronicles Ronnie can you confirm that that's the name of the show on a digital soapbox network on YouTube so be sure okay sure I'll look into that let's go to every code every killed six one two gleaming six one two are you there how are they reading I was explaining nine and since we're talking about snitches in 69 and nonsuit dogs they made a really good point on about a murder case it's still called way back in the day I was a kid I'm 40 and I'm in the streets everybody was trying was like really amazed that even beat that cuz you know back in the 90s it wasn't really commonplace for like a so called you know dude in the streets and the lifestyle to really get off on that murder like no matter how much money you had cuz even back there there was a lot of rappers and you can ask for it you know I'm saying that was catching cases like regular people and going down yes although it's been quite a few things with the soup man I mean it will give me wrong I can say again one entertainer and I do believe you know what then I said you know authenticity you know doesn't matter I guess in hip-hop and that's it I would say that's the problem is but it's almost a good thing I think it's almost time that just like really shut down the whole thug life thing and I fixed the cost you six nine is like the last third you know I think and since she's a clown it really exposed like today in 2008 singer growth you really own that third ships clown shit it's old hat Oh Bob James I was watching one of his interviews and I mean you don't watch later' TV like that but that was a really wanted to know what's it all worth it as far as death row you know that's everything that went along with it can you turn the radio down in your police cruiser sir it's kind of beating back oh yeah turned all of it sorry about that sir do you sing step better do you yeah I'm up James saying you know everybody who was involved and put in all that work they either dead or right back when they started over Hasbro just bought death row records you know I mean not to go conspiracy theory in here but man this is it's almost like yeah I can believe snoop was kind of awesome little Kenya and ancient shit I believe 16 even even two custom six now I was I mean he's doing it right now I never trusted I will never trust a rapper with rainbow hair I said that from John I'm 40 years old you know I'm saying I never never have a devil wheels you did what I was saying how many years have you been in the job officer I'm the furthest days from the police sir sir sir come on that's we're talking that real shit tonight how many years have you been on the job it actually bro I'm uh I'm a convict you convict yeah by the time I'm annoying that you end a cover I got you okay no I know the trouble by a better cover but you know they're speaking of it it's nothing like that but I just think this is a California for the like saying man I think this all it was all a joke anyway I mean dick by Tupac was a ballerina okay can we not start this in Tupac but thank you for your call thank you salute okay all right talk to me um hey Ronnie I'm looking at Vlad TV duck I'm not that we have time to do all this shit tonight and maybe tomorrow or Sunday Takashi six nine court audio how'd they get the audio out of the courtroom if it wasn't you know allowed to be sent out you have your laptop in front of you and that's I want you to listen to this but there yeah I think people are oh and by the way that the TDC is the gangster Chronicles but I think people are sneaking audio recording devices and to the court because they're not allowed you're not allowed to be recording you're not even allowed to have your phone on during the federal court proceedings so I think people are you know recording on the down-low 8 4 3 & 4 3 there maybe April 3 yes star I'm Pat Matthews in the building hey will tell me how you chime in on these topics you got a food a few fluent about mr. Kashi I wish miracle with person Takashi yeah let's go to well two countries an old topic right now right now we're talking about Snoop Dogg there's paperwork that I just I just saw that clearly shows him you know giving a statement to police back in 1998 I'm asking the question yeah yes and I always thought it was weird house just dive in to the pop culture side of music like it's kind of like what the back door it's like everybody was fighting up front and talking about you know hip-hop that bottle shit pop still alive and Snoop went out the back door he went around with Wiz Khalifa out the back door and he does adopted this whole new identity of I'm not against they anymore I used to be I'm just cool uncle snoop learn about the TV show he started taking pictures with the headscarf all and all that shit on social media it's like he was trying to clean himself up and he what he literally whitewashed himself that's what he did nobody did and that's what levy bitch bitch okay okay have you seen the paperwork I just saw it on Twitter I just saw it okay and uh yeah I just solidified it yes this is Mitch but he acts like this Mitch if you really took the name dog away from him and the whole legacy he acts like a typical corny dude on the street was a snitch okay I agree I agree yeah I'm glad you're saying it because you me saying it makes me sound like I'm just you know I'll get better you know I just he's a fucking weirdo last word all right yeah all the a B thing yeah ago and I said be careful when you put things on paper because I've heard you say before started I tell my friends stop putting when you're mad at a female stop putting things on paper it did his dumb ass with an included her in the group text there's this group text thing with dudes I've been told my homeboys stop they don't include me in group text messages you have something to say to me we can meet up we could talk Mostafa you know paper it's cost the people my teen it comes with a lot of things yeah I definitely know Jess thanks for coming ok all right I was checking the NY Post calm was there something else we mentioned her earlier on e behind the scenes I'm Kenneth I remember I'm doing a blank here are you there yeah I'm here I'm researching well we talked about the agent talked about the H&M situation and I'm looking on V lied at this court testimony and someone was actually able to get some footage out really two days ago I think I saw that with Takashi it was kind of blurry yeah uh-huh and he looked like a scared little kid the way he was just sitting in his chair leaning towards the judge he was leaning so close to the microphone at one point the prosecution said can you back up off the mic please right right yes I'm several points they had to tell him to get back on target because she was just you know at one point he was talking about the coat that he had on and you know the prosecutors like okay let's let's get back to what happened every code-nine 170 there no.17 go to area code five six - hey five six - good evening are you there five six - what up hey what up stars Jay from New York man what's up bro let's go what's happening there now I'm getting tight now I'm getting upset because people is on here talking shit about some new China go at that man's integrity knock it off now stop fronting on snoop y'all stop it come on and nigga been the crib we be reppin this crib chief over 25 plus years now I got wasted in the damn that turns it me the core is is it come on man bullshit 48 49 years old young niggas are calling is clipping that girl call is creeping in the question now Wow yeah yeah what the fuck because what is News doing right now is he tripping right now know what he's doing right now what he's doing right now is making light and poking fun at someone for doing the same thing that he did so it's a little Hitler negative I I respectfully disagree with you know I was actually just a project because a simple factory yes Takashi Takashi wasn't see Takashi was starting a lot of shit the problem with the Kashi is this Kiko Hirst motherfucking cool to be in the doing that shit so CUDA B is in jail because of some shit Takashi got him to do but how's it different that's very very different you know what I'm saying and yes the Kashi's old G's or whatever you want to call them sure yeah don't make it they was all slop they was all sloppy but name one positive thing Takashi was no matter it's not a matter of if he handed out turkeys or sponsored a Pop Warner team let me ask you this question if you say to a cop that somebody killed somebody else would you consider that snitching it's really just a repeat that okay so if someone tells a cop about a murder of someone else is that niching if someone tells a cop about a murder of course yeah who's giving this omission is a cop it's a cop the one that's what snoop did Jay hang on a second that's what we're talking about that's what snoop did yeah running and that's essentially what you did so you just answered the question it is essentially the same thing I think maybe you like snoop as an artist has nothing to do with that no no no no no no I have to stop you what I'm I don't mean in that way that's not no no what I'm saying is let's not sit up here and now all of a sudden here we are trying to tear down some new to distract us from what the fuck Takashi this game will deal with Snoop let the coffee stand is spilling his fucking guts hang on Jay we're talking about two separate things you know we spent the last two days but possibly three days talking about Takashi now with Shyne time on an old nigga it most certainly can be shine time on ol nigga and we got some paperwork have you seen the paperwork Jay have you seen the paper okay I have nothing the paperwork but in this but in this day and age star I'll pose walking around December means walking around what the fuck is we worrying about snoop now for Alpo did his time I'm realistic he did his time he snitched did his time and again the gangsters ain't do shit and the gangsters ain't do shit and what was bothering me is is this why I get matters because niggas talk - is on the phone star they talk - and on the end into the young lady as nothing is not towards you your I don't want you to think that I'm getting at you because I'm really not I respect you but where pisses me off is that you same niggas that get on this phone and they talk that shit star yes new bitch bitch I'm in LA I'm here I'm here when snoop come the motherfucking wrong Beach Boulevard when snoop coming Atlantic Avenue in Long Beach anywhere not emoji maybe one autograph insignia cheese and star they smiling and how do I know cuz I see him I'll be out here and I see it and its new jumping the spoon event he drop right in the front of him and then it's yeah that bitch ass nigga bitch ass come back because what's up big homie that's what I'm some big homie wholesome calling into question whether I'm not calling the question whether or not Jane Jane okay I'm not calling that into question I'm calling into question all the niggas talking shit now when you see him when he put out a fuckin book see do something else yo bitch ass is gonna be out there asking for autograph as they should but right now we talk about some paperwork and we talking about a nigga I got a seat I have to find out I got it allowed I have to find out about it's paperwork all you have to do is just go to digital soapbox network is right there Jim listen I thank you for the call man thing you want to say about me get a paycheck stay with me Patriots releasing Antonio Brown you and I speak sports from time to time um yo if you got time star I want you to look up the Montes Burfict hit on Antonio Brown and you look at that hit can you just tell me what it is I don't give a fuck abandoned when you're brewing he got it he got it I'm saying this broke what I'm saying is he got hit by this dude named vodka is perfect in the head and I swear to god I'm a Pittsburgh that ain't never been the same he did some wrong it's not a less than that because when jr. 6a y'all is up telling itself you know what I'm saying when when Jamar Fletcher kills his motherfucking girl in himself for these head injuries then it's like oh shit we went when Aaron Hernandez hanged himself and does all this crazy wild shit we find out later that a CTE I believe Antonio Brown has CTE issues bro truly believe it okay cuz the nigger had purple you got a purple mohawk and a blonde motherfucking mustache so much you know I really don't like a lot of attention yeah last question before you go get hold a second if you give a shit Jalen Rose interview and Vlad Chi be calm you know who you know he put coke I'm sorry he put Larry Bird over Kobe Bryant number five let's catch that one yeah of course he's gonna do that cuz I see grab dinner Larry Bird is right of course so make sure you caught it of course good token you man Thank You Jay man seizure okay all right Jay on the chicken he's a day one guys for those who know the history of the show um a few more calls what time is it let me go to a CUDA be all shokudo be says you can talk hot on the internet boy that's that goofy shit we ain't into that boy black van pull up to your mom pull up to your mama crib boy let me thank you for the other subject Mac says star I'm a law enforcement officer and honestly everybody snitches on the blacks oh I only fault the blacks for being too accepting of other races Wow very well said if he is indeed law enforcement he might be trolling yeah I only fault the blacks for being too accepting of other races thoughts on that run you know well my personal opinion is that you know everyone is predisposed to snitching everybody will snitch people snitch on themselves every day across the country and municipal courts they won't even take a traffic ticket to trial so they tell on themselves they get into a plea agreement and you know they pay a lesser amount and so I think we're all predisposed to snitching hang on a second power bottom sends power bottom sends in a super chat darling star why are you blocking my number question mark do you want me to email Ronnie our vacation pictures together question mark thank you power bottom whoever the fuck you are a jrx says didn't snoop get caught fucking that Powell thought on her phone camera question mark she said that snoop after while playing his gospel album he's a clown I what is Ivan no knowledge about what is that right and he something about Powell Snoop Dogg Oh Selena was her name I think she was cloud chasing can you google Selena Powell I think that's who were there talking about oh yeah she I think she there was a viral clip she was on Adam 22 and she said that she was messing with new yeah she was also on academics and she's done a lot of it made her rounds real sloppy chick let me bring in someone sent in a Kashyap and folks you can join the conversation if you like via cash app or PayPal the link is right up under the video okay let's bring in area code 908 is this an awesome low missing your name 800 you know I was just listening I'm good man I called it before this listen to the whole conversation about a 69 and everybody and Snoop Dogg I mean the keeper really really real snow burr the real do but at the same time being real is being that you would snitch for your livelihood I mean smooth the only thing was people got issue with Snoop is you posting and call them a rat back home and all this other stuff but like you did the same thing it's now 50 cent when he actually said 50 cent was pretty cautious with his words because I'm from when I hear for these 50 cent does have paperwork as well so he was real cautious with his words and describing how how how six miles out he said he can feel he understands how we felt about people around you being cool with you trying to trying to trying to set you up and stuff like that so he understands that we all understand it's just a clown show of Instagram you know I mean I think people get wrapped up in that because you want to be the rapper you want to be the troller do you want to be the gangster and now look you snitch so I think that's what the big deal well hang on a second respect are you african-american West Indian has manically you sir oh I consider myself african-american I was born in America my parents are African okay okay all right so now it's not that we go so far back - Takashi because Internet tonight I'm focusing on a Snoop with them do you think that there was a level of insensitivity on the part of Takashi because everybody else was black you know Adi he's fuckin black guys they should be grateful I got them some fucking money and you know I don't give a shit about them because in reality they're just fucking black guys and I'm gonna tell on them hang on hang on whereas if and I don't know if we've actually discussed this yet if they were Mexican would would Takashi have been so eager to snitch if the Trailway team were Mexican do you think Takashi would be stitching well don't do it don't do it black man don't do it that ratchet nasty you know that ratchet nasty baby mama biz and I don't mean no I don't wish no violence upon her back but if those boys tray way were Mexican she would have had never even made it to Vlad TV I'll give you the last word sex well no III agree with you I think I personally think from what I hear it also I don't know if you guys reported that but he was actually played the audio of a lot of this stuff that you know was being said so I think just that animosity overall like that I was gonna super violate me yeah I'll just do is I've been with at the end of the day yeah he's been getting extorted and stuff like that even a thing with hard it was just it was just wild crazy how they just ran down on him like he just seemed like a whole bitch and there's just like you were just a pitchman situation but that's all I got Thank You Man thank you hang on a second Ronnie hold on I forgot to read a super chat folks if you spend the scroll of goddamn it I slowed down the show hold on oh shit who is this mr. flowers star our trainees still attacking you in your eye gdm I don't know if they're attacking me but yeah I assume everybody who hits me via Instagram in my DMS I assume that they are a chick with the tool so I always address them as yes sir hey homie or hey my nigga never do I approach anyone even if it's a picture of a cute female you know saying hey baby sexy no because people play games with the fucking screenshots and you know Photoshop but thank you for your superjet mr. flowers so I have to get to you okay I'm sorry and sugar G says here is some more of my lottery and a cognac money this is the social media era everyone is a snitch okay thank you okay I read this one from a personal observation all right hold on a second I'm coming back to cash that bear with me guys area code four one five it's just four one five good evening are you there four and five where's poppy starting oh man they're calling out to Bay hey what's up man hey yo what's going on boss sitting here talking man when it comes to you know when it comes to all this finish it at the end of the day man like I been thinking about this line more and more since jay-z said it but it's the truth you know they killed X but let simmerman live the streets is dead like at the end of the day man the streets it's like what what are the streets minute always top but this moral polish but like at the end of the day like if the streets and the codes and the morals were all real then you know they would have never let somebody like Takashi in they would have never allowed snoop to continue that like throw up this blue flag like this shit is a joke man like I said a like and like I thought and like I started thinking about this even more in like you know hip hop's fascination with like Scarface and like you know all these like does movies where everybody ends up dead or snitching or in jail like sigh man you know it's a joke man it's a joke you know I'm saying like a dinner date like why not celebrate somebody like jay-z who got out lipstick made a billion dollars made real money to me that that's the hardest shit out there he's the hardest one out of the entire hip-hop culture make sense unless you go saying yeah yeah I mean like dinner day like all this shit we're talking about these all these dudes are clown the entire organization got caught up because they let some dude that made some songs and brought them a little money like you know though the streets are suppose if the street supposed to be what the streets are about they should be about a code of moral ethics values and like you know they they turned a blind eye to it because of money you know they they killed you know Natasha to ties what is whatever XXX Akashi on and like you know Zimmerman got yeah you know I'm saying like like this entire thing is a game roses joke it's fraudulent like I'm saying I don't know I think you would talk about extant asean not takashi right yeah yeah question yeah do you think so basically what you're saying is they're not really real because they allow someone introduced I hang on Nicki you let her answer the question that's the question Todd yes so you basically said that there they're not really incredible because they allowed someone without credibility and to their organization but then you give us the quote from jay-z about the streets being dead but he is someone who has allowed a known DEA informant and to his organization so that's a little bit of irony who Segan in what way what way was she allowed into his organization um she's like a very high-ranking member of the the rock nation she's a very high what did she do specifically what should you give us that name again money I didn't hear you what's your name Desiree Perez doesn't report I mean it's been following his career for all these years you would know who that is because she's very closely associated with him I'm asking you what does she do specifically you mean like when she gets to work in the morning I don't know what her day-to-day schedule tomorrow Ronnie chieng Ronnie you're smart woman you're saying that she's she's she's done what she's done what has she done she was a DEA informant this is all public information that you can look up yourself but I'm telling you that it is you snitch on Jay no she didn't but a snitch is a snitch or are you saying that they're a different level of absurd percent of different levels of smishing if somebody's okay well cooperating with the DEA is definitely probably up there cheering once again did she snitch on his organization I mean that's a straw man question no absolutely not okay she didn't snitch on his organization so how can you say that she he maybe she was snitching so that she could keep the heat away from that organization grasping at straws are we no I'm asking a question I'm asking too it sounds like you're making a justification for her having snitched all I'm saying is if she didn't finish on that organization is she snitched to take heat away from the situation maybe that's you know that's looked at as morals and codes to the streets well the fact that you're trying to come up with some explanation for something that you just found out about there's a lot about her I asked a question I asked a question I mean come on what would well I'm asking a question well hang on a second Nick are you up to speed on the paperwork that has been produced with regards to a Snoop Dogg and do you find snoop to his talking to the panel take any it ash I don't take half to be acceptable to be serious whatsoever I don't take this I don't take this industry I like as truthful or as anything whatsoever man everybody everybody's in it for themselves but you know if you if it's okay if you dismiss if dismissive of it I'm just asking you a question does it affect you in any way shape or form or do you care that you know I've never been I've never come on good I don't want to do you even care about the paperwork that I just came across with regards to snoop dogg what whether you dismiss it or not personally he's an entertainer he's an entertainer that's on the you that shows a Martha Stewart like what are we talking about right now like I'm saying like guy who's very influential with the babies misleading the babies that that's that's my position I'll give you a last word though Nick go ahead hmm woman I had no issue that's my last word with a little kid with the nappy hair man I rock a nappy 2001 Kobe afro fuck like you know let them live man what what we want her hair straightened on there so that we can you know I think it's more telling that people complain about her hair being that because then if her air was straitened everybody would say that like oh we're trying to have the Eurocentric standards on us fuck out of here man let the little kid live all the kids had to shut I'm with it Thank You Man be okay okay no man Nikola check-in all right a few more calls you hold on a second um King Jaffe Joff sends in a cash on star DMX beanie sigel to criminal rappers that never ratted okay were they in positions with where they could have ratted no beanie sigel what's your trial for murder I figured I jump in murder yeah just I don't study a whole this old shit it's like some of this stuff I just I've forgotten it I don't fucking watch these videos these interviews it's like a lot of horrible memories from the fucking past oh is this a Horatio good evening sister where do we get the download for the paperwork on snoop right here so you send in a cache yep and I send it to you duh few more calls Ronnie I'm gonna wrap this stuff I'm trying to go to Lake Lanier early in the morning area code 562 good evening are you there five six - Snoop Dogg yo what up for Miss niche you know maybe put up hey man first off you had a guy calling earlier that kind of said the same thing but I was thinking as well I know a lot of people in the beach that especially a lot of oh jeez that think the same way that they don't really respect him I remember you were talking about a guy where they made a video the guy you were talking about his name was philosophy philosophy Dean he's a he's an actual real gang member there on the beach and so a lot of people don't respect him but like to do this he got a lot of money you know snoopers been around he did his thing you know if he has official is some might lead you to believe it but you know he gets a lot of respect there he puts in a lot of work for the young guys so he does his thing out there it's no disrespect but I wanted to get to talk to you about a bead on there because a bee that do this that dude is nuts that dudes absolutely crazy you messed up to deal with the Patriots now you up out of there I know the other guys said that the Patriots aside beer they are not Siberia the Patriots only take you in if they can use you if they think you're talented enough to where you can be some type of some type of you know you can be productive with them that's when they'll keep you other than that they can you ask up out of there so they moved on from him and he going on and you gonna have to do whatever but his career is not over the dozen guys in NFL that have done yeah there's guys done where Donte Stallworth killed a man he was drunk high blue straight through a sapphire it killed a man that are great people that are still in the NFL you got Ray Lewis killed somebody and then going to win a Super Bowl Superboy yeah I'm telling you there's dudes that have done worse things that you know are still in the league so a B time is not over there he can I think even this year I think a team will probably claim him especially if this all gets cleared up but it's not next year if you couldn't clear to go he's gonna be on somebody's football field catching them footballs and talking all that nonsense they keep you talking alright I appreciate coal man thank you so much okay all right hang on a second why let me go to cash at wait a minute Darryl Darryl sends in a cash at that says Ronnie eats junior whoppers in the dark how about some type of joke I don't know about what is it I I don't know but it in general I don't eat whoppers I think they're disgusting I think he said junior whopper yeah it's the same non meat we don't know what that is a few more calls here it's go to area code seven one eight hey good evening 17 are you there pick it up pick it up seven eight seven eight okay moving slow scootch ad there let's go to every code four zero eight good evening for Zuri hello hello hey girl from before away hey John good evening how are you talking about Snoop Dogg former snitch yes no maybe yeah this is my take on snoop so I think this new you know he came up in the 90s okay his come up was like the gangster rap era so I think he was somebody that um he made his come up you know because when he was coming up the the gimmick of the day was like being a gangster right quoting quotes so I think he might have been somebody who was kind of peripherally involved sort of with the streets you know he grew up Long Beach or whatever he might have had some cousins or some family members who were involved and really about that life but he was probably just kind of more of a spectator and I think he probably he was one of those artists from back then who's just hooking him and with it and that was like his meal ticket that was has come up and so not just with him but a lot of people around his age those artists who came up from that era who are now like in their 40s and 50s they kind of you know they kind of still want to cultivate that that same image that that they had back then because that was like their uh like that was their bread and butter and then they feel like if they don't keep that image going of like oh I'm a gangster and you know the code of the streets and all that and snitching then did they feel like they might I don't know they might look they might lose some of that uh that credibility that they might have that they felt that they had from back then okay yeah I have no problem I have no problem with how he came up I'm just talking about now you know according to Wikipedia Snoop is 47 years of age he's too old to be clapping little niggas man like new kids into this but I'm sure he's got a son that's either close to close to Takashi's age or older if somebody were to say something about one of his kids on social media he'd call the fucking cops right you know right right exactly exactly yeah exactly no it's definitely some corny shit but I just think he's all nigga doing too much if you ask me Oh nigga do too much yeah I agree I agree I definitely agree thank you mate oh thank you yeah I think thank you for taking my call I'm going okay let's do one more call Ronnie area code seven six five good evening near the last call for the evening seven six five you know hey I'm gonna make this short and sweet I'm a punk ass honky from the state in the end I'm gonna make it short and sweet for you all right all right every celebrity's got the dirt just like everybody in the world got their own dirt all right so snitching there just won't happen it's going to happen anywhere you go okay all right do I agree with it no but for the right reasons maybe if it was someone's life you know snitching snitching to save someone's life or you know to credit someone's life or to save your own life we hood and then I'll back out a hundred percent but I'm more wanted to talk about agent in Antonio Brown is at all possible come on all right so look man even before all the head injuries do with cock you asshole not gonna lie damn bit of football well we'll go down to the legend of The Legend of a wide receiver damn good a football knows he's one of the top five best right now wide receivers would you the top my best right I mean yeah yeah I'd say top I'd say top ten okay I mean I'd give me I'd give him a solid six okay give him a solid 6 or 7 py Hilton was that way better we gonna go there I'm from Indiana those but along those lines he'll definitely find another team it's gonna take a while especially with his attitude and it progress I mean he's gonna find a team but it's probably gonna be the Jets hang on i.t he's gonna be something like the Jets you know some shit ball last team's gonna pick them up thinking that they're gonna you know make it come up and it ain't gonna be worth shit you know what I mean but I don't keep in loop with everything I just wanted to call and holler at you say what's up I'm a new new subscriber first phone call thank you have a good one thank you hey yo yeah all right all right hold on a second Ronnie let me um see if I have everything worked out here got a brand new system got the iMac finally working and I got your banner coming up next Ronnie thank you for your time tonight Ryan catch up tomorrow if you're available and uh anything you want to say imparting or what no it was a great discussion um you know with regards to snoop I did get his age he's 47 years of age I know I sent you a link about him and Selena Powell she had some receipts yeah I don't know you know why he wasn't smart enough like why would you be on a FaceTime with a girl who's known for outing celebrities but you know whatever so yeah I guess I will speak with you soon okay have a good night okay bye now all right boss - Claudia helping me out there tonight all right I'm getting some rest I'm trying to get up early and go to Lake Lanier here in the Atlanta area all right guys be safe let me see if I can get this new system working have a good night As found on Youtube Read the full article

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Revisiting New Vegas: DLC

What I recall of New Vegas is how much I loved it, and for the most part it was more clever than it had any right to be. The stand out memories for me were how they handled stories of aging and the effects it can have, through the companions Raul and Lily. Beautifully done.

I'm putting together a small mod pack for my partner so she's able to appreciate these stories, too. I look forward to watching as she explores with the same wonderment I had, invested in all of those little stories and marvelling over how everything ties back into the main plot.

But what about the DLC?

I thought about this for quite some time. And the truth is? I'm actually skipping it. I think New Vegas is a better game without its DLC. I think it stands better alone, as a complete set piece, with just a little extra help from mods like NVInteriors to flesh out areas where the game is weakest.

You might be screaming 'WHYYY?' at me right now whilst punching your screen (I really don't think that's good for your monitor), so let's have a look at my decisions. Do keep in mind that there's going to be obvious spoilers ahead, so... Caveat lector, you know?

Dead Money

This was my favourite of the DLCs. From a story point of view, it had at least one likeable character and believable stakes. Not the greatest story ever told, but it was serviceable at the very least. Then there's the gameplay, though. Which is a painful, repetitive, tedious grind of death. Is that worth it for -- compared against the rest of hte game -- an average story?

I decided that... no. No, it really wasn't. I didn't want her to suffer through it. Whilst some do like the storyline of Dead Money (and I can understand why), I feel that we're all united in how much we Universally resent the gameplay of it. If she happened across this DLC too early, it could sour the rest of the game. For a first time player, it's just a bad idea.

Honest Hearts

Religion. Religion. Religion. Religion. Natives. Religion. Oh, you're going to brainwash the natives? I can't tell the natives not to listen to your quackery? I can't tell them about missionaries, conversion, and the shit you're pulling here by undermining their very culture? Good-O. Sod this for a game of soldiers. Where's that bloody choice and consequence, Obsidian?

Frankly, I wanted to imprison these religious zealots for their crimes against a fledgeling culture and save the natives myself, what I didn't want is a repeat of colonial America happening before my very eyes. That's not a fun time for me.

So, this one's out too.

Old World Blues

The biggest, most obvious problem here is that it's tonally incompatible with the rest of the game. It feels detached and entirely out of place with the rest of it, almost as if it were a different game entirely. That's a problem for me.

I like tonal consistency, I've brought it up before. There's really nothing in New Vegas that sets a precedent for primary coloured, toyetic scorpion bots and cussy AI appliances. It's funny, yes, but once the joke's worn off (which happens fairly quickly), it's just letting an average joke drag on for however many hours the content lasts for.

And then there are the scientists, oh dear. If I wanted to sit around listening to a group of smug, self-assured, sociopathic, arrogant pricks I'd watch Alt-Blight videos. Even the one whose role is the supposed 'good guy' of the bunch is just an utter arsehole. There's not a single, sole likeable character present. That's a problem for me, considering how much I dislike sociopathy.

So... Bad jokes, a failed attempt at being as clever as Fallout Tactics was, sociopaths, and... Uh... That's it. Pass.

Lonesome Road

Oh boy! I get to listen to an Alt-Blight-esque self-aggrandising, sociopathic lunatic tell me why everyone deserves to die and why all the world should burn in the never-ending fires of apocalypse. Good-O! This is why I don't like Chris Avellone, as not only is he a sociopath (which I've covered in the past with topics such as the Fallout Bible), but his characters tend to be soapboxing sociopaths as well. See: Kreia, Weeping Mother, et al.

The last thing I want is to sit around listening to an arsehole telling me why the world is horrible because people are too left wing, too bleeding heart, and how he wants to Make the Wasteland Great Again by nuking the hell out of it.

That's basically all Lonesome Road is. Listen to Avellone soapbox about the worthiness of evil and sociopathy. It's not new, really. This isn't a revelation. He even mentioned in a recent interview that he prefers 'clever' (sociopathic) evil characters to any other kind. It's just his nature. He's a born arsehole, so his characters are born arsholes too. Comes with the territory.

Oh, and if you kill his soapboxing sociopath and refuse to nuke anyone? A robot friend dies. Oh, and a race of monsters will overrun the wastes and kill everyone anyway... Whoop-de-bloody-doo. So the sociopath wins no matter what.

Choice & consequence, Obsidian. Somehow, along the way, they seem to have forgotten about their most important design ethos. Though Avellone pulled the same shit in Fallout 2 when he removed the good ending for the intelligent deathclaws just because he hated them and wanted to see them suffer (absolutely not kidding, guy’s a douche).

Do I think that my partner wants to listen to a soapboxing, sociopathic idiot, watch a robot friend die, and then learn that everything she does in New Vegas is pointless anyway? No, I really don't think that's necessary.

Cutting this out like a tumor.

Gun Runner's Arsenal

Where do I even begin?

Okay, first of all? Through bizarre and magical happenstance this Robotron has a shack full of specialised guns that even the Van-Graffs (specialised vendors and generally violent people) don't have access to. There aren't any guards or anything, really, so why hasn't this place been raided? And they aren't exactly running guns, are they?

So in order to fix this, I'd have to add in a lot of mods to make whatever this nonsense is feel like it has a place in the world. I'd have to improve the area to give it presence, add NPCs on paths that actually run guns, and have a few Gun Runner sanctioned affiliated merchants who sell their stuff. Then it'd feel more believable.

Except that the whole thing's a mess. You have GRA versions of guns and mods which are the same weapon but unique??? I don't understand the worth of this, really. To the first time player, this just serves to be a confusing bloody mess. And you can just up and buy these incredibly powerful weapons, which takes so much away from the joy of discovering something wonderful while out adventuring.

So, a confused, half-arsed, unfinished mess. One that's done far, far better by mods like AG's Supplemental Uniques and Weapon Mods Expanded.

Pass.

Conclusion

New Vegas is a brilliant game with a fantastic story. It has plentiful amounts of choice and consequence, enthralling stories to be a part of, and it's an all around good time. So the DLCs only detract from that and lessen it with bad, substandard content filled with sociopaths, unlikeable characters, annoyances, and worse. They don't really add anything at all.

So, when playing New Vegas, doing so without the DLC is always for the best. Unless, you know, you actually like sociopaths, feeling powerless, and unfinished content. I don't.

[justtwentyonewriters]

Goner//Josh Dun Fanfiction

Note: Since it’s pretty much based on the idea that the book 13 Reasons Why by Jay Asher presented. It contains suicide, and some other pretty dark stuff. Each chapter will have its own warnings, but in the mean time be careful while reading—I don’t want to cause any harm.

Xx

               He was a nobody last month—when the teachers would call his name in attendance, everyone would look around. Confused expressions adorning their features, he seemed like a myth. Like a legend.

               “I heard that Josh kid killed a dude once.”

               “Really? Because I heard he was raised by wolves” Stupid things created by rather stupid people—usually. The more insane and unrealistic stories seemed like a comic relief compared to the other rumors spread about the boy. You heard all about how he allegedly tried drowning his younger sister, how he allegedly got kicked out of his old school because he was dealing drugs, how he allegedly slit his wrists all day everyday.

               You chose to ignore them—you rather liked Josh. Well when you saw him anyway. Columbus high wasn’t particularly small—there were a minimum of 3 classes each for all the core subjects; far more for the extracurricular. You were lucky though; you got to share 3 of 4 classes with this mysterious new kid. The one who kept his head down and only spoke when spoken to. You wish you could’ve figured out why.

Xx

               You internally groaned as your teacher began talking—not about science, not about chemicals. Rather, he was discussing suicide. The topic on everybody’s mind since the “nobody” became the school celebrity. It made you sick to see everyone fake compassion, suddenly turn into heroes; or what they believed was a hero.

               “I know this is a fresh wound for everyone, considering it has only been 2 weeks. But all the staff at Columbus High would like to reach out for any student needing help. Mental health is just as important as physical health! If your brain is off balance, then your whole body will follow.” You stared outside, choosing to ignore the latest soapbox speech. The sky was gray, except it wasn’t raining—nor did the clouds look like they wanted to pour. Rather it was just a dark undertone, blocking away the sunlight. Almost like the universe was foreshadowing the boy’s fate. “Now if you know anyone who is going through tough times; please remember that getting them help is much more important than keeping a friendship.” You cast your gaze over to the teacher, who was putting his paper on the desk. Figures, the school gave them a premade speech to rattle off. “Do any of you have any questions?” You took a deep breath in, waiting for the vultures to dive in for the kill.

               “This kid, is he dead?” One of the basketball players asked from the back of the room; his expression was neutral but you could’ve sworn you heard his voice waver just a little.

               “I am not in a position to discuss that with you Mr. Joseph. That is something you will have to talk to the family about. Are there any other questions?” Your gaze went to the basketball player, who was gnawing on his lip—deep in thought. Probably contemplating another question.

               “If he does die, will there be an investigation and charges? Will it be treated like murder or just his bad decision making?” The people around him snickered at the end of his sentence, finding a cruel amusement in the insult. You found it sickening—for the fact that he probably tried killing himself for this exact reason.

               “That is up to the family to decide.” The teacher stated bluntly, turning his attention to the latest unit. Trying to avoid being put in any more awkward situations for one morning. You pulled open your notebook, clicking your pen. Trying to ignore the heavy feeling settled in your chest—you barely knew this kid, so why is all the suicide talk getting to you?

Xx

               “Hey! Y/L/N!” You heard someone call as you walked toward the lunchroom—your morning classes droned on, filled with chatter about Josh. Why people think he did it, what they think happened, even as far as how. It disgusted you to the core. You turned to see that basketball player, Joseph you think his name was walking up beside you.  ‘‘You didn‘t look so good in class today, I was coming to see if you were alright” You were taken back by the question—despite its seemingly innocent motive.

               “I’m fine, thank you Joseph.” You whispered, turning to leave toward the cafeteria once again.

               “It’s Tyler, and you just didn’t seem so good when they brought up those rough topics. I just thought I’d be a support. So if you ever need anything. Call me.” He extended his hand out to yours—keeping up with you as you walked. You rolled your eyes before taking the paper and shoving it haphazardly into your pocket. “Before you think anything; I’m not playing any cheesy hookup lines on you. I actually care and don’t want this to happen to someone else.” He whispered to you, before changing paths and meeting up with the rest of the basketball team.

               You couldn’t quite wrap your mind around it, the basketball team captain was suddenly being nice to you? Something was definitely up.

Xx

               “Hi honey, how was your day?” Your mom asked, walking up to the door to greet you. Eyes shimmering with curiosity.

               “It was fine, pretty boring though. Just notes all class.” You shrugged, taking your shoes off and making your way to your room. Your mom following you most of the way, asking you a variety of questions about your day. What were the notes on, did you learn anything interesting? Did you make any new friends? Needless to say, you were kind of resentful at what this Josh kid had caused—suddenly nobody left you alone. It was a constant stream of “how are you? Are you okay? How was your day?” and other fake interest. You liked it better when you could sit on the outside of the world and watch it as it passed, popping in on your own accord.

               “Y/N, your bag is hanging wide open!” Your mom commented, as soon as you reached your door. You scrunched your nose up—you definitely remember zipping it before you made your way out of school. Except when you slung it off your back—the zipper was wide open. What the hell?

               “I must’ve forgot to zip it! I’m going to make sure everything is here and do my homework. Okay mom, love you.” You quickly slipped into your room, shutting the door behind you before emptying the contents of your backpack on the bed.

               Books, check. Pencil case, check. Notebook, check. Weird bag thing, check? You arched and eyebrow as you opened the zip lock bag. It seemed to have a brown paper bag inside of it. Sitting cross-legged on your bed you slowly pulled out the bag. Praying it didn’t have an illegal substance somewhere within it. You grabbed one end of the brown bag, letting out a shocked scream when it unrolled itself and something fell to you lap. Provoking the curiosity of your mother.

               “I’m fine mom! No need to come in, just saw a spider that’s all.” You yelled out to her, taking a breath of relief when you saw it was only a usb drive that fell to your lap—not drugs. You inspected the drive, it was seemingly normal. Had a few scratches along it, but what doesn’t? Putting it to the side, you looked closer at the brown bag, opening it to find a few sheets of paper crammed inside.

               For Your Eyes ONLY. Strange enough. You opened the paper, heart clenching when you saw a boyish handwriting sprawled across the page.

               It’s simple. Watch the videos, pack up the usb and instructions, and move along—maybe even change a bit. That could never hurt right?

               Besides that, keep this within the group—and keep it going. You wouldn’t want to know what would happen if it stopped, but what threat am I? I’m either dead or comatose.

JD

               No. It couldn’t be. Why is this coming to you? Maybe it was a mistake? You flopped over the side of your bed, reaching underneath to pull your laptop up onto your bed. Tapping nervously you watched as the technology in front of you took forever to open. And forever to recognize the USB.

               13 files. Each were labeled with a number—nothing else. Taking a deep breath you clicked the first file—watching as the media player popped up, starting a video of a dark room. The only sounds were that of a furnace and someone’s breathing. Shivers found their way down your spine when you were met with a somewhat familiar face—he looked calm. A small smirk playing at his lips.

               “I’m not going to repeat myself with instructions—if the person before you neglected to add them. Listen, find them and figure out what you need to do.” He let out a emotionless laugh. “Other than that, hey. Glad you could make it to the party.” You felt your chest tighten as your eyes burned with tears. You barely knew him, but seeing his face. No emotion, nothing on it made your heart shatter.

               “To set the record straight here, no I didn’t leave any notes, no my family doesn’t know why and no all your rumors are probably wrong.” You paused the video, resting your elbows on your knees and holding your head up with your hands. Why was this sent to you?? “I know what you’re wondering, “What is this and why am I included”, in dear time friend. In due time you’ll know. Just listen for a bit—like I do. Well used to.” You stared at the screen, in complete shock. Jumping slightly when a knock came on your door.

               “Honey, are you coming down for supper tonight?” Your mom asked—probably wondering how many plates to prepare.

               “No, I’m really busy and not too hungry.” You called back, reaching in your bag for a pair of headphones. Plugging them in before warily pressing play again.

               “If you’re ready for a ride, lets go. Congrats Mr. Cos, you’re the lucky first contestant.”

[ranuel]

I may be getting too old for this shit

Getting out my soapbox so I’m putting this behind a read more. Sorry app folks just scroll fast if you don’t want to hear me talk about politics.

Long, long ago my first real exposure to the nitty gritty of politics was Watergate. I was 8 when the break in happened and the aftermath would last for years. I was already starting to be a news junkie. My father and I would always watch the evening news together and talk about things as they came up and I read the paper every day. At least in the ‘70s newspapers tried to keep their stories written at a 6th grade reading level and I was already past that and if there was something I didn’t understand I’d talk to my parents about it.

When coverage of the scandal kicked into high gear I started watching political shows like Meet the Press and Face the Nation. I read articles in Time in the doctor’s waiting room. Doonesbury became the comic strip I couldn’t miss. I went to see All the President’s Men with my father when it came out and read the book a few years later when I found it at a used bookstore. I was excited when the identity of Deep Throat was revealed.  I hate to say I was in the Watergate fandom but If you are jumping on every new tidbit and counting down until the film adaptation comes out it’s pretty safe to say that you’re in the fandom.  No matter which side you were on Watergate had everyone fascinated though. The next time I saw that level of national involvement was the summer of Who Shot JR. I’m not kidding.

Between them Watergate and Vietnam being brought to us in our living room by Walter Cronkite when I was so young did a lot to shape my social consciousness. I learned not accept an idea just because someone in authority presented it. I learned not to trust that politicians had our best interests at heart. I learned not to trust the police. I debated my father as we watched the news and learned how present an argument for or against something that was supported by facts and to be willing to change my mind if the facts weren’t there. It was the best sort of learning experience.

Now though I find myself avoiding the news. I subscribed to a daily briefing on the impeachment from the New York Times but I only read it once in a while. I’ve long since given up on Twitter and I’m starting to hit J for the next post here if it’s to do with the orange stain and the horrific things he’s enabling. Instead of soaking in every little new bit of information I feel over saturated. I feel really hopeless if I start to think about it too hard and too long.

I can’t say that now is worse than then really except that Nixon was a very competent and intelligent man and the current guy really, really is not. Back then we had an undeclared war, brown people were dying in our country for the crime of being brown and poor, there were marches for social justice, and guys in baseball caps declaring, “America: Love it or Leave it”. Same shit, different century. And maybe that’s it. This is where I came in and it feels like what progress we were able to make is slipping away. I intensely hope that I am wrong and we can pull out of this mess and start working towards the sort of enlightened societies the science fiction back then told us we’d have by now. Well, Star Trek said we’d have a couple of world wars around now and it would be a while yet and alien contact before we’d turn things around but maybe we can avoid some of that. The wars I mean. I’m all for Vulcans showing up to say hi.

With the longstanding trend of grim ‘n’ gritty in our media the young people these days aren’t getting much of that sort of hope. Which is 100% of the reason Tumblr has grabbed onto Good Omens like it has.

I’ve dealt with some major things this last year in my personal life and I’m still trying to get things on an even keel. Maslow is a bitch. So, I think I’m going to just stop beating myself up over not having the spoons to be more engaged right now and leave the active day to day panic to others before it erodes more of my mental health than it already has.

I have every intention to keep on voting in every election. It’s the only thing I can do to make a difference. I spend the weekend before each one scouring the internet for everything I can find on the people who have made it to the ballot so I can make an informed decision so keeping up in between isn’t vital and I’d vote for that stupid singing stuffed bass if it were the Democratic nominee for president anyway even though I’m an Independent.

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Hi all! Hope this post finds your well! Welcome, or welcome back, depending on how you found me. Either way, I’m glad you’re here!

This post is going to serve as a catch up post. While I love to sew and love to share, I have kids a fairly busy life, which means that often, things don’t get shared. I’m really tired of looking at my pretties and realizing I didn’t share them. Sewing, for me, is all about the tangible item/reward that comes from it, as well as the feeling of having completed something. Lord knows, nothing else in this house ever feels like it’s really “completed”. (Laundry or dishes, anyone? They go on for days when you have 4 kids!)

To be honest, I’m a little lost on where to start. I’ve been sewing up a storm lately!  I suppose I’ll begin with the shirts i sewed up for my Duchess skirt blog tour post. I was a little nervous, as it was my first blog tour/colab, so I made several items…although looking back, i should have sewn up more than one skirt, since the focus was that. (To be fair: I’ve been dealing with a fabric budget cut back, though. all i currently have to work with is my small stash & my linen closet. The skirt called for more than 2  consecutive yards of fabric,  and I just didn’t have it. 😦 )

***You may notice that the images in this post are a little different than usual. For one, I’ve begun doing most of my photography on my own and the learning curve is HUGE. Also, I have a friend who just recently had a scare from a company stealing her images and using them for profit, so my watermark is now in the middle. Sorry in advance if it takes away from the aesthetic. You can never be too safe. I have updated my Terms of use/privacy policy and you can find it by clicking the main menu!***

So, without too much ado, I give you my first shirt (which ended up being my favorite). I used the free Key West Tank PDF pattern from New Horizons Designs. This is one of my favorite woven patterns. It’s a tank with a looser fit and features bands on the neck and armholes (I suppose you could bind them if you REALLY wanted to…but who has time for that? lol) . There is a crop length and full tunic length. It would also be really easy to take the tunic length and extend it, if you wished to have a swing style dress. If you were to do so, you would probably want to use something with a bit more drape than I used, though!

    For my version, I took the pattern in my size and used this gorgeous stretch woven  Stretch lace from Fabric Mart Fabrics. I received both as part of a mystery apparel box. I love those things! 6 yards for 10 bucks and I have NEVER been disappointed! (more on this another day!) I was originally going to just use the lace for the top, but hadn’t worked with stretch lace before (gasp!), so I wasn’t sure how the bands would work. I was also worried about how “finished” it would look, since I don’t use a serger (another shock, right? I did say I’m on the tightest budget ever. 🙂 )

So instead of cutting it to fit the top of the pattern to just above the bust (the middle of the armcyse), adding seam allowance and doing the reverse for the blue fabric…I cut a whole front and back bodice from the stretch woven, then just the top part from the lace. I folded it down over the bodice, RST, stitched a straight line (with a super tiny seam allowance) across the bodice, right where it would hit above thebust, then folded it back up and sewed the 2 bodice pieces together at the shoulders, then up the sides (like normal). The small amount I lost by not accounting for SA didn’t make a huge difference, as the lace stretched a lot more easily than the woven and it wasn’t hard to make it fit. If I did it again, I would probably do it a lot more technically, but I was in a rush. 🙂

  So that was that. I could have just stopped there, but being the ADD/OCD person that I am I decided I may not even like that shirt. (It was pretty hard to getthe lace detail to show up on my point and shoot camera, after all.) So off I went, to find more fabric and another pattern.

  Of couse, when you’re sewing and designing things in a rush, you tend to reach for those things that you’re most comfortable with. The Mama Cassie pattern by Made for Mermaids is definitely one of mine. In fact, one of my very first posts was made about the Mama Cassie. My writing and sewing styles have both changed since then. I also like to believe my photography has gotten a bit better (i.e.: my 4 year old no longer holds my camera for me), but you can be the judge and read it here.

I used this super lush DBP that was from Joann’s fabrics, but I purchased it via a destash page on Facebook for $2.50. It has been in my stash for awhile now and I’ve been staring it down lately, knowing that I wanted to turn it into a fall piece. I used the Mama Cassie cold shoulder bodice and 3/4 length sleeve pieces and constructed it as a top by lengthening the bodice by 2.5″ in front and in back. To be honest, I’m long waisted which means I typically have to lengthen peplum bodices at least this much normally, anyway. So it would have been great to lengthen it by more, or to add a band….but alas, I only had about 3/4 of a yard of fabric. I was amazed to have gotten the top out of it to begin with!  I love the bright colors, mixed with the softness of the fabric. I can’t wait to see this piece, along with the rest of my fall wardrobe. (getting there one piece at a time!)

  If you can’t tell from the Duchess skirt, key west top and Mood dress that I’ve made…I’ve had a big penchant for wovens this summer. Last summer, I had a pair of shorts that I bought at target that quickly became my favorite pair. I don’t know about you, but when something is my favorite, I quickly WEAR IT TO DEATH! I must have worn those shorts every other day last summer. So, needless to say, this summer when I pulled them out, I realized they were beginning to fall apart a bit. I began looking for a pair just like them, but everything was either too short, made of knit, or just not my style. (I’m 5’3″ so “board shorts” look like I’m trying to wear capris unsuccessfully. lol) These shorts had a front and back yoke, were made from woven material and were fitted in all th right places, but loose in others. They looked great on and didn’t make me look to much like a church mom OR a mom who is trying to look like a teenager.

Because of this, when Rebecca Page of Mummykins and Me released her Berry Bubble Shorts, I knew it was fate. They resembled my favorite shorts so much it was uncanny. They can be made bubble style or straight style, with a large or small yoke, with several different lengths, finishings, etc. Basically, a perfect pattern for shorts. I would venture a guess to say that they would even come out cute in a stable knit fabric! I intend to try, anyway!)

Indoor pictures with my Fujifilm Finepix 3280 camera are still a little difficult. You can tell here that my ISO was turned up too high, resulting in the “noise” that you see. Another lesson for another day. At least I’m learning, right?

  The shorts are available in girls sizes as well as womens and you can bundle them via her site. (Psssst: she may also have some great coupon codes to try a few dress patterns for free, if you join the Mummykins and Me facebook group!) I’m a big fan of Rebecca’s patterns, as everything fits in a very specific niche that she has never waivered from. She definitely has her own style and it fits along with mine quite nicely. She also has a great section of “curvy & plus size sewing patterns” and I love how she keeps the patterns relavant accross the board and available for ALL body types. The beauty in sewing is being able to make pretty things for yourself that fit you well and make you look your best, so I believe designers who leave out these sizes do themselves and the sewing community a great disservice.

This was one of my sons favorites, he said. I’ve never known him to get excited about me sewing something for myself, yet he loved these shorts!

But let me hop down off that soapbox! The fabric I used for the shorts was another from my mystery apparel Fabric Mart box. It was some sort of tweed, I’m guessing (?) and I had envisioned it as either a pencil skirt or pants, but it ended up being perfect for these shorts! I’m still not sure how I feel about the poofiness of the bubble style, so I may go back in and remove the bands from the bottom, then just hem. I love that I can keep my options open!

  Obviously, I struggle with top overlaod, as right after the shorts, I jumped back into making another top. This time, the new women’s Hera Blouse had been released from Wardrobe by Me, and I loved the look of it!

  The Wardrobe by Me patterns are lovely contemporary pieces that fit together so well, they can help you build a capsule wardrobe. I love that so much thought has gone into the aesthetic of it. Stephanie, the designer, has developed “wardrobe builder” pieces that include such basics as tops, pants, jackets, etc. Then there are other pieces that mix and match with the bases to build a wardrobe that is unique and beautiful! This was my first time sewing up one of her patterns and I’m officially a fan.

The pattern itself was well written, the instructions are on point and thorough and the blouse goes together very quickly. The only thing I may have done differently would be to use a less stiff woven. This one has absolutely no drape and the pattern specifically mentions that you should go with drapey fabrics. Rebel that I am…I quickly figured out why, as without a belt, this top resembles a very beautiful scrub top. 🙂 (hence the full on outfit pics 🙂 ) Don’t forget to join the  Wardrobe by Me Facebook group for support and to see all the other new patterns coming out! I know I’m definitely excited to have another designer to keep an eye on!

  I believe the Hera blouse will be a welcome edition to any end of summer or beginning of fall wardrobe. I can just picture it with a plain white long sleeved shirt underneath and it’s practically beggin to be worn with boots and belt, as I’ve shown! Bonus, for those of us who still have kids attached to our boobs constantly  nurse, you can keep the front wrap piece unsewn and voila! easy access! (although I’m not sure my milk monster needs her access to be made easier, seeing as she loves to flash me around! ha!) 🙂 I’m sure it would be excellent for a new mama, however! 🙂

    Without dragging on forever, I will say that I have a few more things I have made recently, but as pictures are now a ton of work for me, I haven’t photographed them yet! I am very excited to share the new tests and things I’ve sewn up, though, so keep your eyes peeled! Among my favorites, a little boys hoodie, some zombie fabric, ironing board cover, thread catcher and some fun felt animal embellishments!

I’ll be back again soon! thank so much for reading!

  Until next time,

Sewin’ and Swimmin’,

April Simpson-Hunt

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Alaina Huffman talks Directing, Fandom, Social Change and 'Supernatural,' of course

I had the chance to catch up with Alaina Huffman (Supernatural, Stargate Universe and Smallville) at the Supernatural Burbank convention.  Our paths have crossed many times, but we had never had a chance to sit down and chat until then – and what a fun conversation it was!

Alaina was appearing as a guest at that convention, and after playing Abbadon on Supernatural for multiple episodes, had just returned to that set to shadow director Phil Sgriccia. I couldn’t wait to hear all about that, but first, we had to gush a little about the SPN Family. The Burbank convention, in particular, feels like a family affair, since many of the cast are local and can bring their families along.

Lynn: It really does feel like everyone is family at the cons.

Alaina:  Especially here, everyone has their family and their kids here.

Lynn: OMG Matt [Cohen, Supernatural and General Hospital]’s son Macklin is so cute.

Alaina: SO cute!

[Yes, we were gushing. If you’ve seen Macklin, you totally understand why. There followed a brief pause for both of us to grab another handful of Doritos from the bag on the table between us]

Alaina: (laughing) I’m so sorry, you’re gonna have a lot of crunching on your tape.

Lynn: From me too! I’ll just laugh when I’m trying to transcribe it because I’ll know what all that noise is.

[And yes, that’s what just happened…]

Lynn: So tell me about shadowing [director] Phil Sgriccia on Supernatural recently. How was that experience?

Photos: Fangasm SPN

Alaina: So cool. I talked to Phil about it quite extensively. You know, going through your career, people always ask, are you interested in directing, or producing, or blah blah blah. I created a comic book a few years back with MTV, and that was my first foray into producing anything and managing a bunch of people around a project that was centered around me.  And it was great; I loved it. And it was successful, we launched the full graphic novel and then I just sort of went on with my career and my life. And then this last couple years has been funky. Just to share a little, I’m getting divorced.

Lynn: That’s always hard, no matter what.

Alaina: I feel like we should have a party — 17 years and four kids is not a failure!

Lynn: Absolutely not.

Alaina: But he’s had a really hard time, and he’s dealing with his own things, and it’s a bit painful. And it’s just weird, it’s like, what happened here? So I’m trying to move on with my life in a personal way and a professional way and also, I’m a single mom with four kids, and it’s all me all the time.

Lynn: Which is unbelievably hard!

Alaina:  I spent a lot of the year sort of resenting that even though I did want the divorce. So anyway, I found myself saying I need to do something, I need to be busy.

Lynn: That can be very therapeutic.

Alaina: Not that I’m not busy with four kids and a career, but I needed something to put my focus on. And I talked to Rich [Richard Speight, Jr., Supernatural, Kings of Con] about it and he had suggested this, and then my other friend Bam Bam – James Bamford who directs a lot for Arrow and I worked with him on both Smallville and Stargate. So I just kept having these conversations with people independently from each other, and I thought, what am I doing? So I sat down with a friend of mine, Chad McKinney, who was a studio executive over the show and now has moved on to Sony, but he was like, why don’t you talk to Phil [Sgriccia, Supernatural]? And I was like, that’s a great idea. So I sent Phil an email and said hey I’d love to pick your brain about directing. So we went out for a coffee, and we had a 2-hour coffee, and I said, I’ve never directed anything, I don’t know what to do. And he said listen, I’m doing shadowing next week, why don’t you come to Vancouver?

Lynn: Phil seems like such a giving person, such a wonderful and talented man. One of the reasons Supernatural has been on the air going on 13 seasons.

Alaina: He’s a great mentor. So I took that opportunity knowing the circumstances that I’m in, and I explained to him, I don’t know if I can get away, and I ended up making it work. And I got up on set and, you know, it’s a beautiful family, it really is.

Lynn: It really is, literally.

Alaina: And Phil really is a great mentor. Every meeting we had [after shadowing], he was like, so what happened there was…  And he just really took the opportunity to teach me along the way. And honestly? I was lost for a lot of it, during the prep work, because it’s so disconnected from being on set.

Lynn: Right, so different from the part of it that you’ve seen, working as an actor on a show.

Alaina: For 20 years. And so I was sitting in meetings going, ‘what are they talking about? I know I read the script like five times, why don’t I understand?’

Lynn: (laughing) Like hey, I’ve been on this show…

Alaina: Yeah! And I know what department head is talking and I still don’t understand what’s going on! And then we went on the scout, and we had to go back out because we lost a couple of locations because of schedules and blah blah blah, and the second time through everything, I got it. Like oh yeah, the car is gonna come from here and this is this and that is that, and oh that’s what you were talking about!

Lynn: So it started to all pull together and make sense.

Alaina: Yeah. But definitely, there were a couple of shots of me probably on the internet like passed out on a set chair…

Lynn: (laughing) Understandable!

Alaina (laughing) I was like just falling asleep. But it was super fun, Ruth [Connell] was on that episode, which was great. So we got to prank Mark Sheppard and decorate his trailer with Misha’s [Collins] pictures.

Lynn: So you and Ruth plastered his entire trailer on set with photos of Misha!  I love that Ruth pulled you into it, and it sounds like Mark loved it too actually.

Alaina: He did!

Lynn: Which I guess is not really the reaction you’re hoping for when you’re trying to prank someone…

Alaina: He was a great sport, it was really really fun. And so funny, but we were worried – we were like well, he’ll either get really really mad or he’ll think it’s funny.

Lynn: Right, it could go either way. But you didn’t really damage anything; it was all in good fun. Sometimes pranks have a mean-spirited edge, but not that one.

Alaina: Yeah, so the shadowing was a great opportunity and it’s in the back of my mind as something that I sort of have a future plan for. I want to weave it into the fabric of my life right now, which includes raising my four kids by myself and being an actor and now working as a director. One of the things that I realized is that wow, this would be a really tough job for a single mom with four kids.

Lynn: That’s true.

Alaina: They call it the black hole, you’re literally in a black hole for two and a half weeks.

Lynn: Yeah, it sounds like you just have to immerse yourself. Jensen [Ackles] has talked about that, which is why when he directs, they usually give him the first episode filming. And Richard has too, about how much work it is. It sounds a) really stressful because you have so much responsibility and b) all encompassing.

Alaina: Yes. One thing that I loved is that everyone – my sort of mentors that I’ve conferred with on this, Bam and Rich and Phil – they were all like, you’re gonna get asked so many questions. And Misha said the same thing; people just ask you questions and you just kinda have to have an answer. You’re the one who has to answer.

Lynn: It’s like the buck stops there really.

Alaina: And it made it sound like it would be really overwhelming to be asked all these questions, but as I witnessed it – and I wasn’t being asked the questions, Phil was – but actually it feels very helpful to me, because something in everyone’s inquiries would jog your memory and you’d be like oh yeah, we need that. Because you can’t do it all by yourself.

Lynn: Right, and it’s a team, and everyone is there to remember their part of it

Alaina: Yeah, and everyone is so seasoned. So, it’s there. My youngest is four, almost five in December; he’s in preschool. So I’m sort of weaving it into my life, and it’s a focus now, and I think it would be something that I would like to do.

Lynn: And we really need more female directors.

Alaina: I feel like there’s a voice, and every person, each one brings their perspective into it – it’s story telling, an aspect of story telling, and we all bring our perspectives, so I will definitely bring mine.

Lynn: I’m looking forward to that.

Alaina: So I did this course today on manifesting intentions and that kind of stuff, and one of the things I realized as we were going through the work was about being present. In acting, we talk about being present all the time.

Lynn:  I’ve heard Jensen talk about that, that if you’re over-rehearsed, you can’t be present for the other actor.

Alaina: [nodding] And I wrote in my notebook – it was a big revelation for me – I always feel like I’m escaping, like I almost feel a little guilty, maybe because I’m a mom. But I always feel a little bit guilty when I travel or when I go away for work because I’m truly in the moment. Like I go to museums, I have fun, I immerse myself in a character, I laugh on set, it’s not stressful to me at all. And for years, I felt sort of guilty about that. And so I realized that’s where I am very present, and then I’m like oh, that’s not me escaping, that’s me being truthful to who I am.

Lynn: I wonder if you only feel guilty about that because you are a woman —  and a mom.

Alaina: [nodding] Yeah, yeah.

Lynn: I get what you’re saying, I do, but I’m not sure many guys would feel guilty about that.

Alaina: No! And that’s so true, and I know this is sort of a soapbox that I’m on right now, but I can’t tell you how many times I’ve sat on planes with other women saying this or like you’ll have to make a choice, and I’m like, I’ve made a choice!

Lynn: Yeah, like this IS a choice!

Alaina: Thank you, this is my choice.

Lynn: Yeah, I’m doing both. I don’t think we say that to men, you have to make a choice.

Alaina: No, and I’ve sat on the very same plane with my male colleagues who are like oh, your family is so lucky you’re willing to do that for them.

Lynn:  Very different perspective.

Alaina: Yeah.

Lynn: That’s something we talk about in our books.  Have you thought about doing that Warner Brothers directors course? Richard told me all about it, and it sounds wonderful, and I think it’s meant to help women and minority directors be successful.

Alaina: Yes, it’s for minorities, but they do have a strong focus on women, absolutely. Nina [Lopez-Corrado] went through that program.

Lynn: Oh, she did! I love her so much. Everyone loves her so much. She’s so damn good.

Alaina: She’s great, and they love her. She’s got a great temperament  and everything. Absolutely it’s something I want to get into. There are requirements; you have to have a short that’s been in festivals or a feature…

Lynn: That’s right, Richard told me all the things he did to prepare, to get lined up to qualify, doing some commercials and shorts and things like that.

Alaina: Exactly. So it is a goal I’m working towards, and Jenny Klein has offered to write me a short to direct.

Lynn: I miss her on Supernatural. She’s also awesome!

Alaina: She is.

Lynn: Women supporting women, woohoo!

Alaina: Right, right. And the beautiful thing about it too is that I just have so many great friends who are like so talented. I did a short with Jenny [as writer] and Nicole Baer [as director] this summer.

Lynn: Oh yes, Vagabond! I tweeted it around. Talk about women supporting women – and SPN Family sticking together.

Alaina: Thank you! It was so good, and it’s funny because I was on set and Jenny showed up and I had said to Nicole earlier that day, this is the first time this has ever happened to me, and I know it’s because Jenny and I are friends, but I could hear her voice when I was reading the lines.

Lynn: Oh cool, because you know her.

Alaina: I could hear her inflection and her tone and her voice, and I was like oh, I get it!

Lynn: [nodding]

Alaina: I’ve had writers say to me before on other shows, like I hear you, after we’ve done a couple episodes and we get to know each other and have had dinners or whatever, I hear you in my head and I write from that perspective. But I’ve never had it go the other way, where I’ve actually heard the writer’s voice.

At this point, it was getting close to time for the Saturday Night Special concert, and Alaina’s handler, Victoria, came in to let us know. We spent a few minutes admiring Victoria’s awesome concert makeup, which is something she does professionally, so her makeup skills are A plus. That led to us wishing her happy birthday and then an epic discussion of birthday cakes, specifically the tres leche cake at Portos which I still have not managed to sample, much to my great dismay.

Alaina: But the line like on a holiday is blocks long. I have a friend who’s a baker there, and it’s not frozen stuff, it’s real.

Lynn: [is pouting]

I managed to pull myself out of my depression to get back on track eventually, however.

Lynn: So one of the other things that you have a unique perspective about is that you’ve been on successful genre shows with passionate fandoms before. For most of the cast, this has been a completely new experience, but not for you.

Alaina: Mm hmm.

Lynn: What’s different about this experience and this fandom from Stargate Universe or Smallville? Both of those are also genre shows with big fan followings.

Alaina: I was saying to Briana [Buckmaster, Supernatural] earlier that I’m a little envious of her and of Ruth and all these new people who have come into this fandom now — especially what’s happened with the band [Louden Swain] and with Rich, it’s like they paved the road.

Lynn:  Definitely. It’s so different having Louden Swain as the house band and Richard as the host all weekend.

Alaina: Creation has been around for so long and I’ve worked with them for so long and with other shows all over the world, but there’s something about this Show and this cast. You can’t even really pinpoint it – we genuinely like each other, and the fandom is genuine.  I’ve expressed this before – my show, Stargate Universe, was not well received, it was very negatively received by the fandom, and it was fine, we got over it, and people ended up coming around, but it wasn’t warm and fuzzy. But this – it’s like, you walk into it and it’s like a big slap of love in your face, and you’re like OMG they love me!

Lynn: [grinning] They do. Even with you being a bad guy.

Alaina: Especially with you being a bad guy!

Lynn: Yeah, I think especially, you’re right.

Alaina: That’s the crazy thing! And I’ve known Mark Sheppard for years, I used to call Mark my secret lover because I’d see him all over the world at these events, and I never worked with him until Supernatural.

Lynn: He did so many genre shows too, so he also has that perspective.

Alaina: Exactly. And so I’d see him, and I had done panels with him all over the world. So I’d probably known him for several years before I got on Supernatural and then I was like ‘Oh my buddy Mark Sheppard is on this show!’ So that was great getting to work with him and  Sarah, his wife, is a dear friend of mine and like the best thing that ever happened to him and I adore her.

Lynn: Me too, she’s awesome.

Alaina: So it’s just like beautiful. It really is, it’s real, I think anyone can tell, on a regular basis we’re like – yesterday I was on facetime with Ruth for about an hour – I facetime with Lisa Berry, we all see each other whenever we can. And Rich and Rob [Benedict, Supernatural] are doing this amazing show, Kings of Con [Comic-Con HQ]…

Lynn: You’re in it, right?

Alaina: I’m in it, I play Robbie’s wife.

Lynn: That’s right!

Alaina: It’s so fun, it’s so witty, it’s so well written. Rich directed the episodes that I was in – I was in two, but I think he did them all and Robbie wrote them. They hired everyone that they know and they pulled a lot of favors, and we just all wanted to support each other. This is how we are; we support each other’s campaigns and charities and – it’s real. There’s usually an email that goes out like, hey can you help me with this? But there’s no resistance from anyone; they’re like YES, what do you need me to do? Let’s get on the same page. I mean, I probably have six or seven text threads with all the different people, and we have conference calls about all the things we’re doing, it’s fucking beautiful.

Lynn: And it’s so unusual. I started studying fandom because of this show and this fandom, and I felt like this was going to be a phenomenon early on. But I’ve never seen anything like this – it’s like a family on the cast side – and the crew side too!

Alaina: Yes, the crew is so great too.

Lynn: And then a family on the fan side. It’s this weird reciprocity.

Alaina: And there’s a crossover as well.

Lynn: And yeah, that doesn’t happen either. That’s what my new book [Family Don’t End With Blood] is about, with chapters written by actors and fans – the stories are equally powerful on both sides of whatever you want to call it, it’s not really a divide…

Alaina: No!

Lynn: Everybody really knows each other, there’s familiarity.

Alaina: And if there is an issue and it’s vocalized, I do think there’s support behind people. Sometimes it’s a conversation, but it’s very rarely an argument.

Lynn: It might be a heated conversation, but it gets worked out usually.

Alaina: Yeah, and it’s fascinating to me.

Side note: I have no clue how we ended up talking about Star Trek and then Nichelle Nicholls, but that’s where we went next. Alaina may have been sharing her own fangirl moments.

Alaina: I adore Nichelle Nicholls.

Lynn: Do you know her?

Alaina: I do.

Lynn: [possibly starstruck] Oh wow. I’m kinda in awe right now.

Alaina: Yeah she’s amazing. I’ve had dinner with her several times, and she’s told me so many great stories.

Lynn: [chinhands]

Alaina: Two of my favorite stories that she told me, one was how these things [conventions] started.

Lynn: Oh right, because she was there.

Alaina: She was. The first real conventions were Star Trek. And what happened was, it was off the air and fans were really distraught and they wanted to get together, and they’re like, we’re gonna get together because we all really connect and we’d love it if you would come. I don’t know how many of them there were, but they wrote letters – this was back in the 70’s…

Lynn: Right, when people wrote letters…

Alaina: And I don’t have all the details, though she tells the story beautifully, but they wrote letters back and forth to Nichelle and said look, we’re gonna have a little get together. It wasn’t a convention, it was at some hotel in NY, it was a ‘get together.’

Lynn: [rapt] Right….

Alaina: And they said, if we can get enough people, we’d like to send you an airplane ticket and put you up in a hotel if you would come and meet us. And her and a few castmates were like of course! And then there were tons of people who ended up showing up.

Lynn: Because it was really popular, and didn’t they get it back on the air for a while?

Alaina: Yeah, with letters! And so that happened and that sort of created this fan world that happened, and then Gary and Adam were a part of that.

Lynn: They were really young too, they were like teenagers when they started this.

Alaina: Yeah I think like 14, it’s fascinating. And then my other side note on fangirling over Nichelle Nichols – my other favorite story she told me was about the kiss between her and Shatner.

Lynn: Oh the famous kiss, yes.

Alaina: Do you know the story? From what I was told by her, the network at the last minute wanted to pull the plug on it. They got nervous, and they were like, no, let’s do a hug.

Lynn: Um, yeah, not the same…

Alaina: Right? We’re gonna make this really big social movement, this civil rights movement…or maybe not. And so the story she told was that Shatner said ‘okay, we’ll get to the hug, let’s do the kiss first though, we’ll just get it out of the way. Okay, you got it? Then we’ll do any version of the hug that you want.’ So this was back in the day before video village, before any of that technical stuff. There was the camera, film; you had to check the gate. Young readers may not understand that we had film.  I remember when I started my career, we had film. And you’d have to re-roll sometimes, batteries died or whatever. So the story goes that they did the kiss, and then every take after that, Shatner went to hug her and leaned into the camera and crossed his eyes.

Lynn: So they couldn’t use it!

Alaina: [nodding] So that made all the takes unusable.

Lynn: OMG that’s amazing.

Alaina: Can you imagine how nervous that poor camera guy must have been? He must have been like I’m gonna get fired!

Lynn: What guts that took.  I guess he was the star; he was the only one who could have done that – but he did it.

Alaina: Even when the network didn’t want to do it. So I’ve met Shatner several times, and I have yet to verify that story with him, but that’s the story she told me and I love it, it’s one of my favorite stories ever.

Lynn: I only met him once, but I can believe it.

Alaina: Yeah, definitely.

Lynn: I mean, he’s friends with Misha. Rules? Who needs rules?

Alaina: Very clever, those two.

Lynn: That’s an amazing story.

Alaina: Isn’t that a good one? I love it. And it has a personal connection for me. The gay rights movement was also a really personal thing for me; I liken it to racial civil rights. Thirty years ago it wasn’t legal in a lot of states for me to marry my husband, you know?

Lynn: I know, that’s not even long ago.

Alaina: And even still, there are places that like frown upon it, and like, have you seen my kids, they’re really cute?

Lynn: They totally are.

Alaina: Like, look what happens when you mix things! So yeah, the gay rights thing was to me a really important movement for our culture and our society, and that again is a huge part of this fandom. And not just gay but all of it, LGBTQ, curious even.

Lynn:  Yeah, open.

Alaina: I’m really proud of the place we’re at with that. We still have work to do, but I love that straight people stand up for those rights and gay people fight for those rights, I love that it’s a cohesive thing.

Lynn: I was talking to Rob [Benedict] last week and asked him, do you know what a big deal it is that you got to play God as a bisexual, so validating. Robbie Thompson wrote that episode, and it was so amazing.  I give Supernatural a lot of credit – they didn’t just make a human bisexual…

Alaina: They made God bisexual! Woo, bam! It actually makes a lot of sense.

Lynn: It does. I do love this show.

Alaina: I’d like to touch on that too. I feel protective of writers because they’re real people, they don’t just write your favorite show, they’re people who are my friends. We had this happen a lot on Stargate; this is where I sort of started to realize that my friends would get all this shit for writing characters or things people didn’t like. And I was like wait a minute; these are the people who’ve brought you your favorite show for like 15 years!

Lynn: And wrote all those scenes that made you love it. Alaina: And created the characters that you love and that the actors got to play and you followed around the world to meet, and I feel like they deserve credit and respect and that sometimes they don’t get it. Jenny was the only female on the Supernatural staff for a very long time, and I think that was difficult at times. I am protective – Phil is amazing, as a producer and a champion for the show. They have that site, Shaving People Punting things

Lynn: I love every single thing they do on that!

Alaina: They’re so clever, right? So yeah, this is such a great talented group of people that are a part of this show, and I feel fortunate.

At that moment, Victoria returned to say that the SNS was about to begin.

Lynn: [scrambling for my phone] Okay hang on, I need to take pictures!

Victoria: Work it, work it!

As you can see, Alaina did.

Photo: Twitter

Alaina: I’m so glad we could finally do this!

Lynn: Me too! Have fun out there!

So what do you think, fandom? We definitely need more female directors, and I have a feeling Alaina should be one of them.

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