#anyway. hope you guys like it! i care them a lot 👍 (crying)

[orewing]

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Wind Breaker - にいさとる | Nii Satoru (Manga) Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Sakura Haruka (Wind Breaker) & Everyone Characters: Sakura Haruka (Wind Breaker), Suou Hayato, Nirei Akihiko, Sugishita Kyoutarou Additional Tags: Character Study, Tooth-Rotting Fluff, Suou Being a Menace, Guest Appearances by Hiiragi‚ Kiryuu‚ and Tsugeura Summary: A cold morning, a slow journey, and a momentary truce.

you ever get so obsessed with a show after 3 episodes you chew through the entire manga in under a week and simultaneously write fanfic for it, adding and altering sections as you get to know the characters better? or is that just me?

[cybertron-after-dark]

I was gonna ask a question but i honestly forgot it 😅 so just tell me something you want to rant about

If you do happen to remember what you were gonna ask feel free to do so, do not worry about spamming my inbox bc I live for that shit.

As for the rant

Transformers Rescue Bots had some of the best, kindest, and most respectful representation of neurodivergence I have ever seen in media and I'm tired of pretending it didn't.

While there are obvious complaints to be made about neurodivergent traits (especially autistic traits) usually being portrayed in media by inhuman characters like aliens or robots, this being a case of both, I feel like thats a pretty negligible sin given just how human the show makes the robots feel. (Also it was like 2011 and we were STRUGGLING for any scraps of rep anyway)

But like. The behaviors all these robots exhibit are all shit that I do that was always deemed unacceptable when I was a kid and seeing it portrayed with the level of kindness and gentleness they do in that show has me fuckin crying a little man. I wish I had actually watched it when I was younger and it was first airing because maybe if I did I would've had an easier time explaining what the hell was going on with my brain a LOT sooner.

Blades being anxious, overly sensitive, and WHOLEHEARTEDLY queer (which they had the absolute unparalleled balls to just casually confirm by having him swoon over "hunky vampires" in one episode and NOBODY commented on it. Fucking iconic) and getting so so deeply invested in the shows and movies he loves that he acts out the roles with enough passion to steel his nerves and completely flourish.

Boulder getting really confused at concepts that are basic and intuitive for most people, but still being so fucking intelligent, and never being made to feel stupid for the mix-ups, as well as just being so wholely, unabashedly in love with the planet he's found himself on, even if he doesn't understand all of it (Also apologizing to inanimate objects when he knocks them over 😭)

Chase being obsessed with rules and law because he NEEDS the structure to not fall apart at the seams, even feeling the need to fabricate a minor crime to justify using the emergency line to get a hold of the firehouse when he can't find the other bots. As well as just fully not understanding comedy (BUT TRYING HIS DAMNEDEST), taking things super literally, and having a lot of trouble with tone and expressions (even though you know just how deeply he feels All The Time).

Heatwave being desperate for attention and recognition, but completely allergic to asking for it. And honestly allergic to showing any genuine emotional responses other than aggression. The constant sarcasm and sass and defensiveness that he POORLY maintains because everyone knows that underneath that tough guy front is the loneliest robot on earth that wants to be loved SO bad but would rather jump into unicron's mouth than voice it because if he lets his guard down who knows what will happen to him or the people he cares about.

Just. All of it man. Seeing them exhibiting all these behaviors and quirks that all too often get met with poor reactions from people who don't want to deal with what they don't really get, but here they're met with patience and understanding?? It's got me fucked up. They get to be functional adults that struggle with what they have going on but still push through. They get to have unconditionally loving relationships with people that treat them with respect. And that's the kind of shit that gives me a lot of hope for folks like me because maybe some neurotypical kids that watched it picked up on what's helpful when their friend who acts like one of the bots is going through it. And maybe some neurodivergent kids watched it too and for the first time they just felt SEEN.

Okay rant over, I'm gonna go cry over some plastic robots 👍

[zorosleftmantit101]

One piece group chat shenanigans

A/N: I see a little sillohetto of a man

C/W: Swearing, telling ppl to kts, Crack post, Shitpost

Luffy: Wait so like do beavers exist

Robin: yeah why

Luffy: how do I know if I seen one

Nami: you'll fucking know when you see one

Franky: guys im shitting rn

Usopp: Nami leave him alone he's autistic

Luffy: cause like I've seen a lot in my time right?

Zoro: what are you about to tell us a fucking war story.

Luffy: Zoro, your distracting me can you litterly shut up.

Sanji: honestly actually kys zoro

@Zoro has removed @sanji from the chat

Usopp: someone add him back

Nami: no dont...

Brook: sup sluts whats going on

Luffy: brook have you seen a beaver

@Usopp has added @Sanji to the chat

Nami: alright Usopp your getting blocked

Usopp: I had to I can hear him crying

Sanji: IM NOT CRYING IM LITTERLY IN PUBLIC

Brook: don't fret sanji I cry in public constantly

Nami: here we fucking go

Brook: or at least I would

Brook: if I had any eyes 👀

@Nami has removed @Brook from the chat

Luffy: NAMI I NEEDED TO ASK HIM ABT THE BEAVERS

Nami: no one cares abt the beavers Luffy

Luffy: I DO

Luffy: WHERES THE BUTTON TO ADD HIM BACK

Zoro: who added the slut back to the chat

Sanji: Zoro I hope you piss kidney stones

@Luffy has added 8 people to the chat

NamI: LUFFY WHAT DID YOU DO

Luffy: I WAS JUST TRYING TO ADD BROOK I THINK I MESSEP UP

Shanks: HEY NERDS

Buggy: what the fuck is this

Crocodile: straw hat...

Mihawk: this is highly immature

Shanks: someone shoul put you in a retirement home

Buggy: HA

Crocodile: Buggy are you conspiring with the enemy

Nami: someone kick them

Brook: IM BACK SLUTS

Ace: ive been summoned

Robin: yo what...

Law: straw hat this is unfunny

Kidd: yknow who else isnt funny

Shanks: buggy?

Buggy: KYS

Kidd: your un present father

@law has left the chat

Kidd: HA hit a nerve fucking losser

@Kidd has left the chat

@Mihawk has left the chat

@crocodile has left the chat

Shanks: im staying this is juicy

Buggy: like my ass

@nami has removed @buggy from the chat

Shanks: NERD

@Nami has removed @Shanks from the chat

Nami: Ace yknow what you need to do

Ace: 👍

@Ace has left the chat

Nami: finally peace and quiet

Luffy: anyway brook abt the beavers

@Franky has sent a photo

*opened by all*

Luffy: is that your shit

Franky: i told you i was shitting

@Nami has left the chat

@zoro has left the chat

@sanji has left the chat

@Robin had left the chat

Usopp: Franky that looks really bad when was the last time you went to a doctor

Franky: ur mum

@Usopp has left the chat

Franky: so just the three of us

Brook: indeed

Luffy: anyway brook so beavers

[loveireandblog]

And Croatia! Bc I went on holiday w a fucking racist, drunk, suicidal LANDLORD . THEY BOTH HAD me come back a shell of a human I can't even reiterate it enough but atleast w croatia I came back w a bit of vivacity.

FUCK Kai. Seriously fuck kai! And it had to be my fucking bfs fucking central group of fucking FRIENDS. NOBODY LIKED KAI! THEY ALL SPOKE HORRIBLY OF THEM. And in their twisted fucking head it was like a battle of the partners which in time afterwards has become extremely apparent Now basically not cos of me bc they're selfish bastards who don't stick up for eachother let alone me the rando gf of bf anyway they've made a boundary against kai now instead of licking their arsehole and hating soon as they were gone (and at the same time whole time in Rome bf is like I'm distraught! I want you guys to gel so goooood. But kai! And I'm like no...I do not like. Your friends. And they were like but they're sticking by kai for _gf of kai_ and i was like right but they are being duplicitous to the extreme and they r closer to kai + whT did I fucking do 🙃. Mistake of my life. Take it all personally. He's always saying get out n make friends I actually cannot believe I cared looking back I'm now solidified in my small circle. There was 3 people n Kai n bf. And 2 of those people apologised later n said it was a witch hunt. Just to rly make clear the call isn't from inside the house but now I've said that but idc

They just deal w kai bc she's _ gf and I'm like in what fucking world and then when kai was acting up w me bf didn't stick up for me in real time - he said its bc he cld see how much I was struggling water under bridge but instead what stuck in my extreme chokehold head is mirror images w a bad brain - my nemesis. If you put a filter onto things in my world ur gone. I am filter central lol I'm gonna cry I find it very hard to climb down frm all ledges n it's where I go. Posi twist is that I'm good! I'm fine! I am just fucking petrified of my own traps!!!!!)

and thats it that's where I am now tryna fucking scrape money to look after myself as I see that was after being agoraphobic (keeps happening in extremely intense bursts for wks and rn I'm in a pretty okay one where its every few days atleast but idk if "can only go out w someone in tow" but can do gym! And corner shop! And town centre and cinema. A train to a diff city on my own? What once was my extreme usual has disappitated) after covid threw me into warrington and I spent a lot of time indoors pulling me back to Home days & no community.

I pushed myself out and absolutely yes coincidentally (bc I couldn't believe it) the 2 holidays were brutal and i was extremely vulnerable!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but they were indeed brutal! The stories (when told properly) has everyone flabbergasted! They question! Why did Sam for example come on this family holiday? The other carer was like urrrr ill politely decline. What cesspit of shit boundaries was going on there pray

Or kai and bf . He has shit fucking friends. Like that's his baggage

I see my own logic in the things that happened rather than their symbols and I am PRAYING AGAINST HOPE the mirror thing adds up I sound mental but that's ocd for u - and compulsively eclipsing n ruining along the way apparently apppppareeeently but I am not okay and i thought I'd figured out the illogical nature enough to bypass. No. That was days of old 👍. As I keep repeating the better I get, the worse the bdd is getting.

ROME *RUINED* MY LIFE OR I JUST SAW PROPERLY IM NOT ENTIRELY SURE BUT I LITERALLY and i came back as Nothing and then building up bc I don't wanna /die/ and it's all wRONG