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(don't bother) calling me when you're sober | rating: m | wc: 1.5k
content warnings: future fic, parental alcoholism ("falling off the wagon"), past parental neglect, minor character death (i've committed wayne crimes i'm so sorry but it's not shown, just mentioned), emotional hurt/comfort, ends on a happy, hopeful note despite the tags
âMy dad called.âÂ
Eddie walks into the room, pinched eyebrows and flared nostrils lit up by the multicolored Christmas lights they string on the tree every year, one hand balled into a fist. The reaction wouldnât surprise Steve so much if this happened years ago, when Al Munson was still living in the bottom of a bottle of Jack, but now?Â
Itâs been eighteen years since heâd gotten sober, nineteen years since his last stint at Hawkins County, and fifteen years since making a genuine attempt to right the wrongs of Eddieâs childhood and build a relationship with his son.Â
Fifteen years after Eddie let him in, let him try, let him earn Eddieâs trust.Â
Fifteen years is a long time and to see Eddie so vitriolic in the doorway of their apartmentâs living roomâ hands shaking, body shakingâ Steve knows something mustâve gone wrong.Â
âWhat happened?â Steve asks, standing from the couch and meeting Eddie where he stands, holding the hand not curled tightly around itself.Â
âHeâs drunk. He called, and he was drunk.âÂ
Steveâs chest pulls tight, his heart racing. What does someone say to that? What can someone say to assuage that kind of deep anger, pain, and betrayal? His thoughts are scattered as they try to make sense of what Eddie just said, and heâs even more grateful now that Ronnie wanted a sleepover with Aunt Robin tonight.Â
âEddie, fuck. Iâm soâ â Before he can finish his thought, Eddie leans back against the doorframe, ripping his hand out of Steveâs and tangling his fingers in his hair, tugging.Â
âHow could he? How fucking could he?!â Eddie bellows, eyes squeezed shut. âHe knew! He knew that if he ever did this again, Iâd be done. For good. For forever. And he did it anyways! After eighteen fucking years!âÂ
His eyes fly open and Steve stands still and nods him on. There are just no words to fix this, and trying for the sake of filling the silence has never served him well.
âHe did it anyway! Two days before fucking Christmas, a week before the anniversary ofââ He chokes and cuts himself off.Â
He knows what Eddie was going to say. A week before the anniversary of Wayneâs death. Itâs been on his mind, too, of course. On his mind and in their conversations over breakfast with eccentric mugs of coffee, over the tangled lights that Wayne could always figure out. The year hasnât been the kindest to them, particularly Eddie, and Steve wants to protect Eddie as much as he can from whatever he can.Â
But he canât shield him from this. Al Munson skips to the top of his shitlist.
âThat son of a bitch!â Eddie rams his fist sideways against the door jam, leaving a sharp, red mark along his pinky. âHe promised, and I believed him. Why the fuck did I believe him, Steve?â
Steve takes a step closer and grabs both of Eddieâs hands, carefully soothing the angry mark. âItâs been almost twenty years, babe. Trusting him with so much time invested makes sense. Hell, I did, too.âÂ
âIâmâ Iâm in my 30s, hurt and angry about the same shit I was hurt and angry about as a fucking kid. All the nights I slept in the backseat of the car because he blew his money at the bar, all the car accidents and court appearances and jail time, all the mornings I missed school because he didnât know what fucking day it was,â Eddie rants, stopping to take a breath before picking back up, Steveâs own heart cracking and raging the more he speaks.Â
âAnd every time heâd get sober, heâd always promise. Heâd promise it would be the last time, and it never was. Not once could he choose his fucking son and I didnât understand it then, but now that we have Ronnie, I understand it even less. If I was sick enough to walk away from her, Iâd walk my happy ass to the nearest fucking rehab. I get that itâs a disease, I get it, I get it, I get it. But I canâtâ I canât do it again. Not this time. Eighteen years just down the fucking drain because of his companyâs holiday party? How can I ever believe him again? Or trust him again?âÂ
Eddieâs voice grows raspier, breath shallow and quick, eyes watery. âEvery time this happened when I was a kid, I always had Wayne. Heâs the only person who really got it, yâknow? The only one who lived it with me and now, I donât even have him. My dadâs drunk, slurring his way through who fucking knows what on the phone, and no one else can fully understand the magnitude of what that feels like for me.âÂ
He squeezes his eyes shut again and drops forward toward Steve, forehead on his shoulder and arms loosely hung around Steveâs waist. Steve still doesnât have words that bandage this up, but he knows how to show his husband love in other ways. Ways that, over the years, have become a language all their own. Steve pulls him in tight, one hand near his waist, the other cradling the back of his head. Fingers slide carefully beneath the hem of Eddieâs tee-shirt and rub little, repetitive circles into the small of Eddieâs back while he cards his other hand through Eddieâs hair, scratching his scalp and holding him to his chest to feel the rhythm of Steveâs own heartbeat until his breath returns to a steady pace.Â
Itâs only then that Steve speaks.Â
âI donât know what to say, Ed. Itâs fucked up, and if you want to me like, hit him with my car, you know Iâm game.â Steve feels Eddie laughâ just a few puffs of air through his nose but itâs a laugh all the same. âBut Iâm here, and weâre gonna figure it out, okay? Whatever you decide to do, weâll do it together.â
Eddie nods and lets himself be led to the couch, Steve tucking Eddie into his side and pulling the afghan up over them.Â
âI never want to be what Al was to me to our daughter,â Eddie whispers, not looking away from the tree.Â
âWell, youâre ahead of the game, because sheâs already older than you were when he started hitting the bottle hard. And I know thereâs the genetic piece to it that everyone talks about, but nurture counts for a lot of who we become, too. Shit, I owe Joyce Byers a huge thank you for being more of a parent to me than my own were because sheâs probably the reason I didnât turn out like Dick Harrington. Ronnieâs never going to have an Al Munson in her life, because you werenât raised by Al Munson. Thatâs not whose legacy youâre passing down. Youâre passing down love, not pain.â Steve presses a soft kiss to Eddieâs temple and feels his whole body sag into him.Â
âYeah. Yeah, I guess youâre right.â Eddieâs voice is quiet now, a far cry from his earlier venomous edge.Â
Silence nestles onto the couch with them, a comfortable addition, as they watch the basketball game Steve had on before Eddie told him about the phone call. Watch is a loose description, actually. They're more just looking at a moving, flashing screen.Â
âMy hand really hurts, by the way,â Eddie announces, holding up the hand heâd used to punch the doorjam. âThat was fucking dumb.â
âMaybe a little bit, but I get it,â Steve untucks a hand from beneath the blanket and outstretches his palm. âLemme see?â
Eddie plops his hand into Steveâs and Steve takes a look, mentally working down the check list heâs memorized from his decade plus of EMT work. No obvious breaks, nothing looks crooked, Eddieâs able to move each finger and flex his hand without severe pain.Â
âIf anything, itâs just gonna be bruised tomorrow. But Iâll fix it,â Steve grins and lifts Eddieâs fist to his lips, carefully kissing each knuckle and paying a little extra attention to the pinky that delivered most of the blow.Â
âIâm so in love with you, Steve.â Eddie rests his temple on Steveâs shoulder. âYou know that, right?âÂ
âI know,â Steve agrees, chest fluttering despite the circumstances. âAnd Iâm in love with you, too. You know that, right?â
Eddie snuggles in and wraps Steve up, full koala, as though heâs trying to get as close as possible without actually cracking Steve open and climbing inside of him.Â
âDefinitely.â
The next morning, Aunt Robin brings Ronnie home and together, they decorate the gingerbread cookies that only vaguely look like people but are good enough to pass for a seven year old. Halfway through, Eddieâs cell phone rings and the caller I.D. reads Al. Steve watches, worried that Eddieâs going to answer in the middle of their decorating. That heâll forget Ronnieâs having the time of her life, and that in his righteous indignation, Eddie will leave the table to go fight and argue.
Thereâs so much to be said, and Steve wouldnât blame him, but he breathes a sigh of relief when Eddie simply declines the call and sets about pouring more edible glitter onto his design with a smile down at their daughter.Â
#steddie#steddie fic#steddie fanfic#steddie fanfiction#steve harrington x eddie munson#eddie munson x steve harrington#steve harrington#eddie munson#stranger things#stranger things fic#stranger things fanfic#stranger things fanfiction#myblurbs#(whispers): yeah so my mom fell off the wagon after 18 years at her fucking work party and this is basically just what my day was#our relationship has always been strained but since she got sober there was at least some contact?#anyways#replace wayne with my grandparents and this is just all projection baybee đâïž#super not cool with it BUT that's why there are some content warnings here you don't see from me very often đ
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Her kisses were all-consuming and he felt his heart surrendering to her with every gentle nip, losing himself in the feeling of her. Her soft body pressing tightly against him, her breathy moans, the soft hair at the nape of her neck, her taste.
When Eloise finally pulled away from him, breathing heavily as their foreheads pressed together and their eyes locked, Sebastian was dazed and content and...happy. Merlin, he was so happy. Her cheeks were bright pink, and her lips were swollen and red and smiling up at him. His breath caught in his throat - he didn't think he had ever seen anything so beautiful as Eloise in that moment. Sebastian knew that he was grinning like a fool but he didn't care.
Happiness was bubbling up in his body and he was leaning down to kiss her again because it would never be enough and -
She started coughing.
Eloise abruptly pulled away from him, covering her mouth with her sleeve as she doubled over. A terrible, horrible, familiar wracking cough that Sebastian never thought he would hear again.
When she pulled her sleeve away from her mouth, there were little flecks of blood.
They both looked at each other in horror.
"Eloise..." he started, his voice cracking. The balloon of happiness that had filled him burst and he felt himself crashing back to the grim reality that had been his life for too long. Arms hanging limply at his sides. When his voice came out again, it was a whisper. He could barely choke the words out.
"...what did you do?"
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#sorry guys I canât help but be an evil gremlinđ«Ąđđ#idk if Iâve drawn them kissing before but this was fun!!!!đ„č so Iâll do it againđđđ#do you like when I add these little excerpts from my writing??#alsođ«#I was thinking of rewriting my fic from the beginning is that likeâŠokay? normal? something people do????#it was the first thing Iâve ever written and Iâm just pantsing the whole thing#I like the plot and basically all of it SO MUCHđ«#but I feel like my writingâs improved since I started and I have a better idea of who Eloise is#so I want to rewrite and tweak things a bit so itâs BETTER#idkđ«đ« maybe Iâll just keep going forward with my disasterđ#anyways hope you enjoyed this KISSđđđđđđđ„čđ„čđ„č#đđ#hogwarts legacy#hogwarts legacy fanart#hphl#hogwarts legacy mc#hogwarts legacy oc#sebastian sallow#eloise babbit#sebastian sallow x mc#sebastian sallow fanart
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[gesticulating like i'm jake gyllenhaal holding a ferret] and what if Cadash is absolutely convinced that Andraste has chosen them. What if they have this deeply held belief that something far more powerful than anything they could ever know looked at them and saw its champion. What if it has to be like that, what if it feels right. And. When their precious saviour turns out to be nothing more than a dead woman, the one who in life was the leader of the same Chantry that now sees Cadash as little more than an insult to everything it stands for. What then. Their own people rejected them long before they were even born, how could they ever be so stupid to believe there was a place for them here? What if the world is still ending and all they did was trading being a weapon for the Carta with being a symbol for the Inquisition! Of course it felt right! Not getting to be a person is all they have ever KNOWNNNNNNNNN
#dear god is this too corny? do i sound pretentious? deranged? whatever cringe is dead (hits post while screaming)#paired with a dwarven hof who tells them to remember the stone as if the stone! has ever bothered! to remember them!!! aaaaaaaaah!!#ANYWAY as i've said before cadash is genuinely impossible to get wrong. there's not a single concept that won't work for them#player character of the century đđ#dragon age#dragon age inquisition#cadash#inquisitor cadash#my posts
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surpriseee @landslided :3 i'm your secret santa for @cksecretsanta23 ! i drew you a good old fashioned snowball fight, or at least the aftermath of one. hopefully it's good enough to hang on the fridge this holiday season
#1984 be upon ye#anyway erm hope u like ittt đ#might've projected my awesome little trait of 'wears comically bad shoes for winter' onto daniel here#ali mills#johnny lawrence#daniel larusso#tkk#the karate kid#cobra kai#cksecretsanta23#ah darn tumblr being weird about the quality again
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Every time Bella and Alice hangout, Jasper starts singing Jolene by Dolly Parton on guitar.
#Bella Bella Bella Bellaaaa I'm begging of you please don't take my woman#Please don't take her just because you can :[#Jasper: *starts sobbing on the guitar*#Bella: I havenât even done anything đ??#Alice: âŠ.đŹ so anyway- đ#my art#alice x bella#belice#bella x alice#bellice#twilight meme#twilight saga#jasper hale#jasper whitlock#twilight#eclipse#new moon#breaking dawn#breaking dawn part 2#jasper x alice#emmett cullen#twilight incorrect quotes
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ohhHHHh brother,,, is this another sketch dump after an undisclosed number of weeks of absence and online inactivity? yessir it sure is but i sure hope it won't stay that way đ€ apologies again for disappearing, but im on break for the next couple of months for the summer so i have a lot planned and im hoping to catch up with... everything!
i put a little status update under the cut but feel free to skip that cuz its just me explaining some things ive had on my mind hoho đđ happy 1st of june everyone!!!
a lot of things have been happening irl that im still getting used to, but thank you for always being very patient đââïž i apologise for disappearing again after i promised id start being more active again in... januARY??? man oh man the year is passing by tooooo fast holy smokes
i havent had much time to be on social media since then, but ive gotten some email notifs from ppl sending in such kind messages via inbox, and its really made me go AUGHHHHH in the midst of whatever im doing cuz it means the world to me đ„șâ€ïž if youre someone who's sent in something over the past year since i started hiatus in march 2023, IM REALLY SORRY AGAIN đđ i always try to keep up with my policy of one-art-piece-per-ask, but because of that sometimes i just procrastinate a lot or get stuck on finding relevant things to draw as thanks. ive been brainstorming some ideas, though, and its my goal to get through a hefty sum of em before things get real busy again in a few months đ€
im really sorry again for being so inconsistent this past year, but im gonna do my best! i hope everyone on here's been doing good and im raring to see everything new with silm tumblr â€ïžâ€ïž also if anyone has any recs for any new content pls feed me for i am starvedddd
#silmarillion#maedhros#the silmarillion fanart#fingon#sketch dump#new year new me more like new year new mae(dhros)#there is an unusual amount of blondes in this month's sketch dump tho hmmmmm#does coming to appreciate glorfindel and finrod more mean one has grown up? maybe.... just maybe... đđ#i wanna make more content w/ galadriel and her family cause i rewatched the lotr trilogy with family and it got me all emotional again augh#anyways i also hv a new fixation on sauron and the maiar AND fullbody character design so.... thats something i have planned?#well feel free to request anything as always đ cuz if i have no prompts i will just draw copious amounts of kidnap fam like an insane perso#finrod#silm#silm art#the silmarillion#house of finwe#galadriel#elrond#maglor#tar mairon#sauron#glorfindel#ecthelion#turgon#elenwe#feanorians#amras#sons of feanor#ambarussa#sakasakart
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You'd never believe who spent almost 2 hours redrawing a frame instead of doing something like schoolwork. except I legit did not know how to make bh interesting. eli stick to a DESIGN.
Anyways yeah I just wanted to redraw my tumblr banner so I could have smth of my own instead of like. a screenshot. explodes epicly I need to hyperfixate on smth that ISNT them
#artists on tumblr#art#digital art#idk#object show community#the power of two#tpot#im not counting this as astrobiology but ima stick it into my tag anyway#astrobiology is so cool#eli when the characters of her favorite ship are in the same vicinity: đ°đ„đ„đ„đđđđ
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#originally was just gonna flip a coin but decided to be nice and group project it!!!#(she's trying to make a comeback your honor)#anyways ya got a week have fun vote responsibly bc i'm gonna keep it a surprise for myself đ#sunshine family#sunshine siblings#himawari uzumaki#fic stuff#đ
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Me explaining that we technically havenât seen anyone make a deal with god and swap places for someone they love yet and how it perfectly fits into the theory that Mike is gonna be targeted at the start of s5, after they open the season re-contextualizing Willâs connection to vecna from the beginning, leading up to now where Will is going to sacrifice himself to save Mike, essentially giving Vecna what he wants aka Will, with him going back to his Zombie Boy era (kinda like what happens in the comics with Will the Wise) and his sacrifice initiating the time jump we see, with a year passed and them still trying to find him, living the s1 era all over again, with the town convinced Willâs disappearance in 83â started this towns curse and how full circle it will feel compared to s1 and with everything thatâs happened over the seasons that is going to be addressed.
#byler#donât take me seriously#this is a crack theory#I only feel confident about like 8% of it#this is like 20 of my theories mixed into one#itâll keep changing every day depending on how Iâm feeling đâïž#just trying to conceptualize how they would initiate a time jump#and Iâm coming up blank#all I can think is#Will did somethingâŠ#something is going on with the UD being stuck on the day he went missing#he made himself invisible fr this time đ„ș#i could see Will either being presumed missing or dead#like that William tombstone in dear billy was foreshadowingâŠ#we did get letter to Willy in that scene and the byler scene in the junkyardâŠ#they definitely set s4 up in a way where Will is MISERABLE at at his lowest point yet#I donât even want to think about it#anyways⊠fic recs for ppl that are thinking about it#Iâm sat
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY @justonemorechapternicercy !!!!!!!! đ„łđâšâšâš I hope you have an awesome birthday today!!! đ„čđ And I hope you enjoy what I managed to put out akshsks đ I love youuu mwah!!! đđđ
About Black Dahlias and Red Anemones
by Geneviev on Ao3
Percy is ready for death - he knows that neither Nico nor Rachel is in love with him, but he is not able to let his feelings go.
Who would have thought that in the end, it would be Will who helps him get the boy - and the girl?
Art without the text under the cut đâš
#if there's a (specific kind of) mistake in here I'm gonna throw up#but anyway HAPPY BIRTHDAY GENNNNNNN đ„°đđâšđâšđâšđâšđâšđđâšđ#heard you like Hanahaki đ€đđđ#speaking ofâ SHAKING YOU BY THE SHOULDERS??? WHY BLACK DAHLIAS OH MY GODS. I THINK I CRIED WHEN II LOOKED IT UP FOR REFERENCE đđđ#i mean it fits and it is a very beautiful flower. but my gods.#anywayyy I hope you get all the things you ask for ever because you deserve all the good things ever đđđđ#pjo/hoo#percy jackson#my art đ#hanahaki au#percico#nicercy#perachel#pjo fanart#for Gen#perachico#percy jackson and the olympians
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before it felt like a sin, ch. 1
pairing: Sebastian Sallow x f!MC
word count: 3000
summary: Eloise never wanted to be different.
And yet, her differences are what have defined her life up until this point: growing up as a squib in one of the most prominent wizarding families, being exiled to muggle society, and then attending Hogwarts at the age of sixteen.
She finds herself thrust into the life she should have been prepared for from birth but was denied. As she navigates this new life and her new precarious position in her family, she must come to terms with the fact that maybe what she dreamed of her whole life isn't turning out how she ever expected it would.
a/n: Hi everyone!! I decided to post this here too...I'm slowly going through everything I've written so far, and I want to post each chapter here as I edit them. I'm hoping that this can be a way to a) get back in to writing more, and b) get better at my art as I make full illustrations for each chapter. Let me know what you think!! :)
There is nothing quite as horrible as being a muggle, Eloise thought savagely as she ripped out yet another stitch in the landscape she was embroidering. At least, it was supposed to be a landscape. Maybe with her head tilted to the left and with her eyes almost closed so everything blurred together, it might resemble one. She did just that, trying her hardest to make out some recognizable shape and blast the stupid practice of manually pushing colored thread through a fabric in some sort of -
âAnd what is this, Miss Babbit?â
Eloise jumped at the sound and looked up at the scowling face of her teacher, and then quickly back down at the tangled thread in her lap. Behind her, she could hear the hushed giggles of the other girls in her class.
âOh! ErâŠitâs -â
âHow long have you been here?â the woman interrupted.
âOne hourâŠI just -â
âDonât be smart with me. I mean, at this institute.â
âFive years.â Eloise glared down at her embroidery as if it had personally offended her. It wasnât like she was actively trying to be bad at everything, but she had the distinct disadvantage - how had it ever come to be that she would be at a disadvantage to muggles? - of not having spent a lifetime being prepared for muggle society and all that it entailed. The last five years had been a monotonous, endless cycle of lessons designed to turn her into the perfect lady: French (a waste of time as Eloise was already fluent), embroidery (a waste of time as the things she embroidered werenât actually useful), dancing (a waste of time as she was already engaged to be married - why would she bother trying to woo another silly man?), and her most dreaded class of all: etiquette. No matter how many years had been spent trying to assimilate into muggle culture, her thoughts still got muddled when she tried to remember the steps to a dance, or how to properly address the son of a duke.
Did it really matter, anyways, what the other girls thought? She had pretended her whole life to be the daughter she thought her parents had wanted - now she was simply pretending that she hadnât been thrown into the muggle world without a second thought. What was a bit more pretending - that she didnât care? That she hadnât been tossed aside without a second thought?
âExactly. Five years. And yet, you have shown no progress whatsoever. This -â a finger jabbed accusingly at the embroidery - âis absolutely horrendous. If your parents hadnât continued to make such a sizeable donation every year, I would have deemed you a lost cause and sent you packing when you first arrived. How your family ever managed your betrothal to the son of an earl is beyond me.â
Eloise grimaced at the mention of her fiance as her teacher clapped her hands together to get the attention of the class - a wholly unnecessary action due to the fact that it was already being given. âClass is dismissed. Please collect your belongings and put them in the correct place. Remember, as future wives and mothers, you must be organized in all aspects of your life. Many of you will be managing important households and the slightest misstep -â a slight glance to Eloise out of the corner of her eye - âcan cause the biggest of scandals.â
Eloise raced to gather her things and leave the classroom before everyone else. No matter how many years had been spent at the school, she couldnât help but hate sitting through the classes amongst the judgmental stares and snide remarks. Although things had started out shaky at the finishing school - to be expected, really, when youâve grown up in wizarding society and then are then forced to live as a muggle - it still stung that after all these years, she still hadnât found a friendly face. She was treated as if she were a pariah: it was as if the other girls just knew that something was different about her. ButâŠwasnât that the great irony of it all? She wasnât different than them. She was a filthy squib.
When she first arrived at the school, she was an anomaly. A twelve-year-old girl who didnât know how to play the piano or who the queen was. It was clear to everyone that Eloise wasnât the charity case of the school - her parents were obviously quite wealthy - and yet they seemingly wanted nothing to do with her. Whereas the others got regular letters and visits from their family, it was as if Eloise were an orphan. Nothing new to her of course, but to her peers this otherness aided them in her ostracization.
Upon entering her room, she was abruptly pulled out of her thoughts. Something wasnât right. Everything seemed the same: a twin bed perfectly made opposite a small wardrobe, a plain wooden desk placed between them. The weak afternoon sunlight shone through the window, illuminating her desk. ButâŠthere.
ThatâŠ
Placed on her bed, resting on the pillow, was a letter.
She never received letters.
Eloise shoved her embroidery under her bed and hungrily grabbed at it, pausing when she saw the address. Miss E. Babbit. The Third Bedroom on the LeftâŠÂ It seemed vaguely familiar to her in a way she couldnât quite put her finger on.
As she read the letter, though, it became apparent to her exactly why this was. Although not exactly the same as the one her brother had received six years earlier, it quickly became apparent that this was a Hogwarts letter. For her. For Miss E. Babbit.
Hands shaking, she set the letter down on her desk and sat on the edge of her bed. She smoothed her hands over her skirt over and over, taking comfort in the familiar softness as she tried to even her breathing.
How was this possible? She had all but accepted the fact that she was a squib. The shame of her family, a dirty secret to be hidden away and never talked about or mentioned again. Her parents had suspected as much by the time she had turned seven without any signs of magic whatsoever manifesting around her - not even a basic transformation of brussel sprouts to sweets during dinner. It was ultimately confirmed, however, when her own Hogwarts acceptance letter never arrived. She had spent the whole year before her banishment daydreaming about her life at Hogwarts, still optimistic that there could be something magical inside of her. Her brother, Leo, came home every holiday with wonderful stories of his new friends and teachers, and the subjects he was learning at school. Even back then, at twelve years old, Eloise hadnât been sure if he was actually hopeful she wasnât a squib, or if he had been trying to prolong the fantasy for her before it all came crashing down.
Although she had had five years to come to terms with her new life, there was still a small part of her that hoped. A small âwhat ifâŠâ. She had tried time and time again to squash that tiny ray of optimism that would escape every so often, tried so very hard to cultivate a hard exterior that wouldnât let any sort of vulnerability shine through. And that optimism was a vulnerability, after all. It was that vulnerability that had made it absolutely impossible for her to fit in the muggle world, and made it so that she didnât really want to try.
Five years to come to terms with the fact that she needed a new purpose for her life andâŠ
âŠnot anymore?
Eloise grabbed the letter and greedily read through it again, drinking in all of the words. She paused at the end, thinking. Was this a forgery? Some sort of awful joke orchestrated by her brother? Leo had never been cruel to her in the past; in fact, he was the one who always encouraged her and was the most probable source of the small optimism that remained within her. However, she had no way of knowing how he had changed since she had last seen him. It had been, after all, five very long years. And not once had she heard from him, even though he had promised her through huge sobbing gulps that he would never abandon her. Maybe their parents had slowly poisoned him against her. It would be right on the nose for them, after all.
Looking at the envelope again, howeverâŠThird Bedroom on the LeftâŠno. It was too specific. Nobody in her previous life had any reason to even want to contact her again, and nobody in her current life even knew what Hogwarts was, let alone have the ability to convincingly forge a letter just to have some fun at her expense.
A light, bubbly feeling began to spread throughout her body as it sunk in that this was real. She was going to Hogwarts. Soon, a - squinting at the letter again - a Professor Fig would be contacting her and giving her things to study. A huge grin slowly spread across her face and she hugged the letter to her chest as she fell back on her bed. She read through it again. Was it the fifth time already? It felt as though no amount of times rereading the letter would ever be enough.
Eloise got up and walked over to look at the calendar on her desk. She was surprised to see that September 1st was in only two days. The days at the finishing school moved in such a strange, sluggish way. They all felt the same. Monotonous. French and Latin and embroidery and household management and Merlin even knows what else all blending into each other in an endless parade of dusty classrooms and gossip and boredom.
The light feeling left her in an instant as, after years of practice, the optimism was squashed back down. But how will you even get to London? And, her brain added sneakily, you havenât even shown any signs of magic. Maybe youâll just be returned back here after they realize their mistake.
No, she thought fiercely, gripping the letter. Until -
A tapping came from the window. A tentative smile returned at the sight of a tawny brown owl with another envelope in its beak. She ripped it open as soon as it was in her hands (again addressed to Miss E. Babbit) and along with the letter a small, purple pouch fell out of the envelope and onto her bed.
Miss Eloise Babbit,
I am pleased to be the wizard charged with such an important task as escorting you to Hogwarts in two daysâ time. It is something extraordinary to be accepted in your fifth-year, and as such, I expect extraordinary things from you. I have enclosed a small pouch along with this envelope, and in it are some items that will be vital to you in the upcoming days. I have included books for you to study at your leisure, and a small gobstone that will bring you to our rendezvous point in London. All you have to do is touch it at noon on the 1st and you will be transported instantly.
Your family has not been informed of your acceptance. I am sure you understand why - at this, Eloise scoffed quietly to herself - which is why I will personally be your escort.
I am looking forward to meeting you and bringing you to the sorting ceremony in two daysâ time.
Yours,
Eleazar Fig
The handwriting was tiny and spidery and cramped, but it didnât stop Eloise from reading it with the same vigor as the previous letter and as many times. Finally, she turned to the small pouch that had fallen onto her bed when she opened the second envelope. It must have had an invisible extension charm, because it was filled to the brim with books on basic spellwork and general wizarding history. Professor Fig had no way of knowing, but Eloise had already read many of these books and many more during the year her brother had started Hogwarts, as she had needed to know absolutely everything about what would be awaiting her. A few years may have passed since she had stepped foot in her familyâs library, but she couldnât get the books or their contents out of her brain even if she had wanted to. She had really wanted to forget everything she knew about the magical world when it was confirmed she was a squib but it was a futile effort. As she zoned out during her piano lessons, she would find herself mentally going through the movements to cast different charms.
It was painful to be thinking about things from the life that had been ripped away from her, to know that what she was thinking about would never come to pass, that she would never be able to wield magic - and yet she couldnât find herself able to stop.
As Eloise picked out one of the books and settled into her armchair, a steely resolve overcame her.
She would prove that she deserved to be there, and was just as capable as any of they were. She would make her parents regret ever discarding her like she was nothing.
She was worthy. She was capable. And she would prove it.
The morning of September 1st dawned cold and rainy. Absolutely perfect.
Eloise had pretended to be sick the night before, and no one had suspected a thing when she stayed in bed long after all of the other girls had gotten ready and headed to breakfast. As the last of the chattering faded away down the hallway, Eloise finally got out of bed and prepared herself for the day. It was difficult to sit still long enough to braid her hair. Her fingers wouldnât stop trembling and she had to restart countless times. Finally, she tied the black ribbon at the end into a neat bow and turned to the drawer of her desk to retrieve the small purple pouch she had hidden away.
Everything she deemed important enough to come along with her had already been placed inside: the books from Professor Fig, the hair ribbons gifted to her by her brother many years ago, and some clothing. Nothing else was coming with. She needed the fresh start. Besides, anything else she might need would be supplied, as her acceptance letter had specifically stated that any school supplies would be provided to her.
Waiting the hours before noon came along proved to be more difficult than Eloise had imagined. Time seemed to be moving slower than the molasses that had come with the breakfast sent up to her, the steady patter of the rain becoming a sort of metronome keeping time as she paced back and forth. Wasnât there anything that could distract her, even for a bit? She glanced at the clock. Only five minutes had passed since the last time. 10.35.
The second hand ticking away in tandem with the sound of rain splashing against her window.
What if this was all a trick? What if she arrived at Hogwarts, and they turned her away because they realized they had made a mistake? After all, why would they admit a sixteen-year-old? Surely she was too old; every other student had started Hogwarts at the age of twelve and had shown signs of magic much earlier than that. She still hadnât shown any signs of magical capability whatsoever, and didnât feel any different than she had before receiving the letter. It had to be a fluke.
As her thoughts started veering into the melancholy she was prone to, she shook her head. No. Today was a happy, exciting day. She wasnât going to squash the optimism down today, not when she needed it most. All of these thoughts she was having were simply that: thoughts. Not reality. Hogwarts never made a mistake, and in all of the history books she had read, she couldnât recall an instance of someone being turned away at the door. Granted, she had also never heard of someone being admitted so late. But, better to focus on what she did know, which was that she had gotten the letter. It must be right in its assumption that she had magic.
Trying to pass the time was easier said than done. She ended up quizzing herself on all of the charms she had memorized in the books sent by Professor Fig, moving an imaginary wand in the precise movements needed to successfully cast and focusing on her pronunciation. She had studied all of these forms late into both nights she had had the books, and when she would eventually close her eyes to sleep, the wand movements were all she saw.
Eloise was determined that she would receive pity from nobody. Nobody was going to look at her like she was lacking. She had gotten enough of that to last a lifetime, and now that she was given this opportunity she wasnât about to waste it.
When noon finally struck, Eloise was ready and waiting. She eagerly grabbed the gobstone that was sitting on her desk and felt the familiar tugging sensation in her navel as she was whisked away to London and the beginning of her new life.
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#im just writing this fic for fun & since Iâm editing it a bit#I thought it would be fun to challenge myself to do full illustrations for each chapter#(the reason I started these fanarts in the first place was for thisđ§ââïž)#if you actually read this I would love to know what you think!!#I keep going back & forth between wanting to make a master list and also explain my tag system on this tumblr#but at the same time I like the chaosâŠđ€#well let me know!! or if you have any suggestions!!đđ#it starts off a bit slow but this story is VERY canon-divergent#and will have a lot of mythology/magical theory/pureblood society etc etc#i dont expect these to really get much traction bahahahahahaha#but im going to have a lot of fun rereading my fic & making these illustrationsđ„čïżœïżœ#hogwarts legacy#hogwarts legacy fanart#hphl#hogwarts legacy oc#hogwarts legacy mc#eloise babbit#sebastian sallow#sebastian sallow x mc#hogwarts legacy fanfic#hogwarts legacy fic#oh also???? how do you format these things??????????????? anyways the chapter is up on ao3 and honestly the whole fic up to chapter 22đđ#but if you have any suggestions lmk!!!!#like do I put the warnings for the whole fic on each chapter?? put only the chapter warnings??? literally this is me: đ§ââïž#a poor confused technology grandma
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ur fic made no sense, ts was unrealistic af
my friend i hate to break it to you but that is the way the legend goes đ€Żđ€Ż it's meant to be unrealistic, because the myth is intended as a lesson on how love can become obsessive and take away our rational thinking, as well as a lesson on just how important communication in relationships.
#thanks for reading anyway đđ#and greek mythology has always been alllll about the dramatics like its basically just one messy mf soap opera#pluto's mail â
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About my OC Chiffany baby!
Her name is Tara, but Chucky calls her "Bunny" because she's loved bunnies since she was 2 or 3. đ„č
Her middle name is Pamela, which is my headcanon name for Tiffany's mother. Tara Pamela Ray.
She is a Cinnamon Rollâąïž type, absolutely NOTHING like her parents!
She became Christian in her late-ish teens sort of out of rebellion against her parents (she's not preachy or bigoted about it, though), but also because she hopes it'll, like... keep the evil out of her, I guess?
During BoC, she comes home from staying at a friend's overnight to find that her father is back... as a doll. When she walks in, he realizes it's her, and addresses her as "Bunny!" from the crib he's locked in, terrifying the poor girl. She leaves again to go back to her friend's later that day, not returning until the next day when her parents have already left with Jesse & Jade. Somehow, she meets up with David, and ends up on the rest of the road trip with them.
After the events of BoC (when she was 14), she would've lived with Jesse and Jade, since I'm pretty sure that Jesse was at least 18 and thus, could be her legal guardian.
Between 2004 and 2009, Tiffany (as Jennifer) is able to find her, and they reunite. She is, of course, appalled that her mother stole someone else's life, but she loves her baby siblings.
She was such a late 90's/early 2000's teen girl. She totally loved Britney and 'NSYNC and BSB because I SAID SO. (Let's... ignore what happened in Seed. đ)
I suppose she looked somewhat like this:
#I'm never gonna forgive Don for killing Britney and Martha in SoC; that shit was so unfunny. đ#Anyway!...#MY TARE BEAR! đđ«¶đœ#chucky oc#horror oc#chiffany#chucky x tiffany#txt
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đStrawberry Babeyđ
#stardew shane#stardew valley shane#shane stardew valley#sdv shane#Shane sdv#stardew valley#stardew valley fanart#my art#đ!!! I made him a strawberry#can we!!! acknowledge that I made my heart into a strawberry too#LIKE !!#anyways I made the Is cause my phone case is strawberry themed đ„ș so now it matches#rip gun shane I loved you totally
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THATS WHAT GOOD ZUGZWANG DOES TO A MF !!
#oc: leda#tay plays rogue trader#girls when they supplant everything that once fully occupied his mind đ„°đ€đâ€ïžđđđ€Șđđ»đđđ€#oh im losing it actually. ME GOOGLING ZUGZWANG 10 MINS AGO LIKE OH PERMISSION TO GO APE MODE ? PERMISSION TO GO BOBOBO CHIMP MODE ??#i love him so much it appears indistinguishable to the late stage throws of ruinous powers <3#anyway fun fact abt leda! shes a diviner nd i think she had a vision of them being in a relationship together when she first met heinrix lol#a ''vision'' but also a glimpse at all the love she would come to have for him. so yeah. very much love at first sight despite the um#torture lol <3#man...... jokes aside i honestly am sooo surprised by how good his route is. like actual top 5 best romances ive played in anything tbh#the pacing is so good... the lore... the writing... the voice acting & story & fun tropes.... 10000/10 would kiss sloppy style again
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happy birthday. sorry I tried to kill you. not really. I would do it again
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