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gammija · 9 months ago

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tiefling jon's first day at the Archives

#id in alt #the magnus archives #tma #magnus archives #elias bouchard #jonathan sims #tma jon #jon tma #jon sims #tma dnd au #tiefling jon #gammijart #tma s4 #so this is that comic i was talking about a few weeks ago. with way too many backgrounds and effort #ill say i did enjoy doing the backgrounds a lot and thats worth a whole lot. but also. if this gets no notes i will. cry #anyways. love drawing a correct perspective grid and then fucking it up in favor of something that is wrong but FEELS right <3 #also any anachronisms shall be explained by this being a fantasy setting #always difficult to post something that's not a joke. sincerity. yuck #and this does still have some jokes. just less punchy than id usually post. also no jmart or other ships. whoof #i havent done enough with elias. he's such a slimy bastard - v fun to write #he talks a bit more formally here than in canon but tbf he is an elf so /shrug #EDIT: aaaah between panels 4 and 8 i forgot i gave him an ace ring!!

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pencilofawesomeness · 3 months ago

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All the HSR I know is second-hand, but @therosefrontier 's long oneshot fic, live for tomorrow (let the past dissolve like sand), is living in my brain and gripping me by the throat so obviously I had to make a reaction meme for how that Sunset Savana homecoming was going to go.

Rip Neji and, and probably the rest of the palace staff and maybe Farena, for the absolute heart attack they're going to get when Leona "makes pretending like he doesn't have a heart an olympic sport" Kingscholar comes home with a traumatized kid. Anyway I can't wait for Dan Heng to be loved and fed well and exposed to sunlight, etc etc. Luckily for him I imagine Neji will immediately start the care routines while strangling Leona when Dan Heng isn't looking.

Bonus Neji Vision:

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crescenthistory · 1 month ago

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hunger games au where sirius was your childhood best friend, but after he was reaped and won the games at age 14, he completely cut you off without any explanation. your love never lessened, but you became resentful. when you are reaped in your last eligible year, he has to become your mentor despite not having spoken to each other in years. you don’t understand his desperation for you to win and to keep you safe, especially when he hardly seems to be able to talk to you without running off.

#carina has ideas #sirius black x reader #hunger games au #especially if he becomes known as this casanova of the capitol as a victor #you see the sweet and sassy boy you once knew on every screen around you #seemingly living his best life as a womaniser #and though you know better it still stings #he’s SO upset when you’re reaped #he doesn’t even greet you or break the years worth of ice between you #he just sits there with his head in his hands going “not you”#bc as we all know he cut you off to keep you safe from the capitol #but they got their hands on you at last #bonus point if the reaping was rigged bc someone in power figured out what you meant to sirius despite his best efforts #anyway #thinking thoughts #in a sirius mood lately bc of my potter!reader & jegulus fic

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abirddogmoment · 6 days ago

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I didn't take any photos but I took Rory skijoring for the first time today!

We did a 3.5km groomed multi-use trail with my (new to me) classic cross country skis. I got these skis off Marketplace last year but hadn't had the chance to use them yet. I'm not sure if it was my ski wax, the snow, or the weather, but I was NOT getting the glide I hoped. We both worked super hard so I let her off for the last 500m so she could run free while I skied.

It was really fun despite the effort! Idk if it'll be a regular activity in our rotation (as rollerblade canicross and free running both mutually easier and enriching activities) but it was cool to try out anyway.

#dogblr #skijoring #canicross #(tagged so i can find this later)#my ski wax is rated for +5 to -15C and it was closer to -20C today #but the trail was also super windblown and drifty so idk it couldve been a variety of factors #i dont think skiing is gonna be in the regular rotation for me because its so much extra work to bring my skis down to my car from storage #and i know thats a dumb reason but hey its my life #when i have to take extra steps to prepare for an activity my desire to do that activity generally goes down #rory did great though!#she started off a little uncertain about the squeaky noise from the snow against my skis #(when it's really cold and dry the snow gets squeaky)#but she pulled really consistently and looked really happy #if i had more dog power (stronger dogs or multiple dogs) maybe id do this one more often #but it didnt feel worth it for the amount of preparation to effort to enrichment ratio #rollerblade canicross was way more fun imo #anyway cool to try and a fun sunday activity!#and (surprisingly) zero people at the park even though it was noon on a Sunday and beautifull sunny #twas cold but i still expected the outdoor enthusiasts to be out

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threeofeight · 2 months ago

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THREE DOES WARHAMMER THE ONGOING SAGA NO ONE CARES ABOUT

OK so about people who know me know i don't paint much or often cause I have shaky hands and a bad shoulder. Think I've painted 40ish models over 10 years (some in a batch, my darling wyches).

Anyway I do try new things and watch videos to try improve each time I do a new model.

So back in 7th? 8th? I did a wraithknight for my dark eldar centric army for a ynnari combination. Was in my green, black, red and metallic colour scheme and had aether sails out the back as make shift wings (as incase it wanted to sail for a bit, obviously).

So i decided to try do up a second one 10 years later. Figured for this i could practice dry brushing.

So BEHOLD a drukhari themed (cult of strife specific) wraithknight.

Yes, it is dual wielding. Cut out the hand and replaced it with a left hand from the box.

I also did some modifications to the back with clay. So I figured I could use some raider/ravager parts and use the keel blade to replace the back parts. As well as little blades to the end of the bottom ones and on the arms.

Is it perfect? Nah.

But it is certainly an improvement of the original

Things were learned. It looks better than the original and I managed to try out new things.

All in all a promising and worthwhile adventure.

She's called malartaigh or mal for short.

#warhammer 40k #drukhari #wraithknight #aeldari #cult of strife #my darling mal #love of my life #a giant murder lesbian to go with the hufe muder lesbian centric army i have #so worth the effort to let her dual wield for aesthetics #is it good for the actual game lmfaoooo who cares when you look that cool #anyway #its still not the best ever but i am proud of her

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fernlessbastard · 10 months ago

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hot take moment cwilbur is literally just psychotic as all hell and i think people got way too comfortable villianizing the shit out of a man who was clearly portraying signs of severe mental illness. cwilbur was like im so fucking paranoid and scared and i think everyone is out to get me and hurt me and ive spiralled to the point i cant reach out to the people closest to me because im so afraid and lost in this spiral and im having constant panic attacks and hurting myself because i dong know what to do with myself and the only way out for me is to die. and everybody was like EVIL MAN WHO ENJOYS HURTING OTHERS AND IS ABUSIVE ON PURPOSE AND A VILLAIN AND SHOULD NEVER BE TRUSTED AGAIN. and then he came back and was like im still deeply troubled and afraid but im desperately trying to make up for the wrongs i did in the past and the people i hurt in my own way and communication is really hard for me but i hope people know that im truely sorry and i love them. im going to try my hardest to fix this in the only way i know how and then respectfully remove myself from the situation because i feel thats the kindest thing i can do to the people ive hurt. and people were like ABUSER ABUSER ABUSER EVIL MAN ABUSER. like girl

Yeah no based true real no questions asked

I'd hope I manage to portray Wilbur the way he deserves in my content, cause that man is heavily bpd coded and he just needs therapy and someone who genuinely loves him but also can handle his bullshit (which has exclusively and reliably been Quackity like, canonically)

But yeah no completely agreed. The man has issues and has definitely fucked up a lot but at the end of the day he really does need love and care and patience, but also boundaries (and therapy and meds, obviously)

#i deeeefinitely have no reason to have strong feelings about bpd bitches deserving love and care and stability ha ha nooo it's definitely-#-not like I've been dating one for well over 4 years now and even though we've been through so much shit together and I still can't-#-understand why people with bpd and conditions that have similar symptoms are so demonised. It just makes no sense to me.#my bf is the love of my life and i can't imagine /not/ supporting it through all the splitting and episodes and all of that cause they're-#-absolutely worth everything #i don't know not to be too gay on main but tbf it's too late now anyway i think--#is it unstable? sure. but it's also the most caring and loving person i've ever been close with and it always makes sure i'm ok #and it loves me so undeniably deeply no matter what purely for who i am #i've never had anyone care about me this much and this genuinely and this unconditionally - it'd always be what /they/ can get out of /me/#but my boyfriend just cares about me - the actual me - no matter if i'm acting how it imagined i'd act. what matters is if i'm /me/#listen bpd isn't sunshine and rainbows - we've been through some TERRIBLE shit (including s-cide attempts)#but when people claim it makes a relationship toxic/abusive it's so stupid cause ultimately with mutual love support and reassurance-#-and professional help you can have a genuinely happy and healthy life with someone with bpd #love isn't mean to be easy. it's meant to be safe and supportive and genuine but a relationship always takes effort and work on both sides #you should never sacrifice your well being of course!#but when love takes effort and extra care it doesn't inherently mean it's unhealthy or toxic or abusive. it just means you're people.#tldr if you love someone then don't care about some diagnosis - care about the actual perso.#ask #asks #ask fern #tntduo #dsmp #tnt duo #wilbur soot #quackity #quackbur #dream smp #tntblr #c!quackbur #c!tntduo

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uncanny-tranny · 9 months ago

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Part of my experience with abuse is hoping I get a kid like me so I can know how easy it can be to love them, how easy it is to not treat them how I was treated, and breaking that cycle. It was only hard for them to love me as a child because they didn't love me in the first place. They wished for me to know the hate they had, and I refuse to carry their water for them like that. It was never hard to love me.

#mental health #mental health recovery #abuse #abuse tw #even if i never become a dad i know what it's like to love strangers as though they were my flesh #and i wouldn't wish them the hate that i experienced #treating myself like a stranger in some ways helped me realize i never deserved any of it #anyway. if you were treated this way: you weren't hard to love as a child #even the most 'out of control' chuldren are not impossible to love #aand the effort to love them is worth it every time #because loving and respecting people is worth it even when it's not always easy #like i'm not saying parenting is easy. but the easy part ought to be the love part #maybe that's the first easy thing you should do before having children i think #because as a hastag abused kid: we can tell when you hate us. we can feel the searing hatred #we can tell when you wouldn't care if we died. and it sticks with you #and you become an ANTI-role model to us #i am well into my life as an adult and my abusers from childhood are STILL my anti-role models because of how awful they were

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big-man-in-places-he-shouldnt-be · 11 months ago

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Big Man shouldn’t be plummeting into the Galactic Nova!

#Happy 28th anniversary to ANOTHER of my (if not my most) favorite games!!#Unfortunately my computer seems to be having some. Issues with images right now.#I’ve been putting my blood sweat and tears into this ONE edit for the past five hours now trying to get it to work right and it still isn’t #-but the effort is worth it for a tribute to my favorite game.#That being said I might have to make a post soon asking for some help because I am having. Considerable difficulty with this :(#ANYWAYS. Play Kirby Super Star!!! I find it very fun #big man #big man splatoon #splatoon #kirby #galactic nova #kirby super star #big man in places he shouldn't be

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curioscurio · 1 year ago

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Got up early (for me), ate a light and healthy breakfast, applied to some jobs, took a long mental health walk with the dogs, gave one of them a bath, and even did some phone calls and messaging regarding my medication and pharmacy problems and managed to sort it out without breaking down!!! And! Showered!! Kicking ASS at mental health today

#im studying myself like a bug. with no judgement or compulsive self hate when i see the results. and then doing something different based on #those results #and its working #ive noticed that im much more productive when i have someone else to help or listen to. its a little uh sad because im not easily able to #to take care of myself and do things for MYSELF. but if its for someone else then its like i gain momentum #going out to clean out MY car? well i dont care how gross it is im not worth the effort.#cleaning out my car for my brother who i drive to therapy every other week? fuck yes its going to be nice and clean because therapy is impo #rtant and i want to help you stick with it and so we make it not a chore but lighthearted sibling time #like do you get it #anyway slow progress is still progress #the number of good days are slowly catching up to the number of bad days #post beginning of the pandemic 2020 was so brutal on me. moving back in with my parents especially #but i have a plan now . a real one. and friends to help me as well !#oops rambling in the tags haha #long tags

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3416 · 4 months ago

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just need to give a shoutout to all the people who interact w me or the things i make on here for the love and good vibes. twitter's been pissing me off the past couple days and i just think it reaffirms i'll never really leave tumblr bc the fandom culture here is just so much.. more lol

#more respectful funnier more loving more fun in a lot of ways #getting lectured by ppl years younger than me abt why posting shit without credit is ok when its like #all the best and most fun fandom spaces are dying #ppl are growing up sure but all these ppl are like 'i used to make gifs so heres why ur wrong' and its like #oh you USED to? well whyd u stop ? bc the effort level wasnt worth it just to be #saved and reposted w ill intent or not get any interaction like its so #everything is abt a race for interaction on the dumbest n most unoriginal jokes #its extremely frustrating to try to justify spendinf any time doing anything online anymore when ppl are so fcuking flippant like its crazy #'heres a shitty unsized n uncoloref gif i ran through some website and IM okay w ppl reposting' like lol #anyway when giffing dies itll be a sad fuckinf day to me jfkd truly a useless skill #but that means everyone still doing it is doing it for the love of the game or #the love of archival work and it makes ppl beinf so fuckinf disrespectful #or going to bat for nonsense seem so absurd to me like #really . really. if u have an option to share where it originally came from with one less click #ur gonna choose NOT to do that and instead repost just to insinuate the person who made it did it to insult someknes appearance #like. its just so.#fandom is dying and its so sad and etiquette is nowhere to be found so NXKKD gratefuo for the ppl gere #and sorry for the rant #none of thise matters but ive had an abundance of free time the past few says so ive been STEWING #mostly just want to say i love u all NDKKS and even if ive complained abt interaction its mostly just tbing website dying more than anything #which. is so sad lol #but i love everyone still here

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destructive-delight · 19 days ago

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nobody told me neko atsume 2 got released... i see how it is. guess i was supposed to find out myself :T

#as you can see i'm still on my chibi bullshit #deluding myself into thinking that i can just crank these out for funsies without it eating into my proper drawing time #as if these don't take me hours to draw too #not that the results are ever worth the effort #anyway. the kitties can destroy toys now‚ huh?#howling from the shadow realm #kätzchen käääätzchen

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benoitblanc · 24 days ago

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heavy sigh. siri queue landslide by fleetwood mac

#in case anyone is wondering how it's going in the life of arwen: my best friend group is six people #me flatmate (who is my best friend) and two couples (third and fourth flatmates and their partners)#flatmate and i have kind of been fighting off and on for a few weeks. nothing major but our relationship is definitely changing #and i think it's scaring us both a little (or at least it's scaring me) so we're more prickly with each other than normal #but i guess fighting is an unfair way to put it. we're not really fighting. but i really really really miss not doing it #cut to monday night fourth flatmate and her girlfriend split after 3.5 years after girlfriend very clearly fucked up #but in a way where she could've still saved the relationship yet decided it wasn't worth the effort #fourth flatmate is understandably a WRECK #so the rest of us are all trying to be as supportive as we possibly can but it's just. really blindsiding #because it means that not only did girlfriend decide her relationship with fourth flatmate wasn't worth salvaging #WHICH MIND YOU IS BAD ENOUGH #but also that her relationships with the other FOUR of us weren't worth salvaging. third flatmate was her best friend for THREE YEARS #she would come over and make popcorn and watch doctor who with flatmate and me like once a week. that's over #she'd go to the bar with third flatmate's boyfriend because the rest of us don't really drink. also over #and flatmate third flatmate and i feel kind of guilty expressing the fact that we're also grieving one of our best friends #because obviously what fourth flatmate is going through is much worse #i also have an interview in two days on the other side of the country that has the potential to completely change my life #and i don't think i've ever wanted anything this much and it's suffocating. and it will mean leaving flatmate. and i love him #but i need to get into this program i need to i need to #also i'm on my period. yee fuckin haw #anyway how are the rest of us doing #arwen.text

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august--and-everything-after · 3 months ago

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I bought myself some CDs :3

#five of them in fact. i have a collection of cds that i started in high school #and i've been making more of an effort to add to it lately with the decline of physical media #cds are so expensive now. like everything else. but it's worth it to me anyways #i did get two of them used so that brought the cost down a bit #but also! 3 of them have the little booklets with the tracklist and lyrics and extra art or photos #and another has a booklet that's just a ton of art the band commissioned for the album (or one of them did it themselves idk)#one doesn't have a booklet at all unfortunately and it's one that i bought new so it's not like it's missing they just didn't include one #which is too bad cause the one with all the art and the one with no booklet are by the same band so it would have been cool to see somethin #similar for the other album #still tho i'm quite pleased with my finds. i really love having physical cds #i'm certain one of them was the only cd from that artist in the entire store (huge place so much to look at i love going there)#her cds were completely sold out when i looked in the section they should have been in but i found ONE in the recent arrivals #they just keep all the cds they acquired within the last week in this one display organized only by the day they arrived #so i leafed thru the entire week's worth of cds and found this single album and it was such lovely serendipity #august talking

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icewindandboringhorror · 28 days ago

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currently at That Point which occurs once every few months where one briefly begins pacing around the house teary eyed contemplating selling their own organs or becoming an online scammer or getting on anxiety meds so you can bear the risk taking required to be a hitman or so on and so forth.... why must everything so Expensive... Surely all would be healed in life if only I had one big plate of lasagna and a simple loan of $40,000 ... auoughhh....

#And then you just eventually shrug and go 'welp. nothing i can do i guess' and sad cartoon music plays as you shuffle back to your room #It's just hard with my specific physical and mental issues since it's like.. I couldn't really handle most jobs. I can't handle school. I'm #100% aromantic and asexual so I'll never get married so I can't get money that way. I have too much issues with social cues #+ too nervous temperament + too low energy to put effort into lying and having a fake relationship just for money. so on and so forth etc.#Really I should have just been born into a middle class family. Which I guess everyone says. but ESPECIALLY considering my #chronic conditions kind of hampering my ability to function 'normally' or be Independent in a regular way. I'm always going to be #in some way sort of beholden to the whims of people around me who I must depend on. so... well of course they might as well have been rich #lol like that would have been better for me of course.#AAANyway... Just thinking about another stupid fucking climate change summer... months keep going by so fast.. soon it will be so again #And it's like such SMALL things would make drastic improvements for me. Literally if I just had a place with central AC #then like 75% of my issues with summer would vanish instantly. literally. But instead it's like.. having a cheap hot apartment + only #half functional dinky window ac + my illnesses that make me heat sensitive + living in a part of the country that keeps getting hotter +#inability to leave the house much meaning I can't just go spend time in a cooler place etc. all factors which combine together to make #it just utterly miserable for MONTHS and mentally draining. And literally ALL I would need to fix that is just...#have a place with central AC that works.. (or move to a colder country/area but that also takes money. Or just not have illnesses #that make me heat sensitive. but that I can't control). etc. etc. I guess it's just the nature of the constant background frustration of #being part of The Masses under our current manifestation of unmitigated capitalism. Such minor details would make such huge #quality of life improvements and yet will remain ever out of reach. ONE little thing could change your whole life but you can't even have #that. so many 'If only' scenarios. etc. And of course obviously I am incredibly thankful just to have anywhere to live at all. food to eat #. any sort of stability whatsoever no matter how fragile it feels/is. But that still doesn't make it not frustrating occasionally to look #around and see how relatively little would have to change in order for you to be a decent percentage more comfortable and yet #how still far away even those ''small'' seeming goals are. etc. etc.#Seriously think I've been traumatized by the summer or something somehow lol like thinking about it being warm weather eventually #makes me nauseous with panic. It's just SOOO much labor. micromanaging windows and fans and blocking every ounce of light #and not being able to cook (cant even afford a single degree of temp increase due to the stove) for months and barely being able #to sleep for months and the claustrophobia of days on end crawling out of your skin because it doesnt even get cool enough at #night to offer relief so you're just always feeling trapped.. hgrhh...#It starts getting hot here sometimes in May but mostly June then lasts through October now.. thats like half the year almost.. ARghhH #anyway... If any extremely rich person reading this would like to buy me an air conditioned house in exchange for multiple years worth #of art (I will paint murals on all of your grand dining halls and make all the custom sculptures you could ever want etc) then.. hewwo :'3c

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ronanlynchbf · 2 months ago

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see too many ppl still defending jdepp or running with the "mutual abuse" angle so here's a video presenting basically all the (publicly available btw! for anyone to be able to look up!) information on this case. Let it be known if you still support jdepp i am assuming you have never done a grain of research into this in your life and just ran with public opinion and misinformation

#amber heard #r.txt #debating on whether or not i should send my siblings this video bc they're a) pro-jdepp b) saying it was mutual abuse or c) don't know #whose side to be on anymore after previously being pro-jdepp. but like i'm convinced they haven't actually ever done any research to base #their opinions on bc once you know all of this it's pretty obvious that amber was the victim in the situation but i don't want to offend an #of them by implying they haven't done their research. which would also be rlly disappointing bc why are u saying shit abt this topic if you #haven't properly informed urself LIKE. just say u don't know in that case instead of just going with popular opinion no. 1 aka pro-jdepp or #popular opinion no.2 aka it was mutual abuse blah blah they were both toxic af blah blah. anyway it would be rlly random to just send them #the vid and they probably wouldn't even watch it bc it's 2 and a half or so hours long and i just KNOW they're gonna be like i am not gonna #waste my time on smth i don't care that much abt or whatever. maybe the eldest will watch if i send bc he's already someone who watches #videos even if they're long asf i think he doesn't have a problem with the runtime but it's likely they don't think it's worth investing #time into or that they don't care abt rich famous people that much that they'd watch 150 minutes of info abt said people but at the same #time he's most likely to be open to other opinions. the second eldest is SO not gonna watch the vid bc it's too long but even so there is #still a chance she might at least watch a little of the video bc she is the one that was pro-depp before but said she doesn't know anymore #now. the third eldest is probably least likely to watch bc again it's a long vid and i don't think he'd watch + idk if he's that open to #hearing abt a different side. like this isn't specifically a pro-heard video it's at its core a video documenting depp&heard's relationship #and giving you all the relevant information in an orderly put togethet easily overseeable way but bc the evidence so clearly speaks to ambe #being the victim it is essentially also pro-heard but that's bc IT'S SO EASY TO SEE THAT SHE WAS THE VICTIM IF U ACTUALLY PUT THE EFFORT IN #TO READ UP AND CONNECT THE DOTS IN THE PUBLICLY AVAILABLE DOCUMENTS ARGHHHGGHH #anyway. maybe will send the video maybe not idk it does piss me off that they seem to have not put in research of their own before coming t #a conclusion abt this case and i want them to have the information and i also just want them to know where i'm coming from when i say i'm o #the sure opinion that amber was the victim in this case and that i HAVE done my research into this when the case was around and i'm not jus #talking out of my ass and being extremely feminist to a fault or wtvr ppl are saying #depp v heard #video #there is a pt 2 and 3 to this btw they're also good but pt 1 is the most information abt the case itself during the time they were together #while pt2 is more history of the hatred towards amber heard that was arouns since the beginning and jdepp's violence in life and love +#substance abuse issues and pt3 is more abt the most recent 2022 trial and why that was an unbalanced trial to begin with (jdepp literally #has an estimate of 150 million dollars at his disposal to use and amber heard has an estimate lf 500k. one of many unbalanced things in this #trial) & also discussing why so many ppl jumped on the hating amber heard bandwagon so readily. still both good vids that i'd recommend

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deus-ex-mona · 2 months ago

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the opinion i’m not allowed to have: i genuinely think tsumurin could help concon get better™️

#you think chizu manga is a coming of age story about a girl learning to accept and love herself for who she truly is… but no it’s all yuri #nevermet crackship has never met… but i think tsumurin’s better suited for concon’s cafe tbh #change your job and get a gf girlie~~~~~~~ you could do so much better #idk it’s just the way tsumurin genuinely does her best wholeheartedly while concon gives it her all by scheming and such #y’know~~~~ it just makes me think that they could be cute foils for each other #granted i still think chuucon is hilarious but lbr they’d break up the second they had to fight over the last aizo nui #(or worse: the last aizo upper body towel from their upcoming solo live)#i think cute offline gf x toxic stan twt gf has untapped potential #tsumurin’s so cute (kinda like a hamster plushie) i want to put her in my pocket (like a hamster plushie)#i just~~~~~ considering how concon made a fox plush of her fursona to hug her aizo nui i think she could make one of tsumurin #(for her plush to hold) once she ditches the aizo nui #aizo isnt worth your efforts girlie have you s e e n his repaint dance #anyways that’s all~~~ i had something better typed out but the app ate it

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