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gammija · 6 months ago

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tiefling jon's first day at the Archives

#id in alt #the magnus archives #tma #magnus archives #elias bouchard #jonathan sims #tma jon #jon tma #jon sims #tma dnd au #tiefling jon #gammijart #tma s4 #so this is that comic i was talking about a few weeks ago. with way too many backgrounds and effort #ill say i did enjoy doing the backgrounds a lot and thats worth a whole lot. but also. if this gets no notes i will. cry #anyways. love drawing a correct perspective grid and then fucking it up in favor of something that is wrong but FEELS right <3 #also any anachronisms shall be explained by this being a fantasy setting #always difficult to post something that's not a joke. sincerity. yuck #and this does still have some jokes. just less punchy than id usually post. also no jmart or other ships. whoof #i havent done enough with elias. he's such a slimy bastard - v fun to write #he talks a bit more formally here than in canon but tbf he is an elf so /shrug #EDIT: aaaah between panels 4 and 8 i forgot i gave him an ace ring!!

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pencilofawesomeness · 19 days ago

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All the HSR I know is second-hand, but @therosefrontier 's long oneshot fic, live for tomorrow (let the past dissolve like sand), is living in my brain and gripping me by the throat so obviously I had to make a reaction meme for how that Sunset Savana homecoming was going to go.

Rip Neji and, and probably the rest of the palace staff and maybe Farena, for the absolute heart attack they're going to get when Leona "makes pretending like he doesn't have a heart an olympic sport" Kingscholar comes home with a traumatized kid. Anyway I can't wait for Dan Heng to be loved and fed well and exposed to sunlight, etc etc. Luckily for him I imagine Neji will immediately start the care routines while strangling Leona when Dan Heng isn't looking.

Bonus Neji Vision:

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uncanny-tranny · 7 months ago

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Part of my experience with abuse is hoping I get a kid like me so I can know how easy it can be to love them, how easy it is to not treat them how I was treated, and breaking that cycle. It was only hard for them to love me as a child because they didn't love me in the first place. They wished for me to know the hate they had, and I refuse to carry their water for them like that. It was never hard to love me.

#mental health #mental health recovery #abuse #abuse tw #even if i never become a dad i know what it's like to love strangers as though they were my flesh #and i wouldn't wish them the hate that i experienced #treating myself like a stranger in some ways helped me realize i never deserved any of it #anyway. if you were treated this way: you weren't hard to love as a child #even the most 'out of control' chuldren are not impossible to love #aand the effort to love them is worth it every time #because loving and respecting people is worth it even when it's not always easy #like i'm not saying parenting is easy. but the easy part ought to be the love part #maybe that's the first easy thing you should do before having children i think #because as a hastag abused kid: we can tell when you hate us. we can feel the searing hatred #we can tell when you wouldn't care if we died. and it sticks with you #and you become an ANTI-role model to us #i am well into my life as an adult and my abusers from childhood are STILL my anti-role models because of how awful they were

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curioscurio · 1 year ago

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Got up early (for me), ate a light and healthy breakfast, applied to some jobs, took a long mental health walk with the dogs, gave one of them a bath, and even did some phone calls and messaging regarding my medication and pharmacy problems and managed to sort it out without breaking down!!! And! Showered!! Kicking ASS at mental health today

#im studying myself like a bug. with no judgement or compulsive self hate when i see the results. and then doing something different based on #those results #and its working #ive noticed that im much more productive when i have someone else to help or listen to. its a little uh sad because im not easily able to #to take care of myself and do things for MYSELF. but if its for someone else then its like i gain momentum #going out to clean out MY car? well i dont care how gross it is im not worth the effort.#cleaning out my car for my brother who i drive to therapy every other week? fuck yes its going to be nice and clean because therapy is impo #rtant and i want to help you stick with it and so we make it not a chore but lighthearted sibling time #like do you get it #anyway slow progress is still progress #the number of good days are slowly catching up to the number of bad days #post beginning of the pandemic 2020 was so brutal on me. moving back in with my parents especially #but i have a plan now . a real one. and friends to help me as well !#oops rambling in the tags haha #long tags

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big-man-in-places-he-shouldnt-be · 8 months ago

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Big Man shouldn’t be plummeting into the Galactic Nova!

#Happy 28th anniversary to ANOTHER of my (if not my most) favorite games!!#Unfortunately my computer seems to be having some. Issues with images right now.#I’ve been putting my blood sweat and tears into this ONE edit for the past five hours now trying to get it to work right and it still isn’t #-but the effort is worth it for a tribute to my favorite game.#That being said I might have to make a post soon asking for some help because I am having. Considerable difficulty with this :(#ANYWAYS. Play Kirby Super Star!!! I find it very fun #big man #big man splatoon #splatoon #kirby #galactic nova #kirby super star #big man in places he shouldn't be

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fernlessbastard · 7 months ago

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hot take moment cwilbur is literally just psychotic as all hell and i think people got way too comfortable villianizing the shit out of a man who was clearly portraying signs of severe mental illness. cwilbur was like im so fucking paranoid and scared and i think everyone is out to get me and hurt me and ive spiralled to the point i cant reach out to the people closest to me because im so afraid and lost in this spiral and im having constant panic attacks and hurting myself because i dong know what to do with myself and the only way out for me is to die. and everybody was like EVIL MAN WHO ENJOYS HURTING OTHERS AND IS ABUSIVE ON PURPOSE AND A VILLAIN AND SHOULD NEVER BE TRUSTED AGAIN. and then he came back and was like im still deeply troubled and afraid but im desperately trying to make up for the wrongs i did in the past and the people i hurt in my own way and communication is really hard for me but i hope people know that im truely sorry and i love them. im going to try my hardest to fix this in the only way i know how and then respectfully remove myself from the situation because i feel thats the kindest thing i can do to the people ive hurt. and people were like ABUSER ABUSER ABUSER EVIL MAN ABUSER. like girl

Yeah no based true real no questions asked

I'd hope I manage to portray Wilbur the way he deserves in my content, cause that man is heavily bpd coded and he just needs therapy and someone who genuinely loves him but also can handle his bullshit (which has exclusively and reliably been Quackity like, canonically)

But yeah no completely agreed. The man has issues and has definitely fucked up a lot but at the end of the day he really does need love and care and patience, but also boundaries (and therapy and meds, obviously)

#i deeeefinitely have no reason to have strong feelings about bpd bitches deserving love and care and stability ha ha nooo it's definitely-#-not like I've been dating one for well over 4 years now and even though we've been through so much shit together and I still can't-#-understand why people with bpd and conditions that have similar symptoms are so demonised. It just makes no sense to me.#my bf is the love of my life and i can't imagine /not/ supporting it through all the splitting and episodes and all of that cause they're-#-absolutely worth everything #i don't know not to be too gay on main but tbf it's too late now anyway i think--#is it unstable? sure. but it's also the most caring and loving person i've ever been close with and it always makes sure i'm ok #and it loves me so undeniably deeply no matter what purely for who i am #i've never had anyone care about me this much and this genuinely and this unconditionally - it'd always be what /they/ can get out of /me/#but my boyfriend just cares about me - the actual me - no matter if i'm acting how it imagined i'd act. what matters is if i'm /me/#listen bpd isn't sunshine and rainbows - we've been through some TERRIBLE shit (including s-cide attempts)#but when people claim it makes a relationship toxic/abusive it's so stupid cause ultimately with mutual love support and reassurance-#-and professional help you can have a genuinely happy and healthy life with someone with bpd #love isn't mean to be easy. it's meant to be safe and supportive and genuine but a relationship always takes effort and work on both sides #you should never sacrifice your well being of course!#but when love takes effort and extra care it doesn't inherently mean it's unhealthy or toxic or abusive. it just means you're people.#tldr if you love someone then don't care about some diagnosis - care about the actual perso.#ask #asks #ask fern #tntduo #dsmp #tnt duo #wilbur soot #quackity #quackbur #dream smp #tntblr #c!quackbur #c!tntduo

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3416 · 1 month ago

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just need to give a shoutout to all the people who interact w me or the things i make on here for the love and good vibes. twitter's been pissing me off the past couple days and i just think it reaffirms i'll never really leave tumblr bc the fandom culture here is just so much.. more lol

#more respectful funnier more loving more fun in a lot of ways #getting lectured by ppl years younger than me abt why posting shit without credit is ok when its like #all the best and most fun fandom spaces are dying #ppl are growing up sure but all these ppl are like 'i used to make gifs so heres why ur wrong' and its like #oh you USED to? well whyd u stop ? bc the effort level wasnt worth it just to be #saved and reposted w ill intent or not get any interaction like its so #everything is abt a race for interaction on the dumbest n most unoriginal jokes #its extremely frustrating to try to justify spendinf any time doing anything online anymore when ppl are so fcuking flippant like its crazy #'heres a shitty unsized n uncoloref gif i ran through some website and IM okay w ppl reposting' like lol #anyway when giffing dies itll be a sad fuckinf day to me jfkd truly a useless skill #but that means everyone still doing it is doing it for the love of the game or #the love of archival work and it makes ppl beinf so fuckinf disrespectful #or going to bat for nonsense seem so absurd to me like #really . really. if u have an option to share where it originally came from with one less click #ur gonna choose NOT to do that and instead repost just to insinuate the person who made it did it to insult someknes appearance #like. its just so.#fandom is dying and its so sad and etiquette is nowhere to be found so NXKKD gratefuo for the ppl gere #and sorry for the rant #none of thise matters but ive had an abundance of free time the past few says so ive been STEWING #mostly just want to say i love u all NDKKS and even if ive complained abt interaction its mostly just tbing website dying more than anything #which. is so sad lol #but i love everyone still here

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themisterhip · 2 years ago

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HE'S GONNA BE THE PRETTIEST BOY AT THE PARTY!!!✨❄️

Artist inspiration: J.C. Leyendecker

(His art work is INSANE, such an inspiration for this)

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august--and-everything-after · 2 days ago

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I bought myself some CDs :3

#five of them in fact. i have a collection of cds that i started in high school #and i've been making more of an effort to add to it lately with the decline of physical media #cds are so expensive now. like everything else. but it's worth it to me anyways #i did get two of them used so that brought the cost down a bit #but also! 3 of them have the little booklets with the tracklist and lyrics and extra art or photos #and another has a booklet that's just a ton of art the band commissioned for the album (or one of them did it themselves idk)#one doesn't have a booklet at all unfortunately and it's one that i bought new so it's not like it's missing they just didn't include one #which is too bad cause the one with all the art and the one with no booklet are by the same band so it would have been cool to see somethin #similar for the other album #still tho i'm quite pleased with my finds. i really love having physical cds #i'm certain one of them was the only cd from that artist in the entire store (huge place so much to look at i love going there)#her cds were completely sold out when i looked in the section they should have been in but i found ONE in the recent arrivals #they just keep all the cds they acquired within the last week in this one display organized only by the day they arrived #so i leafed thru the entire week's worth of cds and found this single album and it was such lovely serendipity #august talking

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marsbotz · 5 months ago

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not going to lie i do find it quite upsetting that so many ppl think that animals that arent immediately relatable to humans are completely incapable of thought or feeling. and thats the only thing that matters when it comes to animal rights arguments a lot of the time

#like the take of ohhhh Well this animal is smart and shows emotions!!! it might even be smarter than humans!!!#as if that matters literally at all #like the argument abt fish or hamsters or w/e being stupid (wrong) so it doesnt matterrrrr if they dont get cared for properly #as if its ever ok to mistreat animals.#in general the idea around smaller or less relatable animals being worth less is super frustrating #like if u post abt microwaving ur hamster when u were 6 everyones like ‘lmaoooo i did the same thing’#but if u posted that abt a dog….? The Gallows #we shouldnt have to care abt mistreatment of animals bc theyre cute or funny or smart #i just watched blackfish again and it annoyed me how much ppl were arguing abt the orcas being so smart and emotional etc #which is true. but thats just smth that makes their captivity harder. u jnow. like if they were simple and had simple needs it would still #be wrong if they werent met #its just such a huge issue bc of how hard the needs are to meet in captivity #same as like. bears and shit. you physically cannot give them enough territory to stop them going insane #ik theres ppl who believe All captivity is wrong #like my strpmum is one who believes nobody should own Any pet #which is. Imo a stupid argument and not at all sustainable. ppl need companions thats why weve had dogs and cats for thousnads of years #but also they are such successful pets bc their needs are so easy to meet!!!!!#its this misconception that fish or rodents are Easy Beginners pets… in reality they are 100x harder. but their lives are worth less to ppl #bc they dont show love the same way #well. anyways im not very good at expressing my thoughts abt serious stuff #but its smth that rlly upsets me #its frustrating too bc ppl either dgaf abt animals aside from Maybe the cute ones or r too extreme in advocating for the freedom of animals #like u can absolutely give indoor cats proper enrichment. its just slightly more effort #and its not as simple as just. emptyinb out the zoos. READ ABT KEIKO!!!!!#i feel its a very interesting topic. but ppl r very b/w on it #idk i feel the majority of ppl know so little abt animals its like. impossible to get thru #like ok cool u think zoos r bad bc the lions get saddddd. but u also think snakes and bugs and rodents are nothing but disease spreaders #and cant also have complex lives #Tsk. Whateevr

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quietwingsinthesky · 8 months ago

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youtube stop recommending me that five hour long “fall of doctor who” video challenge. there is not a video i could be less interested in watching.

#the youtube clickbait hyperbole is not doing it any favors. im sure there’s nuance in the video. maybe.#god there must be its five hours long.#but i do not think i am interested in a video that wants to be about ‘the fall’ of doctor who when. far as i can tell. seems more like #occasionally it stumbles. and that’s about it.#AND thirteen being the doctor that’s on the thumbnail is also not helping. im sure im making assumptions there too and its just that she was #the current doctor at the time but. this is youtube. you have a negative video. and you put a woman on there. i am primed to believe you are #about to say something insanely sexist lmao.#anyway. whatever.#its a me thing. i dont like watching negative epic teardowns™️ of stuff im not finished with myself. and doubly so when im unfamiliar with #the creator and don’t know if they’ll just be stomping and yelling at something for hours with no purpose or if they’ve got. anything #to actually offer. idk. it’s the shovelware lover in me i think. im not interested in someone’s negative opinion about a thing unless i know #they’re the kind of person who can respect that people still had to put months or years of work into it. maybe that work did not have a #good outcome but someone had to do it. the effort is worth being documented and looked at and not. i don’t know. yelled at like you’re the #nostalgia critic you know? im rambling on to much here #this is why the only good youtube video is folding idea’s video on the american tail video game. he gets it. its about how bad art is still #worth existing and being examined. and doctor who is far from being bad. so.#………..where was i going with this. its 4 am.

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arsenicflame · 2 months ago

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hi so, checking in (sorry, its personal bullshit again, ill get back to the fandom stuff you actually wanted,,,, eventually)

things. are going bad. like, really bad, like last january bad. like im about to lose all my personhood again bad. im hoping its still just going to be a small blip and things will start upticking soon, but. im bracing for that not to be the case. it feels different to me

i vaguely mentioned earlier in the week taking a bit of a step back, and ive decided to extend that into a full break. my queues probably going to run out before im back, though i have slowed it down some. thatll be the only noticable difference for 99% of people. i wont guarantee any dm responses on here, but ill do my best for the couple of people who have me on discord

i didnt really want to do this again but it gets messy in my head, and ive found the best way to control the clawing beast of attention and need and the things that make me want to be a person i dont want to be is to cut it off at the source. its not nice, and it hurts, and it definitely kills the chances of making friends but. i promise you its better than the alternative.

ill see you when i see you, i guess. i hope its soon. i hope this isnt how it feels to be. i hope the feelings that have existed this week go dormant again. but itll be what itll be. i can't change that

#i know these things do not matter in the long run but it feels important to me to say #easier to concentrate on public presence than the emotions of it i guess #nyxtalks #vent #not going to lie to you my friends. im scared #the problem is ultimately. it all feels rational in the end. it feels weighted and worthy and not just a product of mental illness #so i can sit here and feel as in control of my headspace as i want. its just i agree with my darkest thoughts #am i even a person worth the effort? all evidence points to one very clear answer #anyway #it scares me. ive felt more at home in my skin these past few months. had some rough spots for sure but. i hoped this would go away for muc #longer. i hoped i could at least get a couple of years #i dont know. i live in hopes of an impossible future where the dark doesnt get so dark you know? i think thatd be nice #i still can't function in any of the ways a person should. but at least i wouldnt be such a burden then #itd be easier to carry. if it was lighter #i dont really know what im saying im just. scared & sad & spending my entire day at work catastophising (and sm stuff there is NOT helping)#and all i really want is to lie curled up with my friends and not move for days and be held and comforted and feel a love that is true #and i dont even think thatd change things. i dont think anything can help me #even in my most fantastical scenarios i dont change. im just easier to love that way #ok im going to shut up now i dont think any of that had a point. its just rambles for me and me alone #ill see you when i see you. dont know when but i will be back. i can promise you that much #i have plans to keep for now at least

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9ofspades · 8 months ago

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Sometimes I see something that says “these take no effort whatsoever!” And realize that, clearly, whoever wrote that has a DRASTICALLY different definition of “effort” than I do.

#Chronic fatigue #original #health #grumping #Anyway sometimes even the tiniest things will take noticeable effort #Still worth doing #Good luck #but if it’s hard for you you’re valid

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rawliverandgoronspice · 4 months ago

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I AM DONE WITH THE SCENE!!!!! FINALLY!!!

#thoughts #thralls of power #animatic project #it took me over a week longer than I expected #but: it is an iconic scene #it was worth it to put in the extra effort #there are so many pretty ganondorf shots in this scene <3 #the next scene shouldn't take nearly as long #and then!!!! and then I bridge back to the scenes I already did #and I will only need to do a couple of adjustments to those #but right now I have 15 (!!!) minutes of watchable consecutive scenes in their almost final state #20 in total!!!#so over half!!#and except for one challenging but relatively short scene the rest should be pretty smooth sailing honestly #there's another very long scene but I already did all the lineart!! so there's only the render left and that takes less time #(though it still does take time)#(and my standard of quality is... increasing...)#anyway!! happy!!

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tshifty · 3 months ago

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#just thinking about that day a couple years ago when i and a bunch of organizers interrupted a dem party event #they were out there celebrating their ticket the day after abortion got banned in ohio #they were dragging out ANTI CHOICE DEMOCRATS onto the stage #so we interrupted the fucking bullshit #and i just remember the VITRIOL. that we got for that.#i remember the shit people said to us. and to me individually later #wonder how some of them feel now as the dem party continues to ignore large swaths of those it claims to represent #the dem party is a machine and it is immoral and unjust.#voting a dem to fight a dem is one thing. voting a dem for them to 'save us' ???? nah.#and hey i used to think that politics could be a force for good i used to really believe that shit #but it isnt. elected office in this system is never a force for good.#it is either a force for evil or a force of inevitable neutrality when they cant push their agendas and just stand still #anyways idk #it's just interesting reflecting.#and im glad that ive left that behind atp. done w dem party anything. done w direct electoral politics #that shit isnt worth our time or effort or pain or tears or sweat

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horsemage · 20 days ago

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washed my hair for the first time in about a week and I think I get it now

#also why the fuck do I have so much hair (<- hasn’t cut their hair in almost four years)#anyway I’m still convinced that because I am an unlikeable & burdensome person to be around the only way I can make being friends with me #worth the effort is by doing things for other people so they don’t have to worry about them. which is why I may finally be on the brink of #burning out academically ✌️. I suspect this is because I’ve never had a friendship last more than 2-3 years. What to do abt it idk.#at least my hair is clean now 👍

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