#anyway she kind of yaps

[mindsafe]

zeke will emerge as the holy ambassador of marley. his languor will introduce him as the monkey to which ymir had inquired previously. she had asked politely, stripped of four limbs & passing time as a product of hard exchanges. bertolt had exchanged glances with reiner who ( in turn ) pledged uncertainty. so . . . they claimed that zeke was a stranger.

but zeke will emerge as the holy ambassador of marley. he will summon the warship & then pack away jaws ( ymir ) into confinement so that her stolen power might be controlled again.

bertolt feels no allegiance to her. he feels allegiance to marcel ( dead now ) but his allegiances feel arbitrary. they’re based on strength.

bertolt is not strongest. he is the most devastating.

zeke has not emerged yet. but he comes soon. in the mean time, they dangle their feet off the side of the wall. bertolt pretends that losing ymir doesn’t mean losing an asset, losing more than asset.

into the air between them bertolt confesses ‘ i don’t know how you decided to surrender like this - ‘

@pontevoix || ANSWERED

disproportionately small limbs attached to a broad torso. coarse, matted hair covering everything but the face && chest.

A BEAST.

when ymir asked the boys about the ❛ monkey ❜ on their asses, they feigned ignorance: bertolt doesn't know how to tell a lie that hadn't been rehearsed in a bathroom mirror; && reiner is a tapestry coming apart at the seams. sheesh, she's as good as dead already; there's no point in keeping secrets now, is there?

they wait at the edge of the world, for a ferryman in a warship who would take her soul across the sea. the ‘ hostage ’ warms the living walls with her body ( forever a martyr ). stone sings to her. ymir offers open palms to an inviting sky. the stars are beautiful tonight; flowers of white, yellow && blue, blooming in a garden of darkness. she has made peace with her fate. there are worse things than dying. .

bertolt doesn't understand why she stays. ymir can't blame him; if their roles were reversed, chances are she wouldn't understand either. hell, if she truly practiced what she preached, she definitely wouldn't understand.

❝ --that's easy; this isn't surrender. like you said, if i wanted to run, now would be the time to do it. i could save my skin, && throw you to the wolves. maybe you even deserve it. but i doubt the survey corps would take me back now. ❞ she laughs. it's easier that way.

❝ not many people are given the privilege of a second chance. you gave me the opportunity to live a life i could be proud of; but it was borrowed time ― i'm just paying back an expensive debt. . . for what it's worth, i'm sorry about your friend. ❞

[arachnestwilight]

Big day for autistic people everywhere (it's me, I'm autistic people everywhere).

[myaatwins]

so. i know this isn't nothing new and there's probably a thousand (far more eloquently written) posts about this but! in light of chapter 166 i just wanted to reiterate this once more.

the movie arc seems like it's supposed to be about other characters understanding ai. who was ai hoshino? what were her flaws, her hopes, her dreams? she wasn't a goddess–far from it–so who was the real ai, the person rather than the idol?

and it failed on delivering. so bad!!!!

sure we have a bit about ruby Starting to understand ai. nothing from aqua because who cares right. because if aqua actually came to understand ai how could we have the tragic but "hopeful" ending?

ai's dream was never to perform at the dome.

the dome was always ichigo and miyako's dream. ai, being the The Ultimate People Pleaser, just smiled and nodded–acted as if she were happy.

so it's really weird how performing at the dome was reframed to be ai's dream, the fate that she could never fulfill–but hey it's okay because ruby will!!!

there was no need for history to be rewritten and this actually just makes it seem (no matter what the actual intent was) that the others never did learn to see through ai's facade.

(also might i add that this is also harmful to ruby's character in the sense that she is not allowed to have her own dreams. it would have been perfectly fine for her to want to perform at the dome because it was what SHE wanted to do but. alas after a certain point of the story ruby is not allowed to exist outside of brocon jokes or to be anything other than ai 2: electric boogaloo)

was her dream for ruby to be an idol and for aqua to be an actor?

when ai said that she imagined a future where ruby was an idol and aqua was an actor she didn't say it because that was her dream.

personally i think that because ai was dying and she knew it would cause her children pain she wanted them to know that their futures could still be bright and that they should have hope!! i don't even think she gave it much thought other than that they looked happy and like they had fun performing!!! which made her happy!!!!!!!

but she never would have imposed that future on them. ai knew about the entertainment world and she never would have forced her babies to be a part of it unless they wanted to.

so what were ai's dreams? easy: for her loved ones to be safe and happy.

this. that's it.

so

"the future that mama [...] illuminated for me"

is it though? would ai have wanted this? would she want the man that she had loved–who she had known as a boy who was hurting and who needed someone to be there for him–to die as nothing more than a cartoonish villain? would she want ruby to have to pretend she wasn't miserable so she could fulfill ai's not-dream of performing at the dome? would she want her precious son, who she loved from the moment she saw him on the ultrasound, to die a gruesome, painful death, even though he so desperately wanted to live?

not in a million years.

[garygoldenbignaturals]

been on pinterest a lot looking for things my pal iggy would wear

[forbiddentaako]

more monochrome practice I suppose

[blood-choke]

Oh my God wait I have more to say on that. If you need the full scene I'm quoting: https://youtu.be/63708PykTcg?si=Bws3wyRs_TkyxPaH prepare for a lot of yapping

Hear me out. It's the "I don't like to share." Val has made it v clear she doesn't like the thought of sharing mc with Hana and clear bc of her own fears and anxiety surrounding her relationship with mc who remembers nothing about their life together.

and the "what about antionette?" "It's different I don't have feelings for her." Hana feels like the antionette to val bc, and these are just my thoughts from reading, we can see that val does care for Hana to some degree but never to the degree that she does with mc. Or maybe she does and just hides it to keep from getting attached like she was with mc and keeping Hana safe from being another one of the councils victims 🤔

And lastly the "that's bc you TOOK my life" is really getting my brain going. Especially since we see mc begin to question whether or not she wanted this life. Like, the potential behind it is putting me through the wall rn

Anyways you don't have to respond to any of this I just wanted to yap and share these thoughts bc BOY does blood choke get me thinking

hehehe yes i do think Valentina can be quite similar to Lestat in some aspects, particularly with her relationship with mc.

and you're right, she does care about Hana... in her own fucked up way. she keeps her more at a distance than she ever did mc because of that loss, which she is still mourning (even now with the mc back. she's not the mc she remembers) and she just was never able to open herself up completely to Hana. Valentina has treated both Hana and the mc terribly in the past (and the mc, at least, treated her just as bad, too, while Hana more or less just took it silently). she does care about Hana, but with the mc-shaped hole in her chest, she isn't sure how to express it, and now that the mc is back, she feels conflicted about her feelings & wants to show her devotion solely to the mc. and obviously she will get jealous of Hana (or Clear) because unless the mc brings it up, she won't share. exactly because of her anxieties (the loss of memories and how that may lead to mc choosing someone else completely) and she's actually fearful that the mc may judge her or be angry herself about Valentina's relationship with Hana (the mc was a jealous person in her past life). obviously their relationship was never Perfect, but Valentina is definitely being crueler to Hana than she ever has been before, almost like she's "showing off" for the mc, and even trying to drive Hana away. (you can potentially call her out on this in the next chapter)

and because of this Hana is realizing that even though she took the abuse and was always there for Valentina, it doesn't matter; mc is back and that's all Valentina cares about. (even if it's not necessarily 100% true-- to Hana, all she feels is that she's being discarded). that's what prompts her confrontation/conversation with the mc in ch3.

going forward there's a chance for this to change, depending on how the mc approaches the two. even if you're not romancing Hana in the poly there are still opportunities to include her (or exclude her, if you want. you can explore that route, too) and with the mc back, Valentina can potentially open herself up more to Hana than she was able to before, platonically or romantically, with mc's urging.

honestly i feel that Hana was more directly inspired by aspects of Claudia's character than Valentina with Lestat (they just happen to be similarly obsessed with mc/Louis respectively). and while i don't necessarily like to say one choice is "bad" i will say being cruel to Hana does have consequences. but i'm still writing it because i want that to be an option to explore specifically with Hana's character, and i don't necessarily want it to feel like a punishment to the player, but this game isn't exactly a feel-good game, and i do plan to make it hurt. lol

and as for your last point... yes it IS interesting. we'll probably never know if the mc was really consenting at that time (can any human really consent when eternal life is beyond their scope of understanding?) and it just adds another fuzzy layer to the messy onion that is her relationship with Valentina.

[koterkot]

i'm probably a system but i have a job so idrc about that rn

[tingedautumn]

i know the popular headcanon for alastor is that he’s a cannibal and i respect the viewpoint but i fuck heavy with the idea that he only became one when he got to hell. perpetually cursed with a damning hunger as a metaphor for his greed and envy as a human

[scionshtola]

it’s always funny to me how often i see people say their wols were intimidated by shtola for a long time (understandable) bc cori met shtola and was immediately like i want her to teach me everything she knows and be her friend forever

[kikieseverywhere]

I got a bunnydoll (bunnydolj) bracelet

Now I realize that the "B" is backwards help

(story in tags so YAP WARNING)

[male-duckk]

thinking abt joe/carlos

[brainrot-stitch]

Oh btw. Here's the silly billy

:3

size comparison under the cut

!!!

I'm like 5'6 I think and the guy in the size comparison is me so someone taller would be a bit taller than that I think

[wonderidolhaze]

🌻🍪🌻

^ 2 beautiful sunflowers sharing a cookie on a date

you can make an ouroboros spit itself out by putting hand sanitizer on it and ummmm also 01 in my ocgram has a dead brother who she hallucinates often about and almost died over.

on a more positive note did you know male penguins give female penguins the smoothest pebble they can find when they want to propose

[vampirehizzies]

klaus voices his fears of hope one day becoming aware that he's a monster and then marcel says "i knew you were a monster when i met you," not in the vampire sense but nonetheless marcel understood what kind of man he was dealing with and he still grew to love klaus like a father... and is voicing that unconditional love even after their history and conflicts to show that hope also will continue to love and admire klaus even when she sees the dark side of her father's vampirism... I love my weird monster family

[chaoticfvckingdisaster]

No normal way to say you want someone to scroll through the pinterest boards you put your blood sweat and tears into making for your own characters. Like I need you to understand my love for this little guy. What do you mean a picture of a tree doesn't convey his thoughts and ambitions. It does to me

[uppersix]

day 5 progress (first two, technically taken today because i didnt take pics before i went to bed yesterday) + day 6 (last two) !!

as predicted, i WILL need an extra day of work to finish crocheting this, but she is SO big and SO gorgeous i am really proud of myself. she's 49 inches big right now (measuring from the center to one of the peaks). im measuring in inches because thats what the pattern does. so for anyone else wondering what the FUCK 49 inches are in cm: approx 124.50cm. thats how big she is right now. yay!!! cant wait to keep crocheting tomorrow. HOPEFULLY i won't need to extend it another extra day, but i wouldn't be surprised if i did have to.