#anyway lmao. they drive me fucking insane
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honestly the funniest part about the quodo kiss blooper is that kira had like no reaction to it. it just made so much sense that even she just stood there and watched it happen
#also i'm not just saying this as a quodo shipper but if they kept the kiss blooper in it genuinely would've been a better ending for them#i think it would've given them and the audience some actual sense of closure#rather than odo just refusing to let quark hear what he wanted. refusing to admit to him how much he means to him and then just leaving#like literally. after over 10 years of Whatever The Fuck They Had Going On#why not get out all that tension and frustration with one impulsive sloppy passionate kiss. and THEN never see each other again#like rene auberjonois really knew what was up when he decided to go in for that kiss#and armin shimerman Definitely knew what was up when he fucking moaned during it#like. they knew. they Get it. i honestly think it would've been fitting for them to keep it in#especially since quark still says ''that man loves me'' in the final take. and it's true ! he just desperately wanted odo to admit it#and they didn't give him that even after he practically begged for it. and after all he did for him during all those years#quark loves odo so much. genuinely. truly. and whether you personally view that love as platonic or romantic. he LOVES him#and odo even admitted to kira afterwards that he'd miss quark. THEN TELL HIM THAT TO HIS FACE !!!!!!!!#anyway lmao. they drive me fucking insane
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okay but can we talk about 'Mystery of the Urinal Deuce' because this episode is literally EVERYTHING when it comes to Stan and Kyle's friendship. Marsh is playing dumb the whole episode and Kyle is losing his goddamn mind over it. The betrayal. The DRAMA.
Stan in this scene knows damn well that everything is a conspiracy (he admits as much later in the episode and knows that Kyle thinks the same thing). And Kyle knows damn well that Stan out of everyone should also know this, because Stan is the one person he can usually count on to back him up on this type of shit. But Stan is the one messing with him in this episode, so we get these fun moments of Stan letting loose and enjoying pranking his friend Kyle.
Many see the Assburger's duology as the establishment and turning point of Stan’s character. And while it certainly establishes his clinical depression, I’d argue it in no way establishes either his tendency towards depression/melancholy OR cynicism as both of those have always been present from the beginning (but that’s another discussion for another day. I already basically wrote an essay on that a longgg time ago that maybe I’ll share later).
When it comes to a true ‘turning point’ for Stan’s character, I think of ‘Raisin’s’ ‘from Season 7, which expands on his already present tendency towards sensitivity and annoyances with general society and evolves it into a deep melancholy and detachment from society (at times bordering on nihilism, something we see more of from Stan post Season 7’s ‘Raisins’ such as in the ‘Douche and Turd’ episode in Season 8 and many other episodes). I don’t see the ‘You’re Getting Old’ episode as the turning point for Stan’s character at all. I see it more as an extension of what I actually view as his turning point episode of ‘Raisin’s’.
What I love about ‘Mystery of the Urinal Deuce’ is it is a post ‘Raisin’s’ episode where Stan just gets to play around, which is sadly something we just don’t see from Stan post-season 7 as often.
Kyle has always been the easiest target for Cartman not even necessarily because of his traits, but because of his reactions. He is super reactive to everything, and Stan knows this. Unlike Cartman, Stan respects this and usually stands up for Kyle when this aspect of him is taken advantage of. But at the same time, this doesn’t mean that Stan doesn’t like to tease Kyle at times - because let’s be real; Kyle’s high reactivity would make it so fun to mess with him. And in this episode, Stan takes advantage of that.
And while usually I hate people taking advantage of Kyle in this way, it is so goddamn refreshing to see Stan just being able to let go of all the heavy shit that’s been so key to his character emotionally post-Season 7 and just play around with his bestie in this episode, something I think that at the core of his character he ultimately just wants to be able to do at the end of the day. you can TASTE the shit-eating grin in his voice. he is having the TIME OF HIS LIFE watching Kyle spiral. stan tries so GODDAMN hard to find happiness throughout the series to no avail, so it’s refreshing the times he succeeds and gets to just actually be himself.
Later on in the episode, Stan is also just able to let loose. His ‘Well dude, maybe we’re just badass, have you ever thought of that?’ later on in the episode is said so nonchalantly with him literally smirking, and it cracks me up every time as he tries to appease Kyle’s doubts. He is thoroughly enjoying pranking his friend.
like yes give me more of this next season?? give me more of stan actually getting to be a kid and mess around with his best friend instead of drowning in existential dread 24/7? please and thank you?
#south park#kyle broflovski#stan marsh#character analysis#stan marsh joy sighting (RARE)#mystery of the urinal deuce#this episode is criminally underrated#stan choosing chaos is my favorite stan#sometimes your friend has to lovingly gaslight you#it’s just what besties do#let stan be happy 2025#local child takes break from existential dread to troll his bestie#again pls why can’t max just let me screenshot im simply too lazy to be going on my laptop to pirate shit to share on tumblr#anyways I love this ep cuz it it shows how secure their friendship is despite their flaws#Stan knows Kyle well enough to know where the line is#it’s so cute how he goes with that sweet spot of#‘I’m gonna drive you fucking insane but in a way that won’t actually damage our friendship#max I do actually pay for u in that my stepdad pays for u so pls pay no attention to the pirating allegations#but also max if you’re listening just let me fking screenshot and then maybe we won’t have a problem#I have so much I wanna share but again am too lazy to pirate scenes even tho it wouldn’t take all that long#but like cmon max just let me screenshot short sections it’s so goddamn stupid you won’t allow it😢#this would make it so I wouldn’t have to resort to other measures#just realized I made Stan’s dialogue here a bit… purple?#oh god does this make me colorblind like my dad and bro#or does the fact I noticed it make me… not colorblind?#usually I try to use the exact hex codes for the boys dialogue but was lazy here lmao
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anyone else feeling fundamentally incapable of adjusting to society. also just discovered there's a 30 tag limit which i can't believe i've never hit before
#like it was one thing when i was in high school and college like wasn't socialized as a child due to not receiving schooling and growing up#sda blah blah whatever but like i'm almost 27 and i am barely functioning lol like i feel like i'm struggling to have a normal conversation#even more than i used to and i think my speech cadence is noticably off which i don't think it always has been#some of it is definitely from chronic exhaustion from having to get up too early and the stress of having a frequently panic inducing boss#but like. come on now. i can't even drive despite finally having a license because i'm too scared/distractible/poor reaction time#over a dozen antidepressants have not worked. adderall is not working great either#i'm SO much dumber than i used to be and it's driving me quite literally insane#i don't even think it's from getting covid in july because i was noticing it before although it definitely became way more noticeable after#i got this job. i've never been this bad at a job in my life and it's something anyone who knows me would assume i'd be good at#it's embarrassing. i cannot fucking remember anything i struggle to do the most basic of arithmetic to fill prescriptions i make the same#silly mistakes multiple times i am constantly asking stupid questions and still somehow fucking up all the time#it's not as bad as it was a couple months ago and frankly i'm shocked i haven't gotten fired i keep thinking that's going to happen#of course i wanted to quit this job four months ago but now i'm at like a sunk cost fallacy point unfortunately#this is obviously not like any kind of career position for many reasons but i don't know what else to do unless i move across the country#again. i'm not even qualified for anything besides animal related things and summer camp which are fine obviously but not great if you want#things like benefits or paid leave or not to get burned out as hell lmao#i don't even feel like i could do any customer service jobs because i literally struggle to put a coherent sentence together on the spot#everything is so slow. soooo slow i'm literally losing my mind which is catastrophic because my mind is all i've ever had going for me#and i'm having kind of a horrible existence lately which is exacerbating all my problems except the problems make it mostly impossible to d#anything to fix it. ok going out and doing some fun stuff for a day makes me feel better that's great. except then i need a day after that#to recover from doing things the previous day. so the only feasible day for doing things would be saturday. except on saturdays i'm#recovering from working. i literally only work 4 days and barely over 30 hours it's Not that crazy. i mean the boss is crazy and the job ca#also be crazy obviously but 30 hours a week is minimal compared to other work schedules i've maintained before#anyway but the most i can do after work is go to the store if i need to but i almost never have energy for anything fun#and the fucking bus doesn't run on sundays and walking miles to get literally anywhere takes a lot of energy i don't have#i'm about to move next weekend and i'm dreading it because it's going to be so much work and i'm so fucking tired#and i don't have any friends to help me with cleaning i might be able to get help moving my stuff but i'm not even confident about that#i might have to rent a uhaul but i would honestly rather pay somebody to help because i'm that scared of driving even for one 30 min trip#whatever....sorry i had to feel bad for myself in the tumblr dot edu tags again i'm not in therapy rn#(<- guy who should be in therapy)
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Not to be slightly pretentious about my own art for a second but I'm up thinking about the repeated visual imagery I've developed in my wkm fanart
Specifically the twin stars as Celine and Damien post WKM, particularly in their relation to Wil. How it's about them haunting the narrative. How it's about them still being there in Dark and yet not being there at all. How it's about the ways Wil still sees them in everything. How he misses them and how he carries on with that weight, with their legacy (the same reason I often draw him with star motifs of his own. Always carrying them with him in his own little ways.)
#atlas.art#atlas speaks#i wonder sometimes how many people pick up on it bc everytime i think about this shit it drives me a little insane#they are everything to me do you get it#the fucking 'Woke Up New' Wil drawing still gets me despite all the ass jokes people made about it for this specific reason#it was the first and arguably most effective use of this symbol considering it set the standard for it's meaning#also yes the stars were also a part of the reason i drew the barbie outfit drawing lmao have fun never looking at that one the same again#also not included here but slightly relevant is the google drawing with the stars#considering the specific ideas i have about google's path towards humanity and its relationship to Dark and his humanity so#anyways I'm done being pretentious now probably i swear
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Me, the only Ares and Nyx shipper on planet earth: 😏
#shut up alli#i mean in general too not just in this game specifically#i have my reasons#mainly being that of Ares being an often mischaracterized god and Nyx scares Ares’ fuck ass dad Zeus lmao#I will defend Ares with my LIFE he is not a bad god. not as bad as some of the other ones anyway#his parents hate him but it’s literally Zeus and Hera idgaf what they think#I know the general assumption is to portray him as evil feral man but I simply do not agree#I do think of course he is chaotic and a hothead but I just don’t think the man who killed his kid’s rapist is that bad idk#he’s also celebrated by women btw. he’s good to women#so when people make him off to be a sleazy creep it drives me insane he has NEVER been shown to assault anybody#idk everyone kinda clowned on him in written stuff about him and somehow the stuff showing his positive traits were mostly lost#which means everyone who does interpretations of him in modern media always does the same goddamn thing for him#makes me saddddd Ares you were done dirty#Hades so far has had a fine interpretation of Ares imo though. I like this fella and the way he counts the amount of enemies you killed#anyway I think Ares and Nyx should kiss. he deserves a dark beautiful women who doesn’t care that he kills ppl#I do think Ares and Aphrodite are cute btw I get the whole sybolism of love x war so no shade to it#butttt I also like playing with mythological beings like dolls hehe#anyway I’m autistic bye I have to go the store
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sorry for only saying this type of shit lately but i kinda wanna drive a car straight into a brick wall at the highest speed possible
#trying to keep it together so bad because i already know the problems and solutions and whatnot but i cannot do anything#i desperately just need to do something. accomplish any task. actually several would be nice. but i cannot stand just letting life go by#while i watch other people have the things i want. or even metaphorically living my dream like. that should be me why am i settling for thi#i hate even talking about this because i feel so stupid when i know it's not even a real tangible problem and that i actually DO have real#problems to tackle and the ability to do so but i'm choosing to be upset over the stupidest things i could possibly be sad about#and i can't even be sad about it in a normal way i'm cycling through like several different reactions to smth that isn't even real#or if it is real i literally do not have tanglible evidence for it one way or another like i'm driving myself insane for no reason#i can't even get catharsis because all i'm doing is digging a deeper hole for something i never should've gone back into in the first place#because i KNOW how i am i KNOW how i react to things and i still chose to do it lmao.#and i continue to choose to go through this shit instead of actively trying to change my life because... i'm lazy? and stupid? idk#negative self-talk isn't gonna get me to do anything either so let's just say i'm feeling particularly unmotivated like usual#i hated being a teenager but i really do miss when all my problems just amounted to 'someone was mean to me on tumblr today :(' or i failed#a test in chemistry or something. like i yearn for that simplicity becasue at this point all i'm doing is ruining my own life LMAO#i'm too scared to live i'm too scared to die so i just sit here and fantasize that life could be amazing if i wait#and i'll magically get everything i've ever wanted if i just wait long enough. and i know it isn't true and i still wait for it to happen.#because honestly like. i think deep down i am just convinced i will fail at anything i do when that shouldn't be what scares me.#what scares me should be never even allowing myself to fail because i never tried to do anything at all with myself or my life#like. wake the fuck up. get off your ass and put in the effort. learn some skills. gain independence and stability and discipline and do it#just live please i'm begging you just live so i can be happy don't i deserve to be happy... why am i not letting myself be happy#i'm literally keeping myself trapped in this negative feedback loop ON PURPOSE because teehee shiny toy#and it doesn't matter if the love is real it doesn't matter how i feel like i'm just using it as a distraction i can't say it's motivation#because it's barely motivated me at all. i have to start being realistic. 25 & just realizing you actually have to participate in your life#anyways. i've cried i've agonized i've pictured killing myself in 30 different ways. i think the only way i'm gonna feel better is#to just actually try this time without giving up. wish me luck
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not a comment on a r/fatuiHQ meme of all things making me finally notice that childe activating FL all the way back in the golden house cutscene actually summons those black hole/collapsing star imagery things (looking Exactly like the narwhal boss drop at a specific frame too) behind him if u look at it closely at the right frame😭😭😭
(peak subreddit btw.)
i mean its not Completely new for a motif his teleporting in the 4.2 opera cutscene is a much more clear example of the same exact visual effect but. Dang i never slowed the 1.1 cutscene down enough to see it for myself there before
what a cool detail and reccurring motif there! now let me lose my mind and credibility for a bit Thanks
(actual nonsense warning lmao its just cool black hole sfx but gone downhill)
(a Completely unrelated compilation here Surely. yes the narwhals spout attack thingy is less Obviously the same visual but its a pretty picture of my beloved. sue me. also its close enough 2 me)
anyway isnt it Curious how all these effects are ummmm black holes. like there are stars visibly collapsing here uwu. and black holes are. Collapsed dead stars. wouldnt it be funny if the narwhal boss drop archive entry somehow directly implies that the eye of maelstrom (a black hole) could simply be the echo of its prey. Which are. Yaknow. sometimes stars. for a cosmic whale. so an echo of its prey is an echo of a dead star. crazy ik. if anything like that existed i mean
oh JEEPERS. next thing youll tell me stars are archons forbid often used as a sort of allegory and very prevalent reference to some sort of an important category of people. like a descender or something. crazy ik (2: Electric boogaloo)
WHAT!!!! (and like 4 billion other examples i couldnt bother to gather and sc sorry)
and like. sure sure lets not get too crazy we need to remember skirks usage of this same power as well thats a good point. i should remain skeptical of my own insanity thats very true. we all get a sticker for responsible behavior UwU
so she indeed turned the narwhal into a black hole there yes. She Did That. so maybe its just the power from beyond thing. its void power its quantum but genshin. the black hole/collapsing star stuff is all surtalogis power okay lets consider that for arguments sake. well i guess that means its just surtalogis brand of transcendent abyss power and not about black holes slash dead stars that may or may not be dead descenders. thats fine
Whew i guess thats it then we solved it guys. okay i can accept that. its abyss power because surtalogi things and childe and the narwhal displaying it is all because of surtalogis plots and teachings and powers. something like that
and even if that may be a bit anticlimactic of a conclusion for a narwhalpilled truther like myself (with a penchant towards Theres Some Descender Shit Going On With Ajax antics as well) at the very least its good that there isnt any datamined book series in which some particularly pygmy-esque individuals Strangely fitting of our current descriptions and knowledge of of dain + the sinners band together to merk some guy from beyond teyvat with special powers that may or may not be the irminsul-proofed historical account of a particular descenders death so nothing like THAT can throw a wrench into our very confirmed conclusion of surtalogis power and by extension childe and maybe even the narwhals black hole motifs just being basic abyss element power that has absolutely Nothing to do with any descenders or... dead stars? yeah its a good thing nothing like that exists .
OH SH----
#NO I CANT MAKE IT MAKE SENSE IT JUST DRIVES ME INSANE. THESE THOUGHTS. I DONT HAVE A GOOD POINT OR ANYTHING IM JUST#DYING OVER THERE THANKS. HOLDS HEAD IN HANDS#BLACK HOLES.... WHY IS IT BLACK HOLES... COLLAPSING DEAD STARS..............................#(also as u might notice. thanks 2 catwithbluehat for yt genshin cutscene compilation for da screenshots o7)#anyway#even if i dont actually happen to have any particular point or theory to offer here. i just find it inch resting how this motif repeats .#strange. odd even. certainly scrumptious#like . Curious. whatever may they be implying. and like ultimately i just think its soooo funny#whyever would a Particular 14 yo awaken a whale that Happens to be drawn to eating Stars Specifically. like what is it abt Him there huh.#hey wouldnt it be EVEN funnier if that purple guy inside the narwhal. with a LITERAL black hole in his chest. that also transforms into.#that eye of the maelstorm there . during the battle. and protects the core of the narwhal in its stomach#was ever called like. idk an ancient nemesis or maybe just a shadow of such nemesis too. in an early beta or sth. for a TCG summon mby#like even more strongly suggesting the dark shadow = narwhals prey = a dead star = a....dead descender even??? jkjk for last part. (unless)#but the first 3... like if it ate its nemesis and the nemesis is thusly that echoed shadow of a prey..... hmmm how Curious#why would a whale that chases stars ... chase that guy too enough to eat him ............#(this is a jkjk unless way of being like. what if the dudes ajax but a past incarnation hehe. what if theyre soulmates like that. tee hee.)#(what if a dead descender has been reincarnating all this time like that . wouldnt that be quirky . also they should kiss)#(ignore me im dying inside.)#anyway . for real tho . idk what the fuck any of this Actually means it just lives rent free.#like idek what im trying to say with any of this shit qskjwajkwdjJKWJKWDJKWDJKD#also the photo quality w the yt scs is kinda ass but thats on me lmao.#rambles#genshin#childeposting#narwhalposting
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Imitates human behaviors to an uncanny degree, Akira remembers from the lab notes. Mimic skill on par with any natural predator that imitates another animal to lure in prey.
Scene from the amazing mermaid fic, I like to think I’m a good person by @relationshipcrimes (READ THE TAGS BEFORE BEGINNING)
#this fic has been driving me insane - every time I’ve seen my cat go near my bathtub for the last few days I’ve had a panic response LMAO#<- if u want to know why I did then read the fic but also check the tags bcuz it’s… FUCKED up#this little scene is near the start so it looks very cute and wholesome but um. it’s. not.#ANYWAY so sorry about the inaccurate backgrounds 😔 Akechi is in the containment tank at this point of the fic NOT the bathtub…#but unfortunately I can’t craft an entire military-grade fish tank from scratch bcuz I hv to study lol#which is a shame cuz I hv a really clear vision of it in my head lmao#anyway peep Akechi’s little braids and freckles heheheh. so sweet. so human…. (:#also tumblr butchered the quality so u can’t see his teeth very well in the first pic but they are. a little spiky. :)))#also I may or may not be making another sprite edit of Akechi & Akira at the END of the fic but those r gonna take a while bcuz [SPOILERS]#I like to think I’m a good person#persona#persona 5#p5#persona 5 royal#p5r#persona 5 fanfiction#goro akechi#akira kurusu#ren amamiya#shuake#akeshu#mine#anyway this fic slaps in a very haunting type of way so read it asap (if ur ok w the content warnings)#oh for the record the dots on his chest & shoulders aren’t freckles they’re scale texturing lol#I also messed w the portrait dimensions so u could see mermaid Akechi better… so I couldn’t standardise the sizing like usual 😭#so if it looks a little wonky that’s why 🙇♀️😭 apologies
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being a younger lesbian in your 20s and 30s is actually insane rn because not only is our dating pool small enough as it is (especially for lesbians who only want to date other lesbians) but then we’re also having to contend with the fact that half of the lesbians around our age are going by they/them or they/he pronouns and like kudos to y’all who can maintain relationships (hell, even friendships) with people who require you to deny base reality every time you’re around them or even reference to them when they’re not even in the room but like. i can’t pretend to indulge in it, like not even for a little bit. and i really do feel like this is actually a real issue and has so many implications for the lesbian community as a whole and how it really is disappearing right before our eyes, all in just a matter of a few years etc but all that is to say! we need to free young lesbians from the shackles that is gender now before i go completely insane and end up single forever
#like I’m so tired#and it’s not just that I want a girlfriend lolol that was just a joke (kind of) but like!!!#I swear it seems like EVERY single lesbian I come across is engulfed in this gender stuff#so when older lesbians are saying the lesbian community is dying out this is part of what they mean#like there is barely any solidarity amongst younger lesbians and it’s sad#not only are we letting men infiltrate our safe spaces#but we’re also not standing up to things like the definition of lesbian being changed to ‘non man loving non man’ or whatever the fuck#like soooo many lesbians are ACTIVELY feeding into that rhetoric and it’s driving me insane and making me want to scream & pull my hair out#and like actually I’m not willing to be with a woman who doesn’t even acknowledge her womanhood#idk it just feels like an act of disrespect to not only them but all women#anyways no one asked for this lil take or my rant in the notes but LMAO it’s on my mind#lesbian#radsplain.txt
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Okay I'm not saying that this semester's students suck ass bc I'm not there to teach them, but isn't it just such a coincidence that the vast majority are failing so miserably and they don't have someone who will tutor them outside of class and go over notes and skills with them, while the previous semesters did have that and the majority passed? Super interesting stuff. Too bad we'll never know if things could've been different if they had just fucking paid me :)
#can you tell I'm peeved lmao#i went to one of the classes today just so i can keep it on my resume#and holy fuck#weeks into the semester and they should have the basics down#they do not#absolutely floundering#granted I'm sure I'm not actually the reason lmao#like yeah i helped a shit ton of students outside class too#but they probably could've passed without me#these new ones tho are awful#no drive no nothing just looking for others to blame for their own failures#i didn't even stay the whole time like i was planning#bc i found out that they hired four other fucking people for the program#who all have less experience than me#and have been with the program for a way shorter time than i have#who don't do half the extra shit i do#and don't get me wrong this isn't a slight at them they're all fully qualified#but why the fuck not hire me#like i genuinely am so pissed#have to email my supervisor but I'm too upset to make it sound civil#like fucking fine if you don't wanna pay me you never get to see me again#I'm not working ten hour days plus extra outside of class for nothing anymore that's insane#I'll keeping being a private tutor for the students but I'm not doing a single thing for the program without pay#i mean holy shit hiring at least four other people and not saying shit to me??#like fine that's fine fuck you you're getting an email ultimatum good luck finding someone else willing to do all that for free#i cried about it for like an hour and now I'm just mad lmao having a super normal one rn#anyway#not snz
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uh ohhhhhh getting all in my head again aha
#ok so even if im right what does that change#everything but ok ok. i can always just kms to atone for my sins <333#(<-normal coping mechanism with Not Being Able To Deal With The Kind Of Person You Are)#no no ok no kmsing but uhhhhhhhhhhhhhh bruh i thunk my brain is like. not built right#like what if thats not actually bpd. what if it IS npd after all and ive just#manipulated her into giving me the More Easily Palatable Diagnosis that allows#me (and some goodwilling others) to view myself as a victim instead of just an unsalvageable fucking monster lol#this is NOT the kind of problems i imagined myself having in my 20s#dunno why im losing my mind about rn in the middle of all this silly tumblr shenanigans but#i think my therapist is wrong. she keeps talking shit about trauma and abuse but this isnot#not right. I HAVENT HAD any truly traumating experiences. like divorced parents are normal it doesn't usually do THAT to people. that is NOT#trauma lol SA ok ig but i dont even like. think about it at all and it wasn't even actua fucking rape so like. MAYBE i could blame some#some of myunhealthy#kinks on it but thats literallyit#like me being the way i am really doesnt stem from me being a victim of abuse or anything#like there's no one to blame except for myself there is just something in me thats inherently lacking and it's driving me crazy#it's like im in a constant battle against myself where im forcing myself to feel bad about it because if i allow myself to let go#it's over. for me and for everyone i've manipulated into caring about me#it's insane it's genuinely fucking crazy i really feel like im losing my mind Sometimes#and like the worst part is i can't be fucking bothered to even try to change lol cause it's uncomfortable and it puts responsibility on me#and icant deal with that cause im a pussy and a serial quitter lmao#thats not 'fear of abandonment'. that's just being. wrongly wired. inside.#ANYWAY. never fucking mind. normal again uwu
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i said it on my swiftie blog last but fuck it i'll say it here too bc i woke up still annoyed about it:
for a website that does a ton of bitching and moaning about media literacy and and saying all this "you all clearly didn't pay attention in high school english", funny how suddenly none of y'all know what a fucking metaphor is.
of course taylor wasn't literally raised in an asylum! the public eye is the inescapable asylum!
i think about all the genuinely shitty and harmful things i've said and done across all my nearly 30 years. i have said and done some awful shit, because i am an incredibly fallible person who was raised by incredibly fallible parents and relatives, raised in a fallible community (things i literally had ZERO choice in) and surrounded by incredibly fallible friends. i have hung around some horrible people who said and did horrible things.
if i had to learn everything i've learned all while under a microscope from the public-- yeah! i'd go fucking insane! i wouldn't last ten seconds in that!!
and i really reckon you wouldn't, either, because the unfortunately reality is we're all fallible. most of us just have the luxury of being complete nobodies
#i'm not saying anyone has to LIKE the album#i'm not even saying everyone HAS to listen to the album i really don't care and honestly i'm glad we're weeding out some of the normies#but the way some of y'all act like you've never said or done ANYTHING shitty in your life#idk maybe i'm too forgiving bc ever since i was 13 i've just been existing from one mental health crisis to the next#also it does continue to be LAUGHABLE at how little self control some of y'all have#like it's so fucking easy to ignore the artists bands and celebs i hate or don't like#y'all probably don't even know who that list includes apart from the obv musk and bezos bc i waste no brain space on any of them#anyways it's probably time for another small tumblr break because THIS asylum regularly drives me insane lmao#i get being a hater can be fun now and again but at what point are you doing nothing but engaging in being a hater as a form of self harm#trust me:#surrounding yourself with nothing but other haters and negativity actively makes you see and think the world is worse than it already is#been there#like one of my psych professors would say: cathartic behaviours are only helpful up to a point. they can quickly become a form of self har
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after the movie people became hyper critical of the outfits of barbie dolls claiming their quality has gone down and they’re all ugly and it’s like how do you explain that the iconic looks come from special edition/art dolls and the dolls they more regularly promote are the dolls being played with by little kids and it’s more important for little kids to see themselves represented and a variety of careers presented rather than a “high quality” outfit like
#little kids don’t care about high quality outfits on their dolls! they’re toys! it’s the concept and representation behind them#like every year barbie does career of the year#and people are like ‘you had a multibillion dollar film and yet these are ugly’#THEYRE FOR LITTLE KIDS#if it is meant to be kept in a box or a collector’s item it comes in a nicer box and they work directly with artists and spend a long#time on the creations#themselves while the majority of the time for career dolls is spent consenting#like last year was women in sports i think and they had the 4 doll set they always have#then throughout the year had collectors edition#if you forget who the dolls are made for you lose the whole plot lmao#ruth handler made barbie so that little kids could see themselves be anything they wanted to be#and weren’t constricted by just a baby doll or collectible figure#i hate that one does a shit’s worth of research when it comes to barbie this is actually driving me insane greta gerwig didn’t do fucking#shit for the brand and has arguably made it worse but anyway#eris: text#*concepting not consenting
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#came back for a beat as I watched friendiversary and wanted to share my thoughts 👀#the torture device bit at the end was a bit ehhh for me#like why was THAT the reason sponge remembered him??#but sponge attaching the formula to squid so he'd “never forget it” was honestly sweet#and everything else was GOLD#imo it's just another piece of evidence that squid truly feels something for sponge#but is actively running from it to the point where it drives him insane#if sponge ignores him he goes crazy if sponge is obsessed with him he goes crazy lmao#this episode was one of the first times we've seen this on full display#no amount of physical torture will compare to the deep inner conflict squid experiences re: his true feelings for sponge#if only he'd allow himself to love and be loved!!#i feel like this only further cements the points i made in my reigisa x squidbob masterpost tbh#which you all should totes read!#spongey is in LOVE though for sure#like fantasizing about living with squid in his sleep? the fucking scrapbook? COME ON#anyway this episode was so great once you look deeper and it has so much fic fodder#squidbob#sbsp#squidward#spongebob#tragic clowning
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Apparently today is an unlucky day for me! And I only woke up 2.5 hours ago
Went to class like a good student. But when I got there I found out that class was canceled today. Which he put on the website, but I didn't get an email for it :)
So I went home. I was putting my shit down... and then the power went out.
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So now I have no electricity or wifi. Which I hope gets resolved soon. Bc no wifi would really mess with my plans to get this fucking one-shot out.
#speculation nation#i mean hopefully it's a short outage but it's been like 15 mins now#no contact by the landlord or the energy company to say the source of it#it's definitely building-wide bc the fucking alarm keeps going off in the entry area#the 'oh SHIT we dont have power!!!! everyone we do NOT have power!!!! this is a GRADE A EMERGENCY'#meanwhile im like 😑 yes i know we dont have power. the goddamned lights went out.#anyways if it lasts for too long i guess i could just go to work early and mooch off the wifi there#but i rly would prefer not to lmao. i hate carrying my laptop around.#ugh that fucking beeping is going to drive me insane. might have to put on some music to not lose my mind#the worst part of all of this is i still havent taken my Arriving Home Shower. which means im gonna have to shower in the dark :/#i fuckin hate this lmao
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u guys were right succession is the shit omg
#only 6 eps in which is kinda fast for me#and woaggggh these insane millionaires 🤩#the theme song is soooo good btw i love a good impactful theme song it's so good#oh and i had some actual Progress today but then something Exciting and Distracting happened again.#but this time it was biggggg like what am i supposed to do...#i hope i will keep going in a nice pace argh i have literally 0 self discipline#actually it's worse than that. -5 lvl self discipline#and to THINK i have been actually very successful to this day like. god nerfed me i guess#he knew that if i had more self discipline and more drive; id be one of those insane millionaires in this show#and he was like oh no she wouldn't like that too much. and he was right#the more i watch this the more i think WHO would wanna live like this fr lmao#i mean i Know it's literally satire so it be like that#but to think there are so many people who live like this and who want to live like this....#if i was kendall id literally just go you know what? fuck you and your fuckass company#i hope your stocks crash and burn goodbye 😄#anyway. the way it's really obvious my mind keeps getting sidetracked even while im posting lmao#🗒
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