#anyway im just so hung up on that
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i remembered that writing my own little reviews was supposed to be part of my whole ‘watch a movie every week’ thing and i had a surprisingly large amount to say about the nutty professor
#so like the only criteria for this movie thing is i just have to watch a movie ive never seen before#that one won this week bc it was easy to find browsing netflix and not too long and didnt seem like something id care about#sometimes that helps when youre worried about your ability to focus#so like i expected it to be fatphobic. the weird part was the entire message of the movie was its fucked up to make fun of people for being#fat. BUt the movie ALSO does that ITSELF? and i guess its a 'love the sinner hate the sin' kinda mentality#but even that doesnt explain the cognitive dissonance???#anyway im just so hung up on that
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genie: so, you have three wishes-
me: i want everyone in the world to be able to size shift between two inches tall and fifteen feet tall, at will, in a totally safe manner, EXCEPT for my ex and anyone within a 100 meter radius of them. everyone they see or meet will be the exact same height as them.
genie: that’s…. specific.
me: they’re into size. imagine knowing g/t is now real and exists, and you will NEVER get to experience it firsthand. i cannot think of a worse fate for any size fan.
genie: ….y’know what, fuck yeah. let’s do this
me: YAY. so for my second wish, i’m thinking bigass sword
genie: NICE
#g/t#which ex is this about? i’ll never tell#i genuinely feel like ive moved on but sometimes i think of some funny shit like this and i have to post it#so pls dont think im hung up on anyone. im just a comedian who capitalizes on life experiences#anyways. god i want a sword. i want one so bad#i want a replica of inigo montoyas blade SOOOO BAD
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You know what irks me the most about the mha ending. (Sorry I'm still on it.)
Like the early parts of the manga, there were so many grown up hero AUs in fandom (like storylines that took place when they're adults and heroes) and they're fun! A little silly!
And then we had the war arc and cities are being destroyed and everything's torn up and for over a hundred chapters, it's been oh huh I guess every AU like that will just be canon divergence lmao
And then Horikoshi basically wipes the slate clean so I guess all those AUs could technically canon compliant. There's not even much in the way of lasting physical damage! Because it's dealt with???? Immediately???? Within months?????
Which is fine! Nothing wrong with it! The AUs are fun! But, it just irks me that you could throw out half the manga because it didn't matter. Nothing majorly changed. Silly adult hero AUs for everyone I guess because the League may as well have been 2 bit villains for all the effect they had at large was. Idk. Maybe I'm bitter? Maybe my brain still trying to process the ending and the change in how AUs relate to canon? I guess - what was all the constant sprinkling in of "society has let people down" that we see from chapter 1? It meant nothing? I guess????? I mean A WAR HAPPENED. But whatever I guess heehee wasn't that soooooo silly???? That people's take on early story can be the same as post story?????
#the bee talks#bnha manga spoilers#bnha#*nothing's new nothing's new noooothing's new“ plays on repeat in my head#im NOT fucking tagging it as critical. i dont think im being overall critical about mha. maybe i will to help ppl curate fandom space#i guess itd be more like wank than actual criticism.#anyway theres a great denki/shinsou/monoma tiktok adult hero au story- its kind of brilliant. love that.#(literally story it has so many arcs so many interesting villain/vigilante ocs its so so good)#but... i mean it was cosplay so it took a while. and in all that time it just??? could still technically be canon??#idk it just..... something in me just.... chafes about this#and its arguably such a stupid thing to get hung up on (i think my brain's just having a hard time with that mental switch). sorry.#we need a different tag thats mha wank or mha negative or something bc its more that than any critical.#why did horikoshi spend 10 years on this story??????#why give time and thought to the villains????? why did he do all this????#he couldve just explored uraraka's than “heroic” reasons for getting into ua if he didnt want his villains to change anything.#like just focus on the hero students or something. idk idk idk... fuck it:#bnha critical
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how. do u sona....
#i want to give myself a solid sona that. isnt just me with puppy dog ears and a tail slapped on but its hardddd#i want to make like a snowman that can change shape but it keeps certain features like branch antlers and a carrot nose#for consistency yk. but im struggling to find a balance between smth i like drawing and smth that looks like me#how often does one's sona resemble the artist irl.. for one i dont have bangs but i love drawing characters with bangs#so its just an internal conflict on if i should give my sona bangs if i dnt have them but love drawing them. etc etc#maybe im thinking abt this too hard bc nobody really knows what i look like anyway and i can do what i want anyway#but i get hung up on small details like that. like im worrying abt stuff like damn how tf am i gonna draw a snowman in the summer#girl... its a fuckig drawing.... follow your heart. but also HOW. i cant even draw myself with bangs bc it feels like im lying augh auuhggg#its 4 am im too tired for this. im goig to bed#my art#myart#doodles#wip
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stray homestuck2 thought: there's something about how jake likes blue ladies; and jane, who is coded blue, but chooses to wear red.
#lucabytetalks#homestuck#lucabytereads#still thinking on my avatar joke from yesterday and a discussion i had about jake's emasculation in the plot & how#ppl will staunchly call him Gay when hes one of the dudes in homestuck who most frequently does express some kind of attraction to women#whereas with dudes its like. seemingly mostly just dirk for him. and even thats oft coded with his 'well by jolly he is my good chum#after all and i would hate to see him upset!' same way he approaches his relationship with jane#since i dont think brain ghost dirk is exactly. well yeah hes clearly hung up on the man. but getting in ppls heads and defacto replacing#their internal monologues because He Knows Better is a Dirk Thing... like.. in GENERAL...#this is a messy and im sure not new observation its just idk. while i do think jake and grandpa have the potential to want to BE their#blue ladies and not just want them. i do think they also clearly do want them. its a bit weird that jake's dragging through#the absolute gutter of the narrative is so frequently pointed to as evidence of him being Exclusively Gay#like imo whatever that guy is under the trauma induced aromanticsm. inclduing maybe just actually aromantic. i think its gonna end up like#complicated in some way. hes clearly not just a guy who likes dudes in a clean cut manner...#anyway yeah his relationship to jane is genuinely an interesting addition to his character and i think is more interesting if its not just#Regular Comphet. its more. Comp-Relationship-At-All
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doctober day 13: photo album
'an assortment of mini drawings will be easy,' they said... 'it will be quick,' they said e_e; anyway unlucky 13 means a bit late post ig! heres hoping it was worth the wait :P
bonus, bc i think he would lol:
#my arts#my sketchy wip arts#back to the future#bttf#doctober#doctober 2023#doc brown#emmett brown#clara clayton brown#jennifer parker#marty mcfly#einstein brown#copernicus brown#erhardt brown#jules brown#verne brown#doc literally hung up/talked to pics of scientists in his house so i think im justified in saying they go in the family album ✋️#clara *a schoolteacher trying to homeschool her kids*: this is fine 🙃#(side note the brown household is DEFINITELY babyproofed guys dont even worry abt it =3=)#anyway. things that were a pain in the butt: that pic of where the gravestone used to be. IT WAS SO HARD TO MAKE IT OBVIOUS WHAT IT WAS T_T#also i just really wanted to redraw the clock pic/that erhardt portrait really bad so hehehe this was a good excuse >:3c#also also 55 doc trying to read copernicus' mind before marty shows up. my beloved ;_;#and finally. rockstar marty :) if any lil guy deserves to live his dreams. its him <3#anyway YAH docs family <3333333 loves of my life fr <333
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never shut up about this but its my blog so whatever but i think the main THING w siyt is i was using it as an exercise to stop being so like. uncomfortable and unnecessary-morality about...i dont even know how to explain it just like, the kind of Need for having clean relationships and "if you Really loved someone you wouldn't do X or Y" which is really just. such a narrow and unrealistic standard, and i want to explore more authentic messy relationships, except then people read the fic and essentially felt like zoro was Cheating and Toxic when its so not remotely the case. like ok man get well soon i cant help you here. guy finds out the person hes half in love with and thought he was dating sees him as just a hookup, yeah no shit hes gonna go out and distract himself and find comfort elsewhere. hes not EVIL for that hes just 22 or whatever 😭. i think maybe youre the strange one for thinking this makes him unlovable. but whatever
#laughable really to call siyt a Messy Relationship bc its not. it has one moment of mess and then its buttoned up again#but its like the you cant even handle a lesbian post but about relationship dynamics#i think im just hung up on it bc IM not the type who is really into serious angst and multiple partner mess and all that#so its surprising that people find smth i wrote even too outside the bounds or whatever ykwim#im like. what do you mean. this isnt even. anything. its so basiccore IM so basiccore this is nothing...can we be serious#anyways whatever my friends (mutuals) liked it so i dont really care about other takes on it ahxhsjnx#maybe i Will go the messy route w the fake dating fic and see if people have the same opinion when its sanji doing that shit#or if he will (for totally no reason at all of course.) get a free pass and understanding and all that. 🧍
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My relationship with my mom has come such a long way in the past few years only to come crashing down the second I try to do something nice for my dad and/or acknowledge that she is not the main character of the universe ://
#i tried to ask her if she wanted to get sushi with us for fathers day (48 hours away) and she said 'yeah unless something happens'#and i was like 'okay well the website says they wont seat us unless we're a full party' and she was like 'maybe ill make it maybe i wont'#then hung up on me#THEN texted me like 'just put me down for a no.. i cant decide this on less than a moments notice and you clearly dont want me there anyway#and 'thats the answer you wanted right? 😘'#fucking GOD FORBID i try to do something nice for my dad on FATHERS DAY after not being able to see him for several months#bc hes been flying to and from IL every couple of weeks to care for his dying father#and the saddest part is that for mothers day or her birthday or anything like that my dad is always the person bringing it up first#to my sister and me to make sure we can all plan something that will make her feel special and appreciated#and meanwhile my mom acts like a fucking toddler the second the attention is not on her for 2 seconds#'im tired and so busy and you gave me no time to decide' i literally would have given you a few hours to think about it if youd communicate#instead you passive aggressively imply i hate you because im doing something nice for someone else#ALSO you are not the only person on the goddamned planet that is busy and overwhelmed right now like are you KIDDING#i want to cry#personal
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Dorothy being assaulted at 17 and then trapped in a marriage for the next 38 years really makes the queer subtext heartbreaking rather than funny. It also adds a whole lot to how barbed she gets when they discuss her sex life and how vanilla it is or how little sex she had, no wonder it would be a sore subject (and no wonder its consistent that she had very little sex with Stan in her marriage and said she didn't enjoy it when they did).
Yep, that's part of the reason why I think that queer subtext is so insightful!
A queer reading of Dorothy is not necessary to understand the gravity of what happened to her, to be fair. Stan is very clearly depicted as a bad lover in general and an especially inattentive lover to her -- take eg what she says of him in S1E22 Job Hunting:
"It took three seconds. I wasn't sure that we had done anything, actually… until nine months later, when the baby came. Then I figured out that we had."
Which... doesn't seem like a great experience. Add onto it the fact that a) this is a recollection of her first time, b) she was coerced into performing the act either via emotional manipulation or alcohol/substances (as well detailed in this post by @eeblouissant), and c) her situation didn't improve at all during her marriage; if anything it got worse, since Stan was always out cheating on her -- no wonder she has a bad relationship with sex! Actually, I've said before that I think she has a remarkably open and healthy attitude towards sex, all things considered.
Thinking of Dorothy as queer (especially as a repressed lesbian) makes it all even more tragic, though. I think it's very likely, considering that she's a Catholic of Italian origin, that she hadn't even realized she liked women by the time she got involved with Stan -- I myself reached that conclusion in my early 20s! However, by that time Dorothy was already married and a mother; can you imagine how painful the mere idea would have been, for her? Of course she'd never even consider it while still married to Stan, and she'd have a hard time coming to terms with it after her divorce. It adds a thick layer of suppression and self-sacrifice to her whole story that I think is very thematically appropriate for her character (and that personally destroys me lmao. I cannot think about it for too long or I'll cry my heart out).
I think her whole experience with Stan also justifies her enthusiasm for some of her lovers in the show, even in a queer reading. I mean -- after all that, her standards must be on the floor! The bar is so low, she's dancing the lambada with the devil! Even a modicum of attention to her needs would blow her mind, I think -- even if it didn't come from her preferred gender, and especially if she wasn't ready to confront the truth about her sexuality yet. A lifetime of suppression isn't easy to get over -- she'd probably blame her bad experience with sex during her marriage on Stan alone (instead of considering that maybe she'd rather not be with a man at all).
Sorry, anon -- you probably weren't expecting a ramble in response, haha! But yeah, you make a great point; reading Dorothy as queer adds even more depth to her character and greatly enhances the tragedy of her story.
(Just for the record -- I've never thought the queer reading of Dorothy was funny! Maybe I'm reading this wrong, I just wanted to clarify.)
#sometimes it hits me again that this poor woman had stan as her first and only lover for 38 years of her life and i just. good god.#i'd just like to give her a hug. is that too much to ask for?#still in s1e22 she also says that she didn't come during that first time (or after) bc 'it always seemed to happen before I was in the room#and i just... like it's played for laughs but that's such a tragic comment to me...#im not going to talk about all the hung ups she likely has about self-pleasure too but she MUST have some bc once again. italian catholic#honestly her love&sex life until she met the girls was just a nightmare.#i wonder how she felt being friends with jean. seeing her love women openly like that. did she wish she could be like her?#was she jealous and didn't know why? did she think 'oh i wish *i* was a lesbian so i could date girls instead of being stuck with stan'?#agh i just. i keep adding thoughts but the more i think about it the more tragic it becomes to me#this is also why ending the show with her in a relationship with (at least) one of the other girls would have worked so well!!!#her character arc is one of self-recognition and self-love. it's a journey towards happiness and self-expression#and that's already a queer narrative at its core#but imagine her going from 38 years with *stan* to openly understanding her sexuality and finding love when she didn't think it possible?#i mean -- the finale does this too and that's why it works well. it's a good finale!#but imagine how much *better* it would have been with a woman!! with (one of) her girls at that!!#with dorothy finally able to be free about herself!!!#AGH i love her SO MUCH!!!!#(i feel like ending the show with a queer relationship between the girls would have worked very well for blanche and/or rose too#but that's a whole other topic)#anyway thank you for the ask op! you're absolutely right!!#the golden girls#dorothy zbornak#ask
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ahhhhhhhh guess who made the mistake of getting a haircut
#i was planning on growing it out for real i swear#but then the back of my hair got to that length (like it always does) where it starts touching the back of my neck wrong and i cant stand it#so i figured I'd juuuuuust get a trim maybe only the back so it wouldn't keep bugging me#and it started off pretty good too she was doing well with everything and i liked the way it looked#then she asked me a question with two options. and i answered the question. and she repeated my answer. good enough right?#well i think she maaaay have forgotten my answer in the span of like 2 seconds bc she started cutting SUPER short suddenly#and now my perm is completely gone lol#i think she's used to going a bit shorter so it looks good in like a week when it's grown out a bit#and you don't have to go back for a haircut every 2 weeks#but like. i would rather not hate my reflection (more than usual) for a week or two while it grows out yknow#eurghhhh it's not that bad tbh ive had haircuts where i wanted to kill myself and this is just 'hmm maybe i should wear a hat for a week'#but still. very annoying. and especially so bc i was actually feeling optimistic with where we were going at the start#anyway there's this weird phenomenon that keeps happening where I accidentally get my hair cut too short#then i decide this is going to be the time i finally grow my hair out for real#and after a while the back reaches that length where it starts bothering me again#and ill get a haircut juuust for a trim#then i somehow end up with a bowlcut#it's an emo bowlcut to be clear. so im not super hung up about it bc i still love that haircut for reasons i cannot comprehend#but everybody else seems to go 'ew a bowlcut why' except for the alt queers who go 'omg gender'#which i consider to be one of the biggest compliments i could ever get. and have gotten. seriously that moment will never leave my mind#like having someone that you consider Gender to look at you and say *you're* very gender? my crops have been watered my cattle have been fed#etc etc. anyway this currently has the shape of a bowl cut but it's too short esp on top#so im back in my 'okay im gonna grow it our FOR REAL this time' phase again. as it goes. like fucking sisyphus.#anyway. im gonna be tearing it up in the pit at origami angel tomorrow so if anybody's also going feel free to join me there#just gotta let off some steam. goddammit i knew i should have gone the queer route and just done it myself. in my defense i still had a perm#and i didn't trust myself to cut curly hair. turns out i shouldn't have trusted the barber either bc she just held it straight out#and chopped right across. and soon the curls were gone and everything was straight. ...that sounds like a metaphor for conversion therapy#'yeah just head into that place by the time you leave you'll be straight'#anyway. sorry for the waterfall of tags if ur still here kudos to you and may you have a wonderful day#mine
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For my friends in academia, do you ever have a moment where you're explaining your area of interest to someone and have this moment of "Oh fuck, I sound super smart??? And I'm not faking it?????"
#i was talking about Moby Dick to some of the other people in the honors program#and i was explaining how its hung on so long in part because its got so many layers to analyze#and because throughout history its remained easy to recognize and relate to a story about a recklessly determined leader#and they were just staring at me looking a bit awed#and I was like!!!! oh!!!!!! oh im smart!!!!!!!#the funniest example of this though is one night I got REALLY high (and a little drunk)#and we were hanging out in my dorm and i somehow got on the subject of gothic lit#which im obsessed with#i shit you not I've read every book on gothic lit in the school library#anyways it came up somehow#and i ranted for twenty minutes straight without stopping about the female gothic genre#Add/maybe autism?/and the aid of weed to knock out my social anxiety all worked together#i only half remember my rant#but the two sober ones told me i was entirely coherent#my post
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Delighted to announce that my story has officially reached novella length! I truly didn't think it would get this far, and didn't think I would be able to stick with it to get it this long. According to Wikipedia, a novella is 17,500-40,000 words, and I'm currently at 17,714. And I'm going to keep writing for awhile tonight. I'm just super proud of this
#the goal was always for it to be a novella so i looked up how long a novella is#i didnt think id make it. i didnt think id get half as far as i have#but i might actually finish this#to be clear. its just a first draft. its rough and i need to polish it#and bring in more detail#work on the intricacies of the magic#change some names. i dont like my main character's name but i didnt want that to hold me up so i gave her a placeholder#and there are three other prominent characters. i just named them on the spot#for some reason it ended up being the name of my old roommate's gf. the name of my gf. and the name of a friend's crush#so i need to change that up. but mostly i didnt want to get hung up on names. i can change them later#really need to change the mc's name though. i dont like it and it doesnt fit her#and thats not even a main priority considering the magic system and the notes that are just (speaks some language. maybe latin)#or (ritual happens)#whoch is fine for a first draft. which im fairly close to being done with actually#i got the idea from the ttrpg Unknown Armies. specifically the campaign im in#as well as babylove and honeybloods by i.s. belle#and honeybloods is based off of Jennifer's Body so we're all just taking inspiration from others and making it our own#anyway im done yapping for now. gonna go see about performing another ritual that will just be written as (exorcism happens)
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PAUSED AND REPLAYED THESE 4 SECONDS APPROXIMATELY 23 SEPARATED TIMES THEY'RE ALREADY GIVING US EVERYTHING IN THE INTRO ALONE
#DOCTOR JIMMY ONCE AGAIN SHOWING UP ON THAT SET LIKE IM ABOUT TO GIVE SO MUCH ADORATION DEVOTION REVERENCE LOVE#gmmtv execs: okay guys for this opening credits you can like. put an arm around the other's shoulders. push each other around a little.#just you know. express your characters. do whatever feels right in the moment#jimmy: SAY NO MORE [looks at sea with so much adoration and wonder you'd think he hung all the stars in the sky] [kisses his hand]#gmmtv execs crying tearing their hair out eating their eyelashes: doctor. doctor please.#someone help this man he's being possessed he ain't playing a character anymore he is being played like a puppet#PUEN IF YOU'RE IN THERE BLINK ONCE#anyway. if you see me howling in the woods no you don't#vice versa#our skyy 2#puentalay#m: txt
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#.txt#a bunch of clubs near me are having emo and anime nights and i need to meet and make friends w people i can go to the club w……#like i feel like i for sure have some friends i feel like would go clubbing w me ??#but for the most part they live in other time zones so thats. not happening any time soon .#and the friends i have who are local dont really seem the clubbing type ??#that or theyre work friends and i am not sending an invite to go clubbing in the group chat w one of the people who hire me in it .#im a seasonal worker and have to reapply each summer they dont have to renew my contract each year orz#but also theyre genuinely really cool and itd feel rude to not invite her fkjdsh#like id genuinely go w her if not for the whole id like to return next summer thing :( :(#we literally hung out for a bit after meeting up unexpectedly at a con !!! we both cosplay from the same series !!!#and i feel like an emo night would be right up her alley from what i know of their music taste :')#but once again i would like to remain rehireable and so orz#anyway though moving on from that#im also just a bit too introverted and more importantly short and high fem to feel safe and comfy going on my own;;#at least for the first few times i go to a specific event#Especially when i can't drive and won't be able to just leave if things start to go south or i feel otherwise unsafe#i feel like a group would just help w that :')#i could just wait until whenever my friends who are more likely to go come over to visit next sure#but if were sticking to our rotation that wont be for another two or so years .#shit sucks man fhsdkjf#maybe ill just learn how to drive finally for real and go in a way thats safer for me#it's not like im much of a drinker anyway#but also it seems like itd be more fun to go w friends :( :(
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kennedy ex-boyfriend facts:
was against seat belt laws
was also against speed limits
once sped up on a residential street with me and my 10 year old cousin in the car bc i thought he was going too fast. he thought this was funny
antifeminism <- yes i continued dating him for a year after learning this. I Know. i was eighteen and had low self esteem 😔
elon musk fan boy
we broke up after he got upset with me because i said i thought thomas jefferson was a bad person bc he owned slaves [obviously this argument was the straw that broke the camel's back]
#like guys i cannot stress enough that he was very upset that i didn't like thomas jefferson#HE HUNG UP ON ME DURING THE ARGUMENT#anyway yeah it's like 11am it's oversharing on the internet hours#this isn't even everything but there are uh. some things i just don't think i should share on tumblr fndnssn#we had so many stupid arguments that clearly showed that our values Did Not align#and yet.#ANYWAY NOW IM DATING SOMEONE WHO IS MUCH BETTER!!!!!
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"Who are you?" - Green Lanterns: Rebirth
#“its me.” WILD... the passive aggression..... im actually losing my mind here#“SOMEONE DIE” LIKE- SHSJSHAH#also the i hope it was guy gardner is funny to me. also such a parallel bc barry literally said that EXACT SAME THING when simon met the jl#the parallels are making me crazy.......#also simon saying that abt guy is SO funny to me actually. bc guy is literally one of his best superhero friends. probably number 2 after#b'dg tbh#like simon broke him out of prison they had a little trip together they hung out AGAIN during godhead and then a little more (but as a#group) during edge of oblivion like agduashwh#simon basically told him he should get therapy like twice#he was all like noooooo guy dont be suicidal in godhead and then all noooo dont blame yourself to guy in oblivions edge#(and them ofc kilowog was all like shut up simon guy i hope you DO blame yourself you useless asshole) and somehow that translated to a win#so ig it worked. anyways find it very funny that the second hes not hanging out w guy he badmouths him. like his initiation is complete#hes a real GL now. hes just got to do it in front of the entire corps and then his rookie status will disappear#anyways what was i saying#oh!#simonjess#simon baz#jessica cruz#swishy liveblogs#blah#panelposting
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