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stellorc · 11 months

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Thus together they were bound Forever condemned to remain watchful Trapped in hallowed ground.

Five months later and it's finally finished. I started this in the middle of a mental health crisis and it was an attempt to regain some control while my anxiety was running wild. Painting my problems etc etc. So enjoy this nonsensical personal piece <3 I'm a lot better now, and finishing this is a nice way to close this chapter, though I feel compelled to make a sequel of these two ladies exploring the forest and breaking their curse.

Process gif under the cut (flash warning!)

I really wanted to portray this tiresome vigilance that I was feeling at the time, always wary of a foe I couldn't see. And since I was dealing with a terrible art block I tried to comfort myself with elements that just tickles my brain. I'm happy to have this done and I can't wait to make more spooky personal art on the future.

#me making something that's not fanart?? who would've thought #i may have overrendered it but i really wanted to go crazy on details #anyway i grew attached to them #these girls started as personifications of hopelessness and anxiety and now i want to wrapped them in a blanket #sue me #my art #also happy Halloween folks #please eat candy for me

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choccy-zefirka · 6 months

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"How can you like Halsin he is barely even a character"

I spent my formative years playing Oblivion and Skyrim, hope that helps

#bg3 #halsin #yeah my man is undercooked compared to most origin characters (except for poor wyll)#but i grew up getting attached to background npcs with one greeting line #compared to them he has volumes of personality #anyway back to booping

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impostorsshow · 3 months

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I'm actually so obsessed with him it's not even funny if i'm not listening to a TikTok or music directly related to him I can't focus free me free me

This is @/cherubpuppet's OC for a object show [au? pitch? wip show? How do I categorize this] and I've been destroyed by the fact that ruler art is infinitely superior [and 10x longer] and i don't have a good enough grasp on lip gloss's personality to make fanfiction so I am frozen in "want make fanart but fanart takes effort :["

#also object shows are the new mlp community change my mind /ref #from what ive seen a very large part of the community is centered around death/gore or mature topics? it reminds me of the mlp infection au #that and smile hd and everybody keeps saying object shiws are kids shows - if kids are making this stuff then good for them /gen #every fandom has its toxic/proship/18+ side obviously but from my pov gen alpha needed something they coudl handle age appropriate extremes #with - its just alot harder to make compelling emotional angst/gore with newer ultra sanitized shows or w/ mascot horror #and like thats a whole nother tooic but its obvious to me younger kids have flocked to mascot horror so harshly because average kids tv is #much more afraid of tackling any big topics to the point that the ones that DO [bluey] immediately are pushed into front and center #but i mean i also rewatched a few episodes of the shows i grew up with and ngl i think we need shit like ren and stimpy and invader zim #i hate ren and stimpy and i didnt grow up with zim but i grew up with pbs kids shit and that shit looking back was hella boring i never #cared for any of the tv shows i saw aside from elmos world and even then i was hoping that something gorey would happen. at like 5 yrs old #im rambling anyway im not sure if im actually going to get into the os communitg but i AM horribly attached to tape to the point that its #maybe possibly becoming harmful to my mental health so im gonna stick around for him for like months #just know that if im not posting anything its because im obsessed with this guy #oh also DID/MALE SA REP LETS FUCKIN GOOO #I LOVE PSYCHOLOGY AND IVE HAD LIKE 4 FRIENDS WITH DID/OSDD I NEED MORE POSITIVE REP OF STIGMATIZED/COMPLEX DISORDERS !!!!!#art #tape dispenser #search for smos #talk talks #EDIT NO. NO DONT SAY IM THE ONLY PERSON ON TUMBLR WHO HAS USED THE SMOS TAG NO. OH MY GOD #PLEASE BEING OBSESSED WITH SOMEONE ELSES OC IS SO GARD DONT LEAVE ME ALONE DO I NEED TO BUILD THIS FANDOM FROM THE GROUND UP??? NOO

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dustteller · 6 months

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I think modern au Zhu SHOULD be the lesbian best friend trope to Ouyang except that its because this man is her pet project and gODDDAMIT she's gonna FIX him she's gonna MAKE him be BETTER she's going to SOLVE EVERYTHING and he will RESPECT HER (she is actively making him worse). She has a whole complex about it and everything. She has based a part of her identity on dragging this man up from his toxic funk and is fully convinced that if she tries hard enough he will eventually come to his senses and be an equal participant in this relationship. They have a terrible wonderful toxic loving codependent relationship that's neither a romance nor a friendship nor a rivalry but a secret fourth thing.

Predictably, this does not go well. The character arcs would be Zhu learning she can't fix a sinking ship and letting Ouyang fail by himself, and Ouyang learning to not be a shit person, actually, and coming out of his bubble of self-centeredness and working on himself instead of unloading his emotional labor onto the people around him. And they should both get to develop a healthier relationship with each other than what they had in canon bc queer solidarity is great and its even better when it's in the shape of some weird bullshit some gay people built out of the corpse parts of heteronormative romance (affectionate and completely unironic)

#brought to you by me thinking about the last half of HWDtW and how Zhu interacts with Ouyang post-betrayal #well. interacts with the concept of Ouyang. he kinda (spoilers).#she was unhealthily attached to Ouyang and honestly I think she deserves an universe where her whole deal is reciprocated.#but only AFTER i put them in a fully self sustaining terrarium jar and sic the emotional isopods on them.#that part comes first bc my personal entertainment is CLEARLY the most important thing here guys #the radiant emperor #my thoughts #zhu yuanzhang #OHHH AND ALSO i think Zhu and Ouyang should get to have their weird little gay relationship #while their partners stare in accepting horror.#ma would be supportive bc she knows how important this impressively awful man is to her girlfriend #but rest assured she DOES NOT like him. she will (very politely) bitch about him to Baoxiang and then feel bad about it #she shouldn't feel bad tho bc Ouyang deserves it and Baoxiang repeatedly reminds her of this fact #eventually ouyang grows on her.#kinda like the bowl of mold in the back of the fridge you've developed an emotional attachment to.#he shouldn't be there but now she feels bad about evicting him into the trash!#(she feels significantly less bad about evicting him into Esen's appartment)#Esen has even less of a clue what's happening with Zhu and Ouyang.#he just knows that Zhu is important to Ouyang and also is 90% sure that they fucked at some point.#30% sure that they are still fucking but he grew up around Baoxiang and Ouyang #he has learned Not to Ask! he does Not Want to Know!#and anyways it's none of his bussiness who his bestie/person that he wants to adopt a horse and grow old with/hot roomate is fucking!#its not his problem! he is not invested! he is not going to think about it! there is no reason to think about whos in Ouyang's pants!#he is not thinking about anything involving Ouyang's pants at all! much less about the inside of Ouyang's pants!#and since hes not thinking about it bc theres no reason to think about it then he cant have a problem with it :)#so he wont ask!

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kyngsnake · 3 months

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you know the tough thing about fostering a litter of 9 from birth, knowing you plan to keep one, is how hard it is to actually pick one

#I might. I might have changed my mind #I get attached very easily (see: my cat was a bottle baby foster)#and overwhelm myself trying to figure out who I feel the strongest connection to #but I’d also said at the beginning of this that I wanted a girl. no huge reason. I grew up with mostly girl dogs #but there’s one boy puppy that’s really just been doin a number on me as he’s gotten older #and developed more personality #anyway #I’m going to hold off on an actual puppy reveal until we start putting these guys up for adoption #just to give myself more time to be certain #and once I feel certain in my heart of hearts I won’t have any trouble letting the rest go to good homes #I just need to be patient with myself with these things #sorry most of my posts have been the puppies lately fkenxksnzkzk my life is pretty much consumed by them right now

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rinofwater · 2 months

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Hah, so uh how to explain to my parents that I have reconsidered wanting to move back to the wannabe fascist state after all

#personal #vent #my folks are real attached to tx #understandable thats where they grew up #but i kinda wonder if they realize that its not the same tx they grew up in anymore #its to be close to family and because one story houses being more of the norm over there means my mom could get some independence back #and i understand it from those angles #i already tried to have the fight with my mom years ago about just going back without me #not only did she say i was shortsighted for cutting myself off from a support structure #(i wanst i had friends who could help should shit happen but whatever)#she also called me selfish for being the only one who wanted to not go back and keeping everyone else here #at this point my folks would be better off going back because they're not going to see too much of the blowback of The Shit(tm)#but i would and that sucks #it was one thing when the plan was to stay around austin but now that's not even in the considerations anymore #i hate feeling like i have to martyr myself for their sake #when the easy answer is for them to go back and i stay here #its not like i visited home all that much when i was on my own in the same town #so cross country wouldnt be all that different #i guess i could get them there and then figure out how feasible it is to move to colorado or something after the fact #but then i really would be throwing out my whole support structure because i wouldnt even have friends to lean on #anyway i fucking hate being in this position

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lottieurl · 1 year

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explain in the tags what you mean by "comfort movie/show/book"

#cause i feel like it means something different to so many people so then its like is it weird if theres so much murder #in my comfort show??#like yeah its weird from the perspective of someone who thinks of comfort media as somethin #something*#that offers comfort through its themes #for me comfort shows are simply shows i grew really really attached to #shows i hyperfixated on for months #with characters i loooove love love #and it doesn't matter what happens in the show itself #it will bring me comfort regardless through its familiarity #i know it so well i know what to expect during every rewatch but i dont mind #i love the characters so seeing them is comforting #anyway. im half asleep so im gonna just. hit the pillow

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yuttikkele · 1 month

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I FINISHED THE LEGEND OF KORRA RAAAAHHHHH!!!! I’M GONNA MISS THOSE LITTLE FREAKS

#grew an attachment to the characters even Mako though he’s boring and business #at least he’s boring and business and interesting tho like at least he’s a good character #*eyes asami*#no offense to asami but she really was just kinda there like what was her personality?#no offense to asami enjoyers i still think she’s great but they really could’ve given her more substance #maybe comics asami is better idk #anyways point is I like them little guys #the stories frustrated me honestly but I really enjoyed watching those little guys #the legend of korra #tlok #atla #ack #text post

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tweedlebean · 1 year

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It does this everytime I shuffle my likes. It's gotta be studios paying to get certain artists pushed but I'm getting so pissed off at it that I've just been taking Florence + the Machine, Jukebox the Ghost, and Regina Spektor off the playlist entirely

#i was paring down the regina spektor anyway I just kinda grew put of her #and Florence is cool but I don't have a big attachment to the music #Jukebox is really sad though I've been listening to them since middle school #and suddenly I'm sick to death of their best albums #my post

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adlamu · 11 months

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me every time i see [insert alt subculture (which definitely came about as part of their respective iconic, identifiable music) here] discourse across any of the three socials i actively use:

#newtrabble #listen i grew up in an alt family - i am part of an alt family #i knew shit about twotone and punk and goth and metal and all of this because i grew up with a big mix of the music and their subcultures #i was actively bullied for a) liking the music of these subcultures and b) dressing in the most CASUAL version of their respective aestheti #and people are arguing that the aesthetic makes the subculture?#there are people who actively don't want to engage with the music that Made the subculture they wanna join?#like my siblings in hell without the music there would be No subculture and therefore: none of the aesthetics #not to mention by saying 'yes it is the aesthetic dumbass' YOU are doing the gatekeeping here.#most of these subcultures come from working class (ie: POOR poor) and minority communities... a lot of them made music to counter the shit #that put them down - like the government poverty racism and other general assholes capitalist bs and various forms of bigotry #people are SCARED of joining the communities attached to these subcultures because of your Insistence re: the aesthetic when the reality is #if you listen to the music - you're part of the subculture because you are Actively engaging with it in some way shape or form #a wise person once said: 'i don't need to wear the uniform to show you that i'm 'about it'!' because You Don't Need The Fucking Uniform #engage with the music - engage with the communities around the music - have fun literally end of discussion.#and if that Happens to show up as you dedicating yourself to the 'uniform' good for you but not everyone can afford it/is able to #jesus h fuck half the bands in these scenes don't wear the 'uniform' all the fucking time... some not even At All.#anyway i'm tired of seeing it every time i flick between here xwitter and instagram... just Exhausted by it.

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mr-e-nigma · 2 years

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The utter fucking irony of me launching into a salesman pitch in the middle of a Target in order to convince my dad to buy an Ash Williams action figure, a month before I would ever actually watch any of the Evil Dead franchise

#I saw a macready action figure and had an autism moment #bc the thing is one of my special interests #and while I was looking at them I saw ash out of the corner of my eye #and I went ‘ah ash i know that guy’ and in that moment grew so attached to the piece of plastic I’d picked up that I just had to buy him #anyway the point is I kin ashley joanna williams #I share his spontaneous salesman swag #I do this all the time btw this wasn’t a one time thing #this is how I beg for things at the store. even when I’ll be paying for them myself.#I just like doing the salesman bit. just like ash fr…#ash williams #ashley j williams #evil dead #ash vs evil dead #(bc that’s the specific version of ash that the figure is)

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ambreiiigns · 2 years

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just spent a good 20 minutes crying my eyes out over so far away by avenged sevenfold i have regressed to when i was 13 and extremely attached to this band

#i'm still extremely attached to them and forever will be #i grew up w rock & metal & shit bc my parents were cool but a7x was the first band i found by myself yk. like. it wasn't passed down to me #like my mom passed me nirvana & queen & bowie my dad passed me metallica & pink floyd & dire straits #my beloved uncle passed me iron maiden &. also nirvana & rancid #guns n roses was handed my collectively by all three #in short. avenged sevenfold was home grown. yk. they were my own thing #my first thing that Really got me into metal & the likes #the first time i had my Own tastes & preferences #and i was hyperfixated REAL bad for like maybe close to two years it was sooo intense i loved them sooo much #i still do!! i will still call them my faves!!! idc!! they're so special to me #i remember i found welcome to the family in a like. creepypasta mva or smth. funny that all the first few bands i liked i found thru #some creepypasta bullshit on youtube or smth. mcr fob AND p!atd i all got from creepypasta for Sure #anyway. embarassing. but i was obsessed w welcome to the family for a while #and eventually decided i wanted to know who made it and maybe listen to more stuff by them #and it was my mom's bday so august 16th when i went on their wikipedia page read the Whole thing and before i even knew much abt them or #their music or whatever i was crying so hard over the section talking abt the rev's death like i knew him personally #and i feel like that was the sign. the bad omen. that i would be down bad from then on #and i was down bad #and i listened to all their songs. i watched all the shows. i knew every piece of footage that existed of them by heart #and you have to understand by that point the only other thing i had been as obsessed with were hp & lotr #so it was still Fucky to me. to be into something that intensely #in short a7x truly fucking shaped me as a person fr and i will be thankful & fond of them forever and i avoid so far away like the plague #bc i know it gets to me. it really does #bc they were friends since they were like 10yo idiot kids yk before there was ever a band involved #and as someone who's had p much the same friend group since kindergarten #just THINKING abt losing a friend i've had for so long fucking kills me. and i can't imagine how bad it had to be for them #it's a very. empath moment of me ik ik but i can't stand it it gets to me really bad #oh nay

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lanihaluki · 1 year

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fyrus little mermaid au but I put everything in the tags bc rom spoilers

#OKAY SO!!!!#after I watched live action little mermaid this only extra confirmed the similarities between the movies and rom #but especially made me think of all the hatred atlanteans/the old ones have towards humans 🤝 the hatred mermaids have towards humans #& like multiple times throughout tco cyrus was shown as the kindest/softest member of his family #and had a soft spot for humans as he became so attached to fort/his friends🥹🥹🥹#so anyway!!! in this au obviously instead of mermaids it’s probably just Atlanteans/old ones #with cyrus as ‘the little old one’??? LMAO #aka hes Ariel #and Fort as eric!!!! bc human!!!#like literally from the start of rom Cyrus was ALWAYS so soft for Fort despite probably #what his family told him about humans and how evil they said humans were #and in a situation where Cyrus grew up w his family & had that potential to never be exposed to humans #…..genuinely think he’d still be really curious ab humans #and slowly start to see them less as ‘lesser beings’ bc he’s like wait!!! actually they don’t seem all bad!!#anyway the synopsis is: he is sooo deeply curious WHY his family sees humans as so awful bc cyrus doesn’t believe that to that extent #accidentally falls in love w a human aka one of the angstiest most easily embarrassed humans u could possibly find #OH AND that whole ‘reveal that Ariel is a mermaid scene’ at the end would be literally extra dramatic #like the timeless one Cyrus identity reveal #so at first Fort feels super betrayed #but he still loves Cyrus so !! hashtag conflicting emotions man #obviously they end up together in the end though <333333 #im so bad at summarizing all of this i think I’ll just write a fic at this point✌️😁😁#rom #revenge of magic #fyrus #fort fitzgerald #Cyrus rom #the revenge of magic #James riley author #forsythe fitzgerald

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rosykims · 2 years

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having elspeth's whole blight schedule planned to the last minute detail has opened my third fourth and fifth eyes all simultaneously but on the flip side it means ive also inadvertantly cockblocked her from her mans until like. ⅗ of the way through of the game lol

#oc: elspeth #ella 1.0 was so...... eh. idk. i was attached enough that i couldnt let her go but she had no FLAVOR #ella 2.0 is crazy. i cannot stop thinking of the cognitive disconnect she has w her own Ideals & how out of touch it makes her in canon #she grew up during peace times playing soldier on her father's lands and like. tourney stuff. so she sees being a warrior as like #being a hero from a bard's song or a children's tale #like its a fun story and the story either adjusts itself to resolve conflicts or it just ends and she doesnt have to deal w it #as a ''hero'' everything she does is automatically virtuous and hard choices are things she can judge OTHERS for w her own hindsight ykno?#so then when shit DOES get real and shes like um what do you mean i have to kill a child or sacrifice a mother w blood magic #shes like what the fuck. what the fuck. what the fuck. this isnt what its supposed to BE like #shes supposed to be the HERO who saves everyone and is loved and celebrated and sung about she didnt sign UP for hard choices #and then the aftermath with alistair is especially bad bc she'd also convinced HIM that she was this do-no-wrong figure #and suddenly the illusion is shattered for both of them like oh youre just another person who's going to have to do horrible things huh #having that loss of .... reassurance for him and IDENTITY for her....#her feeling like she'd been incapable of doing wrong and suddenly knowing oh my god my actions have?? CONCEQUENCES??#absolutely fucks her up for a while #anyways all of this to say after redcliffe she and alistair are distant for a few weeks and she spends most of her time w morrigan and zev #since theyre the only bitches she doesnt feel judged by #the brecillian forest is going to be sooo awkward for questing until they finally reconcile lol #anyways. nobody asked but there it is #send tweet

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pearlbat · 4 months

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not bruce this is the host complaining why is it so hard to explain fictives to singlets the fakeclaiming epidemic of 2020 has done irreversible damage

#ive told two people abt me being plural and they were cool as hell shoutout to them #literally everyone else its mortifying to even try #im not detailing my extensive childhood trauma to you so you can have “proof”???????? girl fuck off ur not entitled to that #why does shit suddenly lose credibility when it has to do with fictional media like genuinely im asking #“erm?!! youre sure thats not just a delusion......” modern fucking times i grew up on television and movies #of course my brain formed attachments based around those #its so fucking aggravating in general im sorry why do i have to prove the importance of this shit for you to believe me #tv and movies and books is valid escapism until it impacts mental health or whatever #anyways soz for using this account to rant i dont like talking about plurality #on my main #primarily bc i post fandom stuff i feel like that takes away from like #i dont know. validity of me being a system or whatever #which isnt true i know that but christ alive #eeny ways

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steviescrystals · 4 months

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there is no feeling worse in the world than missing your grandma :/

#she died two months before my eighth birthday #and every time i realize i’ve lived well over half my life without her i go a little bit insane bc that just doesn’t feel right #like soooo many of my favorite memories are with her how is it possible she was only in my life for less than eight years #my grandpas on both sides died before i was born so all i’ve ever had is my grandmas #and there’s also the horrible guilt i feel all the time knowing my other grandma is still alive but i rarely ever see her #but when i was a kid she lived an hour and a half away from us and this grandma lived around the corner #so we saw her all the time and every christmas fourth of july etc that whole side of my extended family would all go to her house #she moved into that house when my mom was 2 years old and lived there for the rest of her life so 40 years #and when she went into hospice care her one request was to die in that house surrounded by her kids and grandkids so that’s what happened #my parents bought the house after she died but we lived there for less than 2 years before moving to arizona #they’re both from colorado but they met in arizona and me and my sisters were born here #and the main reason we moved back to colorado in the first place was to be near her #but when we moved again my parents sold the house to our neighbors who had two daughters that my sisters and i grew up with #and they’re still our family friends to this day and we used to go on trips to national parks together every summer #we didn’t see them for maybe five years but then two summers ago their older daughter got married and we went to her wedding #which got us talking about how long it had been since our last trip so we went on another one last summer #this has turned into a tangent but it just makes me so happy that they’re still in our lives #and this great family we’ve known almost my entire life is living in my grandma’s house #she had a pool in her backyard which is super common here in az but not so much in colorado #and she let us invite these girls over all the time to swim so they grew up spending almost as much time in that house as we did #last time we were in colorado we went to have dinner with them and swim and it was like being transported back to my childhood #that house is just so special to me and i felt so blessed to be able to go back there since this family bought it instead of strangers #in a perfect world everything would align in a way that would let me buy it when i’m older and have my own family there #i’ve never had a strong attachment to any other house we’ve lived in but that one will always be my grandma’s house in my mind #i just love and miss her so much she was the most amazing grandma i ever could have asked for #my mom still has a lot of her childhood friends on facebook and whenever she would post pictures of me and my sisters as kids #everyone would comment that i looked exactly like my grandma did when she was a kid and that makes me so so happy #anyway. idk. i just miss her sm she was an angel and i’m so happy she was such a big part of my childhood #lj.txt

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