#ella 1.0 was so...... eh. idk. i was attached enough that i couldnt let her go but she had no FLAVOR | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

lavellane · 2 years ago

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having elspeth's whole blight schedule planned to the last minute detail has opened my third fourth and fifth eyes all simultaneously but on the flip side it means ive also inadvertantly cockblocked her from her mans until like. ⅗ of the way through of the game lol

#oc: elspeth #ella 1.0 was so...... eh. idk. i was attached enough that i couldnt let her go but she had no FLAVOR #ella 2.0 is crazy. i cannot stop thinking of the cognitive disconnect she has w her own Ideals & how out of touch it makes her in canon #she grew up during peace times playing soldier on her father's lands and like. tourney stuff. so she sees being a warrior as like #being a hero from a bard's song or a children's tale #like its a fun story and the story either adjusts itself to resolve conflicts or it just ends and she doesnt have to deal w it #as a ''hero'' everything she does is automatically virtuous and hard choices are things she can judge OTHERS for w her own hindsight ykno?#so then when shit DOES get real and shes like um what do you mean i have to kill a child or sacrifice a mother w blood magic #shes like what the fuck. what the fuck. what the fuck. this isnt what its supposed to BE like #shes supposed to be the HERO who saves everyone and is loved and celebrated and sung about she didnt sign UP for hard choices #and then the aftermath with alistair is especially bad bc she'd also convinced HIM that she was this do-no-wrong figure #and suddenly the illusion is shattered for both of them like oh youre just another person who's going to have to do horrible things huh #having that loss of .... reassurance for him and IDENTITY for her....#her feeling like she'd been incapable of doing wrong and suddenly knowing oh my god my actions have?? CONCEQUENCES??#absolutely fucks her up for a while #anyways all of this to say after redcliffe she and alistair are distant for a few weeks and she spends most of her time w morrigan and zev #since theyre the only bitches she doesnt feel judged by #the brecillian forest is going to be sooo awkward for questing until they finally reconcile lol #anyways. nobody asked but there it is #send tweet

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