#anyway don't think i've seen even one fanfic with that premise

[tired-demonspawn]

safe to say Dipper, in fact, did not regret asking! :D

anyway always did think Stan had the bestest luck under the sun with the truth telling teeth

i mean not one single person said something to him that would make him spill, like he was one "Stanford" away from "Oh that's not my name actually. That's the name of my twin brother who i've been impersonating." Like this man's luck is absolutely cosmic istg.

[fancyfade]

i've seen you say (at least i think it was you) that they should retcon Damian's origins in order to get Talia to stop being seen as a terrible awful person. I agree but I'm also curious if you had any ideas on how you'd like it to be done? I personally think Damian being a trained assassin is important to his character and getting rid of that would be kind of boring.. so would you want to nix that completely or would you just want Talia to not be involved/not know about it etc?

I am one of I assume a few people who talk about retconning Damian's origins.

I first gave the idea serious contemplation after this post (link). It pretty much perfectly outlines how you can get current Damian and pre-Morrison Talia in the same verse. Damian wasn't even initially raised by his mom in Morrison's comics, he says he met her on his 8th birthday and it was like being introduced to a movie star, and he explains that she wasn't there for him often and running an organized crime empire didn't leave time for raising a child.

Which like. this was all in Morrison's 'talia as supervillain' thing, but it could easily be retooled in the way the OP outline.

ANYWAY rather than repeating the OP I linked word-for-word, I shall shamelessly plug my fanfic that works on this same concept.

The way my mother didn't raise me (link).

Talia al Ghul, who believes she left the world of her father and the League of Shadows behind, discovers that her father has been raising her son she believed died in infancy as an assassin. Damian al Ghul, who has never met his parents before, is baffled when he finds his mother is nothing like he expected her to be. The premise of this fic is partially trying to unify Damian's existence with pre Morrison Talia, which is somewhat difficult but I don't think impossible, and that means partially trying to give Talia a place in 2000 era comics after her Lexcorp run is over (and they start writing her terribly ;_;) The general idea is: after Talia's Lexcorp mission is done, she finds out about Damian's existence and makes it her goal to subtly extract him from the League.

[utilitycaster]

There's been so many times during this campaign, where there are a number of characters with particularly magical origins, where the fandom has assumed that the various changes in magic might kill them. I don't think this is likely to be the case.

I could not promise definitively that this could never happen; I am not privy to discussions at the Critical Role table (nor for that matter is anyone speculating here) but "hey, your character will instantly and irretrievably die without clear warning, outside of normal D&D gameplay expectations (ie, combat, traps, falling off a cliff), if you follow a plot hook" is a pretty terrible DM-ing strategy. Most of the conjecture I've seen hasn't really been based in any understanding of theory, mechanics, or genre; it's really all just whump fanfic premises.

Arguably everyone except Chetney, Orym, and Imogen are beings of some degree of magic - Ashton due to dunamancy, Fearne as a fey, FCG as an aeormaton, and Laudna as a hollow one - and I think that level of slate wipe would be unbelievably unwise. Meanwhile, resurrection is not an ongoing magical state; you do not become magic by nature of having been resurrected. It's a one-time (or, you know, multiple times depending how often you die) magical procedure after which you're on your own to live out the rest of your life.

I do think it's possible that Imogen might lose her powers if Predathos is eliminated; there's precedent for loss of power when a connection to the source entity is severed, and it makes sense that it's a concern for her. It's not a guarantee though, especially based on D&D sorcerer lore (eg: Divine Soul sorcerers have innate powers and do not necessarily need to carry out the will of their god the way a cleric might, and I think that's backed up under Exandria lore with Bor'Dor). So with that in mind - that this could go either way - I'm very interested to see how it plays out. Will Bells Hells try to develop a strategy to re-seal Predathos in a more secure way but not eliminate it, thus preserving Imogen's powers? Is that even an option? Will she seek alternative sources? How will Imogen grapple with the loss of powers she has only embraced within the past few weeks? When she was seeking a way to better control or possibly eliminate these powers earlier, was she thinking about her potential demise and considering it a valid risk, or had it not yet crossed her mind? What is your duty if your power is possibly derived from an existential threat to the world?

Anyway: looking forward to seeing Imogen and her relationship with her powers explored in depth, but I'm really not worried about any character immediately dropping dead if a higher power is killed. I don't think that has any basis in anything but, well, the whump fanfic premises alluded to earlier.

[followerofmercy]

Fanfic 20 questions! I was gonna say 'fuck it I love talking about myself even if nobody tagged me' and then realized @hua-fei-hua already did like. Two weeks ago. Whoops aldsjf I don't check my mentions. ANYWAY THANKS HOMIE

1. How many fics do you have on AO3?

Currently 119. Should be 120 in a week or two

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

361,556 published. We can add another 60k that is written but unpublished for Monoceros Novae, 9k miscellaneous Hearthling notes, 24k unpublished honkai notes and another 50k in my general notes document.

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Actively rn, only Genshin and Honkai. I'll write for other stuff when I feel like it.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Missing Person - Hollow Knight, genfic, little ghost and Quirrel - 1500 kudos (this is why small fandoms are the best alsdfj)

I Need to Leave Him Before He Leaves Me - Genshin, Alhaitham/Kaveh - 987 kudos (helped a lot of people think about their autism with this one lmao)

Homeward Bound - Hollow Knight, genfic, little ghost and Quirrel - 757 kudos (Idk why this one blew up. Wasn't that great but I appreciate the attention. Probably people sorting by kudos)

How 4.1 Should've Gone - Genshin, Aether/Lyney kicking Wriothesley's ass - 656 kudos (First and only time rewriting canon. Surprised at how well received it was)

Abusing the World Tree - Genshin, Lumine/Scaramouche - 643 kudos (Yk I used to really hate this fic and I still do, but not as much as I used to. I still think the entire premise is Horror instead of cute, but I think I did good with the prompt. )

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

Always. I literally only write fanfic in order to connect with people alsdfj why the fuck wouldn't I take an opportunity to yap. I judge my success as a writer by how I make my readers feel/helping them realize something about themselves/etc and the communication is really fulfilling

I mean sometimes I don't reply if it's literally just like, a heart emoji, which I still appreciate but I don't have a lot to go off of there

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

probably the one where Steven Universe walks off a cliff on accident while he's sad and can't control his fall speed anymore and dies. I was much younger when I wrote it asldfkj.

7. What is the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

That I'm proud of? No clue. Probably another Steven Universe one where Steven and Connie went to prom.

I will say that A Bard Walks in and Hugs the Bartender is my favorite 'happy' ending fic because of a comment I got on it. It's a story about forgetting details about deceased loved ones and the guilt that comes with that and then comfort that that's a natural part of the process, and someone let me know that they felt so seen. They said the forgetting is a part of grieving that doesn't get addressed enough and it was so nice to see it in writing and I'm like. Pack it up boys we've officially won writing! My writing has fundamentally changed a real life person. I have achieved what I consider success.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Very rarely and usually unintentionally. Had a dude call Arlecchino a 'psychotic bitch' in a comment where they were genuinely trying to praise my writing, but on a fic intended to show her doing her best and I'm like. I don't really have the energy to debate why that was rude and I'm blocking you. Bro if you see this tumblr post and you didn't intend to, like, shit on the entire premise and everything I love about that character, hmu in DMs and we can talk asldfkj. Otherwise please find other authors to read

Otherwise I think I'm secure enough in my interests and unabashedly unashamed of anything Problematique I write that bullies decide to choose better targets?

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

Yes and I've given up writing normal sex. I'm not good at it. I have a weird kind of medical kink where I think the word penis is sexier than cock and, yk, most people would disagree. I'm both better at writing gore and horror that achieves the same kind of intimacy with a slight sexual bend, and I get more fulfillment out of it. Anatomy of a Blade remains one of my proudest works.

Also I prefer writing it as a character study. I love finding jackoff material but I can't write it for shit. Pour one out for the authors doing what I can't asldkjf

10. Do you write crossovers? If so, what's the craziest one you've ever written?

Nah. The setting is usually so important to my interpretation of a character that I just Can't put them somewhere else. Same with AUs. I'd rather write an original story at that point. I will fantasize about it occasionally tho.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Yesn't? I've had a few lines ripped, especially for rarepairs, but I had such an unfortunate thing happen recently asdlkjf. This new author so excitedly asked me if they could use one of my fics for inspiration and I'm like "omg of course!!! I'm so flattered!" because I was! and then when they finished writing it and told me about it I was so excited to read it!!!

and then I did

I'm sitting here like "...Who's gonna tell them that this is actually plagiarism without embarrassing them and completely crushing their motivation to write ever again" asldfkjasdf;l

like OBVIOUSLY they were not trying to steal, because why the fuck would they announce it to me. But also I don't want them to be served a cease and desist later down the line so we had to have a little talk and it's all good now. I'm really excited to see what they write next!

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Supposedly! I've had several people ask me if they could and then just. Never followed up aldk;fskj. It's a shame because I'm absolutely fascinated by linguistics and would love to pick their brains about what translation choices they made and why.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Sorta? Ray did one chapter as an epilogue to one of mine, and I think I've worked with Sen a few times on shorter pieces. Otherwise I'm a bit of a selfish writer and a control freak adsljf

14. What's your all-time favorite ship?

Constantly changing. I'm currently on a Bootheng and Zhongxiao kick, tho once I watch more of Madoka Magica I'm probably gonna lose my mind over Homura/Madoka. Also Adora/Catra as I watch more Shera.

15. What's a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

Literally too many to list. See question 1 and the 50k words worth of notes

I have so many ideas that I really need to pick and choose what I work on because there literally just isn't enough time in the world - unless I start doing cocaine or something, but even then I think I'd still have the same problem. Join my discord server if you're an adult and wanna hear me whine about it asdlfkj

16. What are your writing strengths?

Fitting body language and other scene description with dialogue. I don't see images in my head and I think in motion a lot, so I think I do a really good job of keeping a scene rolling while people are talking without having to bring everything to a screeching halt to describe, idk, the color of the carpet on the stairs.

Also emotional damage

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Probably longer works? I lose drive to work on anything over 6k words pretty easily and I also struggle with pacing. I'm insisting on finishing Monoceros Novae so it can be my first novel because everyone's first novel sucks ass. I'm getting it out of the way so my original works will hopefully go better asldkfj

Oh. Also what people look like. Fuck you you get a pronoun and maybe a hair color. If Martha Wells can do it with Murderbot, so can I lmao.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

Just for the love of God don't put it in italics unless you're making a point that the person using the other language doesn't use it naturally. I'd like to highlight the poem Kupu Rere Ke by Alice Te Punga Somerville for my feelings on it alsdkjf.

Also gonna copy stardustdiving's answer and say that it's great for multilingual characters and places it makes sense, but I personally think it's a little annoying when it's just a shippy pet name to be cute without, like, some kind of basis for it. Notably Childe calling Zhongli Xiansheng. It's fine if he would say that BUT HE WOULDN'T. He'd call him Mr., Sir or Motherfucker Ratbastard Whyaren'tyoudeadyet

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Undertale! Surprised at how well a lot of the fics have held up over the years.

20. Favorite fic you've written?

Changes a lot as I develop as a writer. I'm really proud of Frustrations of the Hunt and this is the vibe I want my original writing to have.

I'm also really proud of my one and only FMAB fic about Alphonse getting pants. It's more serious than it sounds.

I actually have a collection of my works that I'm really proud of too!

Let's tag @resplendent-chungus. Do it bitch /affectionate

[shadowonwater]

Adaman and Irida in Pokemon Masters!

I enjoyed the story it told! Now we finally got Hisui in Masters!

I'm just thinking about how much fanfic potential is in this update. I've already seen a fanfic from awhile ago that already had the premise of "What if Hisui characters wound up on Pasio" I imagine there will be more fanfics in the future playing with this idea

more under cut

I love that fact that Lucas just casually has the God of Time in his pocket. And of course Adamen and Irida are like "Holy Shit!" When they see it. They end up taking it pretty well though.

And it's interesting that while Dawn must not care that much about Sinnoh history, what with not having even heard of Hisui. Lucas has heard of it, and was shocked that Irida and Adaman are time travelers.

I also liked that Adaman was all like "We must have time traveled!" while Irida was like "No, we are in a distant country." I mean they could both be right. They time traveled for sure. But it's mystery as to Pasio's location. It could be close or far away from Sinnoh.

And they ended up trying to go to Cyrus for help because he had Palkia. And they needed the ledgendarys to work together to get rid of the distortion

And the fact that Dialga and Palkia talked in Adaman and Irida's heads again! Loved that! Poor Lucas was all "THEY CAN TALK" which is fair, honestly. I wonder if he's upset at all that Dialga has never talked to him.

And then when fixing the problem, it turns out that Cynthia was also helping with Giratina, far away and Barry was with her. This implies that Barry when to her for help when he saw what was happening.

And then at the end, there are still small distortions happening just no more big one. And Adaman and Irida don't know how to go back in time so they decided to hang around Pasio until then.

They also decided to get with the times and use Pokeballs! And said that it's likely that more people from Hisui will end up in Pasio. This is confirmation we'll be getting more Hisui sync pairs!

Oh! Oh! And also there was a mention early on that of course Dawn and Lucas look like Akari and Rei, Dawn and Lucas don't seem to know who they are. This either means that neither of them have time traveled yet or that Akari/Rei were never Dawn/Lucas OR that Akari/Rei are from a different universe where they did time travel.

The idea if multiple universes coming into a play is not a weird idea in Pokemon. Maybe Adaman and Irida are the ones from a different universe.

Adaman and Irida also mentioned a couple of people falling out of the skies from the rifts. This clearly refers to both the protag but also Ingo. I hope we get Warden Ingo, in the future!

Anyway, like I said earlier, there is so much fanfic potential in all this!

[temporalbystander]

*deep traumatic sigh*

Okay guys... I think it's time I introduced you to someone...

I'd like you all to meet Caleb Talont. My first OC, the basis for pretty much every OC that followed and my first foray into fanfiction. He was basically what I came up with before I got over my childish bashing and "fix all the problems" phase. The cool edgy guy with the powers of darkness yet is still kind and lovable. I'll admit it. He was a Mary Sue. I won't call him a self-insert, I started a story with a self-insert premise and oh boy did I quickly learn I should not be trusted with power.

But hold a wand to my head and threaten the killing curse? I might admit that Caleb is who I wanted to be. Past tense. I'm in a better place but Caleb is still the dark moody mofo he is. I don't blame him, I put him through hell.

Why am I bringing him up now? Well I was 13 when I first came up with Caleb, at least that's when my first post of him was, considering how obsessed I was with fanfiction before that point? And how many times I remember throwing him into Winx and WITCH? I may have been even younger. I mention how young I was to bring up how long it's been. I haven't touched Harry Potter fanfiction in what feels like decades. I haven't seen any of the original movies or reread the books in what I know has been a decade.

So, when I tell you, that seeing a SuperCarlinsBrothers video asking whether or not the Marauder's Map can lie? Well... I hope you'll believe when I say I did not expect that part of my brain, Caleb Talont himself, to wake from his coma and go "hold my butterbeer. I've got this."

I really, REALLY, like giving magic logical analysis and breakdowns. Not in a "magic is science we don't understand" type of bull that lead to stories where muggles proved they couldn't be trusted with the knowledge of magic existing, kind of way. But in a "it's all around us, it follows general trends and here are some guidelines to make using it easier but it's magic. The skys the limit just don't go too nuts too quickly okay?" Kind of way.

One way is "it's physics with extra laws." The other is "rotate your wand like this? Fire. Flick it like this? Water. Okay now watch what I can do without the wand."

I know what I find more fun. Magic should be poetry. It should be art. Sure it has a rhythm and some kind of structure but it doesn't NEED to."

Anyway. With that done. I will not be restarting any Caleb stories or moving them to AO3. I am however now open for any Harry Potter views debates or opinions you can throw at me.

I still have not watched the CarlinBros video by the way.

[aesop-txt]

Fuck it we ball thinking about Chev and how him ending but with Emma makes me tear my eyes out lmao. I hc him as aromantic and like I know it's not canon but he's expressed how he doesn't want romance and sees it as unnecessary and like for aro people in particular (and ace but this is a more romantic context) others say, "Oh you just haven't found the right person yet," and that's basically what happens in Chev's route. It's not outright said but it's basically the premise. Essentially Emma meets Chevalier and is scared of him at first yadayadayada Clavis makes her deliver thing I forgot the name of and then if I remember properly they were talking and it gets to the topic of romance (because of course it does) and he says something along the lines of, "I don't see the need for romantic relations because it clouds a king's judgment and I don't see it as necessary," and yeah that could just be seen as him wanting to be a perfect king and stuff but that shouldn't just cross a prince's mind you know? (Sadly i dont have the screenshots) So as his route progresses and Emma develops romantic feelings for Chev blah blah blah he opens up to her and shows his true colors. Now don't get me wrong I loved those part and the one at the soldier graves is one that comes to mind immediately. Once again I don't have the screenshots for some reason I suppose I'll just playthrough his route a third time I get the chance and edit if I even remember but anyways it was talking about how he doesn't remember names of people he doesn't see as important but he remembers the soldier's names BECAUSE of the fact that they were important to Rhodolite (if that's how you spell it lmao) and thus important to him. Back to the topic at hand they get closer and honestly I'm here for that. He's not as on guard and you can tell that he IS human and stuff and I feel like a close platonic relationship is perfect for that but alas it's an otome and at the end of the route they get together and even if it doesn't seem like it, it follows the trope of quote unquote, "finding the right person," and I hate that so fucking much!!! There could have been such great rep in my opinion if cybird had done that! Now that I've lost steam for continuing this I feel that I've sufficiently gotten my point across and would just like to say some things. First of all I'm not saying that Chevalier HAS to be aromantic in your own personal canon nor am i ingoring the canon if you're a stickler it's just that I'm so very passionate about this and would like to have it out somewhere. Second of all I'm not saying I hate your for shipping yourself/your oc with him I think oc x canon if great if like none of the fanfics are doing that for you and it's great for creativity imo! Thirdly even if you don't hc him as aromantic you still can't look me in the eyes and tell me he's straight./j

Just thought that these screenshots I actually DO have would be nice to share. In the end this is just me ranting about my favorite guy and if this pisses you off despite the fact that I'm not forcing you to have this hc you can (disrespectfully) fuck off. I just really want to see more aromantic and aroace rep in general because it genuinely makes me so happy and if you have a problem with that you can leave. Uh anyways thanks for coming to my tedtalk. Also tagging my friend cause she wanted to see it! We love talking about this lol @perfectlyuniqueperfection

[hergan416]

I try to read historical fanfic but I think reading actual works from Victorian era makes me pick up on like modern language used in fanfic so i don’t often read that on ao3 but I try so hard lol are you going to watch the live action one piece movie/tv show that coming out soon? Did you like the BBC Sherlock show?

I think that's perhaps what I like about the yuumori fandom is that the work itself already is ahistoric and the timeline is already a bit wonky. So it's not nearly as jarring when you have modern and historic things mashed together on AO3.

I am sort of interested in OPLA but I don't currently have Netflix and I don't feel like buying Netflix just to watch it. I already am behind on the One Piece anime because my yuumori hyperfixation has uh... anyway I haven't kept up with the latest One Piece episodes because even though I love it and want to know what's happening I keep spending my time on other things.

I've actually never seen BBC Sherlock. I will say that I probably would end up watching Elementary first, just because I'm more interested in that premise as far as modern adaptations are concerned, but it is unlikely at this point I watch either.

[yvtro]

I read your "sanctuary" fanfic and would like to say: Nice!! honestly one of my favorite rarely-seen tropes: an on-positive-terms-with-family Jason at some point decides you know what. that's my room. if I hadn't died the room would've changed/been updated by me. I'm gonna fuckin remodel my room. it always feels like that's the much truer indication of forward motion than the alternative (where he gets a new room?? (permanently, not just in a temp scenario) and the other one's still just, There?? that's always so strange to me???) your fic is great and I love it overall but that's the part of the premise that really sticks out :D

anon i don't know if this ask makes me more happy or embarrassed, because i've been actually considering deleting this fic– but i will reconsider now.

i think i said as much in notes, but i'm glad someone agrees with it, because the cliche that jason's room is being kept exactly the same (or even rebuilt to look exactly the same?) started feeling a bit boring to me. yes, we get it, jason will never be the same person as he was when he left that room when he was 15! but guess what, no teenager/young adult will ever be the child they used to be too, and it doesn't mean that they need to completely abandon everything that used to be a part of their childhood. and jason starting a new life is a nice theme, but how about jay reclaiming some of his past life? coming to terms with it instead of turning his back on it? it's not like there was only pain there.

anyway thank you sooo much for this message <3 i might rewrite this fic at some point, because it feels very much not in my style and stiff, but i guess i won't be completely deleting it anymore:)

[applepies-and-starlight]

10 16 19. abt any fandom you wish

10. worst part of fanon

Let's see if I can think of another one... Oh, unessecarily turning people into gods/godmodding in general

This one's a bit of a personal experience, but basically one of the servers I used to be in (it got deleted by the owner throwing a hissy fit lmao) had this one person turning literally anyone and everyone they could get their hands on into some form of a god, and they also had this Specific Tendency to start throwing their weight around whenever something Vaguely Bad happened in the rp.

Bottomline was it wasn't. The Best experience rping with them, considering how if you went against what their characters said they'd basically damn near erase your existence, even if yoy emphasize that your character is as powerful as theirs

(Another one I can think of is senseless shipping; shipping without thinking about their dynamics or how they'd bounce off of each other just ends up being hollow in the end, no matter how 'cute' it looks. I do Not care if it's toxic enough to rival dart frogs of sweet enough to give a man diabetes, if you can't justify how a ship dynamic (platonic or romantic) will work outside of a shallow surface evaluation then you've already failed)

16. you can't understand why so many people like this thing (characterization, trope, headcanon, etc)

Bakugo.

I will Never. Understand why people like Bakugo so badly

Like, I Guess I can see why if you just wanna pick him apart under a microscope, but I'm specifically talking about the group of "I can fix him" fangirls out there who will defend him at every turn because he's hot in their eyes, story be damned

Like, personally from what I've seen of him he's just an annoying stuck up jackass who is never put in his place meaningfully because his arrogance is apparently a funny thing (note: i've never watched mha i've just read fanfics that crossed over into fandoms i'm in). So I don't get what the hype for him is all about

19. you're mad/ashamed/horrified you actually kind of like...

Miraculous ladybuuuuug~! Good grief that show is a mess.

I originally got into it because of my basketball friend talking about how it's a show that references previous episodes (hi Ink); at the time it was still somewhere in S2 so The Enshittification™ hasn't happened yet.

Being in this fandom is like watching a trainwreck; it's horrifying but you can't takw your eyes off of it.

Anyway, everything about it is a mess, the plot contradicts itself a lot, the director/author is a whiny petty crybaby who has exactly One good thing come out of his tantrums (Felix), I keep joking about how this show is like if you have a shitty wattpad/booktok fanfic professional funding and no supervision, and Yet. And yet I am drawn back into this show because the premise is genuinely interesting and I sorely wished it was handled differently. (Which is why Miraculous Alphabets Exists™, I suppose!)

[kresnikcest]

julius was 13 i just fjdkljafsd yeah when you're that age you're like "i'm very mature and know everything" (you don't) and i just??? hhhhh pre-pasta julius ;-; and all that murder… rideaux should have alluded to that more often tbh it would have made ludger very upset

IT REALLY IS. SO MUCH. like julius and ludger's dynamic is impossible to replicate in a setting where they did not end up living alone together as kids. marvin exists ofc but if you gave both of them a present guardian it just wouldn't be the same… I agree as much as the secrecy must have been awful for Julius and maybe he would want Ludger to have gotten to live with Claudia… he ultimately still loved the life he got with Ludger… (got more to say on this wrt the Ludgercest premise)

julius comforting elle that ludger loved her very much… while simultaneously believing ludger loved elle more… elle feeling the exact same way because ;-; she lost milla and her dad and then ludger died without being able to directly tell her he was more scared of elle dying than himself… (i wonder that elle might not make it out to be her own fault because "if i didn't let bisley use my powers he wouldn't be able to beat chronos", catastrophising on "what if"… poor bean…)

awwww julius' fd ludger is baby… but yes, julius' fd has bisley alive but neither claudia nor cornelia are mentioned (though meta-wise it's probably just because they're not really notable characters anyway within the game itself and won't make sense at that point in the game). i've seen fanfic and doujinshi where bisley is known to be their father in this fd, but when he addresses prime ludger… he recognises him in some way but i feel like if he actually knew ludger personally he wouldn't have been like "oh nvm i'm imagining things".

it's been suggested (probably by mauro) that bisley doesn't know about ludger and so he was recognising how similar ludger looks to claudia, or this is just the whole "fantasy" part of julius' fd where it makes no sense how they have the same relationship and life in a world with no trial.

(personally i just hc cornelia and claudia died mundanely, julius doesn't quite adopt ludger but easily becomes the closest person in the family to him and once julius is old enough they basically move out together because "sibling characters have a totally mundane upbringing contrary to canon and still end up a little bit obsessed with each other" is 10/10 my fave thing ever absolutely would recommend. but i have seen one fanfic where julius tells fractured ludger that he killed claudia (i can't remember if this actually happened in their fd's history or if julius was just lying) but either way fractured ludger forgave him bc it was an accident)

maybe julius could subconsciously make him… weirder. but he is also so. gestures. so

HE IS INDEED SO SO. but yeah i think fractured ludger might be a little tiny bit different for catering to julius' heart's wish… i mean julius never mentions being envious of anything but then gestures the NPC dialogue where no one recognises Ludger yknow… fractured ludger isn't like wholly wish-fulfilment manic pixie dream brother because like you said, julius does want the actual ludger, but he definitely might be a little bit off…

i 100% think after killing victor and basically bruteforcing the bad ending, ludger wouldn't hesitate to just murder fractured ludger… but also ludger cannot know for sure if the soul bridge was even created until he gets back to the prime dimension… in staying here, in not killing julius, even if he gives the party his blessing to move on to canaan and save elle without him, he's gotta be aware of the possibility he's just sabotaged creating the soul bridge. and he has to know their time, even here in this perfect world, is limited once the trial fails or bisley succeeds at destroying the fractured dimensions with origin's power.

fractured ludger is indeed too babie and NORMAL to kill (god he's so normal like unironically even compared to pre-canon ludger, he probably doesn't even know how to fight actually if julius never learned as part of being in the DODA) but maybe his universe-mandated brocon thing is just as strong as prime ludger's…

damn julius how come the universe lets you have two ludgers (and unlike victor/julius/ludger both ludgers adore you and are also chronologically still baby brother)

i'm not original and this is reusing my perception of victor/ludger but i wonder that prime ludger and fractured ludger don't just have some *~*~weird~*~* tension going on from trying to coexist (fractured ludger being super normal and jealous this "real" ludger is trying to take his brother from him, whereas prime ludger uh. knows the canon lore and is jealous this fractured ludger is julius' wish and that julius "remembers" living a life with him too)

until one of them snaps and just kisses the other

and then idk, see who can break down julius' incest guilt defence barriers first...

i'm gonna start biting. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH FUCK

all three are great. 10/10. put me in the ground. ofc julius and elle both surviving is paiiiiiin. (julius probably gets mistaken for elle's dad sometimes and fjdksljfs what does julius even know about victor... the party probably told him what victor said, julius getting to ruminate on a fractured self that would have stopped ludger from killing bisley... one that would have however implicitly defended bisley using elle?)

and elle... who doesn't really know julius as his own person and more just someone ludger occasionally mentioned, suffering because ludger loved julius enough to die for him and that making her identity crisis worse, because surely ludger loved julius more... ofc everyone tries to convince her otherwise, and julius himself is also suffering something similar because, well ludger should have lived and he should have died for that.

there is just pain everywhere... and that's before you get into julius once again looking after a child and being strongly reminded of the person who once cared for them... (ludger is never even going to know about claudia...)

but i am very 👀 about ludger chickening out in julius' fd. i've seen like two... three takes where prime ludger murders fractured ludger and takes his place but, two ludgers...

ludger was a bit young to be mistaken for elle's father even though the other him actually was her father.... but julius is the right age.... and looks a lot like her... how can you blame someone for coming to that conclusion :D (elle can blame them. loudly.) (julius probably makes up some story about something something cousin. nobody is alive to say otherwise :zany_face:)

i typed too much

aside from them being basically nothing to each other at first, the fun thing is julius doesn't remember (never knew-) how to take care of a child ^o^ and this on top of the grief and failure to cope well. so he fumbles so bad. and he can try to be The Authority Figure but that doesn't work too well, esp in the beginning....... elle isn't quite as self-sufficient as ludger was (had to become) at her age, but she ain't a normal kid. he will never be her father or even really her uncle (laughs bc her father murdered the him that was her uncle)? but i imagine they might eventually have something like. a combination of what juiius+ludger and ludger+elle had. living together kinda family weirdly equals. ludger trauma buddies

then maybe elle won't lose it as much when people think julius is her father... not because that's who he is, because she has only had and will only ever have one of those and he's dead too, but because it's less offensive because at least they care about each other now....

BUT FIRST. THE TRAUMA. THE GRIEF. THE FAILURE TO COPE-

i wonder if julius can one day tell elle the things he never told ludger.... she'll tell him exactly what she thinks of him and won't sugarcoat it :thinking: is that better or worse..... if he hoped for ludger's forgiveness, one day, she can't give him that on his behalf, but maybe.... :thinking:

as for the julius fd one,,

I THOUGHT ABOUT LUDGER KILLING FD LUDGER. it might even fit considering he is bad in the head enough to threaten to straight up sabotage julius' attempt to fix the world because he wants to keep him so bad... :'D however, consider, instead, Julius Gets Two Ludgers. and the ludgers have to both deal with 'the other guy is the one nii-san really wants' and figure out how to coexist with someone who is basically the same person taking the same space they've always taken up alone. and the ludgers can one day also k*ss each other. i found those very convincing arguments.

[mwagneto]

What happened to the *fmd fandom that you don't want to happen to iwtv? (the thing you mentioned in the last post)

like..... hm. i'm gonna keep this vague coz i dont want drama but you know how every fandom has it's own vibe and how like in some fandoms most ppl don't even say fuck while in others people straight up post hole in the main tags. which is fine like i dont think porn fanart is inherently bad but like anyway like in some fandoms (mostly in smaller ones) if there's even one Problematic fanfic posted on ao3 or something the entire fandom will know about it and like go and tell op they're being racist or something. you know???

so. 0fmd, despite being a basically nonsexual romcom, managed to foster a community where not only is it not acceptable to even Mention that someone's being weird it's straight up like. encouraged to be weird. like idk if you've seen but the fucking huuuundreds of tweets about how anyone that criticises anything this fandom does is engaging in christian purity culture or whatever the fuck.... insane.

but that's just, like, the premise. the main thing that ruined the fandom for me is the content born out of that mentality like first of all MOST of the fandom is middle aged ~queer bean~ women (and a lot of cishet women) who somehow think that because they're not solely attracted to men this somehow means it's impossible for them to fetishise gay relationships (spoilers: it's not!) and these like combine into the absolute most abhorrent racism and fucked up kink I've ever fucking seen in a fandom. which. i could Maybe put up with but these are literally old men!!! like they're just nice little old men who literally share 1 (one) chaste kiss but then you go into the tags and it's all Stede and Ed rape Izzy (bondage puppyplay knifeplay bloodplay) and like. i dont know just the AMOUNT of extremely unsettling sexual things that I've had the misfortune of seeing and that this fandom gladly hosts. like idk how to phrase it better than it feels like this fandom is from like 2013 and sted isn't even canon. yknow??? like even the fanart almost always depicts them as ed w his beard and stede in his blue fit kissing or smtg like it's a gaybait show where the last few episodes never even happened. does that make any fucking sense???

man i genuinely dont know how to word this better without getting into the specific topics (and people) that made this fandom not just bad but actually repulsive to me but like. i have seen the Pits and the people responsible for said pits are the people who set the tone for the fandom which made the whole thing (a COMEDY about OLD MEN FALLING IN LOVE) into some sick freak kink fest. and like fuck whoever you want however you want idgaf but I'd like to go two seconds without . well I'm not even gonna say an example. you get what i mean

[spinjitzuhottakes]

Lloyd Garmadon - A brief look at Shipping and Discourse

Right, figure I'd start off with a bang and light myself up like a firework on new years cause what better way to make my first discussion on this blog than be about Lloyd, one of the most discoursed characters to ship in this dang fandom.

Let me just say this.

I don't actively ship Lloyd with anyone. A lot of the opinions surrounding Lloyd in a romance makes it difficult for me to do so, its even more difficult when Lloyd is the character who gets shipped 90% of the time with a fan oc character. (No shame there if you do that, its just something I've very much noticed.)

However. HOWEVER.

I still have in fact, read and viewed fancontent which contains Lloyd in a romantic or sexual relationship. Some of that content does in fact include ships with the main cast, particularly the main 4.

And yes, some of this content is in fact in the universe of the show, not the movie (which tbh is a whole other topic that I probably will touch at a later point cause I have noticed things about the fandom and the show that were caused by the movie releasing)

Why is that?

Cause the art is really cute and the fanfic premise is really interesting or honestly really sweet.

Anyway.

My point is, is that while I don't actively ship Lloyd with anyone, I still have chosen to read and look at things that depict that sort of thing.

And some of those things? They were pretty explicit and sometimes I did feel the need to scroll and fastforward through the scene.

However I still chose to look at those of my own volition and not just because of the...well content. (not usually)

For fanfics, it was how the story was laid out to me, I was usually drawn to those things due to the premise, sometimes they were pretty grim and tragic in a way.

Why is that?

Something I will honestly admit is that when it comes to fandom fanfic as a whole, Ninjago is a fandom I don't really read E rate smut fics for, it's never been that sort of fandom for me. If I do read something mature or explicit here, it really is honest to god not for the pure 18+ content in there.

Cause good lord, some of those explicit fics honestly need a revision or three.

The fics and content I have viewed and found interesting, usually has to do in some regards to how Lloyd in a relationship (explicit or otherwise) would work and honest to god conflict.

Especially given how much we as the fandom remember the situation regarding the tomorrow tea.

Lloyd's situation with the tomorrow tea actually reminds me of a character in my favourite anime. But i'll get into that in a later topic that talks more about Lloyd's age.

Point is, Lloyd's situation is not really the first time I've seen this happen in media and is one of the reasons why shipping Lloyd is actually quite fascinating even if it gets seriously fucking annoying when I have to deal with fandom.

Now, heres the first hurdle, what about Lloyd's age. He's practically eight/twelve and morally its wrong to ship him.

So...i'm just gonna say this. I actually think to suggest something like that really does a disservice to Lloyd as a whole.

Something that has been stated as canon and what I feel was meant to always be implied by the creators is that when Lloyd used the Tomorrow Tea, He was infact permenantly aged up to be the roughly same age as the rest of the cast. He needed to become their equal storywise. It was basically their way of getting around the fact that they had no idea how to make Lloyd as a 8-12 year old reasonably fight his dad/the dark one and have it not seem seriously messed up compared to what would essentially be a teenager fighting him.

Which even though its less messed up, it still is messed up. Wtf destiny.

For reasons I may or may not also further address at a later date in the same talk about Lloyds age, I also honestly believe that Lloyd needing to age up to be same age as the cast was needed for his development and any concept that deletes or reverses that fact has to have a very good reason to do so, otherwise it just seems like they're reversing an essential part of Lloyds story.

And I enjoy exploring content that touches upon the result of that, because the conflict that can be drawn from that is really interesting! Especially if it has to do with romance!

However this honestly leads into the other elephant in the room. And something that gets reasonably talked about and I understand where the thought comes from.

The power dynamics between age and experiance can seem off and at times uncomfortable when it comes to Lloyd being shipped with any of the Ninja. I understand where people are coming from with that, particularly when it comes to pre season 8 to 10 interpretations of the team and Lloyd. Lloyd is very much still seen by a lot of people (and the fandom) during this time as the youngest in the group even though he is roughly the same age as everyone. (Like truthfully, if anything the youngest he'd be is Nya's age.)

Heck they even joke about it multiple times hilariously enough. s5 and s8 with the voice jokes?

Post s10 though? Its a lot more less of a thing. Aside from the occasional joke about Lloyd not knowing what a VCR is (cause he's the kid in the group you guys remember?.) The would be power dynamic and age imbalance between him and the others is less apparent and I'm pretty sure if someone came into the series post s10, they would only know Lloyd as being the leader of the ninja and the same age as the others and not as that gremlin kid from s1.

That's because that's how Lloyd has been developed into, He's in full context basically just like the others now, like what his movie form is (which is also another topic I'd like to talk about at a later point about how the movie changed the show in a few ways)

The only reason a lot of people think otherwise is due to the fact we have context of previous seasons that truthfully does affect us. A lot of people still see and H/C Lloyd as being a lot younger than the other characters and therefore its morally wrong to ship him with the other Ninja and if you do, you should burn at the stake.

But, that's dumb. Like really dumb.

Exploration of these topics is risky yeah and it can lead to some questionable things. But honestly it shouldn't be completely demonized. These sorts of things can act as a sort coping material for folks struggling on those issues.

It really isn't hurting anyone and if you say its harming you, than maybe you should ask yourself why you chose to read/look at the thing in the first place instead of blaming the person who made it.

Why would you eat the food if you know you hate the taste? Thats like asking for olives when you detest olives

Listen I'm not gonna lie...I've seen some questionable stuff tagged in the Ninjago tag and the fanfic section of ao3. But I knew not to touch it.

Why?

Cause I knew I wasn't for me.

This is a mindset I honestly wish a lot of people in this fandom could pick up. If someone is being a genuine threat to the fanbase then yeah, maybe there's a reason for concern.

However, someone shipping two characters together is NOT that reason. No matter how much you try to tell yourself.

- H.T

[titconao3]

13, 19, 40 - for the writer/fanfic ask :)

For this set of questions ^_^

13. What is your planning process? Eeeerrrr. i'm more of a... plantser, i think is the technical term ;-) i know the general idea and end point, but little details that turn into bigger plot points happen as i write, so i can't really plan much - it's the writing itself that will give me the meat. When i start off, i only have the general stick figure of the story, as seen from afar in the dark without wearing glasses ;-)

This is also why i write linearly: one little thing, a little detail (idk, the colour of char A's socks) will come up again and become #meaningfulTM later, and i can't foresee that early on in the process. Planning stuff would be pointless, because the story grows organically and will ignore what i plan anyway (it's a big reason why i dislike detailed scenario prompts: i think my brain chugs in the background and suddenly pops an idea at me on the page all by itself, but i'm not conscious of it until the words are Right There in front of my eyes; if i have to follow something another brain plotted, then mine just freezes and sulks and whines "what's the poinnnnnnt" ;-) Okay, yeah, sure, i do go back and add sock colour later on to tighten a plot point/foreshadow etc, but the idea is that a tiny word-butterfly will create big word-storms later on :D This is also why i don't post WIPs: something that comes up may need me to edit previous bits.

If i have extra notes, ideas, scene outlines, mid-way beats to hit, or bits of dialogue for a later part, i just jot it all down at the bottom of my document (i write in a word processor that's synced with an online drive, no fancy Writing Software For Fancy Writers for me. i'm basic ;-). i don't write out the entire scene / dialogue in advance, because it would be futile; by the time i get there i'd need to rewrite most of it anyway. And i might get bored and not feel like connecting the prewritten bits ;-) especially if it means rewriting everything as i go because it doesn't fit as well as it would if it had flown more organically from one part to another. (i've tried it, and it's not for me; it works for others!)

19. Dead or overused tropes? Oh my, there is no such thing as a dead or overused trope :D it's all about what you do with it! Play it straight, have a coffee shop AU but IN SPACE, take a common fanon characterization and twist it just so... i'll even sometimes take tropes i don't really like just to see how i can do them in a way i can stomach (one day, one day, i'll do a Soulmates AU. i find the premise a bit creepy when it's played twu wuv 4realz, but one day i'll play with that). (no shade on Soulmates AU lovers; kink tomato and all that!)

It's not like storytelling hasn't been using and reusing Coming Of Age, Revenge, Hero vs Fate, Fuck You God(s), etc patterns since, uh, forever. It's not the fact they're used that makes something enjoyable or not. *slaps Star Wars' hood* this baby can fit so many tropes in there! (This example is Just For You, Beguile, because i'm not much into SW ;-)

And, look. You'll have to pry hurt/comfort and whump from my cold dead hands ;-)

The only times i find something (trope, pattern... call it what you will) overused are when i see the themes, rhythms, expressions, words, obsessions that come up again and again in my own work. i see them only too well, and i fight them, and they always win in the end. They probably say too much about me, too! And then i angst about being predictable (@vulnerasanenturmyprince KEN FOLLET), boring, etc. (And then i go read fics that hit the buttons i want hit again and again)

40. Do you have any rituals before uploading a fic? Uh, rituals... it's usually fretting around the title, tags, and summary ;-) i rarely have the title early on, and i think for the summary it's happened... once? (out of, as of the time of answering this, over 160 published fics). No special underwear or whatnot for me. And fretting about how it's The Worst Fic Ever and how i Can't Write Anymore and Should Just Stop but i just need to chuck it on the good ole AO3 so i stop tinkering and quite possibly making it worse.

i try not to worry about feedback because it's pointless, which means i worry about feedback - by which i don't mean Comment Or Else, but that i write and publish (and organize events) to be part of the fandom community and squee with my fellow fen: as my AO3 profile says, to me, fandom is connection!

Thank you, @beguilewritesstuff :-)

[darkfinch]

Do u like redemption and are just grumpy right now bc of the the parts you didn’t like as much or do you not like it and just think some parts were good?

Did redemption ruin leverage for you? Should I not watch?

!!! these are very good questions. i'm uhhhh a little conflicted about the whole thing, here's too many words about it (under a readmore for folks who are avoiding redemption talk):

honestly i think the main reason i was initially so negatively affected by redemption is that i watched it all in one day, and a lot of the things that bothered me were in the last couple of episodes. so it all felt REALLY condensed, and the disappointing things were the most fresh in my mind when i was finished. oof. if i could do it over, i would take my time with it instead.

overall, i actually really loved 1b of redemption!! i had a ton of fun with it and it felt a lot more like og leverage vibes-wise than 1a. I love harry and i LOVE breanna and i really really enjoyed a lot of the episode premises in this half (there were a few where i was like...this is exactly the kind of thing i've been wishing there was a leverage ep about and i am Experiencing Catharsis)

the season as a whole was really enjoyable for me, and there are a few episodes that i think might be as rewatchable as original leverage, which is cool. it was more big picture character arc/characterization stuff that genuinely bothered me, and due to the nature of what redemption was really focusing on this season (introducing new characters, finding their footing again, etc) those parts were really not a huge part of the actual viewing experience, percentage-of-content-wise.

deep sigh. that being said.

i don't think it Ruined Leverage for me...but for a few days afterwards i definitely did have a bit of a spiral about it. just lyin on the floor like...does this ruin these characters for me. does this lessen my enjoyment of the original series. do i still want my nanowrimo project to be leverage-based. do i want to keep writing fic for this television show at all

the parts i'm grumpy about were small, but they were important to Me. leverage has been such a joy and a comfort since i stumbled upon it, and has been getting me through quarantine, and got me to try writing fic for the first time because it gave me Big Thoughts And Feelings the first time i watched it

and while i really tried to keep my expectations very low for redemption, there was a vague feeling of like...oh. i feel kind of? stupid? for having put energy into this? and for expecting more than this? because what they're making is not going to be like what fandom has built together out of love. the cautious first season of an amazon prime reboot is not necessarily going to have the same depth and feeling and love behind it as an old show that has—in part due to being Over and available for Endless Nostalgic Analysis And Interpretation—been very stable ground to build upon for years, or as the fanon that's come from that.

(this feeling is not 100% gone, and i don't think i'm alone in struggling with redemption; i'd never seen a fix-it-fic for leverage Until This Week, and i'm sure there are going to be more to follow.)

anyway. i've been conflicted about it!!!!

what i've settled on is that it very much does not Ruin Leverage for me, because original leverage is always going to be there, and so is the decade of fan content that's come after it, and so is the fandom. i've gone the comics fandom route of Seeing the Separation. it's not More Original Leverage; it's one creative team's well-meaning (if clumsy) take on post-canon content that got put into production. it can't ruin leverage any more than a really popular ooc fanfic can ruin leverage.

there are genuinely a lot of really Good, solid, touching moments in redemption, and even if some parts are...bewilderingly executed and irritating and just Unfortunately Done, i would still say that if there's any part of you that wants to watch it, 4 fun and enjoyment, you should watch it. it's fun, it's a good show, it's still enjoyable, and fandom's already picking it apart for Useful Scraps as we speak.

if u actually read all of that...you're very cool and i wish you luck. i would just say go into it with realistic expectations; it's not 100% old leverage, it's not fanon, it's coming to the table with the buckwild takes of a creative team that had these ideas for season 6 character arcs 8 years ago and thinks they're still 1) relevant 2) necessary and 3) fitting with the trajectory of the original series despite this.

@ leverage team i am on your lawn i am explaining eliot spencer through a megaphone please do not call the cops <3

[ryuusjacket]

okay so i wanted to share this post that i made a while back from my personal nsfw blog but i feel kinda embarrassed just reblogging it here and showing off the url to that blog publicly (i. literally have like 2 maybe 3 followers on this blog so far lmao) even tho like. i Do share the url w ppl who i trust and who Want to read long ass posts that go into indepth descriptions of my sexual identity, my sexual health, my desires/feelings with regards to sex, and my experiences w sex (w myself bc idk how to initiate a sexual encounter w another human being). you're welcome to dm me for the url if ur Really interested in reading turbo tmi content (it is all text btw. idk how to take nudes so those don't exist sorry)

ANYWAY i sometimes do thought dumps on there that involve nsfw topics like smut fanfic n stuff, so i've tried to brainstorm for my planned sskk fic on there before and well i actually found a wordy one i did where i rlly tried to explain in detail just exactly i Want to create and accomplish w this fic idea of mine. and even just re-reading the post myself, i found it to be very concise and illustrative of my goal for the fic's overall mood and tone. it was a very well-needed reminder for me to read my thought process from a month or so back when i was a bit more hyped to begin this project.

so yeah! anyway im just gonna copy and paste the whole damn post here bc i think it's an interesting read and good presentation of my inner thoughts wrt to what i'm hoping to write (hopefully) someday soon. and really... this fic idea is still barely in its infancy like there's still SO MUCH left to brainstorm and plan out like fuck!!! it's still too early to even start an outline doc (and that's like one of my fave parts of the fic writing process)

oh and some background context: a few months ago there was an event on twitter/ao3 (not sure if here on tumblr? i unfortunately don't follow many or any bsd/sskk blogs at ALL yet) for bottom akutagawa week which was HEAVEN for me 🥰🥰🥰 literally could not have been a better event to appeal to my interests in this fandom i s2g. and i got my hopes up that maybe i could write a lil fic in time to share during the week but that unfortunately didn't happen. anyway here's the post:

so i might not be able to write the bsd smut fic i was initially hoping to publish during the bottom aku fan week this week... but that doesn't mean i have to give up on this fic project completely! if anything now i don't have to worry about meeting an irrefutable deadline and i can technically do anything i want. so yeah i still wanna write this fic.

but first. i have to figure out What The Fuck i'm gonna write lmao cause i still don't fucking know. i was Intending to do a < 4k word one-shot fluffy getting together that somehow... transitions into a sex scene. and i still wanna do that... but i just. don't rlly have any specific detail or image or moment or dialogue line in mind to start building a story from. AND LIKE yeaH i know that sounds dumb cause it's like. if i don't have ANYTHING fantasized yet then WHY AM I EVEN BOTHERING to start this fic at all!?

.......im not really sure tbh lmao

nah it's cause i love these dudes and i wanna write something for them and interact w the sskk fan community.

i literally just. need to figure out the BARE BONES premise to this dang fic. like where tf is it gonna take place? is it mid/post-mission? is it at one of their flats? also WHERE are they gonna HAVE SEX???? im actually a big fan of sex scenes happening in non-conventional places (e.g. some dusty ass room in an abandoned building they were investigating or in a public restroom oR FUckinG in an airplane holy shit i haven't seen that one done yet lmao MILE HIGH CLUB ONE-SHOT LETS GOO) but yea idk maybe i should just. keep it simple and do what every other fic does and let them get down at ryuu's place in his luxuriously huge bed (that hasn't canonically been shown, let alone wherever he lives)

i should AT LEAST settle on how fast this fic is gonna be paced. tbh i kinda Always prefer sskk's first time being a bit... feverish and rushed. it just suits them best. maybe there’s a little angst or miscommunication of feelings/intentions thrown in before they Eventually get their shit/feelings together. but anyway i don’t wanna write that lmao that’s too complicated (but like. yeah. these are two Very complicated (i.e. traumatized) guys with a VERY complicated relationship so. yeah it’s actually kinda rare/weird to imagine things working out Too smoothly for them tbh). 

while objectively that complicated/messy/aggressive type shit is their Brand, i would still like to keep things soft and gentle and Nice. that stuff is Not Impossible w these two ofc. it’s... tricky, but def possible. and i wanna achieve That. a getting together that is soft, hesitant, shy, and puts a heavy emphasis on Both of these men’s inexperience wrt romance and sex (that. is. my. Shit. they are both virgins and absolutely clueless and i Refuse to accept anything other than that. ......okay no... that’s not rlly true... basically all of my fave fics have a somewhat experienced atsushi and that’s okay bc like. how else is he gonna be able to Take Care of ryuu if he doesn’t already have an idea of how to take care of someone during sex? anyway ryuu is the most virginal virgin of all virgins to exist THAT IS INDISPUTABLE!!!!!)

so. i guess what i’m wondering is... how fast can i manage to pace the flow of the story while still keeping it soft overall. cause i don’t feel like writing a super super hot n filthy sex scene that’s charged and exhilarating and just a fucking blur of fucking. i wanna write feely, emotional sex. an aching intimate exchange of trust between them, still laced w hesitance and anxiety and sheer disbelief that this is really happening and that they can have this. both of them express unwavering consideration for each other’s comfort, constantly asking for consent and reassuring the other that “yes, i want this. yes, that feels good. yes yes yes.” they’re both taking careful, yet still enthusiastic, steps together. TENDERNESS is my ultimate goal here.

so yeah anyway i’ll try to keep thinking about this and hopefully i can actually come up w some ideas that i wanna implement into whatever this fic eventually becomes. just haven’t had enough time.... or horniess.... to get down to some real brainstorming yet lmao