#anyway I’m fucking confused
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This girl I used to work with texted me at 1:40 last night which was weird on its own since the last time I saw her was like 2018 and she got fired the next day (she was a rehire who should’ve never been rehired) but it’s mainly weird because she called me Theo and I didn’t make that switch until after I left that shithole so ????? howmst and whomst
#she also assaulted multiple customers but one guy was a racist and one guy put his hands on her#the racist actually came back and apologized and said she was right and tipped her $50 🙃#she punched him so hard he fell off his barstool and lost a couple of teeth#she would drink like 8 ciders a night PLUS shots and do free pours for people#and never pay for any of it#there were 6 staff total no more than 4 a night (one bartender two servers one cook)#like girl we don’t pay for our drinks either but you’ve GOT to be smarter about it come on#there was always beef with her and the other two bartenders because she was just bad at her job and drunk all the time#honestly most of the ‘bad’ stuff she did I don’t see her in a negative light about bc that bar fucking sucked#and is owned by nazi sympathizers#like legitimate ‘has a signed mein kampf’ in the basement from when inges brother was within the nazi ranks#it’s still open but we all jumped ship when it became clear there was no saving it#anyway I’m fucking confused#she’s got my number so maybe I popped up on instagram or something? she’s so analog in her life I just didn’t think she had social media
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just watched through 7x06 and i can officially say that i truly do not understand the Tommy hate
#i’m so confused#he’s been nothing but understanding with Buck?#they’re clearly really into each other??#their friends approve???#they’ve successfully communicated misunderstandings and small hurdles and found a way to move forward????#am i missing something??? did i skip a scene where he kicked a kitten and set an orphanage on fire or do people just hate him bc#they take another ship too seriously??????#he seems so good for Buck#also HELLO?? i was in fucking TEARS seeing a masc4masc gay kiss on my tv screen#and on such a popular show?? involving THE fan favorite character??#WHO is watching that going ‘this is bad actually bc i want him to kiss the other guy’#that’s like. huge.#anyway.#911 abc#bucktommy#tevan#tommy kinard
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Hey.
Kim teaching Harry how to skateboard and Harry teaching Kim how to roller skate.
Harry thinks he fucking sucks at first because Kim gets the hang of roller skating pretty quickly. As it turns out, skateboarding is a lot harder than roller skating.
I don’t know where I’m going with this. Um. Kim still prefers skateboarding because of the technical aspect and risk factor but he’s surprised he enjoys how chill roller skating is.
Harry enjoys skateboarding because a) time with Kim as a teacher and b) oh wow a challenge? Your physical instrument loves challenges. You will conquer this with the force of your—what do you mean this is more the centipede’s thing? Holy shit no wonder Kim’s so cool
#disco elysium#harry du bois#kim kitsuragi#anyway I got a cheap Walmart skateboard yesterday and I’m a little bit taken in right now#practiced just getting on the board and pushing forward for like 30 minutes and ended up sweating#confused at first before I remembered…#you know how you get super fucking tired after a long day of travel in the car or on the train and stuff#it’s because your body is always making micro adjustments to keep you in place#and skateboarding? it’s all about body control baby#skateboarding is hard man#be cool to have a custom made Dolores dei skateboard though imo
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Okay last little idea and I'll leave you be for a bit
Xiao actually responding to the names the creator gives him. Little Friend, Pretty Bird, ect. No matter how far away you are, if you call those names, he has to stop himself from turning into a bird and flying away at that very moment. Those pet names are as much his name as any other he's kept.
-sibling anon
me when xiao
in his time with you in his adeptal form, xiao has never told you his name.
and yet, he still hears you.
if he’s in the area and the wind brings him the softest call of “you here, little friend?” he morphs in an instant, instinct taking over as he flies to your summons. he ducks through the trees, landing gracefully in your outstretched hand, meeting your wide smile with a chirp.
“there you are,” you mumble, and he ruffles his wings in an approximation of standing straighter. he is here. for you.
he’s commonly perched on your index finger, or your thumb if he’s eating from your palm. you only feed him simple almonds, yet it tastes of a delightful meal, energy coursing through his body. he’s careful not to nick your skin in his eagerness, but nobody could blame his enthusiasm if they knew what he felt.
by sitting in your hand, he is rested. by staying at your side, he is healed. he still upkeeps his duties, ever vigilant, but he’s quicker now, spurred on by something—someone—to return to. his place is at your side, and he hates keeping you waiting.
even when he has to.
xiao crossed his arms over his chest, staring off at liyue’s plains while he waited for the traveller to finish talking with… whoever. he honestly wasn’t paying attention. all he was there for was the lost adeptal artifact that the commissioner had promised he had, and then he would be on his way.
the man said something with a tilt to his tone. the traveller laughed. xiao grit his teeth.
“friend? little buddy? where are you?”
the call pulled at his soul as every other name he held, and he itched to answer.
paimon made a comment, an ooh! tossed somewhere in the middle, and xiao snapped.
“can we wrap it up? this is not a proper use of an adeptus’ time.”
the man swiftly apologized, handing over the totem, and xiao all but snatched it from his hand. a ‘farewell’ may or may not have slipped from him in time for the traveller to hear, he wasn’t sure. all he knew was that one moment he was dropping the totem off at his room at the inn, and the next he was leaping off the balcony, shifting mid-air to fly towards you.
he let out a loud cry when he spotted you, tucking in his wings to dive. you saw him and held out your hand, a motion so familiar that the actions to land were muscle memory.
he flared his wings, slowing his fall, flapping once, twice, before settling on your index finger. your thumb reached up, as it always did, and he leaned into it, repressing a coo at the feeling of it smoothing over his back.
“there you are, my pretty bird. where were you?”
a shiver rolls down his small body at your words, and he hides behind your thumb. you had many names for him—little friend, blue bird, simply blue—but pretty bird?
your pretty bird?
he’s hot in a way he can’t identify, a melting mix of emotions filling his chest. pride, admiration, adoration, even, all blurring into a messy film that covered his mind.
you turned towards your camp, keeping the hand with him perched close to you. “doesn’t matter. you’re here now, pretty bird. i missed you, you know.”
and you missed him?
xiao’s known for a while that the one on the throne wasn’t truly his god, but now he’s wondering if you were. the swell of confusing feelings was proof enough; were you anybody else, mortal or immortal, god or adepti, he’d have surely struck you down for your behavior long ago. cooing over him as if he were a mere household pet, feeding him scraps of crushed fruit, calling him such names as ‘pretty bird’- he’d have morphed back the second he was strong enough, held his blade to your throat and called you insolent and ungrateful. he’d leave you with a scar, and yet here he was, apologizing for the one he did leave in any way he could.
you carefully poured some almonds pieces in your palm, and he shifted to your thumb as you sat. were you anybody else, you would be dead. but your eyes are still open, carefully watching him, and your heart still beats blood. he can feel your pulse through his claws, sometimes, and often finds his own slowing down to match it.
you had an adeptus eating from the palm of your hand, and yet you were none the wiser. you simply propped your head in your free hand, a gentle smile on your face.
“my pretty bird,” you said quietly, and xiao’s eyes closed of their own volition.
yours.
#m1d : [chats]#m1d : [secrets]#sibling anon#bird!xiao shenanigans#< sorry for high jacking your post for this king#to stew anon: i saw your ask regarding bird xiao but the topic makes me uncomfortable. while i agree with your last point everything prior#is off the table. not your fault btw i never gave anything to suggest otherwise#anyway here’s another 800 words abt bird xiao in hopefully ‘good enough’ compensation#hey FUCK tumblr for continuing to delete the last paragraph of my fics#wholeheartedly#GOD fuck this fuck everything lesson learned NEVER DO JACK SHIT IN THE DRAFTS#tumblr is hell and i’m not good enough at navigating to get our#i’m fuckin sobbing- on my hands and knees disoriented and confused
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Guys I recently, at the suggestion of a couple friends, started watching the Life Series.
And this DesertDuo stuff…
Whew. It’s GOOD.
(And I have now been put in the difficult position of desperately wanting to write about it. BUT i’ve never seen hermit craft and i don’t have plans to, and I haven’t learned enough about the fandoms unspoken rules and stuff. I fear that I may slip up and call Grian taller than Scar and get jumped because I don’t know better-)
#a deity/mortal AU is calling my name#but also i’m by trade also pretty decent with super powered AUs#only thing keeping me away from superheroes is that it seems ‘Hot Guy’ is a thing but i don’t know what that is yet and i’m#TERRIFIED of breaking fandom rules#like okay maybe they’re not rules but do people prefer to have heroes named Hot Guy? Will I get jumped for writing something else?#I literally learned what a Watcher was this morning so i could be less confused when reading fics#anyway haha#what the fuck are the tags for this fandom how do i tag this post#life series#3rd life#double life#desertduo
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Not aiming this at anyone specifically, but I’m genuinely so disappointed & annoyed at the fact no one in my real life circles bothered to reach out to me to check up on me regarding the recent Liam Payne/One Direction news.
#ignore if you want I’m just gonna vent a minute#it’s been over 3 days now & almost nothing#They know I was/am a fan of at least 1d or could take a pretty good educated guess if nothing else#& yet not one person who knows me personally bothered to ask if I was alright#And honestly… I’m not#I’m fucking struggling#it’s just so complex n confusing & I’m having a really hard time coming to terms with everything#I get it people are busy and have their own things going#& they probably don’t think it’s a big deal losing Liam as it was just a silly little boyband to them#but to me n to everyone who was there for those years it feels so so strangely personal#like a longtime distant friend has just been ripped away so tragically#& not only the tragic death of a person but the death of your adolescence & all the innocence of that time#the end of an era that had so much joy n significance in your life#& I know it’s probably not easy to tell I’m upset bc I keep my emotions pretty much exclusively to myself (thanks autism)#but honestly it’s just so invalidating and isolating to not have anyone to talk to#I already feel so completely alone in general bc no one ever checks in with me n stuff like this just solidifies that#I just don’t think it would have been so difficult just to drop a quick message to say ‘hope you’re okay’ or ‘thinking of you’ at least#it would have made a difference#& I know this post isn’t gonna matter to anyone but I just had to get my frustrations out somewhere bc it’s weighing on me a lot#anyway if you got to here thanks for your time n I hope you’re doing okay!!#feel free to reach out to me if you ever want/need to ❤️❤️❤️#wow that was a lot#personal#Kirsty talks#my posts#my stuff#1d#Liam Payne#one direction
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that gorgeous fucking profile~🎃
#oh look it’s the person that’s sending me to hell in a hand basket#i really love that phrase ngl#that and ass over tea kettle#look at me saying more and more phrases from my grandparents as i get older#tbf some of the shit they said/say is fucking GOLD#so anyway#his perfect nose???#and jaw line???#he’s just genuinely very fucking attractive#and i know for some people he’s just this generic mundane like normal-attractive guy#but he’s just so fucking like irresistibly gorgeous fucking man#which still throws me off that i’m like ~this man is delicious~#but hey#ig that’s the confusing beauty of being a fucking bisexual queer#even if my scale leans heavily toward women/nb#wow maybe talk about oversharing#who the fuck cares#what’s tumblr for if not for oversharing#frnkiebby#frank iero#mcr#frnkiero#frnkie#mcrmy#mcr5#my chemical romance#my chem#ilhsm
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good morning i come to you all with a successor to this. also entirely vibes based
#justice for all those unnamed/unmentioned slaves that the suitors raped. not to be confused with the 12 that got hanged#homer just drops that tidbit like a fucking nuke and moves on. like hold on stop da bus WHAT#anyways everyone in odysseus’ household NOT rockin with the rapist incels deserves a gun. yes its 1200BC get them a gun#whispering to myself reading the odyssey eurycleia dont you just wanna go apeshit dont you wanna snap#peisistratus is just vibing the whole time. oh so i’m going to sparta with this guy? cool! why are we takin drugs with helen all da sudden#also philoetius my unbothered king how you deserve the world#and eumaeus my severely bothered king how you deserve xanax#find it so funny that polites in the odyssey ONLY appears to walk into circe’s house and get told gullibles written on the ceiling#odysseus#penelope of ithaca#telemachus#the odyssey#tagamemnon
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WE’RE SO FUCKING BACK WE’RE SO FUCKING BACK WE’RE SO FUCKING BACK
#YEAHHHH BABY LET’S GO.#GUESS WHO FINISHED WAY EARLIER THAN EVERYONE ELSE + IDENTIFIED ALL THE OVERLAPS & DEFENCES APPLICABLE + DID SUCH GOOD ANALYSIS.#I WAS SO GIDDY AFTER I LEFT THAT EXAM HALL HUMMING & SKIPPING.#PEP IN MY FUCKING STEP. JOYOUS WITH WHIMSY AND WONDER#GIRLWIN? GIRLCONQUER? GIRL KILL.#what the fuck was I even humming. like yeah I was humming to Some beat but WHICH.#ANYWAY HIIIIIIIII THE FUCKING EXCITEMENT HAS NOT WORN OFF YET I JUST GOT HOME.#also met this darling girl from another campus & she asked for my insta & she looked confused at the handle so she told me hers but I can’t.#fucking find her i’m so sad ):#she was omg where are you from . im sure you did so well what’s your Instagram <3 & she was so sweet. where is sheeeeeeeeee#anyway yeah can you tell I’ll be unbearably annoying tonight.#✧.*🌹
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Reading comics b like:
Is it just me or did that not make any sense?
#And that’s a genuine question too#did I miss something?#is that gonna be explained later?#or was that actually just poorly written?#Like I’m currently reading#Red Robin#Omg WHAT is the connection between that little girl who turned into a spider zombie and the Council of Spiders?#And I can’t tell if that’s the mystery we’re gonna find out or if I totally missed it or what#And also in#Robin War#what the fuck was that ending#I’m still so confused#Duke gives Damian a little pep talk to remind him that he’s a hero#to get him to stop working with the Court of Owls#and it WORKS#but the reason he was working for them was bc he was being threatened and Gotham basically held hostage#ofc Duke didn’t know that#but the solution to the problem just didn’t solve the problem#but it worked anyway?#did I miss something or was that a copout??#dc comics#comics#dc
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i saw so many great edits of the natlan characters that i almost got jump scared by the official art
#┊glimpse into the crystal ball ೃ༄#interesting character designs but now imagine if there was some melanin to go with it#listen i’m a white woman from pretty much the middle of europe and if you put me next to these characters i’d be one of the most tan there#that alone should tell you that sth isn’t quite right here#also the audacity to give surfer girl tan lines to show that she’s actually even whiter?#jesus fucking christ#and while i like the archon’s design when looking at it as a standalone character design#i was a bit confused as to why she’s wearing a biker outfit when she’s based on a culture with way richer designs?#like yeah she’s hot (pun not intended) but also ???#(should’ve just made it a kaveh skin smh /lh)#uhh yeah anyway i’ve been meaning to share these very surface level thoughts since the characters were announced#right now the only character to pull on my list would be columbina and she isn’t even confirmed for natlan#now if they decided to make it rain some melanin over all of natlan i’d change it#bc i do like the designs if i look at them without considering the greater context#it’s just a pity that we’re missing sth so crucial :|
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It's not just you! They borked my bookmarks too :(((
MAN. thankfully there’s a fix! but wow…poor tim, not even ao3 lets him stick to one identity
#the level of confusion i had opening my bookmark link#and staring at the results like huh…what’s miraculous ladybug doing here…#i have nothing against miraculous ladybug i just filtered out that specific crossover from my general tag check ages ago#however we are back in business. but also i wonder how much this fucks up other links#like people don’t usually share ao3 search links i guess#but i’m curious#anyway!#asks
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❗️NEWGLASSANIMALSGLASSANIMALSGLASSANIMALSGLASSANIMALSGLASSANIMALSGLASSAN-
#glass animals#honestly i wore out dreamland sm my brain took a lonnng break from expecting anything from them?? idk i’m just huh????#like….. when i say wore out#i cannot describe how much i listened to it#i usually have some vague idea even if it’s a ridiculous number#like 52 times in a month for an album or something (has happened)#i cannot recall w this#gonna say bc 2020 & they were Literally the last band i saw live. next morning everyone found out about everything annd lockdown. no joke#so it was big dreamland time when it dropped and revisiting their past albums when i broke out of its spell lmao#(pretty sure before that like january was when i listened to déjà vu 100+ times in a row tho so oop. it was a tough day lol)#anyway seeing this aww man. i really have had this band with me for a long long time. 🥹 i remember hearing gooey on the radio one night#driving home from work late @ night in 2014. the drive was so short i couldn’t be arsed to fish out my ipod & plug it in#sometimes so just popped on a good station i had preset. started the car and heard this *voice* and i was like who????#had to check the station bc it was an alt station and i thought i had it on another one which was fine i was just v confused#it was in the middle of the song & i was immediately anxious to know the name hoping i’d hear it & it wouldn't just flow into the next song#then the dj would pile the names together after x number of songs played bc i was tiired (but woulda stayed in the car ngl). got lucky &#ran inside to find it then yelled at my roommate the next day that she HAD to listen to it during a smoke session after work#(i was right & it blew her miiind)#god. what a fucking time. what a fucking band. idk what the disc horse is surrounding them now since they blew up via tiktok#i’m sure people are v quick to say they’re overrated bc of that but idk & i’m glad i don’t know. they’ll always be this#highly inventive incredible band i stumbled upon for the perfect night drive home after a long long shift#a band that came back from a Horrible accident that should have ended 1 of their lives & somehow didn’t & should have ended them#as a band (like still cannot believe Joe was drumming in 2020 & i saw it with my own eyes like how tf???!?)#a band deserving of all of its successes. glass animals forever
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You know, sometimes I’ll think “oh I really liked reading as a child but there weren’t any books that really molded my personality.”
And then I’ll look at a self insert character I’ve made and realize it’s literally a fucking reskin of Sydney Carton from A Tale of Two Cities.
#because I’m just#the model of good mental health.#complicated relationship with love? check#complicated relationship with alcohol? check again#I literally said in front of my whole ninth grade English class that I felt this man on a personal level#and was CONFUSED WHY MY TEACHER WAS WORRIED BY THAT#me in 9th grade: yeah this man with the lowest self worth I’ve ever seen and is willing to throw his life away for the ones he loves?#me: yeah I aspire to be him because he’s just like me fr#my English teacher: *that Walter White gif of him falling over crying*#*shaking my fist* curse you Dickens you ruined me literature wise#I will never be free of this fucking English cunt’s ghost#don’t even get me STARTED on the run on sentences that bastard has kindled in my writing#if I could go back in time only once I’d use it to personally curb stomp Charles Dickens#anyways. this is the most I’ve ever talked about a self insert to someone who’s not my bff or partner#will I ever mention them again or even in more detail? we’ll see#captain's log
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🎶 New poll tiiiiiimeeeeeee 🎶
This month’s poll will be!! *drumroll*
#And yet another poll!!#really enthusiastic to see the results 👀#for those confused on AxEllie i’m like 90% sure they dated at least once#Oh but Mars you forgot Aurelia and Tro-#No I fucking didn’t#I simply elected that it was way too trash for me to add#Aurelia and Troy shippers dni 🥰#/srs#but anyways let’s see how this poll goes!!#borderlands#borderlands poll#borderlands 1#borderlands 2#borderlands the pre sequel#borderlands 3#tales from the borderlands
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feeling so actively antisocial rn that i can’t even feel passively happy about pride. like great we get a month where people pretend to care about us before going back to either hating us or politely ignoring our existence. but it’s so fun that people get to go out and drink and dance and go to concerts and have fun with their friends!! not me though because i’m working forever and ever. but yay our shitty cishet manager got to see chappell roan. i’m sure that was so special for her
#honestly anything too upbeat is obnoxious to me rn. but also i have never felt included in pride celebrations#i’m still bitter about everyone going to pride without me in high school :/#how many times i came out to people just for them to conveniently ‘forget’ that i was gay#how much i see straight people post about pride. congrats you got your photo op + look like an ally on social media!!#you got to go to a party!! you got to make something that’s not about you about you again!! yay#why should i care. fuck you. it’s just an excuse for straight people to go to gay bars#and then it’s all the ‘kink at pride’ discourse WHO CARES do what you want and let other people do what they want who cares#but then i think about how pissed homophobic people must be perpetually this month and that’s a nice thought <3#anyway i’m sorryyyyyy but you will not be getting any pride posting over here but don’t get confused i’m still a dyke don’t worry
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