#anyway I say this bc on this our first day
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Happy Valentines Day ˏˋ°•*⁀➷
✉️ @reyreadersblog : holy ship i can't believe you stuck around this long. You were my first ever moot on tumblr. I remembered i got soooooooooooooo guilty when i lied and told u i was 14 instead of 13 lmao. hehe i lived up to it tho. THANK YOU FOR BEING HERE OMG YOU'RE SUCH A KIND AND OLD CRUSTY MUSTY GRANDMAW I LOVE UUUUU MWUAH WMWUA HWAMWAUHW AWMAWUHA (seriously tho idk what i'd do). to me u weere like AFAMOUS when i first followed u and i was sweating so badly when i dmed for the firs tlkem elieljkew;d
✉️ @clarissaweasley-10 : I LOVE YOU SOOO SO SOSOSO SOS SO MUCH OMG You dont nderstand (platonci!) JUST AYWJHAJUWHAU i love your blog i love your themes i love your unhingedness WE NEED TO BE NEIGHBORS IRL LIEK WHAT!!! I love our shennanigans we've had soooooooo much fun together than u for beign here omg NEVER LEVAE. IM SO GLAD I HIT THE FOLLWOE BUTTON ON YOUR BLOG AND I EIDLEKLWSOLWK im so grateful that ur here i dont know waht i'd do if u left (breakfdown)
✉️ @isthataraccoon fellow Sloane Tavish stan club member, dearest thou, thy haveth no idea what i'd you without you. THANK YOU SM FOR RECOMENDIN OUABH to me omg i had sm fun readin that (i have the irl copy now yaysies!). Fellow snow enjoyer (i need to get my ahnds on that) thank you for sticking with me throughout the year i am soooo greateful i've met u and still haev u in my life (even tho ur coutnry SUCKS!!!) but thats okay bc you can be nice to make up frot it hehe. SO GLAD I DROPPED IN UR INBOX AND START THE GRU THING HEHE
✉️ @trashbins-stuff : VIETNAMESE PEOPLE CLUB YAYYYYYY. FOR VALENTINES I WISH YOU 11.O IELTS BAND AND A PARTNER WHO BOTHERS TO Learn your pronouns and love and respect and mwauhw muwa wmuwha wmuawha. you deserve the world. your art si so amazing i love u thank u for beign there for me urejkjkeosdle (#antiielts). Know this tho, grades aren't everything and numbers on papers DO NOT get to dictate your worth. You are more than everyone thinks you're worth and never settle for anything less than waht u deserve,
✉️ @whatsuplin @arthur-side : LYN THANK YOU SM FOR RECCOMENDING ME TLOU I LOVED IT. Arthur YOU ARE SUCH A SWEETIE urekdlkl3ew;ol (plus LIFE SERIES nejoyier) I OVE YOUR ART SM. thank you both sbg nerds for berin here for me i wish you tons fo chcolestaes for valentiens day ogm
✉️ @momhwa1117: KJU AHTE CLUB LETSOOOOOOOOOOOOG. i dont know half the things ur talking abt but go girl i support u anyways (I DID WTCH THE ICE ON MY TEETH MV THO a coulpe of my friends who watch kpop played it for me hehe [mafia vibes yes]) I LOvE YOU.
✉️ @never-enough-novels : I. love. you. you.are.amazing.and. deserve.the.world NEVER EVER let anyone say otherwise. grades and social circles don't get to dictate your worth and go girl burn everyone who doubted you to the ground. (applause from me ofc). I wish you'd take care of yourself more than udnerstand that underproductvity or hardships are just a part of life, but don't let that brign you down and learn to be proud of yourself for what you've acomplished (I MEAN COLLEGE!!!!)
✉️ @lyrakanefanatic @inmyheaddd @his-littlefox @f4iry-bell : YOU WERE ALL MY FIRST MOOTS OGGGGGG thank you smmmmmmf ro ebign heere (yes u were the ogs). You've all been so sweet and kind to me ily smsmsmsmsmss, even tho i'd LOVE to get to know uuuuuu a lil better so we can properly interat more hehe, Hapyp Valentines. I LOVE YOUR FICS OMS
✉️ @mrs-hawthorne-bellingham DESBE DIEOLKEPIJKLEKEW. EEEEEEEEE you're so sosoossos amazing ( I LOVED YOUR STORYTIMES SM OMG) ehe i wis you the jude bellingham of your dreams for valentines AND LOTS OF CHOCOALTES
✉️ @lanterns-and-daydreams best sista ever (are we sisters? idk) BUT IM SO GLAD I MET U HEHE i alaways hagebe sm dfun talking to you (esp coming up with ideas to cook kenji and kill him) im so glad i met u and whether we r sisters or not doesnt rly matter cuz ull always be a sista 2 me. HAPPY VLANEITNES <333333333333
✉️ @randomfandom-3 : I've HAD SUCH A FUN TIME WITH YOU (even tho the anime convo was SO WEIRD LMAO [althoguh that was more bc the twins were weird]). WE dont talk much nowadays but im always happy to see u pop up on my dash. HAPPY VALENTINES
✉️ @gia-olir : I STILL DON'T KNOW WAHT TO CALL YOU LMAO. but ik that you're an excellent friend (even tho ur a feetus) and an even mroe excellent blogger. Seriously, love your art and your posts (i get s happy when i see you've reblogged sth o mine liek eyayaya omg) happy valentienssssssssss kidd
✉️ @elysianwayy77 I hate your bourfriend HES An ugly gulgy ugly ugly S43EWJKSLDK.LEPS; ugly rat BUT YOU'RE NOT SO HEHEHE (u have terrible taste tho im sorry) WHICH IS WHY I WISH YOU A BETTER TASTE IN MEN FOR VALENTINES DAY <3333 and death for kenji (seriously tho ily sm heehe)
✉️ and another HAPPY VALENTIENS TO @s-rosie @gusisayapper @ @freepumkin @sarahwithanh5 @anintellectualintellectual @beabeebeee @harukanaaaa (in love w ur art 24/7 i nearly had a heart attack when u followed bakc like OMG A CELEBRITY'S FOLLWOIGN ME) @starrynightsxo @aliciaverse @wraith--2 @x-liv25-jamieswife @pockyyasii @mt-jupiter @finnslay I LOVE YOU ALL SM THANK YOU FOR STICKING AROUND AND IM SO GRATEFUL TO SEE U, EVEN THOUGH WE DONT inteactract mch im always SO SOSOSOS ahpy to see your posts pop up on my dash ogm
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Slightly random question, but I wonder this myself a lot. If you were on WILTY, what would your unlikely truth be?
LOL I'VE NEVER THOUGHT ABOUT THIS
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
well
one that i couldn't tell but is my go-to dinner party story is the time that jason bateman cursed me out on the street lmao i noticed him and his wife walking past my friends and me, and i pointed (i thought subtly???) so my friends would see him like ~ooo a celeb is walking by~ but actually HE noticed ME and was like "why are you pointing me out!!!! i'm trying to go about my fucking day and have lunch with my wife!!!! take out a billboard on my location why don't you!!!!! fuck!!!! what the fuck is your problem!!!!!!!!" it was so intense LMAO obv even if i tried to keep it light and funny for wilty, he would just come off like an asshole, plus that's such an american namedrop for a bbc show
while we're on subject of flop celeb encounters that wouldn't work for wilty here's another one — back in 2011/2012 i lived across the street from paul dano, and at the time i was interning for the pr agency that was working on swiss army man (SO underrated pls watch it my fellow comedy fans). one day, i saw him in the subway and mustered up the courage that i typically never have to go up to him and say "mr dano! just wanted to say i saw swiss army man and you were fantastic. congrats on the production. really :)" and he just looked at me blankly like ........... and after about 5 of the longest seconds ever said "it hasn't even come out yet. how would you have seen it? 😐🤨" i was so shocked i was like 🧍♀️ LMAO but i eventually coughed up "oh i'm working with the pr team :) we're very excited about the film!" and he was just like "ah" and i said "okay i'll let you get back to your morning" and that was it. later when i saw him (and dan radcliffe, who was an angel <3) at the press stops, he didn't recognise me hahahaha GOOD. that would have been embarrassing. 😃 but i lowkey love that he practically accused me of lying or, like, having seen a leak or something. he said i don't trust no bitch!!!
OKAY ANYWAYS hmmmmmmmmmmmmm
something for wilty hmmmmmmmmmm
maybe that when i was in middle school i shit myself on the local news 😃
because i was a track n field champion for our state and there were junior olympic scouts visiting our school, the local news came to the first meet of the new season. i was hella nervous but ran my lil race, jumping hurdles, and got to the finish line — and i got first place!! yay celebration!! but right away i noticed no one was cheering or even smiling. my coach was there, my mom was there, the news people were there with their big ol camera, all looking like 😧😧😧 then i felt it...going down my legs. i looked down. POOP LEGS ☹�� i guess while i was jumping the hurdles i kinda...released ☹️ pooped myself ☹️ some of my teammates laughed at me ☹️ everyone pitied me ☹️ me, the winner ☹️ with poop legs ☹️ AND my parents have the recording of me finishing my race and beginning to walk towards the news people with my poop legs ☹️ thankfully wilty wouldn't ask for the clip bc no respectable network would show an old video of a child with poop on their legs ☹️
(don't worry, the local news didn't show my poop legs on tv, they just gave the recording to my parents)
IS THIS AN ACCEPTABLE UNLIKELY TRUTH 😃
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Overindulgence on Valentine's Day Chocolate~ 🍫💦
This was a very silly little idea I had in my head for Valentine's Day. It was originally going to just be a one-shot fanfiction I write but you should all know by now... xD
I don't know the definition of a one-shot fanfiction
My first ever stomach issue related themed sickfic~ :3
Here is the story (bc archive direct link doesn't wanna work)
Now as for the art, it's pretty self explanatory; our favorite silly little CEO received a lot of appreciation chocolate from some of the citizens of Kanai Ward. Touched by the gesture and finally receiving love reciprocated by the city he loved so much, he didn't leave a single sweet treat given to him untouched or uneaten.
This would later lead to disaster ;w;
Thankfully Yuma is there to lend him a helping hand :3
Spoilers for the Story's Outcome below~ (another drawing +further rambling as always lol I always say too much haha... ^^;)
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The best home remedy for an tummy ache is a good tummy rub 🩷
Okay, so I was honestly wanting to write a story like this for a while but was incredibly shy about it... Because upset tummy rubs lowkey are another very small guilty pleasure of mine. When a person gets an upset stomach from either being sick or from overeating, I personally find it to be a very comforting, touching and even at times very intimate gesture. (I even remember trying it myself to help a friend of mine w gastritis in highschool)
Sadly, I felt very shy and even embarrassed to want to try and write something like this, let alone draw it out... Tummy rubs are unfortunately often seen as kinks or are fetishized by other people so it's often seen as weird to the public... So it made me feel nervous to even share this story and art. I did have lots of fun drawing it, but I'm saying it right now, I do NOT fetishize this okay? ><;
(not trying to kink shame, its just not my intention here is all ;w;)
In fact; abdominal massages (a.k.a tummy rubs) are actually a real medical procedure to recover the pressure in one's stomach.
The pose of this art was incredibly difficult to draw but I am fairly happy with the way it came out. Yuma looks either doting or affectionate towards Makoto and Makoto looks perfectly relaxed laying in his lap c: Yuma politely took his shoes off but Makoto is the type to leave his shoes on even when he’s laying on furniture (we saw it in ch4 twice lol) They're such cuties, I love them so much💕 (I even added a kitty to convince myself that its cute and not weird... ;w;)
Truth be told, this idea was actually semi-inspired by a little doodle that @cochidinh drew on X. It made me think that if Makoto received valentines from the people of Kanai Ward, would he eat all of them?
And thus this story was born c: (its meant to be silly so please try not to take it too seriously... ;w; They may seem OOC here, I did my best but this is my first time ever writing a story like this so I might be rusty... ;w;)
EXTRA BONUS: Kitty Makoto 🐱
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Fun Fact: Did you know that cats only allow belly rubs from a person they trust? :3c I think Makoto is very cat-like tbh haha~
Anyway Happy Valentines Day🩷
Don't eat too much chocolate now! 💦
#rain code#whumpcode#master detective archives: rain code#rain code spoilers#yuma kokohead#makoto kagutsuchi#makoyuma#pixeldoodles#my art#valentines day#tummy ache#this is my first stomach ache fic#PLEASE BE NICE OKAY ;w;#its a bit different from what I usually do#tbh Idk if I'd say its really a sickfic#but my boy still suffers lmao xD#when you get too silly with the candy#be prepared for hell later lol#I know this is a good site to be weird#but I can't help but still worry ;w;#least the art is cute lol#I still hc these two to be tummyache survivors#somewhat proud of the way the second art came out :3
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Marvel movie quip humor is going to make the class I’m taking on comedy a living hell isn’t it
#not that it isn’t good *sometimes*. but jesus christ#kids don’t understand the innate horror in humor anymore and I am going to run circles around them in this class. as usual#anyway I say this bc on this our first day#we watched a clip from a korean film (called A Hard Day in case anyone is interested) and the mr crusote bit from monty python’s the meaning#of life and all the kids in that class HATED it but LOVED the korean fil#and me having watched this film backwards and forwards am going ‘… you taking the piss?’#like I’m sorry you can’t appreciate these pioneers in humor who disrupt cinematic form itself in the name of the punchline#the satirical nature of the bit commenting on british standards of propriety and establishment that uses corporeal humor to emphasize that#point. while also it meaning absolutely none of that bc none of these dudes was serious ever in their whole career (except they were)#BUT ME AND THE PROFESSOR ARE DIFFERENT SO SUCK MY CHICKEN NUGGETS
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working in a factory has you thinking so much about the insane chain of labor & transport that goes into making literally anything
#like first you realize that You are making & doing things that you previously had thought - if you'd thought abt it at all - were automated#& you become incredibly aware of how all the materials you're working with came from somewhere - these plastic clips are from france; this#fabric is from india etc. and that there are people in factories there making those things and that they are also probably getting their#materials from somewhere#one of the little things that makes me think about this the most is we have these 50m rolls of cotton banding we see onto canvas & nets#and in theory it should be all one piece but sometimes it's actually two pieces which you discover when you get far enough in the roll and#find that there's a join where it's been stitched together by hand (!). which is a little annoying bc we can't use that bit so you have#to cut that but out & stitch it together again on the machine which interrupts what you were sewing before & slows you down But it's so#striking to me bc like it's really easy to look at this banding & it's so exactly the same & obviously machine made it's Really easy to#forget that there are people there running these machines. who notice there's a break & have to stop what they're doing & get a needle &#thread and stitch it together. by hand! like someone somewhere has handled exactly where I'm touching it & i don't even know where in the#world they are!#the other place this happens is often on the selvedge edge of the fabric there's writing in pencil i don't know ye meaning of but evidently#was important to the process somewhere & someone wrote that out#idk like it's really easy to watch those videos of really specific machines in factories & convince yourself that everything is automated#but the truth is the vast majority of stuff is not & is made by people doing that. & even when it is there are people running those machine#<- and i'm not saying this in a soppy way tbc. this whole system is a nightmare of exploitation & to some degree I'm just continually amaze#by how insane this whole process is & also how completely un-transparent it is unless you are made to think abt it#another thing is noticeable when you look at our orders that most of what we sell isn't to customers it's to shops who then sell to custome#which then makes you think like. those plastic clips from france are they actually made in france or are we just buying them from france?#are they actually made by underpaid people in a country the name of which is completely lost to the chain of production at this point#anyways none of this is new it's just when you are working in a factory using this stuff you start wondering like.#what's the factory like that the person who stitched this banding together like. what's their day like there#wish we could talk abt how fucked up this all is - for them especially probably - together#thoughts
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so with echoes of wisdom .. i havent watched any of the trailers beyond the very first one and the thumbnails/screenshots and what others have said about it-
but with the world inside the rift being called "Welt des Nichts" aka "world of nothing/void" in german ('still' in english, for some reason) and demises title in french being "avatar of nothing" ... yeah my anxiety is shooting through the roof again
(hopefully you can be a little more forgiving for me being anxious/weird about it bc demise is my blorbo)
i had similar worries with totk, that werent proven true thankfully, but the darn book is making it all worse again with all those weird lore things the game doesnt even so much as hint at AND potential retcons- im in for a really rough time huh, not just stress in real life (more in tags.. its alot) but now about my specific hyperfixation from two things even (AND artblock still..)
weird as it may sound, i dont want demise to get more lore, partly bc i dont believe theyd do anything with him that i would like (given their track record) but much more importantly- the fact that he has this little lore about him is precisely one of the reasons why i fell in love with him, i tend to like characters that are neglected by the narrative, and his story being both so flat and already done meant i can be very creative with what i come up with for him without necessarily contradicting anything in canon (which is ... or was a big point of how i wrote destiny's story and lore, working with canon in a way that reframes it all without straight up ignoring it ... but i suppose i urgently need to let go of that and accept i spend alot of time working things that will go to waste :( ) AND not having to worry that there will be more stuff with him that would massively change not only what im writing but also potentially how i feel about him since the game he was briefly in was the oldest chronologically and ended with his death- i didnt expect them to mess with anything that far back and thought theyd just go forward and leave the timeline behind and wouldnt mess with it again, given how botw seemed to be a sort of 'fresh start' that seemingly regarded the past as the past that needs to rest and that the timeline was finally no longer a discussion if everythings unified through botw and one thing going forward
but i suppose i was very wrong with that .__.
right now the only thing that motivates me still is the left over determination and spite to work on my zelda comic, since i have never gotten this far and really want to get something done for once, but i cant lie that im feeling like i should pause all work on it too to wait and see waht the book and the new game will do .. either to determine if i still have the will to keep working on it after those things are out (my love for tloz has been taking alot of hits lately ..) or if i have to change stuff (mostly bc of my lore problem trying to not ignore it ..)
#ganondoodles talks#zelda#ganondoodles rants#sorta#suicide attempt mention in the IRL stuff im talking about in the following tags btw#theres some construction stuff on our house going on#and my father is extremely stressed about it#he used to be very explosive- being silent and then exploding out of nowhere .. probably left me with lasting damage yippie-#but now he much more lets it eat at himself bc hes old and feels bad for the past stuff so now it makes him irritated and depressed#my older brother is the most normal cis straight guy you can imagine and incredibly impatient and bossy (you CANNOT talk with him)#(brother doesnt live in our house)#and while hes helping out hes doing it exactly how my father doesnt like and since you cant talk to the guy (explosive +200) it stresses hi#to the point of my father yesterday saying that “it would have been better if i had just died back in the day”#likely referring to the time when he was drafted for the military against his will and tried to kill himself#which i learned only like .. a year ago- theres so little my parents tell me ....#its like my mother telling me- while my father was in hospital for heart surgery- that she not only almost died back when i was a young tee#and only survived bc of some incredibly unebelievable lucky coincidences (medics on a travel being there that knew what she had-#-while our local doctors said welp- nothing we can do lady AND them beign there with a helicopter and emergency transferring her#to antoher bigger hospital while giving her immediate treatment our local one didnt do- AND at the big one just so happened to have-#-an expert on that illness in the facility when she arrived who was able to narrrowly save her life#BUT ALSO while she was recovering and weak and frail as a dust bunny witnessing someone stealing hospital surplies-#not noticing she was in the room at first (which .. the nurses left her in the nurse room while going on break ... which uhm .. yeah cool)#and if my mother hadnt acted in time like she was fully asleep and the lady stealing stuff beign in hurry- she might have killed her#without my mother being able to fight back bc she could barely even talk (the nurses didnt want to believe her when they got back either)#ANYWAY that comment from my father brough me to tears#and my mom is trying out more ... other medication shes not prescribed in hopes of it helping agaisnt her many pains#but i worry it will interact with the other stuff shes on ...#and i worry so much about both of their mental and physical well being#always trying to be the one to calm them down or help with communication bc that is a big problem in this houesehold#but i myself am also a very much not normal and not medicated shut in who has trouble dealing even with my own feelings
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creation of adam but it's this photo of me handing scott the martini before his buddy cole set in the KITH toronto show
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#just now i was feeling shitty and scrolling through youtube until i saw someone had posted a clip of the buddy monologue from that show#and the clip just happened to include my cameo!! so i may be just sitting in my childhood bedroom still unpacking from college at 2am#but on my phone is the image of me sharing the stage with my favorite comedian in front of over a thousand people#so y'know life isn't always one thing. i'm capable of being bored and stressed but also capable of THIS#i wanted to comment on the video to say hi but the original uploader's comments were off#but this did make me feel a lot better bc oh my god that was such a fun weekend#i should text scott soon to let him know i'm done with college. and see if i can make new year's a tradition again#i met scott on new years (and even tho i'd talked to bellini before it was also the day we met irl for the first time)#and last year i managed to convince paul to invite me and scott and some other friends over for new years bc i wanted it to be a tradition#not sure if paul's up for it this year but i did ask scott about it last time i was in toronto#when i asked his plans for new years he said he might be out of town (which is okay)#but then when i explained it was the anniversary of when we first met he was like ''no actually i'll be here'' which was funny#my friendships with bruce and paul are generally in a similar place to where we were at the beginning of the year#(like obviously knowing each other longer makes us closer but our dynamic hasn't changed which is still positive bc we were already friends#but holy shit december 2023 jessamine and scott are like unrecognizable compared to december 2024 jessamine and scott#and the fact that we technically haven't even known each other for two years is WILD like it won't be two years until the 31st#anyway i'm getting rambly i'm tired i should sleep. my circadian rhythm is messed up and the lighting problems in my room are not helping#goodnight everyone see you tomorrow for more nonsense
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finally went and got my GED diploma a year after i graduated :)))))
#the check in woman was like 'come on you cant leave without saying bye first!' and iwas like nonononono please no#she made me go talk to the woman who single handedly delayed my graduated by 6 months.#who is annoying as fuck and super classist and pro college.#when she asked what i do for work i was like 'an educator' and she was like 'oh so you've used the free college credits to get your early#childhood education?' and i was like 'uhhh no. still just as against college as i was last year. i don't plan to be an educator for long.'#and she goes well what do you want to do (not your fucking business lady. at all.) and then when i said 'anything' bc real people don't hav#the choice of their dream job or nothing. real people have to just take whatever is available to them--esp in our dead town.#and she was like 'oh come on in during the summer! I'm here for summer school! can take a bunch of tests to find out what your dream job is#can figure out what colleges youd like!'#i was just like ''yeahhhhhh. anyway have a good day' and fucking left.#i was actually debating going to college just a month ago. for the first time in my life i was seriously debating college bc it was my#choice and n oone had been pushing college to me for years. and then she starts this bullshit and im even more anti college than i was in#highschool#anti college#college is a scam#not to mention 'come in during the summer to take completely unnecessary summer school after youve graduated with almost a perfect score'#???? seriously how entitled do you think you are to my time?#i have work this summer. i have plans this summer. and even if i didnt i sure as fuck wouldnt spend my time being preached at about how#im wasting my life and dooming myself to poverty bc i dont want to go 6 figures in debt#and lost 4+ years of time i could be earning wages.
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i managed to land a rental in a brand new multi million dollar house that was built with two entirely separate private ground floor suites for tenants? and the one we're getting is the one thats ground floor and has its own covered patio that is facing and opens up onto this MASSIVE backyard that looks like a fucking park??? they kept the old growth trees when they landscaped and holy shit. holy shit. all my years of weaselling my way into rentals with more pets than is normally reasonable were for this
#THE FAMILY WHO BUILT IT IS SUPER NICE!!! THEIR SONS A FRAMER AMD BUILT THE HOUSE HIMSELF FOR THE DAD WHO'S OVER IN INDIA FOR BUSINESS ATM#BUT WE MET THE WIFE AND SHE WAS REALLY NICE!!!!!#dude. its not like a shitty tiny 2 bedroom basement suite. both bedrooms are huge with walk in closets???#the living room is BIG too not just crammed in there with the kitchen like most places#kitchen is all new and so beautiful i could cry and same with the bathroom#theres a washer dryer in suite theres a dishwasher a big fridge a stove and OUR OWN THERMOSTAT#with central heating/AC#AND OH ITS A WALK IN SHOWER!!!!#I MISSED MY WALK IN SHOWER#just. oh my god. we nearly didnt get this place bc they were iffy on the cats#but i did my lil spiel on the expensive automatic kitty litter and etc etc pet deposit etc#and then was really nice to them when they changed the listing to keep looking#THEN THEY GOT BACK TO ME LATER THAT DAY AND WERE LIKE I TALKED TO MY DAD FOR YOU AND HE SAYS OKAY AS LONG AS THERES A PET DEPOSIT#anyways im very happy and terrified to park my shitty car in the driveway#and also so so happy i could get something so nice for my brother for his first place moving out :')#he was ecstatic when i told him that we actually got it after we thought we were denied#ALSO THE RENT IS **INCREDIBLY REASONABLE** LIKE ITS THE PRICE OF A NORMAL SHITTY SUITE????#god. holy fuck. im excited. im scared to be in such a nice place lmao i dont wanna fuck it up#oh for reference i have one huge dog and 2 cats and that is a Tough Sell for 2 bedroom suites
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how do i stop feeling like i'm in trouble all the time fr. sitting here on my lunch break like everyone's gonna be soooo mad when u get back...from lunch...which you are allowed to have.....(?)
#social anxiety kicking my ass so bad every day#unless my supervisor actually says hello you are doing an amazing job today and i dont hate you im like omg she hates me bc i suck......#miscounted the kids yesterday and left one on the playground for like two minutes and im still traumatized#she wasnt alone or anything there was another class w teachers but 😬🔫#killing myself killing myself killing myself#i counted them five times today tho#and the playground was empty which made it easier but ugh#infinitely better than my last job and im actually good at this but i still feel like my supervisor doesn't like me#even tho i think she's just a bit awk and has anxiety also lol#she was reading a book abt coping with anxiety the other day lol#also my other coworker w the drama likes me but the drama is always threatening to happennagain bc she doesnt like our supervisor#anyway#my mentor just got here before lunch for her half day shift so i feel better but aaaaa#way less stressful than my last job tho and im grateful but very stressed lately#also the owner of the school was in the room im taking lunch for a while and im like omg she's gonna be annoyed that im here#she's gonna judge me for having a chocolate bar like a shitty spoiled young person or whatever and listening to music bc im rude#i need to calm down fr#she complained abt lazy inconsiderate young people at my job interview so now im paranoid abt every interaction w her lmao#bc i am a lazy oblivious young person and also i took a sick day my first week which is what she was complaining abt said young people doing#but i legitimately was throwing up i Had to call out#that's life in child care#but ughhhh#i was determined not to bc this is a job where they expect you to come in even if ur sick#but puking is my limit i genuinely couldn't do it#anyway.#normal adult experience#doctor who told my mom i was high functioning i want our money back
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We should normalize bringing these sort of "small talk ideas" cards to meetings with other people so that it's possible to avoid the awkwardness of not knowing what to talk about to kick things off or if it's considered normal to talk about this specific thing and AUGHGHFCG all this stuff.
#i don't know what these cards are actually called. but what i mean by this is that well. ok let me tell you the whole story#which is that in my attempts to become more normal and functional i started attending these 'social skills exercise' group meetings#and at our first meeting instead of subjecting us to the awkwardness of introducing ourselves one by one#the group moderator prepared these cards with questions that we would take and answer in turns#and then invite all the others to contribute a bit as well. and that part was also not as scary as i feared it would be#some of the questions were kind of not very good interesting questions but still it didn't matter that much#because i am once again being proven that as long as the conversation is about something specific#it's really not that much of a problem for me to contribute like how when i had these zoom meetings with people#that discussed my interships back in my two final semesters of uni of course at first i was super stressed. BUT once the meeting started#and it came to the actual talking? it was no problem at all suddenly like wow sometimes i actually can talk to people#but yeah the 'what do i talk about' is the problem. and another realization i had here is that i'n in fact naturally predisposed to rambling#because i rambled a lot during this meeting i feel like and i think i'm already starting to vibe with one girl from my group in particular#yet my biggest problem most of the time is not saying anything at all in most situations. because of. the masking#it's literally such a big thing to overcome i've been having such huge realizations about this. but yeah anyway#i already had the opportunity to mention sparks lol. bcs one question was to tell the others about a movie#that left a huge impact on you and well why would i lie about this and not talk about TSB and my tendency to become obsessed with old bands#another observation is that when you put 4 socially awkward people in one room the result will be that it will feel very akward#to no suprise of course. but also there is something relieving about not being THE ONLY awkward one in a group you know#but well yeah all in all. man the mysteries of human communication. maybe i'll get it all one day#goosepost
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#SO i’ve been gunning for an educational leader position for a while and much to my dismay our current EL is being transferred to a new#centre and she is exactly what I aspire to be as an EL and I’ve been wanting to train under her#but they just haven’t made it happen so now her entire role is up for grabs#or so i thought#but another teacher who is like best friends with the entire management team is getting it bc they all referred her#and i hate that i think it but she is nottttt great at her job#and I’ve actually been interim EL on a super short term basis multiple times this year when they’ve been searching for new ones so#wouldn’t you think…. that i’d be their first option????#the other teacher has no prior experience and albeit mine is small it’s something and i rocked that shit#idk them deciding to go with her makes it sound like they think I didn’t do a good job but they asked me multiple times to be the interim EL#so doesn’t that say something???? IDKKKK anyway i’m really upset and enraged and I just hate that#everything is a ‘not what you know but who you know’ game these days#and i’ve said it for months that if this other teacher ever makes EL before me and i’m supposed to let her ~train me and support me then i’d#resign right away because I am not about to set back my career bc they decided to give their friend a whirl at a new title#ANYWAY fun times fun times
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anyway i need to hang out with my brother again he is the one person who i am pretty sure knows literally everything about me so he's the only person i trust that i can absolutely not disappoint. nothing i can do could be worse than the sum of everything i've been doing to that poor man (and him to me) the past 19 years
#especially now that im back into literally the only interest we actually share on a deep enough level to enjoy it together LOL#i mean we were also both into hannibal but thats just not an enjoyable show to watch together its too much effort#but wow that time we read das boot slash fanfic on the bus together that was awesome#and the time we wrote fanfic together lol LITERALLY WHY DID WE STOP#he has only gotten cooler and more comfortable with his gayness since then we need to write fanfic again ‼️#anyway i feel sorry for every person in my life but i dont think anyone ill ever know could ever have as close a relationship to me as him#were platonic soulmates lol but like not in the spiritual sense bc its pretty obvious that its not some supernatural bond#its juuuust shared trauma haha and the fact that our trauma is so complex and layered that only we will ever truly understand each other#there has been a really rough patch where we practically did not talk for 4... 5? whole years im serious. maybe on the weekends sometimes#while we were stewing in our own shit. but now were inseperable i think it actually pisses off the rest of our family because every time#theres some event where we meet again (we live like 5 hours apart) we only hang around for like an hour before we get in his car#and drive somewhere and hang out there for the rest of the day and night and only return at like 3am drunk#in a sense i guess were catching up on all the missed time#to be honest we both had some horrible shit going on in our heads me with the transgenderism and toxic relationship#him with his anger issues and (what he calls) psychopathy. like ill say this much he was not a good person as a child he was a devil#he was quite literally what some describe as born evil like u know those satans spawns kids that cut off babys fingers and dissect rabbits#all that yk. and i was his first and most frequent victim due to availability lol and my parents did not know any of it and if they did#they ignored it. so yeah u can imagine the relationship was a little strained and for a long time i lived in fear of him#also due to all the death threats and attempts on my life HAHA its kinda funny because i can say all this all detached now#but i think to anyone else this sounds mad as hell. like im not talking roughhousing or being mad at each other#he was always scarily calm and hyperintelligent he was actually diagnosed with some form of like super high intelligence that#makes kids capable of being really manipulative and thats what he used at every turn. everything was always calculated that was scary#if he was nice to me i would question if he was trying to lure me somewhere to hurt me yk?#anyway. sometimes those old thoughts come back when were hanging out alone but mostly i know hes changed and worked on himself#sorry oversharing oh wow
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ppl really b acting as if there's only one specific ship that has weird shippers that will complain about ppl not shipping their otp. it's literally always the case you either get fucked over for liking a gay ship or for liking a straight ship or for liking a toxic ship or people just start going "oh there's nothing wrong with the ship but the shippers💀" and you don't fucking know what they're talking about. like can we all just chill. the weird shippers r everywhere it's called some ppl are assholes sometimes. it's not fandom specific
#it's like with the “x ship sent death threats to the author!”#first of all : proof?#second of all: I've heard this for multiple diff ships that is not new that is not exclusive to one fandom or one ship.#sometimes ppl in fandom r too invested and do stupid shit#god#I'm sorry I doomscrolled another Instagram reel comment section#it's just. I'm so tired of ppl talking about mha's fandom as if it's the worst thing of all time?#first of all no its not? fucking chill?#second of all. if the fandom is ruining the show for you then genuienly get off the internet#third. so sorry but half of the time when ppl say the mha fandom is awful they're either calling it cringe (fandom is always cringe get over#it it's ok) they're complaining about everything being gay (so you're a homophobe ok. literally what is wrong with making character queer#ON OUR OWN INTERPRETATIONS OF THE STORY. DUDE.#)#or theyre just.... picking up random shit thats been rumored to have happened or that's just an isolated thing that happens all the time in#every fandom (refer to my earlier points)#genuienly. if the fandom pisses you off that much. get off the internet . block the tags. like for your health.#it's so annoying to try and look at mha stuff or even TALK IRL#WITH PEOPLE WHO LIKE MHA#(i am not fucking with you this has happened)#and being told or reading that oh mha is fun but the fandom sucks :///#sorry you don't experience whimsy and are incapable of curating your own experience?#Jesus#(there's also the ppl who r like ugh mha is mid mha sucks in like comments of mha fan but like fuck these guys#you're entitled to your opinion I if you don't like mha that's fine I'm not going to throw eggs at you but like...#why do u feel the need 2 go into a comment section of stuff that is about mha to say that mha sucks actually and the author is bad and the#characters r badly written and blah blah blah. LEAVE ME ALONEEEE)#Anyway maybe one day I will finally leave Instagram but for now I can't bc fukcing. ppl r on there#mumblings//#rant
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Honestly so iconic of Gus for his first crush to be on a girl who ended up being a grave robber. He didn't know that at the time but I feel like it's indicative of who he is as a person. Matt is only slightly better (still a weird fucker with loose morals but at least he helped foil that particular grave robbing)
#ramblings of a lunatic#toh#the owl house#gus porter#bria is in one episode and she's not an especially three dimensional character but i find her inherently funny#cute little girl who loves bullying and hitting ppl with rocks. definitely permanently traumatized after that ep#also we don't know that this is Gus' first crush per say but considering he's just hit puberty and this is the first time we've seen him-#-show interest in someone else his age (however fleeting it was bc again. he's 12 and she's a grave robber. this is a one day experience)#also it'd be funny. that's my motive here#anyway it might not be obvious at first glance but me and Gus do infact have many things in common#including our awful taste in girls who want to chew us up and spit us out#my lesbian awakening was my childhood bully
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still reeling over the fact that almost 2 months ago the guy i was talking to (not dating, but definitely 'seeing') took another girl TO MY AND MY ROOMMATE'S APARTMENT to FUCK HER ON OUR AIR MATTRESS while i was ON VACATION THOUSANDS OF MILES AWAY
honestly. how do i get myself into these situations
#followed by him being blackout drunk sleeping on our DOORSTEP the very next day#he said he thought it was weird i said i liked him so soon into meeting him#but he would constantly say shit like 'falling for you more now' and 'my friend told my sister i have a new gf now'#like OKAY HOMEBOY#so dude it's so fucked i'll give more details in these tags in case anyone cares for a lil more context#before my trip back to california for sdcc i talked to him#said hey i know we're not dating but while im gone for almost 2 weeks are we gonna mess around with other people? like where is ur head#he said 'you can sleep with other people because you have a higher sex drive than me but i won't be doing that but you go ahead'#and im like okay weird response but okay cool#before i ended up leaving actually i did end up hooking up w someone and when i came back to my apartment he said 'looks like someone had a#'fun night' but he said it like....in a salty fucking way and i was like ur not allowed to be mad bc you refuse to be in a relationship wit#me despite me LETTING YOU LIVE WITH ME AND MY BFF FOR THE LAST ALMOST MONTH#oh yeah that part too#he was evicted and was staying with us for a few nights that turned into almost a month#NO he did not pay rent YES he did eat all our food#YES im an idiot for not seeing his red flags sooner but i was infatuated#so anyway my friend goes 'he's salty you fucked another dude' and im like excuse me how the fuck is he gonna be mad when WE TALKED ABOUT TH#*THIS#now granted it was a day before my trip so it wasn't ON my trip that i slept with someone else#but im like. how are u gonna be mad im gonna go enjoy myself when you've made it painfully clear you want me but want 0 strings#so anyway while im in california my bff calls me like hey dude john is on our air mattress naked with another girl#i was like excusethefuckME#because 1. he wasn't supposed to be at our apartment anymore so i was surprised he was there at ALL#and 2. how are u gonna ever be living RENT FREE with someone and INVITE SOMEONE ELSE OVER TO FUCK IN THEIR PLACE#i could honestly go on but i doubt anyone read this far as it is#this situation has fucked me up#first red flag should've been his name being JOHN
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