#anything -. still keeping that blog as semi active but yeah)

[theha1r]

it's literally 2 am & no one's around but i plan to write tonight. life's just been busy lately & also struggling with the weird feelings i talked about in my previous posts/posts last night (all deleted bc i don't like keeping negativity on my blog, i save the nice words), but i really do want to get some done tonight & i'll probably be up for quite a while. steve is staying my current most consistent muse & i wanna get shit going, i know things have been piling up. sooo yeah <3

[jeonqkooks]

goodbye :)

not really lol this was clickbait 🤠

BUT now that i have your attention, i am going on a semi writing hiatus tho. i feel like this is long overdue. i'd like to start off with a couple weeks, maybe a month, maybe longer, idk? we'll see how it goes.

i'll still be relatively active on tumblr - answering asks and whatever bullshit i usually do - and discord (bc let's face it, i have nowhere else to be lmao) so i guess this is mostly a formal announcement for myself so that my brain can process the fact that this! bitch! needs! a! f*cking! break! 👏 it's not like i even have a regular update schedule to begin with, so for most of you things will probably feel the same. but tbh for me, writing doesn't feel as fun as it used to. it hasn't for a while, and neither has being on tumblr in general (some days it fully feels bad being on tumblr but i'm still Here bc i do not know what to do with myself lol).

don't get me wrong, i still love writing and i still want to write. but i just want to be able to actually enjoy it instead of feeling pressured to do it, yk? so i just need to find the spark again bc right now it feels like a chore and we definitely don't want that 😕

also - i feel like most writers go through this at some point - i keep (unintentionally) comparing myself to other writers and a bitch just cannot stop lmao. i've noticed that whenever i feel stuck while writing, i'd look to others and i'd think "damn, why can't i do this or that?" and that'd just make me feel worse lol miss girl gotta work on that. i mostly keep stuff to myself and lately it's been a little More than usual and i don't want to keep going when i obviously need a break only to end up overflowing one day and impulsively deleting my account (i probably won't lol this is my permanent address)

i'll use the time off to get back into reading too - god knows i haven't been reading fics as much as i used to. apologies to all the writers whose works i've been dying to read for so long but just haven't had the energy to sit down and dig in. reading is one of my main sources of inspiration (i made this blog bc i loved reading so much that it inspired me to write my own shit!) so hopefully that'll help the process too ✌️

unrelated to the writing bit but i also kinda want to use the extra time to start working on a professional portfolio and maybe jump back into my wack ass redbubble shop lmao

sooo yeah. i'm not gonna pull a one direction and just ride off into the sunset for good lmao. if anything, i hope i'll pull a bangtan and bounce back with even more content and vigor than before. maybe this is jeonqkooks chapter two 😎

maybe this was a bit dramatic lmao but anyways, sorry to anybody who thought i'd be leaving. unfortunately, you're stuck with me until tumblr gets swallowed up by the sun <3

[ranboo5]

Ooh, you mentioned c!Techno — any c!peerpresurduo headcanons? I may or may not be a bit obsessed with them :)

REAL AND ALWAYS TBH CPEERPRESS THE WORLDDDDD when I was more I active I was fully a cpeerpress blog at heart tbh and I like to think in essence I still am... they really are all that matters. Under cut for. Oh my god I was worried I wasn't gonna be able to deliver but THEMMMM

Headcanons wise I'm not gr8 at dragging up novel stuff on the spot BUT . I do like to think wrt offscreen interactions - I laruve cRanboo litol Hypixel backstory . The fashion thing is extremely covered ground but I do thing they discuss also specifically the angle of like . OK so going off Techno's skin Ranboo's skin and hell even applying it to Squid's tuxedo I like 2 think that fictional Hypixel fashion sense/movements just kind of are like that (see: Myzzy design!!!) so I think they should trash on people's wardrobes. - Idr if I ever posted this but it's fine. Philza being the kind of guy he is definitely has some kind of preserved:tm: cellar and he among other things at one point gets into keeping a ginger bug. He produces a decent amount of pumpkin sodie using the farm and the bug and ofc his store is officially open to both of the other commune denizens, which they both do interpret as an "at all times" thing. Which it is, even if Phil didn't necessarily intend to get woken up by the world's unstealthiest insomniacs walking into his house in the dead of night in search of a carbonated drink - I don't know if they run across each other during this or if it's during an excursion of some kind but I have the image in my mind so strongly that at one point in conversation Ranboo as like a haha yeah semi-sequitur just drops an episode of The Horrors as like . It's not Quite a litmus test but it's there, both spontaneous and dragged out like pulling teeth somehow, and even someone more astute than Techno wouldn't have a clue what to do with it. Fortunately, Technoblade, being greatly socially competent at Chilling and Having Fun, takes only a second before going "oh yea. HATE it when that happens." I don't know what the Horrors being obliquely referenced in just enough graphic detail to be unsettling while also deeply useless in figuring anything out are so I also don't know if Techno knows how it feels:tm: or not odds are strong either way tbh but regardless of that he DOES say "oh yea. HATE it when that happens" - on a lighter note one day Techno gets sick for an excursion and fervently denies this, which Ranboo dutifully yes-ands while also handing Techno tissues every five minutes - Ranboo once explained the cobblestone decisions made about the sky city EXTENSIVELY to Techno, and in this explanation also never got around to mentioning what they were building or why. Techno didn't ask. - Techno successfully taught Ranboo at least one recipe that he did not know prior to teaching it as if he'd known it for years. If this happened multiple times it has a roughly 50-60% success rate wrt making things that are good - I think it does matter that during and leading up 2 Ho16 proper Ranboo was not in contact w/ people at the commune . After it respawns somewhere locally it takes off in disgust as soon as it can, makes for the mangled desert, falls asleep in an alcove of sandstone somewhere and is awoken when a wandering enderman chances upon the sand it's walled off with, and before it can say anything they ask Ranboo if it's lost. The question pulls him up short and he finds himself saying something like "a little bit, I guess," and the language isn't as clumsy in their mouth as it was last month and a nondescript memory of talking at Phil slowly clicks into focus Techno is dealing w/ his Distraction Of The Week when Ranboo walks back into the commune -- this week he's reading about bead recording and is trying to figure out if and how to apply this to Syndicate signaling. It's not going great. Anyway the snow rustles and Ranboo clambers awkwardly over the fence across the yard, and when Techno throws him the "sup" he just stops mid path to his house and walking circles into the snow explains that he is going to bed which manages to start a ten-minute conversation about nothing that lasts until Ranboo attempts to lean on a fencepost in fidgeting and nearly passes out asleep on the spot, in similar kind to when you pop into a Discord call for "just a minute before bed"

[kaserolly]

Update regarding me and this blog 💚

Hi everyone! Mina here.

I think you all noticed that I've been posting less and less lately. This is due to many factors, including uni stuff and me slightly losing my interest in sports.

I love being part of this fandom, I love posting about football and formula 1, don't get me wrong... it's just... these sports are getting less and less fun to watch, plus I don't feel as much excitement as I used to. Looking back, I used to post a lot and I mean A LOT about my fave drivers, fave teams, fave clubs etc. This was cuz it helped me forget about the problems I had irl, as it was around that time I was recovering from a pretty traumatic hand surgery AND I had to study hard for the national exams I had to take at the end of 12th grade.

But yeah, with time, I started posting less and less, to the point that I'm now a shell of what I used to be. Plus I started uni around a year ago, so my posting habits have become less frequent.

Also, I feel like the fandom isn't a safe place for me anymore. Sure, I have close friends who I keep in touch with from time to time, and I will always be honoured to be their friend, I love them from the bottom of my heart!!

However there are still some bad apples... I won't go into too much detail but yeah, be careful who you interact with.

Anyways, onto the update itself: this blog will be semi active, I'm not going on a hiatus or anything, I'm not gonna deactivate or abandon this account... because I wanna get myself to like football and formula 1 again. I want to be back here.

I'm more active in the D4DJ fandom on a different platform. Sooooo if you know and/or play this game, I'd be happy to see you there :3

Also I'll be active on Discord too so if you wanna talk to me make sure to add me @/kaserolly 💚

I'm rambling too much vhghhhg sorry ;-; goodnight everyone

Mina 💚

[hot-take-tournament]

sorry if my take sounds deeply incomprehensible i just kept going back on submitting it and knew if i didn’t ramble it all out in one take i was gonna chicken out again LMAO

don't worry about it at all!

i think an incoherent infodump every once in a while is good for the soul!

look, if we're being totally candid -

i have pretty severe adhd comorbid with bipolar disorder, which i do my best to mask - yeah yeah, i know you're not supposed to, but i doubt i'll ever truly shake the shame, especially given the things i've done as a result of failing to mask, both online and irl (the latter being much, much worse) - so i've resolved to do it for the rest of my life

i did talk a little bit about what i was like on my main blog here, which you might need for context:

(speaking of which, please don't actually follow or even go to my main blog just because you like this one - i'm 100% fucking serious. i'm a very different person over there to the point of being almost unrecognisable, even to myself - and i guarantee that side of myself wouldn't recognise me either; we're like two parts of a very fucked up whole. so for that reason i want to keep these two blogs separate; like i said, i'm bipolar, so that's where i let the venom out, and when i feel joyful again, i come back here. i'm more active here anyway, to the point where i basically consider this my main blog now - i mean, my bio isn't even up to date over there)

the point is although i plan to mask for the rest of my life, even i'm partial to an unprompted infodump or oversharing session every once in a while

that's the reason i want this blog to be a safe place for people to vent/infodump/just share their wildest takes anonymously, while still having a little fun by making it a tournament - it's partly to atone in a cringe kinda way, but also because this dumbass site has actually been a huge source of support in some of the darker points in my life

it's almost ironic in a weird way - i spent so much time targeting other people for their mental health problems, but when i had some of my own i came crawling back to those same people. maybe karma does exist lol

no, i didn't ever interact with any of them; but just lurking on their blogs and reading their posts helped normalise what i was going through when i felt so alone after receiving my diagnosis; though it was always in the back of my mind that maybe a year earlier i would've seen those same posts and done my level best to make them feel like shit for it just for the sake of a little dopamine hit

i'm a proud airhead, but i'm not naive - i'm not going to lie to you and say that tumblr is a safe space, partly because nowhere on the internet is safe, partly because i've read some of your takes and they terrify me, but mostly because i'm living proof of how awful this site can be

but i do want to at least create one semi-safe place on the internet after ruining so many other people's

jesus i'm fucking crying that's new lol

anyway sorry for taking your incoherent infodump and exchanging it with one of my own, that's probably more info about me than you ever wanted to know

but i hope this provides a little context for why i decided to start this blog

the point i was actually trying to make, because i'm pretty sure i never actually responded to what you were saying - never feel embarassed to submit anything! trust me, i totally get it; but i promise, even when i make jokes about some unhinged takes, it's all light-hearted, and if it ever comes across otherwise, please let me know! <3 <3 <3

i'm gonna take a quick break, i'll catch up with you all again later

[autumnalmind]

.: The Intro :.

Void / Aki || 25+ || They/He || Nonbinary

Cladotherian: Felidae / Cats

Therian + Past lives

Otherkin + Fickin

currently self-Dx’d system (seeking professional diagnosis)

The Rundown:

  Hiya, I’m Void / Aki! This blog is a remade version of an older one...as well as reworked from what it used to be. I am constantly learning to understand myself better, learn new things, and make friends.

   Feelings of being nonhuman have persisted since I was young, and... This is me putting it to a semi-active blog, to stretch those sides of me out, and be in a community that knows what it’s like [to have had similar experiences].

   There’s still more to say, but I'd rather keep this short. I’ll put a bit of extra information under the cut- the stuff I feel like sharing- and... Yeah, hope you enjoy being around here!

TL;DR of Rules: Don’t be an asshole. No discourse, at all, no exceptions. TERFs and queerphobes, bigots, anti-kin, stay off my blog. I unfollow/block to my tastes; it’s not that deep if it happens. I’m not consistently on this blog nor have much spoons, pls be patient with me. (I’m not ignoring you.) Please don’t assume things about me; ask if curious, sure, but I’ll (system included) bring up if I need advice on anything. Most alters can be asked to front, but don’t expect them to magically show up. Consider it more like submitting a request; either they’ll show up or you’ll wait until they do, that’s all.

  So the short of it... Always had alterhuman-like experiences, starting with Pokemon when I was in elementary school. A persistent, but subtle connection to wolves...and a connection to felines that has never stopped. If anything, only got more active with time.

    I found the fickin community first, through OFFkin, but eventually that made its way to finding therians and otherkin. Kinda been at home ever since, if very quietly; lurking for years, on and off.

.:.:.:.

   As of July 2022 (the time of me originally writing this), I’ve been self-Dx’ing as plural. To keep it short, I’ve already taken the MID with my current therapist, and we’re both working on getting me to a specialist. In the meantime, I continue to research, read other peoples’ experiences, and speak with my therapist about my experiences, but I’m unsure of when/if a professional diagnosis will happen.

   For now, I, again, use plural terms to describe my mental experiences and those I communicate with in there, but... Only time and a professional can tell, I suppose.

[ There’s still quite a lot of denial in here, but I’m working to accept it. Doubt has only created further damage, and I function better utilizing system-based tips. ]

.:.:.:.

    Decided to not save this for last, so... Links for those on mobile, as well as main blog mention.

Main Blog: autumnshaven

Sideblogs: liltieflingprincess ✦ jokersdiamond ✦ lovelybloodybites ✦ deathstime ✦ dammyrammy 

Alter Main-blog: prayersfromaerith

Her “Roommates”/Sideblogs: spring-core ❀ painters-sun ❀

Current... System List || Therian/Otherkin List || Fickin List

.:.:.:.

  ...Alright, that’s about it, I suppose. Quick bit of rules first. That will hopefully be more coherent than the quick-notes above.

Don’t be an asshole. Given that this is my space and I prefer it to be a zone I feel safe in... Just don’t. Transphobia/Queerphobia, racism, etc. will be blocked.

I’ve already blocked some people in the community, but... Don’t take it to heart if I unfollow or block you. I simply cultivate my space/what I want to see and...that’s kinda it.

I’m not consistently on this blog; I’m not ignoring you. This has been a problem in the past with new people & me, so I’ll say it now: I don’t often have a lot of spoons, these days. I need a lot of quiet time to recharge, or to limit my communications w/ people who I already know/am comfortable with. Again, it’s no spite on you if I’m just reblogging here or going silent; I just need a break.

[EDIT] Also suffering from a Tumblr glitch where my messages/IMs will be “read” for me and I won’t get the notif that I was messaged at all. Please be patient with me!

(However, if it’s been a few weeks, you’re free to poke me. Just don’t go overboard and we’re good!) But yes, I never do this to “intentionally hurt people” or whatever. Please keep this in mind.

Don’t assume things about me. I’ve taken quick note that- occasionally- there will be some anon who wants to say, “Actually, I think you’re [this].” I don’t want any part of that! No thank you! Just go, please! I will absolutely understand advice given in good faith (“Hey, what you described sounds more like [X], you should check that out”), but essentially telling me what I should do...no.

(As well, if I’m looking for help...I [or my system] will ask for it. Anything beyond that is a bit much, imo.)

I don’t get into discourse. At the current moment, I still have a lot of learning to do and I wholly understand that. So for that reason, I don’t want any- from plural sides nor alterhuman- to be brought my way. If I rb any of it, it is for __my own learning experience__. I do not want to talk about it. (You can still send an ask/DM, but there’s no guarantee I’ll respond.)

On that note: I can try to provide advice for otherkin/therians, but am uncomfortable giving advice over system-related topics. Personal comfort, as well as the prior mentions of denial I have over being a system, myself. I just personally don’t feel qualified, so please direct those questions elsewhere. Thank you.

I’m still learning terms, how to interact with the community, etc. Definitely wanted to mention this, after noting that KFF is controversial in the otherkin side and so are the terms “kinnie,” “kinning,” and “kin” [as a verb]. Wanted to give a heads up that, while I’m not the former, I’m still “learning the language” as it were, and might still use these terms. However, and I once again stress, I am not KFF.

.:.:.:.

    Thanks for reading! Keep the rules in mind, and we’ll be just fine. Asks are open, as well, for anyone curious about...anything, really. We’ll get to it when we can.

[avaritia-ffxiv]

Do you have a favorite character? Do you have one you wish you had rp for but don't yet? Can you tell us a bit about either / both?

Oh oof. If we keep this to FF14, like, I love all of my muses, but I’d still need to say that my straight up favorite is Saahe. He was the first, he’s my main, the one I’ve spent the most time with, and also the one shipped with my favorite NPC. What’s there not to love for me (and also out of my characters he has the most meaningful relationships with Angoul and Aelfrun, two of friend’s characters, which adds to it. I love ‘em all).

As for who hasn’t had an rp yet, that’d beeeeeeee Ash n Runa and Dzudzu n co.

Dzudzu I think is a bit more difficult character to interact with just because he’s so fickle that it’s hard to get anything meaningful going with him, and I do love meaningful. So for him I’d kinda hold off until I found the right person with the right character to write with so we could get something other than “was a good time, I shall now proceed to forget all about you!” on his part. I don’t really enjoy one-off threads; long-term story-building is what I’m after. But yeah it’d either need to be another Xaela that hit it off with him because he is biased for Xaela, or just someone else who either had such good synergy with him or challenged him to a point where he couldn’t just write them off.

So, he’s on hold until such a person comes along, but who I would more actively hope for a thread for would be Ash n Runa. She’s my second oldest character creation date wise and I do have a very soft spot for her despite how awful she is on the outside, but I’d just really, really love for her to make some buddies outside of Ash and get some chances to work through her issues. Ash is great for her, but he’s only one person.

Of course with her being a little ball of undiluted rage, Ash is kinda semi-necessary as a buffer ‘cause she’s not likely to get anywhere with anyone otherwise. Either the other person won’t take her shit at which point it’s... Not likely to end well for anyone, or they will take her shit and she’ll lose respect for them, or they’re oblivious to her shit and she’ll take an extra disliking to them.

How I’d handle her, then, would just be to either have Ash present, or introduce Ash and the other character first before bringing Runa in later ‘cause she tries to behave herself for his sake, extra so if he’s friendly with someone ‘cause she doesn’t want to ruin his relationships. And Ash is far easier to get along with on account of being a total sweetheart. Of course I don’t want to delegate him entirely and only to the role of enabling interactions for Runa, but that’s definitely one job for him on the side of building relationships of his own. I'd imagine he’d mostly just need someone who wasn’t a total asshole to him or in general because if he can’t see you as anything other than an ass then he’s not going to stick around (or rather, Runa won’t let him stick around to be a doormat as he’s kinda wont to do).

Although one new opening was made by my shenanigans of fantaing Runa into a Xaela, and that’s the whole she wasn’t born a Xaela and doesn’t know that much about about the Xaelic cultures. Considering she’d still love to learn, tossing a Xaela at her would most likely have her to try to curb her worst behaviors for the chance of getting some new infos.

And then of course there’s also Rise and Darcevain, but I haven’t finished their blog yet and I’d honestly need to give more thought to what I’d like to have for them. Possibly some magically inclined Elezen, at least for Rise. Duskwight would be a plus most likely.

[kirkwall-age]

been crazy swamped irl so i don't even have time to properly queue up posts to keep the blog semi-active. it should clear up soon and i will be back to my regularly scheduled nonsense!

but.... uh..... 👀...... i saw that DA Poly Exchange 2024 is up. and i don't usually do exchanges because, well, executive dysfunction may strike at any moment. (last time i tried to participate in a fic exchange, i ended up hammering out chapter 1 and 2 in a month, and then posted chapter 3 FIVE years later. we don't do well with deadlines in this house. 😬)

but you can simply pick a prompt and submit directly to the exchange without signing up. and with my little eye i DID see a ship that.... frankly, blew my mind.

like, i'm an old hat at rare pairs. the more incongruous the better. and of the nominated ships none surprised me: some are kind of out there, but i still get how people arrived at the destination. except there was this one ship. which... i read the combination of the three names, and the top of my skull opened up like a surprised garbage can when you step on that little pedal lever. the literal definition of this emoji 🤯

and now we're 5k into this mess baby.

i'm not gonna say what the ship is because the exchange is supposed to be an anonymous surprise. you're not supposed to announce your plans xD. so this post is, hopefully, just a foreshadowing. or a form of edging. whichever way you look at it.

but the ship is just so insane i HAD to write a justification for it. whatever you think it is, i promise you, it's not it. or you can look at the list of nominations and try to guess which entry exploded my frontal lobe.

whoever looked at this combination of people and thought: yeah this is a situationship i wanna explore -- your brain is fascinating.

i am just so hyped to write this i had to say something even if i didn't actually say anything with this post. making an announcement that there will be an announcement energy

the cut-off for submissions is in November but lbr, on Halloween everything stops and we're all playing The Veilguard. so keep me in your thoughts that i finish before then -- because i know not the definition of brevity. unabridged snyder's cuts only baby. my shortest fic that i specifically PLANNED as a one-shot is 13k. and this is not a one-shot already...

Andraste guide me etc. ✍️✍️✍️

[satans-codpiece]

I was not expecting EY epilogue to be so short or come out so quickly and neither was I prepared for it. Tbh you should rename it to "How to fuck up an audience in 600 words or less" because HOLY SHIT. I knew it wasn't going to be pretty™ but did you really have to go this hard??? The 2 being all cutesy romantic on a cruise with a burning harbour literally in front of them???? THAT RAM SET ON FIRE????? The tea vendor?????? READER FEELING GUILTY AND RESPONSIBLE FOR THE DESTRUCTION????????

And then you have the nerve to answer that other anon's ask about Ram saying I love you with "haha no he loves you but he has too many issues to admit it out loud" ONLY to then turn out the next day and use it HERE of all places is. God. You bastard-

Oh shit uh.... I kind of realized I don't really have anything laying around in the horny Ram art department (that isn't a total disaster or way, WAYYYY too self-indulgent) sooo.... may I offer you a WIP in these trying times??? Entirely SFW but I feel like it's plenty horny still, just in a different way ;) (Link in another ask again. Btw, you can post the WIP publicly if you feel like the Ramattra nation should see it. I still have no goddamn idea if I should try to revive my abandoned art blog or start a new one or if I should even commit to posting semi-regularly in the first place why are my feelings so fucking complicated on something so basic-)

OH I FEEL YA MAN, same story here, don't care about the game I care about the universe, except I left the franchise entirely ages ago only for Blizz to be like "hey you liked Zen right? Here's his hot angsty younger brother" and I'm like FFFFFFFFFFFFFFfffffffffuck you Blizzard, and fuck me for falling for that eye and brain candy...

Heard about that "sometime in 2024" release date, THAT AIN'T IT MATEY, could be in December for all we know, I NEED it sooner- But hey, I guess Blizz's laziness means the fans can go wild???

And oooooh you say shit like this keeps you active? Guess I gotta bother you some more then :P Also NEEEEEY you an SSS+ tier writer the heckle you talking about-

HAHAH YEAH FKDJSG So my original draft of it was actually even darker, with more of Reader "waking up" on being released from their room, then spiraling and feeling guilty and only being maintained by the feeling that they have to keep Ramattra in check. So, I think this one's a bit kinder in that Reader's still feeling guilty, but it's easier for them to push away the darkness.

fjdhsgks listen! Again! My original epilogue was darker (I think I didn't have him use it, but I also don't think Reader prompted him to say it?) And to be fair it's more that he has too many issues in that moment at the end of Ch5... and he's kind of settling into accept that you do love him and want ("want") to be there with him by the epilogue... so he can choke it out sometimes.

PLEAES STTART AN ART BLOG???? HES SO FUCKING GORGEOUS???

Like, yeah idk, it certainly is... difficult to know how to engage with fandom. More than a few times I've wondered if just being in a small, dedicated discord would be a better choice (but then I'm awful at engaging with people directly, so I tend to lurk in discord servers...)

Hah, see, I completely missed Ramattra's release. I played a little bit at OW2's release, so a bit into season 1, then I just stopped playing. I don't think it was intentional quitting. But I somehow completely missed Ramattra's entire existence until I randomly started playing Overwatch again in March/April (I don't even remember why? I think the Minecraft server I was playing revealed itself to be run by morons and I was looking for a game to spend most of my time and just ended up back with Overwatch).

Only to, bam, load into a game with someone playing him and for me to immediately go "oh my god" (and also he gave me headpats and i...... I wonder if that person has any clue what they've done. but then I think most Ram players who give headpats are also Ram Enjoyers.)

LISTEN.... I DONT EVEN BELIEVE ITLL BE 2024 BC BLIZZARD BUT I HAVE TO PRETEND......

gjkhgsd You know that um. that chart that depicts "art quality vs perceived art quality over time"? to show how artists' perception of their work changes as they develop it? I feel like I'm permanently stuck in a "I'm sure my work is fine given the time I've spent working on it as a craft, but it still doesn't look/behave in the way I want it to." groove for like. at least a year.

The last time I genuinely 100% liked something I wrote was uhhhh probably in Februaryish with an unpublished DBD!Wesker/Reader WIP. (The WIP title is Boon: Wesker's Worms LOL)

[emmet-appreciation]

Pokepreciation/Pokeganda Overview

Hullo all! Mun Donut here. 

There’s been a recent influx of people joining the Pokemon apprecation/Pokemon propaganda community and uhm. First of all as someone who was active at the height of this small subcommunity I’d like to say that seeing it starting to come back up again is AWESOME (I currently follow quite a few, but I’ve only seen a handful of propaganda blogs post semi-regularly)

I hope this doesn’t come across as pretentious or anything, but I think it would be nice to inform people of the origins of the subcommunity (at least, to my knowledge. I stay away from drama so there’s probably a few things I don’t know about)

Where did it come from?

Awhile back, a twitter user created an account that that went along the lines of a pokemon name + “propaganda”. They dedicated the account to anything and everything about the pokemon- basically spreading love for it (not unlike what we do today). I’m keeping the name private for reasons you’ll see later. 

Eventually, this trend spread to tumblr and a small community formed, with users making accounts dedicated to loving their own pokemon.

The trend later began to encompass poketrainers as well, which is where I come in. Trainerganda blogs generally followed the same vein as Pokeganda blogs, though roleplaying wasn’t uncommon among these blogs (some preferred to simply curate content of their favourite characters, though. It just boiled down to how an individual wanted to run their blog)

What do you do as an Appreciation/Propaganda account?

Anything you want, really! The only thing you need to become one is to add appreciation/propaganda to the end of your url. 

Along with reblogging relevant content, I’ve seen people form something similar to an ask blog and roleplay with these accounts (I do all three!). Though, for those people new in the community there really isn’t a “wrong” way to run a pokeprecation/pokeganda blog. Just do whatever suits you best 😊.

Why is it PokePreciation or PokeGanda?

Hooh boy. I’ll keep this one short since it involves some controversy. 

Back in 2020, the creator of the trend came under fire for saying some pretty racist things. As a result, some members of the community decided to switch their URLs from “propaganda” to “appreciation” to detach themselves from the original creator. Some people kept the propaganda url, but that doesn’t mean they don’t agree with the beliefs of the original. And honestly, I do still think the propaganda url is kinda cool.

I was one of the people who changed my url back then, though, which is why I’m named the way I am today! 

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And um, yeah! That’s all I have haha. Donut out :>

[90stvshowgoth]

—LOOSE ENDS

—ch.1 —ch.2 —ch.3 —ch.4

summary: you spend a well-needed break away from the intersecting web of Chrollo’s professional and personal life, leaving you plenty of time to think on where you would take him on your next date and the truth behind his shady history.

wc: 3425

tags: fluff, foreshadowing, banter, mild gaslighting

an: i’m not a highschooler anymore? a bitch graduated?? it was all pointless no surprise there but now i’ll have time to post a lot more often on this blog, plus i’ll try to get better at interacting with people who comment on my fics and inbox me n stuff it’s always such an amazing part of my day not gonna lie. hope this was worth the wait :)

Not five seconds after you walked in the door to your coffeeshop was Devan all over you, babbling question after question, hurriedly ringing up the irritated old woman he was serving at the register before brushing her off semi-politely. Dragging you into the backroom, he barely remembered to shout back to the other baristas up front that he was taking his ten minute break immediately.

“So did you sleep with him?”

“Devan!” You yanked your arm out of his grip, red rising up your cheekbones.

He grinned, “So I’ll take that as a yes, then?”

“I mean,” it was hard to keep secrets around Devan, some bubble of charisma surrounding him made it so easy to spill your guts if only for the chance to laugh at whatever lighthearted joke he was sure to make of it, “he went down on me I guess...” your voice trailed off the more you spoke, cut off by the half-obnoxious but fully infectious belt of the blond’s laughter.

“What a fucking gentleman,” he stressed, face in mock surprise at the fact you managed to get sort-of laid, “What was it like? Was he good? Did you get off?” Each rapid-fire question made the blush on your face worse, thankful your coworker at least had the decency to not embarrass you in front of the others and kept his voice down.

“Yes, Devan, alright? It— it was good, okay? Jesus, and you think I needed to get laid.”

“I never said I didn’t,” he countered, throwing himself into the manager’s office chair, the wheels squeaking like mice as he spun himself aimlessly in a circle, “but I need details.”

“Details are a bit blurry, I was drunk.” His spinning stopped abruptly, not having to ask anything out loud for you to know what he was wondering by the concerned glint to his face.

You pinched the bridge of your nose, immediately trying to backtrack, “N—Dude, no, don’t worry, I practically begged him for it.”

Devan gasped, the tension of his shoulders gone in an instant, replaced with a jokey, christian kind of offense, “Slut.”

Neither of you could keep up the mock-irritation any longer, descending into a fit of giggles at his teasing. You went on to summarize your night as best you could, cherry-picking which parts to include or omit, For instance, you didn’t tell him about Chrollo’s tattoo— for all you know he could have some personal reason to keep it hidden, and if he wanted to keep it a secret from the world you didn’t intend to break that trust; The vulnerability in the moment Chrollo showed it to you had seemed a delicate thing, and the idea of sharing it with your friends almost felt like taking a step too far.

You were also sure to leave out the confrontation at dinner and Chrollo’s pissed off client. That kind of drama is what he lives for and you definitely didn’t want him to blow it out of proportion. After all, the details of that night were still hazy and disjointed. That, and you haven’t yet found a reason as to why his client called Chrollo a spider of all things.

So it was best to keep your mouth shut on that subject, Devan not minding at all as he was far more interested in your later activities.

“He went down on you and you passed out?”

You snorted, not bothered by it anymore since your encounter with Chrollo the following morning, “Yeah, pretty much.”

“Okay, so—“ Devan’s face scrunched up in frustration, your eyes having difficulty following his hands as he motioned wildly between the two of you, “Alright, time-out. So, to summarize, this guy is rich, hot, gives nice head, and is into the same nerd shit you like?” it did you no good to fight off the gleeful smile from your cheeks as you shook your head yes.

“...Does he have a brother?”

You smacked your forehead out of frustration, completely forgetting about your encounter with Shalnark that morning, “He does actually!”

“Shut up, no way.”

The grin on your face was practically evil, “Yeah. He’s a blonde twink, you two should get along fine.”

“Oh, fuck off,” While you were too busy laughing at your own bad joke, Devan was staring off into space towards the staticky old television set that sat on your manager’s desk.

When he spied whatever was playing on TV his eyebrows shot up, quickly rereading the headlines once or twice. All remains of his comedic persona vanished as he sat up straight in the creaking chair, jabbing his thumb into the volume button of the remote until the newscaster’s voice filled the kitchen.

“Devan, what..?” you groaned, already feeling a headache coming on from the impending conversation.

He shushed you with a wave of his hand, never turning his sights from the TV, but unfortunately for you it was impossible not to hear it.

“—cresion is advised. Mr. Serranto’s body was found in his estate bathroom at nine am yesterday morning, with several needles injected into his face. Due to the specific contortion the needles induced on the victim’s face post-mortem, many suspect this killing to be committed by a member of the infamous Zoldyck family who has been reported by witnesses as using a similarly described method, though police deny any allegations...”‘

Your drink started to taste bad once they started rolling gruesome, albeit heavily censored crime scene photos, “Why are you so into serial killers, Devan?”

“I’m not,” you looked him up and down incredulously as he tried to justify his obsession. At any chance that would present itself he would ramble on about some gruesome story he had just picked up, “I’m into unsolved cases, totally different.”

“Yeah, totally.”

He whined, gesturing to your boss’ television, “Don’t you find it even a little bit interesting?”

“What? Murderers and robberies?” he nodded expectantly, and you just laughed back at him as you looked at the clock.

Chugging back the rest of your drink, you plucked your apron off the rack and began to tie it around your waist, “Not in the slightest.”

This was ridiculous. You were ridiculous.

Less than forty-eight hours ago Chrollo’s body was snug between your thighs as he unwound your nerves with his tongue and yet here you stood outside your apartment, a nervous bounce in the heel of your foot all while blushing like a schoolgirl.

Perhaps it was because this was the first time you’d ever had to prepare for one of your dates, all the others had been out of the blue at his request, the spontaneity giving you no time to second-guess yourself. Now there was little else to do but overthink your plans for the day and the man you’d chosen to spend them with.

You were adamant when you suggested the idea to him over the phone. Though it had all gone to hell in the end, he still took you to dinner the night before and it made you once again ask to return his favor. Of course, Chrollo was sure to go on about how he didn’t mind paying for your outings, how money was of no issue to him as a hunter, but your stubborn pride held strong. If he was going to be so old-fashioned as to pay for your dates then you’d want to at least choose where the two of you would see each other next. To that, he caved, and Chrollo now had no idea where you were taking him.

You were pulled from your thoughts as a familiar black car with tinted windows rolled to a steady halt on the street beside you. Taking a steady breath, you popped open the passenger seat door to reveal the man who’d been plaguing your thoughts all day, missing the dumbfounded look on his face as you slid beside him into the leather backing.

“...Is something wrong, Chrollo?” he blinked a few times, snapping out of whatever daze he’d found himself in.

“No, definitely not. It's only… You look beautiful out of your uniform.” you hadn’t managed to occupy the same space as Chrollo for more than thirty seconds and he was already running a blush down your cheekbones.

Despite his teasing and your embarrassment the opportunity was far too perfect for you to pass up, “You would know.”

You’re sure your eyes must’ve lit up as you looked at his calm face crack from your joke. It was almost astonishing how different Chrollo looked when he laughed and you found yourself studying him like an architect whenever that chance arrived. His entire face softens at once, eyebrows pursing upwards as his head falls back a little, granting him a boyish complexion to his face that was often missing from his sharp features. Even if he would often cup his hand over his mouth while he grinned to hide it as if he was still unused to the sensation, you were still left beaming. But he didn’t keep it from you now, and for a glorious moment in time you just basked in the warmth his smile provided.

“Won’t you at least give me a hint as to where we’re going?” His lips were caught in a pout you would’ve called childish if it wasn’t so endearing.

You just grinned, a bounce in your step that you hadn’t felt in weeks as you led Chrollo through downtown Yorknew, his car in a nearby garage. He almost seemed impressed at your thoroughness when you’d asked him to park a block or two away from the destination you picked out for your date to keep him completely in the dark.

“Nope! Total surprise, but I think you’re gonna like it.”

He only appeared to settle for that answer, absently sighing as he took your hand, running his index softly along your wrist, “Are you sure? It’s only—I’m not fond of surprises.”

“Well, tough. Everyone should be surprised once in a while, otherwise life would be too boring.” Chrollo shrugged, clearly not satisfied with your response, turning you to look at him while you walked.

“Meeting you has been enough of a surprise to last three lifetimes.”

You sputtered, your cheeks doused in red, almost tripping over an unevenly set block of pavement, “Stop… that.”

If he noticed your almost-fall he was kind enough not to mention it, though clearly not kind enough to wipe the smug smirk off his face, “Stop what?”

“That,” The smallest of laughs echoed in his chest at your flustered face, only making the embarrassment worse, “You’re trying to win me over so I’ll tell you where we’re going, aren’t you?”

He raised his eyebrows at being caught, false innocence written all over him, “Is it working?”

“No, but keep trying.”

And with that he was pouting again.

He seemed to lighten up after that demeanor of his made you laugh, colorless eyes so lively in your presence even as a comfortable silence fell over the two of you. He surrendered himself to your directions, all the while never letting go of your hand.

Yorknew’s streets were brightly lit that afternoon by a sunny, cloudless sky, the vast blue sometimes hard to see among the thicket of towering skyscrapers. As you guided him down the winding sidewalks people rarely paid the two of you any mind, though it was hard to miss the curious stares some people gave Chrollo along the way. Either they were ogling the bandage snug around his forehead or they found him as beautiful as you did, their attention sitting oddly in your chest.

But those thoughts were quickly dismissed when you noticed the address you were turning onto. Taking his hand flush in yours, you squeezed gently to get his attention, the hunter looking down at where you met for a moment, lingering on where your fingers were laced together.

Chrollo only looked up when he heard you say, “We’re here.”

You were sure to watch his expression when his gaze locked onto the structure only a few blocks away. It wasn’t the first time you’d seen him surprised, lips slightly agape and eyes moonlike, but once it faded something new took its place. No other words to describe it, Chrollo was just excited.

The Yorknew City Museum was an ancient thing, overflowing with the collected paintings, sculptures, and arts of cultures both far-away and close to home. It was one of the largest buildings in the city, and its old-fashioned architecture stood out like a sore thumb among the metropolis that surrounded it on all sides. Sure, it was usually filled with tourists, some days better or worse than others, but the exhibits were always worth the trip without fail. It was one of your favorite places to visit every month or so, but this was the first time you’d ever taken someone along with you.

“You brought me to the museum?”

Instead of answering, you simply brought the back of his hand up to your lips in much the same way he did to you on the first night you spent together at the coffee shop; softly but with such intensity that it turned what would’ve seemed like a modest gesture into something far more intimate. You could’ve seen your reflection in his eyes like a scrying mirror from how wide they went, his breathing hitched as your kiss lingered against his knuckles.

He looked as if he had a million things he wanted to tell you but none of the words to say them, pulse ecstatic when you felt his wrist beneath your fingertips. But before you gave him a chance to break the soft silence you’d created, you pulled away, tugging him towards the museum.

Once you’d reached the courtyard you intentionally let go of Chrollo’s hand, dashing ahead of him up the building’s steps. He trailed behind you with a puzzled slant to his expression, only to realize too late what you were doing.

By the time Chrollo reached the entry gates you were at the sales booth, the hostess inside handing you back a credit-card and two tickets through the slot in the window. You walked back to him triumphantly presenting the tickets you’d bought him, disregarding the exacerbated look on his face entirely.

He tried to start with you again when you reached the doorway, his childish stubbornness only secondary to yours, “You know, I could’ve—“

“—Don’t care,” you cut him off, raising your eyebrows at his insistence, “No matter if you’re a hunter or not, I don’t want you to think I’d use you for your money.or something.”

He almost looked sad for a moment, and the sight of it took you off guard, his voice hushed, “You thought that’s what I’d think of you?”

Slowly, you nodded. It was far too late to dig yourself out of this hole now.

He checked over his shoulder for a moment, making sure the two of you were still secluded before turning you to look at him, face unreadable, “I was… I’m not as used to luxury as you might think.” The distant clamor of midday Yorknew faded into the background under each softly spoken word, “even after coming into my work, the money was never what drove me.”

More than a few questions rattled through your brain but you were sure to tread lightly on what might’ve been a sore subject, “What do you mean?”

You began to notice whenever Chrollo was struggling with his words he’d tense his lips, parting or pressing them together as he strung along whatever perfect sentence he’d thought up in his head next. It was such a minute detail but for some reason the habit of his seemed like the most human, endearing thing you’d ever seen, “Money is worthless to me, Darling, it always has been, but never when it goes to you.”

Any response you could’ve forged died long before it left your lips, because really, what could you say to that? How could you see yourself be held on such a platform by someone so exquisitely unique and unlike anyone you’d ever met and not feel at the very least ecstatic with joy?

Luckily, you didn’t say any of that. Instead you briefly raised your hands in a mock surrender, laughing a bit to yourself, before muttering, “Chrollo, I… alright.”

“Alright?”

“Alright, as in, you win. If you really feel that way... then you can pay for our dates, I guess,” before his smile could grow too satisfied, however, you continued, “but in return, will you stop changing the subject whenever you bring up your past?”

His lighthearted impression fell away, leaving behind an unsettlingly serious man whose eyes carried none of the softness of the day before. You hadn’t seen him like this since your dinner was interrupted by Chrollo’s ex-client and you weren’t thrilled to see it again, especially with it directed towards you; but still you kept his gaze, unflinching.

“You’re more perceptive than you let on.” Even his voice sounded strange, as if he’d picked out each sentence weeks beforehand and was now only reciting those lines from a page.

You weren’t sure what to say, it was hard to think of anything while subjected to Chrollo’s scrutinizing stare, so instead you held your tongue and your ground, and eventually his iron exterior began to chip away. His eyebrows were knitted in concentration as he spoke, as if he was weighing the burden of the words on his tongue, “It’s nothing I’d want to talk about, love, and nothing you’d want to hear either.”

“...That’s okay, Chrollo,” you said after a moment, not missing the wave of ease that swept over his tense body at your blind acceptance, “I do want to hear these things eventually, but only when you’re ready to tell me. Until then… I’ll still be here with you, in any way you’d have me.”

Undoing him with only your words never seemed like something you were capable of until that very moment, his eyes almost brown with warmth as he stared at you like he was watching a sunrise. With each reassurance you saw his indifferent front melt away, and you wondered if this was maybe in some small part how Chrollo felt whenever he’d tease a blush onto your face with just some sappy comment. Your words had struck some kind of chord with him, the fact making a giddy heat settle in your chest, and before you could blink he’d pulled you into his arms with a bruising, protective grip, burying his head in your shoulder.

Muffled through your clothes, you heard the quiet mumble of your name, followed by something softer you couldn’t quite make out. He snuck both his arms around yours just to hold you the tiniest fraction closer until you’re certain there wasn’t a speck of space between you.

“Darling..?” he uttered, voice opaque, the barest of tremors in his hands that would’ve seemed out of place on the person you’d met a few months ago, “...I think I—“

He was cut off by the sound of heavy doors racketing open, followed by the half-innocent, half-annoying cacophony of a kindergarten class being corralled outside by underpaid teachers. Twenty or so children all holding tightly onto each other’s hands poured from the museum’s gateway, likely on their way back from some field trip. By the time they were gone you’d long since pulled yourself away from Chrollo’s grasp, an awkward, stifled laugh still hanging from the tip of your tongue to fill the silence.

“So,” he cleared his throat, almost forgetting about the tickets your argument was founded on, “where were we?”

With a newfound grin on your face along with a grand, sweeping gesture, you opened the imposing double doors for him, bowing a bit for dramatic effect. That excitable look about him returned, and he wasted no time before capturing your hand and following you inside.

“Chrollo Lucilfer, I give you the Yorknew Museum.”

[superchocovian]

Me on Tumblr...Tag game

I saw this done by @clarkgriffon and I like to avoid things that I should actually be doing. I also found a tag from a while back from @jlsadphoenix that completely got lost (so sorry about that!!) so here I go!

1. Why did you choose your url?

So when I first made my account on Fanfiction.net, I was just getting into Doctor Who and I thought it’d be cute to include my favorite sweet, so I became Chocovian (still there as that on Fanfiction and AO3, but it’s a long story). Anyways, when I joined Tumblr, I wanted to keep things consistent so I kept that but I was also on a bit of a Marvel binge when I was joining, so I thought, ooh superheroes! which combined with what I had initially became superchocovian.

2. Any side blogs?

Nah. I’ve thought about it, but everything is just dumped into this one blog and I do my best to tag everything so at least it’s semi-organized.

3. How long have you been on tumblr?

I first made the account the summer before I started college, I think, so back in 2015? I wasn’t very consistent with it until a few years later when I downloaded the app on my phone and figured out how to work things.

4. Do you have a queue tag?

No tag for the queue, though I do use it for mostly everything that is posted on my blog for the past few years. Anything else that I see on my dash ends up in my queue until I can organize it with my tags and all. It’s why I have wayyy too many posts in my drafts but now that school is over and once I get a job, I’ll have a better time at actually reblogging things when I see them instead of saving for later.

5. Why did you start your blog in the first place?

A lot of the fanfic authors that I was reading for The Hunger Games kept mentioning Tumblr for sneak peeks and updates about their posts and I’m like “yes please” and I caved and made my Tumblr.

6. Why did you choose your icon/pfp?

I was really happy that Emma and Killian from Once Upon a Time got their happy ending/beginning with their baby and I wanted to memorialize it. I should get around to updating it cause I’ve had it since the finale of the show.

7. Why did you choose your header?

All of the backgrounds that I have on my phone and laptop are of something nature/space wise so this fit right in.

8. What’s your post with the most notes?

I reblog mostly everything, so I have no idea. I did make a few gifsets last summer for one of the Once events so they got a handful of notes. Probably one of those.

9. How many mutuals do you have?

Not many? I don’t know how to check that or all, but I wouldn’t assume too many. I’m kinda stuck in a little bubble here and don’t interact with as many people as I would like to.

10. How many followers do you have?

Like 200 something? I had more before they did something to all the pornbots, so I’m pretty sure all of these are like actual followers, lol.

11. How many people do you follow?

I think like 100 ish?

12. Have you ever made a shit post?

Nah, I try to keep my thoughts off here. Just want to keep this a happy place for me.

13. How often do you use tumblr a day?

Way too much. More than I should.

14. Did you ever have a fight/argument with another blog?

No. Thankfully. Again, I’m not as “active” with other people so I don’t really get involved with fights and stuff.

15. How do you feel about the ‘you need to reblog’ posts?

I think that people shouldn’t try to force me to do things I don’t want to. I definitely think that people should reblog content that has been created (not steal by reposting) but the opinion stuff that needs to be reblogged or something will happen? Yeah, no thanks.

16. Do you like tag games?

Yes! I’ve been very bad at responding to them on time because of my timings with school, but they are great!

17. Do you like ask games?

Yes! I don’t get many asks when I do reblog the ask games, but I think that they are fun, for sure!

18. Which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

Though I’m not too sure what a mutual is defined as, the ones that I follow are pretty famous in the fandom, so probably fairly famous for the fandom side of Tumblr?

19. Do you have a crush on a mutual?

Not sure if they qualify as crushes, but I do love all the Tumblr friends that I’ve made!

20. No-pressure tags: Anyone who sees this is welcome to participate! I’m going to tag the first few people off my dash- @kmomof4, @djlbg, @sherlollyandspoilers, @scientificapricot, @onceratheart18, @elizabeethan, @antoniosbanderas, @swansandslayers, @ravenclawpride16 @lostintheskyfaraway, and @book-and-music-lover.

[lvrexe]

SHIKAMARU NSFW HCs

—First 18+ post of the blog! I would’ve done Tobirama but I’m still studying his character, and I just have no idea what Mr. 2nd Hokage would be into. So I’m writing Shikamaru, because I’ve had these headcanons for a while. These are also a little more detailed than I originally intended, whoops.

—context: written with fem!reader. I wanted to do a gn!reader but personally, it’s much easier for me to write afab than anything else. If requested, I’ll still write male!reader or gn!reader

wc: ~1.1k

—nsfw content below cut. please only read if you’re 18 or older.

Let’s all be honest here; Shikamaru is still pretty lazy during sex. He’s a lazy person all round, and that doesn’t change when his s/o is horny. He doesn’t just randomly gain high energy equivalent to Rock Lee’s when his s/o suggests sex.

That doesn’t mean he’ll deny it though. Despite him not having a lot of energy, he’ll still wish to please you.

↳ Foreplay ₊˚.༄

You can bet your ass Shikamaru is a fan of foreplay. He refuses any sort of encounters without it.

He’d pepper your neck and jaw in kisses, occasionally nipping at the soft skin. His hands would roam your body, sliding up your frame as his fingers traced every part of your body before one slid down between your legs.

The man is adept with his fingers. He knows where to touch and tease to get your mewls or twitching reactions out. His index and middle fingers rub between your folds so effortlessly and whenever his fingers weren’t teasing your clit, his thumb would be doing that job.

While his fingers are busied with your lower region, he loves swirling his tongue around your nipples and sucking on your breasts.

He can so easily make you cum just from his fingers. He can, so he will. Most of the time. Sometimes, Shikamaru will stop prematurely so he can continue on pleasuring you.

↳ Oral ₊˚.༄

Cunniligus: surprisingly, Shikamaru is the master of oral. He places his head between your thighs and it takes him a simple, analyzing look for him to figure it all out. He dives in and eagerly goes to town, his tongue flicking at your clit before he sucks on it; repeat the process, with the occasional flat lick up your pussy.

When he’s done focusing on your clit, he’s driving his tongue in and out of your dripping cunt, his hands rubbing your inner thighs while you quiver and twitch by his hand— or is it more appropriate to say ‘his tongue’?

If— no, no, when you cum from his tongue, he’d eagerly lap up your juices. He enjoys it when you release all over his face, ignore his mumbles of how much of a drag the mess was.

All of this would be done while his tired gray eyes gaze up at you, watching and studying each of your many reactions and mannerisms.

Bonus points from him if you sit on his face.

↳ Fellatio/Dick ₊˚.༄

Shikamaru actually doesn’t enjoy this as much as he does with cunnilingus, if he’s on the receiving end (for you men and amab, he still thoroughly enjoys giving). It’s not that he doesn’t find it pleasurable, he does. Oh, he fucking loves it.

But considering how he’s not the most active and high-energy lover in bed when it comes to penetrative sex, Shikamaru would just feel guilty if you did all the work.

Don’t worry, there’s a work around, let him give you cunniligus first and he’ll allow you to pleasure him.

He’s more lengthy than girthy. About 7 and half inches, average girth— if not a little below average.

Pretty tame down there when it comes to hair. He doesn’t like it getting out of control and keeps it trimmed and short. Although he’s getting a bit of a treasure trail. Whether he keeps it or not is up to his s/o.

His head is highly sensitive so feel free to tease his tip if you want some nice reactions out of him.

Balls are pretty sensitive too. Doesn’t mind if his partner plays with them a bit, but don’t overdo it.

↳ Position ₊˚.༄

Oh, he loves cowgirl. Outside oral, Shikamaru’s not the most active participator in sex so he doesn’t enjoy a lot of positions that cause him to do a lot of work. And his favourite is cowgirl.

To have you on top of him, riding his cock, fucking hell, he goddamn loves it. He loves to admire your body, his eyes taking in every part of your body. His hands would rub up and down your thighs, up to your hips and the sides of your tummy, caressing your skin as he encouraged you to continue on.

When he’s close, you know. His grip on your hips tighten, his nails digging into your skin as he holds you in place as he suddenly starts to thrust up into you before he spills himself deep inside you, or over onto his stomach if he pulls out on your request.

If it’s not cowgirl, it’s missionary. Sitting up, he drags you close and wraps your legs around his hips. He enjoys watching your cunt take him and how you tremble and mewl with each thrust he makes. As expected, one of his hands is on your hips, the other holding himself up as he hovers over you.

He loves listening to you as you cry out in pleasure, loves to soothingly rub your sides, and loves watching your expressions as he pounds into you. Any position that allows him that are positions he’d enjoy.

↳ Kinks ₊˚.༄

Praise: Shikamaru never understood why people enjoy degrading or being degrading. He doesn’t shame, it’s just not for him. But praise? Oh he loves showering you in praise. “Yeah, just like that, baby girl… You’re doing so good riding my dick like that…”

Sleepy sex: Not exactly somnophilia, but he enjoys sex the most when he’s tired. He doesn’t speak of it, but he loves it when you decide to disrupt his plans to get a good nights’ sleep, or wake him up in the morning by crawling over him, begging for him. Helps him sleep. “Hnng…? What..? You want my cock this late at night…?”

Semi-public: He’s not one to share, but he does enjoy a bit of risk. Albeit, he only finds this out if you make him explore a bit. Whenever the two of you are out and about in the evening— usually walking home from a date or night out with friends—, he doesn’t mind if you drag him out of the street and into an alleyway. He won’t ever do penetrative, only oral or foreplay. He prefers to keep the most intimate part hidden behind the closed door of your bedroom. “Our house is around the corner, babe… Huh?... You’re a drag sometimes…”

Lingerie: He can’t help it. Lingerie, or anything similar, just gets his mind going. It doesn’t even have to be lace undergarments. You once wore the mesh shirt many shinobi wear and for the entire day, Shikamaru was a blushing mess and kept averting his eyes from your chest. “You know, you should wear that set more often…”

[gb-patch]

Ask Answers: January 5th, 2021

How exactly can we get the option to gift cove a bracelet at the start of step 3? I really only get that option with having a ponytail-black shirt-black pants-no accessories cove but i dont know the specific requirements for the option to show up

Cove’s gotta wear a bracelet in Step 2. If he doesn’t it means him liking bracelets isn’t a very long-standing trait and so the MC wouldn’t think to get him one as a gift.

I am very sorry if this was asked before but I have noticed "Our Life: Beginnings and Always" and "Our Like: Now and Forever." Did I miss something? Is "N&F" going to be a sequel or DLC? Are we going to see a geriatric Cove? (haha) Thank you in advance for the reply. ^_^ 

Our Life: Now & Forever is a new game in the franchise, but it’s not a sequel. It’ll have a new cast, new story, and new setting. It will still have all the best features of the original game and be about creating your own character/growing up from childhood!

Is there a specific reason why Cove gets so flustered and has to jump out if bed and walk it off when they share a bed in step 3? It seems a bit over the top for something they've already done twice! Once with the late night visit when Cove finds out his mom is coming and once in the RV.

Is just because they are older and the implications are different, even though the crush was already there in the RV/latenight visit scenes? Or did I miss something that made Cove more reluctant or more apprehensive towards sharing a bed/touching?

Sharing a bed with the person he likes/love is different for him at eighteen than it is at thirteen. Some things get easier when you grow up, like he’s more comfortable sharing food, but some things get harder/more complicated to him. Sharing a bed is one of those for Cove. It feels a lot more intimate and meaningful as time goes on, rather than less of a big deal.

Hello! First, I wanted to thank you and congratulate you for this amazing game. I enjoyed every single second! In a year full of stress, this was a little cozy light. Do you have any plans to make it available for other languages? Thank you again 💕 

Thank you! I’m afraid the game is still in pretty active development so we can’t consider translating the script in it’s semi-incomplete form. And we’re not a big enough company that we can promise translations will definitely come when the game is done, unfortunately. We can see what things are like when all the words are truly set, though.

Did Cove's name come from that Cove restaurant on Holden beach? Whenever I search up his name I always get those results haha 

No, haha. His first name was based on his character and the game’s theme, his last name is a reference to something of a personal joke.

Will the NSFW DLC have CGs too?

Yep!

So, to start off, I need to thank you guys, from the bottom of my heart, for creating Cove Holden. I want every single one of my MCs to be able to get engaged and married to that precious angel, so I was wondering how transitioning into step 4 using save files will work? Will I be able to load up a save file saved right before the end credits after step 3, or will I need to load one from before the transition section after step 3? I’m sorry if this has already been answered somewhere, but if it has, I haven’t been able to find it. Thank you!!!!!! 

Thank you very much c:. You’ll be able to load any save file, unless it was taken as the credits were actually rolling, and the Step 4 epilogue will simply start going once you’ve played through whatever was left of the main game and seen the credits. There are rare cases where a save file breaks between updates, but generally continuing where you left off should work for people.

Hi! I absolutely adore our life, and I was wondering is there a way to have Shiloh remember the MC and Lizzie in step 3?

I’m glad you like it! Sadly, no matter what you do Shiloh will act the same in that scene.

Hi! I'm the Australian that asked about ever including an Aussie VA, do you have any future plans for Our Life 2 or any other games to include an Aussie character and VA? 

Right now we don’t have any guaranteed future Aussie roles. But we don’t have fully developed character lists for our upcoming games yet, so that may still change.

Will OL2 also follow the tradition of "Blonde Adult That We Cannot Date"? 👀

Haha, maybe. There isn’t one right now, however we still have a lot of side characters to plan.

Hey, are the houses in the game furnished based on items in the Sims 4? I’ve noticed some similarities, but I’m not sure if it’s just a coincidence. (If it is, that’d make me building it in TS4 MUCH easier...)

For me, I use real world pictures as references as well as text notes. I loved Sims 2 when I was young but haven’t gotten into a new Sims game since. I don’t believe the artist checks Sims 4 when creating their work, though it’s not impossible. Maybe they do.

is it possible to still get your name in the voiced dlc [I'm not sure how you would do it, is it from patreon ??] or is it too late ?? 

Currently there’s no way to get your name voiced. But we are looking into opening up a method for that one more time later this year. You can keep an eye out for that!

Will we be able to ask Derek out to the dance if we get his DLC? Not a Derek fan but I'm planning to surprise my friend with this 

Yeah. Taking Derek to the dance is part of his DLC.

Hi! I have a question I've been curious about, if you're comfortable with answering! If Cove and the MC remain just friends into Step 4/MC dates one of the other guys, will Cove canonically be in a relationship with/interested in somebody else at that point or shortly after? Thank you!

He won’t. There’s not really anyone in his school, and certainly not the neighborhood he grows up in, that he’d be into other than the MC. As a pretty newly independent adult he hasn’t had enough time to truly find a special someone in Step 4. It takes a while for him to make that kind of move, haha. It’s totally fine to headcanon that sometime after Step 4 he finds love with someone else, but it won’t happen in-game.

i just wanted to share this cute little playlist that i made about cove! https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5wM7GNiJh5eRqhvLBperfQ?si=4FocdBsNTpeF053yOwaLSA

Cool! Thanks for sharing it with us.

No, no, no create longer ask answers please. 😌

The ask answers are not too long. If anything I'm greedy and wish they were longer... I'm already subbed to your guys patreon and I still can't get enough 👀 I'm in love with you guys 

Will you post more of those long form ask posts? I love them 🥰

Haha, thank you for these messages. I’m glad you’re enjoying the content.

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when will requests open?

short answer....officially, probably never but feel free to send in a little idea or two if you have them

long answer....

My bio has said requests are closed since sometime in 2019 - I don't remember when exactly but someone sent an ask in August that year mentioning my requests being closed. For context, I started this blog in Feb 2019.

I closed them at a time when the fandom was very active. I was full of ideas and a little overwhelmed by them all, and having random suggestions appear in my inbox uncontrollably made getting anything finished harder. The fandom is less active now and I don't think i'd get as many random requests as I used to. But I still don't want to officially open them again.

I take requests as I want them, whenever I feel like doing a little blurb event or the like (which i have been doing for the last week, though obviously less intensely than i used to). I am also totally okay with you submitting a request out of the blue, at random. What I don't want is for someone to send me 20 different requests at the same time, unless i ask them to. My inbox is already full of things I haven't written and may not ever get around to writing. Even with this latest bday blurb thing i've been doing, I have got way more requests than I could fill, even if I was seriously attempting to write 29 of them (like i semi joked i might.)

The truth is, I'm not really as....I don't want to say i'm not as passionate about writing as I used to be because i fucking love writing and i don't want to give it up. But it has felt harder to do lately. I think theres a few reasons why:

it's not always easy to stay motivated to write in a fandom that is much much less active than when I started writing.

My interests have shifted in the last 4 years, as is only natural. Which is why i've also started writing for pedro because hes my current celeb crush and he's doing a lot of stuff that keeps me fuckin fed.

tied into interests shifting, i've been making an effort to get back into reading lately and i find that sometimes it can be difficult to be both a reader and a writer because there are only so many free hours in a day and so much i wanna do.

my work sitch has changed a fair bit in the last 4 years - i work at a new school and im working more hours now than i used to. I no longer have the sort of environment where i have the space to spend an afternoon writing at my desk instead of my real work. I do have 1 full day off a week now but often im kinda worn out and not necessarily in a good writing headspace. (plus, the end of last year was so draining and the start of this year wasn't easy because of staffing changes)

I've not talked about it much but i've been kinda stuggling with my identity lately, especially in regard to sex. I know i am attracted to men and (some) women, and getiing into writing all this smut stuff was defs something of a sexual awakening for me. But i am also very aware that irl i stuggle with sex stuff. I have a lot of anxiety related to sex that i probably should talk to a therapist about and which definitely impacts how i approach sexual situations. and sometimes it can get in the way of writing smut. it's something i've dealt with basically since i starting writing for this fandom but it seems to have gotten worse lately and its defs been impacting the sort of sex i feel drawn to reading/writing about.

So yeah....harder to stay motivated to write.

I really wanted this bday blurb thing to be like it would have been a year or two ago where id just pump out blurb after blurb after blurb. Instead i've been lucky if I get one posted a day.

So, officially, requests are closed and will remain closed. If I want suggestions I will ask for them. Until then I have the massive series im working on (ADKoE), the small series/one shots that are in my wips folder, and plenty of previously requested ideas from this bday event and other blurb events i've held in the last however many years.

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jeez, i like this blog. how about writing Soda, Kirigiri, Mukuro, Celeste, Hagakure, Ouma and Kiibo with albino s/o? some cute general hc and some hcs about dealing with their sensetive to sun skin and eyes and weak health at all, and with people who bullying them for their appearance? thanks, have a nice day.

Kazuichi Souda, Kyoko Kirigiri, Mukuro Ikusaba, Celestia Ludenberg, Yasuhiro Hagakure, Kokichi Ouma, and Kiibo with albino S/O

Ya’ll are opening my horizons to different things wait I love this. 

Ever since this request popped into my ask box I’ve been excited to write it sorry it took so long! Kisses xx

-Mod Souda

Kazuichi Souda

He’s basically your designated driver when you need it.

Any questions you have at all about trying to read signs from a distance or if there’s anyone nearby that might make fun of you, he’ll answer you. He’s good at defending you.

Since he’s semi intimidating, if you’re with him, people just think wow look at the alt couple. Some people assume that you don’t naturally look like that, too.

When he first met you, he’d wave to you once you exited school, not realizing you could hardly see him with the sun outside.

You sun burn easily, too, and his first solution to this was to try and get you to wear one of his jumpers.

I mean - yeah but also no.

Once tried to convince you to wear his beanie to but you assured him that that will not protect you from the sun.

Your social scene was never too active because of the way you are. But Souda understand this too, on a less medical sense. 

He always tries to get you to hang around his friends, as well.

He’s always there to remind you that you are not a curse and that he loves you, kissing your skin and holding you close.

Since you were bullied throughout your kid years, when you finally were around his friend group, you were surprised that all of them were nice.

He is a very good person to be with when it comes to things like, of course, being nervous about who you are. 

He’s helpful and will work harder to get money to buy anything you need to help you live more comfortably.

Surprises you with flowers a lot. Not necessarily bouquets but just small flowers lying around your room.

His favorite thing to do is just surprise you with small things hidden around the house. Your favorite drink, small sweats, things that make you happy.

Kyoko Kirigiri

She’s a very intelligent girl, and she holds a lot of power.

“Remember to bring your sunglasses,” she’ll always remind you.

Has extra gloves for you, too.

Requests to change some of the lightbulbs in the classrooms just in case they are the type that hurt you.

She’s also a very good cuddler, too! She’ll run her fingers up and down your arms or play with your hair.

Doesn’t like to go on dates outside, which is fine by you.

Instead of outside dates, she’ll watch your favorite movies with you, or ask you questions to learn more about you.

She’s a curious cat when it comes to what makes you you.

You try to reciprocate the energy, but she doesn’t like to answer all of the questions you give her.

All the questions, all the questions, all the questions! You almost think she’s making a journal about you.

Sometimes she’ll take you out in the night in December, putting Christmas lights around the neighborhood. 

Someone will have to get on the other’s shoulders, often, but that just makes everything so much funner.

Especially when the tiny bit of snow falls from the sky.

Seeing Kyoko in the snow is like watching an angel.

Mukuro Ikusaba

She doesn’t quite understand what albinism means.

But she knows that it’s something serious, and you aren’t like other people.

Anything you tell her she’ll try to remember.

For your birthday, she got you a parasol. It was your favorite color, too! 

Twirling it in your hand while the two of you walk together is everything!

You got her a matching one, too, the both of you can twirl your parasol’s together.

She gets you a lot of random presents, things you don’t even know where she gets it from. Posters of your favorite musicians are you favorites.

When she moves into your house, she adds a lot of decor to your room. Things like plants, adding shelves for her books, and different stuffed animals her sister stole for her when they were homeless.

She’s very much an indoors person, but she is willing to do the shopping and cooking whenever you don’t feel well.

Can carry you, too. She’s surprisingly strong. 

Not that she can carry you, let me correct myself. She will carry you.

Also will fight anyone who disrespects you.

Celestia Ludenberg

She has a collection of parasol’s in her house, and will definitely allow you to dress up in her gothic lolita clothes if you so desired.

She likes touching your skin, too, definitely.

Everything about you is beautiful to her.

Being next to you in public makes her proud that she was able to date someone like you. 

Will help you in any way. 

But she always wants something in return. A kiss, nothing serious. Maybe showering with her if she’s feeling lonely enough.

“You’re invited to the mansion with me when I become rich,” she coos one night, turning to her side to look at you.

To her, the invite was a serious thing. All of her life she dreamed about being alone in the house with all of those boys. But if you’re there with her, then it might be a little better.

She is dreamy when it comes to skincare, and will always massage your face. It’s usually when you come back from being outside, and the sun has bothered your eyes, she will draw her thin fingers across your face to try and ease at least some pain.

But she’s such a drama queen sometimes, wondering why you can’t just go have tea with her sometime. Both of you settled on going when the sun is down, or when the clouds are thick. 

Because tea with her is fun, actually. Makes you tune into your inner lolita subculture.

Yasuhiro Hagakure

He’s a dummy sometimes.

“Hiro, can you grab my sunhat?”

“Sure thing!”

You step outside, asking him where it is.

“I forgot to get it, wait-”

His body is really large, and he can shade you if you get too overwhelmed. Not to mention that he easily drapes his jacket over you, sometimes.

This boy cares a lot!!!!

He listens to your every last word and complaint!! If you are in pain? He’s gonna take you home immediately!

A lot of strangers like to stare at you, sometimes taking pictures without you noticing.

He always calls them out, often yelling in public to defend you.

You defend him, too, sometimes having to bonk people on the head when they gawk at him.

But he’s an outdoorsy fellow when he’s not constantly in fear that the yakuza would kill him.

You don’t get to see him all that often. It’s a little disheartening.

He comes home whenever he can to give you big hugs!

Kokichi Ouma

He’s a little goofer sometimes.

Sometimes you have to go out without him, and it’ll never go well.

You’ll be almost out the door. “Where are my sunglasses?”

“Oh, I don’t know, S/O. Where are they?”

“You little shit.”

He always wants to go with you when you go outside. Just because he likes hanging out with you, also because he thinks your routine is very interesting.

Sneaks up on you all the time. Especially in public. 

It’s your least favorite thing ever when he does it when it’s sunny outside. 

But if someone tries to bother you, though, he will trip them or spit on them or even push them out of the way.

A lot of his DICE members will join in too, terrorizing them even days after. 

Every time he spends the night, he wakes up earlier than you, and always makes you a cup of tea/water/coffee for you when you wake up. 

He definitely gives you hugs from behind, too. Not even to surprise you. He just really likes wrapping his arms around you from that angle.

Draws you little pictures of yourself to leave around the house. It’s weird when he hasn’t came over in a while and yet you still find little post-it notes all over.

Kiibo

He has a very big brain! But he still asks a lot of questions about it.

He makes, almost forces, you to eat a lot of healthy foods so your physical health can improve a bit. It’s very annoying, but you do it for him.

Surprise kisses are what he’s good at! He will wake you up with kisses, give you nightly kisses before he turns off, and give you kisses throughout his day.

And he keeps his eyes on you!! Like all the time!!

Because he worries, and he tries not to let you know, which fails.

“Kiibo, you don’t have to worry.”

“I-I’m not worried! I just... love you a lot.”

You laugh, “you are worried because you love me.”

It makes him blush every time you tell him that. 

He loves you with all of his heart, it’s scary sometimes!

He didn’t think it was possible to love someone so much!

So he likes hearing you say you love him all the time. 

He doesn’t like the sun that much, and his ventures outside are shortlived, so you don’t have to worry about being forced to go out for whatever reason.