#anon you made me cry

[wambsgansshoelaces]

hi! i’m the anon that called u numba one 🏆 just saw ur post about living with pcos and struggling with weight loss. i don’t have pcos, but i have endometriosis and a whole arsenal of ailments that would take forever to list. oh also im a wlw like u 😁i’m not the wisest person, but i will say that you have to be kind to yourself. even when you’re crying seven times in the doctors office. feel the disappointment, and the sadness, and know that it will not go on forever. sometimes being kind to yourself is allowing yourself to be sad without feeling weak for being sad. no one knows what’s going on in your mind but you, so let it flow freely. also you’re a fantastic writer,,, i literally have your notifs on and check your page everyday, and that’s coming from someone who’s been reading fanfiction for like 10 years. not many people can envision a scene so human and translate it into words as you do. your execution is flawless, but not clinical and robotic, it evokes warmth and real emotion. you give that freely to the general public of tumblr, and you should know we love you and your beautiful brain for it. i hope you find comfort in knowing other people like you are provided with a safe escape in your writing, if only for a moment. lord knows we do.

(ps, try intermittent fasting if you haven’t already ;))

(p.p.s. call me 🏆 anon )

anon will you give me a hug

I feel like you’re the older sibling I don’t actually have- tangent but my parents aren’t exactly the best people and I’m the eldest of all my siblings so you leaving this for me in my ask box genuinely made me cry. I’m so grateful that I finally have people who care and are so kind and thoughtful 🩷 I really will try and take your advice. It’s just that I’ve felt so upset and have had so much pent up depression that it’s just so difficult for me to not think I’m a horrible person just because I’m sad all the time if you know what I mean

and yes I’m wlw and still trying to come to terms with that yk? like I wish I could be loud and proud but I just can’t bc of what’s around me

and you have notifs on??? oh my god I’m so honored!!!! I need to stop shitposting… sorry for lol of the garbage you’ve seen 🏆…

what you’ve said about my writing is on god the nicest, most wonderful thing anyone’s ever said to or about me. you don’t understand what it means to me when you say my writing evokes emotion and makes you feel things. genuinely I have no words in response to that, I’m just so honored and just happy that you think so. coming from years of just a depressed state, I’d cling to any sort of media- tv shows, films, especially x reader fanfiction because it made it like I wasn’t actually suffering and that I have someone who loves me. I know nobody wants to read about this lol but genuinely (I’ve said that a million times already), genuinely, I could die tomorrow happy knowing that my work has made people feel better or made people just happy. I’m so, so, glad that my work is an escape for you. you’re always welcome on my blog, in my ask box, in my pms, whatever. I love you so so much 🫶🏽

(I’m really trying with food… my relationship is so unhealthy with it but I’ll let you know how it goes!)

[charmercharm3r]

it’s 12am, i have work at 9 but i literally cannot stop thinking about leeknow showering together fluff like it’s invading my thoughts rn

he’d be so sweet and gentle outside of bed (plenty of teasing as always) im just obsessed with the thought

-🌙 <3

i need a little sweetness on my page rn so here’s some food for thought :)

Masterlist

minho’s so gentle natured already, and also very touchy. showering together is a must! at least three times a week! it’s minho-law, strictly enforced or face the consequences (he’d only kiss ur forehead instead of ur lips for two days straight).

he likes to close the toilet lid and sit on it to watch while you undress so he can make you all flustered— we all know he has a staring problem, especially with his beloved. he won’t go out of his way to tease you during these softer times, but if the moment happens to present itself, he’s not gonna shy away. say you forget to grab another towel so you have to share one between the both of you. minho will use it on himself first while you stand there like a soggy lil puppy until he’s done, only then does he hand it to you and runs to get a fresh, clean one to wrap around your shoulders.

but if there isn’t one of those moments (rare), he likes to do everything for you. washing your hair, soaping your body, even helping you shave if you wanted. tbh it’s all an excuse to keep a hand on you at all times cus he’s touchy like that, and his love language is acts of service with a hint of physical skinship. i think he’d be the type to get in the shower with you even if he’d already taken one just to be near you, and encourages you to tell him about your day while you’re stuck in there with him. “you can’t leave, or else you’ll be dirty. so either you can be stinky in bed or you can let me listen to you talk. choose wisely.”

on days he especially misses you, he’ll even dry your hair and help you apply lotion. his favorite part is skin care, sitting you on the nearest high surface to be eye level or taller than him and he can apply all your products with such a delicate touch. for lip balm, he puts it on himself, then leans in to kiss you. “what’s yours is mine, what’s mine is yours. that includes lip balm.”

[captain-hen]

What do you think are the fandom ~~classic buddie fics?

i think this is a very subjective opinion, but i can tell you which fics i really love and constantly re-read—and which, in my opinion, should be read by everyone in the fandom :)

Leave the Light On (I'll Be Coming Home) by @hmslusitania Rated M | 44k | Completed Summary: An accident on a call leaves Buck with custody of Chris after Eddie is... missing presumed. While they navigate their new family circumstances—and fight to stay together, despite Eddie's parents' best efforts—a John Doe wakes up in a coma ward with no memory of his own life beyond the knowledge he has a son named Christopher and, somehow, he needs to get home.

a bleeding sun on a silver screen by rarakiplin Rated M | 130k | Completed Summary: One day, Buck will tell an interviewer that he would be happy to make movies with Eddie Diaz until the day he dies. But first, years before that, he sees Eddie for the first time on the set of Chimney’s fifth movie. (or, the actors au)

i want your midnights by @littlespoonevan Rated T | 36k | Completed Summary: In which Eddie decides to rent out his spare room to help with mortgage repayments right around the time Buck decides to move out of Abby's place after some not so gentle prodding from Maddie. It's a coincidence. Or serendipity. Or maybe just really good timing.

maybe we'll make something by @buckactuallys Rated E | 76k | Completed Summary: On a road trip with Christopher, Buck and Eddie finally work through their various traumas, and Eddie faces his parents again.

what a heart can do by @bvckandeddie Rated T | 86k | Completed Summary: In which Buck becomes the guardian of the daughter he never knew he had. Together, they discover what happiness truly means to them.

Hot Ghost Problems by ebjameston Rated T | 40k | Completed Summary: Eddie is the newest firefighter at the 118. Buck is the ghost haunting the 118. Unfortunately for both of them, Eddie's also a witch and needs to put Buck's spirit to rest, because that's what witches do. Turns out, Buck's spirit? Super not interested in being put to rest. Very interested, however, in flirting with Firefighter Diaz, who is just trying to survive his candidate year. (Also turns out, Buck? Super not dead.)

Both Blade and Branch by @cal-daisies-and-briars Rated M | 62k | Completed Summary: The chances of being struck by lightning twice are incredibly minute, but Buck still manages to pull it off. During a double date with Marisol and Natalia, nonetheless. Eddie manages to resuscitate him, but as Buck recovers from yet another trauma, Eddie can’t help but notice there’s something very different about him. He’s not quite sure what version of Buck he got back.

we're not in love (but the sex is good) by elless Rated E | 15k | Completed Summary: Eddie is new to LA. Feeling lonely, he goes to a bar for a drink and meets a beautiful stranger that kisses like a dream. What starts as a one night stand quickly moves to frequent no strings sex. When circumstances lead to them spending time together out of bed, Eddie realizes he’s attached to Buck in a way he never planned for.

for all the haunts and homes of men by euadnes Rated M | 113k | Work in Progress Summary: The year by the old calendar is 2025. Home is gone. Home is a failed rescue mission and an echo of a memory. Home is a lost boy living in a wooden house by the sea. But first, there was a promise. Christopher, when it's safe, I'll take you back to your father. Buck had all but given up on keeping it after the world had died and everyone in it. But just as some oaths refuse to be forgotten, so the same can be said about the endurance of love.

things we shouldn't do by Ingu Rated T | 21k | Completed Summary: The one where Buck and Eddie accidentally get set up on a blind date with each other, and everything snowballs from there.

[the-kingshound]

Hej hej! Please dont worry about updating!! Honestly, reading your blog is already super fulfilling! I get really excited whenever I see youve posted on here <3 Like, tiny lore drops or RO asks or drabbles or literally anything, Im squealing like a cartoon teenage girl "Kal posted!.!.!" <33 Really, really love your story (stories, ig i love from the ashes we rise so much as well), and any smidge of info or content you give us of it :D Im obv excited and pumped for whenever the update might come out but its 0 rush! Please take whatever time you need for whatever reason! <3

I love you anon please accept this realistic picture of me while reading:

[moraxsthrone]

Kaeya fluff? Hell yeah

Imagine being the one person Kaeya leans on. For real, this man trusts no one and thought he would trust no one until you showed up. Now here he is, venting about his rough day at work while you run your fingers through his hair, reminding him just how much you love him. Maybe it's just me, but I think this man would MELT if you told him you want him romantically. Like, he's proud of how he can make you scream his name and all but having you say that you would be with him even without that? The man's dead, you killed him, but maybe he'll come back to you for a kiss ;)

Sorry, I don't think this is what you were asking for, but hope you like it anyhow?

anonnnnnn??? this is PERFECT!! it's even better than what i wanted?? skskskskssss. bless you, child, for leaving such a sweet delicacy in my ask box! 🥹💙

CW/NOTES — mention of sex but otherwise sfw. themes of low self-worth, abandonment issues, imposter syndrome (kaeya, not reader). fluff/comfort. gn! reader.

no, hun, it's not just you. you see, i've got quite a soft spot for lowkey insecure kaeya. it only makes sense??

i touched on this in my previous post, but i think kaeya secretly worries that you'll come to your senses one day and decide that being with him is more trouble than he's worth? he's scared shitless that he's inherently disposable (after what his bio father - and later, diluc - did to him) and probably suffers from a massive case of imposter syndrome when you tell him you're in love with him.

i think a big reason why he "peacocks" so much is bc he knows he's beautiful on the outside but thinks he's ugly on the inside and not worth sticking around for. beneath that cocky façade, there's a little boy who's terrified of being left all alone again. so he overcompensates by using his good looks and charming smile to win ppl over bc deep down he thinks that's all he's got going for him. of course you want to fuck him, he thinks. who doesn't?

but YOOOO when you touch his soul and kiss his scars, and you hold his heart in your hands like it's the most precious thing you've ever held? <i'm trying not to fucking cry here 😅> you hold it so close to your own heart and take care of it like it's yours (it is now, as far as he's concerned btw), kaeya fucking freaks the fuck out. he knows how to lose people. he's all too familiar with being discarded and abandoned.

but what he's NOT used to is being seen, accepted, and loved for exactly who he is, right to his very core. the first time you spend the night with him without having sex, he doesn't even sleep. he just lies there and watches you as tears blur his vision. he holds you and breathes in the scent of your hair as he kisses the top of your sleepy head, quietly thanking his stars for you and hoping his sniffling doesn't wake you up.

he'll know how it feels to be loved unconditionally and it's all bc of you. trust, this man will never step out of your relationship or do anything else to jeopardize what he has with you.

you're his home now, his center.

you're his present and his future.

you're his whole fucking life, his everything.

you're his person, the one who has his head in your lap, slowly brushing the tangles out of his hair with your fingers, leaning down to kiss his forehead and reminding him how much you love him. even and especially on his bad days when he needs that reminder the most.

[adoriels-tears-if]

More thoughts anon here, if I think of more definitely sending lol

The laughing from Sirius because he knows that the Renegades are double fucked.

That terrible orc that needs his hands cut off, and the fear of him. I could feel that fear. Not saying his name because he doesn't deserve it 😂 Also bravo for making me feel such animosity towards a fictional character.

Ikar. I feel so bad for him. He's like a child still due to trauma and I just wanna steal him away. I also felt kind of bad for Eleven because of his missing comrade. He's still an ass though lol

THE DESTRUCTION omg the destruction. I could see it all so clearly. Your writing makes it so easy to visualize the scene. Hell hath no fury like a mother whose child you kidnapped.

I wanna give Sirius some pets and clean him up. I bet he's all matted from being locked up. I felt bad for him before too when MC got branded. Now that I know Ash can see through his eyes that makes the reaction even more heartbreaking. I'm imagining how helpless Ash must feel right now too 😭

Also I want to give all of the other familiars baths and cuddles lol

THE calmness MC can posses because they know their mother is coming. Knowing that your parent loves you enough to destroy an entire camp to get to you. There is no doubt Elianna loves her child.

The kindness that MC can show despite being mistreated.

The humanness of the Renegades. They're bad guys, but there is more to it. How many of them, besides Ikar, were taken in the night and made to work that job.

You also write children and their emotions so well. I feel like I'm a kid when playing through it.

Anyway. Absolutely love this story and I was at the edge of my seat. I always buzz with excitement the whole time I read.

ALSO the cliffhanger, I'm even more excited.

Wow, your message left me speechless and with tears in my eyes! Thank you, thank you so much for your compliments! Wow, just Wow!

I'm embarrassed and also happy and very moved!

And relieved!!!

I was so afraid that my descriptions would go wrong and be misinterpreted.

wow...

It's great to know what you liked about this update! I love getting your feedback and opinions and just exchanging with you! On the subject of Eleven while we're at it…You might still feel bad. As for Uilan…I've got it covered and Mc is involved!

You'll also get some time with Ikar (on certain routes) and with Sirius. And of course, Elianna, Tobias and all the others will be back in the next update.

Well, it will depend on how much I write, by which I mean how much I write (I prefer to write smaller updates than some authors, so I don't have to fix too many bugs, and it's less painful).

I'm in my daydreaming phase right now. I'm working out the dialogue and action in my head before putting it down on paper and then computer and then doing the English translation so I'm sorry in advance if it's taking a bit long, but no worries!

Next time, destruction, redemption, solace, and encounters will be part of the story!

[stardust-sunset]

i feel like chocolate cake is too normalized in the curtis household to be special so they eat funfetti cake for birthdays

(i’m simply choosing to ignore the fact that funfetti wasn’t invented until 1989, i bet soda accidentally invented it on his own while playing with food coloring, i digress)

anyways, darry and soda wake pony up with a funfetti cake and soda smashes his face in it when he goes to blow out the candles and all three brothers start the morning having a cake/tickle fight.

soda gifts pony a new sketch book and some colored pencils and darry saved up for months to buy pony a camera so he can take pictures of the sunsets.

then the gang comes over and they all go to the movies and get dairy queen and pony gets lots of birthday hugs from his brothers and his friends

that night, the curtis brothers are all cuddling on the couch with Pony in the middle. Darry kisses him on top of the head and tells him he loves him and sends pony and soda off to bed and everyone is happy and nothing is wrong and they’re all safe and content for once and nothing hurts

YOU SEE?! THIS! THIS IS WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT! THESE ARE THE HEADCANONS I MEANT!

These are seriously so cute 😭😭 Maybe they make funfettinwith chocolate or even red velvet cake-Soda pushing it in his face is so real, Pony is sleepy as fuck in the mornings and he’s so confused until his brothers smash the cake in his face (it’s a curtis family tradition started by mr curtis) and he’s just very happy 😭 He’s such a baby I can’t-Darry and Soda definitely have saved money since like-january so they could spoil pony rotten that day because he has gone through so much he honestly deserves it-they definitely take him to some restaurant he had been eyeing and let him order whatever he wants and how much of it (usually money is tight so they don’t often have enough to let Pony get the amount he truly wants) and Pony gets a truckload of books (some are even signed by the authors-though most of them were forged by Two Bit but shhhhhh) and Pony at the end of the day just bursts into tears because his brothers took the day off to spoil him and he’s so happy-he cuddles his brothers and is just so sos happy, I love this

[theheirofthesharingan]

re-reading the manga, i always had this feeling that itachi never wanted to stay alive. maybe im the only one.. 🤨

He really had no will to live once he massacred his clan. I doubt he had any desire to live before that as well. In Sasuke's flashbacks he looks completely lost and helpless and reacts positively only to Sasuke being around. Once he killed his clan, and just in case, there was no Sasuke, he would have killed himself too. But the travesty of all of this is that he forcefully prolonged his life so he could die in Sasuke's presence.

He was never raised to be a normal kid. He was both a tool and a sacrifice, used as just that by his clan and the village both. He never had much of a choice in how he turned out because of being brought up in a strict household with equally strict clan vs village ideals.

So, when he left the village and throughout his life afterwards, owing to his guilt, he lived like a tool that could be useful to Sasuke eventually. Sasuke would be the hero of the village, Sasuke would be strong enough to protect himself from the likes of Danzo and 'Madara'.

So, yeah. He didn't want to live at all and he'd be at peace in death, despite our desire to watch him live longer.

[ninja-knox-ur-sox-off]

Im the anon who said they started following for your liveblogs. I want to hear YOUR thoughts on the show, including negativity for the animation. If i wanted neutrality on the animation,i would listen to myself. hell I ADORE epithet erased and thats just papercut figures. If i wanted endless positivity for season 5, i follow lots of people for that. Really want your uncut thoughts (your choice in the end, just putting my hat in the ring)

I’m holding your hat in my arms actually

[shimamitsu]

had a dream a new chapter dropped where shima and mitsumi became a couple and had their first kiss but then out of nowhere there was a random info that kazakami died?? i went to your tumblr to check reactions and you were making winning memes about shimamitsu but also said things like ""sad about kazakami but maybe it's for the best"" 😭😭😭

[ask-team-donum]

this might be a lil weird but I wanted to say I really appreciate ur aroace characters!! it feels kinda rare to see that at all let alone in a PMD setting and it sparks joy for me :) ty!! and ofc I love Phoebe & Scout as characters and will be following their story as long as it takes

ANON. LOOKING AT YE LIKE THIS FHSBXB <3333333333

Not weird at all!!!! You made my day!!!! Imight cry this made me so so happyy fjsgsbfhfh EEHEHE <333

I AM. SO SO HAPPY THAT THEY SPARK JOY FOR YE THAT MEANS SO MUCH TO ME YE'RE SO SWEET AA 💙💙💙💙💙

Thank you so much for these kind words <333333

[hotvintagepoll]

absolutely gutted by the bloodbath that is the comedic guys' polls. donald o'connor was doomed on the vampire website and i can live with that. but danny kaye? dick van dyke?? if you didn't walk away from mary poppins with a lifelong crush on van dyke what even was the point. anyway. genuine propaganda, watching van dyke drop the silly for a moment and tell mr banks to go be a parent to his kids (spoonful of sugar reprise/"a man has dreams") gives me chills to this day. the little smile at about 3:00 in the video i found (idk if tumblr will take links so it's right as he says "like sand through a sieve") kills me

Donald O'Connor vs Vincent Price

Fernando Lamas vs Danny Kaye

Marlon Brando vs Dick Van Dyke

[ratatatastic]

idk if it's obvious but in the forsy offseason training vid the reporter asks "how do your legs feel, you know, for a man who, well, some see as a greek god" and forsy is just hand on hip staring off fondly in the distance he knows damn well who some is like even at home he's never living that ekky thirst quote down linked together forever just how ekky drew it up

OH YOU GOTTA BE FUCKING KIDDING ME

MAN HAUNTED BY HIS PARTNERS HORNINESS EVEN IN SWEDEN IM GONNA CRY EKKY LOOK WHAT YOUVE DONE THIS MAN IS GETTING HARASSED IN HIS OWN HOMETOWN OH MY GOD CAN HE NOT HAVE PEACE

[magpod-confessions]

I have had this show as my main hyperfixation for 4+ months and I have not finished it and I don’t know if I ever will </3 I do not handle sad media well and I was not aware it was a tragedy going in until I was much too deep in to get out 💀 for a while it straight up negatively affected my mental health lol. look I do love the ending and I think it was very well written and just ough…. very good but also damn. damn I wish it had a happy ending

TBH that’s why I’m not listening to protocol either. At least not yet, bc I like the open ending of tma bc I can pretend that they’re happy somewhere else and I don’t want that to be proven wrong :’’’) no amount of fanfiction can fill the gaping void in my heart…… why doesn’t my mental illness induced apathy extend to fiction too istg I would enjoy so many things so much more if I didn’t get horribly depressed by them 💀I get that some people like that but I’m not one of them…. Alas this is nothing new. I always get hyperfixated on tragic stories despite being the #1 happy ending enjoyer, why does this keep happening

anyways that one dream sweet in sea major animatic and that one animation of last words made me lose my shit. go watch those lol this fandom scares me but god if it doesn’t have the coolest animatics ever <33

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[mrspockify]

Ohh? Chronic Pain Mario? Then I raise you Mario with Arthritis. Like this poor man’s body when the weather changes, the deep constant aches in his limbs, his arms, back in his hands. Him realizes that he’s getting slower, more fatigued. His decreasing muscle range. He’s no longer able to jump or run like he used to, his limbs just get to stiff and feel like stones half the time

How frustrating it is cuz he’s not even that old. Only in his late 30s when he finally sees the change.

Luigi noticing long before that but never said anything for fear of upsetting his brother and that’s why Luigi has been tagging along with him more often, taking on the heavy lifting when before that had been his job.

Eventually, another month goes by & he gets himself a cane. It hurts, it’s embarrassing but the worried look on Luigi’s face hurts him even more so he grits his teeth regardless.

YES ANON I LOVE YOU FOR THIS 🩷🩷🩷

It’s 1000% a headcanon of mine that he develops arthritis. I wrote a post with headcanons about him and Peach growing old together, and I definitely see him starting to slowly lose his physical abilities as he ages, largely because of how he kind of abuses his body in his youth/young adulthood. His poor goddamn joints 💔

But now I LOVE the idea of it happening even earlier. Hi I’m 27 and I have arthritis so time for projecting onto my fave characters once again. It happens kind of suddenly, he just wakes up and he’s in pain, but passes it off as from a hard fight with Bowser or something. But then the pain just…. Never goes away.

He tries to hide it for as long as he can, and just suck it up, but people notice. It starts getting in the way. Even plumbing becomes a chore, and some days he has to pretend he just wants Luigi to get in some extra practice with the wrench, but in actuality his wrist hurts too much to bend that way, and if he gets down on his knees he might not get back up.

And you’re right, he’s embarrassed by it, and he goes down kicking and screaming because he’s Super Mario. He’s supposed to be the hero, and here he is not even middle aged, and he’s having trouble with the most basic daily tasks. How is he supposed to keep rescuing Peach when he can barely lift his arms above his head to reach in the cupboard? How is he supposed to keep anyone safe, his only purpose in life, when he’s too tired to walk into the other room? When getting up and moving in the morning takes ten times longer than it used to? When he can’t focus on anything except how much pain he’s in?

It gets to the point where he just doesn’t know what else to do but hide and cry about it. Who is he if he can’t be what everyone needs him to be?

It kills him, and Luigi and Peach can see how much it’s killing him, but it’s not until they confront him and tell him how much they can tell he’s hurting that he finally agrees to get help. He uses a cane and other assistive devices, and takes medication, and starts asking for help when he needs it (some of the time—he’s still pretty stubborn, and pushes himself more often than not). It’s one of the hardest adjustments he’s ever had to make, and it takes a really long time for him to stop feeling sorry for himself, but his loved ones help him get there eventually 💕

[ghostbite0]

You know the little yippee cat that jumps up and down? Yeah that is literally me when you post. I've always loved imagining what characters would be like as babies, as most people love a ton of their favorite show characters and get inspired by them, yet, those characters always seem so in-human ( like, you could never imagine yourself in them from how tough and incredible they seem ) but seeing that even fictional characters were once babies is so comforting 🥹🥹.

Your art is beautiful, and you display things in such a sweet way, you catch the dynamic of all of the hashira so perfectly It's amazing. From their expressions to the sparkle in their eyes it's literally exactly what they would look like 😭. You manage to capture a character with their original personality, or what they were before their trauma or the true personality were told about but it isnt displayed in the show ( for example, becuase iguro was abused as a kid, he probably doesn't cry loud, and in your art he doesn't scream cry and its so wholesome I'm gonna die 😭😭 ) .

Your art is so perfect and it's comforting the souls of so many people! I hope you keep going as honestly your so talented and you have an army of supporters behind you 🤍 you should be super super proud of yourself. Also. Please, we understand your a student and need time for your studies, so focus on those if you have to! We are all humans, and no one has infinite time.

I hope you have an amazing day/night!! ✨️✨️