#angry my kindness got misinterpreted

[bedforddanes75]

desperately need tiktok ethel cain fans to know how stupid they are

[angeliteeyes]

Multifandom: Caleb (LADS), Castorice and Sparkle (HSR), Ei and Ganyu (GI)

I adore aus where the characters are aware of you in some way even though they're still in another world. My favorite of those concepts is an au where instead of them being your favorite gacha characters, you're THEIR fave.

I like to imagine that this version of them doesn't take place in their reality that we know of ingame. Instead, it's more of a modern au where they're just as chronically online and cringe as us lmao. Spamming their social media accounts when you get a new card (or whatever your game does) in all caps, falling asleep to videos of you talking. Maybe even writing long, angry replies on Reddit defending you and how you're best char. Here's some of the characters I feel particularly suit this idea

cw: mental illness (they're gacha addicts what else would you expect lol), mentions of death, light angst for some characters

-Caleb-

Listen, I can't NOT talk about Caleb here. This concept is practically made for his clingy, traumatized ass.

In this version of him, I imagine he started out pretty normal for a while actually, making friends pretty easily in his youth and all of that. Slowly but surely, though, things shifted. Family deaths piled up at an age where he just wasn't ready to handle that kind of emotional burden and... well, you know how guy friendships can be. He didn't really feel like he could turn to any of his real friends the way that he desperately needed to stop his entire world from falling apart.

And then there was your bright smile on his screen all of a sudden. He'd seen ads for the game you're in before, but he never got around to actually trying it out. Until that fateful day. After having gone through yet another funeral, his brain felt so fried and tired that he barely even processed his finger movements as he went through all the install screens, clicking the repetitive buttons and whatnot.

It's not like there's something wrong with the other characters or anything. They're fine and all, but he quickly started to realize just how much you stood out to him. How soothing everything about you was, as if you were actually there telling him everything would be okay. It doesn't take very long before he's full-on obsessed with you.

As a fan, he'd be so so pathetically jealous. Of course, he logically understands that he can't stop other people from looking at you, pulling for you, loving you... But holy hell if he doesn't want to just have you for himself, as ridiculous and impossible the notion is. He's the type of dude who'd legit get so heated over seeing someone mischaracterize you that he'd either send them a 1000 word rant or insta-block them. No in-between.

And yes, he would listen to your sweet voice every time he feels particularly lonely or grief hits too hard. You aren't going to judge him for crying, after all.

-Castorice-

Castorice in a modern au, in my opinion, would totally be a hospice worker. Ever since she was a child, she's had a knack for finding injured animals and would cradle them in her palms each and every time until they took their last breath. She's like an angel attracted to poor, suffering souls. Unfortunately, her young kid mind misinterprets the situation and believes she's cursed instead. It ultimately culminates into a full-blown phobia of touching people with both of her hands; it's just that ingrained in her that holding someone equals death.

Thankfully, as she gets older, she manages to cope with her fears a little better by putting her talent to good use. Whenever a patient in her care clearly expresses that they're ready to go, she's more than happy to help them pass on. But... it's still so achingly lonely. A real romantic relationship doesn't even process as an option to her, because, yknow. Physical intimacy.

That's why she grows so painfully attached to you, viewing you as her only real hope of having the lover she yearns for. Sure, she's not delusional. She knows you have a screen permanently forcing you two apart, but that's even better in her book. This way, her curse will never, ever harm you.

Castorice would absolutely be part of the hugging-a-pillow-and-imagining-it's-you club. Every single night, without fail, she wraps her arms and legs around her body pillow while imagining you. How warm you would actually be in her arms. She'd even go as far as to spray a scent on it—whatever reminds her the most of you while she's out shopping one day and picks it up.

As far as her online presence, she's definitely on the calmer side. Her account is filled to the brim with wholesome fanart of you, both reblogs and her own works. If anyone talks smack about you, she'll just block them and cleanse her soul with that adorable birthday art of you. Why waste precious energy on them when you're here to love and adore?

-Sparkle-

Sparkle is THE number one online troll, you can't convince me otherwise. Everyone else hates her so much, but somehow, they can never get rid of her presence. Aw, they blocked her newest account? Too bad, she's already got 3 other ones ready to go. But no matter how many times it changes, one thing remains consistent: that damn profile picture of you.

In a bizarre way, her determination to troll combined with your face being plastered next to her username kinda lets her... claim you? Nobody else would dare to use that photo of you as their profile pic, at least. It's not exactly the most orthodox way of showing her affection for you, but it gets similar results.

Now, everyone hates her and all, but most people have learned by now that she's best handled through methods like ignoring or blocking her. If they do that, typically Sparkle's attention wanes and she moves along to her next victim. But one person, one damn person, takes things too far. They start spamming insults towards you in her dms, tagging her in hate posts about you, everything to get under her skin. And it works like a charm. She's literally seething behind her dusty computer screen, losing her mind at every stupid notification sound.

Let's just say, that person won't be using social media again any time soon. Not once she's done with them.

-Ei-

It feels a bit strange, this version of Ei. Trust me when I say that every ounce of elegance and social skills her Genshin counterpart has flat-out doesn't exist in this world. I'm talking doesn't brush her hair most days, constant eyebags, won't even order at a drive-thru due to needing to talk to others, the works. It's not even necessarily that she's got social anxiety or anything like that. Ei plain old doesn't like people in this au, or at least, anyone other than you.

You're her rock that keeps her going every day. Why bother "making friends" when you're already here by her side every day? Why bother "taking care of her appearance" when you love her all the same? Her parents tried so hard to intervene and force her to act normal. They took away her devices and even forced her into therapy for as long as they legally could, but she just... wouldn't change. When they took her phone and computer, they'd expected her to switch hobbies. Maybe she'd pick up reading again. But every time they peek into her room, she's just sitting there with a vacant, empty expression. They can't hear it, but in her mind, you're still there right next to her keeping her company. It's honestly so heartbreaking to watch that they give up and let her have everything back again.

Truly, nothing else matters to her but you.

Unlike the others, she actually wouldn't have any social media presence whatsoever. Ei's stuck so far in her delusional attachment to you that she barely even can register the fact that she isn't your actual friend or partner. How could you not be, when you're together every moment of every day?

-Ganyu-

Ganyu's honestly probably the only one here with a genuinely healthy attachment level toward you, even if she admittedly uses you a lot to cope with her insecurities. You're just so, so sweet to her, having so many uplifting voice lines.

Her absolute favorite card of you is one where you're eating pastries with your game's mc. It comes with a corresponding unlockable event, where you encourage them to eat as much as they want. You even reassure them that no matter how they look or how much they weigh, you'll always love them. Essentially, you give Ganyu a free therapy session, and one that she greatly needs.

As much as she loves you, work forces her into being a filthy casual. Don't worry, though! She always makes time for limited content with you in it, like event stories and cards. Plus, she earns so much from her hard work. She can afford to spend an extra hundred... or five hundred... on duplicates of you. Even if your game's company is greedy as all hell, she still takes pride in funding them. If your game ever got the dreaded end-of-service announcement... she doesn't know what she'd do.

Her whale habits carry into social media, where she pays the bills of so many artists. They practically view her as a saint, both for how often she commissions them and for how willing she is to pay full price. Her? She's just happy to have all this extra content of you to admire. What a sweetheart ♡

[darkficsyouneveraskedfor]

the girl next door 12

Warnings: this fic will include elements, some dark, such as age gap, manipulation, chronic illness, noncon/dubcon, coercion, and other untagged triggers. Please take this into account before proceeding. It is up to curate your online consumption safely.

Summary: A new neighbour moves in and upends your already disarrayed life.

Author’s Note: Please feel free to leave some feedback, reblog, and jump into my asks. I’m always happy to discuss with you and riff on idea. As always, you are cherished and adored! Stay safe, be kind, and treat yourself.

This lewk but silverfox

“How about it, Holly?” Steve’s voice brings you back from your trance.

You only realise then that you’ve zoned out. You look down at your plate, your burger half-eaten and the salad mostly gone. As your mom babbled on, you’d lost yourself staring out at the lawn. It didn’t really matter, she barely acknowledged you since you came out with dinner.

You glance between her and Steve, lost in the conversation already underway.

“I’d love that, it will be nice,” your mom answers, beaming across the table; the shade of the umbrella gathering in the lines of her face.

“How about you, kiddo? Grab you pajamas and join the party,” Steve looks at you.

“Huh?” You and your mom utter in unison.

“Both of us?” She asks in a brittle quaver.

“Yeah, sure, it’ll be a nice way to connect. Holly, I know you’re a mother first, it’s a package deal.”

“Mm, yeah, I just... I misinterpreted,” she puts her hand against her neck. “A sleepover, that’s fun.”

“I felt bad about last time. Don’t want anyone left out of movie night. I got popcorn, mph,” he turns to you again, “do you like cream soda? I got some cane stuff in the glass bottles--”

“That’s a lot of sugar,” your mother murmurs.

“It’s one night,” he shrugs, “it won’t hurt. Lots to go around.”

“I guess...” she forces a smile.

“Well, we can always hold off. I did promise ice cream,” he sits back and claps his thighs. “You all done?”

You stare at the table then look up in the silence. You don’t realise he’s talking to you. You nod. Your stomach won’t settle. It’s been off all day; you wonder if maybe the maple syrup was a bit too much yesterday.

“I’ll wrap it up for you, you can have it later if you want,” he stands and takes your plate, then your mother’s and his own. Where you nibbled through barely half, they had nothing left.

You sit back and cross your arms as Steve goes inside. Your mother sighs and glares past you. She’s annoyed even if you hadn’t made the decision yourself. You didn’t even accept the invitation.

“Sorry,” you mumble.

“Whatever,” she rolls her eyes, “you just can’t help but get in the way.”

She leans forward. When she’s angry, her tremors worsen. She’s barely able to keep her head still.

“I didn’t...”

“Oh, be quiet. He only feels bad for you because he knows I can’t get rid of you,” she sneers. “He knows you have nothing go for you. No job, no friends, no hobbies.” She sits back and huffs, “I tried to raise you better. I really did. I don’t know what happened.”

You lower your head. Maybe you can come up with a lie. If you can find an excuse to leave, she won’t be able to hate you.

“I could say I’m not feeling well--”

“Just stay out of the way,” she snarls.

You sniff and turn away, hiding the gloss of tears in your eyes. Sometimes, you don’t do anything at all and she’s mad. You hear Steve coming back out and you wipe your nose, keeping your face down as you shrink.

You can be invisible. You’re good at that.

🏠

Not wanting to seem ungrateful, you accept a bowl of ice cream and finish it. Strawberry. It's delicious but you just can't enjoy it. You're uneasy, unsure.

You go to grab some pajamas, your mother issuing another warning before you return to Steve's. You wear a pair of polka dot bottoms and a jersey shirt. You'll just be watching tv, and hopefully, if you can settle down, sleeping.

Your mother sits on the couch. You can see the fatigue quivering in her lip and drooping in her eyelids. She never did as much before your new neighbour. You only ever stayed inside and wilted in the sunlight.

"Holly, you need anything?" Steve asks as he pushes up the ottoman, "how about you put your feet up. I just wanted to show her something."

"What's that?" Your mom asks.

"Oh, yeah, well, I know she likes art so I wanted to show her my studio. Or office, whatever you wanna call it."

"Mm, right. Upstairs, huh?" She grumbles.

"Right," he confirms, "we won't be too long. You can find a movie." He hands her the remote, "I had some extra pencils and stuff I found on the move. Figured she could take em off my hands."

"Sure, sure," she yawns and leans her head in her hands. You can't tell if she's witholding herself out of exhaustion or for Steve's benefit.

"Come on. We'll just pop up for minute," Steve nudges your arm.

You hug one arm across your stomach and push your shoulder up. You take his direction as he points you actoss the room. You go to the stairs and climb one by one.

Further down, he takes you into another room, just across from an open bedroom. You shuffle inside and can't help marvel at the interior. The walls are hung with still lifes in pencil, charcoal, and ink, and an easel stands by the window, a large drafting table at the center of the room.

"You do these?" You ask bluntly.

"Ha, yeah, I... when I saw your sketchbook, I admit, I got a bit excited. A fellow artist."

"You're an artist? You make money off of this?"

"Sure do," he smiles proudly. "Did some time in the army then had to get out, find some peace. Always found painting calms me."

"Oh."

"I wanted to say something sooner but I wanted to show you," he enters and brushes by you, hand dragging across your back. "Let me find those pencils."

You nod and pace cautiously around the table. There's an open sketchbook. A woman's naked back greets you, a piece of fabric draped around her hips as her refined profile is etched perfectly.

He's good. Better than you. You back away as he sorts through the shelf.

'Ah, here," he turns to you again, "pencils, sketchbook, oh and maybe you'll want these watercolours. I was sent two by accident."

"Oh, uh, thanks, but... you don't have to."

"You're talented. You'll make good use of them, I know it."

"Mm, I... try."

"There's this place I know. Great view. Maybe you can come one day. Good fodder," he offers. "Trees, water, and the sunset..."

"Maybe," you agree half-heartedly.

"Then maybe you can bring it to my next art show."

"Art show?" You mutter, eyes rounding.

"Sure. It'll be good for you. I know you take care of your mom and that's sweet but you gotta make your way. Eventually."

"I know," you slump and take the sketchbooks and flat tins from him. "Thank you. I..." you look at the brand names. You know they're expensive from the catalogues you look at but never buy from. "No one... these are so nice. I appreciate it."

"No problem, sweetie. Let me know if you need anything else. Hell, if you want a quiet place to work..." he stops behind you and looks around, "even just an escape..."

“That's okay,” you say as you go back into the hall.

You head back downstairs, the pencils clattering just a little in your hands. As you enter the living room, you hear a snort. Your mom's head lolls back against the couch as she snores. Steve walks into you from behind as he stops too late.

“Oop,” he frames your hips for just a moment as he presses again your back then parts. “Sleepyhead,” he chuckles and sidles past you, a waft of his cologne filling your lungs. He didn't smell so strongly before. “Well, guess it's your choice, sweetie,” he takes the remote and holds it out to you.

“Oh, uh, you choose,” you try to wave him off but he pushes the remote into your hand.

“You can put your stuff on the table,” he points to the sketchbook clutches against your chest, “better get cozy while I get the popcorn going.”

Before you can argue, he's gone. You turn to look at your mom. Why did she have to fall asleep? She could've said no to all of this, that she's too tired. Now it's you and Steve. Hopefully, the movie keeps the chatter to a minimum.

[arceespinkgun]

You know, something occurred to me when I read that post asking if some fics portray Blaster as an asshole: Blaster and Prowl are both kind but mean. Like, they're both opinionated and harsh which results, I guess, in fans misinterpreting them as these huge assholes when in reality they're incredibly just and caring! You couldn't find more loyal characters (Blaster more to his friends than his commanders maybe).

Also, Blaster being uncaring of his cassettes?? Complete fabrication. The cassettes refused to go on missions when Blaster died in The Headmasters, he WENT ON THE RUN WITH FLIPSIDES WHEN THEY ACCUSED HER OF BEING A TRAITER. And then he actively worked toward peace with the Decepticons so he could reunite with her after she was imprisoned. Be actually so for real right now.

*trying and failing to phrase this in a way that doesn't sound too harsh* I actually don't really feel like people are misinterpreting the characters like that. When fics are labelled as G1, it's often just a soup of various stuff—I doubt most fics in which Blaster is morally dubious were written by fans who know about how he was in the G1 comics. I think it's just fans of Decepticons making things up.

It's too bad, I honestly loved his kinda unhinged but heroic canon characterization

Well, I guess I can think of one exception to this, in which I read a fic that had comics references in it and suggested Blaster restricted his cassettes' freedom and used the fact that he wasn't shown ejecting them until post-2005 as evidence... which is ridiculous because he didn't have cassettes any earlier! XD But even that fic characterized him more like cartoon Blaster, not comic Blaster. (I can't help but suggest racism as a possibility too, given that trends like Jazz having an evil alter or being a former Decepticon are super popular fanon that aren't misinterpretations either, they're entirely fan inventions.)

When it comes to Prowl, I remember I once saw a link to what may have been the first ever JazzProwl fic that I think even predated the Dreamwave comics, and in it Prowl was a violent prick, even shooting at Jazz, which he'd never do in canon!!! But the author hadn't read the G1 comics, only ever having seen the cartoon and bios of the characters, actually saying that the dynamic was made up. So Prowl's anger wasn't a misinterpretation of the fact that he could get angry in the comics. When Prowl is portrayed like this now in fanfic, it's probably echoes of this old fanon or IDW-based, even if a fic is labelled as G1. I really feel your confusion though, I was recently reminded of the huge fight Optimus and Prowl had in IDW and my jaw dropped at those characterizations being canon and Prowl saying something like, "What's morality got to do with any of this?" given I think of him as a super ethically-focused character lol

You read my mind with the Flip Sides thing, I was thinking about maybe referring to Blaster in the Legends comic deciding to leave his old role behind after what happened with her! He still hoped they could be friends again one day! And I think this is something Soundwave in basically any continuity would never think of doing, so it really shows how different the characters are!

[sweetmariihs2]

Man! How these situations happen with me??! I have to make this public because oh my god

I had found a post, a random innocent post about the character Cedric from Sofia The First, asking if he would prefere dogs or cats. That was all! This was the post, and it was made by a friend of mine, that I know already. I answered "Oh I think he would like birds cuz he had a bird in the show and maybe he's used to take care of them more, I think it fits him!" And then my friend answered "well, I don't, I think he would be traumatized with taking care of them after his last bird friend betrayed him..." and I thought we were just exchanging opinions and having a conversation about a silly topic, like I always do with other people in fandoms when we disagree, we talk about what we think and see the things we agree in eachother's words. I then answered and gave more info why I thought that, thinking that the person would say "Ah ok I get it! I just don't understand it though. But I think that after the bird character betrayed him he wouldn't like taking care of birds anymore" and I would answer like "yeah it kinda makes sense, I think this because of this reason, but I get you"

No, man!! The person instead answered my comment "no I don't agree with you... I don't think that. No" and I thought "Oh ok maybe they don't want to have a fun little conversation. I don't want to argue about this silly topic, they will maybe try to argue with me, I don't want it, so I won't respond" and went on with my day.

Hours after that, I found a post that was made by the same person that made the previous post and had the conversation with me (it was all the same person and I consider them a friend since we know eachother and we are fandom buddies), but this person was writing:

"Why can't people see different headcanons and get out of canon material?

I used to be in said fandom and becauce I told them a headcanon I had they argued with me bc of my opinion, and now I see this happening in the Cedric fandom. For example today I made a post about Cedric liking cats or dogs and someone said he liked birds." (My personal note: what????????? Why am I mentioned in this)

"Guys don't do that. This makes the fandom awful to be in. These kinds of interactions are not good, don't turn the fandom toxic please" and ended the post.

I thought: what the hell????? But at the time I wasn't angry, I got embarassed and frustrated because this whole thing was unnecessary (this happened yesterday). This person had beef with me once in the past about another random silly topic abt Cedric, and I made a comment saying that "Cedric is childish in some aspects so maybe that's why certain thing blablabla" and the person, who is ALSO called Cedric, thought I was talking about them and got very very angry. When I understood the situation I spoke to him and he said sorry for misinterpretting my words. But he also told me something very specific about him, saying that he can sometimes misinterpret some things that people say and can see things negatively and react too fast or too negative, something like that. But yeah, that time the whole situation happened because of him misunderstanding me

And when the other situation happened yesterday, I thought "Ah he saw my comment and thought I was arguing. He told me about his problem of misinterpretting stuff so I'll go to him peacefully and explain that I wasn't intending to argue. But yeah that post using me as a bad example of something I didn't do was unnecessary and it certainly made me feel disrespected because I didn't do anything wrong. It will be easy they'll understand me and understand the situation" as if!! I reblogged their post and spoke about my pov, even showed screenshots of the comments, to show him that I wasn't arguing and wasn't disrespecting any opinion, and that his post about bad behavior and my mention in it made me feel disrespected. He is my friend and he can come to me and talk instead of posting and causing a situation he misinterpreted in the first place.

I got so anxious because I hate arguing, I hate conflicts! And this was something public and unnecessary about something I didn't do. I thought the end would be communication and that it would be easy, and I got anxious until the moment he answered me. My hands usually tremble when I'm anxious like that.

Well! At first he made a post in other account of his, absolutely not understanding my point, saying that he wouldn't take the post down (It would be good, yes, but I haven't even mentioned this! I didn't asked him to take the post down). But then seconds later, after I had already read it, he deleted the post and the notification tagging me also disappeared. And then he messaged me instead, also moments after that. And I though "phew! finally he wants to talk to me. Maybe he understood the situation, right??"

Nah he was arguing, definitely. His words were hella confusing to me because he said that I was making a conflict about something that wasn't a conflict-? I don't understand. I think he was misinterpretting me again, but I don't even know how to describe what he said since it was too confusing. I'll add screenshots because I'm confused as well. Don't read it if you don't want to

I have this in my mind, that "Dialogue is the best way to work through a conflict. Expressing why you felt disrespected is the right way to do it. Having a conversation." This is something confirmed by psychologists. And there is another thing in the study of dialogue that is when neurodivergent people and neurotypical people can't communicate properly because neurotypicals hear different intentions in neurodivergents just being literal and wanting to communicate, or when neurodivergents don't get something that neurotypicals meant cuz it was not literal, like for example when they're trying to make fun of the neurodivergent person saying like "omg where did you bought that shirt? from a landfill? lmao" and the neurodivergent innocently says "no actually I bought it from the store 😄 we can go together there if you want to!"

The same thing usually doesn't happen between two neurodivergent people because they're both literal and understand eachother literally, which it the best way to talk and understand other ppls feelings! And what is weird is that my friend Cedric is neurodivergent just like me, but he wasn't understanding me at all. I have a theory, for example, I'm 100% sure that I got my autism from my dad, and while he is literal like me, he tries to interpret some of my literal statements thinking that they're not literal and takes my words out of context. This probably happened because in his life he couldn't get subtle messages and tried to work around the problem by developing a way to indentify them, so sometimes I'm saying something normally and he gets it all wrong because his defense from letting comments pass works like this. He reads too much into what I said and gets it all wrong because in a moment of his life he had to do that to survive. We have to work through this.

I think the same thing happened with my friend Cedric and I don't blame him! He said later on that he get on conflics with a person often and this is related to his communication, and I said "Oh ok this makes sense. Yeah I'm not angry at you, man"

My dad for example is not aware of his bad habit. This person, on the other way around, is aware that they misunderstand other people, so if he is aware of that, he should try to speak to those he thinks that are arguing with him in private to try to understand the situation. But ok, sometimes people don't get these instructions, sometimes no one tells them that this is the right thing to do, specially in toxic environments. After our conversation then, he said sorry for what happened and understood that I was just talking. I don't want my written words to seem angry, I wanted them to seem paceful, and maybe he was reading them as angry because of his experience in toxic environment. And that was it! That was the conversation. We understood eachother and it ended yesterday.

They mentioned something like "I showed this to other people and they don't think I am in the wrong either" somewhere in the conversation and I got all confused because... I haven't done literally anything? I mean, he IS in the wrong for creating a situation that never existed and exposing me for something that I didn't do. Dropping down the calm explaining here, now I AM angry after the most recent post. I'm gonna tell you about the post.

"Hey um guys I am blocking the user @sweetmariihs2 because it's like the third time we argue and I want peace. I don't want to argue anymore"

I'm pissed, because someone random put me in a situation I didn't do anything to be involved, created a whole beef about something that wasn't even a fight, I thought we had understood eachother and he had understood that HIS misinterpretation problems were the cause of all this inconvenience to me, and that we were done and ok now. But no! Now they're coming publicly saying IN A POST, to other people who will read, that it's bad to keep contact with me cuz I fight. Like I was crazy or something! Now I have all the right to be pissed!

Third time? Excuse me?? The first time was when he minsunderstood me. The second time was when he misunderstood me again. There was no third time. Are you kidding??? You bother me twice and then makes a public post saying that you'll block me because I'M creating conflict?!? Fuck this.

I won't lose my mind here, I'll keep calm, but there's a moment a person can't keep taking shit anymore and just explodes! Damn, man! This was so unnecessary!

Think of the people that will read that post and think I'm crazy and I'm toxic to interact with. I got into an argument with a person that was harassing me in the past and made a post about this situation, and what was funny was that everyone was making other posts like, thinking we were beefing over stupid fandom headcanons. We weren'tttt!! The post was made because that person was going after me everywhere nonstop, harassing me! They made a blog to literally watch me and my posts after our argument, I have all the right to be mad! This was other situation with someone else. Now imagine these people, that saw this conflict in the past and think that I was "arguing" about "fandom stuff", seeing this post telling people publicly that Cedric will block me because I'm problematic. Man, stop stepping at my shoe! Leave me alone. Now I AM angry.

I thought we had made peace, I thought he had said sorry. The Cedric The Sorcerer fandom is smaller and smaller everyday, and I thought about blocking @cedricthewise to avoid fights too, but I thought "no, he just got it wrong, we said sorry, and I like his posts, not many people are talking about the character Cedric anymore, blocking is unnecessary". But thinking right now, I guess that I should have taken this decision wayyy back then. Imagine if I want to friendly interact in a future post and they interpret my words as hate, making another series of posts and conflicts that I didn't had anything to do with!

This kind of miscommunication will happen with Cedric and other people in the future and the best way to work around them is through dialogue. He KNOWS that he has a communication problem, and this will happen more times in his life, he needs to learn how to work through this. Man, I was misinterpreted and now there's a post publicly saying to everyone that blocking me is the best thing to do like I'm the cause of the situation. No I won't keep quiet! I will position myself! That's why I am making this post!

I thought everything had already ended and he said sorry. Man, if someone knows that they have interpretation problems, this someone needs to take their problems into account before getting into any conflicts, cuz sometimes they think someone is arguing, and this someone is not. Imagine if someone started having beef with you out of nowhere and then after saying sorry they made a public post saying to everyone that they'll block you. I don't care about the block, it's about the post again! He could have just quietly blocked me if he thought it was the best thing to do, but a post? What does he want to do with that post? He wants the Cedric fandom to hate me or something? I'm really known here! I'm the nicest, most respectful person you'll ever see, can you see how many times I was patient with bullshit only in this situation with Cedric? Now I'm not anymore! I'm making myself very clear in case he wonders what I'm feeling right now, I'm angry! I'm very angry and feeling disrespected. I don't want interactions with him anymore either.

I'm gonna make a rude statement here, but despite being rude, it's something we should take for our lives. Personal problems need to be dealt with in therapy, not with me, because I'm not a psychologist. If someone says they have reactive problems, trying to help is the worst thing you can do, because in the end you'll always end up screwing yourself over. The best thing to do is not interact with that person. Don't get involved in a situation with someone you know that has problems with being in situations. I don't want to go back to this discussion and, it will be a great loss to not see their posts anymore because they're nice, but my mental health will thank me so fucking much for just cutting contact with living ticking time bombs.

That's the end of the post. Stupid unnecessary situation.

I'm keeping the stf tags because that's for the stf fans to read.

[capseycartwright]

Cool. On the other hand there's a decline in kudos and comments. People consume fic like they're paying for it and don't interact with the person that's writing the fic. So yeah, no. I don't think there's anything inherently wrong with wanting engagement in return for your fic. If writers were just writing for themselves they wouldn't put it on ao3. Writers want to share their work with the fandom. And the fandom silently takes and doesn't even have the decency to leave feedback.

see, you’re deliberately misinterpreting my post and it’s really not a very good look for you pal

i have never once said that wanting engagement is a bad thing. i want engagement on my fic. that’s why i reblog it over and over when i post it.

what i personally think is bad, is this trend of people saying they won’t post a fic until they get 500 more followers etc etc. because that’s not asking for engagement on your fic. that’s using your fic - or art, or whatever it is - to farm engagement for your twitter account. how does 500 more followers get you more kudos or comments on a fic? because i promise you, when my fic gets recommended on twitter, it doesn’t give me any extra kudos or comments. hits, maybe. so it’s incredible disingenuous to pretend that holding back posting fic to hit a follower goal or a certain number of likes on a twitter is something inherently good or something that’s going to actually get fic writers more feedback on their work.

and if you had read my post in full (which i assume you didn’t based on how you’ve interpreted it) you’d already know that for me, the truly uncomfortable thing here, is the contentification and commodification of fic and how that relates to the way capitalism is invading fandom spaces and how this hawking your fic for engagement just feels like another way of monetising a hobby, and sorry to be all radical left wing about it but I don’t think you should have to monetise your hobbies. I also don’t think you should be using your fic as a way to become some sort of fandom influencer and hit certain following numbers, but call me old fashioned.

people not leaving comments on fic is an entirely separate issue - and truly, from my experience in the 911 fandom, I always get comments on my fic. some more than others, sure, but I’ve never posted a fic that didn’t get some kind of feedback. we all post our fic on ao3 to share it and because we like attention, yes, but if you’re angry enough that you seem think fic should only operate on some sort of a quid pro system where every hit has to result in a comment, I’m not sure you’re writing for the love of it - and I think you should write for the love of it. I love getting comments and I think feedback is an important thing to give writers you love but it makes me equally as happy to look at one of my fics and go wow, it’s got 1000 hits and that means 1000 people read my silly little fic and maybe it made their day a little better.

don’t misinterpret my words. i was very clear about what i was saying in my og post and you’ve missed that point entirely and tried to turn it into something else. read it again and try again, maybe. cool?

[x-neurotoxin-x]

Im about to rant so follow me for a second here. I keep seeing a lot of that "Touya was born evil and showed no remorse for the things he did even as a kid" take like, everywhere lately and tbh the blatant misinterpretation of Touya and disregard of canon aspects of his character about this never fails to get on my nerves.

Obv not in a "he did nothing wrong" way, he obviously did a bunch of things wrong and went down a dark path bc of a mix of circumstances, victimization, and his own decisions- which makes him such a good character because of the fact he was shaped by his trauma but also has agency in his crimes and made choices himself that got him where he is. He's not a good person and having regrets/remorse doesn't change that, but you guys are just legitimately wrong about him not having any remorse and being "born wrong" when in canon it's been a clear point multiple times to show he knows right from wrong to a degree and feels guilt for the things he's done. Correct me if I'm wrong, but Dabi is the only villain that I can think of from the league who shows remorse, and to some degree responsibility, for his actions.

A lot of the "evidence" people provide is stuff he did as a kid, like attacking Shouto and "Terrorizing Rei." Both of these Touya expressed regret about on screen with him venting to Natsuo at night about how he(Touya) was wrong that day(when he attacked Shouto) and Shouto didn't do anything.

He also expressed wanting to apologize to Rei for the things he said literally right after waking up from a coma in a strange facility where he was essentially being held hostage for 3 years. One of the first thoughts he had was that he did "awful things" ane needed to apologize to his mom and the rest of his family. (Which is honestly kind of devastating and says a lot about his character at the time that he was in such a traumatic situation and thought like that. Everything about post coma/teen Touya is so goddamn tragic.)

He projected his anger and pain from his abuse onto Shouto when he got older- I.e. everything he did as Dabi to Shouto; fighting him, trying to kill him, etc all of which was fucked up and he had no excuse to do but he DID show remorse for doing it. Legit the last time we see him he apologizes specifically to Shouto and it appears during the final battle he had a moment of clarity and everything about Shouto sank in- the soba moment only further showing that.

We also see that scene way back where he was remembering what Snatch said about the families of the people he killed, and Dabi showed remorse there too with the bloody tear symbolism.

So I really do not understand how ppl still call him born evil and remorseless when in canon it's pretty clear Touya's always been a very hurt, angry person who did terrible things either on impulse or out of pain and felt regret for it, but kept doing it because of trauma, very likely mental illness, and his self destructive tendencies. He got colder as he got older, but he's shown to be still capable of remorse and critical thought. He's not just evil for no reason without any second thought, he's more complex than that. It all makes him such a complicated, human, and relatable character and boiling him down to "-insert the ablest slur you all keep using that starts with the letter S- with no remorse who was born evil and wrong" is not only starting to stink of ableism but just a blatant disregard and misunderstanding of his character in general.

[painted-bees]

I love it when you dive into the psyche stuff with Margie and Raf. I swear I learn something new about myself every time I read a post about them. It's nice that they're both very patient and supportive with each other and that their struggles overlap in a way that grants them more empathy than they might have had otherwise. That said I'm curious to know how they clash, if at all. Does either of them have symptoms that triggers or exasperates the other's symptoms? How do they manage it?

that makes me so happy, thank you ; 0; <3

aaa so, chiefly, the relationship between these two is built on a pretty fundamental feature of "'winning' a situation/conflict is not more important than my partner's well being"--In that, like, they're both very proactive in looking at their situation and assessing if they're responsible for aggravating the situation/provoking a response, and to what extent. So typically, once they realize a situation has gotten away on them, they're both able to take a pause and even physically separate for a hot moment if need be--and then try and figure out what happened, what can be done, and apologize in earnest for any misinterpretation or disproportionate responses, etc. It's usually both of them apologizing to each other after identifying out loud out their own missteps/contributions, and it's usually fine. So a 'big' emotionally charged conflict between them might last like...an hour at most before before it deescalates into more co-operative conversation. Because neither of them want to "win" the fight, they just wanna not be mad at each other and see the other person comfortable--which requires understanding why they're mad rather than leveraging the other's angry response as against them, etc.

Funnily enough, this kind of...conflict resolution style wasn't Raf's initiative (he tends to be a lot more reticent to admit wrongdoing and apologize, lest it be used against him...and he's got a really bad habit of tallying up transgressions in his head and letting those grudges inform him on how much leeway he's willing to give someone before he decides they're straight-up unlikable)--but rather, it's always been Margie's way of negotiating conflict. Probably because she grew up with a very autistic brother, and being able to step away/leave the situation, calm down, and then reconvene to communicate their exact feelings and what provoked those feelings (in a weirdly dispassionate/objective manner of collaborative analysis) was a pretty critical part of her good relationship with him--a solution that evolved organically between them. And, since it worked so well with her brother (and frequently with her parents as well, wherein she'd often be applauded for her show of 'emotional maturity' or whatever lmao), she tries to employ this method with everyone close to her. It doesn't always work out... Earlier in her relationship with Raf, she'd always be first to apologize for provoking certain reactions out of him. As well, she just...never gets angry in response to someone being angry with her. She's also maybe a little too quick to apologize sometimes, which initially would have rubbed Raf the wrong way as being kinda manipulative/insincere (which, it kind of is...but not in a manner employed to gain any kind of upper hand over him)--to which he would deliberately avoid apologizing in response. He'd drop it instead, and act like nothing was wrong in the first place...which (whether consciously or not) is a manipulation tactic of his own, designed to provoke some variation of a "well wait, you were wrong and you need to give me apology" response from her. Which, of course, never came lmao. If Raf says "whatever, it's fine", unless she is also frustrated with herself, she'll take his word at face value. (the same way she does for everyone). Eventually, this leads him to to carefully admit when he feels his reactions are disproportionate. And, after while of that consistently leading to no further aggravation, his short hand to her "Sorry, I didn't mean to/I didn't mean it like that!" becomes a simple "I know. Sorry I barked at you." The gradual comfort of being 'wrong' in those very tiny, low-stake situations is what gives him the confidence to risk admitting he may be "wrong" in bigger conflicts. If, at any point--even once, Margie had taken this vulnerability and wielded it against him in any situation, he'd never let himself 'fall for it' again. But that's yet to happen. Still, it feels disproportionately risky for him to admit out loud, in earnest, that he had any part to play in a misunderstanding or in the construction of a bad situation--Like turning your back on an enemy who is poised to stab you with a knife.

Raf generally tends to be agreeable in most situations, he's a well practiced diplomat despite his disordered outlook and interpretations of things. But--he is stubbornly unapologetic. He'll drop the topic, insist it's no big deal to him anyway, tell you it's fine, to never mind, do what you want, etc. But he won't tell you it's 'his bad' or that he's sorry about anything. And if you don't meet him where's he's at with that then, in his mind, you've become The Problem. Forever. However, his care for Margie and her wellbeing bolsters his conscious efforts to treat her well, even at risk to himself. He'd rather end up in a situation where she's proven to him beyond a shadow of doubt that she never really cared about him and has been using him this whole time--than end up in a situation where he becomes a traumatic ex; someone that hurts her to think about. Therapy helped him determine that, at least in this situation, misplacing his trust is marginally less injurious to him than misplacing his suspicions. But sometimes, it takes him a hot moment to remember this and respond accordingly. Sometimes, it takes him more than a hot moment. Margie's there when he does come around to it though. She has her clear lines in the sand and--though I don't doubt that he's come close in his most fearful moments--he's never crossed them. With that said, yeah--I dunno LOL Raf is clinically predisposed to believe that he is being taken advantage of, or that he will be taken advantage of by anyone, at any given time. Margie can become pretty careless when she is very enthusiastic/eager for something, and her forward momentum does sometimes steamroll right over his toes. It can be more than a little challenging for Raf to stay grounded and respond reasonably when Margie lets excited desire drive her blindly forward at mach speeds when he feels like he's being dragged behind her. Other times, she'll try to dig into why he responded a certain way before he's had time to process and compartmentalize it for himself, all because she feels badly and wants to figure things out with him so that they can both feel better about it. He's learned that this is easily resolved with a terse "I love you, but holy shit, give me some fucking space, please." Which--usually warrants its own apology but, yanno...she gets it. Margie can be very "go go go, this is exciting, this is so fun, this is all that matters right now!! Oof--ow, shit, I hit something, was that a speed bump??" and Raf is often very "wait, what? Wait what!? Wait, that's all that matters?! Wait, what??? Hit the fucking breaks, that speed bump was me and now I am fucking dying." and that's usually where most of their conflict/clashing occurs. Margie will feel disproportionately ashamed/embarrassed/rejected, Raf will feel disproportionately slighted/put upon/mistreated. And if they didn't agree to talk to each other about it, with a shared, genuine desire to see each other in a state of comfort, their relationship probably couldn't thrive.

[plinkoplinko]

QUICK ROB LORE POST!!

I realized i should probably make some kind of lore post for people interested in my ocs, so here you go!!!

This is gonna be a really gross oversimplification of everything that I'm writing all in one sitting so it will be *far* from perfect, but if you have questions/need clarification then you can reach out to me through asks!

Also a good warning: im not sure how thoroughly i should put warnings for this but his lore has mentions of child abuse/SA !! Read w caution but i will not be going into much depth at all on that, just mentions

First, here's a big ole chart before i get into it, just in case you dont feel like reading lol.

piss baby era

Basically for half this era he lived with his parents still- his dad was around but not really involved because of work obligations and such, he was loving towards his wife but also avoided raising rob.

Robs mom was a chainsmoker due to stresses she had while raising rob when he was a baby, and it stuck with her for a crazy long time. Since Robs dad was absent a considerable amount more, he formed a much stronger and closer bond with his mom. She was big on DIY and home reno projects, which rob did with her often.

At school, rob was basically kind of a jock stereotype. He was rowdy and fun with his friends, but he wasn't really an ass at all? Just rambunctious. He played football for a while, but he mostly just played because he liked when people cheered for him lol.

His mom's smoking eventually caught up with her and she developed lung cancer and passed a good time after. This hit rob and his dad very hard, because they both cared really deeply about her. His dad (Johnson Campbell, or John) was basically killed by her passing. He spiraled very far into depression and addiction, and he was basically never home because he was out drinking.

There was some frustration towards rob from both him and his dad because they both were very aware of why his mom smoked. Rob got blamed for her death and there was plenty of resentment built up between him and his dad.

Because of this resentment and a general sense of insanity just radiating off of John, there was child abuse involved and it got pretty physical at some points. Being young and still loving of his father, rob begged the people (mostly neighbors) who helped him not to call the police, because he was still under the impression that his dad would return to his old sweet (although distant) self if he just waited long enough. The final time John ever got the chance to hurt rob was when rob was given his face scar, which involved some SA that i wont be talking about lol.

After that rob finally snapped and decided to find someone who could help him, he called the police, and his dad was arrested (rob was sent into foster care but he didnt stay for long because he was nearly 18)

During the short time between robs mom passing and him accumulating all his scars (it happened over time) he became very reserved and bitter at school. He stopped talking as much and he quit the football team after a physical altercation with someone on another team. Over all he was just a really angry and stressed out guy.

Emo era

Because of all the intense betrayals rob felt from his dad, he stopped letting people get close and comfortable with him for a very long time. He became way too cautious of everyone because he misinterpreted someone telling him that he should keep space between him and others for a while. He was incredibly aggressive and more rambunctious than before.

During his emo era he hung out with an equally dysfunctional group of people in a street racing community. They taught him a lot of what he knows about cars (his current favorite hobby) and he has crazy good driving skillz 😼. He got into a crash that mega fucked up one of his legs, but he and everyone around him were hellbent on being as destructive to themselves and others as possible, which led to him not treating the injury (it still bothers him to this day)

Because a lot of the people he hung around also came from rough family situations or just general shit, they didnt have the best advice for rob on how to deal with his feelings towards his dad. He was already angry and frustrated at him (very very rightfully so) and it was amplified because of encouragement from his peers.

His street racing era continued into his early 20's, but the people he hung around slowly started to grow apart as people. A lot of them were older than rob, and they were beginning to settle down or giving up their rather reckless lifestyle. When rob began losing his group, he started regretting how he pushed a lot of people away from him. He wanted to make changes to himself to become a more likeable person. Also he needed a job lol he was living in his car for a very long time

undercut mcqueer era

(yes im referencing that one arcane post shhhh)

Rob made some pretty drastic and visible changes to himself. Most noticeably, he worked really hard on just generally becoming more gentle and soft-spoken, because he knew he had to stop actively making himself unappealing to others.

When his mom was sick in the hospital, he spent a good amount of time there. He learned to look up to a lot of the nurses that treated his mom and decided that was the career he wanted to follow. He lost this motivation while he was emo, and he basically avoided hospitals like the plague for half his life.

He wanted to return to the nursing field as a job opportunity, but since nursing school seemed so daunting at the time, he started working/volunteering in places like nursing homes to prepare himself. He ended up liking this job much better, especially because of the connections he got to build with people.

Cars and mechanical things are still very dear to him, and he works on his own projects in a garage he rents in his free time.

He met lee when he was around 27, but poor boy still thought he was straight 😭😭 he was and still is very repressed because of some harmful views his mom carried and what happened with his dad. Meeting lee made him start actually connecting some dots about his sexuality+ figuring himself out !!

Because rob was able to realize how much of an ass he had made himself become when he was younger, he now is convinced that he can find the rest of what it wrong with him and fix that, too. He is very wrong! He needs therapy! He is severely traumatized!

His "coping style" for his trauma is to basically never come in contact with anything involving it ever again. If he doesnt see it, he can't remember anything that happened, and he doesn't have to dig into his past at all.

Also where he falls on the fight, flight or freeze scale is freeze. He's like a deer in headlights sometimes lol

I believe that is all, i tried to handle some of these topics as delicately as i could but if i come off as blunt or rude in any part let me know and i will totally edit the post lol. Sorry this ended up being so long and ramble-y, hopefully it's a somewhat coherent story because it is late and i am tired 😭😭

If you have questions feel free to ask, thank you for reading!

[hollowed-theory-hall]

Hey! Hope everything is good.

I have kind of an odd question. So of course your account is great because of how much justice you do towards Harry’s character. I’m sure at least part of the motivation behind it is how misinterpreted he is and how much of his skill and intelligence gets dismissed. I kind of wanted to ask how you get over that, for lack of better word. Because it obviously really annoys that there are hundreds of thousands of people naming Harry as this idiotic person who’s got through on luck and has no skills or brains and all that and so many who take credit away from him or don’t see how blatantly competent he is. And I keep going back and rereading posts I come across that uphold that narrative and it keeps annoying me and sticking in my head. I don’t know if you’re even the right person to ask, I assume you’ve got a handle on it seeing as you’ve got this account but do you have any advice?

Hi, everything is good with me, hope you're having a good day too. I'm glad you like my posts.

And, as for your question, I can only tell you what I do: which is not taking any of it to heart. With fandom, you just have to learn to let it go and where to place your boundaries — don't reread things that make you upset, and don't purposefully engage with things that make you angry.

I'm writing this blog as a way to share ideas, my meta, and find like-minded HP fans to talk to. I tend to not engage with Harry hate and stuff I have no interest in because I'm here to have fun, not wage a crusade.

You just gotta learn to say "agree to disagree" and move on. People are allowed to have any headcanon/opinion/interpretation they want, and I'll be the last person to try and stop anyone from engaging in fandom however they want, even if I think their takes are bad. You don't know who you're interacting with, how much of canon they've engaged with (if at all), or if they're ignoring canon on purpose. I can get annoyed at it on my own blog, I can complain about trends without hating on anyone in particular, but the moment I put my phone aside, it leaves my mind. It's not worth the energy real anger requires.

Although I love Harry and will always speak in his defence, he is a fictional character. Random strangers on the internet misunderstanding a fictional character is just not something I'm willing to lose sleep over. It's just not worth it, and it's none of my business how people choose to engage with fandom. Life is energy-consuming enough without wasting time and energy on something I don't enjoy that isn't harming anyone. I'd much rather spend that time and energy on reading posts/stories that I do find interesting and fun, or write them myself.

(Interesting and fun, could be something I disagree with that is well written or well reasoned. I'm all for exploring other concepts and interpretations when they have a basis or a fun idea behind them. When I'm in the mood, I can enjoy a crack meme/comic, there's nothing wrong with that, even if the characters are OOC)

So, my best advice is: don't lose sleep over it, don't reread posts that make you upset. I love Harry, but hate towards him (or any fictional character) isn't worth you getting upset or hating anyone over.

[rise-my-angel]

I think people tend to misinterpret the scene where Robb receives Tyrion at Winterfell, when he arrives from the Wall with Yoren. At this point Robb is fully aware that the Lannisters are involved in Brans fall and he has been given no reason to think Tyrion is not part if it.

So to him, what he sees is the Lannisters for an unknown reason, pushed his ten year old brother from a tower and crippled him for life. This resentment likely was increased after the assassins attempt on Brans life, since they seem to suspect Bran is being targeted for seeing something he shouldn't have.

Robb now entierly on his own, has to balance both being Lord of Winterfell, the fact that the now awake Bran who is angry, upset, and is saying really morose things like "I'd rather be dead." All while this plot by the Lannisters is just sitting on the back burner. Then suddenly, only after Bran wakes up, does a Lannister come walking back into Winterfell from the Wall looking for hospitality. Robb has every reason to be pissed that Tyrion is here.

The Starks gave the Lannisters their hospitality and the Lannisters replayed that by trying to murder Bran. Then suddenly one comes back into his home, and is asking for the very same hospitality again.

I'd tell Tyrion to fuck off too.

What happens after is actually not a failing of Robb failing at playing a political hand as some accuse him of.

Tyrion: "I must say I received a slightly warmer welcome on my last visit."

Robb: "Any man of the Night's Watch is welcome at Winterfell."

Tyrion: "Any man of the Night's Watch, but not I, eh, boy?"

Robb: "I'm not your boy, Lannister. I'm Lord of Winterfell while my father is away."

Tyrion: "Then you might learn a lord's courtesy."

Tyrion is being incredibly patronizing right here. The way he addresses Robb is disrespectful right from the get go. Tyrion was the one not showing courtesy here, considering Robb could have not let him in the castle walls in the first place.

What he does, is imply he is offended that he isn't being shown the same degree of welcome as last time, and tells Robb he should show him a Lords Courtesy.

Tyrion then does a genuine thing for Bran, and gives him something that will improve his quality of life with his new disability. Robb does not trust Tyrion, or his intentions but recognizes the kind gesture. For Brans sake, he backtracks and agrees to Tyrions previous demand of being shown courtesy. Then what does Tyrion say?

Tyrion: "Spare me your false courtesies, Lord Stark."

He demands to be shown courtesy, then insults Robb when he offers said courtesy for the sake of his little brother. Once more he also says this in a very condescending tone.

Tyrion is not actually offended by Robbs actions, its his ego which was put on trial. He expected the same welcome as was given when he arrived with the King, and when he didn't get it, he showed Robb attitude. Who showed it right back. Then his ego got in the way and decided he didnt actually want Robbs hospitality and once more insults him in front of his own men.

Tyrion fumbled this interaction the second he decided to treat Robb with condescension rather then approach his cold demeanor diplomatically.

From everything Robb knows about the Lannisters part in Brans fall, he has every right to tell Tyrion to fuck off. Tyrion didn't show him respect so Robb doesn't show him respect. But Robb is still the one who does the mature thing, and backtracks his aggression for the sake of Bran, even though it's clear no one else in Winterfell wanted Tyrion there either.

We know Tyrion is innocent, but Robb has no reason to think that. The last time the Starks offered the Lannisters hospitality they tried to kill his brother. Tyrion then speaks to Robb with disrespect first and escalates the situation by insulting the acting Lord of Winterfell in front of his own men.

Robb didn't fuck up this interaction.

Tyrions ego did.

[reminiscentrainclouds]

The Dragon Prince season 6 spoilers below! Just a bunch of my thoughts because boy do I have a lot of them!

I still can't believe the way that whole switcheroo trick with the pearl backfired on Callum. It was so painful to watch because I knewwww it was going to happen the minute he decided to carry the fake down there by himself. Rayla was literally offering to go down there with him!! It would have been so easy for both of them to go down there just in case! I mean, the fake and the pearl both looked exactly the same; it would be easy to make a simple mistake and confuse them, so you'd want to make extra sure you were taking the right one with you!! Callum's confidence is very admirable, but considering he was so worried about it, he really should have been more cautious!

I just really like the way that part of the plot played out. This whole season had soooo much irony in it, but especially with this whole thing. The second it was revealed to be the fake pearl, I was like, "Yippee I was right!!" But also, "They're doomed." Because!! It's left completely unattended!!

And then Sol Regem started attacking Katolis and I was like NOOO IT'S ALL COMING TOGETHER. Although at first I was thinking it was gonna get like, smashed or something in the rubble and that would release Aaravos but man. MAN. There was so much more in store, that was a wild ride... Don't even get me started on Viren's sacrifice. I hate him and I think he got what he deserved, both in terms of what he lost and the crushing guilt he felt, but man. I was really sympathizing with him ever since he got revived, and that last scene with him hurt.

But it was a satisfying and fitting conclusion for him. He had intended on swearing off dark magic and attempting to right his wrongs, but instead, after a lifetime of sacrificing other lives for magic, he ends things by sacrificing his own life, which was already stolen after being revived anyway, to help save the people of Katolis. Sucks that he ultimately was convinced to use dark magic again, as if it was something he could never really escape, as if he never really learned anything, but the big difference was that he was sacrificing no other life than his own here. And he did help people. I'm probably massively misinterpreting everything because my interpretations are always kind of off...but he's just a really interesting character.... He made a lot of bad decisions but I understand his motivations, and I feel like he was really quite Doomed By The Narrative, pushed into a corner and faced with two equally bad decisions in many cases. He's the kind of bad guy who I really wish could have had the opportunity of not being a bad guy, y'know?

Aaravos is much worse and much less redeemable to me, but I feel a similar way about him. Like I Get It. Can't relate to what appears to be his thirst for revenge but I can understand. Learning about what happened to his daughter makes me angry on his behalf! The fact that all this had to happen in the first place hurts a lot! All this could really be blamed on that council of Startouch Elves, for what seemed like an extremely unnecessary punishment for his daughter. Although I'm curious about what more information we might get on the whole cosmic order and everything, I don't know. Taking Aaravos's child like that was unnecessarily cruel though; regardless of how serious of a crime or whatever giving humans magic was, there's no way she had bad intentions, and it's not like killing her would reverse what happened. AUGH anyway. What a season.

[katyspersonal]

People on this website preach for AGES on being patient with autistic people and treating them like equals and LISTENING TO THEM but then judge actual autistic people’s texting tones as smug or condescending or rude when said autistic person sounds PERFECTLY FINE COMPARED TO EVEN THE CHILLEST DUDEBRO ON REDDIT and then they go vagueblog other people in the name of not being politically correct enough in FANDOM takes.

I want to respond with just "I know, right?!", but I really feel like I've unfortunately got roped into this whole mess. Like, as soon as I saw that person doing The Thing (instantly assuming I had bad faith for no reason, refusing to address literally everything else I said beyond that and vagueblogging about how much takes on D and TWLiD such as mine suck apparently) I just... gave up, and did that block-unblock thing.

I could have put in more effort into figuring out what was so wrong, but I've decided endlessly trying to "correct" how I talk for someone's convenience is just.. not worth it. Verbal communication is pure suffering for me, and it will never be "right". Obsession with semantics is too hard and will lead me to never being able to talk to anyone without putting in 2 hours into every message- because my brain is hard-wired to overthink. Trying to "calm down" before typing anything will just rob online chatting off what makes it feel alive for me, which is not something I want. I'll reserve that for when I have to type corporative e-mail or write a serious article, but not for people. People deserve pure, unpolished, living emotions from me as if we were to speak in a VC or even irl.... for better, OR worse. Worrying about cringefail loosers that will whine about me speaking "in performative manner :((((" is definitely not worth it; I am naturally nonverbal, after all! I type how I'd speak, and I'd speak how I think!

It is hard to explain, but like... when I talk, I "feel" my way towards words, and my brain got trained to imitate the "talking" through rapidly grabbing memories of how people - real OR fictional - speak. On almost instinctive levels, and from many sources. My speech patterns used to be even more "performative" back when I was young and most of my frames of imitating speech were like, animes and cartoons. But in the end, it is just a lot of mimicry that I can't even understand, made through what 'vibes' better rather than sitting and thinking about what makes words "work". Because I've tried. And it is impossible. Even if you formulate everything perfectly right, someone will ALWAYS get angry. They'll have their background effecting how they see these words, or they'll assume I put the same meaning into these words as they would. It is ALWAYS something... I can't mathematically figure out something I should have been "born" with, you know. If even normal people with normal development, normal socialisation, normal speech and normal brain consistently misunderstand each other over words and fall into broken telephone games, what hope I can POSSIBLY stand?

I guess I kind of just wish I didn't give up, and didn't write people off as landmines fields upon seeing capacity for misinterpreting me. Another pet peeve is having heard how my apologies were "fake" or "implied" something, after I was always typing them sincerely, through a lot of anguish and actual, physical crying. It's simpler to just be unapologetically myself, without any filter censorship or trimming, and allow people who have either the knack for understand what I am really saying, or a wish to learn to understand me, to stick around naturally. Like you guys 🫂

[ff7-has-taken-me-over]

Born from the image of Zack looking at a camera with smug arousal as Cloud’s muscled and very marked up thighs sit on his shoulders and clamp around his head.

“Spike! Come here!” Cloud blinked at the sudden shout, making his way out of bed with only a bit of haste. Zack didn’t sound as if he was dying but he’d also shouted so there had to be some sort of urgency to it.

When he made it to the living room Zack was sitting on the floor, back to the couch and phone in hand with an adorable little pout on his features. Cloud resisted the urge to smile at his boyfriend, placing a hand on his hip as he raised an eyebrow in silent question.

The moment Zack took a deep breath he knew this was either going to be a very long winded explanation or he wouldn’t like whatever came out of his mouth.

“So Kunsel keeps trying to set me up with people cause he ‘just wants to see me happy’ or something and doesn’t really believe me when I say I have a boyfriend, cause obviously if Kunsel doesn’t know something then nine times out of ten it doesn’t actually exist. Us being the one time he doesn’t.”

Cloud crossed his arms, no longer fighting his smile as he watched the other man ramble, still waiting for the point he was trying to make.

“Anyway! He’s getting kind of insistent and I know he means well and I don’t wanna get all angry with him about this so could I maybe tell him about us?”

The blond frowned a little now, entirely unsure on this. The whole reason they were sneaking around was because of stupid company policy or whatever and Cloud didn’t wanna risk getting Zack in trouble cause he was, technically, his superior.

Zack seemed to catch onto that train of thought, hands shooting out in front of him as if he was physically blocking the thoughts, “I won’t tell him your name or anything! Honest!”

This time Cloud’s frown was tinged with confusion, “Then what’re you gonna do?”

Zack blushed a little, a rare sight that Cloud fully took advantage of to soak in. When his boyfriend averted his eyes he became just slightly concerned for the idea that he maybe had.

“I mean… kinda hard to misinterpret marked up thighs around your head, don’t ya think?” Zack tacked on an embarrassed, awkward little laugh that did nothing to soothe the rush of shock and embarrassment (and maybe just a smidge of arousal) that went through Cloud.

They stared at one another for a long moment, longer than the point of when Cloud thought Zack would backtrack and say it was a joke. Instead the SOLDIER merely gazed back, embarrassed determination in his features.

Cloud narrowed his eyes slightly, ignoring the blazing heat along the bride of his nose as he pointed an accusing finger, “This is about your thing with my legs isn’t it?”

Zack scoffed abruptly, “No! It’s a legitimate way to prove I have a boyfriend without revealing him!”

Cloud raised an eyebrow, “Ok, maybe a little. But! It really is a good idea! I would never do that with a random hookup and Kunsel knows that! Please baby?”

Cloud lasted all of five seconds against Zack’s puppy eyes before he sighed. Entirely put upon and hiding the fact that he actually really, really liked this idea. It didn’t stop Zack from giving a loud whoop though, standing up and running over to scoop Cloud up so he could them back to the bedroom.

Probably a good thing honestly cause Cloud knew how he got once Zack got going and this would not be a short endeavour.

[lolita-ily]

Abit of Lore…

so im gonna give my silly girl abit of Lore

BASICALLY:

Before lotf: as a child, she took the plane to escape a bad childhood back in her country around 10, but her plane CRASHED.

but she wasn’t the only survivor.

at first, another adult survived. And another kid, but this one was injured and couldn’t walk anymore. The injured little girl didn’t made it through a month. The man, that was a retired military, taught many surviving methods to our lil girl, like fishing, hunting and climbing, making fire… But after a few months, they slowly lost touch with civilization. The man began going crazy, once tried to hurt our gal but she defended herself killed him. After that, she learnt to live on her own, being around 11 and by herself, it was very tough but she made it. But lost her “civilised” way and became more of a natural.

the boys crash on the island: The conch shook the Island, was there people now? She did saw something falling from the sky… What if it was bad?? She didn’t wanted to join them, but upon walking and walking, she found a littlun, named Johnny, sobbing because he was lost. She have him a fruit and offered her help, seeing him as a little animal that needed help. And so, he got a free piggyback ride to the shore, where she mets the boiz. (Guess their first reaction? Oh you guessed right! Roger: “Let’s make a fire and eat her”/jk). So first things first:

-Staring in confusion as they speak english but somehow understand a tiny bit (misinterprets everything)

-Knocking Merridew to the ground to prove being worthy of being part of the group

-Being accepted(somehow)

-friends!!

so basically, after that she’s assigned to look after the littluns “because you’re a girl, so you huuhhhhh, have maternal instinct-“(approved and proven). She’s ready to defends them till she dies.

She enjoys fruit picking, sharpening her spear, flowers, exploring, swimming and learning things to the littluns and learn herself about civilization.

she stays alot with Simon, instinctively liking him but always protecting him. She listens to Piggy’s advices. She is loyal and devoted to Ralph. She doesn’t know how to feel about Jack(he feeds her bullshit about civilization and Ralph just for fun or to make her join his tribe). She stays far from Roger, trying to decipher him from a fair distance. She absolutely love spending time with Samneric. The littluns are similar to small animals.

She’s very instinctful and not to bend to social norms(since she forgot them lmao), it can be a good trait and bad trait. She got a physical way to show feelings(like full out aggressive if angry or biting to show affection or poking shoulder to show a connection).

she’s a kind gal who is very sweet but naive about “grown-ups”, she has wonderful instinct and follow her heart.

(lil bonus bc she loves y’all)

Thank you for taking abit of your time to discover my crazy universe!! Have a nice dayyyyy <333333

(her lore is not official/done yet)

[finifugue]

Points about The Charlando Fic which is (finally!!!!) in the works, listed in order of what was making me most feral:

Closest thing I will ever get to writing a romcom. Pure 2000s miscommunciation comedy 'everyone's so fucking stupid' realness.

Charles calls Lando 'Hérisson', which means Hedgehog in French. This is what all of this fic is about. The word doc is called 'lando is a hedgehog me n charles know it'

Lando and Charles grow up 'secret friends,' because Lando was already publicly friends with Max when they met

Speaking of Max. He is there. Haunting the narrative in the way he does. Lestappen also haunts the narrative but kind of more in a 'Lando vs. being in love with the guy who your entire fanbase ships with your best friend' way

Lando is chronically online in that he is well aware of the fandom side of F1 and knows all the pairings. This proves certifiably Not Good for him because he keeps basing his understandings of the other drivers on what fans see, i.e. he doesn't realise that Charles likes him back bc he's too busy hateshipping him and max lmao

Oscar, meanwhile, is convinced through some accidental drunken confessions which he misinterprets that Lando is in love with Max. Tries to set them up. Does not realise he's got the wrong guy.

Charles gets the brunt of the hurt/comfort on that because the second he realises he's in love with Lando, he decides that as a result of Oscar's behaviour, clearly Lando is in love with Max.

Max is, while all of this is going down, happily in a relationship with a pregnant Kelly, and entirely oblivious to the entire situation.

I cannot emphasise enough how oblivious Max is. Charles and Lando are in a ten-year-long painful yearning angry mutual-dumbassery situationship because of him and Oscar is committing war crimes trying to make Lando admit he's in love with the complete wrong dude and George, Alex and Pierre are watching the whole thing happen with copies of 10 Things I Hate About You for when their respective lovesick fool needs it and he's just like. "I love my friends (: I will invite them to the baby shower."

Speaking of. Charles and Lando are both obsessed with 10 Things I Hate About You. They watch it after every time they have a stupid fight because they can't bring themselves to admit they have feelings for each other. Nobody but George sees the irony in this.

Send me some asks if yall have any Qs! I'm excited abt this fic so i'd love to yap about it some more (: