#angels to fill the void

[vivephim]

angels, assemble !!!

[akkivee]

watched an anime over the weekend that singlehandedly triggered tf out of my wanderlust look how pretty kitakyushu, bat’s fan meeting location, is what if i travelled to japan for christmas—

[greenlovescats]

I LOVE THEM AHHHH THANK YOU ANGEL

[petpluto]

I think it’s narratively interesting - if sad - how Angel leaves Buffy to give her a chance to have a full life, and she becomes progressively more isolated - even from her best friends and family - as the series goes on; whereas Angel, who has been isolated except for his relationship with Buffy for decades, gains a found family with multiple levels of emotional connection and growth after he leaves.

In all honesty, while I will always love Angel and Buffy and Angel’s relationship, it’s one of my aggravations with his reasoning for leaving. If he’d left because the relationship was hurting *him* (and I believe in some ways it was, at that point), I would think it was tragic and beautiful. But leaving for *her*, ignoring her wants and needs and removing one of the few people Buffy truly felt comfortable opening up to and being vulnerable with, ends with Buffy having fewer options in her emotional tool belt and feeling as if she is the part of their relationship that was the freak show.

Buffy felt comfortable opening up completely to Angel because Angel makes it clear to Buffy that he loves her, all of her, always, in ways her other long term emotional support pillars don’t always manage to articulate (even if they feel the same). She’s Xander’s hero, and Xander *can* and has been judgmental, so she’s not always comfortable being vulnerable in all aspects of her life with him. She and Willow are close, and Willow isn’t judgmental, but it does seem like Buffy feels the need to be alright for her, especially when she’s spiraling in season 6. She doesn’t want any emotions she has from Willow’s actions to hurt *Willow*, and she prioritizes protecting Willow over being honest with her. Dawn is her dependent. And Giles? She opens up to him and he leaves anyway.

And I think in a majority of these situations, Buffy would be better off being honest - or, in the case of Dawn, more if not entirely honest - with her loved ones. Xander can be judgmental, but he makes it clear in season 5’s Intervention that he can be empathetic and kind, and that his primary concern when it comes to Buffy is Buffy’s health and happiness. Willow is going through her own problems in season 6; but in general, she is also open and empathetic and kind, and her primary concern when it comes to Buffy is also her health and happiness. Buffy puts up these walls because she feels responsible for her friends’ emotional responses, and I do think part of that is her feelings of guilt stemming from her parents’ divorce ( her ‘father’s’ monologue in Nightmares is both horrific and a bit funny); and then Angelus’ murders; and then Angel’s and Riley’s (and then Giles’) exits from her life. Because the people she’s opened up to leave, she becomes convinced that she loses people when she shows them her imperfections and her flaws and her hurts.

Angel gains friends and family once he leaves Sunnydale. He doesn’t always open up to them, and he makes a lot of questionable decisions, but his world expands considerably post-break up. I love that for him. And it’s not on him or his issue to fix, either, but I do ache for Buffy that her circles get smaller and seem more brittle as the seasons go on.

[coleomegilla-maculata]

if the circumstances were different, could we have been friends?

[scftlightz]

@jawbrkrs gets  a  closed  starter  !

there  wasn’t  a  word  to  compare  how  proud  she  was  of  angel  and  how  he  reached  this  peak  of  his  career.  he  deserved  it  all.  pouring  literal  blood,  sweat,  and  tears  into  his  work  had  finally  paid  off.  from  online  media  articles  to  the  magazines,  he  was  ruling  the  world  of  boxing.  there  were  times  were  his  opponents  would  take  a  jab  with  an  insinuating  insult  or  flat  out  harassment,  and  then  she  couldn’t  try  to  stain  his  reputation  by  lashing  out.  especially  when  it  came  to  fans.  there  was  a  line  when  it  came  to  him  performing  fan  service,  but  to  disregard  araceli’s  existence  started  to  cause  a  fast  packed  shot  in  agitation. standing  to  her  feet  but  with  a  small  stumble  due  to  the  amount  of  celebratory  drinks  she  partook,  araceli  grabbed  the  unknown  fan  by  the  elbow  to  the  pull  them  off  angel’s  lap  the  minute  she  spotted  the  action  in  motion.  she  and  a  lack  of  words  but  the  lack  of  space  as  she  sized  the  fan  up  was  enough.  ‘  are  you  crazy?  ‘  was  written  plain  across  her  face.  glassy  eyes  stared  down  the  figure  until  they  got  the  point.  only  leaving  her  with  the  man  she  was  starting  to  feel  foreign  to,  “  the  player  act  was  cute  at  first  but  it’s  getting  real  fucking  old.  you’re  head  is  getting  too  damn  big.  “  without  meeting  his  eye,  she  reached  for  her  bag  and  jacket  to  cover  her  exposed  shoulders  from  the  formal  dress.  “  I  want  to  go  home.  i  lost  my  appetite  a  while  ago  anyways  [  .  .  .  ]  “

[moonbounds]

Watching Pokémon and pretending I’m having bonding time with Asher is my coping mechanism

[terrifyingly-overthought]

Domestic huskerdust is something I NEED to see in season 2

"Pour me another, Bartender~~"

"I think you've had enough."

[butteryunlikelylady]

okay wait—

[vivephim]

dust of stars

[scftlightz]

🫧@hclysins ┊araceli&angel

[akkivee]

there was some display gallery showing off the various logos in hypmic and the ichikuu peeps on the tl were in shambles over both of them using halos in their mc name signatures lol

[howifeltabouthim]

She'd come to Los Angeles with fourteen hundred dollars, which in that city was barely enough for several dinners. At least it was barely enough for dinner the way that I ate dinner. The way that I racked up debt to cool my fever.

Lisa Taddeo, from Animal

[strangelittlestories]

It is a little known fact that angels cannot step foot in hell.

Note: this does not mean that angels *don’t* enter the burning depths, only that they cannot touch the floor. You see, the fires that rage below are not regular fire. They do not consume fuel and oxygen and spit out heat. Instead, they chew on reality and drink down order, and the flames that lick up at you are made of chaos-filled void.

This is antithetical to the very substance of angels. If it touches them, at *best* the angels will be spat out as they are forcibly reminded that *they don’t go here*.

At medium, they will be unmade.

At worst, they will be *changed*.

You might think they could avoid this by simply flying through the pit, right? Oh, would that it were so simple. Remember the flames that burn up reality? Hell is an alchemical reaction of exploding space and logic and time and souls. You try flying through a place that is not a place, where up and down can hardly agree on which is which for more than an instant.

But there is a way around this. It was originally discovered by the guardian angel Cambiel. You see, under Cambiel’s protection was a woman named Ruth. Ruth was a shining light who Cambiel cared for greatly.

Ruth, in turn, had a woman she cared for very much. And, sadly, a demon had stolen Ruth’s love away from her.

“Do not follow her,” warned Cambiel, “for if you follow your heart through the gates of perdition, I cannot go with you.”

“Sorry, babe,” replied Ruth, “but I am *very* gay and *very* romantic and that has made me reckless.”

And Cambiel nodded sadly, for all of this was true and good.

But as Ruth walked the lonely, tortured path into the underworld, an idea occurred to Cambiel.

Sure, they couldn’t walk or fly into hell, but maybe they could *ride* there.

Now, a fully grown horse could not hope to navigate the depths beneath the world, for their sense of self-preservation was too strong. An adult horse would flee from the screams of imploding souls and the winding geometry of impossibly winding roads.

But a young horse? With a child’s innocence, with bright young eyes, who had not yet been tricked into believing in its mortality?

That was a mount that could bear an angel (who was, after all, light enough to dance on the head of a pin) into the fearful caverns of the beyond. Honestly, the little horse seemed weirdly enthused about the whole thing. 

And so did Cambiel guide a pair of reckless and romantic (and useless) lesbians out of hell.

When the pair thanked the angel, all they said was this:

“Don’t thank me, thank the little horse. It turns out … foals rush in where angels fear to tread.”

[scftlightz]

🫧 @hclysins┊ araceli&angel

Yellowstone 4x08 - No Kindness for the Coward

[scftlightz]

ੈ♡˳┊closed starter for @hclysins

" you know, " she started, obviously tipsy from the glass sitting half empty in front of her. she wasn't sure if it was the atmosphere or just being around angel but it was making her feel a bit emotional. clearing her throat as she didn't meet his eyes, she threw the rest of her drink back. araceli laughed at her semi teary eyes, " there's no one or nothing in this world that makes me feel the thing you do. besides this, of course. " pointing to the glass, " but you, there's nothing like you. "