#and yeah it won't be super hard to tell it's me bc I type the exact same no matter where I'm set up at

[t4tozier]

hi!! i just read ur autistic jace chapter in 'got it bad' and i want to say its my favorite of all time !!!! jace n mary ann having a close relationship or mutual understanding bc of their autism is something i needed so baddd, and also showing how their autism differs (flat voice/hyperemotional voice) is actually so important to me as a hyperemotional autistic person !!! i felt so seen !!!!!!

i also want to talk abt how i feel mayb jace has communication cards when he goes non-verbal or overwhelmed? mayb after that meltdown, mary ann tells him about it since she also has one and she helps him make a small one for his keychain. mayb porter also has a copy attached along w the keys to his truck, in case jace doesnt have his on hand :)

oughhh tysm!! i loved writing them together and showing the differences and similarities in how their autism presents <3 mary ann ily so bad.

i almost included communication cards! but then i thought about that post that was like "he would not fucking say that except it's characters who have never gone to therapy in their lives talking in therapy terms" and i got scared LOL. i think that jace doesn't even think about it because he's like i always have my phone on me and it's always charged. i'll just text or use the notes app. but then his meltdown at school happens and he doesn't have his phone and he's glad that mary ann let him use hers, but what if that doesn't happen again? what if he's stuck somewhere where nobody will let him borrow their phones and none of them understand what he wants or why he won't (can't) talk? and that freaks him out a little and yeah i think it would be sweet for mary ann to be like jace. you should use these. they help me, jace.

and jace does at least always have his keys on him, so they make little ones that are like. store card tag size ykwim? so it doesn't get too bulky. i don't know if porter would have an extra set on his keys if only because if he has to drive jace home and he doesn't have his cards or phone or if even typing is too hard, he doesn't want jace to be without a voice, but i do think he has a copy either in his truck or his desk or something. jace doesn't even know he has them until he forgets his own one day and starts freaking out even more and porter gives him his set and shrugs and tells him, "mary ann threatened me."

i also think that maverick's vest has a couple of patches on it with super basic answers. yes, no, maybe, i don't know. porter uses them if he's starting to dissociate or has a flashback that makes it hard for him to speak, but if mav's around when jace has a meltdown, he gets two weighted blankets and two sets of comm cards :)

[fainthedcherry]

2024 Human Art VS 2019 Human Art !!!!!

AS PROMISED, HERE'S A POST WITH SOME NEW ART!!!

And also an art comparison, just to see, how much I improved in drawing the 2 bois <3

I'm MEGA tired despite having slept after work, but I WON'T let that deter me from writing a description!! YAPNADO AHEAD;

FINN AND MARCOOO. FINNANMARCO. BEEN A WHILE SINCE I'VE ACOUSTICALLY AND FERALLY YELLED ABOUT MY 2 FICTIONAL MEN WHOM ARE CLOSE TO MY HEART.

I'm SO glad, that in the new drawing, Marco finally looks like the twink he always was, but still enough meat on the bones to look NORMAL lmao, can't say that about the 4 other sketches of me trying to redraw this ref for years. xD (why yes, his wings took forever, why do you ask? /lh)

I'M MEGA SUPER DUPER GLAD, that Finn FINALLY looks like a chubby, wild bastard TOO, OH TOOTHPASTE MAN, HOW MANY HEARTACHES YOU GAVE ME OVER STRUGGLING TO DRAW AN ENDOMORPHIC BODY TYPE. BUT I CAN NOWWWWWWWwwww!!!!!

God this habit of loudly reading out my posts as I type them made me realise what a bad Schwarzenegger impression I do on accident bc I'm overly excited to post something after a month of silence SDKFSKLDG

ONE THING I ALWAYS WANTED TO DO. IS PUT EVERY DETAIL I NEEDED ON A BIG REF. SO I DID! I've drawn closeups of the boys's eyes, I've drawn Finn's tongue so that I don't need to constantly remind myself what his blush and flesh colours were sdfkldsgkl, I FINALLY denoted their heights, so people know that they're tall TALL dudes (and that Finn obviously will struggle w/ his lanky mfing legs, we LOVE giving a middle-aged man heart attacks once he reaches his 40's!!!)

ANNDDD ALSO SOME SIDE VIEWS OF THEM. The last side-view I had of F & M, looked REAL bad. Like, Marco's face looked WAY too stereotypically European (to my fault bc surprise surprise not many African people live in Europe so I had poor frame of reference but I've been fixing it via looking up images online instead, at least it helps but yeah, I have a hard time so far unfortunately💀), Finn's was just... B u c k e t. NOT LIKE HANDSOME BUCKET. BUT JUST BUCKET. IT NEEDED FIXING (fun fact I accidentally made Finn have the most attractive jaw shape for men according to beauty standards and I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW I JUST WANTED THIS MAN TO LOOK S Q U A R E AND THAT'S IT, MINECRAFT STEVE HAS MORE RIZZ THAN MOST MEN OFFICIALLY).

OH YEAH ALSO A CLAW REF AGAIN FOR FINN!!! His old ref looks too cool for me to give up on it tbh even as dated as it is sfjklsdglk, BUT I felt like I needed to redraw them properly.

FUNNILY ENOUGH A PERSON I COMMISSIONED SAID I HAVE SOME REALLY CLEAN AND NICE LINEART. I wish I heard that 5 years ago when I was really insecure about my bad lineart skills xD, I don't use lineart anymore nowadays outside of reference-drawings like these I don't plan to redraw in the next years unless necessary soooo yeah! They're gonna appear much rarer unless I go off and about making more ref sheets of all of my Sonc OC's sfklsdgsdfksdg

This drawing took 5 days to make btw. Not the hours spent on this LOL. 5 days of my life I'll never get back tho bc I care too much about my babies and I feel they deserve proper refs sdfklsdglk

WHAT ELSE SHOULD I MENTION.....HOPEFULLY I PLAN TO DRAW MORE HUMAN REFS IN THE FUTURE INSTEAD OF STAY IN MY COMFORT ZONE OF SONIC OCS ONLY. I for years wasn't confident in my ability to draw humans, but I can do so NOW at least!!!!!!!!!! Even if I'm like...3 years too late to how I wish my art looked back then already dsklfdsg, I have some high standards I need to continue to knock down as my 2024 resolution sdfklsdg

^IT'S BEEN WORKING THOUGH AS YOU CAN TELL BC I'VE BEEN UPLOADING SOME BAD DOODLES AND SKETCHES, BEEN DRAWING MORE GARBAGE AND BECAME MORE INVOLVED IN MY BELOVED FANDOMS. I wanna continue doing so! It was the most fun I've had with art ever. I hope to properly meet more fandoms I left in the past bc I thought it'd be embarrassing to share my passion for a franchise back then. I EMBRACE THE CRINGE NOW AS AN ADULT AT LEAST EVEN IF 7 YEARS TOO LATE ON THAT FRONT TOO. We all age and mature ig but I just become more silly year by year,,, c:

Oh yeah if you also see this btw lemme know, whether the new watermark tiles are subtle enough to not be noticed!!!! I know, watermarks are annoying and nobody likes them, but ever since AI invasions, I REFUSE to put my work online without ANY form of proof that somebody took it from my page. I just want people to stop lying on the internet for cloud and pick up a pencil. It's not that hard smfh. The only time I could excuse AI art is w/ amputees man. That's the only time I could empathise with someone, who wants to be an artist but LITERALLY can't bc they got dealt a bad hand in life. I digress my AI hate can be rambled about some other day, I know I love yapping and writing essays about THAT topic for sure sfklsdklg

I chose to post this ref to my Tumblr first tho, bc I still wanna work on my drawing of Abbacchio,,,, he is quite dear to me and I'd love to put effort into a doodle of him that won't take too long. Like 4 hours or 5 hours tops. I still have yet to figure out, if his cute star shape on his head is a hat or part of his hair. Bc I CAN'T TELL TBH AND I'VE BEEN DRAWING IT AS PART OF HIS HAIR PATTERN BUT I THINK IT'S A HAT NOW EVER SINCE I LOOKED AT MORE ASBR CAPS OF HIM I TOOK FOR REFERENCES. xD

Also another side-note, but I've ofc reduced down the lankiness of the dudes I draw™, but I in result wanted to sliiightly make larger feet/hands bc my Sonic phase will continue to possess me 'til the end of time /hj, if you also wanna lemme know what you think on that, bls do! I am messing about with stylization still. I am finding my footing with stylizing humans sOOO yeah!!!! I hope to some day be satisfied with my artstyle change of '24! So far it's been really rewarding and eye-opening to me and my journey as an artist for my 7 years of existing on the 'net w/ my silly goobers I like to scream about to in the void <3

Once again, tagnado also incoming below bc I dunno how to properly tag my art so lemme throw in things I THINK are relevant to this post sdkldsgkl

See you hopefully tomorrow w/ a lil doodle dump if I get around to it!!!! : D

[necroangelz]

HIA YOU SEEM SO NICE JAJAAHDHEJWV- I remember following you from one of my Tumblr accounts (I have like 4 and have forgotten about the passwords of most of them)- So you may know me from there ig!!

Actually I came back here because I wanted to ask something- What is "Needy Streamer Overload" about?? I keep finding the game pretty intriguing and since you had it on your layout I thought I could ask you- (I also felt that it was a perfect opportunity to try to socialize a bit and meet more people on Tumblr-) Sorry if I'm bothering you! ^^

@.mistysaur

AWWW THANKIEEE 🥹🥹 and yeah I'm pretty sure i know uu from there!!

oh boy. let me see if i can explain NSO without dropping 19 paragraphs LOL

also, don't worry, uur not bothering me at all!! i love when ppl send me asks bc i have a hard time talking to ppl first, so this is also a good time for me to socialize!

ramble under the cut >:3

anyway, at its core, NSO is a game about managing the streamer career of a very mentally ill girl. the player is p-chan, the manager of their ' girlfriend ' Ame or k-angel/omgkawaiiangel, and they basically tell Ame what to do throughout the day. they can hang out, spend time together, play games, go on the internet, go outside etc. doing certain actions gives Ame ideas fur streams. there are many types of streams uu can do, each streaming category has level 1 up to level 5 streams, streaming is what gets uu followers. certain streams can get uu more followers but they would also increase ame's stress...

the player also has to manager her stats, her affection, stress, follower count and mental darkness. there's not much story because the whole game is centered around the players actions if ya get what i mean. the endings center around the effects of ame's stats if that makes sense.

NSO is a very fun game (i guess it's obvious that i love it lmao) the gameplay could get a little repetitive bc it's all the same but the graphics and music are so so cool. the interface is like this little computer and stuff and uu see Ame through the webcam screen and uu select her daily activities through app icons. the music is so catchy and perfectly fits the vibe of the game.

NSO is also a good portrayal of the toxic side of the internet—during some of the worst endings, ame spirals in front of the camera during a stream, and instead of having sympathy for her, her fans are quick to turn on her and dogpile on her instead. laughing at her misery as if she wasn't a person at all. they spread rumors, talk about how they always hated her from the start, doxx her, and then move on to the next entertaining internet personality with no loyalty to ame at all. it shows how people online can become cruel to each other because, well, it's all online, so they believe nothing is important or significant. NSO also depicts parasocial relationships, internet addiction, and wanting to get attention, love, and gratification from the internet. in general i love how NSO portrays the internet because everything feels so... real. the stream chats, the comments under ame's tweets, even Ame's texts to the player, they all feel so natural. like they're all actually said by people who spend way too much time on the internet and hence use slang and ways of speech that are common online. i always felt really bothered that mainstream media, especially those made by adults, SUCKED at portraying the internet. NSO isn't like that

so ya that's nso :3 if one thinks that NSO is something one is interested in, and one is sure they won't be triggered by it (bc yeah this game is super heavy) please by all means check it out!! i don't have any playthroughs to recommend since i don't watch playthroughs, but there's def some fun ones on yt! or buy it!

[nerdferatum]

OCs huh ? Well, lemme tell you more about my boi Aiden-

Aiden's got a HEAVY backstory (which I won't talk about here cause well it could be triggering and stuff so I'll avoid it just in case but yeah) but is at heart a real softie, you just gotta dig DEEP to find it

He's all intimidating and serious and glaring silently and threatening and stuff until there's a child involved, then he's gonna be the kindest softest adult in the room (In his playthrough of twc, he directly took Douglas under his wing and is so ready to physically fight with the mayor I'm just waiting for the opportunity at this point) He isn't really an ass otherwise, he just kinda gives back the energy he receives, so if someone's even a tiny bit rude, then you can bet he's gonna give them a hard time xjzoxjoz

He doesn't open up easily at all, so if he even so as shares his favorite color or meal with you, you can be sure you're considered to be close to him already

The moment you get to know him he can get chaotic, but always in a calm way xjzofjzokf he might start by judging you with a side glance but if what you say actually makes sense, he's gonna start thinking of it with you (*coughs in conspiracy theories about UB being vampires*)

He takes life as it is and is rarely surprised, but he does need a little push or reassurance from time to time to make decisions that could be good for him, bc yes he's the type of character that's scared to get a second chance at being happy

I'm gonna cut this short cause that's starting to be a lot, but yeah he's super loyal and would run head first into danger if it meant keeping his loved ones soft

OH ALSO HE HAS A CUTE LITTLE PET SNAKE-

HOW LONG HAVE WE BEEN FRIENDS AND YOU HIDTHE FACT THAT HE HAS A PET SNAKE unforgivable smh what’s the baby’s name!!

Aiden is sooooooo much like Theo I love a big intimidating man with a heart of gold (well theo isn’t big but you get me). They can adopt douglas ahksbkhsbjs although they might never acknowledge that they are friends, they will just respectfully nod at each other

[riddlerosehearts]

HII im back again again!! idm whether or not u respond or if u answer this privately or publicly BUUTT i wanted to share my playlists and my lil keychains!!

i dont have much 2 say abt these BUT i got them off of etsy!! the top ones (individuals) r from crickeescrockpot and the heart keychains r from po11ita!! i also have an ortho keychain from crickeescrockpot asw!!! i highly recommend both shops, the keychains r super cute and im literally OBSESSED with them. both times that i had either package arrive in the mail i went INSANE. ok onto my playlists...

ok so for these im just gonna say the title of the playlist, what its for/based on and then list the songs (with some explanations....) i won't get into EVERY playlist or every song on each playlist bc they get SUUUPEER lengthy. also mentioning playlists i just wanted 2 mention while i've been writing this i'm listening to a playlist my friend has made me abt classic rock love songs he felt could relate to idiavil. the playlist is titled "the playlist for idia" (idk if ive mentioned but its one of my online names cuz i relate to him like. a lot. like an uncanny amount.) and the description is "the playlist meant specifically for idia. idia's playlist." which i thought u would enjoy cuz u like the emperors new groove. also relating to that me and this same friend have yzma and kronk twst ocs. just felt like dropping that. can u tell i have adhd yet ok ANYWAYS

originally i was gonna post multiple but i'll probably spread each playlist out between different posts if u don't mind..???? just lmk cuz this is already getting SUPER LENGTHY (went back to edit this while adding the tracklist LMAO)

the tirle of my main playlist is just in all caps "IDIAVIL" and is canon based. heres some of the tracklist:

- bad romance by lady gaga (im a little monster but also the whole idea of the romance being "bad" as in not socially acceptable as in vil is a celeb and dating some guy, with his popularity there'd be some type of uproar like there is irl)

- be quiet & drive far away by deftones (personal reasons but also because i can imagine vil taking idia out on car rides or just away from nrc if he became overwhelmed with people after large events yk??? like do u see the vision?????)

- koi boy by jack stauber (THIS SONG IS SO IDIA JUST TRUST ME. "can i wake up to you laying next to me?" OH MY GOD THATS SO HIM!!! the yearning of just wanting vil to be next to him and for him to be next to vil OHHH MY GODS.)

- i won't say (i'm in love) from hercules. this one needs no explanation

- i wanna be your boyfriend by hot freaks (another idia pov one, just checks out lyrically)

- wear sunscreen by peach pyramid (ANOTHER IDIA POV ONE BUT GODS THIS ONE IS SO COMFORTING TO ME. it matches so well with idias pessimistic point of view asw as the chorus fitting how i imagine idia and vil's relationship; they better each other, both of them aren't very familiar w romantic feelings, how they "stuck around" despite past problems they probably had with each other like the bickering they have in the twisted tsumderland event)

- teenage dirtbag by wheatus (not exactly 100% canon based but i think it makes sense for the most part. like, idia dreaming abt vil and consistently telling himself "he's too good for me, i'm just some lame otaku guy that games" and then vil sees idia sulking and that one scene from idias starsending robe vignette plays out, like he compares something to a game or mentions a game instinctively and then vils like "yeah exactly" and idia jjst does a hard restart)

- treehouse by alex g and emily yacina (again idias pov, most of these are. just bc idia has his own little bubble that he really only lets ortho into, and eventually vil.)

- love like you from steven universe (could be in either vil or idia's pov, i just imagine they'd have different experiences and feelings about romance asw as different ways to show affection.)

- the zombie song by stephanie mabey (HEAR ME OUT. THIS BUT FROM IDIAS POV ITS THE ZOMBIE SONG, AND FROM VILS POV ITS BASED OFF OF HIS HALLOWEEN CARD SO ITS ABT HIM BEING A VAMPIRE INSTEAD. DO U SEE THE VISION.)

- see you again by tyler the creator and kali uchis (again from idias pov, basically idia dreaming abt vil and being in a romantic relationship witj him but he avoids vil at all costs and is rlly awkward in convo with him bc of his crush.)

- red wine supernova by chappell roan (this is another kinda unrealistic but like. i can't entirely explain it. but do u see the vision.)

- fishy love by griffinilla (they're lowk so alphys and undyne coded like be fr)

- daydream by temporex (idia's pov, again just him being like "i'm not good enough" and avoiding her so he doesn't embarrass himself, pining basically)

- don't care by temporex (idia's pov, i imagine since vil is so constantly busy the two don'tgey a lot of time completely to themselves often and so when they do idia just drops everything immediately to see his bf)

- little star by temporex (this is another i can't exactly explain but. it just makes sense to me.)

- new perspective by panic! at the disco (it's from jennifer's body i think this makes enough sense)

- stupid with love from mean girls the musical (NOT AN AU LIKE IDIA IN CANON WOULD BE SOOO BAD AT LOVE. HES SMART WITH COMPUTERS BUT STUPID WITH LOVE.)

- stupid cupid by connie francis (very similar to i won't say i'm in love, i think this one checks out easily)

OKAY THATS ALL I HAVE FOR NOW. im honestly quite tired and i have to work on my next session for my d&d players (i dm two groups & i always wait until the sunday b4 we meet up to plan, tbh sometimes i cram it all hours b4 we meet on mondays) so i'm either doing that or sleeping. i'll post more tmrw tho if u want!!! i just feel like ive already flooded ur ask box sm i dont wanna bother u 😭😭

omg so first of all i should say that you're not bothering me at all!! i don't really get a lot of asks (the blog where i get the most is the one i make stimboards on and it's literally just because i take requests there LOL) so it's always nice when i do get people wanting to chat in my inbox! also my last reply was just me rambling for giant paragraphs about the casting for an AU based on a musical that you haven't even seen AKDFJGF so no worries, if you wanna send more feel free to! you could always just share your favorite songs from each playlist or something, whatever works for you lol, it just might take me a bit longer to reply if you send multiple asks at once. anyway those keychains are all so cute!! that reminds me i didn't share what artist made my enamel pins, it's ayumisaurus--looks like since i last bought from her she moved from etsy to another site and she's on a break atm, but hopefully when she opens again she'll still have her dorm leader pins. she made pins of all the overblots too and i need to get the riddle one at some point.

i didn't know a lot of these songs because 95% of what i listen to (outside of like, broadway musical albums/disney movie soundtracks/video game music lmao) is rock/metal/punk, i don't listen to much pop music or anything, so i looked up the lyrics to most of them but here's some thoughts:

be quiet and drive is a song i DO know and i can totally see that!! however, this is going to sound really silly but the reason why you picked it reminded me of making the most of the night by carly rae jepsen and then i thought of let's get lost, also by her. i'm imagining the first song from vil's POV and the second from idia's. yes i just said i don't listen to much pop music but carly rae jepsen is an icon 💖

i wanna be your boyfriend fits SO perfectly after i looked it up. the part that goes "all the guys are crowding around / they're telling you the same things that i planned to say / i thought i was unique / maybe I'm not that way" because vil is so famous and everybody already tells him how beautiful and talented he is all the time so idia thinks he doesn't have anything special to say... augh that's so good.

the lyrics to wear sunscreen are so sweet... you're so right about both of them making each other better and both not being that familiar with romantic feelings. vil's had all kinds of people who he doesn't even know try to confess their love to him, and it's possible that he's acted in romance movies before, but that doesn't mean he's ever known what it really felt like to be in love before.

love like you is such a great song because you can really make it fit just about any two people who love each other if you want to, and i can so easily see it from both vil or idia's POV. imagine "i always thought i might be bad, now i'm sure that it's true, cause i think you're so good and i'm nothing like you" and it could be idia thinking about how vil always works so hard and tries to help everyone else be the best they can be and he just isn't like that... or it could be vil thinking about how idia literally loved his brother so much that he figured out a way to bring him back from the dead, when he was only a child and vil at the same age was busy worrying about his acting career and never could've done something like that.

WAAAAIT FISHY LOVE BY GRIFFINILLA IS SO REAL LOL THEY ARE KIND OF ALPHYS AND UNDYNE CODED.

new perspective by PATD is another song i already knew and i can definitely see it

i also know the mean girls musical pretty well and omg the idea of stupid with love as a vilidia song is SO funny but you're so right, it does fit.

AND the mention of the mean girls musical reminds me, can i also just. go off on a quick tangent about wicked again. please imagine the beginning of the song "what is this feeling" but with vil and idia (as glinda and elphaba respectively, of course). really the WHOLE song is so them, but i just think about vil and idia going "there's been some confusion for you see my roommate is..." "unusually and exceedingly peculiar and altogether quite impossible to describe" "blonde 🙄" and it kills me every time it's SOOO funny to me.

anyway i didn't wanna give thoughts on every single song or anything because i knew this would get long but i appreciate you sharing them!! if you really don't mind me posting this publicly then i will just because i hate how tumblr doesn't save asks that you answer privately. also i thought for some reason that i already followed you back but apparently i didn't so i will now!! and if you're into D&D then you should totally play baldur's gate 3 if you're ever interested in it.

[imnotreal-png]

>:) -- Entry 1

OK i just smoked a joint after i wrote the date and now im kinda chillin but imma still yap on dis hoe.

I am a loser. Like a huge loser, okay? Like im not dumb or wtv, i may have reached a weird and insane level of self awareness, but im just as much of a loser as anyone else.

I keep catching myself trying to people please and overstepping my boundaries and justifying it with "oh everyone else does it, so what, its normal" like ok dumb bitch that doesn't make it okay, get a grip.

But i will be yapping away abt alot of stupid bullshit i deal with and stupid things make me sad. I am very well aware that I am irrational, but these are things i feel in those moments that i always hold in because i don't want people 2 see that weak side of me. It's embarrassing and it's not me.

In truth, i have nooo idea what i'm doing. I have 0 clue on where i'll be in the future. I didn't think i'd make it this far and not on some suicidal shit (idk if u can say that word here, oops.), i just genuinely thought that i'd somehow perish?? Like i wasn't really real in some weird way. I just didn't exist. Even though i was always the center of drama or the cause of all things chaotic, i was always misunderstood. god that's so fucking cringe but hear me out.

I always said shit that i believed was clear enough to be understood and yet it wasn't. Even my tone apparently has been rude this entire time. But no one would actually tell me how i come off, they just ate it up in silence and then spaz on me. Even now i don't really understand because i truly believe i am very clear on what im saying. Yet it's still...not seen the way im trying to show it? Idk if im making any sense bruh but whatever. Maybe im narcissistic but no one understands my brain the way i attempt to express it...or i guess how i see it. Idk i guess im just frustrated that no one understands me or gets my brain.

Also it's super cringe when people tell me im mature for my age. Literally eat my shit. actual ick. get away from me.

I hate my mom. She hates me too but she hates me bc I'm not the pussy she wishes she was when she was my age. She's the most childish person i know. I genuinely do not care what she thinks of me whatsoever. She's just power hungry and immature. Actually, I don't even hate her, i just hate that she gets to have all this power over me. I just want my freedom, thats it. She can hate my lifestyle or whatever the fuck, as long as im not living with her. At the end of the day, im truly content with who i am as a person and my moral compass etc, she cant affect that. I just need to have my own space and leave her household to finally be free and actually experience life in a comfortable and more peaceful way. I guess that's all i can say rn. I just wish she would respect my boundaries and stop treating me like im her competition and she'll always be superior. She won't and i cannot wait for the day she finally see's that lol.

!! super irrational moment alert !!

LMAO this is super cringe but like when i started music i put "listen 2 my moozik" in my bio bc we say muzik in albanian but americans wud have 2 read it as moozik to get it right + its funny? Ever since i started rlly getting exposure and performing out there, all these NON SLAVS/BALKANS have started putting it in their bio's 🙄 like be fr, its sooo obvious (at least to me). And now some of these mfs i've interacted w startes stealing my lingo and the way i type [this isn't how i type when i txt friends. its worse and i shorten everything in a miserable way cuz its funny] and it's cute at first but now mfs on social media posting the way i do and talking the way i do. [insert side eye bc yeah] and it's kinda cringe cuz they're actually rlly shallow and mainstream people, they just look like they trying 2 hard to be quirky. lol.

im probably tweakin tho idk.

i wish i grew up with art. i wish my parents had that and were able to introduce it to me. I feel like a fraud when i try to be creative and do things. Even with making music. As much as i enjoy it and love it and it really does make me happy, it feels fake. I can't play any instruments, i can't sing, im far from a good writer, fuck if know anything abt music theory...i literally just click buttons and make sounds on my computer lol. I didn't grow up indulging in art and creativity, i was actually always super bad at it. I wish i had a deeper connection with it. I wish i understood it better. I wish i expressed it better. I wish my ideas were my own. I want to be able to create something that is truly mine without feeling like im a fake.

UHHHH so imma just come on here and vent whenever i feel like i have something i need 2 say. This is intended for the void, if u come across it...cringe.

[freakurodani]

I hope you got some good sleep!

There is a cartoon called Over the garden wall. Sort of a masterpiece of a cartoon in my opinion (I'm a animator so i go hard for that stuff) anyways! There is a kid Gregory, super adorable, and he has a Rock with a painted face and he says "Rock Fact" as a joke and idk I kinda played on that because trees are alive vs rock. The more I type this the more I realize this is probably more of an inside joke and it may be dumb to others 😂

If you like a little creepy in your cartoons then you should watch it though 🧡

I am going to tell you one of his rock facts though because I can't help myself.

- If you soak a raisin in grape juice, it turns into a grape.

Soup 🍜 is 💯 synonymous with romance and Mx. Earnest (partner giving you the bowl and shirt) makes the best Ramen EVVVVERR like broth from scratch. I do a good chicken noodle and also thai curry soup also scratch.

Shyguy is too far to eat it 😔

I think shyguy may have sent that msg about getting good sleep. I'm surprised, but that is for sure his fav emoticon, I'll have to ask. 🧡

One day bored teenagers will read our tale in English class! 😂🧡🍜

omg!!! u know i was just talking w a friend about how i should watch that and my bff (who im in a qpr with so u gotta be chill w that if we continue lmao :P) is gonna sit me down and force me to watch it sometime soon (bc im forgetful on my own)!! but thank you very much for explaining, one day purrrhaps ill be able to laugh along 💕

i did not know that about grapes!! next time i get stuck with raisins ill just get some grape juice <333 (<=raisin hater)

omg im getting names... soup anon, mx. earnest (whom i will have to start wooing too, since i like their taste in fashion and i am a sucker for soup (as u know)) and shyguy.... i feel like the belle of the ball

ough, ur making me want soup so bad, it won't be the same as HOMEMADE FROM SCRATCH (wowzaa! not only are u wooing me, but u are an impeccable wingman (gender neutral) soup anon) hehehe

if it was indeed shyguy, he is allowed back in my inbox anytime 🥰 i appreciate the sentiment hehe

oh yeah, its gonna be epic theres gonna be so many sparks notes essays about us 💚

[trender-sollux]

hey something silly But. what if I was to nab a problematic ship name url and anonymously start a new pro shipper blog.

[coraskeeper]

⇢ 𝗺𝗵𝗮 𝗳𝗲𝗺𝗮𝗹𝗲 𝗵𝗲𝗿𝗼𝘀 𝗵𝗮𝘃𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗮 𝘀𝗵𝘆 𝗳𝗲𝗺! 𝘀/𝗼 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝗮 𝗯𝘂𝗻𝗻𝘆 𝗾𝘂𝗶𝗿𝗸

↳ 𝗳𝘁: 𝗿𝘂𝗺𝗶, 𝗺𝗶𝗻𝗮, 𝗷𝗶𝗿𝗼𝘂, 𝗳𝗲𝗺! 𝗽𝗼𝗰 𝘀/𝗼

 ↳ 𝘄𝗮𝗿𝗻𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀: 𝗯𝗮𝘀𝗶𝗰 𝗻𝘀𝗳𝘄 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝘀𝗼𝗺𝗲 𝗺𝗵𝗮 𝗴𝗶𝗿𝗹𝘀 𝗶𝗱 𝗹𝗲𝘁 𝗱𝗲𝘀𝘁𝗿𝗼𝘆 𝗺𝗲 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗶𝗿 𝗯𝗱𝗲, 𝗳𝗹𝘂𝗳𝗳

↳ 𝘄𝗰: 𝟭.𝟱𝗸 𝘄𝗵𝗼𝗼𝗽𝘀

𝐑𝐮𝐦𝐢 𝐔𝐬𝐚𝐠𝐢𝐲𝐚𝐦𝐚

being that she herself has a bunny quirk she instantly falls in love with you

will openly court you to let everyone else know that you’re hers

she's super open with skinship and unless you tell her you don’t like it she’ll do it no matter who’s around

intimate hugs, randomly groping you, kisses, pet names, etc.

she thinks you’re so small and cute compared to her

calls you cute nicknames like “ bunny “, “ carrot “, “ mommy’s good girl “

she likes giving you piggy back rides and likes it when you scratch her ears too

thinks its the cutest thing when you get embarrassed and you curl into yourself so innocently

just makes her want to ruin you more and more every time

loves feeding you and giving you presents bc she wants to see you well fed and happy

she rubs your ears a lot in tons of situation, if you're sad, uncomfortable, did a good job at something or even if you guys are just simply chilling doing nothing at all

when you guys first starting dating she wouldn’t touch your tail bc she didn't want to make you uncomfortable bc she knows how shy you are

now now now, the first time she found out her sensitive your tail was, oh lord

you just released the demon inside of this woman

buys you a pretty collar with rumi’s bunny written on it and a pretty bow on the back

NSFW WARNING BELOW!

“ you like it when mommy touches you here, don't cha carrot? “

this woman has a mommy kink, no other opinions are valid

loves loves loves giving you hickeys all over

rubs your ears after you come down from hard orgasms

loves to softly degrade you too

“ look at this slutty hole, dripping for me “  

“ look at you, spreading yourself for me waiting for me to breed you like the pretty slut you are “

breeding kink, i said what I said

rubs your tail when she pegs you from behind bc she knows how much you like it when she does

“ look at you taking my cock like the obedient little breeding bitch you are “

rumi calling you a breeding bitch i-  

her favorite is doggy style with your hands tied behind your back while she rails you from behind while she pulls on your collar

will s p a n k you and makes you count too

literally humps you like a bunny in heat

she won't require you to pleasure her back bc she just wants to take care of you but if you do she’ll praise you the whole time

let her roughly fuck your face while your in nothing but some skimpy white lingerie you can see your brown nipples through, a collar, and some thigh highs

has SO much stamina

also likes good ol missionary with your knees pressed into your chest while cry and drool for her

“ that’s right, cum for me bunny “

loves making you ride her face or 69ing with you on top, she knows your shy and your embarrassed and vulgar expressions make it soooo much more watching you writhe in pleasure for her

will make you ride her, and won't help you at all bc she's a big meanie and she loves to watch you struggle to impale yourself on her fake cock while you gush all over her thighs

if you try and ride her and she thinks you’re going to slow, she’ll fuck you with the powerful pretty ass legs and ruin you from under you

she’s so rough with you and leaves bruises everywhere but she’s never so rough to the point she hurts you

when you cum she rubs your ears and tells you how good you did

“ that’s my good girl “ ugh

will clean you up and carry you around everywhere, gives you her clothes to sleep in

if you fall asleep right after your bath, shell dress you, put on your bonnet for you, and make you something to eat while you rest

i will let this woman destroy me pls i got so carried away I-

𝐉𝐢𝐫𝐨𝐮 𝐊𝐲𝐨𝐤𝐚

she literally adores your cute ass floppy ears

literally takes pictures of your ears and tails and face and shows everyone and adores it when you get embarrassed

she’s so sweet to you just buys you any and everything

writes you cute ass songs

bc you’re so shy she’s always going to ask before she touches you

consent consent consent

when you get uncomfortable around a large group of people and she sees your ears lay flat on top of your head, will subtly pull you aside to a quiet place

calls you things like “ my muse “ or “ darling “

she understands that you don’t like loud things bc of how sensitive your ears are being that she herself has sensitive ears too bc of her quirk

when you can’t sleep or have nightmares she’ll sing to you and gently scratch behind your ears

studies up on your anatomy bc she wants to know as much about you as possible

will teach you how to play her acoustic guitar bc she knows it won’t be too loud for your sensitive ears

she loves how your ears just sit perfectly in the middle of your curls you just look so pretty

she likes it when you wear bright colors that contrast her own wardrobe

NSFW WARNING BELOW!!

she might seem like she’s pretty chill but in bed i believe that kyoka is a mean ass lazy dom

she makes you work for your orgasms and she will edge and punish you

“ go faster or you wont get to cum at all “

she likes watching you desperately grind your sweet cunt onto her thigh or against her own arousal

likes to eat you out from behind or play with your cunt in front of a mirror

she lovesssss playing with your brown nipples and if you’re insecure about them she will casually take time out of her day just to appreciate them

shower sex shower sex shower sexxxxx

likes seeing you all wet and the water falling off your body just turns her on

mirror sex with jirou ugh

she loves spreading you open in front of a mirror and lazily fingering you until your crying and dripping all over you, her, and the bedsheets from the overstim

“ don’t be a crybaby, you can take more can't you, darling? “

she tugging on your tail when you cum bc she knows how sensitive it is and she loves hearing you moan loud for her but will be so mean to you about it

“ shut your mouth “

will smack your cute ass while she ruthlessly grinds into you and calls you names

“ you want everyone to hear how loud you are don't you slut “

will edge you until you cry and won't let you cum until there are tears streaming down your face and your begging her for release

“ only good girls get to cum, not selfish sluts “

she will probably call you names when you cum too lol

after care is 10/10 tho

she makes it up to you for being mean and buys you ice cream after she bathes you

sings to you and gives you snacks and ear rubs

𝐌𝐢𝐧𝐚 𝐀𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐝𝐨

she is a very sociable person, she loves to interact with others and make friends while you on the other hand are super introverted and stays to yourself

everyone is surprised when you too start to go out bc you are polar opposites

will never shut up about you after that

“ yeah, that cute lil bunny over there.. that's my girlfriend “

calls you things like “ babe “, “ bun “, and “ love “

shows everyone cute pictures of you she took off guard and rubs your ears when you get mad at her for embarrassing you  

she wont do anything you dont like and will always ask what your comfortable with and is constantly asking if you're too overwhelmed when your out somewhere

she loves your quirk and she thinks its so cute

she will buy you cute skirts and cuts hole out of the back of them just to see your cute little tail pop out the back

will hold your hand no matter where you are so you don't get lost or feel too uncomfortable

she hates when your sad or feeling insecure and uncomfortable around others bc your ears droop on top of your head and she hates how lifeless they look

she likes buying you cute ribbons to tie around the base of your ears

matching pjs and disney movies anyone?

likes seeing you in frilly pink things and pretty chokers

she's a people pleaser so anything you want, if it's in her ability to give it to you trust me you’ll have it

NSFW WARNING BELOW!!

she isn't mean to you as your dom bUT she is SO unashamedly vulgar

she will say the nastiest things to you with an innocent smile on her face while she wrecks you

“ look at how your pussy just clenches for me, how cute “  

likes to make you look when she plays with you

the biggest tease

“ don't be embarrassed love, i love when your pussy sucks my fingers and tongue in like that “

it is her mission to make you squirt every single time you have sex

likes to make you eat her out on your knees while you play with yourself under her

she is a BITER she loves to bite you everywhere

tugs on your ears when she fucks your face and calls you a good bunny when you make her cum

“ look at my good girl, you look so pretty with my cum all over your face, love “

please wear thigh highs and garters for her, she will worship you

loves the inside of your mouth, she’ll stick her fingers in your mouth and then make you talk to her while she fingers the hell out of you

“ aw bun, look at how stupid im fucking you “

toys toys toys!!

loves using all types of vibrators on you

she isn't as mean to where she'd edge you, she hates not giving you what you want but she will always overstim you

“ look love, you came so much the bed is soaking “

“ look at the mess your gushing cunt made “

she will embarrass you any chance she gets

she also likes mutual masturbation

watching you get off to watching her get off? i think tf yeah

sits you on her lap so she can fucking you with the vibrator on the highest setting while playing with your tail

will have a normal conversation with you like she’s not literally ruining your insides and will tease you when you cant respond to her without moaning and whimpering

“ what was that babe? I can't understand anything you're saying, speak up “ 

loves seeing your ears and nose twitch when you cum

cuddles you and runs a warm bath for you both

gives you soft massages bc she knows how sore you’ll be afterwards

puts on your matching bonnets and makes you breakfast the next morning

aftercare queen yess

[softxsuki]

Urgent request kinda.

I play violin at school, just started a year and a half ago. And took lessons in the summer and quit after school started up. I learned a lot during that time and in September, for my audition, I made the harder ensemble (class) and they're really good.

In my recent rehearsal I was the only violin in my section. (There's one other in my section) and we were playing the new music we got a few days ago. I suck at sight reading and cannot for the life of me get rhythm first try. I was told to try play by myself infront of everyone, because I just wasn't getting the rhythm and I basically embarassed myself infront of them. Couldn't do a simple rhythm.

And now I'm just thinking I'm the worst one there, that I'm dragging them down, that I should have practiced before hand. And I'm super embarassed. Like wow, I sounded like a freaking beginner.

(crush was also there, who is really good. Embarassed myself infront of them)

So soft boi tsukishimaxfem!reader comfort pls.

Tsukishima Comforts Reader Who Messes Up During Violin Rehearsal

Pairing: Tsukishima x Fem!Reader

Warnings: mentions of being embarrassed, feeling like giving up, reader being hard on herself

Genre: Fluff, Comfort

Post-Type: Drabble

Word Count: 960

Summary: In which you mess up and embarrass yourself in front of everyone in your ensemble. While walking with your boyfriend, Tsukishima, he notices your distress and takes you aside you can tell him what's wrong.

[A/N: Hello anon, thank you for coming to me with your urgent request. Sorry for the little wait--I didn't have the motivation to write and I was really busy all day yesterday, but it's finally here! I've never written for Tsukishima before, so sorry if he's out of character (though I think soft boy Tsukishima is pretty ooc NJEKAF, but that's okay). Note though--I won't be taking normal requests for Tsukishima as I don't write for him. But this was an exception since it was an urgent request :). Fun fact: I used to play the violin (along with a few other instruments too). I think I played for like 5 years and I just never really got into it. LIKE YES IT WAS FUN, but I didn't put in the effort to really learn. I had to mark up all the music notes bc I couldn't remember what they were. I even performed by myself one time in front of a crowd and I butchered my whole performance. TALK ABOUT EMBARRASSMENT. But yeah, it sounds like you are putting in the effort to learn the violin and you even go into the harder ensemble, so definitely keep going and don't let this little slip up let you down. I believe in you! <3 ]

Why didn’t I practice? I just had to go and embarrass myself in front of the whole ensemble.

You had just finished your violin rehearsal with your school ensemble and were now walking beside your boyfriend, Tsukishima, heading to the gym for his Volleyball practice.

You sigh for the nth time that day, walking silently beside him as the embarrassing scenario from earlier replays in your head. Tsukishima suddenly stops walking, making you slightly bump into him as he turns to you.

“Okay, what is it? You’ve been sighing since I went to pick you up. What’s wrong?” He asks you in concern after hearing your sighs and seeing the distracted look you had on your face since he picked you up from the room you were rehearsing in.

Shock covers your expression, not having expected him to notice the distress on your face since his mind was usually on Volleyball and what he would practice with his team.

“I completely embarrassed myself in front of the whole ensemble,” you start in exasperation, “I was singled out because I couldn’t get the rhythm right away and even had trouble reading the notes. So I attempted to play the song for the first time in front of everyone while all their eyes were on me and I completely butchered the song. I mean c’mon, I’ve been playing the violin already for about a year and a half. I spent the whole summer taking extra lessons, but when it comes down to playing a new song, I can’t do it? What’s wrong with me?”

You were completely worked up, breathing heavily as you retold your embarrassing experience during rehearsals.

“I should have practiced beforehand. I’m probably the worst player there, I don’t even know how I got into that ensemble. At this rate I’m just going to be holding everyone back. All those lessons and over a year of experience, but I sound like that?! I might as well be a beginner all over again,” you continue, getting all your frustrations off your chest.

Tsukishima stands patiently beside you, listening to you with a calm expression on his face as you rant to him about your day. As soon as you finish talking though, he places a large hand onto your head and ruffles your hair softly.

“I think you’re an amazing violinist from what you’ve played for me. It’s normal to mess up when asked to play something for the first time. You don’t need to compare your abilities to everyone else in that class though. You clearly have skill and potential because you made it into that advanced ensemble,” Tsukishima reassures you with a small smile.

By now he was already running a little late for his own practice, but he didn’t care. He wanted to make sure you were okay before he brought you to his practice. He didn’t want to have you sitting alone looking sad or lost in your own toxic thoughts while he played. He looks back down at your face to see that your expression is still the same. You were still beating yourself up over your mistake and probably repeating your embarrassment over and over again in your head.

He looks around to make sure no one is around, before bringing you into his slender arms. He’d hate to have his whole team tease him for being all touchy with you before practice, it would completely make him lose his focus but he needed to be there for you when you needed him. He rubs your back comfortingly before speaking again.

“You don’t think it’s embarrassing to miss a block when I’m playing volleyball, or to not be able to serve properly? But if I give up then I’m letting myself and my team down,” he says firmly, holding you tightly in his arms as he thinks about all the moments he felt embarrassed during his Volleyball matches.

“I know it’s embarrassing and you’re feeling like you have nothing to offer your ensemble since you messed up, but don’t let that bring you down. It happens. Go home and keep practicing until you get it right. Eventually with more experience, you’ll be able to do sight reading of your music sheets and you’ll get the rhythm on your first try. We can’t expect to be perfect at everything overnight. So keep trying. Just like how you’re there for all of my games, cheering me on, I’ll be there for all your concerts, cheering you on–even if you mess up, because it’s okay. And I'm sure everyone in your ensemble understands and remembers the days when they would mess up too. For someone who has only been playing for a year and a half, you’re outstanding at the violin, so keep going. Get more experience under your belt and blow us all away with your skills. I know you can do it.”

“Thank you Kei,” you mumble, wrapping your arms tightly around his torso, “I still can’t forget the embarrassment, but you’ve encouraged me to continue playing despite what happened today. I don’t want all my hard work and extra lessons to go down the drain. I love playing the violin too so I definitely want to continue.”

“You’re welcome and good. I love when you play for me so I can’t wait to see how far you go with the violin,” he presses a small kiss to the top of your head before grabbing your hand and tugging you towards the gym, “Now let’s get going, I’m already late and I need you there watching me so I can do well during practice!”

“All right, all right,” you laugh letting him drag you along with him, glad to have the heavy weight off your chest with the hope of what was to come.

REQUESTS ARE OPEN :D

Posted: 1/15/2022

[namtanlovesfilm]

Ngl though I kinda wanna know more about the girl from across the globe who was in love with you and who you dreamed of kissing 👀👀 (Only if you want to though of course)

oooh, okay I'm gonna keep it brief bc when I say we could've made a movie about her story, WE COULD'VE MADE A MOVIE ABOUT HER STORY. so yeah we met bc we were big klaine fans & she liked my fanfictions about them lol, and we started talking every day & sending each other pictures and even facetiming sometimes so we got very close VERY fast. she was pan & in love with another girl from the klaine fandom who wrote fanfics (guess she had a type huh LMAO) but that girl was super toxic so very early into our friendship she dropped her & then coincidentally fell in love with me. I won't go into details but she had a VERY hard life, like genuinely all of the tropes you can imagine coming from a show like skins, she had them. and I was there for her during every trial & error she had. so she told me she loved me & me being v confused about my sexuality at the time I rejected her but we stayed super close. she started making inappropriate jokes with me (that I entertained bc they didn't make me uncomfortable) & even talking about kissing me when she'd visit, AND I WAS DOWN. like I was like "I don't know about sex but kissing a girl is fine, maybe I'm bi-curious 😜" which... we all know where this has lead me to LMAOOOO, but anyways we had SUPER SAPPY moments where she'd send me videos of her crying like "I still love you" like... the epitome of a cheesy teen romcom, only gay & from across the globe lol. but anyways long story short after a couple of years she met a guy on tinder & fell in love with him, and she's still with him to this day :') I was definitely jealous at the time but I didn't realize it. like this whole story was about me clearly having feelings for her bc I stuck by her in infuriating moments, but not realizing it. and like she knew tbh, she was always telling me my behavior wasn't straight AND SHE WAS RIGHT. so yeah that was the story of the girl I most certainly had at least a bit of feelings for, v dramatic, v sappy, but hey thinking about this months ago was the thing that made me finally realize I'm bi so yaaaay ✌️

xxx

[datingdonovan]

heyy so i'm an infp and i feel like my relationship fails bc i have a lot of stuff going on in my life that i don't seem to have time for myself and others...

a/n: hey anon!! :) I hope you like this one! tough decision but this guy kept coming to mind :) I hope you like it<3 thanks for being so patient with me as im finishing these! I apologize for the wait ive just had a lot more going on than I expected hahaha!

look I know you're super busy but bottom line is that I found somebody else who's busy. like, yeah, as busy as you. I know you're probably not looking for someone right now but seriously, I think this can be a multitasking event ok?? like, he can work, and you can work, or text your friends or family, or whatever you need to do while you meet him. and it won't be a big deal because he'll be super busy too. basically what im trying to say is I met him at his job so I can just swing you by!! and don't say no!! there's free food involved! yes, we're going to that place... onigiri... um.. miya??? the guy that works there... his name is something like... osamu?

I keep seeing him whenever I go to order I swear it's like he's always running on all cylinders!! no, I don't know what he does idk if he has some important position or what I mean it's not like I'm in there every DAY okay??? just every week or so when I go, he's always in there rushing around like a mad man. so he wouldn't be the type to be blowing up your phone or constantly checking in on you, I swear! he'd just let you live your life and wouldn't need to always know where you were or what you were doing! I feel like he's okay being alone for the day and he would let you be, too. I don't think he'd be weirded out by you having so much on your plate. it wouldn't be a dealbreaker or put a strain on the relationship bc honestly it just seems to be the norm for both of you, and if you're both cool with it, then all is good! but also... a few times ive gone in later in the day, when there's not much going on, and he's been... different. when he's not all harried running around to a million customers, he seems more easygoing, but he still has this sort of underlying intenseness and determination and passion about him, and a really sharp sense of humor I think you'd find totally charming hahaha :) he's not a bigshot and he's not a super huge flirt he's just... cute in his own way and super snarky. definitely the type of person where you could come home together and make fun of all the weird people you interacted with that day. he's just so funny. and, yeah, when he's not working so hard, I think he seems to really know how to just put his stressors totally out of his mind and relax, and since he does it so well, I think he'd be able to help you chill out and take time for yourself occasionally, if that's something you'd want. I think he knows how to balance that sort of thing because far as I can tell he always seems really lighthearted about everything he's got going on, even if it's stressful. gosh omg I can just see you two just sitting on the couch at home after a long day, him kissing your fingers and asking how your day was and relaxing with you and letting you just be there, in his love, helping you feel like there's more to life than overworking or giving your time away :) oh WHAT?? are you LAUGHING??? you think it's WEIRD that im having these VISIONS about you two even though ive bARELY MET HIM???? well you'd do the same if you were in my shoes!!! I know it!! SO SHUT UP AND TELL ME WHEN WE'RE GOING TO ONIGIRI???

[pikashadow]

Hii!!

I legit screamed when the new sky series chapter came out!! Its been a while and I thought "maybe they might pause it bc of work or the new library job they mentioned" but then i saw the notification that you released another chapter!! Also, don't lose hope about a job, you'll find one soon!

This chapter was very interesting to see it from Mei's perspective most of the time, but i really love seeing Eijun notice Mei's expressions and pointing them out. The dynamic you've built for their relationship is quite amazing ngl. Mei is prideful (i mean even canon Mei is quite prideful) but i love seeing his walls get teared down by the ball of sunshine that Eijun is.

Don't get me started on the part where Mei gets angry on Eijuns behalf, that scene was living but also adorable and to have Eijun point it out really shows the Seido team what kind of relationship the two have.

Speaking of, HA! They deserved the threatening from Ryousuke because like, how dare they make Eijun sad and cry. If it were me, I would have smacked them and made them Eijuns servants for a day or two. I mean, Eijun is a precious bean. Also, the alumni (that feels weird to type, they will always be the third years in my heart) how they confront Mei about his relationship with Eijun. I love how at first they were on Mei's ass but then soon saw his intentions kinda and respectfully backed off (as thr other seido idiots should have but its okay, they learnt and will continue to learn its not their business).

The last thing i want to say is that I hope you are doing well! The releases to the sky series even just fluffy stuff between MeiSawa makes my heart swoon and lets me take a much needed break from reality. I hope you also, have a way to take a break and relax, and I hope you get that library job!! I'll be waiting for the next chapter<3

- :]

Hi~

Asdfjslkfdsdf, you're so sweet!! Mhm, thank you so much for waiting patiently. Nono, even if I get a job, I plan on continuing to work on my series. Updates might be slower than usual, but I won't pause it or stop working on it. Aaaaaaaaa, seriously, you're so sweet!! Thank youuuuu so much!

I'm glad you think so! I thought that would be the best way to write this fic, and I had a lot of fun writing from Mei's point of view. I'm super happy you mentioned Eijun noticing Mei's expressions and pointing them out!! I mentioned it before, but they've been together for a while now. Eijun pays a lot of attention to Mei and knows him really well, so I thought he might see through him. It won't happen all the time, but y'all will see more of it in some of my future fics. Asdfkjlksdfsd, I'm super happy you think so!! I've thought a lot about their relationship and their dynamic. It feels like you're recognizing all that hard work. Yepyep, I wanted to keep Mei (and everyone else for that matter) as close to their canon personalities as possible, but Mei also has a soft side he reserves for Eijun. Y'all will see Eijun tearing more of his walls down in some of my future fics 😉😉😉

I'm so happy you enjoyed that scene! I thought Mei would do something like that. He cares about Eijun so much, and as a pitcher (and someone who's annoyed with Seidou), he wanted to stick up for Eijun and let them have it for not responding sooner to Eijun's pitching. Mhm, it really spoke volumes about their relationship.

I probably shouldn't feel bad for them after they made Eijun cry, but I do. I totally understand your feelings, though. I'm sure a lot of people will agree with you and not feel bad for them. Violence isn't the answer, but I know I can't tell you what to do. I understand what you're saying, but Eijun wouldn't have wanted that. If it was something really bad, I can see Eijun wanting them to make it up to him somehow. I agree that Eijun is a precious bean. Yeah, it feels weird typing that. Mhm, they all heard about the rumors surrounding Mei, so even though they saw Eijun and Mei interact with each other in front of them, they still wanted to talk to (and warn) Mei. I feel like the former third years respect Tetsu's animal instincts, and they talked about the Meisawa relationship before talking to Mei so that's why they respectfully backed off somewhat quickly. (Yepyep, Eijun and Mei's relationship is none of their business.)

Aaaaaaaaaa, you're so sweet!! I'm doing well! I hope you're doing well with all your assignments and in real life stuff! Asdfkjlksdfsd, I'm super happy and honored to hear that!! It makes my chest warm that my fics do that for you. Thank youuuuu so much for the concern! Don't worry. I make sure to take breaks and relax as much as possible. !!!!! That's so sweet!! Thank youuuuu so much for the well wishes!! I'm so happy you'll be waiting for the next one!!

Thank youuuuuu so much for the ask, Anon!! This made me super happy!! I hope you have a wonderful morning/afternoon/night~ ❤️❤️❤️

[yoonstudios]

the get to know me uncomfortably well thing except i threw some out bc i don't like them lmao

1. What is your middle name? Fhae ((it was inspired by the name of a waitress my mom and dad had on one of their dates at big boys 🙃))

2. How old are you? 16

3. What is your birthday? July 19

4. What is your zodiac sign? Cancer

5. What is your favorite color? pastel yellow or purple

6. What’s your lucky number? i don't have one lmao

7. Do you have any pets? yes, two twin male cats, mo and curly, and a female torbie cat, ryleigh. i also have two purple danio fish that i've had for months and haven't even named yet :')

8. Where are you from? cornfield land (ohio)

9. How tall are you? it's been a minute since i got my height measured but last time, i was a little under 5' 4" !!

10. What shoe size are you? bro idk like size 7 in womens or smth

11. How many pairs of shoes do you own? i have a pair of tennis shoes and have two pairs of boots but i'm planning to get some gray converse highs this christmas.

12. What was your last dream about? going on a long and absolutely gorgeous road trip with jin in a vintage camper van :))

13. What talents do you have? being completely honest, i don't have any,, i'm not good at a lot of things actually and i beat myself up for it really really badly lol but i'm trying to find something i'm really good at !!

14. Are you psychic in any way? um no, but i'm pretty good at predicting things, or that's what i've been told by my intj father lol august of this year, we were at a metropark and my mom parked her suv in the parking lot and be aware that we're basically in the middle of a forest. we're chilling at a small playground with a bunch of kids and all i can think is how many trees are bent over, and the fact that no one else is noticing is confusing the fuck out of me. i told my mom that some trees are probably gonna fall on someone's car or one of the facility buildings but she just tells me to calm down, and that nothing will happen and that everything's fine. not even 5 minutes goes by, and a 30 foot branch falls and literally destroys like 40% of my mom's suv🙃🙃🙃

15. Favorite song? a hard question, but i'll have to pick yoongi's "so far away" :)

16. Favorite movie? the princess and thE FROG DON'T JUDGE ME OKAY LMAO

17. Who would be your ideal partner? uhh, i just want a decent dude who can handle my regularly scheduled daily existential crisis and can respect boundaries ((lol jk if you're not yoongi or any of the other 6 dorks, then there's a good chance that i won't marry you /hj))

18. Do you want children? even in the previous question, relationships are probably on the very bottom of my priority list, and it isn't really something i'm too worried about right now. i wanna get my life together and have some emotional stability before i even think about dating. so no, i don't want any children, even if i do get married, but that might change idk

19. Do you want a church wedding? nah, i want one of those super pretty weddings in the middle of the woods lmao if that's a thing???

20. Are you religious? lol yeah i'm a christian <3

21. Have you ever been to the hospital? yep, when i was born :)) but seriously no, i haven't hurt myself that bad to the point where i need to go to the hospital~

22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law? nope!

23. Have you ever met any celebrities? i don't think so..

24. Baths or showers? showers

25. What color socks are you wearing? they're different patterns lol my right sock is a navy blue and my left is just blue with thin white stripes lmao

26. Have you ever been famous? if you count being in the newspaper bc you won being the "christmas princess" in 1st grade and being interviewed by abc news bc you were in a bus crash in 2nd grade FAMOUS? then, yes, i have been famous before lol

27. Would you like to be a big celebrity? maybe??? i like the idea of it but i don't think i'd be able to handle all the attention and fame-

28. What type of music do you like? in k-pop, only listen to bts and that's literally it, lo-fi, and some gospel sprinkled in there ((yes, i'm just THAT lame))

30. How many pillows do you sleep with? i have one pillow under my head, another pillow right in front of me, and sometimes i sleep with a giant squishmallow bunny lol

31. What position do you usually sleep in? 65% of the time, i sleep like yoongi and the other 35% is me sleeping in a fetal position on the side hugging a giant stuffed animal

32. How big is your house? we only have one main floor, a really creepy crawl space under our house, and an attic. the only way to the attic is through the garage. and no one is allowed up there bc the flooring is so weak, that if anyone walks on it, there is a very high chance that the entire roof will fall through the house :')

33. What do you typically have for breakfast? just cereal. sometimes generic brand oatmeal from walmart or some waffles.

35. Have you ever tried archery? yes, and i was actually pretty good at it, but that many years ago.

36. Favorite clean word? supercalifragilisticexpialidocious.

37. Favorite swear word? fuck.

38. What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep? i think like, about 22 hours...? i was in 3rd grade or 4th grade btw i really don't know how i did it lmao

39. Do you have any scars? no, surprisingly.

40. Have you ever had a secret admirer? no lol

41. Are you a good liar? i am, actually!

42. Are you a good judge of character? yeah, i'd say so.

43. Can you do any other accents other than your own? nope i'm pretty bad at them

44. Do you have a strong accent? no..? i don't think so

45. What is your favorite accent? australian

46. What is your personality type? i'm 80% sure it's intj

47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing? i don't have a damn clue lmFAOO

48. Can you curl your tongue? yep

50. Left or right handed? right handed

51. Are you scared of spiders? the complete opposite for me! i'm the person in the house that people come to, to catch/kill the spiders. the funny thing is, i usually trap them in a cup and sit them on my desk for a solid hour and proceed to research whatever the hell kinda spider it is. then i have to throw it back out into the wild because my mom doesn't like spiders still inside the house. i actually have very little to no fear when it comes to nature or wildlife and that's probably not a good thing lmao

52. Favorite food? steak!

53. Favorite foreign food? tiramisu ((ik it's a dessert but still))

54. Are you a clean or messy person? uh, my room is the definition of organized chaos lmao but crave to plan for just about everything.

55. Most used phrase? i say "that's what she said" whenever i have the opportunity :')

56. Most used word? "what"

57. How long does it take for you to get ready? excluding breakfast, like 10 minutes.

58. Do you have much of an ego? usually no..?

59. Do you suck or bite lollipops? suck, then bite.

60. Do you talk to yourself? being 100% honest, i think the time i've talked to myself is more than the time i've talked to other people irl 🙃

61. Do you sing to yourself? yeah

62. Are you a good singer? with certain songs. i'm either really good, or literally awful, no in between.

63. Biggest Fear? not having enough information/knowledge; failure; the unknown

4. Are you a gossiper? sweet dear jesus NO

65. Best dramatic movie you’ve seen? i haven't seen any really dramatic movies, or none that i can remember..

66. Do you like long or short hair? long hair 215% but my hair takes a painfully long to time to grow lmao

67. Can you name all 50 states of America? just writing them on a piece of paper, no. but if you gave me a blank map of america with the states outlined, i'd probably be able to fill in the state names.

68. Favorite school subject? Science, more specifically, biology.

69. Extrovert or Introvert? Very much an introvert.

70. Have you ever been scuba diving? no

71. What makes you nervous? being screamed at, riding on airplanes, needles, darkness, riding across very long bridges over water and loads more :'))

72. Are you scared of the dark? oh my god yES

73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes? for the most part, yes.

74. Are you ticklish? yes, very, and i'm not telling you where -_- literally everywhere

75. Have you ever started a rumor? no, and i don't have the guts to, either.

76. Have you ever been in a position of authority? not that i can remember..

77. Have you ever drank underage? lmao no

78. Have you ever done drugs? nope

79. Who was your first real crush? none other than ✨min yoongi✨

80. How many piercings do you have? two, one on each ear lobe.

81. Can you roll your Rs? i didn't know what this meant at first so i searched it up and no i don't think i can roll the R's lol ((ik i can learn but it's 12:03 a.m. and i'm not gonna do it rn lmao))

82. How fast can you type? about 50 wpm

83. How fast can you run? fast enough :) but seriously idk how fast, i'd say about how fast a normal person can run lol

84. What color is your hair? brown, but when in the sunlight, i have a lot of red with some blond, but i say brown bc that's mostly what it is lmao

85. What color is your eyes? brown

86. What are you allergic to? amoxicillin. that's literally it.

87. Do you keep a journal? no, i used to tho until my brother kept finding it, so tumblr is my new journal now :)))

88. What do your parents do? my mom works as a server at cracker barrel and my dad works at a car wash ((we don't make a lot of money as you can tell lmao))

89. Do you like your age? yeah a little bit

90. What makes you angry? hate speech, when me or another person is being illogical, when i'm ignored or talked over

91. Do you like your own name? yep, mostly because i have the nickname "maddie"

92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they? not really, but i decided that if i have triplet girls, that i will name them April, May, and June lmaoo

93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child? i don't really mind, but having a couple sons sounds nice-

94. What are your strengths? i'm polite for the most part~ i'm pretty good at multitasking and organizing. i'm also decently creative too.

95. What are your weaknesses? i can get impatient really quickly when people don't understand or aren't as efficient as me. i can also be quite pessimistic.

96. How did you get your name? my parents liked the meaning of madison (gift from God) and they thought the nickname that came with it (maddie) was cute.

97. Were your ancestors royalty? no, they just were a bunch of unstable murderous psychopaths on both sides of my family lmao

98. Do you have any scars? surprisingly no?????? i'm very clumsy so idk how i haven't gotten any scars yet-

99. Color of your bedspread? pale blue

100. Color of your room? just plain white

[joonie-beanie]

(1) I've been crying a lot, and i really need advice.. I've met this guy, super cute, beautiful, my type, but he's pretty disrespectful. He constantly keeps asking for nudes, and doesn't stop when i say no. He keeps talking about sexual things, and it makes me super uncomfortable because I'm younger than him, and still a virgin. He manipulates me into doing stuff.. he tells me that if i won't send nudes, he won't visit me the next day and stuff like that.

(2)I haven't met him in real life, but I've talked to him a few times.He always tells me he isn't after sex, and that he isn't a fuckboy, but it's so hard to not believe that.I've told him that i want to be friends with him before i commit to a relationship, because i have pretty bad commitment issues, and I don't warm up easily to people. He literally changed my name on every social media to "friend" and claims that i friendzoned him. But he's promised to change now, should i give him a chance?

Firstly, let me say that my response to this--my advice--is my opinion, and it’s not the final say on what you should do, but I will give you my honest opinion on what I think ok?

If a person you’re interested in isn’t willing to be friends, isn’t willing to be patient, isn’t willing to understand your feelings, isn’t willing to listen to you when you tell them to stop--then I don’t think you should be with them.

Should you perhaps try to be friends? Yeah, why not. But if he’s not willing to respect your boundaries, and keeps trying to manipulate you and bully you into doing things, then he doesn’t seem like a healthy person in your life--no matter how ideal he is to your type.

You deserve respect and understanding from a person you’re interested in, and if you want to start as friends, and don’t want to rush into things, and he’s not willing to do that and keeps acting like a pouty kid trying to get his way (bc no offense but him acting like you ‘friend-zoned’ him is fucking ridiculous), then I wouldn’t continue to pursue him.

Honestly, friends, bf/gf, partners, husband/wife--anything. If you’re not getting a basic level of respect out of that relationship, and that person is being manipulative and making you feel bad for sticking to your opinion and standing your own ground--then that’s not right. Bottom line.