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No one's licking the boots of everything. Some people just don't like being called slurs because they don't like being called slurs. My decision to not be called queer isn't to appease any allocishet because I know i'm not gonna appease them anyways. I'm a gnc lesbian who's overweight and not conventionally attractive, i'm not gonna fit in anytime soon. My decision is wholly personal, and you denying that myself and others have agency in that opinion is not only homophobic, but inconsiderate, untrue, and childish. There are a lot of things about me that aren't normal; my looks, my neurodivergency, my interests, the way I talk, etc. Being gay is normal. And frankly, you taking my (and millions of other people's) lack of being queer as a personal attack is hilarious.
I'm not queer because that word doesn't fit me, it's derogatory TO ME, and frankly there's too much wiggle room for people to assume i'm attracted to men. And I'm not. And I'm only going to say this once: I DON'T CARE IF YOU CALL YOURSELF QUEER. JUST LEAVE ME OUT OF IT.
P.S: learn what the difference between a slur and an insult is because Jew and autistic were used as insults but they're not slurs. Same with gay and lesbian.
Hot take: One of the things at the root of the "q is a slur" discourse is that exclusionists base their activism on expanding the definition of "normal", while inclusionist activism is about destroying the concept of "normal".
I mean of course everyone knows the issue is not queer being a reclaimed slur, gay and lesbian are reclaimed slurs too and no one has any problem with that. Exclusionists single out the word queer because of what it stands for. Because it is ambiguous and inclusive, yes, but also because it says "not normal", it embraces deviating, openly defying normativity, being different.
I've seen "q is a slur" people say that they are specifically against that word because they don't want to be seen as strange, because their fight is about being accepted as "normal". I've had an aphobe tell me people saying "demisexual means normal" is a privilege because actually oppressed people want to be seen as "normal" and me wanting my identity to be acknowledged is oppression fantasy. Apparently to them normalcy is so important that having your identity erased is a good thing.
Queer people are oppressed because the world doesn't see us as normal, and to exclusionists the solution is expanding the box of normalcy to fit themselves into it. To them that's what Really Oppressed people should do, and those of us who embrace queerness are privileged because we want to call ourselves "freaks". To them any identity that is ambiguous or out of the ordinary, be it microlabels, neopronouns, xenogenders, aspec labels, m-spec labels or anything else is too weird and "makes the community look bad", because their activism hinges on allocishet acceptance and anything that doesn't fit in a box and cannot be defined easily is not oppressed enough for their taste.
Tl;dr: the "q is a slur" discourse and obsession with normal is just licking the boots of conformity and exclusionist activism is about fitting into the "normal" of the cisheteronormative world, while inclusionist activism entails defying the oppressive construct of "normal". Thank you for coming to my Ted talk.
Exclusionists dni, as always :D
#also i'm not an exclusionist because#A. i think asexual people are valid and belong in the community#b. exclusionist is such a wide definition that you could be talking about multiple things#q slur crusaders understand that not every decision that goes against your morals is about appeasing bigots challenge (impossible)#for people who tell others to go all open season on labels#y'all sure do like forcing queer on people who don't want to be called that#and implying that queer is the only good label that everyone should use#therefore guilting people and calling your own community members bootlickers when they don't conform to your (ironically) strict ideas of#what makes someone lgbt+#i've never seen someone who doesn't like saying queer force their opinion on other people#but you and plenty others throw temper tantrums when people don't want to reclaim a slur#the concept of hey don't call other people words they don't want to be called is a concept from KINDERGARDEN#and y'all can't get past that#grow up and leave people alone#inclusion#queer discourse
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✨❤️ Faith and Max | [ 🔍 AU ] ❤️✨
In my heart, I have but one desire And that one is you No other will do
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#happy 3 year anniversary to faith and max!! and to those who celebrate lmao#I can't believe how much drawing and sharing my art of these goobers have changed my life in such a massive way#how many of y'all that are so dear to me have I only had the honor of getting to know because I decided to post these guys together one day#I wouldn't have made all the friends I did since. I wouldn't have kept creating or sharing all the things I have since#if it weren't for them none of y'all would know me#I'm just so unbelievably grateful for how much my life has improved and how much happier I've become these past 3 years#and how much they've played a massive part in it#and ofc all of you. my closest besties especially. thank you for being so goddamn kind and supportive constantly#it means the world to me. it helps me and motivates me and inspires me so much more than y'all will ever know#and I can never thank y'all enough for that#I know this is all meant to be silly and fun to celebrate the very first time I drew them together#but it's just as much a way for me to celebrate just how much has saved me since#and show my appreciation to all the wonderful things in my life worth loving and living for#my art#faith and max#oc x canon#the outer worlds#captain of the unreliable#vicar max#maximillian desoto
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#it's me i'm the wind blowing#y'all things are a little more complicated when it comes to these two#(sits down and takes a sip from my dark blue coffee mug)#(thinks: i wish i had springtrap coffee mug)#so...#both of them have difficult pasts#both are parents trying their best on raising their children#THE THING IS#one can't let herself get too attached#while the other is still afraid all humans are the same#but at the same time. they just want to find peace and happiness#and they've found it at home#they found happiness living those very brief and mundane moments#like waking up every morning#having breakfast next to people that make you smile#making your way to school/work and seeing sunlight pass through the trees#and going home after a tough day and there are rain clouds approaching. you just know you're going to sleep well at night#this is how they heal. and in the mean time. let themselves open up to each other#I have a feeling this is gonna be a slow burn kinda thing#COUGHING REALLY HARD#ENDING THIS RIGHT HERE OKAY BYE#starbstalks#springdad au
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Big TW for pet loss
Hey, clangen tumblr and those who just enjoy the silly cats on this blog. I know it's been a little bit of time since my last update, but unfortunately during the past few months, I have been caring for my closest friend, Comet.
She's been my best friend for 15 whole years, and on February 9th of 2024, I'm sad to say that she has passed. I won't lie when I say that this is one of the hardest posts I've ever made, but I want to continue this blog in her honor. Normally, I have a terrible habit of just letting projects like this slip by me and gather dust; however Comet was meant to play an integral part within the blog to immortalize her, and I refuse to let something meant just for her to go to waste.
I want to thank you all first of all for being such an amazing community. I've genuinely had so much joy come of this blog, and it pains me that I let it go stagnant for as long as I have. There are 568 of you now, which is so extremely wild to me; but I hope that from now on, you can all love Comet as much as I did, even if as a memory.
I hope to return to posting content both here and on my main, @mxssacre , but for now I still need time to grieve and come to terms with the loss of someone that was so incredibly intertwined with everything I've done since I was 9 years old.
Thank you for everything Comet, my heart, my soul, my love.
More of my favorite photos of her beneath the cut.
It's hard to choose favorites out of the thousands of photos I've taken of her over the years, but I hope these do her justice to show what an amazing being she was. I hope you're hunting your toy mice in the stars, Comet.
#Yeah this is a not so great post I'm sorry#I won't lie to y'all I've been sobbing my eyes out for the past week but it's helping me come to terms to write about her#I wanted to draw something for her in order to post this but ngl I just can't right now#I will be okay for the record. it's just an extremely difficult adjustment for me and I really do love this community#Seriously though. I've seen the hundreds of notifications I get from this blog weekly. I cannot thank you enough for the love I've felt#tw animal death#tw pet death#tw pet loss#I'm not sure exactly how to tag this but I hope the warning at the beginning helps#I literally finished writing a memorial for her before writing this post so clearly I'm a little in my feels lmao#I tried finding some of her sillier photos to add but there are so many. I might post more on my main later when I try figuring out-#-my memorial tattoo#hug your cats extra tight for me ❤
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also while we're here i would like to share the two iterations of tumblr user gorespawn that have existed since i abandoned this blog back in like early 2021. Who wants me
#i grew my hair out so i could twirl my hair while giggling about bald men#and also t.o.p of bigbang#and short men i see at the grocery store who honestly make me feel light-headed with raw and unbridled Want#but that's just a joke. i am. Lesbian#''no ur not'' I AM#anyway i used to be so ripped and hunky but now i am frail and sickly#what getting a job can do to a mf#thankfully i quit my job last week YIPPIIIEEEEEEE so now i will work towards becoming an absolute hunk again#wish me luck#ALSO#if anyone is obsessed with me and remembers all my lore i used to be transgender and i still am like lowkey on the down low#but in a new exciting way#anyway i used to be a gay man and then a stone butch dyke (as seen above) but now im practicing being a girl#it is very difficult but it is also fun. ive never been a girl before so it's a lot#anyway i bought two super cool sexy dresses yesterday for the first time ever in my life#sexy dresses meaning up to my neck and down to my feet and past my elbows. kind of like a wardrobe straight out of the handmaid's tale#from (to quote my friend) ''*The* old lady store'' thanks man. well i think theyre pretty and its v exciting bc ive never been a girl befor#anyway#who wants me#i still use the name emil online btw and i honestly always will i think it's just so me and also i do still answer to he/him dw#in a man way not in a he/him lesbian way#''he's LGBTQA+'' what. all at once?#yes.#i have mastered them all i have collected all the genders and all the sexualities and ive never been ''wrong''#it just keeps switching. which is fine. well im a girl now. in a detransitioning man way. who is insanely attracted to men#but you will have to tear this lesbian label out of my cold dead hands#''you can't call urself lesbian if u have sex w men'' well first of all fuck you and second of all i am celibate so you dont need to worry#''what the hell are you talking about'' nothing. now look how hot i am#im just joking around i hope that's fine w y'all
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me: oh i totally get it if some folks dont jive with same coin theory, plus it's strange to conceptualise at first--
me when i see people call it lame:
#is it any more lame than bill just becoming a bird after a decade of waiting#they dont understand the poetry of bill creating his own end in the form of someone he despises yet gets everything he wanted!!!#sounds like 'i didnt know about the axolotl poem and was oblivious to the bill reincarnation for the past 8 years' talk!#y'all need to appreciate a good ol bootstrap paradox!!! love me some time shenanigans!#also the funniest thing i've seen when folks were denying same coin theory was#'oh that's a paradox so that clearly can't happen!!!!'#as if both time travel eps arent entirely bootstrap paradoxes that literally points the paradox out#and the fact that soos and stan met is one too!!!#...which then makes any canon divergent aus where dipper and mabel dont make it to that ep have the timeline fall apart lol#but everyone forgets about that so whatever!!!#....yes i have beef with the inconsistencies of time travel in the eps but whatever#..........if the kids replace themselves when time travelling then what about the baby versions in 2002--#could you imagine time travellers pig with a billion time duplicates of the kids tho lmao#my point is a paradox brought this family together canonically#defying time and space and lifetimes and trauma theyre all silly goobers together!!!#anyway here's me grumbling cos it was a plot thread left out for years that we were meant to discuss/think about#too bad we didnt expect the 'bill is too busy in theraprison to get reincarnated rn' twist
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One thing I don't think is talked enough about when it comes to a lot of the antagonist in the series, it's how a lot of them tend to dehumanize/see the demigods as much lesser than.
Not to say the gods don't, but not in the same way the antagonist do I feel like.
Khione(and her brothers) I think is one the most obvious examples to this, freezing and keeping the demigods as living statues is literally discussed hdgdg
Even with Midas, he literally keeps living golden statutes including his own daughter.
At least one of the Giants brings up keeping one of the demigods after they win iirc.
Being seen more like a possession or piece on a board is very common throughout the series. It's definitely obvious with Jason, who's seen as Juno's and Rome's. In a way both Jason and Leo are treated like attack dogs to both Hera and Gaea, it's just Jason's the one Hera could get to heel.
Yet Hera still let's them make connections and walk freely. And she cares enough to grieve when Jason dies. I mean the bar is in Tarturus at this point but hsgdg
Idk. Something is just a lot more unsettling with how the antagonist(like the giants and Khione) talk about the demigods. I think it because they pretty much are claiming demigods like war prises. Which goes back around to something I'm pretty sure I've mentioned before, but the comparison between old versus new. Because, yeah, the gods still stuck in many places, but there's certain aspects most of them had changed in.
For all the demigods that exist, most of them came from genuine connection between the god and mortal parent. There's multiple examples of gods even returning to have another kid with said mortal parent. Many gods seem to think fondly of the mortals they've been with(Aphrodite is outright concerned for Piper's father mental health if he found out about her. )
Not to say that didn't happen in the classics, but there seems to be more of that. Though could be because Rick didn't want to have anything too close to the other subjects in the books. But then he also has antagonist talk about keeping demigods in collections and literally human trafficking so gdgdg
But yeah, there seems to be less kids sired from less then healthy situations. And that also could be because Rick just didn't want to make modern versions of stuff like Achilles' orgins where Zeus had a guy wrestle Thetis down and marry her so her son wouldn't be too powerful. Or any of Zeus' children's origins really.
But the gods tend to have closer connections to mortals and demigods, both hades and Poseidon offer solace in their home to mortal lovers, and don't force it when they decline. Their interactions with mortals/ demigods are down to earth, they only appear to them in full form on Olympus with the other gods or in their realms.
The exception is probably Zeus, who hardly ever comes down from Olympus to talk to anyone.
But he's Zeus, so.
The antagonist however very much address the demigods in a way less down to earth. Making it much more known how powerful they are. Anytime they meet Khione outside her father's place? She's showing off her powers.
The Titans are always large, towering over the demigods. Kronos cares so little about demigods he doesn't even bat an eye when he knocks over his own off the bridge in tlo.
And as I mentioned, many times is idea of keeping demigods as war prises brought up. And that's not new in relation to Greek classics.
The Trojan War was a whole mess of taking women as war prises. Not just Helen being kidnapped but Chryseis,Briseis,Andromache-(honestly, any woman Agamemnon interacted with oh my gods-)
Even men were taken as slaves. It was a normality in war(at least Trojan War wise). If you weren't killed you were taken. Change is important point in each book, how much modern times views being a hero and finding yourself differ from before. How they can mend broken ties and be better then those before them. How they fight for others rather then themselves and pride.
Why the worst antagonist often fight for power, they manipulate and take. They want to be at the top of the world, to be noticed/worshipped. And they do anything to get there.
They see the war as gloryful and a way to reach the top. The demigods see it as trying to live another day. To protect those around them, even desperately trying to save others on the other side.
Idk why, just the whole thing interest me. I think it's also fun idea to explore in a sense.i mean I'm sure there's plenty of Kronos/Giants wins aus, but something about delving into the way that'll effect the survivors intriguing to me.
I think it kinda can be used as a metaphor? At least being looked down on. Feeling like you're being told to dance and entertain sometimes comes with being Neurodivergent. I mean heck, Jason is a walking example of learning to mask so hard you forget who you were underneath. Being dehumanized by those around you.
So something about the heroes fighting help others belong why the villains fight to possess and control everything to their liking feels about right for a series focused on those with disabilities
#mine#pjo#percy jackon and the olympians#percy jackson and the olympians#pain rambles#pjo hoo toa#pjo analysis#Titans pjo#pjo kronos#pjo gaea#khione#ngl i don't know if any of this makes sense#i started this at like 9 something#it is now past 12 am#i hope this makes sense#anyone who's read my g/t fics know how i like to play around with stuff like this#i think my experiences has a lot to do with it#but that's a self reflection thing for me to think about not y'all vdgd#also.#my beef with Agamemnon will always be bigger then my beef with Achilles#how many dang concubines did this man have?#CASSANDRA???#I KNOW SHE WAS CURSED BY APOLLO BUT DID YOU LEARN NOTHING ABOUT TAKING THOSE CONNECTED TO HIM???#and she gets killed too 😭 gods bless her she can't catch a break
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Starting to slowly realise I'm really not doing well mentally and it's. concerning. I feel like I should take a break from tumblr bc it takes some of what little energy I have but it's also my source of joy with friends so idk what to do, like I'd miss y'all more than I'd feel good about being away. But if you notice me talking less/not responding in days it's bc I just cannot. I leave your message notifs up so I don't forget tho <3
#Personal#Feeling dreadful bc so many friends have shared with me things they wrote that I SO GENUINELY AM EXCITED TO READ#I've just had literally no time nor energy for ANYTHING I enjoy in like a month#And I'm also literally not sleeping. I'm either not sleeping or I have recurring nightmares that wake me up. It's god-awful#Therapy isn't helping either cause atp I already know everything they're advising me about it's just not working#Nothing's changed either which ofc makes me feel worse. No meds changed no habits changed nothing crazy happened#I'm just suddenly worse than I've been in years which is Not Good#I feel awful for not being able to read my friends' things if I could let y'all see my mind you'd know I want to read what you write so bad#I just can't right now. I'm sorry#Not to mention work and school have been especially more demanding recently and I literally get home after 8 every single night#Don't even eat dinner til past 10pm#Doing hw until 3am etc etc#It's like high-school all over again but I'm an adult with more responsibilities than ever
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Srry I'm inactive for a bit, staying at my sister's place for a few days.
Afterwards I'll be wandering around town for a spell, couch surfing, seeing if there're any opportunities to get my life in order again before returning to my trash heap tent. Desperately needed a break from being out there because I've been severely anxious and depressed lately lol. It's fkin wonderful to eat & shower every day and be in air conditioning instead of 110⁰ heat so I'm really appreciating it while it lasts. Grateful to spend some time with my sis :')
Hope everyone's doing okay🙏miss y'all. Sending you cozy sunshiney vibes and a nice cool glass of water. Feel free to tag me in anything
#💬 beskar.txt#nomad tales#has been so great to cuddle with my feline neice & nephews#might try to get to a neighboring county soon to visit my mom#idk...kinda just going where the wind takes me right now haha#really haven't been feeling well physically so I'm trying to take advantage of having a safe place to sleep#can't sleep more than 2hrs at a time in the tent (bugs/rain/nightmares/listening for people) & can't stay in past sunrise cos of the heat#so hope being able to snooze more / eat more than a pack of ramen a day will fix some of it#Bo is of course alongside me for the journey#dunno how he puts up with me sometimes lol#always feel better knowing he's there💚my eternal companion through all the craziness#take care y'all
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coming back the next day to my blog terrified of reactions and yea I worry this will get swept under the rug and be made into a non issue
#the problem isn't even dnp at all at this point it's the way fan spaces are so happy to turn a blind eye#bc they know we'll tire out and leave eventually and they'll never have to think about their own behaviour#like y'all have driven people out this way already but we see when it matters and when it doesn't#this isn't about people posting about other stuff or about tour tickets or anything btw v happy for you guys! /gen#more about people who refuse to acknowledge that there's a racism problem in the FANDOM#and congratulate themselves on simply not engaging with poc when they speak up for your own personal comfort#that's the privilege at work again we see when we are just a 'distraction' to you btw#literally the fact that poc fans taking the time and energy and hate and triggers to talk about this instead of abandoning cause#shows that no one's trying to call dnp racist but that doesn't stop from particular remarks and behaviours in the past being racist#i don't think it's a huge ask to acknowledge that the fans around have been trying to get us to shut up and sit down#and been condescending when we didn't#it's not a big ask to acknowledge that your spaces have these microagressions#ik you wouldn't just pass it off as 'keep safe frol discourse' if a buncha people had been homophobic in here#just think a little man no one's saying you can't also enjoy the tour and other stuff while acknowledging racism#again. genuinely happy for everyone who's going to the tour and excited to see more about what they do there#hope this issue also stops being treated like radioactive waste tho
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I don't know how or when or why it will happen, but I feel like my time on the Internet, and what eventually morphed into social media, is coming to an end. I'm pretty disenchanted and disenfranchised and I feel like I'm waiting for the last straw to fall.
And this isn't like, ooh I should take a break, this is ohh this is going to get worse with or without me maybe I should swim for shore?
I guess I should find replacements. Read more books. Just be ready for the final disappointment. The degradation point of no return.
#Still here for the minute but#This can't last#I forsee a lot of sites shutting down after grinding our works into paste for regurgitation#There's too many forces against us#And tbh as cool as a lot of y'all are some of you do too much random psychic damage#I'm pretty done studying people I think I get it#Absolutely exhausting#But yeah the financers of these sites are going through a pinch and they're going to call rent#Legislators are going to shut down apps that steal our information in favor for other apps that steal our information#We're going to have to upload our IDs to look at cat memes in the near future which will get stolen by a security breach eventually#At what point do I say no more?
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Finally finished Louie's introduction that I started here. All that's left now is Pom's section and then I'll post all three (four?) scenes together as one chapter! If you haven't seen the previous part, I definitely recommend checking it out for context.
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Louie’s in a haze for the rest of the day. He packs, makes his call to his grandma, and picks up a coffee and a pikpik carrot muffin at the coffee shop that got him through high school. He hasn’t had time to stop by in almost a year, now. He leaves a generous tip.
The moments in-between are spotty. He’s not sure if hours or days have passed before he’s back at Hocotate Freight’s headquarters.
“Excuse me,” a tired voice says, snapping him back to the moment. He turns, now-cooled coffee halfway to his mouth, to see a woman standing behind him. She’s short and older than him, though he can’t tell by how much, given how recent the wrinkles and gray hairs must be.
They’ve never met in person, but he’s seen pictures. Even if he’s not good with faces, he knows this is Olimar’s wife.
“You’re Louie, aren’t you?” Unsure of how to respond, he just nods. “I see… I, well… I’m not sure how to say this.” She laughs halfheartedly. “You know, Olimar always talked about how he wanted to invite you for dinner. I can see why! You’re far too skinny for a boy your age!”
He looks down, then back up to her. “That’s what my grandma says too. Mostly because I eat too much.” For some reason he could eat and eat and never gain any weight. It probably had something to do with him being an outbreed. Nana always said full-blooded Hocotations had to be short and stout: short because all their food was either close to or under the ground, and stout to store extra water and nutrients for later. Louie had just gotten the short end of the genetic stick by inheriting traits that made him stand out.
Either way, his joke gets a full peal of laughter out of her. By the time she composes herself she’s out of breath and there are tears in her eyes. After a moment she sighs, wiping the tears from her eyes. “I see why my husband liked working with you,” she muses, wilting a little at the mention of Olimar. “I heard they were sending you to the planet The Transmission originated from. I… I have to be honest… I’m not sure what I want you to find when you get there.”
Louie’s eyes widen. She continues, swallowing down some nervousness before she gets to what’s been stuck in the back of his mind all day. “The speaker in The Transmission wasn’t my husband.”
“I know.”
Her jaw drops. Olimar’s wife looks at him with something like joy and disbelief. “You already know. That… makes this much easier to say, then.” She clears her throat. “As much as I want you to find my husband and bring him home… I don’t want anyone else to get hurt while searching for him. I… I know that he wouldn’t want that either.” She sniffles, dabbing at her face with her sleeve. It’s making Louie want to run away more and more with every passing second. “That’s all I had to say. Please be careful when you’re out there.”
He gives one last nod before turning to leave. He heads straight to his ship from there. He doesn’t see the President or any of his coworkers before he takes off toward the mysterious planet, so Olimar’s wife’s words are all he can think of as he flies toward the stars.
He’s not taking any risks when he gets to that planet.
#I have a lot of thought's about Olimar's wife and how she's characterized in-game. If you can't tell. Maybe I'll elaborate someday#I also have many thoughts about the differences in species we seen in the pikmin games so casually inserting my headcannons here#gosh y'all have no idea how excited I am for getting past the 'Louie realizes he's in a horror game' section and into the 'Louie decides#he's going to live his best life anyway and be a jerk to anyone who's in his way of that' section. I think it'll be fun.#pikmin#pikmin au#pikmin fanfic#louie pikmin#four riders au
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#I'm not sober so forgive me for ranting about this it's your fault for reading my tags anyway lol but anyway#it's so frustrating how hard it is to relate to people in a culturally Christian society where everyone feels like#they fundamentally Deserve divine paradise by nature and were screwed out of it by past generations' sins and Wanting Things is actually#is a normal and good state of mind that will inevitably unequivocally be resolved if not in an explicitly religiously rapturous sense#then in like a 'reform/revolution well bring us to utopia' sense#and the notion that not being given that is a Problem With Existence™ to be Solved#never realizing that wanting things in an existence that can and will never grant them all is the problem you need to accept can't and won't#ever be solved#and idk the nature of tag syntax is that my train of thought has long since derailed but I'm tired of having conversations invariably lead#lead to like 'sure i get where you're coming from from a Higher Logical Ideology but i could never fundamentally accept it'#about shit that i don't don't as higher logical endpoints but start with as fundamental premises#like i don't be like '... ... ... and so death is inevitable' but rather 'death is the inseparable shadow of life and so ... ...'#but i can't have a fucking conversation without walking on the eggshells of them being like sO mE aNd OuR fRiEnDs DeSeRvE tO dIE?????'#as if anyone deserving anything for better or for worse is anything but a red herring that derails from what we're actually getting#and id fucking k y'all the suns coming up and i took an extra shift today and my brain is soup if this is bad then again ig u should'nt've#read my tags lmao so yeah good night
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currently thinking about how, since bunny mask's head / sort of by extension her neck ( yeahhh, i'd say that, because she is NOT immune to decapitation ) are basically her achilles heel in the way that they heal muchhh slower than the rest of her body does + there have even been times where she didn't heal properly at all in those areas... that most of the scars bunny has are concentrated around there.
thus, if your muse is intimate with her in any way, then they'll most certainly be seeing those on her skin and i just 😭 it kind of hits me RIGHT in the feels — and i say this because there has to be a lot of trust there for bunny to feel safe enough to expose what is literally the most vulnerable spot of her body to them, you know? so yeah. that is one surefire way of knowing that bunny mask trusts your muse with her life ❤️
#SOMETHING FEELS AMISS: musings.#LET ME TEACH YOU: headcanons.#I AM HERE BECAUSE I AM BUNNY MASK: headcanons.#yeah... i know this is the first real headcanon i've posted about bunny in a while SO i wanted to make it sort of angsty as well as sweet-#because y'all deserve more of that kind of content IMO haha (': but anywhozies this just sort of came to me a little bit ago because-#i was thinking about the deeper implications behind bunny having a relationship with tyler with her having a 'weak spot' there-#and her not altogether distrusting the entirety of humanity BUT also trying not to get her hopes up all of the time that people will do-#the right thing if that makes any sense just because people can be so... full of darkness.#but i think that bunny had latched onto tyler rather quickly due to the fact that she quite literally had NO one else in her life when she-#was set free and well... she had been deprived of human interaction for literally millennia + because bunny feeds by sharing energy with-#humans through a physical connection i think her attraction to him might've been partially attributed to her needing-#to take care of herself in this way you know? but bunny also just genuinely likes tyler and he seems to genuinely like her as well-#but the problem with tyler is that he can't fully accept bunny mask as she is no matter how hard he tries unfortunately.#and thus that's why they're kind of in this odd spot of being 'on-and-off' lovers but bunny would literally KILL for the man NGL#anyhow though i'm just thinking about the possibility that these scars on her head / neck are sensitive as well because that part of her-#body sees so little 'human touch' i guess you could say due to her protecting it and bunny just. maybeee experiencing-#something that could be the equivalent to sensory overload bc of that if her partner were to touch them but not quite-#at the same time#tw: scars#tw: mentions of past injuries.
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justice for rio vidal
#you can't have it both ways you can't have it where she's insane and toxic and on a power trip#and have her so soft and so hurt and so kind to agatha#and nicky#and alice#also this means her being weird and goofy was like#supposed to code her as like insane and a maniac#which is just. boring character stuff#i really shouldn't have trusted or gotten my hopes up#just bc the fight was fun doesn't mean it was in character#the rio i know would not have. Any of that#also like. i get why she wanted billy and tommy man#i don’t think that makes her a villain#i will be ignoring this ending and reading fix it fic#also bury your gays . CMON#i thought we got past that after fucking voltron#aaa spoilers#aaa#agatha all along#agatha all along spoilers#rio vidal#my thoughts are y'all's problem now
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Okay okay
#I'm okay#definitely not great#but I'm one hell of a lot better than early#the desire to start cutting myself is gone now#kinda ironic it came back on the day of four months#i just#i can't i /can't/ isolate myself when I'm like this#and i was doing that and spiralling downward#i ended up talking w my coworkers that I'm friendly with a lot the last couple hours#and I'm okay again#at least for now#plus i have my date w my friend tmw#we're gna watch nightmare before Christmas which i haven't seen before#honestly i couldn't rly care less about the movie itself i just appreciate their company a lot#I'm going to keep getting better#ya know something that's crazy to me is that people just like me as i am now#every relationship (friends family past lovers) had been people that only really liked me for what i could Do for them#it's such a nice change of pace#so thank you to those who showed me that that's a possibility for me#especially Raine and Gabi as y'all were the Very First people to show me that#i love y'all#i love All my friends so much
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