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Yandere!UnknownMonsterXHumanGNFatReader
SFW
CW: stalking, yandere, obsession, fear, controlling obsession.
Repost of one of my incomplete monstober posts.
You dropped a crumpled wad of bills on the counter as the clerk eyed your driver’s license suspiciously. You cursed your own laziness at forgetting to change the age. You definitely could not pass for 49. You hadn’t been as thorough after your last place fell through.
The clerks eyes drifted from the ID to the too much money you’d dropped on the counter. You stepped away to pick up your luggage, making it clear you weren’t asking for change. The clerk squinted at you one more time before handing back your ID. He deftly made the money disappear, and a worn key with a motel keychain replaced it.
You nodded once, your mutual understanding a silent one. You had chosen this motel for exactly that reason. They were known for not looking too closely.
You made your way down the broken pavement from the main office back to your beat up Subaru. You didn’t even know what model it was. It had been cheap, and so far hadn’t broken down in over 3000 kms. Thats really all you could ask for.
You followed the tacky printed map the clerk had given you to the section you’d be staying in. It was one of those middle of nowhere, off the highway, motel “resorts”. The kind that boasted “cabins” but meant “run down, one room shacks”.
The outer screen door screeched as you pulled it open. You rolled your eyes. The shack was exactly what you expected; filthy, plain and dated. You didn’t care. It was just one more stop on your chaotic escape to nowhere.
You didn’t bother unpacking your bags. A lukewarm shower and a solid bed to sleep in would be enough. The mattress was hard when you tried to fall asleep that night.
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You awoke, several hours later. The red, white and yellow of the motel sign flickered through slat blinds. You were cozy in your blankets and you drifted in and out drowsily. You wondered why you couldn’t seem to fully fall back asleep.
The air seemed to be sucked from the room as you woke fully and realized you weren’t alone. You still didn’t stir. You tried to even your breathing, but there was no point.
“Must we play this game, my love?” A deep, smooth voice spoke from nearby. You didn’t respond. “This place is filthy. Wouldn’t you rather come home with me, dove?”
Your skin crawled. Home
As if you shared one. He spoke like you were old lovers having a minor quarrel.
He sighed and you heard a step. He had moved closer.
“I’m getting tired of this. I’ve told you it’s useless to run.” The creature spoke softly, alluringly. Oh how easy it would be to give in. To give up.
“I will beat you.” You muttered from the bed. A human likely wouldn’t have been able to hear you. But he could. You knew he could.
He tsked and reached an arm forward. Your hair stood on end. You felt fluttering fingertips and just the slightest bite of claw down the side of your face. You still squeezed your eyes shut.
“It’s not a competition, dove.” He answered. Then you felt him lean down, lean close. His voice came from just above your face. “And if it was, it still wouldn’t be. You will never escape. I will always find you.” Danger filled his words. They teetered between a promise and a threat. “It doesn’t matter what you do, how far you run, how good of a job you do at erasing yourself. All I need is the barest trace. One single whisper of your scent on the air.” He took in a shuddering breath at the mention of your scent. “I. Will. Always. Find. You.” He growled the last words, punctuating each one.
He leaned forward and crushed your lips under his. It was passionate and desperate. His hand, claws, whatever, gripped both sides of your face and held you to him. Your eyes flew open and you were met with him, the creature. His face haunted your every moment, and here it was, pressed against yours.
Finally he pulled away and stared into your eyes. You could just barely make his out in the dim light. A fire blazed behind his horizontal pupils.
“You’re my mate. You’re mine.”
#cnc stalking#stalker bf#stalking fantasy#stalker kink#stalker yandere#yandere x you#yandere x reader#obsessive yandere#yande.re#yandere monster#yandere#monster kink#monster x human#monster x reader#monster k!nk#terat0philliac#teratophillia#terato#chubby!reader#chubby reader#chubby#fat nsft#fat body#fat reader#plus size reader#fear k!nk#fear kink#obsessive love#tw stalking#remiratboi
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Not Now
Pairing: dom!chris x fem!reader
Summary: You and Chris are together, but it doesn't really feel like it. Sure you two spend time together, and yeah you guys do sexual things with each other, but every time you do, it feels off. Like you guys aren't connecting as well as you could be.
Warnings: cursing, and angst
a/n: Based on this ask. I don't want anyone to copy my work or use it as "inspiration." Dividers by @issysh3ll.
As you start getting ready to see Chris, your boyfriend that you've been seeing for a few months now, your phone starts to ring. You pick up your phone to see Chris calling. You pick up the phone, even though you hate calling people. You preferred to text, and he did too. You both knew that about each other.
"Hey Chris whats up?" You say, putting the call on speaker and applying blush to your face.
"Hey baby, you coming over?" He says, and you hear shuffling on the other side. You get chills at the nickname. It always felt off when he called you baby.
"Yeah, I'm getting ready now." You say, putting down the blush and picking up your tube of mascara.
"Okay, can't wait to see you. Love you." He says. You grimace as he talks.
"Love you too." You say, sounding genuine. You didn't mean to sound like that, so sweet, just to trick him.
"Bye baby." He says, hanging up. You continue to get ready, changing your clothes and putting your shoes on. You grab your keys, purse, and a light coat since it was a bit cold outside, and you leave the house. You get into your car and start to drive to his place.
When you get there, you open the door with the key Chris gave you and you go to his room. You find him layed out on the bed scrolling on his phone. You hated when he would just lay there, not even paying you any attention.
"Chris?" You call his name, but no response. You go over to him and snatch his phone out of his hand.
"Hey!" He says, throwing his hands in the air, "What was that for?" He gets up off the bed, now towering over you. You stare up at him. He knew you hated when he was on his phone like that. You hate it when he's lazy. But something about him now was just not like him at all.
He was mad. For something so silly. But he didn't care. It was a way for him to get all of his feelings off his chest. He knew you were acting different. He felt it. He didn't feel good enough for you, but he was still with you because he loves you. His feelings were genuine, and he didn't want to get his heart broken.
You stare into his eyes, looking for that sweet look that you always saw in them, but it was gone. It was replaced by hurt and anger. That sweet look always gave you comfort, but now that it was gone, you felt alone with someone you didn't even know.
"Chris, we really need to talk." You tell him.
"Yeah, seems like we really do, considering you just snatched my phone from me. You never do that, even if you hate the way I was just scrolling. Are you mad at me?" He said.
"You know what? Yeah I am mad at you. You just piss me the fuck off and just stop with the pet names, okay?"
"Okay, what has been going on with you? You love the pet names." He says, looking confused.
"Yeah I used to, but not anymore." You tell him.
"What the fuck does that mean?" He yells. He had never raised his voice at you, or anyone really. You look at him with a shocked expression.
"Fuck you." You says and you walk away, slamming his door. He wonders why you looked so hurt, when it hits him. Your ex was really mean and loud. He would always boss you around and control you. You was never aloud to go see your friends or even family, and when you did, his toxic ex would scream at you for it. One day, you decided to end things with him, but he wouldn't let you leave. He would always stalk you, and try and talk to you, until Chris saved you. Chris promised you that he would never yell at you the way he did.
At this realization, he goes to find you sitting down in the living room. There are tears in your eyes, threatening to spill. As you see him enter the room, the tears fall from your eyes, dripping down your face.
"Hey.. I'm so sorry I didn't mean to raise my voice at you." He starts, "It's just that I don't know why you want me to stop with the pet names. Do you find them corny or something?" He asks you.
"Chris, it's not about the pet names. I feel like we have been acting more as friends then as a couple. We could be doing so much better in our relationship, but we aren't." You explain, the tears still rolling down your face.
"So, is this it? Are you breaking up with me? You don't get to blame this all on me. You've been acting like a real bitch lately." He asks, his voice quavering.
"I mean.. yeah I guess it is. You promised that you wouldn't be like him, Chris. You promised. How could you not keep it? How could you say that?" You say, sobbing in between words. You get up off the couch, and run out the door. You hear Chris call your name, but you don't care. You get inside your car and start driving home.
🏷️: @brookheartsmatt @slutf4rmatt @charlottee3 @strnilolover
#chris sturniolo#sturniolo triplets#matt sturniolo#christopher sturniolo#nicolas sturniolo#chris x reader#nathan doe#nick sturniolo#christopher owen sturniolo#the sturniolos#chris sturniolo imagine#chris smut#chris sturniolo angst#chris sturniolo fanfic#chris sturniolo fluff#chris sturniolo blurb#chris sturniolo smut#chris sturniolo x reader#christopher sturniolo x reader#matt x y/n#matt stuniolo fanfic#matt sturniolo angst#matt sturniolo edit#matt sturniolo fanfic#matt sturniolo fluff#matt sturniolo imagine#matt sturniolo smut#matt sturniolo x reader#matt sturniolo x you#matt x reader
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(Pt. II.2) Friends to Lovers HCs w/Homicipher x GN!Reader
Tags: Platonic + Romantic HCs, Friends to Lovers trope for basically every LI, Likely OOC for some LIs*, Mini Scenarios (so HCs are kinda plot-driven), *Multi-Part Series, entirely SFW
Also, changing tenses in some cases + not proofread again... sorry!
*Some of the LIs are likely written OOC (Out Of Character) mainly due to a lack of substantial in-game appearances (at least in my opinion!).
*Split into multiple parts because I’ve come to realize that these HCs are muuucccchhh too long 😅 BUT!! I’m too lazy to shorten them sooo… YEAH lol
Part I (Big 🙆♂️)
Part II (Mr. Chopped 🪓)
Part III (Mr. Crawling 👣)
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Mr. Chopped (First Half/Second Half)
Cont.
Mr. Chopped is the type to get super lost in his stories. So lost that his face often morphs accordingly based on whatever he’s babbling about.
When he tells you about the state of his missing body, you watch his face morph from shock to sadness, to confusion, to an adorable pout, and then to excitement.
When he tries to explain his first few encounters with Mr. Silvair (which were rough, since Mr. Silvair appears to be the one who separated Mr. Chopped from his body in the first place), Mr. Chopped’s face morphs from fear to distrust to shock to joy.
This little man is just so darn expressive!
His feelings for you grow as you open up to him more and more.
You tell him about your experiences at work, and you tell him about an internship you finished some time ago (relative to whenever you ended up trapped in the Apartments).
You then tell him about some of your hobbies.
When you suggest doing one or two with him, he beams up at you with the biggest smile you’ve ever seen on him!
He’s probably blushing so baadddd at the thought of it lol
One-on-one personal time for an even longer period of time than usual???
An activity you enjoy that you choose to only ever share with him and him alone??
Even though he’s just a head and you have literally so many other options who all possess bodies and can get around on their own to at least some extent??!
WHAOXOANALXNDLFLDBAHAGVSBSKCKFLDM
At some point, he convinces you to follow his directions to a particular room.
When you get there, you find yourself feeling a little uncomfortable.
“Here darkness,” you say. “We together go find light?”
“Is okay,” Mr. Chopped says. “Go that way! Hurry! Fast!”
You listen and approach a small square in the wall.
Briefly, you wonder if Mr. Gap might be in there, but it seems like the hole is empty.
“Enter! Enter!” Mr. Chopped bounces in your grasp excitedly.
You enter the crawl space and pull yourself through.
Soon, the darkness morphs into a faint whitish color.
Your heart jumps at the senses being triggered as you approach.
You finally come across a small hole, and through it, you peer at a sight you haven’t seen in a long time, your mouth agape as Mr. Chopped watches you excitedly.
The sound of clicking on stones draws your eyes to the heeled shoes strutting back and forth past the hole.
There’s the sound of chatter, laughter, shouting, horns, music…
Something smells good. Sooooo good…
Fresh food. Something’s being grilled…
Damn! Your mouth is starting to water!
“This place where?” You ask, pressing Mr. Chopped closer to your face. It was a super small space, after all.
“This place go to other area! Not know where area is, but if possible, me want to go!” Mr. Chopped grins at you, and you can’t help grinning back.
“Wow…” you say. “This is so cool. I wonder if those people will notice me if I reach out to them, though?”
Mentally, you waved the thought away just as quickly as you thought it.
After all, you promised your friends here some weeks ago that you’d stay. And while you could certainly always change your mind, well…
At the moment, you don’t really have a desire to leave.
“I’m happy you decided to share this with me, Mr. Chopped.” You smile sweetly at him.
“What you say? You happy?” He asks. You giggle at him.
“Am happy together we come here. Am grateful you bring me here. Am lots happy!” You say.
Mr. Chopped's face grows into a deep purplish color.
Mr. Chopped lets out a happy sound, his eyes pressing up into a cute squint.
“You happy!! Me lots happy to see you happy!! This place here for you and me now. We come together here now! You understand??” Mr. Chopped asks.
You giggle, and say “Okay, me understand now.”
…
I think I got carried away there LMAO
Anyway, I feel like with all of that being said, after hanging around you for a while and developing a mutual crush, there will eventually come a time when Mr. Chopped gets tired of this long period of unknowing…
Like, you two are OBVIOUSLY super close to each other —much closer than either of you are to anybody else there!
Y’all are at a point where y'all hesitate to even call each other friends!!
And to be so real with you, my guy…
Mr. Chopped has just straight up stopped calling you his friend!!
And it’s kinda awkward for others…
Cuz like… what exactly are you two???
At some point, Mr. Chopped will probably more or less ask you.
“You enjoy me, and me enjoy you. But together we not friends. You and me together what??”
Because you didn’t immediately answer in like 0.02 seconds, he immediately became fussy and demanded to be taken to Mr. Silvair.
And once you take him there, Mr. Chopped dismisses you, so… yeah…
A few days pass and you start to really miss Mr. Chopped.
I mean, he can’t possibly be that mad, right?? What even happened back then anyway to get him so mad in the first place??
You decide to go see him.
You don’t plan on apologizing because, like… what exactly would you be apologizing for??
But!! You want to get to the bottom of your sudden dismissal that day!!
And if come to find out you did offend him somehow, then you’ll apologize—because it most certainly wasn’t your intention.
Anyway, he wasn’t hard to find, thankfully. He was chilling in the lounge next to the infirmary room, which means Mr. Silvair was likely in the operating room doing… Silvair things in there.
He’s nodding off, going in and out of sleep.
It’s literally soooo adorable to look at.
But you’re here on a mission, so no getting distracted!!
Anywho, you startle Mr. Chopped, and he fusses at you accordingly.
But you cut to the chase, demanding to know why he was so upset the other day and dismissed you like that.
He pouts and says something like, “Me give question, and you not answer!”
Suddenly, he smiles at you. “But is okay, I give answer for you!!”
“Huh?? What you mean?” You ask.
Joyfully, he responds, “You and me together now! You understand?”
OH WOW.
Erm…
Well.
You now have a boyfriend, and that’s just what it is.
But hey!!
At least your boyfriend is super cute!! And fun!! And connected to a pretty smart, innovative guy like Silvair!
And!! Mr. Chopped absolutely adores EVERYTHING about you!!
You and Silvair are the closest people to him.
But, between you and him…
You’re obviously a little more special to him than Mr. Silvair!
[Part I (Mr. Big 🙆♂️) | Part II (Mr. Chopped 🪓, First Half/Second Half), Part III (Mr. Crawling 👣)]
#homicipher headcanons#homicipher x reader#homicipher fanfiction#homicipher#homicipher mr chopped#homicipher mr chopped x reader#mr chopped x reader
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Rewatching S1 makes me realize how important Anne making friends with other children was for her growth and development. Especially when you compare it to Marcy and Sasha. They were both surrounded always exclusively by adults, forced to take on adult responsabilities, becoming high-ranking members of their respective military factions. Anne's most adult responsability was helping out Hop Pop with the farm and the market stand, something Sprig and Polly did too. For the most part, she could freely goof around. Her adventures involved trying to set up her bestie with his crush, sneaking out with him to ride some games at a fair, adopting a cat, going to the spa, camping with her frog family, looking for cryptids in the woods, watching TV shows... it's not that she never did anything more serious than that, but can you imagine Sasha or Marcy being allowed to lose time like that? They never got to make friends who were close to them in age, and I'm sorry, but a preteen girl having for her only friend an old man hell-bent on conquest and domination (oh look! Applies to both of them!) is bound for disaster. At least Anne's token old man friend acted not like her bestie, but as a responsible adult actually looking out for her, trying to educate her, protecting her whenever he could, treating her like what she was: a child. Not a soldier. Hop Pop doesn't send Anne on dangerous military missions. Doesn't make her to train with weapons. Doesn't expect her to make herself useful beyond what's reasonably expected - he asks her to help out with the farm in the exact same way his grandchildren do, but when he thinks she's sick, he lets her rest, even if it means more work for the rest of them.
This is part of why Anne developed a level of emotional intelligence Marcy and Sasha didn't reach. She learned about friendship mostly through her relationship with Sprig, an equal, and she later applied her newfound knowledge in her friendship with Marcy and Sasha, who were also equals. Marcy and Sasha, being at the mercy of two old war-mongering men, learned about manipulation, control and domination - and yes, Marcy too. Andrias encouraged her most dishonest and controlling behaviors. She might not look like it, but she's almost as manipulative as Sasha.
The contrast between Anne and her two friends is brilliant. Gosh this show is so well-written. She's leagues ahead of them and the more I think about it, the clearer it becomes. True Colors was the moment in which she looked at them and saw them for who they really were - two girls who had fallen behind, who expected Anne to be her old lazy, selfish, docile self. That's why she tells Sasha in The Dinner that she needs her to understand that she's changed. Anne's arc is great in itself already, but putting it next to Sasha and Marcy's negative arcs really makes it POP
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What if I just wrote Persona 6? Like. I could do it. I totally could. And I have ideas for it. Idk, maybe I'll do it maybe I won't. Vote time idk.
Ideas under the cut.
Did I hear a demand for FemC? Did I? Well even if I'm hallucinating, we have FemC in this P6! "Official" name for now is Minori Koto. Might change it later.
I'm sad to say... I can't set it in University/College without screwing with the timeline. I also have to set it in 2018 I'M SORRY IT'S FOR SOCIAL LINKS I PROMISE.
FemC moves to Tokyo from another-but-not-as-big city in Japan for her parent's work. As for where she's from, does it really matter? nahhhhh (i'm lazy/clueless rn)
Persona MC with present parents??? What??? That's a thing??? (might kill one tbh I'm bored)
We're going with a mix of P4 and P5 for how the other world works. Early on, our main character finds an odd book while looking for study material on classics. When she opens it, there's a portal instead of pages, and she gets sucked in along with her partner on the project/best friend character.
All of the other worlds are different books and follow the plot of said book, repeating over and over. The owner's shadow plays the main character, cognitions play all other named characters, and regular shadows play unnamed roles. The way to save the shadow is to either give them a happier ending or break them out of the monotony of the story. Burning the book would kill the owner.
Persona's are also book based. I haven't decided on if I want to name the Persona's after the characters or the authors, but it's one of those two. As for summoning, characters will get a massive tome that they rip pages out of, symbolic of tearing pages out to write their own story as well as a visual representation for SP/HP. (recovery items are things that would help repair the books, like adhesives of actual book binding materials.)
Social links. The bane of my existence. The two I actually have planned somewhat out are connected to 4 and 5 respectively. The next couple points are about them.
The first Social link you'd meet would be a first-year girl who recently moved to Tokyo from a very small town out in the country, also for her father's work. You also find out through her social link that she has a "big bro" in Tokyo who she goes to visit a lot, as well as his roommate and a lot of their friends. Her social link would generally be the two of you bonding over moving to Tokyo and our MC helping her study. If you've yet to realize, this social link would be Nanako Dojima from Persona 4. No, we can not see P4 MC. I'm sorry, that's for spin-off games. She would not join your party.
The second would be the owner of a small cafe you can find nearby the MC's house, who speaks of his kids and how much trouble they used to get into when they were the MC's age. He mentions his daughter getting into places she shouldn't and his son getting into too much trouble, but it's all said in a fond tone that tells you that he knows they were just kids. Eventually, he mentions a boy who used to come in and sit in the same spot you always do: the counter seat closest to the door. At your rank 10 with him, he'll ask you after the rank-up to look into it for him. He wants to know how to help his kids, but he doesn't have the means to figure it out anymore. You cannot tell him before the end of the game, but you can find a missing-persons case for one Goro Akechi that was never really resolved. This social link would be Sojiro Sakura from Persona 5, P5 MC being his 'son' and Futaba being his daughter.
As for velvet room, I desperately want to make it a library, but instead I shall make it an observatory. Personas are created through selecting two stars and crashing them into each other. Your attendant would be a gentle woman, maybe early twenties by the looks of it, named Agatha. She wouldn't be unwise to the world, but she would clearly be one of the less experienced attendants. Igor is Igor, he isn't possessed. for now. Also you could hypothetically walk around the velvet room if this was playable but idk how to make mods.
The team's outfits change in every storybook to match the theme. If you couldn't tell, I've been playing too much Love Nikki recently.
Yes, there would be a god as the final boss.
No, I am not making P6 Fes-Portable-Golden-Royal-Reload or whatever the fuck it would be named. It's in the original release like it should be.
I know we're tumblr, so I'll keep this last one brief. The best perk of all:
FemC gets to be gay. We are free.
Thank you for coming to my TED talk, now please go vote.
#p5r#persona 5#persona 5 royal#persona 4#p4#p4g#p4 golden#persona#persona 6#i feel bad for tagging that but. i'm not wrong.#persona series#just in general#creative writing#idk what else to tag#tumblr polls#this took me so long#i went to get noodles with my mom halfway through making this#sorry mutuals#not really tho#sry not sry
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My friend (@momiji-manjuu *kisses*) had their bday in June and I made them a card. Now this was my first ever attempt to draw chibis and of course I chose to do it when I had a strict deadline, haha. So please be gentle *hides*
#the gazette#gazette#reita the gazette#ruki the gazette#kai the gazette#uruha the gazette#aoi the gazette#I spent way too many hours on this!#my bf thought I was mad haha#and I realize the sausages are not on the sticks like they should be#I dunno what brainfart I was having when drawing#and when I realized it I was too lazy to change it#maybe the boys are just being silly *shrug*#and I should've chosen some more colorful outfits for the boys too#but I love the outfits from the 15th anniversary live so...#snr:fanart#well that's the first time I've used that tag....#fanart
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do yall see my vision?
#guess who has been reading the jeweler richard LN#im on volume 4 rn#anyway i always thought seigi's crush on tanimoto reminded me of watanuki and his feelings for himawari#i would also put them in the same category of 'hetero-bait' so to speak where they introduce a 'female love interest'#and then later establish her as not a romantic choice for the mc and then they're gay instead#its all subtext in xxxholic but man.......its just text in jeweler richard#also when reading volume 2 of JR i was like 'richard reminds me of someone.........' and then i realized its abeno#abeno haruitsuki is like if richard was in highschool and not the lord of sweets#i actually dont remember if ashiyan is that down bad for abeno but i know abeno is bad for him#hes still got that 'i cant leave you alone' energy especially halfway through when sakae starts showing up#seigi and ashiya have that in common too they both have daddy issues#should i have put that instead?#im too lazy to change it#i really need to reread fukimono i miss them so much#abeshiya is like an old friend to me#jeweler richard#nakata seigi#fukigen na mononokean#ashiya hanae#xxxholic#watanuki kimihiro
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#the mandalorian#star wars#din djarin#grogu#the mandalorian season 3#GIVE IT TO ME#GIVE IT NOWWW. HAND IT OVER.#help i didn't realize the text was lopsided in the rectangle when i made this#now i'm too lazy to change it adskgjhsg#elio talks
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Hm yeah Frimmel is kinda driving me insane nowadays
#IT'S. SO. BEAUTIFUL. AND. SO. TRAGICCCCCC AHHHHHH#himmel was happy to just be a blip in frieren's unimaginably long life! frieren didn't even realize how much that blip meant until decades#after he passed away! SHE'S CHANGING. SO MUCH. IN SUCH POSITIVE WAYS. AND HE HAD SUCH A BIG IMPACT ON IT!!#himmel is the biggest romantic ever like holy shit no one has ever done pining like he has. and it makes him so fucking endearing and cool#he isn't flawless either he's vain & dorky & has made mistakes. I actually really appreciate that all of the og 4 were lowkey weirdos#I totally get why he loved frieren too she's so fucking cool & interesting. I love a lazy yet powerful autistic aroace queen#and omfg the ost is so bittersweet and beautiful just. I'm dreading when the last episode comes out cuz then wtf do I do?#besides read the manga and read more fic and start writing some. the manga has been on hiatus what do I do when I catch up?? someone help me#frimmel
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sorry for only saying this type of shit lately but i kinda wanna drive a car straight into a brick wall at the highest speed possible
#trying to keep it together so bad because i already know the problems and solutions and whatnot but i cannot do anything#i desperately just need to do something. accomplish any task. actually several would be nice. but i cannot stand just letting life go by#while i watch other people have the things i want. or even metaphorically living my dream like. that should be me why am i settling for thi#i hate even talking about this because i feel so stupid when i know it's not even a real tangible problem and that i actually DO have real#problems to tackle and the ability to do so but i'm choosing to be upset over the stupidest things i could possibly be sad about#and i can't even be sad about it in a normal way i'm cycling through like several different reactions to smth that isn't even real#or if it is real i literally do not have tanglible evidence for it one way or another like i'm driving myself insane for no reason#i can't even get catharsis because all i'm doing is digging a deeper hole for something i never should've gone back into in the first place#because i KNOW how i am i KNOW how i react to things and i still chose to do it lmao.#and i continue to choose to go through this shit instead of actively trying to change my life because... i'm lazy? and stupid? idk#negative self-talk isn't gonna get me to do anything either so let's just say i'm feeling particularly unmotivated like usual#i hated being a teenager but i really do miss when all my problems just amounted to 'someone was mean to me on tumblr today :(' or i failed#a test in chemistry or something. like i yearn for that simplicity becasue at this point all i'm doing is ruining my own life LMAO#i'm too scared to live i'm too scared to die so i just sit here and fantasize that life could be amazing if i wait#and i'll magically get everything i've ever wanted if i just wait long enough. and i know it isn't true and i still wait for it to happen.#because honestly like. i think deep down i am just convinced i will fail at anything i do when that shouldn't be what scares me.#what scares me should be never even allowing myself to fail because i never tried to do anything at all with myself or my life#like. wake the fuck up. get off your ass and put in the effort. learn some skills. gain independence and stability and discipline and do it#just live please i'm begging you just live so i can be happy don't i deserve to be happy... why am i not letting myself be happy#i'm literally keeping myself trapped in this negative feedback loop ON PURPOSE because teehee shiny toy#and it doesn't matter if the love is real it doesn't matter how i feel like i'm just using it as a distraction i can't say it's motivation#because it's barely motivated me at all. i have to start being realistic. 25 & just realizing you actually have to participate in your life#anyways. i've cried i've agonized i've pictured killing myself in 30 different ways. i think the only way i'm gonna feel better is#to just actually try this time without giving up. wish me luck
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Time for more eternal gales isat au, this time featuring Sier as Isabeau, creating a sprite I can never use next to Aris’ because despite my best efforts it would make them look tall
#keese draws#eternal gales#oc#oc art#isat#in stars and time#this one didn’t take nearly as long as the aris one but I think I suffered for it more from the clothes alone#siffrin made me forget I suck at drawing clothes rip#this was also harder because of how much trickier it was to try and adapt siers design to feel fitting enough for my standards#they have a very stylized design compared to most of the others#I kind of took the lazy route out by keeping most of their original shapes in tact but it’s fine#sier in this au would serve the needed role of emotionally intelligent bestie who is also too scared to cross boundaries to do much#but despite this I do think they’d actually get the suspicion quest in this au#mostly because mase is a furry artist not a nerd and sier would be more likely to look at aris and go bro. are you in a fucking timeloop.#it also differs in that aris doesn’t yell at sier abt it instead looping before they can finish because she can’t handle hearing them be#right on the money about this thing that she thought she was handling perfectly#she doesn’t want to fail them she doesn’t want them to realize she’s failed them she doesn’t want to be a burden she doesn’t want them to#‘realize’ they’re better off without her#aris is Incredibly resistant to accepting help on most serious issues because shes convinced that it’s her responsibility to deal with it#by herself and that if she can’t then she’s a failure and worse than useless#I mean in canon eternal gales she literally loses her eye and arm because of that#in this au she just lost them how sif lost his eye but she still has. complexes abt all that.#but yeah sier also differs wildly from isa in many Many other ways as does the rest of the cast from their assigned characters#for sier they rly aren’t the jock of the group at all instead being more of the guy who keeps the mood lighthearted at all times lest they#die of stress because the others haven’t said anything in a whole 30 seconds#aka they’re the self assigned peacekeeper who doesn’t actually need to constantly keep the peace because no one’s fighting but they still#feel like they need to so they dance and dance and dance for their friends until they collapse from exhaustion#metaphorically ofc#this is why they’re both terrified to confront aris when she starts acting a bit fucked up but also why they still do sometimes anyways#they talk abt this a lil bit in their friend quest as they talk abt how they want to change but are scared to
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as it turns out, most of my favorite tops are very see through. hope people at the mall enjoy seeing my boobs, tho
#oops i guess#and i always realize when im leaving the house xD#and im too lazy to change clothes#hehe 🤭#babygirl thoughts#my post#.txt
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i like reading peoples dnis and just checking off every point on them that i fit even if im not public abt it
#... servant's song ♪#especially funny when its my followers. i forgot people r still anti-self diagnosis in 2024 didnt we leave that in the past#stop sucking off medical professionals and realize how broken the psychiatric system is not only in america but worldwide#the person im talking sbt im too lazy to get on desktop JUST to block them so if u see this. oooooo im self diagnosed with hpd oooooo scary#im in the process of an offical diagnosis tbf and it might end up being a different cluster b disorder that we end up w/ the diagnosis for#but hpdfag flows so lovely off the tongue so i will not be changing it i refuse#bpdfag doesnt have the same ring 2 it /silly
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(Pt. III) Friends to Lovers HCs w/Homicipher x GN!Reader
Tags: Platonic + Romantic HCs, Friends to Lovers trope for basically every LI, Likely OOC for some LIs*, Mini Scenarios (so HCs are kinda plot-driven), *Multi-Part Series, entirely SFW
Also, changing tenses in some cases + not proofread again... sorry!
*Some of the LIs are likely written OOC (Out Of Character) mainly due to a lack of substantial in-game appearances (at least in my opinion!).
*Split into multiple parts because I’ve come to realize that these HCs are muuucccchhh too long 😅 BUT!! I’m too lazy to shorten them sooo… YEAH lol
Part I (Big 🙆♂️)
Part II (Mr. Chopped 🪓)
Part III (Mr. Crawling 👣)
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Mr. Crawling
This man is in love with you.
Lowkey could stop right there.
Well, anyway…
Mr. Crawling is a GREAT friend, actually.
Like he’s the kind of buddy that’s —first of all —down for whatever.
You said you tryna go walk through an unfamiliar part of the Apartments to try and find a mysterious elevator?
Well…
YEAH SURE HE’LL TAG ALONG
I MEAN… WHY THE HELL NOT, Y’KNOW??
“Me know place here,” He’ll say. More or less: I know this place!
And he’s so damn chipper about it, too!
He’s just an overall helpful guy.
He seems to have an intrinsic protective streak in him, too.
Which is interesting, ‘cause it’s like…
While it’s obvious he’s been in the Apartments for a long time, it’s clear that he hasn’t completely lost his sense of humanity.
I mean, trust —it’s definitely worn in some ways.
Like, he eats people bruh.
Trust, his sense of humanity is def gone in some ways...
But!! At least he's not as violent as the other ghosts can be!!
Like, generally speaking, you’ll find that he’s a pretty admirable dude.
He doesn’t hurt other entities for the pure sake of hurting them.
Defense, and alternatively —for food or other resources like clothes or tools.
Those would probably be the only reasons Mr. Crawling would ever just… attack someone, especially unprovoked (unprovoked, but not necessarily without reason).
That being said, he’s a social butterfly!!
He’s literally a professional yapper in every sense of the word.
Like… he could start a podcast LMAO
Podcast Bro!Mr. Crawling…
Anywho, he’s genuinely a people person and he likes being in good company.
Whether it’s you, Mr. Silvair, Mr. Chopped, Mr. Stitch(?), the Nurse, Mr. Wheelchair, the Hairdresser, etc…
He’s genuinely the type who could talk to literally anyone about anything for any amount of time.
If you’re a yapper too, this’ll probably be fun for you!
And hell, you may very well have met your match, LOL.
If you’re more introverted or quiet —no matter.
Mr. Crawling, being the professional he is, knows how to fill up any awkward silences with banter.
He doesn’t judge you at all on the basis of how you react to his yapping. Truly.
At the end of the day, he just enjoys sharing your company and getting to hear your voice, as little or as often as that occurs.
Hopefully, you don’t find his constant need for company annoying.
… Do you find him annoying?
At some point, Mr. Crawling begins to realize his feelings for you have changed…
In the case you accept him as a partner, he’s absolutely OVERJOYED.
Not only have you promised to indefinitely keep his company, but you also accepted him as your better half!
“You enjoy me?” He’ll ask, pulling himself over your curled-up form beneath the thin white sheets of the hospital bed.
“Me enjoy you,” you’ll say. You might even pet his head a few times, and he’ll giggle maniacally before dropping his head into your neck.
As Mr. Crawling’s fondness for you intensifies, so does his protective streak.
This guy turns into Papa Bear when it comes down to protecting his better half.
What Megan thee Stallion said??
“Three things I don’t play about: myself, my money, or my man!”
That, but more like: “... my friends, or my partner!”
Something like that, LOL.
Mr. Crawling’s sweethearted, bubbly, outgoing, protective, and quite affectionate. Intimacy is a language he speaks as fluently as his otherworldly one.
As we know, he’s very much the “high-maintenance” type.
He’s just super affectionate overall —and Mr. Crawling just wants to know that you’re always on the same page!
Tell him you love him.
Tell him how fun it was exploring the same old dreary halls with him. Tell him how relieved you felt when he swooped in to shield you from danger, even though you could handle yourself just fine. Run your fingers through his hair and massage the nape of his neck as you tell him how much you’ve come to enjoy —and maybe even crave —his company.
And when you’re done…
Tell him you love him. Yes, again. Again and again and again and again and again…
He could never get enough. Truly.
He could never get enough of you.
With a boyfriend like Mr. Crawling, you’ll never have to fear a lack of comfort, protection, friendship, or intimacy…
Because he’s constantly giving it to you.
You don’t even need to ask for any kind of intimacy —again, he’s giving it to you anyway.
And whether you’d like to shack up in a nearby spare room beside Mr. Silvair and Mr. Chopped’s loungeroom (of the sort) or if you take him with you to the surface world…
It makes no real difference in the way Mr. Crawling clings to you.
All he knows is so long as you’re both finding yourselves tangled together beneath the sheets each night, all is right in the world!
Mr. Crawling just wants to spend his evenings at home, and if home is where the heart is, then…
Well, you know how that goes!
[Part I (Mr. Big 🙆♂️) | Part II (Mr. Chopped 🪓, First Half/Second Half), Part III (Mr. Crawling 👣)]
#homicipher headcanons#homicipher fanfiction#homicipher x reader#homicipher mr crawling#mr crawling#mr crawling x reader#homicipher mr crawling x reader
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Mental illness is insane I'm just having dinner w my father eating this a little too spicy pasta enjoying the Yeowch on my throat and the silence and suddenly I'm like yeah I'd kill myself.
#luly talks#i mean it came from out of nowhere grieving but it's so bizarre#like i just got hit by this very heavy rock in my skull this overwhelming and genuine urge for a second that yeah that'd be ok#that's the correct path to take and there's no physical changes i just kept on chewing on my all too spicy bc he used the wrong condiments#pasta. like sure i was a little zoned out maybe if you paid close attention you'd have seen my eye getting lazy or something but like. thats#it. and i always in zoning out#like this wasn't even an intrusive thought those come out of nowhere and just are echoing chambers of fear and shame#this was a calm resolution like yeah. that's the way to go alright.#y'know kind of unrelated but i always wish i had someone to talk about some mental health things i cant w my therapist#more on the speculative diagnosis thing. if you dont know what i mean shame on you for not keeping up with the Luly lore /silly#it's really hard being neurodivergent and im not talking about autism rn that i can manage but gestures vaguely its hard when it's#a group project. it's hard when everything is so fuzzy#because sometimes i tell myself i only think of this bc im all day alone and thinking but like#what. am i supposed to be getting non stop stimuli 24/7 least i realize i hsve something in my skull going on?#i blame my mother for that one she always made me ashamed of being sick or whatever acting like it was my fault#like me noticing symptoms was equivalent to me making them real#as if that wasn't just absurd like. the symptoms are here you twat. I'm not placebo effecting myself w shit#even the ppl who do like. the symptoms are real.#aaahhh siiiiigh yet another common L#brain stuff
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We've hit Fall Saturday in the Chill Save, and instead of more store times today, we instead have a party! Because Smiler needs to have more parties, and I wanted the specific rewards you got from this specific party. :D However, before we had party times, we had to get through a few things --
-->Firstly, Victor had to discharge again upon waking up -- wouldn't be good if he magically exploded during the party! He and Alice hung out with the cats for a little bit -- Victor getting a song from one of the kittens by the phonograph (as said kittens are very Talkative) and Alice giving Kelly some time with the laser pointer -- then I sent Victor to the mirror to make an important change. Not to his wardrobe --
But to his, and everyone else's, last names. I THOUGHT I might have to go into "Manage Worlds" to change this, but as it turns out, you can update a Sim's name right from the mirror. So everyone in the household is now surnamed "Van Liddelton," like their grocery store! :D I was very happy to be able to do that -- while I wasn't exactly UPSET with them all ending up with the last name "Always" from the web of weddings we've had in this save, I genuinely prefer being able to give them a name that reflects all of them. :)
-->With THAT sorted, it was time to get to chores! Smiler set up the party, then popped into the greenhouse to make some sadness alleviation lotion before heading back to their robotics bench to tune up Bugs and Elmer. Alice spent a little more time slathering Kelly with love (gotta make sure mama cat is content), then headed to the computer to start a new Playful book ("What's One And One And One And," a book on Wonderland mathematics -- think those Wayside School math puzzle books), and Victor bought a bunch of dyes and started making more candles to put in the store later -- before getting distracted by Shadow wanting some attention. Victor felt the love from the dog, then decided to continue "Play Dead" training. As you can see, Shadow's got it down pat! :) Good girl, Shadow!
#sims 4#the lazy save#victor van dort#alice liddell#smiler always#yeah I was very pleased to see that I could just change the name straight from CAS#no extra steps required! :D#I was originally going to give them all back their original last names#but then I realized 'hang on I combined all their last names for the grocery store'#and so now they're all Van Liddelton :D#and look I'm probably never going to remember which kitten is which#they look IDENTICAL#and they actually have almost-identical personalities too#I should probably age them up at some point so we can see what they look like as adult cats#maybe I can get some age up treats when I go to get Kelly fixed#also no I don't know why Victor and Alice are so keen on wandering around in their underwear#especially to do things like make candles with hot wax#like sir you could get burned#I mean I'm sure Smiler likes the view but XD#queued
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