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I remember my parents sitting my brother and I down to announce their divorce. I was like “Fucking finally, can I go back to my friends house now? We were in the middle of something, and I saw this shit coming ten miles off.”
Like, they both were SO MUCH HAPPIER and fulfilled once they split. It made me happy to see them thrive for once. My mom’s life became so much richer and fuller after she left my dad. Their divorce showed me that it’s OKAY to leave if something just is not working no matter what you try. It showed me that, if I’m in the wrong relationship, I don’t have to force it to work and be miserable. I can leave, respectfully, and help everyone involved lead the life they should be living. That you don’t have to torture yourself and make yourself miserable “for the kids.” If they’d stayed married, I would have had such an unhealthy, toxic way of viewing relationships.
I’m glad my parents divorced.
i feel like the idea that divorce is monumentally traumatic for kids is patriarchal propaganda because my parents’ divorce was the least traumatizing aspect of my childhood. like them being married and under the same roof was sooo much worse and their divorce was just this massive weight lifted off my shoulders
#full disclosure: my dad moved across the street so he was still very much active and present in my life#still is#and there was no ugly custody battle#we lived with mom and since dad was across the street#we just saw him whenever we wanted#mom and dad got along well enough#and were always civil#and dad chipped in monetarily when it was needed#I know not every divorce works out that well#I recognize my good fortune
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I wondered how starscream reacted to seeing Jetfire again
It’s not going great!
Woops! I wrote a drabble. Not sure how this conversation started but this is sure how it's decided to go!
"You were gone, Skyfire. I mourned you. I…"
"You burned Iacon to the ground! Destroyed our home!"
"I did it for you!"
Skyfire finally threw down his tools and turned on the seeker. "In what world would I have ever wanted that??" He screamed, temper flaring.
"No, I wanted it!" Starscream retaliated, even as he took a step back. "I needed it, I couldn't move on otherwise."
"Yeah, because you definitely sound like a mech who’s been able to move on."
"I did! believe it or not. I became more than I ever was playing scientist at your precious little academy. I was the air commander of an entire army, second in command only to Lord Megatron. I was somebody to be respected, feared even! And then YOU had to come back and ruin it."
"How is any of this MY fault?"
"You were DEAD! You weren't supposed to come back! You weren't supposed to know about any of this. About…you LEFT me and I had to pick up the pieces and you dare judge me for how it played out?"
"Starscream, things dont just 'play out.' You made choices. Bad ones. You can't blame that on me."
"Haha! No, but I CAN blame you for betraying me! For choosing the Autobots over me! Like everything we had before meant nothing!"
"You SHOT me! For trying to protect the native lifeforms! Who does that?!"
Starscream sneered, hateful and ugly. "As if you hadn’t already made up your mind about me by that point."
Skyfire looked at him, as though for the first time. He took in how the frame shook with each haggard vent, the lines of wear framing each restless optic, the tight aggressive cant of the wings. "You've changed, Starscream. You’re not the same mech I knew."
"You’re right." Starscream said, voice dark with pride. "I’m stronger now."
"Are you? Or are you just more hurt and more bitter and more willing to hurt people? Face it, Starscream. You’ve had no one to rely on because you refuse to trust anyone. And look where that's gotten you."
Starscream glared at him. "You don’t know anything," he hissed, before spinning on his heels and storming out of the lab.
Wheeljack coughed awkwardly, fiddling with his instruments. Skyfire looked around as the science team silently got back to work.
Skywarp's were the only pair of optics that met his from across the room; his quiet stare cold, hard, and unreadable.
#starscream: you chose the autobots over me!#skyfire: you shot me for trying to protect the local wildlife!#skyfire has been on ice for millions of years and his whole planet and civilization has been destroyed by the war#he’s not doing great#meanwhile starscream remembers skyfire as like this perfect guy who’ll always be there for him and can do no wrong#neither are the same people they once were#transformers#starscream#skywarp#skyfire#wheeljack#perceptor#autobot base
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// pvp civ ep 5 spoilers
you guys gotta watch pvp civilization




#my art#illustration#pvp civilization#evbo#prince zam#evbo's look at zam in the last page#its meant to portray his shock#evbo knew ppl were always violent in pvp civilization#but... he believed that maybe there was goodness in there somewhere#looking at zam's cold smile and empty eyes#he realizes that no. ppl are just... cruel in pvp civilization#his and tabis life doesnt matter#not to zam
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Captain America: Civil War pisses me off so much. (I know i just said i love this movie and i do but man it pisses me off)
Like what do you mean you want to hand over control to the people who’s *in the words of the great Nick Fury* stupid ass decision was to NUKE NEW YORK in response to Loki’s attack
#how on earth is ross more qualified to rein in the avengers#where is the logic#i will always be team steve#actually scratch that#i am team sam wilson#people can make arguments about that last fight with steve bucky and tony as much as they want#and if you think steve’s attachment to bucky invalidates his priorities#then ignore him and focus on sam#sam is the most correct imo#he KNOWS how fucked giving the government control would be#tfatws is a great example of that *cough cough* john walker#the reality of the accords were dumb and i stand by that#team cap just has the added bonus of defending bucky#captain america#captain america civil war#marvel#mcu#team cap#steve rogers#iron man#bucky barnes#sam wilson#the falcon#tfatws#kate's post
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magic in asoiaf is genetic. and that is intresting. and the fact that grrm doesn’t shy away from the implications of this makes me love asoiaf even more.
because it’s very understandable that these people who could ride dragons would see themselves as more gods than men. it’s understandable that the practice of sibling-sibling incest would become common in order to keep this ability in the family/to not lose said ability. it’s also understandable that these people would see their race as superior because they are able to do these things that others could not.
it also makes complete sense that this human civilization collapsed in a horrific magical event due to their own hubris because they saw themselves as gods when they were always only men.
and that is peak world building.
some more peak world building is that the noble houses of westeros also clearly gained power and held onto their power through the use of their magical abilities inherited from their ancestors.
a godlike existence like Garth the Green being the ancestor of all the oldest and most noble of the reach houses makes perfect sense for this world!and it also makes sense that the lords without this ancestry are discriminated against in this region that still holds onto the values their society cultivated in the past in order to maintain their magical superiority, even though most of these noble and old houses no longer exhibit these abilities.
and it also makes sense that these people no longer have access to these abilities as they no longer practice the religion that was centered around these powers; plus their blood is simply diluted at this point as these houses have married into a different ethnic group so often that the magical gene just doesn’t surface anymore.
but the fact that it still matters if you can trace your ancestry back to Garth the Green? peak! peak! peak!
george does such an excellent job showcasing the stagnation of westerosi society here because why should it matter if you’re connected to this magic guy if magic is no longer commonplace? however, it also makes total sense that the ruling class of the reach still harps on and on about this as it’s how they maintain the status quo and differentiate themselves from those they consider lesser now that they no longer have access to magic themselves.
and this is also why it’s very important that the Starks still retain the blood of the first men. because the first men interbred with the children of the forest and other elder races, which is what gave these humans these powers. it’s also worth noting that before the direwolves connected with the Stark children, none of our current Starks were able to awaken their abilities by themselves, which shows that even now they are very far removed from their ancestor who’s genetic makeup gave this bloodline these abilities. and it makes sense that the Starks experienced this slow magical decline because magic itself was declining in the world after the doom of valyria.
another reason for this decline is because Andal culture started heavily influencing the North and slowly changed the way magic was perceived. so now in the present, a warg/skinchanger/greenseer has become something to fear being because that’d make you different and therefore puts your life at risk, which means that there’s now practically no safe environment to cultivate these abilities and no secure way to pass down any knowledge you do have about said abilities.
i can’t help but be reminded about how Jon Snow has rejected his nature and how that has led to the stagnation of his abilities, and then i think about Arya and Bran and how their new environments have led to an astonishing growth in their abilities, which shows that it’s not just genetics that matter, environment is also just as, if not more, important.
i bring all of this up because magic being genetic in asoiaf is not as problematic as people try to make it out as. in real life, sometimes people just have genetic gifts. some people can become olympians, and some people are disabled. some people are born 10 times smarter than the average human, and some people believe that covering their faces in lemon juice would turn them invisible. that is reality. and in this universe, some people have access to magic and some don’t, and it’s all based on genetics. it’s unfair! and that makes it realistic.
not everyone gets to ride dragons and not everyone gets to travel back in time, and that grounds asoiaf, which is what grrm was going for.
and how these societies have organized themselves in response to these genetic abilities and the dangers they pose makes absolute sense. on one hand we have the valyrian freehold, which was a magic hotspot and the people who lived there used magic to propel their society to new heights, and on the other hand we have the seven kingdoms that demonize anyone too different, and all magic practitioners are different from normal humans.
and the fact that george decided to go this route with asoiaf is so juicy to me cause:
we have characters like Varamyr and Euron who use their abilities to commit great evils and we know that their powers have influenced the way they see and interact with others. on the other hand we have characters like Dany who use their abilities to fight against evil violent institutions. and through characters like her we learn how vulnerable fledgling magic practitioners/characters with these abilities are to these older and more dangerous institutions and individuals who are perfectly aware about the knowledge gap between them and these younger characters and know exactly how to exploit them.
so, while it’s understandable that the fandom is uncomfy with the practices and values that grrm has written about, this isn’t bad world building by any means. it’s logical and well thought out. and i truly enjoy that grrm doesn’t shy away from writing about the more worrying aspects and implications of magic being a matter of genetics. i also like how the seven kingdoms and the valyrian freehold are kinda extremes on the matter of magic and how this is/was detrimental to both of these societies and at the individual level. a horrific magical firey doom is not any better nor any worse than a slow drawn out icey decline.
imo, what is important to remember is that in the world of asoiaf, people with magic are the ones who are discriminated against (bc most POV characters are in Westeros and magic is a no no there). so they are the ones who are in danger if they out themselves as magic users. now, it is true that some societies are more tolerant (Qarth is a great example of this and Valyria before the doom was likely the most tolerant to have ever existed in this world), but as of now most societies simply aren’t. remember jojens warning? he didn’t pull that out of his ass. bran would’ve been in a lot of danger if he came out and told the wrong people about his dreams/abilities. also, jon’s assassination may have been partly motivated by the mutineers fear of wargs. this is the life-threatening danger magic practitioners are in for simply existing in an intolerant society.
tbh the reason i typed all this up is because it’s very annoying when people try to ignore the reality, which is that the dragonbond depends on genetics. now, i’m sure there are other ways to ride a dragon, as dragons are magical animals so of course there may be a one in a million chance of a dragon allowing some rando to ride it, but this doesn’t change the fact that there is such a thing as a genetic ability that gives these certain humans the ability to form a connection with a dragon.
(another example that i can’t help but remember is that melisandre was able to get ghosts approval by using some of her tricks. of course there could be other reasons for ghost to have done this, but the most likely reason is that ghost simply fell for melisandre’s trick and this influenced how jon saw mel. but this doesn’t change the fact that melisandre will never have the kind of bond jon and ghost have because melisandre is not a warg. this is also another example of how vulnerable fledgling magic practitioners are to older ones.)
so, sorry not sorry that george decided to create a realistic representation of what a society would look like if only certain bloodlines were able to ride dragons <\3.
#this is interesting! it’s juicy! because these are humans with the power of gods!#of course there was a civilization where the elites saw themselves as gods!#of course their powers impacted the way they structured their society!#of course the stagnant westerosi society still holds onto values and practices from hundreds of years ago#…because they once had magical abilities that set them apart. and bc their society is so stagnant they still have these values and practices#…after they lost their magical abilities. and it makes complete sense that these magical abilities were lost!#magic is feared in westeros! anyone with these abilities is othered/an outcast. these inherent powers aren’t cultivated bc this is a society#…that fears and persecutes people with magic! and it makes total sense that this likely began with the arrival of the andals!#anyways magic is genetic ✌️#and it’s so cool that so many people in this universe may not know that they have these powers bc they live in a society that doesn’t care/#doesn’t cultivate said powers. jon snow is literally called a beast by other characters bc they think he’s a warg#westeros is not a safe space for my magical son#i’m ready to fight anyone who disagrees#it’s literally so fucking intresting and i’m glad that george doesn’t shy away from any of it#asoiaf#pro targaryen#asoiaf meta#also let’s not pretend that warging/greenseeing hasn’t been used for horrible things as well#hodor is right there. legends of the nights king show exactly what can happen when a very powerful greenseer is a horrific human#yeah anyways#maybe he wasn’t a greenseer but u get my point (i hope)#asoiaf fandom critical#ppl having issues w/ the dragonbond being genetic has always struck me as odd#but i’d lie if i said i didn’t know where this attitude came from#this whole post is a mess lmao#hopefully i got my point across but i dont rly care to edit 🤷♀️#this is def a word vomit
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Also just a little disclaimer for anons - Please don't be rude with requests, yo?
Amongst the many lovely ones I received regarding me drawing new Skyrim content, i got a few rude ones demanding art like i owe it to them personally; Gave me a bit of a stink eye and a grimace. Keep that entitlement away from this place of tenderness and whimsy that we share, alright? Good
#i love it when people hype and encourage me#i may not always have the dedication to deliver right on time especially if im already during some sort of artistic draught or literally#physically or mentally incapable#but like#i got a couple asks that made me feel nasty and actually deterred me from wanting to draw the wolftwins out of spite at this point#which is ridiculous#because i do miss them#just....keep it civil and respectful okay?#my kofi is right there if you want something this badly but like. watch your tongue#whoever these two anons were
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i hate whenever i see some maga idiot say that steve rogers would have voted for trump because like
steve rogers became captain america to fight nazis. steve rogers took down an entire government intelligence organization because there were nazis in it. on what fucking planet would steve rogers vote for a man surrounded by nazis????
steve rogers hates bullies no matter who they are or what position of power they hold. he would have broken elon musk’s arm.
#and that’s PRE civil war mind you#afterwards in the infinity war era he would have ripped it clean off#hi if you cant tell i saw catws at a very politically formative age#steve rogers is and always will be a poor disabled boy living in brooklyn whose parents were immigrants at heart#he would never EVER vote or support that man#capsicle assmerica#yes thats my tag#no im not gonna use the real tags
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unleashing the same hellscape i did on my notes app here it's my nelvas thinking dump i wrote just for fun and to keep track of what i view them as up 2 this point. Might change my mind on it later on it has a lot of things written in brackets for no reason . it's like ~2500 words long which isn't much but i think i said everything i've had in my mind for now read it for fun if you like to have fun leik me :) And talvas :) And nelothxP
retyping what i said in the tags of those last text posts and rearranging those thoughts a bit: in my train of thought that's been going steady since early 2024 i'm almost certain that neloth might see talvas as the epitome of being morally Clean (before that changes because of neloth's influence over him) and generally pure as a person. pure not used in the Pervert way; neloth is just a veeery big fan of talvas having absolutely no backbone and being very docile when it comes to him. which is r expected traits 4 someone if they find themselves under neloth's thumb as an apprentice, but it being written that he isn't at all catty and defiant to his face is cute. all talvas manages to do is shit talk neloth to others and pray neloth doesn't find out he meant the things he said but also can’t help feeling bad about it, even though neloth doesn't and wouldn't care, if he found out. neloth is happy with being an obnoxious & disgusting person. truly.. him growing obsessed with talvas' docile and innocent nature doesn't necessarily have to add up to him wanting to Taint or Ruin him (and if it happens ((it does)) it's not done on purpose, neloth can't hold that much control and power of his actions in that specific department). he encounters difficulties when he realizes he actually wants that Elven Twink.. it's too far gone to fix anything after he's tampered with talvas' patience and stability, and even then he can't be honest with talvas about anything, because he still wants to hold a great deal of power over him (neloth essentials for survival).
Might be the type to just want talvas to magically(haha) think it's okay that his wizard master desires him and expect that energy right back without talvas actually acknowledging it because it'd make neloth feel insanely cringy and embarrassed.. humiliated.. EVEN. but that's just in a deep deep dark corner of his mind, he isn't stupid. when trying to gain 'access' to his apprentice ("*His* apprentice" is also kinda funny way of viewing his mind too. just cause talvas is working as an apprentice under him neloth probably already feels a concerning sense of ownership over him that makes him feel very good) he can't even make the signs of interest be apparent to talvas because he's insanely inept at being Soft and honest for obvious reasons. he can tell what possibly could make talvas warm up to him even after he treats him like shit for eons but there's no way he's bringing himself to do it (change is embarrassing, especially in their formal dynamic, and especially at his age). so it's a half-assed attempt (actually he's trying his hardest🙄) to try and make talvas be (at least) less afraid of him. not that talvas has any other place that we know of that he "Belongs" to, he just sticks with neloth regardless of anything. neloth watching him as he sleeps ensues . Guys what do i do to make my apprentice let me hit because all of the eye contact i do with him while gripping his arm or petting his knee isn't helping.
if we were to go back to how that spark is ignited in neloth swamp of a heart, brain… idk, it has to be when he realizes talvas' capability of forgiveness and 'Sucking it up' instead of lashing out at neloth after .. anything, but perhaps physical abuse in particular. neloth a 100% has absolutely no problem putting his hands on anyone, especially someone he sees so often, such as talvas. not that talvas really annoys him (his clear and voiced obedience pleases neloth as anyone can tell), but he just doesn't see it as too much of a big deal. the physical mistreatment that happens once in a blue moon isn't intense enough to scare off talvas for sure anyways. neloth is a bitch so all he can so is smack him at the back of the head (talvas finds it very normal) and slap him if he's feeling festive (something talvas finds kinda extreme but not that it happens often. he sometimes feels like he deserves it, or that neloth is warranted to do as he pleases. he tosses around it being justified or pitying himself, though). May be possible that neloth would realize he Like Likes talvas once he slaps him, mayhaps, for the first time, but talvas' immediate reaction to being treated like that is just sadness mixed with feeling shame for tearing up/crying in front of someone he respects *bishoujo sparkles sfx*. talvas is a delicate soul so he can't hold warranted emotions like that for long, and even tho it's expected of him to be making eye contact w/ neloth in a setting like that, he wouldn't be able 2 bring himself to do it because looking at neloth would make him wanna burst out in tears like a weeeee baby. Booo hooo.. talvas is the 19th century (4th era) damsel that runs out of the ball in tears after no young cavalier invited her to dance. watch this bleed into the most awkward and silent week of neloth's entire life because talvas doesn't even really feel like speaking to him or looking at him, but neloth doesn't wanna brute force the usual respectful etiquette out of him cus he thinks that's just gonna make talvas hurl himself down on some rough rocks at the seashore. Good thing talvas is very spineless and forgiving (especially in relation to neloth… i mean.. who r YOU to not forgive him) so that might just last a day or two. the hurt always stays tho. neloth this is why talvas doesn't wanna smash you.. you might've made some conclusions about what elven twink you like but talvas is just even more scared of you now. was your Pervert awakening worth it. and even if we do backflips and jump thru the point where everything is too far gone for either of them to go back, dude is still too afraid to make out with his apprentice. Deserve. but why though because talvas wouldn't refuse. for what reason? we may never know
^^^ this makes me feel like i love seeing characters i reaaaalllly love (elenwen and talvas in this case) as enigmas in situations where they're confronted with something so ""Intimate"". elenwen's stance on this is final tho cause she's a grown ass woman and there's no way you could reshape her brain. ulfric left her mind plane in SHAMBLES. talvas has more right (in the literal sense) to be erratic or inconsistent with his actions. maybe he likes to be desired. Also i strongly believe that talvas has probably never been in love (for any reason rly but it's mostly him not having actual time for it + not seeing it as something that is important to him at that point in his life)… i want neloth to be his first experience with Love so that it ruin his view on it forever. can't get myself to say he'd be in love with neloth at any point though. From his standpoint it really should feel empowering and 'nice' that neloth wants him in many ways (ew).. cause that's a man with status.. power.. ability to do anything rly . talvas is in no condition to be playing mind games with him or anything tho so don't get that idea. he's not strong enough of a person to be Tricking anyone or to be Playing with anyone's feelings. neloth would be immune to that, too. neloth can just kinda tell talvas is too good and … UNTAINTED. talvas wants to see the best in everyone. too bad he genuinely detests you, neloth.. so: he doesn't actually love neloth but wouldn't be happy to see his tombstone either. SO (PART TWO): if you time it right he wouldn't be against getting Freakkkkyyyy with you okay?but no promises
even if @ some point talvas develops indistinct feelings towards neloth cause of neloth's own incessant weird-mild advances it wouldn't have to mean he just likes old men permanently now. actually it kinda does. i can sorta feel it rearranging his braincells and making him unable to normally interact with people in his age range. he probably already had a hard time talking to others in hopes of developing a friendship just cause he's timid but after neloth's nonstop abuse and Accidental romance mind games he morphs into a whole new type of guy. it's hard to notice at first but he'd probably just start to leech off of neloth's prissy and unbearable personality in a natural course of things + neloth is the only person he sees and talks to on the regular pretty much. < this can just be reworded as just the cycle of abuse and whatnot. if he notices an opening in the abilities and Smarts of another person, especially someone his age/younger, he will automatically see them as umm…stupid. and also insult your abilities to your face if he snaps. he strikes me as the type to be afraid to say what he really thinks (another consequence of being glued to neloth all the time when all talvas does is act like he totally respects anything he says) and gets scared if anything slips out his mouth but is proud in letting the "Truth" be known because he already figured out you're a lesser being than him. he's just cloning neloth's verbal abuse braincells though he would never put his hands on someone. his desire to be mean and see himself as superior stems from neloth always disparaging him obviously.. talvas 4 that reason is very self conscious of his abilities and doesn't rly think he's all that useful or talented. his self doubt then would play into how he doesn't know when to believe what others are saying to and about him.. i wanna imagine that talvas is very oblivious to neloth's weirdo status just cause he partly doesn't even want that thought to cross his mind. i bet everyone but him sees it and finds it gross😕 but nobody in the vicinity is strong enough to tell neloth that he should be ashamed LMFAO. if you would try and even hint to talvas that it's happening he'd never take you seriously and just get mad. he's protective of neloth's image more than neloth himself is; not that people knowing neloth has abnormal sodomistic inclinations toward his apprentice would make his public image worse than it already is (everyone already thinks he's weird so it's not shocking at all) but talvas still wouldn't wanna hear it cause he thinks it's just false. maybe he's just ashamed that he's being brought into the whole thing. also because he doesn't wanna face the reality EJI23JRIO32KJ Well talvas when neloth makes an actual move on you don't say that we didn't warn you.. we're all waiting till neloth's status as an obvious apprentice-pervert becomes obvious to you
even if he's willingly ignorant of the fact he still thinks of the 'accusations' a lot when he feels like it. and unknowingly begins feeling even more uncomfortable in neloth's presence. heart starts beating faster and everything. neloth could come up to him meters away and talvas would still cover his mouth in realization and be like "i knew it… the DB told me but i didn't wanna believe it …..😦 so you really do like young men … and you're in love with me ..😨" *Neloth wakes up from this fever dream drenched in sweat* < neloth doesn't want (obvi) talvas to react that way at any point because he himself would just get scared so they'd just be staring at each other wide eyed. but talvas jumping into his advances isn't what he wants either (that'll also scare him). neloth is still relying on talvas' politeness to let him do as he pleases. but it is impossible for talvas to let it slide without questioning anything regardless so🤷♀️ take your few Ls and move on. neloth just wants talvas to sit on his lap. wants to spoonfeed him soup. he's so romantic. he also wants to(sniper on rooftop blows my head to bits). neloth is actually a pretty touchy feely person when he's feeling Frisky (=deranged about talvas). I'm certain his favorite part of talvas' body is his legs. talvas has beautiful young man skipping leg day legs. so nothing special at all but neloth wants to touch them lol.. let your master wizard squeeze your calves and he might just be occupied enough like a kid playing with a fidget toy to not abuse you verbally for 3 seconds. as i said befoar neloth is unpleasant with his touch because he doesn't know how to be soft + doesn't even want it to necessarily feel very 'rewarding' as to not pamper talvas. petting talvas kinda turns into a nervous habit for himself and an instrument of some sort of Reassurance 4 talvas when he wants him to know he’s not mad, for example. non-vebal confirmation. talvas still finds it weird but thinks it’s a charm point too. neloth wouldn't even be against touching him familiarly in front of others but only in a "older male figure" ways ex. touching his knee or putting his hand at the back of his neck (talvas sees it as some sort of disciplinary tactic though). physical touch that matches neloth's age and is enough for it to be seen as not necessarily romantic / overtly weird.
there'ssssss no saving talvas after such a powerful person gets his hands on him. any will to leave would leave HIM either out of fear or out of attachment and neloth wouldn't just let him go (Alive at least) since he knows the things he knows. if talvas were to escape i'm a Truther of him not feeling in place and wanting to go back cause it's the stability that he's used to. but tbh if he encounters neloth on accident anywhere he's gonna start running. I was drinking tea while writing this and started choking on it i just nearly died writing this are youhappy. anyways, nelvas is a never-ending abusive relationship that doesn’t even have High highs, all it has is low lows. neloth always mistreats talvas for any reason but is never genuinely kind from the heart or out of remorse. .. hmm……yeah. I forgot to type this back out from my posts tags > talvas might just start viewing neloth as fuck crazy and demented after he Finally notices at least one molecular sign of gay attention from him . like ‘Oh wow Master Neloth obviously doesn’t get any female attention or anything cus he’s a sick fuck why does he have to search for it from me Can varona take the hit for me 🥺 *sees her dead body being dragged by the DB* hmm i guess not well i’ll figure something out i guess’ (he doesn’t) also the dialogue talvas has with varona after he steals neloth’s book trying to conjure some bs up will always be so cute to me he’s so defensive and afraid of neloth finding out. Him trying to decipher neloth’s handwriting is cute TOO ik their 19th century love letters to each other would go crazy and make sense to anyone but each other but i’m not gonna talk about 19th century girl talvas x neloth rn it’s too much . what ever. i think i’m done thank you i should just go back to drawing them as grecian pottery red figures or smthj Fun stats for you 4 getting to the end: times the word ‘abuse’ is used: 6
#text#i've been putting more meaning(?) into the nelvas-es i've been drawing lately so i wanted to see how it would reflect in words#the fact that dis will show up in tags will haunt me a little bit but if i add asteriks it will be incomprehensible LOL#i hope this isn't too hard to understand when reading bc i know i have an easier time reading stuff like this instead of 'snobby' writing -#- bc i like knowing how the thoughts were brewing as they were written down.#but it may not be the case for all people.#what do U think of it.#i think what i;ve always liked the most in being able to talk w/ people Online is getting to know their thoughts on the same thing#more than anything else#i literally sucked and spit out all of the skajrim lore factors out of their relationship pretty much (not that it had much in the first -#- place) so it's just a reading on a possible scenario with the characters i was given#i mean characters i put in the soup pot decorating the middle of my brain#this is december-may 2024 facts for now#just so i remember#abuse //#< OKAY#log#< is gonna be my tag for this type of thing if i end up saying more because i already started torturing my notes app with what i think of -#- civil war characters#tumblr is pussy so it made me reformat the paragraph breaks i made. they don't rly matter anyway but still
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Hi idk if you interact with the evillious chronicles fandom much but was majority of the fandom (at least the eng one) always so toxic? Because since like middle of 2024 I've noticed a lot of drama in the eng fandom for minor things (such as saying that you're #1 fan of x character if someone already says that they're #1 fan of them.) or things that never happened and people ending up having send death threats to them because of that. Obviously I know that fandoms will always have a toxic side but evillious chronicles fandom isn't that big in comparison to other fandoms and still the majority of it is somewhat toxic as hell
This makes me laugh. 2024. This is a 15+ year old fandom.
Yes. And no.
I mean--don't get me wrong, there have always been sane people in it, there have always been pockets of fans that are reasonable and respectful and intelligent (toxic fans typically are a very vocal minority), but there has also always been stupid drama and accusations and flame wars and hatemailing and actually abusive people mixed in with impressionable teenagers. There was a time where it quieted down as everyone got a bit older and more mature (and/or left Evillious for greener pastures), and then it picked up again around the time Evillious got featured in Project Sekai.
I think what you're noticing now is this "newbie boom". I have nothing to do with this new fandom. I'm not in it. I suspect that they are doing a lot of the things that the "old" fans grew out of years ago, but it could be that internet culture in general is more toxic than it used to be (though I will say like. I think Tumblr as a whole has gotten a lot more chill than it was when I first joined? at least the parts I frequent). Unfortunately there is also the inevitable fact that most of the age range Evillious appeals to are tweens, teens, and young adults, who are the most likely to engage in these kinds of toxic social conflicts.
I left the fandom a long time ago and those days when I was more directly involved on the wiki are kind of fuzzy for me (even back then, most of my exposure to the deeper fandom was secondhand). It's possible that it was like months of peace interrupted with the occasional explosion (like when people argued for days over whether or not we could safely consider Gumillia the Master of the Hellish Yard) but my memories of it are a pile of stress and I have no desire to get back into it.
#even if it hasn't always been this toxic#it certainly had a reputation for it#though i do recall there were many times the arguments were reasonable and civil#i am always going to more strongly remember the massive days-long fights#over minor translation and information corrections#also disclaimer that i was myself kind of young at the time#so i didn't come off great all the time either
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By the way I am on both sides at the end of CA: Civil War.
I can understand Tony in the moment losing his mind over the winter soldier having killed his parents.
But like, I also think it’s insane that he thought his “friendship” with Steve is even remotely close to the same level as his with Bucky.
And also Bucky was innocent so…
#like tony you were coworkers dude#bucky has been his person for his entire life#that means a hell of a lot more#also him getting mad at steve in endgame always pissed me off#getting upset that steve wasn’t there to fight thanos with him as if he didn’t stow away on that ship on a whim#while steve was literally also fighting thanos#even if they were on speaking terms there is no guarantee that steve would’ve been there#but i can forgive that because of the malnutrition and imense universal tragedy#the blip can excuse that moment#oh yeah also..#i feel like mentioning that i do like tony stark#i actually dont even really like steve that much#they’re kinda on the same level on how much i like them#i just enjoy criticizing my favourite movies and characters#its fun#captain america civil war#captain america#iron man#steve rogers#tony stark#marvel#mcu#kate's post#sorry for the civil war spam i think this is the last one
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"(...)For the good of our family, I don't think we should work together anymore."
"Uh, okay... Uh, yeah. That's probably a good idea."
#cbs matlock#matlock reboot#matlock 01x09#matlock spoilers?#olympia lawrence#julian markston#skye p. marshall#jason ritter#olympia x julian#julympia?#olympian?#i always appreciate them putting aside their differences for their family and trying to be civil with each other#but... a MESS#not julian daring her to track his location when she suspected his relationship with shae#shout out to the one person who has hope for them#not this last outfit she wore being similar enough to the suit she wore in ep.4 where they bonded over hating his dad#notice how during the video call he looks at her from time to time but she can't really look at him? OOF#i watched last night's episode too and... YEESH#i honestly predicted that they would stop working at the same firm in the season finale#tw: cheating#wait... but do we know if the elijah and olympia relationship is an actual affair that happened while they were together?#and do we know if the shae and julian thing is a one-time thing or a repeated offense?#because olympia would be a hypocrite if that were the case and julian would be more of a scumbag if he repeatedly saw shae#... do i even want this relationship? /hj#what happened to the four episodes where we were happy???#he looked so sad when she said they shouldn't work together anymore#but at least they agree on something...?#we're WORSE off than when we started this season...#if we get happier flashbacks of them i'm losing it#so... they first met at the firm while working a case
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heeeeeeeeey its me. pvp civ lunch person. i'm currently in a very small cabin which luckily has wifi so. I'M HERE with a uhhhh some stuff
ok weird not really thingy note something. not really a hc i fear :( but anyways enough yapping
eighth wonder by lemon demon is so pvp evbo core :3 lyric analysis attack !!!!!!!!!! !!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!
pre chorus (?): " and i have hands // and i have feet // i'll never die // i am a freak " pretty self explanatory? he's just a guy, he can't permanently die, he's a weird anomaly
chorus: " hello, I'm here // im living in the wall // i know i might be small, but // i, i, i am a freak " he just kinda there man idk
this part: " thou wilt never // know what i am // i am the fifth dimension // and i'll split the atom " nobody knows what's up with that weird guy that talks to himself. he then proceeds to do crazy things (also five layers???!!)
chorus 2.0: " hello, i'm here // i'm living in the wall // i know i might be small // but I am the eighth wonder " he's the eighth wonder trust
this other part: " i say "vanished" // to underground // jim, let me go // i watch like hell " he goes. DOWN . TO DIAMOND AND GOLD SWORD. SECRET. jim is the iron swords ok right good
ending part: " eighth wonder of the world // you'll never get to see // what in the name of god can I be? " yea he's special ok he's weird he's bizarre
ok that's it i skipped some lyrics cuz idk what to say but uhhhhh pvp evbo coded song when. happy new years hope u have a good 2025 :)
-pvp civ lunch person :3
HIIIHIHI PVPCIV LUNCH PERSONNNNN HIII
RAHHHH I LOVE THIS SONG SM💥💥💥💥💥💥💥
aaaanywayyyy :] yeah i agree himcore indeed
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If I see one more "poor Izzy was in an abusive relationship for twenty years :'(" take I'm going to set this pirate ship on fire.
#you don't get to erase the gorgeous fucked up mutual toxicity of their consent-free sadomasochist trauma survival relationship on MY watch#they SAVED EACH OTHER and MADE EACH OTHER and FUCKED EACH OTHER UP and it was so so bad it was sooooo gooooooooood#like i know disk horse has trained us to think there can only be The Abuser and The Abused and one is always bad and one is always blameless#but babies sometimes relationships are fucked up and when it's fictional it can be so gorgeous like come on#izzy got so hard when fed his toe I'm surprised he didn't have an aneurysm and die right then#if you're gonna claim him as queer then let him be QUEER not an uwu sanitized self insert okay?#he was fine with losing his toe he wasn't fine with losing his playmate#and blackbeard came back WRONG#this thing the two of them created this fucked up dangerous pirate game called blackbeard wasn't about belonging anymore#it wasn't about the two of them surviving the cruelty of their former captain or the worse cruelty of civilized society#it was a caricature and it had to die#and it did in the end#and Izzy realized he didn't need it anymore#and Ed didn't need it#and he was so so happy about it#that was worth dying for#ugh I'm so in love with this story#anyway Izzy wasn't abused & he was abused & he was an abuser & he saved Edward & they were so bad for each other & they loved each other#learn to love complicated fucked up harmful problematic things babies#because you are one#and you deserve love too
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huntclaire divorce au. everything is exactly the same but wait i was going to make a joke here but i’m actually very invested in this
#just imagine how WEIRDER they’d be about each other. this is crazy#i need them to divorce and then hunt makes a movie immediately after and he casts claire as the lead. and the movie is weirdly personal#and everyone in the cast is like. is this movie about the divorce. no it is not. but yes it also is. hunt and claire are unaware#there's a brazilian director who divorced his wife and then cast her in his next movie andthe movie is the greatest love letter ever.to her#this is what i'm aiming for here. do you see my vision? okay so they argue all the time on set. she does NOT follow his direction#this is why i divorced you by the way you were always like. saying stuff. you're always saying stuff! you're annoying and pathetic and stup#they cannot even be NEAR each other. need to talk to either of them? do not do it while the other oneis in the room.they WILL make it weird#they will start bickering and they will forget about you i am so sorry. if they try to be civil it's like. this was so thoughtful of you!#i wish SOME PEOPLE were like this. i was actually very thoughtful you were the one who was always demanding attentionWHATof COURse I WAS!?#hunt keeps his wedding ring in his side pocket. claire loves calling him her stupid ex husband. ew my wretched ex husband.#whole time they can't keep their hands off each other. which could mean anything#why did they get divorced? no one has any idea. no one knows anything about these two actually. why would he cast her. why would they marry#why are they torturing everyone. is this like A Thing to them. yes. claire gives him cold coffee every time and he drinks it every time jus#so she doesn't get the satisfaction. also you should NOT interfere if they're arguing because then it's going to be YOUR FAULT#you may ask. hsslilly! what's the difference between this and canon huntclaire. well they're actually divorced here. see.#this means something to me. and to them too. plus they actually mean this on some level. normal huntclaire are doing a very convoluted bit#here claire would choke hunt with his tie if given the chance. and then they would make out. this happened like twice.#okay i'll stop!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#huntclaire#wait the blood necklace should still exist in this au
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why Was 70's design so fucking good btw? like no other era was That good with its design.
like specifically the design you think of when you think "70's," like the mustards and oranges and browns in fun geometric or complex patterns, the unique ways form was used in so many designs, even the fashion had really interesting silhouettes.
like it already used my favourite colours a Lot, but on top of that, it also just had a lot of interesting, novel ideas and it's just, idk man.
also like 70's was the disco era and disco fucking rules. and like funk was still huge too and gd i fucking love funk.
like idk man it was just an impeccable era aesthetic. literally my absolute fav.
#70's designs and 70's inspired designs and honestly just anything that makes me feel '70's' fucking rules#i know i was just goofing about how ppl always seem to love the old way things looked but 70's is just So good#also 80's is pretty good i'm a big fan of the 80's fashion and musical aesthetics#and lots of the designs like furniture and stuff in that era were Really good.#i just think 70's wins out Slighlty for me#'why was 70's design so good' adi asks then answers her own question#well i mean like my question wasn't like Why Do I like it it was 'what happened to make these the trends?' yk?#answer? probably the civil rights movement lmao#like so much of the culture and fashion popular then is heavily associated with black culture yk
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