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#i had a crush on my friend a while back#and I told him and he was like#ew we’re both boys#and we’re not really friends anymore#and I technically had a girlfriend#but I didn’t really like her romantically#she’s still my friend#ooc: he’s demiromantic and gay#lca#lca jacob davis#lego city adventures#oc jacob davis
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Going out is literally so boring to me rn I can’t believe I used to do it every weekend at one point
#It’s so boring it’s so BORING#I’d rather be swimming in a creek or having a picnic or running through the woods and eating almonds#I always cycle bw going out every weekend and never going out but rn I’m in my anti phase I literally cannot be bothered#I need someone who wants to replicate my ideal Friday plans aka sit in comfy pjs and play we’re not really strangers#And alcohol dries my skin ):#But it’s all my friends do every weekend#It’s so uninteresting I can’t pretend to care anymore#Even if it means doing ochem notes on a Friday instead
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That panic you feel when the girl that was literally your gay awakening walks into your place of work while you’re just. Swiffering. And you make eye contact.
#Its been nearly six years now dammit I thought I’d moved on#but nooo anytime I see her my mind just goes blank and turns into oh my god she’s hot and also the incident which is why don’t talk now#I managed a conversation but was freaking out the whole time aha#we’ve barely spoken since then like we’re not even really friends anymore just friendly strangers at this point#sigh I want to be her friend again maybe shoot my shot again I say like the delusional clown I am#I’m going to go listen to good luck babe now and just overthink
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tbh when mitski said “you’re my best friend/now i’ve no one to tell/how i lost my best friend”
#my freshman year of college my best friend and I were both a wreck#and on opposite sides of the country#during winter break I made the decision to share certain information with their parents bc I was actively concerned for their safety#they were deeply upset about me betraying their trust like that and asked for a break in our friendship#(a few months later (which happened to be early March 2020. lol) they did shrooms and realized they wanted to talk to me again lmao)#(so we talked and cried and now we’re still best friends almost 4 years later)#and my birthday is in january so it fell right in the middle of the period we weren’t talking#and my friends at school actually put together a really lovely party and it remains to this day the best bday party ive had#(most of my bdays have been sad and shitty lol)#but i just remember being drunk in my friends dorm room with my friends all around me#it was the end of the night people were just kinda chatting in little groups or whatever#and i was lying on my friends bed just miserable bc all I could think about was how my best friend was supposed to be there too#bc my parents were going to fly them out for the weekend as a present#and obviously that just got dropped#and id been talking to my friends about it kind of but all I wanted was my actual best friend#I left them a very embarrassing drunk voicemail that THANK GOD they deleted without listening to#but it’s just. the quiet agony of being angry and sad and hurt because your person doesn’t want to be ur person anymore#and still wanting to talk to them about it. still needing them to comfort you and give you their advice and insights#i don’t want to talk to anyone else about it. they’re not you.#sigh. anyway. ive actually lost several close friends for various reasons ranging from reasonable to bullshit#and it always blindsides me how much I want to talk to THEM about it#so thanks mitski for expressing that so artfully#op
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posting him because if he can make one person smile today, its worth it
#there is this lovely man from gaza at the marches with his sister (?) and family and he has pet rurik a few times#and at the march three weeks ago he saw him walking behind him and exclaimed ’oh i know this dog!’ as in#’oh this dog is my friend’#i just started crying immediately#i couldnt even continue shouting the slogans for a good while#we’re all human you know#its literally that simple but people dont understand?#sorry but isnt that why we’re all here on this earth? pets included?#if he can make only one person smile; good#i dont really feel like smiling anymore but i wish it for other people#last week he told me he used to have a white dog but it got shot#thats the reality for some people and yet whats the difference between us?#geography#personal#this is from last week. there were ten times the usual crowd because it was a joint protest for different cities#it was so nice
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Thinking about her again (acod my goodbye animatic with thaena and kihrin at the end of memory of souls)
#since we’re talking about epic in the acod tag let me have this#could also work with teraeth for the first part but i can’t really see him arguing back#a chorus of dragons#epic the musical#unlike you every time someone dies i have to deal with the strain#<- kihrin mourning the people he’s lost when she’s literally the goddess of death#you’re not looking for a mentor i’m not looking for a friend i mistook you for a general what a waste of effort spent#<- thaena looking at kihrin and seeing s’arric who was her friend and their general but everything’s changed now#after all you’re just a man#<- do i need to explain. he’s not s’arric anymore he’s not a god#also ‘you’re alone’ because at this point she’s willing to kill teraeth and has pushed everyone away#i need you to see my vision. i need to learn to animate right now
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Everyone who plagiarizes fic is slimey, it’s true we know this. But everyone who supports and reads plagiarized fic? Slimeballs in their own category.
Don’t think you’re getting away with it. We see you.
It’s not two cakes when one is entirely stolen cake!!!
#Steddie fandom has a real problem of ‘we’re all friends here!’#Which really translates to ‘I have no backbone or ethics so I’ll just turn the other way’#or rather ‘I’ll be fake as fuck and support plagiarism and the source material’#get the fuck out of my face#I’m done! Y’all can have these hack job unrecognizable characters that were once Steve and Eddie#I don’t want them anymore and I want nothing to do with yall anymore
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I am very sick of the notion that codependents are empathetic people. Codependents are extremely narcissistic in terms of their goals and behaviors. (Narcissistic, not saying they all have NPD, though some of them certainly do.) You are not an “empath”. You are not even in touch with your own feelings, you are simply hyper-vigilant, and often times your fight, flight, freeze, and especially fawn responses, are extremely off-putting and uncomfortable to even a slightly more well-adjusted person. I believe codependents and even Cluster B’s are capable of (total, not impaired) empathy, but only after reversing toxic patterns of relationship behavior. This, however, is in no way their FAULT. I would not say that being codependent or someone with any Cluster B personality disorder (who all have narcissistic traits) is in any way that person’s FAULT. But it unfortunately is their responsibility now. I do not view this relational style (of codependency or narcissistic) as unfixable or irreversible. I would argue that every single person who is codependent or has a Cluster B PD one hundred percent has C-PTSD. (There are people with C-PTSD who have done more healing work and do not fall into these categories but that’s not who I’m talking about.) If you are codependent or are in Cluster B, you have sustained significant trauma, most likely from your parents, and you now have a warped idea of healthy and acceptable communication. You most likely have sustained a thousand little cuts from them while growing up. Being belittled, shamed, degraded, devalued, discarded, threatened, ignored, neglected, silenced, and deemed completely unworthy of genuine love. That is unacceptable and even unforgivable in some cases. I would never condone that. I wish you healing forever.
But this trauma has created a shame core at the center of your self concept, causing you to set off on a lifelong journey to try to feel good about yourself, rather than actually give or receive love. I am sorry that this is harsh and blunt, I mean it with all compassion and understanding. I have been codependent myself and have struggled to be direct with people in the past out of fear and I became an enabler of some really terrible behavior. I was terrible myself. I was (unintentionally) manipulative, as are all codependents. I was selfish when I should have been brave enough to tell those around me what my intuition was warning me of (that we were all falling down a bad path.) I do not like who I was. It was not my fault but it is my responsibility to continue the forever journey of gathering self-awareness and growing. I am not done and I hope I never tire of learning how to be better. I hope you can take something away from this. I’m sorry I’m all over the place, I have a lot of thoughts and I’m over seeing codependent and narcissistic behavior continuing to be the norm. This is not from a self-righteous place, I most definitely have work to do, truly for the rest of my life, I just wanted to speak about the patterns I have noticed since starting to dismantle my own trauma and toxic patterning. I wish you all well.
#mine#codependency#codependent#narcissism#narcissistic abuse#codependent abuse#tired of the perpetual victim hood#you do not get to play victim and hero anymore!#victim: my life’s been so hard i can’t help it i went through so much etc#hero: i’m keeping this family/friend group together i’m a good person i’m doing so well#victim: needs to sustain pity and sympathy#hero: needs to sustain ‘good’ image to themself and others and garner praise#vulnerable narcissist#also basically#bpd#malignant narcissist#grandiose narcissist#histrionic personality disorder#etc#im not putting any of this shit into a hierarchy of good to bad bc it really doesn’t matter#everyone could always be better and i believe we’re all capable#release victimhood#release delusion#release denial#release self righteousness#release the idea that you are ‘good’ or ‘bad’ and just be BETTER
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i want him to want me. i dont care if he hurts me, i just want to believe that i can be wanted, and loved, and actually feel it. i want to believe i can be loved.
#i cant imagine it#i dont believe when my parents say they love me: how could they? they would be crazy to love me#and everyone else shows blatantly how little they care for me#i tell myself people must treat me this way because they assume i dont need to be worried about#that there is someone to care for me and love me#that i am not as utterly alone as i am#its ironic#we’re all so violently alone#not really#they may be alone. but they have company#in friends and in happiness#in people who care somewhat#i dont#i wish i could understand why#but im just#strange#unlovable#undesirable#weird and ugly#i do this to myself#it wouldnt matter if i disappeared one day#i want to go some place far away from here#maybe i should pursue accounting#i have no talent in it but atleast ill have no trouble finding a job#ill settle someplace far from here#and maybe ill be happy#just once#i wish i was different#i wish everything was different#i dont want to live in a hole anymore
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The weekly catch-up phone calls with my soulmate who broke up with me “for my own good” yet still expects me to be his best friend are becoming more a source of anxiety than comfort lately folks
-Riley
#the breakup#<in case anyone wants to blacklist I’m starting a tag for it#I’ve been working on breaking the fp bond bc I literally cannot survive with him still being my fp and it’s working a little bit#until like. the night & day before the call rolls around and all the feelings come flooding back and I can’t sleep or focus#Monty is trying to get me to go no contact#Vic is trying to get me to space out conversations to every other week#I hate how much he’s still affecting me tbh. I need it to stop or I’m going to go insane fr#it’s getting to the point where my system is honestly unsure whether or not we’re still compatible as FRIENDS anymore#cuz like. doesn’t feel like it#but I still really really don’t want to lose them#so I’m resistant to stepping back entirely#but I think I can agree to Vic’s suggestion
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One of my friends applied for MAiD
I just. I wish there were better ways to help
#I’m really sad#but we can also tell they’re dying and maybe this’ll be less painful and it’s just. I don’t want to lose them#suicide tw#euthanasia#ableism#I told them I’d support them in whatever they choose bc I hate seeing them suffer but that i treasure their company#they haven’t told their family I’m the only person to know#they’re in so much pain and can’t stop losing weight and nothing helps anymore but it’s still#that’s my friend#we’re supposed to take a trip together once we’re able to handle it and now we might never#they don’t want to die they just want help and no one will help them while they’re alive
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I wanna know more about the anamolies au you mentioned
Tbh it’s not like fleshed out at all.
The general idea is Miles sorta denouncing Spiderman as a mythos and entity and basically doing the most to get rid of the ideas and value of what makes a spiderman. Basically erasing the idea of Spider-Man’s canon events.
The Spot is there as like his means to an end that over time Miles forms a pseudo mutual mentor relationship that is less than healthy as he become more of a anti-villain than the basic villainy Spot was trying to be. Like Miles is weirdly still just misguided on the opposite side of Miguel; Wanting to prove his theory wrong so bad that he disregards the parts that hold up, putting everyone in danger.
I think the next biggest thing is Miles gets a step further than Miguel in recognizing tropes, like a second wind or shit like the power of friendship that coincide with canon and being able to plan a head. Sorta like a Deadpool sense (aware he’s in a comic) but he’s not aware this is a story more so he just realizes the repetition in how things play out
#overall Miles becomes like really ominous cause he just starts to know or predict how things go along#he’s not like always a head of the game but combined with his friends not really wanting to hurt him#anymore than they’ve already have he gets jumpstarts in places they could’ve taken him down#the spot is just like we’re a duo until Miles like evil laughs and the. he’s like what have I gotten myself into#miles is just really traumatized about being a mistake and copes by embracing the idea he’s not canon by going outside it#miles morales#the spot#johnathan ohnn#atsv#across the spiderverse#atsv spoilers#anamolies au
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Oh so NOW he decides to actually haunt me
#old childhood friend unexpectedly is at the week-long meeting we’re at#hadn’t seen him in at least two or three years#seldom saw him even for a couple years before that#brain did stupid things with the information that he was the only guy I knew when I was a teenager so before That I spent a few years#IGNORING him as best I could#because I hated having thoughts motivated by brain chemicals it’s STUPID and UNFAIR that brains do that to teens#but both his older sisters including my childhood best friend went off the rails at least for awhile#and we’re not friends anymore#and from what I’ve heard he’s been alright#and it’d be nice to know at least one thing one person I grew up with is doing alright#and then he shows up#completely enexpectedly#and then isn’t there for the evening#??#no idea if he’s actually left left or if he’s going to be there for any of the rest of the meeting?.?#bit disappointing if not#I didn’t get to talk to him#doing the mental equivalent of sitting on the floor with my head against the wall#telling myself not to make too much of his reappearance#and not to be too disappointed if he really isn’t here for the rest of the week#feather rambles#oh we haven’t lived remotely near each other for nearly a decade also#thus the very intermittent visits on our part
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lowkey. Not over my ex at all
#It’s been months man#And yet I still feel the ever lasting effects#Am k cruel? Manipulative? I don’t think I am but he said I was and I so badly want to believe it#Cuz maybe I’ll actually fix what’s wrong with me and people will actually love me#also s very love sick in the sense that I need someone to be in love with me#But going t4t hasn’t worked out that well for me (cough cough my ex..)#N I don’t wanna fuck up coming out to any cis guys#Which idek if I truly like them or if I’m just so desperate I’ll fall in love with anyone as long as they treat me right#I think one of th things keeping me from getting over him is the fact that he was so affectionate??? And I had gotten so used to that#Constant feeling cuz I never really had it before and now that I don’t have it anymore I don’t know what to do with myself#Not to mention I’m too scared to do all that again because he always wanted more despite my protests#I fucking hate this. How can I be touch starved and repulsed at the same time#I can’t do this shit anymore man. Fuck.#Vent#There r certain people o wish could see this but none of them use tumblr fuck fuck fuck#Me when one had mild crushes on cis guys )okay maybe just one that I don’t even think saw me as a real friend in the one semester k had wit#Him…) but we’re so different and I think he hates me and he’s friends with my friends and ijhhhhwj#I hate hate hate love#Hate being in love. Hate that I can’t be in love. Hate that nobody loves me#I actually cannot take this shit anymore it’s one of the only things that truly ever gets to me anymore
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Today was the second birthday this year of a friend that I thought I was really close with that i didn’t get invited to
#birthday#fake friends#friend group#I’ve literally counseled this girl through half her shit this year and then she doesn’t even invite me to her birthday that she invited#people she barely talks to too and then after that she turns around and hangs out with my fucking brother of all people#I can’t wait for a new school next year so I can finally get away from the people who stopped appreciating me a long time ago#I know it sounds kinda selfish but I truly have not done anything (in the last 4 years) to ever hurt or fully disregard them and I really#don’t know what happened#one week we were waking to and from school together everyday and now I feel like I’ve been rejected from our walking group and I’m literally#uncomfortable walking with them in the mornings because they just fully ignore me the entire time#this isn’t even about just the one friend anymore#this is also happening with someone else who was supposed to be my best friend and now she barely talks to me anymore#and like I can accept that we’re not bffs anymore cause it happened a year or two ago so I’ve moved passed it#but she just pretends I don’t exist anymore#we have like three classes together and on snap she got an send it that’s said like tag your fav people on each class#and when I tell you i was in the room with her when she posted I and she didn’t even mention me#istfg#im gonna stop now because this is getting extremely ranty but I can’t really talk to anyone about this irl so this is just my vent space now
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tell me your failed/embarrassing flirting stories to make me feel better, i’ll go first: today i said “get out of my way” forgot to say “i’m kidding” then immediately said “bye”
#it is awful having feelings for someone you know and have an established friendship with#but crushing on someone i barely know is knew to me and i legit feel like an idiot every time i do something stupid like this#i can’t just. talk to the guy#if i say hey and he says sup i say ‘sup indeed’ like what the fuck is that#i can barely even say hello to him#don’t get me wrong i’ve DONE it but most days i’m like#ah fuck there he is#okay you can do it just say hi#just say what’s up#and then he’s already gone#also. like. the setting we’re in is soooo not good for talking or flirting realt because um. it’s work he’s my coworker.. so um. do i fuckin#ask him for his number?? or to hang out??? but like. he’s kind of a stranger to me what do i want to hang out for 🧍#but like. i dont want to do that until i have at least one successful interaction#or like. an actual conversation.#which is gonna be really hard to manage because he doesn’t talk much at all to anyone and i really only talk if someone talks to me first or#i’ll say something absolutely idiotic and ridiculous (and honestly i do that no matter what)#anyway so um. i guess i’m just gonna keep making a fool of myself until i get it right and hopefully i don’t screw it up 🥴#i lost all my confidence in the last year and i cant do anything chill or smooth anymore (i was never that good in the first place but at#least i could PRETEND i knew what i was doing. like i could sell it. the whole weird and lost bit.)#anyway. i felt better for like 5 minutes when some guy at the gas station flirt failed with me on the way home. but that’s partly my fault#too oops. in his defense he probably could not see that i had headphones on bc upon mirror inspection they were well blended with my hair#but i was waiting to cross the street and this guy tried to like nod and smile and i did not know it was to me until i got to the other side#where the gas station was and and like. tried again and i awkward half smiled and saw his face get all mushy and confused like mine FELT 20#mins before when i’d flopped so hard trying to flirt and by the time i’d processed WAIT i think he was FLIRTING WITH ME i was already gone 🤡#but at least it ended better than the poor 14yo who very confidently asked for my number#who. i shit you not. SCREECHED for a solid 44.5 seconds and bolted the other direction when i said sorry im 21#his friends were standing there like wtf too and one was like i am so sorry about him 🤦#cheers to being fools universe
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