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qiinamii · 1 year ago

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we'll do fine.

#fionna and cake spoilers #what hits me a little is how similar fionna and simon's stories are in the case of finding nuance in their lives #when both have gone through their separate but still valid pain no matter the extent it had been #and its that they met each other they get to see how it compares and they're no less worth of the peace and fun they dreamed of #even in the form of simplicity and just being normal #“i wouldn't have met THE fionna and cake” “we wouldn't have met THE simon petrikov”#it hits me harder that after the dandelion scene would've been their last time seeing each other physically #and how assuring simon sounded when fionna didn't know what to do with the literal world in her hands #tho im sure prismo isnt that much of a rule jerk lol i still drew out the revelation anyway with this tiniest addition #also the fact fionna's world is influenced by simon's thought processes and conditions so now things are a little better for both of them #fionna the human #fionna campbell #simon petrikov #qiiarts #the lil flashback of #betty grof #fionna and cake #adventure time

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angelsdean · 11 months ago

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Dean remembering Hell in Supernatural: Bobby Singer's Guide to Hunting.

(for context they're up against a Greek Goddess that is feeding on their memories--preferring the good ones--so Dean starts remembering all his worst ones to hurt her)

#society if dean got a proper hell trauma arc #also notice how sam only remembers SECONDS of his time in hell. dean vividly remembers years worth of brutal torture.#like not diminishing the fact that sam suffered at the hands of lucifer but their hell trauma IS very different.#sam's was mostly psychological. he was never on the rack like dean was. he was in the cage with lucifer playing mind-games.#dean's trauma was bodily. physical. unimaginable brutal pain and torture.#sam gets his hell trauma taken by cas. effectively lifting the burden. he knows factually what happened but the trauma response is gone #dean never gets that. dean never has the memories scrubbed clean or the body's trauma response lifted.#dean is the one that teaches sam the 'pain trick' to distinguish between reality and hell hallucination. why does he know this?#bc he's dealing with his own hell trauma. probably seeing Alistair like sam sees lucifer. the difference is we never get to hear abt it #bobby's guide to hunting #hell trauma #dean and hell

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stop-breaking-my-heart-dragonage · 6 months ago

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You ever think about how in spite of knowing their exact locations, the game never gives any indication that templar Carver has reported his mage sibling, Merril (a blood mage) or Anders (an abomination) to his superiors?

I do think about that a lot, even though I tend to ignore the Templar Carver route because I know Warden Carver to be true in my heart and soul... but I totally get the appeal of Templar Carver within DA2's narrative, y'know?

It's so fascinating, really. I've never played a run with Templar Carver, I just can't bring myself to do it, so I know I'm missing out on smaller details of it. From what I do know, this drives me crazy in the best way possible.

Deciding whether to bring him or not to the Deep Roads is such an important choice, not only because it affects his fate, but how it affects his relationship to Hawke. He tells you that he wants to go, he makes it very clear that it's important to him that he goes, too... and Hawke can just leave him behind and it hurts him. I don't think that registers enough with some people just because of how Carver is, like it doesn't matter what Hawke's motivations are [staying behind for his safety, not wanting to bring him, thinking someone should stay with Leandra, etc] it still hurts him because it tells him that Hawke doesn't need him, and Carver wants to be needed.

And yes, there are other contributing factors to why he joins the templars, but it doesn't matter what your relationship is to him, it doesn't change the fact that he doesn't turn Hawke or his companions in.

Sure, the meta reason is it's a video game and you're playing the main character. You're never in any actual danger of being captured by templars, and you're not going to lose your companions to them that easy.

But if we look at it through the narrative and Carver's character, that's when it gets interesting. You can max out his rivalry and be an utter asshole to him [there's a point where you can call him a brat and mock him for being stuck in your shadow, like Hawke can be real cruel about it] but it doesn't matter, you're still his sibling. He even makes a remark about how you might not know what that means [referring to leaving him behind] but he does. He refuses to kill Hawke in the end when Meredith makes the order, too.

Which can I just point out that Hawke has the option to let Bethany die in the end if she's with the circle and they side with the templars? Just saying, Carver NEVER does that no matter what, but Hawke has the option to betray Bethany like that and it's fucked and interesting and it makes me want to eat my chair-

As for Merrill and Anders, I think he knows that if he turns either of them in, then the chances of Hawke being brought in as well skyrocket. They're all friends, they're in the same group... bring one in, and you'll probably get the other two.

I also think Carver just genuinely likes Merrill. Yes, I'm a Carver/Merrill shipper, so I have a bias, but even if you remove anything romantic from their dynamic I believe that's true. Of all the companions, Merrill is the only one who doesn't make fun of him, or find him annoying, in party banters. He never snaps back at her, like he's never defensive with her, he's just a little awkward and nice.

Like, HE'S SO NICE TO HER! He tries to find common ground with her! She asks him about "swording" and he's taken aback by her saying he's good at it, but you KNOW that if someone like Anders asked him the same question, he's be all, "shut up, you're stupid, stop talking to me >:["

Think back to that banter Carver can have with Aveline post-act 1 where they're talking about how the guard wasn't the right place for him [hard disagree with you there, Aveline] and Carver says he was a bit of a tit, wasn't he.... and every companion will agree except Merrill. She doesn't say anything, whereas other companions like Anders will be like "ugh maker YES" and if you have a purple Hawke, they'll go on to other ways Carver was a tit like?? I think Carver and Merrill got along and he doesn't want to turn her in because she was nice to him! And she's a blood mage! He knows what will happen to her if the templars get ahold of her! He doesn't want to see her made tranquil or killed!

At that point, he's witnessed what bad blood mages can do, assuming you've brought him along for those quests, but even so. He knows Merrill isn't like that and he likes her, so of course he's not going to turn her in despite that being his literal duty.

Then there's Anders who Carver doesn't like. If you're in a romance with him, Carver will tell him that's why he doesn't turn him in but c'mon Carver, you know that's not the only reason. My theory is Carver may not like Anders and he knows the man's got a spirit of justice inside of him... but Anders also runs a free clinic. If he's ever taken in by templars, then so many people [including a LOT of Fereldan refugees] will be without free health care and will suffer for it. I think in Carver's eyes, Anders might be irritating but he doesn't more good than harm. Carver knows first hand how shitty refugees and poorer people are treated in Kirkwall. Anders' clinic is the one place they can go for help and actually get it, and he's not going to be the one to take that away because the templars say "magic bad."

So yeah, I'm not as informed about the Templar Carver route, but I do think about how if I did do that route, he wouldn't betray Hawke or their companions no matter what and what that says about him.

#asks #dragon age 2 #da2 #carver hawke #da2 merrill #da2 anders #listen i love carver hawke okay he and bethany are my favorite companions in da2 #i could talk endlessly about the twins and their roles in story and how unfair it is that only one of them can make it to kirkwall #meaning we hardly get to see them interact with each other before one dies and UGH #like i get it their stories rely heavily on them being the only mage or non-mage in the sibling trio so both of them living #would've meant writing two different origins stories for them with different attitudes affected by having another siblings that like them #but also i think if hawke's a rogue then leandra should've died and we could've worked it out okay #ANYWAY... templar carver amirite? i know i should go that route just to say i have and to see it for myself but hhhnnnggggg...#it physically pains me to think of not bringing him to the deep roads though it's so important to him and my hawke works so hard #to repair his relationship with his brother okay i max out carver's friendship every time and it's so worth it #you don't understand okay friendship carver is the best he's so goddamn sweet i can't handle it #it's actually so interesting how bethany and carver start out versus how they end because bethany starts out as the super sweet one #whereas carver's surly and bitter... but past act 1? it's like they flip?? at least on the warden paths like bethany is BRUTAL #she's so fucking bitter and rude and I love it?? like her relationship with hawke is in the trenches whereas carver's is vastly improved #again no matter your approval with him when you reunite in act 2 he will ALWAYS tell hawke that 'i'm sure you did your best'#referring to leandra's death but bethany's response will change depending on your approval with her #and if i remember right the rivalry response is OOF #carver and bethany turn me into a little giggling gremlin i love them so much

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dingle-sugden · 10 months ago

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faith in the future deserves to win album of the year for all this time alone

#and i keep on building mountains hoping that they'll turn to gold #but the truth is i still doubt that what i do can get me home #our eyes meet and i can tell that you’re the same as me?#it’s the way we see ourselves through walls of trees?#but the friends we make the love it takes it’s worth the pain?#a masterpiece #logan.txt

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bunnihearted · 4 months ago

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regardless of the "learn how to be alone" dravel, being lonely actually is really bad for your mental health and can be very painful :p

#i've been doing so so bad #and i've had breakdowns frequently this past week #and i dont have friends or family or a partner or even a therapist lmao #so im alone and thus only feeling worse and worse #my mom has been in an unusual bad mood lately so i havent been able to talk to her at all #but today she asked me to go to her to the store bc she wanted me to buy smth #and on the way we watched the snails and she found them cute (she has never appreciated snails before)#and now i instantly feel a bit better and a bit more normal after only 15 min of hanging out with her #it's so easy for ppl who have family or friends or a partner to judge and criticize me #but like.... u have ppl close to u and u know nothing abt what it feels like to be in my position #it's so condescending and lacking of compassion #i dont understand your pov either but at least im not TELLING YOU directly how much i judge you #like ppl judge me so hard for feeling miserable in my loneliness... but it's easy for u to say those things #like u dont feel my despairing loneliness bc u have a fkn partner. u have fkn friends. or a fkn family. easy for u to judge me from up ther #anyway im much better at being alone than most ppl bc im still alive and im enduring the pain every day #other ppl have ppl around them 💀 only others who are all alone can understand how much it hurts #and it wont be fixed by loving yourself or loving to be alone or whatever other bs they use to criticize u ._.#being alone IS harmful to your health. there are studies on it and im not just making that shit up #i AM allowed to feel pain bc i dont have anyone #ugh esp ppl w partners who can receive physical and romantic attention.... when they judge me.....#stfu forever u have no idea how i feel 💀 and u could never know simply by having had a partner at all...#but yeah. it bothers me too bc i NEVER see someone on here and go #damn i hate this sm i gotta let them know by sending them anons or vague post abt them #like i dont get up in their faces and tell them all my judgemental or bitter or hateful thoughts abt them #even this post is only bc other ppl have taken the liberty to without my consent or having asked tell me directly how pathetic i am #how im not allowed to feel alone. how i have a victim mentality so on and so forth #i never tell other ppl things like that. even if i think them (which honestly i rarely do unless they're extremely toxic TO other ppl) i wo #say shit abt it to them.... ??? like why?#when i sometimes see like ppl have friends on here or talk abt their partners i can feel bitter and jealous #bc im surrounded by seeing things i so deeply crave but im not a humanbeing worth of those things

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masterfuldoodler · 9 months ago

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If half alive has 1000 fans I am one of them. If half alive has 1 fan, I am that fan

#text #august rambles #this is brought to you by seeing someone's review for them. and saying they didn't like the ep because it was standard #and that now not yet was better but had a bunch of poor songs. some of them bad #they even said still feel wasn't good because it was appealing too much to 'teen angst'#anyway i couldn't read the rest i had to leave #it was too painful i like the music too much we viewed it from different standpoints ack #i see a lot of people saying half alive is knock off twenty one pilots and like i see what they're saying. they are similar but #why does that mean its a knock off. what if they are just similar. half alive is clearly doing they're own thing. they're not copying them #maybe. that is just what that band is good at doing! the same as twenty one pilots. just cuz twenty one pilots came first doesn't mean #they own the scene. (you can argue they're better at they're music but if you're gonna do that make sure you're comparing the early stuff)#anyway rant about this because. i really like half alive and just dsbkncjnvb you don't need to be a fan #you don't need to think they're awesome. you can have an opinion outside of mine #but please be nice. and remember. it's Your opinion it's not Truth. if you don't like the song. you don't like it #if you think the repetition is boring. its not for you. if the 'angst' is stupid. its not for you. if the song doesn't hold weight.#it's not for you. the artist wrote this. and worked with other people to publish it #clearly they cared and other people saw worth in it. and like!! the fact that they're not big name also means they Can't get away with like #stupid filler stuff. they don't have enough of a name they gotta impress #idk i care too much. i see things like this and im just. ugh. it feels pretentious #half alive

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opens-up-4-nobody · 2 months ago

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#oh lads. lads. lads. lads. im being sucked back into the world of academia #i dont even kno what happened. a week ago i was crying bc i was like: this is impossible. i simply cannot do this.#and then i went into the lab sunday and miraculously i was able to easily read some papers. like i dont kno how to discribe how baffling it #was. like reading papers is like pulling teeth and this was somehow easy. i think maybe it was bc i let myself get distracted and wander #thru it. and then after that i got so much done this week and i was tired but having fun. and like the thing is: i fucking love evolution #it's like puzzling out the code for life in both a metaphical and literal sense. its fucking incredible. and my project is also very #interesting. if a bit intimidating in its scope. ya kno. just in the way photosynthesis is generally intimidating #but i think i have a strain thats lost chlf which is really interesting and my advisor said we might have the money to try some crispr for #my cyano children. hypothetically. maybe. and i get to do some poking around in genomes. theres so so much to love there #how could i possibly want to do anything else? and yet. and yet. here at the end of the week im so wrung out and i kno i just have to start #again on sunday and i kno im gonna have to step it up in terms of reading if i want to make it through a committee meeting and proposal #defense. not to even mention a comprehensive exam. and what do i get at the end of all this? a lifetime of academia draining my life away.#bc what i do is so academic. so whats the point? its just so frustrating.#and on top of that ive got all this data from my old lab that i kno i have to work on. and i will. i will. but with what time?#anyway the point is. i can see a path forward now where i stay here and decide the pain will be worth it despite not knowing where im going #after that. im just so tried #but right now it feels like im gonna stay until someone kicks me out #but that doesnt exactly make me feel happy. ugh. but if i stay i want to get my old pi to come here and give a seminar. ill warn her how #intimidating the department is tho. we've had 2 talks in the last 2 weeks that were... not good. particularly the one this week #like she couldnt answer a single question they thru at her and didnt seem to kno her data sets. it was hard to watch. anyway. i just want #to see my academic mother again. send me back to the desert! let me rot in a field full of sage #but send me back to the hills of an older mountain range. where i can climb sandstone cliffs and lay in carpets of moss. except i wouldnt do #that bc of all the ticks and threat of lyme disease...#anyway. im still tired. still sad. and there doesnt seem to b a way out #unrelated

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intotheelliwoods · 1 year ago

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I got new glasses finally and my brain is ooaoaoaooaoa ooao um adjusting (im having a time)

#nonsense #I needed new glasses so bad #my old ones were straight up being held together by DUCT TAPE #but are the new duct tape free glasses worth the 3 day brain pain we will see #btw if you ever want to know what I look like I deadass look like chicken little #that meme of “stop saying I look like chicken little” but you see I actually look like chicken little and I am very much a coward #I know if I focus on 2al that will hopefully distract from the new glasses pain #.... do I post this on main or my goddamn turtle blog.#..... do I post this on my few hundred followers blog or my few thousands followers blog hmm.#god I really need to do a follower milestone thing #again probably maybe a dtiys #but uhhh ummmm erm after the twist how about that #anyways hello fandom sideblog my beloved how are there so many of you following me #what #WHAT what #slowly but surely getting used to the idea that im a “big” blog oops #im literally chicken little #why am I big #am I chicken big?#im chicken big.#goodbye #enjoy tag ramble

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stargazerlillian · 1 year ago

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Pain and Panic as they appear in "Hades: Horn of Plenty" (Part 4).

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#🌠#Disney #Hercules 1997 #Comic Art #Pain #Panic #Last part!! What a ride that was huh?#Honestly seeing Pain and Panic defy and walk out on their now powerless master is SO worth the wait.#Hades 100% deserved to have that happen after all he did to them in this story. I don't feel sorry for him one bit.#But unfortunately for these two they walked away from one bully and into a bunch of other bullies...#... in the form of the other Olympian deities wanting to know where their abusive master is.#Can't have shit in the Underworld I guess. Not even a single day of peace. Ah well.🤷‍♀️#At least we get a nice little sibling moment between them in the 8th and 9th images. That was pretty funny TBH.

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cavity-collector · 3 months ago

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i genuinely need to be put down like a dog i cant do this anymore man holy shit

#yall dont know the meaning of terminally online til u meet me #i hate myself so much its not even funny i am the most miserable worthless scum #my sleep schedule is 7am to 3pm all i do all day is rot on the couch and sometimes draw if i have a drop of motivation #depression is completely kicking my ass and im not even fighting back i give up what the fuck man #theres not even a point for me to keep trying i just want to stop feeling such deep despair 24/7 please #i dont want to die i just want the pain to stop so i can peacefullylive out the rest of this year before i turn 18 and its all over for good #but i cant even have that! im just gonna suffer the whole time thanks great #i wish i could just get better and fix all of this but i cant its not working we dont have the money to #actually get me the help i need to make it work. i just have to figure it out or die #i just wanna go back to ***** ** *** i just want to stop being lonely and useless #i dont know why im posting this shit to tumblr. its so stupid i should just be journaling or something #probably because im worthless selfish scum. idfk.#the last 6 months have been a complete blur. just rotting on the couch or in bed occasionally seeing friends once every other month or so #ive already wasted half of being 17 abd im probably gonna waste the rest too. ill do nothing of worth before i die.#even my art is ugly and horrible and not worth leaving behind. people tell me to work to improve it but i dont have the time left #ill never create any of the things i wanted to create ill never be a good artist im just going to die exactly like this #an absolutely terrible person.#the only people i can talk about the things that make me a terrible person with are people who are terrible in even worse ways #no one can comfort me except them because theyre the only people who know what ive done and actually do see it as less than absolute evil #because they know absolute evil because it is them. but i actually don’t believe that i think theyre bad but could be good #idk what im saying anymore #someone shoot me #please im not kidding #just make it stop #tw vent #tw sui #delete later

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giantkillerjack · 6 months ago

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ur post about queerbaiting and the dismissal of people in fandom to critical analysis is so incredibly true thank you. i feel like marcille's writing in the anime has been super misogynistic a lot of the time and every time i bring this up all anyone wants to say is "well maybe this isn't for you! and you shouldn't watch the show!" like. i don't think this is about taste lmao, i am analyzing the text in front of me and coming to conclusions about the craft of it.

[This is in reference to this post]

YES!!! THANK YOU!!!!!

It is so so frustrating!!!!

It's like being at a restaurant and being served a bunch of delicious appetizers, but then one of the bread appetizers is literally just a plate of crumbs; and then when you're like, "Hey, uhh, why are we being served literal crumbs?", a bunch of the other folks eating at the restaurant are like,

"WELL HOW ABOUT YOU JUST DON'T EAT HERE THEN??!? YOU MUST NOT BE THAT HUNGRY, SO JUST FIND ANOTHER RESTAURANT AND DON'T EAT WITH US!!"

And maybe they say it politely, but "Aw, sorry, maybe this restaurant just isn't for you 💖" is just trading out an aggressive dismissive tone for a patronizing dismissive tone. It's the same message.

And it's like! I was honestly happy to move on from the crumbs once my complaint was acknowledged because the meal overall is still delicious, but then all these folks got SUPER WEIRD AND DEFENSIVE ABOUT IT, so now I find myself double-checking all the other dishes -- and, actually, you know what those eggs DO look a Iittle misogynistic undercooked!!!!

#original #queerbaiting #dunmeshi #dungeon meshi #falin x marcille #marcille x falin #marcille donato #delicious in dungeon #dungeon meshi marcille #listen i like marcille but u r right she is basically there to be a wet blanket a LOT of the time and that is a sexist trope #i think the bar is super super low for female characters in adventure anime and the lack of constant ogling maybe makes the female #characters feel better written than they are. i mean falin basically has no personality. she's got an innocent heart but that's nothing.#and i think these conversations are worth having bc no piece of media is perfect and this is how we learn to do better #also like. I've seen media criticisms that make me go 'oh you straight up should reserve commentary bc you #haven't watched the show and you're wrong' or 'i see what you're saying but you are simply incorrect' but like #i don't think I'd tell someone to just NOT watch Hazbin Hotel bc they have a bad take - and certainly not bc they have accurately #pinpointed a real flaw about the show (of which there are more than a few but frankly not what became the biggest subject of Disc Horse)#Angel is actually an amazing character & i think people mistook a criticism on the way abuse is glamourized as actually glamourizing abuse #like his song about abuse is called Poison and he's trapped in an abusive performance contract - bringing to mind Britney Spears #i think it is a wildly triggering and painful scene but i think a lot of people took the pain it gave them to mean it was bad art #but tbh they are still allowed to eat at the table if they so choose!!!#sorry i got sidetracked - as an abuse survivor Angel just matters a lot to me. i have a couple serious criticisms of vivziepop's work but #Angel is very much not one of them #also in regards to the actual subject of this post i think the most audacity of the responses i got was the one that said #that by complaining about queerbaiting I was 'de-incentivizing writers to write any interaction b/t women that could look even a little gay #and I'm just like. good. I hope they stop writing entirely. if the takeaway from 'please don't sell me bread and then serve me crumbs' is #'WELL NOW I JUST WON'T BAKE ANY BREAD PRODUCT' then that person is a bad chef. they should find a different job.#or at least do a whole lot of work on themselves. but either way i wouldn't be too broken up to know i won't be getting any food from them.#'just leave then' is so obviously a gut reaction defense mechanism & it implies media criticism should only be for things you don't like

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azureflamesideblog · 9 months ago

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I know I've mentioned shipping Zutara here before but as far as I rememebr I have not expressed that I do in fact ALSO very much ship Kataang. There is a preference I have for Zutara, admittedly. But I do adore both ships in the times I've rewatched the show since watching it as it aired as a kiddo.

Kataang being canon is so satisfying. You see it as a thread and how well they get along, how much they genueinely being around one another from the very start. Seeing the conclusion of it in last episode is SO good. I love it.

But also that's why...I do kinda want to have hope for Zutara being canon in the live action adaptation?

See, here is the thing: I love both of these relationship because of potential they have. Katara and Aangs relationship was set up and grew so well and ended up in them forming a relationship out of the dynamic they built over seasons. And that is GREAT. And Zutara has that same potential that the OG series didn't decide to go with. Would it be crazy if the adaptation, which is already slightly changing things, decided to explore that story instead? As long as they actually do it and do it well that could be so fun to watch.

Now, if Kataang does happen just like in the orignal, or something else does go down I will be JUST as thrilled so long as it is handled well.

#I am so scard to post this #cause I genueinely love and enjoy both of these relationships and would be very happy to see either one #but to me it just could be SO great to for them to explore Zutara this time around IF they did it WELL.#Cause there is a way to do Zutara wrong (very wrong actually) and if they do that it could just as easy be painful to endure watching #Kataang #Zutara #Katara #Aang #Zuko #Slowly getting my thoughts out before the first season drops and we know if it's worth being excited for it not

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jatlokgwo · 3 months ago

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Holy shit!!

🌈🍓 genshin fan? On this webbed site????? Are we imagining things????

ya sorry im not radqueer i just like radkitty am transid though and dont care what people do or identify as as long as they dont hurt people ^^ (enless its like cnc i love nuance) and i dont like antiradqueers because ive never met 1 that wasnt ok with me dieing or erasing parts of me to make there worldview true speaking as an ex anti (my partners are genshin radqueers though!! lala is hsr themed right now and angel left tumblr because of harrasment)

!!!im also technicly a xiao fictive but the system disappeared!!!! waves!!!!! am every au and canon!!!! do you want to play together sometime??

#ive made posts about how being transage is litteraly not optinal for me i am to disphoric not accsepting myself was genuinely dangerious #let me die to make the worldview true and whayever its called when you make a transabled positivity post because your in to much pain to si #up and knowing that some people see something worth wanting it that made me feel better and then get called the r slur repeatedly #untill i stop being openly (cis) autistic for a while #i think that was when i realized how aweful antitransid ideology is #anyways welcome to my blog!!! i like to disappear for 3 days and then ramble at anyone that talks to me and sound inconsistent because word #hard if you ignore my wording at look at the idea its the same every time i just have to talk we ball style or i cant say anything #even though my tech keeps failing i really want to record games and i joke to myself that im gonna help transstreamers transition #by inviting them to record a game with me #:3 #pup talks

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hydrachea · 1 year ago

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