#and theyre both trans so it makes sense for them to change their names lol

[coridallasmultipass]

I am once again begging online shop payment processing companies to allow me to enter a separate name for shipping and separate name for billing!!

It's the same address, I'm just trans and have not legally changed my personal name, but I still prefer to receive mail as my preferred name! Like it's literally my professional name, I do business as my preferred name.

Annoying as fuck, and I don't want to chance my bank rejecting the payment (though I'm sure someone at my bank has put a note to allow it on my account by now, since I've contacted them a couple times before when I realized too late that the billing section didn't let me input another "address/name" section, and they said the payment was fine in those cases.)

Anyway, legal name changes should be free and non-advertised for everyone. Tbh, you should get a free name change every time you file your taxes on time as an incentive for good citizen behaviour. Once I am elected pres-

[rslashbrainrot]

thinking about the joy parks quote again. and again. like omggg yes im a lesbian child who outgrew the name my momma gave me yes i need to change my name and be born all over again i need this i need this i need this lol <3

[hedonicghost]

Give us the timeline!!

you are opening a can of worms you will regret opening (thank you thank you thank you-) this is super long tho uve been warned -📣

bg info:

so for convenience they have lived in south park most of their life. their dad is in the military (like ours) but he keeps dodging station changes for uh. idk reasons. ill come up w some bullshit. their mom's constantly in the hospital (like ours) so the kids around them don't ever really see both of their parents at the same time

i'm not making a fake dead name for them but they dont really know their trans, just genderfucky. their parents call them "kiddo" a lot though and the kids around them mishear that as "ditto" and since theyre like. obsessive about pokemon, that becomes what people call them. the boys will use he/him for them and the girls use she/her for them. they live up to the ditto name for this reason fhdskaj

they have a brother but id feel. weird making our brother a. self insert. so i refuse to design him or give him any information. think like the parents in peanuts. he will never be shown unless he's on the phone with ditto

theyre. a system. duh. they have 4 alters. ozma [host/persecutor (based on me, 📣. they're integrated)], jeff [protector (🗝️)], daka [trauma holder (🐐)], and usiu [caretaker (🕊️)]

elm school:

i'm not going to decide like what fake trauma we're putting them through, but each of their alters do have a designated "form" date. jeff formed right before they moved to south park (~1st grade) so he handled a lot of their like... social shit? and is the reason why they get on so well with the boys

ozma had integrated with their prev. host around 4th grade. ozma isnt their previous name but our current ideas about it are mega cringe so youll have to unlock that with another ask

as mentioned, they get on p well with the others in their grade. the girls like them because they have a huge bratz doll collection and the boys like them because they have a LOT of rare TCG cards (they dont play tcg games tho and that pisses them off)

theyre really close with butters bc partly of their whole gender queer solidarity but also system solidarity. jeff clearly sees the signs of like. #Plurality so he helps butters through it as he experiences it

they get into the villain scene with butters under the name "knifenice" (lol) but as the boys start doing their hero thing, prof chaos forces them to abandon him to join them in case he ever needs help getting rescued from them

their hero sona, knife, is part bird. they refuse to change that. it doesnt make sense. everyone gives them shit for it. they literally couldnt care less. they have a neon pink boa scarf and bright purple furry leg warmers. they stole their brother's baseball cap and stapled feathers onto it.

for the like. stick of truth game they're a princess on the drow elf side. kyle and stan convinced them to do it bc they needed a leg up on princess kenny. because of this ditto and kenny have a LOT of rivalry but they bond over it ooc

middle school:

i don't have a lot fleshed out for middle school bc literally everyone is cringe in middle school but they start to kinda come to terms with their plurality as a whole around that time and start to point out to butters that he might be plural too

both of them misinterpret it though and they think it's just kin stuff bc jeff is still a fn.af fictive and butters is like "nah i think in a past life i was like.... a stock broker......" or something idk you get the idea

so both ozma and butters are oblivious to it but jeff has gotten a few one-on-one conversations with butters' protector (chaos)

chaos and jeff start dating but butters and ozma have 0 memory of it so people assume butters and ditto are dating and so those two are kinda like "...i mean...... i do feel a connection to you but idk what it is....." so they vibe

some time in 6th grade daka forms but we don't really have. ideas about them yet. they vibe too. probably become friends w another one of butters' alters later on (marjorine lol)

they start kinda distancing themself from their friends in late middle school bc their dad got orders to a different station and they dont know how to #cope with it

high school:

they move to somewhere else in the states and move frequently throughout high school (like us). they keep in contact with some of their friends, but lose contact with most. butters and ditto try to skype every weekend but eventually it becomes too hard to manage with studying and stuff like that

its not a # fun time but they do realize theyre trans during the move so they start socially transitioning and using they/them publicly. theyd realistically go by a fuck ton of names like we did but thats boring and too much to think abt so they start going by orion at school/home/etc. butters is still allowed to call them ditto though

usiu forms sometime at the start of high school because theyre all out of sorts with. duh. everything. not getting into it as usual lmao. usiu has a hard time adjusting to the current uh. vibe? of the system tho? so daka and them argue a lot

they visit south park again at some point in their sr. yr. of high school and spend like the literal entire time just catching up with butters and some other friends. ditto tells butters theyre for sure a system and its not just kin shit and butters tells them about the time he was misdiagnosed as a kid so he's really hesitant to say anything concrete about his plurality so they kinda bond over that.

jeff and chaos go crazy stupid over seeing each other again

after their trip to sp, they realize it's the only place they ever really felt at home, so they decide to look for schools near there for college

college:

they find a cheap apartment in town (rent is cheap as balls in sp) and are enrolled with online courses in like. idk. boulder maybe? some community college that's cheap too

butters and them start Actually Dating and they start to navigate dating while plural. they both decide to let their other alters (everyone besides jeff and chaos) date people outside of the systems and we're still..... debating stuff on that bc its a lot to think abt hfkhsakj. either way theyre both very very happy to be together.

butters would probably eventually move in with ditto bc i fucking hate his parents ;P

andddd yeah that's all we really have concretely figured out! sorry this is so god damn long we've been roasting this one for a bit now

[o0o-chibaken-o0o]

hello!! i love all your fic recs theyre so good !! Could you please rec me some drarry fics where Harry and Draco reveal their relationship to the wizarding world and all the responses that follow. the reveal could be the main part of the fic, the end of the fic or the epilogue!! i love all length fics and as long as the reveal is in there somewhere (even a tiny chapter or something) I want to read it! thank you so much in advance xxx

Hello!! Thank you! I feel like there are a lot of fics in which Harry and Draco come out in some way, so I’m really going to limit this to fics where they come out to the general public (as opposed to just Hogwarts or something) and the coming out/responses are a pretty memorable part of the story! :)

Date Blindness by dysonrules (24K)- Harry was perfectly happy with his life until Hermione decided to set him up on a blind date.This fic is a great play on the “coming out” trope! The boys enter into a very business-like arrangement to fake a relationship so that Harry can come out to the press, but OF COURE THAT’S ALL A PRETENSE TO HIDE THEIR TRUE FEELINGS AND IT WILL NEVER BE ENOUGH YOU DEAR STUPID NAIVE BOYS. *Coughs* excuse me. Anyway, fake relationships are THE BEST and this fic is great.

A River in Egypt by cassie_black (3.5K)- Draco is not impressed with the surprise guest at his Birthday party.This is a reeeeally cute fluffy little fic! I don’t want to say too much and spoil it, but it just warmed my heart

Chasing the Dragon by Calanthe (link to PDF download. No word count, but 329 pages)-  Harry arrives back at Hogwarts for his final year, nursing a huge crush on Blaise Zabini. Following a Polyjuice potion ‘incident’, Harry learns some VERY interesting things about Malfoy and starts to look at the Slytherin in a different light. Harry lets his imagination, and his wicked streak, run wild, with Malfoy on the receiving end of Harry’s game.This fic is pretty kinky and involves quite a bit of dubcon and some d/s stuff, so be warned! Personally I love all of those things so I ADORE THIS FIC. Harry starts out with a crush on Blaise (silly Harry), but don’t worry because very soon THINGS make him realize the error of his ways and the fact that Draco Malfoy is his one true obsession. Harry engages in some not-quite-moral methods to get Draco’s attention, but luckily Draco is not-quite-moral himself ;). The “coming out” is in the later part of the fic!

The Love That Has To Keep Shouting Its Name aka Hero Harry’s Attention-Seeking Actions a Huge Howl for Help by twistedmiracle (41K)- In which Harry fights with the Wizarding press, befriends a Muggle role model, explores his political-activist side, and buys rather a lot of flowers.This is another fic in which they start a “fake” relationship so that Harry can come out to the press! YES! It’s really funny because no matter how much Harry has tried to come out, the Prophet keeps photoshopping him with various women and Harry is just so done. ENTER SEXY DRACO MALFOY TO SAVE THE DAY.

Becoming Us Part 1 and Part 2 by VivacissimoVoce (84K combined)- Following the war, Harry Potter and friends return to Hogwarts to repeat their interrupted final year. To everyone’s surprise Draco Malfoy returns as well, but something has changed. Harry learns the weighty consequences of being marked as a Death Eater and must decide whether to help Draco escape his past. Although the “coming out” part of this fic is riiiiight at the end of part two, in a way I feel like the whole fic is about coming out because of the amount of time devoted to dealing with pervasive homophobia. It’s really great how they slowly work to overcome it! Also I LOVE the way they first come together!! Harry takes pity on Draco and takes him to get his Dark Mark removed the muggle way. How brilliant is that idea?! Also it’s an eighth year fic, which preeeeetty much makes it automatically amazing hahaha.

‘Twas Brillig by Queenie_Mab (74K)- Harry reads a chapter of Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland to his children before bed every night and through the story, he and his middle child find an ally in each other as they, along with Alice, discover a world that just doesn’t seem to make sense when taken at face value. The more aware Harry becomes - embracing his child’s reality - the more motivated he is to build a wizarding world that is fully inclusive, and by processing these life lessons finds he’s able to connect with another person in ways that have always eluded him.YES YES YES this fic is great! It has so many different parts that are really memorable for me! Like… massage therapist Draco and a sexy massage! Trans!Al who is the sweetest! Surprise crossdressing! Great sex! Seriously, I think about this fic all the time.

Nineteen Years and 5 Minutes Later by TheMightyFlynn (203K)- Five minutes after his happily-ever-after, Harry finds himself locked in the public loos with an angry Draco Malfoy and a need that he has denied for 19 years.Aaaaah this fic! Okay I feel kind of horrible about this and I love Ginny as a character (when she’s not with Harry lol) but SOMETIMES I just really want to read a good Ginny-bashing fic anyway, you know? And BOY is this some satisfying Ginny bashing. The coming out in this fic is, if I remember correctly, not done with the consent of our boys, but public opinion is really important to the plot here, so there’s a lot of them in the press, and a lot of reactions! Also I JUST noticed that there is apparently a sequel?! Which I haven’t read yet?! I will get on that ASAPWhat You Do With Your Life, A.H.K.B.C.B. (After the Hero Kills the Batshit Crazy Bastard) by oldenuf2nb (39.5K)- Draco Malfoy had waited years in hope of seeing Harry Potter utterly humiliated…. (Note the above link is accessible by registered ao3 users only. If you don’t have an account GET ONE BECAUSE IT’S SO CONVENIENT or try here :D)THIS FIC IS GREAT, OKAY??? Both Harry and then Draco have horrible exes, and then both of them help each other save face in front of the public when they have to confront those exes. There’s lovely angst (as opposed to annoying angst, which is hard to do) and lots of fluff and smut and everything you could ask for! Just yes yes yes! 

As always, if anyone else had a rec to add, feel free to leave a reply! :)

[artistictrance]

lgbt+ meme?

what is your sexual orientation? - demisexual :3c what is your romantic orientation? - demiromantic, so a full demi lol side note: demiromantic/demisexual is a person are ppl part of the ace community, they prefer to build a strong bond before even entering a relationship [and yes, im aware that most ppl are like this, but with demis its a bit more harder to feel attraction towards someone else without building a friendship first. of course nothing wrong with not finding anyone attractive, and no, it doesnt mean youre "picky"] what is your gender? - a female demigoddess cause why not B) [female] what is your sex? - like i said above, a female demigoddess [female] what pronouns do you use? - she/her/they/them how long have you been in the lgbtqa+ community for? - i have no clue tbh, i didnt realize i was demi till like...what?...2-3 yrs ago??? but then again, looking back during my middle/high school yrs ive always been demi and never noticed cause i thought i was straight [tho thats still kind of true, if that makes sense??? idk im still figuring it out] have you ever dated anyone in the lgbtqa+ community? if yes, explain what they identify as - ive been a single pringle so far my whole life how did you find out about the lgbtqa+ community? - tbh i didnt know much about the lgbt+ [besides gay/bi] till like college when i joined tumblr, so mostly from tumblr then some from school too (: do you have any friends in the lgbtqa+ community? -its funny cause my irl friends are mostly straight [minus 1 who is bi-curious], while the majority of my online friends are either gay, ace or both [with a few exceptional straight friends]. theyre all pretty great :3c have you ever been at a pride event? - no, but from the pictures ive seen it looks super fun! on a scale 0-10, how confident are you with your sexuality? - hmmm i guess 10? but i do remember when i first figured it out i was self-conscious about it cause i thought i was one of /those/ ppl who just picked a random sexuality to look "cool" till after some hard thinking/teaching, ive realized im ace af and proud B) on a scale 0-10 how confident are you with your gender? - idk, i dont really think much about it??? not sure how to explain it, but even if i identify as a girl, i dont really see myself as one? [maybe thats just my mind being mean to me and separating myself from all the other girls and yadda yadda. long explanation] are you out to anyone yet? - my mom and brother know, and all my friends do too but i guess most ppl just forget/dont remember what demi is do your parents know about your gender/sexuality? - yeah my mom knows, tho she has a bit of trouble understanding it, but i do my best to remind her and teach her again, and again do you ever get misgendered? -tbh i dont even know :/ i remember one time some guy in hs called me a guy cause of how i was dressed? [school hoodie and some jeans] but then again, he was a pretty annoying and stupid person so i dont really count it plus i wasnt the only girl wearing something like that on a cold day have you gotten any hate for your gender/sexuality? - not gender, but ive had close ppl tell me that "ppl shouldnt label themselves like this, it doesnt make sense" so obviously that hurt ;v; in all honesty, do you think that theres a sexuality that might not be valid? - no, all sexuality is valid. tho those toxic/nasty ones, i dont label them as "sexualities," i label them as "ppl who shouldn't talk to me, or my dogs, ever" do you own any pride merch? - nope, im not sure where to find some cool ace merch. [there was this kickass sweater my friend showed me and i love it to bits, but there was no link to buy it, i cri T v T] plus even if i did, idk when or where would be a good time to wear them ;v; do you think that theres a possibility that you might change your mind about your orientations/gender in the future? - i know im pretty confident in being demi. as for gender, idk, i just have to see : P what are your thoughts on people that identify as cis? - cis? you mean that store "cause it's spring"? [i kid you not, thats an actual store name, ive seen it with my own eyes] lol jk, i identify as cis [???], but besides me, they good folk (: [of course those who bully peeps who dont see themselves as cis are just bullies and i dont want you near me or my dogs 8) ] what are your thoughts on people that identify as straight? - nothing wrong with it, if youre cis, youre cis just remember my cis folk, dont judge or be mean to those who are trans, bi-gendered, etc. theyre ppl like you if someone saw you on the street, would they realize that you are in the lgbtqa+ community? if yes, why? - honeslty idk, i dont think aro/ace ppl really have a "look" to them? [ive tried looking it up and nothing much comes up other than pride clothing] other than we're hella good lookin' folk, be aware of us plus most of the creepy guys that hit on me think im allo. so i just feel like a cleverly disguised spy lol [alloromantic/allosexual or "allo" for short = basically means that ppl who are not aromantic and/or asexual ] on a scale 0-10 how familiar are your friends and family with the lgbtqa+ community? - since i teach my mom and brother stuff about this whenever i get the chance, theyre pretty ok [tho my mom has a hard time remembering the ones outside the "basic" ones like lesbian/gay, bi, pan. it mostly has to do that spanish is her 1st language so english can be confusing for her] as for irl friends, idk. i hardly talk to them about this, i doubt they even remember/know im demi but for my online friends, im pretty sure they know, lol This tag is almost over, did you enjoy it? - it was fun, i hope more ppl are aware of the aro/ace community and possible learn a few things about it :3c i want more ppl to know more about the aro/ace communities cause even if our population is kind of small, we're still here...eating all the food at the parties...petting all the cute animals > v > do you love yourself for who you are? - of course, sure it was kind of hard to get to where i am, and at times i still dont really feel part of the lgbt+ community, but i try to at least accept myself (: shout out to my sweet friend @dirtydaggy for suggesting i do this, it was fun thanks again friendo cX also check out their journal! [they did the same meme too!!!]

also im gonna tag:

@lunarprinc3 @thatsweaterdude

if i miss anyone [friends/mutuals] or you would like/not like to be tagged in the future, let me know c:

[misterbitches]

Im not intelligent at all. In the conventional sense. The ramblings of a girl who just has sooo much going in in her head it's constant. But im not a genius. Or that confusing.

It just sounds like I am bc fandoms have this issue where they can JUSTSO point out the issues in soletiing. They can pick and prod and go oh problematic! But then you go to name the problems and the difficulties within society like for ex: the idea of representation in general. Salivating over it. How fucking sad that is. How we are trained to accept it. So in a BL and also RACE in the bl genre they exploit viewers naivete both domestically and internationally. Ive seen tons of people liken being asian to being a person of color. However, in their predominantly homogenous society (or intentionally publically homogenous society), they are not "poc" (also name the of color; i dont use bipoc idc if u do but it's called being asian guys cos yall aint talkin about black ppl lmao)

They as humans seeing other humans who look like them everywhere, engage with the world differently than an american in asia or asians living outside of their home country (like bae doo nanwhen she worksnin the US is not the same as the bae doo nanworking on a korean program) I dont complain about it in everything i see bc ppl say it ALL THE TIME. but it is NOT the same. Being a person of color is very distinctly an american concept. This is all stuff people will get to know on their own if they choose to dig more.

I do my best to underline what my ugly little eyes process. How i figure things out as a black female american artist too! Im hard on shit cos i should be. I take it seriously. And even if i dont take it seriously bc THEY dont then thats their problem.

I know this is a complaint that I am not alone in. I know it's the internet. I just don't get how people can write really heavy analysis but they refuse to actually probe the underlying issues. Not everyone is me, or like my friends, but if there's way fewer people talking about this stuff it seems absolutely glaring when theres few people engaging in the way i do. It seems like im the glitch but I am thinking just as much just differently.

I really loved where your eyes linger but there was little deep class analysis. I remember few convos a bout it. I know a lot about korea (sigh being a black ex kpop fan lol mess) and i love the history but all ofnit matters! Korea's relation to labor!

People bringing up thai actors snd actresses leaving the industry and doing acting as something quick. As an artist~ who went to film school with insanely wealthy ppl and isnin tons of debt you have to understand how shitty that is. People have monetary access and they just fucking do whatever just because they want to. Meanwhile you have young people being coerced into this bullshit mainstream life to LITERALY just make money bc they dont come from a rich background. The wealth gap in thailand is BAD, theres a dictatorship, they had a fucking coup. The governments like here do not respect their people. Their marginalized groups. Trans thai women, black thai ppl, poor thai ppl. And it LITERALLY CANNOT DO ANYTHING EFFECTIVELY IN CAPITALISM. No nothing can be perfect but if it's going into our eyeballs and we can view the worlld critically then why the fuck not!???

I dont say the things i see are wrong always. I reply when i think i need to. I try and engage with others but not to kuch avail. I just want to rb stuff and tdhink lajfhhdjwhjej.

But like yea theres a lot of just wrong or misguided stuff. A lot of the times it is just historical inaccuracy in framing or idk. A refusal to think outside the box. I dont care. Theres more to life than just sort of looking and not thinking especially for othrr artists.

Idk im sorry. I dont see how i can change how i view things. I really wish people would expand their palettes too and go deeper into other means of art from places! Things not in the mainstream! Theres a lot of good thai artists and a lot of them critical as fuck about their country as they should be. Authority, austerity, patriarchy, capital, racism etc like that is central to a power thats interested in growing gains and fiscal and social power. Theres rly radical or left leaning etc ppl out there in the world and these countries in these communities. So they exist. No people in these countries dont have NO clue whats going on. Cultural relativism is alsos something people should understand. I had a good talk with ppl on here a while ago about that. Talking about shit, critiquing, but being respectful to a group. Part of thay is realizing these groups CLEARLY know their own issues and all our cultures share the same goal. Guess what it is. It rhymes with acquiring wealth. Money means you hurt people. In the post, we talked about use of "wife" and "husband" which is a stupid joke that has been "explained" a billion times and yet the explanations still dont seem to answer or justify a minor problem (it's very funny to me that a language that doesnt have gendered pronouns is now very specific about two men. Hmmm wonder why. It is annoying.)

So im not the only person on the planet doing this. Or the few ppl ive seen that do. Im not new my thoughts arent new. Ive gotten to see another side to a culture i knew not much about and that means i can put the context of my beliefs and life and try and understand thheirs. For ex i learned from ITSAY because of a sign that said 'french food' that they were the only country to not be colonized back then. Do you know how integral that history is to their region? That was an interesting detail (i didnt finish itsay bc ihad a lot going on and i was rly upset that i would see hownrich they are and i hate that.)

Anyways thats my complaint. It used to feel like a sting of rejection. I left online for months in 2019, i started organizing more, joined a union, trying to do some panther work shit like that. I learned a lot in those months and it changed my life! But when I came back, I felt so isolated. It wasnt my true friends tho sometimes theyre ANNOYINGGGGG (love u) but it was me being like "if we are going to complain guys then lets put our money where our mouth is" lets be fucking serious about it then. No say it with your chest dude. It isnt difficult. Go with the fucking flow, talk about it, critique it, think. You can still fucking like itnor love it.

I am BLACK ok and i love rap. I am a black woman. I will continue to clown black men that cant seem to not clown themselves and listen. No i wont support monetarily: drake is a creep and i hate him but i bump that niggas song. Thats fucking LIFE. I got so sick of hiding myself and it became clear that it wasnt that i wasntthinking well or hard enough. They just didnt like that i said we need to commit class suicide and inspect out middle class sensibilities and middle class wealth hoarding (google it) if thats what we engaged with. Every part of you, antagonize it. I still have my privileges; class, skin color, even my father being a nigerian immigrant, me being cis, im not str8 but not a lesbian and those are differences.

Insecurities in general but some shallow thoughts (?) on discussion in "fandom" space. FYI, this will most likely stay the same. I tend to stay in my own bubble socially IE me and my friends are similar in our views. During this awful year while running my union's account, im surrounded by like minds. Me and my friends? We changed together. We grew up and saw what we didnt like and what we want. We do our best.And i CHOOSE my life to be that way bc it should be. There is no solution. I dont believe in solutions because the solution is to abolish capital or just divest. Abolishing capital and labor are a huge one and i will die before that happens (but so help me as long as im alive? Black women to FREEDOMMMM is my motto!) so making your own path in life is the best thing an artist can do IN MY OPINION.

However with technology and stuff this puts another layer onto things. Tech, social media, this shit....it THRIIIIIIIVESSSSSSS off of conflict and shallow readings of the world. We are literally primed for it. Engagement in bites. Impossible for me with my brain; i got used to it and i paid for it by limiting my scope. Not being encouraged to THINK AND READ before just speaking

(For ex i am in iww, i helped form a branch here. It is a radical union. Unionism is imprative to me-if ur interested u should read up on some. Look up peter cole! Google inthesetimes Ilwu. Gives you some understanding. Ive always been progressive and now i am....very left idk ic ant label myself. But even in my progrssiveness i had the gall to tell my white friend, whoa has her privileges but i had mine with our class disparity, that we dont need unions, i have WORKED retail. Ive done barista work for sonoing and i do gig work. So i wasnt out of touch. I had been stiffed even with a shoot i was working on by rich kids. So i had a frame of reference . But i didnt know what the FUCKa union was and why it is imperative. Then learning about anarcho syndicalism and all these other things. It changed my fucking life but two years earlier i was this idiot spouting shit like that making one of my best friends fucking upset. We DO AND CAN CHANGE. Think!!!!)

So were i a creator for tv id just constantly try and push the buttons if i need big money. Make them sell into me (thank you sonic youth!) theres Endless possibilities guys which means theres SO MUCH TK EXPLORE!!!! When i wanna have fun with it i just have fun. When i want to think i do. I dont understand why we are so dedicated to upholding things and doing mental gymnastics to end up in a space you dont need mental gymnastics for. What about these critiques makes you uncomfortable? Saying we're all part of the problem as spectators? Im sorry but we will always be. Thats LIFE. God fuck. Fuck me. I feel so fucking worthless and stupid sometimes. I know I am not. I know i am talented and intelligent. I know my friends and family. I know how to approach ppl. I know how to tell people if they are rich but want to be progressive whatsup. I choose how i live part of that is being ok to say what i want.

Ironically consrrvatives say this shit alot. But they arent ever alone bc their ideology is default. But yea it does feel shitty. It even feels shitty when ur in left circles but people STILL dont even wanna do that. These perspectives really arent ss many as they should be. I dont want to feel so alone with it. I know there are more. I just love art and the world so fucking much, endless possibility. Endless pain but endless good.