#and they wanna move out anyways so LMAO
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back in my pissy at some people in my friend group a little bit era!!! ✨✨
i am just gonna, not be online and social until new years i think. (might be online a little. Just want to get away from everything though. Still will be active and spreading info on twt so maybe /maybe/ it’ll get thru some of their heads.)
just, dont want to talk to some of em again. In my evil era. All I see is the worst in people era. Tired era. 🙄 In my wish I was ignorant again but i cant even wish that because of everything era.
#ker talks#broskies is 0230 like#i just wanna sleep#and get thru xmas and then get on a bus and go to my dads and disconnect from my stupid life in this city#more and more it seems appealing to restart my life in another city#and just leave all my friends behind#theres like. 1 i want to keep.#and they wanna move out anyways so LMAO#it sort of sucks the one person who i actually think would be healthy to keep in my life is just about to graduate hs.#I would fucking love to keep my friends in uni but y’all suck.#>://// need to get new friends. how does one do that idk im not very socialblr#literatly my entire friend group rn i made friends with thru my bestie#who im sort of :/ at#but feel a strong sense of loyalty towards to the point i think its detrimental to me#and i have no idea how to make friends outside of mutual friends#id really like a responisble friend group who was out creating thing and i could help with creative projects#really thinking im being held down.#God I just want to sleep man#like just i wsnt to go to my dads rn#i need to talk to him bout all this or like reset while im there
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The seventh talon, Andarateia Cantori
#dragon age#dragon age veilguard#dragon age the veilguard#teia cantori#andarateia cantori#i know people love the. thin strap dress from eight little talons but to me it always looks so out of place in a fantasy setting#so i wanted to give teia some more. period-y looking clothes#+ i think she deserves to do a big power move like buying rialto bay pearls to basically say#''you might technically be a higher ranked talon than me but i'm the one giving ur ass business'' to bolivar <3#anyway. i kinda wanna do one like this for all the talons (or. at the very least for all the important talons lmao) but we'll see#i always lose steam pretty quickly when it comes to doing a series of drawings#my art
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i just think it’s so funny that zoro does not even wanna comment on the usokaya situation when usopp explicitly asks and he very pointedly looks away when they kiss and yet he proceeds to butt in every single time sanji flirts with a woman or implies he knows about romance to redirect attention back on himself like god i wonder where your interests lie…
#also the goading sanji into talking with him and just commenting on every single thing sanji says... ok!#zoro is patient 0 of terminal sanji-itis#this is the live action but i mean... this is also animanga zoro and zoro in the movies at times is it not LMFAO#but while they were fighting and then even when he was asking for seconds of the dish and sanji finished his dialogue and zoro CONTINUED#do u want his attention or smth? are you happy you have someone who u can bicker (flirt) with every day and can hand ur ass to u and u him?#also sanji just BEAMING and smiling whenever they bicker is just insane INSANE like yeah they're enjoying this... wow...#also obviously zoro has all the weird UST charged dialogues with multiple MEN like i truly don't know how u can see him as straight lmao#anyways... i just needed to ramble anyways... i fear s2 will be insane with new pet names and arguments I'm actually so hyped#like oh i wanna see the look on sanji and luffy's faces when zoro calls out his finishing move LMFAO (let him be a loser pls)#OK RAMBLING OVER FR... i just like talking about zosan idk#zosan#zs#opla#tagging for spoilers ish#sanzo#zorosan#sanzoro
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Sam: "Look at me. Hey- look at me a second. I know. I know you're tough. I know how strong you are. You have every right to be proud of that. But being able to handle somethin' doesn't mean you should have to. Least of all when I'm right here trying to help. Please let me help. If not for you then for me, because I don't like knowin' you're hurtin', especially when there's somethin' I can do about it."
Me, shaking my head, fighting back literal tears: "B-but it's gonna give you another headache!"
#redacted sam#redacted audio#redacted asmr#redactedverse#redacted fandom#[Sam's name doubles as a link to the specific lines i quoted btw. just for full credit/transparency & for anyone who wants to (re)listen]#Sam's deep-seated need to heal vs my inability to accept help would be a battle for the ages. unstoppable force vs immovable object#wait Sam already mentioned the force vs object thing to David during the inversion didn't he lmao 'they call /me/ Immovable Object'#he does suit Immovable a little more than Unstoppable i guess. i mean he can def be both imo but ykwim. anyways i digress#listen. i'm not a Marriage kinda guy. but good god the way some of Sam's lines make me wanna take a fucking knee and propose#i'm love him ur honor. he is comfort incarnate#can't believe i waited so long to listen to the Valentines Vampire Attack audio. it's got so much of that sweet sweet hurt/comfort#very reminiscent of their 2nd audio given all the healing he does for them & the consent checks before moving clothing and whatnot#which makes it a top favorite for me bc that's probably my most replayed Sam audio. and the one that initially hooked me#i didn't put off listening to it bc i thought i Wouldn't like it btw i just procrastinate everything for no real reason#listening to it now tho actually worked out well bc i could uh. definitely use it. so maybe i was subconsciously saving it for hard times#this post isn't a joke btw it really does hurt to hear him put himself in pain for the sake of healing Darlin' :(((#anD PAINKILLERS DON'T EVEN WORK ON HIM!!! ough man i would struggle so hard to accept his healing if i were in Darlin's shoes#like yeah there's other reasons i'd struggle to accept it too but him being in pain as a result would be one of 'em. the Guilt bro i can't#rp audio stuff#Seven.txt#(Seven blorbo-posting at 2am when they should either be doing something productive or sleeping?? more likely than you might think)
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starting to kind of date someone right before christmas is so stressful fr. do i get him a gift or what we've been on two dates but i'm seeing him tonight n it's christmas eve.....but what if he didn't get me anything then it will be weird.....
#i planned to try to find something small enough that i could easily carry around concealed then take it out if he got something for me#but the thing i got ened up being a bit too big for that lol#im gonna bring a big bag of gifts for all my friends maybe and then it won't be weird idk#by some miracle my mom showed me a bag of emergency gifts for the girlies and i was like cool im taking all of them tonight 😂#which was not what she intended lol#but im gonna do it#if i had time i would have gotten him something different but its good enough#he mentioned a book he hadn't read last night so would have been cool the got him that but its too late its a music hat now#if he even got me anything idk#but he specifically told me he was last minute christmas shopping so idk#i am over analyzing this for sure tho#anyway most unrealistic part of christmas romance movies is they're not anxious wondering whether to gift or not to gift#also im lowkey scared abt new years 😳#not that i wouldn't like to kiss him probably but i already have a hard time looking at him without blushing 😂#so that would make it 10000x worse lmao#also idk if i want to kiss him JUST bc its new years instead of waiting for the right moment to just happen? idk i dont wanna rush things#its not for sure we'll be together at midnight on new years idk what his plans are#but we'll see#anyway things are going well but moving faster than expected 😅#also not 100% sure i'm seeing him tonight and def not tomorrow so that might take the gift pressure off but idk#waiting to hear back abt tonight#😐😐😐#also idk why we waited until we were both on break from work to do stuff bc honestly every time we've met it's been after work hours anyway#however it allows us to stay up later than on work nights which is nice#he didn't leave my house until after 11 last night lol#anyway trying hard not to get swept up in all this while its new but fr im like oh this is what it's supposed to feel like 🥺#never been in love before every relationship i've had was awk and forced was starting to think maybe im just not capable of love#but literally cuddling on the couch watching it's a wonderful life last night i was like hm i'm definitely capable of love actually#not saying im actually there yet but it would be soooo easy to fall for this guy which is p scary actually#esp bc im not sure it would work for other reasons
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Idk how to use ao3 😫 I couldn’t find a specific fic premise I wanted to read
Granted it’s possible the ship is so niche no one’s written it but still
Anyways how would one go about finding fics with a specified plot point or premise in general?
#or maybe you’ve got recs for what I’m looking for? 👀#asking for recs#anyways it’s shuada but dojima finds out#it sounds fascinating#i wanna see how insane and enraged he gets finding out how many lines adachis crossed lol#i mean his teenaged nephew?? bro is DEAD lmao#and his brain short circuiting if narukami defends him#maybe it was narukami that made the first move and now dojima has to deal with THAT can of worms#damn maybe I should write the fic myself lmfao#but anyways I am asking for ao3 tips and/or fic recommendations#archive of our own#ao3#persona 4#p4#adachi#narukami#adasou#shuada#tw age gap#sorry to taint this post with comship nastiness#probably hurts my chances anyone sees this#but the recommendation I want is related to a comship so I have to bring it up#rambling in the tags
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Guess which bitch now has room on its phone for instagram for the first time in like 3 years. This is only good bc now we can post art there again.
Not that instagram is nice to artists or anything. Just that our art tumblr is so very tiny and unused. Gonna probably have to clear it out somewhat when I finally get around to posting art.
#thank fuck for our silm special interest tho#we can finally get like traction on posts#which'll mean that when our fibro flare-up finally dies down (lmao it'll be ages bc our dad is Stressing The Fuck Outta Us)#we can get commissions done again#and through those. well.#money both for clothes to make us comfortable#(which will also last for years & be the right kinda clothing for when we move overseas)#and also for savings for WHEN we move overseas#like our grandma is nice & all &'ll probably help pay for us getting housing or whatever#but i dont want to have to Rely on her inheritance from her aunt(?)#and disability benifits are dodgy at best. and we'll have to survive somehow *before* we get them through#and i kinda dont want to have to rely on the generosity of an old school friend's mum. or a 10th cousin 4 times removed (or whatever)#who might well be dead before we move to ireland#bc he's like 95 rn#and idk if he'd even let us stay at his (scarily enormous) house At All#also. idk if we'd have the money without some kinda work to get HRT when we move out. dont wanna have to be reliant on parents or the gov.#for our HRT. i doubt we could get public healthcare to cover it. not immediately at least.#and i kinda dont want to have to go back on birth control. cause progesterone or w/ever its called has feminising effects iirc#and we're not sure if we want a hysterectomy yet. so.#it'd be a choice between periods (hell) and HRT (expensive)#fuck i hate being disabled sometimes#like actually if anyone calls chronically fatigued ppl “lazy”. i fucking WISH i was lazy.#like bitch please this flare-up is making it so that NONE of my meds get rid of the pain anywhere NEAR fully#and im low-key on the Good Shit™#also so annoyed that ireland hasnt legalised weed. bc. we're almost certainly gonna be doing it for pain#and getting an *illegal* product is so much more difficult#lmao i worked out commas#—Roquén#my fingies hurt so much rn lmao#anyway gonna go draw my source drowning in blood & despair. then im gonna work out what the fuck kinda pigments caranthir would use
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accidentally drank a whole cup of water before bed, night o7
#just me hi#i don't wanna wake up to use the bathroom 2 hours before i gotta wake up but i. don't know what happened Jfvshfjs#and i brought it to sip on... oopsie#//anyway was feelin Much better today ouuuu >wo#to the point i have another blender project open bc i couldn't get to the first one fast enough Lmao#it's just a rough floorplan for the palace in pi.e [<- place i have mentioned maybe 3 times tops] but i'm leeeearning so it's takin a minut#lol :>#i have the whole first floor sized up and cut out i just need to add that one raised platform and add maybe some walls so it can be a prope#reference for later !!#i'm not gonna add a toooon of details (probably) and Definitely not gonna add furniture bc a lot of it gets moved around so it wouldn't eve#make sense lol .v. though i'm thinking details for the windows and passageway would make a lot of sense for me#they'll be hard but i think it'd be rewarding :D#/i have a lot of stuff i visually want to work out for the 3 cities too so I gotta do that... and i'm not looking at the kingdoms they're#mean nothing to me right now.... (untrue)#AH and i've gotta figure out the temple stuff i always forget hfvshf ; but i guess that comes with the cities lol so we hold off#//but oh yea i gotta sleep lol :3#tune in next time to: keeps is confused and/or somehow on a totally different thing than you had last seen them doing 5 min ago !! Toodles#:D
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Little Events
Omg It's a Key Post you guys know what that means...I'm sharing another story hehe.
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Toadsworth had returned home from finishing the last of his errands at about nine that night, taking great care in making as little noise as possible. Slipping off his shoes, he placed them next to the other little pair by the door and then headed over to the couch to turn on the lamp. As predicted, It was left unoccupied with the exception of Peach's purple blanket and a couple of books still open. The older mushroom let out a small sigh and shook his head, first folding the blanket and laying it on the back of the couch and picking up the books to take to his bookshelf. One thing that he's learned about taking care of a child for the past two years, was that no matter how many times he would tell her to clean up after herself once finished using something or leaving an area, it never got done. He took great pride in making sure his house looked perfect, that nothing was out of place and other than a few other factors, being messy was definitely in the top five reasons why he did not want kids of his own. Peach, out of all the others, had chosen to be with him though and at such a small age and that had meant a great deal to him even if he never voiced it outloud.
Other toad parents promised him that with age, kids would be better at picking up after themselves. However, he was slightly doubtful as these same people still talked about how their older kids would leave their rooms and other areas of the house from time to time. Peach would be different though, It was his goal to raise a proper young lady in every area. For now he was more than ok with picking up after and teaching her the correct way of doing things. Toadsworth walked down the hall that held the rest of the rooms and took notice that with the exception of his bedroom, all the other doors were left ajar with the lights on. Passing by the bathroom and closet he took a quick glance inside before turning the lights off before making his way to his little girls bedroom. Instead of being met with a small figure curled in her bed, the white and pink flower covers were halfway pulled off the mattress, one of her pillows was missing, there were toys and clothing scattered around the floor, and Peach was nowhere to be found.
If this hadn't been the third night in a row and fifth occurrence within the past week he would have frantically run out of the house and waking up the entire street to search for her, like he did the first time. This time he knew where she was, they would both clean all this up in the morning before she went off to school so for now, he turned off the light and closed the door and went to his room. The door to Toadsworth's quarters wasn't even halfway open when a few books toppled over startling the five-year old awake with a loud gasp.
"Stay away" she shouted, grabbing the nearest item and throwing it at the shadowy figure in the doorway.
He had to admit that for how young she was she had a decent arm. If the room wasn't so dark, she might have hit him as she intended. Instead, the cheep-cheep plush landed two feet in front of where he stood. With the light now flipped on, relief instantly flushed over her face as she pulled the cover down from her mouth.
"Papa, you're home! I was waiting for you but I got sleepy." Peach smiled telling him, suddenly wide wide awake.
Toadsworth took in his room's altered appearance. The case that shelved his book collection was almost entirely empty save for three. Several missing books were meticulously placed domino style in front of the door, while others were lined up side by side from one end of the room to the other in front of the bed. There was a half circle of stuffed animals around his bed as if they would sprang to life and defend the girl in the bed should an intruder come close. She surrounded herself with pillows all over the bed and it seemed she had a plan B If all else failed, leaving the window a great bit open.
"I see. I do apologize for disturbing your rest. If I may ask, what all happened here?" He asked, looking to get to the heart of the matter. With the books from earlier in hand, he took them over and placed them on the bookshelf before moving to collect the others.
"Mmm, I don't know" Peach answered, taking in the state of the room better with the lights on. "I'll help" she climbed off the bed, rubbing the wrinkles out of her nightdress. Starting on the further side of the room.
"You're right about that my dear and we'll straighten up yours in the morning." He took the books as she handed it to him. "I am looking for a better answer than 'I don't know' however" he said, giving her one of his serious looks.
"After Toadina left, while I was sleeping, I thought I heard a noise and I got scared, so I came to your room where it was safe." Peach finally told him as she picked up the toys. He knew she was leaving out extra details but he could fill in the rest.
"Did you not want to go next door to Ms.Toadina after you got scared? I'm sure she wouldn't have minded you coming over. I would've picked you up once I came home" He assured following her to her room to drop off the stuffed animals.
"No cause they said if it sees you outside alone it'll get you and it was dark." She shivered at the thought, placing a few plushies on her bed and putting the rest along with the other toys and clothing in a pile in the corner for tomorrow morning.
Toadsworth knew it was just one of those passing phases that would have to run its course. The 'they' she was referring to was her classmates and The 'it' was some mysterious being meant to scare and take children in the dark. Mere playground rumors meant to spook out each other, he remembered participating in that chatter in his youth. Peach put on a tough front and brave it through the nights and he always offered his room for comfort if she needed. She insisted that she was a big kid who was able to sleep in her own bed. All he could do was continue to assure and provide her with the security if she chose to come to him.
"Can I get a snack and drink before I go back to sleep?" She asked, putting the pillow back on bed and pulling the covers back up on the bed.
"Of course. While you eat, I'll get myself ready for the night and if you stay up we can read a story before you sleep." He offered and she nodded with a smile.
It took about forty-five minutes and she sat in her bed waiting for him to exit the bathroom. After she brushed her teeth she returned and he had her pick out a book that they read together. They talked a little bit longer before she started to doze off and snore quietly. Toadsworth left the room as quietly as he could without disturbing her. He took a few notes in preparation for tomorrow's work and then completed a chapter of the book that he was reading before shutting the lamp off and calling it in for the night. The sound of knocking slowly pulled him out of his deep slumber, flicking on the light he put on his glasses to see a bit better. Peach stood in the doorway clutching her clothing sniffing quietly, he beckoned her with a hand to come in closer.
"I had a bad dream. Can I sleep with you?" She asked, standing in front of him. He sat up in bed and offered her a hug. Peach happily accepted returning his embrace and giggled a little when he pulled her up on the bed beside him.
"One of these days I'm not going to be able to pick you up that easily. You're about as tall as me." He chuckled as she made herself comfortable.
"You just gotta go workout" She told him with a laugh laying her head down on the pillow facing him.
"You tell me where I have time to go for a workout" He jokingly said, taking off his glasses and turning the lamp off laying back down. Instinctively, she moved closer to Toadsworth as he wrapped his arm around her shoulder
"We can go together during the weekend" she answered seriously and then added "I'll even workout with you" she laughed again.
"We'll see. For now it's time to quiet down and rest, we both have a busy day tomorrow." He hushed her and gave her a kiss on the forehead.
"Ok goodnight. I love you" she told him, closing her eyes.
"I love you too sweetheart" he said, combing his fingers through her hair. Within minutes she was fast asleep. He followed soon afterwards.
#Super Mario#Super Mario Bros. Movie#All right time to hype myself up before hitting post#lmao I have just now figured out how to edit the links...took an embarrassing amount of time but we move...okay but imagine the links don't#work that be super crazy#Anyways not too long...pretty cute if I say so myself. gonna try to do some more drabbles cause it's a good way to work on things I#don't normally write but wanna try to#I hope you guys enjoy reading this as much as I liked writing it#very random but I got the wordle in 1 today...extremely rare W#Key Posting
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he is so perfect to me
#i hated this fight lmao#but i DID win it! which turn out wasnt a given lol#dragon style suuuucks atm#and i was googling what i was doing wrong and everyone is like 'DRAGON IS OP BEST MOVESET IN THE SERIES'#'ITS GOT THE BEST MOVE!! TIGER DROP!!!!!'#me: oh! do i have tiger drop?#i did Not#its unlocked at the end of the komaki stuff#and thats SO MANY FIGHTS AWAY#i dont wanna.....................#anyway look at majima is his lil mask#'my identity is a mystery so ill wear a mask that matches my back tattoo'#its a secret shhhh#secondlastlife#yakuza#goro majima#majima
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How are you a germophobe and an emt? Not hating, just curious!
I mean I never said I was a good EMT lmaooo no but fr that's why I work at events and not on an ambulance, I get to stay outside and never have to be trapped in an enclosed area with someone who might be sick. Plus I am just an EMT, and I work with a paramedic, so he does the majority of the care while I document and get supplies/extra equipment. And I do get vitals the majority of the time bc usually the patients aren't obviously infectious and I'm chilling until they're symptomatic lmao. But yeah no overall being in the field is a terrible fit for me, but I've got all the knowledge and I'm damn good at teaching, and we get a lot of students, so I've got a good thing going where I'm at now 😌
#not snz#again tho i don't work much it's pretty per diem#i don't make enough per year to even have to pay taxes on it lmao#what's kinda funny/sad tho is that if the pandemic never happened I'd 100% be a medic by now#probably working for an actual emergency service#bc i wasn't nearly this much of a germaphobe before#like i didn't wanna get sick and had my little cleaning rituals and everything but i didn't care nearly as much#it's fucking obsessive now lmao like it's not good#a pandemic was my literal biggest “irrational” fear so I've never been the same since#which sucks bc i wanted this so desperately but i was so anxious and disgusted by everything when i did my clinicals#like there was just no way#but again i love teaching it and i really am super good with the book stuff so i have that going for me#thank god my partner is fine doing the majority of the patient care tho but it evens out bc i like to document and he hates that shit 😌#love writing the reports 😌#but yeah no this isn't a career move or anything this is just me stalling bc idk wtf to do lmao#i have ideas but there's nothing that makes me excited the way ems/fire does#so at this point in my life I'm just settling for the fact that any job i get will be for the paycheck only and i won't like it 😔#but anyway yeah this was the og dream job but the pandemic killed it so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#do not recommend this field if you're a germaphobe lmao i hate it here but i like my current gig so it is what it is
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I’m fairly new to the fandom, but I do have a question if you can answer it! Why do people ship Daigo with Aoki / Masato? I tried looking to see if they’ve interacted before, but couldn’t find anything! Sorry for asking I’m just </3 dumb AND I LOVE YOUR ART OF THEM!!! Nerd looking ahhhhhh
hi ! welcome to the community i hope you're having a lovely time so far and ty for enjoyin my stuff :) no need for apologies it's a very fair question to have :]
i cant speak for everyone (all. ten people into masadai anyway) but Personally To Me i just think the idea of them together is very funny. thats quite literally it im afraid..
#snap chats#//twenty page google doc in the background// ignore that. it's mostly for comedic purposes#might also be my fault idk sorry about that. allegedly. idk ive had like three people tell me they started to ship them cause of me 🧍♂️#@mementoasts is another person who's drawn masadai and whose stuff i love and am inspod by .. i love their disneyland fic sm ...#there was another artist on twitter who posted a neat drawing of them but i cant remember who they were and i didnt bookmark it //screams//#recently there's been ANOTHER masadai artist ive started following on twitter - @wifekiryu. his account's n/s/f/w fyi before you go looking#he has a tumblr too @foxdies. i say cause i realized as much recently vjeaKLGJALKGJ#oh but I GUESS ill get deeper into why. /i/ personally ship masadai or whatever#first off they're opposing factions yet their character alignments Do Not Match their roles. stereotypically anyway#aoki who leads the 'surface' of society and is meant to be an admirable figure and someone 'just' when really. he sucks LMAO#though that's not atypical of politicians but just from a stereotypical This Is A Respectable Individual perspective of his role#daigo on the other hand leads the 'underbelly' of society- yk comprised of dangerous criminals and outcasts and whatnot#yet as we know him daigo's compassionate and considerate of his men- he doesnt treat them like tools like aoki does#if put in a room with the two daigo would be most people's choice of person to hang out with. probably open a trapdoor on aoki tbh#and i think thats really cool and epic i always love that kinda Subverting Expectations thing#theres also the fact they both started off like. edgy/angsty in the franchise and then brush up down the line#masato does a stronger 180. publicly. obviously but its still really funny they both have to get their act together#if you wanna talk about in-text reasons. there really is none LMAO I TELLS YOU masadai is pure crack#but if i wanted to pull a muscle reaching then there's daigo being on aoki's side while everyone else is on arakawa's during the funeral#im lying of course. mitsu was behind him. rgg tryna make me forget mitsu exist .... put him back in y8 ....#and ofc ichi joins that side to even out the seating but moving on another Goofy Reason is arakawa being like#'the chairman and my son are like p much the same age Surely he knows how he thinks :)'#and then i just think daigo being all smarmy about outsmarting aoki is really goofy and im choosing to interpret that as personal#they both also have issues with their dad. s. dad/s/. anyway.#tbh the google doc tag was a joke but i really could sit here and list every dumb reason why i think theyre funny together#like i started going over the tag limit so uhhhh yeah needless to say i have a lot of. dumb reasons 💀💀💀💀#one day ill use the main text for long rambles like this but todays not that day Point Is my imagination is rampant im afraid#so the short and sweet of it is I Think It's Funny. And They'd Be Terrible Together. Which Is Why It's Funny.#and the unfortunate part is anything i find funny i obsess over for a year so. //gestures to the mountain of bullshit thats my masadai tag/
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did y'all know that apparently i'm a good dancer. who'd have thought
#i keep being told that irl lately#yesterday i kinda panicked from an assignment that requires awareness of my body and movement#(bc well. yknow how bodies are. esp when you're fat + trans + got chronic pains) (also i was off balance hormones wise)#and both our director and choreographer were surprised by that#they said that i seem to have very good control of my body and how to move it and such#which is funny bc ngl. i do not move much lol. i mean i used to barely get out of bed or off the couch before i joined this program#i didn't actually dance properly in years. in part bc my stamina is shit lmao 😭 which is also part of why i panic over this stuff#so. being told this stuff is 3 different types of distressing kinda#1 bc it catches me off guard 2 bc it changes my perspective of myself 3 bc i'm scared it'll develop expectations that i can't actually meet#anyway. been stressed by physical assignments and practices since i joined practically all the time#but i remember the first time i did i got praised for it. it was like. exaggerated acting like a silent film#and apparently i had enough control of my body to pull it off. again. who'd have thought#this is so weird this is a topic i rarely unpack bc i just assumed i lost all ability to dance or even control my body properly#and bc my body always feels like an enemy. so i usually don't even wanna try#but i'm going against my nature practically all the time these days bc i love theater and i love my group mates a lot. hm#anyway this was. a long and meaningless ramble#tomorrow we're working exclusively with our choreographer which doesn't happen much if at all so i'm a bit worried#i considered telling her i can't come but i feel like another day of rotting in bed won't do me any good 😭😭#vent#i guess. technically#letting out thoughts heh. this does help process shit i must admit
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need to play baldurs gate soooo bad rn but I have to “prepare for college” and “sleep” 🙄
#tbf I do have complete autonomy to get out my laptop rn and play some baldie gatie but like. i do want to sleep lmao#the only reason I’m still awake is bc I forgot take my damn melatonin#anyways. the urge to viddy game is so persistent but unfortunately I WILL be in Anxious 24/7 Mode until I move in to college#Cannot do Anything fun. or else the Guilt will get me.#aughhh I have so many ideas for new runs thoooo I wanna play it so baaaddd#bg3
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OK WAIT here's a ITNL chapter 14 section that's not really spoilers. just a sweet lil section
after this is where it's more Spoilers. but for now. HERE U go. happy birthday vash & also Uhhhh @ ITNL readers I PROMISE i am working on the chapter. things r just hard lol
#speculation nation#itnl shit#spoilers bc of uhh. Conversation. i wanna keep the conversation a secret for now lol#not bad spoilers it's just better digested as a whole probably#ANYWAYS heres some more vash & kaite bro time. god im gonna miss kaite when we gotta say goodbye to him#but he's still here for now and he gets to watch vash tinker with his (very internally fried) arm#before and after this section is vash inspecting the damages & thinking of what he can do to try to fix it#which i do have a lot written. but im gonna be going thru it for accuracy & also keeping in mind the thing from earlier#the possibility that average operational power of his arm comes from vash himself rather than extra batteries#this is with the assumption that a (relatively) small output of electricity is not smth that would fuck with his lifespan#just a normal expenditure of energy. like moving his flesh muscles. just a constant lil stream of electricity that he gets from eating & w/#no need to dip into his life reserves for it. bc if he did that would get impractical.#idk im going to think about it more. i really dont Need to figure out how his arm works#but listen. ive built a robot before. im in polytech. i wanna think about wtf his arm actually Is#even if this is coming in the context of all the internal wires being blown & a bunch of shit straight up Melted#his arm is... very very blown... he's gonna be going one-arm for a While still lmao. oh well#i think it's a good thing to remember that he is in fact physically disabled. he can make up for it Especially in a fight#but it still will inconvenience him in a lot of ways. cool biotech arm is cool but also it's nice to remember that he Is physically disable#and so i am embracing it. he's tinkering with his arm in his free time but if he has to spend weeks (or months) w/o his prosthetic#well that's just the reality he's gotta live#anywyas. Here u go. snippet. that's a few hundred words so idk if this counts as a snippet but im calling it a snippet. Here You Go
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i got the best and worst booster box ever i pulled three blue eyes. but this was pokemon and it was the fucking duck. quaxlys evolution. i got a bunch of everything cause its a booster box but i pulled three quaquavals. i did it like an advent calendar with my friend. we opened maybe five packs the day we bought it and restrained ourselves for a month and had a pack a day it was so fun pulling these!
the third quaquaval was the rare one but not the gold one and i was so mad lmao it was the second last pack. forreal! and my pulls other than the full art wooper (lets fucking gooo) were shit i wanted a clodsire! i pulled one buying three packs a few days later no big deal lmao but i was so mad at this box.
the last pack had the rare tinkaton. i also got a full art boss's orders too im so happy it was such a funny fucking box in the end i pulled three fucking blue eyes i swear if i saw a fourth quaquaval too early i mightve actually ripped it in half. my problem is I LOST THEM ON THE FUCKING BUS AND LIKE MY WALLET ITS FATE IS WITH THE HUMANS OF OTTAWA AND THE FUCKERS AT OC TRANSPO THAT I TRUST SO MUCH FUCK MY LIFE
#either way people are finding cool shit no wonder they wont give me my shit back youre all thieves and im a dipshit i left my wallet behind#and my three fucking blue eyes#sorry new york joey wheeler wake the fuck up#dont come to my town with your red eyes black dragon early GRIMA. AMERICA. CALIFORNIA. IM TALKING TO NY HERE#mitski lady lamb st vincent anyone#torres is already too involved lmao go check out HUG FROM A DINOSAUR#sound of the summer of 2022#go talk to torres shes almost done touring in texas i think#ramadan is almost over#i dont wanna check back in at the fucking psych ward to hang out with the actual king of canada lol#he keeps saluting everyone theyll never let him out and he wont drop the king shit for a whole year if he needs to#hes so doomed this king of afghanistan and canada. this afghan guy stuck in ottawa and he knew he was a prince for a while lmao#I DONT NEED TO GO FIST BUMP HIM MORE AT THE PSYCH WARD LMAO I KNOW I NEED TO SHOW HIM SUBTLETY WITH THE DRS BUT HOLY SHIT LMAO#montfort let my people goo. one day more?? les mis crowd??? someone give alison a fucking nightmare already#im friends with someone who played lead on american idiot for a uottawa production idk if you went to see that but that was buddy lol#hes in toronto now all the actors and serious people move to mtl and toronto whats our problem with the crown anyway?? mary simon??#put a ring on it??#im the exhalt and i have a nice big freckle where the ring goes i swear to god
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